#crying in shin soukoku

[ssaraexposs]

Two birds on a wire

One says:

The other says:

[sad-emo-dip-dye]

[starlightshadowsworld]

Just saw a comment that said in that moment Akutugawa realised someone thought he deserved to live.

I’m done.

No because… because Akutugawa like Atsushi has always wanted that kind of approval.

And Atsushi may not have died but even he knew it was all a hunch at that point when he pushed Akutugawa aside.

He saved him.

Used his own words against him because back on the boat Akutugawa decided that Atsushi deserved to live.

And now Atsushi’s decided he should too.

[mikayuumouse]

Atsushi saw Akutagawa's past. He learned about Akutagawa's trauma. He knows how Akutagawa was treated, how he was taught, what he was put through.

He understands Akutagawa now

He fully sees Akutagawa for his humanity now

Atsushi has seen Akutagawa's darkest, most vulnerable side now

And that's just so...

I can't even put it into words oh my God, their relationship is so complex and heartfelt I'm screaming

I have a feeling that Akutagawa doesn't mind Atsushi seeing his past, seeing him at weakest, lowest point

I think their trust runs deeper than that

Also Akutagawa isn't alone anymore. Nor is Atsushi, because they have each other. Akutagawa has someone who knows and tells him he isn't weak, Atsushi has someone who can be by his side and save him. I feel like without each other they aren't complete

[gothicmatter]

atsushi really didn't stop until he gave akutagawa his full autonomy back. he nearly got himself killed for trying back when akutagawa was a vampire and now he literally sacrificed himself for it. he truly doesn't want akutagawa to lose to himself. i'm ill. I'M ILL

[denkies]

And when Akutagawa calls Atsushi a fool before kissing him when they reunite? What then ???

[sskk-manifesto]

[that-willowtree]

in every other universe I have you. that’s enough. that has to be enough.

(but i want you in this one)

[lowlightsahead]

Oh oh you're killing me

You're killing me

[aethellren]

so tender, so vulnerable, so painful

[ssaraexposs]

He's so happy to see his partner again

[sad-emo-dip-dye]

I’m starting to think that line Harukawa said about akutagawa becoming prettier and more human-like in the series as Atsushi’s perception of him changes also applies in reverse cause what do you mean Akus memories came back and Atsushi looked like That

[starlightshadowsworld]

No because Akutagawa when he’s at his most powerful, when he’s achieved “true strength.” That is the moment that he’s powerless to save not only hinself.

But also Atsushi.

Akutagawa got everything he ever wanted. And in the process he lost not only himself. But the person that mattered the most to him.

Atsushi didn’t just save his life then either, he bought his memories back. He saved him without even using his ability to do it.

And Akutagawa with all the strength he has can’t even reach him.

[formiito]

everything about shin soukoku makes me sick

atsushi seeing akutagawa in a position so deeply relatable to him and seeing that glimmer of humanity behind the exterior of a fighter and actively sacrificing himself for that small hope. he who constantly believes in akutagawa's humanity despite the world that burns around them, he who gives him the chance while taking away his own-

atsushi seeing dazai through akutagawa's lens for the first time and the knowledge that akutagawa does not merely choose to be like this but that it's the only option ever left for it is so ... (sounds of crying)

their similar situations giving them an understanding such as that, in typical circumstances, only they could have for themselves, by witnessing akutagawa's past for himself

how does it feel to know someone like you do yourself? how does it feel to watch that suffering, understand it, see through it and yet still have hope for more? what kind of faith does it take to not only see that hope but throw yourself in the jaws of death for it?

nothing about them is casual and i love it but they have ripped my heart from its chest and im gonna cry need them to be alright and happy and together in a better timeline where everything is alright so bad im crying

[mikayuumouse]

THE LATEST CHAPTER OH MY GOD?? OH MY FUCKING GOD????

Asagiri I love you 🙏

Okay so like

Pls I'm still processing everything oh my GOD what the what just happened like oml THE ATSUSHI DEVELOPMENT HELLO?? THE DAZAI DELUSION REVEAL???

and tHE SSKK

DO NOT GET ME STARTED ON THE SSKK

ATSUSHI SAW AKUTAGAWA'S PAST NOW?? THEY HAVE A DEEPER UNDERSTANDING NOW??? AND LIKE

UENGDNVSGKEJGSSGJDGJDJHSFHFS FOAMING AT THE MOUTH RN

okay so like

is Akutagawa maybe actually kinda really in love with Atsushi??

AAAAAAAAA I LOVE THEIR RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC AND GROWTH

This chapter was full of new things aistidvmufsitshffj oml Atsushi Atsushi Atsushi my baby oml I'm still trying to figure everything out like I have two braincells rn oml I love this chapter though AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i am unwell

[whisperingfool]

this is the end of me. this is it. im done. akutagawa regained his memories thanks to atsushi's sacrifice. a real sentence im writing. what the hell.