#cause hes very obviously proved himself to be a complete jackass with no basic respect for anybody.

[evandore]

woke up - slept 18 hours - went on a drive - nan dropped off her car while i was asleep - its. um. well its her Good car - we bought a van - brother is being annoying af like always i need this man to be out of here i swear to fucking god just one month of this bullshit and im literally never talking to him again

[halstudandruz]

Just Another Ex

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Adam Ruzek x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: “You don’t want a partner, you want someone you can boss around and control, and that’s not me.”

Warnings: Swearing, gets kinda sexual?¿ 18+

I was fairly new in intelligence still. I had just been transferred over from a drug unit. I expected that I would have to prove my stay and loyalty which I completely understood, but I didn’t realize how long it would take some people to warm up. In particular my partner Adam. I was attracted to Adam when I first met him, but my attitude towards him changed quickly. It had been over 4 months and Adam was still on my ass daily. We butted heads a lot. Not because we had different opinions, but just because he liked having control. Part of me wondered if it was because I was a girl. He didn’t seem to have a problem with Kim or Hailey, but then again I had heard he had more than just co-worker relationships with them. Regardless it was making my job harder than it had to be in some situations. I understood he had seniority over me, and obviously I respected that, but he just pushed me to the edge sometimes. He constantly acted like he could control me and how I went about things, and it was getting harder and harder to keep my mouth shut. Today we were focused on a case that dealt with a few overdoses thanks to a certain gang, a gang in which I had a lot of insight towards thanks to run ins from my former unit. Every time I had tried to give a run down of what I knew Adam seemed to jump in which was quite honestly getting on my last nerve.

“Trey McGreggor, leader of the East Side Pullers. He runs downtown Chicago between 7th and Frank St.” I informed everyone as they sat around listening.

“How do you know this?” Adam asked leaning against his desk.

“Had a few run ins with him in my last unit he-“ I began to explain before he cut me off.

“Obviously didn’t do much if he’s still out in the streets causing more overdoses.” Adam said as though he was being sarcastic before Voight scolded him. After we had finished going over what we had Voight sent Adam and I to surveillance the area Trey had been operating in. Still in annoyance from his earlier comment I had not spoken a word to him the entire ride there. “You know I was joking right?” Adam asked looking through the binoculars. I shrugged watching out the window. “Come on [Y/L/N], that’s what partners do.” He bumped me.

“No Ruzek. You know what I think? I think you don’t want me as a partner. I think you want someone you can boss around and control, and that’s not me. Just because I’m a female does not mean you can boss me around and treat me like crap.” I spit out harshly not looking at him. When I did glance at him his eyes were wide with shock.

“Hey [Y/N] come on. You know that’s not true.” He whispered sincerely.

“No I don’t know that or else I wouldn’t be thinking it.” I shrugged looking over at him.

“Well it’s not true at all. I’m sorry if I really have done something to make you think that.” He said.

“You really think the way you’ve been acting towards me lately is okay?” I asked letting out a laugh.

“No. I know it’s not, and I’m sorry. I just figured it’d be easier that way.” He explained.

“Easier what way?” I asked.

“Nothing, just forget it. I’m sorry okay?” He sighed.

“No tell me what you’re talking about.” I stated.

“No just forget it.” He basically begged.

“Ruzek stop your shit and just tell me the truth. Why do you hate me? Atleast then I can try to fix it.” I partically yelled.

“You want the truth? The truth is I’m attracted to you [Y/N]. I have been since your first day, but I just cannot have another ex in the unit. I refuse to do it. Okay?” He sighed running a hand through his hair.

“So your plan was to make me hate you instead?” I raised an eyebrow at him.

“Well no I didn’t want you to hate me I just.. I don’t know what I was thinking.” He blushed slightly.

“Who says I would want you anyway.” I asked giving him attitude.

“I... I just... I don’t...” Adam fumbled for words blushing harder now making me laugh.

“Alright I will admit I found you attractive too, but your dick attitude completely turned me off.” I shrugged.

“I promise I’m really not a dick. Most of the time anyway.” He chuckled.

“You’ll have to prove that to me.” I bit my lip looking away from him. “What makes you think it would lead to me being another ex? Do you really have that bad of commitment issues?” I asked curious at how it all went down.

“I don’t know.. I wouldn’t say commitment issues it just all got really complicated. I’ve always looked at you differently than all the others. You made me feel something different when you came in and I got to know you and that scared me even more I guess. I had just met you for goodness sakes and I already wanted to make you... feel things. In ways you’ve never thought you could feel. I still do....” Adam admitted making my heart race and throat go dry. I had not expected this conversation to lead here in the slightest.

“Adam I...” I croaked out, but was at a loss for words. I was so torn. 20 minutes ago I wanted to rip his head off for being the biggest dick I’ve ever met, and now I wanted to jump his bones right in this car in the middle of the work day. I could feel the heat on my face, not to mention the heat between my thighs.

“You don’t have to say anything. I get that you didn’t see that coming or feel the same way. I’ve just been holding that back and needed to get it out.” He chuckled before continuing, “I really am sorry for how I’ve treated you. You are one badass cop and should be recognized for that.” He smiled sincerely at me. I smiled back before getting a terrible idea well terrible for Adam anyway. He had put me through the ringer the past few months so I figured it wouldn’t hurt to do so back for the next couple hours. I very gently slid my hand over to his thigh making him send me a confused look. I smirked leaning into his ear.

“You have no idea the things I would do right now just to hear you moan my name..” I whispered slowly as I rubbed up and down his thigh and very gently ran my fingers over his crotch. I heard his breath hitch and could see him swallow visibly hard. “If we weren’t in this car right now I promise I would be down-“ I continued but stopped as I seen Trey walk up the sidewalk. “Oh look there he is!” I exclaimed leaning back over to my seat and picking up the camera as though nothing had happened. I watched out of the corner of my eye as he tried to adjust himself immediately smirking as I heard a whimper escape his mouth, which did things to me as well if we’re being honest. Adam and I didn’t talk much on the way back to the unit. We had turned the camera over to Voight and had worked on the case more at the district before we were told to go home and rest up for tomorrow. I had just finished changing and shut my locker whenever I saw someone come around the corner making me jump. Once I realized it was Adam I relaxed. “You scared the shit out of me you jackass. I thought you were trying to prove you’re not a dick.” I chuckled going to grab my bag, but he grabbed my waist pushing me up against the lockers before I could.

“You think that was funny? I’ve been in pain all day..” Adam raised an eyebrow pressing his body up against mine. I kept my composure ignoring the heat rising on my face.

“Yes I do actually.” I smirked at him. He bit his lip looking me up and down before he slowly lowered his head and slid his lips over my neck. I couldn’t help the whine that escaped my lips and I could feel his smirk against my skin. “Adam what if someone comes in.” I whispered continuing to enjoy everything he was doing.

“Tell me if you want me to stop.” He whispered into my ear before nipping at it making my knees go a little weak and goosebumps to rise on my skin causing him to tighten his grip on my waist.

“Believe me I don’t want you to stop, but I would rather do this somewhere where I don’t have to worry about being interrupted.” I explained digging my nails into his biceps. He leaned back looking at me.

“Are you sure you want this?” He asked even though he seemed to be fighting himself.

“As long as you promise to stop being a dick I do. What about you?” I asked him. He looked conflicted before he gave in nodding.

“As long as you promise not to end up as just another one of my exs I do.” He smiled sincerely.