#cuz I literally am just autistic and am making him deal w it and like. For some reason he’s still my friend !

[painyrainy]

...chat.... we projecting onto characters w this one‼️‼️

Sanemi is autistic maybe? 1/?

me being scared to say this cuz I've seen the fate of other poor souls who had posted this on other sites

I am going to make separate posts because if I put it all into one it's gonna be too long and no one will read it lol

1- the whole Sanemi vs Giyu conflict

ok, so the number one reason that sanegiyu has haters (not including all the homophobics 😒) is that it would be toxic. Oh! But- Sanemi hates Giyu! He bullies him for no reason!

ok but there is a reason; miscommunication. Giyu has 20 mental health issues and lowkey don't gaf about his reputation. Why doesn't Sanemi pick up on it? Not only does he miss the obvious hints, but he wildly catastrophises the situation to be "Oh, he doesn't talk to us, he must think he's superior". Literally like... everyone else knows that Giyu's dealing with stuff and Sanemi interpreted it as a personal attack.

This can be interpreted as Sanemi's own infeority problems, but it could also be an autistic trait of misinterpreting and catastrophising, catastrophising also being a symtom of anxiety, which you might know that Sanemi shows symptoms of anxiety from @/demonslayerunhinged's post. Guess what? Anxiety is also widely found in autistic individuals. 😮

Misinterpreting tone, because Giyu wasn't even trying to hide anything, is also another obvious trait that I don't rlly need to explain. Yall know this. Misinterpreting body language, tone, social cues (we will talk specifically about this. mayybe), etc.

"Well...,, , why aren't we talking about obanai then..,.,?" Because he's just a little hater idrc about him right now.

I feel like i missed smth. my brain is fried. I apologise.

[inkats]

ok so I’m getting over it but also if I get w this guy I think it would be funny to do the me and the bad bitch I pulled by being autistic so like if I ever get w this guy just like remind me.

[somuch-4-stardust]

okay <3 today we r talking abt headcanons i hate!!! umm none of these have any basis i just dont like them i think they r wrong <3 obviously i dont hate people who enjoy these hc do whatever u want have fun etc etc etc i am not attacking u specifically

starting off w one of my least favorites. cwilbur is NOT transfem!! he is intesex and transmasc (source: me)!!!. all the minors in the server are NOT friends u cant just push cpurpled into a group w benchtrio bc they r all minors??????? (<- im totally about to do exactly that in a sec when i talk abt hc i do like. the real reason is i think cpurpled and cranboo would hate each other ^-^) ctommy DOES have wings BUT they r gold and if u say anything else ur WRONG!!! ctommy was not nine during the first lmanburg war!! cranboo and ctechno are not that close (<- this is actually kinda canon i do not care tho let me be in denial) ctommy is not the token straight please stop saying hes the token straight if he heard you he would be sad (<- on that topic. transfem ctommy is acceptable. i have to put it here bc im not putting it in the 'my fav hc' category but i think it needs to be said) ckarl and cghostbur are not as stupid as u guys make them out. ctechno is not the middle child he is not the middle child U R WRONG!! ctommy also was not focused on saving lmanburg bc 'omg city where ppl live im a hero' and more 'thats. my house bro also i dont want to die' hes not as selfless as u think!! hes also stupid like ctommy is genuinely just an idiot

and now. for loving <3 cpurpled and ctommy are qpps and they live together in cpurpleds ufo which is definitely totally not blown up. ctommy listens to saint bernard by lincoln too much. ctubbo and ctommy are not on speaking terms and honestly it hasnt upset either of them. ctechno is in that stage of trans where he like doesnt mind he/him prns and doesnt care enough to change prns. csbi totally is real and also includes hannah and niki and sally is married to niki and yes sally is a fish niki is like. a mermaid or whatever but sally is literally just a salmon. ctechno and cwilbur and ctommy and cniki and channah and probably csally are all autistic. cpurpled is autistic too but denies it bc 'really is it a big deal any way' ummm cquackity has a touch of the tism too mayhaps. oh and cslime is autistic. anyways back to cpurpled. he is a transman and also refuses to dye his hair purple bc hes an asshole and also he has abandonment issues bc i mean look at him. cniki is the coolest transfemme ever. ctommy is a pretty girl but hes a boy. cghostbur and lmanburg and alivebur and revivedbur and stuff all have different pronouns. they all listen to los campesinos actually los camp is always playing on the server and if for some reason not a single person was thinking abt los camp the whole place would blow up boom boom. ctommy is missing a limb or too (part of his hand, his foot, a little bit of the back of his head/skull, his ear) ctechno gives people he likes gold. like a lot of gold like his family just ended up w huge ass collections of gold jewelry. ctommy uses only neos but doesnt care enough to correct ppl cuz like ITS ALOT OF WORK U KNOW ITS NOT A BIG DEAL. cdream isnt transphobic but also did misgender ctommy on purpose in exile. ctommy had raccoon ears and tail which was. quite the combo w the wings. in the csbi family the order, eldest to youngest was: kristin, phil (<- obviously. they r old haha point and laugh) techno, wilbur, niki, hannah, tommy. cpurpled does kill people in cold blood and he isnt bothered by it for the most part. calyssa is transmasc. ctommy bites people. cbbh is evil but also dad shaped. ctommy is scared of swimming.

[galaxytale]

not over my ex yet but like at the same time like lol? fuck him. i still love his dumb ass but he rly did treat me like shit while acting like i was the real problem every time i got fed up with being treated like shit, tried to hold him to task for it, failed bcos he refuses to accept that he can be in the wrong abt shit, got frustrated and hurt bcos hed flip the blame back on me, and lashed out.

like. still love his sorry ass cuz hes my fuckin bro and i dont leave homies behind but i am gonna distance myself and live my life further away from him and his new bestieeee uwuwu ((lol what happened to me being ur bestie before we were dating bud?)) ((btw said bestie is toxic as fuck actually as ive come to discover bcos i uhhhh communicate with people and like. talk to ppl regularly instead of just like once in a blue moon)) till he stops being headass and comes to a few of his own senses abt shit and grows the hell up a bit. ((mf you got a few years on me you should know better by now than to be acting like you were/are))

also have a feelin hes gonna end up in a similar circumstance as they pulled w/ me bcos me and his ~new bestie~ pulled that same shit on someone else. so ive gotta stick around to catch his ass when he falls cuz hes gonna fall hard and it aint gonna be pretty. i told his ass i wouldnt leave him and i meant it even if he said that right back to me but tossed me away like rotten dogshit the second things got rough.

like. love this rat bastard but fuck him. seriously. he put me through an immense amount of bullshit and serious damaged my self confidence, ability to trust, my ability to trust my own reality and perceptions, and a lot of other shit. mf even made me doubt my own morals and moral integrity (which as a perfectionist, hypermoral autistic with a lot of guilt issues and a trauma based drive to fix everything i do wrong and never fuck up in a Major Way.... thats fucking kinda earthshattering) and for a while almost had me convinced that i did something i know i never would do because its /literally against one of my most stalwart core moral values/

but im not going to just leave his ass. because even though hes acting like a fucking headass idiot right now i believe in his ability to do and be better. and he may have left me when i needed it most but god. i know hes got a major storm coming in his future and i will be there for him. this storm is probably going to end up being the thing that knocks him off his high horse cuz he wouldnt listen to me before when i was telling him nicely that he needed to get down.

so motherfucker. if you aint gonna fuckin listen to me, go get your ass hurt. ill wait. and ill be here ready to help patch ur dumb ass back up. because i fuckin love you you stupid asshole. and im pissed because youre disappointing me with your fucking behavior.

until then im going to put my fucking energy into healing from what you did to me, and keep an eye on your dumb ass from a distance. and ill come back happier and better than before. and ill be better than you. im going to make myself into a better and more stable person than you. honestly, i already fucking was one. you were the biggest source of my instability and you only exacerbated all of my insecurities i shared with you while claiming you knew how best to deal with things.

im going to be better. not for you. im going to prove myself a better person than i was before and im going prove myself a better person than you. because im fucking disappointed in you for making me think that out of the two of us, somehow i was the worse one.

you may know the words “im sorry.” you may know what an apology is. but you have never used them. you have never tried to improve or change your behavior. you dont get to claim that i somehow “undid” all your work. you never did the work anyway. and id know, because ive known you for 6 years. the only reason youve ‘gotten worse’ is because you found a way to stop feeling like you need to hold yourself accountable.

i may say im sorry too much. but at least i fucking know to use the word. and im trying my best to make sure that i dont stop at only saying it.

[ildivine]

ive been spending time away from the system and felt vaguely bad about it, as ive been so involved in myself and fandom oriented things SINCE i discovered dbh n dove in head-first

but i suppose while its typical, n at times unhealthy, its not hurting me too much to do my own thing again. the gods r keeping me away from alcohol so im craving everything under the sun, n thats natural; but im also in a good situation with friends that will trip drugs w me in a safe environment n such things that i didnt expect to find the experience of so early in my life, n i consider it my own sense of reward for everything ive struggled with over the years; sitting down n writing fics n rps for days on end isnt inherently as bad as it used to be, until it gets in the way of sth else, or when im just sitn here drinking while i write like i was.

also, my friends n fam will still b there, even if i cant connect or wind up being fairly neglectful; after the years ive had to rely on them to literally exist or deal with anything, i think they appreciate the break. particularly the last time i asked dave to wake up with me to help me get sth done the next day, he was a bit peeved, n i dont blame him! my worst depression days were spent w him having anxiety attacks together n weve both grown so much since then, ofc he was annoyed tryn to babysit me when i dont sleep n yet expect to do Thing next day, as is typical of me

but ive learned to situate myself.... into what i am, how i am, n my awkward habits. sure i could lay in bed early for weeks on end n pretend ill get sleep eventually, or i can stay awake n ride it out on mania drive the next day, or i can get my lil 3 hr nap in n go late, or whatever. but the fact of the matter is i need to  get off my ass n do Things whether its in a healthy way or not, n this is sth i need to reiterate to myself, repeatedly. i always thought i was gonna be young n mentally immature forever, but ive felt myself grow n become comfortable over the years, n what Actual Adults Say suddenly makes sense. i m 26, im in the form of a grown ass adult n i gotta act like it; i cant b throwin hands over videogame arguments til i piss someone off enough to hit me, i cant throw tantrums when i dont get the rp that i want right, but i dig so deep into my interests that i settle into there n build myself an emotional fortress by pure mistake of getting TOO invested, n thats the part of me im still discovering how to handle n get over. i dont believe im autistic or adhd or anything like that as a solid diagnoses, but i do know i hold symptoms for all of those things, n part of those symptoms is not wanting my fun box taken away or i Scream, n its terrible. but im also not so (mentally ill) that i cant get over it or learn new ways to cope, with meds or otherwise

i guess while this blog is generally for spiritual stuff i suppose handling myself as a person overall and trying to figure things out even when i thought i had it all figured out is part of personal AND spiritual growth, n when i do get the chance n find the focus, my brother, my friends, my adopted dads will still b there n probably appreciate that they dont have to watch my back for being suicidal or anxious or having to taper me off of my own alcoholism tbh. ive come a long fucking way n honestly i DESERVE the right to sit down n ship myself w any character from anything ever cuz cringe culture & mental illness stopped me from enjoying myself as a kid, a teenager, & a young adult. adulthood is about being a child again tbfh

[painyrainy]

...chat.... we projecting onto characters w this one‼️‼️

Sanemi is autistic maybe? 1/?

me being scared to say this cuz I've seen the fate of other poor souls who had posted this on other sites

I am going to make separate posts because if I put it all into one it's gonna be too long and no one will read it

1- the whole Sanemi vs Giyu conflict

ok, so the number one reason that sanegiyu has haters (not including all the homophobics 😒) is that it would be toxic. Oh! But- Sanemi hates Giyu! He bullies him for no reason!

ok but there is a reason; miscommunication. Giyu has 20 mental health issues and lowkey don't gaf about his reputation. Why doesn't Sanemi pick up on it? Not only does he miss the obvious hints, but he wildly catastrophises the situation to be "Oh, he doesn't talk to us, he must think he's superior". Literally like... everyone else knows that Giyu's dealing with stuff and Sanemi interpreted it as a personal attack.

This can be interpreted as Sanemi's own infeority problems, but it could also be an autistic trait of misinterpreting and catastrophising, catastrophising also being a symtom of anxiety, which you might know that Sanemi shows symptoms of anxiety from @/demonslayerunhinged's post. Guess what? Anxiety is also widely found in autistic individuals. 😮

Misinterpreting tone, because Giyu wasn't even trying to hide anything, is also another obvious trait that I don't rlly need to explain. Yall know this. Misinterpreting body language, tone, social cues (we will talk specifically about this. mayybe), etc.

Going on a lil tangent here but his anger issues could also be sensitivities, like zenitsu yapping too much so he told him to stfu

"Well...,, , why aren't we talking about obanai then..,.,?" Because he's just a little hater idrc about him right now.

I feel like i missed smth. my brain is fried. I apologise.