#christmas messages for friends

[kensatou]

j… jesus oppa ;____;

[meezer]

my friend asked me to run an errand with her tomorrow I'm so happy about it 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

[nicoscheer]

New Song ?!

Counting down the days yesterday at Waves Festival

I really hope he’s doing fine 🫶🏽🫶🏽

But also:

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See ya when I see ya

Forever a troubled son

Bunch of videos

Some professional pics:

https://www.instagram.com/p/DCg5F68opdG/?igsh=MThqZ3RvM25pNnc4OA==

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[xxplastic-cubexx]

whos jess what’s the snap lore

jess has been my bestie since my dragon ball postin days, about five years now :]

[deus-ex-mona]

farewell, my idiot son…

[practically-an-x-man]

Hey friends so uh. apparently the "decorate my tree" site is possibly a fraud/scam thing? not confirmed but I'm definitely not going to risk it.

If y'all left me messages and still want me to see them, please send them to me as an ask or private message since I will not be opening any emails or the "deco my tree" site itself

(tagging the people who left me messages so they see this: @can-of-pringles @nebulousfishgills @hawthorne-spengler-stantz @vexic929 @negative-speedforce @sashathedoge @thegentlemanstar @lighttupthiswholetown and @simplysummers I think?)

[phail]

shoutout to @littleroomba for giving me the idea of watching gamingmas 2023. I’m so tired and I’ll probably only stay awake for another 2 hours max but any gamingmas videos are better than none!

[cubot]

What's wrong?

I have horrific executive dysfunction and live in squalor all the time. I still have a dish in my sink that has been there since October 2023.

I can't do the things I want to do nor need to do and when I have things I need to do, like taxes, I end up hitting my head repeatedly and crying out of stress. I need to get a new job because I'm so burnt out with my current one which was only ever supposed to be temporary anyway, but I can't do the simple work of fixing my resume because it feels like there is an invisible wall in front of my brain and it's sharp and it hurts and I can't chose when I can walk through it, so I just keep stabbing myself.

I need to look into rehoming my pet rats because I can't clean their cage as often as I would like, as often as they need it, because they need it they need it they deserve better, but even writing the post is like a mountain. I was supposed to be better to them. I was supposed to be better to myself by being better to them.

I have no money, so I'm constantly stressed.

My body hurts, my brain hurts, something is chronically wrong with me. I hope it's something bad because I would like a way to die that doesn't feel overwhelmingly hateful to my loved ones.

I just play video games in bed because I don't have the energy for anything else and the fiction allows me to ignore the world. I have no plans for the future because I constantly plan for the fact I want to be dead soon.

I don't need help on wanting to die. I've wanted to die since I was 14. I'm almost 29. That's nearly every single fucking day for half my life. I'm used to it. It's a comfort. It's my emotional support and it helps me. And I have accepted it. Because I've tried to work on it in so many ways over the years through therapy and medicine and changing my lifestyle, and it's still here. It's just me.

BUT I need help in making life less full of despair, so when I choose to keep living to not hurt the people around me, it doesn't feel like I'm sacrificing myself. So it doesn't feel like I'm ripping myself apart. That I'm not making myself suffer and suffer and be so full of torment and pain. I need help with living.

I planned on killing myself in a few days and it's been the plan for two fucking years. It led up to this. But everyone around me is either making future plans with me, reminding me repeatedly that I have a place in their lives and a history with them, or having terrible times for themselves and I don't want to hurt them more on top of it. But I'm so tired. I'm so exhausted.

I want someone to sit next to me and help me set up a new attempt on getting diagnosed with ADHD to see if the medicine would help me do the fucking dishes regularly at least! Because my last attempt, the doctor belittled me repeatedly and just setting up that in the first place took all my energy and I can't do it again. I'm tired.

I want someone to pick up my rats and give them a better life than I could ever dream of giving them even though I did my best.

I want someone to help me write my resume without it making me feel like my brain is being torn to shreds, so that I can find a new job, so that getting a blood test bill won't put me off looking into any medical help in the future. I'm tired!

I want to figure out why I feel sick all the time and find out if there is a way to stop feeling sick all the time. Or to just have better management over it.

I want to have enough money to do things that keep giving me new experiences so maybe doing something scary and new will make me feel like I shouldn't die soon.

I can't change society or climate change or war or starvation or any of those things that make me want to die, but I could potentially change me. But I can't do it alone. I'm just tired.

I tell no one anything because if you tell people you want to die, they want to take away your freedom and latch you with more debt if they make you go to the hospital and I want control in my life. I want independence. This is my life, I should be able to choose how I live it.

I want to live in a world where I could tell people I want to die and they could accept it and then I could just die after a farewell party, but we don't live in that world. So I will keep living, but I want to stop suffering the whole time.

That's what's wrong.

[tethrras]

in 2025 i will stop mourning a man who was only ever nice to me in private !

[mwarlyn]

i’m bawling these christmas tree messages UUUDHG

[11sea]

everyone hates me and wants me dead. yay. well at least it's snowing

[bright-and-burning]

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[inspiredsimmerx]

it’s that time of year again! send me your trees! 🎄⭐️

https://decomytree.com/home?hashedId=qHJKWJ5VF5-f

[brokenmusicboxwolfe]

The nice thing about actually writing a letter (rather than sending a text/e-mail/message) is you have to actually have to go and mail it. That gives you plenty of time to go “Oh, shit! I shouldn’t have said that!” And starting over.

The bad thing about actually writing a letter is you actually have to go and mail it. That gives you plenty of time to go “Oh shit! I shouldn’t have said that!” And starting over. And over. And over. And over. And over. And….never actually mailing the dang letter!

[c-o-z-m-o]

Where the fuck do I find these things

[salsflore]