#csi 4x16

[lilcathsmith]

Greg Sanders in CSI Season 4 - Greatest Hits

[buildinggsr]

CSI 4.16 | 10.01

[cloneoftheuniverse]

I'm watching CSI: Crime Scene Investigation 4x16 "Getting Off"

[bending-sickle]

Year of 2017

Mental

Self Harm (low then medium then so much)

Anxiety x 35

Lorazepam x 10

Diazepam x13

+ x1 and x2 Tester Doses

Attack x 1 (Apr. 8)

Cry x 88

Days x 69

Lost Day x 4

Compulsive x 15

Insomnia x 2

Intrusive Thoughts x 3

Irritable x 5

Heavily depressed (Sept. 14-18, Nov. 15-19)

Professional Assistance

Psychologist x 7

Psychiatrist x 4

Employment x 11

Unemployment Office x 6

Employment

Interview (Apr. 3)

Work (Apr. 5-10)

Exercise

Pilates x 58

Walk x 99

Run x 6

Swim x 1

Dog Shelter Volunteer x 62

includes walk, run, social

Films

50 Days of Night (2007)

Airplane! (1980)

Arrival (2016)

BBC Earth’s Super Small Animals (2017)

Before the Flood (2016)

Blazing Saddles (1974)

Brave New World (1980)

Bridget Jones’ Baby (2016)

Bridget Jones’ Diary (2001)

Burnt (2015)

Children of the Sex Trade (2014)

Chosen (2008)

Comedy Central Presents Mitch Hedberg (1999)

Confessions of a Serial Killer: Jeffrey Dahmer (1999)

Dahmer (2002)

The Dangerous Few (1995)

Death Becomes Her (1991)

Dr Quinn: Medicine Woman, The Movie (1999)

Dracula: Dead and Loving It (1995)

The Duchess (2008)

Echo of the Elephants: The Final Chapter (2005)

Eddie Izzard’s Force Majeure (2014)

Elle (2016)

Emelie (2015)

Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (2016)

Fences (2016)

Flightplan (2005)

The Girls Who Were Found Alive (2008)

Growing Up Quiverfull: The Duggar’s Destructive Cult (2015)

Hidden Figures (2016)

High Rise (2015)

I Saw the Light (2015)

Inaugural USA Presidential Speech (2017)

Incest: The Last Taboo? (2010)

Indianapolis Museum of Arya’s revealing Garments: A Brief History of Woman’s Underwear (2012)

Inside the Tanks (2017)

It (2017)

It Comes At Night (2017)

Jack and Diane (2012)

Keeping Mum (2005)

The Kidnapping of Elizabeth Smart (20??)

Kill Your Friends (2015)

King Arthur (2004)

La dictadura perfecta (2014)

Legally Blonde: Red, White and Blonde (2003

Lilah and Diane (2015)

The Lost Girls of South Africa (2010)

LSA Summer Institute’s Monolingual Fieldwork Demonstration with Daniel Everett (2013)

Mæn & Høns (2015)

Michael Collins (1996)

Michael Kohlhaas (2013)

Michael Moore in Trump Land (2016)

Minority Report (2002)

Moana (2016)

Mommy Dead and Dearest (2017)

The Muppet Christmas Carol (1992)

Mustang (2015)

My Horse University’s Stinghalt and Shivers Explained (2017)

Natascha Kampusch: 3096 Days in Captivity (2010)

NBC’s Confessions of a Serial Killer: Jeffrey Dahmer (1994)

NBC’s Debra LeFave: Crossing the Line (2006)

Neujahrskonzert: Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra (2017)

The Old Lady and the Pigeons (1998)

On the Trail of Tragedy: The Excavation of the Donner Party Site (1994)

La otra conquista (1998)

Perfectos desconocidos (2017, in cinema)

Picnic at Hanging Rock (1978)

Primus (2011)

Rogue One (2016)

Sarafina! (1992)

The Scapegoat (2011)

Se Dio Vuole (2015)

The Secrets of the Austrian Cellar (2008)

Shell-Shock in WW1 (2013)

Sherlock’s Garbage and Here’s Why (2017)

Simon Amstell’s Do Nothing (2010)

Skyfall (2012)

The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (2003)

Their Finest Hour (2016, in cinema)

Thor: The Dark World (2013)

Thor: Ragnarok (2017)

Too Legit (2016)

Trevor Noah’s Afraid of the Dark (2017)

Trevor Noah’s Lost in Translation (2015)

Victoria and Abdul (2017, in cinema)

Warrior (2011)

White House Correspondent’s Dinner: Hassan Minaj (2017)

Wuthering Heights (2009)

Youth (2015)

Young Hercules: The Movie (1998)

Television

The 100 (1x01, Season 4)

Adventure Time (5x23-5x34, 5x37, 5x40-5x46, 5x48-5x52, Season 6)

Agatha Christie’s Poirot (1x01-1x02, 3x01)

American Crime Story’s The People vs O.J. Simpson 1x10

American Gods (Season 1)

Atlanta (1x01)

Berlin Station (1x08)

Better Call Saul (2x09-2x10)

Between the Sheets (Abridged) (Season 1)

Black Sails (Season 1-4)

Bob’s Burgers (1x02, 2x02, 3x10. 3x20, 4x05, 5x04, 5x10, 6x19, 7x06-7x22, 8x01-8x06)

Buffy the Vampire Slayer (4x21-4x22, 7x02-7x05)

Charlie Brooker’s Wipe (2016)

Children of Crime (1x02)

Community (3x14)

Crime Investigation Australia (1x16)

The Crown (Season 1, Season 2)

CSI: Las Vegas 1x01

The Daily Show (2017)

Des crimes presques parfaits (3x06)

Dexter (Season 1-8)

Dexter: Early Cuts (Season 1-2)

Dr Quinn Medicine Woman (1x15-1x16, 2x01-2x15)

Fear the Walking Dead (1x01-1x02)

Fullmetal Alchemist (#14-24)

Game of Thrones (6x10, Season 7)

Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life (1x01)

The Golden Girls (Season 1-5)

The Great British Bake Off (6x01, Season 7)

Grey’s Anatomy (1x01, 13x10-13x24, 14x01-14x08)

The Handmaid’s Tale (Season 1)

Hannibal (1x01)

The Hollow Crown (1x03-1x04)

Homeland (4x02-4x07, 5x01-5x02)

How to Get Away with Murder (3x11-3x15, 4x01-4x08)

I Survived 2x01-02, 2x05-2x06, 2x10-2x12, 2x15, 3x01

The Impressionists (Season 1)

Kimi Ga Oshietekureta Koto (1x07-1x12)

Last Week Tonight (2017)

The Leftovers (Season 3)

Live at the Apollo (5x05)

The Lizzie Borden Chronicles (Season 1)

La mafia uccide solo d’estate (1x02)

Medium (Season 3, Season 4, Season 5, Season 6, Season 7)

Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries (2x13)

Modern Family (1x01)

Monty Python’s Flying Circus (#24-39)

Mystery Science Theater 3000 (4x24) 

Mugshots (1x06)

Peaky Blinders (Season 4)

Poldark (2x05-2x10, Season 3)

Preacher (Season 3)

Pride and prejudice (Season 1)

Private Practice (1x01-1x02)

Reign (1x01)

The Secret River (Season 1)

Servants: The True Story of Life Below Stairs (Season 1)

The Staircase (Soupçons) (Season 1)

The Staircase 2: Last Chance (Season 1)

Stranger Things (Season 2)

Shadowhunters (1x11-1x12)

Sherlock (4x01-4x02)

Sleepy Hollow (1x07)

The Strain (1x01-1x02)

Supernatural (8x01)

Suits (2x12)

Taboo (Season 1)

Teen Wolf (6x06-6x20)

Trial and Error (Season 1)

The Twilight Zone (#40-44)

Twin Peaks (Season 1, 2x01-2x02)

Vikings (4x16-4x20, 5x01-5x04)

The Walking Dead (7x09-7x16, 8x01-8x08)

Westworld (Season 1)

White Collar (2x09)

Whose Line is it Anyway (Season 13)

Young Hercules (1x01-1x08)

Podcasts

AngloFilles

Common Sense

Kevin and Ursula Eat Cheap

Lore

A Matter of Taste

MonsterTalk

My Brother, My Brother, and Me

My Favorite Murder

Sawbones

Reading

Justice is Blonde by Pollydoodles

Witnessed by Yahtzee

Toxic Parents: Overcoming Their Hurtful Legacy and Reclaiming Your Life (2002) by Susan Forward and Craig Buck

This Book Is Full of Spiders: Seriously, Dude, Don't Touch It (2013) by David Wong

Daughters of Narcisistic Mothers (epub version of the website) by Danu Morrigan

Trigger Warning: Short Fictions and Disturbances (2015) by Neil Gaiman

The Death Cure (2011) by James Dashner

The Tale of Squirrel Nutkin (1903) - Beatrix Potter

Jeffrey Dahmer - Wikipedia Entry

Why Does He Do That?: Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men (2002) - Lundy Bancroft

Crux by bonehandledknife (ladywinter) & primarybufferpanel (ArwenLune)

It's a Neighborly Day in This Beautywood by Masu_Trout

Burning at Both Ends by Seraina (seraina_doom)

The Worm Ouroboros (1922) by E. R. Eddison

A Dark Light (2017) by Nuingiliath

The Face (2003) by Dean Koontz

Pyramids (1989) by Terry Pratchett

The Silence of the Lambs (1988) by Thomas Harris

Dead by Sunset: Perfect Husband, Perfect Killer? (1995) by Anne Rule

What the Hell Did I Just Read: A Novel of Cosmic Horror (2017) by David Wong

Futuristic Violence and Fancy Suits (2015) by David Wong

The Prince by astolat

Snails & Slugs

Snails

Tally = 20 (Feb. 5)

Transfer 

Blue, Pink, and Pastel (hatched Jan. 31) into terrarium (Feb. 19)

Three babies (Dec 19)

New 

Pretty Shell and Broken Shell a.k.a. Osiris (Feb. 24)

Blind Snail (May 8)

Round-Mouthed Snails x 10 (June 5)

Dead

Lucretia (July 6)

Baby Blue (Aug. 19)

Goliath (Sep 5)

Pretty (Sep 12)

Pink (Oct 26)

Osiris (Dec. 16)

Snail eggs 

hatch (Sep 23)

batch (Sept. 13, Sept. 19, Nov. 1)

Slugs 

Tally 

= 8 (Feb. 22)

= 30 (June 19)

Transfer hatchling x1 to terrarium (May 18)

Transfer hatchling x3 to terrarium (June 16)

Transfer hatchling x1 to terrarium (June 13)

Woodlice

x 1 (Apr. 3)

Yellow x1 (June 5)

Earthworms 

Many in April

All gone by July

Bee (Brunhilda) (Apr. 15-16)

Caterpillar

Nesting (Jul 22)

Magpie failed rescue (June 12)

Swallows

Back (Mar. 28)

Nesting (June 2)

Oscar the Caterpillar 

New (Sept 23)

Nesting as a pupae (Sep 24)

Wadjet the glow worm 

New (Nov 20)

Health

Allergies (May 4, May 7, 12, 16, 21, 29, 30, 31)

Blood pressure (Jan. 20 - 119/63; Sep. 9 - 95/58; Sept. 10 - 102/63; Sept. 11 - 102/68)

Dizziness (Jan. 19-20, Apr. 18)

Left Eye

Pinguecula or pterygium (start Sep. 5)

Pain (Dec 28-31, cont.)

Exhaustion (Apr. 17-18, Aug. 24)

G.I. Issues (Jan. 11-12, Jan. 18, Jan. 20)

Sick (stomach flu) (Dec. 8-9)

Joint Pain 

Thumb (starts July 25)

Hand (starts Aug. 12, strong Aug 24.)

Headache (May 9-11)

Insomnia (Aug. 18, 21)

Migraine (Mar. 23)

Periodic Limb Movement (Jan. 22, Jan. 23, Mar. 20, May 8)

Tooth Pain (Aug. 5)

Weight

Other

Art class (Apr. 26-June 21)

Belle and Sebastian Concert (June 18)

Cigarillo x2 (Mar. 9, Sep. 13)

Beach x1

Hair

Cut (Apr. 25)

Henna (Mar. 4)

Dye (May 6)

Bleach (May 28, May 29, May 30)

Dye blue (May 31, June 1)

Cut and dye (Sep. 6)

Cut bangs (Dec. 5)

Nap x5

Social x61

Terrorist Attack (Aug. 17)

Mom’s Eviction Threat (Oct. 28)

Places

Andorra La Vella x1

Barcelona x 11

La Seu d’Urgell x1

Madrid (July 5-8)

Reus x1

Vilafranca x1

Vilanova x 37

Alcohol

Days x 180

Beer x 70

Campari x 12

Cava x 31

Clara x 12

Port x 6

Shots x 8

Tinto de Verano x2

Vermout x 11

Wine x 123

[shirtlesssammy]

On the Head of a Pin: 4x16 Recap

Then:

Dean has angels watching over him.

Now:

Bamf!Cas is out in full force using his powers to stop one of the most annoying sounds in the world: the car alarm. At the scene of a car crash, he finds a fellow angel dead, stabbed through her throat.

For Science:

As the cops arrive, Cas wings his way out of there. The cops look down at the victim and ask, “what the hell?” as the camera pans up to reveal (large, beautiful, oh how we miss them!) wings, charred into the ground. (Man, remember how stoked we all were to see the return of angel wings in season 12? I was enjoying the return to old school continuity, but in reality they were just foreshadowing the fact that we were going to see some wings that SHOULD NEVER BE SEEN.)

Cut to Sam careening down the Lost Highway (yeah, Boris has been watching Twin Peaks this hellatus --can’t not see Lynch’s influence in anything these days) in Baby. Dean wakes from slumber and Sam fills him in on the latest with Ruby. Dean is grumpy, indifferent, but mostly tired. Sam is angry and thinks Dean should follow suit.

They arrive at their motel and find the turn-down service is two dick angels (ok, one dick angel and one slightly rebellious angel). Uriel informs Dean that he’s needed. Dean tells Uriel to back off. Cas tries to reason with him, but Uriel cuts him off, and it’s clear that there’s some tension between the two angels.

Uriel informs the brothers that seven angels from their garrison have been killed by demons. Heaven has Alastair, but they need his student to extract the information from him. “You can’t ask me to do this, Cas. Not this.” Brb, just grabbing ALL THE TISSUES IN THE WORLD for the rest of this episode. Uriel grabs Dean and they’re gone before Sam has time to react.

Once at the angel safehouse, the angels show Dean where Alastair is being held. Dean is adamant that they can’t make him torture Alastair. Cas agrees that it’s too much to ask but, “We have to ask it.” Stare, Stare, Stare, Stare. God, they’re both struggling with this so much. Dean asks Uriel if he can talk to Cas alone, and Uriel leaves to seek revelation. Dean makes a joke. Cas squints and admits that Uriel is the funniest angel in the garrison (ok, Boris 100% slow, but Cas was being dry and sarcastic here, right? He is really the funniest angel, right?) (Natasha: I always took it at face value and angels just have a different sense of humor. And by “angels” I mean Cas.)

*Classic Dialog Alert*

DEAN: What's going on, Cas? Since when does Uriel put a leash on you?

CASTIEL: My superiors have begun to question my sympathies.

DEAN: Your sympathies?

CASTIEL: I was getting too close to the humans in my charge. You. They feel I've begun to express emotions. The doorways to doubt. This can impair my judgment.

Cas tells Dean that he doesn’t want this to happen, but they need it. Dean hears this, and his lip quivers. God Damn It, Jensen. My heart can’t take this. “You ask me to open that door and walk through it, you will not like what walks back out.” Cas simply responds, “For what it's worth, I would give anything not to have you do this.” In all rational honesty, this scene does not get any easier the more one watches it.

Cut to Dean, torture cart in hand, rolling into Alastair’s lock-up. Alastair has a great sense of humor and is singing “Cheek to Cheek” as Dean walks in. He starts laughing, but Dean tells him he has one chance to spill who’s killing the angels. Alastair decides to taunt Dean instead, eventually poking at the festering pain of John Winchester.

Sam, meanwhile, summons his good buddy Ruby to help him locate Dean. Dean’s not strong enough to get the info from Alastair, but Sam is (or will be…) Eck.

Torture break, For Science:

Alastair taunts Dean with the knowledge that John lasted 100 years on the rack, but Dean only lasted 30. I’m really glad I wasn’t in this room because, angel killer be damned, that motherfucker would have gotten a angel/Ruby/Colt blade through the throat/torso/balls so fast. Grr. Dean’s ready to torture though, and admits to dreaming in hell of this very moment. He draws a syringe full of holy water, and Alastair actually looks apprehensive. Framed with hooks and chains, Cas stands by, an audial witness to the pain.

I’m sorry guys, but I think we all need another Science break.

Meanwhile, Ruby does the old fire and map trick to locate Dean. Sam needs a little something-something. Demon blood, guys! (It really is too bad Ruby was a lying, horrible demon. Sam had some serious chemistry with her. Amelia: take notes.)

Dean continues his ministrations, while a water pipe starts to leak, breaking the demon trap. 

Anna arrives in her old vessel. La, la, la, walking right past this possible story/continuity error. Anna questions Cas on why he’s allowing Dean to torture Alastair. Anna implores him to stop this. Cas still holds strong not to question the will of God (my heart). Anna casts doubt in Cas’s heart by questioning if it’s God’s will at all. Dean continues his work. Anna continues to make it clear to Cas that this work that Dean is doing isn’t something that God would want, and what Cas is feeling “is called doubt.” She almost breaks through to Cas, but he tells her to go. As she flaps away, he looks down, with obvious regret in his face. 

Alastair complains that Dean’s not trying hard enough to torture him and casually mentions that Dean has “no idea what he did for Hell.” Dean’s rejoinder is to pour salt deep into his mouth and Alastair hacks on salt and blood. “It was supposed to be your father,” Alastair chuckles. “In the end, it was you. The first time you picked up my razor. That was the first seal.” Dean snarls that he’s lying but Alastair switches to intonation mode and says, “And it is written that the first seal shall be broken when a righteous man sheds blood in Hell. As he breaks so shall it break.”

Dean’s...affected. He turns away in horror, trying to box his emotions in as Alastair tells him Hell’s impending victory is all down to Dean’s own actions in Hell.

Alastair checks on the progress of his leaking pipe and sees that the dripping has worn away one of the lines in Cas’s demon trap. As Dean vows to kill Alastair despite his grim revelations, he turns to find that Alastair is loose. Alastair takes him down with a swift punch.

We cut to some time later with Dean beaten and bloody. Alastair is on the brink of killing him when Castiel busts in with the demon blade. Cas stabs him, twists the knife with his freaky angel mind magic, and he and Alastair have a fun drag-down fight. Alastair gets the upper hand, pins and impales Cas to a post, and begins to mutter a Latin invocation to part Cas from his vessel and send him back to Heaven.

Sam busts in then, having eaten his “spinach” and chucks Alastair against the opposite wall with HIS freaky mojo. “I can kill you with my brain,” Sam might as well have said. While Cas looks on in horror and shock, Sam immolates Alastair.

We cut to Dean in the hospital, breathing tube in and life support machines hissing. Cas peeks in on the hospital room briefly and then takes off again immediately. Sam rushes out into the hallway and angrily demands that Cas heal Dean. When Cas tells him that he’s not allowed to do so, Sam drops the news that Alastair wasn’t the one killing angels.

Cas flaps to join Uriel who is sitting meditatively in a park.

Uriel mutters about the angel attacks. Cas speculates that their garrison is being punished for failing to stop the apocalypse. He worries that the wrath of Heaven is descending on them. Cas heads to Anna and tells her that he’s “considering disobedience.” Cas looks haunted at the prospect. “I don’t know what to do. Please tell me what to do.”

Anna half laughs at his plea. He can’t expect her to lead him in lieu of Heaven. He’s got to think for himself. Cas lowers his head sorrowfully and flaps back to the trap he built in the warehouse. CSI Cas finds the leaky pipe and the broken line, then uses his mojo to turn off the water.

Uriel pops in. “Will you join me?” He’s ready to take our darling, broody Cas under his wing and teach him the ways of his new war - and his departure from Heaven’s orders. Cas questions him on the integrity of the trap and then, without waiting for an answer, he uses their incredibly long relationship as soldiers in arms to beg for the truth.

“The only thing that can kill an angel is another angel,” Uriel says, a blade sliding from his sleeve. (Oh, cocky, naive Uriel...how wrong you are.) Cas demands answers about the murders and Uriel scoffs at the word. He’s been converting angels to his cause. The dead ones are just collateral damage. Uriel complains about humanity’s whining dependency and the angels’ mission to protect them. His new goal is to raise Lucifer from Hell. Lucifer was strong and beautiful and he didn’t bow to humanity. He was on the angels’ side.

Cas demands Uriel’s plans about converting the garrison and Uriel insists that he’ll only kill other garrison members if they don’t convert to his cause to “bring on the apocalypse.” Cas raises soulful eyes. He’s not afraid of his own choices anymore. He smashes his fist into Uriel and sends him flying through a brick wall.

Uriel and Cas exchange blows and tear down the warehouse as they do it until Uriel gets the upper hand. “I still serve God,” Cas protests, kneeling bloodied before Uriel.

“There is no will. No wrath. No God.” Uriel growls (dropping actual truth bombs) as he prepares to kill Castiel.

Anna stabs him in the throat from behind.  “Maybe. Maybe not. But there’s still me.” Yeah, Anna!

Later in the hospital room Cas asks a slightly more recovered Dean, “Are you alright?” It’s definitely a question that applies to both of them. The unspoken answer is nope. Not in the tiniest bit.

Cas drops the bomb that Uriel is dead and that he was working against Heaven and the other angels. Dean asks if it’s true that he started the apocalypse by breaking the first seal. “When we discovered Lilith’s plan for you we laid siege to Hell.” So...yep, it’s true.

“Why didn’t you just leave me there then?” Dean asks, self-loathing dripping off the screen like black goo.

“It’s not blame, it’s fate,” Cas tells him, finally laying Heaven’s cards on the table (at least as far as he knows). “The righteous man that begins it is the only man that can finish it.” He tells Dean that he has to stop the apocalypse. No pressure, man.

Dean is understandably a little overwhelmed and presses Cas for more details about what the hell that’s supposed to mean. While Cas looks on sorrowfully he says, “I can’t do it, Cas. It’s too big. Alastair was right. I’m not all here. I’m not strong enough. I guess I’m not the man either of our Dads wanted me to be.” Heart. Breaks.

Quotes: You guys don’t walk enough; you’re gonna get flabby.

Uriel is the funniest angel in the garrison.

I’m considering disobedience.

Strange how a leaky pipe can undo the work of angels when we ourselves are supposed to be the agents of fate.

[some1foundme]

Chicago PD fic: More Than Meets the Eye

Title: More Than Meets the Eye

Summary: A series of post-ep missing scenes between Halstead and Lindsay.  Begins with 3X11 “Knocked the Family Right Out” and will continue through season four. Spoilers up to the current episode 4X16 “Emotional Proximity” (will continue to change as episodes air)

A/N: This is my first foray into writing Linstead.  I’ve been writing Olicity for a couple of years and before that I tackled House, CSI and NCIS.  But I’ve recently started watching Chicago PD and I have to admit, I was immediately hooked and have now binged the first three seasons and am completely caught up… and more than a little in love with Linstead.  Let me know what you think please!

Read on AO3 or ff.net.

Knocked the Family Right Out

The panic strikes hot and fast the minute that he sees the name on the lease.  Tawny Darren.  Their second victim is somehow involved in all of this.  And Erin is with her right now.  Alone.

The second the words are out of his mouth, they’re rolling out.  He’s barely keeping it together.  He knows he needs to.  For the sake of the team.  For Erin. He’s no good to her if he can’t keep his head on straight.  She’s smart. Strong, resourceful, resilient. He knows she doesn’t need to be rescued, not often, but the thought of her walking into a trap - one set by a man who raped a fourteen year old girl – sends his protective instincts into overdrive. She’s a good cop, his partner, but she’s also the woman that he loves.

He rides shotgun while Antonio drives.  She doesn’t answer any of his calls and with every moment that ticks by, his heart falls further into his stomach.

“Lindsay’s phone is still at that location.”                      

He takes little comfort in Mouse’s statement and calls out the next turn.

It takes eight long minutes before they’re on the scene.  He doesn’t even wait until the truck is fully stopped before he’s out and making his way to the front door, gun drawn.  Atwater and Ruzek are with him, flanking him up the walk.  When he pushes the door open, they separate, Kevin to the left and Adam to the right, leaving Jay to head up to the second floor.

He takes the stairs as quickly as he dares, not willing to spook any of their perps, but the sounds of a struggle make his feet move faster.  He bursts into one of the bedrooms and has to swallow the fury that immediately attempts to smother him.  She’s bound and gagged, her eyes wild as they seek him out, and everything in him is screaming for her.  But Ty Hanley is there with a knife to her throat and Jay knows that there’s only one way for this to end.

“Drop the knife!”

Hanley grabs her, angling her like a shield in front of him, and presses his blade harder to the delicate skin of her neck.

“Walk out now!”

“Drop it!”

“You wanna see her neck sl –“

He doesn’t think, doesn’t hesitate.  He pulls the trigger, dropping Hanley with a single shot.  His body goes slack and Erin rolls away from him.  She’s trembling and he can barely hear her terrified whimpers over the ringing in his ears.  He crosses the room in two quick strides, pulling the gag from her mouth before getting to work on her bindings.

“You alright?  You okay?”

She’s gasping when she answers, her voice shaking.

“S- Spence and Tawney are here.”

He radios the team.

“Antonio, one offender down, find the other two!”

And then his focus shifts to her, only her.  As soon as she’s free, she’s in his arms.  He tucks her beneath his chin and clings to her as if she’s going to slip away from him.  He feels the tiny tremors that wrack her body, feels her fingers twisting in the material of his jacket, and he wishes he hadn’t let her come alone.

“Erin, are you alright?”

His voice is hoarse, the anxiety slithering its way into his throat tightening his vocal chords, and he wonders absently if maybe he’s actually the one trembling.  She moves away, only as far as he’ll let her go, and the sight of blood splattered across her face turns his stomach.  Even if it isn’t her blood.

She nods and tries to smile but it doesn’t reach her eyes.

“I’m fine.”

He sighs and pulls her back to his chest, closing his eyes and breathing properly for the first time since he’d seen Tawny’s name on that damn lease.  

He holds her hand as he leads her down the stairs, helps her into her coat where it had been left in the dining room, and follows her out onto the street.  He finds napkins in the glovebox of their car, handing them to her and gesturing silently to her face.  

Antonio comes out then, guiding Tawny roughly from the house.  He catches Jay’s eye, glancing questioningly at Erin, and Jay nods once before taking Tawny off his hands.  He’s almost got her to the car when Kevin and Adam roll up with Spence cuffed in their backseat.  He hears Erin’s question to the kid, hears him accuse Tawny of arranging all of it, and before any of them can stop her, she’s whirling towards them.  She hisses at her, her voice menacing, and when Tawny has the balls to spit in her face, Erin throws a punch that knocks the other woman back into Jay.  Antonio grabs Erin before she can really lose it and for a split second – even though he won’t admit it – he’s proud of his girl for taking that swing.  It’s twisted what these three have done and not a single one of them has shown any sign of remorse.  He’s not in the least bit sorry that one of them is dead.

The ride back to the district is filled with a tense silence.  Tawny is cuffed in the back of their car.  Erin’s dark sunglasses hide her eyes.  Neither of them speak.  So when he finds her alone a while later in the break room, he takes the opportunity to reassure himself one last time that she’s really okay.

“You alright?”

She sighs and shrugs and looks down into the coffee she’s just made for herself.

“Yeah.”

The tightness in his chest loosens just a little.

“Promise me one thing? Never go in without back up again.”

She gives him a small, sad smile and nods.

“Yeah.”

“I mean it.  Not even for a parking ticket.  That goes for all of us.”

She takes one step then another until she’s close enough to set her hand on his forearm.  

“I’m already kicking myself. It’s just, that girl… I – I bought it.”

He shakes his head and twists his arm where she’s grasping it until he can reciprocate, wrapping his fingers around her elbow and anchoring her the way she’s always anchored him.

“Hey, we all did.”

They stay connected for a long, silent moment.  There are so many things he wants to say to her.  They’re still in the very early stages of this relationship and even though they’ve been on the cusp before, he doesn’t want to push her.  He doesn’t want to scare her.  And he’s sure that he would if he told her everything that he’d been thinking today.  He’d been terrified that he was going to lose her.  He doesn’t let himself think too hard about the future he’d imagined with her and how worried he’d been that it was all going to be ripped away from him so suddenly.  He certainly isn’t ready to tell her that he loves her even though he’s known for a long time that he does.

“Okay.  Lecture over.  You want to get a beer?”

She chuckles, that raspy sound that never fails to send a shiver down his spine, and squeezes his arm.

“Definitely.  But I’ve got some good news to deliver first. Meet you at your place in an hour or so?”

“Sounds good.  I’ll see you later.”

Erin just gives him a nod before stepping out of the room, leaving him to watch her go.  And he does.  He watches her walk away from him and he lets her because he knows that she’s okay.  She survived, like she always does, and he’ll see her again soon.

[tallskinnyvanillalatte]

CSI NY 4x16

So, the episode is mirrored and the sound is slightly off. It’s too slow. I could speed it up a bit and now it sounds a tad too quick but that’s better than too slow. 

aww bb :(

a hug is always a good idea

Oh my God. Who is this woman and why is she in Danny’s apartment barely wearing any clothes. Oh my God it’s the neighbor.

“Since I shot my boyfriend two years ago, I don’t have people over.” aww bb :( I love that they mentioned this though.

“I’m glad you’re okay.” awww. also that’s such an important thing to say.

Lindsay and Danny are breaking my heart :(

“He’s coming home” I’m not crying you are

[lilcathsmith]

Greg in every episode of CSI (78/328) • Getting Off •

[lilcathsmith]

Crime Show Meme - CSI: Miami insp [2/5 characters]

-> Alexx Woods (portrayed by Khandi Alexander, 2002 - 2009)

[buildinggsr]

Shout out post for Grissom who, after 20 years, keeps trying but...meh...Sara. Married since day 1.

CSI 1.16 | 2.15 | 3.03 | 4.16 | 4.23 | Immortality | CSI:Vegas 1.02

[buildinggsr]

If you need to hold on to something, hold on to me. - Sara Sidle

CSI 3.09 | 4.10 | 4.16 | 9.10 | Immortality | CSI:Vegas 1.03

[coping-via-clint-eastwood]

Good GOD Gil... 🙃

I haven't watched Vegas yet. I came here just because I saw "shout out post for Grissom" I'm trash, I know Will probably come back and yell about it when I've watched the episodes and have gotten context.

Shout out post for Grissom who, after 20 years, keeps trying but…meh…Sara. Married since day 1.

CSI 1.16 | 2.15 | 3.03 | 4.16 | 4.23 | Immortality | CSI:Vegas 1.02