#consui in pain

[connorsui]

Ight midnight about to hit and ur girl just got done eating pizza rolls while re-watching JJK season two ..just knowing ..that seasons 3-4 are going to be the most grueling experince to ever hit across my eyes ...cuz after watching nanamis death again ..I felt like I needed to take a BREATHER 💀💀💀🤡

BUT THAT AINT CHANGING A DAMN THING HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS MAN CUZ I WILL STILL LOVE HIM EVEN HE GONE BUT BESIDES THAT ...yall know just how much I be wishing gege give us a little scene with nanami again?? ..ALIVE THO?? ..CUZ MALAYSIA ACTUALLY GAVE OUR MANZ NANAMI IS BEACH HOUSE ...WHY CANT GEGE GIVE US HIM ALIVE!? ...I cant- ...

I'm rotting 🤡

After this imma need sum helldivers and cod to humble me once again ...one for democracy ..and the other for my men ✨️💅🏻

[connorsui]

AMICCAA MY MOOTIIEEE 🩷🩷🩷 U GIVE US ANOTHER DOSE OF UR LUV THROUGH WRITING …and this time …my god ..that pill u made us swallow was big and painful and it fucking hurt cuz I did not expect for this one to be ANGST DOSAGE!? 💔 Lowkey my fault tho cuz I didn't read the summary and just went through the story blind ✨️💅🏻

*chokes on agnst*

Howeeevverrrrr thoooo I'll admit ..ur consui was never a harleep girlie 💀 …so this fic made me hate him more than I probably should have ✨️🤡…BUT HE FUCKING DESEEERVEERREd IT CUZ EXCUSE ME!? U HAD THE AUDACITY TO USE ME AND MYSELF AND FOR WHAT!?!? – FOR U AND U ONLY??? nah …nah nah nah nah that fucking killing by karlach and astarion wasn't enough ….

✨️I needed to be there so I could personally use him as my torture doll ✨️

But amica ..lovies🩷 …the fact that astarion wouldn't touch us but caress our hair and kiss our forehead. . . …I don't know but that screamed canon astarion ..like actually something he would do in that situation and it made me curl into a ball even more 💔🧍🏻‍♀️

Thoo I ain't gonna forget how u used a full blown meme with karlach and astarions conversation and I think it just made love u even more🩷 😭😭 it was like adding a small pinch of crack in a perfectly cooked sirloin like it's gold ✨️

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Astarion x Y/N - drabble - 1K WC

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Warnings: Haarlep using Y/N form, Astarion and Karlach being heroes, Astarion being amazing (as always), hurt/comfort, fluff

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You had been distant for weeks. Hardly talking to him, telling him you needed time to yourself. He was trying to be understanding but it seemed like you wanted to be anywhere but near him. He couldn’t think of anything he’d done to make you act this way, and it was starting to scare him. 

“Darling, may I come in?” Astarion asked from the front of your tent. He could barely see you, curled up in a dark corner of the tent. 

You didn’t respond, he assumed you were asleep. He pulled a blanket over you quietly before he noticed your eyes. They were cracked open a bit, bloodshot and devoid of emotion. 

“Little love?” He cooed, a gentle hand caressing your face. You flinched away. 

That made his undead heart break. “Whatever could be the matter?”

Silent tears fell down your face as you closed your eyes and pulled the blanket over your head. You were shaking slightly and trying not to squirm. 

“Are you ill?” He asked. He wanted to hold you, make you feel better but he held back, not wanting to make you flinch again. A strangled moan left your lips and everything clicked in his mind. 

The incubus. 

“My love… let me help you… please.” He begged.

You lifted the blanket slightly. He heard your quiet sobs as he shifted himself under the blanket, careful not to touch you. He saw your legs rubbing together, how your hands fisted the bed roll. But most of all he saw the endless tears streaming down your cheeks and how your face scrunched up in pain. You let out sobs and moans; he never saw you like this. Your normal calm and happy affect was long gone. 

Astarion kicked at the tent flap, letting light pour in. The thin blanket illuminated with blue light. Your eyes opened at the sudden color change. Astarion held the blanket up, giving you both space to breathe. Your shaking hand reached out to touch it. 

“When Cazador made me use myself… I felt so ashamed and disgusted. It planted this seed inside me that made me repulsed by anything physical… I’m so sorry little love, if I could take this pain from you I would.” Said Astarion in a whisper. 

Your breathing picked up and you squealed, sobbing once more before curling into Astarion’s side. Your hiccups and sobs slowed into sniffles here and there. 

“But… you can survive this. You can love despite this. And I’ll always be here, in any way you need me my sweet.” He whispered into your hair, not touching you but wanting you to know how much he meant it. 

You cautiously wrapped an arm around his waist while you whispered “Sleep… I want the potion of sleep… please.” 

Astarion sighed, his heart cracking in half. He got up and got the potion for you, tilting it slowly so you could drink it. Your body went limp quickly, a deep sleep settling in your muscles. Your cheeks were tear stained, the rims of your eyes were red. He understood now why you had been away from him. The incubus was using you day in and day out, after all, that's all incubus do. He huffed before pulling the blanket back up over you, tucking you in. He marched to Karlach’s tent, a mission in mind. 

She smiled at him, opening her mouth to get a word out but he cut her off before she got the chance.

“I need your help. I can’t tell you what it is, you can never ask me about it later, and were gonna hurt somebody.” his jaw was clenched, his eyes like daggers.

“What portal should we take?” Karlach responded, picking up her axe. 

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Astarion walked into the tent as you rolled over, rubbing your eyes. You looked at him for a moment before looking away, shame and bile rising in your throat. 

“Darling,” Astarion started, sitting near you but not too close. You noticed he was covered in blood and sweat. Did something happen while you were asleep?

“This is for you.” he said, holding out a piece of bloody chain.

You took it, looking at it with confusion. You noticed small infernal writing on the chain. Your eyes widened. This was from Haarlep. 

“They’re dead?” you asked with a shaky breath.

“Yes.” he said gently. 

You crawled into his lap, straddling him. Your arms wrapped around his neck, you hugged him tightly as sobs racked your body. “Thank you.” you whispered.

“I’m so sorry I didn’t kill that bastard sooner. You shouldn’t have had to feel that… any of it.” his arms held you just as tight. He was so worried about you these last few weeks. As soon as it all clicked in his mind he knew he had to do something, he couldn’t stand to think about you suffering like he had for even a moment. 

“You need to wash.” you spoke after a while, still holding him. 

“I can do that later, I want to stay with you.” he spoke as he ran his hands through your hair, massaging your scalp. 

“Can I wash with you? I want to wash them off of me… for the last time…” a single tear left your eye. You were so relieved Haarlep was gone, and yet, something inside you ached. A part of you had suffered and it ached inside you despite the fact that justice was served in the highest form. 

Astarion nodded, kissing your head before he got up and filled the tub. He sunk down, keeping his eyes averted as you undressed. You sunk down across from him, your legs tangled together. 

You took his hands, “I love you.” you kissed his knuckles. 

His face softened, he kissed your knuckles back, “I love you.” 

Astarion washed you with feather light touches, soft kisses placed here and there. He helped you dress, brushing your hair a bit before laying you down with him. Your body felt clean, you felt… restored. Your eyes drooped as Astarion wrapped a blanket around you. He stayed up, listening to your soft, even breaths. He caressed your face every now and then. He knew it would take time to help you overcome what Haarlep had done, and he was going to be there every step of the way.

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Naboo's Note:

Hello all! Sorry I have been away for a bit. The holidays and work have been awful on me and my writing time tbh but I'm getting back into it. I hope this is a fun little piece for everyone, I love me some hurt comfort lol. Thank you all for the support and understanding. Thanks for the likes, comments, reblogs, and requests. TTYLXOX <3

[connorsui]

Yall ever get one of those headaches that you swore that fucking Satan was sworming up in there to find ur deepest darkest memories?? ......🧍‍♀️CUZ THAT HOW I BE FEELING AFTER YESTERDAY - THAT SHIT STILL HASNT LEFT AND IM DYYYINGGGG LIKE MY HEAD IS FUCKING POUNDING

Like take a nap with sum meds? ...nah ..eat sum?? ...nah ..have the house in silence?? ...NAH

I swear to God if this bitch don't leave by the end of this DAAYYYYY ....

imma shove my head on sum ice 💀💀

[connorsui]

Alright it's 2am over here and ur girl gotta nap ...

No late night baking

No nada

These fucking eyes gotta go to factory reset for what I'm about to do later

Anyways I'll see yall in a bit

[connorsui]

Consui regains braincells 🎀

Ight ight ight sooooo I'm a little busy downtown riiighhttt?? ..doing my hairrrr ..cutting my hair..dying my haaaiirrr ..and doing a little spa treatment right m?? Cuz after everything that I have dealt with in college for the past 4 months GRANTS ME A DAY OF COQUETTE FREEDOM 🩷✨️

Like I can't lie to yall when I say I'm waiting for this hair to dry up while I'm reading some of the hottest ...most diabolical ...most sadistic ...most beautifully disgusting SMUT I have ever read so far today 🩷🩷🎀 and it makes me feel so beautiful ✨️ ...I feel like dem 1950s girlies who will read magazines at the barber shop ..

But it's nothing but pure imaginary backshots and cum dumping smut ...

Gooodddsssssssss I can't wait to put my thots together for these laterrrssssss

ANNYYWHOOOO IM DONE I LOVE YOUU🩷🩷

[connorsui]

Ight so ur girls Amazon package arrived and it was ALOT BIGGER THAN SHE THOUGHT OKAYY!? ..I got this brown floating shelf that is meant to glow in gold during the night from the edges righttttt????? ...well ur girl tried to put that shit up for the first hour only to drastically fall in the first 20 minutes of me putting it up 💀💀

Like ur girl was reading the manual like it was a forbidden scripture of forbidden spells that can only be received by the fucking IKEA store 🤡

And just now ...just barely ..was I finally set and done with having that thing ...I wanted to throw it in the fucking depths of hell where it belongs and I even wanted to chuck it at the window for good measure ✨️🩷

BUT ANYWAYYY I GOT THAT SHIT UP AND I HAVE NEVER SWEAT THIS MUCH BEFORE ...besides going to the forbidden desert that is right next to a gambling hotel filled with lottery machines 🤩🩷

[connorsui]

Yall I have spend all day ...infront of a whiteboard trying to solve one thing ....just one thing ...5 hours spent

.ONE SINGLE BATCH OF CODE ONLY FOR IT TO BETRAY ME AT THE VERY END WHEN I NEEDED IT THE MOST 💔💔😭😭 I HAVE NEVER FELT SO MUCH BETRAYAL THAT IT GOT ME WISHING FOR GOD

Even worse ...when I tried to understand it all ...I went forward with cleaning my entire house ..from top to bottom ..trying to ..✨️distress✨️ the pain away

..only to realize ..I got so pissed off from doing coding ..that I reverted myself into what my ancestors would do in the 1950s ...taking care of her kitchen as she should 💅🏻✨️

LIKE DAMN 💀💀 SOMEBODY SAVE ME

[connorsui]

RISEEE AND SHINEEEE DOES THE SUN COME UP IN THIS SIDE OF CONSUI NOw last night I was left feeling the most dissatisfied and the most destroyed ..and no I wish it was because of a redflag of a man but nah ...I legit ordered this one book off of Amazon for like 14 ammurrricannnn dollars and I read through that thing from start to finish ...all 800 pages worth of what was supposed to be pain and sorrow...

And dark romance ...but nah ...at the end I felt like that one dude that flips through the entire book and yells: what the fuck ...and throws the book out the window and later complain to his parents who are already asleep cuz the ending was that ASS

But I ain't gonna lie to yall ...I lowkey love it when books make me feel that way ...like damn ..you make me feel sum that no man can ...and even if it's anger ..that still sum ✨️

[connorsui]

Lady: okay so we got ur stuff that you will need for the next week and sum instructions to go with it so u don't do nothin that will prevent ur progress mmkayyyyy??

Consui: ...ight sooo I should be good tho right? ..

Lady: ......for the time being ...

Consui: ...so I can do whatever I want ..

Lady: with limitations ..

Consui: ...(I can do whatever I want) okay thaankk uuuu

IGHT YALL LET ME SAYYY THAT THE MEDS I HAVE BEEN GIVEN ARE DOING ITS JOB ...for once...cuz the first set did do what it was supposed to do ..but I still couldn't fucking move without feeling some type of pain ..like twist here ..pain ..twist over there ..pain ..bend one way or another? ..pain 🤡🤡 and technically it is my fault considering rock climbing is a dangerous sport but ur girl wanted to feel like a pretty mountain goat on sum rocks 🤡

Anyway enough with the bullshit I have the energy to actually do sum now that I can move around without having the need to feel like im getting punched in the stomach every fucking minute of the day so that means imma try to do sum here ✨️

[connorsui]

The most random of random but when I was 12 and soon reaching the pain that is being ✨️just a girl✨️ consui was watching gravity falls like any normal child before tech came in and decided to ruin my brains neurons

And yall ...I cannot tell u enough just how much I was obsessed with that fucking show ..like I fucking had an obsession with the triangle fucker who could psychologically manipulate me into starting a cult for him

And now 9 years later...the fucker is back ..with his own backstory ..it makes me feel like this:

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