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[raayllum]

You said I'm the love of your life About a million times

[a-very-sparkly-nerd]

put your feet in the river, and swim

Dear Callum’s future wife,

I’m going to say right now that this isn't for you. I don't want anyone else to have his love– I want it to be all mine, forever. 

I should’ve known it would never be like that, though. We were doomed from the start, by whatever’s out there, so maybe you and him won’t be. You should only have to be doomed with one person.

It hurts to imagine him walking down lover’s lane with anyone but me– that's this path he took me on, with pink apple blossom petals on the ground and the sun setting through the leaves. It was its own little world with just us two.

But that's selfish. He deserves to love and move on and be happy, and if you are what gives him that, then I wish you all the best with every bit of my soul.

Callum is more than anyone could dream or wish for, and finding him will be like you are coming home for the first time. You must appreciate and know it every single day, every moment, with every fiber of your being.

So take care of him. And do it well, or I swear I’ll find you and I’ll kill you even if I’m already dead, because he can’t go through anything like what I did to him again.

read more on ao3!

[rayllumoon]

Wait, but what if Rayla has to kill Callum and it not only fulfills the promise she reluctantly gave to him, but it also calls back to S1 and the way they met each other where she feels like she has to kill him to fulfill a pact she gave with the Moonshadow assassins -- for Xadia.

And the tragic potential poetry it would be if as a "failed" assassin that she's been plagued by for the entire show, the only person she truly killed was the one person she loved more than anyone.

[foxie-roxie]

DIDNT NEED TO CRY AT 3 AM ON A SATURDAY BUT OKAY

[leo-ne-vinci]

[malik-the-night-angel]

when you break his heart, ruin his birthday, and disappear for two years but he still loves you

[raayllum]

I fell in love with a girl on the dark side of the moon But when she steps out into the light, she's gone too soon And as she shines and wanes I watch her wave from the milky way I fell in love with a girl on the dark side of the moon [Chorus] If I shut my eyes, will you appear? 'Cause I'm not me without you here And is it fair to let you know That I'm afraid to let you go?

I fell in love with a girl who lives inside my mind And I go searching but she's right behind my eyes And when she steps in frame, I reach out but she fades away I fell in love with a girl who I may never find

Far Side of the World by Holden Miller is Callum’s perspective of Rayllum tell me I’m wrong.

[raayllum]

the way even with "my Heart for xadia" she found one last way to let callum know he was Loved

[a-very-sparkly-nerd]

"I wish I was part of, uh, something?

I wish that, um, anything I said,

uh, mattered to anyone.

I mean, face it!

Would anyone even notice if

I just... disappeared tomorrow?"

(ps, thanks to @raayllum for the pretty-colored edits!! <3)

[rayllumoon]

04. return to sender

rayla + callum playlist

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"it will never be the same. because of rayla...it was impossible to say her name out loud...are you doing alright? he couldn't think about her. not now...i wish i could say that we will see each other again, but i don't know if we will. i hope so...i don't want you to see me like this. keep believing in illusions if it makes you feel better...you still love her, don't you? i don't even know if she's alive. she's alive. and wherever she is, she loves you, too...well then, you've found me. i messed up. i know i did. but that's why you have to let me make it right...i'm here with you. we're gonna be okay."

delves into callum and rayla's reunion — trying to navigate their complicated feelings. [s4 speculation]

[linktheacehero]

THIS MADE FUCKING CRY

Wasn’t Able to Reach You.

 Callum wasn’t expecting to understand Harrow so soon.

 No.

 Never this soon.

— 

 (In which an au where Callum wasn’t able to reach Rayla in time based off this post: https://strwbrry-lemonaid.tumblr.com/post/189410373110/okay-but-think-about-it ) 

Special thanks to @raayllum for screaming with me about sad headcanons and ideas for this (it was based off her quotes) 

 Haha I’m in  p a i n

—- 

“R-Rayla, please w-wake up…you have to wake up!” His voice was shaky as his tears rained down onto the ground beside her. 

She looked almost peaceful if he hadn’t known that she had thrown herself off the spire to save Zym. Dirt marked her features and she had a chipped horn but besides that, she looked as if she was asleep. 

But Callum knew better. 

“R-Rayla…please….” He sobbed, clutching onto her lifeless body desperately.

Then he remembered. 

He never had the chance to tell her. 

 "R-Rayla…I….love you,“   

He trembling with sorrow with each word, his shaky breaths filling the cold silence around him. 

 The only thing he could hear was his own heartbeat. 

— 

He couldn’t believe it. 

Viren was alive. 

Even after Rayla had tried to kill him. 

And it INFURIATED him.  This had meant she had died for nothing.  

She had sacrificed her life for nothing. 

And he knew exactly what he had to. 

— 

Claudia stood there. 

A part of her was grateful for Callum’s mercy. 

Another part of her was pained by her past actions. 

”…I’m sorry-“ 

“Don’t. It won’t bring her back." 

Numb tears slid down his face. 

Words of warning echoed in his mind.  

"They’ll be the ones to break the cycle.” 

They were a reminder of who he had lost. 

— 

Ethari glanced at the small pond once again, looking at the one small silvery flower floating gracefully on the water. He longed for the day to see her again, to know she was still ok. But then, the flower slipped silently into the water. And his eyes turned away in pain. 

— 

Rayla had left almost no trace of her existence beyond fond and bittersweet memories. 

But there was one thing she left behind. 

Or per-say, two things. 

“Here.” Callum placed two carefully designed blades into Ethari’s hands. His hands shook. 

Bittersweet tears filled up in his eyes. “Y-You know, when I heard she was going on the assassination, I made her these,” His voice shook with a small wavering, pained smile. “I was so proud of her. This was a chance to redeem herself and her family. He chuckled. "If only I had known she’d change the world.” Callum swallowed the lump in his throat and nodded. She did more than that for him. Just as Callum was about to turn away, Ethari suddenly said, “Here," 

In his hand, he held one of her blades, holding it out to him. "I think…you should keep one of them.” He added with a few more bittersweet tears. Callum nodded, a similar feeling rising in his chest.

“…Thank you,” He held onto it dearly, the blade being the last reminder of her. —    “Are you sure about this?” Ezran’s voice was gentle, he knew how much this meant to his brother. “Yes…I’m sure,” Callum finally finished with a shaky sigh. Ezran pushed no farther and only looked forward. The journey back to Katolis would be a long one. But he knew how much Xadia would remind him of her. So he kept quiet as he waved a bittersweet goodbye to Zym. — “Hey, uncle Callum?” A little girl with curly brown hair called. “Hmm?” “Daddy is telling us the story of how you guys united Xadia and Katolis!! Do you wanna join?” She pleaded with her little puppy eyes. A familiar lump formed in his throat once again. “N-No it’s fine, I have some work to do…I’ll join another time!” He waved it off with a small smile. But he couldn’t stop a small tear from sliding down his cheek. 

[foxie-roxie]

i am having emotions over rayllum because i was just watching tiktoks and one of them had You Are My Sunshine as the sound and- you see where this is going

“please don’t take my sunshine away” hit DIFFERENT

[leo-ne-vinci]

All I can think about is how Rayla and Callum are in Xadia 

and Rayla lives in Xadia 

and if Tinker really is her 2nd dad then they’ll meet him 

and he’ll probably be able to pick up on Rayla’s feelings

...and I don’t know any classic star-crossed story that ended well...

[raayllum]

A(part) from you of you

7x04 / 7x06 / 7x09

[a-very-sparkly-nerd]

Hey guys, what if when Aaravos inevitably possesses Callum, Rayla's wearing his scarf and he chokes her with it. Wouldn't that be messed up...

[rayllumoon]

p.s. i love you too much not to

rayla + callum playlist

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"but i haven't left — i'm still here...if i stay much longer, you'll wake up and try to stop me. i have to be strong. no matter what... i wish i could stay...and kiss you one more time. i love you...i will think of you under every full moon. stay safe, and stay in the light...i should go. i have to go. i'm sorry. please don't hate me when that illusion fades... taking on hard choices and going to dark places is an act of love. i'm going to keep you safe. i have to. i love you too much not to...if you feel that soft aching — know that that piece of your heart isn't missing...i'm carrying it with me. always."

extension to 04. return to sender — mostly revolving on healing their love. [s4 speculation]