#covid made it hard

[spicyprincezuko]

i started going to AA this weekend. i felt myself getting into a bad cycle of getting depressed, drinking, and feeling like shit afterwards. it’s been hard since Kayla passed to feel like i’m not the only Black Femme left in town. that sense of isolation started getting too me and it became too easy to just drink every day, multiple times a day. if i’m getting to the point of requiring a drink on my lunch break to feel “normal” then there’s something evidently wrong. i’ve been trying to keep a singular thought from occurring for months now. what i really need is to sit down and take inventory of my life and feelings. shit is whack. working the steps sucks. but I’m grateful to find myself surrounded by a shit ton of supportive people. i have a soft landing set up for me that i just need to fully embrace. got to do the work work work

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

my mum keeps responding to my covid precautions with “i get it, you’re not ready yet”. like no i just don’t do them anymore. i don’t really need to eat at restaurants or go to crowded places or be in public without an n95. i can watch the movie at home. i can get take out. an n95 is just uncomfortable sometimes but doesn’t stop me from doing anything. i love not getting sick

[red-hibiscus]

As an immigrant who grew up in a popular vacation spot, I really appreciate Mut talking about the struggles of the locals

The only people who can afford to vacation where I do are rich people or those with families here. I grew up with a mother who cleaned the houses of rich people, never any mansions, but I know plenty of others who've done that. I grew up with a father who worked at a grocery store (very) frequented by tourists on their way to the beach. I worked as a camp counselor for celebrities and upperclass as a teen.

The messes I've seen. And no, the tourists don't care for the locals. It's like we live in separate worlds. They don't go to the family owned restaurants. They go to the high end ones where everything is $50+. They also have the option of going to the less conveniently located specialty grocery store.

They don't live in a small overpriced houses that locals can't afford to buy. They buy the large houses they only use for 2 months of the year and have local immigrant mothers clean the place that has dirty laundry tossed around randomly cause they were in a rush to head to the beach. Their gardens and homes are built by immigrant men who wait by the side of a 7-eleven to be picked up on the morning by passing trucks. And I can tell you none of these people are paid well.

Them buying these houses are also the reason landlords charge so much. Cause they know someone can and will pay, but it's not locals. Not to mention no local that doesn't come from old fishermen families (or the local upperclass families) can afford boats much less yachts. Yet the amount of boats I see at every port (gotta be at least 10 of them in 3 towns)...

I have respect for Mut, cause I know the bullshit locals have to put up with when it comes to tourists. People like Mut probably have it worse than I do. So even more respect.

[chimaeraonwards]

well i oop

call it an environmental tragedy but i call it ✨ LARPing✨

bonus the exact thing i told my mom when i experienced haze for the first time:

[squeakadeeks]

moodboard for this past week ❤️

[lorelune]

me realizing how if i don’t gatcha game cosplay i can breathe LOL

[transpanda-1]

🪴Getting sad again thinking about how not only Covid heavily disabled us... but hammered into us that outdoor public areas are now a massive risk to our health as the population continues to ignore covid... idk both physically disabled and soft barriered from social public spaces is sad...

[seonghwasblr]

SVT coming to Europe for the first time ever in 9 years (not counting Gastonbury, cause that was sold out a year before they were announced, so carats didn't get a chance to go) and it's not even going to be ot13 should be a crime.. AND IT'S BECAUSE OF A SCHEDULE?!

[seekincrows]

THE SIBLINGS ARE REAL!!!!!!! Cladis & Labrynthos are twins, Ividia is the middle child and Selenite is the youngest.

Under the cut are some facts about my Camur species and these 4 characters ^-^

Starting off with some Camurcorn and Camuralatus facts!

Camurs are giant beasts that bear resemblances to wild hogs and horses. They have one set of giant tusks on their bottom jaw. I don't have a ref sheet for them yet 8(

CAMURCORNS

(This ref sheet is a liiiiiitle bit outdated, I didn't feel like redrawing it for this post. Maybe another time!)

Camurcorns are a subspecies of the animal; Camur. Camurs do not have horns, only tusks, while their subspecies the Camurcorn do have horns as well as tusks.

These horns aren't purely aesthetic. They can help Camurcorns harness magic to their beings. Their horns, as well as their tusks, can do this. No Camurcorn is naturally able to harness magic right away, they need to study it and practice as would anyone else creating a new skill.

Camurcorns have very rough, thick fur that keeps them warm during the winter, fall and early spring. They have thinner, coarser summer coats. Camurcorns are the most proficient in magic harnessing compared to Camurs and Camuralati.

Camurcorns' diets are omnivorous; they will eat anything and anyone that they can (besides other Camurs.) This includes and isn't limited to elk, deer, horses, goats, large birds, fish, and even sometimes bears if they come across one. They will also tear bark off of trees and eat the meat of them if they taste sweet enough. They will eat fruits off trees in the valley during late summer, too.

CAMURALATUS

(plural: CAMURALATI)

(These ref sheets are also outdated, im sorry💔)

The winged variant subspecies of the Camur species. They coexist and even work in tandem with their Camurcorn siblings. Sometimes they will aid in hunts by being scouts in the skies for Camurcorns (they also hunt with one another this way, too.)

They have plenty of feathers spread across their body, mostly found on their chest, legs, face and wings. This helps keep them warm when they're up in the air.

Camuralati are capable of harnessing magic as Camurcorns, it just takes them more dedication and practice to do so.

Camuralati share nearly the exact same diet as Camurcorns, only they are willing to eat carrion, while Camurcorns refuse to. They also tend to eat more birds, being in the skies a good part of their day after all.

Camuralati will lock tusks together during flight as a way to court one another, very similar to how bald eagles do the Devil's Cartwheel as a courting "dance".

Okay with those species facts out of the way, here's some stuff about my main 4!

Cladis

Cladis is the biggest of all 4, but is like a gentle giant. He helps out with heavy workloads.

He likes to play musical instruments. He and Ividia sometimes hang out together; she sings, Cladis plays.

Cladis is very studious. He and Labrynthos study transmutation and mineral based magic together when they're not helping their parents with chores.

Labrynthos

Labrynthos is extremely stubborn and doesn't admit he's wrong easily, which can make him irritating to work with.

He likes to draw and write, but he won't be showing anyone what he creates, though. He's too shy when it comes to vulnerable things such as that.

Labrynthos, his father, and Ividia are usually the ones going out hunting and bringing back meat for everyone else to enjoy.

Selenite

Selenite likes to go for walks around the forests edge, it helps ease his anxiety, he also likes to forage while on those walks.

He's a mama's boy, especially growing up he was spoiled by her, but not to the point where he developed an entitled mindset. (The other three are also close with their mom, Selenite just has a special kind of connection with her)

Selenite can use lightning magic, which makes his coat and mane all frazzled when he does. Sometimes, his crippling anxiety offsets sparks from his tusks.

Ividia

Ividia is headstrong and hot-headed, which results in explosive anger fits when she's enraged. When she's calm, she's actually really chill to be around, and she cares deeply about her friends and family. She's very loyal to them.

She takes charge of difficult situations and works well under pressure, she will be snappy about it but she can get shit done while she's doing it.

Ividia can wield fire magic! No, it does not hurt her or catch her on fire. It bursts from her tusks. Ividia uses this ability to perform controlled burns surrounding her village's area to prevent nasty wildfires.

[icewindandboringhorror]

Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)

[orchidyoonkook]

Personal

Hi.

How did you get over your quarter life crisis?

Because I’m trying not to fall into the vast unyielding void. And I’m failing hilariously.

[salsa-ishida]

you're back!! it's been so long!! I missed you <3 <3

ahhhh I missed you too!! Life has been insistent on grinding me to a paste but we perservere

[buffskeleton]

favourite take i ever heard was a guy at work who didnt like the ending of the vvitch because if it was him he would have stuck with his family through anything because to him nothing is more important than his family. legitimately flabbergasted

[illdothehotvoice]

No one ever talks about hemiplegic migraines and how much they suck and ESPECIALLY no one ever talks about how much your head hurts THE NEXT DAY king my head felt FINE when I went to bed let me LIVE

[elektroyu]

Just got a letter today that meant... not so good things for me. Even more paperwork, more stress, more fighting to secure something for me to live off. This can take literally years. I hope not though. Idk from where I'm supposed to take the strength to do all that honestly.

I feel so so old suddenly

[yousaytomato]

I sometimes don't know what to say when people are like, "ugh it sucks being a woman - I hate shaving my legs!!" because it's easy to be like, "then don't", and for some people that works, but I also understand that it's a deeper problem than that, and whilst personally, I revel in the queerness of my hairy body, not everyone wants that, but also that body hair shouldn't be seen as un-feminine anyway and body hair shouldn't be some kind of statement and....idk.