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Time to Put On My Kinn Defender Hat

So I’m seeing a lot of people mad at Kinn for the punishment thing and what he said to Porsche later. And look, this is the type of drama I eat the fuck up because the root of their not communicating - not even miscommunication but purposely not communicating with the other - is external conflicts. 

In fiction theory there’s external and internal conflicts that the characters go through: 

An internal conflict is the struggle occurring within a character's mind. Things such as the character views for, but can't quite reach. As opposed to external conflict, in which a character is grappling some force of themself, such as wars or a chain-breaking off a bike, or not being able to get past a roadblock.

So, right now both Kinn and Porsche are going through internal conflicts, ie their emotions for each other and their memories of the night they spent together as brilliantly displayed in their parallel attempts at having sex with someone else but both being unable to due to that internal conflict. 

Kinn is also going through an external conflict throughout the episode which in turn, is forcing Porsche to also go through his external conflict. 

See, the episode makes a point of having Kinn be empathetic for most of the opening of the episode. Kinn asks Porsche repeatedly if he’s okay when they’re still at the hotel, he tells Porsche what happened in a sort of clinical way, assures Porsche his attacker didn’t do anything to him, and tells Porsche he can take the day off. When Porsche asks Kinn to leave him alone, he does. 

Later, Kinn also tells Porsche he can take a second day off if he needs to. This is all establishing that Kinn is trying to look out for Porsche’s health both physical and emotional as much as he can. 

Here’s the introduction of the external conflict, Boss Korn. We have to remember that Korn is not just Kinn, Kim, and Tankhun’s father, he is the patriarch of a mafia family. He isn’t just another overbearing dad, he holds soft power over his sons in a way that’s not a typical family dynamic. 

We can see this dynamic in how Korn firmly, but quietly, reprimands Kinn for referring to their chess match as “playing”. Something seemingly innocuous and yet, not at all in the world they live in. 

There is no “playing” in their world, because it exists on a delicate balance where one misstep, one mistake, or one failure can lead to the death within the family and/or the deaths of the men in their charge. This is a knife-edge death match. There’s no playing with people’s lives here, this is war. 

And Kinn’s actions spat in the face of that. He showed immaturity by prioritizing Porsche’s well-being. That’s what Korn is scolding him for here. It’s not just Porsche who matters, all the men and women working under them matter. Kinn is responsible for the lives of many, the entire board, and he’s trying to protect one piece. This is a subtle takedown of Kinn by Korn and it was pretty painful to feel the weight of what’s on Kinn’s shoulders at all times. 

What’s also interesting in this scene is Kinn tries to justify his actions to Korn, he validates that Porsche was drugged, he didn’t “fail”, he didn’t make a mistake, it was an attack on his person. 

But that - and this is important - does not matter to Korn. 

Chan follows up with: 

“Arm checked the footage. Porsche was drugged because he was to careless, sir.” 

Now obviously we, the audience, don’t agree with this because Porsche is our baby. Kinn doesn’t agree with this either, he goes as far as to say:

But Chan and Korn disagree. Porsche is a bodyguard for the mafia now. Mistakes like this aren’t so easily forgivable. 

And Kinn needs to know that. Korn is teaching Kinn a lesson here. This is war. At all times. And Kinn just failed a battle, a test. Something I suspect he’s done before which is why Korn is so firm with him here. 

Gleaning from context and what’s both said and not said, whoever betrayed Kinn didn’t just break his heart and trust in others, it also had consequences within the main family. It went beyond just Kinn’s heart and potentially cost the family more than it should have. Maybe the person who hurt him stole information, maybe someone or someones got killed, either way it make the family vulnerable, it make Kinn vulnerable. 

And that’s unacceptable in war. 

So why does Kinn punish Porsche? His father all but tells him too. Kinn specifically asks if Korn wants Kinn to punish Porsche and while Korn doesn’t give a yes or no answer, he explains to Kinn how the other people underneath Kinn, his soldiers, won’t respect him if they suspect Porsche is getting special treatment. 

I don’t even think it’s about Kinn and Porsche’s sexual relationship, so much as the dangers of their emotional relationship. And what a gut punch to Kinn that is. 

Kinn’s got trust issues out the booty hole, he’s isolated even from his own brothers. He can’t trust anyone, not even his closest bodyguards and the weight of being the family heir is a continuous internal conflict he bares alone. 

I think Kinn wants more than anything to choose Porsche, be near Porsche, but to allow himself that is weakness. It’s dangerous. Not just to himself, but to his family. 

So he pushes Porsche away, physically and emotionally. He follows his fathers unspoken order to punish Porsche even though he knows and believes Porsche doesn’t deserve it. He replaces Porsche with Ken to remove temptation and he tries to bury any lingering emotion in sex with another to prove Porsche isn’t special.

Which doesn’t work, it fails spectacularly! Porsche is special, which is why Kinn goes to seek him out selfishly or not, and apologizes. 

The external conflict Kinn and Porsche are in is their environment. Porsche is basically attempting to rewrite all the rules Kinn grew up in, ones that are still being pushed upon him. He challenges Kinn to do whatever he wants to him and Kinn is to weak to take the bait. 

How will their deal with this environment is what I want to know. Kinn will have to overcome his trust issues, and Porsche will have to fully embrace the mafia world. My current theory is they’ll change their environment together once they find a balance between themselves. 

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Zoro out here stuck in a giant wax cake like, ‘lemme chop my legs off to escape’ and Luffy in the background all like “god zoro you’re so stupid LOL” like he didn’t stick some whole ass shark dentures n his month a few months ago 

I think my favorite thing about zolu is that not only is it peak moron4moron, but like

Zoro and Luffy are each convinced that they have the braincell in the relationship. Luffy is like “aw Zoro it’s okay that youre stupid :)” and zoro says “I don’t wanna hear that from you” and they’re both resigned to being moronsexual meanwhile everyone else is watching Luffy just say the most batshit things that cross his mind and Zoro try to will away blood loss and they think “they’re made for each other”

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Porsche vs The Bodyguard Boys 

Something I noticed and will probably update as the series goes on, is how Porsche is styled in comparison to the other bodyguards on the show. Namely, how I think his styling will showcase his own individual perception of what it means to be a bodyguard and working for the main family. 

As you can see in the promo shots, Porsche is missing a very specific piece of the bodyguard uniform, the suit jacket. Notably - and thrillingly - each bodyguard has his own specific style of the uniform. Big is the full uniform, not a piece out of place, Ken is missing the tie, as are Pol and Arm. Porsche however has the very specific styling of the vest, shirt, and tie combo. 

He’s missing the jacket. And it’s a distinctive piece of the look. It also gives him a specific silhouette in comparison to his counterparts:

The vest emphasizes, to be frank, Porsche’s figure, giving him an overall more sleek looking figure. I think, interestingly enough, the only time we’ve seen Porsche in a more full version of the bodyguard uniform is when Kinn took him out on a mission:

But as later scenes prove, Porsche is ultimately playing dress-up here as he fails this mission rather spectacularly. 

The mission Porsche doesn’t fail, the one with Mes in ep03, Porsche is sans jacket once again. He’s not playing dress up, in fact he’s beginning to take this world seriously, but also, he’s conflicted about what he’s witnessing first hand. 

So what happens in ep04? The preview was what inspired this post at all because I immediately noticed Porsche’s hair is slicked back and he’s wearing the full uniform again. Contrasting his previous appearances as a bodyguard. And what I think we can assume is Porsche growing more comfortable and competent in his role as Kinn’s bodyguard specifically.

Which also reminded me of a scene in the OG trailer as well. 

In this scene from the trailer, Porsche has pieces of his bodyguard uniform, the pants, his gun belt, and his slicked back hair, but is also sans vest, jacket and tie. Notably his dialogue in this scene is “I’m not on anybody’s side, I’m on your side” to Kinn. His white t-shirt also feels distinctly Porsche, in that his standard casual wear (particularly the white t-shirt he wears when he joins the family!) are typically worn t-shirts. 

This costuming feels like a combination of Porsche the person and Porsche the bodyguard. 

My very loose theory is, costuming wise, Porsche’s bodyguard wardrobe will change and fluctuate based on his emotional arc and his relationship with Kinn. This potential combination of Porsche the person and Porsche the bodyguard is Porsche figuring out his balance, his place within the world of the mob. He is neither on the side of the family, nor on the side of their enemies, he is only on the side of Kinn the person he’s chosen to follow.

Currently, Porsche sticks out against the other bodyguards, purposely so as Porsche is the Odd One Out, but what I’m curious to see next episode is as he settles into his role as Kinn’s bodyguard, as he embraces it, will that prove ill fitting as well (like it did the first time he doned the jacket) leading him to visually figure out his own combined balanced place within this mob world at Kinn’s side. 

Idk, the latter part is red hot speculation on my part lol but I’m curious what ep04 will bring in terms of Porsche’s costuming. And I know ppl will think my ass is reading to much into things, which they’re not wrong! Sometimes a t-shirt is in fact just a t-shirt. Other times - like in Shape of Water, or funnily enough, Glenn Close’s Cruella - a costume means things for the character and their story arc. 

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me when ppl tell me I shouldn’t like jin guangyao:

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everyone needs to give a collective shout-out to the hair, makeup and costume department on kinnporsche for giving Kinn that ombre suit and making sure porsche’s tiddies remain out and proud even at uni

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I agree def with the fish out of water and this episode emphasized it narratively and metaphorically. 

I don’t know if I see Porsche as necessarily depressed or overly compromising his morals. Porsche doesn’t want to kidnap or kill people perhaps, but he’s not against violence for monetary sake. I think his morals - at least as we’ve seen them thus far - are more flexible than people think. I mean, he knocked Macau on his ass into a pond without a second thought and the kid is like, what Chay’s age? He was being a brat but Porsche said ‘fuck them kids’ without a second thought lmao

(That said, I’d be interested in why folks think Porsche is depressed in canon to see what I missed and I love hearing about how other folks interpret canon)

I think what the episode emphasized was the specific class difference between Porsche and Kinn. Porsche would never think about not peeing in a pond b/c of prized fancy carp b/c who the fuck owns prized fancy carp except bougie ass rich people? He scoffs at Kinn, Te, and Time because he finds them to be rich assholes. 

Porsche is adjusting to a different lifestyle on many levels; and I’m surprised people thought he’d be well-adjusted to start off. Yes Porsche agreed to the job, but that doesn’t mean he’d be good at it. Kinn even says fighting well doesn’t translate to being a bodyguard (and he’s right!). Porsche is there b/c Korn wants him to be, and it’s financially beneficial to be there. 

Tell me y’all haven’t half-assed a job you don’t even wanna be at lmao

Porsche IS a fish out of water. That's the point. He isn't going to try at the job because he never wanted it. That's the point. Did you guys miss the whole "I know you didn't want to be here but I would like for you to be happy" "What's happiness?"

I respect different opinion. Lawd knows I'm rarely on the same page with others. However, I'm going to go ahead and say that if you don't understand why Porsche is acting and behaving the way he is. You are never going to get him and are not going to enjoy this series.

He is fully capable, which if you've been paying attention, you'd know. He's depressed though, he has taken a job that goes against his morals. He has left a family member that he raised and is responsible for taking care of and doesn't know if he'll be needed. He can't contact any of his friends. He's surrounded by unfamiliar lands and hostile people. He is capable of everything they are asking him to do. However, he is depressed and can't think straight and no, he isn't going to even try.

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tankhun dresses like a mix between peak elton john and lady gaga little monsters era and I am Here For It

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Kinn & Porsche Costume Meta - Chucks vs Loafers

Third in the series! Ok so I wanna talk specifically about Kinn and Porsche’s costuming and how they’re styling directly contrasts each other in order to visually represent the gap between them. Namely the class gap. This might get a bit long since I’m doing two characters at once so bare with me y’all I’ll put a cut but hope y’all stay till the end b/c I think I unlocked something. 

So, Kinn’s got money. I talked a bit about this when I broke down Tankhun’s costuming. Kinn’s family is rich as fuck, flat. How do we know this? One obvious point is the luxe ass estate where a majority of the story so far has taken place, but even before we see that set piece we can tell Kinn is rich by the way he dresses. 

Kinn wears something folks often call “statement suits” which is basically a suit that is meant to be eye-catching. If anyone’s every watched an American red carpet show they probably know the typical men’s wear is a black suit, white undershirt, maybe a vest (really shake these up a colored vest!), with a tie or bowtie. IE kinda fucking boring right? Not statement suits! 

Unlike Tankhun though, who has a loud and colorful style, Kinn’s pieces are mostly darker colors, muted enough to be wearable, but vibrant enough to catch your attention. If Tankhun is channeling Billy Porter, and Elton John, than Kinn is channeling John Boyega, Jason Momoa, or Chris Evans (I’m not gonna add all their pictures but click the links if you wanna see their suits):

Kinn is more of a classics guy, he’s giving Tom Ford, and Burberry. Suits that cost up to $1000 a pop. Even his more casual wear is higher end. It’s a mix of business casual, and rich kid. Kinn leans towards long sleeved jumpers, button downs, and slacks. And, his precious expansive ass loafers. 

This is all to visually tell the audience ‘hey this dude is RICH, he’s got MONEY’ but I find it also serves a couple other narrative purposes. I talked about this a bit on @luckydragon10​‘s Lines of Power post, but Kinn is dressed closest to his father (so far that we’ve seen in show) compared to his brothers. Positioning him as closest to his fathers power as head of the family, and the chosen heir. 

Kinn’s choice of color and statement suits as opposed to his fathers more traditional wear, also aids in Kinn not seeming removed from his brothers, and places him as a more “modern” figurehead compared to his father. 

But what about Porsche? How does he play in all this?

It’s really simple, Porsche is poor. He doesn’t really have a “style” influence like Kinn and Tankhun because Porsche doesn’t have the time or resources to care about those things. He buys and wears what he can afford, what’s comfortable for his lifestyle, and what enhances his hoe energy. We love that for him. 

When we first see Porsche, he’s wearing the bar uniform, these are not “his” clothes but metaphorically his armor. It’s a simple uniform, all black, decent enough fabric to fit in but nothing especially spectacular. It contrasts with Kinn’s clothes with it’s lack of color. It already puts them on the opposite spectrum.

Throughout the episode, Porsche wears this uniform in all his interactions with Kinn, until the end of the episode.

The other outfits we see from Porsche in episode 01 are his university uniform, and his underground fighting outfit which is just a pair of jeans. Porsche, interestingly enough, doesn’t wear “his” clothes until the very end of the episode when he decides to join the family and accept their offer. 

When he does, we see him wearing a plain white t-shirt, plain jeans, a belt, and his ever reliable chucks. His chucks being the only other consistent piece of clothing he wears throughout the episode. 

Porsche in ep02 is clearly a fish out of water in all ways (rip Elizabeth the second), but his clothing also sets him apart from the others. Literally everyone else is wearing “higher class” clothing than Porsche, even Ken who is wearing a functional, but expensive and trendy, track suit. He steps into this world even before training hits and he’s a fish out of water. 

Porsche comes from a financially disadvantaged background, he’s poor. Therefore his choice of clothing is simple, and most importantly functional. 

Porsche’s choice of clothing is mainly t-shirts, jeans and his chucks. Nothing especially flashy (except when he has his tatas out), something that you can buy on the cheap, pieces that are affordable enough that they’ll function in a fight and he can put food on the table for Chay. 

I talked about Porsche’s bodyguard costuming in comparison to his colleagues as well, and how I think that specific styling reads into his character and the narrative. 

Ok so where does this put Porsche and Kinn though? 

What I found really interesting about their last scene in ep03 (other than the awesome pre-kiss convo and kiss lmao) was how their outfits said so much about each other, and how they contrasted but complimented each other. 

The last time Kinn and Porsche contrasted, it was fraught with tension and aggression. Porsche’s all black outfit fighting against Kinn’s blood red suit. Both were wearing their metaphorical “armor” that was connected directly to their individual jobs. The opening scenes of ep01 parallel the two in such a way to suggest both are in their “element” they are displaying their soft power over people. 

But in this scene, they’re both in “their” clothing, the things they choose to wear when they don’t need or have to exalt power over others as a means of survival.

Kinn is still dressed in high-end clothing, and Porsche in affordable brands, but they’re no longer fighting for a sense of dominance. Instead they’re kinda soft. Kinn is dressed in cooler tones - the blue-gray button up, slacks, and his loafers - while Porsche is in warmer tones - the deep red shirt, jeans, and his chucks. 

They are two characters who visually say they shouldn’t work. Kinn is rich, Porsche is poor, Kinn is high fashion, Porsche is affordability, Kinn is about style, Porsche is about practicality.  

Chucks vs Loafers. 

But while they may contrast, they also compliment. I think that will be one of the core aspects of Kinn and Porsche’s relationship. Their push and pull, their contrast and complimentary. I mean hell, even their underwear act as a sort of yin/yang motif as seen in the trailer:

I’m not wildin out okay! Seems pretty fishy Kinn is wearing pure black and Porsche pure white. While they are positioned laying down, opposite, but still folding into each other. Just saying, y’all know what the yin/yang symbol looks like I’m not linking that lol

What I’m interesting in seeing is how their styles grow and develop. Will Kinn, as he grows softer towards Porsche take on a more practical style (will we see Kinn in chucks!?)? Will Porsche as he embraces the mafia lifestyle and his feelings towards Kinn take on some higher end pieces of clothing ( @iffervescent​ sugar daddy!Kinn au when?)? Will their colors begin to mold together more? 

I think some of those answers may have already been answers in the trailer, we can see in the image below that Kinn is wearing what I think is a pair of chucks. He’s also wearing denim which we currently haven’t seen him wear yet in show. Porsche, meanwhile, is wearing dress shoes. He’s back in all black though, so I don’t know if that’s his bar uniform again. We’ll simply have to wait and see what context this scene falls in. 

Interestingly enough, the scene in the trailer where they’ve been kidnapped (?) and are traveling together they are wearing complimentary colors, while also still wearing “their” style of clothing. 

Kinn seems to be wearing a button down, and slacks, Porsche a t-shirt and I think also slacks but I can’t tell for sure. What’s notable though is Porsche’s pants match Kinn’s shirt - both grey - and Kinn’s pants match Porsche’s shirt - both a dark blue. 

They’re retaining their individual identities whilst also complimenting each other and reflecting one another. 

As always, I am no fashion expert, just a puta that loves costuming. Check out ModernGurlz or Mina Le on Youtube for legit expert opinions. 

Also I haven’t read the novel, so like, this is 100% pure, raw speculation chepies. I could be wrong (I probably am!) but hey, this shit is fun isn’t it? Stay horny and unhinged KP fandom. 

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Me watching kinnporsche like: 

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westerners can’t even figure out what qbaiting means in their own media - i’ve seen the word used when a fan ship doesn’t happen even if the show/movie has queer chars - and they tryin to apply it onto other cultures media the sheer audacity lmao 

I’m literally BEGGING westerners to stop regurgitating this tumblr brainrot with nonwestern media. Queerbaiting is different than testing the line with stringent censorship laws from the originating country. The screenwriter/director is gay as well, so this is a bit tone deaf.

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while we all try to emotionally recover from ep06 I’ma call it and say that next episode is the “You never trust me!” scene from the trailer with bonus pool scene. 

I’m a good 90% sure the trust scene is next ep, but I’m only about 70% sure the pool scene is next ep too but I think it would make sense. At this point Porsche and Kinn know and acknowledge that they’re something, whatever that is, they haven’t decided either outwardly to each other or internally to themselves but they are something

With Kinn back in the mafia environment where he can’t be as free as he was in this ep I could see them regressing a bit where Kinn acts/gets jealous of Vegas’ attempts to get close to Porsche which will prove to be a point of contention 

I also think that Vegas isn’t going to drug Porsche next ep - I think this was what happened in the novel? - I think Porsche will play honeypot. Chan and Korn seem to suspect the minor family, Chan’s sending Pete and Porsche undercover, so I think Porsche and Pete will make an attempt to play the minor family. 

Also it would be a bit redundant if Porsche got drugged again by Vegas and Kinn had to save him again. I think it’s more likely the show will go a different route. 

If the big confrontation with Vegas plays out, Porsche’s “you never trust me” could mean that Kinn thinks he’s betraying the main family (or really leaving him for Vegas) and Porsche is finally like, put up or shut up and they finally acknowledge both internally and externally what they mean to each other

If what the crew said it true - or wasn’t taken out of context by fans - the pool scene is when they acknowledge said feelings and have a second first time. 

So yeah, that’s my theory for next week. And if honeypot Porsche doesn’t happen someone better write the fic 

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Kinn’s Family Is Rich As Fuck - Tankhun Edition

I was gonna do Kinn’s costume meta post first but @moerusai​ requested Tankhun so here we are! 

Ok so we all know that Tankhun is a Fashion Icon in the show, I said in a joke post that his style was a combo of peak Elton John and Lady Gaga (monster era). I hold to that, partially. I think another influence in Tankhun’s fashion is Billy Porter: 

What’s cool about Tankhun’s costuming is that his styling is purposeful. It’s not just a bunch of mix-matched colorful items. There’s thought and purposeful to Tankhun’s style, without being overly complicated. Like, for example, Tankhun wears a lot of sets, patterned pieces, and textures. Which gives me a lot of Randid Rahm, Francis Libiran, and The Blondes influences. 

His style is flamboyant perhaps, but neither strictly what is considered masculine or feminine. He operates in a fashionable in between that resembles a lot of big couture collections. 

Tell me Tankhun wouldn’t rock one of these outfits with some modifications. The cape from Randid is actually similar to the one he wore in ep02 as well. 

Tankhun is supposed to look rich as fuck. 

And he does! And you can see from the following pictures, his outfits work as a unit. Whether they’re a set - like in image 4 - or just complementary pieces - images 1, and 2 especially - there’s thought being put into each outfit. 

What this is meant to instill to the audience is a couple things: 1) set him apart visually from his brothers Kinn and Kim, 2) showcase his wealth, 3) make him visually loud looking which enhances his personality

Tankhun is chaotic, he’s loud, and he’s very separate from the others in the estate. We know that he doesn’t leave the estate because he was kidnapped and as such as developed agoraphobia. This leaves him unfortunately very isolated, removed from much of society and other people. I believe @the-wayside​ had some really good meta on Tankhun and his agoraphobia. 

So what way does he choose to express himself? Via clothing. His clothing is a way to express himself in an otherwise cramped world of walls, suits, and glittering objects. It’s the one form of physical self-express we’ve seen that he can employ in narrative. 

Out of narrative - a Doylst view - his clothing signposts to the audience that this character is LOUD, he’s in your face, but he’s not unlikable. He’s not weird for the sake of being weird, or a punchline. Like his outfits, carefully put together and crafted, Tankhun has personality and character. He’s quite likable and his reasons for staying at the estate are understandable. It also says this character is RICH and places him visually above other characters - namely his bodyguards, Porsche etc as they are all presumably of a middle class to poor background. 

I think what I want to reiterate is Tankhun’s styling is, again, very purposeful. It has influences in couture/runway-esque fashion, it speaks to his personality and his personal self-expression, and it showcases his class status. 

Now, what I’m really curious about is if Tankhun’s costuming will change if his character changes in the show. His character poster was much more toned down in comparison to his in-show looks. 

His shirt and pants are all monochromatic, and he lacks any major embellishments save the fur coat which breaks up the outfit with a strong textural element. It gives a POP while still feeling overall cohesive with his character. But the lack of bright eye-catching colors (as seen above) make me wonder if his character also goes through a minor transformation as the show goes along. Perhaps he gets more comfortable going outside, or being a part of the family business, or begins to recover from his trauma(s). All speculation on my part - idk if he had any major role in the novel - but I’m curious!

When I breakdown Kinn’s costuming I’ll probably talk more about class status as his wardrobe is often directly compared to Porsche’s (especially in the dock scene!! Chucks vs Loafers!!). 

**disclaimer: I am not an expert in fashion, check out ModernGurlz and Mina Le on youtube for an experts breakdown of costuming, I’m just a simple puta that loves costumes and kinnporsche**

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Pete either saw god or the devil in Vegas’ condom box 

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So like, I get it. I get it. I get the desire to defend and accept this show without critique because it wasn’t a hot property right out the gate. GMMTV does jack all to promote it. The messaging tugs out an emotional response from the audience. The cast and crew are all hella likable. 

But liking a thing doesn’t mean you can’t also dislike parts of the thing. You can like and dislike parts of a thing and still be a fan of it! Nuance! Or you liked parts of a thing but you disliked more and you’re not a fan anymore, that’s cool too. 

Don’t be a stan, in fact, I recommend everyone listen to this podcast episode about stans showcasing cult like behavior. 

There are things I like about Not Me, there are things I don’t like. Overall, the show started on a high, and it’s ending on a low. For me, personally. Acknowledging the shows fault isn’t a direct attack on the show - especially the cast and crew - itself. That said, no one should be sending negative reviews, comments, or the like to the cast and crew - we’re not professional critics hell all western fans aren’t even the intended audience. Know you’re place, take your seat. 

Is gramblack queerbaiting? No. But it is queer erasure. I am begging y’all to learn your terms, media theory terms MEAN THINGS. 

Taking a canonically same-sex relationship and erasing it to the point the two chars are barely even friends, so that they can be in a hetreosexual love triangle fighting over a female character who’s agency is removed? Not cute and not for me. 

Y'all are forgiving the writers!?!? Not me fuck that I will hold my grudges until I die. They ruined an amazing ship, a beloved character, the most prevalent female character's growth and shoved toxic heteronormativity into a very important queer revolutionary narrative. There is no redemption and no forgiveness for these writing sins. None. A little toddblack homoeroticism doesn't fix shit.

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folks: why did kinn and porsche kiss already they don’t even like each other

me: have y’all ever heard of the concept of being drunk and horny?

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ok other than THE KISS (byy which I mean the double punch combo of talking, sharing, opening up, CONNECTION plus the lip smacking) I think my favorite parts of the episode where Porsche’s development and the concept of *duality* 

Like, seeing Porsche grapple with these tiny tidbits of reality of the world he’s fallen into - inside of pushing him face first the show is playing it slow, feeding us these apps almost of Porsche realizing the mafia world is violent but violent in a lot of different ways - it wasn’t just killing Mes, it’s Tankul’s inability to leave the mansion b/c he was kidnapped, it’s the distance Kinn has to keep from others the fact that he can’t trust anyone around him, combined with the physical violence. 

What affects Porsche more, the bullet wound or the thought of a child who has to pay for his fathers debts? 

Second, the duality. I think this is most obvious in Pete whom seemed so soft, funny, and sweet last episode. Which he is! But he’s not the cinnamon roll folks thought he was. He beat Mes down without a second thought, he had no qualms about doing so, we forgot after seeing him share his grandma’s soup with Porsche that Pete is also a criminal. He’s a part of the mob. His moral compass is also pretty fucking skewed. He can still be a cinnamon roll but he’s got more “sin” in him than originally perceived. He is neither a hero nor a villain. 

What I’m wondering is if the show will progressively get more serious as the plot begins to come together. Like, yeah the partying was funny and kinda cringe - but Yok is MY GIRL WITH THE FANS TOO?? QUEEN -  but its all almost a facade. Between party scenes is Porsche wanting both to be a better bodyguard - outta spite like a true chaotic bisexual - and realizing what it means to be a better bodyguard to a mob boss. The duality is interesting to me.

Also, now that I’ve fucking bit the gd bullet and subscribed to iqyi I’ma make that costume post cause OMG the costuming!!!! Especially with the fact that Porsche still didn’t wear a jacket for his bodyguard uniform in this ep AND his hair isn’t slicked back. But next ep we see his hair slicked back with the jacket and my brain is going