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wip posting just to get something out there, and it's def a mixed bag!! the only thing more inconsistent than my posting schedule is my art style RIP
#wip#yapping below#1. sinnohtrio group pic where nothing bad has happened yet... dedicated sinnoh post coming soon#2. personalizing dawn and lyra's togekisses with different coloring and markings based on region. there's lyra's omelette :]#3. timeskip red and leaf except it's just pikachu#4. top left is all the assets i made for my cs final project! a little cherrim themed browser game#then there's sprites for my champion dawn; cool concept methinks but it's definitely a work in progress. peep the giratina hairclips#some vaugely lugia/ho-oh inspired protag ideas for a hgss sequel#anddd a bunch of background doodles. goldenrod flower shop and a very saturated mt. silver#in timeskip there shall be a proper town at mt. silver's base to officially bridge kanto and johto (and make lyra's work commute easier)#5-7 is me spitballing ideas abt pokemon biology#dratini & dragonair are forever sea snakes to me!!! though i do enjoy the amphibian interpretations#also i didn't know dragonite island was already a thing from pokeani... rip wyverse dragon master lore#i think crobat looks goofy no matter how you stylize it. silver and his big bumbling bat that insists on grooming its trainer. so unserious#there's a togekiss page too but then i remembered egg groups are a thing so i'm revising parts of it#i spent so long trying to come up with a reasonable wing-to-body ratio for togekiss and crobat. literally useless when dragonite can#apparently fly around the globe in 16 hours. are you Kidding me. dragons weren't even merging with jet planes until gen 3.#OK that is all. sorry for the lack of uploads wah#i'm like a ferret hoarding all my doodles until the quantity > quality lever switches in my brain to give the đ to post#i did made a spam blog but who knows if i'll actually post on there lol! probably for non-pkmn related stuff
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Dornier Do-328 climbing out of Berlin
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just had a thought that universal healthcare would be better for the environment because if thereâs more people like me who want to live out in the countryside or who want to try homesteading or living off the grid but are tied to the city because of their job benefits, giving everyone free healthcare would free them up to live wherever they choose and something something less people in cities the better
#personally i think the two biggest things we could do that would benefit the most people and the environment would be universal healthcare &#and a widespread high speed rail system along all the highways and freeways#i know itâs logistically unlikely to be approved but i think we should take the middle two lanes out of every freeway/stroad and put#rails there#so that the people who would normally commute on those roads would be able to take the train instead#the roads are already there we have the arterial paths but nobody wants to shrink the roads#so every urban light rail project (at least here) has to go underground#i believe that since fast travel is required for most jobs and fast long distance travel is a necessity to visit relatives#it should be cheap and accessible to all#and we should ban private jets for everyone but maybe heads of state (because they need to stay alive for their whole term)#and also space travel shouldnât be privately owned because of the enormous environmental impact#and its potential benefit to humankind in terms of scientific research#anyways travel#families live so spread out now compared to earlier generations and i think itâs necessary for us to be able to see each other regularly
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Starbucks says Niccol can live in his home in Newport Beach, California and commute to Starbucksâ head office 1,000 miles away on a corporate jet, according to the new CEOâs offer letter, which was made public in an SEC filing last week.[...]
When he is not traveling for work, however, Niccol will still be expected to work from the Seattle office at least three days a week in alignment with Starbucksâ hybrid work policies, a company spokesperson tells CNBC Make It.
Something something paper straws something something climate change is your fault [20 Aug 24]
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MCR tours the world so you donât have to.
#rip South America#my chemical romance#Auckland#I wish rich people would shut their mouths about global warming etc when they live off of jet fuel#they talk so much about community but donât even know what it is#do they think it means to commute somewhere else?
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kenzieluvssuguru :: â*:.・.o the roommate (18+) o.・.:*â
You were sure you hated him. From the crown of his silky, jet black hair to the bottom of his bunny-slipper clad feet. Everything he did pissed you off. Whether itâs finishing your very expensive shampoo or sneaking bites of your carefully hidden sweet treats, one thing was for certain: Geto Suguru knew how to get and STAY on your last nerve. (f!reader x suguru)
cw *:シďžâ§ roommate/no curses/college au, reader is overworked and underpaid đ, auditory voyeurism? (by reader).. readers basically a cuck (unknown to suguru, sooo dubcon kinda), cheeky suguru/slight humour (cant help myself), dirty talk, OF references, description of the devils tango (but not w reader) and mastĂşrbation *:シďžâ§âĄ 3.2k words // part 1 , part 2
He had become your roommate at the beginning of second year. Having an egregiously rich grandmother who liked her grandkids to earn their keep had its perks at times, one of those being the inheritance of a beautifully furnished townhouse that was only a half hour commute from your university.
However, the downside was the substantial cost of maintaining the house. Bills pilled up fast and whilst your grandmother was lounging in Turks and Caicos, you were working multiple jobs: the campus coffee shop on off-days, a drum and bass club on the weekend and tutoring whenever time allowed.
It was
Wearing.
You.
Down.
By the end of the second semester you had enough. Physically and emotionally drained, you sat down and pondered over all the possible avenues of making money - ASAP since energy companies were not necessarily known for their patience and generosity. Whilst starting an OF was firmly out of the equation, it did give you an idea. Instead of selling yourself, you could sell your home! Ok, not the whole house - but there was a spare room adjoined to yours, fully furnished with its own small terrace. A charming, spacious place where many students living on campus dorms would love to be. However, who did you know that was willing to move out this late in second year? Most had already settled into their new homes and were already accustomed to the people they lived with. You tried asking around but unfortunately it was all rejection.
Dejected, you slinked into your critical analysis class that evening, eye bags so heavy they were almost pulling your eyes shut. The tiredness must have put you you some sort of delirious state because when you sat in your usual seat as you pondered over your situation... aloud?!
"you want someone move in with you?" echoed the mild-mannered man beside you.
Confused and slightly taken aback, he asked you to repeat yourself, to make sure he heard you clearly. Rather frustrated, you grumbled out the question not even meaning to ask him about your situation and to your surprise - he actually said yes. Eyes widening and back moderately straighter, you exchanged contact information and asked him to meet tomorrow so you can discuss more.
You had left the lecture shaken out of your fatigued stupor and felt a tinge of regret already. You barely know this man. All you knew was that his name was Geto Suguru, heâs in your class and will be your new roommate in the next couple of weeks. From what you had gathered from your brief interactions, he seemed like a normal person⌠at least you hoped so.
You knew he was well mannered. Remembering from the time you tripped over his foot, limbs flailing awkwardly - and how heâd lunged out, firmly grasping you by the waist to stop you from falling flat onto your face. As soon as you had steadied, he apologised profusely with slightly flushed cheeks and averted eyes.
He seemed well kept, his full, shoulder-length hair was never greasy or out of place. Either in a half-up bun or flowing freely, it was definitely a cause for envy. He dressed neatly, loose jeans or joggers with a plain tee or sweatshirt seemed to be his staples. Fingernails were slender - elegant, your sideways glances during lectures providing a view of his graceful, willowy hands. Long and dainty fingers gently tapping on the laptop in front of him.
All known factors considered, when it comes to roommates you seemed to have won the lottery. A quiet and respectful man seemed like a few in a dozen in this generation. How lucky were you!
The first few weeks were like a sort of honeymoon period. Sharing a space with someone you didnât know was as awkward as you would think it would be. Small smiles when you ran into each other in the hallway and if you were feeling bold, some small talk over breakfast before your shared class.
The ice was breaking between the two of you as you slowly adapted around each others routines. Everything seemed to be going perfectly. You were getting more sleep due to the fact that you didnât have to work as hard to pay your bills (thanks to your dual income) and actually felt like a human being for once.
Feeling human meant that a lot of additional needs had been forgone and most importantly your dormant libido had jumped back alive. That itself was nothing to write home about but it was more so how you came to this realisation which was.
It was 3 months prior, when you had left your room for a late night snack. Wrapped in your hello kitty throw, you softly pattered down the hall into the kitchen. Treats successfully acquired, you walked back into the hall and was greeted with a mass of steam flowing out from the bathroom, a tall figure emerging.
It was your room mate (duh) but in a way you had never had seen him before. His raven hair was deliciously tousled - the messiest you had ever seen it and...
it. was. beautiful.
The towel wrapped around his slight waist exposed his athletic build, deceptively slim but a slight flex allowed you to see the unbridled power hidden within. His ab definition was exemplified by the drops of water falling from the light smattering of hair trailing down to his deep cut V line.
He was absolutely stunning.
You were frozen for more than a few seconds, marvelling at the discovery of this new side to your roommate. He was⌠heavenly. You didnât even realise Suguru had fully left the bathroom until you felt a warm gust of air as he swished past you, a drop of water splashing onto your face as he teasingly poked you. You sped back into the safety of your room and slammed the door. He had you salivating like a damn dog by just a flash of his upper body?? Yes, he may have looked good (a bit more than good actually) but it wasnât anything you hadnât seen before.
Since that night, the dynamics of your relationship had imperceptibly changed. You couldnât really describe how in a concise manner but Suguru had definitely changed. He was much more bold - seemingly doing everything in his power to make you flustered.
It first started with him wearing less and less clothes in the common areas of the house. You weren't completely unreasonable, leaving his room in just his red plaid PJ bottoms and those god forsaken bright pink bunny slippers could be excused. After all, this was his new home and you did want him to be comfortable. You just had to be mindful of not staring too long into his plump, juicy pectorals that were practically two small pillows that you could just face plant into. Not to mention the absolute dumptruck he was carrying from behind. During your dinners together (you always ended up cooking way more for yourself than needed), you really had to fight to keep your eyes fixed onto his face as he spoke and even then youâd find yourself being drawn further and further into his deep, purple eyes. Even his voice, calm, even and low was akin to a sirens call, causing you to be further and further enraptured with him.
Why couldnât you just be normal about your roommate. You know plenty of people who houseshare with the opposite sex and it doesnât seem to be as hard for them as it is for you. Maybe you just need a quick fuck? Something to get it out of your system so you can stop feeling like soâŚ. lustful during the most regular exchanges.
It was hard to stop thinking thoughts like that when you would come home from a study group or be leaving early for a shift at the cafe to find Suguru slumped over the couch casually watching a telenovela or a 2000s sitcom. This normally would not be any kind of issue if for the fact he wasnât practically naked par a grey set of loose Calvin Klein boxers.
The first time this happened you were almost late for work, your body physically refusing to move at the sight of his thick thighs, corded muscles tensing as he swung his legs down from resting on the cushion next to him and patted the space beside him - gesturing for you to sit. The soft smile on his face, eyes shut, eyebrows relaxed and seemingly in a state of inexplicable bliss for someone with 12 assignments due that week was all a bit too much for you to handle as you snapped out of your daze and rushed out of the door.
Suguruâs next âmisstepâ was his use of almost all of your things and general disregard for personal space. He seemed to find joy in watching you put two and two together and realise that the reason why the whole house smells like Shea vanilla is because he âaccidentallyâ used your body wash whilst bathing and so âjust had toâ grab the matching lotion, body oil and spray from your room - so he didnât âsmell confusedâ.
To think that this was the same man who was so quiet when he first moved in honestly is beyond human comprehension, his eyes crinkling shut as he laughed with genuine glee about how in the process of looking for the spray he tripped over your charging hitachi wand.
âIs my roommate feeling a bit pent up?â he drawled as he fake pouted, the tips of your ears burning at the fact that the object of your current infatuation knew about what you did in your⌠free time. âI was wondering what all that buzzing was last night.â
Suguru was comfortable at your shared house. Too comfortable. Which leads us to what happened today, what you considered to be the most egregious misstep by your roommate and would have made you so pissed if it hadnât made you so wet.
Itâs a Friday - nothing too crazy about that fact, it was just the week coming to an end. As your professor informs you of the upcoming assignments for the following week, Suguru leans down to tell you that he might be home a bit later than usual as he wanted to go to a friends houseparty. This isnât anything too out of the ordinary, you knew that he was quite well known amongst the second years and as a result he was always flitting in and out the house midweek. You didn't really understand why he was specifically informing you of his whereabouts this time but you thanked him and made your way straight to coffee shop to start your shift.
Today was by far the hardest shift youâve ever had, the sheer volume of people you had to serve and the few staff that were booked in to work. You were absolutely exhausted. You definitely were up for an orgasm or two to destress and your.. personal massager would be fully charged by the time you got home.
Clocked out at 7 and you were currently speed walking back to the house. A warm bath, filling meal and rewatching one of the telenovelaâs Suguru had introduced to you sounded like an excellent plan. Just the action of running the bath, pouring the salts and soap and stripping off your stiff uniform silenced all the noise in your mind - you could truly feel the tension rolling off your body as you eased into the bathtub.
After an hour long soak, you made a wholesome pasta dish and binge watched TV until you started to feel your eyelids drooping shut as the day begun to catch up with you. You dragged yourself to your room, the silk sheets and quilted comforter lulling your weary body to a sweet, sweet slumber.
That was until⌠1.27am according to your bedside clock. The loud bang of the front door shook you awake but itâs what you heard next that kept you up.
A bang on the hallway wall and what sounded like... kissing? Sloppy and heated, you could hear the mewls and whines of a woman coupled by occasional groans from what had to be⌠your roommate?
Footsteps got louder and louder until you could hear them through the shared wall between your rooms. The bed creaked as it hit the bedroom wall and you could hear the low murmur of your roommateâs voice. Almost instinctually, you carefully raised yourself up from the bed and pressed your ear to the wall to hear better.
âYouâre going to take allllll of it, okay?â Suguru said lowly, the woman giggling as he retorted âDonât get shy with me now. We both know you were begging for it.â
You knew what you were doing was fucked up. How could you keep eavesdropping on your roommate fucking another girl but somehow you were unable to tell your body, warmth pooling in your core.
The soft thud of clothes hitting the ground was accompanied by the rejoining of the pair, the loud kissing and sounds of scattered bedsheets made you ponder. This was the first time you had ever heard Suguru do anything remotely sexual. He made jokes (mainly to your demerit) about the apparent lack of sex and I mean, you appreciated that he respected the space that the two of you shared by not always having people over or at least doing it when you werenât home but part of you just innately knew that he wasnât seeing anyone - serious or casual. Thatâs why this is so unexpected.. but not unwanted.
See, it had interrupted your much needed sleep but you couldnât deny how horny this was making you. The fact that you could hear what it would be like to fuck your roommate and the added taboo of him not knowing you could hear - you were almost soaked in your own essence, a hand snaking down to your pyjama bottoms so that you could alleviate some of your pent-up tension.
âOpen your mouthâ Suguru demanded. A slight pause in movements as you heard what must have been a fat, wad of his saliva splash into the womanâs mouth. âGood girlâ he cooed, the woman moaning back in pure, unadulterated need.
You stifled your own whine, the delicious pressure of your fingertips on your swollen nub combined with your roommates filthy, sinful words had you so close. The woman gasped at what you can only imagine being Suguru finally pulling down those grey boxers. Another splash and a steady, slick rhythm began - probably Suguru stroking himself, long slender fingers wrapping tight around his base dragging his hand right up to the tip, thumb swirling to collect any pre-cum to lubricate his shaft even more.
âPlease..â the woman pleaded. âPlease what?â Suguru chided âIf you are going to beg at least beg properlyâ. âPlease..please put it inâ she mumbled. âYouâre still not asking properly butâ A loud squelch and the womanâs even louder moan interrupted Suguruâs almost lazy drawl. He seemed so relaxed, responding back as if he himself didnât want this as bad as she did. âIâm in a good mood so Iâll do as you wishâ he punctuated his sentence with a sharp thrust, the already worn bed frame jolting into the wall as he fully buried himself into this woman.
Her mewls seemed to get even higher and higher in pitch as the two established a steady rhythm. Hand firmly placed along your slit, you toyed with oozing entrance and sensitive clit - middle and ring finger prodding into your hole, scissoring and feeling your inner walls. You gathered some more of your essence and spread it onto your thumb, applying more and more pressure as you swirled your bud. It was like you were in a freaked out flow state, your mind purely focused on achieving that high. You tuned out the shrieks of the other woman and honed in on your roommates low grunts, imaging how tense his abs would be from the sheer effort he would be putting, arms caged around you in missionary as he just plowed straight into you until you both came.
The bed creaks became more and more frequent, your hand moving faster and faster as you heard the woman cry out one last time and start sobbing. It seemed your roommate had slowed down slightly, close himself as the thrusts became more slow and tempered not hitting the wall as loudly. You were so so close, focusing on deep breathing to slow it down so that you could come undone at the same time as him.
As he got close himself, you could hear some sort of low rumble⌠was he.. whining? You could also hear his murmured praises to his partner âYou did so good⌠thank you so much⌠your so prettyâŚngh.. allâŚurghhâŚ.fucked outâŚmffh.. like thisâ. He seemed to be speaking through gritted teeth, so close to the edge. Even though you knew he wasnât talking to you, all the words just melted into your brain adding to your dazed, enraptured state. You couldnât hold out any longer, fingers moving into overdrive as you reached your peak and fell head first into the mind-numbing pleasure of release as you heard Suguruâs muffled cry as he came.
As the static from your ears started to clear and you were finally able to come back to earth from that earth-shattering orgasm, you could hear a slightly more heated conversation happening in the adjoined room.
âWhat the fuck was thatâ the woman whisper shouted while pulling on her clothes. âWhat the fuck do I know??â puffed your roommate as he seemed to pace around the room. âYou just groaned another girls name as you came Suguru. Thatâs fucked up.. Seriously?â You could practically hear the sheepish look on his face as the door banged for a second that night.
How can he moan another girls name whilst heâs balls deep inside of her? I mean thinking back you may have heard him say your name but that was just because you were in a freaked out flow state, right?⌠right?
And thatâs why at 3.09am you had come to the solid conclusion that you hated Geto Suguru. He was obnoxious, used your stuff AND had the cheek to mock you for whatâs in your room but most importantly he fucked a girl and said your name whilst he came. Not only did he hurt this poor girl but he left you even more confused. Where do you even go from here? Did he know you heard the whole thing? Even if he did what does this change? Your hot roommate maybe does want to pipe you? This should be a good thing but for some reason you know itâs going to be more complicated than that...
part 2
a/n *:シďžâ§âĄ :: credits to @/cafekitsune for the dividers! part 2 shld be done by the 10th (no promises đ) but i lowk do want to drag it out to a three parter.
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something new - j.ww
pairing: jeon wonwoo x gn!reader
genre: university!au, e2l, academic rivals to lovers, featuring svt as your friend group, angst, fluff, suggestive - MDNI!!
summary: you and wonwoo have been rivals since the first day you met, everything he did irritated you to no end, and yet, you couldn't escape him and, at a certain point, maybe you didn't want to.
warnings: swearing, alcohol, no one knows how to communicate lol, kissing, suggestive
wc: 5.7k
a/n: wonwoo academic rival bc i love him being all nerdy n shit. i really enjoyed writing this so let me know what you think + if you have any requests for some new fics!! ŕ¸
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You stare down at your paper, illegible and scattered with doodles and a sharp exhale falls from your lips. Tapping your pen against the table, you wonder how the hell youâre going to pass this surprise exam - a surprise for you at least, apparently telling you must have slipped everyone elseâs mind. Someone taps your shoulder lightly, bringing you out of your spiral. You turn to meet the eyes of the stranger sat beside you, his jet black hair is pushed roughly out of his face, allowing you to see his soft dark eyes peer down at you.Â
You raise a questioning eyebrow at him, clueless as to why he would be trying to get your attention in the middle of an exam. He mouths the word âpenâ in response, pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose, his eyes looking at you with pure desperation. Looking at his desk, you notice the pen next to his hand is broken. You turn away briefly and watch as he lets out a breath of relief and adorns a grateful smile once you appear with a spare pen for him to use.Â
It seems like the bell rings almost immediately once you return your focus to your exam paper - shit. Now youâre definitely not passing. The bell sounds vaguely familiar as it continues to ricochet through you, you rack your brain trying to remember where youâve heard the sound before⌠oh, itâs your alarm clock. Oh! Itâs your alarm clock!Â
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
Your eyes snap open as you sit up in bed to turn off the irritating tune that your clock had been emitting for god knows how long. It was the first day of the semester, of course you had woken up twenty minutes behind schedule after a cliche âfirst-day-of-schoolâ dream, what else could you expect?
Arriving at your first class of the day, you find your friend Seungkwan sat strategically in the corner of the semester hall - just far away enough to avoid the risk of being called upon by the professor. You take a seat next to Seungkwan and listen as he begins to rant about his commute. You and Seungkwan have been friends since Freshman year after getting paired up for a group project. Originally, you were fearful that you wouldnât get along, on the surface you were like chalk and cheese, but you find now that Seungkwan balances you out just right. His bold extrovertism has pushed you to be a little less timid, to actually live and, you like to think that youâve mellowed him about a bit too. You wouldnât mind listening to Seungkwan talk and joke around all day, thatâs when heâs happiest so, naturally, you are too.Â
Your conversation with Seungkwan comes to stop as both of your attention gets drawn to a loud racket growing a few rows behind you. You follow the noise to find loveable class clowns Soonyoung, Mingyu, and Seokmin.Â
âAh, it's just Soonyoung, so anywaysâŚâ Seungkwan turns back to his laptop and continues expressing his somewhat irrational love of drive-thrus . You, however, are still watching your classmates, unable to tear your eyes away from one of them, his dark slightly nerdy features captivating you.Â
âKwan,â you murmur, âWhoâs the guy next to Seokmin?â
Seungkwan hums, satisfied, âI was waiting for you to say something, always so nosy.â
You huff gently, knowing well enough that thereâs no point in arguing with him, âSo?ââ
âJeon Wonwoo. Just transferred for his last year I guess.â
âHuh weird, I could've sworn Iâve seen him before.â
Your friend scoffs jokingly, âIn your dreams bro.âÂ
You sigh again, resting your head on the desk sulkily. âIn your dreamsâ, Seungkwanâs words echo. Wait⌠Is he⌠your head whips around to glance at the mysterious man again. No fucking way⌠Jeon Wonwoo is literally the guy from your dreams.Â
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
If you had known back then how much you would grow to dislike Wonwoo, you never would have commented on his good looks that first day but, you guess you canât really blame yourself for not knowing how much of a dick he was. Since you had met, you had tried, maybe too hard, to figure out what you had done to make him treat you the way that he did. Over the weeks you have watched him form bonds with everyone in your class - especially your friends, and you saw how his smile fell and laughter stopped as soon as you made your presence known. It was if you had physically attacked him, the way that his eyes immediately dropped to the floor once you came into view. The thing that annoyed you the most about Jeon Wonwoo though, more than the unexplained icing out, was his brain.Â
You donât like to brag but you pride yourself on your intelligence, especially in academia. You had worked hard to reach the place you were in now, throwing away your teenage years in favor of ensuring a happy and successful future for yourself. Because of this, you work hard to make sure youâre at the top of the list whenever your exam results are released - improving upon yourself and being the best of the best, thatâs what you strive for. So of course, it came as an infuriating shock when Wonwoo knocked you out of the top spot, that smug look on his face and the glimmer in his eyes as he walked past you that day was something you couldnât get out of your head. No matter how hard you tried, day and night, the only thing on your mind was Wonwoo and how to beat him.
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
âOk, what can you tell me about Wonwoo?â you are sitting in your campus cafe, your best friend Seungkwan sits across from you as you mindlessly stir your coffee.Â
âWhy do you always assume I have information on everyone?â
âBecause you always do, my favorite gossip.â you reply, buttering him up in hope heâll give you something, anything.Â
âWhatâs your business with him anyways? OhâŚâ he gasps âyou have a little campus crush donât you? Thatâs why youâre so off around him.âÂ
âDonât go spreading false information, Boo Seungkwan, heâs the one who gets cold and quiet when Iâm around. Besides, no sleeping with the enemy.â
âHeâs the enemy now? Hot.âÂ
You scoff gently at his comment, rolling your eyes âJust tell me what you knowâ, you say laughing.Â
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
As time goes on, nothing much changes between you and Wonwoo. He becomes a fixture within your friendship group with the boys taking him under their wing and as he begins to pop up in more areas of your life, you learn more about him. You learn about his love for video games and cats, you learn heâs a great listener but can speak for the country when heâs passionate about something. You learn heâs funny and even smarter than you thought. Itâs annoying that you could imagine actually being friends with him if he was just nice, you admit you might be able to understand the crowd of girls that follow him around aimlessly if he wasnât such an asshole. Because, despite him joining your friendship group and you - unwillingly - spending more time around him, he still acted so coldly towards you, no matter how nice you were to him, he never faltered.Â
âSplit into groups of six, no more, no less and create a presentation applying your chosen theorem to the 21st century.â your professor orders. Immediately the students around you begin to migrate around the room, collecting friends for the group project. You turn to your left to find that Seungkwan is already clambering over the seats behind you to reach Seokmin, Mingyu, Soonyoung and Wonwoo - all four of them cheering on his show of athleticism.Â
âQuickly guys! Come on!â the professor calls out from the front of the class. You look around to realise that youâve waited a bit too long to choose a group for yourself. Thatâs when you hear your name being called and turn to find Mingyu reaching his hand out to you with that cheesy grin you just couldnât say no to.Â
âWe need the class nerd on our team, câmon!â Soonyoung calls out to you from above.
âWe already have Wonwoo though?â Seungkwan remarks with a mischievous smirk. You quickly shoot him a stern, irritated look as his smile is broken by Seokmin elbowing him in the ribs for a reason you canât quite figure out.Â
A few days later, you and your friends (and Wonwoo) decide to meet at the library to brainstorm for your project. You arrive first with Seokmin and Mingyu and find a table just big enough for the six of you. Soonyoung trails along not long after and the four of you play some quiet games whilst waiting for Seungkwan and Wonwoo to arrive. You note that one of the two empty seats is positioned directly across for you whilst the other is out of view. The solution is clear, Seungkwan will sit across from you, at least then youâll be able to focus on the assignment.Â
Once the pair arrive, you attempt to signal to Kwan, strong eye contact asking him to take the chair opposite you.Â
âWon, which seat do you want?â He asks the other boy, and you canât hold back the sigh that escapes as your plan crumbles before you
âIâll take this one, the lightingâs better.â Wonwoo replies, making brief eye contact with you before pulling out the chair with a shy smirk on his face.Â
âŚwhat was that about? And when did he get so cocky?Â
Soonyoung clears his throat, breaking the awkward silence that suddenly fell over the group and you thank God that heâs here to take the attention off of your exchange with Wonwoo and prompt you to actually start working on the project.Â
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
Soon enough, you find yourself in a quiet bar across town on a Thursday night. Following your friendsâ advice you decide to accept your coworkerâs invitation to grab drinks. You tell yourself why not? Heâs nice enough, attractive and funny, sometimes anyways. Plus you havenât got much else going on in the love department - no harm, no foul.Â
After half an hour or so of pleasant small talk, you leave the booth and head towards the bar to order another drink. As you trudge across the sticky floor you are stopped in your tracks as a man steps in front of you, blocking you from reaching your destination.Â
âExcuse me,â you begin, attempting to manoeuvre around him.
âYou shouldnât be with him.â the man says.Â
âExcuse me?â you repeat, this time in disbelief.Â
âYou heard me.â he says, quieter this time. You lift your head to get a proper look at the strangerâs face.
âOf course youâre here.â you scoff. You push past him, shaking your head as you reach the bar. He follows, not giving up.Â
âYou donât suit each other.âÂ
You laugh, God, heâs so infuriating, who does he think he is?
âOh please, Wonwoo, like you know the slightest thing about me.â
âActually I-â
Just then your âdateâ appears, âIs everything ok?â He asks with a slightly concerned look.Â
âYeah! Just a⌠classmate.â A false happiness lines your voice.
 âCome on, let's head back to the table.â you say, turning your back on Wonwoo who watches on with a solemn expression.
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
Not long after that, you find yourself at the library with your friends almost every day, grinding to get your project completed. You and Wonwoo havenât spoken about the night at the bar, not that he speaks to you usually anyways. Instead though, you begin to catch him looking at you more and more often, his gaze burning into you, making you heat up and, most importantly distracting you from your work.Â
âWhatâs going on with you and Wonwoo then?â Seungkwan asks one day whilst you do a snack run for the rest of the group.
âWhat?â you reply, stopping where you are, astonished.Â
âJust saying, he canât keep his eyes off of you.âÂ
âHeâs trying to sabotage me or something.âÂ
â...Why would he do that? Yâknow weâre graded as a group right?â He says, baffled.Â
âWhatever.â you reply, turning into the next aisle, fed up of even thinking about Wonwoo, never mind talking about the man.Â
Returning to your friends, they circle you like vultures, picking out theyâre snacks. Itâs a chaotic free for all and youâre left with a candy bar and some chips. Wonwoo stands patiently whilst the others rob you blind so, once the others return to their seats you approach him quietly, avoiding eye contact and place the chips in front of him. He mutters a small âthank youâ and smiles gratefully, watching again as you return to your work. Now heâs just being weird, you think to yourself. You canât help but be curious about what heâs plotting.Â
At the end of the study session, the boys decide to head to the bar to reward themselves.Â
âY/N, you coming?â Mingyu asks.
âIâm good, thanks though!â you reply with a soft smile, finding a quiet night watching Netflix to be a bit more appealing today.Â
Your friends leave before you, saying goodbye whilst you pack up your stuff. As you shove your laptop into your bag, you can feel someoneâs eyes on you and your face begins to heat up at your suspicion.Â
âWonwoo! Hurry up!â you hear Soonyoung whine.Â
âRight, sorry.âÂ
You look up just quick enough to catch him turning away from you and running to meet with the rest of the group.Â
Huh, weird.Â
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
That weekend, your phone buzzes with a string of texts from Mingyu.
Mingyu: Wanna come over and play video games?
Mingyu: (Say yes)
Mingyu: Pleaseee, Iâm so bored :)Â
Youâve worked fucking hard recently and couldnât think of a better way to end the week than by playing nostalgic video games with one of your closest friends
Y/N: Don't even WORRY, Iâm omw
You respond quickly, pulling a bleach-stained hoodie on and heading for the door.Â
Youâre sat on the floor next to Mingyu in front of his TV. The room is dead silent, spare some trash talk from the both of you as you channel all of your focus on Mario Kart. As a result, neither of you notice Wonwoo coming in to watch your fierce competition.Â
You swear you see your life flash before your eyes when he, watching the screen intently, mumbles âBe careful. Blue shell coming your way.â
His sudden words do nothing but scare the living shit out of you and make you crash into a wall.Â
âOh my god,â you exclaim, heart beating rapidly after his jumpscare, âWhat the fuck are you doing here?â
He looks at you blankly, taken aback by your overreaction, âOhâŚuh⌠I live here.âÂ
You turn to Mingyu who confirms with his lips pressed together in an awkward smile.Â
âOh. Sorry. You just scared me a bit, my bad.âÂ
He chuckles quietly in response before walking over to the kitchen and leaving the two of you to finish your race (which you still win, despite Wonwooâs meddling.) A handful of races later, Mingyuâs phone buzzes, ushering him to go and collect the takeout you had ordered. Standing up, he grabs his jacket and keys but doesnât dare leave before messing with you more than he already has.Â
âWonwoo?â He calls with a mischievous grin, âCome play instead of me whilst I go get the food!âÂ
Wonwoo hums a response as he moves to sit down next to you whilst you shoot death glares at your friend, who simply mouths âbe niceâ before slamming the door behind him.Â
He picks up Mingyuâs controller and hovers over âWarioâs Gold Mineâ.Â
âWhat are you doing?â
He looks at you, confused âUh⌠choosing the best map?â
You laugh, âNo no, my poor Wonwoo. This is the best map.â You take the remote from him and select âKoopa Capeâ.Â
âOoh, youâre so wrong.â he replies playfully.
âIâm never wrong.â
âThatâs true.âÂ
You catch yourself smiling as the race starts. Maybe you are wrong, maybe heâs not so bad.Â
âOh my god, hit me with a shell again, I swear to god Jeon Wonwoo.â you exclaim as he surpasses you for the fourth time. He laughs, nudging you gently.
âI didnât know you were such a sore loser.âÂ
You look at him, forgetting about the game, âYou don't know anything about me.â you say, under your breath. He turns to you, concerned.
âHuh?â
âNothing.âÂ
Turning back to the screen, you find that Wonwoo has stolen first place from you - again.Â
âFuck.â you mutter, refocusing on the race, watching as a proud smile creeps onto Wonwooâs face.Â
âWow, Y/N actually lost for once!â Mingyu declares as he returns with the food, âI guess we finally found your match.âÂ
âShut up.â you bark back, rolling your eyes and leaning back against the couch. Wonwoo mutters a âgood gameâ before standing up with a smirk and leaving the room. You scoff at his slight obnoxiousness whilst Mingyu sits down beside you and begins unpacking the food.Â
âAre you gonna stop sulking and go get some plates?â
âUgh fineeeâ you reply jokingly before getting up.Â
Youâre completely lost in the kitchen, opening every cupboard in sight hoping to find some plates and cutlery.
âYou good?â a voice calls from behind you. You look up to find Wonwoo leaning against the doorframe, slightly baffled by your snooping.Â
âUhâŚplates?â
âAh,â he says walking towards you, you step back until youâre caught by the kitchen counter. âJust up here.â he continues, reaching behind you to grab the plates.Â
Heâs so close that, for the first time, you can smell his woody cologne strongly. Your heart speeds up as he places the plates down on the counter behind you, his hands resting on either side, trapping you.Â
You look up at him, breathless, as he scans your face. Youâre silent, drinking him in, your hands fiddling with the hem of your hoodie. He lifts his hand, brushing your hair behind your ear.Â
âCan I kiss you?â he whispers against your lips.Â
You can only bring yourself to nod in complete disbelief at the sudden shift between the two of you, the magnetism drawing you together. He moves in closer to you, so close you can feel his eyelashes as they flutter against your skin and his breathing grows slightly heavier.Â
âY/N, did you find them?â Mingyu calls from the other room. Youâve never moved away from a person so fast, separating yourself from Wonwoo immediately. You clear your throat, maintaining eye contact with Wonwoo, still flustered.Â
âYep sorry! Just grabbing a drink.â Thinking fast, Wonwoo hands you a can of coke.
âCan you grab me one too?â Mingyu shouts.Â
You both laugh quietly as he hands you another. You nod and smile, leaving him in the kitchen and heading back to your food.
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
Itâs a week before you see him again, your group's last meeting before the final presentation, a chance for you to go over the final details. The meeting is generally uneventful, everyone finally focused on the task at hand.Â
âI think if we switch the parts about culture and equity then it would flow better.â Wonwoo suggests.
âHmm, I agreeâ you reply nonchalantly because, on this rare occasion, you actually do.Â
âWhat the fuck was that?â Seungkwan whispers to you.
âWhat?â
âYou never agree with him.â
âHe made a good point.â you shrug, brushing off your friendâs interrogation. Looking up you catch Wonwoo smiling at you, giggling under his breath like a teenager. You have to stifle the smile that begins creeping onto your face as you watch him.Â
âAnd that is why we believe that absurdism is an essential mindset to have in order to thrive in the modern day.â Seokmin argues, concluding your group project, finally. The six of you share reassuring nods and smiles, youâve done your best and youâre happy with it, the rest is out of your hands.
As you exit the assessment room, Soonyoung pipes up, âDrinks, drinks, drinks, drinks, drinks?â He chants pointing at each of you as he does, the group mumbles a variety of agreements.Â
âY/N?â Mingyu asks.
âCome on, itâll be fun, try something new.â Seungkwan whispers.Â
You look at your friends smiling eagerly as they wait for your response, with an exhale and a nod, you give in, âdrinks.â
At the bar, you crowd a small table, each with a drink in hand, talking and laughing about whatever comes to mind. You play games, sharing embarrassing childhood stories and weird facts you never wouldâve learnt anywhere else. You are having fun, smiling, peaceful but, somethingâs off. You can feel it. Heâs been quiet all night, barely even looked at you. It was annoying. It was annoying that it annoyed you, a few weeks ago this would have been normal behavior but now, it was different, it upset you, made you feel like youâd done something wrong, made you feel⌠unwanted.Â
Being truthful, you werenât really feeling it tonight. If you had it your way youâd be on your couch right now watching a film. You werenât gonna go, not until you saw his cheesy grin amongst your friendsâ, so sweet you could melt. He was the reason you went out tonight. Him, and Seungkwanâs words, you should try something new. You had never felt so overwhelmed by your own feelings, one minute you felt nothing short of hatred for Wonwoo and the next⌠your heart is fluttering every time your eyes meet.Â
During your daze, Wonwoo gets up to buy another round for the group, the sound of his chair moving snaps your focus back to the table but heâs already disappeared. You excuse yourself to the restroom, taking the chance to talk to Wonwoo whilst everyone else is distracted. Standing beside him, his eyes are fixed on his phone, reading some kind of article.Â
âAre you okay?â you ask him, nervous for his answer - youâre not sure what youâll do either way. He looks up at you, soft dark eyes taking you in. He stands with an unreadable expression for what feels like forever before he finally opens his mouth to reply and then-
âWonwoo! Come here quickly, settle this bet for us!â Sometimes, you really hate Soonyoung.Â
He shoots you an apologetic look and then, heâs gone, just like that. All the courage you had built up, wasted on an unanswered question. Fuck this. You grab your jacket, shooting Seungkwan a âdonât worry Iâll text you laterâ look and head for the door. Youâre exhausted, tired of it all, you just want to be in your own bed.Â
As you walk down the quiet streets, you hear another pair of footsteps catching up to you.Â
âAre you okay?âÂ
You look at him. Youâre irritable and know that youâre probably not going to say the right thing but what the hell.Â
âSo youâre allowed to ask but Iâm not?â
âNo, thatâs not- I⌠Iâm sorry, I never know how to act around you, I never know what to say, Iâm always doing the wrong thing but I-â
âWonwoo.â you interject, âI canât do this right now. Just⌠just go back to the bar.â
He doesn't respond, a silent understanding. He doesnât leave either. He walks alongside you the whole way home, giving you quiet to think, offering you a comforting smile whenever your eyes meet. It breaks your heart just as much as it warms it, that he, despite your outburst, stays by your side when you need someone.
Even if you try to push him away, somehow he knows, he knows that you want him there.Â
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
With the group project over, you donât see him as often as before, hardly ever when youâre alone. You decide to put him out of your mind for a while, to focus on work and the rest of your assignments. Wonwoo, though, seems to have a habit of sabotaging your plans.Â
It started off with simpler things, turning up at your work just to place a complicated order, smirking as he watches you struggle with it. Then on exam week, a bag of your favorite snacks appears at your door. On a random Wednesday, he orders a pizza to your apartment. On your birthday, a small cake. And, thereâs not a week that goes by where he fails to visit the cafe, youâve grown to look forward to his bizarre orders and playful teasing.Â
Once the professor announces the end of the lecture, you grab your laptop and walk towards the door where youâre met with a familiar face.Â
âAh, the coffee fairy, what can I do for you today?â you greet him, playfully.Â
âCan we talk? Iâll walk you home.â he asks, his voice laced with anxiety.
âOkayâŚâ you nod, curious as to why heâs acting this way.Â
Walking through campus, he clears his throat, âSoâŚâ he trails off.
âSo?â
âSo I donât really know how to say this. I mean, maybe you already know but I mean⌠Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry if I upset you, or hurt you, or made you angry. If you hate me, thatâs okay I just-âÂ
âI donât hate you Wonwoo. Not anymore, anyways.âÂ
He chuckles softly, âWell, I just want you to know that I donât plan on giving up I⌠I think this is it for me,â
âIt?âÂ
âYou. I think youâre it for me. I think it was over for me the moment I saw you.â He takes a deep breath before continuing, âAnd Iâm sorry about everything. Around you, I just, I forget how to act, I canât think. Itâs all just⌠you.â
As he speaks, your face begins to heat up under his gaze, a smile appearing on your face as you take his hand in yours hesitantly, squeezing it gently. Suddenly, he stops speaking, pausing to think.
âWait⌠what do you mean you donât hate me anymore?â You can only laugh at his question as he pulls you closer to him.Â
The walk back to your apartment is nice, peaceful even, like this is where youâre meant to be. You turn towards him to say goodbye and thank him for walking so far out of his way. He canât hide his shyness as he says goodbye, stammering slightly with rosy cheeks. You look at him, hoping for more, but his eyes are fixed to the floor as he blushes. You laugh quietly, finding him incredibly endearing before turning away to enter your apartment.Â
Suddenly, you feel his hand reach for your arm, âwait.â he says, spinning you back to him.Â
The action happens so quickly, youâre basically pressed up against him, one of your hands finding his bicep to balance yourself. You look up at him, itâs clear that heâs still nervous but heâs doing his best to play it cool, his hand rests on your lower back as he pulls you even closer. The way heâs looking at you, like youâre the only thing heâs ever known, sends the color to your cheeks and you can feel your heart beating faster by the second.Â
His other hand finds your jaw as he leans his face closer to yours, his breath tickling your lips. His soft, puppy dog eyes search yours for consent, and just like in Mingyuâs kitchen, you can muster up nothing but a nod, your breathing getting shallower with anticipation, hunger.Â
His lips delicately brush yours, cautious and timid. You kiss him back warmly, he tastes like peppermint and cola, both new and familiar at the same time. He leans into you more, growing more confident as you part your lips, letting him explore you further. You fall into a perfect rhythm with butterflies fluttering throughout you and your grip on the other becoming firmer.
Remembering that you need to breathe, you break away from each other slowly. He rests his forehead against yours, sharing your breathless giggles and smiles of relief.Â
âJeon Wonwoo.â you whisper, still in a daze.
âHmm?â he hums happily.
âIâm pretty sure I donât hate you anymore.â
âOnly pretty sure?â he jokes, feigning upset.
â100% sure.â you correct yourself with a happy grin.
âGood.â he says, pecking you softly and then pressing another kiss against your cheek. âI almost went insane waiting for you to realize.â
âRealize what?âÂ
He pulls you into a warm, strong hug, resting his head on your shoulder before whispering âThat it was always you and me.â
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
âWhatâs going on with Wonwoo?â Seungkwan asks on your way to class two days later.
âWhat do you mean?âÂ
âSomethingâs different⌠heâs brighter.â
âWhy would I know anything about it, none of my businessâ you state, biting your lip to hide your knowing smile.Â
âOh come on, donât act like you havenât noticed!â
âI honestly donât know what youâre talking about.â
âBro, he didnât stop smiling the entire time he was there, it was weird. He even spoke differently, lighter.âÂ
You hum a manufactured surprised response as your friend continues.Â
âMaybe he met someone, he always talks about that person heâs liked since he moved here, maybe he finally made a move - i hope so I donât know how much more of his schoolboy pining I can take.âÂ
Your gaze is glued to the floor as you listen, knowing that you were the reason for all his changes and that he was the reason for all of yours. That he made the world seem new, brighter, happier.Â
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
âAre you okay? We havenât talked in a few days.â Wonwoo says over the phone.
âIâm sorry, itâs just my thesis, I feel like Iâm never gonna leave this apartment again.â
âThatâs okay! I get it,â he reassures you, âtalk to me about it.â
He listens intently as you babble about your thesis, humming along, asking questions and offering advice. Whilst you explain the block that youâre facing currently, thereâs a knock at the door. Getting up from your laptop to answer it, you continue, âAnd now, Iâm not sure where to go next.â
âWith me.â
âHuh?âÂ
Opening the door, heâs stood in front of you. His dark hair falling perfectly, as he runs his fingers through it, still holding his phone to his ear with a sweet smile and pride in his eyes.Â
Hanging up the phone, he clarifies, âtake a break, letâs go for dinner.âÂ
And how could you deny such a pretty face?Â
Walking the streets, he speaks passionately as he shows you his favorite spots around the city and you find yourself just happy to be here with him, to witness his excitement with a cheesy grin that you reserve for only a few people in your life.Â
âYouâre quite the sweet talker, Jeon Wonwoo.â you say, giggling.Â
âOf course,â he responds proudly, âHow else would I get to have you by my side?â With that he pulls you into a hug, his strong arms wrapping around you, swaying playfully from side-to-side and holding you as if youâre all he needs with him right now.Â
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
The elevator dings as the two of you stumble inside, your arms resting on his shoulders. Looking at him with adoration as he turns you gently, reaching his hand out to clumsily press the elevator buttons behind you. You giggle between kisses as you find your balance, clinging onto each other. You hardly notice when the elevator rings again outside your apartment, too busy with your hands tangled in his hair and his palms running across your sides in painstaking seduction.Â
Then heâs guiding you out of the elevator, hands still firm on your hips and not daring to break away from you for even a second. He slips his hand into yours, taking your keys and mindlessly fumbles to unlock the door.
It takes mere seconds once the door opens for him to slam it shut and have you trapped against the wall, he moves against you sloppily, licking into you with pure hunger and adoration, a tsunami of lust as his groans echo throughout your body.Â
âFuck. If youâd just spoken to me on that first day, I wouldâve made you mine then and there.â he whispers against your skin, trailing electric kisses down your jaw towards your collarbone.Â
You laugh in shock, lifting his lips back up towards yours, his cold hands sneaking underneath your shirt as you kiss him back feverishly. âMe? No, you were the one who ignored me.âÂ
âHmmâ he responds breathlessly, turning you around and leading you to your bedroom. Drawn together like magnets, you both stumble across the room, hands and lips battling for the next sweet taste, the next wanting touch.Â
âLook how farâŚâ his lips find yours again, âjust a bitâŚâ and again, âof communication can goâ you finally manage to moan out.Â
âAre you gonna stop talking and be mine now orâŚ?â he whines as you drag against his lips.Â
You giggle softly as he lifts your arms to rest around his shoulders, pulling you in by the waist before his soft mouth is reunited with yours.
ďšË â ︾ďšâš ๠︵︵ ŕš âšďšď¸ľ
You could never have imagined that you would come to find a safe space in Wonwoo. That you would eventually know him better than yourself. That the man you loathed, competed against, fought, would be yours. The man whose presence bothered you would soon be the one to hold your hand through good news and bad. That his happiness was your happiness, his sadness, his pride, his love.Â
You never could have imagined that he would be the one waking you up on Sunday mornings with sweet kisses on your collarbone. That, at night you would be drawing idle patterns on his chest. That even after waking up from your dreams, heâd still be there holding you. That his touch was the only thing you craved, his kisses your favorite greeting, his voice your favorite song. His gaze and gooey brown eyes which used to irritate you to no end, would soon become your lighthouse in the storm. You never could have imagined that you would love Jeon Wonwoo.
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drivin' on 9 - aaron hotchner x reader
synopsis: you seem to be the only person who can get aaron to make reasonable decisions. such as not driving an hour commute after exhausting himself on the most recent case.
content: fluff, will they won't they, yearning, aaron can't take care of himself, driving, minor angst like aaron gets just a little fussy. made up details about where aaron lives. specific genre of music mentioned (chose my fav) but you can fill in with whatever you like!
word count: 2452
author's note: titled based off my fav song by the breeders. thank you guys for enjoying my most recent hotchner fic!! here's another <3 p.s. if you live in washington dc, my details are probably wildly inaccurate.
you weren't exactly sure what it was. this connection between you and aaron hotchner. what had been building for the two years you had been a part of the bau has amounted to something that you had never felt with another person before. there was a comfort there, a care there, that allowed aaron to always choose the seat next to yours on the jet, allowed him to pick you to be by his side on cases, and allowed him to let loose, even just a little.
neither of you had really brought it up yet, but you felt like the little touches to his arm or shoulder or knee and gazes from across the room said something. they had to.
the way he had just protected you from an unsub's bullet today had to mean something too. and if it didn't, you weren't sure you were cut out to be a profiler after all.
it was an exhausting case, as most of them are, but this one seemed particularly strenuous on aaron. every day was spent dealing with high profile lawyers, crying and angry families, and the unsub was only getting more impulsive by the day. aaron, being the unit chief and former lawyer, took on the brunt of the work. he didn't have to, truly. you offered multiple times to help, but each time he dismissed you and the rest of the unit.
it ended with a pretty unexpected shootout in the middle of the unsub's home. despite aaron's hesitance to let you follow him inside, you crept down the hallways of the home back to back, clearing each individual room. when you hadn't expected him, the unsub shot his gun and suddenly you were down to the ground, aaron's arms and body shielding you.
perhaps it was divine intervention that made the next pull of the trigger produce a satisfying click that gave aaron plenty of time to take down the unsub and hold him there with handcuffs. you were still shook up, but on the way out of the home and back to the jet, you couldn't help but think about aaron saving you.
now, most of the bau shuffles back into the bullpen, having arrived late at night. the clocks on the wall told you it was nearing one in the morning and while you were able to manage half of a nap curled up next to aaron on the jet, you knew he didn't. you could see the dark circles under his eyes and every step was labored.
as the rest of the bau slowly left the bullpen through the night, aaron remained. it was a rare night when he left his door open and from your desk, you could watch him wipe his hands down his face and yawn despite his best efforts not to.
it was heart-clenching, really, knowing all he did to keep this team running smoothly. but you knew at the same time that aaron needed sleep in his bedroom. however, a man that exhausted shouldn't drive. that you were sure of.
when you had gotten to a good stopping point in your report, you closed the files, placed them into a locked drawer, and shut off your computer. quietly, you packed up your bag and left your desk to head to aaron's door. upon hearing your footsteps, he looked up.
"you need to go home and get some sleep, aaron," you said. first names were a rare thing held just between the two of you. around the rest of the group, it was last names as usual. "let me drive you home."
aaron shook his head before you were even able to get out your last few words. "no. strauss is on me about getting these reports done as quick as possible. i'll be fine, y/n. you can go home," he responded. even his voice was strained with the need for sleep.
you stepped further into his office, coming close to his desk. "they can wait till tomorrow morning. i'll help you get them done quickly and if she has anything to say about it, let me talk to her."
aaron opened his mouth then promptly closed it. underneath his desk, his hand flexed. he was exhausted. "i'm okay. go home."
"i'm not leaving-"
"y/l/n, you don't get it. this needs to get done. i can't go home and get them in tomorrow like the rest of you can. so just go on and let me work," he said harshly. a second passed and he sighed.
two years of encouraging aaron to keep a work-life balance has led you to handle moments like this. he worked himself to pure exhaustion, then lashed out. it didn't make you run. instead, your feet were even more firmly planted on his office floor. you kept your gaze on the man in front of you. "i know you didn't mean that. you're exhausted, aaron. please let me take you home. you're in no shape to drive."
he placed down his pen, finally, and leaned back the slightest in his chair. "i'll go home, but you're not driving me," he said. "it's out of your way. you don't know what neighborhood i live in and-"
"georgetown," you interrupted him. he raised an eyebrow and you could've swore that there was the smallest uptick of his lips. "i've seen you at the whole foods on wisconsin ave like three times now. i live on 35th street." it's true. you were always too nervous to approach him on those rare weekends you caught him grocery shopping.
aaron let out a breathy laugh. "i live on prospect street," he said before pausing for a moment. "i'll have to take the train in the morning to get back."
"i can drive you back in the morning," you said effortlessly.
"i get here earlier than you."
"then i'll wake up earlier."
"i don't want you to-"
"oh my god, aaron hotchner, will you please just let me drive you home tonight so i don't have to worry about you passing out at your desk or trying to drive home and crash because you fell asleep at the wheel? please?"
that was all it took for aaron to finally put away his files in a similar fashion as you and turn off his own computer. he grabbed his own bag, threw his jacket over his sleeve, and gestured for you to begin the walk.
"finally," you whispered.
once you and aaron had left the office, he locked it behind him and wordlessly followed you out of the office and to the elevators. a comfortable silence washed over the two of you as you waited on the elevator to ding! then send you down to the parking garage. once it did and you reached the bottom floor, you found your car rather quickly considering the deserted nature of quantico.
"nice car," aaron offhandedly mentioned. "newer model?"
your car chimed as you unlocked it and opened the back door to throw your bags in. "yeah, used most of my first paycheck after being promoted to the bau on a downpayment."
aaron opened the passenger door and climbed in. his tall frame made his legs fit a little awkwardly, but he eased into a comfortable position then buckled in. you turned the car on and sighed as the heat from the vents started relaxing your tense muscles.
as you backed out of your parking spot and left the garage, you hit a few buttons on the stereo which started to play one of the cds loaded into it. it was soft at first, but cautiously, aaron reached forward to turn the volume up.
"tango in the night? fleetwood mac?" he asked through another yawn.
you nodded and smiled his way. "mhm! i think it's their best album. i mean rumours is great and so is their self-titled and tusk, but this one's been my favorite for a while."
he hummed and sat back in his seat, eyes gazing out the window. the music filled the silence nicely, being just quiet enough that aaron's yawns still permeated the silence, but loud enough that the purring of the car's engine didn't become annoying.
the drive ahead wasn't long, especially since the roads were emptier at this time of night. having aaron in your car was a nice addition, though, and you were glad to have been able to safely take him home rather than let him work himself to death in his dark office. he seemed glad to with the way he almost half nodded off in the passenger seat.
you didn't mention it, but instead let him feel relaxed for the first time in over a week.
"i didn't think you'd listen to fleetwood mac," he said all of a sudden, as if he had been thinking it over in his head.
"why not?" you asked.
he shuffled in his seat to turn more towards you rather than towards the door. "i'm not sure," he said honestly. "guess i just don't think about what other people listen to. i just assumed you listened to the radio."
"assuming makes an ass out of you and me, aaron," you said. he chuckled and leaned his head against the chair's support. out of the corner of your eye, you could just barely appreciate his jawline highlighted by the streetlights you drove past. "i know what you listen to."
"oh, yeah?" he teased. you weren't sure if his voice deepened there, or if he was becoming sleepier by the minute.
"mhm," you answered. "you love the beatles."
"i do," he confirmed. "i'm guessing you don't just make assumptions about people."
"no, especially not people like you." the words came out before you processed the meaning behind them, but he didn't make any response to them. they hung in the air, adding on to the thick, yet enjoyable, tension in the car. "whenever you listen to music on the jet, i can hear it next to you while i'm sleeping."
"you can tell me to turn it down, you know?"
"i know. why would i do that, though? you're doing something you enjoy. which you should do more of, by the way."
"i'm doing something i enjoy right now," he said.
despite your attempts to keep a stone face at his words, your lips turned into a small smile. he must be really sleepy to be letting these words fall from his mouth so carefree. or maybe a night time drive alone with you is what he needed to finally put words to all of the unknown between you.
"we can carpool more often, aaron. you can say you like my car and its heated seats if you want," you tried to joke, but his face held something more serious. you tried to ignore it as the city came closer and closer.
"what's your favorite song on this album?" he asked.
"is this an interrogation?"
he shook his head. "just curious about you."
"probably welcome to the room. or big love." he was silent for a second. "good picks?"
"good picks," he said and left it at that.
the car fell into silence for another bit, but it was evident that aaron was thinking in the passenger seat. you tried to avoid his pensive gaze and focus on navigating the streets of dc to get closer to his street. slowly, the album came to a close and the stereo immediately shifted into the next one.
"hey, we're getting closer to prospect street. can you let me know which is yours?" you asked, clearly interrupting his thoughts. he sat up in his seat and pointed towards a townhome towards the end of the street.
"that one."
slowly, you pulled off and parked the car in front of his home. you gazed up at the townhome, noting the dried plants in front of the door and a skeleton decoration in the window, no doubt left over from halloween. when you looked back at aaron, he hadn't made a move to leave yet.
"we're here," you said awkwardly.
he bit his lip, then with a sudden resolution, he shifted his entire body towards yours. "i know that i'm really exhausted, you were right. i could not have made that drive and i'm grateful for you taking me home."
"of course, you-"
"but i want you to believe what i'm about to say, okay?" your breath caught in your throat, but you nodded nevertheless. "i know you're feeling whatever this is. i tried to ignore it for a while, i really did, but i feel really comfortable and happy and at peace with you. and i haven't had that in a long time. i was really scared earlier. when you almost got shot." he took a deep breath. "i think i really, really like you. and if you don't feel the same, if i've read this wrong, you can tell me and i won't be hurt."
you stared at him, floored by his confession. it was one in the morning, parked outside of his house, and aaron hotchner just told you that he liked you. that he really liked you. words were difficult to come up with. in fact, it felt like your entire vocabulary had vanished into thin air. so, instead, you leaned forward and pressed your lips to his.
it was a painfully soft kiss. you were unsure if this was fine, that you could kiss him like this. he was your boss after all. but after a second, aaron's lips moved against yours. then his hand met your cheek and it was so warm on your already flushed skin. the kiss could have lasted for much longer, but the painful need to breathe forced the two of you apart. you rested your forehead on his and your breathing mingled together.
"what time do you need me over tomorrow morning?" you whispered.
"i'm actually thinking of a different plan," he whispered back.
"do tell, aaron."
he removed his head from yours and fished his keys out of his bag. "i'm thinking that i'm going to go in there and grab stuff, then come back out here and get back in your car, and stay over. for convenience sake."
"i don't think i've ever heard a better idea, aaron." he smiled, cheeks warm and slightly pink. he surprised you with a quick kiss to your cheek then stepped out of your car. aaron hotchner practically walked up to his door with a bounce in his step while you were left in your driver's seat with a goofy grin adorning your features.
the two years of tension had been well worth it.
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đpairing:Â bsf!yeosang x gn!reader đgenre: fluff, friends to lovers, long distance đsummary: during what you think is a simple trip to visit your best friend, some not so simple feelings come to light, but what can you do when the one you adore is just oh so sweet? đwordcount: 3.5k đwarnings/tags: unedited, and they were besties, who yearn, but don't want to ruin things so they keep yearning, yeosang is too precious, yeo and reader live in different countries, no specific locations mentioned, bungeoppang appreciation, confessions, eating, food, much love language-ing, one mild curse word đtaglist: at the bottom <3 đa/n: to the wonderful, beautiful lheo, i love you. the happiest birthday to you, @starrysvn
Have you ever fallen in love?
Sometimes, it could be as simple, but beautiful, as the rays of sunshine that come to rest on thousands of eternal green leaves on a chilly winter day. Other times, it could be as brutal as the freezing, merciless gusts of wind that carry flurries of snow across abandoned city streets. For you, well, for you, you were not sure if you even wanted to dive into those feelings and explore them, but when faced with love in every way, shape and form, you could add to the definition.
Sometimes, love could be unexpected, but at the same time, something you have always subconsciously known, much like the taste of a pastry you have never tried, but could imagine in astonishing detail.
Between countries, between what felt like huge stages in your life, you were caught between a rock and a hard place. Whether it was reality that looked so threatening or the admonishing voice inside your head, a swift escape to something, or rather someone you adored turned out to be not just something you desperately wanted, but also needed. Or at least that was what you had told yourself - no strong feelings, just the comfort of someone who knew better than you knew yourself.Â
The flight was a blur, the train ride to the hotel, too, was much the same. Of course, your friend was very adamant on you coming to stay with him, but you did not want to impose. After all, out of the two of you it was you who was on vacation, while he still had to commit to the daily grind of waking up at seven in the morning at the latest and tackling commuter hell in the underground tunnels. But that âenticingâ picture did not stop your friend from immediately booking a couple of days off, despite your insistence that âyou would be fineâ and âyou would find your wayâ. Apparently, Yeosang could be stubborn when he wanted to be. Not that it was a surprise for you after having known him since you had cried over multiplication and division together.
Had it really been that long? The question plagued you as you regarded the view out of your hotel room - it was a challenge to find a hotel that was not extortionate but still had some visual breathing space, but worth it. You wondered where Yeosang was right now. You had messaged him as soon as you landed, and then again as soon as you arrived at the hotel, but still, nothing. Perhaps it was a sign that what you thought to be polite talk was in fact the reality, and you would be mainly alone.
Jet lag and overall fatigue hit you like a sledgehammer, and you allowed yourself to finally collapse on the bed. While massaging your temples, you pondered whether to brave the freezing outdoors or to laze around this evening and embark upon an adventure tomorrow. Apparently, a certain someone else had the answer ready for you. Incessant vibrations of your phone startled you into semi-wakefulness, and you quickly realised that the dialler was none other than your best friend. In one swipe, you were met with this face, barely visible behind a thick scarf and hat. Clearly, he was outside. His voice was muffled, partially by the clothing and partially by the traffic. But with one flip of the camera, you were met with the facade of your hotel. You did not need to be told what to do.
Foregoing any outerwear, you rushed down the corridor and into one of the many elevators to hurry to the lobby, where you agreed to meet. You spotted him faster than he could spot you, and slowing to a more socially acceptable amble, you stalked towards Yeosang until you could tap his shoulder. You swore if you could see the smile he graced you with upon turning around every day, you would be in an eternal paradise. He was the sun to your moon, the summer to your winter, the calming waves, the freshly fallen snow. It was too easy to construct poetry about him in your mind, but far too challenging to ever let the lines slip, so you resort to giving him a gentle, but meaningful embrace.Â
âIâm so happy to see you, I missed you-â you whispered, eyes tracing every feature of his face as if you wanted to memorise them all.
âI missed you more, it has been too long,â this voice that you could listen to forever. You sighed. This was your home.Â
âShall we go up?â
âOh! Am I allowed?â
âWhy not?â he simply shrugged, happily following you with a smile dancing on his lips. You made a note of the bags that he was diligently carrying with him, wondering if he had done some shopping for himself before going home.
When in the room, you made a beeline for the suitcase to search for presents you had packed for Yeosang: all the snacks he had fallen in love with when he was a kid, and those he missed dearly when he settled into work in the big city halfway across the globe, along with some accessories and trinkets that screamed âYeoâ to you. Once you were done and Yeosang had finished his miniature balancing game of trying to get his large puffer coat to hang on one of the wall hooks and not succumbing to gravity, you cheerfully beckoned him closer, only to be met with the two bags.
âGift exchange!â you mildly hated yourself for how fast your heart started beating.
Somehow, it only got worse when you and him sat down on the bed to give in-person reviews and impressions, and you had to bear witness to every delighted exclamation, restrain yourself from staring at the sparkles in Yeosangâs eyes as he stumbled upon some hair clips in his favourite red, down to the shade, and had to bite down on your lower lip when he enthusiastically adjusted his hairstyle to accommodate one of them, and immediately launched into the other presents.
His gifts for you looked like a dossier, in all honesty. It was a study of what you adored and what you had expressed your interest in to him over one call or other. You attempted to discreetly place a heart over your chest to make sure that you were still somehow alive. So far so good, but when you spotted a box, and within it, a leather bracelet with intricate metal studs, one of them having a quote from one of your favourite songs engraved, you could not help but whisper out your friendâs name.
âWhatâs wrong? Whatâs up? Ah, if thatâs not okay with you I can go take it ba-â
âI LOVE IT. HOW DARE YOU. KANG YEOSANG,â you shot back, a hand resting on his shoulder.Â
His benevolent nonchalance had always astounded you. Clearly, this quality of his never left him, for even now, his demeanour did not change, aside from the redness appearing on the very tips of his ears, and a soft pursing of the lips. And there it was. His laugh. Your music.Â
âWel, I am very glad. Iâm sorry it isnât too much, you literally brought life back to me through your gifts I-â
âAgain, donât you- YEO IS THIS A TRAVEL CARD?!â
â...yes, I set it up and topped it up and everything, so you should be okay to travel all the-â
âYeosang let me just-â
âHm?â you faltered. What did you want to do? What were you about to say?
âAh, nothing.â
âOkay,â another quality in Yeosang that you could not help but adore.Â
You knew that he was fully aware that you were on the verge of spilling a kind of truth that you did not even have a wholehearted awareness of, but in the split second that you changed your mind, he did too. He was not interested in what you were uncomfortable with sharing, and at lightning speed, erased it from his memory. What you did not say to him was not yours to ache over, and not his to pry out of you. Certainly there were moments when he had been insistent and you had your fair share of deep conversations, but Yeosang could strike a magical balance, reassuring you with a soft smile. He was a gift. You looked at him as he opened one of the snacks, feeling the gears turning in your head.
This trip was going to be a lot more than you had anticipated.
Oh you could not be more wrong. If you had anything in mind before, you should have amplified it by infinity, because you were not prepared for what Yeosang had in store. From taking you to historical parks to raiding shop after shop to indulging in the most delicious dishes at family owned restaurants, your day to day was nothing short of spectacular. Every other photo in your camera roll was Yeosang or the two of you together, not that you minded, and your suitcase was rapidly starting to protest against the sheer volume of things that you were adding to your return luggage. What had made you begin believing that this was all a fever dream, however, were the changes that you had observed in your friend.
He was more attentive than you had ever known him to be, more open to initiating conversation and so actively taking the lead to show you around the city he now called his home that you were left breathless. He was in his element, but he was trying his hardest to make this your element too. Your pre-flight demands for yourself to not feel were demolished, and with every step you took by his side you could feel yourself falling deeper and deeper into the chasm that was your infatuation with Yeosang that you could not bear to combat the orchestra-worthy arrangement of premonitions, conclusions and assumptions any longer.
Time flew past. There were still a few days left, yet you were already mourning. Truth be told, you had been in that state upon your arrival, but you had a stronger resolve and the desire to spend your time with value and positivity. Nothing in the world could convince you that you would be happier in the trenches of routine life, and away from whoever Yeosang was to you. In the weeks that you had spent with him, it was harder and harder to figure out the limits and lines. It had been easy in school when you would focus more on your studies and were essentially each otherâs free therapists. It was difficult in university when distance separated you, but even then, you had gotten used to it. Or maybe, in hindsight, it was simply a wound that you had put a bandaid on and decided that you could walk through life just fine, and now, seeing Yeosang again, talking to him again, being with him again, opened this wound up to show that it had never healed.
He meant too much to you, to put it simply. Yeosang was too entangled in your soul for you to ever disregard the impact he had made on you and the effect that he continued to have on your life. His every text mattered, every silly reel he would send mattered, even the wildest photos were priceless to you. You cared about the colour of his hair, about whether his company had his favourite lunch on offer today. You felt uneasy when you sensed that something was wrong with him, and you felt like you were on cloud nine when he shared good news with you. For the longest time, you thought that this was normal for friendships, but now when he was holding your hand as he led you through one of the many street markets, it hit you. No, friendship was not enough.
You felt greedy. Yeosang had been in your life for so long and you still wanted more. How could you? The evil thoughts in your brain were yelling at you ceaselessly - you should quit him while you still could, you should let him do what he wanted to do, and that was nothing to do with you. A burden, a burden so big that you did not even even realise it. Yeosang was just too nice to ever tell you all of this. You could feel tears starting to well up in your eyes; with a shaky breath you tried to blink them away before your friend could see them. Your hand started to slip, or maybe it was your busy mind trying to pry you away from him, but much to your dismay, Yeosang only gripped it tighter and urged the two of you on.Â
He had mentioned that there was a specific stall he wanted the two of you to visit, but the market only opened closer to night time. So, after a lot of stumbling about the city, hopping from neighbourhood to neighbourhood and enjoying local life, he led the way to this bustling haven. You could not help but feel selfish, drowning in your own misery while Yeosang was trying with all his might to share with you what you could see was a piece of his heart. Everything in you ached. You did not want this to end, you did not want to let Yeosang go, but you had to, for everyoneâs sake, or at least this was the idea that you had convinced yourself was the only correct path.
âWeâre here! Wait a moment, Iâll get a couple for us!â Yeosang let go of you, and with a quick gesture of the hands and a grin, walked to the lady selling what you knew to be bungeoppang. Sweet pastry filled with whatever the heart desired, traditionally with red bean, of course. Of course, Yeosang would bring you to try the one thing you mentioned you never had gotten. You glanced at the night sky.
âSo, I got one red bean and one choux-cream, the first one as you probably know is the original, but the cream one is quite tasty too. There are some other flavours, so, if you like these we can get some others too,â he was rambling, but it was far too endearing to ever pause. It was like a beautiful melody that flowed and flowed, soothing you.
âBung-yeo-ppang.â
âSorry?â he tilted his head while stretching out his hands, waiting for you to choose which pastry to try first.
âBung-yeo-ppang, isnât it?â
It did not take long for Yeosang to erupt in a fit of giggles. You managed to take the red bean bungeoppang out of his hand before he leaned forward slightly in an attempt to compose himself.
âMaybe time for a rebrand, my name is made for it,â he was all smiles, biting into the other pastry and savouring the rich, warm flavour, âdelicious as always, what do you think?â
âFantastic, give me fourteen of them right now,â you joked, but when you noticed Yeosangâs brief rise of the eyebrows and a tentative hand reaching into his pocket to find his wallet, you had to very rapidly track back, âYeo, I was joking I-â
âOh do you not like them? Iâm sorry,â with full understanding and sincerity he answered you, immediately confused why you started to wave his remarks off.
âNo!! I mean about the âfourteenâ part⌠I donât think I am ready for that kind of an investment yet.â
âNot until I open my own stall, that is,â he answered back, grinning playfully, âyouâd visit, right?â
For some reason, this question seemed to carry a lot more weight than what one would expect of an innocent play-pretend. Would you visit him? In general, sometimes, at all? When? Judging by the sudden intensity of his gaze, it was clear that you were not alone in your ruminations.Â
âI-â
âI know Iâm not really⌠to everyoneâs tastes but-â you could see that he was drifting between meaning one thing and another. Your heart hurt deeply. What was he assuming you thought of him?
âYeoâŚâ
âI- I am just. Happy. Yeah. Happy, like this. Iâm sorry I-â
âMe too,â you captured his hand in yours before he could turn away. You saw he was misty-eyed, but chose not to comment, instead emphasising, âIâm always happy with you. And yes, I would visit your stall. Hell, I would live in it,â he smiled at your words, though there was a hint of melancholy that settled in his features.Â
Your gaze drifted down to your hands - a rather bold move on your part since you rarely ever initiated more personal contact. A touch here, a touch there, sure, but this? This was you listening to yourself for once. Instead of racing away from the sensation, you lightly bit the inside of your cheek and intertwined your fingers with his.Â
âIf anything, it is me who is being very silly right now,â you mumbled, taking another bite of the pastry, noticing it having rapidly cooled down. You couldnât meet Yeosangâs eyes, nor could you look at your hands, so you just studied the depths of red bean paste, wondering if you could dissolve in it right this second.
âWhat?â
âI mean⌠Look at me, a loon who flew across the world to waste your time. Howâs that?â
âWhat are you saying-â
âAnd for what? I mean, yes, I am having the most amazing time but you must be so tired playing tour guide and working and doing all these other things-â
âYouâd do the same for someone you love, right?â
You froze. With a quick tug, you followed Yeosang out of the market towards the side streets where there were noticeably less people. Upon finding a quiet alley, he stopped, and lowered himself a little to find your face. His words were ringing in your head and you were trying to make sense of them. It was agonising to try and decipher whether it was pity or reciprocation, and you barely registered a soft âright?â being repeated to you, this time right next to your ear. Unknowingly, your fingers clasped Yeosangâs hand tighter, and he stepped closer towards you.
âItâs okay,â you knew exactly why he was saying this. Again, caring, gentle Yeosang, precious soul. He was giving you a way out. One that you were not going to take, not this time, not ever.
âI would.â
âHm?â
âI would do the same. Iâm sorry. I sounded so damn ungrateful it is-â
âI understand, really, I do and-â
âI am horribly in love with you, Kang Yeosang.â
You took in his expression. His mahogany eyes that you could bet contained flecks of gold and sunshine. His rosy lips that were parted ever so slightly. His hair, now a cherry red that you had helped him dye it to peeking out from under a black, fluffy bucket hat. Your heart was on the table, along with the many years that you had spent with and thinking about your friend, and the many years in the future that you were either going to cherish, or curse, or spend comfortably numb in the absence of the one who would always have your heart.
âI hope itâs not too horrible, because loving you, for me, is magical, and very sweet,â you blinked once, twice before asking:
âHuh? Since when-â
âHm⌠university, give or take? I think? Maybe earlier. Either way I kind of accepted that whatever happens I would love you anyways. SoâŚâ
âSo⌠uhm, shall we try? I donât know⌠I mean I am leaving in a few days and the distance is-â
âSince when did that stop us? Besides, we can figure things out as we go. That is what we have always done. Main thing is to not hide things. Isnât that what you tell me all the time?â You nodded. Indeed, after a few too many occasions when Yeosang had not shared his troubles with you or denied your help, you had made it a point to check in on him, and this habit had never stopped even with many countries separating you.
As you glanced at one another and, with a timid âmay I?â you closed the space between the two of you, you realised that, no matter the filling, no matter the sugar content, no matter what, nothing could ever be as sweet as him. You really would travel all those miles again and again even if just for one single moment like this, knowing that he would always do the same for you - your favourite, your only, yours truly, Yeosang.
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â TRAVELING THE MULTIVERSE vs TRAVELING THE WORLD
( a long-winded title for why you should never be scared to post about your niche, less-well-known or original DRs )
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letâs be real: everyone and their mom is obsessed with jetting off to new places in the world. you knowâscrolling through Pinterest boards of Paris cafes, watching vlogs of someoneâs Bali retreat, or dreaming about backpacking through South America. we love soaking in the mystery of somewhere weâve never been. but hereâs the kicker: the multiverse is the ultimate travel destination, and itâs just as exciting to hear about someoneâs niche desired reality as it is to hear about their trip to Rome
so why do shifters with ânicheâ DRs keep holding back? you think people only wanna hear about Hogwarts or being famous? PLEASEâwe want to know about the far-off corners of your imaginationâthe places we didnât even know existed until you opened your mouth. sharing those âoff-the-beaten-pathâ DRs is like dropping us a postcard from another universe, and we fucking live for that
PASSPORT TO POSSIBILITY
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in this reality, getting a passport is your ticket to explore the world. but shifting? thatâs your multiversal passport, babe. and guess what? itâs got unlimited stamps
think about itâjust like every country on Earth has its own unique vibe, culture, and history, every DR in the multiverse is brimming with flavor. youâre out here specifying realities with details so rich you could practically smell the street food or feel the cobblestones underfoot. why would you hold yourself back from sharing that kind of magic?
picture this: someone casually tells you theyâre shifting to a DR where everyone speaks in rhymes, the skies are lavender, and the economy runs on fruit trading. thatâs wild. thatâs fresh. thatâs kind of a great idea, scripting it right nowâthatâs the kind of content i need more of. donât undermine your own creativity. the multiverse is endless, and your DR might be someoneâs next âbucket list destinationâ
EVERY DESTINATION HAS A STORY
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letâs talk travel bloggers for a sec, for the sake of examples. the best ones? they donât just tell you about the tourist traps; they give you the juice. they show you the hole-in-the-wall cafe with the best fettuccine, or the tiny town with the down-low annual festival. and thatâs exactly the energy i get excited for when youâre talking about your DRs
take Hogwarts, for example. we all wanna know what itâs like to sit in the Great Hall or attend Potions class (trust, we do), but if your DR is, say, a small coastal town in the Wizarding World where you run a little bookshop and spend your weekends drinking enchanted tea by the seaâiâd flip a table to read about that. itâs the details that make a place come alive, whether itâs in this reality or the one next door
your DR doesnât have to be flashy or âmainstreamâ to be fascinating. in fact, the more specific and personal it is, the more iâm gonna eat it up
CULTURE SHOCK, BUT MAKE IT COSMIC
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when people travel, one of the most exciting parts is witnessing and experiencing new cultures. trying new foods, hearing new languages, learning customs that are totally different from your ownâitâs all part of the adventure. shifting is a similar deal, but on a cosmic scale
(eyeing those of us with completely original fantasy DRs) maybe your DR has a society where time doesnât exist, the sky is a different color, or youâre going to work alongside trolls and fairies. maybe in your DR, everyone has a telepathic connection to their past. or maybe youâre in a city built on floating islands where people commute via hot air balloon. give it to me, NOW
donât underestimate how fascinating and cool your DR sounds just because it doesnât fit the typical mold. people love hearing about the unfamiliarâwhether itâs a country theyâve never visited or a reality theyâve never even imagined
THE TOURIST TRAP MENTALITY
ËăăăăâŚăăă.ăă. ăâËă.ăăăăă . âŚăăă ăËăăăă . â
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you know how everyone and their dog wants to see the Eiffel Tower, even though some people say itâs overrated? itâs totally natural to seek out common experiences, to want to experience and enjoy the same things others are raving about. people, including myself, often gravitate towards the most common DRs (especially when youâre just starting out shifting, and youâve been given a ticket to the multiverse that youâre trying to make digestible)âHogwarts, MCU, fame DRs. theyâre familiar, thereâs tons to read about them, and theyâre beyond easy to romanticize. donât get me wrong, those DRs are classics for a reason, but theyâre certainly not the only stops on the multiversal map
your DR might not have a castle or superheroes or any magic at all, but itâs got youâyour story, your vision, your unique little slice of the multiverse. and if youâre wanting and willing to share it, thereâs always someone out there whoâs gonna vibe with it hardâprobably countless people. trust me, people are dying to hear about the realities they never even knew existed
SHARE THE JOURNEY, NOT JUST THE DESTINATION
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part of what makes travel so fascinating is the stories people tell about getting thereâthe long flights, the missed trains, the odd stories in airports which are basically liminal spaces. shifting is the same way. itâs not just about where youâre going; itâs about all the intricacies of getting there (read: scripting, basically programming your destination into the GPS)
did you script a whole language for your DR? did you spend hours designing the perfect house? did you practically write a novel of the love story between you and your partner? thatâs the good stuff. thatâs the behind-the-scenes content that makes your DR feel real and relatable, even to the people that arenât shifting thereâto us, itâs like tugging back the curtain on the most creative film of all the time and showing everyone how it was done. you multiversal mastermind
THE BOTTOM LINE: YOUR DR IS YOUR POSTCARD TO THE MULTIVERSE
ËăăăăâŚăăă.ăă. ăâËă.ăăăăă . âŚăăă ăËăăăă . â
â. ŕżŕż
every DR is a little piece of the multiverse that you can bring to light. it doesnât matter if itâs niche, weird, or completely out of left field. the more unique it is, the more people are gonna wanna hear about it
so stop worrying about whether your DR is âcool enoughâ or âpopular enough.â share it. rant about it. paint us a picture of the world youâve built, the life youâre living, and the adventures youâre having. because just like with travel, the most unexpected destinations are often the most unforgettable
post about whatever DRs you want !! i wanna read all of them. xoxo :^)
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ââ flufftober day sixteen, masterlist tbd kim seungmin x gn!reader w. 0.4k
A late train commute was never particularly pleasant. Work had asked you to go far and booked you a last minute hotel. You decided to bite the bullet and get on a night train, planning on getting reimbursed later.
You'd packed up a large bag of things and arrived at the station, quietly loading onto the train with the rest of the nighttime residents. The seat you booked was pretty close by was nice enough and had a window view, so you couldn't be mad.
You especially couldn't be mad when the seat across from you was filled by a very attractive guy.
It usually wouldn't really register who was sitting across from you other than a few key words, but this guy was different. Jet black hair, beautiful eyes, and this smile he quickly hid under his sleeve when looking at his phone.
You would've taken your focus off him to get some rest, but you were just enchanted. He didn't have anything that made him stand out in a crowd, but his features were just perfectly made. Plainly put, he was hot.
Who were you not to shoot your shot? A few minutes after the train left the station, you saw him set his phone down and look out the window.
Clearing your throat had his attention shift over to you, and you gave him a polite smile. "Hey."
He looked suspicious for a minute before giving a small nod. "Hello."
"What's your story?" You asked.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean," You shrugged, "What has you on a train at this hour?"
"Ah," He nodded and leaned back a little, "Work. Can't escape it."
Your brows raised. "Crazy. Me too. Some sort of conference in the morning and their other person got sick.. so I'm the last minute replacement."
"Ah, that sucks," He smiled again and you almost felt faint, "My thing isn't until midday, but I thought I'd just get there early anyways and rip the band-aid off."
"I'm lucky, I'm getting accommodation for free at least. Plus, they paid for the transportation. Guess it's their way of saying 'sorry for doing this'."
He snickered. "I wish my work paid to take me places."
"Upside of having a start at nine in the morning, I guess," You nodded, "What's your name?"
"Kim Seungmin."
"Well met, Kim Seungmin," You looked out the window and gave him your name, "When we get to the city, maybe we could grab something to eat after work."
Seungmin's eyebrows raised. "Yeah, that could be nice. Would you like my number?"
"I'd love it."
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Writing Reference: Weather
Bombogenesis and bomb cyclone - A bombogenesis is âthe process that occurs during a 24-hour period when the atmospheric pressure of an extratropical cyclone drops with enough intensity to produce explosive cyclogenesis.â The central barometric pressure drops quickly, producing hurricane-force winds and heavy snow or rainfallâlike 77 inches worth of snow in one day. Norâeasters often undergo bombogenesis as cold winds from the north mix with warmer ocean water from the south, creating a big temperature range. These âweather bombsâ or bomb cyclones can become blizzards when the conditions are just right. These bombs happen mostly in the fall and winter, but they arenât unheard of during other times of the year.
Crepuscular ray - A twilight ray of sunlight shining through breaks in high clouds and illuminating dust particles in the air.
Derecho - A widespread and severe windstorm that moves rapidly along a fairly straight path, and it is associated with bands of rapidly moving thunderstorms. In some instances, the media will refer to derechos as "inland hurricanes".
Frazil - âIce crystals formed in turbulent water, as in swift streams or rough seas.â However, frazil can also form in lakes and oceans; it is the start of sea ice. Frazil usually forms on very clear nights with very low temperatures.
Gloriole - âA halo, nimbus, or aureole.â When ice crystals are suspended in the atmosphere, light catches them causing a bright halo or even a rainbow around the sun or moon. The gloriole forms 22 degrees away from the center of the object, but this phenomenon can often be confused with coronas that form due to water droplets.
Graupel - A type of precipitation that is formed when really cold water droplets collect, freeze, and fall on snowflakes. This creates what is known as a ball of rime, which is âan opaque coating of tiny, white, granular ice particles.â
Haboob - âA thick dust storm or sandstorm that blows in the deserts of North Africa and Arabia or on the plains of India.â Haboobâs dust-storm cousin also hits the United Statesâjust ask anyone who lives in Phoenix. These dust storms usually occur during or as a result of a thunderstorm.
Hunch weather - This term dates back to the 1700s; drizzle or winds that are strong enough to make you hunch over when you walk.
Monkey's wedding - Sunshine and rain at the same time; also known to be called sun showers. However, in South Africa, a âsun showerâ is also known as a monkeyâs wedding.
Moonbroch - A large halo around the moon; it is a sign of an approaching storm. A broch is an old term for a Scottish circular stone tower.
Petrichor - The distinct scent of rain in the air. More precisely, itâs the name of an oil thatâs released from the earth into the air before rain begins to fall.
Polar vortex - A massive whirlpool of cold air that hovers above Earthâs North and South poles. During the warm months, the vortex shrinks toward the poles and generally stays out of our hair, which is nice. During the winter though, the vortexâs boundaryâa narrow band of fast air called the polar front jet streamâexpands, dipping toward the equator and dumping frigid weather onto any unsuspecting towns (or commuters) in its path.
Sastruga - (Sastrugi in the plural form) means âridges of snow formed on a snowfield by the action of the wind.â
Smuir - âA thick atmosphere, a dense enveloping cloud or swirl of smoke, snow, rain, or mist.â Alternatively, a blind smuir is merely a snowdrift.
Snow - The partially frozen water vapor which falls in flakes.
Snow eater - When thereâs snow everywhere. But, all of a sudden, a nice warm breeze blows over the snow and melts it all away. This usually happens in the Rockies.
Snow flurries - Light, intermittent snowfall without significant accumulation; tend to come from stratiform clouds.
Snow showers - A short period of light-to-moderate snowfall, also characterized by a sudden beginning and ending. There is some accumulation with snow showers, and they fall from convective or cumuliform clouds.
Snow squall - A heavy snow shower with strong winds.
Sugar weather - In Canada, when they have nice warm days but chilly nights, thatâs known as sugar weather. That type of weather is just right for getting the maple syrup running in the maple trees.
Swullocking - Hot, sticky, humid weather during the summer; humid weather.
Thundersnow - When snow is the primary form of precipitation in a thunderstorm (instead of rain).
Virga - The virga phenomenon is when you can see that it is raining, but it evaporates on the way to the ground and ends up changing back to water vapor before you can feel it. When it rains and the rain actually makes it to the ground, thereâs a meteorological word for that, too: praecipitatio.
Williwaw - A violent squall that blows in near-polar latitudes, as in the Strait of Magellan, Alaska, and the Aleutian Islands.
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synopsis. bakugou katsuki starts acting differently after your last conversation. you finally arrive at an agreement. (part 1) (part 2)
cw. fem!reader, worker!reader, prohero!katsuki, aged-up (~24 yrs old), lots of cussing
word count. 3.6k words
a/n. the last part of the series! thanks so much for all the love on the first two parts, everyone! i had such fun writing this <3 again, reblogs, tags, and comments will be highly appreciated!
You barely slept a wink that night.
After that exchange with Bakugou, you immediately left his office, not even bothering to greet his secretary (partly because you couldnât bear the possibility of her overhearing), and headed straight to your desk.
A feeble attempt at going back to work was made, but youâd be lying to yourself if you said you actually got something done.
Even as you commuted your way home and got ready for bed, your brain wouldnât stop replaying the conversation, lingering especially on his loaded confession.
He still loves you.
What now?
Sadly, just because you're marred by sleep deficit and boy problems doesn't mean you get to miss out on work. You now walk down the hallway of your floor on the way to the break room, desperate to inject some caffeine into your system to get you through the day.
And to help you focus and get your mind off of Bakugou fucking Katsuki, thank you very much.
Youâre one foot into the room when it suddenly dawns on you how you consumed the last pod of your favorite brew yesterday (before all the shit went down), which means that youâre now out and caffeine-less.
Fuck.
âWell, donât you look like shit.â
Mikuri hums from her favorite spot on the sofa, a cup of what you think is green tea in her hands.
âThanks?â you mumble begrudgingly as you plop yourself across from her, mood growing sourer by the minute.
âWhatâs up with you?â she sounds amused, a brow quirked in question.
You sigh, smoothing the wrinkle on your blazer you didnât have the energy to iron out that morning. âAm sleep-deprived and out of coffee. Not everyone can be chipper like you on this fine day, I guess.â
âNo, youâre not?â
You sit up, eyes narrowing, âYou mean to say I look like shit normally and not just because I didnât get enough sleep?â
She frowns, âYou know thatâs not what I mean. What I meant is that no, youâre not out of coffee.â
âLook,â she gestures to the beverage area with her free hand.
Your brows shoot up in response as you take in the freshly stocked shelf.
Weird, you think to yourself.
You were normally the one to restock on that specific flavor, being the only one on your floor who is partial to it.
UnlessâŚ
You shake your head to rid yourself of the unwelcome thoughts, willing to crush the butterflies erupting in your stomach.
Mikuri doesnât get the chance to comment on your unusual behavior because the Performance Management head of your HR team pops in through the door, a grin adorning his face.
âGood morning, boss! See you in 15.â
Yamakawa, the Recruitment head, rifles through her documents before standing up to distribute them to you and the other sub-department leads.
She goes around the room to hand you what seems to be a substantial amount of pages, âHereâs the status report on Bakugouâs new sidekick.â
âAlready?â you splutter, gaining the attention of your direct subordinates. You straighten up, slightly embarrassed. âI thought theyâre just starting today?â
âYeah, well. We figured youâd want to hear it,â Yamakawa says as she gets seated and goes through her copy.
âGet this,â she continues, âheâs way more cooperative than we predicted him to be. Moriyama-san, or Water Jet Hero: Aqua Girl, is already in his office, discussingââ she glances at the report, ââbattle strategies and joint training schedules as we speak.â
The others hum in acknowledgment as you sit there, still struggling to wrap your head around what was just said.
âAnd no one coerced him to do this?â Tanaka, the Performance Management head, pipes in. You whip to look at Yamakawa, anticipating her answer.
âApparently, he emailed Moriyama-san yesterday himself to set the meeting.â
Delighted noises erupt across the room as you stare at the Recruitment head in disbelief.
âThis is great news, right?â the Socialization head exclaims. âIf weâre talking long-term, Bakugouâs workload will definitely lessen with a good sidekick around, meaning weâll get fewer angry outbursts and a more decent-to-be-around boss!â
You know theyâre making sense, and that this is supposed to be amazing news to hear as the HR department head, but you canât help the tinge of anticipatory dread rising in your gut.
âWhy donât you seem happy?â Tanaka asks you, before turning to the others. âHey, why isnât Y/N happy?â
The unusual events donât end after that.
To your surprise, Bakugou starts to attend meetings that concern him, instead of the usualâletting Kirishima do all the coordinating with you and your department. Heâs even offered to help you with your analysis report on his new sidekick (quite awkwardly, at that), which you so quickly and frantically declined in front of everyone.
You suspect your subordinates are starting to deem you as weird, too.
If they only knew.
Regardless, with each passing day, you seem to be seeing more and more of him around the office, and needless to say, itâs messing with your head.
The always-stocked shelf of coffee isnât helping either.
Itâs gotten to the point where itâs starting to affect your sleep as well, with how much you overthink these sudden changes in his behavior.
In an attempt to get your mind off him and the confusing mix of hope and dread circling your stomach, you start to drown yourself in work.
Ah, your ever-trusty friend: avoidance.
You stand by the coffee machine as it does its magic, your foot tapping against the floor impatiently. You glance at the wall clock, which reads 8:01 PM.
You sigh, grabbing the freshly brewed beverage not even a second after the machine dings.
Itâs been two weeks since that heated conversation with Bakugou, and one since your self-mandated oath to bury yourself with work, at least until your thoughts get a little bit less muddled and Bakugou stops acting differently.
âYouâre still here?â
You startle from your absentminded stirring and look toward the source of the voice.
Speak of the devil.
Seeming as though heâs fresh from a shower, you stare at Bakugou as he stands by the doorway of the break room.
You eye the duffel bag thatâs slung over his shoulder.
âYouâre leaving already?â
Fuck, you think to yourself. Now you feel like a creep for knowing that Bakugou leaving two hours after his shift is considered early in his dictionary.
And now you feel stupid for answering his question with another question.
Whatâs gotten into you?
âYeah,â he answers curtly, not offering much of an explanation. âWhatâre you doing working overtime?â
You place the mug on the marble countertop and cringe when it makes a loud, clashing noise.
You turn back to face him. âHave to work on the biannual report.â You shrug, as nonchalantly as you can, âItâs due soon.â
Bakugou grunts in acknowledgment, shifting on his feet.
âWell, thank you for your hard work,â he offers. âAnd forâuhâhelping me choose my sidekick.â
Your stomach whirls in delight despite yourself.
You clear your throat, âAgain, I was just doing my job.â
At that, he deflates ever so minutely, so you follow it up with: âBut youâre welcome. I heard youâre thinking of hiring another one?â
âYeah, just to help with the workload,â he nods. âI met him yesterday.â
â...Youâre right, by the way,â Bakugou adds after a few seconds pass without you saying anything.
âHuh?â
He looks away, breaking eye contact. âI donât like how similar we are. But heâs good.â
You have no idea how he knew you said that.
Scratch thatâit was probably Kirishima.
Damn that meddler.
You clear your throat again in an attempt to change the subject and drop the conversation in its entirety.
âWell, I hope you have a good rest of your night.â
Bakugou meets your eye again, and for a moment he looks like heâs about to say something, then hesitates.
He opens his mouth ever so slightly before closing it again, eyes still fixed on you, before simply saying: âYou too.â
At that, he turns on his heel and trudges towards the elevators.
Once youâre sure heâs out of sight and earshot, you bring your hand up to clutch at your heart, which is going at an alarmingly fast rate.
âShit.â
You canât still be in love with him?
âWhat?!â Mina hops on her feet, almost knocking your glass of iced tea off the table.
âDude, youâve got to stop doing that,â you seethe, looking around your go-to cafĂŠ. Itâs unusually barren on a Saturday afternoon.
You look back at her, âPeople stare, you know. And besides, itâs not that big of a deal.â
âNOT THAT BIG OF A DEAL?!â she parrots incredulously.
âJustââ you scramble for words, âplease sit back down?â
At your pleading tone, Mina finally gets seated, but her pinched eyebrows tell you sheâs far from being done with the conversation.
âFine,â she relents, âbut youâve got some explaining to do, missy.â
You sigh, âOkay. What do I have to explain to you?â
âWhaââ she starts, aghast, âI meanâfirst of all, why the fuck are you asking me to contact your blind date when three weeks ago, you were practically disgusted with the idea of going on one?â
âWe talked,â you shift your eyes away from her. âBakugou and I.â
Mina snorts.
âLet me guess. You realized you still love him?â
Your head whips to look at her, âMina!â
âWhat?â she spits back. âDonât use that accusatory tone on me.â
âI have the right to use this accusatory tone on you. I have a feeling a certain someone broke her promise about not saying anything about our last conversation with Bakugou.â
At that, Mina visibly cringes.
âIn my defense,â she starts, voice raised, âit was only because that cemented how youâre both still into each other!â
You scoff.
âArenât you?â she presses, shooting you a pointed look, âStill into him?â
âIâI donât know okay,â you raise your voice, inadvertently catching a few cafĂŠ-goersâ attention. You sink back into your seat in embarrassment.
âAll I know is that the circumstances between us still havenât changed. And that this shit is confusingâheâs confusing.â
You wave your hand around vaguely, âHeâs been acting all weird and stuff.â
âHow so?â
âWell, for startersâŚâ
âHmmmâŚâ
âWhat do you mean, hmmm?â you ask, exasperated.
She rolls her eyes at you, âHasnât it ever occurred to you that heâs trying to prove you something?â
At that, your heart leaps in your throat. You push it down, though, as best as you can. Crossing your arms across your chest, you huff.
âIf he thinks restocking my coffee for me is proving something, heâs got another thing coming for him.â
Mina guffaws, and you canât help the smile that creeps on your face. Once the laughter has died down, though, she eyes you for a moment before sighing in resignation.
She picks up her phone and thumbs out something on her keyboard.
âWell, youâre in luck,â she starts, âDaichi-san is still interested in meeting you.â
You donât know whether to be annoyed at Mina for ignoring your earlier request to cancel or be grateful for indulging you on your current one.
Not wanting to change her mind, you merely opt for mumbling a quick âthank youâ, glancing at your phone as it dings with a message from her containing the engineerâs number.
You look around the interior of the restaurant, past the windows of the private room youâre in where a beautiful traditional garden lies, illuminated by the dim orange outdoor lighting.
You chance a peek at Daichi, who is already looking at you when your eyes meet.
Embarrassed, you look down at your ridiculously elaborate main course, finding yourself grateful that you opted for the fancier of your two dresses earlier this evening.
âSo,â he breaks the silence as he pours you a glass of wine whose name you canât even begin to pronounce. âAshido-san told me you work at the Ground Riot agency?â
âYes,â you smile gratefully as you bring your glass to your lips and take a sip. âIâve been working there for a year now.â
âMust be exciting, huh?â he adds pleasantly, âworking for top Pro Heroes?â
Man.
You purse your lips together, not wanting to seem stilted by the question. âIt is. It can get quite hectic, though.â
He hums in agreement, âI get that.â
Daichi then proceeds to talk about the agency where he works, and normally youâd be kind enough to actively listen and throw in some follow-up questions, but your mind is now drifting towards Bakugou and your last encounter at the mention of the Pro Hero.
What did he want to say to you?
âL/N-san?â
âHuh?â
Daichi chuckles awkwardly, âI was just asking if you wanted some spice on your salmon."
Spice.
Bakugou wouldâve wanted some.
Bakugou, you think to yourself.
Bakugou.
âBakugou?â
You gape at the figure looming over your dining table.
The very man is standing there in his regular clothes that wouldâve disguised his identity if it werenât for his distinct blonde hair and hulking figure.
âWhat are you doing here?!â
âI need to talk to you.â
You nervously glance at your date, who seems to be starstruck by the Pro Hero in front of him.
âIâm kind of in the middle of something?â you whisper-shout.
Bakugou barely pays him any attentionâgaze remaining on you. If you didnât know any better, youâd think an unspoken âpleaseâ lies at the tip of his tongue.
You shake your head in bewilderment, or in an attempt to shake off these thoughtsâyou donât know.
âDonât you have the night shift? And howâd you know I was here?â
He exhales heavily, jaw tensing.
âI had Kirishima cover for me. AndâŚâ He looks away for a brief moment, before turning back and fixing his gaze on yours. âI asked Mina, and she told me youâd be here.â
You donât know what comes over you, but at that, you stand up on your feet and stare him down.
âYou can stop now, Katsuki,â you hush, wary of your date eavesdropping on your conversation. âQuit wasting your time on me just to prove a point and go back to the agency. Youâve done enough.â
His eyebrows furrow in what youâve grown to identify as defiance, but he doesnât make a move to fight back or leave.
Instead, he says through gritted teeth: âIâm not just trying to prove a fucking point, Y/N.â
âThen what areââ
âExcuse me?â
You both whip your heads in the direction of the voice, only to see Daichi sporting a sheepish look on his face as his eyes dart between the two of you.
A pang of guilt courses through you at the sight.
He clears his throat, âDo you guys need a minute alone?â
âNo, weâre justââ
âYes.â
You turn back to look at Bakugou in angry confusion. To your astoundment, he leans in ever slightly, mouth nearing your ear. From how close you are, you see how his Adamâs apple bobs as he gulps before speaking.
His voice is barely above a whisper when he says: âI canât pretend that this isnât bothering me.â
You jerk away at the sensation and take a step back, flustered. Before you can even gather your bearing, Daichi speaks up again, albeit quite hesitantly.
âI know Iâm supposed to be the one leaving here, but if you want some privacy, this restaurant has a private patio right to your left.â
âI canât believe you interrupted us like that,â you spew as you step out into the restaurantâs patio, which is fortunately empty except for the two of you.
Bakugou follows behind you, trying to catch up as you speak.
âI just needed to talk to you.â
At that, you spin around to face him, and he halts in his step in front of you.
Incredulous, you stare at him for a few seconds.
âTalk,â you finally command.
His eyes widen in surprise, and you can tell he didnât expect this conversation to arrive at this point so soon.
A moment passes, but not a single word is uttered. Bakugouâs mouth opens and closes, opens and closes, as he attempts to get a word out but to no avail.
âWhat, now you donât have anything to say?â you ask pointedly, irritation bubbling in you by the second.
You wait for a few more, excruciatingly quiet seconds before huffing in defeat. And disappointmentâyou finally admit to yourself.
âIf youâll excuse me,â you turn on your heel, âI have a poor date to return to.â
You start to head for the restaurantâs back door when Bakugou makes a grab for your hand, spinning you around to face him.
âJustâwait.â
His voice is pleading now, frustration and desperation evident in his tone. Youâre itching to yank your hand back, which is getting alarmingly clammier by the second, but you fight the urge.
The pained look on Bakugouâs face is enough to freeze you solid.
This time around, you patiently wait for him to gather his words with his hand still wrapped around yours and your heart betraying you, beating at an abnormally fast pace.
What feels like an hour goes by before he finally manages to speak.
And what comes out of his mouth throws you right off.
âI strengthened our coordination with the other agencies around the district.â
â...What?â
You absentmindedly touch your face with your free hand.
You canât be having a stroke right now.
Bakugou shifts on his feet, a nervous tic youâve noticed developed over the years.
Okay, if youâre coherent enough to observe that, maybe youâre not having a stroke.
âI meanââ he scratches the back of his neck with his free hand. ââShitty Hair and I, we clarified jurisdictions around the area so that the two of us wonât be the go-to contact every time thereâs a villain around.â
âIâm still not following, Katsuki.â
He ignores your comment, choosing to continue on his tangent instead.
âAnd I started seeing my therapist again. That damned hag went on telling me she was glad Iâm getting help again like she was my mother.â
You blink at him as the gears start turning in your head.
Jurisdiction.
Less overtime.
More sidekicks.
Therapy.
Communication.
Suddenly, everything clicks.
âMaybe I am trying to prove a point,â Bakugou mumbles, more to himself than you.
âBut itâs not just that,â he continues, looking back at you and not letting you get a word in.
âIâm here to tell you that I canât promise that Iâll be perfect. Despite all the adjustments Iâve made, there are still gonna be days when I have no choice but to prioritize my duties as a hero over you.â
He looks down at your joint hands and squeezes, âOver us.â
âBut Iâm trying my best,â he declares with such certainty it knocks the wind off your lungs. âAnd Iâll keep doing so, if youâll give me a chance to prove to you that I can do it.â
A million questions race through your mind. Why couldnât he have done this for you the first time around? How is this time going to be any different? Are the changes going to be enough?
But heâs staring at you with such longing and hope and determination that the only thing you can think of is: How can you not?
Dizzy from the revelation and robbed of all words, all you can do is nod in affirmation as the tears you didnât even notice were there start falling down your cheek.
A sigh of relief wracks Bakugouâs body as he scoops you in his arms, engulfing you in an embrace that has you sobbing even more on his shoulder.
The wet sensation spreading on your bare shoulders tells you heâs crying, too.
After what feels like an eternity of shedding tears and being wrapped in each otherâs arms, Bakugou finally moves to unwrap his limbs around you, now holding you at an armâs length.
Now not in spite of yourself, your hand shoots up to wipe off the tear streaks on his face, which he leans into.
âIâm sorry, by the way,â he whispers after a moment.
Your hand freezes in its track. âFor what?â
âFor not being able to immediately answer back when you asked me if you loving me changed anything.â
He looks down at his feet, uncertain. âI thinkâI justââ he stutters, âFuck.â
You canât help but chuckle in response, and he looks up at your face at the sound. Heâs trying to playfully pout, but you can tell by the look on his face that heâs feeling the farthest from playful.
Flashing him what you hope is a reassuring smile, you reach for the hand on your shoulder and squeeze it. âGo on, Katsuki.â
He sighs for the nth time at your coaxing, the slightest bit of relief flashing across his features.
âAt that moment,â he finally continues, voice raspy, âI guess I was just scared shitless. I was paralyzed with doubtâin myself, in my capability to not mess up the second time around.â
He huffs, eyeing you, âDidnât occur to me how stupid that was until I was walking home later that night.â
Youâre about to reassure him when he snorts. âThe fuck am I sayingâIâm still scared.â
At that, you audibly laugh, running your fingers through his hair in an attempt to soothe him. He visibly softens at the gesture, lids fluttering shut for a moment. When he opens them, you then look him straight in the eyeâthe laughter long gone, now replaced with a palpable seriousness.
âIâm scared, too,â you say, voice quiet. âBut weâll try and make things work. Right, Katsuki?â
He nods vigorously, hand clenching yours and his crimson orbs filled with nothing but sincerity that all the apprehensions floating in your mind suddenly disappear.
âWe will.â
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my love mine all mine , aaron hotchner
this is incredibly self indulgent. i wrote this for myself, because my cat passed away today && i have no idea how to grieve correctly. but i've always been able to express myself the best through writing, so here i am trying to do so.
basically reader loses her kitten && hotch is there to comfort her while she grieves. reader is a doctor && gets her nails painted. mentions of sleeping in a scarf and braids (but this can apply to any race <3) hotch is pretty flirty. he also had a dog that died when he was younger (idk) ... i'm still getting used to writing him (but he's been rotting my brain) so hotch girlies please be sweet to me, i'm trying.
"Have you decided what you want me to grab on the way?" You feel giddy, eyes beaming vibrantly as you unlock your front door. Aaron was on the other line, he'd been looking forward to spending the evening with you for the past two weeks. Your jobs often sent you in separate directions, with him following cases cross country, and you spending nearly twenty hours a day working at Inova Fairfax Medical Campus. The commute was nearly an hour from Quantico, which made it difficult for your schedules to coincide the way you hoped.
Today though was an exception. He'd just gotten back from a case, a successful one, and you'd been lucky enough to finally get two days off. You couldn't contain your excitement when you'd finally managed to get Aaron on the phone, and with Jack staying at Jessica's for another night, it seemed everything was working out in your favor. You still had no idea what you were in the mood to eat, despite having ample time to figure it out. "I dunno." you mutter, and you drop your keys into the basket just to the left of the front door.
"Well honey, you've gotta give me something." Aaron chuckles, and his voices makes you feel warm and fuzzy on the inside. "I'm sure you haven't anything at all today." and it doesn't take a rocket science to know he's absolutely correct. Your stomach grumbles audibly, and you cringe, the sound a dead giveaway of your poor eating habits. "Do you need a bit more time to think about it?" he asks, and you're nodding your head, despite the fact that he can't see you. Your focus is split, eyes darting around your place in search of Piper.
Piper was your five year old tabby, the most special companion that you'd cared for since she was a newborn. Usually she'd be making her way to your front door, nudging her head against your shins, meowing her head off as some form of reprimand for being gone too long. Her absence was unusual, but you'd noticed she'd been sleeping a touch longer in the recent months. You'd taken her to the vet and they'd written off any life threatening illnesses. Perhaps she was jus becoming a lazy cat they had said.
"What'd you eat yesterday?" you ask, and you shrug off your coat next, hanging it in the closet as you slip off your cork-leather clogs. You admire your pedicure, French-tips gleaming back at you as your feet hit the cherry laminate flooring. You imagined that he'd hardly been able to eat well while out on a case, Aaron (and his team) had a horrible habit of neglecting their own health and wellness for the sake of cracking the case. You'd call him out on it, but it'd feel to hypocritical with the way you gave most of your life to the hospital.
"Four cups of coffee." and he sounds sheepish as he replies, he'd been running himself ragged with this last particular case. He couldn't leave the precinct until he was convinced he'd made a dent in the investigation. He could imagine your disappointed pout, but he was doing his best, or at least trying his best. "But, Dave made sure that I got something this morning before we got on the jet." and it's not like he has to explain himself to you, you'd never berate him. He believed it was just a side effect of falling for you.
"Four cups?" you gasp, head already shaking. "You're going to turn into a cup of coffee if you keep up with habits like those." you scold. "You'll have to double your water intake, you could seriously dehydrate yourself that way." you say with a quiet huff. You round the corner of the foyer, heading for the kitchen. "Are you feeling alright?" your tone grows a bit softer, "Four cups means you were really absorbed in the case. Everything okay?" you tread lightly. You weren't quite sure how he felt about you asking about his job.
"As far as endings go, I'd say it was better than most." he replies thoughtfully, clearly unfazed by your desire to probe. That makes you smile a bit, the obviousness of his trust for you. "We minimized the amount of deaths, the unsub was taken into custody... the team worked really hard." he proceeds, and you find yourself grinning. "But, I will do a better job of taking care of myself. You'd be a good nurse, but I can imagine a few better scenarios for you to take care of me."
You smile despite the fact it makes your heart stutter step. You were still getting used to him growing more confident in this way, but you weren't complaining in the slightest. "I'd be a great nurse." you correct him delicately, "I'd enjoy taking care of you in any way though." and you bet he can hear your shyness through the phone. Your relationship with Aaron still felt fairly new, you'd been seeing one another for going on seven months, but you knew you loved him.
Even if you hadn't managed to say it just yet.
"Look at that, another thing we have in common." he exhales, and you want him to hurry up and get to you. You hadn't seen him in so long, and despite the fact you were willing to mount him on sight, you just wanted to enjoy being in the same place for once. "How are you? Did you have a good day?" and you like the way he's so attentive, how he seems to genuinely care about what you had to say.
"It was great." you insist, and you've poured yourself a glass of water, ice tinkling as you scanned the dining room for any sign of Piper. Still nothing, weird. "I went to the bookstore a bit earlier, got a few novels for my book shelf." you list. "I got my nails done, and I got a facial. It was so relaxing I wound up falling asleep on the table." and you chuckle a bit at the memory. "Piper and I went on a drive before lunch, she's so spoiled." you add, but you're still scouring the space.
"Drafted up my budget for the month, my new schedule came in," you exhale tiredly at the thought. "Picked up my scrubs from the dry cleaners, I did a grocery run, and went to see the flower exhibit near the Farmer's Market. I got this really incredible soft-pretzel croissant." you sigh dreamily at the memory. "And now I'm home, and waiting for you." you complete, and you lean forward, arms resting against the countertop. "It was a really nice day. I thought I wouldn't know what to do without work, but I'd nearly forgotten what it feels like to be off."
Aaron's silent, but not because he's disinterested in your ramblings. He finds them endearing, and oftentimes had to remind himself that you, much like Jack, needed verbal response in order to feel heard. "I missed you." and it's not quite what he was aiming to say, but it's what comes out. It's true, it had been a while since he'd seen you in person, and with the way your schedules overlapped, he'd hardly been able to get much conversation out of you apart from quick check-ins in between patients and breaks in BAU cases.
You let out a quiet puff of air, it's not quite a sigh nor an exhale. Your lips curve upwards, and you wonder if there's a record out there for most smiles achieved in a single phone call. "You've got no idea how happy that makes me." you reply, and you inhale deep. "I missed you too, hurry up and get over here." you press, and you replay the sound of his responding laugh over in your mind. You don't think you could be more lovesick, but it's a more than welcomed feeling. "As far as dinner, why don't I just cook something?" you offer with a shrug.
"Do you want to?" and Aaron's got this weird thing about him where he's still getting used to the fact that you want to do certain things for him. You go over it a lot, reminding him that you'd love nothing more than to spoil him as much as he spoils you. He's still a bit hesitant, but you don't mind fighting the good fight until he relented. His hands tighten just slightly on the steering wheel, and his leg jumps as he awaits your response. He knows, or better put, he has an idea of what you'll say. He still wants to hear it either way.
"We take care of each other, mon amour." You coo, and he feels that familiar rush of affection towards you. "It'll be fun." you add, and then you're sighing audibly. "I just really can't wait to see you. I don't want to wait any longer than I need to." you express, and Aaron understands. He'd been restless on the jet, Dave and Emily seemed to zero in on his jitters, he was thankful they had enough couth to keep it to themselves. All he received was a knowing smirk from Rossi as he made a beeline for the tarmac the second the jet landed.
"I'll be there soon." he promises, and you grow giddier. "I-" and he wants to cross the line, mutter three worded phrase that would change everything. He'd been learning to be more bold, to focus on the things he could control, and appreciate those things. "I love you." he doesn't have time to think about the repercussions, because it's out, and there's a strong sense of relief that washes over him. You are surprised, but elated. The excitement his words bring you is hard to diminish.
"I love you too." and it comes out as easy as breathing. Probably because you mean it with all of your heart. "I'll see you soon, Mr. Hotchner." you promise, and he's chuckling at your sudden formality, likely a side effect of your newfound nerves at the huge step you'd both taken in your relationship.
"See you soon." you don't bring the phone from your ear until you hear the faint click of the call ending. You exhale shakily, mind running at a mile a minute as your heart seems to double in size. Still, you find this moment is short lived- mind once again on the eerie silence in your apartment. You place your glass down on the counter, coaster be damned as you make your way past the dining room and towards the living room. Sometimes you'd find Piper curled up on the couch, quiet purrs escaping her as she slept contently.
"Piper!" you coo, surprised when you note that she's nowhere to be found. You know that she wasn't outside, you'd made sure before leaving back out that she was comfortable in the house. You follow the layout of your place, the archway that led from the living room back to the foyer is the route you take, heading towards your bedroom as you continuously call for the cat. "Piper, where are you, pretty girl?" you enter your room, hopeful that you'll find her there.
You spot her little paw peeking out of her hideaway and instantly relax. "Oh Piper, you scared me." you let out a shaky sort of giggle as you fully enter your bedroom, feet brushing over the comforting carpet. You kneel just in front of the hideaway, reaching out to pet her. It takes you a few moments to make peace with the fact that she's not rousing. You swallow thickly, a lump growing in your throat as you wiggle her paw. She doesn't move, just as limp as before.
"Piper?" you feel the way your throat constricts, eyes immediately wanting to brim with tears, as you grow frantic. "Oh, please no-" you exclaim, head shaking as you feel a shudder rack through you. You're gentle as you maneuver around the hideaway, hands looping around her small body as you move to pull her out. She's limp, not even the act of you lifting her up enough to make her move. Your glow feels like it's diminished almost instantly, a dark cloud setting in over your head. It seemed a bit silly, panicked over the loss of a cat.
But she was yours, like a daughter to you in the way you cared for her, and made her apart of your routine. She was special, and despite the reputation cats gained for being standoffish and unable to understand human love, you knew that to be wrong. Piper was sweet, a loving cat that curled up beside you every night and followed you like a second shadow. She'd play games of tag with you, chasing you around your apartment as you squealed and screamed for your life.
"Please, please, no-" you're shedding real tears now, they're slipping down your cheeks in a constant succession. "Piper, please wake up!" it's silly, probably. Rocking back and forth with a dead cat in your hand hoping that sheer adoration will be enough to turn back the hands of time. It's certainly not, and the reality crushes you. The first sob is choked, almost like you're holding yourself back, not letting your feelings take full affect. You hadn't prepared yourself at all.
You didn't know what to do.
You think that's when the first swell of sobs begins. They're more ugly wails than anything else, the loud sound echoing through the space in front of you as your arms lower, Piper's body leaning against you as you continued to let your tears flow freely. Your chest tightens, constricting every couple of seconds like you'd suddenly developed chronic heartburn. The pain is a violent assassin, the air around you feeling tight. You think you may be choking on all that you're feeling.
You hate the part of your brain that was constantly in 'Doctor Mode', the side that reminded you that despite your grief, handling a deceased animal like this was a surefire way to get sick. Her body wouldn't start to decompose for at least another day, but you had no real way of knowing just how long she'd actually been dead. You don't move though, until at least your sobs have waned, you know it's not the end of them, but it's a reprieve just for a moment.
You slowly climb to your feet, still clutching Piper as your eyes whip around your bedroom. Your eyes land on her carrier, and the image makes you want to cry all over again. You shut your eyes, allowing yourself to take in a deep breath. It doesn't help. Still, your feet lead you over to the carrier, where you're gently placing Piper. Her vet was only eight minutes up the street, and maybe your ability to dispose of her so quickly was precisely why this was happening to you.
Guilt was loud, too loud. It almost knocked you to your knees as you imagined Piper's fear whilst you were gone. Was she sick? How long had she been? Why hadn't you noticed? Why did you leave her alone? Why weren't you there? You let her down. You had let her down.
You want to curl into a ball, hide under the blankets and cry until you passed out. But, she deserved better. She deserved to not be lugged around like she was some prop, she needed a proper place to rest. Once her carrier is zipped up, you're picking it up by the handles, using your other hand to swipe at the tears still trying to fall. You take the route you'd walked not ten minutes prior, slipping your shoes back on, and grabbing hold of your keys. Aaron still had another forty minutes or so in his drive, you hoped it went by quickly.
You don't think you ever needed him more than now.
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The sobs returned the second you'd walked past the threshold of your house. You sluggishly made your way back to your bedroom. It felt much lonelier now, the house feeling much too big for just you. You think that makes you cry even harder. You're covering your mouth with your hand, hoping that it would be enough to mask the sound of your bawling. You doubt that it does, but you can't do much else. You don't want to go to sleep, you don't want to do anything.
You begin berating your behavior once more in your head, replaying all the ways you'd been a shitty caretaker even though you know it's a bad idea. Your leg shakes under your comforter, the blanket squished underneath your body as you hid your face beneath the blazing heat of your huge blanket. You don't even realize how long you've spent in this space of self-loathing and bitter tears, until you hear the front door's lock shifting out of place. Aaron was here.
"Y/N, sweetheart?" and you want to run to him more than anything. You can't though, because you don't want him to think you're a failure. So you stay put, and you cry a bit more, sniffles growing more audible as you're forced to choke back angry sobs. It doesn't take long for him to make his way towards where you are, and you don't know what he'll say when he finds you looking a mess. You know your mascara has given you racoon eyes, and in your grief, you'd failed to tie a scarf around your head. Your braids would look messy soon.
"Y/N?" and his voice is so soft, soothing, everything you don't deserve now. Your hand clutches a fistful of your shirt, right where your heart rests. "Are you in here, honey?" and you sniffle, an answer all on its own. You barely hear his footsteps, but you feel it when the bed dips just slightly, and you feel it when he gently pulls at your blanket. When he's pulled it back, he's met with the sight of your tear-streaked cheeks. Your nose was runny and raw, and your lip was quivering. It didn't take a profiler to know that you'd been crying, and he frowns.
"Are you alright?" he questions, and his hand reaches out to brush against your cheek and neck, almost like he was checking your temperature. "You've been crying?" and he examines you subtly for any signs of assault or struggle. "Did something happen?" and he knows he keeps asking questions, but he's getting worried.
"P-" and a sob racks through you, your entire body curling in on itself. Your hand is pressing against your mouth again, and your shoulders shake as you began to cry once more. "Piper she-" and your head shakes, hand clenching and unclenching against your shirt. Aaron's eyes dance around your room, and his eyebrows push inwards. He was worried, but determined to be extremely delicate with you, namely by being patient as you got out what you needed to tell him. "Piper's dead." you finally say, shoulders sagging as you weep.
Aaron's examining your face, which gives you a front row seat of the way his face is eclipsed with compassion. "Oh, honey..." his lips pull downwards into a frown, and you know, of course you know it's awkward. What do you realistically say to a person that loses their cat? It's not like any amount of conversation would bring her back. "I'm so sorry...." and usually it sounds empty when anyone offers condolences, but like with most things, Aaron is an exception. "Are you okay? Can you tell me what happened?" he pleads.
And you know that he knows that you're not okay. It's meant to be a stupid question, the obvious one. But you also know that he's giving you the chance to vent, to articulate everything you feel with no judgement. It makes you want to curl into him, and stay wrapped up in his arms until neither of you had any idea where one ended and the other began. "I just-" you have to take a moment to gather yourself, hiccupping blubbers escaping you. "I came home, and I-" your voice cracks harshly. "She was just gone. I don't-" you shake your head.
"I don't know what happened." you express, and Aaron's sympathetic, and he hates seeing you like this. Every time you cry it makes the hairs on the back of his neck stand upright. He supposed that came with loving you, an innate desire to protect you, and keep the bad things out. He'd only ever seen you in this state a handful of times, mostly when things went wrong at the hospital and you lost a patient. He had to get to you before you started blaming yourself for something that completely out of your control.
He didn't know much, but he did know your love for Piper, and how deep it ran. He knew without a shadow of a doubt that you'd never do something to put her in harm's way, you'd never do anything to hurt her. And he wants to pull you into his arms and tell you everything will be alright, he wants to be there to anchor you down. To ground you in the midst of all these swimming and overwhelming emotions trying to fight for the upper hand. He wanted to be there for you.
"Is there anything that you need from me?" he asks gently, grief was harsh, it came in ripples and waves. It was gut-punching, it could be loud and then silent. Sneaky and then outright. It was a process, and whether anyone else thought so, if you needed to grieve the life of your pet, you should. Who was he to ever get in the way? He's gently rubbing his thumb over your cheek, your tears splattering as you kept the duvet pulled up to your chin, as you stared him down. He figured you must have been deep in thought.
It takes a moment for you to reply, and he's fine with the silence. You're tears haven't stopped, but they've grown more quiet. Silent tears that pool and trickle down his wrist and onto the blanket. You soon take in a shaky puff of air as you sit up. Aaron's patient as ever, watching as you pull your legs from underneath the blanket, crawling until you were sitting on his lap. There's no sexual undertone to your movements, you don't want to fool around, you just want to be close.
Your head rests against him, eyes closing as his arms envelop you. "Can you just stay with me?" you ask, and he's already nodding his head. You both knew it was an impossible request. At any moment you could get paged, or he could get a call about a new case. The world didn't stop all because you were grieving, but for one second you both could pretend. He could stay right here with you, and you could love him, and not feel so overwhelmed by all your sadness.
"I'm not going anywhere." he mutters, and he's reaching for your hand. His easily dwarfs your own, but it's still just as comfortable, letting your palms press against his own. "I have never lost a cat before-" and he's treading lightly, wanting more than anything to help you and not harm you. "But I did lose a pet when I was younger." he expresses, and your interest is peaked, just slightly.
"What type of pet?" you ask faintly, and you're squeezing his hand in your own. He knows that it's comforting you so he says nothing about the tight pinch of his fingers pressing together.
"He was a golden retriever actually." Aaron replies, "Nothing was particularly wrong with him. He was fed well, taken care of, treated like one of the family..." he proceeds, and you involuntarily hold your breath as you listen. "But one day he just... he just went." Hotch proceeds, "And when you're a little kid that's not in the best environment, a staple like a pet dog is important. Losing him was like losing the only bit of sanity I could cling to. Does that make sense?"
Your head nods, and you squeeze his hand again to show him you care. "And surprisingly enough, I found myself crying over it. Mourning this dog, an animal that was part of the family, but of course, was not my family member." he continues, and his chin rests on the top of your head. "The point is, him being a dog didn't make it hurt any less when he left. It's okay to be upset about Piper, she was important to you, special even." he whispers. "And you did a great job giving her all the love you possibly could." his eyes close then.
"I need you to know that it wasn't your fault. And keeping yourself up with thoughts of 'what ifs'." it's his turn to squeeze your hand this time. "And those moments where you... didn't want to play, or wanted to be left alone are not what she remembered when she passed on." he insists, and he won't take any arguments on the matter. "You gave her five amazing years, and whether science backs it up or not, she knew how much you loved her." he insists. "You might not believe it today, but I hope that you do in time." and he kisses your forehead.
It's butterfly inducing, and makes you cling all the more to him. "You're not by yourself." he adds, and you're glad to know it. You peel back, eyes locking with his, and they're glassy. You hate seeing such a grief-stricken look on his face, at your sake no less. It makes you lean forward and kiss him, in the hopes you'd manage to kiss it away. He kisses back instantly, and you're still sad, you probably will be for a long while, but you don't feel as lonely as you did an hour ago.
"I love you." you mumble the second you've pulled back, and this time there's no phone. His eyes are swirling with so many thoughts and feelings of his own, but you need him to know you mean it, and likely always will. You couldn't imagine anyone else being here with you like this now, nobody else that would care enough to grieve with you. He gives you a half smile, and kisses you once more, a much deeper kiss that makes you lightheaded and dizzy. Of course he had that effect.
"I love you too." and you're happy that he hasn't left you hanging. Your fingers trace his collarbones and cheeks, moving to cup his face with your right hand. You kiss him again, this time just long enough to get the message across. When you pull back, your head is finding it's place back on his chest, and his arms move up and down, rubbing gentle circles against your back, as he cranes his neck to kiss your head. It makes your stomach flutter, but it makes you want to cry too.
He leaves three gentle pecks on the top of your head, moving to kiss your cheek, before he's looping his arms around your waist with a palpable amount of admiration. He plants a sweet kiss on your shoulder, and mimic this action by offering him a kiss of your own. "Thank you." you exhale, and you mean it so wholeheartedly.
"You don't need to thank me, Y/N. We take care of each other, mon amour, remember?" and he recites your earlier words back to you. It makes you cling to him much tighter, tears returning to your lashline as Aaron pulls you even closer to him. "If you need to cry a little bit more, go right ahead. I'm right here." so you do.
Grief was a lot, it could be paralyzing, debilitating, and outright traumatic, but you knew even if it didn't feel that way now, in time you'd be okay. Part of you felt like you had Aaron to thank for that.
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