#changingplans

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

[spuslblue]

This trip is just getting a bit adventurous: heavy rain-falls, flooding and the ferry service has stopped. We had to cancel our transfer tomorrow and booked a regional airline to get to San José. Hopefully being there in about 26 hours... 🙏

[mirrorerised]

DAY 9: RELAXING DAY AT SANT POL DE MAR ⛱ Today we a relaxing morning looking around the city. This is where I found this great streetart! At the afternoon we actually wanted to go to Barcelona again, but we all took a long nap and then we know the time left would be to short. This why we decided to go Sant Pol de Mar again for some time at the beach. We really enjoyed it there on sunday. So we thought it might be a good idea and it was! #sharkart #streetart #costamaresme #shark #sunny #noclouds #bluesky #skystillblue #changingplans #relaxingday #lazy #siesta #santpoldemar #catalunya #catalonia #cataluña #españa #spain #spanien #catalunyaexperience #urlaubmitkleinkind https://www.instagram.com/p/ChGFBvULh6D/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[angellenfent]

𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚊 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚛𝚝 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊𝚗 𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚊𝚐𝚘 🔪 • 𝚜𝚘, 𝚒 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚟𝚎 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐'𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘𝚘 • #babeyoukillme #lovesummerdays #montreal #oldport #sofietukker #changingplans #walkingonthestreets #canceledconcert #imalittlebitlazy #iforgettopostthis #lastweek (at Montreal, Quebec) https://www.instagram.com/p/CehSEehugkL/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[happyabbiejo-blog]

Lost I'm the north woods for a few days... #hiawathanationalforest #uppermichigan #forest #changingplans#freedom #notmanypeople (at Palms Book State Park)

[tonysladky]

From my other blog

(Reposted, in case tonysladky.com gets hacked again)

Okay, I’ve admitted this to myself a million times, but never said it publicly:

I never wanted to be a 3D artist. I never enjoyed it. I never wrapped my head around all the abstractions in 3D art (shaders, any map less straightforward than a diffuse or specular map), never came close to figuring out the right poly-count on the rare occasions when I even got close to getting something into an engine (but hoo boy do I know how to freak out about poly-counts…).

I’ve spent my entire life poring over books of concept art, for pretty much everything I could get my hands on. I’ve always loved seeing that what-if: the wildly different ships we might have seen in Star Wars, the completely un-prawn-like aliens that eventually became the creatures from District 9, the countless designs that eventually got finessed into the weapons of one of the dwarves from The Hobbit, literally any piece of mass entertainment media whose concept art I could find. That’s what I always wanted to do.

And it’s that first point that holds the majority of the key to why I’ve gone two and a half years without using my blog (and why hackers have spent more time here than I have, hence one of my last posts is just gone…), why I improved at a glacial pace and wound up backsliding pretty regularly.

But, at the same time that I knew I wanted to be a concept artist, I also wanted to work in video games. And as a listless teenager, I latched onto the most prestigious school I could find offering a major with the word “game” in its name. This major, in a supremely poor fit for me, was split off from a phenomenal computer animation program and, especially in its infancy, focused overwhelmingly on the 3D side of things. For— I’m pretty sure, last I heard— everyone else graduating from that first class, that wasn’t a problem. They either developed the knack and passion for 3D to get that career, or figured out enough on the side to get into a related position (the folks who went on to become tech artists, game designers etc.). I didn’t. I didn’t get it, didn’t catch that studying on the side, posting my work on forums like Polycount, doing side-projects for the sake of additional learning, tracking down tutorials pretty much constantly, were supposed to be a major part of my education, and I was too caught up in sunk costs and just wanting to be done with school to even consider switching majors or schools to find something that would actually teach me what I wanted to do, or at least not waste so much money that I didn’t have.

(Don’t get me wrong: I’m not calling out my school. The fact that it seemed to have worked for the rest of my class and for every subsequent class that I remain in touch with, suggests that it is indeed a good school and a good program for students who weren’t me.)

And so I graduated, after four years of probably straight C’s, with a mediocre portfolio demonstrating modest skills in something I didn’t actually want to do. Much like the proverbial person who tries to get into QA and work their way into the job they actually want, I had this notion that I would buckle down, build a slightly less crappy portfolio, get my foot in the door as a 3D artist and start learning concept art on the side until I could get the job I actually wanted.

You can guess how many of those steps happened. Oh, I came close. I tried a variety of techniques over the years to cut down procrastination, started a lot of projects aimed at going back to the fundamentals and finally grokking 3D art, did a handful of art tests and sent out my resume and portfolio all over the place.

The one thing that never happened was the one that’s probably closest to the root of my problems, at least where art is concerned: Admitting that 3D wasn’t what I wanted to do, and wasn’t something I enjoyed. As long as those two things were true, I was never going to get better, never going to get employable, never create art, never feel like I’m not lying through my teeth when I call myself an artist.

So there it is: Creating 3D art for games is not my jam. It’s not my passion, it’s not what I want to do with my life. It’s something I haven’t touched for two years and will be okay with never touching again if it comes to that. I don’t see a future for me in creating 3D art.

I’ve always regretted not learning to paint, digitally or otherwise. I’ve always regretted that I didn’t see where Game Art & Design was heading with our first class and say “You know, I think I want to switch to Illustration.” I’ve always regretted that it wasn’t until senior year that I even figured out Gnomon was a thing, much less a resource at Ringling’s library.

And it’s been very hard lately. I let myself be convinced to try being a ski bum, which is a brutally expensive lifestyle. When I get a break from a 60+ hour workweek, the last thing I want to do is bang my head against the wall, creating art that’s nowhere near the standards I hold myself to.

Going forward, I am going to take the first baby steps into learning the skills and pursuing the artistic career I actually want. There will probably, eventually, be some redesigns of this blog to be more "concept art" and more "anything I've been doing more recently than 2011", and I guess more frequent updates, especially once I get into either creating more art digitally or just get better equipped to post sketchbook pages (currently I have to either take a terrible cellphone picture or carve out a chunk of time to scan stuff at the library).

So, yeah, it already feels better to admit what I’m actually after instead of pretending I’m interested in a field I’m not. Now I just gotta keep this motivation going.

Anyone got any resources they’d recommend to the beginning self-taught concept artist?

[martstudio88]

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💖 Life is full of unexpected surprises, some pleasant and some very unpleasant. Most of today’s plans got derailed, I’m hoping to be able to film tomorrow morning to make up for the loss of today💖 #contemporaryart #videoartist #videoarts #videoartists #videoartwork #kaleidoscopevideo #videokaleidoscope #artvideojourney #artvideomusic #changingplans #changinglife #beautifulartvideo #linkinbio👆 #linkinbio👆👆 #linkinbio👉💻 #abstractnature #abstractnaturevideo #naturekaleidoscope #mlivingart #livingart #lettinggo #calmingvideo #calmingvideos #artistsonyoutube #videotransitions #videomaker #videoediting #newvideo https://www.instagram.com/p/B3SznGPHBnL/?igshid=19lgke3fsysil

[jemmabrown]

I so needed to read this today I’ve got lots to do, lots of admin and I was supposed to be going out. The problem? I’m wiped out! I’ve just been incredibly tired all day today! It’s the kind of fatigue that comes along side chronic illness and means you just have to stop and rest. It’s REALLY frustrating but I recognise this is just my body telling me I need some time off to rest and I just have to accept that my to do list isn’t going to get done. - #chronicillness #ehlersdanlossyndrome #pots #fatigue #stress #bipolar #CPTSD #chronicpain #tired #changingplans #listeningtomybody #selfcare #unchargeables #spoonie #physicalandmentalhealth #symptommanagement #rest #recover #recharge - - Repost from @makedaisychains using @RepostRegramApp - Just been thinking a lot about how recovery is talked about as progressing all the time. And an important message around recovery not being linear is true, but also sometimes it just needs to to pause for a while and that’s ok. That’s still recovery, even if you’re not getting better in the way health professionals want or family/friends want, you want or the recovery community wants. Hope that makes sense. . . . . [[image description: hand drawn illustration. In the middle is written “”keep going” doesn’t mean you’re not allowed to pause and rest”. There are two willow vines, one each side. The border is circular and green. The background is cream. ] #mentalhealthrecovery https://www.instagram.com/p/BqsgVF2h646/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1v424lyupk23i

[scott-blackmore]

So we are meeting at chan yeh? #changingplans #35mm (at Copenhagen, Denmark)

[tadeoko]

Reading #night #holyweek #changingplans #tadeoko #kindle #guywithtattoo #guywithglasses #shirtless #springIsHere #tagsforfollow #followme #followteam

[ineedcoins]

When plans change, you be like... #childsplay #changingplans

[mirrorerised]

FIRST VACAY WITH CHILD 👏🏻♥️ Today we drove all the way from Germany to Bardolino in Italy. It‘s our first vacation as parents and the first our son crossed the border to travel to a different country. Actually the plan was to go to Spain to visit our family there, but because of rising Corona infections we decided to switch our booking to a saver destination. We were really sad to cancel our long awaited family visit but now we are just happy to be at the beautiful Lago di Garda 😍 #lagodigarda #bardolino #apartment #toddlerboy #urlaubmitkleinkind #firstvacationwithbaby #somuchlove #changingplans #dimo #sterntaler #bornino #evening #italia #italy #italien #veneto #lifeiswhathappenstoyouwhileyourebusymakingotherplans https://www.instagram.com/p/CRFLslGrvAC/?utm_medium=tumblr

[silverinkwings]

At my therapist I love her she's great she gave me a lot of info on switching and she said it was up to me which was nice so I hopefully next week get the new therapist and go to her three times while L is like the headmaster over viewing everything that is if I like this new one #therapy #therapist #counseling #changingplans #anorexia #recovery #relapse

[petitmonchaton]

Know me well.

Someone who knows you well but still does the things you hate. Especially on a very important day, he or she chooses to do every single thing you despise the most. What a fucked up day.

[justplainme52]

I wish you would stop pushing me away every time i have to change plans last minute... Its not worth pushing me away... Don't put up the barriers I've worked so hard to break down over this one little thing... even if you do, I won't give up, i love you too much and now that I've told you that I do, I'm going to fight for you.

I've been working really hard on spending more time with you. I've been working even harder at not letting my parents control what I do or where I go. I wish you'd give me some credit for that... This change of plans isn't even due to my parents trying to control me... Its because they miss me and want me to stay home and spend time with them since I've barely been home or been able to spend much time with them in the last 3 months...

Don't punish me because other people have been making you unhappy... don't push away the one person that does... because you are the one person who makes me happy... even though sometimes you can make me feel like shit (in similar situations), make me happier than I have been in a long time... I don't want to lose that... I don't want to lose you...

[piepers-blog]

Best. Hostel. Ever. #changingplans #beggingtostaylonger (Taken with Instagram at Cassis, France)