#currently crying at work rn because of this good news

[nc-vb]

I thought I had three exams in the next two days but I only have two!!!!!!! THEN I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[blye-flower]

✨Rant in the tags✨

[matthewkniesys]

detroit - trevor zegras x famous singer!reader social media au

a/n: so every time gracie plays a new show at the eras tour i'm making an edit for it so here you go!! reader is currently working on a podcast so shes kinda dropping hints. hope you like it

trevor zegras x famous singer!reader

yourusernameofficial

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yourusernameofficial - it's been quite the week for me...you could say it was the start of something new???

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radvxz - no cause i think touring with you and taylor has been the best experience of my life

↳ yourusernameofficial - well you know what they say besties that tour together stick together

↳ radvxz - i've been stuck by glue, right on to you

fanaccount13 - recording new music?? I've never been more excited

↳ yourusernameofficial - not quite👀

↳ y/n#1fan - what the fuck does that mean

↳ y/nismywife10 - im so confused...y/n what do you do this to us

↳ yourusernameofficial - tehe

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peoplemagazine - y/n l/n was spotted getting cozy with mystery man this weekend in detroit after performing the night before at the eras tour

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fanaccount3 - guys is this it?? is that jamie and y/n

↳ y/nupdatesss - i think it looks more like trevor...yes im back on this shit

y/npankow4ever - it kinda looks like rudy...maybe they're back together no cause i would actually die

↳ y/nupdatesss -i feel like probably not because they had a really shitty break up and she wrote a lot of songs about him that weren't really to good for him like will you cry and i should hate you

↳ y/nfan15 - also the hair looks a little too dark to be rudy

y/nships24- i think y/nupdatesss is right...it's trevor cause like the hair is the right colour and i'm pretty sure jamie's back in canada rn

↳ y/nupdatesss - finally someone on my side

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[aleksa-sims]

RL Story

CW: Baby health, withdrawal, c-section

Since 3 days, my Baby was not really well. I was sure he got withdrawal. But the Doc, who examined him, told me, my Son was fine. Still, his diagnosis was unclear to me? The meds I took during pregnancy, can cause withdrawal in Babies, but its unlikely. That’s why the doctor didn’t really take my son’s symptoms seriously, at least that was my feeling. 😟

Today my Mom was with us, as every day actually. It was already late in the evening. My Mom was holding my Son. Totally worried, she asked me to look at him!! At first, I did not notice anything. He was sleeping. But then, I saw it too! Every 3-5 seconds, my Baby twitched briefly.☹️😭 We took him over to the nurses. One of them also recognized the rhythmic twitches. She immediately called a pediatrician.

My Mom had to leave the examination room. The Doc said he was going to take blood from my Baby’s heel. I should try to calm him down. I was in total panic, but somehow worked, as my tears ran down my face on my son. My Baby screamed in agony, he was terrified. The needle hurt him. I felt like I was losing the ground under my feet.😭 After the doc drew enough blood, he started yelling at the nurses in the examination room.

Doc: Can someone please get the mother out of here! 😠 She’s crying! Take care of her! I can’t work like this!! 🤯😠

Nurse: But-... I have to wait for the lab’s response.

Doc: I get the results here on my screen! Now put the boy on the examination table. And the mother has to get out, please.... NOW!!

That Doc lliterally kicked me out of the examination room. I stumbled crying, at my Mom’s feet. I immediately hugged her, as she helped me up. My Mom was also crying. 😟

Mom: Everything will be fine! Don’t cry, A.! You’re shaking, try to calm down.

Me: Mom, I can’t do this anymore. I want to go home.😭

Mom: I won’t leave you & Lucas alone. I’ll stay with you.

A few minutes later the nightmare seemed to be over, the pediatrician came back to my room with my Baby.

Doc: Good news! He's fine! There is no neurological serious condition. We have often seen and observed those kind of muscle twitches in c- section babies during their deep sleep phase. Sensitive Babies struggle with their new environment. That's why he's crying & screaming sm. He is overwhelmed and tense, but it's not serious. This passes after 1-3 months.

Me: But my Baby got withdrawal symptoms! And no one here wants to help me. He’s suffering! He needs help!

Doc: Yes, he is actually going through a mild withdrawal. There is a score that we determine in the Babies. Certain symptoms determine the score. If a Baby has a score of 11, a drug treatment is necessary. His score is ...um, 4 rn. And currently at the peak. So..... I see no need, to treat a healthy child with morphine. Your Baby's fine. I’m more concerned about you. Do you know what postpartum depression is?

Me: I just want to go home.

Doc (to my Mom): She is overly anxious and annoys the nurses every night, because her Baby screams. But that's normal! Babies cry!

Me: I know, but he’s suffering, he has diarrhea and pain.

Doc: Diarrhea is one of the harmless symptoms of withdrawal. But your Son's is feeding well. Atm, your Baby’s weight is still within the normal range, but I’m watching this! In two days, I’ll check it out again. If his weight is still okay, you can go home.

Me: Really?

Doc: Yes! But if I catch you outside with your Baby once more at night, you'll get in trouble.

Mom: What? She was outside with him at night? 🥶Aleksa?

Me: I was just on the terrace! I needed fresh air and Lucas enjoyed it too. The snow calmed him down. I didn’t know it was forbidden to go outside for me, I feel like a prisoner here!

Doc: I thought you were in danger. We're on the 14th floor! You shouldn’t be standing there with your Baby in the dark. And in winter, terrace entrances are basically closed to patients!

I think this doctor thought I wanted to hurt myself and my Baby, when he found me crying on that terrace in the middle of the night.😬 But I swear, I never meant to! I was just stressed and had to leave this prison for a moment. I didn’t know what to do anymore? My son was just crying. He suffered, he was in pain, and no one of that supid hospital staff, wanted to help me, or listen to me. This Doc now, has done his job right! He took the time to explain to me, how they treat and examine those... withdrawal symptoms. And he was right about the muscle twitches, too. In a few weeks it will be over. Seeing my Baby twitch today kind of traumatized me. And my Mom too. We were just relieved and grateful that it was nothing serious. And yes, my little one is very sensitive. We will have to learn to deal with that. it's gonna be tough!! 😞

Anyway, I hope I can leave this place soon. I felt like I was losing my mind here. Also I'll have to see Daniel, bcs of that name change.

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[shiftersroom]

hi thala! 💞 so sorry if you don’t accept this kind of asks but i just feel like i need to vent and your vlog is always reassuring and comforting.

currently i’m in this situation where i just want to get out of this cr and permashift to my dr asap, but it seems like i can’t stop self sabotaging myself and i’m so so tired of it. last night i was crying my heart out because of how bad i felt about it. i’ve been practicing meditation so i can enter the void and even though it seems like i learned to keep my mind awake and body sleep i haven’t been able to get past that and it’s so frustrating. i know there’s tons of methods and also everyone says i don’t even need one but i idk why i have this idea that i need some method to detach from my cr really printed on my mind. for the self sabotaging part, i can’t help but have trust issues regarding myself and the community, sometimes it’s my intrusive thoughts making me doubt about shifting being real/posible and other’s successful experiences (saying it must have been a lucid dream or they are just making it up and i really HATE and feel guilty to discredit their experiences in that way 😭) and other times my belief in shifting is unwavering but i don’t feel capable of it. i'm not even the kind of person who has ever had any “closer attempts” or mini shifts and has been really hard for me to find what works best for me, meditation is by far what i’ve been trying the most but i’m just so impatient that sometimes i can’t help but feel that i’m going nowhere. my mind is really so stubborn when it comes to trying to change negative thoughts.

sorry for all of this, i don’t have shifting friends or someone i can share this stuff with. i don’t usually tend to feel this way but last night i just kinda collapsed, it crossed my mind that maybe i'm wasting my time and that i should just give up but i don’t want to, if this shii is real i need to experience it no matter what. i want to be with the ones i love and live the life i want. i don’t want to stay here any longer. i want to try loa along with shifting but then again, my intrusive thoughts say that i’ll be just gaslighting myself and all that.

i know no one else can fix these problems for me, but i’m so scared of failure or just being delusional for believing in all of this. sorry again for the long vent, i needed to get this off my chest. love you and your blog so much thala. if you don’t really want to accept this because honestly is like a long ass and probably demotivating ramble it’s totally okay, but thank you for taking the time if you do. hope you keep being happy and having success with everything you do. 😭🫶🏻

hello 💕 please feel free to vent, i don’t mind.

i completely understand your level of frustration, i badly want to permashift too and i have little breakdowns every few months once it catches up to me that nothing has fully worked yet.

the void can take a long time to perfect. i mean monks spend decades learning to meditate! why don’t you try something other than meditation? if you’ve given it a good go and it hasn’t worked, it’s probably not the method for you. i recommend a short break before trying a new method. rn i’m writing an affirmation 100 times a day. but honestly if that doesn’t work i’m straight up gonna lay there and visualize for 8 hours every night. i’m getting out of here no matter what.

try asking yourself what you think will work for you - sometimes we know the answer but we need to sit down and think about it. for example i keep doing affirmations, or short visualizations. but i feel what will make me shift is just laying there and telling myself to stfu and visualize until i’m there, even if it takes hours.

as for the self sabotage, i cope with that by watching my favorite creators and realizing that no one in their right mind would upload years of unpaid content that most people would ridicule us for, all for it to be a lie or joke. especially older shifters. and the other thing i like to do is remind myself that if i shifted and came back, no matter how ridiculous the experience was it’d still be real - so even if you don’t believe someone bc it sounds outlandish, it can still be real.

i’m also scared of being delusional but i simply cannot and will not remain here. there is no other option for me, so i’ll persist forever. the first time i shifted i had no idea id shift. that keeps me motivated, i could feel awful and still wake up in my dr tomorrow.

forever posting this reddit post by someone who shifted after 5 years, this was my fave comment of theirs:

and that motivates me even more - even if it’s fake i’m gonna make it real.

i also struggle with trying to change negative thoughts and my mindset, i’m in my mid 20s this stuff is harder to believe in at this age, and my mind has been tainted by years of bad experiences. but as hard as it is i’m forcing myself to get over it and try everything, bc i just need to shift once and all my bad experiences will be over.

i’m sorry if i gave you a big rant in return haha, but i hope this helps!! 💕 i’m so happy you like my blog and thanks for your sweet words 🥹

[gluedwithgold]

First of all, I just want to say I absolutely ADORE the concept, your writing, and your art for it. Second of all, would you be ok with me drawing fanart of this au? Lastly, I just have to know what's going to happen in this au once the fawn frees Leshy? Are they going to have a climactic fight like in the original, or will it be something more along the lines of Leshy and the Fawn somehow coming to an agreement?

First and second: AAA THANK YOU SO MUCH! I’m so happy people like my silly AU and I WILL CRY if people draw fan art /pos!!

I am currently working on semi official references for all the characters in this au but I don’t know when I’ll get them all done

Thirdly! Lore time!

Yes there is definitely going to be a big final boss fight of Leshy vs Fawn but it will be more like “See if you are actually ready to be the new god of chaos” as well as being “Let’s fight because we can!” type situation instead if that makes sense?

Leshy and Fawn get along really well and Fawn personally sees Leshy as like a father figure of some sort (Making the other bishops Fawn’s unofficial Uncles, Aunt and Ankle (Shamura) lol)

In this au I don’t imagine Leshy wouldn’t make a super big deal over passing on the crown to someone who has the exact same ambitions and beliefs as him, and he can always see through the crown anytime he wants to anyways.

After he’s freed, Leshy and Fawn would “co-lead” the cult together. Fawn is an excellent vessel for the crown’s chaos magic but they are NOT a good cult leader by any means! That’s why the og four followers have been babysitting them. So Leshy will still take a role in leading his new cult, the chaos magic will just be transferred to the crazy deer child.

The cult of chaos doesn’t abide by the standard hierarchy and rules the old faith does after all. They are just one big happy, super chaotic family!

Sorry if there are any typos or anything, I’m typing on a phone rn

[nimmie-nugget]

⚠️IGNORE ALL OF THIS SINCE IM WORKING ON A PROPER INTRODUCTION RN⚠️

No but srsly tf did I do to Mui’s chin💀💀 the shadings also terrible 😔

Hi! I’m Chip! I’m a Female!(IM BOT CHIP IM NIM PLS IM NIM NIM NIM NIM)

and I love interacting with others! Don’t be shy to dm me🤗 I’d never skip an opportunity to make new friends! I’m a loner irl🥲

My content will mostly be about the Tokito twins but I will happily do other characters too!

I will gladly do your requests and if you want something specific please add some context!

I am not entirely fixated on Demon Slayer! Please scroll down and read “Extra Note”

Time zone: PST

Do not use my shit without permission! Thx :)

(👆—It’s not like their going to cuz have u seen what u wrote💀💀)

~RULES~

-No Smut

-No Incest

-No Phedopilia

Can be platonic, just specify what kind of relationship it is :)

Anything that I did not mention in the rules will be accepted!

~IMPORTANT~

Please do add some context so I know where I’m starting off, it’s just like- I’m terrible at starting things off 😭!

It can also be any AU you’d like!

If AU is not mentioned, the AU will immediately be chosen by me, and please specify if you want it to be a Oneshot or Headcannons!

Edit: why do I have 👆 here 😃?? AU would be original if not specified 😋

I can’t guarantee my fanfics will be as good, since I’m new to writing. (Not new anymore but I’m still using this as an excuse 🗿✨)

I do hope my fanfics live up to your expectations <3 (YEAHHH!! Don’t be disappointed if it didn’t live up to your expectations because I friggin put my efforts and shit in there ��❤️)

(How do u tell someone to not be disappointed it’s not like they can control their emotions like emotion benders or smth)

~Extra Note~

Note for Xreader

I just want to mention the fandoms I write for Xreader~

Fandoms~

-Demon Slayer Tokito Twins are my main focus, tho I don’t mind if you want to request a different [Character] X Reader.

-MHA only the Todoroki Family.

-Helluva Boss Helluva Boss is not an excuse for nsfw. There will be a few suggestive content in Helluva Boss. A LOT of vulgar language, not just swearing but I will censor the words with ‘*’

-Hazbin Hotel Season 1 yuppy

-Yandere Simulator apparently the fandom is still somehow alive so I shall write 😎.

-Toilet-bound Hanako-kun Reboot yuppyyyy

-Five Nights at Freddy’s Strictly Platonic. Do specify the relationship between the character and reader when requesting.

-Security Breach Strictly Platonic. Do specify the relationship between the character and reader when requesting.

-Ruin DLC Strictly Platonic. Do specify the relationship between the character and reader when requesting.

-Migi To Dali these twins istg, thought they were genius’s in the beginning but turns out there idiots and I respect that. 🗿☕️

-The Amazing Digital Circus We have all gone too far in simping to turn back now. 😔

-Murder Drones V stan here, if she doesn’t make a comeback I’m gonna cry for the rest of my life.

And that is all for now~ I will update “Extra Note” as I get introduced to others fandoms!

P.s I know Fnaf, Security Breach, and Ruin DLC are from the same fandom but I just thought I should make it separate.

~SERIES~

Forever Infinity Hashira/Alive Yuichiro AU [Currently in a Re-making.] <No xreader>

👆I lied it’s never coming out 😋👍

~MASTERLIST~

Demon Slayer [No XReader]

Demon Slayer

Todoroki Family

Helluva Boss

Hazbin Hotel

Yandere Simulator [Coming soon…]

Toilet-bound Hanako-kun [Coming soon…]

Five Nights at Freddy’s [Coming soon…]

Security Breach [Coming soon…]

Ruin DLC [Coming soon…]

Migi To Dali [Coming soon…]

The Amazing Digital Circus [Coming soon…]

Murder Drones [Coming soon…]

Random Crap

[saythenameritwika]

Im a baby carat and it really warms my heart so see someone love them so deeply ❤️ I know I probably just spammed your with all my likes (sorry not sorry) but scrolling through you account just makes me fall deeper for svt and I adore yo(u) for it >3< (yes I think I'm so clever Im really not LOL) here's to more years of seventeen!!! 💎💕

ALSO ASIDE FROM THAT who is your bias & what is your fav era/album/song?? I'm still trying to work through 9 years of discography (pains of being a 2024 carat 😭) and I wanted to know if there are like ICONIC tracks that may be older (since I'm going from most current to oldest) that I need to listen to immediately before all else?

thank you again for being so loving 🫶

Oh, I definitely noticed your activity, lmaoo 😭🤣. I was so surprised because my phone started blowing up on a random Wednesday evening 😭🥹. But thank you!! 🩷🩵😭😭

Thank you for noticing my love for Seventeen!! I mean, it's pretty obvious, but I love that Carats (new and old) can feel the love that I have for Seventeen because I seriously love them so much. They have become an irreplaceable part of my life, and I don't think I have truly loved anything or anyone as much as them 😭😭.

I adore (yo)u too (you are clever, girl 😭😭)!!!! I'm glad that my posts made you fall in love more with Seventeen 🩷🩵! I hope you stick around 😉 because my love for them is only growing, and I'm gonna post a LOT more!

My bias is Dino!! But I get biased wrecked every 2 mins, so I say I'm OT13 while being Dino biased, lmfaoo 😭😭. It's really hard to pick a bias in Seventeen, goddamit!! Though, Dino definitely has a special place in my heart 😭! He became my bias during Hot era, and he has remained my bias since! (Please tell me who's yours when you read this!)

My favourite song...hmmm, I'll have to say I don't have one 😭😭. Whenever I pick a favourite song, another song happens to catch my attention 😭. It's literally impossible for me to pick a favourite song. But if I talk about my favourite song rn, I'll say it's March from the Face The Sun album (if we're talking sub-unit songs, it will definitely be Last Night by JxW!) But that's gonna change pretty soon 😭.

My favourite era is again something I can't pick. Look, it's not my fault that they always outdo themselves, okay 😭😭? But my faves are Attaca era (Rock With You), FML era (Super and FML), 17 Is Right Here era (Maestro), An Ode era (Fear & Hit), Teen Age era (Clap), Semi;Colon era (Home;Run), Director's Cut era (Thanks), etc. I literally just named all their eras lmaoo 😭😭. But as you can see, I can't pick. But you can check out any song or album I just named.

My favourite album is something I can answer, thankfully. I have a lot, though, so bare with me 😅🥹. My favourites are Going Seventeen, Teen Age, Heng:garae, Semi;Colon, Face The Sun, Sector 17, Seventeenth Heaven, Attaca, and FML. Again, I named almost every album lmaoo. But I recommend starting with Going Seventeen and making your way up. They have a lot of good music so you won't be disappointed even by their oldest albums!

Iconic tracks you NEED to listen to would be Fear (a classic), Mansae (another classic and a banger), Highlight (I might be saying this because I'm a performance unit girlie but that song is genuinely amazing), Clap (that song is so iconic omg), Don't Wanna Cry (that song is a masterpiece), Home;Run (the song that drew my interest to Seventeen!), Hot (honestly, just check out the whole album because it's amazing. It was also my first album as a Carat), Thanks (another classic, that song is beautiful), and then you can go in order (either oldest to newest or vice versa!).

Again, thank you for reaching out to me, and I was SO happy to help (though I don't think I was of any help, lmaoo 😭). Hopefully, you grow to love Seventeen just as much as I do, and I hope they become a big part of your life, too. I swear, life after "slipping into the diamond life" is so much better 🩷🩵😅! I recommend going through their content such as Going Seventeen (the variety show, not the album) to get to know them better!

Please continue to reach out to me if you have any questions about Seventeen or if you just wanna fangirl, lmaoo! I'm always open to new Carat friends (I'm in desperate need of them 😅). Once again, thank you for reaching out, and thank you for liking my blog!!

[luna-moon-26-20]

I just want to thank you for that andreil au!! like, it's 04AM rn, I was crying so fucking much... it gave me feelings that I can't describe, I swear... it's just so cool to see characters that I love portrayed like this.... the scenes with andrew being happy seeing his little self, they were so AJSJJDDH I couldn't stop crying, because this is what I want for AFTG andrew as well... really good writing! so glad that i read everything!! can't wait for the next season . be safe!

OMG thank you so so so much! I can't believe I just realized I had this message since december. Thank you so much for your kind words, I'm so happy you like this AU so much. I enjoyed writing the scene with Andrew inside his head and seeing his younger happy self. I hope you have read the episodes of the new season that will have a lot of Andrew's PoV and lots of Andreil. I'm currently working on episode 4. Hopefully it'll be up soon.

Thanks again for reaching out and I'm so sorry for missing this message! 🫶🏼

[imrllytootiredforthis]

so..i've been having a hueningkai brainrot recently......

i get the feeling that in terms of behaviour he's more like soobin but can be more on a brattier side? and he's more open to trying out new stuff??😵‍💫🤯u get what i mean?

that doesn't cancel the fact that he wants to be praised and called a good boy by u☹️☹️ +also giving him headpats??!!!!!!! 😩

if u have any thoughts about hueningie pls elaborate 😭😭 (i've been dying with the amount of school work currently so this is the only thing keeping me sane rn🥲)

-💘

i think i get what you mean,

i feel like with hueningkai, at his very core he's a good boy, through and through. all he wants is to be praised and called a good boy, have his hair played with and pet. he loves to be taken care of-he loves you so much and loves it when you're so soft and gentle with him☹️☹️

but i do feel like he craves punishments sometimes. he likes it when you're rough with him. when you toss him around a bit, call him a dirty boy and make him cry. he loves that😮‍💨

and so despite his good boy ways he won't brat out entirely, but maybe act a little cheeky. tease you a bit, pout when you tell him to do something, sulk and backtalk when you tell him no.

it confuses you at first. because he's always been such a good boy, all soft and sweet and good, but now he's acting weird and you wouldn't call it bratty, you'd just assume something bad happened and he's a bit moody or whatnot.

and eventually, he'll break. "why won't you just punish me! i've been such a bad boy and all you've done is act nicer!" he'll say it with such a cute comical pout, crossing his arms that you have to hold back a smile.

and then he gets his wish😩

he loves humiliation, not in a super rough way but in a teasing kinda way, calling him your dirty little slut and asking if he's sure he can handle it, he'll turn all red, protesting that he can in a whine.

nothing too rough of course but i feel like after a few conversations and preparing he'd be up for smth more-honestly i feel like as long as it turned you on, it would turn him on.

and after these he always needs the softest sweetest aftercare. he'd either wanna take a bath with you, with like candles and bathbombs and scented lotions and all that kinda stuff. or he'd wanna just lay in bed and cling to you😩

[snicker-dooodless]

🫶: Who ended up falling first? Which of them actually realized that they’d fallen in love first?

🫣: Who stumbled the most with their feelings around the other? How much did the other person notice?

🦋: How long did it take them to get out of the awkward early relationship stage? Have they gotten more confident around each other?

pick the selfship that you're currently going the most crazy over rn, you can do multiple if you like, i just wanna see my pookie have fun rambling about his selfships🥰

love ya Ash!😘

AHHH EVE IM KISSING YOU ON THE MOUTH RIGHT NOW OMG I LOVE YOU SM

I decided to do both 🕹️SpaceInvader💫 since I’m kinda obsessed with Billy rn and 👾Mimitchi🥕 which is my new self ship name with Jax(since my sona is a tamagotchi and the bunny tamagotchi is called Mimitchi…get it?) ,cuz I’ve been thinking about them, imma design my sona soon I promise!! (At least that’s what I keep on telling myself)

sorry that I rambled!!

🫶

🕹️SpaceInvader💫- Ash definitely fell first, Billy is the first person ever in her life who actually listens to all her ramblings and actually seems interested in understanding her, which, with her parents who almost always worked, she wasn’t used to. But I think she’s an oblivious dumb fuck and wouldn’t realize it. She just thinks her feelings are a bit more intense form of friendship, he’s just a friend who she cuddles sometimes and kinda wants to kiss and spend the rest of her life with but still just friends! Billy would understand his feelings almost immediately when he gained them though (which took him a bit to gain since I just don’t think he was even thinking about romance when he met Ash)

👾Mimitchi🥕- Jax fell first, which may seem a bit surprising but he didn’t realize his feelings for like- ages. I mean think about it, he hates (or at least doesn’t like) any of the other circus members so when he meets someone who he doesn’t hate immediately and he finds funny and maybe a bit pretty (although he’d never admit that) he’s gonna fall cuz he’s a stupid loser and we love him for it. Chi (my sona) realized her feelings soon after gaining them, not immediately but probably after a day or so when they’re just joking around and he feels the urge to strangle Jax but kiss him at the same time and he’s confused at first before her eyes widen and she falls into silence as she realizes that she fell in love with a loser.

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🕹️SpaceInvader💫- They both are awkward as hell, but in different ways. Ash’s awkward in the way that, he’s trying to push down his feelings while also becoming a blushing mess whenever Billy does literally anything. Ash loves and treasures Billy and her’s friendship so much, she treasurers him so much, that the thought of admitting her feelings and him leaving because of it, terrifies her. BUT when she does accept her feelings she tries to flirt with him only to find out that she sucks ASS at it. Billy on the other hand is awkward as he tries to embrace his feelings for Ash, flirting (although he SUCKS at it), complimenting, showing more affection through actions and touch. But he’s stiff while doing it all and, as previously stated, he sucks at flirting. Ash is to busy in her self loathing and doubt that she doesn’t even realize any of it, only catching onto some compliments when Billy literally throws them in her face, which makes him a flustered mess. Billy catches onto the flirts but think they’re just jokes and awkwardly laughs but in the inside he’s crying and yelling and throwing up (in a good way)

👾Mimitchi🥕- again, they both stumble but the roles are kinda reversed. Jax stumbles as he tries to push Chi away to try to get rid of his feelings when he realizes he has them. Chi stumbles as she tries to awkwardly embrace her feelings despite still hating him but wanting to kiss him now. Giving Jax reluctant compliments which only freaks Jax out because the way they truly bond is insulting and threatening eachother while Chi, inexperienced with romance tries to do what she sees in movies and books. Compliments, flirts, stuff like that, but Jax is freaked out by that. This isn’t his Chi and he doesn’t like it. It’s not the person who he feels like he can relax and be himself around, he feels like Chi expects him to do the same and he’s kinda scared of that, while Chi on the other hand is scared that if she doesn’t do every single thing about this right, how she sees others do it, Jax will leave her, so she technically changed herself to how she think Jax would like her when, no. He wants his old Chi back. But when they start their relationship they start to go back to their own way of showing affection (threats, strangling eachother, /lh) they do have genuine moments through touch and silence.

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(omg butterfly, Alice reference)

🕹️SpaceInvader💫- doesn’t take them time at all. No awkward time frame where they try to get used to dating since, after they both (mostly only Ash) accepts their feelings they genuinely act like a couple even before they tell each other’s how they feel. They cuddle, hold hands, sleep in each other’s bed, their friends start to genuinely think they’re dating even though Ash and Billy are just being idiots.

👾Mimitchi🥕- a bit. Doesn’t take that long for them to become bitches who are friends to bitches who are now kissing. There is about like…maybe a week? Maaaaaybe more? Where they figure out how to show affection, as previously said. They’re just like how they were as friends but now on adventures they always team up, they sleep in each others rooms, hold hands while walking around, etc. but no big acts or anything. Yes, they become more confident then they were as friends, only after dating does Jax let down his walls and Chi starts to come to Jax when she needs comfort (mostly just cuddling)

[chenkari]

depression whatever

im not sure what to do, i can only pay this month's student loan, then i'm out of money :^) I literally feel like I can't survive working my current job anymore. I've been looking for a new job, but there isn't much up here. I'm hoping the money i get from christmas will be able to cover one more month. I was trying to save what money I had but Venus's vet bill ate up a good chunk of money.

in general i've also just been so depressed. i just can't fucking do anything. i don't know what to do with myself. i don't know what i need to do to be happy. i'm so miserable. i cry every day and i dont know how to stop. I really miss my house. It's like. I have the feeling of wanting to "go home" but there is no home to return to. Once again, I am thankful that my parents are letting me live with them, but this has taken such a huge toll on me.

I was in a therapy group a while ago, and back then my parents were talking about moving, but they said that we would probably move in 2 years. I was comforted by what someone had said, they said that I would probably be a different person in two years. I felt like I would have time to brace myself and come to terms with moving or something. Instead we moved not even a year later. I feel like. Idk. Robbed, in a way. Like I was supposed to have two more years at my home but I didn't get that. Tbh, regardless if we had stayed two years or not, I would probably still be feeling really upset upon moving. But maybe by then I would have been more stable. I don't know.

My friend group has a friend visiting town rn and I would have liked to have gone down and hung out with them already, but it's such a long drive I feel like I should only make one visit down there to save on gas. They also went to the mall and ouuugh i wanted to go so bad but I shouldn't be eating out or anything right now. I think when I do get to see them, it will be good for me because I've been feeling really isolated and alone lately.

[darthsuki]

Adulthood is knowing how to manage your emotions even when things get stressful so that the urge to throw yourself into the ocean doesn’t start sounding *too* appealing

And god almighty am I *managing* them rn

(Venting post below under the readmore but I promise I’m okay, just a lot happening at once)

1. My period is currently Happening which normally isn’t…. Too bad because I take testosterone, however I’ve been having a hard time taking it regularly and it’s the only thing keeping me from having Debilitating Cramps and Nausea(tm). So I’m having said Debilitating Cramps and Nausea(tm) and asked my manager if I could leave early today

2. I was told that I COULDNT leave early today because we have a new hire starting today that I am pseudo in-charge of helping so that’s… great. The new person is our new manager. The position I stepped down from (voluntarily), I am a personal teller in charge of training a new manager.

3. The second banker who is SUPPOSED to be working with me is just. Not here. No call, no text, just not here and I have a sneaking suspicion she just straight up quit, leaving me alone with the new employee (whom is very nice don’t get me wrong) and I am in So Much Pain and trying So Hard not to cry in front of people.

4. I get someone sent over from another branch who is able to help answer questions and I used to work with her and she’s awesome! But she can’t do transactions. I am the ONLY ONE able to do transactions.

5. I am only able to take pieces of my lunch bc anytime someone walks up needing to do a transaction I have to clock back in and help them.

6. There is a possibility that my other teller outright quit and I will be mechanically on my own for almost two weeks until the new hire is even able to touch transactions.

7. The only ray of light is that I might have a job offer tomorrow but I can’t be certain, got my fingers crossed. I’m debating how much notice I even want to give at this rate.

I am so tired. I feel like Satan himself is yanking out my uterus, my knees ache and my back feels like it’s gonna snap and it’s so disheartening to see that the other teller (the no-call one) was able to LEAVE EARLY last week for THE SAME EXACT ISSUE and I am not despite being called such a ‘good worker’— and I was told that BEFORE even realizing there wasn’t going to be another teller with me.

I have genuine health issues that keep being ignored and I’m so tired of it and really just want to be told I got the other job so I can stop feeling so overwhelmed every time something happens here.

(Again, I am in no danger of self-harm or similar, I’m just. It’s a lot rn. I wanna curl up in a corner and take my pain killers but the ones I normally take make me unable to operate normally and would NOT be an option in a bank)

[thequietkid-moonie]

mooniee, hiii~ 🥺❤️

i feel like it's been forever since i texted you, i'm sowwy-- i saw your messages, but i figured i'll just write back one bigger messages rn! :)

first of, i wanna ask how your playthroughs of persona 3 & xenoblade 2 are going! i feel like i'm way too late on this, but hey-- who are your fav characters from each game? and for xenoblade, any favorite rare blades? story blades and the ones from corecrystals! :D

alsoooo, did you see that xenoblade chronicles X got announced? 🥰 i haven't played that one yet but i know a hell lot about that game and can't wait to finally experience it for myself! if you decide to ever get that game, we def need to play it together!! (there's at least a bit of multiplayer in the original X, so i'm assuming it'll return for the X remake/remaster)

anyways, i hope you are doing alright! i missed talking to you & sowwy it took me so long to respond 😔✌🏻 i'm gonna try & reply faster from now on! love ya <3

V-CHAAAAAAN !!! I MISSED YOUUUUU !!!

I been so worried about you but im happy to heard from you 🎉🩷🩷🩷

I'll pry to god for you to have more time for yourself and peace soon 🌸

or fight them, both can work!

Don't worry, im happy now that i finally have news from you! Take your time 🩷🩷

I been enjoying A LOT Xenoblade Chronicles and Persona 3 <333 sadly I haven't get the oportunity to play them myself so im watching a gamplay (a pretty good one because it has almost all the content of the game :D)

I hope one day I can play the games personally, but if Xenoblade Chronicles X has multiplayer I will do everything in my power to get the game <3

i got the news for your post and I was excited too! This is the perfect oportunity to get in the game too, besides Xenoblade Chronicles is PEAK FICTION so i will love to get in the X too!

I already finished the story Xenoblade Chronicles 2 and I! was! in! tears! That fight take too much from us to dont even be the last fight and not even be inside of the world tree!!! Seeing Klaus again make me feel angry but also happy haha, his desing was AMAZING! and the way it conects the story to the first game makes it an absolute masterpiece!

im currently on the Torna the Golden City ✌🏼

For My favorite characters I had to say that in the top of the list is Zeke and Pandy, I absolutely both those two and their dinamyc, having a friendship as caotic as that one is one of the most valuable treasures you can have in life <3 also I like Adam just as much as I love Zeke, both are so silly thats it is even cute and funny, of course Vandhan and Jin will forever live in my heart, and Mikhail, and Akhos, and probably Malos too I love him bit also hate him

I LOOOOVE PYRAA!! im down bad for her, she is incredibly cute <333 im half way to get to know better all the blade but I love how diferent their stories and desings are!! I think i can't choose one a my favorite (but Wulfric is living on my heart and mind, he is way too cute)

For Persona 3 im right after the travel to Kyoto, right in the grief for Chidori 🥺(im still crying) I been enjoying the story a lot! The gameplay is so cool! I love how the importance of the social links <333

For My favorite characters first of all Junpei, I dont know why but I absolutely love him! He is so silly and adorable and dumb and silly 🥺 (he is so cute whenever he is with Chidori <333), i love a lot Ken too, but like my cutie patootie, I love how mature and determinated he is and yet he is still a child, I love him, I will take him as my baby 😺🌸 (also Maiko, she is so cute <3)

I absolutely adole Akihiko but he brings one of the worst part of me, idk why but whenever i saw him i feel the need to be silly and make self-depracation jokes, maybe because he is too serious? haha, Shijiro and and Makoto will live forever in my heart! and Aigis and Fuuka and Elizabeth and Theodore and Rioji and Chihiro and Yuko and Bebe

Haha i think i fell hard for the characters 🤭

[macademilk]

okay so rn in my sims game Morgana got pregnant and Thornton kicked up a fuss like the bitch he is and cheated on her with Jamie Jolina. Morgana peaced right out of there with her new born baby and moved in with her friend Connor Frio. She and Connor fell in love (classic) but also next door you can always hear baby Lucy Ursine crying?? And Claire is out all fucking hours. So Lucy moves in as a toddler, with ZERO relationship with Claire so I'd say that was a great fucking call. Morgana and Connor get married and also have a baby, everyone's living on top of each other but it's fiiiiiine. All going well. Jared is a straight up an A+ uncle, A- dad, doing his freaking best. Goes on one date with Madison Van Watson, they get married immediately :/ because that's the kind of people they are. Honestly they're pretty cute together?? And Madison is a really good step mum to Lucy. But also Connor and Morgana have another baby so it's getting wayyy over crowded. They all move into a new house & life is good!!!! Then at a birthday party Jared Frio CHEATS! I took my eyes off that boy for 1 freaking second istg 😤 Madison looses it at him (as she fucking should) but both of them immediately have to go to work, so they do. Jared decideds he wants to break up with her so when they return home he leaves her, in front of the children!! The baby is fucking traumatised. Madison Frio moves out in the middle of the night without even changing her name. She's got the closest relationship with Lucy out of everyone :(

A few days later Jared went to fix the dishwasher, electrocuted himself and died so oops. Aaaand Morgana is currently pregnant so I guess the next baby is getting a J name.

I can't get over how sad it is for Lucy but her and her cousin (step cousin?) Sienna are getting closer so that's something at least.

[missmassacre]

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Tagged by: @funeralcity  I'm a sucker for these ngl

Last song: If He Holla - Armand Hammer; got into Billy Woods recently and a friend recced his previous duo, and the lyricism constantly blows me away

Favorite color: Red/orange, ever since I saw s-CRY-ed as a kid

Currently watching: Columbo and Star Trek TOS with the wife, and I've been watching Show Me a Hero, all of which I could talk about for an hour. Haven't seen a good anime in a minute tbh, want to watch Big O with the wife next

Last movie: Muppets Take Manhattan. Me and my wife never watched the Muppet movies before and unfortunately the follow ups haven't been as good as the original movie, which was an 11/10

Currently reading: Animorphs. I failed once again to get into Imperial Radch and started these on a whim and they fucking rule, I keep thinking how funny my mental illnesses would have been if I read these as a kid, I would have kinned Rachel so hard it would have been a problem

Sweet/spicy/savory: Savory is king

Relationship status: Coming up on married for seven years, together 12

Current obsessions: Unfortunately I'm between obsessions rn, I've been really struggling to find something new to latch onto and pour my brain in

Last googled: Zac Elrond. Group call was trying to see if anyone had made this joke already and they surprisingly hadn't

Currently working on: Just living man

I never tag anyone in these because I know I am the only sucker for these, but there's some moots I don't know as well and would love to hear from @zendoe @politcallycorrectkeyboardwarrior @gravemushrooms (No pressure tho you guys just seem cool)