#csa trigger

[kevingayimeanday]

My absolute favourite piece of discourse started by the extra content is whether or not Andrew smiles again. Nora says no, however, he’s fictional and whatever happens after the end of the series is just headcanon, regardless of whether or not it’s the author saying it.

Anyway, my not so hot take is that a lot of people (myself included) relate to Andrew. Whether we’re survivors of csa, former/current foster kids or just struggle with mental health in general, a lot of people in the aftg fandom get it and have been in a (maybe not quite so) dark place like Andrew. Part of what makes Andrew fabulous, despite all his horrible actions, is his ending. He’s got Neil, a family, a future and he’s a massive symbol of hope for those of us who relate. So, I think he does learn to smile again, even if it’s a decade later. Because I want to keep that hope that things do get better and it’s possible to heal. It might not be realistic, but neither is anything that happens in the series. One day I want to be happy too, and if I want to project the idea of healing and having a happy family and a good support system onto a five foot tall fictional man I will.

[cvtting-k1tty]

Did you guys know that sometimes subconsciously after experiencing sexual abuse the brain will basically get you to eat less or more in the hopes that your body will become unattractive to your abuser?

[eugenoid-draws]

Thinking about how little bodily autonomy Daan possessed his whole life

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[shaunashipman]

I'm gonna fucking vomit.

they put the fic in my inbox.

I already have them blocked and they got one of their friends to put that shit in my inbox. I never clicked on the fic I just used the skin to block it, so I didn't even realize what it was for the first few sentences.

I'm literally fucking crying rn, and I don't cry. these people are sick. fuck you hunybody. fuck you thatbuddie. fuck everyone else who is downplaying this.

this is the 2nd piece of pedophilia that has been put in my inbox. I'm not even counting the one accusing tommy of being a pedophile.

I don't even know what to say anymore. I haven't turned anon off because I've got I don't trigger as easily as some and figured it was better to just block and report, but I think I'm gonna have to.

fuck I'm genuinely shaking

[blacknidstang]

Things that drive me insane is when ppl want sam to be the innocent normal one with less trauma and in the process completely brush off azazel's entire csa coded storyline + demons trying to kidnap and groom sam. Sorry it's just kinda sorta upsetting when you take Sam's feeling of being unclean and dirty and needing to run away to establish some ounce of control in his life and make it only about john abusing dean. It's kinda wretched actually.

[mazzystar24]

“ why do some people call out or talk about dumb and lesser fandom drama but haven’t spoken about those anonymous fics”

I beg you with all my fucking heart to muster up two braincells and use them

I haven’t gotten this hate directly but I keep seeing posts either saying it or ppl having it said to them

You are claiming to understand what’s so disgusting and vile abt what the person who wrote those did but you’re here not taking two seconds to think hmm maybe the dumb and lesser stuff is easier to talk about for more people than those fics?

Lemme throw some bullet points and break it down into little words for some of these absolute fucking idiots:

• you’re always gonna find more people willing to talk about the little discourse than the harder to talk about topics especially in fandom spaces

That doesn’t make them a bad person for it because

1. Everyone has their boundaries

2. Everyone has their own shit and no one should be having to sit there and tell you they’re traumatised to get you to back off

3. This is again a fandom space by not talking about it they aren’t disadvantaging or not spreading awareness abt or supporting any causes by making a post saying what others have already said a thousand times over which is that those fics were a disgusting thing to do

4. “ oh but you’ve pointed out racism/homophobia/misogyny and this thing and that” again see all those points but also like this is like someone saying don’t be racist and then someone going oh wow so they talked about how ppl shouldn’t be racist but not about how ppl shouldn’t be sexist so they must mean being sexist is acceptable

5. Again it’s not like everyone was super quiet about it like I saw all the outrage on here and it was being served toward that anonymous writer from BOTH sides, no one on either side as far as I can tell agrees with that shit so stop saying shit like oh they were a buddie fan

So fucking what? I’m sure i have the same music taste as some murderers but that doesn’t make me a murderer? Get a grip honest to fucking god

6. Also that fucker was living for the attention that’s why they kept making more with mocking bios and shit

That’s all the angry rant for today guys🫡

[bcitisthelight]

hey remember when we were discussing how weird the whole cliegg thing is in AOTC. and you had thoughts, feelings and emotions. tell me about those XOXO

(Big TW for this post - I discuss human trafficking, sex trafficking, rape, child abuse, slavery, and PTSD in this post. It's about the realities of slavery and Tatooine and how it involves the Skywalkers.) Something that I almost never see in any discussion on the Lars family is how sharply the fanon headcanons and characterizations of diverge from the ones we get in the moves. Like, particularly Cliegg and the prequel trilogy. Like - I feel like there's this automatic assumption that the Lars loved Shmi and that they cared for Luke out of dedication to her and her family, and it's this huge found family vibe but like can I be real. Can I be super real right now. It’s something that I find kind of baffling, because when I watched Attack of the Clones, and on every rewatch since (and there have been many), it always seems kind of obvious to me that Cliegg bought Shmi as a slave, presumably as a house slave, if not outright as a part of sex trafficking. And I don't mean in one of those "He bought her to free her, he's a good guy, etc etc". I mean, he bought her as a slave with the original intention of keeping her as a slave. And what's really interesting, is you can get pretty much all the clues about that from the exchanges between Anakin has with Watto, his and Shmi's former master.

Again, I want to stress that, because I think it's crucial that we see this for what it is - not an exchange between a former employee and his boss, not an exchange between a kid and a member of his former community. His former slavemaster. The man who won him and his mother in a gambling game like so many fancy necklaces. The source and object of Anakin's childhood enslavement. Watto would have beaten them. He made Anakin, a child of 9 - and I read somewhere once that Anakin started in the races at 6 - ride in a pod race that no human has ever won before, with the full expectation that he would die. This is a being whose entire life has revolved around the certainty that society is not only capable of functioning, but functions best, when sentient beings can be bought and sold like property. And, to be real with you, because this is a thing that happens to people who suffer enslavement, he very likely loaned them out temporarily for sex trafficking purposes for a quick buck - a practice that is noted historically in virtually every society that operated on a system involving slaves.

It's important to recap that, because I do think it's impossible to understand how deeply horrifying the conversation they have is without that context. Like, let's look at how he tells Anakin about Shmi -

This scene is....so telling to me. From the outset, Watto said he sold her as a slave. Like, it was a slave exchange. Watto heard about her freedom later - clearly, Cliegg bought her, and behaved in a way - intentional or not - that Watto believed he was buying her as a slave to own as a slave. That part is not subtext, that's just actual text.

"But Mikhayla" some will say "he freed her the second he bought her - he bought her in order to free her." Except....there is genuinely nothing in the movies, and off the top of my head, the wider narrative, that ever indicates that that's true. In fact it makes no sense in that case, for Watto to have not known that Cliegg was buying her in order to free her. Why would he have to hide that? Watto presumably doesnt care what happens to her, because he's selling her. In the larger materials, its said that his shop fell on hard times, and in the movies, we can see the proof. The script says he's sitting outside his shop, but at that point it resembles more of a kind of beaten down stand. He's still selling junk, but less and of poorer quality - presumably, he's spent all his money on gambling debts. And the thing is, slaves are expensive. He sold her years prior, and I bet he fed himself on that money for a very long time - he was a very motivated seller, as barbaric as that language is to use about a transaction involving a human person. He's not going to be fussy over why the person buying her wants to buy her. There's also the fact that this is a society that vastly runs on slavery, and large plantation owners would often "rent" out slaves to smaller but still profitable farms. And Cliegg is a moisture farmer with presumably a large tract of land for water vaporizers. If anything, I can see Watto having rented Shmi to her, Cliegg taking a liking to her, and then approaching Watto to buy her. I mean, if he's profitable enough to just buy a slave, then he clearly had at least some money. "He spent his whole savings!" Show me that in the text. "He loved her from the start!" Show me that in the text. "But Mikhayla," yet others will say, "he did free her! And then married her! He clearly meant from the start to free her, and only bought her to get her away from Watto. He could have never seen her as property. Who would marry their slave?" Except, in the real world, this is...another thing we see across multiple historical records, masters buying women as slaves and then later freeing them in order to legally marry them. PARTICULARLY in societies that operate so heavily on an entire caste system involving slaves - we can look to the Roman Empire, for example. Countless Roman officials, merchants, and military officials bought women, fell in love with them, and freed them in order to marry them. "But maybe she said yes!" (I know these are not your objections, but as you know, I'm an attorney, which means I constantly have to find an argument to fight against). So, to this imaginary detractor I say: I feel like it should be rather obvious, but I'll say it just in case - it is impossible for a slave to consent to any action they perform at the request of a slave master. It cannot happen. A woman who is enslaved cannot consent to marrying the man who bought her, and who has very likely been raping her up until this point, and wants to now marry her - usually, to make any children he had by her legally his children, and therefore citizens, rather than slaves themselves.

So really, whether or not Cliegg had a change of heart doesn't actually change my mind about his actions towards Shmi. I don't care if Cliegg DID love her - in fact, I'm sure he DID love her. People can and have convinced themselves of all kinds of moral superiority, people can claim to love someone while owning them as property! Shmi could never consent to marrying a man who held her as a slave. Even if he freed her, and she willing chose to stay there for a few years, and then he asked her to marry him. In my head, you can't overcome that power imbalance. Cliegg will never not be a man who once believed Shmi was a thing to be owned. He will never be a man who didn't see her as property. Like, at some point, it actually becomes kind of more and more unlikely that this is a guy who took up this transaction for non-malicious purposes. Because we simply do not see it in the movie. What I see in the movie is a slave owner saying he fell on hard times and sold his slave to a farmer who probably needed help on his land or in his house - he has no wife, so the latter is probably more likely. I see him saying that at the time of the transaction, he had no idea that Cliegg intended to free her. And for all that Cliegg calls Shmi his darling, his love, his wife - not once do we ever hear of any evidence that Shmi saw this as a love match. In fact, the only thing we find out about her daily life with the Lars family is that in the mornings, she wakes up early and goes to pick mushrooms. You know. A task for the house. An unpleasant task, done before everyone else is awake, that she does absolutely alone. I'm just saying. These implications are not good ones. I will say though, for all this, do you know what really sells me on the idea that the relationship between Shmi and Cliegg is is not a consensual one, is Anakin's reaction to it. This is a boy whose entire hopes and dreams have revolved around his mother's freedom. You have more excellent writing than me on this, but the moral injury Anakin suffers leaving his mother behind is. Intense. All he wants is to one day free her. In a way, a part of him is always that tiny boy who couldn't bear the idea of leaving behind his mom, who swore, the last time he saw her, that he would free her. And at this moment, all of his dreams have seemingly come true! His mother is free. According to Watto, she's found love, and married. For all he knows, she's had other children. Maybe that could involve SOME complicated emotions, but mostly you would expect that he would feel, at the very least, relieved. Happy. Interested, curious. Instead, this is his reaction:

He's grim, business like. He is not happy. He is not relieved. He doesn't even seem to acknowledge that she's still alive - the way he reacts is not a man who thinks his mother is out of danger. To Anakin, who grew up enslaved until 9 and knows how this society works, it seems almost immediately apparent that the Lars are just a different kind of danger. There's also this rather interesting detail:

This is a boy who bleeds, every second of every day, longing for a family. He basically begs at obi-wan's feet day and night, to be acknowledged as a son. His reaction to his wife's pregnancy is radiant joy - his reaction to know she could die, profound existential horror. I mean good god, he basically turns Palpatine aka Satan Himself into a father figure, because he's that desperate for one. And here, this man is claiming him as his family. He's talked about being excited to see him. He talks about planning with Shmi to meet him. He calls him "son". And Anakin doesn't give him another moment of his time, the second those words are out of his mouth. It's silence. For a boy who is so starved for intimacy he genuinely falls in love with the very first girl who was ever nice to him, to react to a claim of relationship this way. It's bizarrely out of character for him. Unless it isn't. UNLESS he's disgusted by that claim, instead of relieved by it. If he thinks his mother has been bought and then forced into marriage, of course he hates Cliegg. I remember when we were watching the movie together, and remember I said to you "You can just tell Anakin is thinking, 'Call me son one more fucking time'" And can I be real, I have so much more to say about this. As you know, I actually have essays of opinions and feelings about Shmi Skywalker and her horrible life, and how Anakin was the one bright point she had in that horrible life. I have feelings about how she gave away her only happiness, because she knew he did not deserve the life of a slave. I had ideas about how you could turn this into a way to actually fix AOTC and make it better, a way you could use it as an excuse to get rid of the Tusken arc entirely without losing the tragedy of his mother's death. But this post is already so fucking long and I'm sure you're tired of me talking xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[eddiebuckley-diaz]

Severely disappointed in this fandom. The lack of respect for actors and crew members is absolutely disgusting. To now also making this fandom extremely unsafe for others is abhorrent. Placing works on a site tagged to be positive for a pairing only to actually be triggering especially geared to CSA against a canonically gay character and aiding in the stereotypes that older gay men are predators is unbelievably damaging, cruel, and triggering. People should be so ashamed of themselves and yet they won’t be. There is little we can do about the situation unfortunately, but we can work to make certain spaces safe starting with the blogs on here.

Please know that this blog is a safe space for any one of you. I am here to support you and am here if you need to reach out to someone. I know this content is going to be especially triggering for others so please reach out if you need support.

Much love ❤️

[nothing0fnothing]

My mom always used to tell me that I was so much more mature than the boys my age because "girls mature faster" and always told me to date older when I started dating.

The men in my family would tell me that the best way for me to succeed was to 1) get really thin 2) get really hot 3) marry an elderly man months from death 4) inherit his money after he died.

Constant discussions about how I shouldn't be dating teenage boys because teenage boys "only want one thing" and I should be waiting to date till my mid 20s when they've "calmed down".

But yeah it was totally my fault when a man in a position of power over me in his late 20s started dming me when I was 13 and I thought it was normal.

[fagbearentertainment]

Scrolling thru old emails of comments from the troll lancer fangirl yt channel I made when I was 13, I think this is the person that threatened to kill me and made me super paranoid for like a year I forgot about that lol

Bro rly called a 13 year old a child molester for shipping their oc with a fictional character wtf 😭😭😭

[nerves-nebula]

ACTUALLY child abuse isn't sad and serious. i mean it's sad and serious but it's not JUST those things. it's also HILARIOUS. it's SILLY. it's illogical it makes no fucking sense! it can seem so surreal that it makes you laugh at how ridiculous it is. and child abuse belongs in happy stories, CSA belongs in silly stories too !! because CSA doesn't prevent you from being silly or having a good silly time and im. sooo normal about this. im not angry. i'm soooooo normal.

[psychic-waffles]

cw rape, csa, attempted suicide

Ice dancer Liu Xinyu's instagram was hacked, posting images and statements accusing him of the following:

Statuatory rape

Rape of a minor

Taking nude photos of victims for blackmail

Emotional abuse - leading one victim to try and commit suicide

Embezzeling funds (in which Shiyue is also implicated)

Bribing referees

The images in question have all now been taken down from his insta but you can find threads translating/summarising the posts on twitter below the cut, as well as details of a previous allegation of rape of a minor that was supposedly covered up.

I won't link a specific weibo posts because they keep getting taken down but you can find a lot of screenshots of the original instagram posts by searching the tag #多部门已介入核查柳鑫宇自曝事件#

Xinyu hasn't made any statement about the allegations other than himself and Shiyue posting that the account was hacked and that the police have been contacted.

According to weibo various investigations are now taking place.

I really don't know what to say other than I feel sick to my stomach right now.

[milkyspine]

— gynecologist, room 202

[fangsup-cobrastyle]

You know, I'm getting real fucking sick of hearing about how we need to "protect our children" by banning books and exterminating trans people surrounded by killing all of the children in Palestine and all these stories about kids being abused/molested and kids getting shot in the streets or in school.

They don't give a shit about "the children" and it's obvious now that they never have.

[randomestfandoms-ocs]

Vaella Targaryen & Alicent Hightower ✤ Golden Crown Of Sorrow 

“I did not need a child, Mother, I was a child.  I had not yet finished my very first courses when you had me wed to Aemond, our sheets stained by my moon blood, not my maidenhead.  And rather than offer your reassurances or any maternal care, you invited the lords of Westeros to watch, to ensure that my older brother would force himself upon me rather than try to protect me, even from himself.  I lost my baby, if you’ve forgotten, too young and fragile myself to support another life within me, and I almost lost my own life in the birthing bed – and I am rather certain that had they asked you, rather than my husband, you would have sacrificed my life in an attempt to save a child who was never to live in the first place.  And yet ever since that day, rather than concern yourself with my wellbeing or my grief, you have only ever attempted to force me to endure the same suffering, to risk my life as well as that of a child, all to satisfy your own desire for as many heirs as possible to challenge my own sister for a throne that Aegon does not even want.” 

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