#cuz yknow...... swag

[afraid-of-the-deep-sea]

Considering like at least a handful of people thought I drew Jon in that changeling Joel drawing, and now tons of people are comparing the PET postal au to tma, I feel as though I naturally attract tma fans despite never talking abour how much I love tma

[libbytwq]

the impulse got to me and i did the thing lmao

technically i havent drawn any of these guys aside from smg4, smg3 mario and puzzles, but yknow

i tried my very hardest to not put smg4 and smg3 in every column LMAO

why do i relate to mario? cuz. hes kinda silly, like me:)

also karen and swag is my fav duo tbh, aside from smg4 and smg3; i dont ship them tho lol

ALSO SONA MOMENT i wanna draw them more hjskjhg

edit: just realized i forgot karens glasses. Shhhh we dont talk abt that

[undasura]

i think zephyr would wear makeup but not like Full Face Glam type stuff. she puts on a lil bit of eyeliner for cute effects and then forgets and then sleeps in it. idk about any sort of foundation/blush/eyeshadow tho i feel like she has more of a casual and very "zephyr" swag. lipstick for formal stuff would be so cute but i think she wouldn't go for something really striking. more of a nude tone. u get it. kissy mark

rali might wear more though i think i do draw her with the dark eyeshadow but i think some of that is makeup and some of it is just natural dark circles. i like thinking about her w kind of douyin style eyeshadow/eyeliner and cute eyelashes (not false lashes but like when u do mascara u can separate ur lower lashes into little spikes so it looks cartoony/anime-y. its cute) but less.. pristine looking... like maybe she also slept in that a bit. i have specific pictures saved of what her makeup would look like irl but i dont want to post em cuz they're other people's pics yknow

[styxnbonez]

gonna kinda,, infodump for a second cuz im thinking abt a new guy i invented last night while Very High dsfhjkdf so dont mind me <3

so i was drawing last night and i got to the point where i was just . doodling for the sake of it and i drew a guy who kinda looked like every 2010s letsplayer so i just kinda ran w it and fucked around w a guy whos more youtuber than he is person...

i was high as shit and wasnt making much sense but i do like the ideas ive come up w since so ill still share the image !

he like,, focuses so much on content and his persona that he kinda starts forgetting who he rlly is? i went more abstract here but if i am to actually do anything i think itd be more of a dissonance between the persona he puts on for his videos and the Actual guy rather than a physical thing yknow.

didnt wanna draw again so i was fucking around w some picrews which i will Also share cuz i like em :]

(i used these two picrews btw)

he Doesnt have a name yet idk . i wanna give him some random white boy name that isnt even actually his yknow ? also the thing w his eyes is that he has hazel eyes but he has the color settings on his camera so that everythings just a liiittle brighter so his eyes look more green than they are, and his fans just. draw his eyes green . also he has a snake :] he loves her dearly :]

OKAY so while i was making these picrews i was like "hmm. should i add him to hex and moes story?? or like,, make a series out of this universe*, since theyre both abt a specific brand of youtubers" and i still havent decided (maybe once i have more story w this guy ill think abt it more) BUT i did find a character to potentially connect him with:

anas shitty ex boyfriend who killed her <3

so the lore on anastasia is that she was dating this dude and he killed her after she broke up w him after realizing she was aro. then she haunts her apartment, which hex and moe move into, eventually possessing moe to avenge herself and kill her shitty ex boyfriend <3 yay <3

i only had a little bit abt her bf, just enough for him to not feel too flat, cuz while he Is a major driving force in the story, he doesnt get much of a role and he dies anyway so like. ive been focusing on the main characters ofc. but i Did make him in One picrew a year or two ago and i Think i gave him a name (based on what the file name of the picrew i have of him is called):

(picrew i used)

i believe his name is vessel. he named himself in the "omg this is such a good word im gonna look so chill and swag if i change my name to it" (looks like a loser) way, not the trans way. bro is Painfully cishet dfhjg but like,, hes a hipster and a condescending dick and thats. all i had tbh.

but now im thinking abt making him Youtube Guys roommate/fellow youtuber who all the fans ship him with (this is a bad thing btw i dont,, ship real ppl ofc lmao) and i Do wanna redesign him a tad but ..... the bones of smth more fleshed out are there now.... hes not just Some Guy Ana Kills....

the idea thus far is that Youtube Guy knew abt what vessel did to ana, but kept quiet for their careers + thats his Roommate and Best Friend. he had the capacity to kill his own girlfriend (albeit Sort of unintentionally), if Guy speaks up vessel is Absolutely going to kill him!!! something something toxic yaoi but its not really yaoi and theyre queerbaiting the internet and Guy doesnt feel safe around vessel anymore<3

i Could make them the same guy (they look similar but im gonna change that) but. the funny youtuber yaoi appealed to me more than the more logical answer dfghjd maybe ill consider it sometime in the future but what abt my two content creators who start to lose their sense of self through years of appeasing the parasocial audience in Very different ways (one thinks hes the greatest thing ever, even above murder and the other is scared and sad and lost all the time) ?? i like them a lot and what are ocs for if not mashing together random silly tropes you enjoy?

ermmm sorry for yapping so much uhhh . i wanna start actually,, posting abt my ocs instead of being vague and pretending everyone knows what im on abt at any given moment <3 so im gonna start doing that now methinks :]]

[jirnkirks]

is there a woke way to say when i see tiktoks/photos of traditionally attractive men w like yknow, muscles and archtypical cool sorta bad boy swag i go 🤮🤮 🤮 but i dont judge anyone who wants a guy like that or the aesthetic but as a rper i rly rly rly cant have you showing me that for guys (esp for m/f ships) cuz it kinda icks me out soooo bad

[peacheises]

💛💫Voca/Utauloid Headcanons of Mine💫💛

Not proofread, too lazy😍😍

💫 Hatsune Miku 💫

I think Miku is a bit of a spoiled diva, but only a bit!

She is pretty generous despite the whole "World is Mine" thing, I like to think she uses her brand to get charities off the ground🤔

Miku gives me Pansexual and proud vibes

Her hair is a chore to take care of and takes hours to prepare for a concert! Loads of teal hair in the trash and clogging the shower drain.

She has an arsenal of scrunchies at the ready for her pigtails>:)

Miku doesn't like the coral colour. Yknow that reddish orange colour? She doesn't like wearing it.

Miku doesn't actually know how to do make-up, Luka always does it for her!

💫 Kagamine Rin 💫

Rin has ADHD me thinks🤔

She has a load of fidget spinners cuz she thinks they are cool✊

She has roller skates and she rides around town in the 24/7!

Her bow collection rivals Jojo Siwa's and is definitely more fashionable😩

Her notebook is filled with all sorts of goofy song ideas written in bright orange highlighter.

She has to cut her hair or it starts to grow out- like almost as long as Miku's! It grows fast so regular hair trims><

She love love LOVES little charms and accessories! Sanrio and Animal Crossing are some of her favourite things to collection stuff from!

💫 Kagamine Len 💫

I have the most to say about him cuz he is my favourite so strap in>:)

Len has a skateboard that has all sorts of stickers on it ranging from MLP G2 stickers from his sister to spiderman and undertale references!

Len forgets stuff easily, he isn't stupid just stuff slips his mind easily. So he carries a small pocket book to write stuff in if it's important!

He plays piano and guitar obvi but I totally see I'm sitting down after football season on the field after school and playing some melodies on an acoustic guitar with his homies.

Also has to trim his hair regularly JSKSJSKSJSK (Rapunzel Len😳😳???)

He snatches scrunchies from Miku's collections sometimes to put in his hair sometimes cuz he likes them.

100% a brony I refuse to believe otherwise♡♡♡

Can be a gentleman when he wants SoE wasn't 100% a lie💫

Fingerless gloves, T-shirts over white hoodies, naturally torn jeans, and bright sneakers or combats slay💅

Raging bisexual king

Had a crush on Fukase once. Immediately didn't anymore.

Possibly trans masc? Idk I feel like he isn't but he has that t-boy swag👁👁

Fangirls lowkey scare him, like yes he knows he has them and yes he is terrified of them. (Mention that Tei girl and he is outta there.)

Probably has a crush on random Utauloid girls cuz they aren't popular and he has a higher chance of wooing them💀

Does his make-up himself cuz Luka never adds enough eyeliner for his highness.

💫 Megurine Luka 💫

Mom friend

A bit of an air head and she always spends hours picking out her outfits because they needs to be perfect('□`)

She Miku dated at one point🤔

Make-up wizard~!!!

She does everybody's make-up except for Len's.

Really soft hands, like ethereal. If you hold them you will instantly feel self-conscious about yours if you're like me.

She sheds. Everywhere. It's like pink little worms everywhere. She sheds more than Miku. If the drain isn't clogged by a teal monster it's a pink one.

Paints everyone nails, yes even his highness Len. Luka just has really light handy-work! Super delicate and great for little details><

Luka likes to draw and paint pretty scenery!

She has an affinity for sun hats💛💛

Cottage core lesbian vibes

💫 Shion Kaito 💫

Kaito has an ice cream truck. He drives it around town while it plays a heavy metal version of the ice cream truck theme. Scares all the kids.

He and Len play smash bros as Joker and Pit 24/7 and have the most intense screaming battles!

He has a pusheen plush collection><

He has his room at like, 10 degrees colder than the rest of the mansion cuz mf likes his blankets and he is a.... Snowman.

HHEHEHEHEHEHEHHE

Anyways he has a whole closet of just scarves and it's like walking through a car wash minus all the water and soap almost.

We all know he wears his scarves to the pool but did you know he also wears them in the shower?!?!?!😱😱😱😱

Kinda feels like an omni with a male lean.

💫 Sakine Meiko 💫

She has every single alcoholic drink at the local bar memorized....

She really likes heels! She has a whole bunch. Kinda like the Barbie of Vocaloid when it comes to them U_U💅

She and Luka are besties and they have that lesbian "besties" vibe going on JSKJSSKSJJSSJ

Mmmmm yiAS- And they were *best friends.*

Anyways Meiko is totally called Koko and Meimei around the house.

When she isn't chugging alcohol she is chugging some kind of apple cider.

I feel like if her mascot item wasn't sake it would be apples or lipstick🤔

She has a whole 3 drawers of just lipsticks btw

💫 Kasane Teto 💫

As we all know she is now a Synth. But in my heart I still call her an Utau even tho it's technically wrong- but it's also not harming anyone so who cares?

She and Miku went on a date once. Best day of her life😍/hj

She is a bread connoisseur and her current dream is to some day visit France😔✊

Her hair is such a pain to style in the morning- when she isn't going out she doesn't even bother and leaves it loose.

I headcanon she and Fukase are siblings and also Fukkatsu Kozuko's older siblings. They all have those red eyes... they must be related! (Kozuko just got the recessive hair genes obviously LSJSKJSAKJSKAS)

Totally has gamer rage and plays competitive games like League of Legends and the online Pokemon battles.

Totally a huge Pokemon nerd btw and her favourite game is Pokemon Y cuz it's based on France!

She beat Rin over the head with a baguette once....

Pansexual or Bisexual vibes... tbh whatever it is she isn't straight that's for sure I mean that girl definitely has a crush on Miku.

Speaking of which, she is a frequent donater to Miku's collection getting her more scrunchies every chance she gets 😔

💫 Oliver 💫

MY BOYYYYYY

Oliver is great💛💛💛

When asked if he is a dog person or a cat person he confidently replies with "I'm a bird person>:D!!"

Luka was screaming about a spider in the snack cabinet once and he just grabbed it and ate it. I mean, it *was* in the snack cabinet. I wouldn't be surprised if he put it there....

He is kinda prone to getting sick easy.

He has asthma:(((

Len got him shoes and he never wears them.

Brush his hair for him, he will like it Q-Q *Holds Oliver gently*

💫 Fukase 💫

I don't like Fukase. But I also like him. Like I like that I can dislike him yknow? He is a radical dude and I think he is great we would just totally argue all the time and call eachother rude names then bro hug and fist bump and if anyone asks no we aren't friends we are broskenimes.

House hold name? Fuck ass.

He takes pride in that name.

He, Len, and Piko play minecraft together and take turns blowing up each other's houses.

Totally takes his little sister to meet ups with Len just to piss him off/freak him out.

He eats his toe nails.

Raging gay ass mf here

💫 Utatane Piko 💫

This trans mf

T-Boy swag is strong with this one

Also probably a gay but I also see him being an omni with a male lean

Dating Fukase 100%

They blow each other's house up in minecraft as a display of affection♡♡♡

He and Len are broskis forever and have friendship bracelets that are MLP themed

His favourite pony is Rarity or DJ Pony and yes he is a brony.

He also really likes TBHK and Genshin Impact

Uses all his money to get his husbandos

Cat person tbh

💫 Kamui Gakupo 💫

EYYY MY OTHER FAVOURITE LOID!!!

Omni with that male lean I mean look at those gay samurai from Japanese history he is totally one of those.

"IT'S NOT GAY! IT'S TRADITION!!😤😤😤"

Totally in denial about his gayness.

Rhythm game king

He takes great pride in his hair and he doesn't actually shed that much like Miku and Luka!

Doesn't actually like eggplants he just got them stuck on him because of popipo and Dancing Samurai.

He prefers grapes😔

Wine enthusiast and actually more of an alcoholic than Meiko😳

Gave Len advice on how to get hot girls once and the advice wound up with the girl jumping into the pool fully dressed to avoid him.

100% not gay guys idk what you're talking about

💫 Megpoid Gumi 💫

I don't have many headcanons for her😭😭

She has a garden!

Did a Lumine from Genshin Impact cosplay once😳😳😳

Totally into Len at one point but Len was too dense to notice

Straight alliance(???)

Again not much here for her

Into Octonauts tho, Tweak is her favourite.

💫 VFlower 💫

FLOWERRRR!!!

She is totally Miku's crush 🥺🥺

Tbh, ace vibes

Another one of Len's broskis

She hates her new design

Slay queen tbh

I don't have much on her either but she is cool asf

I feel like she worked at a McDonald's once and idk why🤔

Currently works at a cafe

Huge P5 fan idk why

Also an artist! She is more into character design tho:)

Awesome fashion sense.

💫 Akita Neru 💫

Imma be honest with yall, I don't like her😰

I hate tsunderes so much they are so annoying and they make my skin boil.

Watching her be so mean to Len in the fics I read makes it really hard for me to like her cuz Len is my emotional support character so I don't have any headcanons for her.

But I don't wanna disappoint so I'll make a few on the spot!

She is a top streamer and has lots of male fans cuz she has that gremlin streamer that runs off of doritos and mountain dew vibes><

Has an Insta and uses Tumblr 24/7 in secret👀👀

She feels like a straight alliance to me

Anger issues

Maybe she is used to getting ignored and the only way she thinks she can get Len's attention is by bullying him?

Idk

💫 Fukkatsu Kozuko 💫

I made her so I obvi have a lot of headcanons but none of them are fact because I want her to be like all the other loids:)

One of them cursed Len simps

But she is tame about it and honestly a sweetheart soooo we gucci👌

She isn't stalking him like Tei and Mayu or beating him up like Neru. Just like, normal girl stuff.

Even then she doesn't get into cat fights over it cuz she doesn't have the confidence to.

Oh yeah! Low self-esteem cuz her VB is crappy and she has a lisp sometimes 😔😔

She feels like she might fall somewhere on the autism spectrum, but that might just be me self-protecting again🤔

Probably cries easily.

She really likes to decorate her room in cutesy pink stuff and she always wears these over the top soft girl outfits.

A huge fan of Miku! Really wants to be her friend but doesn't have the confidence to talk to her.

Rin, Len, Oliver, and Teto are her friends. (Teto doesn't have a choice cuz they are siblings/j)

Fukase insults her a lot but not in the mean way in the sibling way yknow yknow

Like "You're smelly"

Fukase let her play minecraft with him and his gang once and they all had cute cottages by the end of it. Fukase was >:[ing the whole time cuz he wanted her to be annoying to Len.

She is that friend who is too nervous to talk up so she just agrees and nods to everything and she is easily manipulated into things q-q

She is scared of Mayu, Tei, and Neru and they are mostly the reason she doesn't approach Len unless multiple people are around. She feels a lot safer when Fukase is there cuz Fukase is... Fukase is scary. No one wants to mess with Fukase. Mess with Fukase mess with some ancient eldritch horror or smth.

[spikrock]

my mad t party lgbt hcs explained

very messy post below! some are genuine reasonings and others are just "yeah haha trust me bro"

tarrant: bisexual & nonbinary

i mean for all the bi characters the hc is pretty self explanatory, i mean look at them yknow. hes a little too fruity with mally and thackery 🤨 but tarrant and alice are literally bi4bi couple of all time as for the nonbinary hc, i dont know! id like to know if anyone else sees him this way or if its just me :) hes just got too much enby swag 

alice: bisexual & trans

its all spiderwebs fault!!!!!!! it made her gay!!!!!!!!! /j but seriously, kissing ladypillar and different numbers such ho hey (you know how every now and then theyll switch alice standing with mally to someone else like thackery or absolem, the few times she did it with ladypillar are so funny because they cant rhyme the pronouns 😭). also ik this sounds silly but i really appreciate that in the mtp shows once ladypillar was added they didnt stop doing spiderwebs or change it to be like “haha were both girls 😵‍💫blehh this is so weird 😂”/play it off as a joke or anything because they very easily could have done that. shes trans. i already made that post with her and mally but again, if shes not trans then why is her color palette blue and pink? checkmate liberals. 

thackery: bisexual & bigender

yeah hes bi i dont know what else to say he and mally are in love frfr i actually just completely made up bigender. made it up, i dont know where i got it from i just remember early february drawing mad t party on my laptop and suddenly thinking “bigender thackery” and its stuck with me since then. (the two genders i hc him with are male/female though so) i wouldnt say he feels just one or the other, he feels both at the same time

mally: bisexual & trans

he is top ten bisexuals of all time,, whenever they do the pretender and tarrant and alice stand on either side of him and take turns singing he is DYING. passing away HE IS TRANSGENDER!!!!!!! we all know it. instead of coming out as trans he made up some crazy story about being killed in a war and then coming back as a man 🙄/j hes just dramatic like that

chessur: gay & trans

haha this is mostly because of @thatrandomartistjavi's hcs xd chessur is special in the sense that hes the only mtp character that never really gets a chance to flirt with anyone else since hes always hiding behind that drumset. from what ive seen he was shipped with dinah a lot, presumably just cuz theyre both cats since they rarely interact, so ive never really understood it :p i usually hc cheshire cats as nonbinary/something under that umbrella but this guy gives me transgender vibes. idk

absolem/ladypillar(? dont know if she ever got a real name): lesbian & trans

shes very much a lesbian. just. just like yeah. i think the most prominent character that she flirts with (other than alice) is mally. from what ive seen it only really happens when its el dormouse on stage but before i started seeing that i always saw mally/absolem/thackery as like, a trio. i mean obviously everyone in the band are friends, but idk. i have lots of drawings of those three hanging out so maybe thats just something my delusional brain has completely made up. but anyway the point is i dont ship those two and i sort of see them with a more sibling dynamic. mally always holds her back when shes trying to touch the little castle music box thing, at the end of sets he’ll pull her antennae to take her off stage/she'll pull him by his scarf, etc. (also theres a clip where she kisses him on the cheek and as they begin to walk off stage she turns to the crowd and mouths “no” and does the throat slitting gesture thing which makes me think theyre sorta just playing around :p)

sooo in a post a while back i said i hc her as genderfluid but ive changed my mind?? actually before i made that post i headcanoned her as trans but then switched to genderfluid and now ive uhh changed my mind again. im very indecisive like that and very easily swayed on my opinions haha,,, @ticktockteapot's metaphor for her “becoming the beautiful butterfly she was always meant to be” is very nice i like it lots. also the fact that ladypillar has a much higher stage presence than absolem (obviously not including the spiderwebs number…or crazypillar) was always so sweet to me cuz like,,,aw shes finally more comfortable being herself and performing :’)

tl;dr none of them are straight none of them are cis. happy pride month and thank you for coming to my TED talk

[blobitech]

Crashbox self insert doodles! Still working out an official ref and I don’t have a name for them but they teach internet safety and stuff like that,, theyr also completely 3D animated minus their mouth and eye which are both animated in 2D

[matoitech]

its like the experience of seeing other lgbt ppl say lio was obviously a trans man but of course galo couldnt be and being like no no. finish what you were saying.

[devilbunzz-moved]

also if i talk to u often in a discord server or something but dont follow u on here then i probably still consider u a friend

[danganwlw]

WHY YOU 🫵 NEED TO VOTE FOR CHIHIRO FUJISAKI TO BE THE ULTIMATE GIRL!!!

under the cut cuz it ended up long lol

tldr; they both may have transgender and autistic swag but chihiro is the reason ibuki’s swag lives on

Think of the transgender vindication. Imagine transitioning so good that you become the best girl ever and kick every other girl’s ass(/metaphorical). Gender dysmorphia OBLITERATED(/metaphorical also. Don’t remember if there’s shorthand for that tbh lol.)

A vote for Chihiro is a vote against toxic masculinity and internalized misogyny fr fr!!!!! (Vote for Ibuki for these too lol they’re just relevant to Chihiro’s character)

Chihiro had to be merged by god with crippling anxiety because otherwise her sheer number of braincells and her autism swag would conquer the killing game alone.

AND IN A WAY!!!! IT STILL DID!!!!! Not even god could stop her.

Chihiro is the most important character in Danganronpa and I will elaborate actually.

Chihiro sees a laptop and really goes straight to work!! She wants to help so bad!!!! And she does! Despite her hangups about how useful she is, the first thing she does when presenting with something she knows she can help with is step up!! Chapter 2 takes place during FIVE DAYS. FIVE!!! She programs Alter Ego into that thing during the course of FIVE! DAYS!! And maintains a social life even, if the free time events are anything to go by. We stan a hyper competent queen.

If Alter Ego didn’t exist, the casts of both the first two games are FUCKED. For one, Alter Ego saved Makoto’s life during his execution. After she got crushed even!! Chihiro’s genius lives in Alter Ego because the girlboss saved herself enough to deux ex machina(/pos) that shit!

And if you consider that Makoto is the one who helped his classmates through chapter 6, ergo saving their lives as well, Alter Ego ABSOLUTELY has a big hand in that final victory!

Chihiro’s research helped make the NEO World Program. And not just helped, Alter Ego is DIRECTLY INVOLVED in the maintenance of it, if not it’s creation.

When the NEO World Program was infected with the fuckin Junko virus or whatever, Alter Ego did her damndest to try and hold that shit together! And perhaps she didn’t succeed fully, but she succeeded enough to be able to get the survivors to where they could get out, enough that her friends could eventually come in to help, enough so that there remained enough rules that even the virus couldn’t bypass.

And yknow what? Fuck it. I’m crediting her for he fact that the sdr2 cast was even able to wake up at all. I may not have fully watched the anime so correct me if I’m wrong but listen. Someone had to be storing the memory or making backups of their minds somewhere. Who else would it have been, really?

And even without that, the Neo Program itself saved the cast of sdr2. In that way, Chihiro saved them three times over.

That’s 21 people. The cast of sdr2 minus Chiaki, plus Makoto(directly), plus the rest of the thh survivors(indirectly). And even if you don’t count the non-Makoto survivors of thh as people she’s saved(which is fair but also why?), that’s still 16 people!! That’s more than Monokuma gets in a single killing game! That’s a full cast right there!!

Without Chihiro, Danganronpa would be FUCKED. There would be nothing even close to a happy ending anywhere in sight.

Plus Ibuki would be fuckin!!! Dead!!! Dead as hell!!!!

Thank you for coming to my TED talk. Vote Chihiro. :)

[felikatze]

ok wait sitting on the arval stuff more (three hopes spoilers riu dni)

also i havent done the arval paralogue bcuz like. on god i'm not replaying this game rn cuz i will get burnout so bad

also this was the recruit byleth route on azure gleam so. again i am NOT replaying immediatly because i like the game but i also like myself.

ok ok so i think arval eventually betraying shez was set up really well actually.

the game does a good slowburn job of setting up that at some point shez just doesn't care abt defeating byleth anymore.

shez and arval initially are united in purpose, partners in destiny, but when shez joins one of the houses and becomes an important commander in a war, their personal revenge starts appearing insignificant to them and is eventually outweighed by their newfound trust and love for their friends.

additionally as they realize the connection arval and their power holds to those who slither in the dark, they grow afraid of their own power. the power they got from arval.

in azure gleam (and other routes similarly, probably) their fear grows so intense after unveiling how much tragedy those who slither brought into their friends' lives that they ask dimitri to strike them down should they ever turn their blade against their friends.

and, yknow, shez themself wouldnt just kill their friends willy-nilly. "if i ever turn my blade on you" actually means "if arval ever turns my blade on you." by making this request they acknowledge the possibility arval would do this.

whereas shez's drive for revenge fades, arval's only intensifies. arval's wrath drives a further wedge between them and shez, who starts to feel horror at arval's intent.

arval likely regained some degree of their memory when byleth went sothis mode, as seen by how fucking mad they got even before truly becoming epimenides again.

so like yeah this plot development was well-foreshadowed. and i think the map where you fight shez slaps. absolutely banger moment.

howeverrrrr. after that. i can accept epimenides banishing the three lords to the shadow realm as a cost-cutting measure because every route needs to resolve the arval plot and it would be hard to justify doing it differently three times so whatever. have a convergence point i dont care.

BUT. arval accepts becoming epimenides as their destiny. "i was always meant to become you," they say. but like? shez doesn't? shez never seems to acknowledge that the arval they know is gone. this is why i expected arval to show up again! bcuz. shez doesnr accept that they are the one who killed arval.

throughout the endgame they will still occasionally reference arval as their friend and like. pretend talk to arval in a more "if you could see me now" type of way but

epimenides makes it pretty clear that they (epimenides refers to themself as a man so did arval legit just forget their own gender? arval has so much transgender swag) don't really value shez and them calling shez their partner in destiny just felt like mockery to be honest. like oh you're not doing what i want so i'm gonna take over your body against your will you peon fuck you. that's the vibe on epimenides.

and then you gotta ask yourself how much arval actually valued shez for them to just become epimenides without a fight? without hesitation? cuz yknow typically in stories like this the power of friendship will snap whoever out of it which is what happens to shez but not to arval. arval just accepts what they've become and they die for it. the end. fin.

again!!! arval accepts this!! shez doesn't! it's such a weird dissonance. ig it's kinda subversive that power of friendship doesn't actually save arval but it still feels like a rugpull.

also suuuuper bad taste in my mouth from the azure gleam ending where like. thales and epimenides and all those slither guys talk about purifying the world from beasts right? reclaiming their rightful home above the surface by killing sothis? and at the end rhea says that she will purify the land by killing those who slither in the dark.

so it's like. both sides r the same. and the implication that sothis is the one who banished the agarthans to shamballah or wherever to let humans live in fodlan instead is. eh. everyone is the hero of their own story ig.

maybe i just dont know enough abt fe3h deeplore (<- has only played blue lions routes bcuz replaying academy phase gave him burnout and he hasnt picked three houses up since)

anyway this is just my experience. and my opinion

tldr: tho arval's betrayal is set-up really good and the first half of it is epic the actual fight against epimenides feels lacking because of how differently shez and arval feel about the situation with no attempt by the narrative to reconcile this dissonance.

[mihai-florescu]

And i couldnt quite place my finger on why kohaku isnt in my top 10 despite the fact that all the other bees are, and you know i love double face, if anything he should be high up on my list. But he barely even makes the top 25. And it may be because generally i just tend to prefer to read stories of older characters cuz i am 21, thats just more interesting to me, but i think it's also just. KohakuPs are weird man. There are some very nice ones out there, no fans will ever be a monolith, but yknow. Id have to kms on the spot if anyone assumed im one of Those df fans so im keeping my distance from kohaku as a whole. My madaraP girl swag, my cross to bear, i know

[head---ache]

HI SAME ANON CUZ. THOUGHTS GO DRR but! yk that got me thinking like. WE DO GIVE SM ATTENTION TO DETERMINED and look good reason hes sonadow in a nutshell /J

howver im thinking of more ways the other sonics could have breakdowns, and do correct me if any of this is like not in character bc i love to ehar abt ur au!

ok first kindness – i think he would like have a goal for him to go to everybody weekly to ask if they need anything for him to help with (usually daily actually) and when he doesnt reach that "goal" he might think of himself as like less of a good friend bc he isnt helping enough which could SO turn into overworking and just!! BREAKDANCE OR BREAKDOWN WOO

chill i think would just do not as much as the others, opting o always lay down and just be calm n. chill! and maybe cux of that sometimes he thinks that he isnt as useful as the others sometimes but i jus think hes probably the least most mentally ill cuz hes like "no time for sadness when you swagness" (thats probly his motto)

energetic would deffo think hes too annoying to all of them but like!! he has too much energy!! he has to burn it off soMEHOW so theyre just like "no another time not now" and its like hes just!! he probably starts getting kidna sad but like he has other friends to play with, right?

determine is a bomb abt to EXPLODE and like!! he has pure anxiety, he always needs to know shadows and also his friends locations and they have to tell him or else he just starts panicking and cant function until he sees them again. also with how he blames himself for everything, probably has a tendency to apologize all the time so theyre confused cuz hed be with vanilla, cream, n amy and hed accidentally knock somethin over and go "im so sorry I shouldn't have done that why did i do that i should leave" and shadow probably has to calm him down the most

competitive is 2000% existing because he says he "needs to be better than everybody else" when its just "i want to prove to myself im good enough" when he cant, he doesnt know if he is bc like!! only shadow can race against him and they always tie and he probably ends up pushing himself So Hard that shadow has to just make a competition out of getting rest or else competition dead straight won't sleep until hes perfected this, gotten better at that, made sure he didnt lose any skill on something, or etc bc he still wants to prove to not just himzelf but to everybody hes good enough so they can confide in him!!

ok thats all (IDK IF I FORGOT OTHERS IM JUST. THINKING ALSO WATCHING TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES SO IM LIKE. GRATUITOUS COOL VIOLENCE OR WRITING. HECK YKNOW)

ANKAZOANZIQDNSOFNSKX YES!!! THESE ARE MY BOYS!!!! NO CORRECTION TO BE MADE THESE ARE T H E M !!!!!

Also, I usually draw them with the same other characters a lot, like I usually draw Competitive with Knuckles, and Knuckles at first just goes along, fights Competitive and everyone happy, but then it's like weeell he kind of has a very important emerald to look after, and everytime Competitive looses he wants a rematch and it just gets tiring. But like, Competitive feels the need to prove that he is strong and capable! So they get stuck on his loop.

Then there's Energetic and Amy, he kind of just shows up, looking to burn some energy, and at first she just lets him, but she isn't really pleased with having him running around in her house, he starts bumping into things and breaking some other, and even if he is sorry he just can't stop moving! Amy then starts trying to get him to stop, or to just get him out of the house but she also feels a little guilty because she knows he doesn't do it on purpose.

There's also Determined and Shadow, we all know Determined follows him around and tries to protect him all the time, but it starts to intervene with Shadow's life as well. Rouge is kind of annoyed by it, and it causes trouble at GUN, and Shadow's an introvert, so being followed around isn't really his favorite thing. I just imagine Shadow just walking while Determined is not only behind him, but looking around, suddenly making Shadow stop if he hears anything weird, or sees anyone suspicious, but it's actually nothing. Shadow would try to get him to leave him alone, but Determined always has the 'what if's.

Finally there's Chill, Kind and Tails. Tails is very busy, trying to find a solution for this five Sonics thing, but it's a little hard with two out of five always distracting him. I imagine Kind offering to help, at first Tails let him, but something goes wrong and he's like 'haha never again' and then Kind is just left to stand behind Tails, waiting to be given a task, while Chill isn't actually helping at all, he's using all the space just laying around, if Tails ever needs him he's okay with helping??? But he doesn't really put all his effort in, so in the end it's as if he did nothing. It's not that he doesn't want to help, but like, why ask him? Kind is already there and eager to help.

I also like to think about interactions between the Sonics! Because some of them are kind of opposites, like Kind and Competitive, or Chill and Energetic (or Chill and Determined), so it's fun to imagine things like Competitive going around showing everyone how strong and fast he is, and Kind's just like 'well you're not being very nice' and Competitive doesn't really know how to react???? Or Determined being all worried over something, and desperately trying to fix it, and Chill just being like 'dude chill, you're exaggerating way too much' So that's interesting too, even more considering it's quite literally just Sonic talking to himself:)

[cowboy-robooty]

PART THREE. (FINAL PART) SPOILERS UNDER READ MORE I AM A CRAZY BITCH

So anyways we left off at basically tengoku and aoki compliment eachother like sour cream on spicy food. And now its aokis turn to help tengoku become a better person by getting his ass to admit hes in love. Im putting it suuuper insloquenly bc well ive been typing in mai phone for the past almost four hours now. but seriously, it makes you realize how well they fit together. Despite everything they make eachother better in the end and are able to at least alliviate eachothers biggest problems when it comes to their mentalities on love and relationships. Aoki finally is able to experience someone loving him even when he isnt a good boy, and tengoku finally has the courage to latch onto aoki and never let him go even if he tries to squirm away because even though loving someone is scary, he has to accept it and overcome his fear of feelings being onesided if he ever wants to experience two sided feelings.

its genuinely quite sweet when they finally get both their feelings into words. (of course after some other shit happens)

And now tengoku and Aoki are together for EVERRRR!!!!!!! ITS SO GOOD!!!! UWAAA!!!

ive written a lot, but i still think my wording is janky and ive been pretty bad at trying to capture the swag of oni to tengoku. I havent even talked about sai or kyuu.. and how those volumes, still touch upon some really interesting topics. One of which ill mention below (SO BE CAREFUL SPOILER IN A SPOILER)

in sai basically they go visit aokis mom all that etc etc really good stuff very realistic depiction bc since aoki moved away the mom has chilled out and isnt a literal demon anymore but yknow the scars remain. but anyways being with aokis mom and seeing aoki getting along so well with his tormentor makes tengoku think about how fucked up he was to aoki in the beginning of their relationship and how its fucked up that theyre still in it cuz uhh well. I mean. you know how yaoi evil is 😁!!!! but yeah like becauss tengoku is aokis actual boyfriend now and loves him he realizes how fucked it is that he IS aokis boyfriend despite the roots of their interaction. and he does this.

and its a page ruined my life for like 2 years. Just out of context even okay i think its a really powerful message to tell someone that they shouldnt forgive people when they hurt them just because theyre good. but yeah also in context its true as hell too because its true that aoki shouldnt forgive the people who hurt him but its also tengoku who is indirectly telling aoki that he shouldnt forgive tengoku for literally molesting him when they first met and shouldnt be his boyfriend because its not right to start dating someone who did that to you. and he tells aoki that he wants to break up since he loves him and wants to protect him.

I WAS REALLY SURPRISED BY THESE PAGES THOUGH BECAUSE WELL. LIKE. I EXPECTED SOME BULLSHIT OKAY. SORRY I ADMIT IT I HAD NO FAITH IN THIS MANGA LOL. but seriously, outwhhss THIS MADE ME CRAZY BECAUSE WELL. it flipped the switch entirely and showed how much aoki has grown. The aoki before wouldve passively let tengoku take the lead and agreed because also tengoku is right. but aokis not the same mf with literally zero self esteem anymore. he thinks for himself. he knows what he wants. and for better or for worse, he wants tengoku as his boyfriend and thats something hes staying firm by because he has CONFIDENCE NOW. Tengoku is the one who learned to not let aoki go no matter what, and aoki in return has learned the same. I really love it because i may be seme uke master supreme but i genuinely do like when they are vulnerable and protect eachother and their relationship in different ways like this. Aoki wants tengoku. And even if tengoku says that its for aokis own good that he doesnt forgive tengoku like he forgives his mom, aoki is his own person and decides what he wants at the end of the day. Tengoku even cries later and is like i love people and then i hurt them and then im hated... i dont want you to hate me i dont want to hurt you and aoki hugs him and ITS SOOOOOO SWEET. TENGOKU LOVES AOKI SO MUCH HES WILLING TO NOT BE SELFISH IF ITS WHATS BEST FOR AOKI BECAUSE HES ALL INSECURE ABOUT HIMSELF HURTING AOKI AND ALL THAT. and it all works out because aoki is not someone who can be pushed around anymore. At least not with tengoku after all because tengoku is something aoki didnt even know he could get in his life.

So "goshdarnit" as payback for when aoki couldnt get tengoku to stop sticking to him he's going to cling to tengoku so hard not even the man himself can pry him off.

TL:DR. oni to tengoku is all about being able to love and to be loved

Robooty Reviews: Oni To Tengoku (8.9/10) ROBOOTY PERSONAL FAVORITE

(in my heart its a 10/10)

Atsurou Aoki is an english teacher who has some mad fuckin self esteem issues. hes our beautiful pathetic man protag and he ends up tangled up in a relationship of sorts with the school nurse, Manabu Tengoku. Its a dry premise and honestly the first volume requires you to sludge through a lot of average yaoi evil shit but please please please im begging you endure okay. i have been an oni to tengoku-er since 2019 and ive been following the development of the sequel (oni to tengoku sai) and the (now third) sequel (oni to tengoku kyuu) of this series and GOD. ILL BE REAL IM A MANIAC AND PROBABLY GOT A LOT MORE OUT OF THIS SERIES THAN THE AUTHOR INTENDED AT ALL BUT IDGAF PLEASE READ IT PERHAPS YOU CAN EXPERIENCE THE SAME ENLIGHTENING AS ME. READ MORE HAS SPOILERS BE WARNED (PART 1 CUZ OF TUMBLR IMAGE LIMIT)

this will be a little different than usual because i have a whole lot to say about aoki and tengoku. Really, a lot of this will be just talking about how and why i like their relationship so if you end up liking this you should most definately read the full manga to experience it for yourself

Despite all the fuckin bullshit of the first volume, the manga is really fucking good at interweving in its core themes and setting up the psychological basis of Aoki. Aoki was abused by his mother as a child, but i think the depiction of abuse is really realistic because even though she whittles down his self esteem and makes him feel worthless she hugs him afterwards and still is motherly towards him, this aoki doesnt hate his mother and fully cut her off per say but she is a demon to him. its pretty realistic imo where parents can do awful things but they buy you a donut and then its like ermm well.. they bought me a donut and do this in my best interest so its okay. Aoki is fucked in the head though. because he doesnt feel like he can be loved deep down and his entire career path is something he chose only because it was expected of him by his family (and his entire life is grasping at straws in an attempt to not disappoint people)

he wants more than anything to just not be an embarassment and be "worthy" of being loved. I like how this is depicted because again it feels more realistic in that he isnt outwardly a freak about it or anything he doesnt have breakdowns in public or anything thats enough to warrent himself to feel like he needs to get help. but he definately does need help of some sort because his way of thinking and the constant guilt and shame he feels is just something thats normal to him now. hes just tired and a bit worn down, but its not like anything is exceptionally bad, since humans are surprisingly adaptable and hes just lived with feeling like hes an embarassment who disappoints people his entire life so its norm.

Tengoku obviously doesnt mean it in the way aoki is taking is. but its things like this that make the themes feel well interwoven to me. Aoki doesnt look tengoku in the eye and say "i have mommy issues and feel like being an embarassment is the reason i cant be loved" but he still shows it in a way that we the audience can see he means, since we can put together aoki's lifestyle and viewpoint from his inner dialogues and flashbacks to his mother's abuse. Aoki wants more than anything else to be a good boy because only good boys can be loved. and unfortunately for aoki san this kind of means he has developed a praise kink and good boy fetish which tengoku just naturally leans towards so erm haha tengoku just pushing those buttons all willy nilly!

Tengoku isnt an idiot though, as he pursues aoki he can definately connect the dots and all that shit for how aoki ticks. This isnt exactly hard to do anyways, since aoki passively talks about himself to tengoku during non crazy scenes and its not like hes an enigma or anything because again, he thinks that the way he lives is completely normal for a guy like him. Tengoku likes aoki and chases him and aoki isnt exactly a willing participant. Tengoku likes aoki because hes a fun plaything and interesting and pure hearted and everything tengoku is not and aoki begins to form an affection for tengoku because he itches the mental illness brain damage spot by pursuing and wanting him consistently and not getting bored.

These panels are true brain damage pages because it hits upon how all aoki wants is for someone to look at him directly and still want him. His greatest wish (that he doesnt even believe could come true at the bottom of his heart) is to have someone that could see him for who he is and despite all his flaws. despite how hes useless, despite how hes not good at anything (to him), despite how hes bad at relationships, despite how he cant talk with other people, and despite what an embarassment he is, still love and want him. Seriously, I must recommend you to read this for yourself. Theres the yaoi bullshit sludge but every chapter has bits and pieces of Aoki's mindset that is an insanely good representation and depiction of how that kind of mentality and acceptance is like.

Volume 2 is where things really pick up. Yaoi sludge has been toned down to make way for FUCKING SWAG!!!! the set up for aoki's mentality is done now were onto getting into the way tengoku and aoki's personalities actually interact with eachother. Along with dipping into tengokus crazy bitch syndrome

Over this volume, were shown that actually aoki and tengoku are a good match for eachother. At least, tengoku provides something special for aoki in that he doesnt know from personal experience the feeling of needing to earn love, but because of that he bounces off well with aoki because he shows basic interest in going "well your feelings and thoughts do matter though. youre a person too". this isnt explicitly said, but its little things liks this that end up making aoki fall in love with him. Aoki falling in love with tengoku is also interesting because this is his first time actively liking someone else because its what he wants, not because its what the other person expects. Despite how terrible their relationship was at first, it set a ground where Aoki was able to create a strong connection with someone without the initial fear of disappointing them since he even didnt like tengoku at first. Honestly with the way Aoki is I think that is why hes able to love tengoku out of his volition, since he already has shown his shameful parts to him and tengoku still wants him-- in fact tengoku is the only person who has seen Aoki's shame and refused to let him go, this lets Aoki take a breather and think about what HE desires for once instead of how to keep someone with him or do whats good for the other person/not shameful.

Also a new teacher is introduced who actually is one of the many guys Tengoku had play-boyed before who became a teacher just so he could try to win tengokus love lol. but he serves as a plot device for that yaoi jealousy arc WOOOHOOOO! I love the jealousy chapter a lot though because BOTH CHARACTERS experience jealousy in their own way. I'm not sure if what Aoki experiences can be classified under jealousy or not, but ill just say it is because thats easier. The chapter is wonderfully done though because see Tengoku has always been the one who chases Aoki but also the one who reminds him that he doesnt fall in love this is just a sex playboy thing. Aoki is the one who has fallen in love and does show this by treating Tengoku specially, but Tengoku obviously doesnt reciprocate this since the way he acts at least is more like Aoki is his favorite of a bunch of toys rather than his one and only like how Aoki sees him. Aoki feels bitterness over this because he wishes he could be loved by Tengoku since Tengoku is somewhat wishy washy and gives Aoki just enough to keep hope but also smushes that hope by refusing a drop more. (this is done though bc this is fucking yaoi ofc tengoku loves aoki to bits and pieces back but tengoku is just scared of liking aoki too much and showing it too much but hold on we havent gotten to tengokus insanity yet jeeeesus christ!). Also im kind of at the tumblr 10 image limit but I think showing these next three pages are really important so ermm me when i post this and then add a reblog or two with MORE BULLSHIT. I'll properly tag the versions with my reblogs

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*looks at you w my big gay eyes* loser bfdi for the hcs listen i need

(From this post)

Yeah I'm sure you would Gayboy Sexuality Headcanon: Gay Beast. Loser has kissed a girl like once in her teens during spin the bottle and then has never seen a single woman again Gender Headcanon: Short answer: Nonbinary transfem (he/she) but I need you all to understand Loser's 4D chess gender. Absolute Late Bloomer who's def had "I wish I could be like a girl but I like being a guy too:/" moments when younger but didn't put much thought to it. Has always been around trans ppl but nothing rly Fit Him or she didn't have much time to think about it until being with Cake and actually sitting down and talking about Gender. She's like, happy with her gender expression and being Lame Masc but also likes to be a Pretty Lady. She's a dilf, he's a milf, he's your housewife and also she's a man. But not in a male way. Man only in a gay way. Lady in a gay gender non conforming way. You simply have to Get It. She's Loser A ship I have with said character: LOSERCAKEE DUHH They were like.. my first ship when I got into it cuz of you AND HOW COULD IT NOT BE ITS PERFECTLY SWEET & GAY Loser obviously cares abt cake like. Its not just cake bein a Huge Fan like YEAH HE IS and he needs Loser a little bit ( a lot ) but Loser is also very fond of him LIKE COME ON. THEYRE SWEET LITTLE THINGSSS WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY. How could u not see Cake blushin up a Storm around Loser and Loser nudging him and not think those two are IN LOVEEE Also Loser x Winner but I talked abt it here already. Loser is a very shippable beast like... the options are endless. Spongy, Donut, Fries, Snowball, Leafy, Ruby, mabye Clock and Tree even YOU GET MY POINT . Also don't get me started on Loserfour I was a bit fixated on that pairing for a bit #swag A BROTP I have with said character: GELATIN & LOSER they also kiss just a little bit but like AS BROS YKNOW. Same Pose Buddies. Loser would go to Gelatin's steakhouse a Lot he's a regular costumer A NOTP I have with said character: [Gestures] IDK A random headcanon: German. General Opinion over said character: I WONDER HOW I WOULDVE FELT ABT HER IF IT WASNT FOR YOU... But even then I brought a lotta original ideas to the table and according to you Im a good source for Loser content so yay. But I feel like ppl misunderstand him a lot. He neeeever came off as pretentious abt his fame to me, moreso just Accepting and Enjoying it WHICH ISNT BAD he was never rude about it or anything. I do think It's funny how she doesn't do much except just stand around and be strong sometimes and everyone loses their minds ITS SO SILLY . DESERVED