#chrisjosh

[scrawledjournals]

portraits

[mtblackwood]

sweet promethazine

[winterfieldfrontiers]

It's full circle now!

[horseshoecrabs]

oh to be known by your friends.

[computerpeople]

chrisjosh

[juvederm]

me after thinking of jossam and chrisjosh while listening to bonnie's lullaby from fnaf

[johnnyutah]

[beyblaiddyd]

ppl really want any excuse to insult gay ships they’ll look at a ship where the two characters know each other incredibly well have a long established relationship and dynamic and have constant hints that one likes the other to the point that the writers acknowledge it and they’ll be like “this is bland slash this is bland and baseless this is hashtag fandom nonsense picking the blandest thing” and then turn around and ship the canon straight shit 

[blue-eyes-falling-deep-blog]

I thought I would post this little drabble here since I have clearly opened the door the hell and let this fandom consume me.This is in the point of view of Josh Washington, much Climbing Class and hints of ChrAsh. Much inspired by Satisfied from Hamilton.

To Pacify Or Satisfy.

Year Five. I've been exorcised, and left with scars that may never be repaired. Mentally and physically. You know, I would say "It was just a prank" and blame it on being oblivious, but the fact is it wasn't just a prank. I missed my sisters. My sweet, and adoring twins who deserved nothing but happiness. I never wanted to admit they were dead, so I let myself sink into insanity until I wanted revenge. Clearly, I'm an idiot. We're all about twenty four, a few at twenty five, and at a wedding. Chris's wedding. Chris and Ashley's wedding. I've supported the two for years, and now I'm the best man. But I fear if I go out there, I'll vomit all over the carpet from anxiety and just disorders in general. Just a year or two before we met Ashley, I imagined myself in her current place. ​​Sixteen years old, secluded to all but my sisters and Chris. I was too short, too fragile, too shy. Too oblivious to heartbreaks and game overs. That's when I realized three fundamental truths at the exact same time. The first truth; ​​​​​I'm out of my league. Tall, handsome, dorky. Pure, funny, adorable. If given a shot, I would've done everything in my power to win him over. I wanted him to return my love. When I introduced him to Ashley, the second. For one of the first times in my life, I realized that everything I worked towards was in danger within a split second. She could take him away from me at any given moment and Chris would go with it. She was pretty, nerdy, and kind. Matching his type perfectly. Third, well, it appears I'm not the only one trying to get in on some action. I already said he's oblivious and pure. He would never notice anyone trying to take a bite out of him unless they were direct. Even then, Chris would question. My sixteen year old self panicked and search for solutions within my sisters. Beth wanted me to tell him before it was too late. Tell him everything I've kept inside. She was right, I should've. Hannah told me she was in the same situation with Mike and Emily. She called it "Romantic Attacks," a play on panic attacks. She couldn't help much. So, I confined in Ashley. I told her the deal, prayed to Gods I don't even believe in that she would understand. And she did her best to. She asked for at least a shot with him, if she missed she'd give up. I want to say she missed and I threw my shot towards it, my whole heart practically. But she didn't miss. Ashley and Chris hung out more and more as my heart cracked in two right before my eyes. I introduced them and then I started crying in the basement because I missed. I threw away my shot. All I could do was sit and support them endlessly. Ashley and I had a lot of fights over him off screen, until I learned she was close with Beth. I stopped fighting with her, I stopped talking to her all together. I decided to try and talk to people like Jess or Emily, who get dropped or drop people themselves. Jess couldn't offer much advice other than trying to forget and move on. Emily said that if he didn't acknowledge my attempts, he wasn't worth my time. She said to keep moving, keep my mind off of it. I just constantly reminded myself of how it felt when I first met him. I’ll never forget the first time I saw his face. I have never been the same, intelligent eyes in a small and weak frame. And when he said “Hi,” I forgot my own name . . . He set my heart aflame, every part aflame. I wish this was a game. Around this time is when Hannah and Beth went missing. I ignored him and focused on them, my worry and grief. When I started working on the prank and seeping into insanity, I just wanted to see who he would really choose between us. His best friend or crush? I don't remember much between those years in between.

Snapping back to reality, I stare back at the ceremony.

“If anyone has any objections to this couple getting married, speak now or forever hold your peace,” said the preacher.

His voice was hollow and monotone, he reminded me too much of “Dr. Hill,” whoever he may be anymore.

I held my breath, watching my life flash before my eyes before making a decision

He was right, I’ll never be satisfied.

“Wait!”

Watching it all play out in the back of my mind as I watched multiple pairs of eyes stare towards me. When I first met Chris, introducing him to Ashley, planning the prank, falling in the mines.

There is a twist in my stomach, butterflies that don’t know that it’s their time to die.

“I hate to say it but, Ashley, I’m afraid I loved him first.”

[studiousbotanist]

have ppl come up w a cute tag line name for dylan/Ryan like how Chrisjosh had climbing class ....

[scrawledjournals]

rest in peace josh’s relationship status screen at the end of the game you will always be in my heart forever and ever

[mtblackwood]

push on2 my pulse (✿˵ ꒡3꒡˵)

[horseshoecrabs]

[juvederm]

gonna keep yapping hold on. mainly abt treatment of sapphic headcanons. i saw some posts my mutuals reblogged abt that kind of thing and since i was talking abt old ud fics, i had to say soemthing abt it

i'm not gonna sit here and act like i know everything, but based off what other lesbian mutuals have said, hcing a girl as a lesbian because she's either "mean" or gets in the way of ur gay ship is such a lame move. it's just so dumb and weird. this was the most common case w sam and ashley

first i thought of this bc someone (i think marigoidz, hi hi if you read this) had posted something like "when a non sapphic fic features a sapphic character being some sort of side character or "wingman" to the main characters" and it reminded me of what i just mentioned in the first part. i feel like this happened in ud fics in some way.

i think maybe queerkearney also mentioned this at some point as well (also hi if you see this ! :])

like i'm tempted to ask people Why they hc a girl as a lesbian just to see if they're being weird about it. they'll be like

why don't you ship samjosh?: oh bc i think sam is a lesbian!!! :3 (is a chrisjosh shipper, + they don't care about sam in any regard, this is the first time they've ever even thought of her)

or why don't you ship chrashley? : ashley's a girl kisser!! (is also a chrisjosh shipper, also doesn't gaf abt ashley) (or they say some bullshit abt her killing chris as a reason)

like there's somethin real fishy abt those people... not saying you Have to ship samjosh or chrashley but like. you look like you only hc them as that so they doesn't have a reason to be attracted to chris or josh anymore and therefore makes ur gay ship work like goodnight

i'm not saying Everyone does that. i just don't trust the reasoning most of the time when it's not a lesbian saying the headcanon. and sam being a lesbian in ur headcanon isn't a bad thing either! it's just sometimes people use it as a way to move the girl out of the way. and when they write this headcanon, they sideline the character they headcanoned as lesbian 😭 (@ that one fic that made chris cheat on ashley w josh and then made ashley get w sam and then they sidelined both of those characters.... mkay)

it's just like mistreatment of sapphic characters honestly. like you're not putting any care into this, you're just saying this character is sapphic so you can just not worry about her in the context of ur gay ship and it's literally so fucking lame i'm not saying anything new but omfg

im also not sure if i worded this 100% correct so apologies if i sounded dumb af 👍 just had to get this off my chest

[johnnyutah]

Do you think Todd stays in heaven because he, too, lives in fear of what he's created here on earth?

( @feradiantdawn @beyblaiddyd @seafucker @ff-crystal-chronicles @horseshoecrabs & @loficharm )

[beyblaiddyd]