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[estellan0vella]

Love In Print│Bang Chan

Chapter Two: Run All Of Them Over SS: 10 (ignore time stamps and dates) Word Count: 1.68K Content Warnings: talks about killing, talks about suicide (as a cover for murder)

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The shisha bar is cloaked in a hazy glow, the soft flicker of candles on low tables casting shadows that dance against the dark red walls. The faint hum of conversation weaves with the muted bassline of a lo-fi track playing overhead, creating an atmosphere of lazy decadence. 

Ayame sinks into the plush cushions of their usual corner booth, the silver fabric of her mini dress shimmering faintly in the dim light. Her black coat hangs off her shoulders like an afterthought, more an accessory than a layer of warmth. One silver stiletto dangles precariously from her toes as she leans forward, fingers delicately wrapped around the shisha hose. She inhales deeply, the sweet, fruity smoke swirling into her lungs before she exhales, a lazy plume curling in front of her like a spell.

Minho sits beside her, whiskey in hand, his tie already hanging loose like he's resigned himself to the night. His black dress shirt is unbuttoned at the collar, and he twirls the glass in his fingers with a kind of careless grace.

Across from him, Seungmin looks impossibly composed as always as he nurses a glass of soju, his sharp eyes scanning the room like he's searching for an escape route. Hyunjin sprawls dramatically in the far corner of the booth, one arm slung over the backrest as he exhales a cloud of smoke with the flair of someone auditioning for a noir film.

The silence stretches comfortably between them until Minho sighs loudly, breaking it like a brick through glass. "This fucking merger," he groans, dragging a hand down his face. "Worst corporate decision ever. Like, ever. Worse than that thing in New York in the thirties."

Seungmin doesn't even glance up, lifting his glass halfway to his lips. "The Wall Street crash?"

Minho waves a hand dismissively. "Yeah. That."

Hyunjin tilts his head back, staring at the ceiling like he's pondering the weight of the universe. "So, Ayame," he begins, dragging the words out like a challenge. "How's it going in the main battlefield?"

She groans, setting the hose back into its holder. "Two years. Two fucking years of that man riding my ass about everything. My desk, my handwriting, the way I breathe too loudly in meetings. 'Ayame, your desk is a fire hazard.' 'Ayame, how do you even find anything in this mess?' Like, dude, my chaos isn't hurting you! Get off my fucking back."

Minho groans, rubbing his temples like he's already developing a migraine. "Please. I'm begging you, no fights this week. I'm still working through the last six complaints HR got about the two of you."

Ayame grins, nudging him playfully with her shoulder. "I am your job security, Oppa."

Minho sighs, letting his head fall back against the cushions. "You know what? You're absolutely fucking right. Carry on."

Ayame laughs, grabbing her drink and taking a sip. "Maybe we should just run him over with a car. Slowly. Painfully. I think it'd be beautiful."

Hyunjin perks up, his eyes lighting with a dangerous glint. "Oh, fuck yes. Let's do it. Fuck it, let's run all of them over. Haechul, Chan, Changbin, Jisung, Jeongin. Every single one of those Miroh assholes."

Seungmin tilts his head thoughtfully, his expression calm despite the chaos in his voice. "Pushing Chan out of a window might be cleaner. No evidence, no mess. It's efficient."

Ayame taps her chin, pretending to consider it as she sets her drink down. "Hmm. I like it. They'd think corporate burnout suicide. Very believable."

Hyunjin picks up the shisha hose, gesturing wildly with it like it's a fucking scepter. "Tragic story. Thirty-something corporate man crumbles under the pressure of quarterly projections, tosses himself out of a window. People would eat that shit up."

Minho groans again, dragging his hands down his face in mock despair. "God. You're all fucking insane. I'm surrounded by literal psychopaths."

Ayame grins, leaning in to nudge him again. "You love us."

"Do I?" Minho deadpans, grabbing the shisha hose from Hyunjin with an exaggerated sigh. "Or am I just Stockholm Syndrome-ing my way through this dumpster fire of a life?"

Seungmin smirks, lifting his soju glass in a mock toast. "To Stockholm Syndrome, then."

Hyunjin snorts, stealing Minho's whiskey while he's distracted. "Honestly, it's probably the only thing holding us together."

Minho notices a beat too late, his eyes narrowing as Hyunjin takes a victorious sip. "You little shit."

Ayame laughs, leaning back into the cushions, the silver of her dress catching the light again as she shakes her head. "Honestly, Oppas, we'd make a fantastic true crime podcast. How to Murder Your Colleague Without Getting Caught. It'd go viral."

Seungmin raises a brow, his smirk sharp. "I'd subscribe."

Hyunjin grins, puffing on the shisha. "Dibs on narrating the audiobook."

Minho just groans again, tipping his head back against the cushions like he's praying for strength. "God, you're all so fucking exhausting."

Ayame rests her chin on her hand, her eyes gleaming with amusement. "And yet, here you are."

Minho waves the shisha hose at her. "Alright, so what's the fucking plan if Dementor Corporate Dicksucker actually gets that managing director position?"

Ayame exhales a plume of smoke, the edges of her silver mini dress catching the flicker of the candlelight as she leans back against the cushions. She doesn't rush her reply, sipping her drink leisurely before answering. "If he gets it, I resign. If I get it, he resigns. We made a deal."

The table falls completely silent, like she just announced she's running for president.

Minho stares at her, his whiskey glass halfway to his lips, jaw hanging slack. "You did what?!"

Ayame shrugs, entirely unfazed by his reaction. "That man is not going to be my boss. I'd rather fucking die."

Without a word, Minho's hand comes down hard on the back of her head. The sharp thwap echoes louder than it should, and Ayame yelps, clutching her head. "Ow! What the fuck?!"

"You absolute fucking pabo!" Minho snaps, his voice brimming with outrage. "This is exactly why you don't make decisions without talking to me first!"

Ayame rubs the back of her head, glaring at him. "I don't need your permission to make deals, Oppa!"

"No, but you need a fucking brain cell," Minho fires back, gesturing wildly, his whiskey sloshing dangerously close to the rim of his glass. "Do you have any idea what kind of shitstorm you've just dropped yourself into? Do you?"

She rolls her eyes, crossing her arms defiantly. "I'm not scared of him. I can handle it."

Minho stares at her like she's just claimed she can bench press a car. "Handle it?" He points at her with the kind of theatrical rage that belongs on a soap opera. "You can't even handle me right now, and I'm on your side, you dumbass!"

Ayame bursts into laughter, dodging as Minho reaches for her again. "Okay, okay! I'm sorry, Oppa, I'm sorry. Don't hit me again!"

"Too late!" Minho says, lunging at her. Ayame squeals, slipping out of the booth like a greased-up eel, her silver stilettos clicking against the wooden floor as she bolts for the door.

"I'm tiny! Have mercy!" she shouts over her shoulder, laughter bubbling uncontrollably as she pushes the door open and disappears into the night.

"You don't get to run after dropping a fucking bombshell!" Minho exclaims, scrambling to his feet and chasing after her.

Hyunjin exhales a slow stream of shisha smoke, leaning back lazily as he watches the scene unfold. "Every single time," he mutters, shaking his head with a grin. "And that's why we never let her make decisions."

Seungmin smirks, swirling his soju glass. "You say that every time, and yet, here we are."

Outside, the crisp night air stings Ayame's cheeks as she sprints down the block, her laughter echoing off the empty streets. Minho is hot on her heels, his tie flapping behind him as his dress shoes pound against the pavement.

"You are the reason I constantly have complaints on my desk!" he shouts, his voice carrying through the cool night air.

"I make your life exciting!" Ayame calls back, darting around a lamppost with a grin.

"You make my life a fucking nightmare!" Minho counters, his frustration nearly palpable. "I have to write HR paperwork because of you! Paperwork, Ayame! That's not exciting. It's fucking hell!"

"You love the complaints! Admit it, they make you laugh!" Ayame yells, skidding around another corner.

"Fine, I giggle at the reports!" Minho shouts, picking up speed. "But then I have to fucking deal with them! You little gremlin!"

Ayame doubles over against a lamppost, laughing so hard she can barely breathe. "You love me, remember? Levanter's Maknae? Your favorite?"

Minho finally catches up, chest heaving as he jabs a finger at her. "Maknae or not, you're going to kill me. Do you know how many forms I've had to fill out because of you? My hands have fucking calluses, Ayame. Actual goddamn calluses."

She grins at him, throwing her hands up in mock surrender. "I'll buy you hand cream."

Minho groans, running a hand through his hair as he glares at her, though there's no real venom behind it. "You are so lucky I actually like you."

"And you're lucky I'm fast," Ayame retorts, sticking her tongue out playfully before darting away again, her laughter trailing behind her.

Minho doesn't even bother chasing her this time, shaking his head as he watches her disappear down the block. "Fast," he mutters to himself. "Too fast for her own fucking good."

When he makes his way back to the shisha bar, Hyunjin and Seungmin are exactly where he left them, smirking like cats who've just caught a mouse.

"Feel better, Minho-hyung?" Hyunjin asks, a lazy grin spreading across his face as he exhales a curl of smoke.

Minho collapses into the booth, grabbing the shisha hose like it owes him money. "She's going to give me a fucking ulcer."

Seungmin lifts his glass in mock salute. "To ulcers, then."

Hyunjin chuckles, tipping Minho's whiskey glass toward him. "And to Maknaes who can outrun their Oppas."

Minho exhales sharply, blowing smoke into the air before leaning back with a groan. "You're all fucking insane."

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@ismelllikechlorine247 @drewsandsebastianswife @my-neurodivergent-world

[silkling]

Not to be that person, but you've been quiet and haven't posted anything here or ao3 for some time now, is everything alright?

Hi! Don't worry, you're not being "that person"! I'm sorry to have worried you! I've just been really busy with university! This semester has been especially busy for me! But the good news is that I am working on some updates! "Of Finding Family" is my current project, and I'm struggling with how to make the thing I want to happen actually happen. But! I have the outline of the rest of the story mapped out, it's just figuring out the fiddly bits of how to get from point A to point B, so to speak. After "Of Finding Family", I'm hoping that the inspiration from that will carry me to "Watermarked by Your Ancestry"! I hit a major roadblock with that project just after I last updated and have been struggling since, but my hope is that the success of finishing "Of Finding Family" will give me the boost I need to get over that particular hurdle.

As for Tumblr....yeah. I stopped posting my fics here because they never get much engagement. Now don't get me wrong, I don't write just for the engagement of the audience, but that interaction with readers is what motivates me to actually post, y'know? Sure, I daydream the ideas and write them for fun mostly for myself, but when I post them it's a lot of work to take it from messy daydream brain-vomited onto a page, to the actual finished product. And the interaction and feedback from my audience is what makes me want to put in that extra effort. I get a lot more of that on Ao3 (And I promise, even if I don't respond to most comments out of me just straight up overthinking myself into stress, every single one makes me super happy)

To that effect, I've honestly been considering just. Shifting the focus of my Tumblr. Maybe using it to post general TF thoughts, headcanons, blot bunnies, theories, fic updates....that sort of thing. But idk. Just a thing for me to consider.

Also, more good news I've joined this year's Reverse Mini Bang, and if this year is anything like last year's Big Bang, I'll probably overshoot the minimun word requirement again. So, that's one more big(ish) project you can look forward to! (Even if the posting period is a bit of a ways off)

All in all, I have a handful of projects planned! I will do my best to update "Of Finding Family" soon, but I can't promise anything. At the very least, I'll have a lot more free time as summer hits, so at least there's that.

And finally...I want to say thank you. Real life's been keeping me busy, but I felt like I had to respond to your message. It's honestly super touching to know that people like me and what I do enough to notice that I disappeared for a little. So...thank you. :D

[rassberrylips]

Hi not sure if this is the right location for the matchmaking but— Im interested in which character I would be pair or matchmaker with from Hayden Christensen characters

A little bit about me I am currently an art studio major, I am 4’11 I tend to lean more towards an Alternative look, I have a few piercing my 2 regular ear lobes, snake bites, and my eyebrow. I plan on getting more in future. I have the underside of my hair dyed purple and cut shorter than the front, one side of my bangs are also dyed purple. My usual style of dress is mostly mini skirts, paired with lace cami tops. Or T shirts layered underneath a long Sleeved shirts, for accessories I wear studded belts, arm warmers, leg warmers, paper boy caps, chains, necklace and chunky silver rings,

My personality, I’d describe myself as quiet, introverted around people I don’t know. I’ve been describe from my friends that I can come off as aloof around new people, and have a RBF. I have a hard time connecting with people—struggling with finding the correct words to say , making sure to keep proper eye contact and being able to get through small talk, I find it hard to bridge that connection to make new friends and acquaintances. Though when I start to feel comfortable sound somebody and consider them apart of my circle I get loud, and annoying (lol). I tend to get a big head about things I am better at than everyone else, and I always have to prove I am better than everyone else, and sometimes it can lead to hurting people close to me even when I don’t want to hurt them. I just feel this desire to prove that I am something that I am worth what I do. I am currently working on it and trying to be better person about it

I’m also a bit of a nerd, I love video games (such as resident evil, silent hill, death standing, Elden ring) I love collecting trinkets and Monster high dolls (specifically Draculaura). I also enjoy watching Star Wars and the lord of the rings series. Also art! Since my major is in studio art, I focus on traditional art such as pencil, charcoal, and pastels, but my main focus is in Painting. I love painting and enjoy using all type of mediums acrylic or oil, I find it enjoyable and something I want to continue doing for the rest of my life, it’s my passion and it feels like what I was made to bring into the world and want to spread art to everybody. I am really passionate about the things I enjoy

I thinks that’s most of what I can think of for myself, I look forward to what character I get paired up with!

you're match is ... sam monroe !!

♡ you're similar styles are what make you guys notice each other

♡ sam is definitely more of an introvert just like you !

♡ you guys met when you were both in an art class, specifically a photography class

♡ you two stood out against the other hipsters with their turtlenecks, beanies, glasses, and fancy coffee orders

♡ sam made the first movie and sat at the seat attached to yours (it was one of those two person desk things)

♡ since it was the first day of the class there was a lot of the teacher droning on about what you guys were going to go over for the duration of the class

♡ you decided to take out your sticker clad sketchbook and draw and pass the time, sam noticed that you had a bunch of his favorite band stickers !!

♡ "i like your stickers" he pointed at a sticker of your favorite band "thats my favorite band" luckily you had an extra ticket to see them that weekend

♡ "if your not doing anything this weekend i have an extra ticket" .... "if you want to come i don't know why i didn't say that" your cheeks started to heat up, of course you had to be awkward around the only other alternative person not to mention the only hot person "I WOULD LOVE TO GO ... i mean sure i'll go, im sam by the way" "y/n"

♡ you guys exchanged numbers and you're both pretty awkward so not many words were said after

♡ the day of the concert you were a mess trying to figure out your look, you eventually landed on the cutest outfit with your new belt and a killer makeup look to accompany your rbf

♡ you guys met up outside of the venue about half an hour early, sam was wearing his favorite outfit that he would never admit he spend almost all day picking out

♡ sam and you shared a blunt and talked about some common interests like video games and art obviously untill the band went on

♡ after the concert you guys shared an at first awkward kiss but soon felt natural

♡ from that point on you guys were the most iconic couple on campus, everyone knew about your "weird" outfits and unapproachable looks

♡ he also found out about your love of star wars and offered to dress as anakin skywalker and padme for halloween, lets just say the party you went to was cut short

heres a little peek into your lives ...

a/n: hope you liked this one 💋

[hadeslegacyhephgirl]

So this is- a fic! yay! finally! Anyway So this is the reverse fic to A Bidding War for an Old Friends Grief (tag: valgrace) on ao3 (archive of our own) (You can legit just type it into the search box and its the one result. It ain't that hard to find)

You don't have to read it to get this - but it IS heavily recommended. Onto the story!

~*~ Two months. Two months since Piper had left. People talked at him, telling him to grow up, get over her, move on, get better stand up stop beingsuchaburdenJason yournotachildshedidn'tdeserveyouanywayJasonpleasetalktomewhy areyoubeingsodetached and Jason wanted to scream.

Because he couldn't He can't. ~*~ "If this is another intervention, go away" His own voice sounded detached, weird, too loud but too quiet and whywasLeoherewasthisjustanotherwaytotellhimtosnapoutofitandhe couldnttakeitandhewasbeginingtoshutthedoorbutitwouldn'tclose. "Leo. I'm serious." "So am I. Hazels staying over tonight and I thought I would give her and Frank some privacy. Well. Less I thought and Frank asked me to leave, so I grabbed some shit and got out. But-" Why would Leo be here for that? He had Percy's and Annabeth's or- "-I don't really have anywhere else to go. So can I stay at yours tonight?" Jason wanted to say no. But he couldn't. The word stuck in his throat at the sight of Leo's puppy eyes and gods was he always this adorable?

"Fine."

Jason let Leo in. He watched as Leo bounced around the apartment like a fucking puppy as he made small talk. Jason was considering what kind of puppy Leo would be, when an unexpected thought jumped into his mind. Whatever he was, he was adorable.

Jasons breath caught. Because that was new. Sure, Jason always knew Leo was cute, but adorable? Where had that come from.

He didn't want to think about it. Wait, yes he did. No. yes. no yes no yes noyesnoyesnoyesnoyes-

~*~ Morning found Leo gone, the apartment tidy and a note from Leo saying thank you and had one of those cute sideways smiley faces Leo loved so much.

Jason found himself tucking the note into his pocket. And felt, weirdly, a little less empty. A little less sad.

~*~ "Again?" "Yeah. Sorry"

Jason sighed and let Leo in. He seemed to be doing a lot of that.

He'd thought about Leo. About his insane amount of energy and his adorableness and the overwhelming urge to wrap him in a blanket and never let anything touch him even though Jason was probably most in need of saving right now.

Jason had wondered if this was what love felt like.

Leo turned and smiled at him, and Jason's chest tightened. And if this was love, he'd never loved Piper, not really. Leo said something about pizza, and Jason caved, just wanting to see Leo smile again.

Because Leo was smiling at him. And he couldn' bear the though of taking away Leo's smile.

~*~ It was too good to be true. And it all came crashing down the very next morning.

Jason had woken before Leo, and came out to watch him sleep. Creepy, he knew. But Leo was puffing out the most adorable mini snores and Jason just wanted to reach out and cuddle him, hold him, protect him from the world.

Leo's phone buzzed once, twice, three times. Jason picked it up, because maybe Leo was missing a lecture or something?

The reality was far worse.

Hazel replied to Intervention Group Chat Woo! Great Job Leo! Annabeth replied to Intervention Group Chat FInally. We needed a breakthrough Percy replied to Intervention Group Chat Good job Hazel, Leo, Frank!

~*~ Jason slammed his bedroom door and replayed the scene over and over.

Leo had woken up and Jason had yelled at him, told him to get out because it was another fucking interventionandhecouldn'ttakeit becauseitwasLeoandhe'dbeentrickedbyhisbestfriendandJasonhad yelledathimandLeo'ssmilehadgoneanditwasallbecauseofhim.

The image of Leo, curled into himself to make himself smaller, terror and panic and regret and sadness swirling in his wide eyes, terrified of Jason.

The door slammed. Leo was gone. ~*~ A banging on his front door woke him. He was still in the position he'd assumed when Leo had left. Slowly he got up, wincing at the stiffness in his joints and opened the door "Leo, I told you to go away why-" But it wasn't Leo.

Percy scoffed and shoved his way past Jason into the apartment, surveying the already cluttered room "Wow. You are a mess." "What are you doing here Percy?" "I'm here, because you can't pull your shit together, and I'm done coddling you. Be grateful it wasn't Annabeth." Jason scowled "You don't get it" Percy laughed. "Really. I don't get it, do I? Newsflash, bud, your not the only one who's gone through a breakup! Heck, I've been through one! You didn't see me cut up over Rachel, did you?" "That's different" "You also didn't see Annabeth broken to fucking peices because of Luke! We cried, sulked a bit, picked up the peices and moved on. So don't you fucking stand there and tell me that's different, because it ain't. And now Leo's missing and he's sent us a ridiculous text-" "Leo's missing?" "All because you refuse to move on! She's gone, Jason! And I'm sorry, we all are, but you can't let her ruin your life!" "Drop it, Jackson. What do you mean Leo's missing? What text?" "Oh, now the almighty Jason Grace cares-" "PERCY" "Ugh, fine."

Percy pulled out his phone and tapped a few times, then shoved it in Jason's face.

"There!" "Percy, that's a picture of Estelle" "Godsdammit- this stupid phone, give me a sec"

Percy pulled the phone back, tapped a few places, then handed the phone to Jason

Jason saw the chat. He's not happy with me. Probably won't forgive me. Probably deserve it.

"What the fuck."

Percy was beginning to calm down, but still threw one last parting stab

"Pull yourself together, Grace. Before you lose him too."

~*~ Ring ring

"Ugh, shut up, you stupid phone"

Ring ring

"Ugh".

He picked up the phone. Unknown Number.

Despite himself, Jason felt his heart jump. Unknown Number - Piper?

Heart racing, he hit the pick up line.

"Please don't hang up. I'm begging you I don't know where I am so please don't hang up" Not Piper. But a very drunk Leo. However, Jason's heart only seemed to pick up speed. "Leo?" He fell backward, head hitting the pillow with an audible thump. "I told you to go away. Why the hell are you calling me at-"

Then the rest of the sentence hit and he bolted up again "What do you mean you don't know where you are?"

"I know you hate me. I deserve it. I do too. Hate me, I mean. I get it. It's fine. ... Rambling" "Get to the point, Leo. What do you mean you don't know where you are?" "I'm drunk. And my phone is dead and it's really fuckng cold. Like, really cold. I know your number off by heart."

A pause

"I know you have me, and I hate me too, and we can throw a hate me party whenever you want-" Jason's chest tightened, but he let Leo keep talking. ''-but can you call one of the other to pick me up, please? I don't want to freeze to death in a phone booth. That's like, in my top 28 worst ways to die" "What phone booth?" "Do phone booths have names? I feel like we should give them names. This one feels like a Jerry. Tell them Jerry."

Jason cracked a smile. Life, death and drunkenness and Leo still made jokes.

"What do you see outside?"

Jason stood up off the bed, rustling in his wardrobe for a jacket

"No! No, your not meant to come, I don't want to annoy you, I shouldn't have waked you up I can stay here tonight please don't hate me more!"

Jason panicked

"Leo don't you dare hang up!"

A pause "'m here"

Jason heaved out a relieved sigh and pinched the bridge of his nose "Jesus. Leo. Tell me what you see"

Leo described the place, and after a while, Jason recognised the place as somewhere where he'd gone drinking before With Leo, his brain threw out. Not helpful

"Okay, that's a- how the hell did you get that far?" "Too far? 's okay. Go back to sleep. I don't wanna be-" "Leo I swear to God, your not spending the night in a phone booth on the other side of town! I just want to get you home. Your not that far away. I'll come get you"

Jason threw his jacket on and shoved his feet into his sneakers

"But you hate me! Get one of the others, I'll hate me too when I realise I've ruined it" "I don't hate you"

Jason slammed the front door behind him and plugged the location into his phone. A five-to-ten minute run. He could do it.

"-and do you really think I could go back to sleep and hope that someone comes to get you before you freeze? Just stay in the phone booth, okay? I'll bring you home."

The phone beeped, signalling that the time was almost up.

"I calls almost finished, Leo. Stay in the phone booth. Please" "I don't wanna be on my own. 's too cold. Stay"

Jason's heart ached at the whine in Leo's voice. He softened his voice, trying to calm Leo down.

"I can't stay on the call, Leo. I have to go. I promise I'll be there as soon as I can. Stay awake. For me?"

Before Jason could say more, the call was disconnected. Jason kept running. Down the street, round the corner. He had to get to Leo. He couldn't lose him too.

~*~ Aaand if you want the rest, you'll have to go read the original base

sorry, I'm tired, and I need this out.

And the base fic does it better than I can. Make sure to go read it, leave kudos (likes)

Yay! One fic out! And another is coming!

[zalrb]

I MUST REALLY LOVE MY FOLLOWERS - BRIDGETON 3.01 review

1. "Dearest gentle reader, did you miss me?" Me:

2. I'm not doing this recap.

3. I maintain that Nicola should be Belle in the next live action we'll eventually do.

4. Idk man, Kathony just feel SO unnatural.

5. MINI MOUSE MAN NEXT TO BIGGER MOUSE MAN

6. Who will be the prize of the season? And it's Colin?

7. All of these women are gorgeous and all of these men are like basic white bread. I -

8. I'm upset because this is supposed to do something for me

and it's resolutely not.

9. Oh please. Francesca looks like every other woman there.

10. Prudence is probably the only character I somewhat like. I think. She's the terrible one, right?

11. I might like that family the most because they're the schemers. They're actually DOING QUASI-INTERESRTING THINGS.

12. Colin is a fuck boy without fuck boy good looks. Please stop it.

13. And I'm not saying he's ugly. I am saying he's plain.

14. This is my problem with Bridgerton. It SHOULD be fun. And it's punishing.

15. Where the fuck is Edwina? I DON'T CARE ABOUT KATE.

16. They should shock us all and have Edwina come back and just murder everyone like Carrie.

17. Leave her alone, Colin.

18. I know the point of this season is Polin but I already know she deserves better.

19. GIVE ME MORE OF THE BICKERING SISTERS. They're terrible. I'm interested.

20. "Well that's your fault for marrying men without title!" But Prudence's man is one of the, like, two most good looking of them all, so you know.

21. OOOOOOOH IS PENELOPE GONNA WEAR LAVENDER NOW? THE COLOUR OF LOOOOOOOOVE.

22. Considering that I barely pay attention to this show, did Penelope do like irreparable damage to Eloise and her family for this fallout to be as serious as it's meant to be?

23. That's a genuine question.

24. This Kanthony love scene is ... awkward.

25. Kanthony? Kathony? Whichever. Whatever.

26. And even when he goes down on her I'm like idk, Outlander would like a word.

Someone is BANGING ON THE DOOR and Jamie does not stop until Claire orgasms, so.

27. So Penelope is basically "draw me like one of your French girls, Jack" but with clothes.

28. The one thing Bridgerton had going for it was the music and I'm not hearing any classical renditions of pop songs. What is the POINT?

29. This ball looks like every other ball in this show.

30. Oh, there's the music. abcdefu is a good choice for her, I do have to say the music choices are at least better than TSITP. She SHOULD be talking to Colin as it plays though.

31. I'm not sure why I hate him, I just do.

32. If she enjoys embroidery let her enjoy embroidery, Eloise. Don't "not like OTHER girls" them please. Jesus.

33. "D-do you all like to read?" I get it, Pen.

34. TELL US ABOUT YOURSELF. NOW. Isn't Francesca meant to have a chaperone? Isn't there a dance card or something? Aren't there RULES?

35. I'M ONLY 30 MINUTES IN?

36. Original Mouse Man, what are you doing? Aren't you a viscount with responsibilities?

37. "I expected conversation, I did not expect to be inspected--" then you weren't prepared at all for this. This is the ERA for that, should you not KNOW? WHAT?

38. Everything is muted and dramatic at the same time.

39. Oh, Kathony in another scene. Are they going to try and have sex?

40. Yes.

41. "I've already spent YEARS taking care of Edwina" I mean, did you?

42. "So why don't we put ourselves first for once?" I MEAN, DIDN'T YOU?

43. BRO, WHERE IS YOUR SISTER?

44. "We have our lives to be viscount and viscountess" man, pull a Downton Abbey and kill him.

45. "Think of the balls as..." You should've had this conversation BEFORE the ball.

46. "It pains me to see you upset." "Then perhaps you should not have come." Ha.

47. "and what I have learned is charmed can be taught" which is funny because Colin isn't charming no matter how much the show tries to convince me he is.

48. I suppose it's better than watching Theo James.

49. AND HE WILL FALL FOR HER DURING THE LESSONS.

50. The handshake is supposed to be a Moment and it's interesting because it's called attention to and yet also breezed by at the exact same time.

51. LOL what she wrote was SO TAME especially for a MAN in THIS society? "Is this new character the real him or is it a ploy for attention?" DAS IT??? Please be serious.

52. oooh drama, if he finds out who Lady Whistledown is, he'll destroy her life. It's just hard to think there are stakes when it's ... Colin.

DONE.

[obiwanwhumpminibang]

FAQ

What is a mini bang? How does this work?

This event is mainly a form of collaboration between fandom artists and writers. The event will start with writers creating a summary of their fic and a short excerpt which participating artists will then make artwork inspired by these fanfictions in return. During the reveal timeframe, these works will be made available to the fandom.

You might have taken part in a big bang event before, but this event is intended to be a scaled down version of this. Our word count minimum for participating writers is 3K words and the upper limit will be approximately 20K words. This event will also only span the length of three months in total.

Who can participate? How do I sign up?

Anyone (18+ though)! We do not have any requirements other than age for writers or artists, but we do ask that you join the event in good faith. 

Sign-up dates and links to google surveys are listed in the Event Information post pinned to this blog. If you wish to confirm you have successfully enrolled in the event, please contact the mods and will make sure you are. 

What level of complexity is expected for art pieces? 

We welcome any skill level for this event! All we ask is that your piece is fully complete at the time of posting and is more than just a sketch. 

Can I sign up as both a writer and an artist?

Absolutely! In fact, we’re encouraging it! As many of us in the Clone Wars/Prequels/Obi-Wan fandom circles are likely aware, there are not as many artists as there are writers in this particular fandom. We want to ensure all the writers participating are able to get artwork to go with their fanfic.

Can I sign up to make art for multiple fanfics?

Yes, we are also encouraging this! If you are an artist willing to make more than one piece for the event, we would love to be able to use this as an option in the case our writers outnumber our artists (which is very likely). When filling out your sign-up, please answer the prompt regarding how many pieces of art you are willing to make for the event. 

Keep in mind, even if you are willing to make multiple pieces, there is a chance this will not be necessary based on the sign-ups from other artists. 

Will I need to fill out two sign-up forms if I am planning to be both an artist and a writer?

No, please just indicate on the sign-up form you would like to be both when prompted. 

Are the mods planning to participate in the event?

Yes, we are both participating.

What is considered to be “whump?”

We would like the fics and artwork to be whump-centric. What do we mean by that? Well, you just need to hurt Obi-Wan really. It’s up to you whether you want to comfort him or not. We aren’t looking to limit your creativity, just as long as Obi-Wan gets some good old fashioned pain & suffering. 

Consider some of the following tags on Ao3 if you want to get a better idea of what we’re looking for: Hurt/Comfort, Whumptober 2023, Chronic Illness, Sickfic, Major character injury, Major character death, Injury Recovery, Whump, Disability

Is shipping permitted?

We would like to keep the primary focus of the event on whumping Obi-Wan. Can that include a relationship? Sure, but we encourage participants to keep this as a secondary aspect of the fic. We want to make sure artists are able to find fics that match their interests and it will be more difficult if most of the fics include ships and our artists are not interested in those particular ones. 

Can fanfics and art be NSFW? 

Yes. Artists will need to ensure writer prompts and fic information fit within what they are comfortable with during the claims process. 

Are there other rules regarding what can/can’t be written about?

No, as long as everything is tagged appropriately. Go buckwild. We encourage violence and crimes (committed against Obi-Wan, of course). 

And because it needs to be said, the mods subscribe to the “don’t like, don’t read” policy. 

How do artists pick/claim writer prompts?

Before the claims period (exact dates TBD, but the first week of February or January 31st) writers will be required to submit both a summary of their fic, as well as a short excerpt that helps to give artists a good idea of the content of their fic. Additionally, writers will list what rating their fic is planned to be and any warnings artists should be aware of before choosing to work on the fic.

During the claims period, artists will review the writers submissions (which will be anonymous for the sake of fairness) and report which prompts they would most like to work on. From there, mods will match artists to prompts based on their votes. 

How long do writers have to finish their fics?

Writers will have approximately 11-12 weeks to fully complete their fics. However, there is an expectation that a summary and excerpt (100 to 500 words) are finished in time for the artist's claims. Currently, the due date for the summary and written excerpts is January 31st. The remainder of the fic can be worked on continuously up until the reveal week. 

How long will artists have to finish their pieces?

Artists will have approximately 7-8 weeks to finish their pieces. 

Will there be a discord server for the event and is it mandatory to join?

Yes and yes. Sorry dudes another discord for another event. Mostly, it makes it easier for mass communication purposes and will be the main way us as mods will communicate with participants. You are required to join the server and the mods will send a link to the server to you once your sign-up has been approved. 

As an aside, we will not be communicating via email throughout the event other than to send a link to the discord server if you would like to receive it this way. Though the sign-ups will require an email address, our expectation is all event communication will take place on discord. 

Can fics be shared outside of the event before the reveal week?

No. All fics and artwork should only be discussed with event participants until the reveal week. The only exception to this rule is beta readers, but remind them to practice discretion. 

Are there any check-ins?

There will be one check-in for both writers and artists each. This will take place about one month from the reveal week and will serve the purpose of ensuring everyone is on track to finish their work in time.

[fracturedporcelaindoll]

Dear diary,

I've been considering getting hair cut short. One of those bob styles cause hate how the heat makes my medium length hair feel so icky~

Read a few articles on styles and on hair. Did you know you're hair grows the fastest between ages 15 to 20 or 25 depending on article? Apparently guys after 30, may experience thinning and hair loss because hair doesn't grow as quickly after 30 and for girls it's like after 40 to 50 that hair doesn't grow as quickly according to various beauty articles.~

So I don't know, mean could cut hair short but what if it took forever and a week to grow back out? I don't even think short hair would look good on me, less variety for styling but at the same time I just dont think am pretty atm either~

I think def want to try blunt or curtain bangs tho, they look cute and are kinda childish and tbh I want the adorable factor tho maybe I am just not that cute?~

Also like never ever foam hot cocoa pple, I ordered a small hot cocoa and the barista made it like it was a latte and the taste, sooo awful but didn't want to waste the purchase. I mean if I were a more less caring or wasn't worried about being confrontational in public I would have said something~

Pillows, I need a good pillow, am sure if I had one it might help improve sleep but I've yet to find a good one. Itd have to be fluffy like a cloud and cool like a winter breeze. I saw the most adorable pillow ever but problem is it's 270 with tax. Like if it were 80, I'd consider it sure expense but might be worth it if it's as good quality as claimed by advertising.~

Unfortunately I am just not sure, I mean I'd have to save for like at least a few months to get it and do I really need it? Its childish cause shaped like a dashound in a hot dog costume... but like where would I find such an adorable pillow again, it's unique~

I need to decide Halloween costume too, I mean if do go ahead and get gothic outfit from poll could pair it with some bat wings or angel ones and have costume. But that's like putting a bulleyes on yourself, dressing like an angelic being or succubus/bat demon girl would make people stare~

Plus the demon/succubus aspect is kinda ironically hilarious cause I can't even flirt with guys or girls for that matter, little miss shy and awkward~

I was brave and contacted customer service over missing package and about refund. I was ping ponged back and forth between company and shipping provider until finally got confirmation they'd issue refund as package was lost and couldn't determine where it got lost at etc~

I didn't actually talk, it was online communication through service line but still~

I took some pictures of sky because the clouds were particularly picturesque and fluffy~ I felt so self conscious though like do I just look weird or something? Haven't you ever seen someone look up at sky with camera before?~

I am tempted to just avoid public all together until October but realistically I'll get lured out in July for cotton candy vendors, fresh squeezed fair lemonade and prize contests to try to win cute plushies <4th of july>. Do I think fireworks are beautiful? Yes but am one of those people that would want to wear noise cancelling headphones and look like a dork cause of it~ the loud noise though just unsettles me, it's like really loud thunder or lighting makes me jump scare myself sometimes~

I found a Harry Potter themed bar crawl event and golf event that I kinda want to go too. Not so much the bar as mini golf the thing is I know it'll be crowded and am not the best at mini golf soooooo do I really want to torture myself mentally by weaving through crowds, long lines and ultimately failing to win prizes by missing the getting the golf ball into the hole?~

Plus I'd want to wear a harry potter themed costume and have nothing to wear for that~

Including pictures of clouds because I can~

[hyunnieshannie]

NOTICE:

For anyone wondering where we've been:

WARNING: this is partially an explanation, partially it somehow devolved into me ranting. I apologize.

Firstly. Thank you, everyone, for being so patient with our uploads. It's been so hard to even get in the mood to write during the situation.

Life is currently stressful. Between SO MANY people breaking my trust to an irreparable level, planning my move, and finding out about a GC made specifically to shit-talk me by people I had considered friends. Finding out that someone I had trusted and CLAIMED neutrality was INVOLVED not only in said group chat but involved in not-so-neutral behaviour (sending screenshots of my messages, being in CALLS with me and telling them in said group chat "I had to mute so I wouldn't sound annoyed because she's annoying") and so on. It just got worse and worse and worse and honestly. How do you even live with yourself by doing these things? Shit fucking hurts.

you were my friends.

all of this because of a petty argument, between me and one other person that none of the others were involved in, only getting half a story and so on.

roping in other people, who have come to me and apologized because the behaviour they witnessed in that group chat made them PHYSICALLY sick... I can't even imagine what was said to make them come to me with a long paragraph, a bunch of proof and again, to make them physically sick - that's- gross, to say the least.

whatever.

it's okay.

I have a wonderful group of people who have been supporting me since everything happened.

Honestly, I want to write. It's such an outlet for me but even then- it's hard because more and more information comes out and it's SHITTY.

I'm doing better now compared to when this all started.

Swallowing those pills, and realizing that these people- were never my friends.

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To those people involved, though it will go unheard.

You can say whatever you want about me. Call me a liar. Call me manipulative, call me a terrible person in your little group chat! It's okay I promise.

Because at the end of the day. I know my truth and have the proof to back it up which I have done for anyone who came to me and asked.

And at the end of the day, I was the one who approached you to talk about everything civilly. At the end of the day, I was not the one who made a group chat and used it to send my posts, tweets, and screenshots of private messages in order to talk badly, or to use them maliciously.

In the end, it says much more about you, than it does me.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I'm doing my best.

I'll be back soon.

Kitty and I are working hard to get past this, as I am not the only one hurt in this situation even if the attack was at me directly.

We will be back with stronger chapters, and when we come back it will be with a fucking bang.

If you made it this far thank you,

I hope your day is the most wonderful.

thank you for supporting us

and thank you for always being kind with our works

~Mini

[dealbrekker]

YEAH that tvxq Mirotic video you reblogged awakened something in me. The moment that dude started singing I clicked off the video bcs my jaw dropped so hard I was like WAIT FUCK WAIT WAIT WAI

PLS GIVE ME RECS 🙏🏻 I know literally nothing about them beyond seeing you scream about them (Changmin and Yunho if I’m not wrong) anyway yes I find your blabbering very endearing actually. love you <3

Obviously you can't see me rn but I am smiling so big omggggg

I guess as a brief introduction I do some bullet points and then give you some songs to check out!

They go by TVXQ for the most part, but you'll also see their Japanese name, Tohoshinki, and their Korean name Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK). All translate to roughly Rising Gods of the East.

They debuted in 2003 as a 5 member group, and 3 of them left in 2010. Anything from before 2010 you come across will have the 5 voices. Yunho and Changmin stayed as TVXQ and "re-debuted" in 2011.

Personally I think it is totally worth it to listen to the old stuff. I don't think there ever was and ever will be a phenomenon like TVXQ/DBSK as a group of 5, and their korean and japanese songs and ballads are mind blowing.

That being said, I stuck with Yunho and Changmin more than the others after college (funnily I was introduced to them just as they were breaking up), and consider them to be the true TVXQ. They worked insanely hard to make TVXQ theirs and their vocals and talent have grown so, so much to fill in the voices that left.

So some song recs! I'll stick to the Korean songs for now, but their Japanese catalogue is NUTS. I think at this point they have more Japanese songs tbh.

3 big pre-2010 songs:

Mirotic Rising Sun Love in the Ice (this one makes me cry every time, especially the re-arranged duo version since they cover all the voices so beautifully)

All of their old songs have been rearranged for the 2 of them, so you can certainly find those versions too. All the links above are the originals.

3 big 2011 and on songs

Keep Your Head Down (their comeback as a duo song) Humanoids (this link actually will take you to the Japanese version of the song, live concert performance because it is THE Standard for live performances) --- Also, this is a facebook link, because I couldn't find this on youtube for some reason??? Let me know if it doesn't work and I'll try to find a better one!! Spellbound (my favorite song/mv experience. It's straight choreo with only 1 camera cut)

3 Yunho solos:

Drop (I'm fine it's fine it's not insane king shit or anything) Thank U (this one has some blood and violence heads up. If that's not for you, any of the live performances are stellar) Vuja De (this one has scenes from his longer NEXUS mini film which I also recommend. It samples all the songs from that particular album)

3 Changmin Solos:

Chocolate (he can cut it out, quite frankly) Maniac (so theatrical, so musical, so AHHH. I think this is my fave of his solos) Fever (I lost my ever loving mind when I saw this for the first time. Face clutching ensued.)

Picking 3 for each of them was incredibly difficult omg. I'm excited for your thoughts! Completely understandable if you don't go through all of them, but these are some personal faves.

Finally, they just did a Killing Voice episode where they do a half hour medley of a ton of songs if you prefer to sample them that way! This is where the mirotic clip I reblogged is from :D

Their new album just came out and is called 20&2 if you want to take a listen. It's their first Korean comeback is 2018 so we've all been feral lately.

Thank you for getting through this info dump. I'm glad my blabbering is enjoyed lololol XD.

[dlibskzh]

in honour of stray kids’ 5th anniversary

i would like to say that in may of 2022, i was introduced to these eight korean men in an attempt to finally get me into kpop. needless to say, it worked. my friend showed me the thunderous studio choom and i was WHIPPED. it all started with the boy with long hair…

the following week, i fell ill with the flu and decided that my time would be best spent looking up stray kids funny moments on youtube. that’s when i did some research, finding that they were a group of eight men from JYP entertainment called bang chan, lee know, changbin, hyunjin, han, felix, seungmin, and I.N. back then, i found it difficult to differentiate between seungmin and I.N, so i opted for my first ever bias, lee minho.

gradually, i got more and more invested in this group, learning that felix and bang chan were australian, lee know likes cats, han grew up in malaysia and so on. my first ever stray kids mv premiere was circus. i remember distinctly staying up until 12:30am on a school night just to see it. by then my bias had turned out to be bang chan.

soon enough, i had learnt all there is to learn, seen all there is to see, and had gotten my friends into them. i was on cloud (district) 9. by the time they announced their second mini-album MAXIDENT, i had the NOEASY album, bang chan as my wallpaper, astronaut as my favourite song, and a crippling addiction. that’s when i started questioning my bias again… the savage kim seungmin threw himself towards me with full force and his oreo hair. i was officially done for.

now, i consider myself a full-fledged kpop stan with photo cards galore. i had this vision that myself and my two best friends would get tickets to see them in sydney. i bought the tickets, not realising that my parents would have an opinion on my well-being. although i had enough money to pay for the two-day trip myself, they selfishly denied us of going. to say i spiralled into a depressive state is an understatement. i cried for hours at the fact that i wouldn’t see my saviours live and in the flesh.

i sold those tickets reluctantly. although i was lucky enough to see harry styles in sydney the day after my birthday this year, my mum posed the question: “was it worth missing out on stray kids?” and the simple answer is no. absolutely not. although i’ve been a fan of harry for much longer, he will never make me feel the same security and happiness that stray kids do. through stray kids, i have met so many new friends both irl and on the internet and i’ve never been happier.

they’re not just some silly boy band, they’re a source of light. they have taught me so much about myself and have been there for me when i needed it the most. and the funny part is, they have no idea who i am. and i’m ok with that. i can’t wait for the day they come back to australia so i can show them my love and support.

i’m also immensely proud of how far they’ve come. they are the top 4th gen boy group, gained billions of streams, and are performing at lolipalooza. something bts didn’t quite do so early in their career.

and now for a personal thank you to the members.

BANG CHAN

thank you for your endless guardianship for both stays and your members. channie’s room is always the part of my week i look forward to, no matter what language you choose to speak in. you have sacrificed so much, and i’m so proud of the leader you are today. i really wish you could see yourself through our eyes.

LEE KNOW (MINHO)

thank you for your comfort. i always seem to find stability in your electric dance performances. you have worked so hard to get to where you are today. your quirks are what makes you unique, and i believe in your judgement. please never loose sight of who you are because we love you for it.

SEO CHANGBIN

where do i even start? thank you for being strong (both physically, emotionally, and spiritually). you are what most aspiring rap sensations think they are. you are phenomenal at what you do. some people lose their sense of self when they undergo physical change, but you have never become as arrogant as them because of your grounded essence.

HWANG HYUNJIN

we all know you are the prettiest man on the planet. but what i want to thank you for is your artistic ability. there is not one single boy i know that loves to draw and sketch and read poetry more than you. i can get lost in your paintings and that says a lot about your talent. you and i also share the same personality type and zodiac sign so we are immediately the best :D

HAN JISUNG

your words are utopian. there are not many people in this world that can write a song and touch so many people in different languages. that, paired with your effortless comedic timing makes for the best friend we all dream of. thank you for bringing laughter to my darkest of days. you’re like a caffeine hit to the soul. there is a reason why we call you the fourth gen ace.

LEE FELIX

you are what everyone looks for in a soulmate. a literal beam of sunshine. it’s funny because it juxtaposes the beautiful deep rasp of your comforting voice. i am a little older than you were when you first moved to korea, and it makes me incredibly bewildered that you had the courage to leave your life behind and start afresh at such a young age.

KIM SEUNGMIN

the comedian you are. everyone always overlooks your contagious smile and your gorgeously angelic singing voice. i feel like i connect with you on a deeper, more spiritual level than most. i hope you realise just how loved you are. you may not be the member everyone notices, but you are certainly the member everyone grows to admire.

YANG JEONGIN

our baby bread. look at where you are now. barely 22 and living the life of your dreams. i wonder where all those bullies are now? certainly not as famous as you. your face is beautiful. you made me realise that self esteem is more important than what others say. you are the beauty to the beast. i can’t wait to see where your voice takes you.

[foofsterwolf]

are the first eight the new ones? tell me about them!!

The only new one that isn’t totally new is Tacenda. But otherwise. All are new! :D

So the first is Camboy Stiles which is Stiles being a Camboy and finding a NSFW website centered around werewolves. Scott visits and Stiles proposes they make a video together, here’s the snippet:

He is very happy to be back from the airport. He hates driving through D.C. traffic. Scott is led to the guest bedroom. Stiles expects him to go straight for the bed, but somehow his friend seems to have endless energy and sits on the floor in front of the boxes.

“Dude I don’t even know what is in those. Get some sleep.” Stiles complains as Scott opens the first one. He pulls out a bag of rubber bands. Stiles was wondering where those went.

“You should turn these into one of those balls.” Scott tosses them aside. Stiles gives him another look, if he’s tired, there is no way Scott -who has been up since two am- is not. “I’m not going to sleep at three in the afternoon. Sit down.” With a groan, a sigh and a stamp of his foot, Stiles complies.

Next up is Not Okay Colin. It was basically, “he will calm down if he gets pegged” as a fic. Here you go:

She moves with such grace that it knocks the breath out of Colin. That or it’s the weed talking. But the way she inhaled the smoke and blew it back out sends shivers down his spine. He could watch her for hours. She seems to have other plans however.

Her hand runs up his thigh, the action causing his longing to grow more. She’s the one. Well, every woman is the one in the moment when they collide. Whoever is there to help him when he needs it is made for him specifically. He doesn’t like to think about it too hard. He just considers himself easy to please.

“Take off your clothes,” she instructs. He eagerly complies. His hands quickly goes to undo the buttons on his branded shirt. He would do anything for her.

SK AU, oh yes. It’s for the Teen Wolf Mini Bang. I’m so excited to post it:

Blood, it covers every thought and action he does. Melds with his mind in a mix of pink and scarlet that can’t ever be truly washed away. It’s like it controls him, and commands him. He needs it. He is one with it.

It’s beautiful, washing down the walls and across the floor. Filling all of the cracks in the floor, it’s bliss. Filling him with a peace he was missing his whole childhood. He brings the knife down again, savoring the sinking and the noise that accompanies the motion. The firm releasing of the flesh under the blade, the resistance as it gives in. A high lingers over him.

Every sense is hyper-aware of every detail. His fingers slip along the hilt of the blade and he can taste the blood in the air. He feels at peace. Like a part of him that is always gone is finally where it needs to be. His soul is complete.

The whump exchange I’m writing is about Stiles surviving torture and having PTSD. Mostly it’s about him recovering slowly.

“How much sleep have you gotten?” Scott asks, he sounds tired himself. The call feels like an afterthought to a long day of work at the animal shelter.

“Plenty, you woke me up,” Stiles manages to sound more alert. He’s thankful that Scott did call him. His living through more of that dream is not his ideal night.

“Plenty? How much this week?” Leave it to Scott to hear one mention of Stiles having nightmares and then decide he needs to monitor Stiles’ every sleeping moment.

“A couple hours a night,” He lies, he is relying on Scott not hearing his heartbeat since the phone's mic can’t pick it up. He forgets that Scott has known him long enough that he doesn’t need it.

San Francisco’s finest, my darling! I haven’t actually written any of the story. I have half of the overview done though. I’ve done soooo much research for this story. It takes place in the year 1955 during real life events of the Mafia. I have 5000 words of research. Here’s Stiles’ short snippet of backstory:

Backstory: Born Mieczyslaw Genim Stilinski 1930 to Claudia and Noah Stilinski, Stiles was raised by his father to be the next in line in the Stilinski family organization. From a young age he started learning about how to run a successful crime family, by 1946 he had taken his first life in a fight with a business owner who refused to pay for protection. In 1950 he was shot two times by Isaac Lahey as Lahey defected to the new family in town, the Argents.

Tacenda is probably my current and maybe permanent magnum opus. The story is so good. I love it but it still hasn’t been properly edited:

Stiles can’t help but let out a small sigh as he paces his room. After the Nogitsune left his body the tension holding him taut like a bowstring had mostly dissipated. Mostly being the keyword. After years of only experiencing anxiety over things like possibly losing Scott, or something happening to Lydia. Having a near constant stream of it was exhausting.

In some ways he enjoys it. It’s always something to cut through the numbness he normally feels. A constant source of something for him to grasp onto. It’s hard to be bored if you can���t breathe or the words on your page are all out of order.

It’s not all gone of course, but neither is the Nogitsune. Stiles supposed that he got so used to having a voice in his head that once it was gone, the already broken collection of gray matter grasped onto it. A small comfort in an uncomfortable time. So what if he hears a voice in his head that tells him they will kill everyone close to him. It doesn’t mean he will. And it’s not like it’s all the time.

Subspace is my fictional band. I created the band for On the Road Again. Here is part of Danny’s (the drummer’s) backstory:

He grew up in a middle class family in the suburbs of Boston. His father was a doctor and his mother was a homemaker. He grew to resent the area he lived in from around the age of 10 when he started to notice how miserable his parents really were. He started playing the drums as an outlet, driving his neighbors crazy.

Once he got to high school, he quickly found his place with a group of outsiders. Frequently hosting parties at his place, he met Jack when he came by to deal pot to the party-goers. They didn’t get along at first, Danny didn’t like that Jack was dealing at his place. But he put up with it.

Last one, Stiles says they’re gay. This one is from Scott’s POV, he is woken up to Stiles and Melissa talking to each other. Stiles comes out to her before anyone else. Then starts talking about a relationship he is in. Here’s a snippet of Scott thinking Stiles and Isaac are dating:

“You two are so sweet, I don’t know why I failed to notice this sooner. Looking back, it makes so much sense.” Sweet? Isaac? He can think of a lot of ways to describe Stiles and Isaac in a room together and ‘sweet’ is not one of them.

“Isaac, sweet?” Scott mumbles into Stiles’ side. It makes Stiles laugh a little bit. Scott always forgets how ticklish he can be. He pulls back and repeats himself.

“Hush, Scotty. Go back to sleep.” Stiles says and gently pushes Scott back to the pillow. Scott doesn’t fight it. He finds the pillow far too comfortable to ignore. Plus he’s warm. He just wishes Stiles would lay back down so they can cuddle again.

“What do you think we are talking about?” His mom laughs slightly. But stands up to leave. “I’ll talk to your dad after work. Get some more rest. You boys need a lot of it after all you have gone through.” She then kisses Stiles in the forehead and ruffles his hair. She walks out of the room. Leaving just Stiles and him.

[nevertheless-moving]

Ahh apologies to @cosmere-mini-bang and my team mates @pekgna and @curlytale (Seriously, go check out their other cosmere art!!) for my extreme lack of timely communication! Mental health kicked my butt on this one a bit, but this is the mental-health-kicking-peoples-butts books series fandom so everyone has been extremely nice about it <3<3<3.

Please enjoy an extremely fluffy reunion between Tarah and Kaladin in a nebulous 'everything works out great' post-canon that can't be definitively considered an AU until at least December 6th.

Idea initially courtesy of @sorchasolas, beta by @cosmereplay. Thank you all!

If you're interested in extra robb lore the initial chat between @sorchasolas and I is below the cut. Screenshots first, followed by text transcription at the bottom:

[regular text is @sorchasolas, indents are @nevertheless-moving]

Someone: you dated. The Highmarshal Stormblessed. Tarah: he wasnt Highmarshal Stormblessed when i dated him. That was his commanding officer.

wait sorry what? his commanding officer was stormblessed? or high marshall? Mar 26 9:21 AM No his commanding officer was amaram and he was highmarshal Mar 26 3:55 PM Man I forgot that was his title

And that is such great fic concept. the windrunners are stopping in town and she's like ok so I used to know a guy named kaladin and it's not a very common name

I love tarah x kaladin its actually my fav shipe ever and i would kill a man to get a fic for it

Let me see if my motivation allows me to make a fic for it wait

So You actually inspired me to start writing for this…but it was as exes on good terms…im sorry i dont have stong tarah x kaladin feelings and started writing before i saw you say that …I gave her a fiancee named rob…hes a good guy, theyree waiting for him to get promoted to get married…he works on ships. He takes kaladin out on a boat and shows him how to sail and it's actually a very nice time.i mean people are like 'Damn man your girl is going to leave you for stormblessed!' But kaladin is happy Tarah is doing well…and he ambiguously references being in a relationship but theyre both public figures and want to keep things private

You could probably cut the Rob parts out of what I've written and have a good tarah x kaladin reuninon…like hes not even there but idk I wanted Tarah to be happy and its only been a couple hours but I've already grown unreasonable attached to the guy You should write the Tarah x kaladin fic if the inspiration spren smile upon ye

Im going to create a spinoff of your fic where i fucking kill rob/j

completely fair again he absolutly reads as a guy who appears once in act one, reappears in act five only to be firmly put on a bus to leave forever

i just love him. he's just some guy! he's literally some guy. his personality is boats.

I cannot get over the fact his name is rob

you love him too now i see

No i fucking love Rob i love mfs that fish theyre my fav

Hes just like kinda in the way

very hallmark boyfriend coded which is my problem

Oh my god what if you What if you ignored canon and made him a therapist like a full blown social worker

you absolutly could cut the rob reference in what i'm writing and have a tarah/kaladin fic. he's not even there.

LMAO??? HES NOT EVEN IN THE FIC???

no

this is about tarah and kaladin. he's working on a boat during the big procession. trying to get the promotion.

Oh my god i thought he appeared in the fic thats

Rlly funny

Also ignore the therapist thing I genuinely forgot u mentioned where he worked

i know i'm actually laughing out loud in a public place abour Rob

no jokes on you the therapy is canon now. he's taking night classes on how to lead mental health sessions.

OHMY FOD

it actually works really well because kaladin's in town as part of the queens big social reform campaign and he's checking in on the mental health programs

I. So wouldnt kaladin KNOW rob

Tarah: my fiances name is rob Kaladin: ROB??? HE GETS BITCHES??

i'm not even lying this is the premise for the fic. it is the reason he's visiting random towns. they meet at work after the first slightly awkward dinner and kaladin's like "oh hey rob" "i didn't know you worked here"

Also. This is perfect bc 9 times out of 10 social workers are… really boring people

Rob, who was trying not to cry that whole dinner:" it. it didn't come up." now they have even more to talk about though!!

WHY WAS ROB CRYING 😭⁉️

(Or trying not to ig ⁉️⁉️)

HE JUST MET KALADIN STORMBLESSED

LMAO ⁉️⁉️⁉️

HE IS COOKING DINNER FOR KALADIN STORMBLESSED WHILE KALADIN AND THE WOMEN HE LOVES MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF ARE HAVING A HEARTFELT REUNION IN THE NEXT ROOM

i have ALSO gotten really attached to Tarah's bitchy coworker who i created specifically for the purpose of being like "You're such a liar, Tarah, There is absolutly no way you — why is Kaladin stormblessed staring at you." she has a heart of gold underneath it all. like she's still a bitch. but tarah and her ARE friends.

He…he has the same name as one of the Windrunners." Mim let out a high pitched noise of delight, waving her hands. "Oh! which one? Pete Mountain Slayer? Lopen the Brilliant? Scar?" Tarah flushed, not answering.

PETE MPUNTAIN SLAYER

LOPENT EH BRILLIANT

his name is SKAR not Scar you FAKE. ASS. FANS. /j

everyone calls him scar now :/ price of fame. he can HEAR the difference the way spiderman can hear the hyphen

Sketch page for the Cosmere Mini Bang!

Sadly the fic won't be posted, but for context; Tarah (and her friends) meet Highmarshal Kaladin, now that he's a sort of hero and celebrity, and it's VERY awkward, from all angles.

[inkintheinternet]

The Fairytale of Light

By Arjuwan Lakkdawala

Ink in the Internet

I'm a writer and an ardent reader, I have authored two fiction stories. Spellrainia, and The Chains. I've read a lot of fiction, science fiction, and fantasy books throughout my life, played videos games in the genre of fantasy as well. I'm now 42 years old, what I've learned at this point is that reality is way more stranger than fiction can ever be. And science is way more magical than any fantasy.

I often hear fans of the genre of fantasy claim that it's so magical, that the authors' imaginations are incredible. I have myself sang praises of C.S. Lewis (The Chronicles of Narnia). And Lewis Carroll (Alice in Wonderland) to name a few of the luminaries of the classics.

And they are deserving of the praise. However, I was not prepared for what I was going to discover as I made my transition from fantasy fiction to mainly science reading. Before I get into that I must praise science fiction writer Jules Verne (Twenty Thousand Leagues under the Sea, and many other fantastic books) who really drew a line that connected the magic of science with fantasy in a way I don't think any writer has been able to accomplish after him.

With that said when it comes to fantasy I think I can sum up the premise of it in mentioning a few characters and things. Boy/Girl on quest/adventure, dragons, griffins, unicorns, invisibility cloaks, wands, fairies, wizards/witches, school of magic, and I think we are basically done.

What we truly see in these types of stories is not the unthinkable or a challenge to the intellect. They are aesthetic to the mind and are hopes of what we cannot do but would be so wonderful if we could.

After my two books my interest had completely turned towards becoming a scholar of the sciences. I'm an aspiring scientist. I may never get the title but I will my entire life pursue independent research to educate myself and teach whatever I learn by writing articles.

Having an inquisitive mind that is inclined towards healthy curiosity like the universe is a sophisticated trait to have instead of gossip.

Science has stunned me because I have never read anything in fantasy or fiction that goes beyond what would be considered unthinkable. In science I have truly found the unthinkable and the unimaginable, and it took years for many scientists to each pick up where the other had left off, after no less than a lifetime of research and study.

So I cannot state enough how valuable is the information and knowledge that has accumulated in our scientific database. We are so fortunate that the Internet gives us access to so much of these treasures.

Please excuse my mini intro I just had to express how amazed I am and how fortunate I feel and grateful to be able to learn and write.

When I think about the world needless to say there is so much to think about, and one cannot think of everything at once. We have to breakdown the pictures and study the marvels of science one subject at a time.

In this article I want to focus on light. This simple bright thing is infinitely complex and has many forms. Even in this era scientists don't fully understand it.

So let us start with some simple questions: What is light? What was the first light in our observable universe?

In basic quantum theory light is electromagnetism or we can say packets of energy called photons.

There is light we can see and light we cannot see. The visibility region of light depends on its wavelength. Typically the human eye can see light between the wavelengths of 388 to 700 nanometers. We cannot see light which is in the longer wavelength region known as infrared region, and we cannot see light in the shorter wavelength region known as ultraviolet region.

We might think that the first light in our universe started with the Big Bang (a leading theory). Because we intuitively think of the Big Bang as an explosion when it's a sudden expansion of the universe at speeds faster than light.

Albert Einstein had said that nothing in the universe can travel faster than light, that however does not include the universe itself.

I'll explain why the Big Bang could not have been bright according to the science. An example that is usually given is that it was foggy like a cloud. When we see a cloud we can only see the surface where the light was last scattered, the water molecules in the cloud disperse light.

The Big Bang had a temperature that was so high that light couldn't travel from it into the universe. It took 300,000 years for it to cool down enough for the first light - the afterglow to spread in the universe. This light is known as the Cosmic Microwave Background radiation. It is everywhere and if you turn on the TV without cable the static that you see is the signal of the CMB.

We cannot see this light glowing because as light travels vast distances it gets stretched and this reduces its brightness. However the CMB is a very valuable phenomena as it carries with it information from the birth of our universe.

Regarding the Big Bang theory there is another fascinating theory attached to it, and that is the Multiverse. Scientists agree that the model of the Big Bang could allow for the possibility of Multiverses. 

What is the theory of the Multiverse?

That when the cosmic inflation happened many universes were formed as bubbles, and our universe is in one of these bubbles and there are other universes in other bubbles, and each universe might have its own laws of physics.

Light is also known to be a colourful thing. Take the rainbow for example after the rain or when we see it through a prism. From a fantasy point of view the rainbow will always remind me of the animated series Rainbow Brite.

The rainbow scientifically is equally fascinating. As I saw on an episode of Be Smart recently (Youtube), the rainbow has streaks of dark lines, the missing light is due to the interactions of the photons with elements on the surface of the sun and in Earth's atmosphere. As the photons travel the electrons they bump into absorb bits of light changing the energy of the electrons. 

In fact scientists can know which elements light has interacted with by the missing light on an Absorbtion Spectrum, when light passes through a prism. This is so useful since we cannot take samples from the sun to know what's in it, but the light coming from it can reveal the elements in it. Even the Mars Curiosity Rover uses it to discover elements on Mars. There are prints of elements from on the sun that haven't been identified, it could be because they don't exist on Earth.

I'm speaking in brief terms about light in this article, because I'm myself still learning about it.

So what does light do apart from making things visible?

A question that has deeply intrigued me is does light have the ability to move things? Can it bring physical change?

I think the first thought that would come to mind is photosynthesis. The dominant source of metabolism on Earth. But before I get into how light effects Earth let us think about it in the universe. It is said that Earth was seeded with the building blocks of life by many supernovae that exploded, they unlike the Big Bang where bright.

The first stars formed probably from hydrogen and helium, and little amounts of lithium, and then heavy elements that life on Earth depends on were formed from these.

Example of heavy elements: 

Carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, phosphorous. Heavy elements are supposed to have an atomic number that is greater than 92.

Now let us think about how light effects Earth.

What is photosynthesis?

It is a process in which most plants absorb sunlight and with water make oxygen, and chemical energy stored in glucose. Herbivores need plants to get their energy, and carnivores eat herbivores and this sustains the circle of life on Earth.

Plants, algea, and some types of bacteria can do photosynthesis.

Then there is chemosynthesis which doesn't need sunlight.

It occurs in bacteria and other microorganisms in oceanic or inland waters. 

It is basically a process in which organic matter (energy for the microorganism) is made from inorganic matter like hydrogen or hygrogen sulfide.

Speaking of microorganisms I think at this point much like speculation about the start of our universe, we can speculate about the start of life on Earth.

First I would need here to explain that inorganic matter and organic matter is the different assortment of atoms. Chemically many types of organic matter can be made from inorganic matter with the right type of natural environment.

So in speculation perhaps the start of life on Earth was from inorganic matter that joined to make H2O (water), heat cycles warmed and cooled that water and radiation one of the forms of light introduced elements and maybe even helped in the configuration of atoms and molecules in the water that become the appropriate environment for the first life form to appear. I say speculation because like the Big Bang no one knows how life started on Earth and why we haven't detected any form of it elsewhere in our Solar System, despite there being frozen water on other planets and moons.

Scientists have still not figured out consciousness or animal instincts or what is a soul.

Astrobiologist look for extraterrestrial life by studying matter in simulation of different environments that could be in space or other planets. While in the past it was mainly considered impossible for life to exist in space, recent studies have shown that there are microorganisms that can survive the journey through space. It is speculated that maybe microorganisms were introduced to Earth via comets or meteorites.

In an article on Neuroscience news.com posted on 16, Oct 2023.

It says: "Scientists from top Institutions describe a groundbreaking Discovery: The Missing Law of Nature."

The study has been titled: 'Law of Increasing Functional Information.'

It says that evolution is not something that can only happen in living systems, but can extend to atoms, stars, and minerals.

The study says that when configuration happens in these inorganic systems that increases functionality it is evolution. But what are the forces behind the  configuration? The article states many physics phenomena like electromagnetism among other things.

Another discovery that I found interesting is posted on 12, October 2023 on Physics.org from the Minnesota University. The article is titled: "Surprising Discovery Shows that Electron Beam Radiation can Repair Nanostructures." The article says the discovery was made by accident when crystals were being studied for cracks in them, but the beam repaired the cracks when the atoms by themselves under the affect of the beam filled the cracks.

So this discovery with what we learned about the missing light in rainbows tells us that photons interact with electrons, and it is scientifically an established fact. I know in this study it was a beam of electrons but as radiation. Now photons and electrons are known to behave like waves and particles under specific conditions. This nature of photons is called wave-particle duality.

As I said there is so much to study about any scientific subject. I'll end this article here with the mention of Solar Sails, which is the idea to use the momentum of light to propel spacecrafts through space at 10% the speed of light.

Copyright ©️ Arjuwan Lakkdawala 2023

Arjuwan Lakkdawala is an author and independent journalist. Twitter/Instagram: Spellrainia 

email: arjuwan.writer@gmail.com 

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By Andrew May, Elizabeth Howell

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Short answer: We don’t really know.

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[lifewithoutmeds]

july 17, 2023

quick recap of last 10 days: saturday, july 8: brunch with amy. cried. facetime therapy with kelda. cried. lorena’s bday surprise. held it together. reyna was kind enough to invite me and 7 of her friends/plus ones and we surprised lorena for her bday/welcome home at a localish bar. i held back tears but tried to engage as much as i could. limited success.

friday, july 9: dinner with steven. we cooked meats; he was particularly fond of the pork jowl, thankfully, as i had a whole package of it. he brought some soju and some other plum wine drink and he listened to me cry and was a good friend and promised that we’d see each other on wednesdays when we were both in office.  sunday, july 10: considered going to church but then just slept and stared at my phone all day. tuesday, july 11: met up lorena at BJ’s for some happy hour beers and mini pizza. saw my waitress crush. cried a little.

saturday, july 15: managed to leave the condo to go hang out with amy at her house for a few hours, maybe like 1:10pm-4:30pm. we caught up and i tried to engage with her kids but they’re kinda tiring and didn’t seem particularly interested in engaging with me either. left to go to the pacoima costco where i got gas, toilet paper, eggs, and bottled water, and had my toilet paper and eggs stolen out of my cart while i put condiments on my hotdog. costco quickly replenished my stolen goods when notified, but it made me pretty sad and disappointed with the state of the world. sunday, july 16: slept for 12 hours. stared at my phone for 12 hours. ate a frozen pizza and then puked up some of it at night. monday, july 17: tiny tiny steps. texted amy and tracy throughout the day. chatted with lana for a bit on teams. tried to do a little work. did a few loads of dishes, and took out some trash and recycling. was able to walk to ralphs and buy a few items: items for cauliflower dip, a gallon of vinegar so i can clean some things. an onion. made some cauliflower dip, rinsed the cauliflower, and ate some cauliflower (health). also talked to rhiannon for a bit as we laid out our camping plans (for this friday-sunday), read a chapter in my book on borderline personality disorder, and now am journaling, so today was my most productive day in a week.

it’s such a weird sensation to feel ... so heavy, so unmotivated, so listless, so bored. the only thing i kinda appreciate is eating. like i enjoy craving a food and then thinking of how i can like satisfy said craving. i went back and forth with tracy last week on pizzas, and really considered going someplace to satisfy my desire for pizza, but laziness and cheapness caught up with me so i ended up getting two reduced/clearance frozen pizzas at ralphs and eating them over the next three days and they were gross and made me feel terrible. but sometimes i’ll think mm, prime rib sounds good. hwedupbap sounds good. i haven’t gotten as far as acquiring said foods, but it’s nice to at least have desire, in any form.

another weird thing is how i’ve gotten so addicted to my phone, even though nothing in/on my phone particularly entertains me. but it’s like i can’t tear my eyes away. FORTUNATELY i’ve stopped watching police body cam and otherwise shaming videos on the youtube and started watching more “Try Guys” and like the hot wings eating challenges. i find myself watching a lot of clips from The Office, Parks and Rec, Friends, the Big Bang Theory, and weirdly Young Sheldon (all this just pops up on facebook and i just watch.) i guess it’s a positive development that at least my mind is gravitating more toward light things rather than the worst of humanity. i should be receiving my DVD’s this wednesday so i can more mindfully tune into my tv shows.

i feel like i’m at the bottom of a very big hill. a mountain, i guess. every step is hard and feels heavy and the mountain seems very big and unsurmountable and i kind of don’t quite get why i even have to climb it, but i do for some reason. i know i need to “do the work.” i know i need to figure this out, somehow, for some reason. i guess. finding motivation is hard. but every minute spent not staring at my phone i guess is a tiny tiny victory. i know that i need to stop sleeping away my problems and stop wasting away my life, but ... but it feels so hard. tracy asked today, whether i might not benefit from a healthy diet and exercise? granted, i can see how eating frozen pizzas and sleeping all day long would Not benefit me in the long run, but it’s just kinda wild how when you’re as depressed as i am, that literally feels like the only thing i’m capable of. and though i can understand conceptually how a walk might feel good, or getting groceries to make a nutritious meal might benefit me, it’s soooo stupidly hard to just get any momentum whatsoever.

i hope today was momentum. 

week ahead: tuesday: hoping to do a little laundry and gather up some items for the camping trip. wednesday: in office. thursday: happy hour with danielle friday - sunday: camping in french camp with rhiannon

i’m mildly dreading camping because it’s been so hot lately, and sometimes it’s hard to do things, like meal prep or clean up, and i’m a little nervous that i won’t have fun because of the way i’ve been feeling lately and i don’t want to sort of ruin one of the only things that’ve made me feel better in my life, but also, i’m telling myself that it’ll be good to be out in nature, to not stare at my phone, to focus on something outside of myself. i’ll bring a couple books and try to do some fishing. i hope it’ll be okay.

mood: 2.23

[breesperez139]

So we know that both Jason and Danny have to be good or at the very least decent enough actors to get the lead roles right?

Just imagine the Wayne family’s reaction to Jason’s acting and almost having a heart attack every time he’s in his psychotic JD behavior. At first it’s all like “wtf is Jay doing onstage??” and “oh i am so blackmailing him for this” and they do but the whirlpool of emotions Jason puts them through is almost not worth it. But they’re Wayne’s so they just blackmail him even harder for it.

When Jason is singing Freeze Your Brain, he doesn’t really get into the song until the chorus. He gets even more passionate the moment Danny steps on stage which makes the show all the more mesmerizing. Batfam thinks this is Jason’s cry for help. Jay is just excited to sing with Danny. Like yah the lyrics are kind of relatable but Danny is right there and looks oh so very attractive in that skirt.

Danny and Jason were both nervous about Dead Girl Walking. Which is normal considering they don’t know each other. But then they start doing rehearsals and Danny looks at Jason like no one else matters and it quickly became Jason’s favorite song.

Logically the Wayne‘s know the gun Jason pulls out during Our Love Is God is fake but holy fuck the mini panic attack they had when they saw the gun is absolute gold. Not that anyone noticed but we know and that’s what matters.

At this point the Wayne’s start forgetting this is a show and truly believe Jason and Danny are in love during Seventeen. Who knows how long they’ve been rehearsing for this show. It’s not impossible to think Jason started and hid a relationship from them.

Duke and Barbara themselves never bothered looking into the cast or how they interacted with Jason. They just made sure he wasn’t caught so everything would go as planned. And while Duke and Danny are friends, Danny can keep a secret when he wants to, Duke knows this better than anyone.

Meant To Be Yours, Dead Girl Walking (Reprise), and I Am Damaged thoroughly convince the Gothamites attending the show that Jason and Danny will become the next rogue couple to debut. Jason and Danny are putting so much emotion into this show people are starting to believe they aren’t acting anymore.

The Wayne’s honest to god think Jason’s being influenced by the pit during these songs. Jason acting like JD gave everyone anxiety. They kept tensing and relaxing the entire show but these three songs were on another level. They wanted him to find a hobby (and they love that he found one) but why did he have to choose this musical.

That being said, Danny really shouldn’t be attracted to Jason while he’s singing about their toxic love and killing an entire high school population. Or while he’s counting down and banging on the door. Especially not while he’s counting down and banging on the door. He’s just glad he blushes in green making it look like he wants to puke instead of get railed against the door.

The show ends and the Wayne’s don’t know what to do. It’s all awkward and shit until Jason sees them and freezes up making the tension worse. Danny (who simply chooses to ignore the tension) starts laughing that’s quickly followed by Duke’s and Barbara’s. Jason looks at Danny in betrayal making Danny laugh even harder. The Wayne siblings (plus Steph) immediately start teasing Jason about his performance.

They still think Jason should see a therapist asap but they already knew that, that’s old news. Jason being a theater kid and performing the one character who shares his name, happens to prefer guns as his main weapon, and then dies in an explosion, is not.

Jason doesn’t know why he did it.

Maybe it was because of the alcohol in his system or maybe it was his subconscious still being salty about his family’s comments about him not having many hobbies.

He reads!

What’s wrong with reading!?

Sure, it was mainly about work now a days but that’s besides the point!

Apparently it wasn’t good enough to be counted as a ‘hobby’ by the others.

So when he was walking back from a bar on his night off and got hit in the face with flyer about auditions for the local theater group Mixed up Manhattan he stuffed it in his pocket and said “fuck it”.

Needless to say he was mildly confused when he woke up the next day to a call back for JD from Heathers the musical.

He was more confused when he found out his “Veronica” was being played by a dude.

Turns out Mixed up Manhattan was a group who did not care about gender as long as you could bring a character to life.

Now he was in too deep to back out, if he was going to act out a scene with someone. Than he was going to put his whole dick and balls into it.

It was only fair for “Veronica” after all.

~~~~~

Danny was slightly surprised when he went back to callbacks and saw Drunk Dude in the group.

Danny found him silly and charming in the waiting room the other night but he was clearly intoxicated when he auditioned. Danny thought that the chances of seeing him again was very slim.

But there he was, looking a little bit out of his comfort zone.

Did he even remember auditioning?

As they were called up for a scene he flashed the other a smile and felt his core loosen with the other guy’s shoulders.

Turns out, Jason had some good singing chops.

~~~~~~~~

Jason Todd lands a lead in a musical.

The musical about death and sex.

His family must never know.

The second one of them finds out his life is over again.

They will go out of there way to embarrass Jason in front of Danny and there will go the whole dark and mysterious thing he has been trying to do.

[benefits1986]

Veni, Vidi, Vici & KD

They say that when you lose someone dear, try getting a dog. 

I had a series of traumatic childhood experiences involving interactions with dogs. But, when mother dragon expired, I came across a book that talked about getting a dog for therapy. Of course, I laughed my head off when I saw this. How would a furry beast who does not talk help me get by during this fucked up chapter? Weeks passed and the days and nights got darker. I had to do something so different to take my mind off the agony alongside the emotional baggage I purposefully shut down for 8 long years.  I got my first dog after a mini retreat. I was interviewed over breakfast by the matriarch of I’s home. She looked at me intently and asked me why I want a dog. I told her that mom died and that I’m giving a dog and me a good try. She was a bit surprised but followed up with how sure am I in as far as being a responsible dog owner is concerned. I blinked back and told her that though I didn’t have a dog, I needed a distraction. I also told her about my dog traumas but this is my chance to pivot. She smiled a small yet warm smile and asked me if I am sure. I nodded. She told me that she and I would help me make arrangements. I told her one more thing: I prayed for a dog that does not bark. She was caught off guard and laughed. Meron daw bang ganun? I told her that in the mini retreat, I asked the Holy Spirit to specifically give me that gift --a dog that does not bark. She shook her head and wished me luck. Crazy, right? But, all things are possible, I guess.  During this mini retreat, a good friend approached me and asked how I was coping with the loss. Back then, even when I am in a super safe space, I felt attacked when asked how I am. Hello, old life. You’re crazy and sometimes, unbelievable. I told her I’m OK but not quite. ‘Di ba? Pa-strong. :D Yep. I was that bitch ages ago. She pulled me to the side and asked me if she could share something to me. Inside, I was gasping; but I said it’s fine. Fire away. She took a deep breath and told me that my mom was with me during the whole mini retreat. I pushed back and asked what’s her basis for saying that. She shared that she has been seeing someone with short hair who seems to be touching my shoulders during certain parts of the sessions. I told her that I didn’t feel anything. She told me that she has been seeing me from afar and that even when I’m not able to voice out my emotions, she felt that I’m under so much emotions. I told her that it’s but normal to be drowning in emotions given my state. She smiled and patted my shoulder gently. She told me that mom is always with me. I didn’t reply but smiled back at her.  Trust issues: affirmative; but today, this rusty memory revisited me. Ang lala ko talaga noon, super. Sana ngayon, ‘wag na ganun because the universe is sending me people who are really happy to help. Enter New Amsterdam x Max x Helen here. Cuties. ;)  Days passed and Tita D told I that I’m getting the dog. He’s a shih tzu that is considered an alpha dog. Tita D asked me if I can handle ang alpha dog. Since this dog is a male, an alpha male dog shouldn’t be tough to down. LOL. I researched about the whole pawrenthood top-line workflow and told myself that I have the basic skills to make this work. I sighed. Mga naggagawa nga namang shit para maka-move on noh? LOL. Actually, tawang-tawa ako kasi 2 ‘yung prayers ko noon: love life na worthwhile pero mas prio ko ‘yung dog na not barking talaga. Twisted shit.  I actually got a solid NO na NO sa love life. Lord, naman. Lordeeeee. Lordeee. Dad told me that mas madali daw ‘yung dog na not barking kesa sa love life. I shared this crazy story to him a few years back lang din. Sabi ko, grabe naman siya. Sabi ni dad, mas grabe ako. Why the hell did I pray for those things daw when in fact, super different sila ng takada. Sabi ko siguro kasi sad talaga ako noon and wala na talaga ako sa hulog. Years back, I knew why that NO had to be a solid NO. LOL. Might share it but not sure when. :D  And then, this tiny pup was handed to me by an old lady who seemed to be a mix of the prayerful and the silly. :) She happened to be the best friend of I’s mom. Syempre, she gave me super specific reminders and to do’s. Ingatan ko raw ‘yung dog and that ‘yung two siblings niya owned by I’s family na. I brought the tiny bundle home. Shet. Hindi siya tumatahol, mhie. I had to super if totoo so, I waited all day and night to hear him bark. He barks a bit naman when he slept. Cutie bark. I needed to find him a name which is not easy. One random day, I decided that since mom’s name is Veni, I’d name him Vici. Dad warned me that I’d most likely get another dog and that dog will be named Vidi. I looked at him with so much irk vibes. He told me, bahala daw ako.  Vici is a sickly dog. I remember how much trust issues surfaced kasi feeling ko lahat na lang talaga, not working for me. Even my dog that I prayed for, down the dumps. But, like my journey with my mom, ‘di ako susuko without a good fight. To be specific, minsan lang magkasakit si Vici pero laging deliks level. He does not give a warning kasi very calm and sedated ang personality niya. Plus, since he doesn’t bark talaga, sobrang hassle to communicate but, ginusto ko ‘to. ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.  During one of his doc visits, we were told to consider getting another dog because Vici has anxiety when left alone. We needed to go to work kasi so mostly, he’s home alone. Natawa ako. Ako nga, living my “alone” time of my life pero kinakaya ko e. Tapos, siya, need daw ng kasama? Wow. Wow lang. Ako na naman maga-adjust.  I reached out to the lady who handed me Vici. She laughed and told me that even when Vici is an alpha male dog, he really thrives with his siblings. An alpha male dog craves purpose. JUSQ, MHIE. Hanggang sa dogs ba naman, may ganitong kaganapan? She assured me that getting another dog will make me feel better.  So, I looked for another dog. This time, I wanted a more active dog. Okay na if barking kasi natawid ko na ‘yung non-barking dog. Vidi came in the picture and shem, sobrang iba kay Vici. Alpha male dog all over kasi when I first visited him, hinawi niya ‘yung kapatid niya. He looked at me with his smug face. LOL. Sabi nung breeder, okay naman si Vidi kaso nga lang, alpha male dog much. Natawa ako. Super cutie nung kapatid ni Vidi pero may angas si Vidi na poppin’. Parang hinahamon ako kung until where can I take him. Sold. Sige. Mag-tuos tayo, Vidi. I knew his name before he came into my life.  Syempre, alpha meets alpha is always interesting. But, these two aligned agad. Not like, instant pero mabilis. They have different personalities. Vici, sedated. Vidi, as a spaniel, talagang parang AUV ang galaw. Also, alam ko naman buff spaniels are more likely to be aggressive and I really had to break his ego para mag-fit in siya sa new home niya. Again, during the first two months, trust issues na naman ako because Vidi is so aggressive talaga but we aligned din naman along the way. Sungit spaniel na mala-cat ang personality but his lambing is worth watching out for. Minsan lang, almost non-existent pero sapul. Saktong mix for Vici. Clingy sila both at times but they have their own world in the same manner that they co-exist. Para silang Batman and Robin. Si Batman si Vici. Si Robin si Vidi.  Vidi is pretty healthy and sturdy din kaya these two are easy to manage.  Vici got super sick in 2019. Crazy kasi years passed and wala siyang anything major health concern. His emergency operation took place during my first day in my current org. Super hassle pero as soon as I got off, I rushed to Vici’s side. He bled and stood up and walked to me. Paawa much. LOL. He licked me and told him that he did a good job talaga. I think this was when I really saw dad supporting me and mga kabaliwan ko. Since I can’t skip work though puwede naman talaga, I gave specific instructions to my dad. Once Vidi wakes up, dad should be in front of Vici. Para chances of survival will be better. Chariz. Dad messaged me na nakakaiyak daw pala mga aso. LOL.  Side Note: Before this episode, dad told me, kuha na lang daw new dog because Vici’s chances of survival was 50-50. I didn’t back down and aligned with Doc A. Doc A naman since alam na niya ako and si Vici told me that 60-40. I wiggled baka puwede 70-30. Add daw niya 10% from her best effort. Opak. Bait talaga ni Doc A, noh? The best kahit basher sa alis ko sa Manila. :D Doc A told me that Vici could make it and if he didn’t, it’s time to let go. LOL. Pero naiiyak kami both nung alignment namin. First time ko makiusap talaga na galingan nila ni Vici kasi marami na silang tinawid. Doc A told me that she’d make sure that Vici will see dad as soon as he opens his eye. Thanks, Doc A talaga kasi even when I was at work and super kaba ko not about my first day because super poppin’ hiring manager and team mates ko, I was dying inside talaga. Alipin ako ng sistema pero need ko kasi mahal ‘yung procedure ni Vici. LOL.  Dad told me na good thing I didn’t give up on Vici even when super alangan na. I told dad that there’s no harm in pushing it because Vici is my pangangay.  Recently, I got KD. Funny ng dad ko kasi sabi niya, since birthday szn ko naman daw, ‘yun na lang daw gift niya sa akin para sure na gusto ko. Sabi ko, bahala siya kasi nakakaasar siya. LOL. Basher all the way. Wala rin ako naggawa kasi I was on a trip and pag-uwi ko, andun na sa bahay si KD. Sweet naman pero gusto ko kasi ma-check muna si KD before bringing him home. I can’t afford to have a companion dog for my 2 senior dogs na not giving. LOLOLOLL.  KD got his name from Kwentong Dagat. I stayed here a lot of time the past years. Nung wala pang masyadong tao. LOL. Kwentong Dagat is my safe space without me knowing it. It is where my felt and lived healing started. But, KD is also KULIT and KAGULO. Ibang-iba sa mga kapatid niya. Black sheep even which reminds me a lot of me. LOL. We’re still fine-tuning our relatively new dynamics and I can really see that Vici and Vidi are still not accepting his presence. But, we will get there. ;) Unti-unti. I think that I need to keep being gentler with KD kasi truth is, I’ve been pressuring him to fit in instead of standing out much.  Alsooooo, after 10 years, I discovered that Vici barks. Small but firm. Very alpha. I love. LOL. Every time KD is sizing him up, Vici does not back down. Cutie. So, Vici is a dog that barks ONLY when needed. ;)  Ah, to be a pawmom of 3 alpha male dogs talaga. Always crazy good and crazy shit. Really hoping that Vidi’s mass will not be anything major. Sana fat deposits lang or something we can address easily. Hyperinflation szn but, kakayanin natin ‘to. Ginusto ko ‘to. Gusto ko ‘to. All for my kiddos, sige lang inyo na lahat ng sweldo ko. LOL.  These three taught me to tap my emotions talaga which is my major pitfall, my huge ass red flag. LOL. Totoo talaga amidst trust issues ‘yung sabi sa book. Dogs teach people compassion na walang makakapigil. Dogs also teach people to be more open. Dogs allow people to be caring without being too much nor too little. Dogs live the loyal life bound by unconditional love even when you deserve it or not. HUY. Hugot yarn? Aga-aga, gagi! :D To me, dogs teach people that life is short and that time is but a social construct. Dogs also make people feel safer after long and winding days involving trust issues management. Dogs show people that unconditional love is real, felt and lived. Ergo, maging dogs na lang talaga lahat ng tao sa earth para wala ng chances of WWIII. CHZ.  PS: Thank you to my kiddos talaga because my most recent (like this week) na MBTI result which I take on my own every two years yielded a surprising result. :D Medyo nag-improve na ako sa pagiging too much thinker and more feeling na rin. More fine-tuning pa pero darating din tayo diyan.