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simplee-giggles · 1 year ago
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Slowly coming out of a depression pit to discover Matthew Perry has died
So now I'm crying myself back into the pit
Rest in peace, Ms Chanandler Bong 🩵
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lilkingtrashmeg · 1 year ago
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Rest In Peace Matthew Perry 🕊
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RIP Matthew Perry
No one else could’ve played Chandler Bing🩵
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stephstars08 · 4 months ago
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🤍Happy Heavenly Birthday Matthew Perry🤍
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It’s still so hard to believe that you aren’t here celebrating your birthday with your friends and loved ones. If you know me, you know that F.R.I.E.N.D.S is my all time favorite show. I watch it every night before I go to bed. I’ve seen every episode probably a thousand times and have always laughed at every joke a thousand times as well. Yes, Matthew will always be remembered as Chandler Bing one of the best characters of all time but Matthew should also be remembered as a solider. He should be remembered as a fighter because his whole life he fought. He was honest and never got shed away from talking about his past struggles with alcohol, drugs, and mental health. He had his ups and downs but he always made sure that he was putting a smile on other people’s faces. He loved making people laugh and yes we should remember him for that, but we should also remember him has an inspiration. We should remember him for sharing his story and inspire others to quit drinking and doing drugs. He wanted to inspire other people that it’s okay if you aren’t okay. He deserves to be remembered as a person who just wanted to help and inspire people to not going through with what he been through.
Matthew, you’ve been taken from this world far too soon and you didn’t deserve what was put upon you. I just want to say thank you for Chandler Bing and thank you for inspiring not just me, but a whole fanbase of people that love you and will always miss you. Thank you for being a friend, and thank you for always making me laugh and smile.❤️🪽
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comfortableinthesilence · 1 year ago
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Waking up to the news about Matthew Perry passing wasn't something I was prepared for today. Fuckklkkkkkk. I grew up watching and loving his role as Chandler in Friends its my go to comfort show still to this day. Now it's going to break my heart anytime I watch it knowing he’s gone.
Rest in peae Matthew Perry, you brought laughter and comfort to me growing up and still do to this day! Your role in Friends is iconic to many and will always be that to me!
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g0tmilkx3 · 1 year ago
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I feel so silly mourning Matthew Perry’s death, given the current political events. However a human life lost; is a human life lost. So, I’m making space in my heart for him as well. I’ve followed his battle with alcoholism and addiction and I was excited when his book came out (despite the controversy) because I believed he was sober and on the right track. He deserved to live a long, healthy, clean, and happy life. He had the best comedic timing on Friends! I always find myself seeking out Chandler heavy episodes because he never fails to make me laugh. RIP Matthew 💙 last nights full moon was for you and all others who’s lives have been cut short by things out of their control
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juliaswickcrs · 1 year ago
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Now I kind of want to bring my friends oc back
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ta-matia-tou-morfea · 1 year ago
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Rest in peace dear..thank you for everything..you provided millions of people around the world with good laughter and comfort, thank you for being our Chandler Bing 🙏💔
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ahonice · 1 year ago
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i just finished crying in the frat bathroom because i was told matthew perry died
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blues-valentine · 1 month ago
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This is my last post about it. OBX 4 wasn’t just bad in terms of JJ but all characters in general.
The writers, knowing they’d kill JJ off, started a character assassination train on him perhaps expecting us to feel like he deserved to die? But we know JJ. We all know JJ’s reckless but not to this level of detachment. He was acting like an entirely different person. JJ would’ve never treated Kiara, John B or any of his friends like that. Ever. Not matter how bad life turned out. Even with the whole “JJ blew all of our money!” it’s like they wanted us to hate him so badly.
Don’t even get me started on how bad that JJ plot twist was and since Part 1 I said it. Trying to erase his entire life like that even when it didn’t make sense was lazy writing. And all for what? To have his biological father be the one to kill him at the end? Because that’s the only possibly cruel explanation for that plot twist.
Killing JJ in such a way when this character spent his entire life suffering physical and emotional abuse from his adoptive father is cruel and it sends such a sad messaging.
OBX has always been bad at giving the girls good story lines and that aren’t always about their boyfriends. Kiara’s relationship with her parents was totally ignored. We got from them cutting her off at 401 to them clapping for her at the ceremony and we never got to know how they reached that place. Did they go to family therapy in those 18 months? Did they talk and came to an agreement together? But nothing.
Cleo didn’t get to have a story line that wasn’t mostly adjacent to Pope. And for a character that’s been here for 3 seasons we only know she worked for Terrance and it’s good with knifes. We don’t know her actual surname. And I was expecting more from her revenge plot and I feel silly for expecting that from those writers.
Sarah’s PTSD regarding Ward was never further explored. The writers also forgot about Wheezie and Rose. Sarah wouldn’t have continued on without trying to reach out to her. It’s like they just didn’t want to deal with it. And the worst one is them making Sarah say she didn’t feel ready for a family at her age for them to forget about it and have her pregnant. Despite how silly it is considering the circumstances of their life and how much trauma she has to heal from.
Don’t even get me started on the way the writers never explored the girls relationship. The only bonding scene between the girls we got was Sarah telling Kiara she’s pregnant and Cleo wasn’t even there. We never saw them just existing as young girls just joking around. Hell; even a whole boys conversation would feel somehow natural and we didn’t even got that.
Pope is a killer now? And by the influence of Cleo not less. Did the writers forgot about Season 3? And how she was the one that stopped him from killing Rafe. So, now you’re telling me she was the one egging him on to become a killer. Make it make sense please.
And the pogues dynamic was so bad. God, it was so out of character for them all. Firstly, John B would’ve never allowed JJ to walk into that self destructive path especially after learning about Chandler. And then, the way JJ confessed to Pope he was sucidical and he just didn’t say anything about it? Kiara was also incredible out of character. And that death scene was particularly dumb in so many levels, because it could’ve been preventable and it was pointless. But the thing that pisses me off the most is that the pogues stood there watching. In a scene that felt perhaps a bit anticlimactic. “Not pogue gets left behind” but they buried him on a desert in Morocco and had Rafe be the one to dig the hole too. Those are not my pogues and this wasn’t the dynamic I feel in love with. OBX went from being a comfort show to give me so much unnecessary frustrations.
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endless-ineffabilities · 4 months ago
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Chemical Override - Submission Board
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Hello, my darlings! I've received a lot of ideas and requests and queries about Chem Ov, so I'm making this post as a way to keep track of all of them.
Feel free to share in the comments or in my ask!
Once an idea has been submitted, I will add it here, to avoid repetition and to make sure that I am able to incorporate it into the story if it fits the narrative 💙
*random pictures included above, added cause they amuse me :)
series masterlist ▪︎ main masterlist
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Ewan and the reader thinking about living together - 🦜 anon
Reader adopting Benjicat who ends up preferring his mum, unlike Sansa - TheCatAnon
Ewan seeing an ad or film of the reader and sending her a picture along with a compliment - @seamaiden
Audience reactions to Ewan and Matt's game interview from Above The Gods Eye - ✨️ anon
Reader running to Ewan's aid when he gets injured on set, shoving past Matt - @ajantanijhum
Reader having a naughty dream about Ewan and Matt - anon
Ewan comforting reader when she's on her period - anon
Sansa sneaking into Reader's bag and ending up in HOTD set - TheCatAnon
Reader getting addicted to viral pastries from a Japanese bakery, influencing Ewan, who over-indulges his sweet tooth - @theintrovertedwriter868
Ewan watching (and adoring) Darling's interview on Hot Ones or another variety show - @just-fics-station
Ewan and Darling discussing marriage and babies - anon
Ewan and Darling do the Wired Autocomplete Interview / friendship test - @seamaiden
Matt or Ewan or both seeing Darling's lingerie campaign - anon
Ewan posting Darling's high fashion ad on his stories - 💌 anon
Hotd cast playing never have i ever, drunk edition, but prior to the game they all decided to target ewan and make all of the questions related to darling (e.g. "never have i ever made longing gazes at darling during interviews?") - anon
Darling gets cast for a music video. Matt visits her on set and he gets cast in an extra role as her lover - @just-fics-station
Darling is in a musical on the West End, playing a character who's dominant and confident (thinking of Heather Chandler) and Ewan goes to watch and is obsessed - Scottish anon
Darling meets Ewan's parents or vice versa - @clarkysblog
Ewan and the reader vacaying with the cast. Them sneaking off to make out. Ewan gawking at the reader behind his sunglasses - anon
Darling prank calls Ewan/Matt for Elle - anon
A famous celeb says that Darling is their celebrity crush and wants to work with her - anon
Darling wearing a 'revenge dress' for an event - anon
Darling taking the buzzfeed hotd character quiz and getting Aemond - @seamaiden
Ewan and darling sharing in each other's interests (eg. She wears one of his rock band shirts / she'll get him into horror movies, sci-fi, skincare) - anon
Darling doing an everything shower/extensive self-care routine and being so exhausted afterward that Matt or Ewan have to take care of her - 🦘
Darling posting a hot photo on Insta, attracting admirers and triggering boyfriend Ewan - @kammmy101
Ewan and the cast supporting Darling in her theatre debut - 💌 anon
Ewan having Darling as his lockscreen and she finds out - anon
An interview flirting with Darling, and Ewan trying not to get riled up - anon
Darling and Jenna becoming best friends - ✨️ anon
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ozwriterchick · 1 month ago
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Back to Us - Chapter 3
Summary: Y/n wakes after an accident to her Avengers team-mates. But something isn't quite right and only Steve and Tony can see it.
Characters/Relationships: Steve Rogers x Reader; Tony Stark; Natasha Romanoff; Other Avengers Characters
Content warnings: Mentions of an accident (no details yet); If I missed any, let me know
A/N: If you want to be tagged, let me know.
Not beta'd so any mistakes are my own.
Apologies if the ending is a bit cringey, It will become clearer in future chapters.
Back to Us Masterlist
Dividers by @firefly-graphics
Word count: 1113 (approx.)
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1 week later.
You’ve arrived back at the compound with Tony and he shows you up to your room.
“Umm, Tony, what’s going on?” you ask. “This isn’t my room, this is Captain Rogers suite?”
“Oh, yeah, this is closer to the lab and Bruce, so we switched it up a little bit, just for a while.  Rogers was ok with it” Tony replied hesitantly.  ��I’ll send Nat & Pepper up to help you get settled and then you just need to call or text any of us if you need anything.”
With that, Tony leaves and closes the door behind him.  You wander around the room checking out all of Captain Rogers things, wondering who else has been this close to the inner workings of Steve’s mind. 
The room is mostly neutral – all browns and beiges and not super masculine you’d decided, but there were some slightly feminine accents here and there.  Lotion on the bedside table, you wouldn’t have picked Steve for a lotion-lover.  Fluffy cushions on the sofa, a little splash of pink here and there.  You thought maybe Steve had a secret girlfriend but as hard as you racked your brain, you couldn’t remember him ever introducing you to anyone.
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Meanwhile, the Avengers have all gathered together in the war room.
Tony began “So, Y/n is now home.  You all know about her amnesia/memory issues by now.  We haven’t said anything to her yet so let’s be careful what we say to her until she gets her full memory back.”
“But what if she asks what’s going on, if she realises that it’s been 4 years since that mission?” Nat asked.
“We can cross that bridge when we come to it” Tony continued.  “We’ve put her in their suite, but we told her Steve had agreed to switch rooms because his is closer to the lab.  I think she accepted that, at least she didn’t ask any awkward questions yet.”
Steve stood up and started pacing.  “I’m just worried about her, obviously.  She doesn’t remember any of our relationship, or even that we’re friends it seems.  She’s gone back to calling me Captain Rogers most of the time.”
“I know it’s easy to say Steve but don’t worry.  I’m sure she’ll have her memories back soon.” Nat offered to him, hoping to ease his concerns.  She’d never seen Steve like this in all the time she’d known him.
It upset all of them to Steve so off from his normal confident self.  Steve felt off-centre and always like the room was spinning around him so he could only imagine what you were feeling.  The only blessing he could see is that you didn’t yet know that you had 4 years of missing memories, so you weren’t actually missing them.
Steve nodded at Nat and left to go to see Y/n.  Standing in the doorway, he smiled to himself as you had turned on the TV and had your favourite comfort TV series playing.  Your back was to him so he took some time to just observe you watching and speaking along with the lines of the characters. 
Chandler was your favourite character and you always told him that sometimes he reminded you of Chandler, which for Steve was a huge compliment.  You usually associated yourself more with a mix of Monica and Phoebe, you were a great cook but not entirely as neat-obsessed as Monica and a little more ‘free-flowing’ as you described Phoebe.
Feeling eyes on you, you turn and see Steve in the doorway of the room watching you.  A little embarrassed at being caught watching and saying the lines along with the characters on your favourite show you quickly turned the TV off and angled your body around so you were facing Steve.
“Hey Cap, I’m sorry to have kicked you out of your room.  I really appreciate it though.  I think I’ve got quite a bit of recovery to go and it makes sense for me to be close to Bruce and the Lab.  I hope it’s not too much of an inconvenience for you to be in my room instead.  It’s definitely smaller and not as nice as this.” You blushed a little at the admission.
“I don’t mind Y/n” Steve starts. “I just want you back to perfect health and where you’re meant to be.”  Steve admonished himself silently, he knew you’d pick up on that comment and he hoped you would just brush it aside but no luck.
“What do you mean, where I’m meant to be?” you ask him.
“Oh, nothing, just….” Steve didn’t know how to answer it without telling you everything.
“Steve, tell me what’s going on, please?” you plead with him.  “Everyone has been so great, but I keep getting the feeling there’s something I’m not being told.”
“Maybe we should talk to Tony?” Steve tried to put you off again.
“Dammit Rogers, just tell me what’s going on?” you demanded angrily.  “I’m getting scared that something is seriously wrong and nobody wants to tell me.  Am I dying?” you ask, petrified of the answer.
Steve sits down on the bed next to you, pulling you into a deep hug.  This confuses you, like the almost kiss in the hospital, as you and Cap have never had this kind of relationship before.
“It’s ok Y/n, just stay calm, you’re not dying.” Steve said.
“You promise?” you ask him.
“Promise” he replies, lifting his hand to stroke your hair.
He feels you relax into his embrace and he realises how stressed you were, and he pulls you onto his lap.  His face is closer to you than it’s ever been before.  You felt the urge to kiss him but didn’t want to cross a line, particularly if he had a girlfriend.  But knowing Cap, if he did nothing you did next would matter.
He looks from your lips into your eyes and you look back at him.  If ever this was going to happen, now is when you need it to remind yourself that you are alive and well.
“Cap..” you whisper.
“Y/n…?” he whispered back, more as a question if you’re sure about this.
You nod and he lowers his head and presses his lips to yours.  You feel like there’s something familiar about the kiss, which again confuses you.  You twist your body so you’re straddling his lap and push your hands up under his shirt.  This feels way too fast but at this point, you really can’t stop yourself.
You rock your body against him and say in a husky voice “Take me to bed Cap”
Steve looks at you amazed “Are you sure?”
“100%, Captain.”
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her-power · 1 year ago
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The End of All Things (e.m. x fem reader)
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C/W: 18++++ MDNI, I'm serious! Sweet! Eddie, smut, fluff, fingering (f receiving) oral (f+m receiving) unprotected p in v (don't be silly, wrap your willy!) making out, swearing, grief, hurt/comfort, parentloss, death, talk of death, best friends in love summary: This takes place 5 years after the events of S4. Midsummer 1991. Eddie & reader are in their mid twenties. Eddie is your best friend and has come to you after an unimaginable loss you just endured. You realize your feelings for him during this time, and sweetness and sexiness ensues. I originally was going for a subtle smutty-ness, but I got carried away, whoooops. (I suck at summaries, I'm so sorry)
A/N: This is based off of a life changing event that happened to me when I was seventeen. A lot of it has actual conversations/reactions from said event. This was insanely therapeutic for me to write, and I thank you all for reading this if you do, this goes out to all the ones who suffered a loss and are still actively healing. I see you, you are a rockstar and keep going <3 I also pay a little homage to Matthew Perry/Chandler Bing. I'm still not over it and Chandler will always be my comfort character like Eddie. This may have multiple parts, I also semi-proofread this, sorry for any mistakes! The title is a Panic! At the Disco song, it's been on repeat for awhile for me and I think it's perfect for this so definitely take a listen to it after you read this.
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“She’s gone.”
Your breath hitches as you stare at the wide amber eyes of your father from where you sat on the couch. He was clasping your hands tight as you stared at him. Your throat tightens.
“You’re lying.” A smirk tugs at your lips, this was a joke. The second those words left your lips you felt something cold creep up your spine, turning your stomach into knots.
“Honey, I’m not. She’s gone, she—” 
You stand up fast, ripping your hands out of his. Your bottom lip trembles as you feel your tears burn the corners of your eyes. 
“You’re lying!” You yell at him. “Where’s Mom?! Where is she?! You’re lying!”
Your father drops his face into his hands, his shoulders shaking with sobs. You knew he wasn’t lying; you knew it. It didn’t mean you had to believe it.
She wasn’t dead. She wasn’t dead.  Wasn’t. Dead. She’s dead.
Those words swirl in your mind as you quietly groan. Your fingers clench at the hem of your black camisole, pulling and tugging at the thin material, feeling too hot, too tight. 
“N-no…” You whimper, your vision blurring as you stare at your distraught father.
Your very core burns, it stings, and you couldn’t tell if you had a heartbeat. Is that what she felt? You wonder.  Hunching forward, the pain in your chest was building and building as you loudly gasp.
“Nooooooooo!” You wail loudly. You find yourself pumping your legs towards somewhere, anywhere. An escape.
The door.
You swallow back bile as you push your front door open with your shoulder, you awkwardly stumble down the front steps, and the cool midsummer air caresses your face as your feet hit the paved driveway. You gasp again, gripping at your chest, and then you scream.
You didn’t know you could make a sound like that. A sound that was full of pain, full of anger, full of a feeling of invisible hands squeezing your heart until it bursts in your chest. Your scream echoes through the quiet neighborhood; you inhale another shaky breath, nails clawing at your stomach as you wail again. 
A dog barks in the distance, a porch light turns on, then another. You swear you just heard someone say your name. You lift your head to the sky; the stars were so visible and beautiful that night, looking like small freckles kissing the dark sky.  Your legs tremble beneath you, they’re numb, and you feel them start to buckle-
Strong arms grab you from behind, wrapping protectively around your middle; hot breath hits the back of your neck. Cool metal from ringed fingers touches your skin, hugging your arms to your chest as you let out another heartbreaking wail.
“It’s me, it’s me, sweetheart."
Eddie.  Your best friend since you moved to this shitty town ten years ago. Your sweet, chaotic, beautiful Eddie.  Your legs finally give out and he gently cradles your back against his chest, resting his forehead against your bare shoulders, feeling the roughness of hard pavement as your bum hits the ground. Your head leans back against his shoulder, his curly hair tickling your cheek ever so softly.
“H-how…” You try to form words; they were caught in your throat; you weren’t even sure if you had a voice anymore.
You wanted to ask how he got to you so fast, and if he could hear you all the way from his trailer a mile away. You’re practically sitting in his lap; his calloused fingers gently smooth out your mess of waves in your hair. Your vision blurred with hot tears as you could feel the Earth shattering beneath you. His hands find your face, his fingers cup behind your ear as he turns your face to his gently.  Only the soft light from the front porch light illuminated his handsome features.  Eddie. Your Eddie.  His big brown eyes are wide as he stares at you, he looks terrified. He has never seen you this way before. You called him a few hours ago in the afternoon to tell him your mom had to go to the hospital for an emergency surgery, that you had to stay home to wait by the phone for updates from your father and you would promise to call him when you knew more. You were supposed to go to his place to smoke some weed and order pizza, a traditional Thursday night thing for you both. You figured he probably wondered what was taking so long, it had been hours. And for as long as you have known Eddie Munson, he didn’t have much patience; it was hard for him to sit still. Your fingers twirl the ends of his hair as you try to focus on him. 
“Tell me.” He says quietly.
You can already see tears forming in his eyes, and you suddenly realize this is the closest you’ve ever been to him. Your noses were almost touching. You squeeze your eyes shut and shake your head from side to side, spitting and blubbering out more tears as the pain tightens its grip on your heart once more.
“I can’t.” You manage to gasp out. “Don’t…Eds, don’t make me say it.”
His hand cups over his mouth as he stares at you, realization settling on his face. 
“No…” He inhales sharply. “No, Y/N…there’s no way.” 
A memory flashes in your mind just then, a memory from only a few months ago.
You sat on the counter in the kitchen with your mom and Eddie as she made dinner. She was making his favorite chicken parmesan because it had been the five-year anniversary since he was no longer a suspect of those murders that had occurred that Spring. Your parents never believed he had anything to do with it, and it was your mother standing up for him at the town meeting that really helped his case, partially because the entire town was afraid of a hard-headed strong woman who grew up in South Boston, Massachusetts and also there was no evidence at any of the scenes of his involvement, or that he was a Satan worshipper.  The other kicker was that Jason had disappeared, and everyone just assumed he did it after that. However, it didn’t stop the town from calling the cops every time they saw him walking somewhere or blasting Metallica from his speakers in his trailer. When your mom had her back turned, he attempted to stick his finger in the boiling pot of homemade meat sauce. Your mother wasn’t stupid, you swore she had eyes on the back of her head. She poked him in the side with the ladle handle, causing him to yelp.
“Come on! Just one taste! I promise I won’t ask for anymore until it’s ready. I’m STARVING.” Eddie pleaded, giving her a pathetic puppy dog look. 
“Kid, get out of my kitchen. I’m not falling for that look again, I got stuck with you for ten years!” Your mother chuckles, stirring the sauce. 
“You got stuck with a very handsome, talented, super funny son you always wanted! Did I mention handsome?” He towers over her and had sweetly rested his head on her shoulder, giving her a goofy grin.  Your mother used the palm of her hand to push his face away and laughs.
“It’s my caring daughter’s fault for LITERALLY dragging you out of the mud that summer.” 
Eddie looks at you, his smile reaching his eyes. “Yeah, your daughter is pretty awesome.”
He winks at you, and you roll your eyes, trying to hide the heat rising to your cheeks. 
“Don’t kiss my ass, Munson.” Your mom laughs. “I’m sending you home a plate for your uncle, and you better give it to him this time!"
“He politely declined!”
“No he didn’t, you ate it on the way there!” You banter back at him. He whips his head around to look at you, his face falling in mock betrayal. 
“You are not my best friend anymore!” He wraps an arm around your mom’s shoulders and kisses the top of her head. “She’s my best friend now!”
You roll your eyes and laugh, hopping off the counter and making your way back to your room, but not before hearing your mother say this to Eddie:
"Everyone is out of their damn mind for not getting to know you or love you like we do. Jokes aside, honey, I can never ever replace your own mother, but I will make damn sure that you know that you can always come to me for anything.”
“Awww, Mrs. Y/L/N. Don’t make me blush-ow!” He laughs, you’re guessing she pinched him.
“I’m serious, Munson.” 
“I know, I know.” You can hear the smile in his tone. “Thank you. Thank you for everything.” 
You stare him now; he’s trying so hard not to cry. 
“Fuck.” His voice shakes and he pulls you into his arms for a hug.“Fuck. I’m so sorry. I’m so so sorry.” 
Your fingers curl into the fabric of his Motley Crue t-shirt. Your mouth muffled by his shoulder.
“I’m sorry too.” You whimper. He hugs you tighter, and you can’t help but completely melt into his arms. 
Your father had left the house the same night. Your mom’s brother lived an hour away, who was completely beside himself over the loss of his little sister. You could see that your father was exhausted, that he was tired of making fall calls and answering the phone. You could tell he wanted to go see his brother-in-law. He was already talking about arrangements, and you pretty much forced him to go see your uncle, that the arrangements could wait and that everyone needed to clear their head because she had just died. You assured him that Eddie didn’t plan on going anywhere and that she wasn’t going to be alone, that Wayne was aware of what had happened and knew where he was.
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You sat on the floor of your living room an hour after your father had left. The rotary phone was at your hip, the receiver at your ear before you slammed it down and yanked the cord from the wall. You were over the phone calls too. The cops were called, apparently a neighbor had saw Eddie “lurking” around your house and assumed that was the cause of your screaming.  You were too pissed, too grief stricken, too exhausted to bite your tongue. You had snapped at Office Hopper, but as always, he handled your snapping as graciously as he always did.
“Who was it?” You snapped. “Mrs. Hansen, right? That bitch always had a problem with us because my mother was so outspoken. She could never say shit to her face but would say it to our other neighbors. Well, guess what Kathy! SHE’S DEAD NOW!” You scream out your front door, Eddie’s hands were on your shoulders, gently pulling you back in the doorway.
“Easy, easy.” He mutters in your ear. 
“Y/N. There’s no need to yell, I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss, but when we get a call that is concerning like that, we have—"
“Why is he still being targeted as the town freak? He has done nothing wrong, ever! We’re not in school anymore, we’re practically grown-ups. We work, we play nerdy games, and we listen to music. Come on, Hop. You know she didn’t call over concern for me. She hates me.”
Hopper sighs, taking off his hat. “You have to be respectful to your neighbors. You know this. Especially…” He lowers his voice and leans closer to you. “Especially the ones who call when a cat shits on their lawn.” 
A smile tugs at your lips, and your face softens. 
“Get some rest kid. Let us know if you need anything.” He glances at Eddie. “Take care of her, yeah?”
“Yeah.” Eddie nods. “Yeah, I know Hop. Thanks.” He says softly.
You shut the door quietly and lock it. You glance at the clock, not believing it was after midnight. You comb your fingers through your knotted hair.
“I’m going to wash up. I need to scrub this fucking night off me.” 
He nods at you, and you gently squeeze his hand as you walk by him into the bathroom. Eddie watches as you walk away, his breath hitching as soon as you close the bathroom door. He runs his hands through his hair and shudders. Eddie was usually pretty good with his words, most of the time he could never stop talking, but tonight, he had none. He had no idea how to comfort you, he had no idea what to say, or what to do. He loved your mother.  That woman took him in like her own with no questions asked and it got to a point where Wayne would offer her money, which she would always refuse. She was the only one besides Wayne to defend him after the murders and all the bullshit with Hellfire. You had told him that Hopper had to practically restrain her from punching one of the mechanics who wanted to go on a witch hunt to find you; you told him you had never seen Hopper so scared for another human being.  Eddie has tears form in his eyes and he quickly swallows them back, groaning quietly from the stinging and aching in his chest. Your mother treated him like a son, and he knows he would never feel that again and that hurt. It also hurt that Eddie had never told her how he felt about you, how for so many years he would be brave enough to pull her aside and say something but would pussy out last minute. Eddie wanted your mother’s approval. It had been like that for ten years. Yeah, he slept around, wasn’t a virgin by any means, but none of them ever stuck. All those girls, those women, he always wished it was you. He loved you; he loved you so much, but now, he wasn’t sure if he could ever tell you.
You peel off your clothes after you begin filling the bath, you stare at yourself in the mirror. You look like you aged fifteen years in a few hours. Blood shot eyes, hair a wild mess, cheeks crimson from all the screaming and tears. You sigh as you step into the bath, the water hot and you wince as you feel every muscle unclench as you slide into the porcelain, until just your head is exposed above the water. You stare up at the tile on the ceiling, marking each corner that had cobwebs that you made a mental note to clean. You close your eyes, inhaling a breath as you sink your whole face under the water. The sounds are muffled, the sound of the faucet still filling the tub vibrates around you.  You wonder what it felt like, what she felt. Did her heart stop first? Or her brain? Did she know she was going to die? You open your eyes underwater, your chest clenches again and you stop holding your breath. Your mother’s lifeless face flashes in your mind and you gasp in water, quickly lifting yourself up, knocking over the shampoo bottles. You sputter and cough out the water you had just inhaled. Tears spring to your eyes and you begin to sob and suddenly felt so, so alone.
“Eddie.”  You groan out, but your voice felt small. “Eddie!” You call again, the tears still spilling. 
You hear a shuffling of footsteps outside the bathroom door, and a soft knock. “Are you alright in there?”
You had forgotten you were naked and submerged in water as you lean forward to turn the faucet off. You felt insanely vulnerable, but you needed to clean yourself up. You just didn’t want to be alone.  You bring your knees up to your chest, resting your cheek on your knee, doing your best to cover your breasts and torso. The lower half of your body was hidden by the soap bubbles. 
“You can come in.” You tell him meekly, wiping away the hot tears.
You knew he hesitated, it took him a few moments to respond. “Are-are you sure?”
“Yes, I just need…I just need someone in here with me.” 
The latch on the door clicks open, and he slowly pushes it open with his toe. His eyes were already averted to the ceiling as he walked in, trying his best to be respectful. 
“You can look at me, Eddie. It’s okay.” Wow, you thought to yourself, you were feeling brave.
A blush rises to his cheeks, and he meets your eyes, breathing a sigh of relief when he could only see your bare shoulders, legs and back. He sits on the floor next to the bathtub, leaning his back against the wall and looks at the side of your face. 
“Talk to me.” He says sweetly, resting his chin against the lip of the porcelain.
He watches you make the washcloth swim back and forth in front of you, and he gently leans towards your hands, taking the cloth from you. He waits for you to say something, but you don’t. He takes the small bottle of body wash and squirts a glob of it on the cloth, gently massaging it into the fabric. Your heart was racing, and you hear him inhale a shaky breath. He kneels up a little, the warm washcloth hits your skin so gently as he carefully traces circles around your shoulders. You shudder, a warmness settling in your tummy. 
“What am I gonna do?” You say quietly, tears burn your eyes again and you groan, you were tired of the tears.
Eddie swallows hard, gently moving a piece of your hair back to wash your neck. This felt foreign to you, this semi-erotic moment of him touching you like this, so sweetly, so gently. Your Eddie.
“I don’t know.” He says to you. “I wish I did, but I don’t.” 
You lift your head to look at him, seeing a blush creeping up as the hills of your breasts are exposed. You watch him as he concentrates on your back, gently moving the cloth up your neck, your eyes flutter close. He dips the washcloth in the water and squeezes out the excess, pausing before moving his way towards your lower back.
“You know whatever you need, I’m here. Okay?” He tells you and you nod. He gently wipes away an exposed tear from your cheek. “You’re kind of stuck with me at this point.” 
Your face scrunches up in mock annoyance and he laughs, you chuckle. “Yeah, I know. Thank you.” 
He's looking into your eyes now and your eyes dart to his lips, before looking back into his eyes. He quickly glances away to finish washing your back and you turn your body towards him so suddenly, water splashes up and he drops the washcloth. You don’t know where this feeling came from, how you just wanted to continue to be touched by him, be loved by him. Was it the grief? You weren’t sure, but you sure as hell wanted to feel something else besides the fucking horrendous pain. Your hands are on his shoulders, the wetness from you dampened the ends of his hair as he stared at you with wide eyes. 
“What are you doing?” He whispers, his hands reaching up to cup your wrists.
You could tell he didn’t want to overstep, and he kept his eyes just on you, your eyes. He was a gentleman in all the right ways; but he desperately wanted to look at your body. You were fully exposed to him besides your lower half, and he had dreamt of a moment like this. Your hands touch his cheeks, your nose barely grazes his.
“Kiss me, please?” You say quietly, and his breath hitches.
His hand cups the back of your wet hair, pulling you towards him slightly as your breathing picks up. You could feel him tremble as you lean closer, your breasts pressing against the coolness from the porcelain, your nipples hardening at the contact. You push your mouth onto his, his plush lips as soft as you imagined they would be. He uses his other hand to cup your neck, you opened his mouth with yours, feeling his tongue enter your mouth so carefully. You were kissing your best friend. You were kissing your best friend. You were kissing Eddie. Your Eddie.
You wrap both arms around his shoulders, and his hands wraps around your middle. He was getting comfortable, years and years of his love for you was spilling out in this exact moment. You feel him lift you so easily out of the tub, awkwardly stumbling into the wall. Not realizing how strong he was, he grabs your ass, hoisting you up to wrap your legs around his waist. You could feel his clothes soaking from the contact of your wet skin and could feel the wetness that pooled between your legs as he kept kissing you, blindly searching for the handle of the door. The cool air from the living room air conditioner hits your bare skin, causing gooseflesh to prickle all over you. You push your body against his more, deepening the kiss and he groans, bumping into everything you both contacted. Pictures became crooked on the walls, you heard something tip over from a few of the shelves, and you finally make it to your bedroom door. Your back hits it a little roughly, and he pulls away from you to catch his breath before pressing his mouth to yours again and he finds the doorknob with one hand as the other continues to hold you up. You both fall to your bed with an oomph, you start laughing hard because your head had clunked against the headboard, and he looks at you with wide eyes.
“Shit.” He breathes out, pulling away from your lips and laughs. “I’m sorry, are you okay?” 
You smile at him and nod, your lips pulsating from the kissing. He smiles down at you, rubbing your cheek, your hair, his hand gently smooths its way down your bare arms, towards your hips. He’s still looking at you, wanting to make sure it was okay for him to really see you before going further. You rub his cheek, and he leans into it, gently kissing your palm as he hovers above you. He was still trembling, and you take his hand, placing it on your skin below your breast. His calloused fingers squeeze the spot gently, his fingers barely grazing the underside of it as you watch his throat bob. He leans towards you and kisses your lips gently, leaning back on his heels as his eyes dart over your body. You bend your knees ever so slightly; he places his hands on your knees and kneels between your legs. He lets out a sigh and smiles sweetly at you and pulls off his shirt. His fingers trace a soft line over your ribs, he makes circles over your navel, the soft skin at your hips. 
“You’re so beautiful.” He whispers to you, he chuckles awkwardly. “I mean, you’ve always been beautiful to me, not that just your body is beautiful. Your face is beautiful too, and your heart. All of you, everything—”
“Eddie, take a deep breath.” You smile, moving your palm up his torso and cupping his cheek.
He laughs, inhaling deeply, and places both hands on the side of your head as he leans down, your legs wrap around his jeans, feeling his eager bulge through the zipper. He kisses you softly, pulling away to look into your eyes. You could see tears form at the corners of eyes and you hold his face in your hand.
“What? What is it?”
He sighs, leaning up on his elbow. “For so many years, I wanted to tell your mom something that had been eating at me.” He groans, a single tear falls down his cheek and you wipe it away. “I wanted to tell her how insanely in love with you I was…I am.”
Your eyes widen at his confession, your heart does a back flip, and you feel your own tears prickle your eyes. 
“I know it doesn’t mean much now, because she’s gone…fuck.” More tears spill from his eyes, you wipe them away, he holds your hand to his cheek. “I loved her. I loved her so much and she became a mother to me at a time when I really needed her, and she always told me I could tell her anything. I should’ve told her how I felt about you sooner, and I’m sorry I didn’t.”
Your heart broke for him. You knew how much he really did love your mom. Their relationship was for sure that of a mother and son. He had called her one night from the Hideout in the middle of the night because he got into a fight with a stupid townie and she’d bring him back to your house, cleaning up his wounds and comforting him. One night he had fallen asleep on your couch from a night of too much drinking, and she tucked him in, placing a large cooking pot next to him in case he had to puke. She would do so many motherly things for him that he wasn’t used to, and once he was finally comfortable enough to accept those gestures, he felt like a little boy again.  You bite your bottom lip to stop it from trembling and you give him a smile.
“I think she knew.” You curl your fingers through his hair.
“How?” He asks you.
“I never really thought much about it at the time, but she would throw subtle ‘son in law’ jokes at me and I would just ignore her. Because you were my best friend, there was no way you’d feel any other way than that. Or so I thought.” 
You trace an outline on his lips with your finger. “You love me?”
He nods, not bothering to wipe another stray tear away. “More than you know.” 
“I love you, too.” You tell him softly and he smiles.
“Yeah? You sure?”
You roll your eyes, tugging a piece of his hair and he yelps. “Don’t make me take it back.”
He laughs, caressing your face with the back of his hand, smoothing out your wet hair. He leans down, kissing you softly. You wrap your arms around his shoulders, pulling him onto you, he lets out a hot breath as you push your tongue in his mouth. His hands travel down the dip in your shoulder, down the middle of your chest and stops on the curve of your breast. You feel the coolness of his metal ring against your skin, your nipple hardens, and you gasp in his mouth when you feel his fingers gently pinch the hardened bud. His mouth finds your throat, leaving kissing trails down to your shoulders, still pinching and squeezing your breasts as you squirm beneath him. His mouth takes your nipple in his mouth, and you hear him softly moan as he gently bites down. His tongue swirls around the bud and sucks, and you arch your back. His hand travels down your navel and over your sex. You whimper when you feel his fingers spread your lips apart and he runs a finger over your clit. He pulls away from your breast and kisses you hungrily, his fingers tracing circles around your clit, pushing down and he smirks against your lips when you let out a loud moan. No one has ever taken their time with you; you have only had sex with two men in your life and it was always you finishing them off first and them being “too tired” to return the favor. Eddie knew what he was doing, you knew this wasn’t his first rodeo, and you desperately wanted to know what else he could do. He pulls away from your lips, licking and kissing a trail all the way down to your navel. He leans back on his heels, and your eyes widen at the outline of his hardened cock beneath his jeans. He places his fingers in his mouth, sucking off the taste of you and you squirm at how sexy he looked. You bend your knees and open your legs wider. 
“Damn.” He mutters, scooting back to lay in front of your dripping cunt. He wraps his arms around your thighs and pulls you closer to his face. “You really are beautiful.”
He kisses your clit gently, you arch your back, gripping at the sheets beneath you. His tongue swirls around the sensitive nerves, and he sucks on it, letting out a loud groan. It vibrated your entire body, and you moan. His fingers press into the meat of your thighs as he buries his face closer, his tongue lapping at your hole as you could already feel yourself about to burst. You grip his hair, tugging on it hard, which sends him into a frenzy, and you feel two fingers slide their way into you. 
“Eddie…”  
You moan his name, and he begins to pump those fingers into you, pressing against the sponginess of your g-spot. He continues to devour your clit and you lean up on your elbows to watch him. You couldn’t believe this was happening, you couldn’t believe that your best friend of ten years was doing these things to you.  Your Eddie.  He pulls away from your clit, feeling you clench around his fingers, and he slinks his way back up your body, his chin wet and dripping of you. He kisses you passionately, you moan at the taste of yourself, and he continues pumping his fingers in and out. His thumb finds your clit and rubs circles, you hold onto his shoulders as he kisses you, feeling yourself close to release. He pulls away from your lips for a moment.
“Come on, baby. I know you can cum for me.” His voice was lower, almost deeper.
Those words almost sent you over the edge, words you never in a million years thought would come out of his mouth. He pumps harder and groans as your hand finds his cock through his jeans and you rub your hand over the material. You dig your nails into his shoulders, and he lets out a hot breath against your neck, whimpering at the sheer intensity and passion.
“Fuck, Eddie…”  
You moan out in pleasure and he groans against your neck. You feel the pressure building and building in your lower belly and you cling onto him as your orgasm rips through you and you cry out. He keeps his fingers inside of you, riding the orgasm out with you, the overstimulation was insanely uncomfy but as he kept pumping into you, you eased into another hard orgasm and your body shook beneath him. He slides his fingers out of you, you catch your breath as you continue to cling onto him. His hands grip your hip, and he looks at you, a smile creeping on his lips. You sigh, crashing your lips against his, unbuttoning his jeans hurriedly and sliding them off. His lips graze against your ear lobe and you roll him onto his back with your legs and he giggles. You laugh, kissing his lips, his neck and you lean up on your heels. His hands hold onto your hips.  The length of him was almost intimidating, you bite your bottom lip and take him in your hands, gently moving your fist up and down. He lets out a deep groan and his eyes squeeze shut, arching his back. You rub his precum over his tip and he shivers, you move your head towards his cock and glance up at him. He looks at you with half lidded eyes and you lick a long strip from the base all the way to the tip, taking him into your mouth. 
“Oh…oh my, unghhh—”  
A loud, throaty moan escapes him, surprising you both and you both laugh. He covers his face with both his hands shyly, slightly embarrassed by the sound he just made. You kiss his tip, licking down his shaft and he whimpers. He grips the back of your head as you bob up and down, taking him all in, rubbing his balls to get him to squirm. He let out a low growl, a sound so animalistic and sexy you couldn’t believe you were the cause.  He wanted to feel you, he wanted to be inside you and couldn’t wait any longer. He pulls at your hair, lifting your head up, your lips were swollen and wet with spit. 
“Come here.” He says breathlessly. “Now.”
You crawl up to him, his lips catch yours in a passionate kiss. You were trembling now as you lined yourself up with his length. He cups the back of your head, sweetly pecking your lips as his other hand grips at your hips. You keep your face close to his, your lips barely touching as you lower yourself onto his cock. He squeezes your hips, throwing his head back into the pillow and lets out a throaty groan. You whimper as you take him all in, slowly rocking your hips to get used to the size of him as he stretches you out.
“Are you okay?” He whispers to you, lifting his arm up to cup your cheek. 
You nod, pleasure was building in your belly as you grind against him, your clit rubs generously on his pelvis. You look into his eyes, running your hand up his chest, over his tattoos, tracing his lips with your fingers. You insert two fingers into his mouth, which he takes willingly and sucks. You move your hips up and then down, hard. His moan vibrates on your fingers as you rock faster against him; you remove your fingers and begin playing with yourself with that same hand as he watches you in awe. He arches his hips into you, and you cry out, your head falling back, he caresses and pinches your nipples.  You lean forward, using the headboard as support to continue your movement. His tongue traces circles around your nipple, sucking hard and squeezing both with his hands. He moves onto the next one, you moan louder into his ear, and he grabs your ass, burying his cock deeper into you. 
In one swift motion, he flips you on your back. His eyes stare into your soul, and you kiss him. He kisses you back with the same hungriness from earlier, taking your leg and moving it onto his shoulder as he thrusts into you.  An insanely pornographic sound escapes your lungs, and he smiles against your lips. He leans up slightly to stare at your face, you were biting your bottom lip, and your eyes burn into him, and he could feel his heart growing bigger and bigger for you in that moment. You grab his perfect ass with your legs to push him further into you and he arches back; your lips go to his throat, gently nibbling on it and licking all over. Your orgasm was building in your belly, and by the way he was slowing down and getting a little clumsy, he was close too. 
You pull his face towards you by the back of his head. “Fuck me.” You tell him through gritted teeth.
His beautiful brown eyes dilate, and you see the pure lust take over in his stare. He leans back on his heels, pulling himself out of you and you frown, he pulls you towards him hard by your thighs, his fingers for sure going to leave lovely bruises. But you didn’t care.  Before you could make another comment, he slams his cock into you, and you scream out. He holds onto your hips, rolling his against yours at a hard pace, you swear you could see all the fucking colors of the rainbow. 
“Fuuuuck…”  He moans out. “Oh fuck-I’m gonna—”
“Don’t stop, Eddie.”  You whimper, his cock slamming into your g-spot over and over was making you forget your name. 
You move your hands down and find your clit, rubbing vigorously against it as your cunt clenches against his cock. He watches you rub yourself, a smile toys on his lips as he stares in wonder at you, he felt as if he was fucking a goddess.
“Oh god…”
“Cum with me, baby. I want to feel you.”  
He groans loud, and that was enough to send you screaming, and crying out his name as you came all over his cock. You grip the sheets under you, still cumming hard and he slams faster into you, the bed squeaks and the headboard bangs into the wall and he sputters. 
“Oh…my…unnngh.”  
He slams into you once more, you could feel the warmness settle in your cunt as he came inside you, feeling his cock twitching as he slowed his pace and cried out, collapsing onto your chest. He rolls his hips against you and shudders. The two of you lay there in a pile of limbs, heavy breathing, and sweat. He lifts his head up to look at you, smoothing out your still wet hair, and presses his lips to yours. Your tongue goes into his mouth, and he moans softly, cupping the back of your head, deepening the kiss. He slides out of you gently, and pulls away from you, laying on his back. His hand rested on your thigh, and you could feel him dripping from you; you needed a minute. Or several. 
“Well,” he says breathlessly. “I’ve never done that with you before.” 
You weakly slap his chest and laugh loudly; tears prickle your eyes as you feel another laugh roll out until you’re full-blown cackling. He looks at you with a raised eyebrow and you laugh harder. He shakes his head, laughing with you, turning onto his side to rub your tummy gently. Your laugh was one of the things he loved about you because it was so contagious, and that this was the first time today he could see pure happiness on your face. 
“I’m sorry.” You manage to say, your laugh still rolling out of you. “I don’t know why I’m laughing so hard. Oh wait, I do, you’re a fucking idiot and I love you.” 
He laughs, kissing your cheek. “No going back now.”
“No.” You say, catching your breath, bringing your palm up to his cheek. “Never.” 
He kisses your lips, your cheeks, your neck and leans up on his elbows. “My clothes are soaked.”
“I’ll put them in the wash.” You kiss his nose, slowly sitting up in bed, you could already feel the soreness between your legs. “I’m pretty sure my mom folded a bunch of your clothes you left here the other day.” You pause and turn to look at him. 
“Of course she did.” He says with a sweet smile, tracing your spine with the tip of his finger. “Do you want me to go get them?”
You knew he only asked because the washer and dryer were in her little den with her vanity mirror. 
“Uh, no. It’s okay.” You give him a smile. You go into your dresser, pulling out underwear and your oversized Queen tour t-shirt you got in 1987. Your mom had bought the tickets for you and Eddie; Eddie was indeed a total metal head, but he had a soft spot for Queen, probably because you loved them so much. You throw on the clothes and turn when you feel his eyes on you.
“What?” You ask, a blush creeping up on your cheeks as you stare at his naked body.
His right arm, which was covered in a full tattoo sleeve, was bent behind his head as he looks at you. 
“Nothing.” He smiles sweetly. “I’m just trying to wrap my head around this. Around us.”
You lean over to him to kiss him, he holds your head,, leaving lots of pecks around your cheeks and lips, causing you to giggle. You pull away, turning around to grab his mess of clothes on the floor, throwing his dry boxers to him. He takes this opportunity to smack your ass and you yelp. You narrow your eyes at him, and pull out his chain wallet, snapping it open, pulling out some cash, you could only make out a few ten-and one-dollar bills. 
“I’m taking this.” You tell him, shoving the bills into your underwear. 
“Pretty cheap date, don’t ya think?” He laughs, pulling his boxers over his hips as your face falls into mock shock, you pull out the cash and throw it at his face, causing him to laugh harder.
You shake your head, leaving the room, heading towards your mother’s den. You slow your walking down as you meet the closed door. The grief starts to creep up again, your hand trembles as you reach for the doorknob. You twist the knob and push it open. An aroma of peach, rose and slight Sandalwood hit your nostrils and you have to hold onto the wall for support, blindly finding the light switch. The light is bright, and you squint, your eyes already filling with tears as the scent of your mother was everywhere in this room. Her vanity sat perched against the wall, the wood was a soft amber color. She had rebuilt this vanity after getting it from a garage sale a few years ago. You gently run your hand over the fabric of her sweater that hung behind the chair she always sat at; whether to do her make up, or randomly sketch some drawings in her sketch book. You pull your hand away as if burned, and you quickly go to the washing machine, tossing Eddie’s clothes in as well as some dirty ones that were in the basket.  You see his folded clothes on top of the dryer, your heart hurt with how right you were and how she would never fold his clothes again.  You groan, looking over the clothes, sniffling. You take out his Metallica tour t-shirt, and his black jeans. You exit her room after shutting off the light and quietly shut the door.  Eddie was strumming at your acoustic as you walk back in, smiling at you at you hand him the clothes. He sees the tears in your eyes and immediately puts the guitar back on the stand.
He takes your hand, “What happened?”
You shake your head, trying to smile. “Nothing…it’s nothing. I’m okay. Can we go to bed?” 
He looks you over once with concern and nods, gently kissing the top of your hand. You crawl into bed, leaning over him to turn off the light on your nightstand. You curl up next to him, burying your face in his chest. He wraps his arms around you, pulling the blanket over the both of you. You feel his lips kiss your hair and you sigh. All the sadness, all the grief had fallen away as he held you and you wished you could stay like that forever.
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As if the universe was working against you, you woke up screaming. You were covered in sweat and tears pooled from your eyes as a panic attack settled deep in your chest. You sat up, leaning against the headboard, bringing your knees up to your chest as you scream out a sob. Eddie had woken up immediately, feeling you thrash around before you woke up. Dawn was approaching, and he flicks the light on. He kneels in front of you, placing both of his hands on the side of your head.
“Hey, hey, look at me, I’m right here.”
The dream you had replays over and over in your head like a broken record. You let out a painful groan, holding onto your stomach as you to try to speak and to calm your breathing before you hyperventilated. 
“She…she was right there. Right in front me.” You tell him, your voice choking with sobs. “Right there! She was so close to me and I tried to reach for her hand but she kept moving away from me, and I ran to her. I ran so fast, but she just kept going further and further away until I couldn’t see her. And then she was gone. She was gone.”
You cry, hard, and he takes you in his arms, hugging you as you wept. You wail and he tightens his hold on you, gently rocking you as you gripped onto his arms.
“I’m not ready for this.” 
“I know.” His voice trembles, smoothing out your hair. “You don’t have to be ready for something like this.”
“Why did she leave me?” You whimper, your entire body shakes.
“Why was she taken away from us!? Oh god…” 
He kisses your head, your cheek, finds your lips and kisses them softly. 
“Please don’t leave me.” You choke out. “Please.”
“I’m not going anywhere, baby. I promise you.”
“Don’t leave me.” You cry, holding onto him for dear life. He rocks you and you cry. You weren’t ready for the coming days, you weren’t ready to keep feeling this sorrow phone call after phone call, hug after hug, tear after tear. You weren’t ready for today. You weren’t ready for tomorrow. You weren’t ready. You weren't ready.
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stephstars08 · 4 months ago
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My Top Comfort Character Pt. 2 (Live Action)
Pt. 1
(Not in Particular Order!)
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hacash · 1 year ago
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Something I found really touching when reading comments about Matthew Perry's death is the number of people who say 'when I was at my lowest point in a depressive period Friends was the only thing that could get me out of bed' or 'Chandler was always the character that could make me laugh even in my darkest moments'. And I think it's such a reminder of how stories can be more than 'just' fiction. They can be anchors or lifehouses or windows or mirrors. Friends wasn't even written to be a deep and groundbreaking show: it was a funny show about friends who became family with an immense amount of heart at its core. (I personally believe that's why its has survived as a beloved show even with outdated humour and dodgy storylines.) And so many people have needed that over the years. And they've taken such strength and comfort from 'just' a character on 'just' a TV show that it bears recognition.
Matthew Perry was very honest about wanting to be remembered for the things he did in 'real life' and I completely honour that; reading about how open he was with his addictions and how he used that to help other people is awe-inspiring. But I think we'd be remiss if we didn't also acknowledge that he also made a real difference in a lot of people's lives through his portrayal of Chandler Bing. He made a lot of people laugh and touched a lot of hearts through his acting; there are a lot of people out there whose lives would be a little darker without that character, and even some whose lives would be a lot darker. And that is not something not to be sniffed at.
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king-wilhelm · 1 year ago
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Chandler bing was the first of many for me. The first of many characters that make up a chunk of my personality. The first of many characters that would become my favorite but none quite as beloved. Chandler made me want to be funny, showed me that humor and silliness would endear me to people. That jokes and sarcasm would make up for the awkwardness and insecurity and self doubt. Chandler bing has been a friend and a source of comfort for nearly 20 years in my life, hundreds of episodes replayed hundreds of times. The first character I was ever emotionally attached to.
Matthew Perry has singlehandedly made me laugh more than anyone else in my life, real or fictional and for that, I'll always be grateful. Celebrity deaths are not something I ever thought would affect me personally, but I guess there's a first time for everything huh
Rip Matthew. Rest easy
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finallyideletedeverything · 10 days ago
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The One With The Christmas Party
‣Pairing : Quinn Hughes & Female reader
‣Summary : You and quinn have been in a relationship for a year now and you love everything about him and everybody close to him except his brother,Jack.And jack also feels the same way about you.(or does he)
‣Warning : None just drama ,fluff and if you're reading , you'll curse two times.
‣Note : wowwww,this is my first time writing a story and I think I did a good job.and anyways just enjoy the story and don't look into the details.and i know , I know it's not Christmas yet but I feel like we need this and also if you feel jack character is kinda mean pls don't be mad it's just for the plot purpose.Enjoy!!!
Story Begin
It's the holiday season.Everybody is in holiday mood and everybody is nice to each other, it's the best.
You and Quinn are dating for a year now . Everything is great 'hope nothing changes' is the mood .
So here you both were in Quinn's apartment watching re-runs Of Friends (Christmas episode to be accurate) in the hall sitting comfortably on the sofa .
You have actually never celebrated Christmas before and when quinn asked you to join him with this year's Christmas at their home you were excited .
As you watched the episode ,You suddenly said "Maybe I should take over Christmas this year"looking at him excitedly
"What's that now" he replied pausing the show .
"I mean think about it , I'll throw a really good Christmas party then , your parents will be so impressed by me."
"Babe, I have said this already my parents like you enough already.we don't have to do this" he said resuming again the episode
"Quinnnn , you wined please pulling his shoulder please come on ,this will be our first Christmas together as a couple"
You pleaded
"Okay fine ,let's do it "he said defeated.
"Yeahhh!! Thank you quinn " You hug him tightly and give a peck on his cheek,you stand on your feet and continue
"Ok , now I'm gonna call your mom and tell the news "
You grabbed your phone from the table and Checked the schedule of other brothers in the family group first.
"Oh , call your brothers and tell them to meet us here tomorrow i checked their schedules they are free "you told him turning around.
"Why my brothers" quinn questioned taking his phone out of his pockets.
"Well,mostly because I don't want them to do something they don't want .Now , just call them please "
"So,this is how it's gonna be ha, you bossing me around"
he questioned pulling you to the sofa
You pinched his cheeks and replied "pretty much,yeah!" nodding your head.
Okay!! quinn replied cutely.
(Guys imagine him saying okay in Chandler's tone)
Next Day
You were folding the laundry and quinn was doing the dishes after the breakfast.
"You know I was surprised when you told me to invite jack "
Quinn spoke
"Hmm,I asked you to invite both of your brothers" you corrected him.
Okay, a little back up .So you wouldn't say you hate jack.
No ,nope hate is a really strong word.
You just didn't like him .Yeah .why if I ask .
Oh I don't know Maybe becuz he always has a smug face which screams I'm definitely better then you or maybe becuz when quinn first introduced you to jack , he laughed and said welcome to the family.and later excused himself and called someone and said " yeah dude I'll give a them a year or two , they'll not last together."
Yup,that's why you don't like him.
Now back to conversation .
"You know what I don't get " he spoke as he dryed his hand after finishing the dishes.
"You both are the same age , so I definitely thought you both would be like bestfriends ,talking about the things that I'm 2 years older to know about."he finished has he sat on sofa.
You just shrugged .
Right after that ,the door bell rang .
"They are here "quinn said excitedly as he went to unlock the front door.
Jack and Luke came inside hugging their brother .
You and Luke just shared glance's then
You smiled and opened your arms and hugged Luke
"It's so good to see you ,Luke" you said .Luke tighted the hug "it's good to see you too y/n."
You both smiled .
"Get a room" jack shouted as he sat next to quinn on sofa.
"Jerk" you said under your breath and directed Luke to sit next to his brothers.
"Okay here's the deal boys .This year I'm incharge of the family Christmas party and I want it to be great!!.So, i want you boys to tell me what things you want in the party like what food , what snacks ,what kinda ugly sweater we'll wear during Christmas."
They all groaned in union.
"Oh come on , guys think about the best Christmas you ever had , you can have it once again "you said trying to sound spooky.
"You know, I do like that idea " jack spoke
"so you really gonna give us the best Christmas we had" he continued
"Yup" you said excitedly
"You know , the best Christmas for me was 2 years back when quinn brought his first real girlfriend. Boy , that was a great Christmas"
You just rolled your eyes.
"Ookey , what was so great about it "you questioned
"Everything "
"Everything, What!" you questioned already irritated
"Just the decorations , the food , the atmosphere was good
We even took a family photo and-"
"I-I think that's enough, I get the picture " you stopped him.
"Ohh you should actually see the picture, quinn and karen looked so cute."
Both the other brothers looked at eachother
"Jack,I think that's enough" Quinn said .He didn't want this to extend more.
"What , I have actually never seen you more happy , wait I have that picture" jack said as he grabbed his phone out of his pocket.
"That's it, you screamed .
"I had enough,I get it you don't like me but atleast have the decency to be staddle about it.And why are you remesing about Quinn's old gf ,you have a ton right.New girl every month , how's that like ." You ranted non- stop.
"That's none of your business" jack said angrily
"I thought we were family,Jack.So it is my business"you replied in a speed of light and you weren't even done.
"So which one will you bring with you this time .oh no,Does the poor girl even know that the relationship will be over before it starts ." You said sarcastically ,still not done
"I mean why do you have the need to do that , aren't you the favourite child" ,you said air quoting the obvious.
"Your so funny and to be honest I don't know why you are working this hard to impress my parents .They don't like you anyways."Jack said.
The room went silent.
Quinn thought they were bricking in a friendly way but this was too far.
"Fuck you " you said to jack,eyes filling up with tears ,you ran to Quinn's room. Running into the bathroom and locking the door .
Quinn was quick to catch up .
"Babe, please don't believe what that jackass tells you"
"Quinn , i just need 5 mins please." You said wiping your tears
"Okay, I'll be here whenever you're ready "
He left the room and went straight to jack
"That was not cool man , how can you say that "quinn asked in a disappointing tone .
"And what about all the things she said about me , you don't seen to mind those things" before quinn could open his mouth jack continued
"It's always about her ."
"She will apologize to you but you have to apologize to her first , you hurt her feelings."
"Fine "Jack get's up from sofa and walks towards bedroom
You were sitting on the bed ,hands on your head
Jack knocks the door and you look up
"I'm sorry y/n , i didn't really mean anything I said "
"Fine whatever " you said
"That's it" jack questioned " you have nothing else to say to me "
"I don't know what you want for me jack and like it or not quinn and I are gonna be together for a long long time"
You replied not knowing why you said that.
You again put your hands on your head.
"I wanted you to hear that phone call" jack blurted
"What" you looked up to him.
"I got jealous , it's was the first time And and I saw how you and Quinn got close .Then, I realised that I shouldn't feel that way towards you . And also you being nice to me , could be worse on me.That's why i bricked."
"Wow,I- I really don't know what to say to that "
You confessed
"You don't have to say anything please , I didn't mean to make it weird and now that I think about it , it's kinda childish" jack confessed
"Kinda" you agreed.
You both looked at each other and laughed.
"Oh, I'll be bring Janet to the party " jack said putting his hands in the pockets.
"wait hold up , aren't you with Amy now"
"I know" jack said grinninly
"Dudeeee, come on" you said disgusted .
"Please , one promblem at a time" jack said smiling
You smiled back
"Wanna hug it out "jack questioned
"Or how about shake our hands on it" you said extending your hand
"Fair enough" he said shaking your arm excitedly
"Oh, Get a room you guys" quinn said coming into room
Jack and you both in union said " ew,Quinn "
"Read the room dude " jack said moving away
Quinn laughs it out.
"So everything settled "Quinn questioned looking both of you side by side .
"I guess "you both said in union
"Okay , that's really good and also While you both girls were figuring out things , Luke and i came up with a list of all the things we want ."
"Wait , are you serious?" You looked at Q feeling a bit betrayed.
"I mean , I knew you both will make up .
Call it an old man intuition" Quinn said.
"Just two years older then us" jack said under his breath.
"So now ,can I say what I want for the party" Quinn asked excited
"Sure , go on "you said.
"Okay so we want 2 bottles of three different soda, ketchup chips,coffee Crip, crunch N munch,lays all of them a 10 packs"
You're eyes widened
"What are you like ,12'
"No,but that was the time I had the best Christmas.so you promised to make it happen ."
Before , you could say this is childish
"Okay thanks love you" he said running out of the room
"Well,that was fun for me"you said.
"You asked for this ,buddy "jack said about to leave the room before turning around and saying " I'm really looking forward for the party" he said happily .
Wow , it felt very sincere
"You won't be disappointed " you said smiling
"I know,Cause you'll be there" saying that he left the room.
What the fuck was that , you thought to yourself.
a/n :- whatttt(in Stewie's voice)
I know I used the writer's privilege.and also sorry about the lack of luke appearance.I could hardly handle two(that's what she said).wow if you have come this far and read it.
Thank You so much 🙏
Byeeeee~~~
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