#certified autism gang

[captainuranium543]

I know im right idc I love dungeon meshi so hard but everytime I see him all I can see is her

[verdemoun]

I wonder, how's Kieran doing, from the side of his neurodivergency? Was it diagnosed? Does he get support? An AAC perhaps, seeing as the poor guy's semi-verbal? How'd the rest of the gang accept it? I'M JUST SO CURIOUS ABOUT HIM I AM HOLDING HIM I AM SHAKING HIM LIKE A TOY HOW IS HE HANDLING HIS NEURODIVERGENCY

I am so normal about Kieran

You come into my house, the certified kieran duffy hyperfixation page, ask about my blorbo, my boy, the sole reason why RDR2 has infected my brain and completely changed my ability to engage with any other form of media, while also addressing my special interest of neurodivergence as a fellow brain wonk and career disability support worker all while finishing with the line 'I am so normal about Kieran'? Like shit I mean can I take you out for dinner?? Marry me maybe??

I am also so normal about Kieran

kieran duffy is autistic thank you goodnight!

no i will write a 2k word essay. kieran is pretty mid-spectrum (brief pause to acknowledge spectrum language lowkey outdated and problematic but no universally accepted alternative) he has chronic anxiety and mild aversion to eye contact, misses a lot of social cues, is hyper fixation central, but executive function-wise if he had spent his whole life in any one time period he would have been a-okay at being independent with some adaptive strategies

side tangent literally the first conversation he has with mary beth is so autistic he completely misses a rhetorical question, happily answers it, and then jumps straight into 'you're very pretty'. he apologizes for being forward he can and does acknowledge social conventions but just autistic brain does not understand why. is aware his brain is not wonking in the same direction as other people's brains.

but so. many. common sensory issues are a direct result of advances in technology. sure in 1899 wanting to cover your ears during a gunfight is a minor disadvantage but you know what isn't?? having every instinct in your body tell you to run away from the overwhelming loud noises. it took more effort to go into a city than to avoid them. going from horses, campfires and comfortably worn in clothing to the constant noise of cars, searing of artificial lights and synthetic fabric with clothes tags? bad time. Bad Time.

the real big issue for kieran in timewarp au is the c-ptsd autism combo meal. in general, buddy's got trauma. very clearly articulates how bad being an o'driscoll was physically and mentally. his intro is literally colm grabbing his collar and slapping him. gets starved and threatened with genital mutilation and still begs to stay with the VDLs because he hates colm. talks about the absolute power and control colm has. anxious whimpers telling arthur he saw o'driscolls riding around. it ain't just hate he is terrified of colm. you ever have a hypothetical anxiety situation become real and feel that knot of dread as your skin turns cold? knowing your literal worst nightmare was unfolding. and in this case, worse than he imagined. yeah. that's what it would've been like when kieran got taken at shady belle. immediately knowing he wasn't going to survive. only thing he could do is make sure he protected the VDLs and he instead he talked. it's canon kieran talked, whether tortured or manipulated into talking he did. first people to treat him decent, people he considered friends, and he died feeling like he betrayed them.

timewarp means dying. memories of dying. personally hc eye gauging was first but even - being beheaded. intentional deliberate time taken to make a show of it and inflict maximum psychological torment knowing what's going to happen opposed to the immediate bang and bullet of being shot. already autistic chronic anxiety man helpless to stop what's about to happen. i wonder if he thought the VDLs would care enough to try to rescue him and tried to hold onto that faint belief or if he immediately knew he meant so little they wouldn't? he died as he lived - alone.

only to immediately be thrown into modern era. fending for himself for approx a month before the gang stumble across him. with those memories being recent. with the overstimulation of suddenly being thrown into modern era saint denis. he is a homeless autistic man with no idea where he is what's happening what is a car why are they so loud why are street lights so bright and he just went through literally dying. having all his anxieties and the memories of the pain of whatever he went through with the o'driscolls. and the guilt? he is so terrified of the consequences of talking and betraying the gang that he literally runs from lenny and hosea when they first find him in timewarp. a month of starving, surviving on loose change and corner store coffee and occasional apple he may have picked out of a bin and still chooses to run because he's so completely traumatized by being taken/betraying the gang.

it's a lot more ptsd and that anxiety around 'i talked' that lead to semi-verbalism with autism reinforcing it opposed to the other way around. it only takes a few days of gentle encouragement + food + safe warm place to sleep (first time since long before even riding with the o'driscolls) for kieran to get comfortable with nods or the occasional one word response and most of the gang are happy to leave it there because they get he's been through a Lot. lenny and hosea saw what happened to him. hosea carried his decapitated head to his grave. they're all struggling and learning to adapt to modern era. kieran locking himself in a room for a week, flinching at any noise or touch like he's been scalded just seems reasonable after what he's gone through.

except despite being stray dog starved he's still picking at meals obviously only eating the meat and veggies which he has always done so they don't really think to mention it. and he doesn't really start settling in. he just. sits in room. might tremble into the kitchen like a wee lamb at 2am when he thinks everyone's asleep, grab an apple and vanish back to his room. gang increasingly confused because kieran is completely avoiding eye contact but clearly listening, answering questions as he stares in horror at the dishwasher no matter how many times they've explained it and let him like try to figure it out realise it isn't some sort of torture device. but maybe he was always like that how many actually talked to him??

resident tech lad lenny tries showing him a basic AAC app but having to remember to 1. charge phone 2. use phone 3. open app 4. scroll until finding image that probably means what he wants because he can't read 5. click button until gang charades out whole sentence is a lot of steps compared to just fidgeting/staring until someone asks the right question. it gets frustrating because he knows the complete sentence is 'hi sean what's the deal with you always bringing home pizzas also is there any way you could please bring home the one that's plain cheese again??' but he can't read so it's just guessing based on images 'sean why pizza? please pizza cheese' when he uses the AAC. instead he can eat his cheesy pizza, make a point of getting sean's attention, point at pizza, nod and get the point of 'i really like cheesy pizza please can you get more' across all while still chewing.

bessie, who is a history professor and absolutely talks to autistic people on a daily basis is embarrassed how long it takes her to realize hey wait kieran is a) only leaving his room at times where sensory load is reduced b) stimming to soothe when confronted with something new or higher anxiety than usual and c) only has multiple syllable conversations about horses and fishing. he went from terrified rabbit to genuinely excited to be talking about those things only to shut down immediately again when the conversation shifted or something happened that spooked him. she introduces him to noise cancelling headphones, slowly, gently explaining what they are, giving him multiple options to say no because still a new weird sensation but the relief is instant. kieran looked around, realized he couldn't hear damned buzzing and cars and just beamed leg bouncing in sheer excited relieved joy.

it's a lot more figuring out what works for kieran through trial and error because the gang have not heard of autism and don't really get it despite bessie's best efforts to explain. sean absolutely hit her with the 'wouldn't that make everyone autistic??' and she snapped back 'wOuLDn'T tHaT mAKe EveRYoNe iRiSH'. but they're all going through adapting to modern era and can empathize pretty well with how overwhelming a lot of the modern era is. electricity does have a noise most people get used to but every single one of the timewarpers went through a phase of looking over their shoulder in mild irritation because it's constant until their brains learned to filter the sound. kieran won't and wears headphones to cope with it? sure thing that makes sense!

trauma brain is desperate for assurances of safety by avoiding triggers (loud or new noises, green clothing, strangers, anything unfamiliar=dangerous) while autism brain is screaming safety is found in routine so that becomes a very important thing. with no horses to look after his routine is very much watch tv, do gardening, help out around house because feeling helpful is a dopamine hit for him. it's a lot of letting him do things at his own pace because he is a people pleaser and will do anything if he thinks he is being useful even at his own expense. but 'being helpful' goal setting a really easy way to gently expand his comfort zone. grocery shopping was withdrawn meltdown inducing but the second he has a job like being asked to push the trolley he will merrily shop for hours because he's just focusing on one task. brain suddenly content ignoring things that would otherwise be overwhelming, and once all the neurodivergency in his brain decides grocery shopping is not a potentially fatal experience he's suddenly wandering aisles picking up things they forgot or content going to the grocery store alone because he wanted a specific thing.

after catching kieran self-medicating anxiety with alcohol they do go through the process of at least getting him on SSRIs which is a lot easier than going through the process of a full diagnosis of adult autism but it's already a footnote in his medical file because it's pretty clear to anyone with an ounce of neurodivergent awareness that he is textbook autistic. and honestly modern era for kieran: it's not better or worse than canon for his particular brand of autism but definitely different. he's actually more comfortable around people in general because the odds of running into someone who has committed murder is a lot lower than it was in outlaw circles. because of supports like noise-cancelling and sensory toys he's more curious about things that would have made him want to tear his flesh off his bones in the past. genuinely enjoys when the gang decide to catch the train somewhere vs the heart attack the idea would've been in 1899. instead of needing to retreat and stim and be alone he will catch himself getting distressed over something (it's sean putting away dishes with reckless abandon) and pull on a weighted blanket and be at peace again. still would rather be in 1899 taking care of horses because there was less things to get used to but he can get comfortable with new things and actually find new things he enjoys

plus the gang do genuinely care about him. it started as crippling guilt of not realizing he was taken by the o'driscolls until horsemen apocalypses but they almost all come around to him being a really pleasant guy and are more than glad to support whenever he needs it. like hosea will merrily encourage an infodump because he also really enjoys fishing. in a sad but wholesome way the gang don't really notice how neurodivergent he is because they just didn't pay enough attention to him in canon era to see how the manifestations of autism have changed. just yeah there's duffy he don't talk a whole lot but do not ask him about seasonal fishing unless you have 3 hours to spare. do not go into his room that is his space he has hosea's permission to react violently to people messing with his things and the whole posse will rain hellfire upon anyone who takes his snacks without replacing them.

with it being clear kieran is not the biggest fan of the AAC lenny learns and helps teach kieran basic ASL so on less verbal days he can still ask for things and join in instead of getting frustrated with himself. most of the people he regularly hangs out with know enough words for it to be insanely helpful. his most used 'sign' is flipping people off. the gang's whiplash actually getting to know more of his personality as he feels safer around them than he ever did in 1899?? he might be a gentle buffoon but he is also a sass gremlin. arthur complains once about it being the 17th time kieran has watched spirit stallion of the cimarron and kieran sweetly threatens to reverse saving his life if arthur tries to reach for the remote again. he'll join in making fun of lenny and sean for how obviously they are simping for each other.

[evevoli]

original story concept: Wings of Atlas

aka me shoving my new OCs in everyone's faces for a few minutes. low and behold, my gang of losers:

from left to right: Phoenix, Selene, Helios, and Killian

so a wayward beam of divine insanity lightning struck me about four months ago in the form of the first genuinely coherent original story idea i've had in... basically forever and i am finally crawling out of my mad ornithologist lab to talk about it, if only so i have something to point to when i start tagging random innocuous text posts with the names of characters no one's ever heard of. this project is perhaps the most self-indulgent Autism Fueled venture i have ever gone on and it is so fun actually

the basic gist of the story is that local Teenage Bird Hater Selene accidentally gets isekai'd to a Greco-Roman/baroque-inspired city on a floating archipelago hidden in the clouds, inhabited by bird-worshipping winged people. there she befriends a strange one-winged fortune teller named Phoenix, who takes her in while she looks for a way back down to earth.

as a certified Bird Disliker(tm) for reasons she will absolutely not disclose, the idea of being trapped in this city with its strange bird-entrenched culture has got to be Selene's personal hell. but she's already made a few good friends and is learning a lot, so hey... if you ignore the castle surrounded by doves looming off in the distance, and the general poor sentiment surrounding corvids, maybe it's not such a bad place to be after all.

...until it turns out the king himself might have it out for her, much to the dismay of his son and loyal knight, Prince Helios and Captain Killian.

there is. A Lot more to it than that lol—and at least like 8 more characters i haven't gotten to drawing yet—but there's your elevator pitch. to explain the world a bit more, everyone has bird wings to fly with, their own Bird Familiars(tm), and rides around on pegasi and different species of griffin. the world consists of little islands connected by bridges, with the city developed vertically, and sort of resembles a fusion between the Aether mod in Minecraft and Zephyr Heights in MLP G5.

and now the most important thing, the Closeups

some notes:

Selene is transfem :), Helios's gender is ???

Selene is a Wolf Kid and really vibes with the lyrics to Angel of Darkness on a personal level

Helios's wings are weak and undersized so they can't take off or fly for long on their own

i like to consider Helios my personal challenge to design the most unapologetically cringe and archetypal character ever. i am going to make a character that is so sad little loser prince. kicks him

Killian is a childhood nickname that just sort of stuck

Phoenix lost his left wing in an accident that changed the trajectory of his life forever teehee :3c

the little blue jay is named Celeste, the crow is Peanut, and the tawny owl is Athena :)

and that is all i shall reveal in this post >:) this idea has been rotting my brain from the inside out for months now so don't hesitate to shoot me an ask if you're wondering about anything :]

[somanyants]

Not to go Full Weeb on a certified comedy™️ poll but the actual correct answer is Waver Velvet (better known as “that twink with the bad haircut in Fate Zero”). L was also onto Light immediately but the reason it took so long to solve (aside from the gay autism bullshit) is that there was no possible way for him to anticipate the level of supernatural bullshit involved. With the exception of Phoenix and the Scooby Doo Gang, I don’t think any of these other mystery solvers have interacted with real ghosts/demons before. I bet they could solve the case, but incorporating other planes of existence into their worldview would add at least a week to their times. Waver, however, LITERALLY SPECIALIZES IN SUPERNATURAL CRIMES IN THE HIGHEST ORDER OF BULLSHIT. I’m pretty sure he already has Shinigami Eyes installed. He’s be like “Oh, a Death Note? I’ve got three of these in my library in London. The idiot didn’t even try to cover his tracks.” Then Light would be locked up in the Tower of London within two hours. All the options are good, actually, but this is Squimbus from my polls erasure.

Please reblog to increase data size. Please also add how long you think it would take and why.

[relative-dimension]

“The Sea of Death”

Season 1, episode 21 - 11th April 1964

[id: a Voord falls backwards into a revolving door, arms flailing /end id]

Start of a new story, and honestly one of my favourites so far. I hadn’t actually seen Keys of Marinus before watching it for this, although I knew about a) Ian rubs that guys leg a whole bunch, and b) there’s a Dr Who Ace Attorney episode.

Is it an entertaining watch: 3/5, it’s pretty fun, yeah. Not much happens for the first half, but we get to enjoy the atmosphere I guess. Not that we’re staying on this planet for more than one episode so establishing all the environmental threats isn’t as much of a big deal, but it’s alright.

Does the production hold up: 3/5, there’s some fun effects like the melting show and the revolving doors, but nothing that stands out especially.

Does it use its time well: 4/5, for the first half, this episode follows the same “let the Tardis gang wander around some kinda weird location” structure of The Dead Planet, another Terry Nation script, and it works much better here because there’s other things that have an impact on the plot, and other characters for them to talk to.

Are the characters consistent and well-used: 3/5, Susan has a certified Autism Moment and just kinda wanders off into the city which I think is very iconic of her.

Is there anything actually going on under the surface: 3/5, there’s certainly themes in this story, and they’ll be nicely developed over the next few episodes through various subtextual parallels in the individual episode plots, but this episode does also cut off any way in which the Tardis crew can make any sort of choice. And by that, I don’t mean by locking off the Tardis, I mean the fact that by killing Arbitan and making the Voord want the keys for Vague Evil Reasons, there’s not really any dilemma in the last episode about what to do. But, well, we’ll get to that later on.

Does it avoid being a bit dodge with its politics: 4/5, I had expected that the idea of mass mind control as a form of law enforcement would be interrogated more than it actually is. But I don’t think there’s really anything actually that bad here.

Overall Score - 20/30

[morbidanthem]

Genji falling for a disabled teamamte who has trouble seeing when people are joking?

((A/N: See, this one kind of was hard for me to write, because I don’t understand what you mean by “disability”- I do not write autism because I am not aware enough of it to make it tasteful. I just wrote it the way it felt right to me, so sorry if it is not what you wanted.))

Continuity - Overwatch

Character(s) - Genji Shimada

Parring - Reader/Genji

Genre - Romantic

Rating - G for General

Warning - No Warnings Listed

Word Count - 2,877

✏️Written 02/04/20 - 02/06/20✏️

((Long Post Warning))

Genji Shimada

Blackwatch

He tried to tune out the incessant conversation going on behind him, he felt his annoyance grow larger and larger by the passing second as he tried to focus his attention through the binoculars to peer at the gang of criminals crowding around a big black van that was parked in the dark and abandoned alleyway below him. He couldn’t help but lament for a fleeting moment of sheer weakness how he could barely register how cold the freezing concrete that was underneath his robotic abdomen… His team mates were all bundled up in warmer outerwear, since it was getting closer and closer to the winter season in this region of the world, and the be honest it made him feel a certain mix of emotions he couldn’t really think about at the moment… but then again how could he really think at all with the way his team cackled like a bunch of drunk businessman coming out of a crowded bar! “Man, you really are kinda dense, huh?!” he heard behind him as more loud laughter followed the statement from the two men he had the displeasure of working with, he could hear their rifles rustling loudly as he began to grow concerned about them blowing their cover and ruining their ambush plan. You had responded with something, but it went past him as you refused to move from your perch, with deadly aim locked onto the main target that was assigned to them by Reyes. You were trying to act professional, but he could tell you were a little downtrodden by the laughter of your teammates as your face dropped a little at the sound of their teasing. He doesn’t know why he noticed a change in your emotions, and he quite frankly is questioning why he cares, but for now so long as you don’t take your eyes off the bad guys and keep your finger on the trigger of your enchanted sniper rifle, he could honestly care less as to what the other two soldiers say.

After your team had managed to take out the group of thugs with relative ease, he was becoming enraged at the fact that his other teammates were still laughing about their idiotic earlier comments that were making earlier at your expense, and as they began to clean up the scene and cuff the remaining members of the organization that were still alive so they can be loaded up into a medical transport, it actually kind of pissed him off the way they would refuse to let their idiotic remarks go. Something can be funny, sure, but there is no need to beat a dead horse into the ground when everyone has already had a good long laugh about it ten minutes ago. You tutted as you watched them walk the leader of the gang into an armored vehicle to begin questioning him on his crimes once he has been examined by an Overwatch Certified Doctor, Reyes wanted to keep him alive specifically so they can grill him about information on the new upcoming group of organized criminals known as Talon that has been on the lips of many known criminals lately. He heard you loudly begin to question your team about statements they made to you that you didn’t understand, it all may seem obvious to others, but for some reason you couldn’t grasp basic concepts of jests and quips until a few days later. When he first took notice of you doing this kind of thing, he thought you reacted this way to keep a joke going even longer and joking along with them… but the more he was assigned to work missions with you, the more he noticed that you were actually, in fact, not actually understanding what was going on. He liked to consider himself a master of observation, and each time someone made fun of you and you asked questions about it later, your face twitched a certain way and your voice got a little deeper to signify annoyance and frustration. He doubts any normal person would notice a small change in your demeanor like that, and frankly he still questions why he is paying enough attention to you to notice things like that as well, but as he watched the larger member of the team tousle your hair and laugh louder at your protests he couldn’t help that little pang of guilt he felt for not saying anything to you or his ragtag team… but, it was none of his business, and he doesn’t want to get involved in trivial social nonsense like this when he has motivations of his own he needs to take care of while he is an asset to Blackwatch. He heard you give a frustrated grunt as you began to break down your rifle to put it inside its special transport case in preparation to return to Headquarters to speak with Reyes about the success of the mission.

You sat sadly on the cliff side of the Main Overwatch HQ in one of your secret comfort spots that was behind one of the “abandoned” buildings that is rarely ever used for anything other than an impromptu meeting spot for executives who wanted an ocean view, and as you sat and listened to the soothing sounds of the waves crashing against the rocks below, you couldn’t help but feel a growing sense of frustration and agitation as you replayed what it was those two guy said about you… Why does it take so long for things to click with you?? It was one of the most frustrating things about your personality that you can think of- always being the butt of the joke, and never really knowing why, and on top of that anytime you would ask for an explanation you were ALWAYS met with teasing laughter and loud cackling! It drove you insane! You began to vent loudly to the cybernetic ninja that sat above you on a perch on top of the small temporary building, but you doubted he was actually listening to you as he did not move from his spot with his eyes on you the same way a cat has its eyes on a mouse. In a strange way however, his silence always made you feel a sense of ease, you could equate it to something akin to talking to a plant- it could offer you no advice and no help, but you knew it was alive and you knew it was listening to you in some capacity. Which… was a strange way of describing something… wasn’t it? Gah! Why did you have to be this way? You’re whole life you have always been very slow to the punch, and very dim in terms of what was acceptable to say socially, it was the one thing that always managed to make you feel inadequate despite all of the amazing things you have been able to accomplish. Shooting a target over a mile away and leaving a fatal mark and remaining hidden in a crouching position in the middle of a dense jungle for days on end? That, that was easy. Getting along with team mates who were from so many different credence and backgrounds? That.. That was harder than any kind of obstacle you have ever faced. You took the opportunity to look up at Genji and notice his stance and position haven’t even shifted a little, and as his red eyes bore holes into you, you were reminded of the fact that you could never really tell what he was thinking and he never really shared any thoughts with you voluntarily… but the fact that he hasn’t already gotten up and shuffled away from you men something, right? Oh, the irony, that you of all people would make an impression on one of the most serious and arguably scariest members of Blackwatch wouldn’t you? Well, at the very least you can say you made a friend in all of this, even if it is hard to tell what he is thinking a lot of the time, but that just made you two more similar than it did different… considering you too were an enigma to your current team.

Overwatch

He was hardly listening to what Winston was saying during this little presentation that he had called to order, he was so caught up in his own thoughts and mind that he wasn’t listening to anything anyone was saying, so it was a good thing no one was addressing him directly because he wouldn’t be able to add anything productive to the conversation. He would have to ask Zenyatta for a run down later, as the monk should have taken notice that this pupil was paying no mind to the information given to this new Overwatch organization, the omnic tended to notice everything about the cybernetic ninja no matter how hard he tried to hide his true emotions or intentions… just as he was still able to notice all the small things about you with his own keen perceptions. You haven’t changed all that much physically since the fall of their small rag tag team known as Blackwatch, if anything you have matured a little more since then, but so has he- it was simply the laws of nature for people to grow and evolve as time passing around them, and no matter how hard we try to, it could not be stopped… well, except maybe time can stop for Lena, but it probably wasn’t for very long and didn’t stop people around her from changing. He thought he heard his name being called from somewhere in the room which caused him to come out of his little daydream, so he just nodded his head as he stood in the same position across the room with his arms crossed over his chest, he probably just agreed to something silly he know but he couldn’t help but have his eyes from being fixated on you. He is racking his brain high and low and he just doesn’t remember you being this distinct, this unique… this bright. He was transfixed at the way you chuckled at whatever it was that Angela whispered into your ear as the two of you were leaning against the opposite wall that he was. He felt his heart warm at the sight of your smile as your hair fell slightly into your face, which caused an obscured of his view of you a little; he remembers during your time in Blackwatch, you were always so stressed and so sad and miserable- to see you now, so warm and so welcoming, he was excited to speak to you once you both had the chance to be alone.

He found you leaning against a tree in a shady spot near where you used to hang out, the shade of the tree was a way to try and protect yourself from the harshness of the summer sun that was mercilessly beating down on this small island peninsula, he could help but smile under his mask as he watched you just lounging around and watching the waves crash against the cliffs just like you used to whenever you wanted to have time away from everyone to think. These past few days have gone by so quickly, you and he barely had any time to yourselves, let alone time for each other- did you even want to see him? He thought about how selfish it was to just assume you would even want to see him again, it is true that he never took actions that were against you, but he never really took the time to defend you either. You were one of the closest people he had at that time in his life, even if he never showed it, and it was even a stretch to say you were friends since he was so stuck in his own head that he was not able to see all the good the he had around him. He had allowed himself to be miserable in those dark times, all because he wasn’t able to process what emotions were running through his mind, he allowed himself to be angry and he wanted to hold onto what happened to him. You were surprised to feel someone behind you, and as you turned to see Genji standing in the sun behind you, you couldn’t help but smile wide and wave in his direction to invite him over to chat with you under the shade of the tree. A lot has happened since the fall of Overwatch, and you were excited to hear what he went through and learned during his time in Nepal, and you couldn’t wait to tell him all the new training and missions you went on underground for your countries government in order to benefit the people of your nation. He remained silent as you spoke, just the way you and he used to, as you waved your hands around as you unconsciously put so much character into what you were telling him that it made him chuckle, and as you explained everything that you were up to while you two were apart he couldn’t hold back his fond amusement for you that began to surface heavily from being suppressed for all of these years. You began to insist that he tell you everything about what he was doing during his time away as you gave him a sweet and genuinely look from your bright and shining eyes, you kept asking and what it was like living in a temple with omnic monks that were huge advocates for the rights of their people. He was surprised at your curiosity that shone through your bright eyes as he explained things he thought would be so mundane and boring but you thought it was the most interesting thing in the world, he basked in your attention as you nodded your head anytime he told you something interesting. Is this what he was missing when you two used to be here? He regrets not being able to enjoy it before, just like he was never able to enjoy how serene and beautiful this place actually was.

A comfortable silence set in and after everything was said and done, you sat yourself across from the ninja in that ever fading shade as the sun began to dip a little below the water’s edge, and it was in that moment that you couldn’t stop the words that just fell out of your mouth “I’m glad that you’re back and feeling better, you always seemed so sad, it must have been nice to find peace.” That threw him for a hard loop for a solid minute- shouldn’t he be the one saying that? “Heh, you’re not a mind reader, are you?” he joked, but you didn’t react to it the way he suspected, as his jest was meant with the same confusion you’ve always had in this situation. He couldn’t help the chuckle that left his lips as he tried his best to explain what he meant, and pointed out the irony in what you said since it was exactly what he was thinking, and as he was explaining it to you he was rewarded with a sincere smile that he had never seen before on your face that was followed by a sweet chuckle that sent his heart aflutter in a way he did not even think was possible- a first for both you and him, it seems. You could help but lament to him after your little laughing fest how hard it is to still be the receiving end of some cruelty due to your inability to catch on to certain things, but you try not to let it eat you up inside like it used to. There was a bigger picture that you had to focus on right now, the world is broken, and if you used your talents along with everyone else’s talents here- well,  then maybe you all can fix it a little and make it easier for everyone to live here. As you explained this to Genji, he was taken aback by how much you actually have matured and changed- it seems like he wasn’t the only one who was metamorphosed during your time away from each other. It was silent again, but this time there was no need to fill it, and as the sun was setting over the water’s edge even more, Genji couldn’t help himself as the moment just felt right to try and see how far he can push his luck with you. Using his surprisingly warm metal hands, he caressed your cheek in his hands as you looked up at him with this look of confusion and curiosity- he wondered if he would ever get those looks of uncertainty you gave him to turn into looks of comfort, comfort he hopes he can instill in you so that you may trust him they same way he now trusts you. If the world was able to stay like this, with your eyes shining brighter than the sea, then he would go against the laws of nature and stop time right here and now.

Published 02/06/20❤💀❤

[reesebird]

New Post has been published on https://reesebird.com/2019/02/13/im-debating-burning-bridges-with-blood-family-any-advice/

I’m debating burning bridges with blood family. Any advice?

So, this is a little hard to talk about but I’ll try. I grew up in a fairly “average” household. Mom, dad, 1 sibling, 1-2 dogs, for a total of 4 humans and a pet or two at any one time. Before the ‘08 recession, my mom was a stay-at-home mom, and my dad worked. Following the recession, my mom went back to work, and my dad went from working 40 hours a week to 90+ hours a week. Not the healthiest, but not exactly abusive or anything like that. I’m starting with this, because I want to establish a baseline – my family wasn’t a “classically abusive family” like some of my friends and peers.

When I was in elementary school, there were 3 things that stood out. First, I was bullied incessantly by everyone (save literally one student I became friends with, but have since fallen out of touch). This began with verbal bullying, then in middle school escalated to being beaten up on four separate occasions, and finally, being punched in the face right in front of the teacher, who refused to do anything. Second, I wasn’t ever challenged academically. After kindergarten (which I completed at the local public school), I stopped being really taught. I attended a private religious school whose standards were so garbage that aside from handwriting, I learned next to nothing in my 8 years in attendance. Most of the teachers were lazy, and they cared only about turning in the homework. You could have every answer wrong on every piece of homework, and every answer wrong on every test, but by virtue of having turned something in, you were considered a “good student”. Meanwhile, anyone who had a “reputation for being smart” would be berated and belittled by the teachers for being ahead of the lesson plan. I was even handed a failing grade on a science project because the teacher hated me. And my grades slowly suffered. Not being challenged like I would’ve been at a public school, I slowly gave up. I went from a straight-A+ student to a student barely making C’s between 3rd & 8th grade. Not because I didn’t get the material (though I definitely didn’t get Spanish, and I thought religion made no logical, scientific sense), but because the homework just bored me to tears. My mom would yell at me every report card I didn’t get an A+, too. My first B, I was grounded for a month. When I started getting C’s, she told me I was worthless. And, when I failed Spanish my last quarter in 8th grade, she threatened to disown me. The third thing that stood out was that in spite of all of this, I tried to keep learning. I read constantly. Between 6th and 8th grade, I kept a spreadsheet of all the books I read, and what genre they were, and in total, read just shy of 1,000 books between my first day of 6th grade and my last day of 8th grade. I tried out Khan Academy, and did independent research. I even learned how to use the library’s database on my own so I could read engineering journals for free. And, all in all, I still loved academia.

In high school though, things began really breaking. I’d wanted to attend this fairly prestigious public school that had an actual engineering program (that included shop time!). But, my mom, not wanting me to risk getting involved with drugs and alcohol and gangs and underage sex and shit like that, very intentionally didn’t wake me on the day for testing to go to that school (we had 1 alarm clock in the house at the time, which was my parents’). So I missed the test. And couldn’t go. So, desperate for a chance to not fuck everything up, I tested at one of the 2 most rigorous private schools in the area. I got in, and was immediately made aware that I’d not learned anywhere near enough in grade school. I didn’t know enough to pass algebra 1 in math, I only passed English because my teacher gave me extended deadlines for everything, and in Chinese, despite doing extremely well at first, the original teacher left (family emergency) and I failed because the new teacher made no sense to me. And I struggled. And failed. And my mom would berate and belittle me for it. Finally, I was told I had failed out my freshman year. I hated myself. Everything I was taught to value – what I was taught was my only value – had just been demonstrated to me to be nonexistent. And therefore, I had no value.

Nowhere to go, I stayed at home that summer. I was brought to a crackpot psychiatrist by my mom, and diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. He recommended heavy, regulated, and monitored medication, but my mom wouldn’t hear any of it. She finally caved when told about the weakest medication that had the most marginal chance of helping me, but made me figure it out on my own, and with no supervision. She made me enroll in online classes so that I wouldn’t “waste my life being worthless”. I can’t learn online – it’s too detached, with nothing tactile, and no accountability. And it sucked. My depression got worse, and my medication did nothing, and finally, after a massive argument with my mom, I attempted suicide. My mom got home, and found me right before I would’ve died. She called 911, and I was taken to the hospital. My dad rushed home when he heard what had happened. He brought me my childhood stuffed animal, and fresh clothing, and made sure I was given food the moment I was cleared to. He even slept on the floor of the hospital room so he’d be with me. My mom? She didn’t spend time with me. She went, and told everyone she knew about what had happened, even though I explicitly told her that I wanted privacy on the matter. She continuously violated my trust, and refused to own up to it.

Fast forward to the summer I turned 16. I was slowly recovering from depression (and, as had been discovered by the actual psychiatrists I saw in the hospital, PTSD). I’d just gotten out of a relationship where I’d been gaslighted (though at the time, I didn’t know the word for it), and was questioning my gender identity and sexual orientation. I went to the library every day I could, and spoke with the librarians there all the time. They became more family to me than the family I’d been born with. They provided me resources, and helped me understand what I was going through. And when I finally came out, they were the first ones I came out to. When I was 17, I was walking the dogs with my dad one day, when he asked me when I was going to get my driver’s license (I’d not been in a brick-and-mortar school since my freshman year of high school, and I never really did research into driver’s ed). I told him I wanted to wait. He asked me until when. I then, in probably the dumbest move possible, said “until I can transition and change my gender marker.” His reaction was about what was fair, given that I’d never mentioned gender identity in the past to my parents. However, 6 months later, when in a family therapy session, I told my parents I was trans and wanted to medically transition, my dad responded with “let me look into insurance first, please.” My mom? She nearly made me homeless, and were it not for my dad putting his foot down and demanding she treat me with the dignity of a human being, I think that was what she wanted to do.

Over the course of the next year, I was constantly arguing with my mom, who thought my being trans was me trying to “get back at her” for the argument we’d had when I was 15 that led to my suicide attempt. Finally, exhausted, I gave up. I couldn’t take her anymore. I took the GED, got my high school equivalency certificate, and enrolled in community college. I began taking classes right away, hoping that my natural love for learning would be enough. Unfortunately it wasn’t, and I struggled. I took remedials though, and I eventually learned everything I needed. I recently got everything in line to train as a Honda-certified dealership mechanic. This past year, I dipped into my personal savings and began paying for medical transition through my local Planned Parenthood clinic, and got a psych evaluation done that led to a definitive diagnosis of being on the autism spectrum (a psych eval my mom refused to pay for when I was in the hospital)

I’m now 4 months into transition, and have a stable job & classes to take. I have a small network of close friends, and a couple of people who are basically unofficial surrogate family for me. I’m dating a wonderful woman who I’m absolutely in love with. And, I finally have enough money together to move out and burn bridges. Which brings us back to that question. My mom, I have learned, uses gaslighting tactics, is manipulative, and, had I known at a time that I could report it to DCFS, *clearly* qualifies as emotionally and psychologically abusive. My dad, while not a bad person, has this giant extended family (60+ total) that I hate (minus my grandpa & 1 cousin), but that he refuses to cut ties with. My younger brother isn’t terrible, but he’s a bit of an ass at times – standard sibling stuff. When I spent New Years with my girlfriend, I’d never felt safer, calmer, or more happy. Sure, part of that is that the relationship is still relatively young, but the safety? I don’t feel safe with anyone, even with the librarians I’m still in touch with, who I trust enough that I’d be confident in making them authorized medical decision makers in the event of my incapacitation (if not for state regulations making it impossible for that to happen). Is the potential damage worth it, in the end?

tl;dr – should I start fresh, even if I regret potentially hurting my dad?

[newsglobaltoday-blog]

Sesame Place Is Now The World’s First Autism-Certified Theme Park

New Post has been published on http://newsglobaltoday.com/2018/04/sesame-place-is-now-the-worlds-first-autism-certified-theme-park/

Sesame Place Is Now The World’s First Autism-Certified Theme Park

Exciting news for all fans of Elmo, Big Bird and the gang: Sesame Place is officially autism-certified.

What exactly does that mean? For starters, at least 80 percent of the park staff will receive specialized training (in areas such as communication, motor skills and sensory and emotional awareness) in order to meet the needs of all children, especially those with special needs. Sensory guides will be available to help parents plan activities based on their child’s specific needs, and the park will have quiet rooms and low-sensory areas for times when kids may need to take a break.

The changes will already be in place when the park reopens on April 28. (You can find more details on the Sesame Place website.)

In short, the park will be fully equipped to cater to all types of families… to which we say bravo!

[addcrazy-blog]

New Post has been published on Add Crazy

New Post has been published on https://addcrazy.com/authorities-plan-make-recreation-have-to-in-colleges-have-marks/

Authorities plan: Make recreation have to in colleges, have marks

Starting subsequent 12 months, sport is probably to be incorporated into the faculty curriculum. A sports activities ministry notion to this impact is within the “completing level”, a senior ministry official said on Sunday.

In line with the ministry’s plan, college students might be marked on their involvement in wearing activities, and the game could be a topic they will need to pass. The policy is likely to be rolled out in levels, starting with making it compulsory in Magnificence 1 in 2018, after which introducing it in better instructions. sports secretary Injeti Srinivas stated, “accepting the recommendation is easy, but imposing it is the assignment”. The policy, Srinivas stated, “might be path-breaking, and may be the base of a basis”. “There’s no difficulty of a Bill being handed (to implement the policy) both. Primary Board of Secondary Training can take a selection and other kingdom boards can accept it, like the Sarva Shiksha Abhiyan,” Srinivas said.

the game is considered a nation subject, however, the Critical Authorities has been looking at approaches to formulate a widespread coverage to make it obligatory at school degree. After India’s dismal displaying on the Rio Olympics, sports activities Minister Vijay Goel said last October that recreation needed to be promoted in educational establishments. Srinivas said the ministry was operating on details of the coverage to make certain its smooth implementation. “There is a no-detention coverage until Elegance eight, however after that, you may have to bypass in sports additionally. We want to the train session the details. Abruptly, it is able to be made obligatory in Magnificence 12,” he said. “I suppose it will likely be a non-grading component for the higher classes. Beginning subsequent year, it will likely be obligatory for class 1 and so on. The advantage will be visible in the subsequent 8-10 years.” The ministry hopes the move will create jobs as properly, thinking about there might be a requirement for certified sports coaches. Srinivas recounted, however, that the lack of proper infrastructure would pose a chief hurdle. “As soon as recreation is made part of the curriculum, providing it’ll be a mission. Playing subject, gadget and coaches trouble could be there. That is something we are running on, it’ll be the base of a basis,” Srinivas said. “There are approximately 5 and a half of lakh bodily Education teachers. The idea of bodily Education wishes to exchange and they want to double as sports coaches. At a standard level, a coach can take care of 4-five disciplines. Person sports activities can be greater tough. We’d want to cognizance on group sports like soccer and volleyball and indigenous sports activities like kabaddi.”

Four Motives Why sports In school Are Essential

An increasingly sad scenario nowadays comes about when schools are forced to put off wanted packages because of the scary finances cut. Art packages are typically the first to go, follow closely through sports activities programs. To folks that do now not frequently participate in such activities, it won’t be a massive deal if they get cut. however, to the ones who’ve lively kids, and prefer to participate in sports activities sports in college, the ramifications may have long-achieving results.

sports activities Affords An Emotional Outlet

Kids regularly use sports activities sports in faculty to release tensions and frustrations that they may have constructed up at some stage in an in particular hard day or week in school. In preference to internalizing those feelings, they use the sports activities they love as a launch valve, actually blowing off that emotional steam. You can no longer agree, however it’s miles a far more healthy way to paintings off their aggressions than to preserve it all bottled up the interior. Higher they beat the hell out of a tackling dummy than one in every of their friends.

Fitness Benefits

no longer most effective does sports activities sports in school promote emotional and bodily exercise, something that loads of students should use, but it also has a whole lot of different Fitness Blessings you may not realize even exist. First, being a part of a prepared sports method that you need to no longer best get healthy, you need to stay suit. This indicates following a routine of food plan and workout without fail. This will increase their strength degree, improves their motor competencies, and decreases the hazard of depression.

Promotes Bonding And Encouragement

Being a part of sports activities sports in college has every other interesting facet impact. In order to stay eligible to retain Playing, a pupil should now not be failing any training or in any other case ignoring their research. To achieve this will imply immediately suspension from the team, and be taken into consideration to have permit your teammates down. On this manner, sports activities promotes educational excellence, as correct grades will assure that they may preserve to play. In the end, this is a good component, specially in phrases of destiny college Training. Taking part additionally encourages teamwork, and a close bond between teammates. Kids examine what it way to count on someone for help, in addition to what it means to count number directly to assist in go back.

Boosting Morale And Circle of relatives Aid

Lastly, having your kid be aaitting member of a group, triumphing or losing, may be a super bonding revel in for the whole Family. they may study that they may be now not only a member of a crew at school, however additionally at home, in particular, if the Family helps both their educational and sports activities achievements similarly. Playing a robust bond together with your group is Vital, but they are able to by no means update the Circle of relatives.

Why Are Young people sports activities In Excessive school So Essential?

The alternative day I was speak to a single mom in Starbucks who had an Autistic Infant in a special Education Elegance on the nearby college right here. She desired one-on-one to assist in the classroom for her Infant, no matter what the value, citing that to her, that changed into certainly, the most appropriate for her Toddler. You spot, there was a regulation surpassed that each Toddler is entitled to suitable Schooling.

We talked about the college budgets and he or she stated she did now not care, as she wanted what changed into “high-quality for her Baby” due to the fact that might be the most suitable in her thoughts. I indicated that the schools had to cut something if they’re too present one-on-one Training to every special wishes student. She stated; “So what, cut out the sports packages!” Wow, I idea, that might be terrible. permit me to inform you my thoughts on Kids sports in High college.

You see, I am very pro-Youngsters sports because it builds electricity of man or woman, tough paintings ethic, commitment, group work and yes, it maintains Kids out of gangs and away from pills. It’s all excellent. We then talked about how the sports Youngsters had these days helped out in an Autism Fundraiser in some other state. I explained that I can’t consider an extra profound declaration that a young athletic star could make, then supporting individuals who are unable to play at that degree thru no fault in their personal. This is an actual character; that impresses me.

Baseball, soccer, apple pie, It is an American aspect here, a way of life and it bonds Youngsters and builds friendships and fuels desires because it builds their self-esteems. We need greater of it, we’ve got a personality constructing disaster inside the US and there are too many ethically challenged Kids, who suppose they’re entitled without installing. This is their hazard to make a difference, and understand how fortunate they are.

We need to reward the top participants and the top gamers because it takes that aggressive spirit and drives cash to the right locations. We have to not get rid of their sports activities to assist a loopy mom, who is stressful that her Baby gets a special remedy, at the price of all of the others. To me, winning in existence, sports activities, Circle of relatives and process is very Crucial, but it’s miles worthless with out integrity, individual and expertise. You could quote me on that.

https://addcrazy.com/