#cr-10

[laurasbailey]

[deep-swamp-bog]

So I've been thinking about Vesper and her siblings because of the episode. And doing some quick math Vesper is canonically 30 years old. And the way that Matt described the rest of the kids, they're All teens besides Gwen, who is a literal child. Which basically means that means Vesper lived the majority of her youth, the first 10ish maybe 12 of her life, AS AN ONLY CHILD before a rapid onslaught of siblings just started POPPING OUT. The amount of whiplash that this POOR KID experienced CRAZY.

[g1ngerbeer]

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[chaosgenasi]

How do you grapple with a sense of deep indebted onus? I literally pledged myself to one of the worst people I've ever met, to work for them for years, for a bunch of people I haven't seen since.

[big-moon-little-moon]

a list of people (and non-people) who know Imogen and Laudna are dating as of episode 72 (two months after the kiss)

Chetney

Paté de Rolo, Laudna's dead rat familiar

Ulli, a skysailing instructor from Zephrah

Deanna, because she has absolutely scryed on them and put two and two together

F.R.I.D.A., because Deanna was very excited and told them

Zhudanna, because she thought they were a couple this whole time

Bruda, a cursed pirate skeleton lady with a gambling problem

[verkomy]

bells hells meeting the mighty nein is the best thing that ever happened to me

[vextech]

deeply adore vex being such a solid rock for keyleth

[heart-heart-heart]

I want to thank Aabria, Aimee, Marisha, Ashley and Laura for shipping Dorym so much on the cast—truly their reactions to Dorym moments are cathartic.

When Orym was watching Dorian sleep, Marisha's reaction was basically my own until the moment was cut off by Sam's joke lol.

[rightpastnowhere]

more thoughts on TLOVM season 3 episode 3. still insane.

PART TWO: that TLOVM perc'ahlia scene, mostly in terms of its TLOVM context, with some campaign 1 comparisons

spoilers below the cut for TLOVM AND campaign one moments that will likely happen this season lol

her initiating this fling is fascinating to me. we all know vex has a fear of commitment and being hurt by relationships right? EXCEPT!! except, i think this is her trying to deal with that. which is insane but it makes sense for her in TLOVM. To Me.

cause like. in the first two episodes we have MULTIPLE close calls with percy, which are technically happening all in the same day?? and you have vex, who's admitted to a creepy fey and herself that her heart is not her own, who takes these, processes these, and says, "thinking i lost him even now was awful; if i start a relationship with him, it will only hurt me 100 times worse in the end. so i'll just fuck him casually and pretend i have no emotions about it whatsoever."

which i think can have TWO possible explanations, yknow beyond the way she's afraid of relationships and considering herself a bad omen - explanations that explain why sex is a line she's willing to cross before emotional confession, almost instead of it, whereas in the campaign she won't cross either.

one: she's trying to convince herself that she can just. make it casual. force it into something different, choke the feelings down until they fade away eventually. i don't have as many thoughts on this idea but it DOES bring me insurmountable pain to think about.

two: she's basically struck a bargain with herself.

after two episodes of multiple close calls with percy, it’s almost like she’s trying to wrestle herself into a deal. she looks at her hungry heart which doesn't belong to her anymore, and is terrified of the decision it wants to make, terrified of the idea of a relationship with percy that will one day crumble, and she says, “okay. one thing. we can have one thing. we can have a casual fling, some friends with benefits, we’ll know what it’s like to kiss him and have sex with him and even wake up next to him but that’s it. we’ll pretend we’re asleep in the morning. we’ll distance ourself from him the next day. we’ll pull back, keep enough of a barrier to not let him any closer, but sex can be casual, right? it doesn’t have to mean anything. it won't mean anything. it's casual.”

and even then it’s only “casual” in the sense that they’ve agreed not to say anything about how they feel. they both know how the other feels, they’ve said it in every way you could without explicitly saying i love you. percy downright admits that he feels something and knows there is something between them and he wants emotional connection. vex says that she cares for him, that she can’t say what he wants to hear, and that everyone she’s ever loved, it ends badly - implying, all but directly saying, that he’s one of those people!! she ends up admitting it even more directly than he does!!!! this is so sad it’s almost hilarious. they’re both admitting and committing to the facade of a casual fling. vex because she’s terrified, and percy because he would do anything for her.

she would rather have a facade of a casual relationship, would rather ask percy to help her lie, help her pretend this means nothing, even as she lies there and admits that it does mean something but she's too scared to let it become anything significant. and even that statement, where she refuses to show vulnerability, is showing so much vulnerability. she's trusting percy with this fear she's kept close to her chest, she's trusting percy with her fear of trust. asking percy to hold that fear and keep it safe, hold it close to his chest, right where his heart sits. where her heart sits, now. the amount of trust it takes to do that. the way those words had to be clawed out of her, only when she was lying down, hurt, and couldn't run anymore. she trusts percy with this thing she's only trusted her brother with, if that - and at the same time, she can't even trust herself with loving and being loved without ruining it all.

it’s like. if she doesn’t get too close, it won’t hurt as much when he eventually, inevitably, leaves. whether he dies or walks away or makes a deal with a demon or a death goddess or whatever, he will leave, because they always leave, and the further she is, the less distance she’ll have to fall from. the softer the landing will be.

and then, if this is going the way i think it is, if we are building up to glintshore and the resurrection, then it won’t be soft at all. percy is going to die, and it is going to hurt vex so fucking horribly, and the distance will have meant nothing. all it will do is give her less memories to hold onto, now that he's gone. she will not hurt for the size of the hole in her heart, but rather for the lack of memory she has to fill it. a hole torn further open by the weight of the breadth of love unspent.

and then they're going to try and bring him back. and she will beg for another chance to do it right this time. she will give him her heart and everything she has, because she tried to do the casual distance, and she's learned that it hadn't done anything but hurt the both of them.

but she's not going to make that same mistake again.

[utilitycaster]

it remains like. funny but in a "lmao look at that moron" way that the argument against the gods continues to be some nebulous concept of freedom when like. the god of freedom was like "I would like you to save me, but ultimately it is your choice" and the party is actively debating a decision that the gods are not forcing them to do and do not themselves agree upon. I mean it's telling because the people saying this in the story and in the fandom are the people who think freedom means unanimous support of their own personal opinions and perspective and desires but really like, what exactly have the gods prevented anyone from doing since the Divine Gate went up. the only person who really has a case of the gods forcing them into something is Opal, and like, that's what happens when you put in the spider queen's vestige and make pacts with her over the course of months, it's no different than any warlock pact with an evil entity, Delilah or Uk'otoa would do the same and they're not on the chopping block.

[mostlyanything19]

"She's phenomenal at letting go. I'm gonna end up in there, don't think I don't know that."

"Don't think I haven't thought about it!"

"I'm well aware you've thought about it."

[syntia13treeman]

Like, damn, bruh.

If Marisha and Taliesin could stop giving me massive gender envy with those outfits, that would be swell.

That's a lie. That's such a vicious lie. My life wouldn't be complete without it.

[howlkyatt]

I strike again in class this time with Dark Cacao✨

[shellem15]

Last night's combat was god-tier. So many fun moments, beats of tension, excellent flow and player choices. A lot happened but nothing dragged on too long, and it was fully engaging throughout. Level 20 combat my beloved.

[time-passes-byy]

*Record Scratch*

Travis: Yep, that's me. You're probably wondering how I got here... 😮‍💨 and so am I.