#cause obvs i love all those fics as well

[al-luviec]

I ran out of tag space but oomf had some good notes

smthn easy for today (sorry)

[sillyhahasilly]

caldre nsfw headcanons under cut.

(plz don't heavily interact if ur like under 16, ik I can't control it but yk.)

their first was initiated by cal and reciprocated by andre.

it happened well after they started planning zd, well after they realized how alike they are. by then they had already bared their truest self out to eachother. all their violent and fucked up desires, so why not keep going?

they were having one of those conversations, talking about their mental health and desires to die and cause harm and getting very emotionally intimate. I think andre said some shit like, I've never been this real with someone before. you're are the only person who knows me. really knows me. so, cal js fucking kisses him. a deep and incredibly desperate kiss, like he was starving. andre backs out and he js stares, wide eyed, at cal. and cal is so scared. that is the first time andre saw cal look scared.

andre kisses him back and they don't stop. cal climbs on top of andre, swinging his leg over him in an attempt to get closer. he's sitting on andres lap and both of their hands are all over eachother. both of them get hard embrassingly fast, and one of them accidently grinds on the other. they both stopped when that happened, shocked. andre would start to say how this isn't right or he isn't gay, so cal would reply, do you want to stop? obv, andre says no. so then cal would be like, great, fuck it. and then they'd be back all over eachother, grinding and making out. bc of how worked up cal was he'd come first, but not by much. afterwards, they were both surprisingly giddy. but they did need to awkwardly wash some jeans.

tdlr: their first time they both grinding on eachother and came in their own pants. js two desperate, hormonal, teen boys.

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they have a fucking codename for having sex. smth stupid, but sweet. I got this from a fic, and in it they called it "syncing". I feel like andre def started calling it that, cuz he's the one into military shit. they use it so they don't need to say it, and they can kinda distance themselves from what they are doing bc of how shamed gay sex was. internalized homophobia and all that. I feel like they would also be so afraid of zd being blamed on their sexuality so so much, so this small thing would add js another layer of protection.

this ain't nsfw really, but it's like they live a secret life with eachother. they act differently together around others then they do in private, like a code switch. they are always hiding in daylight out of shame.

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cals sex drive is either 1 or a 100. when he wants it, he wants it. he can get so desperate. once he greeted andre in the school hallway by whispering, "youre going to fuck me tonight." and then js acted like he didn't say anything bad.

when andres the one who wants it bad, he gets whiny. he will literally beg cal to let him be inside him, he'll say shit like "I'll be quick, I'll make you feel so good." after, he'll lowkey pretend that he didn't js beg like a dog. cal teases him for it. sometimes he'll purposefully work him up to that point.

(also if it ain't obv, andre tops and cal bottoms. BUT I can see them switching like once, but I feel like andre wouldn't like how gay it would make him feel.)

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they take anger and frustration from everything out on eachother during sex. andre got thrown into a locker and called a fag?? he will fuck cal hard and ruthless into the mattress to be in primal control of smth. cal is mad at humanity cause he spent another function quiet and resevred in the corner? he pushes andre around and leaves bruises everywhere.

they will talk abt violent fantasies of things they want to do to enemies and humanity during sex. yeah.

they have def talked abt how great zd is gonna feel and how they will be like gods while fucking.

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cal likes to be hurt during sex. bruises, bites, he loves getting bitten. he enjoys purposefully not doing enough prep so it hurts for a little bit.

andre likes to bite and bruise. match made in heaven. he does also enjoy pain, but not as much as cal.

tw sh!!! there has been times when andre will purposefully irritate cals healing scars. it's up to u to decide if they got freaky enough to cut eachother during sex.

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right after, andre gets really affectionate compared to how he normally is. he cuddles and hugs cal close to his body and does shit that he'll call gross and cringe normally like kiss him on the check.

sometimes tho, cal will get weirdly sad and quiet after sex. andre will try his best to talk to him abt it, (which isn't vv good) but they never really do. it's his depression and the drastic fall from pleasure to normal, kinda like the freaky version of feeling sad after hanging out w a friend for a long time.

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and ermmm. that's it. I did not mean for this to be this long but I guess reading gay porn fics way to young payed off <3

[angeamant]

my disappearance ♡

hiii this is cynthia most commonly known as gentlehue/jgracie/irlangelics <3 i wasnt gonna make a post like this for reasons i'll go thru under the cut but after having three of you reach out to me on pinterest i thought it'd be unfair to leave everyone in the dark 💗 tagging @luvusrry @findmeonvenus / @daystarpoet and @bloodwrittenletters thank u for checking up on me lovelies xx

okay so the main reason i deactivated yesterday was because i realised being on here was negatively impacting my productivity LOL as you all probably know (because i never shut up about it) im in my second to last year of high school and everything i do now and next year is what has the largest impact on what uni i get into which then has a pretty big impact on where i end up in the future basically LMAO 😭 my life is so busy these days between doing the whole ib itself which im still getting used to since the british system is so structured and tells you exactly what to do in comparison to ib where a lot of it is you doing your own thing & prepping for uni by researching diff courses and the lnat which is an exam i'll have to sit in order to apply to study law & also getting back into all my extracurricular/picking up new ones which is another thing i have to get used to since im SUCH an academically oriented person & a BUNCHHH of other things i wont be getting into rn 😭 and so i cannot afford to be lounging around in any way whatsoever right now!! this is the socmed app i spend the most time on and i tend to tell myself its ok cause im not replying to notifs im just scrolling which is so silly LOL but i need to eliminate that from my life soooo i left

a mini second reason why i left is smth thats gonna be rly hard for me to explain here & im pretty sure probs has smth to do w my ocd (another thing i dont rly like to talk ab that much so idk how many of u know this) but i have this thing where if something negatively impacts me or like if i have a negative association w it it becomes "imperfect" and i acc cannot have it around me like it physically disgusts me and i cant function or think or anything 😭 and thats what was happening w my tumblr account because of how it caused me soooo much procrastination and so little work done 😣 soz if this doesnt make any sense or if its weird but its smth ive had for years now and am slowly working on 😭 my perfectionism is so horrible too and tumblr makes it worse cause im always overthinking what my feed looks like 😫 like i cant have too many talking posts or too many asks or too many reblogs and im always doing them in a way that balances it out in my head and i spiral so bad over it 🙁

ANOTHER reason (wow lots of reasons) is cause ive begun to enjoy my real life so so much these days and dont want to be distracted by being online 😭 i love my friend group i love sixth form i love having a crush i love it all! a lot of my friends r graduating this year as well and so i probs wont be seeing them as often afterwards cause obvs theyre not all applying to unis in our city let alone our country !!! i dont wanna take this year for granted at ALL cause i'll so regret it if i do :(

the second thing im addressing is why i left w out saying anything LOL basically i knew if i posted smth and said my goodbyes i wouldn't commit to it at all 😭 and i need to seriously be disciplined w myself these days if i wanna be rich and traveling the world in 10 years 🫡

i dont know if i'll ever come back but im so so happy i got to know u all whether u knew me from jgracie or discovered me later on after i abandoned her im so glad i got to call u my lovely friends :) i carry a piece of you all wherever i go ♡ you know you'll always know me! i wont deactivate this account but i wont be active on it either unless i decide to fully come back, but if u send me an ask within this week i'll answer it xx

for those of you who are worried about my fics on jgracie, i made a backup account back in the summer and everything ive ever written is reblogged over there :) @cynarchives

[mattdillon]

director's commentary for: sempre la stessa storia and big boys don't cry (they don't ask why)? 🥹

sempre la stessa storia is a fic that i love but i wrestle with a lot.

not because i don't know where it's necessarily going, though i am working through some structural issues. it's because it's essentially a rolling family epic slash hang out fic and it annoys me a lot. i wanted it to be something a little straighter, considering this is a rewrite of another fic. but...

everytime i sit down to work on it or plot it out, i realize i'm writing like. stories in that way my aunts describe watching soap operas mixing with the feeling that the reader is hanging out with everyone here. i'm trying to go from plot a to plot b and instead my notes are basically, "yeah dallas and ponyboy talk for awhile and then hear atreus and vincenzo laughing in the distance and The Don't Know What The Strings Are Between Them."

which frustrates me a little and at the same time probably speaks to how much i love that quartet. i hate that i have to write johnny more in this even though i really wanna break those bitches up. it's so funny when ponyboy initiates a divorce by just smiling at dallas.

as for real nitty gritty commentary, a bullet list to break this up for eyes:

i really enjoy that dallas and johnny have real relationship problems here that feel realistic for them: they bonded over ponyboy's disappearance, they have a lot of physical distance between them due to johnny's longest lasting hesitance with physicality at all, dallas' frustration at lack of intimacy feels like something he shouldn't feel frustrated by cause he knows why johnny is this way and accept sit even though it still bothers him; the fact that johnny's very uncomfortable with dallas' mob style; dallas knowing johnny is and still being bullheaded, etc etc.

the first chapter is a banger actually. writing from atreus' pov, slightly obscuring the very obvious cannibalism, his need to have ponyboy with him was so good. and i love jennifer in that moment; i have at deeply strong visual of how she should look after the arm dinner, with how her face is streaked, her messed up blonde hair, the run in her tights, the broken heel of her shoe in the grass

keeping pony slightly obscured is always a hard task for me. for many reasons, and in order to sort of move the plot along i had to write some "deleted" scenes for him just to make sure i know where we are in his head. i'm contemplating just making them official and drop the mystery or just posting them later as much of it is him with atreus. they're central to this, obviously, so i really treasure them.

big boys don't cry (they don't ask why) has some issues for it too mainly that every time i try to think about a court date, i just think atreus would just show up with a gun and kill bob at the courthouse and like. nobody needs that! so it's obv been a bit delayed, though i'm still thinking the second chapter needs to be tyn talking with atreus and leaving instead of jump to court. tyn has... a lot of feelings about what ponyboy has gone through, as an omega who's been vulnerable himself, as someone who cares a lot about children's welfare, and someone generally incensed about injustice as you well know.

originally i was gonna make the second chapter a nice reunion between menelaus and pony but i am gonna make that a christmas one shot. since mene is the kind of person who'd call estranged family on christmas, he'd be calling atreus just to check on him and then he's going to be shocked that daisy is home. and i love mene and pony's relationship so much 🥹 he's a good big brother to ponyboy. on the more technical side, i really am pleased with that opener and having the crow be a signal of badluck. it's greekverse and working in things like that is so much fun for me. (and yknow helen mention!!!!).

[kitofawriter]

Spoilers for LMK Season 5 Episodes 1 and 2 (again) below the cut!!

Better audio! Let’s go!

The intro, my beloved!

Tired MK, nap now or you may never get the chance.

“Way batter monkey mountain” I missed that before.

SpongeBob style zoom in is hilarious

“I already said the thing!”

SWK wants MK to be as immortal as he is, of only so they can play fight without him holding back at all. I can feel it.

They destroy mountains in the show more than anything else.

MK, The Small Sage of ignoring his problems until they go away except they never go away.

“A surprise?” The fact that this many thousands of years old monkey is so excited for surprises is adorable.

Mac doing his lurking.

“You really are the worst mentor” Mac, I love you, but you are not any better. Remember the anime style video game?

“We” will get me every time.

I kinda wonder is LBD was actually the one to like, fully bring Mac back or if someone else did and he doesn’t remember.

“You need to do better” you’re not being super fair there, like SWK is trying. Maybe step up and also be a monkey mentor if you’re so concerned.

Pigsy doing his fast little hammer trying to get it finished faster.

MK, if you weren’t ready why did you call him over?

The house!! Genuinely hope nothing happens to it this season. (Tell me it’s not gonna become this shows version of the Bounty)

I was so distracted my the pictures I didn’t notice the drawings!!! OMG!!! MK you’re the best!!

Love Mei in those overalls BTW, super cute.

Hugs!!!

It’s funny that MK can activate Tangs power for him.

It’s interesting to see that the only major difference with the animation is the characters. Like the cinematography is still really similar. It’s just rigged animation now.

If anyone has any insomniac!MK getting comforted by Pigsy (or any of his dads) fic recs, please share them because this is the good stuff.

Also MK is the anti Steven Universe. Steven collects moms and MK collects dads. (But obvs Pigsy is like number 1 Dad. Pigsy gets the worlds greatest dad mug and Tang, Sandy, and SWK all get mugs that say “backup dad” and then a number in order of when he met them. Because I think it’s funny.)

I love how Pigsy knows forcing him to bed is 100% the wrong thing to do here. Like this is something he’s dealt with multiple times.

MK cooks like I do. It’s okay MK, I don’t know how to freestyle either, that’s why I’m the baker of the family.

The animation shift of the food that’s missing something and the finished thing is so nice. I lost how it shifts from looking bland to looking SOO GOOD.

I want those noodles.

Baby MK!!

I would die for Pigsy. Like, he’s such a good character.

I wonder if the burning of FFM is canon and if Mac helped save all the baby monkeys. That would make sense as to why they cling to him.

Every season MK gets further and further for a good nights sleep, for only pennies a day, you could sponsor a monkie kid and help him receive a nap. In return, he will be well rested to prevent monsters from destroying the city.

Team Let MK Rest!

Little monkeys are scared. It’s okay little monkeys, they won’t destroy your mountain this time, probably, maybe.

Episode 2 time!

Took a break because internet was being mean to me. (Wouldn’t load)

Have I mentioned how much I love the new intro?

SWK is unimpressed with the lords of the underworld’s intimidation tactics

I love how MK still uses/wears Monkey King merch even though they’re friends now. Do you think SWK has a closet full of unreleased merch he has saved to give MK as gifts? Because MK would love that.

Mac is also unimpressed. Very “been here done this before”.

Ace attorney MK!!!

“We have brought a power even greater than yours” *brings out Nezha and Li Jing* did you guys read JTTW? Because like…beating these guys was how SWK got recognized as the Great Sage Equal to Heaven.

Cheeky monkey

The panic in Mac’s eyes when he realizes what’s happening is fascinating.

I kinda wonder where they got the fillet, cause in the book they were given to Guan-Yin by Buddha. I doubt Buddha was like “you need to subdue the Monkey King again? Yeah sure, have this super powerful thing”

Also SWK still trying to comfort MK even when dealing with this thing.

Your honor, they are divorced.

Tang is the only one who can teach MK anything.

Painted style sections my beloved.

“It’s his lawyer bit.” They’re both so used to MK’s antics

SWK’s obnoxious younger brother vibes whenever Nezha is present are my favorite.

Heaven getting flashbacks to SWK’s last rampage

I think there should be a running gag that MK’s style and Sandy’s style are total opposites so every time MK rebuilds something of Sandy’s there’s a little chibi Sandy mourning the new look. It’s be funny.

You know Mac, if you just portaled Wukong into the truck sooner you probably wouldn’t have gotten caught.

Also sad SWK face will always get me.

[mochiwrites]

Hi Mochi I have a question regarding songbird and Scar's relationship with Joel, Etho and Bdubs.

So they seem like pretty good friends and they used to live together at some points and stuff and tbh I love their dynamics so much and I was a big enjoyer of the fic they were all in together it was very good soup- and anyway with Scar having that recurring theme of loneliness and all and Tubbo saying that one time to Grian that he doesn't think Scar has many friends, are Etho and Joel and Bdubs people that Scar does see as friends? Like does he think of them as friends in his head comfortably or did he go through that phase like he did with Grian about not wanting to see them as friends? I know his relationship with them isn't like his with Grian and Mumbo (obv cause they're in love :P) cause Grian is a human so Scar struggled with being his friend cause he was a naive human and because he was falling in love with Mumbo and left so he wouldn't have to deal with it.

(I'm very bad with words so I hope my question came off understandable :P)

Anyway hope you're doing well <333 and hope you're taking care of yourself and not working too hard!! On fics or life. :))

your question absolutely comes off as understandable <333

I think those three are probably the only people who scar would call friends. their history together goes wayyy back (etho and joel only even met scar because they were hunting him 👀 but things happened and well! no longer out to get him)

at first, I think both scar and etho looked at their relationship as purely transactional since scar was someone who they went to when they needed help with hunting. but eventually that stopped (probs when etho and joel lived with him) and they started to view their relationship as Something like friendship :D

[imaginespazzi]

Nivi! Babes, another weekly update?? Be careful, a girl could get used to this 😂 It also inspired me to get this review to you asap cause like you, the next couple months are gonna get pretty busy for me so my future thinkpieces may also be a bit delayed!

First off, Jana and Azzi are lowk my favourite UConn duo (outside of Paige & Azzi obvs) like that is her surrogate child fr so I’m always eating up their scenes! And I’m glad to see Jana continue living up to her menace ways and passing that on to Stephie.

Also, can I just say, I love this GSV team already. Manifesting this irl.

Speaking of manifesting, universe look away from all the angst that Nivi has and continues to cook up. We are only ever manifesting the CUTE FLUFFINESS and the CHAMPIONSHIPS, like that UConn 2025 (and 2026) natty 😌.

“You gotta let that hurt go Aunty Joy” – gotta be one of my favourite lines you’ve ever written I swear 😆

Stephie really was just a lil menace this whole scene, the “nevermind… it’s just Aunty Liyah” - she cracks me up bruh, like she really does not care about anybody else not named “Mama” or “Miss Buecks” 😭

Their poor teammates putting in all that unpaid and under-appreciated labour and they don’t even have a single clue about the family drama they’re about to be put through.

All the Paige, Azzi and Stephie scenes had me smiling so fkn hard (well, not the last one but we’ll get to that later)!! It was just so domestic and fluffy and so real. The entire scene while they were unpacking in the master bedroom has my whole heart, especially when Stephie hugged Azzi from behind and had that cute, playful moment together, and knowing Paige was burning that vision into her eyelids.

Ok so Paige can’t just go around saying these things- “I’m just telling you I don’t wanna be alone tonight” and “just like your Mama used to”- so casually. I just feel like Azzi could ask Paige to move in with her and Stephie; heck Azzi could propose to her right there, right now, and Paige would say “yes” in a heartbeat (despite everything that’s happened) and it breaks my heart that Paige can’t have that.

The SLAM cover shirt! I definitely started crying at this point. “I couldn’t let it go” was the breaking point.

And then the final scene. Something about you writing chapter 4s that absolutely wreck me. Because I still vividly remember part 4 of the ucla fic, which to this day, still has one of my all-time favourite angst scenes. And you go and continue that trend with this part 4 scene.

Just when we think we’re in our fluff era, in typical Nivi fashion, you pull the rug out from under us (I know there were warning bells, but like Azzi, I chose to ignore that 😤). Azzi frantically trying to get Stephie and go, Stephie not knowing what’s happening and P helplessly watching on– ugh, just thinking about it physically pains me.

Don’t even talk to me about the “Miss Buecks I wanna stay. Can I please stay?”. That was too much Nivi, too much!

“She’s gonna want you forever… and she can’t have you forever” and “you’re not gonna have time for her and missing you is going to kill her and the guilt of that is going to hurt you” – man, this was such a perfect way of giving us an insight /teaser about why they broke up and oof, I had a feeling it was gonna be something like this. Side note: I had the Sad Beautiful Tragic bridge running through my mind on a loop once I read those lines.

I know we don’t have all the details yet, but I can understand Azzi’s fear of being left behind (funny knowing that had always been Paige’s fear in life until Azzi came along) or thinking that she was holding P back someway somehow as P entered the league with her star shining brighter and brighter. And so, I imagine the last line parallels what she thought back then too, which was that she might as well crack her and Paige’s hearts before they got to a point where if (although in Azzi’s mind, it was probably more like when) it broke, it could never mend again. I could be wrong but that was my interpretation!

But like Azzi, bruh, it’s PAIGE. Your soulmate. Your best friend. The yin to your yang. She’s never gonna leave you (and Stephie) behind (right, Nivi???). Plus, y’all are already attached, like it’s too late anyway!! So take that leap of faith, princess! And I need you to take it ASAP cause I wanna get back to the FLUFF, please.

What’s next?

Refer to the last dot point above.

But also, I recall you saying something about a beautiful French teammate?? We can still explore that.

No actually, what I need is a scene where some woman tries to talk to Paige and maybe is getting a little too close or too handsy and Stephie immediately comes barrelling in between and sternly says “we’re going home to Mama now, miss, so goodbye”

I’m assuming Azzi and Stephie have seen Tim and Katie throughout the past month? Do Tim and Katie know that Stephie’s basically found her other mom now?? Honestly, Tim and Katie probably have their own bet going lmao.

The thing is, while that last scene broke me, I also know that’s probably just scratching the surface when it comes to the angst, but I just don’t know if I can take much more 😭 You still haven’t even gotten to the Drew and Azzi angst yet like omg, my poor heart 💔💔

Favourite line/quote:

It’s their SLAM cover t-shirt and Azzi feels tears prickling at her waterline as she’s met with the picture of a younger version of the two of them. Back when they’d been so hopeful and carefree, ready to take on the world as long as they could do it together. Back when they’d been 2 in a million.

Alrighty, enjoy the rest of your week bestie, and hope you and everyone else are enjoying the Olympics so far (Aussie, Aussie, Aussie… finish that off for me Nivi 🎤😜). Also, in woso news, did you see about the potential live stream of Sam and Kristie watching the Australia vs USA match – I would loooove that (though we’d prolly lose cause our defending is shocking atm 😭)

Catch you later bestie, hopefully in another week’s time 🤞😬💗

-🙋‍♀️

BESTIE!!! Lmao do not get used to it, we all know I'm gonna disappoint you eventually (probably this week.)

Big Jana and Azzi fan here fr fr so I'm glad we're all on board.

I lowkey giggled to myself writing that line so I'm glad it hit because personally, I think Stephie might be the funniest person ever between that and the accidental "oh it's just Aunt Liyah" shade. She's just a girl with priorities.

I'm kind of in love with Paige-Azzi-Stephie as a trio so honestly writing fluff is really growing on me (no this doesn't mean the angst will stop tee hee)

The issue with Paige and Azzi in this fic is that Paige says everything she feels and Azzi holds everything in. It's actually a very volatile combination even though Paige isn't lying and Azzi's got good intentions.

I couldn't miss up a chance to add in some real life lore, you know me.

"In typical Nivi fashion" has me dying like damn I've built up a reputation huh?

I have a fair amount planned with why Azzi said no and what was happening in her brain. It wasn't just one thing for Azzi but a couple of things that made her hesitant and from where she's coming from, she's not necessarily wrong.

Fluff soon! (but how soon? and will it last? mwahhaha!)

YES beautiful French teammate that you and a couple of anons have reference, she's coming!

WAIT I LOVE THAT! Will definitely see what I can do cause now I'm kinda obsessed with the idea.

Bueckers and Fudd family reunions are going to be fun to right for sure!

I AM NAWT FINISHING THAT AUSSIE AUSSIE. Freaking NBC jinxing my swimmers but just you wait, we're gonna fight back! Between Sam-Kristie and Preath, my Pazzi shipper heart is yearning for the same from our favorite gays, hopefully soon!

[r3v0lver-0c3lot]

17 and 25 for ask game let's go

mgs ahh answers💀💀💀

anyway

17. there should be more of this type of fic/art

Boss and tiny ocelot!!!!! And in general just boss and ocelot and sorrow family hangouts (not just where ocelot is small, it'll be cool if they spent time together in snake eater). i've seen some of these and they really remind me of my childhood and because ocelot and boss are russian it'll be cool if there was some fic or art about ocelot's (non-existent) childhood (but this is an au so it doesn't matter that it contradicts the canon idgaf) like how he went to school (bc i love memes about slavic school some funny shit is bound to happen there) and how during summer he went to the countryside w/ his family and they lived in a small cottage house (dacha, if you will) and they cooked pirozhki and borsch and whatever. i do love my country's culture (NOT THE POLITICS OBV AND ALL THAT CONSERVATIVE SHIT HELL NAW) and i LOVE the boss and ocelot's dynamic (also the boss reminds me of my mom) so seeing them in this kind of familial childhood settimg really resonates with me. i also HATE HATE HATE LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I HATE when russian aus are being reduced to adidas vodka drugs smoking depression gopnik internal homophobia type shit like stop making every character act like a drug addict alochoholic swine with no manners and or morals. so i think those type of aus where its russian summer and swimming in the river and playing in the field outside of the big cities or going to school and doing some whacky shit are much better to me at least. not just because they kick me in the ribs and bash my bones with nostalgia and bitter happiness of the time i never am going to come back to, but also because it doesn't transform my favourite characters into some carricature pieces of shit and actually shows a good side of my culture. ALSO. more ocelot speaking russian. i've seen fanart where he's a kid and he walks round with the boss and they see a cat and he point at it and says "Кошка!" (wich means cat!) and i legit cried bro not even joking give me stuff like this again

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

i am going to jeff the kill anyone who says oH rIsInG iSnT cAnOn It RuInEd RaIdEnS cHaRaCtEr WOMP WOMP YOU FUCKING CUNT🖕🖕🖕 oh really? why? because in mgs4 he decided to say with rose and LiTtLe JoHn?? do you fucking hear yourself? did you play the game with your eyes AND ears closed? did you turn off your console like you were told to in mgs 2? fission mailed. fucking listen. in mgs4 rose left raiden because he had ptsd flashbacls and was drinking and fighting in the streets and couldn't control himself. i mean she left him to trick the patriots but this doesn't undo all the problems with his mental state wich obviously will cause a problem in a relationship one way or the other. and then by the end of the game he's like nah id win and decides to say with rose and also he now has a child. fucking great. you're not a monster jack. well except for the fact that his ptsd and trauma and desire for violence (eben if its to protect someone, wich is exactly what he does in rising) does not magically disappear just because yall say it did. he decided to say with his family but nobody including raiden himself didn't do anything for him to heal so if it didn't work before why would it work now when nothing changed. wich is why rising exists in wich i think he was standing here and realised that it won't work and continued going along with his violent urges wich is sad but makes more sense for his character and also this time he uses his desire and power to protect children from being made into child soldiers like he once was. so yeah mgs4 raiden arc can fuck off and Rising is based as hell for shoving 4's ending in the ass and making a better arc for him

[blackbird-brewster]

50 JJ/Emily Fic Prompts (Fluff)

For @cargopantsprentiss but anyone can use these! They’re from my endless list of Jemily prompts that’s been an ongoing project for about eight years now :D

JJ, Emily, and Henry are all baking together when Emily burns her finger and starts swearing in one of the six fluent languages she speaks and Henry ends up repeating some of those words.

During a case involving politics - Emily has to adopt her "Ambassadors daughter" persona. JJ won’t let her live it down

The 5 times Emily and JJ accidentally see each other naked.

The 5 times Emily and JJ "accidentally" kiss.

5 Times Emily says "JJ, I swear to god" (obv based on the poker machine scene, but do what you want).

5 Times Emily was compared to her mum.

5 Times JJ proves she isn't as innocent as everyone thinks

5 Times Emily proves she is too good at compartmentalising.

Emily and JJ platonically share a bed. Definitely not platonic sleep groping happens.

(AU) JJ is a stressed uni student, Em is an insomniac. They meet at a convenience store at 2am.

Emily gets super wasted on her Birthday and confesses her love for JJ and JJ is like, well no shit we're married you fool.

(AU) JJ and Pen are travelling together - Emily is the tour guide.

Pre jemily- Sergio goes missing. JJ finds him.

(AU) JJ and Em live in the same building - they meet when the fire alarm goes off at 3am.

Emily keeps asking JJ out - JJ keeps saying no - until she says yes. 

Em goes with JJ to her parents to support her in coming out 

Everyone keeps teasing them about their age gap and Em gets self conscious.

 Emily goes with JJ to her high school reunion

At the start Henry doesn't like Emily but she finds a way to win him over

Em wears a ridiculously expensive and nice silk shirt or something and JJ HAS to touch it (they just met)

Emily and JJ try to "out gay" each other

Emily interrogates JJ after her chocolate goes missing

(AU) Emily is a yoga instructor - It's JJ's first class

The team show up at Emily's house and accidentally start profiling and noticing that Emily must be living with someone (oops it’s JJ)

It's halloween and Emily goes as a vampire- because she has already been staked.

(AU) JJ is one of Morgans jock friends and gets introduced to Emily (Emily still being a complete nerd)

Sometimes Emily compartmentalises too well and forgets she is human, JJ reminds her

The team visit Emily in London

Emily and Morgan have a competition on who can be the best spouse, much to the amusement of JJ and Pen 

For some reason Emilys proposal gets interrupted, so she spends all day/ week whatever waiting for JJs answer

Emily helps JJ study for the profilers exam

(AU) JJ is on a holiday and asks a stranger for directions. Stranger is Emily.

JJ thinks she is being subtle with her attraction to Emily, but what she doesn't realise is how often she looks at Ems boobs. Emily has notified and has started teasing JJ

(AU) JJ and Henry take their pet to a vet. Emily is the vet.

JJ gets annoyed af Emily taking 10 mins to make a cup of coffee (cause in my mind Emily has a fancy hard to use machine, and JJ is used to instant)

Emily spends days researching to impress JJs Mom before going to Christmas dinner 

JJ assumes something minor of Emily, but Emily works incredibly hard to prove her wrong

JJ is visiting her parents. Emily is still DC and hasn't been sleeping due to night mares. JJs spidey senses tingle so she come home

Emily accidentally gets high from a pot brownie at one of Garcia’s bake club parties. JJ has to baby sit.

Emily spends days planning a sweet romantic date. Only JJ doesn't know its a date

Emily spends all night secretly building Henry a swing set (or cubby house)

Emily buys a new pantsuit which is well tailord and tight and JJ cant focus

JJ attempts to make Emilys sparse Batchelor pad into a home

Emily gets thrown in the water while wearing a white shirt. JJ is staring

Emily and JJ bump into each other speed dating

JJ tries learning a language to impress Emily

Emily and JJs first date. Emily books a table at the best restaurant. They get out the front and JJ says that that resturant isnt them. So Emily takes them to a small local pizza place instead

extreme Bachelorette extraordinaire Emily Prentiss attempts to become domestic for JJ

(AU) JJ is apart of a casual women soccer league, Emily jogs past every week.

JJ is stressed when her babysitter flakes (No Will) and Emily volunteers to step in to look after Henry

[borom1r]

THANK @theshakespearetrash FOR MORR QUESTIONS IMMMMMNNN VERY HIGH ive never RPed as John Marlott but ive written 2 fics for him tht counts right? right

(ask meme)

1. Is your muse afraid of death?

he wants to die so bad. + then he does and his family is gone AND his rest is stolen from him 💔 so no. but it’s very sad

2. What is your muse’s kill count? 

huh. that’s a good question actually. I think.. huh. not many? Hervey’s henchdude in s1 and i think someone else?? im very high rn he killed the one dude in s2 to escape the asylum n there’s a lotta death that follows him but like 2? 3? ppl HE kills on screen.

ofc that’s not touchin on the war/anything pre-canon in his work. + he blames himself for the death of his wife and child so those Could be counted

3. What is your muse’s biggest fear? 

everyone he loves dying. + hey guess what happens in canon!!

4. How easy is it to anger your muse?

not very. he knows the dance of Polite Society Manners and can keep his composure. he might be stern but it’s rare that he Actually gets angry. until his sanity starts slipping but u know that’s beyond his fuckin control

5. What is your muse’s biggest regret? 

everything tht happened w his wife n child

6. Does your muse believe in an afterlife? 

LOL yea but he doesn’t get to go thereeeeee

7. How many scars does your muse have?

HM. many. lots on his back n obvs the scars from Hervey. bet he has quite a few more tho

8. Does your muse tend to bottle things up?

yes but not.. mm, not consciously i think. he’s just so used to isolation that i don’t think he even Fathoms opening up to someone as a possibility

9. What is one thing that would break your muse?

HRM. well. Flora’s death does, one could argue. at least it starts the steep downward spiral into his rebirth and further decline following his institutionalization

10. Does your muse have nightmares? What about?

obviously yea + im fucking insane abt him. barking like a dog @ Sean Bean fucking gutting himself with fabric shears

11. Would your muse kill for someone they care about? 

oh yea ofc he would. of course he would.

12. What was the worst injury your muse has received?

does it count as an injury if it happened postmortem? i think the psychological trauma caused by it means it counts. the surgical wounds from Hervey

13. How much pain can your muse withstand? For how long? 

s1? a fair amount of pain for quite a long time. s2? the man’s a corpse. he got coffin shrapnel in his side and fuckin walked home. he’s fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine he’s fine don’t ask

14. What was the most traumatic moment in your muse’s life?

Hervey’s bullshit forever. hate that man hitting him w bricks unironically

15. How often does your muse cry? Do they view it as weakness?

RARELY + feel like he’s probably neutral abt it conceptually he’s just so used to being completely alone. i think emotions are kind of just a numb ache for him for a while. + then of course he bonds w Flora and Nightingale and then Everything Goes To Hell And Crashes And Burns

16. If your muse could talk to one person they’ve lost, who would it be? 

HM. his wife i think. bc he at least got the closure of seein Flora + Nightingale reunited. but he never got to see his wife even Before his rebirth

17. Does your muse consider themselves a good person? Why or why not? 

HRM. s1? no i think he’s neutral to himself at BEST. s2……….. nooooooooo but also yes kind of i think Esther really helps him see the good in himself. so by the end of s2 Yes but only then

18. Does your muse think they’re capable of changing? Do they even want to?

OH. very good question. does he? i think he feels like he Has to believe in change bc Esther and Flora and Nightingale did ultimately play a role in changing him for the better. and Hervey changed him for the worse. but also these r all external forces effecting him not like. himself. can he? I don’t think so. I think if he thought abt it he’d think that he himself is stagnant. it’s like pond ripples. if you lob a rock into water there’s already rocks in the bottom of that bitch so the only real change is surface distortion and a little more weight. and ultimately the ripples stop and the water settles. maybe it’s cloudier bc sediment got stirred up. maybe it’s clear, who knows. Still just a fuckin lake. does that make sense? idk man I cried in a theater today + toook too many edibles he’s himself. that’s an answer

[chiyoso]

𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍.

• BEFORE YOU INTERACT. know that you are entering a space made with both great effort, and consistent inconsistency. content creation wise, i value quality over quantity, my mental health over anything else. it's difficult, handling all these things with a declining motivation, and for now, it doesn't seem to have a limit as my motivation continues to plummet. it's abyssal, and it's wicked, cruel. i sympathize wholeheartedly to those suffering from it.

╰► AND AS I FIGHT; against everything negative, i've been less active, less interactive, and etcetera, solely because of this unwanted stress. so, if you still plan on sticking around, and i mean this from the bottom of my heart, thank you. for you, your time, and your loving support. i can't thank you enough, truly. it means the world and beyond to me.

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• DO NOT INTERACT IF; you become weak to mentions of blood, heavy descriptions of fighting, injuries, murder, war, death, mental health, sensitive and heavy topics, relationship triggers, traumatic events, suicide, age gaps, cheating, vulgarity, and many more dark themes — all of these fall under the category of dead dove: do not eat.

╰► I DON'T WANT INTERACTIONS KNOWING; these categories will make you upset or uncomfortable, i'm thinking of your physical and mental health over here, and i don't want to deal with anything related to complaining unless it's for a solid and valid reasoning.

• MUTUALS. becoming mutuals with me is a double edged sword. if you become a mutual, it's a miracle - for me, cause i don't expect my struggling, introverted ass to make friends n' connections and actually have the energy to maintain them cause of how easily burnout and exhaustion hits me, but, do know that i love and appreciate you all genuinely.

𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐃𝐔𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍.

• THE MANY FANDOMS I'M IN; jujutsu kaisen, genshin impact, undead unluck, honkai star rail, honkai impact 3rd, frieren, wuthering waves, demon slayer, tokyo revengers, windbreaker, AOT, welcome to the ballroom, haikyuu, mystic messenger, obey me, love & deepspace, the ssum, epic seven, zenless zen zero, LoL, valorant, and more weeb things. / ··· tba.

• CHARACTERS I WILL WRITE FOR; gojo satoru, geto suguru, scaramouche/wanderer, alhaitham, lyney, neuvillette, fushiguro toji, fushiguro megumi, kento nanami, ryomen sukuna, muzan kibutsuji, shinzugawa sanemi, rengoku kyojuro, rengoku shinjuro, ken ryuuguuji (draken), hanma shuji, blade, jing yuan, welt yang, nanook, lan, argenti, gepard landau, luka, dr. veritas ratio, jiaoqiu, moze, sunday. / ··· tba.

• GENRES/TAGS I'LL WRITE; nsfw, sensitive and heavy topics, female reader, breeding, degrading, cum kinks, praise, fluff, angst, depression, comfort, no comfort, headcannons, thirsts, drabbles, submissive, dominant, hate sex, somnophillia, non-con, overstimulation, public fucking, masturbation, age gap (21+ reader obv), violence (for plot), aphrodisiacs, possessiveness, obsessive tendencies, fighting, realistic, modern au, smau, death, trauma, crossovers, dumbification, husband/wife, older characters, minority (only purely platonic), dark content, pregnancy, cheating, mental health, personal letters, song recommended fics, and more things that fall into the warning category of dead dove.

• I WON'T EVER WRITE; anything i'm uncomfortable with.

╰► TO AVOID CONFLICT; in regards to not writing for the opposite sex or the transgender pov, i simply cannot. i'm inexperienced in that field, and even i struggle a lot when writing the female pov as well. understand that i am not able to because i am female myself, and even if i do take the route to research, i'm still bound to get things wrong on some to most aspects with how nitpicky others are.

𝐐&𝐀𝐬.

• AGED UP CHARACTERS?

tempting. for some characters. as for characters like yanqing, or literally any minor, i'm not one to age up ones that are canonically young until said to be older, with that established, i will only be writing platonicallg for characters like him.

• DO YOU WRITE—?

yes. most likely. seek genres/tags i'll write section again.

• ARE THESE REALLY YOUR EDITS?

mmhm, all of the media, dividers, banners and layouts shown in my blog are all from me and edited by me. please don't copy what took ages for me to finally settle on, thank you. besides, every edit (except for dividers) has a well hidden watermark and cleverly placed.

• REQUESTS/COMMISSIONS?

i'm not in the right mental state to fulfill requests quickly in contrast to other writers, but, do feel free to pitch in ideas and, i'm actually considering comms for my editing work, but let me know if you wanna support me that way.

• WHY'RE YOU SO SLOW AT POSTING/ANSWERS?

quickly declining loss of motivation, neverending burnout, pent-up stress and bottled up feelings, unresolved and non-salvageable conflicts, self-rehabilitation, lack of self dicipline, inconsistent and unhealthy sleep schedule, more irl problems, adulthood, escapism, unhealthy coping mechanisms, trying to focus on emotional and physical wellness, seeking out irl hobbies, and more personal things.

╰► BUT DESPITE OF IT ALL; at least, i am living proof, that no matter the situation, resistance and endurance only continues to build through time, and i will strive to be someone's anchor out there, someone's hope, that giving up, is out of the question, expressed through my stories. so, if it inconveniences you, that i'm not as quick, or as consistent, or interactive like other writers you know and love, by all means, free yourself from me. let's not make it harder than it is.

[nogenderbee]

Ik this is random but when i see your writings it makes me go :DD, and also made me feel comforted<33

But really, im in a bad situation right now, and your fics made me not give up?? Your fics comforted and maybe saved me?? And also made me smile,giggle and even kick my feet🥲, your fics are generally my comfort, cause when i have a bad day i just read your fics it makes me forget all of my struggles yknow? Sometimes, i would screenshot your fics so that i could read them when im offline.. i also love how comforting and supportive you are, i sometimes see anons venting and you would comfort them, it also made me feel comforted even if it isnt a message for me, i will forever worship and defend you til i die<3333

(im just saying this rn cause, rn im having a bad day and your fics made me cheer up)

-miyhhowrites🎙️

AWGHFAHDTA STOP I'M CRYING This is honestly the best compliment I've ever got I think ToT I'm so happy my fics can bring you that sort of comfort <3 AND OMG THE SCREENSHOTING I swear I did that too!! Now I have little time to read and look for new fics but I remember doing the same! So I'm really happy to be that someone for you, dear anon <3 And don't worry, if you ever want to vent, all you need to do is text me! I know how hard life can get and sometimes you just need to shout your mind out or hope for advice, even if it's obvious one. So know I don't mind hearing you vent as long as it won't be overally triggering for me as well which happens rarely ^^

You're doing great, remember it! It's important you have something you like so you can brighten your day and I'm definitely not giving up on writing any time soon because it's honestly my passion! I know I'm rambling here kinda but all I want to say is... Please take care of yourself, put yourself on first place and don't force any uncomfortable situations for you UNLESS your therapist says it's good for you (but you're still free to say no obvs) or if you're sure it'll be good for you! Those are the only exceptions!

Did my ego go high here for a bit-? I think? Oh well, I'm so happy rn I can let myself do so ^^ Thank you again, dear anon <33 You honestly made my day with this!

[earlgreytea68]

Hello! You recently mentioned that you were listening to Taylor Swift’s new album quite a lot, and honestly, same ))) I wanted to know what songs are your fave, obvs, but also, which ones you find more interesting, captivating, clever? Which one got the best lyrics, which one best music and rhythm? Basically, what I’m trying to say, talk Midnights to me, please :)) P.S. I almost forgot to ask, if any of the songs got you thinking of fob?)

With pleasure!!

My favorite song on Midnights is Question...? and my favorite, like, passage of Midnights is Question...?, Vigilante Shit, and Bejewelled. I adore every single one of those songs and I think that's the strongest stretch of three songs on the whole album. I have seen some hate for Bejewelled and some of its lyrics make me cringe but also like it's totally what I would want to play as an anthem to perk myself up.

I actually love all the songs on the album, except for Labyrinth, which I find a bit dull, tbh, but that happens! But this album just *moves* and it's full of great refrains and the usual perfect bridges and sometimes I think Jack Antonoff gets to be a bit too self-indulgent of his quirks (I really hate the effect on the bridge of Question...?) but mostly I love when Jack Antonoff and Taylor Swift make music together and I appreciated that this album just felt...really fun and less earnest than evermore? I love folklore, but evermore just kind of felt like too much to me, and I'm happy to be going back to having more fun.

I've listened to Question...? the most, and I was just thinking as I was listening to it tonight that I feel like it's kind of crept in to influence my Christmasfic this year, like, its attitude full of "what if"s, and that line about "I just may like to have a conversation," like, all my characters about each other hahaha they're all longing for a conversation. Idk, the relationship in Question...? just feels so instantly complex and interesting to me, like, I want to know so much more about those two people.

Sweet Nothing is kind of a theme song for all of my characters, though, I feel like every fic I write is about a Sweet Nothing kind of love.

Mastermind is totally a Mattrick song from Swan Song. It doesn't sound like a song Matt would sing or write, but it's a song Matt would *think,* if that makes sense.

In general I really appreciated how this album was Taylor kind of accepting that you've got be a bit of a schemer to be a success, which is a theme of Swan Song, too, and so it resonated with me. I mean, Anti-Hero is also very Matt Usher: One day I'll watch as you're leaving 'cause you got tired of my scheming. I like to see Taylor owning "I'm smart and that's okay."

Okay, my favorite lyric on the whole album is: I'm the wind in our free-flowing sails and the liquor in our cocktails. ...Ugh, I just love that line.

I also love, also from Mastermind, "I'm only cryptic and Machiavellian because I care," ha, makes me laugh.

Mastermind is just so tropey, she just writes a trope song so well, that's just a full story, beginning to end, and when you're done you think, ...I've read that fic and it was GREAT, Idk. Her songs can sometimes feel like an entire ship, self-contained.

"Draw the cat eye sharp enough to kill a man," is, I think, a great opening line, even though I've seen some people hating on it. I think it's great! And I also enjoy "situation-ship" as a term in Glitch. And "no one sees you lose when you're playing solitaire" from Dear Reader.

In general I like the refrain of Karma and appreciate what she's doing there but "karma is a god" just always completely throws me, it's, like, all these metaphors of what karma is and it just feels like that one could also be personal to Taylor: her cat, her boyfriend, her beautiful weekends, her relaxing thoughts....a god. Idk, it bothers me every single time I hear it lol

Okay, so, Fall Out Boy-wise. Taylor Swift is on the record that Pete Wentz is basically her favorite lyricist of all time and that she's been influenced by him, and sometimes I feel like I can sense that influence. Sometimes she does something and I think, That's a total Pete Wentz move. And sometimes it works, but sometimes I think it just doesn't work, because actually what Pete Wentz does is incredibly hard and he makes it look like just anyone can stumble into all those perfect double and triple meanings but it's really, really hard to do. So, to be unkind, that "Get it off your chest, get it off my desk" in "Lavendar Haze" reminds me of a Pete Wentz move, to take an idiom with words in common and juxtapose them (like broken hearts and broken stallions that I just wrote about). But to me it doesn't work here, I don't get it, what are you getting off your desk, why are these two things going together? Is it that you're talking about her relationship and she doesn't want it on her desk? Idk, I just feel like the juxtaposition there doesn't really add anything. She does it again in The Great War: You drew up some good faith treaties, I drew curtains closed. I feel like that one is slightly more successful.

I also appreciate when a Taylor song picks up some Pete Wentz tropes, like in Maroon when she's like "laughing with my feet in your lap like you were my closest friend," or in "You're on Your Own, Kid," with "He's gonna notice me, it's okay, we're the best of friends," yeah, Pete Wentz also is always trying to figure out if someone is his lover or his best friend lol.

Also, "don't put me in the basement when I want the penthouse of your heart" could have been the name of one of Pete Wentz's LJ entries lolololol

And High Infidelity is such a Fall Out Boy title, Pete Wentz is kicking himself he didn't think of it first

Ironically my very least favorite lyrics on the album are from her collaboration with her other favorite lyricist of all time. I just find Snow on the Beach unbearable lyric-wise, it's just...too much? Like, trying too hard the whole way through? And then culminating in lines I absolutely hate: Your eyes are flying saucers from another planet, I'm all for you like Janet. I just cannot with those two lines. So, I've always had this great fantasy of what could come of a Pete Wentz / Taylor Swift team-up and then I heard Snow on the Beach and was like, ...Idk, never mind lol

[omlwhatamidoinghere]

It's a Saturday night and I'm a Senior in college, obv I'm intoxicated rn and being in such a state makes me think about a lot of things:

I would let Alex Turner do things to me I wouldn't even let my own boyfriend do (this is not a sign that I consent to people writing fics about real people)

Pedro Pascal is becoming more and more famous and it's insane to think how long I've been a fan of his since Game of Thrones and became part of the internet side of things not too long ago is crazy to think about, like, I'm so excited that he has come so far and that more people are joining the fandom (even though some people act like they've been a part of it from the Eddie era, my sweet bby, and also act like they own Pedro and the fandom, taking the whole "Daddy" thing too far. Rookie mistake)

We are all beings on a little marble in the Creator's marble jar

Life is really fucking short, live each moment you get (yesterday- Saturday- has been a week since a friend's funeral which made me realize even more how we never know how much time we each have so live life to the fucking fullest)

Going off of the previous point, keep in touch with people you care about. I haven't seen or spoken to said friend in about 15 years and now his older brother is a parole officer and his younger brother is fresh into college. Talk to those people you think about, whether it be a tect sayinf you love them or simpley "Hey, I was just thinking about you today. Hope all is well!"

Matty Healy and Benedict Bridgerton are the same person written in a different font (both are so nice to look at)

I'm drunk

I haven't drank like this since I went to Florida in November (there's never a sober day in Florida with my family. I'm Italian and Polish so we eat a lot and drink even more)

Idk, I think about a lot of shit

Alex Turner and Matty Healy can both fuck me

I have a lot of horny thoughts because I haven't had sex in a long time because ny boyfrie d and I broke up for a short period of time a few months ago (we got back together after a bit cause we needed to work on stuff, specifically something he did) and I lost confidence in myself because of what he did and some of these men I find attractive make me feel better about myself because of the positive outlooks they have on women

If a celebrity you like says negative things about your gender/sexual identity, they can go fuck themselves

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk. My Max Lord fic (@max--phillips) will be coming out soon along with the first chapter of my Frankie Morales fic😘

[beans-core]

oh yeah babey u know what time it is

raaamble tiiiime

This time around it was Peacemaker! sooo

Peacemaker s1 SPOILERS!!

First off: what does it say about me that my favorite character is Vigilante? lmao

He’s just so… adorkably psychotic?? like the way he’s just giggles and stabs and twirls around is so endearing for reasons I don’t want to psychoanalyze. he’s the absolute worst at social cues too, and that reminds me of myself as a kid lol (without the murder, obvs). Maybe I just like the characters who can kill and fight and be generally badass without being some dark brooding villain of terror. (Probably why I’m so down bad for Harley Quinn too lols) Crazy doesn’t always mean scary! Death is scary, sure, but they have a life outside of killing, ya know? They weren’t just born murderers, it’s something that developed through life, and was defined by actions. So it’s awesome to see little background bits (#bring back filler episodes) that bring the character together, rather than just some “I’m so evil muhuwhaha!!” antagonist type

Eagly? Best boi. the eagle hugs were majestic as fuck. Best pet award. Got way too attached to that damn attack-bird I can’t believe it

And honestly little butterfly Goff as a pet was kind of nice too. Good addition. Fun to see Peacemaker caring for something and treating it with kindness (or as kind as he gets)— and boom, another stereotype shot down too! Because killers aren’t always all “meh meh meh I want to kill everything, living has no meaning at all and everyone will die!!”. Most people have something they care about, and having just some ‘unknown killer motive’ to power all their actions is kinda unrealistic imo. Just cause someone isn’t as moral/ethical doesn’t make them completely uncaring about everything ever. It’s why I love love love well thought out origin stories for characters who’ve just lost it, killer or not.

anywho, that got off topic.

But yes. Vigilante and Eagly are my favorite characters. The bestest.

Peacemaker himself is pretty pathetic, but in that himbo way that makes you want to pat his head and give him hugs. Liked a kicked puppy, but if he was also shredded and wielding a loaded gun?? He reminds me of Jesse Pinkman, for reasons I can’t really place other than the pathetic-himbo energy. Like if Jesse went from twink to twunk and started killing even more people?? Idk man don’t ask me, I can’t explain it. Backstory was tragic as fuck, and I’m glad he shot his dad. Man, if that dude was my dad, I’d probably shoot him too. Hell, I’d go around shooting people as well. Like, there are strong brave people who have been through those level of fucked up and managed to be not homicidal, but i know in my heart of hearts that I wouldn’t be one of those brave people. Minor inconveniences make me want to pitch myself off a bridge— I’m not surviving thag. Also, straight up, I’m going to scour ao3 for a what-if fic of peacemaker’s brother surviving and the two of them becoming crazy white-dragon-fanatic hitmen shitheads. Yesss make him worse and show me what happens yes yesss

Adebayo? Hot girl shit. Seriously had like five different character development arcs within one season, love that for her. And calling out her mother at the end of the last ep was so badass!! Fuck yeah babe, announce that!! Call out the bullshit, remind people that prisoners are people too!! And love when queer couples are casually shown in shows without it being like a huge main point, because yes!! it is a normal relationship!! No need to make a big deal, because queer relationships are just as normal as straight ones!!! The sass, the competency, the morals Ugh yeah she’s amazing great hot 10/10 i was thirsting over her the whole time lmaooo

Harcourt and dye-beard Economos and Murn are sick and awesome too but I genuinely was just more focused on the others whoops. sorry bros

The Butterflies themselves? Weird ass concept. But they’re aliens so not like I can judge the dudes. And I got like seriously sad when little Goff butterfly died??? So emotional and for what… yeah cool aliens wow, but mostly oooooh characters and character development and morality debates hehehaha

From someone who knows jackshit abt the whole DCCU, this is a Dope show def recommend watching (…but NOT THE INTRO 😭 it made me howl laughing the first time I saw it but all the next times I just cringed so hard lmfao)

[hxlda-hxlda]

Okay so I have just finished reading the last chapter that u just uploaded and if u dont mind im gonna rant about It .

First of all Remus and Sirius being paired Up was soo unexpected but im totally here for It . And the pure silence is seriously making me suffer I totally understand why Sirius was being dramatic cause i cant handle awkward silence , It will be the death of me i swear.

Secondly I loved the dorcas and Sirius interactions , well the whole slytherin skittles dynamic tbh .

And the way that Sirius and James hate each other more than Remus and Sirius ...

Thats soo weird and different but for some reason I really like It and am pretty interested in seeing more interactions between them .

Welpp thats all , to lazy to write more .

THANKS FOR THE UPDATE

Cant wait for the next one

thanks for reading dearest!!!!! i do not mind at ALL nothing is more fun than ppl talking to me abt my own self-induced brainrot, so rant away (as i’m now going to)!!!!!

it’s shocking to me it was a surprising turn of events. but then again it was one of the first things i KNEW was going to happen in this fic when i came up with the idea over two months ago, so it’s been rattling around my brain for a while. a lot of this fic is going to be based around those prefect rounds, which i am so thrilled to have play out.

and YES, the awkward looks and silences are everything to me!!! for me high school drama was a lot of just,,, i don’t want to talk to you,,, so i’m gonna sit here in bitter silence,,,, and it will be so fuckin weird,,,, and i love forcing that onto sirius and rem (and all of you) bc ugh. it truly is PAINFUL.

cas and sirius have become one of my favourite dynamics so unexpectedly, but i actually adore them with my whole soul - writing them is so easy and fun.

same with all our skittles. rejoining the marauders fandom after years of absence as i did, the concept of the skittles is something i’ve been discovering slowly (as it fully was not around when i was) and i was in no way expecting to write something so them-centric, but i’m enjoying how my characterisations are turning out (even if they’re a bit different from fanon)!!!!

good god i have so much to say abt sirius, james and remus in this fic. at the end of the day i’m going for this kind of mirror to fanon/canon where sirius and james are THE relationship (obvs they hate each other rn, but it is still a defining duo) and remus feels kind of on the outs as a result, seeing himself as something seperate and perhaps less of a priority as a result.

i could write a whole character study on james just for this fic. one of my main writing considerations is a sirius without a james who has shown him unconditional love. sirius in gryffindor is so different bc of JAMES, the first person to love him so overtly. when he doesn’t have that (even in his skittles in this fic, not in a way that isn’t attached to his family identity (at least in his own mind)), where does that leave sirius? bc then it also means, how do james and sirius develop a relationship when it doesn’t start with a foundation of ‘i chose you as my best mate in yr 1’, yk??? they hate each other already, where do they go from there in the future??? just. ugh. platonic prongsfoot. kills me every fucking time.

cannot wait for the next one as well, she’s a big one!!!! i’ll tell you that.

xx