#come and be by James Spaite

[pencilofawesomeness]

🤍 Shuffle Playlist Game! 🤍

Rules: you can tell a lot about a person by the music they listen to. Put a playlist on shuffle, list the first 10 songs and then tag people to keep it going!

Aight I'll bite; I do love my music

For starters all of my playlists of Themed(tm), mostly on stories/fanfics or fandoms, so it's not all of my music in a jumble but rather what I custom pick for the vibes of the story and the section thereof. For this I'll use one of my larger FT/HTRYDS playlists since I think it's my largest at 134 songs. (I have too many playlists but also not enough. send help)

For funsies I'll add which character section each is in lol

When the Darkness Comes by Static-P [Jellal]

Heavy by Linkin Park, feat. Kiiara [Lisanna]

Blue Lips by Regina Spektor [Loke]

Kaikai Kitan performed by Amalee [Jellal]

Sunshine with Shields by Kevin Penkin [Lisanna, header piece]

Dirty Souls by Five Knives [Bickslow]

Mirajane by Yasuharu Takanashi [Mirajane, header piece]

World's Smallest Violin by AJR [Cana]

Effort by James Spaite [Mavis]

6 AM by We are the Guests [Levy]

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Tagging @lilyntlrs @thehylianidiot @ljf613 @cobrakiin @kiliinstinct @genavere @creaticare @phoenix-before-the-flame @forwantofacalling @breezy-cheezy and uhhhhhh whoever else wants to do (as I forget all of my music loving friends' urls lmao whoops) (or ignore this, yall know how tag games be)

[deannamb]

another song you shouldn't listen to when thinking about bloodweave is flowers by james spaite. especially when you realize the song is from BOTH their perspectives

I'm gonna check it out!

I'm listening to my Gale Playlist while working right now and every now and then a bloodweave song comes up.. I'm weak 😭

Thanks for the suggestion!

[twoidiotwriters1]

Daughter of Olympus (Leo Valdez xFem!Oc)

A/N: I want to physically fight Nico sometimes too ngl -Danny Words: 2,424 Series' Masterlist Previous Chapter / Next Chapter Listen to: 'Better Yet' -by James Spaite

XXXIV: I'm Sorry I'm This Way, I Was (Mostly) Raised by Other Children

Ara doesn't wake up at dawn for the first time in months. When she opens her eyes, loud noises are coming from outside, and the sun is fully out. She bolts upright in bafflement.

It took her four hours to fall asleep last night because she kept squirming and giggling every time she thought about Leo. Ara's about to fall back and squeal into her pillow, when Lily bursts into the room making her fall off the bed.

"Ara! Are you okay?" Her friend tosses the to-do list onto the nearest surface and circles the bed.

Ara tries to control the mild heart attack she got from Lily's arrival and untangles herself from the sheets. "What time is it?"

Lily looks at her with concern. "Chiron's been looking for you. I lied and said you were packing, but you need to get dressed and start the day now."

Ara gets up from the floor. "Lily, there's something I've—"

"Hey," her friend approaches the pinboard next to Ara's wardrobe. "Is that..." Lily looks back at her grinning. "A picture of Leo?"

Ara looks up at the image in horror. Jake and Nyssa took it during their first day working on the Argo II. Leo's giving the camera a thumbs up and a big smile. The girl tries to come up with an excuse but Lily's expression flusters her.

"It's not a picture of Leo!" She blushes all over. "It's a picture of the bunker!"

Lily laughs. "You can't even see what's behind the guy! Jake sucks at taking pictures—Did you steal it while they weren't looking?"

"It wasn't stealing, I just took it," Ara gets dressed quickly so she can take Lily out of her room. "To keep me motivated."

"What's the goal?" Her friend snorts. "Leo will give you a smooch if you finish his ship on time?"

Ara struggles to put on her socks. "You're laughing a little too much, don't ya think?"

"Duh! You've tortured all of us and now it's your turn!" Lily says delightedly. "And with Leo Valdez! Can't get funnier than that."

"Don't be mean," the girl pouts. 

She dreads the moment everyone finds out. Does she even want that? In the middle of a war? Silena and Beckendorf started dating during one, but Ara's not like that. She's never been an Aphrodite who stops caring about the world the moment she likes someone.

"Anyway, we got a meeting with Annabeth and your boyfriend's gonna show us his process on the Argo II," Lily continues. "Capture the Flag at seven... Oh! Tyson's coming, something about him manufacturing parts of your ship?"

"Oh, gods!" Ara ties her shoes. "Imagine that, Lily! Our ship, equipped with weaponry straight out of Cyclops' forges!"

"Well, I'd be able to imagine if I knew how to read Leo's blueprints. They're a hot mess, look like he did them during a manic episode."

"I won't lie to you, he probably did."

The girls walk out of the room and the more they talk about work, the more Ara thinks about Leo and how fun it was to spend time with him doing nothing. She's been given a taste of what life could be like if she acted her age, and Lily could benefit from it too.

"What if we take a break after our meeting? Maybe watch one of your musicals?"

It's been months since the last time Ara suggested a break. Lily eyes her with worry. "Are you sure you're okay?"

The brunette laughs, which only disturbs Lily further. "I'm exhausted. My parents basically begged me to rest, and I don't want them to worry."

Lily stares at her intently with her gray eyes, so sharp they make Ara feel like the girl can see right through her, and it's almost always true. 

"I guess it won't hurt... and I do want a break." Lily glances down at her clipboard and nods.

"Good!"

Lily watches Ara walk ahead with a hesitant smile. She doesn't know what happened to her friend during the quest, but something feels different. Like she's enjoying herself again.

I thought I'd get a least an extra day to get my plan in motion, but Percy calls us the very next morning telling us that he's in New York and he needs us. I can only hope I have enough to start.

When we go to Olympus we run into Hestia and Hermes. Everyone leaves to allow Percy and Annabeth to hold a private conversation with the gods, but I hide near the entrance. I hear Hermes say Percy has the Achilles curse, and that catches my attention.

"Hello again, Arae." 

I jump and hit my shoulder on the statue that's concealing me. Hestia is right next to me.

"Lady Hestia," I bow. "Forgive me, I was..."

"Worried about your brother," the goddess sighs. "Do you know what he did? Before coming to the city, he was with Nico Di Angelo..." She looks at me with pity. "I hope your brother's made the right call, but I'm not here to talk about him."

Judging by the way she's looking at me, she knows my brother isn't the only idiot in the family. 

"You know about my plans," I whisper.

"I know you're noble," she clasps her hands together. "But is this the best way to secure peace? A warrior finds ways to stay on their feet even when there's nothing to do."

I don't understand what she's trying to tell me. "I have no problem with that."

Hestia regards me as if weighing whether it's a good idea to burst my bubble or to let it go. "Plans can only be made when you know what outcome you want, dear girl."

"I know what I want," I pause, then correct my sentence. "I know what I have to do if I want my friend to live."

She hums, a knowing look in her eyes. "Michael Yew is just like you. There is only one way you can learn from him..."

Percy's calling my name somewhere in a distant hallway. I lost sight of him for a second, and now he and Annabeth are gone. "I have to go," I bow briefly. "I appreciate your advice, Lady Hestia, I'll keep it in mind."

"Stop looking at me like that," Ara rolls her eyes.

"Your parents are making you go back to school and you're acting like it's not a big deal. This was exactly what you wanted to avoid—"

"That was before Percy went missing," Ara shrugs. "I changed my mind."

"Why?"

Now she understands why Percy took every opportunity to hang out with Rachel during the weeks approaching his sixteenth birthday. Holding so many lives in your hands wears you out, being in camp makes her lose sleep, so she needs her mortal life back.

"Everything is under control, I should get my life on track again."

"This camp is your life, Ara. We just got a clear goal—"

"Lily," Ara rephrases her reply. "I want to be with my family before I have to head out to war."

Her friend's cheeks tint with a pinkish tone. "That makes sense."

"Don't worry," Ara pats the girl's shoulder. "I'll be here during the weekends, pestering you as usual. I know you can't bear the thought of being parted for long."

Lily traps her in a loose chokehold. "You wish!"

Ara elbows her and laughs. "Let go!"

"Strategus!" Nico Di Angelo salutes her teasingly from a distance. Ara groans as soon as she sees him. "I apologize in advance, but I won't attend the meeting, I've got places to be."

"Daddy grounded you again?"

"His birthday's approaching," Lily blurts out.

Ara and Nico look at her with a scowl, though both for different reasons.

"His birthday is weeks away!"

"What's that got to do with anything?" Nico scoffs.

"I just wanted to remind Ara 'cause she'll be moving back to New York."

"I wouldn't forget!"

"I don't want her to buy me anything!"

They stop and scowl at each other. "Shut up!"

Lily rolls her eyes, and then a playful little smirk forms on her face. "Hey, Neeks, have you gone to her room lately?"

Ara looks at her with wide eyes. "Don't you dare."

"Why, what's in it?" Nico asks.

"She's got a picture of—"

Ara covers the girl's mouth with both hands. "I'll force-feed you the clipboard if you don't shut up!"

"Let her finish!" Nico demands with an evil smirk.

Ara points at him warningly. "Stay out of my room!"

"Got it," he nods. "I'm taking a look right now."

Before she can stop him, Nico shadow travels away. 

Lily bites her hand and Ara punches her shoulder. "Ouch! You two die tonight!"

"Have fun!" Lily chortles as she watches Ara run back into the Big House screaming at Nico.

"He took Percy," I whisper. "Helped him get the Achilles curse."

Lily's eyes widen. "You don't think..."

"That Nico found Achilles and hid it from us?" I frown. "That jerk."

"Perhaps he thought he was helping," Lily offers. "Maybe he thought we wanted to help Percy that way."

"Then why's Nico not here?" I press. "Why is Hades not helping if his son is helping us?"

Lily can't deny things aren't adding up, but she tries to distract me anyway. "We have other things to worry about, Ara. Morpheus is in the city."

"Meaning?"

"Kronos is on his way," she glares at the streets ahead of us. "This is it." 

Ara's decided to stop wearing her Tyrian cloak for meetings, everyone in the room knows she's in charge anyway. This is a bad idea today though, cause now everyone can see her clothes are covered in dirt.

"Sorry I'm late, I—" 

"What the heck happened to you!?"

The moment she sees Leo, the room gets ten times brighter. Or maybe it's just that she's glowing like a Christmas light. Either way, it's amazing, and she loves it. 

Leo approaches and tilts her head up to examine her bruised eye, everyone is staring at him with confusion and surprise, so she steps away.

"Valdez!" She says sternly. "It's just a scrape, don't be dramatic."

"A scrape? You're—"

"Seriously," she gives him a look. "Stop it."

Leo's annoyed. "Alright! But why are you cosplaying as a fight club member?"

"Rookie, if Ara didn't have a black eye when you met her, that's only 'cause she was too sad to fight people," Clarisse turns to her with a smirk. "Di Angelo again?"

"Again? I thought that was over!" Annabeth crosses her arms.

"It's never over with these two," Lily enters the room scowling. "Nico's not going to attend the meeting."

Will frowns. "Did Ara kill him and hid his body?"

"Hey! He started it—"

"And he got a bloody nose as a result," Lily rolls her eyes. "Let's start the meeting."

"Hang on, so you're saying it's normal for Ara to get beat up?" Leo presses with concern.

"First of all, I didn't get beat up, that sounds like I lost and I didn't lose. Nico pushes my buttons, I push his, and sometimes it ends up in a fight. End of story." Ara explains. "Let's move on, Lily."

"Percy's whereabouts and the search groups," Lily reads from her clipboard. "Annabeth?"

The older demigod starts to update everyone on what she's been doing, Leo leans closer to Ara and whispers. "Should I be worried about this Nico guy?"

Ara hushes him, which Leo doesn't like at all. He really knows nothing about Ara's daily life, and the more he finds out, the more she seems to be a different person than the one he met during the quest.

Ara listens to Annabeth, and then Jason suggests a few things though he doesn't remember much of his old life still. Eventually, they move on to the Argo II, which means Ara is finally paying attention to Leo. 

"Alright, gather 'round, kids!" He spreads the blueprints on the ping-pong table. "I've got the engine running, so we can start designing the interior. General Jackson, you can build your cabin if you want—And your brother's too."

"That's generous," Ara clears her throat. "But Annabeth's better at that, and so is Lily. I know nothing about interior design."

"I can design Percy's," Annabeth agrees.

"And I'm fine designing Ara's," Lily nods.

Leo frowns. "Okay... well, I'll still need your help. With..."

"The weaponry," Jason reminds him. "We heard Percy's brother would be here to talk about it?"

"Tyson!" Ara remembers. "Where is he?"

Annabeth shrugs, looking worried. "We haven't heard from him."

"Well... anyway, Tyson works in the forges with other Cyclops, I can ask him to build gear for the Argo II, so that's one thing you don't have to worry about, Leo."

"You kidding? I was looking forward to that part!" He exclaims. "But I could take a look at which designs could slow us down, he can take those. What are you going to do?"

"What do you mean?"

"You're redirecting all the assignments, I thought you wanted to stay busy—"

"Ara's not staying, that's why she's distributing the work," Lily raises a brow. "She told us, remember?"

Leo's face is so easy to read, Ara kind of wishes Gaea would swallow her whole right now. "I... I think he misunderstood what I said then, Lily. I didn't specify I'd come back just for a few days."

"You should've," he replies. 

"For those who don't know," she moves her gaze from one counselor to another. "I'll move back in with my parents for the rest of the school year. There's not much I can do about that, they're my legal guardians."

"We get it, Ara," Will eases her. "We don't love it, but we get it."

"I'll be here every weekend," she adds, looking at Jason. "It's not like I'll vanish."

"You don't have to explain anything." It sounds like Jason's understanding, but she can almost hear the words he left unsaid: "To me."

Leo's eyes are fixed on the blueprints and he's fidgeting with a pencil. She sighs. "I hate to leave, but Percy would want me to be with our parents before I head out to war... again."

Lily pats her shoulder. "You have a week to get your stuff in order, there's no need to feel guilty."

"Yeah, we've all seen what you can do in less time," Connor adds, getting a few chuckles from the veterans.

Ara tries to smile, but she's not successful. "If we're done here, let's end the meeting. You guys got a game to win, and I've got to start packing."

Leo picks up his blueprints and places the pencil behind his ear, quickly exiting the room next to Jason and Piper. He's angry, and his thoughts spiral easily when he's not careful, especially when he cares too much.

Lily nudges Ara's arm and talks to her in a whisper. "Someone's not cool with you leaving..."

"Should I talk to him?"

"To put him in his place, maybe," the girl wrinkles her nose. "You shouldn't be so nice to boys, they start thinking they've got a right over you after a while. Imagine if you were dating!"

"Yeah..." Ara wants to throw up again. "Sounds terrible."

Next Chapter ->

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[narilily]

TOP MUSIC ARTISTS

Meiko

Mitski

Delta Goodrem

Hozier

The Lumineers

TOP SONGS

Back to Your Heart -- Delta Goodrem

Flowers -- James Spaite

She Knows -- Meiko

Dandelions -- Ruth B.

Heaven -- Mitski

TOP MOVIES IN THEATERS

Barbie

The Little Mermaid

One True Love

White Bird

Are You There God? It's me, Margaret.

TOP BINGED SHOWS

The Nanny

Say Yes to the Dress

Pamela's Garden of Eden

Queer Eye

House Hunters

TOP MERROCK EVENTS

Nature Week

Crystal Gala

Enchanted Forest Gala

Halloween Masquerade

Pride Weekend

TOP LIFE MOMENTS

designing three gala looks

completing the butterfly garden

being promoted at the nursery

parents coming in to visit

selling the most garments yet

[localdryadfaggot]

Hoping the day I can sleep without fighting through a gauntlet of unwarranted anxiety comes soon but for now, we have James Spaite

[st-hedge]

Sometimes Spotify suggestions songs that make me go what in the ever loving fuck is this poetry

[randomlylurking]

∞

Hiiiiiiiiiii thank you 😘

“I've been wasting all this time To try to find me in your eyes”

~Maple Whiskey by James Spaite

put a "∞" in my ask box and I'll shuffle my music player and give you my favorite lyric from the song that comes up.

[timelord-winchester-22b]

Extraordinary

So this isn’t a request, but just something I finished writing recently and decided to give y’all. Inspired by the song ‘Flowers’ by James Spaite. So, naturally, the character who is the reader’s boyfriend is named James. This is basically unedited, like most of my pieces so be wary of misspellings and such. Hope you enjoy anyhow.

You’d known you would have to introduce them eventually. If everything worked out the way you’d wanted it to, you definitely would have to. You knew from the first date with James that you didn’t want the two of you to go your separate ways. You also wanted nothing less than leaving the Doctor forever. So you’d have to introduce one to the other eventually. You did not expect it to be when the Doctor showed up unannounced during one of your dates. James was in the middle of telling his newest amusing story of a particularly wild co-worker when you saw the Doctor stumble into the very nice doors of the very nice restaurant you were sat in and you spit the expensive wine you had been taking a sip of back into the expensive glass.

“You okay?” James frowned, cutting off his story to glance over his shoulder.

“Oh god” was all you said, placing your glass back down with a sigh as the Doctor finally spotted you, her eyes lighting up as she switched directions to head over to you.

“Do you know her?” James asked, turning to watch you sigh in exasperation. But, although you had told her firmly that she was not to interrupt any of your regular life without at the very least a warning you couldn’t help the excitement that spiked at the sight of her. You knew the moment you saw her that you would likely not get to stick around to enjoy the food you had just ordered, but you also knew that you would probably find yourself in the middle of an adventure much more exciting than the night you had planned. The Doctor called your name, as if the two of you weren’t already watching each other when she reached your table.

“Hi! I know I’m breaking the ‘no interrupting regular human life things’ rule but this is very important and I wouldn’t want you to miss it! Hi, I’m the Doctor!” She finished off with a grin, holding out a hand to James. He blinked at her, obviously taken aback by her forwardness, or maybe the speed at which she spoke, but still held out a hand for her to shake eagerly.

“You must be James then! The fam and I have heard the best things about you! I’m very sorry but I’m afraid I’m going to steal your date. You can come along too if you’d like!” She went on before you could stop her.

“Doctor” You scolded, getting her attention immediately with your tone. “You can’t just pull me out of the middle of a date. Couldn’t this wait until after? You have the time don’t you?”

“Actually this time the answer would be no”

As if on cue, there was an explosion by the front of the restaurant, followed immediately by screams and a few familiar voices shouting “Doctor!”.

You jumped up without thinking, the instincts of a companion kicking in as you followed the Doctor out of the restaurant at a run. You almost didn’t acknowledge James picking up your coat and purse to follow you. You stopped at the ruined front door when the Doctor stopped to shout something to the rest of the Fam outside. Glancing up the street, you felt fear kick in as you spotted the familiar form of a Cyberman. The only reaction you allowed yourself however was a sigh.

“What is that?” James asked from over your shoulder, seeing the recognition in your eyes. You glanced back at him.

“I’m sorry, but I’m gonna need a raincheck on that dinner”

James blinked at you, still looking startled, but nodded and helped you into your coat.

“I’ll keep ahold of this?” He suggested, holding up your purse. “As long as I have this, you have to come back, right?” You couldn’t help the small smile that crossed your face at how well he seemed to be taking the situation. You leaned in to give him a kiss before pushing him away with a smile.

“Keep it safe” You told him, and he nodded, picking up on the second meaning of ‘keep yourself safe’, before leaving. The Doctor took your hand and you ran in the opposite direction, towards the danger.

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It had been a long night and approaching morning when Earth was safe once more. You and the Fam exchanged glances and relieved sighs when you were sure it was over. Ryan started laughing and the leftover adrenaline mixed with the relief had you and Yaz joining in. Graham looked nearly horrified at you all, shaking his head and the Doctor grinned.

“Hey, weren’t you on a date?” Ryan remembered suddenly.

“Oh no! We interrupted your date didn’t we?” Yaz added.

“Oh my god, James” You remembered. “And he has my phone. Yaz do you think you could..?”

She was already handing it to you and you smiled gratefully, dialling your number and holding the phone to your ear.

“James! You’re okay! Oh, that’s great. Yeah, I know, I have a lot to explain”

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James took the whole ‘travelling through time and space’ thing very well. Far better than you had, and far better than you had expected him to. Even the Doctor seemed surprised, mumbling something about a PE teacher and someone named Mickey and how they responded. You’d offered to let him come along, with the Doctor and the Fam’s blessing of course. You had all decided that there was always room in the Tardis for more, metaphorially and literally. You were a little let down when he declined, but you understood. This life wasn’t for everyone.

“I’ll be here, something for you to come home to” James told you with a smile when you set off once again for the first time since you’d told him. You smiled back, promising him that you would, and agreeing to be careful when he asked for that too. He watched with a smile as you clambered into the Tardis, seeing the Doctor turn from the console to beam at you before the door had closed completely.

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It worked. You were a little surprised at the lack of issues with the arrangement, although you certainly weren’t complaining. James was always there for you to come home to, and you made sure to never keep him waiting for too long. You missed him too, of course, so you made sure to have the Doctor drop you home for a bit after every few adventures. You’d come to realize that you seemed more tethered to Earth than any of the Fam, and perhaps they had begun spending more time home too. It was a win for all of you. At least, you had thought it was.

You were settled on the couch and on your phone, laughing at the random updates the Doctor felt the need to supply you with while you were home, when James called your name from the kitchen table. You finished up a reply and sent it as you were looking up.

“We need to talk”

The words filled you with dread. You recognized them from plenty of TV shows and movies and they were never followed by anything good.

“What’s wrong?” You asked, leaving your phone on the table beside the couch to join him in the kitchen.

“It’s about the Doctor”

“You want me to stop travelling with her?” You questioned, the first thing that came to mind.

“What? No! No of course not, that’s your choice. It's more about us”

“You wanna break up with me?”

“Hold on!” He stopped you, placing a hand over yours. “Please don’t assume the worst. You don’t have anything to freak out about right now, okay?” He waited for you to nod before continuing.

“I know I’m very important to you, and our time together is special to both of us” He said, smiling a little when you nodded enthusiastically. “But it would take an idiot to not notice how you feel” You nodded again. “About her” He added, and this time you frowned.

“Just hear me out, don’t say anything” He insisted, stopping you before you could reply. “I’ve seen the way you look at her, how you smile when you see her name on your phone, and how excited you get when you see the Tardis. I know you travel the universe and everything but it’s more than that. You like her, and I mean really like her. I can tell” When you nodded this time, it was a little more hesitantly.

“You are the most amazing person I have ever met, and I am so incredibly lucky to have been your boyfriend. But you are just… extraordinary. And you deserve someone just as insanely amazing as you are. And I know ‘everyone is special’ and all, don’t try to pull that on me. This isn’t about me. This is about her and you. You don’t have to worry about anything, you’ll finish today with a best friend and a partner. You’ll still have your tour guide and your someone to come home to. The roles are just going to be switched, as long as you want it. Okay?” You nodded once more, a sad smile crossing your face.

“I do love you, you know?” You said, and he mirrored your smile.

“I know. But you love her more”

“Yeah”

“And she loves you”

“You’re sure about that?” You frowned, anxiety creeping up. What if she didn’t, and you ended up with nothing?

“I’m certain” He assured you, squeezing your hand gently. “Go give her a call” He gave you a reassuring smile and you held his gaze as you crossed the room to pick up your phone, making a quick call to ask the Doctor to pick you up.

“So” You started awkwardly once you’d hung up. “Nothing.. Nothing changes between us right? I’ll still come home to see you..?”

“Of course” He assured you, moving to hug you. You returned the embrace, gathering the material of his jacket in your hands. “We’ll be roommates. You can come home anytime you want, stay for as long as you want, and bring me stories of the universe” He pulled away and gave you a reassuring smile. “I’ll always be here, something for you to come home to” You heard the Tardis then, the steady, grinding sound of her materializing.

“Now go get your girl” James grinned, and you couldn’t help but smile in return.

“Love you” You told him quickly, giving him a kiss on the cheek before bolting. The Tardis was parked in her usual spot, about ten feet from the front door. You ran out with a grin on your face and the door opened only a moment after and the Doctor stood there, her coat missing and her sleeves pushed up to her elbows. Those welding goggles she’d taken a shine to hanging around her neck.

“Everything alright?” The Doctor asked, concerned. You never asked her to pick you up earlier than your scheduled time. But you knew if you had waited you’d lose your nerve to do what you had been planning. The Doctor repeated your name and you realized you had stopped at your door, just taking her in. You took a breath, started forward and didn’t stop until you’d all but collided with her, trapping her surprised gasp in a kiss. She tensed at first, and you were terrified in that moment until she relaxed and began to kiss you eagerly back, her hands going to your waist. You smiled into the kiss and felt her doing the same, wrapping your arms around her neck. You heard Ryan and Yaz making some kind of commotion in the background but you elected to ignore that for the time being. The Doctor was smiling as brightly as you were when you parted, but there was confusion in her eyes.

“What about James?”

“We came to an agreement. I’ll still have a best friend and a partner, with a little role reversal. That is, if you wanted to of course. I mean you don’t have to, James had an idea that you liked me as much as I like you and he suggested that I go for it but I guess I-”

“Oh hush” She shushed you, pulling you in for another kiss before you could respond. You didn’t argue.

[kaeyas-beloved]

Dazai Osamu (Ikevamp)

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Favourite Thing About Them

A tough one, but I like how he’ll drop the innocent (?) act when it’s appropriate like in Isaac’s route and (I think) Arthur’s route (might have been Napo’s. Referring to the time he was talking to Sebas and called her by her name) when times were getting tough. It was like showing that he does care about the others and that he’s not just there to climb through windows.

Least Favourite Thing About Them

There’s not a lot that comes to mind when it comes to hating him - maybe that he doesn’t call the MC by her name? Like I get it’s to keep up an act but?? He’ll remember the other residents names but not her’s??? And yeah, I know that he actually does remember her name but still...

Favourite Line

I can’t think of a line off the top of my head, but I’m sure there was something he said near the end of Isaac’s route that I really liked (If you know, you know) 

BrOTP

Either Arthur & Dazai or Isaac & Dazai (or all three). Just the chaotic dynamic they have is something I love

OTP

MC and Dazai I guess since I don’t really ship him with any of the others romantically

NOTP

Mmm, I’m not sure who else would get paired with him. Maybe a NOTP of mine would be something outlandish like Dazai and Comte. 

Random Headcanon

Not really a headcanon but more if a ‘what-if’ kind of thing. On the grounds that Cybird is making Dazai just like (or close to) his IRL counterpart, what if, like Arthur, Dazai has a strong dislike to one of his books, No Longer Human to be more exact. I may be wrong, but wasn’t the main character a portray of him IRL? Like maybe just the thought of the book brings up some unpleasant memories?

Again, just a what-if...

Unpopular Opinion

Unfortunately I don’t think I have an opinion on him that’s unpopular, sorry!

Song I Associate With Them

Ok so fun fact I started making playlists on Spotify for some of the suitors and one of them is for Dazai. Right now I just have two for him which are hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have - but I have it by Lana Del Rey and Maple Whisky by James Spaite.

Favourite Picture of Them

[alilfroginacove]

You Don't Have to Work for Love Anymore

Prompt: "Slow down, child. You don't have to work for love, anymore." - Effort by James Spaite

Pairing: Platonic Logicality

Trigger Warnings: Self-deprecation, Patton having a breakdown. (Let me know if I miss any!)

A/N: This is... a personal piece that is partly inspired by my own experiences and partly by what has happened in my life recently. I hope you all like it <3

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Patton knew that he needed help. His mind was whirring and screaming things that he didn't even know if he could confess aloud, and he was quickly getting overwhelmed. He had taken to silently rocking at the corner of his bed, trying his hardest not to scream and let everyone know how weak he was. He couldn't let anyone see his pain, how pathetic he was. How much he just needed to be held.

A couple sharp knocks at his door pulled him out of his fog - barely - and he sat up, but didn't make a move to get the door. He didn't know what to do, hoping that whoever was there would go away. Unfortunately, that was not the case.

"Patton, I heard you. I know you're in there. Are you okay?" Patton heard Logan's voice call out, and he shook his head no, before realizing that Logan couldn't see it. He couldn't bring himself to reply, though, so he just stayed there, helpless. After a few moments, Patton heard Logan's voice again. "Patton, I'm coming in, okay?" Logan said, before slowly opening the door. Patton moved back as far as he could and hid his face, not wanting the other to see him like this. Walking in, Logan’s eyes immediately fell on Patton's curled-up form. Patton heard Logan step forward and sit on his bed. "Patton?" He called put softly, and Patton just hid his face more, embarrassed, his mind still whirring and screaming. Logan crawled closer and sat facing him, waiting until Patton peaked out, tears still streaking down his face.

"I'm- I'm sorry," Patton hiccuped out, hugging himself as he cried.

Logan was visibly surprised, and leaned down so he could look directly at Patton. "What are you sorry for, Patton? You have done nothing wrong.” Patton looked away and shook his head, not knowing what to say. They sat in silence for a moment, until Logan stretched his arms out towards Patton. "Would you- uh... would you like a hug?" he asked, and Patton studied him for a moment before diving into his arms, burrowing his face into his shoulder, sobbing. Logan just held him, running a comforting hand through his hair.

Once Patton had calmed down enough to form coherent words, he pulled away from Logan, retreating into a ball once more. "I'm sor-sorry for not being strong. For- for not helping enough and… and being so lazy and cry-crying so much... I'm so sorry," Patton confessed, leaving Logan speechless for a moment. Patton curled more into himself, expecting anger or disgust at how open he was being. Instead, Logan slowly put his hand on Patton's arm, not wanting to overwhelm him any more than he already was.

"Patton, none of that is anything you have to apologize for. You are not weak, you are incredibly strong. And you help all of us, so much. You make sure we've all eaten, and you make sure that we're okay. And you are in no way lazy. You wake up every morning to make us breakfast, you clean, you help Roman with his adventuring-"

"But it's not enough!" Patton yelled, surprising both himself and Logan, but after a moment he charged on. "I need to do more, I need to take care of you all. I can't afford sitting here, pathetic and crying. I- I need you to love me, I have to help!" he exploded before hiding away again, covering his face with his hands. Logan sat there for a moment, silent, not knowing what to say. "I'm... sorry. I'm so sorry... I'll be fine, I promise, this won't happen again-" Patton stammered, only to be interrupted by Logan hugging him tightly. He heard himself suck in a sharp breath before melting into Logan.

"Slow down, Patton. You don't have to work for love, anymore." Logan said firm but soft, and Patton shot up, almost confused. "I am so sorry that you felt that you had to do anything except be yourself to be loved. Patton, we love you for who you are, not what you do. It's- It's okay to cry. It's okay to not be okay. We all love you, deeply. We want to help." Patton shook as he looked at Logan. He knew that he didn't have to do anything, but... he had still felt like he had to. Like he had to earn their love. The little voice in his head told him that he shouldn't believe Logan, that it was a lie, but he couldn't help it. It felt like a weight had been lifted off of him. He sat there staring for a long moment, before once again diving into Logan, clinging to him like his life depended on it. A few warm drops fell onto his neck, and he looked up slightly to see tears falling from Logan’s eyes. He was almost shocked to see Logan so emotional. The other noticed him staring and smiled at him, cupping his face with his hand. He burrowed into Logan once again, never wanting to let go. His eyes soon grew heavy, exhausted from all the emotions he had just experienced, as he drifted off into a dreamless sleep.

After what could have been hours or perhaps minutes, he felt Logan pick him up and bring him... somewhere. Still half-asleep, he held on, allowing himself to be brought wherever they were going. They soon reached a soft mass, which he realized was Logan's bed where he placed him down, and after some protesting from Patton, walked back to the hallway. He soon came back, though, and Patton heard the soft whispers of Roman and Virgil, and then all three of them went plopped next to Patton, making a cuddle puddle surrounding him. The last thing Patton remembered before falling asleep was the sound of Roman humming "I See the Light", Virgil's sweater over his shoulders, and the feeling of Logan against him.

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[tatter-demalion]

Rules: Answer 21 questions and then tag 21 people who you want to get to know better.

Tagged by @awesomelyanon

Nickname: Emmy

Zodiac: Aquarius

Height: ~5′4″

Last Movie I Saw: Spiderman: Into the Spiderverse

Last Thing I Googled: Moustache wax

Favourite Musician: Favorites are hard, so I’m just gonna say I’ve been really into Autoheart recently.

Song Stuck in My Head: Life We Chose, by Jared & the Mill

Other Blogs? @sadknightaesthetic is where I reblog a ton of stuff so I can find it later. Got a couple old, dead blogs too that are hanging around here.

Do I Get Asks? Not often! *hint, hint*

Following: 151

Followers: 166

Amount of Sleep: Usually around 7 hours a night. I can get by on 6, but I do best with 8-9.

Lucky Number: 8′s a nice number. I dunno that it’s lucky but I like it.

Dream Job: Comic artist, but I get to make my own comics!

What I’m Wearing: Gray jeans, white shirt, and two (2) maroon jackets ‘cause I’m cold.

Favourite Food: Lasagna. I hate to give the garfield answer, but there it is.

Can I Play an Instrument: I can play ukulele a bit! I can’t sing and do any fancy strumming patterns at the same time though, I’m not coordinated enough yet.

Languages: English, some German

Favourite Songs: Got a lot for this one, hold on

Soldier, Poet, King by the Oh Hellos

Animal by AURORA

Still Feel by half alive

Pelicans We by Cosmo Sheldrake

It’s Alright by Mother Mother

Dirty Imbecile by the Happy Fits

Lent by Autoheart

I Love You by Woodkid

In My Soul by Flannel Graph

Sleep Walking by Cinders

Foolishly Wrong by Autoheart

Come and Be by James Spaite, Maddy Trattles

River from the Sky by the Weepies

Yin Yang by USS

Saturn by Sleeping At Last

Random Fact: I like Dark Souls 2 a lot and I think all the Souls games are good, if in different ways. Controversial, I know, haha

Describe Yourself as Aesthetic Things: A steaming mug of tea, big scarves, when your breath mists because it’s cold outside, freckles, clouds hiding the mountains from view, a Gm-Eb-Bb-F chord progression, someone humming in the other room

tagging @julesdrawing, @kintheartist, @deseretgear, @rainbow-ray-bubbles and anyone else that would like to take a shot at it!

[dickgraysqns]

playlist snoop: put your whole music library on shuffle and share the first 10 songs that come up 

thank you for tagging me @jason-redhood ✨

1. this old cafe by domenico

2. all i need is you by brandon jenner

3. blush by picnic

4. bulletproof by griffin oskar

5. flowers by james spaite

6. bloom by the paper kites

7. enough for you by joshua radin

8. only wanna be with you by samm henshaw

9. paper airplanes by canyon city

10. meteor showers by andy kong

lmdsjkajskda im not going to tag anyone bc it’s been 100 years since i was tagged But if you see this and want to do it, go for it!!

[humble-wayside-flower]

“She stands in the middle of the market street. Nothing but quiet empty space stretches between her and the mountains in the distance, between her and the sun that rises now – even now.

Sarenrae? Are you listening?

A wind blows, strong enough to rustle the chain on her neck and the symbol it holds over her heart. She smiles and places a hand upon it as comforting words, spoken on the wings of a bird song, build in her.”

                                      - Chpt. 13, The Sun Always Rises by @tameila

Spotify (X)

Atlas: Two- Sleeping at Last (He would lay down his life if he had to, would it not make her sad. He would do anything, not only to make her happy, but to give her peace.)

Like a force to be reckoned with A mighty ocean or a gentle kiss I will love you with every single thing I have Like a tidal wave, I’ll make a mess Or calm waters, if that serves you best I will love you without any strings attached

October (Live)- gray (She replays memories in her head. Her first sunrise with Wilhand. The day he almost died. The day her lady saved him. The feeling of her first sermon as head cleric. They flash like black and white film reel. The world moves too fast. Her world slows to a halt.)

Little legs that sit upon a shoulder It’s in blonde curls that won’t be there when she’s older It’s in raising up what was raised in us Spending Sunday in a pew… We’ll never be able To treasure life enough When death comes it’s a window to my past Though I’ll never be able To treasure life enough When death comes I try to find a life that will last Cause life is going so fast

Dead Poet- Busty and the Bass (The world narrowed down to her room, her bed, the off-yellow sheets of her bed. Desperate for peace. Unable to grasp it on her own.)

Take it or break it off Been here since I recall This life is everything Maybe someday I’ll find Pieces of peace of mind Pick up the things that stay

Effort- James Spaite (Scanlan sits with her for a while, the quiet gathered around them like cotton. She rests her head on his shoulder. He doesn’t make her talk, just tells her a story. It’s hard to know the right thing to say. So he sings instead. Music has always been a language he can draw on when he cannot find the right words to speak.)

There’s time Things can be restored This is wisdom: You’ll serve what you adore I’m freely given what I can’t afford Slow down, child You don’t have to work for love Anymore

To Have You Around- Zach Winters (He’ll be anything he has to be for her. Her friend, her lover, a confidant, a person to make her laugh, to be laughed at. To make her laugh, to smile, to glow with genuine joy. It’s the closest a person can get to making the world spin all on their own. She is seen.)

If they raise me up, or they cut me down Hey I don’t care nothing, but to have you around And I don’t even mind if I’m a friend or your clown— Cause I don’t want nothing, but to have you around

Palm Lines- Lowland Hum (The recovery is slow going. There are steps back and steps forward. One day at a time. One step at a time. Never alone though. Never alone.)

One foot in front of the other, my darling Lift up your face so the sun can shine on it Frailty is a friend who makes you sleep ‘til the morning The mountain is high but it’s floating on the ocean

Tomorrow- Miner (There will be better days. Healing begins. The Sun Always Rises.)

I am already under Let the wave wash over me There will be better days

Hello My Old Heart- The Oh Hellos (It hurts to crack her heart open like this. She hadn’t even realized how closed it had become, how tall the walls, and hard the shell had become. Re-learning how to breathe. Re-learning how to trust. Re-learning how to live. Its so hard, but so worth it.)

Hello my old heart How have you been? Are you still there inside my chest? I’ve been so worried, you’ve been so still Barely beating at all

Our Love is a Painted Picture- Mae (They heal together. Coming to terms with the past, it isn’t easy. It isn’t simple or quick or anything like the eureka moments that fiction would have you believe. But somehow it’s better, to wake up one day and suddenly see where there was once rain, now only sun. Now only light.)

It can seem like there’s no answer And it can feel like there’s just pain Yeah all at once, all at once All at once to find No sign of rain

After the War- Branches (They find themselves, and then they find each other. Only then does this really work. To find a home, not in someone, but with someone, is a gift unlike any other they have known.)

But when I met you my words finally came true You turned my love songs into more then just rhymes Now I remember that rainy November when you first let me into your heart And now I’m not alone anymore… And my home is in your arms

Mountain Song- Little Chief (Still though, a change of scenery is needed. Now or never, they strike out on the road, barely a plan in sight. Unsure of what they’ll find, they lean on each other.)

Oh these memories, they keep on following The Devil, he’s a rambling man And ooh, I’ve tried To keep this inside But now is the time To see what we can find

Apricot Eyes- Alan Gogoll (A travel montage. The road stretched open before them. The racing blur of greenery along the way. Run down gas stations. Rest stops at mom and pop shops. Cheesy gift shops and the kind of good tired that sets deep in your bones and wears off by morning. The open road opens its arms and Pike willingly steps into its embrace.)

Instrumental

Sight of the Sun- fun. (Scanlan wakes before her one day. The sun comes through the thin hotel curtains, shining in a stripe across Pike who sleeps soundly beside him. He marvels at her everyday.)

For once there is nothing up my sleeve Just some scars from a life that used to trouble me I used to run at first sight of the sun Now I lay here waiting for you to wake up I lay here waiting for you to wake up

First Day of My Life- Bright Eyes (How he lived before her is beyond him. How she made it through each day without his smile is a miracle. Dreams of the future lay out, bright and within sight.)

Yours was the first face that I saw I think I was blind before I met you I don’t know where I am, I don’t know where I’ve been But I know where I want to go

I Believe in a Thing Called Love- Branches (When all is said and done they return. Westrunn welcomes them back with open arms, and for the first time in so long, it really feels like home. The sun begins to dip below as they pull into the driveway of Pike’s home. A kiss is shared, leaving a trail to her bedroom. When all is said and done they sleep soundly in each other’s arms, hearts beating in tandem.)

I believe in a thing called love Just listen to the rhythm of my heart There’s a chance we could make it now We’ll be rocking ‘til the sun goes down I believe in a thing called love

Heavy- Birdtalker (The sun rises. A new day begins. Full of life. Full of love.)

Leave what’s heavy What’s heavy behind Leave what’s heavy What’s heavy behind

[playlists-in-fall]

-songs i always sing along to in the car

alone together-fall our boy

are you gonna be my girl-jet

beat the love-autoheart

between the raindrops-lifehouse

bohemian rhapsody-queen

broadway, here i come!-jeremy jordan

b team-marianas trench

bummin-relient k

changing of the seasons-two door cinema club

chocolate-the 1975

circles-post malone

closer-powers

cough syrup-young the giant

crocodile rock-elton john

death of a bachelor-panic! at the disco

diane young-vampire weekend

disconnected-5 seconds of summer

electric love-børns

fred astaire-jukebox the ghost

flowers-james spaite

girls like you-denny

guillotine-jon bellion

harmony hall-vampire weekend

holding on to you-twenty one pilots

i wanna get better-bleachers

jenny-walk the moon

the killing kind-marianas trench

la devotee-panic! at the disco

lady percy-king charles

lent-autoheart

livin on a prayer-bon jovi

memories-panic! at the disco

migraine-twenty one pilots

moscow-autoheart

na na na-my chemical romance

old 45’s-chromeo

the sailor song-autoheart

semi automatic-twenty one pilots

she’s kinda hot-5 seconds of summer

somewhere only we know-keane

sorry-nothing but thieves

suicide saturday-hippo campus

take on me-a ha

talk too much-coin

teeth-5 seconds of summer

tongue tied-grouplove

wannabe-spice girls

waving through a window-ben platt

we can build a fire-autoheart

white knuckles-ok go

who do you love-marianas trench

why worry-set it off

work it out-knox hamilton

work this body-walk the moon

you & i-colony house

you know it-colony house

[narilily]

songs to listen to in the garden A NARI GIM PLAYIST

oo1. flowers -- james spaite

darlin', flowers were made for the garden i'm not quite everything you need i beg your pardon

oo2. in a week -- hozier ft. karen cowley

i have never known peace like the damp grass that yields to me

oo3. flowers in your hair -- the lumineers

then we grew a little and romanticized the time i saw flowers in your hair

oo4. marigolds -- kishi bashi

i wish that i had met you when your heart was safe to hold when you were simple and fancy in that field of marigolds

oo5. a good day (morning song) -- priscilla ahn

morning, sunrise open my eyes and i can tell it's gonna be a good day

oo6. dandelion -- jealous of the birds

your laugh's like a dandelion whirl from the window every color swirls with my blue bird heart i'm a singing girl

oo7. the time for flowers -- emily scott robinson

and the time for flowers has come again i know it seems the world will end there were days despair did win but the time for flowers has come again

oo8. bloom -- jessica domingo

i'm changing with the seasons as i watch my petals slowly falling while i'm gracefully evolving from my memories i'll be longing to

oo9. aurora -- justin nozuka

oh, i'll lie here while it rains upon the soft green moss i get the feeling that for once i know the meaning

o10. dandelions -- ruth b.

'cuz i'm in a field of dandelions wishing on every one that you'll be mine, mine

PLAYLIST.  🎵

[ungoodgatsby]

an Adam Parrish fanmix

"Being Adam Parrish was a complicated thing" : for the boy of ambitions, desperation, working yourself to the bone. for the magician, the offering, the sacrifice. for coming out the other end, better and alive.

I always wanted to be something better / I always wanted to shine

Could Have Been Me - The Struts / Offering - Black City Lights / Tennyson - Adam Barnes / First - Cold War Kids / Secret - Angel Snow / Trees - twenty one pilots / Effort - James Spaite / It’s Time - Imagine Dragons / Forget the Lies - Quietdrive / World Wide Open - Matthew Wright

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