#cw being sick

[lil-toastie-boi]

im sick and need a pretty boy to take care of me >:(

[treef-greef]

Theres a reason I need a way out....

[artilite]

fuck you *lethal companies your in stars and time*

(long) exposition under cut (spoilers for ISAT + lethal company logs)

This au takes place around the time of sigurd's logs/before them (i haven't decided if Sigurd's crew exists here or not yet)!

Siffrin was someone who used to live on the Golden Planet before it got eaten. They may not remember anything beyond being found in an escape pod, but they're still paralyzed by fear when getting close to the selling window. He's always first in the facilities, making jumps, braving traps, and heading as deep as he can for scrap.

Mirabelle and Isabeau are the medic and fighter respectively, who both came from the same moon colony. They were both pressured into taking jobs by a work-based society, and applied for the company under the impression that it was a short, high-paying internship with nebulous risks.

Odile is their resident ship manager. She keeps a watchful eye over everyone and relays information about monsters, scrap, etc. In absolutely dire situations, she may come help with scrap. Despite claiming to be a first-timer, her badge says Leader??

Nille and Bonnie ended up with the crew after taking a chance to run away from their parents. Seeing a high-paying job that provided everything and would take them far away sounded too good to pass up. Nille lied about Bonnie's age to take them with her. After seeing the reality of this job, though, she regrets not finding another way out. Bonnie is permanently on ship-duty; they mainly type in whatever numbers Odile tells them. Nille is also a fighter, though she prefers the weighty stop sign as opposed to Isabeau's shovel.

Loop, after hundreds upon thousands of quotas, dying every possible death, learning everything they could- even the real identity of The Company- realizes there was one thing they've never done before. They've never died to The Company. Desperate for a way out, and haunted by the whispers and screams beyond the wall, they give themselves up. Maybe that would finally satisfy the monster- to have devoured every last piece of the Golden Planet. Maybe their crew could finally rest easy that way. Well, they didn't loop back. But through the dark and damp, there's static on the walkie talkie. Loop picks up, and hears their own voice just beyond the wall.

(Loop's design is the most different by far, since instead of consuming a star, they themselves are slowly getting digested. They're inspired by the visual of red crying faces from the logs :D)

[kittyoperas]

Another vampire Anders AU art dump. These freaks are an incredibly mixed bag.

[robo-milky]

SHOEHORNING MY BELOVED NICHE CLASSICS INTO TWST ONCE AGAIN— HELLO!! …may or may not elaborate if asked-

[formula-red]

I tried to be good, am I no good? Am I no good? Am I no good?

untitled, Geloy Concepcion // Seventeen Going Under, Sam Fender // untitled, traumatizeddfox // Two People, Sam Fender // The War of Vaslav Nijinsky, Frank Bidart // Hard Times, Ethel Cain // Child Wearing a Red Scarf, Eduoard Vuillard // Complex, Katie Gregson Macleod // Funeral by Phoebe Bridgers, malaak // Too Much Wine, The Handsome Family // untitled, milklump // untitled, dying-weeds // Strangers, Ethel Cain

[heartless-aro]

Does anyone else find it sort of upsetting how widely popular House M.D. has seemingly become in online queer spaces with how violently acephobic and intersexist it is? Like, I don’t want to pretend that it’s only queerphobic towards aces and intersex people, because the show definitely engages in its fair share of early-2000s-typical casual transphobic and homophobic language, and I do think it’s pretty biphobic that, from what I remember of the show, they made 13 (the one canonically bisexual character) a promiscuous party girl tm.

But the show is extremely vitriolic towards intersex and asexual people, and I wish that the people who treat it like a haha funny toxic yaoi show would at least fucking acknowledge that. The show actively reinforces the ideas about intersex bodies which are used to justify the nonconsensual mutilation of intersex children. And the way the show treats asexuality is abysmal. I saw someone on here once say that it’s “funny” that House is canonically aphobic, as if it’s just a joke that the House episode about asexuality actively supports the idea that asexuals are all either liars or medically unwell and in need of “fixing”. Why is pro-conversion therapy rhetoric suddenly funny when it’s directed towards us?

I’m not saying that no one is allowed to enjoy the show at all. Hell, I used to really enjoy it too, at least before I got to the asexuality episode (shortly after finding out I’m ace and before I had ever seen even a single other representation of asexuality in mainstream media). But like. Can people at least stop outright ignoring the absolutely detrimental effects this show had on the ace community and the intersex community?

[mygraine]

guys would i be clowned on if i made christianity - based mogai terms . . .

[aria-ashryver]

health update:

i got turned away from treatment this week because my heart condition has deteriorated further -> anti-HER2 cardio myopathy happens in about 1-2% of patients on this treatment regime, and unfortunately I'm one of the lucky few.

so, no immune therapy for the next 9 weeks. there should be enough residual medication in my system to keep the cancer at bay, hopefully.

for now, my oncologist has given me a new daily medication which will hopefully improve my heart function, but i have to monitor my blood pressure daily to be sure things don't deteriorate / the side effects from the meds don't cause too much trouble.

if all goes well and these new meds work, I'll be able to continue taking them alongside the immune therapy, and will resume treatment after some scans and stuff at the end of the break period.

probably won't be online much for a bit. i just don't have the energy for anything rn.

[solargeist]

I’m hungry but everything tastes bland and makes me sick to my stomach. Vampire!

[hplonesomeart]

Heyyy….so I’m back to posting arts momentarily I guess (not like I went anywhere though. Still spending my life staring at a iPad screen for nine hours straight….hate this routine I loosely call “living” so much hahahahaha chronically online potato sack. Not doing so hot I can’t even anymore!)

Anyways uh-so I have a lot of scraped things because I’m loosing energy to do creative works I can’t keep pushing myself. Kinda accepted that I’ve weighed myself down exhausted myself with all this pressure and I need to let go. But it’s hard and honestly the last thing I want is fatigue again. But guess it’s a cycle for a reason huh. Can’t fight it off, just stuck powerless and letting it happen begrudgingly

So I made this unfinished gif (you can tell because the hand is missing and the background looks unidentifiable. Plus cigarette smoke just gave up on existing wow so relatable). Honestly I kinda set myself up to get stuck on the process of this anyways since I don’t like animating on Procreate. The layering frames system is a pain to navigate. Only reason I wanted to animate Mr. Puzzles using Procreate is for some level of gained “experience” and added brush diversity for the glitch effect. But guess it wasn’t enough to keep my attention. Started it on August 5th, probably abandoned it two days later or so. I don’t know it feels like a long long time ago by now but that’s just because I’ve been overwhelmed mentally and can’t keep track of days passing bye

And this is the simplified version (aka what I started with originally as a drawn base messy sketchy illustration)

[froghwon]

manila ig live 💚 highlights

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

↑ this is 15 dazai. you will notice something about 15 dazai. he wears a white button up shirt, with NO BLAZER. there is no suit jacket on this guy. its his shirt and the trenchcoat he will later give to akutagawa.

↑ this is 16 dazai. he also wears just the trenchcoat and button up.

this is also 16 dazai, during the dragons head conflict. you will notice something. hes started wearing the blazer & the trenchcoat!!! no more only button up!!!! this is where that happens. 16, closer to 17.

this is dark era dazai. dark era dazai wears the blazer and trenchcoat too. another thing is that dark era dazais coat doesn't have a belt, which is different than dhc dazai

↑ now this is beast dazai. he still wears the blazer underneath, but beast dazai is notably different from dark era dazai in 3 ways. 1) he wears his bandages on the left eye rather than right, 2) he actually wears his trenchcoat, and 3) he obviously wears moris scarf.

now, having said all of this!!! the next time somebody calls 15 dazai dark era or vice versa, or the next time someone calls beast dazai dark era (or vice versa) or any other mixup of port mafia dazais??? i will be rending and tearing flesh

[adilab]

A bit of old dog sadness (cw cancer)

Last week, Adi had emergency surgery to remove a mass on her abdomen that suddenly started bleeding. The pathologist report came back as cancer - hemangiosarcoma. It does not have a good prognosis. The mass was fully removed and it did not obviously look to have spread - the prognosis of dermal hemangiosarcoma is fair if removed before spreading - which is potentially hopeful news.

Adi is her normal self, happy as ever. In 12 years (and 3 months) she’s had no major health issues. She’s still very physically active. She’s never had a bad day. I think we’ll know when her quality of life starts to change.

[hydrus101]

cw - suicide

I've felt for a very long time that all signs point to Season Six being centered in the Dark World. It seems obvious, right? A logical conclusion to the story, the beginning becomes the end.

But what if, when Arthur arrives - without John, somehow - he's not greeted by his parents or Bella, or Faroe, or Parker? What if the first person he meets there is Oscar?

What if he still, even after all this time, hasn't read his letter yet? Too busy, too scared, too run ragged to crack the seal on the note tucked away in his breast pocket, too late to have read it (too late again always too late) or to have done anything to stop it, too wrapped up in planning with Noel to have known what Oscar was planning to do.

What if he finds out only after, that Oscar has been waiting for him in the Dark World the whole time? Waiting there to serve his purpose and guide him from the other side, a guardian angel at last?

[gloomsday]

teacher