#cause he actually relies on ppl to do their part and they do

[iamumbra195]

Y’know, the reason tatsuki probably latched onto Orihime is probably because she lost Ichigo. Not in the literal way but in the sense that Ichigo was probably her closest friend as a kid and even now, she’s still incredibly fond of him but there’s this very palpable distance between them. It’s like when you have a best friend for years and then suddenly you don’t feel like your their best friend anymore while they’re still yours

So when Orihime came along who 1) had orange hair and 2) is the literal embodiment of sunshine like little ichigo, she latched onto her. And then when Orihime got her powers and sort of started to drift away, Tatsuki noticed

she doesn’t like change because change took away her first best friend and now she’s scared of losing her second. But when things don’t change the way she feared they would she doesn’t say anything when she sees Orihime and Ichigo doing weird spiritual stuff, content to ignore it because unlike with Ichigo at first, she and Orihime both began seeing spirits about the same time and supported each other so even if Orihime can fight the monsters there’s like an equalization in their relationship-- Tatsuki protects Orihime from real world stuff and Orihime protects her from spiritual stuff. It’s why their relationship works in a way Ichigo and Tatsuki’s didn’t at first, because Orihime doesn’t stonewall Tatsuki in the same way Ichigo does. At first, anyways.

It even says the Tatsuki can sense her so even if she doesn’t have powers they have a connection on a spiritual level and she’s scared to lose that. So when Orihime disappears out of nowhere with no warning, she’s angry and terrified and she knows exactly who to go to because this kind of stuff only happens around Ichigo

So when he stonewalls her YET AGAIN, she snaps because this time, one of the most important ppl in her life is missing and someone who is supposed to be her friend refuses to tell her anything despite all the time, the years they’ve known each other. It’s double the hurt for her, seeing how little Ichigo trusts her, even in matters that concern others

which is great call out to Ichigo’s issues with trusting ppl and making every little thing his responsibility while refusing to rely on anyone else, adressed by Renji and Rukia later on in the arrancar arc when they yell at him for not waiting for them and trusting them to come back and help

the repeated theme of being asked if they’re friends and why he can’t trust them is just so painful because the difference in thee responses to Tatsuki and Rukia just put into perspective how much Ichigo pushd Tatsuki away since his mom died

That was tatsuki’s breaking point and it’s an accumulation of all the hurt of losing her best friend and hearing him say that probably hurt both her and Keigo and Mizuiro because they’ve been there the entire time, haven’t they? It wasn’t fair for them to be sidelined like this, especially when it’s their friends, when they can see all the weird stuff that’s happening but feel as if they can’t talk to Ichigo because he tries so hard to protect everyone that all he ends up doing is hurting them

once again, Ichigo’s trust issues, even with ppl who can fight, even with ppl who have raided sereitei with him

‘Not strong enough’ is interesting. He tries to deter ppl from helping him and coming to his side because he feels that being around them hurts them, he feels that Orihime’s kidnapping is all his fault. And he does this by hurting them with words.

‘Don’t come near me’ ‘You aren’t strong enough’

Another beautiful call out

Hearing Ichigo say he’ll save Orihime and apologize to her and the others probably made her realize how much he’s been surpressing and how much he’s been hiding from her in a stupid attempt to protect and she hates it, hates how much she understand it because it’s always been in his nature

It makes their friendship post-aizen both bitter sweet and awesome because she finally knows everything but he no longer has his powers so their positions are switched because no she’s the spiritually aware one while he has nothing to hold onto

But she treats him the same nonetheless (Mizuiro and Keigo do as well, Keigo even goes out of his way to check up on Ichigo, after the timeskip to makesure he’s doing okay)

Anyways that’s enough of my rant about the messy friendship that is Tatsuki Ichigo and Orihime :)

A beautiful fic from Tatsuki’s perspective and some cute Ichigo & Tatsuki friendship: https://archiveofourown.org/works/47193712

[mysterycitrus]

I know a lot of ppl ask u abt jason or dick but im wondering now, what do u think about bruce? I find him a very interesting character whose characterization is incredibly feeble, both bc of his 80 years of history and the tendency writers have to project their own male fantasies on him. So i'd definitely love to hear ur own thoughts about him. I personally enjoy depicting him as someone morally grey, although my sympatization for him changes day to day. Wether you think he is a good or a bad person, i believe u need to make him dedicated to gotham and the bat as a symbol, and that comes with all its advantages and drawbacks

bruce wayne is sooooo interesting (derogatory) because like u said, he carries the baggage of every masochismo author that decided batman was too woke and should hurt his kids and that supporting gotham’s infrastructure is for pussies. there’s also the flipside of that, where he’s the perfect father who’s waaaay too emotionally regulated for my taste. both of these interpretations are bad imo, and both functionally miss the point.

i think part of this (in fandom) is an obsession with moral angst — u can either be a good person doing good things, or a bad person doing bad things. think about how some characters are crucified while others are babied. someone always has to be absolutely right, and the other has to be absolutely wrong.

in reality, there are a lot of people who are fundamentally kind and fundamentally want to do good that are really terrible to the people in their lives. bruce wayne being someone who relies on having so much control that it implodes his connections to the people around him is an important part of his character. his profound love for his children, for gotham and her people, for humanity in general and his belief in peoples ability to change, doesn’t circumvent the fact that he’s often an emotionally abusive man who hurts others to achieve his own ends. he contains multitudes.

writing him as a functionally irredeemable, violently abusive person is the anti-thesis to the symbol that he himself created. no, i personally don’t believe he actively beats his kids (even though it’s supported in the text). no, i don’t think he’s an irredeemable sadist (as much as frank miller wants u to believe otherwise). to have people like dick grayson and diana and clark and dinah love and believe in u means that there has to be something there worth caring about, otherwise the whole universe is gonna fall apart.

that’s what makes his relationship to cass so interesting — he sees his neuroticism, his dedication to the cause above all else, and does not find it admirable. he finds it confronting and upsetting. and to be clear, cass (like dick) is very much the moral ideal of what batman should be, but still bruce finds it hard to deal with!!

his abject failures — his treatment of the robins, his crippling guilt about jason, his fears of becoming a killer, the impossible load he gives himself to carry — means that when he’s shown as someone who genuinely cares, it makes him more complex. like yeah, bruce isn’t actually a cold hearted person. he really really gives a shit. too many shits, to be totally honest. he’s a morally grey person that wants to do good, but is so terrified of losing control that he keeps others away and hurts them in the process. there’s a reason why his emotional crutch was a traumatised eight year old fr. nothing is more important than the mission, including bruce wayne himself

[kisses4tom]

PT 2 OF TOM AS A DAD PLSSS

ᡣ𐭩 DAD TOM part 2!

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HEYY OFCC 🤭 SO MANY PPL ARE REQUESTING THIS ACTUALLY!! 😭 here is part 1

To be quite honest with you guys, I don't really know what else to add 😭, but I'll figure it out and make something up along the way! 💕

I hope it lives up to your expectations because, I will not lie, I ran out of ideas for a few of them 😭 yet I hope you like it either way! 🫶🏻

I also mixed various topics and scenarios for a little more inclusivity! especially because I made a lot of these hcs for a teen daughter

Obviously Tom is gonna be a girl dad 'cause what else would he beeeee 🤭🥹

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he would keep almost every drawing she's made throughout the years

HE WOULD LEND HER HIS YELLOW DOG PLUSHIE‼️‼️

when she's older he would love to get matching tattoos if she wants, but he's definitely getting one dedicated to her (did y'all know Bill and Tom have a matching tattoo with Leni? 👀)

definitely making her a photo album

if anybody says that the baby looks more like him than her mother he would act so proud istg

"Yeah, Y/n's genes said BYE!"

he would become her personal Instagram photographer

whenever his daughter brings a boy home he would be so sus of him and maybe even tell them to keep the door open 💀

DAD REFLEXES 🤭🤭‼️ so hot istg

he would get dragged into tiktoks and learn some dances together 😭

when the baby was younger, her mama would surprise Tom with matching fits and he would be sooo gitty and happy

always keeping an eye out for her in public

if he's talking to some people and he hears the smallest noise coming from his daughter (at the park or whatever), he would immidiately put everything on hold and make sure she's okay (if that makes sense idk), or he would turn to look at her

he would try to attend as many school/dance recitals as possible, but with work it's a little hard for him to find time (at times)

is she plays a sport he would cheer the loudest for her

if she ever comes out as an lgbtq+ member, he would be very supportive and just act casual after her confession

when the baby was just born and he had skin-to-skin contact with her for the first time, he got emotional

he would wake up in the middle of the night and feed her himself so you could rest (currently in between tears)

the band is OBSESSED with that child and always play with her whenever they have a chance

Tom knows he can rely on them as babysitters

why do I feel like him and Bill would FIGHT to choose who holds her

"Tom you always have her come onnn let me hold her this timeee"

he's so protective of that child

when she first started walking he’d kneel down and open his arms towards her

he would also scoot back so she could walk more and then let her fall in his arms (imagine him picking her up and kissing her cheek after 😭)

istg he would bring that child everywhere (especially when she's older)

he would make sure to dedicate her an episode/scene on Kaulitz & Kaulitz where he talks about fatherhood and his story

he's veeery supportive of everything she does

whenever he's live on Instagram or TikTok with the band he would call his daughter over and prank her with filters or something like that

he loves dressing her up, but hates changing her diaper

he usually doesn't enjoy shopping, but he would bring her everywhere and spend time together

he's such a quality time dad

when texting, he would send real time pictures of his most honest reaction LMFAO😭

he would make sure his and Gustav's daughter are like little cousins (spoiler alert: they are!)

his daughter will grow up with "do you need a stepmom by any chance?" questions 😻

if Tom and the baby's mom broke up, co-parenting would be pretty hard on him, as he loves that child so much it hurts him to know he can't see her every day

he would probably bring her to some meet and greets with fans (both now and back in the day)

fans would give him so many gifts for her

sometimes he gets emotional knowing she won't stay a baby forever, but he's still very excited to know her character and mess with her more

when she was a baby, at the beach he would dip her feet in the water

when she's older he'd splash the hell out of her and push her in the water

he definitely picks her up on his shoulders (both as a baby and as a teen)

if you have more ideas leave them in the comments so I can add them! 🤭

[puppy-phum]

i find it so ironic how after becoming blind or, simply, disabled, day also turns invisible. suddenly, he's just not there, like it's not he who cannot see but he who cannot be seen.

ppl don't really talk to him, don't address him, barely give him any choices of his own. they talk over him and past him and around him, about him, surely, but not to him. it's like he's not there. he's this huge responsibility, but he's no longer a person. he's left to places like a dog or an object to wait for others to do all the things for him, and then he's just expected to agree with their plans. the same plans that still affect him and his life and future.

no wonder he's so angry and fed up with everybody. he wants to speak for himself. he wants to be heard and seen again. he used to enjoy having eyes on him – as a national athlete, there obviously were many (admiring, evaluating, assessing) eyes on him, and he liked the spotlight. he's obviously very proud of his own accomplishments and it must be frustrating to be suddenly reduced into nothing. like what he did never mattered. like who he is never mattered.

he is just this now. his blindness. someone who can be overlooked bc he cannot see it anyway. he's not far from being dead, as he puts it himself.

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meanwhile, mork experiences the brutality of being abandoned over and over again. that's his wound. when his sister leaves, the pain gets the loudest, but even outside of that, he's hearing the same thing over and over again.

from what we got to know, no one ever really learned why exactly rung decided to kill herself. i assume it was the guilt over feeling like she failed mork, like she brought him more peril than was worth living for (debt?). she obviously wanted mork to have a good future, but i guess none of her actions ever translated to mork in that way.

to him, rung left after deciding that mork just wasn't worth it. she took "the easy way out" after realizing that fighting beside mork and tolerating his behavior just weren't worth the effort. mork really wasn't making the best choices, but i don't think he was ever "beyond saving". mork just thinks this is how it all went.

and then he keeps hearing the same thing from others:

after being in jail, his friends abandon him even if he took part in that fight for them. he wasn't enough for them to stick around (not that they were actually that good company, but he knew them, spent time with them, relied on them on some level)

porjai broke up with him bc mork was prioritizing his friends over his girlfriend. which porjai points out humorously, as is part of their friendship as exes, but which lands as a stab anyway. "you weren't enough as you are," it says. "you should've done better to not have me leave you."

no one wants mork to work for them bc all they can see is his past mistakes and not him trying to presently correct them. his skills aren't enough to overshadow what he did. him trying to be better cannot erase those mistakes he already made. "you should've been better to begin with," it says. "there's nothing you can do to change that now."

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ppl keep turning their backs on mork, leaving him behind, labeling him unworthy or simply not good enough. even day's family does this, looking at him once and going, "you obviously do not belong here."

day disagrees. on some level at least, he disagrees. bc mork actually sees him. after all this time, someone actually sees him again.

meanwhile, well. we had that whole montage at the end of the episode to tell us how badly mork wishes to believe that someone is finally giving him a chance to prove he isn't a lost cause, that he is worth something.

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my expectations for the second ep are that these two are going to learn just how bad it actually feels when someone is able to see you and how hard you will have to work to prove yourself to those who barely wish to listen.

[truculentbitch]

the adolescent part is so crucial because dream was essentially an adolescent too. like, there’s a bigger age difference between sapnap and george than there is tommy and dream. dream couldn’t even legally drink when they first met LMFAO. he was not this established adult with an adult life and an adult brain. and i think this emphasis on dream being the “adult” and tommy being the “child” is a conscious effort to render dream’s “wrongdoing” inarguable because without it, everyone would realize that this is simply the result of moralizing interpersonal conflicts and not actually a representation of dream as a person, even in the slightest. it’s sort of the perfect storm because the people who said these things have fostered a fan base who get off on the incessant victimization of them, and have clearly developed a complex as a result. and who can blame tommy honestly? what are you supposed to do when everyone is desperate for you to be a victim? and maybe one day we’ll unpack whether dream’s behavior or that behavior had a worse long-term effect on his psyche. i don’t think people would like the answer to that!

i'm unclear on the exact ages tbh and i'm ok with that bc i don't think it matters at all in this situation. it's so fucking disingenuous. are we not allowed to enforce boundaries with ppl younger than us?????

one of the things that dream got annoyed about early was tommy calling him 'big d' in a particular way that caused chat to connect big d = penis, which was the sole reason tommy kept on doing it. he was uncomfortable with tommy making a sexual joke about him and asked him to stop (tommy didn't btw until a certain point. after that, he started poking about how he couldn't call dream big d anymore 🙄). was this one of the red flags they talked about? bc i will be in my grave before i believe that those red flags were anything but dream not engaging in the same derogatory british humour that tommy and jack rely on.

this is simply the result of moralizing interpersonal conflicts

you've fucking got it, superstar 🧡

[jetaloen]

these for the ask game w/ rohan?: 🎮 🖤 😞

🎮 VIDEO GAME CONTROLLER — what are three of your oc's favorite hobbies?

gardening: he gardens all year long and will grow basically any kind of plant if he knows how to take care of it. mostly vegetables, but flowers, bushes, and bonsai too. he meditates in his garden, so he spends a lot of time beautifying it. his actual home interiors are comparatively sparse (until volo starts filling them w all his stuff) so the garden is the place where rohan goes all out.

woodcarving: he carves netsukes for inro. he'll paint inro as well, but carving is definitely his stronger skill and he only paints like simple outline type designs. he has a few inro of his own (bc he needs something to hold his joints lmfao) but he also sells netsukes on the side.

working out: he's a fitness nut sometimes bordering on unhealthy. it's part of his needing to exert control thing.

and of course cooking lol

🖤 BLACK HEART — has your oc killed or seriously wounded anyone before? have they broken someone's heart and/or broken someone's trust?

yes. back in kanto, rohan was his daimyo tadayo's favorite retainer and personal bodyguard, so any time tadayo had a dispute, rohan was there and doing the dirty work. conflicts at that time in rohan's life were mostly territorial disputes, which also were what eventually caused tadayo's domain to fall. it was an unstable region fraught with conflict.

rohan has for sure broken trust, especially that of his father; rokuro expects his son to hold his same sense of duty, having been raised under his teachings, but rohan is way more lax than his dad and spits on anything that's tradition based. the biggest moment for that is when rohan leaves to find volo after the temple of sinnoh shit. no one knows where rohan is for like a few years and rokuro sees that as a huge and unforgivable betrayal when he learns rohan was alive, bc rokuro feels jubilife relies on them both

😞 DISAPPOINTED FACE — does your oc attract others, or do they tend to be left alone?

ppl are drawn to rohan above any of my other characters bc he has the most overpowering swag and beauty. but that attraction is surface level only bc rohan doesn't like giving ppl an in and will more likely stand there silently like :3 while people talk at him. he is not easy to befriend. volo is seriously one of the first people rohan like ever befriends, and that's only after a ridiculous amount of persistence and the fact that rohan is very lonely and depressed and thinks volo is hot.

rohan really dislikes being seen as some kind of figure, which is the case in jubilife. the townspeople want to get to know the samurai who came from kanto to protect and teach them. this is something rokuro engages with a lot more, and a lot better, than rohan. it's even worse bc rohan plans to slip out of jubilife and disappear asap. kamado finds that standoffishness really unbecoming and he is highly distrustful of rohan for that reason.

[dearweirdme]

for the people who don’t believe in taennie, i’ve noticed they fall into two camps. one is that he’s being pressured into resigning and so the company is trying to ruin his reputation so that he relies on them. and the second is that it’s a beard because enlistment is close and since last year in paris, more ppl started to really see him as queer. for the first, i’m unsure because yea the comp has been a little weird in how they’ve been treating him but their contracts aren’t up for a while and nothing points to him wanting to leave. and for the second, it’s not like he’s hiding his queerness rn either, walking around smiling widely in his pride hoodie. i know taekookers think that this gives taekook more room to openly interact but if that’s the case how come it feels like they’re still being restricted. personally i’m not sure what to think the motives are, just that i knew something wasn’t right when hybe gave conflicting responses to whether he’d show up at cannes causing there to be the rumor that he’d hardlaunch there. they had the opportunity to shut it down right away and instead purposefully gave clout to her appearance, when tae was actually nowhere near there because the celine private party was at a hotel in antibes not cannes.

Hi anon!

I know the motives for something like this can be hard to understand. Especially for BTS fans, this has not been done before.. so it is strange and it tears at the believe of who the members are a bit. I’ve seen people mad at Tae for possibly lying to them. And I’ve seen many say that stuff like this just doesn’t happen in South Korea.

But I think, Kpop is starting to outgrow SK a bit. Especially BTS (look at Jk right now) and BlackPink are so huge. We’ve heard Jk say that he wants to be a big star. And with that comes marketing beyond SK and strategies that are different from what’s been done before.

I think that’s what’s happening with Tae as well. I don’t think he has the same stardom as Jk in mind, but I do think he wants things for himself and I think it’s to be able to be more himself. You might think, but if Taennie isn’t real.. how is that any closer to him being himself. Well, Taennie is something short lived. It’s a few months of having a rumored ‘girlfriend’, just enough to get the ‘he dates women’ through. It might not even be to make it appear like he isn’t gay, maybe just to show that he also dates women. Which unfortunately is looked upon slightly different than someone being gay. It allows him some freedom in the long run. It would allow him to wear pride hoodies in Disneyland, it might allow him freedom in his music/lyrics. It would take away a but of the ‘gay’ so he is in general able to hide less strictly. Even though it’s a side effect, I don’t think it’s to cover up his relationship with Jk. They manage fine under the shroud of bff’s. But maybe they have personally felt more free to roam around a bit. But I think the intention is solely for Tae’s image. At this point (though I don’t know what is still to happen.. maybe around his album release) I think the promo part was mostly for Jennie’s benefit. It was scheduled around her release(s). But in a way it was promo dor Tae too.. just not for a project, but rather for his image.

It’s about walking a fine line. A bit of fake to be able to be more real in the whole.

[leonisdumbasallhell]

Do you have tips for s+?

Sure! Now, I haven't done Professional yet, (I can add more tips once I do) but I've done S+ on assisted through hardcore with about 20-30 min to spare on each. This is for ppl like me who are generally bad at games, I have bad aim and rely mostly on luck and vibes, but these tips should help anyone

get Ashley's armor and the Chicago Sweeper, these are essential. All you gotta do to get em is S or A rank professional, which is SUPER easy on ng+. I did it in literally less than 4 hours on my first try lmao. if you don't have it already, get the infinite rocket launcher and just run through Professional with that, it'll unlock every reward under A rank.

2. use and abuse rewards and effect items you've gotten in ur playthrough. I've been using the deer antlers and gas mask the most, but I'll be using the chicken hat a lot now that I have it lmao. Tho the deer antlers make the krauser fight faster, and the gas mask makes the minecart section easier, so I'll probably switch those out to use.

3. Skips are your friend. There's several skips that save So much time, most of them have to do with grenades. You can skip: The gallery fight(flashbang or hand grenade), the moon/sun door puzzle in the battlements(Hand grenade), the crane fight(2 heavy grenades), and the anti aircraft turret bit(2 heavy grenades.) You can also skip getting the canon up at the gate, but if you're getting the medallions, you have to jump down there anyway. Some of the skips can be kind of tricky, so don't be afraid to reload if u fuck up. I also REALLY recommend using the golden egg on the Salazar fight, it speeds it up A Lot, and running back to get it only takes abt 2 min of extra time. Tho this part can also be very finicky because Salazar is actually a surprisingly small target, he moves fast, and I have bad aim. (I've repeatedly had to reload because I miss the fuckin egg throw)

4. Get as many spinels as possible. The merchant quests I finish are all the medallions up to the castle gate, the golden egg, the lunker bass, pest control 1, and the viper one. If you do these, you should have enough spinel for an exclusive upgrade ticket before the water room, which is when things actually become easier.

5. The hardest part of the game is the villa fight w luis. It sucks, it's a mess, but it gets better after u get through it, trust me. My method is to board the left window, cover the middle window, and then throw a hand grenade out the right window as soon as they break it. This should also blow up a red barrel, but if it doesn't try to hit that too, cause it'll clear that area out and give you a few moments of relative calm. then take a defensive position at the stairs. As soon as there's enough boards to cover the windows, I do that, then run upstairs into the lil alcove and just park myself there, kicking down the ladder and waiting till the Brute shows up. After that, you just kinda play tag by running up and down stairs & ladder while the brute chases u till the cut scene triggers. You can speed it up by killing the brute, but it's hard and not worth the risk. Even doing this, on my hardcore run, I died like 20 times trying to get through, and would have died last time if the cutscene hadn't triggered exactly when it did. not looking forward to it on professional :')

5. Most of the time you can just ignore ashley if you have the armor and she'll either teleport to you or sort herself out, but there are a few areas where you do actually have to make sure she's with you or you'll get a game over. Specifically any time she holds a door for you, you do have to actually go get her (that one room on the island and then the maze) Also in a pinch??? You can lowkey use her as a shield and sometimes it stuns enemies when they hit her ahjkhdjksh,

6. Some guides say to only buy one rocket launcher for the Saddler fight, but I buy two; one for Saddler and one for Krauser. For the early parts of krauser encounters, put the deer antlers on and just be wildly aggressive, it'll go quicker. Then once he's mutated, blow him up, it's so much easier and I hate his fight ajkhshdjk. If you know where the treasure is(I have several of them memorized, but if u need to spare a few spinel for the maps thats ok, or just look up treasure locations online) and you have the deluxe treasure map, you should get enough coin to get both on top of upgrading your weapons. If you don't have enough money by the time u get to saddler, sell ur other guns and literally anything else in ur inventory to get it. You can speed up the second stage before ada sends u the rocket launcher by shooting him, but having the rocket launcher to start is worth a few extra seconds

7. If you have the infinite handcanon, sell it, it's not as useful as the chicago sweeper. The only guns I use in S+ runs is the chicago sweeper, the base handgun, the base shotgun, and the stingray. I don't buy the stingray till I get to the island tho, and I sell the shotgun at that point since I have infinite ammo on the sweeper.

8. Don't rely on autosaves, I've noticed that sometimes when you reload an auto save from death it'll add the time up to your death to your timer. It does this if you hit continue as well, so I just reload my save. If it's close to the end and you've got extra time and don't want to redo anything, go for it, but otherwise, just use your manual saves.

9. If you have the deluxe treasure map, it's worth it to gather the silver and gold tokens to use in the shooting range. You don't always get anything useful, but there is a chance you'll get something good. the only good one thus far that I've gotten is Leon w/ Rocket launcher, but other good ones would be leon w/handgun, any health item boosts, any damage boosts, ada, luis, the merchant, and the striker. Otherwise or if you personally don't find them useful, sell them, it's free money & u'll need it.

10. Take it easy, but take it. There's some sections I take my time through, but there's others I just bullrush, esp once I have the sweeper. I kinda just run n gun and try not to be too tepid. Sometimes being Brash IS the answer. Worst that happens is I have to reload a save.

Bullet round

If the merchant has first aid spray, get it, it's worth the coin, esp if you play as brash as I do

If you're bad at memorizing things, look up the answers to puzzles/item locations online & have em ready, specifically the power terminal puzzles.

In the first village fight, just run circles till it ends and try to grab any items you can as you run. Literally don't shoot unless you have to, it slows you down

In the farm area, you can shoot the lock through the window so you don't have to go up through the top

When you flashbang or otherwise have the option, ALWAYS use the knife attack instead of melee, it's an insta kill vs melee which is not.

Speaking of, You also don't need to be sneaking to do a knife kill, you just have to be behind them or even just Slightly To The Side lmao, so you can do it just wherever if you maneuver correctly

Ashley's section is so fucking easy w the armor, literally don't even worry about it, just skip most of it by activating the clock and have a fun lil jog

In the verdugo fight, when he first apears, hit him w the first nitrogen blast and shoot the fuck out of him, he'll leave you alone to open the door. Then just run around till the elevators done

You can sneak past the regenoradors after the mike section, just use your bioscope to see which bags they're in and avoid them, they won't trigger.

no matter how careful you are, the dynamite boys will free the other regenoradors in the specemin lab while ur waiting for the card to load, just fuckin run around till it's done and book it outta there.

I also reccomend looking up guides online, most of this info either comes from guides or my own personal experimentation, other ppl are your resources.

Ur gonna suffer, just accept it.

Hope this helps!! I'm gonna do my Professioal S+ run over the course of the week (Or try to) so wish me luck!!!

[akiizayoi4869]

Reblogging for these tags by @apolojet because yes:

#like sorry not buying it lmao#it's also hilarious that some ppl use Azula's canon devotion i.e. zuko being her second most loved person as some kind of indisputable proo#that everything will go smoothly between them and azula will forgive him the easiest actually is just. another level of coping#because that devotion was BETRAYED. Azula LOVES as much as she HATES#i think it only adds another layer of tragedy to azula - that she loved and risked so much for people who wouldn't do the same for her#including zuko ofc#like pls😭 imagine relying on a single twitter thread instead of what is actually in the show#also just a reminder that the ideas of the autor absolutely ARE capable of being flawed/make no sense!#just cause writer/creators says X doesn’t mean yall gotta automatically turn off critical thinking#by that logic we should all be thinking that Azula is a heartless and completely crazy. What? That’s what Bryan and Michael used to say!#They are the creators of the show! They know better!/s#to be fair this concept of zuko guiding azula and help her heal isn't impossible.#It COULD work better but you'd have to alter a LOT from the show#but instead when ppl ask me to take this concept seriosuly it's like i'm being asked to ignore a giant elefant in the room#fire siblings

Like they said, the writing when it comes to the relationship between these two at the end of the show would of had to have been different for this idea to really work. They never had Zuko get over his inferiority complex and let go of the rivalry with Azula (which absolutely should have been a part of his arc once he detected. It made no sense for him to still hold onto those feelings towards her, since they were connected to his desire to gain Ozai's approval. I know that they wanted to make these a tragedy, but still) and just his complex feelings towards her in general. Not saying that he can't be a part of her healing/redemption arc, because he absolutely can be. But it won't start with him because he has yet to work on his own issues with Azula and how he views her. And until he does that, he won't be able to help her recover at all. Also what was mentioned about Azula was spot on too: Zuko betrayed her. Threw her under the bus. Left without saying goodbye. Even though she loves him, that's not something that she'll get over easily. So she wouldn't even want to be around him because of that, not to mention the asylum part if we consider the terrible comics. He left her in an abusive asylum for a year, only coming to see her because he wanted to use her in order to find Ursa. So yeah. Safe to say that she wouldn't want anything to do with Zuko for a while, which is completely understandable. If anything, I can see either Aang or Ursa (mainly Ursa) being the ones who jumpstart Azula's redemption arc.

I just can't stress enough how silly and unnatural the idea "Zuko being Azula's mentor☺🌸️" would've been had book 4 happened. The guy who didn't realize anything wrong with the way Iroh "mentored" him. The guy who has exerted zero retrospection on his relationship with his sister throughout the entire show. The guy who didn't hesitate for a second to throw her under the bus. The guy whose one of the last interactions with her was goading her into shooting lightning to feel good about himself. Like Atla fandom, why are you eating that up?

I hatehatehate the impliction of forcing Azula to forgive Zuko and change by making her feel owed to him.

Agreed. Zuko is:

A badly abused teenager with a ton of trauma involving his family that he's hardly even scratched the surface with.

Someone who has barely begun to figure out his own path in life and thus is not the best equipped to mentor people.

Someone who appears to have never had any real compassion or empathy for his sister.

One of the people who understands Azula the least.

So yes, Zuko is a terrible choice to "mentor" Azula and I think things would end very badly if he tried.

[dreamquackity]

dude the fucking fandom is so fucking. god. fuck. jesus fucking christ. like ppl bitching about miraculous salt and all that shit is like - don't get me wrong it's irritating and fucked and stupid but like that shit is NOTHING compared to what we went through almost daily yk? i see people complaining about how bad it is in the fandom and how ridiculous people complaining about a literal kids' show is and i get that!! i feel that!! i understand you!! it's dumb!! i see it too! don't get me wrong about that!. HOWEVER. the amount of shit salters in this fucking fandom get up to is like - it's validly annoying but god it's literally nothing compared to how - like i feel like i'd be hard pressed to find another fandom that fucks with you mentally as much as that one. it was fun! it was good! it helped me through hard times! but dear. fucking. god. the bad was not worth the good. i just had no other good. and now i do so. i'm not as invested. thank fuck. i have other fandoms. thank fuck. it's fucking glorious. it's healthier. less fomo, less - every volatile emotion, less crazy people, it's lovely. i mean i still care about him and like his work but now i can simultaneously loop his EP and get work done, i can put videos off streams off, i can see people spamming about drama and not give a shit anymore because like - whatever happened is fucked up cos it always is (and this probably sounds like shitty but idc) and i feel bad for him but i'm not fucking up my fucking education and literally failing two classes because of stupid internet trolls causing drama that fucks with my mental health. god. (yes that actually happened. i was on track to being top in the class with both)

sorry that was a whole vent. basically i'm in a better place now that i'm only on the peripherals and it's great. what's funny is he literally got me to the peripherals bc the christmas streams made me feel happy enough to be able to stop relying on him like an addiction but it's been eight months and i feel like a recovered drug addict sometimes. recovered alcoholic who takes a sip of wine every now and then. lol. but like most drama in other fandoms doesn't faze me now bc like. yall have. no idea.

i get u anon........... it was way too exhausting being in that fandom. every fandom sucks esp if theyre big but boy oh boy. that shit was SOMETHING ELSE. im praying mlb lasts for me bc im really liking it here even tho parts of the fandom r getting like upset and leaving etc etc but well thats part and parcel of life im here and new people join every day and im looking forward to posting my fic even tho i know it will never be as popular as sadf and its a new fandom im writing for so theres this Fear

[sukirichi]

Hi! I hope you're doing okay. So I just had a thot. And idk what to do with it. So Imma just put it here cause your blog is my new favourite. I'm not even joking. I literally devoured everything related to Tokyo Rev on your blog. So here's my theory. Do correct me if you think I'm wrong Sensei!

Bouten husbands and where they liked to be kissed the most/ or is their weakness. (Ps: it's just my opinion. I mean no offense to anyone.)

Mikey~ Kiss him on his shoulders and he'll cry. Cause he's been bearing all the burden of his dark and decaying world for so long that he doesn't even know that he needs to take a minute for himself and rely on others around him. Especially since most ppl around him are willing to give their life and limbs for Mikey. He just can't seem to keep that in mind. So you've taken it upon yourself to remind him frm time to time. Just a little peck on his strong and broad-ish shoulders to remind him that he's not alone. That if nothing, he has you. He always will.

Rindou~ Something about being kissed on his cheeks, especially by his lover, does things to him. Like his cardiovascular muscles do a little somersault in his chest or something. Because yes, it doesn't matter if he's one of the big, scary and irreplaceable executive of Bouten, he still has an unconscious inferiority complex. Sometimes it just skips his mind that despite everything, he too deserves the world. And every once in a while you need to remind him about it. That he doesn't have to be flashy and snarky like his brother. He just needs to be himself and that he is undeniably worthy of love.

Ran~ Not many people are taller than him, you are no exception. So it makes sense that in order to kiss him you need to be on your tippy toes. And still you're only able to reach his neck. So yeah, just kiss him there. Right on his Adam's apple and he's a goner. It doesn't even have to be sexual. Ran is always the one to take charge. It's kind of in his nature and you happily oblige him. But every now and then, you also need to remind him to take a breather That he can just let go and get dotted over for a change. You're more than happy to take care of him, that he needs to be taken care off.

Koko~ This man not only, brings in the big dough for Bouten, but also beats up people while at it. To say that he's always overworked is an understatement. His hands are always doing something, illegal things most of the time. He knows he's no saint. That there's no coming back into the light. He's painfully aware. But once e intertwine your hands together and kiss him on top of his knuckles, he swears that it's his redemption. You're the only light in his dark and dangerous world.

Kaku-chan~ Please. Just kiss this man on his forehead. Please. He's literally out there, ready to give his life for the things he wants to protect. He's always doing that. Protecting the people that have gone astray, who have no more hope left. He's ready to die for them, if it means they'll keep going. So please, just once, just protect him instead. Protect him from the demons he skillfully hided in his head. Protect him from the nightmares that torment him every night. Just protect him for a change. He needs it more than he's willing to admit.

Sanzu~ Okay. Hear me out. He's deranged and he knows it. He knows he's won't bat an eye before painfully torturing someone to death. Heck he'll even do it with a smile plastered on his face. He knows that he's stained in blood almost all the time.(sometimes his own, most of the other times, not his own). He'll even relish it. He knows that he's been tainted with burden of death. He knows that he lives in the shadows. He's not sane. He's not good. He's bad. He's ugly. You can tell that these awful thoughts keep him awake at night. So when they do and he has this almost painful look on his face. Just pull him close and kiss him on his face, over and over. Kiss his scars, kiss his lips, kiss his nose, his eyes. Just don't stop until he's got your point across. That yes, it's true that he's despicable. But you still love him nonetheless.

Ps: Sorry that was too long and kinds got out of hand. But these are just my "thots". Thank you for hearing me out!~ Thot anon

hi i’m doing okay, thanks for asking n i hope you are too !! also aaah i’m glad to know my blog is your new fave, i hope you enjoy more of my future tokrev content 🥺 ALSO YES ITS HEADCANON TIME LETS GO LETS GO

mikey n shoulder kisses 🥺 i hc that mikey is stiff and rigid all the time without knowing. like you said, he has a lot on his mind and draken even said mikey had a heavy ass cross to bear, so imagine the weight and burdens he has to shoulder 🥺 so if you lean into him for a hug then kiss his shoulders, mikey deflates. to him, its like a reminder he doesn’t have to carry it all by himself all the time and poor bb forgets that often

cheek kisses for rindou 🥺 the idea of this big, bad executive infamous for breaking limbs but is actually a sucker for cheek kisses and turns into a soft lil bean when you cup his face and just smother him with love n affection? bless. rindou probably unknowingly exerts too much effort sometimes to prove something - may it be his strength, his power, or how he’s perfectly capable of fighting by himself - he’ll have that voice at the back of his head that he needs to do something. giving him cheek kisses grounds him and elicits butterflies in his stomach bcos he realizes that, “oh, i don’t have to try so hard. silly me...now more cheek kisses, please.”

ran and neck kisses !! ON THE FLOOR RN, TELL ME MORE. but yes omg i also hc that ran is such a giver and grown up to look for others the way he does for rindou, so in his head, he’s kind of drilled it into himself that he has to be the one in the lead - not necessarily in a mikey way - but in a “he needs to take charge and take his responsibilities seriously” kind of thing. like mikey, ran is probably often deep in thought as well despite his teasing mannerisms, that when you kiss his neck he can’t help but soften. he enjoys being doted on. loves to be the one on the receiving side. has the sweetest smile on his face when he gets a lil ticklish and he just feels like he’s on cloud nine <33

knuckle kisses for koko 😫 everything you said was on point !! his hands are probably so tired from fighting and counting bills all day, not to mention the amount of paperwork he has to do bcos who else will do them ?? no one knows the inner system of koko and how it works as well as koko does, and he wants to do his job right. he gets a little too absorbed in his work, however, that koko gets a little confused when you take his hands away from whatever he’s working on to leave little kisses at the pads of his knuckles, maybe even massaging his hands or playing with his fingers to help him relax a bit. and you know how koko is so good at what he does bcos its all he knows, but at the same he probably hates how he treads on this dark path ?? so when you kiss his knuckles, he feels relieved. like everything will be okay and second chances are real n something he’s worthy of

omg now this is my favorite - kakucho + foreahead kisses. forehead kisses are always so intimate and soothing in a sense. like come here so you can kiss him on the forehead, watch the way his eyes flutter close and a smile tugs at his lips when your lips trail down to his scar, all the while your hands are cupping his face with such tenderness he never really knew of. kakucho is so used to being the tough guy with his rough childhood that it almost feels surreal. surreal that he’s in bed, with you, safe and sound and you’re kissing his forehead so comfortingly he doesn’t have to worry about putting his walls down for a second. he feels safe. he feels at home. but most of all, he knows he’s not alone and he has you - his family

kissing sanzu’s scars 🥺 everything you said was beautiful n i can totally see it happening !! as much as we all know sanzu takes great pleasure and finds entertainment in what he does, it sinks down a little too late. when he’s not high, that’s when he feels the lows. when the blood on his hands are dried, that’s when he realizes it gets harder to wash them off until it stains deep all the way into his soul. then his scars. he sees his scars and remembers how he has to hide them at some point. he stays awake at night and oddly enough, silent and unmoving. and what better way to ease his worries than to pull him close and just to kiss his scars that he thinks are only one of the ways the darkness - the ugliness - of his soul shows through. keep him close and kiss his scars. sanzu may not always be in the right mind to understand your words, but the simple gesture of showing love and acceptance to a part of him that makes him a whole will engrave deep into his heart. leave him butterfly kisses. kiss him from everywhere to his eyes until they flutter close to sleep. kiss his nose adoringly until they scrunch so cutely. kiss his lips until its your taste that overwhelms him. and kiss his scars to remind him his imperfections are accepted and loved

[swanqueensalad]

TRIGGERWARNING!

Without triggering anyone I wanna ask two things:

1) Was Cora ever physically abbussive towards Regina?

2) I know many ppl's head canon is that Leopold raped Regina again and again as his bride, but is that your headcanon too?

ok again TRIGGER WARNING for abuse & SA (and brief mention of suicide) for anyone reading/scrolling!

i'm going to just explain my personal interpretation of the show and these subjects, bc i find regina so interesting and heartbreaking. and i actually do think part of what makes regina so fascinating as a character is her relationship within the cycle of abuse and how yes, she was incredibly hurt and manipulated all her life, but she eventually managed to break free of it all and work to be better for her own child.

buckle up because i have a lot of feelings and this is probably going to be LONG

so, my thoughts on exactly what happened and why regina is as fucked up as she is:

so yeah, cora was a horrific parent. it's canon that she abused regina both emotionally and physically for practically all her life.

in practically her very first scene, we see cora using magic to hurt her eighteen year old daughter - to violently restrain her/drop her to the ground when she 'misbehaves' which pretty clearly says this is a woman who uses power and fear as a control tactic, and is not afraid of physically hurting regina.

and if this is what she was doing when regina is almost an adult, i think it's safe to assume she's been doing it since she was very young - regina's response 'please don't, i'll be good' is the conditioned response of a much younger child. everything about the way regina was written, her relationship with cora, and the way lana and the directors chose to play it screams abuse victim. she is hypervigilant - she jumps when people come close or make sudden noises. when she's choked with magic she immediately knows not to struggle or fight back. as a young girl, she is terrified of doing things wrong.

(also, when we get the flashback to actual 10 year old regina, cora says she can't help her because 'it needs to be someone who's magic has never hurt her')

while i think most of the time cora relied on magic to physically punish regina - knowing how much regina particularly hated it/was afraid of it - i think she was definitely not above slapping her for more minor infractions

beyond just physical abuse, cora was clearly emotionally distant and got regina to a place of being pretty touch-starved and desperate for affection. (lana and barbara play this so masterfully as well) we see her being constantly, nastily critical of everything her daughter does.

i think it's also implied in the regina rising book that cora was controlling/restrictive of regina's food to ensure she stayed thin/attractive which is just a whole other can of worms

as for leopold. please bear with me while i RANT:

nothing will ever make me more mad than the fact this man was never held accountable in the narrative for his role in regina's story and how absolutely fucking awful he was.

first of all, even before he meets regina, he is dodgy af. he supposedly genuinely loves cora, but throws her out immediately when he discovers her pregnancy without even asking her if it's true/discussing it. also, even in that flashback the man is visibly much older than cora and even more so than eva, who he actually does marry (although i do believe they came to truly love each other). so yeah he has a habit of Not Listening to women and not looking at women his own age

and then we get to regina. the eighteen year old daughter of his ex fiancee (younger even than the unborn child who cora carried when she was engaged to him)

yes i think he raped her. because powerful old men do not marry pretty eighteen year olds for the company. (also, if it was just so snow would have a mother figure, well, she already had her maid joanna. and if snow really wanted regina around that badly, leopold could have just brought her to court as a lady in waiting, a fitting role for a noblewoman, and more appropriate seeing as regina was only about eight years older than snow)

regina is visibly distressed by the proposal. she is panicked. she looks to her father to help. cora accepts the proposal for her. and leopold does not care. i think this tells u all u need to know about his views on consent

(also it all gets ickier when you remember leopold was attracted to cora, and regina is considered to look like cora did when she was younger)

leopold clearly had zero interest in regina as a person. he used her for arm candy for events, to make snow happy, and to keep his bed warm. (later, he invades her privacy so much regina counts on him reading her diary as a thoughtless and integral part of a plan, and locks her up for receiving a present from another man) and yet he is never treated as a villain or ever held accountable (besides regina killing him - good for her - but even then it's framed more as a way to villainise her for tricking sidney) and it makes me FURIOUS

i sometimes see the take that leopold might have stopped raping her towards the latter years of their marriage, but i disagree - i think maybe it did get fewer and farther between, but regina was still his wife who he only saw as serving a few purposes, and the way he is so possessive of her in 1x011 makes no sense otherwise, seeing as he was so uninterested in her in every other way

i do think a lot of regina's rage and vendetta against snow is because of this abuse too.

hear me out: in s1 especially, both snow and regina refer to snow as 'ruining her life'. because regina blamed her for everything that happened to her. not only did snow cause daniel's murder, it was her desire for regina as a mother that prompted leopold to marry her.

and this marriage was hell. and i think people don't realise how long it lasted either - snow went from a child to at least her late teens before regina killed leopold. regina was a traumatised young girl, grieving the love of her life, with no friends, no allies, nobody except the literal dark one who was grooming her for his own gain. (no wonder she clung to the brief sense of freedom and control his lessons offered. no wonder she nearly killed herself.)

and while regina suffered, she was forced to play with snow white every day, who was so spoiled, so loved, so happy, and had no idea of the life she had unwittingly trapped regina in.

so yeah, it's all pretty dark.

and it's for all these reasons i think ouat ended up shying away from many more regina backstory episodes centring on the time she was married/pre-evil queen years, because they were on abc after all, and i don't think they were really equipped to deal with the horrendousness of the story they'd created

but lana most certainly did her work becaue i think all of this nuance does show in her portrayal

and it all just makes regina's ending - the good queen, in her own name, safe and strong and loved, part of a true family, her bond with snow healed - so much more of a relief.

[twig-gy]

my tumblr was actually just being fucky wucky and it’s past 12 in my timezone anyway

so basically the loop is like. whole divides. and then he reforms. but for whatever reason, he keeps doing this, splitting himself over and over again. the most canon reason would probably be just like social issues but idk

i usually interpret it as like

he can’t live life no matter how hard he tries. the basic stressors are just too much for him, and he much prefers not being himself. he knows he’s torturing hms over and over and over, but he just can’t stop himself no matter how much pain it causes

so like. causing nothing but pain with the only reason being that you can’t stop yourself, it’s too late? addiction !!!!

a cycle over and over of trying to get better but always failing and giving in? addiction !!!!!!!

knowing you should stop but you just can’t help yourself? addiction !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

placing the cycle over even those you love (*)? addiction !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and like the way he suffers so much for this thing. it would all be fine if he could just stop himself but for whatever reason he can’t, for whatever reason he’s compelled to do it over and over and over and over and over, ignoring any bad signs for the sake of it, minor stressors causing him to do it because he has no coping mechanism for the ways of daily life. relying on it. treating it as your salvation. desperate for it.

and also like the idea that whole can’t stop himself from hurting hms by splitting over and over reminds me a lot of an addict who hurts others for the sake of whatever the thing is. they’re hurt. they’re struggling. and so they hurt others for it. this isn’t a good thing. this is obviously wrong. but it feels bad to just write whole off as like an asshole.

- personal thing

the mindset (not a reference) gets very weird sometimes. maybe this is just me. but like sometimes i recognize how wrong it is. i see that it’s objectively wrong and i try to stop doing it. however, other times i know logically that it’s wrong but i can’t bring myself to care. i feel like i need it, like without it i would break apart into a million pieces, like it’s my salvation. i want to be addicted. i think it’s beautiful. i want to let myself be ground up in the gears of the cycle because i think that would be beautiful. i can’t possibly understand how i would stop when the thing is just so good.

like. you lie awake at night, thinking about it, thinking about how good it’d be if you just gave in, how beautiful the sensation would be, especially compared to the ITCHING of withdrawl like. you can’t stop thinking about it. the withdrawl is so bad you want to physically claw open your veins

i fantasize about it and romanticize it and . it’s a lot and i see myself in him. which is why i get kinda mad when ppl just write this guy off as uncomplicated

even when i’m not thinking about it it becomes a habit. a part of daily life. i feel irreparably broken by all this. i feel like there’s no way to live without it

- personal thing

does it MAKE SENSE

i think i hit post limit or something idk but to answer your question i am always going insane abt cccc and esp soul and esp soul and whole’s relationship (stop me from seeing cccc as a parallel to addiction challenge IMPOSSIBLE)

thank you for saying thing i appreciate kind words

try not to hit post limit challenge (impossible) /silly

and very fair same soul makes me so ill i hate him (biggest lie ever)

tell me more i love the concept as cccc as a parallel to addiction plsplspls i need to know

[insomniactalks]

So apparently Licky’s think that we don’t want Ricky happy when we say he needs therapy or help before getting a girlfriend. And that we are saying people in therapy can’t love but that’s not the case. We literally only want the best for Ricky. What is so wrong about learning to love yourself and help yourself heal before putting those issues on another person? If you don’t love yourself and you aren’t in the right mindset, how tf are you supposed to learn to love someone else and help them with their problems if you can’t even fix your own? It would be different if this stuff happened while he was with someone (and it did and look how that turned out). We wouldn’t say “oh he has issues break up with the person”. The situation is different since he’s single. I personally would want to make sure I am mentally ready before getting into a relationship or at least in a better mindset then when the situation first happened. Do people just not want to work on themselves nowadays? Do they just always rely on other people, is that how it is? Of course there is nothing wrong with getting help but while you’re telling people about your constant problems, as time goes on you should try to figure out how to help yourself too cause soon the person you tell all your problems too will start to feel super burnt out. I know that from personal experience. Everyone and I mean everyone comes to me about their problems and in the beginning I did what I could to help but as time progressed and they kept coming at me with the same problem it got tiring and I felt like I could never vent to them because they seem to be having it worse than me. Or I felt like they weren’t listening. So again I ask, what is so wrong about helping yourself before getting into a nice relationship? Is self love and self care a bad thing nowadays? At least Ej tried to change his mindset and ways before actually pursuing Gina.

I'm pretty sure you meant Gicky so I'll take it as that LOL😂 I don't think anyone actually ships Lily and Ricky. I think the problem lies with some ppl "shipping" Ricky with therapy which defeats the purpose of what most PWs want for him. We just want Ricky to be mentally and emotionally prepared for his next relationship and properly heal from his previous breakup w/ Nini. He's not there yet by S2 finale, but he'll maybe get closer to that in S3. Many of S3's official promo stuff has Ricky with his guitar more than ever. 😂 I think he'll continue to find comfort and healing in his own music this season (and maybe even find it kind of therapeutic in its own way?)🤔 He does seem to get placed next to or near Jet a few times which also makes me think he's somehow a part of Ricky's arc in S3. Idk...wonder what Tim's hiding from Ricky's storyline this season. 😙 Last thing anon, don't be afraid to set boundaries with the people in your life. If you can't vent to others, you shouldn't have to listen to everyone else's problems all the time.😊

[jess-the-vampire]

Sooooo whatya think of the new episodeee?

Oh it’s definitely my favorite episode of the series so far, i was having such a good time at every turn. I’m glad i went out of my way to avoid spoilers, cause i was glad to actually be surprised by some elements on first watch.

I think this had by far the best opening for an episode so far, we finally get back to the villians, we meet the coven heads, we get insight on belos’s plans-

and then belos gets constipated, which starts getting into the more character driven lore, which is the best part. You instantly can tell GG and Kiki have some bit of tension between them to be Belo’s favorite, though granted i wonder if hunter is the only one to know belos is cursed and actually just always insists to help belos with his fits to prevent others from seeing them.

Including kiki.

It’s honestly unclear how aware anyone is that belos is cursed, like him eating pailsmans is apparently not something he hides, but like....i feel him being cursed is something that people would know universally if it got out...so i’m left wondering if anyone knows besides hunter.

Regardless, belos turns into a goop monster with an angry side, and i guess his mask doesn’t transform with him compared to the rest of his body so he breaks it again because i guess he goes though masks like crazy.

Hunter turns away in this scene from his outburst and even though he’s masked here i can already tell he’s most likely pained in these scenes. Like he’s probably seen this happen so many times, and i can’t imagine it gets any easier for him, it’s probably awful to watch belos suffer like this for him (Regardless of the abuse)

And to be honest, it seems pretty painful for him, i think this ep seems to at least confirm whatever this thing is that takes over belos’s body.....belos never actually wanted it in the first place. 

Yeah so after Hunter tells belos there’s not enough trees to medicate him anymore, we’re hit with the “UNCLE”. Which, when i first watched it i needed a second to even process the fact they confirmed their relation.

and i was like “CLOSE ENOUGH”, not his kid but uncle still works just fine for me, i’m just happy my assumption they were related actually came to ahead.

And i rewatched this episode a few times, and on second watch i realized more what happened in this scene. Hunter was talking about his interest in wild magic, and making more pailsman to help belos, and some method that could heal him and as soon as belos looked at him he instantly shut down.

He was clearly rambling about wild magic cures for belos because of his interest in it, and then suddenly remembered his uncle hates wild magic and felt super awkward.

It seems highly likely his interest in wild magic came from trying to cure belos and spending a lot of time reading up on the stuff. 

And then we get hit with the whole “Our family is dead because of wild magic” line, which.....i’m curious to know what happened there. But it does at least explain why belos feels how he does, if wild magic both killed his family beside hunter AND cursed him in the first place. We’re just gonna need more info on what exactly happened.

Also while Belos is def abusive and does not treat hunter how he should, this scene actually does read off to me like belos does care about hunter to some degree. If belos is cursed and his curse works in similar ways to how Eda’s curse works, then it’s worth reminding ppl that eda mentions early this season how stress can amplify the curse even more.

And sure enough, belos goes goopy on hunter’s shoulder all of a sudden when he grasps him. Which could be considered a sign of stress and that the idea of hunter dying or being in danger actually does stress him.

You could very much also assume this is just due to his curse not being fully handled and just getting worse, or that belos only cares about hunter for selfish reasons....but i’m not taking anything off the table here.

Belos can still be a shitty uncle, and still care about hunter, these aren’t mutually exclusive traits. But we need more episodes for now on this.

But anyways he asks hunter if he can rely on him, kiki is pissed......and we move on.

So i’m glad luz’s impulsiveness is addressed a ton in this episode, they actually bring up a lot of good points. That luz has no plan, that the time she’s spending here might render moot if she goes back to earth, ect ect.

Hunter even calls her out a lot later for not thinking things through, it’s a whole deal in this episode. I’m glad it was brought up cause it’s actually worth asking a lot of these things.

the set up here works, they actually made a good reason for why a pailsman didn’t bond with her. Speaking of which the adoption thing is cute and i love it, it’s a great idea. The designs are all very cute and fun.

Bump face reveal was a lot for me to process, but i find the idea of his pailsman being a pet that can help with his disabilities a good idea.

Also like, i did find it odd that they got staffs so early because we’ve never seen kids their ages with them before, but i guess it’s a new tradition? Does everyone at hexside now have one?

Honesty not sure why batqueen left the nest there overnight, i meant i guess she assumed they were safe with that shield but in context i dunno why she didn’t take them home after the school day was over.

but whatever, luz stays there overnight hoping  a pailsman will bond with her and GG just kidnapps them cause of pure luck on his part a bunch of pailsman were in a vulnerable spot tonight.

So GG continues to be charming, by whistling the theme song and then being blasted off his ship hilariously, before cockily teleporting himself right back on it seconds later. Like he and luz have great banter, he’s so extra like this it’s so funny, and god he’s so FAST with that staff it’s scary but so awesome.

Yeah so then hand dragon crashes them and i was so excited cause it meant face reveal. Poor dude looked so in pain and then we find out kiki tried to effing murder him because of course she did. But like, i think killing your boss’s nephew is the WORST way to get a promotion tbh.

(Also i got confused for a bit cause his mask has always been drawn as a mask, but now it’s a helmet in this scene for whatever reason but-)

Anyways, face reveal, Like honestly ppl weren’t too far off with their guesses, really the only thing people didn’t get was the tooth gap (That was fair tho, we couldn’t have guessed that). But it did make him even cuter.

like the banter is funny, he licks her hand, she slaps him, he looks SO pissed at her for this mess.

and i guess that outfit is his under armor apparently.

He’s lucky she didn’t run away immediately and followed him, but maybe he assumed she would since she had no where else to go.

Also his expressions in this ep are glorious, these had to be fun to draw.

Also we find out that the coven team members have never seen his face i guess? They just assume he’s a silly kid and are awful to him, so i guess he’s not only the youngest member of the coven but he never really shows his face much.

(”Call your parents”, ha ha.....whose gonna tell them who his uncle is?)

He is however, REALLY good at parkour and he’s fast even without his staff, so he’s well trained alright.

And then they reveal he’s not magical and i was SO happy cause i was so sure something was up when he wasn’t doing magic like the other witches despite his pointy ears. So they outright confirmed what i thought.

Hunter is pretty smart tho, like he can tell luz wouldn’t hurt him and wouldn’t flee so he knows he has the high ground here. Like he might be being a bit of a dick, but to be fair luz has been nothing but a dick to him throughout the whole episode (Everyone in this episode has been a dick to him tbh)

They team up and i get excited cause i love this kinda stuff and it gets more wholesome because hunter is super interested in her magic, he thinks it’s cool and you can tell how much he actually loves wild magic but then again...shuts himself down because of belos making him fear the stuff.

An then because luz asks, he tells her his backstory.

honestly with how this world treats people who aren’t magically powerful, living and growing up in a world that would find you useless sounds....awful. Hunter must be an anomaly around here, human blood or not.

Luz coming here to learn is different then growing up in a world and being the only one with no abilities and no future without them. Belos provides him with magic and a future, it’s no wonder he stays with him despite everything.

the whole “Found me” thing is weird, cause belos implies they’re blood related and hunter makes it sound like belos semi-adopted him. Which....if he did i dunno why “Uncle” and not “Adopted dad”, but ok....guess that’s for later.

Apparently hunter is important for something tho with the “Titan has big plans for me” thing, not sure what, but-

But yeah as soon as Hunter talked about wanting to make his own future and Rascal tried to land on him i knew EXACTLY where this was going, it was so cuteeeeee. The lil birb wanted to be with hunter, that’s so wholesome.

And he’s so terrified because of belos and what wild magic did to him, the poor bab.

But yeah, luz then trusts him with his staff back, because again....impulsive. But hunter does actually ask if she’s sure, so he might as well be asking if she trusts him.

The plan goes ahead, and hunter nearly betrays her.

though granted, hunter never promised her he’d stop and let her take them away, the truce was supposed to last till kiki was stopped and they were gonna fight out who got the pailsman. But it does bother luz cause she was hopeful he was better then this.

But just like he did before, she calls him out and he doesn’t betray her, because he’s ALSO too nice to do it, just like he said she was. He says his name (Which also took a moment to process), and then beats the crap out of kiki while letting luz get away and protecting her like a badass.

He might not have magic, but he’s good at fighting

like he can easily teleport to luz and take the pailsman, but he doesn’t, he lets them get away and luz knows this. Even though she also knows hunter has to go back to the emperor too and they have to separate.

It’s only slightly bitter terms, because in the end he came through for her and she knows it.

honestly, the worst part is i can’t even be mad at hunter for it, i’m sure he was terrified to fail belos. Both because he loves him and doesn’t want him to suffer....but also because of well...being punished. Really says something when his near betrayal doesn’t even make me mad at him, and i can understand why he nearly did it.

He let her go, knowing he’d be in SERIOUS trouble and that it would hurt someone he actually loves, so....ouch.

so yeah at this point i knew rascal wanted him so it was only of matter of what happened next.

Which was, luz getting the wood, which i like more anyway. Eda and King doing this offscreen and coming home like this is actually very funny, and honestly i appreciate the message of it being ok to wait.....means a lot to me.

yeah so belos is like...being an ass, like the kid tried his hardest, you don’t need to hit him with the “Is this the thanks i get?”. He’s a kid and he’s trying to cure you you dick, give him a break he doesn’t remotely have to help you like this.

Also apparently belos has not even told hunter HOW this happened, like...dude. Hunter is trying to be entirely reasonable here and belos spikes at him, which does imply some physical abuse though the only reason hunter doesn’t get a new scar is because he moves.

but how he reacts implies this has happened before, he is bracing for impact and he flinches. It’s pretty sad tbh, especially since hunter loves him and belos’s respect means something to him.

Belos is such an idiot, like c’mon dude, hunter is trying to help you and you don’t listen to him you dick. Kid shouldn’t have to say sorry for anything he did nothing wrong, he was just trying to help.

Anyways, he gloats at kiki (So at the very least she knows what he looks like under the mask), which he deserves a chance to do anyway. So i guess he didn’t rat her out for trying to kill him, personally my guess why is blackmail.....he was gonna hold it over her head to keep her from doing it again and threaten to tell belos.

But kiki quickly tells he LET the pailsman get away since he was the one to fight her (Curse his cute loose hair strand). So i guess now they have dirt on each other, so that’s fun.

His room is adorable, though the med kit by the bed is concerning.

Rascal comes for him and it;s so cute....though you can tell hunter nearly hurts him on instinct because of force of habit, but it’s so cute how he cares and how the birb loves him and is his new staff.

it was well hinted to as well, it’s so subtle, but the bird being cheery, curious, and his constant habit of escaping boundaries was perfect for hunter. He represents what hunter wants to be and why they got matched is done so well, all without explaining anything.

Hunter indirectly stated his deepest wish, to make his own choices, and rascal resonated with that. 

can’t wait to see where this goes.

great ending shot, love me some conflicted shots looking out of windows like trapped birds.

also this title was a pun the whole time i can’t-

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thank you for everything you do for transfem jesse it means so much to me

it's all my pleasure really!! I love talking about transfem Jesse, there's so much to it as an analysis, and it's nice to have his transness being an active part of his character arc and Breaking Bad’s dealings with gender in general, and it's so like... happy for him as well cause god the idea of "manhood" has been a significant factor in the trauma he's experienced and the times we've seen him at his happiest is with women

here's some additional thoughts/headcanons I haven't posted about I don't think, all MOSTLY specfic to my particular personal headcanon for Jesse but I wanna share:

I think Jesse already having a look thats pretty similar to some other butch lesbians would be a pretty big confidence boost, I think he'd have some insecurity about being no-med no-op along with using he/him pronouns a lot of the time, and especially since the whole "gender is a social construct" thing is new to him he'd have that sort concern on wether or not he's "allowed" to be trans, so knowing about the existence of or even meeting other gnc feminine identifying people would be really helpful, especially other gnc transfem people. I ALSO think knowing that there are even cis women or at least afab fem-aligned people that go on testosterone could also really help solidify that it's okay for him to be trans without medically transitioning, because if there are women who are willing to invest in medical transition to be more like him then he has even more confirmation that it's fine to stay the way he is

oh and then speaking of being butch I do think Jesse still prefers mostly feminine terms which I just mention since at least some butches will use things like "boyfriend" for themselves but I think Jesse would still use "girlfriend" and pretty much all feminine terms, the only masculine term I think he still likes is "gentleman"... I have no explanation as to why I think he's still okay w/ that one that I know how to articulate

I think for at least a pretty long while very feminine clothes like dresses and skirts are something he doesn't typically go out in public wearing, but he does often wear them at home around whoever is lucky enough to end up as his partner (I totally don't picture myself in that role what are you talking about hahahaaaaaaaa)

I believe his lovely long eyelashes give him a lot of gender euphoria, and that mascara becomes the makeup that he most consistently wears since it makes them more visible from different angles

LIKE SERIOUSLY THOUGH LOOK AT THOSE LASHES

I'm really honestly sad this analysis isn't super popular. while people do have a right to project and have Jesse as their own gender goals, for those who aren't projecting the fandoms preference for transmasc Jesse relying much more on looks without delving much deeper into her character and how BrBa deals w/ gender and considering other ways of her being trans is... frustrating. AND MUCH WORSE is things like when those same people who often claim Jesse is "obviously transmasc" b/c of how she looks also do observe her connections w/ women and reason that it's specfically evidence Jesse is afab and transmasc which... yay! (hopefully mostly accidental) bioessentialism! and even ppl who project should still be aware of the unpleasant connotations of interpreting Jesse's connection to women as ONLY evidence that she's transmasc

I don't think most people are being malicious, and I definitely don't think the transmasc Jesse headcanon should dissappear, but there is something to discuss about the difference in attention and treatment transfem vs transmasc Jesse gets (espec b/c if we're being truly honest egg Jesse is really the only trans interpretation of Jesse that could actually be canon, tho that does still technically cover A LOT of possible specfic identities, it just does exclude transmasc)