#cause he actually relies on ppl to do their part and they do

[iamumbra195]

Y’know, the reason tatsuki probably latched onto Orihime is probably because she lost Ichigo. Not in the literal way but in the sense that Ichigo was probably her closest friend as a kid and even now, she’s still incredibly fond of him but there’s this very palpable distance between them. It’s like when you have a best friend for years and then suddenly you don’t feel like your their best friend anymore while they’re still yours

So when Orihime came along who 1) had orange hair and 2) is the literal embodiment of sunshine like little ichigo, she latched onto her. And then when Orihime got her powers and sort of started to drift away, Tatsuki noticed

she doesn’t like change because change took away her first best friend and now she’s scared of losing her second. But when things don’t change the way she feared they would she doesn’t say anything when she sees Orihime and Ichigo doing weird spiritual stuff, content to ignore it because unlike with Ichigo at first, she and Orihime both began seeing spirits about the same time and supported each other so even if Orihime can fight the monsters there’s like an equalization in their relationship-- Tatsuki protects Orihime from real world stuff and Orihime protects her from spiritual stuff. It’s why their relationship works in a way Ichigo and Tatsuki’s didn’t at first, because Orihime doesn’t stonewall Tatsuki in the same way Ichigo does. At first, anyways.

It even says the Tatsuki can sense her so even if she doesn’t have powers they have a connection on a spiritual level and she’s scared to lose that. So when Orihime disappears out of nowhere with no warning, she’s angry and terrified and she knows exactly who to go to because this kind of stuff only happens around Ichigo

So when he stonewalls her YET AGAIN, she snaps because this time, one of the most important ppl in her life is missing and someone who is supposed to be her friend refuses to tell her anything despite all the time, the years they’ve known each other. It’s double the hurt for her, seeing how little Ichigo trusts her, even in matters that concern others

which is great call out to Ichigo’s issues with trusting ppl and making every little thing his responsibility while refusing to rely on anyone else, adressed by Renji and Rukia later on in the arrancar arc when they yell at him for not waiting for them and trusting them to come back and help

the repeated theme of being asked if they’re friends and why he can’t trust them is just so painful because the difference in thee responses to Tatsuki and Rukia just put into perspective how much Ichigo pushd Tatsuki away since his mom died

That was tatsuki’s breaking point and it’s an accumulation of all the hurt of losing her best friend and hearing him say that probably hurt both her and Keigo and Mizuiro because they’ve been there the entire time, haven’t they? It wasn’t fair for them to be sidelined like this, especially when it’s their friends, when they can see all the weird stuff that’s happening but feel as if they can’t talk to Ichigo because he tries so hard to protect everyone that all he ends up doing is hurting them

once again, Ichigo’s trust issues, even with ppl who can fight, even with ppl who have raided sereitei with him

‘Not strong enough’ is interesting. He tries to deter ppl from helping him and coming to his side because he feels that being around them hurts them, he feels that Orihime’s kidnapping is all his fault. And he does this by hurting them with words.

‘Don’t come near me’ ‘You aren’t strong enough’

Another beautiful call out

Hearing Ichigo say he’ll save Orihime and apologize to her and the others probably made her realize how much he’s been surpressing and how much he’s been hiding from her in a stupid attempt to protect and she hates it, hates how much she understand it because it’s always been in his nature

It makes their friendship post-aizen both bitter sweet and awesome because she finally knows everything but he no longer has his powers so their positions are switched because no she’s the spiritually aware one while he has nothing to hold onto

But she treats him the same nonetheless (Mizuiro and Keigo do as well, Keigo even goes out of his way to check up on Ichigo, after the timeskip to makesure he’s doing okay)

Anyways that’s enough of my rant about the messy friendship that is Tatsuki Ichigo and Orihime :)

A beautiful fic from Tatsuki’s perspective and some cute Ichigo & Tatsuki friendship: https://archiveofourown.org/works/47193712

[mysterycitrus]

I know a lot of ppl ask u abt jason or dick but im wondering now, what do u think about bruce? I find him a very interesting character whose characterization is incredibly feeble, both bc of his 80 years of history and the tendency writers have to project their own male fantasies on him. So i'd definitely love to hear ur own thoughts about him. I personally enjoy depicting him as someone morally grey, although my sympatization for him changes day to day. Wether you think he is a good or a bad person, i believe u need to make him dedicated to gotham and the bat as a symbol, and that comes with all its advantages and drawbacks

bruce wayne is sooooo interesting (derogatory) because like u said, he carries the baggage of every masochismo author that decided batman was too woke and should hurt his kids and that supporting gotham’s infrastructure is for pussies. there’s also the flipside of that, where he’s the perfect father who’s waaaay too emotionally regulated for my taste. both of these interpretations are bad imo, and both functionally miss the point.

i think part of this (in fandom) is an obsession with moral angst — u can either be a good person doing good things, or a bad person doing bad things. think about how some characters are crucified while others are babied. someone always has to be absolutely right, and the other has to be absolutely wrong.

in reality, there are a lot of people who are fundamentally kind and fundamentally want to do good that are really terrible to the people in their lives. bruce wayne being someone who relies on having so much control that it implodes his connections to the people around him is an important part of his character. his profound love for his children, for gotham and her people, for humanity in general and his belief in peoples ability to change, doesn’t circumvent the fact that he’s often an emotionally abusive man who hurts others to achieve his own ends. he contains multitudes.

writing him as a functionally irredeemable, violently abusive person is the anti-thesis to the symbol that he himself created. no, i personally don’t believe he actively beats his kids (even though it’s supported in the text). no, i don’t think he’s an irredeemable sadist (as much as frank miller wants u to believe otherwise). to have people like dick grayson and diana and clark and dinah love and believe in u means that there has to be something there worth caring about, otherwise the whole universe is gonna fall apart.

that’s what makes his relationship to cass so interesting — he sees his neuroticism, his dedication to the cause above all else, and does not find it admirable. he finds it confronting and upsetting. and to be clear, cass (like dick) is very much the moral ideal of what batman should be, but still bruce finds it hard to deal with!!

his abject failures — his treatment of the robins, his crippling guilt about jason, his fears of becoming a killer, the impossible load he gives himself to carry — means that when he’s shown as someone who genuinely cares, it makes him more complex. like yeah, bruce isn’t actually a cold hearted person. he really really gives a shit. too many shits, to be totally honest. he’s a morally grey person that wants to do good, but is so terrified of losing control that he keeps others away and hurts them in the process. there’s a reason why his emotional crutch was a traumatised eight year old fr. nothing is more important than the mission, including bruce wayne himself

[kisses4tom]

PT 2 OF TOM AS A DAD PLSSS

ᡣ𐭩 DAD TOM part 2!

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HEYY OFCC 🤭 SO MANY PPL ARE REQUESTING THIS ACTUALLY!! 😭 here is part 1

To be quite honest with you guys, I don't really know what else to add 😭, but I'll figure it out and make something up along the way! 💕

I hope it lives up to your expectations because, I will not lie, I ran out of ideas for a few of them 😭 yet I hope you like it either way! 🫶🏻

I also mixed various topics and scenarios for a little more inclusivity! especially because I made a lot of these hcs for a teen daughter

Obviously Tom is gonna be a girl dad 'cause what else would he beeeee 🤭🥹

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he would keep almost every drawing she's made throughout the years

HE WOULD LEND HER HIS YELLOW DOG PLUSHIE‼️‼️

when she's older he would love to get matching tattoos if she wants, but he's definitely getting one dedicated to her (did y'all know Bill and Tom have a matching tattoo with Leni? 👀)

definitely making her a photo album

if anybody says that the baby looks more like him than her mother he would act so proud istg

"Yeah, Y/n's genes said BYE!"

he would become her personal Instagram photographer

whenever his daughter brings a boy home he would be so sus of him and maybe even tell them to keep the door open 💀

DAD REFLEXES 🤭🤭‼️ so hot istg

he would get dragged into tiktoks and learn some dances together 😭

when the baby was younger, her mama would surprise Tom with matching fits and he would be sooo gitty and happy

always keeping an eye out for her in public

if he's talking to some people and he hears the smallest noise coming from his daughter, he would immidiately put everything on pause and make sure she's okay (if that makes sense idk) or he would turn to look at her

he would try to attend as many school/dance recitals as possible, but with work it's a little hard for him to find time (at times)

is she plays a sport he would cheer the loudest for her

if she ever comes out as an lgbtq+ member, he would be very supportive and just act casual after her confession

when the baby was just born and he had skin-to-skin contact with her for the first time, he got emotional

he would wake up in the middle of the night and feed her himself so you could rest (currently in between tears)

the band is OBSESSED with that child and always play with her whenever they have a chance

Tom knows he can rely on them as babysitters

why do I feel like him and Bill would FIGHT to choose who holds her

"Tom you always have her come onnn let me have her this timeee"

he's so protective of that child

when she first started walking he’d kneel down and open his arms towards her

he would also scoot back so she could walk more and then let her fall in his arms (imagine him picking her up and kissing her cheek after 😭)

istg he would bring that child everywhere (especially when she's older)

he would make sure to dedicate her an episode/scene on Kaulitz & Kaulitz where he talks about fatherhood and his story

he's veeery supportive of everything she does

whenever he's live on Instagram or TikTok with the band he would call his daughter over and prank her with filters or something like that

he loves dressing her up, but hates changing her diaper

he usually doesn't enjoy shopping, but he would bring her everywhere and spend time together

he's such a quality time dad

when texting, he would send pictures of his honest reaction LMFAO😭

he would make sure his and Gustav's daughter are like little cousins (spoiler alert: they are)

his daughter will grow up with "do you need a stepmom by any chance?" questions 😻

if Tom and the baby's mom broke up, co-parenting would be pretty hard on him, as he loves that child so much it hurts him to know he can't see her for some time

he would probably bring her to some meet and greets with fans (both now and back in the day)

fans would give him so many gifts for her

sometimes he gets emotional knowing she won't stay a baby forever, but he's still very excited to know her character and mess with her more

when she was a baby, at the beach he would dip her feet in the water

when she's older he would splash the hell out of her and push her in the water

if you have more ideas leave them in the comments so I can add them! 🤭

[general-cyno]

wano has become a favorite arc of mine for different reasons and it also gave me a lot of zolu brainworms to mull over, so here I go (again). spoilers for some of the big reveals in the arc so beware

despite getting separated shortly after reuniting, yasuie's execution once again highlighted how similarly minded zoro and luffy are - like zoro, luffy gets pissed at the sight of ppl laughing at yasuie after he's killed, though they both learn it's due to the effects of the smile fruits. and despite the fact that doing so could put their plan in jeopardy (hence why sanji yells at zoro to cool his head), luffy actively cheers zoro on (from the distance) when he goes after orochi in retaliation

a nice tiny moment is also back when they're together. luffy was worried since big mom appeared in wano yet jimbei (who had stayed in whole cake island to fend her off along his former crew so the straw hats could escape) hadn't arrived. albeit zoro wasn't even part of the WCI arc events, he's quick to reassure luffy:

although I'm not certain whether law was referring to them specifically or not, there's a part during the discussion of the raid where he says there's two idiots who, no matter how much planning goes into it, are likely to charge straight in regardless. then, of course, this happens:

(so yeah. I think they're probably the idiots)

and funnily enough, zoro doesn't get lost for once. not only does he find luffy, any intention zoro had of (ironically, considering he was causing a ruckus himself) chastising luffy for messing up the infiltration goes out the window when he tells zoro about the spilled oshiruko

this is a direct callback to their interactions with tama when they first reunited in wano. it's cute how attached they got to her and yeah, they're both stupidly reckless at times but this is one occasion in which it isn't just for the sake of chaotic shenanigans - it's them getting angry at how these ppl are disrespecting what tama and the oshiruko stand for. to those present, it seems foolish/weird since they don't understand the context behind it, but it's the kind of understanding that goes on between luffy and zoro precisely bc of the moments they share together.

there's some good panels of both worrying about each other after getting hurt and zoro carrying an injured luffy to safety. they're soooo.

this was pretty good too:

their plan to jump to the roof to face kaido ultimately fails here but it's still cute that zoro's so willing now to just cling to and let luffy carry him around like this (arlong park zoro has come a long way lol). it also says a lot abt luffy's trust in both the crew and zoro that he was fine letting them in charge below while he and zoro went to face kaido together.

the x drake ordeal was kind of funny but it served to show exactly why zoro complements luffy so well. luffy tends to be very trusting toward others, even those who might've started out as enemies which usually works out fine but still. zoro's quick to remind luffy that the guy's a traitor and unreliable, and (along with some of the other straw hats) refuses to blindly accept the impromptu alliance. it's interesting though, that zoro doesn't entirely disregard luffy's opinion nor x drake's help per se - he's just understandably wary of drake's true intentions (pointing out that he's still hiding where he stands in the whole conflict) and eventually agrees to team up. love the balance of it ngl.

that said, the actual fight on the roof has to be one of my favorite parts! it's probably one of the most obvious occasions in which zoro's role as luffy's first mate/right hand man and how much luffy relies on him too shines through. there's zoro slashing big mom and kaido's fire attacks so they wouldn't hurt luffy, taking the lead in attempting to stave off kaido and big mom's joint attack (and succeeding for a bit) despite the fact that he's got three powerful captains beside him, and several panels of him protecting luffy. this one was particularly crazy

this is pretty much zoro's equivalent to "if you wanna kill him you'll have to kill ME first". insane. I love them so much. zoro may be the one to have more instances in which he gets to demonstrate his loyalty and protectiveness towards luffy rather than the opposite - but knowing luffy's the one who usually risks himself for others in grandiose ways, I find it very compelling that zoro gets to be the one to protect him in these important moments, that luffy trusts him to do it and even thanks him for it here in this arc. to me, there's a reason why, out of the whole crew, zoro was the only one to take part in this particular confrontation. mutual trust/understanding/respect etc are at the core of their relationship. it's a two way thing.

fast forward to zoro vs king and OF COURSE this mf thought of luffy when facing the guy.

I posted about this the other day, but something similar happened during zoro's duel against mihawk. when the latter asks what drives zoro to fight despite being so weak, it's this exact part of his meeting with luffy at the marine base that he recalls. zoro has certainly driven himself to get stronger for the crew's sake and for his dream, but it's clear that luffy (and his own promise to kuina) is one of zoro's biggest motivators. he's also the one person zoro has cast aside that very dream of his for so... (thriller bark zoro you live in my heart always).

when zoro wins against king, too, it's his promise to never lose that he recalls. the promise he made to luffy. regardless of how you interpret their relationship, it's obvious luffy means a lot to zoro and moments like these don't let the readers forget it.

that said, this was perhaps the most insane part to me:

just when you think zolu can't get more trope-y than it already is, the manga says: wait a fucking second. canon sun/moon, heaven/hell, god/demon zolu.

I was already spoiled about these bits, though they were exciting to read through anyway. I think it's very curious that both zoro's ancestry and his conqueror's haki reveal happened during the arc where the true nature of luffy's devil fruit comes to light and his awakening into joyboy/nika takes place. can't say for sure what oda's planning for them in the future, but wano is probably the biggest glimpse so far as to the kind of figures luffy and zoro are bound to become (or are already becoming) in one piece's universe.

joyboy luffy being considered a hero to wano only rivaled by shimotsuki ryuma is also so... oof, knowing that ryuma (also called god of the blade) is zoro's ancestor, whose zombie he faced back in thriller bark and whose sword shusui he wielded for a while after that, and that he resembles physically too (both being one-eyed samurai/swordsmen). there's a lot more parallels to be drawn between them, and zoro's conqueror's haki adds a whole new layer to their relationship, but a detail that's fascinating to me is that both zoro's presence and joyboy's awakening in wano are hailed as the work of fate at different points, by kawamatsu and zunesha respectively.

overall there seems to be a thread of "fate" that's tying the story together from the void century to roger's era to the present but choice is also an important aspect imo. zoro and luffy are an example, bc in spite of how their stories have turned out to be somewhat intertwined... it was luffy's choice to seek out the demon pirate hunter and rope him into his crew. it was zoro's choice to join him, to make a promise that'd tie his own dream to luffy's. there's a potential that neither of them could've reached if they hadn't come together to sail in that dinghy and formed an entire crew (a family!) that have all of them journeying towards their dreams, always relying on and striving to become better for one another. all of these little choices for luffy and zoro led them up to this point and onwards, which tbh is just really fucking good.

[puppy-phum]

i find it so ironic how after becoming blind or, simply, disabled, day also turns invisible. suddenly, he's just not there, like it's not he who cannot see but he who cannot be seen.

ppl don't really talk to him, don't address him, barely give him any choices of his own. they talk over him and past him and around him, about him, surely, but not to him. it's like he's not there. he's this huge responsibility, but he's no longer a person. he's left to places like a dog or an object to wait for others to do all the things for him, and then he's just expected to agree with their plans. the same plans that still affect him and his life and future.

no wonder he's so angry and fed up with everybody. he wants to speak for himself. he wants to be heard and seen again. he used to enjoy having eyes on him – as a national athlete, there obviously were many (admiring, evaluating, assessing) eyes on him, and he liked the spotlight. he's obviously very proud of his own accomplishments and it must be frustrating to be suddenly reduced into nothing. like what he did never mattered. like who he is never mattered.

he is just this now. his blindness. someone who can be overlooked bc he cannot see it anyway. he's not far from being dead, as he puts it himself.

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meanwhile, mork experiences the brutality of being abandoned over and over again. that's his wound. when his sister leaves, the pain gets the loudest, but even outside of that, he's hearing the same thing over and over again.

from what we got to know, no one ever really learned why exactly rung decided to kill herself. i assume it was the guilt over feeling like she failed mork, like she brought him more peril than was worth living for (debt?). she obviously wanted mork to have a good future, but i guess none of her actions ever translated to mork in that way.

to him, rung left after deciding that mork just wasn't worth it. she took "the easy way out" after realizing that fighting beside mork and tolerating his behavior just weren't worth the effort. mork really wasn't making the best choices, but i don't think he was ever "beyond saving". mork just thinks this is how it all went.

and then he keeps hearing the same thing from others:

after being in jail, his friends abandon him even if he took part in that fight for them. he wasn't enough for them to stick around (not that they were actually that good company, but he knew them, spent time with them, relied on them on some level)

porjai broke up with him bc mork was prioritizing his friends over his girlfriend. which porjai points out humorously, as is part of their friendship as exes, but which lands as a stab anyway. "you weren't enough as you are," it says. "you should've done better to not have me leave you."

no one wants mork to work for them bc all they can see is his past mistakes and not him trying to presently correct them. his skills aren't enough to overshadow what he did. him trying to be better cannot erase those mistakes he already made. "you should've been better to begin with," it says. "there's nothing you can do to change that now."

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ppl keep turning their backs on mork, leaving him behind, labeling him unworthy or simply not good enough. even day's family does this, looking at him once and going, "you obviously do not belong here."

day disagrees. on some level at least, he disagrees. bc mork actually sees him. after all this time, someone actually sees him again.

meanwhile, well. we had that whole montage at the end of the episode to tell us how badly mork wishes to believe that someone is finally giving him a chance to prove he isn't a lost cause, that he is worth something.

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my expectations for the second ep are that these two are going to learn just how bad it actually feels when someone is able to see you and how hard you will have to work to prove yourself to those who barely wish to listen.

[itsyagurlchip]

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COMING BACK BECAUSE I WANT TO TALK TO YOU AND I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH HIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIIIIIIII!!!!!

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OKAYOKAYOKAY— so!! hmmmm.... what's up with gasty boy? what's gonna happen now that he's actually present and existing instead of scattered across everything everywhere all at once?? he's giving mad scientist but how far does the mad scientist go????? i'm interested in him 'cause i don't think i've ever read a sans au fic like this where the OG gaster was there too and i love the way you write them all!!!!!! or if you wanna do something else,, take this as an opportunity to infodump about anything you want!!!!! WAVE EMOJI WAVE EMOJI LOVE YOU CHICHIIII!!!! (≧▽≦)/ (≧▽≦)/

HAI KITTY <3333 SEEIN YO GUYS ALWAYS MAKES ME SMILE :) THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!

alright, you already know that he's a mad scientist, but as i've said before, he's morally gray, which means a lot of things don't deter him of completing/doing experiments.

which is why the lil 'oopsie daysie' happened with machine, and that's why there are alternates at the manor.

sans and papyrus, at the least, are pissed about it. but this discovery makes gaster's nerdy big boy brain hyperfixate on anything relating to the topic of alternative universes (humans in this universe dont have much research about it other than the occasional movie that makes you think, and the theories.)

and if i go further into this id spoil some of the plot (which i already did enough of) sooo, lets think of some hypothetical scenarios and headcannons!

id say that reader (you) would get into the lab a lot. and while you can be a great lab assistant, lets be honest, you touch too much shi 💀💀

gaster would have this thing where he'd put you in he corner for 5 minutes before letting you interact with the work again.

when i think of gaster's experiments, not only do i think of vials of dangerous liquids, but i also think of a SHIT ton of notes just neatly organized into notebooks on a metal shelf

a lot of the pages are more about ramblings and tiny details rather than general info

so if you try to read it, please get some context dear.

i know most ppl have the headcannon that sans gets his sleepy eepies from his dad, but he completely developed that on his own

gaster has a schedule set to where he sleeps for 8 hours, and only has 3 hours of free time.

which means if you see the other 13 hours blocked on his schedule he will not acknowledge you unless you are helping him progress

Going back to his interests, i think his favorite part about science are the details that most people miss that just really bring the whole theory together into a fact.

bro prolly has some national scientist awards and threw that shi straight into the trash.

its not that he isnt proud of his achievements actually, not at all.

he just doesn't need someone else, better yet a human to tell him so

so he tries to ignore the public despite their incessant please for his presence ✨

Since gaster actually exists, he is still labeled as the royal scientist, despite not being apart of a monarchy anymore, and does favors for the king when the curiosity allows it.

I want him to be a grandfather figure, who rambles on about success in life, who is also emotionally repressed, who also takes many risks that a man his age shouldn't.

his ideas and experiments are very "out of the box" per say. Like, if you told him you cant see souls at all (which is most likely gonna happen) dudes gonna strap you down and ignore your cries of pain as he extracts the your soul from your chest. poking and prodding at it to compare it to a monster soul.

i mean, he has the real thing now! no need to rely in outdated textbooks and theories right? why not test it for himself? and if you resent him for the rest of your life for it, he would tell you how lucky you are to still be alive and that he got what he wanted without losing a "potential specimen".

which makes you wonder what other lives has gaster been liable for??...oh well!

And noowwww back to the reader!

since reader is now gonna be a big part of his life- he'll allow certain things to slide. as you live more and more with him and the gang, he'll call you assistant or human and not by your real name.

i dont think gaster would spend much time around you during his scheduled hours (he kicks you out half the time)

but during his free time, and since you're human, he is very curious.

he asks about you, what it's like being a human female, what makes your skin darker than other humans, and why'd you conjoin your hair-

just lots of general questions about your appearance and how humans literally dont use INTENT at all.

and yes, INTENT, DETERMINATION, ATK, LOVE, and much more terms from undertale will be used in this fic. so i suggest getting into the fandom vocab a bit when you can-

but to put it simply, INTENT is like another way of language for monsters. it's pretty much what it says, but to break it down: intent is something that you do with purpose.

personally, i headcannon intent to be more intune with emotions and how the user feels and/or wants to feel in the moment. for example "aggressive and murderous intent" or "caring, sweet, and loving intent." and INTENT carries magic within it, hence why monsters are so in tune with internal emotions while humans aren't. and that's why monsters re more in danger with humans than any other creature, because humans used unknowing intent that could kill a monster in one hit.

Surprisingly enough he doesn't like to spend his breaks at home in his bed.

instead, he goes out to muffet's for a very specific coffee order, and a spider muffin.

half of the time he'll make you pay with your own money, crippling your pockets.

other times he'll roll his eyes when you "forget" to bring your wallet and get you only a drink off the menu.

if you catch him as he's leaving out for a break, gaster may sometimes not go to muffet's at all and find a park to watch kids trip at.

or maybe a grass field during golden hour.

im not gonna say that gaster hates kids, but it's moreso that fact that they...are underdeveloped, and therefore harder to understand in his eyes.

as ive said before, this guys ignores his feelings, so he gets uncomfortable when people show theirs.

so when you cry, or get angry in situations that dont seem as big to him as it does to you, he lowkey cringes a bit.

but since.. *sigh* you're now his pupil, as well as someone who takes his work more seriously than others (DESPITE YOUR TENDENCY TO TOUCH SHIT)

he has to take of you now! and *gags* comfort you

bro cant comfort for shit (which is one of the reasons why they dont have plants at their house)

so when you hug him with your snotty face... and your...wet tears, he shivers aggressively but tries to keep still

yea he doesn't hug back at all, its bad enough he has to watch you!

(or maybe it's bc he doesn't know how to hug back 👀)

In this au, the reader is canon to the universe. not isekaid, not transported, no. she lives there and the code is accurate. so any and all timelines will include her.

and timelines are gonna be a "what if", or maybe a chapter for angst. idk yet. And in this fic, imma make the choice for flowey not to remember resets. but only due to his will (cool right?).

frisk isn't really gonna be included much into the plot, only when it calls for it.

oh shit- back to gaster

not sure if i said this before, but warming up to gaster even the littlest bit is like reading a 100 chapter slowburn.

it's gonna take a long time, hell, maybe a year or so, for him and reader to start actually building a granddaughter/grandpa relationship. so while youre still getting to know him, it's like he's avoiding you, (but you clearly don't read his schedule enough sooooo)

and when you guys finally get to that point, you guys are like buddies. he'll ramble to you about certain topics, while you sit and listen.

you'd watch movies with him as he overanalyzes characters and plots, only to fuck it up and end up with something different, claiming "he could write a better one".

gaster loves helping you study

even if it's for a 5 question quiz, he'll help you out as much as he can!

plus, id be a shame if the ✨Smartest Man On the Surface ™✨ let his little human fail!

nuh uh, not happening!!!

he's very proud of you everytime you get an assignment back with an A with lots of praise from the teachers.

he'll even try to get you in a routine (which rarely works often, as easy as it seems)

gaster chuckles every time you make him a homemade snack, or lunch meal, it warms his little heart ❤️

Other times he can't stand your attitude

Why cant you control yourself in situations that aren't bigger than you make it seem?

it racks his big brain so much, that he bans you from the lab for 3 days when stuff like that happens.

he really hates it when someone has a tone with him, it grinds against some part of his brain the makes his more "violent" and intrusive thoughts.

its not noticable at first, at least not to him, but after the 1st hour he begins thinking

"humans have skeletons right?"

"what would skin all in a pile look like?"

"what would happen if he gripped, squeezed and strangled a soul made of pure determination?"

of course, he already knows that answer to those. and if you dont, just ask frisk.

im sure they remember very well.

but after the intrusive thoughts go away, he's just left seething in anger.

i feel like gaster (,similar to donnie from rise) has a hard time understanding other people, because he's been alone for most of his life.

and that makes him jealous of you.

but in the end, you'll always be gaster's little assistant ❤️

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[ichorblossoms]

for the ask meme can i get uhhhh yarrow + face, serena + motion, grimm + favorite

HI HELLO JANE!!!!! sorry this took awhile to get around to answering i wrote all the text and told myself i was gonna draw pictures for these and then i got distracted because i wanted to draw. other pictures instead :,D BUT without further ado !!

face: Describe your OC's face. What's their smile like? Are their orbs cerulean? What would someone notice first when looking at them?

i don't trust my writing skills enough to write a description. their face:

i talked a little bit abt their facial features in this ask, but yeah, the Bee Stuff is definitely what people notice first. yarrow's modification was an experimental one, so while most people are kinda used to seeing humods with fur on their faces or weird ears or maybe horns and whatnot, invertebrate features are rare and jarring. this does cause issues when you're trying to be discreet, so yarrow tries their best to wear bandanas or masks. even pre-modification they actually wear something to the effect of a bandana or surgical mask often; partially because They Are A Doctor and also because they live in a mining town that doesn't give a shit about how much dust is kicked up from the open-pit mining

pre-modification i'm not sure what people would notice first; they have a few small defining features like their dimples, yellow-gold eyes, straight teeth, patchy facial hair, and mole on their right cheek, but overall nothing out of the ordinary. i think it's less features people notice, and a general impression of openess? he's quick to smile, talkative, and expressive, so people usually feel like they can approach him

motion: How does your OC move? How does their clothing help or hinder their range of motion? Are they flexible, coordinated, clumsy?

having trained in martial arts for most of her life, serena's very coordinated and flexible! she also has a muscular stature and she can make herself very difficult to move if she doesn't want to. she's aware of her size and generally has a slouch to her posture and walks with a bit of a trudge and lope if that makes sense? she has enough control though to where she can move almost freakishly quiet and it scares people on occasion

ofc she doesn't wear clothes, but she does have her prosthesis!

she's got both an everyday and a sport prosthesis, so while her movement isn't necessarily affected by that, she's less willing to run or do anything intense if she just has her everyday prosthesis on (that's the one i draw, i need to look more into sport prostheses for humans and adapt a design from there)

bc she's a congenital amputee, the only real adjustment she's had to do irt her leg is adapting to a new prosthesis every few years, so she has a solid sense of moving with or without it on. i've been trying to determine if she has smthin like an adapted wheelchair as well, but since dragons are quadrupeds and she's only missing part of a limb, it may not be necessary when she also has her tail and wings to help counterbalance during movement...? there's also the factor that she doesn't have a lot of money, so regardless of what she has to assist her, it's not always top-quality and she's learned to live with a certain level of discomfort and pain

speaking of wings, flying is something dragons can do, but it's a lot like running where most ppl can't do it for longer periods of time unless they train. it's not as necessary in modern society, so most dragons can fly for short bursts if needed/for fun. with the exception of a few who do things like, idk fly to work, most rely on transit bc it's easier. serena's ability to fly is Okay, she's accumulated some damage to her wings over the years (side effect of martial arts where other people have claws and horns), which makes her less aerodynamic and more easily tired out. she's got a good handle on her body and how it moves, so she's actually pretty graceful in the air and not aware of that fact at all. overall, she prefers not to fly, but still maintains a healthy habit of working out those muscles so they don't atrophy, which is a thing that happens with modern dragons.

favorite: Does your OC have a favorite article of clothing or accessory? What is it? What's the meaning behind it? Do they wear it all the time or do they wear it sparingly to keep it safe?

am i allowed to saw wrench here. i'm gonna say wrench

saying wrench is grimm's favorite accessory is actually a stretch bc it loathes wearing it, but adores wrench as a companion but if we are purely talking abt clothing here, grimm's not the sentimental sort, so it doesn't hold on to things once they're to worn nor does it worry about wearing things out. which is the boring answer

wrench is only worn as armor a handful of times in-story and in dire circumstances (that i. have not quite figured out yet <3). grimm fucking hates wearing it, hates the way it takes them back to their past, hates the way it doesn't quite fit their body anymore and hurts if they wear it too long, hates why they even have to wear it, but it's protection and a weapon in one, and they don't have many options.

i talked abt wrench a little bit when you asked abt it here, but wrench is both an artifact of grimm's past and a dear friend. as an animal companion/robot grimm does maintain wrench to an extent and it's a good dog that doesn't age like normal animals, they have a close pet/owner bond. when it comes to "wearing" it, transforming (so to speak) doesn't cause any wear and tear on wrench itself, since that is one of the purposes it was built for, but the situations in which grimm would don wrench may result in damage and there's also an element of wanting to keep wrench safe. aside from being armor, wrench can also do stuff like jam signals for short periods of time and sense heat signatures, so it does have an interest in preserving wrench for its own work and safety as well, but it's also a pet, yknow?

post-story i'm p sure grimm and yarrow would get something equivalent to married. yarrow's the romantic and the one to suggest it ofc, but grimm's like "hell, if i'm going to symbolically tie their life to someone else's it wouldn't be anyone but yarrow" and whatever sort of wedding band/necklace/wearable symbol they choose would become grimm's favorite, esp since it represents a version of themself they like being

[truculentbitch]

the adolescent part is so crucial because dream was essentially an adolescent too. like, there’s a bigger age difference between sapnap and george than there is tommy and dream. dream couldn’t even legally drink when they first met LMFAO. he was not this established adult with an adult life and an adult brain. and i think this emphasis on dream being the “adult” and tommy being the “child” is a conscious effort to render dream’s “wrongdoing” inarguable because without it, everyone would realize that this is simply the result of moralizing interpersonal conflicts and not actually a representation of dream as a person, even in the slightest. it’s sort of the perfect storm because the people who said these things have fostered a fan base who get off on the incessant victimization of them, and have clearly developed a complex as a result. and who can blame tommy honestly? what are you supposed to do when everyone is desperate for you to be a victim? and maybe one day we’ll unpack whether dream’s behavior or that behavior had a worse long-term effect on his psyche. i don’t think people would like the answer to that!

i'm unclear on the exact ages tbh and i'm ok with that bc i don't think it matters at all in this situation. it's so fucking disingenuous. are we not allowed to enforce boundaries with ppl younger than us?????

one of the things that dream got annoyed about early was tommy calling him 'big d' in a particular way that caused chat to connect big d = penis, which was the sole reason tommy kept on doing it. he was uncomfortable with tommy making a sexual joke about him and asked him to stop (tommy didn't btw until a certain point. after that, he started poking about how he couldn't call dream big d anymore 🙄). was this one of the red flags they talked about? bc i will be in my grave before i believe that those red flags were anything but dream not engaging in the same derogatory british humour that tommy and jack rely on.

this is simply the result of moralizing interpersonal conflicts

you've fucking got it, superstar 🧡

[jetaloen]

these for the ask game w/ rohan?: 🎮 🖤 😞

🎮 VIDEO GAME CONTROLLER — what are three of your oc's favorite hobbies?

gardening: he gardens all year long and will grow basically any kind of plant if he knows how to take care of it. mostly vegetables, but flowers, bushes, and bonsai too. he meditates in his garden, so he spends a lot of time beautifying it. his actual home interiors are comparatively sparse (until volo starts filling them w all his stuff) so the garden is the place where rohan goes all out.

woodcarving: he carves netsukes for inro. he'll paint inro as well, but carving is definitely his stronger skill and he only paints like simple outline type designs. he has a few inro of his own (bc he needs something to hold his joints lmfao) but he also sells netsukes on the side.

working out: he's a fitness nut sometimes bordering on unhealthy. it's part of his needing to exert control thing.

and of course cooking lol

🖤 BLACK HEART — has your oc killed or seriously wounded anyone before? have they broken someone's heart and/or broken someone's trust?

yes. back in kanto, rohan was his daimyo tadayo's favorite retainer and personal bodyguard, so any time tadayo had a dispute, rohan was there and doing the dirty work. conflicts at that time in rohan's life were mostly territorial disputes, which also were what eventually caused tadayo's domain to fall. it was an unstable region fraught with conflict.

rohan has for sure broken trust, especially that of his father; rokuro expects his son to hold his same sense of duty, having been raised under his teachings, but rohan is way more lax than his dad and spits on anything that's tradition based. the biggest moment for that is when rohan leaves to find volo after the temple of sinnoh shit. no one knows where rohan is for like a few years and rokuro sees that as a huge and unforgivable betrayal when he learns rohan was alive, bc rokuro feels jubilife relies on them both

😞 DISAPPOINTED FACE — does your oc attract others, or do they tend to be left alone?

ppl are drawn to rohan above any of my other characters bc he has the most overpowering swag and beauty. but that attraction is surface level only bc rohan doesn't like giving ppl an in and will more likely stand there silently like :3 while people talk at him. he is not easy to befriend. volo is seriously one of the first people rohan like ever befriends, and that's only after a ridiculous amount of persistence and the fact that rohan is very lonely and depressed and thinks volo is hot.

rohan really dislikes being seen as some kind of figure, which is the case in jubilife. the townspeople want to get to know the samurai who came from kanto to protect and teach them. this is something rokuro engages with a lot more, and a lot better, than rohan. it's even worse bc rohan plans to slip out of jubilife and disappear asap. kamado finds that standoffishness really unbecoming and he is highly distrustful of rohan for that reason.

[mejomonster]

I started Koisenu Futari and I wish alloromantic people could see like the first 10 minutes alone. So much of our main characters discomfort at being assumed to be flirting, being pressured to pick up on signs and be putting out signs, social norms and expectations, how people sometimes actively conflict with your behavior if you simply live your life without thinking in romantic terms/acting flirtatious/assuming, is what all kinds of aromantic people deal with. And the show does a good immediate job of showing how disruptive to a person's daily life that can be - just being your normal self, and people getting mad at you for not reading something they never said out loud, or assuming things of you, assuming a future for you and being annoyed you're not fulfilling it, society acting like your current life and life path isn't normal, etc.

Personal reaction below cut o3o:

On a different note just my personal reaction now lol. I'm demiromantic and god the opening to this drama REALLY hammers home why I hate a majority of fluff romance shows. A lot of them are "love at first sight" and rely on SO many situations that also happen in the beginning of this drama, but in this drama the main character acts like me: she's just being her normal self and this stuff is all pushed upon her and she just rejects it and step out of the sudden assumptions people make kindly and tries to move on. In so many "fluff romance love at first sight" things the main person is bafflingly smitten or overwhelmed and I get it cause it's a trope we are taught to understand after seeing so many times, but I don't relate to it and I've never experienced it and I'm never going to lol. This main characters experience is way more representative of how id react if unfortunately I ran into such situations. It's fucking refreshing.

Also I deeply love how much she enjoys her life, is happy with her friend, wants to move out with her friend. I felt just like her as I transitioned that part of life, and it's nice to just see it. In my social circle it's normal for people to move in with friends, prioritize friends like family (not just lovers), so her moving is what I did and makes sense to me. But I'm also very aware of the assumption friends may move out when they get a partner, will prioritize that more, and that society is generally expecting that so even when you're not doing it there's outsiders insisting it's not reliable or it's an odd living arrangement (like her family was). I like that she enjoys the life she's built.

It hurts my heart, but I relate and understand, to when she meets the man at the supermarket who says he believes there's people who don't fall in love. It's that moment when you realize you may not be alone, what you feel may be normal and actually have WORDS and concepts to describe it and a community of people like you! And suddenly you feel more like wow yeah I exist, my feelings are genuine, I am not alone and weird I am one of many people many tons who have felt like this and do and will and it's just like. That's why aces belong in lgbtq spaces (among many reasons). There is no space for people who feel aromatic or asexual and on that spectrum, in the majority of mainstream straight spaces. In the sense it still takes a person living into her adult life to even HEAR that how she feels is something ANOTHER PERSON also feels. It can take people decades to find out how they experience attraction or don't has a label, has a community, has people who can relate to them. And before even that just... simply can be a thing. I didn't know I was demi when I was a teen I just assumed all people felt like me, was confused when a lot of people seemed Not To experience stuff the same, and settled on maybe I was just a bit odd. Then one day I found a word for it and realized goddamn people Do feel this besides me, I'm not the only one who can't relate. It was the same experience being bi, not knowing ppl could like multiple genders until I found the bi community, and feeling "wrong" for liking multiple when adults and schoolmates would say "just pick" for ages. Or being trans, thinking oh whatever it was just my particular thing to cry about my gender and pray to be different, cause no one said to me that my gender could be different than what people call me as. So I just felt broken and confused until I learned there were words for my feeling, for who I was, and that I wasn't broken I was just something I had no words for before. Just like... people should be able to access community and information and feel less alone and more understood and accepted for being themselves.

The main girl in this feeling alone and not great every time people pressure her about romance and bring up how she doesn't act like them, I feel it in my heart. And I hope for whoever needs to see it, they see her isolation and want her and people who go through what she does to feel less of it. To feel more understood, to understand themselves more and have an easier time knowing how they feel is okay and its the fucked up pressures not understanding them that's frustrating.

Anyway I'm not even done with ep 1 just. Wow I feel like a lot of ppl could benefit a little just from seeing that first part.

[dearweirdme]

for the people who don’t believe in taennie, i’ve noticed they fall into two camps. one is that he’s being pressured into resigning and so the company is trying to ruin his reputation so that he relies on them. and the second is that it’s a beard because enlistment is close and since last year in paris, more ppl started to really see him as queer. for the first, i’m unsure because yea the comp has been a little weird in how they’ve been treating him but their contracts aren’t up for a while and nothing points to him wanting to leave. and for the second, it’s not like he’s hiding his queerness rn either, walking around smiling widely in his pride hoodie. i know taekookers think that this gives taekook more room to openly interact but if that’s the case how come it feels like they’re still being restricted. personally i’m not sure what to think the motives are, just that i knew something wasn’t right when hybe gave conflicting responses to whether he’d show up at cannes causing there to be the rumor that he’d hardlaunch there. they had the opportunity to shut it down right away and instead purposefully gave clout to her appearance, when tae was actually nowhere near there because the celine private party was at a hotel in antibes not cannes.

Hi anon!

I know the motives for something like this can be hard to understand. Especially for BTS fans, this has not been done before.. so it is strange and it tears at the believe of who the members are a bit. I’ve seen people mad at Tae for possibly lying to them. And I’ve seen many say that stuff like this just doesn’t happen in South Korea.

But I think, Kpop is starting to outgrow SK a bit. Especially BTS (look at Jk right now) and BlackPink are so huge. We’ve heard Jk say that he wants to be a big star. And with that comes marketing beyond SK and strategies that are different from what’s been done before.

I think that’s what’s happening with Tae as well. I don’t think he has the same stardom as Jk in mind, but I do think he wants things for himself and I think it’s to be able to be more himself. You might think, but if Taennie isn’t real.. how is that any closer to him being himself. Well, Taennie is something short lived. It’s a few months of having a rumored ‘girlfriend’, just enough to get the ‘he dates women’ through. It might not even be to make it appear like he isn’t gay, maybe just to show that he also dates women. Which unfortunately is looked upon slightly different than someone being gay. It allows him some freedom in the long run. It would allow him to wear pride hoodies in Disneyland, it might allow him freedom in his music/lyrics. It would take away a but of the ‘gay’ so he is in general able to hide less strictly. Even though it’s a side effect, I don’t think it’s to cover up his relationship with Jk. They manage fine under the shroud of bff’s. But maybe they have personally felt more free to roam around a bit. But I think the intention is solely for Tae’s image. At this point (though I don’t know what is still to happen.. maybe around his album release) I think the promo part was mostly for Jennie’s benefit. It was scheduled around her release(s). But in a way it was promo dor Tae too.. just not for a project, but rather for his image.

It’s about walking a fine line. A bit of fake to be able to be more real in the whole.

[leonisdumbasallhell]

Do you have tips for s+?

Sure! Now, I haven't done Professional yet, (I can add more tips once I do) but I've done S+ on assisted through hardcore with about 20-30 min to spare on each. This is for ppl like me who are generally bad at games, I have bad aim and rely mostly on luck and vibes, but these tips should help anyone

get Ashley's armor and the Chicago Sweeper, these are essential. All you gotta do to get em is S or A rank professional, which is SUPER easy on ng+. I did it in literally less than 4 hours on my first try lmao. if you don't have it already, get the infinite rocket launcher and just run through Professional with that, it'll unlock every reward under A rank.

2. use and abuse rewards and effect items you've gotten in ur playthrough. I've been using the deer antlers and gas mask the most, but I'll be using the chicken hat a lot now that I have it lmao. Tho the deer antlers make the krauser fight faster, and the gas mask makes the minecart section easier, so I'll probably switch those out to use.

3. Skips are your friend. There's several skips that save So much time, most of them have to do with grenades. You can skip: The gallery fight(flashbang or hand grenade), the moon/sun door puzzle in the battlements(Hand grenade), the crane fight(2 heavy grenades), and the anti aircraft turret bit(2 heavy grenades.) You can also skip getting the canon up at the gate, but if you're getting the medallions, you have to jump down there anyway. Some of the skips can be kind of tricky, so don't be afraid to reload if u fuck up. I also REALLY recommend using the golden egg on the Salazar fight, it speeds it up A Lot, and running back to get it only takes abt 2 min of extra time. Tho this part can also be very finicky because Salazar is actually a surprisingly small target, he moves fast, and I have bad aim. (I've repeatedly had to reload because I miss the fuckin egg throw)

4. Get as many spinels as possible. The merchant quests I finish are all the medallions up to the castle gate, the golden egg, the lunker bass, pest control 1, and the viper one. If you do these, you should have enough spinel for an exclusive upgrade ticket before the water room, which is when things actually become easier.

5. The hardest part of the game is the villa fight w luis. It sucks, it's a mess, but it gets better after u get through it, trust me. My method is to board the left window, cover the middle window, and then throw a hand grenade out the right window as soon as they break it. This should also blow up a red barrel, but if it doesn't try to hit that too, cause it'll clear that area out and give you a few moments of relative calm. then take a defensive position at the stairs. As soon as there's enough boards to cover the windows, I do that, then run upstairs into the lil alcove and just park myself there, kicking down the ladder and waiting till the Brute shows up. After that, you just kinda play tag by running up and down stairs & ladder while the brute chases u till the cut scene triggers. You can speed it up by killing the brute, but it's hard and not worth the risk. Even doing this, on my hardcore run, I died like 20 times trying to get through, and would have died last time if the cutscene hadn't triggered exactly when it did. not looking forward to it on professional :')

5. Most of the time you can just ignore ashley if you have the armor and she'll either teleport to you or sort herself out, but there are a few areas where you do actually have to make sure she's with you or you'll get a game over. Specifically any time she holds a door for you, you do have to actually go get her (that one room on the island and then the maze) Also in a pinch??? You can lowkey use her as a shield and sometimes it stuns enemies when they hit her ahjkhdjksh,

6. Some guides say to only buy one rocket launcher for the Saddler fight, but I buy two; one for Saddler and one for Krauser. For the early parts of krauser encounters, put the deer antlers on and just be wildly aggressive, it'll go quicker. Then once he's mutated, blow him up, it's so much easier and I hate his fight ajkhshdjk. If you know where the treasure is(I have several of them memorized, but if u need to spare a few spinel for the maps thats ok, or just look up treasure locations online) and you have the deluxe treasure map, you should get enough coin to get both on top of upgrading your weapons. If you don't have enough money by the time u get to saddler, sell ur other guns and literally anything else in ur inventory to get it. You can speed up the second stage before ada sends u the rocket launcher by shooting him, but having the rocket launcher to start is worth a few extra seconds

7. If you have the infinite handcanon, sell it, it's not as useful as the chicago sweeper. The only guns I use in S+ runs is the chicago sweeper, the base handgun, the base shotgun, and the stingray. I don't buy the stingray till I get to the island tho, and I sell the shotgun at that point since I have infinite ammo on the sweeper.

8. Don't rely on autosaves, I've noticed that sometimes when you reload an auto save from death it'll add the time up to your death to your timer. It does this if you hit continue as well, so I just reload my save. If it's close to the end and you've got extra time and don't want to redo anything, go for it, but otherwise, just use your manual saves.

9. If you have the deluxe treasure map, it's worth it to gather the silver and gold tokens to use in the shooting range. You don't always get anything useful, but there is a chance you'll get something good. the only good one thus far that I've gotten is Leon w/ Rocket launcher, but other good ones would be leon w/handgun, any health item boosts, any damage boosts, ada, luis, the merchant, and the striker. Otherwise or if you personally don't find them useful, sell them, it's free money & u'll need it.

10. Take it easy, but take it. There's some sections I take my time through, but there's others I just bullrush, esp once I have the sweeper. I kinda just run n gun and try not to be too tepid. Sometimes being Brash IS the answer. Worst that happens is I have to reload a save.

Bullet round

If the merchant has first aid spray, get it, it's worth the coin, esp if you play as brash as I do

If you're bad at memorizing things, look up the answers to puzzles/item locations online & have em ready, specifically the power terminal puzzles.

In the first village fight, just run circles till it ends and try to grab any items you can as you run. Literally don't shoot unless you have to, it slows you down

In the farm area, you can shoot the lock through the window so you don't have to go up through the top

When you flashbang or otherwise have the option, ALWAYS use the knife attack instead of melee, it's an insta kill vs melee which is not.

Speaking of, You also don't need to be sneaking to do a knife kill, you just have to be behind them or even just Slightly To The Side lmao, so you can do it just wherever if you maneuver correctly

Ashley's section is so fucking easy w the armor, literally don't even worry about it, just skip most of it by activating the clock and have a fun lil jog

In the verdugo fight, when he first apears, hit him w the first nitrogen blast and shoot the fuck out of him, he'll leave you alone to open the door. Then just run around till the elevators done

You can sneak past the regenoradors after the mike section, just use your bioscope to see which bags they're in and avoid them, they won't trigger.

no matter how careful you are, the dynamite boys will free the other regenoradors in the specemin lab while ur waiting for the card to load, just fuckin run around till it's done and book it outta there.

I also reccomend looking up guides online, most of this info either comes from guides or my own personal experimentation, other ppl are your resources.

Ur gonna suffer, just accept it.

Hope this helps!! I'm gonna do my Professioal S+ run over the course of the week (Or try to) so wish me luck!!!

[lttleghost]

thank you for everything you do for transfem jesse it means so much to me

it's all my pleasure really!! I love talking about transfem Jesse, there's so much to it as an analysis, and it's nice to have his transness being an active part of his character arc and Breaking Bad’s dealings with gender in general, and it's so like... happy for him as well cause god the idea of "manhood" has been a significant factor in the trauma he's experienced and the times we've seen him at his happiest is with women

here's some additional thoughts/headcanons I haven't posted about I don't think, all MOSTLY specfic to my particular personal headcanon for Jesse but I wanna share:

I think Jesse already having a look thats pretty similar to some other butch lesbians would be a pretty big confidence boost, I think he'd have some insecurity about being no-med no-op along with using he/him pronouns a lot of the time, and especially since the whole "gender is a social construct" thing is new to him he'd have that sort concern on wether or not he's "allowed" to be trans, so knowing about the existence of or even meeting other gnc feminine identifying people would be really helpful, especially other gnc transfem people. I ALSO think knowing that there are even cis women or at least afab fem-aligned people that go on testosterone could also really help solidify that it's okay for him to be trans without medically transitioning, because if there are women who are willing to invest in medical transition to be more like him then he has even more confirmation that it's fine to stay the way he is

oh and then speaking of being butch I do think Jesse still prefers mostly feminine terms which I just mention since at least some butches will use things like "boyfriend" for themselves but I think Jesse would still use "girlfriend" and pretty much all feminine terms, the only masculine term I think he still likes is "gentleman"... I have no explanation as to why I think he's still okay w/ that one that I know how to articulate

I think for at least a pretty long while very feminine clothes like dresses and skirts are something he doesn't typically go out in public wearing, but he does often wear them at home around whoever is lucky enough to end up as his partner (I totally don't picture myself in that role what are you talking about hahahaaaaaaaa)

I believe his lovely long eyelashes give him a lot of gender euphoria, and that mascara becomes the makeup that he most consistently wears since it makes them more visible from different angles

LIKE SERIOUSLY THOUGH LOOK AT THOSE LASHES

I'm really honestly sad this analysis isn't super popular. while people do have a right to project and have Jesse as their own gender goals, for those who aren't projecting the fandoms preference for transmasc Jesse relying much more on looks without delving much deeper into her character and how BrBa deals w/ gender and considering other ways of her being trans is... frustrating. AND MUCH WORSE is things like when those same people who often claim Jesse is "obviously transmasc" b/c of how she looks also do observe her connections w/ women and reason that it's specfically evidence Jesse is afab and transmasc which... yay! (hopefully mostly accidental) bioessentialism! and even ppl who project should still be aware of the unpleasant connotations of interpreting Jesse's connection to women as ONLY evidence that she's transmasc

I don't think most people are being malicious, and I definitely don't think the transmasc Jesse headcanon should dissappear, but there is something to discuss about the difference in attention and treatment transfem vs transmasc Jesse gets (espec b/c if we're being truly honest egg Jesse is really the only trans interpretation of Jesse that could actually be canon, tho that does still technically cover A LOT of possible specfic identities, it just does exclude transmasc)

[dreamquackity]

dude the fucking fandom is so fucking. god. fuck. jesus fucking christ. like ppl bitching about miraculous salt and all that shit is like - don't get me wrong it's irritating and fucked and stupid but like that shit is NOTHING compared to what we went through almost daily yk? i see people complaining about how bad it is in the fandom and how ridiculous people complaining about a literal kids' show is and i get that!! i feel that!! i understand you!! it's dumb!! i see it too! don't get me wrong about that!. HOWEVER. the amount of shit salters in this fucking fandom get up to is like - it's validly annoying but god it's literally nothing compared to how - like i feel like i'd be hard pressed to find another fandom that fucks with you mentally as much as that one. it was fun! it was good! it helped me through hard times! but dear. fucking. god. the bad was not worth the good. i just had no other good. and now i do so. i'm not as invested. thank fuck. i have other fandoms. thank fuck. it's fucking glorious. it's healthier. less fomo, less - every volatile emotion, less crazy people, it's lovely. i mean i still care about him and like his work but now i can simultaneously loop his EP and get work done, i can put videos off streams off, i can see people spamming about drama and not give a shit anymore because like - whatever happened is fucked up cos it always is (and this probably sounds like shitty but idc) and i feel bad for him but i'm not fucking up my fucking education and literally failing two classes because of stupid internet trolls causing drama that fucks with my mental health. god. (yes that actually happened. i was on track to being top in the class with both)

sorry that was a whole vent. basically i'm in a better place now that i'm only on the peripherals and it's great. what's funny is he literally got me to the peripherals bc the christmas streams made me feel happy enough to be able to stop relying on him like an addiction but it's been eight months and i feel like a recovered drug addict sometimes. recovered alcoholic who takes a sip of wine every now and then. lol. but like most drama in other fandoms doesn't faze me now bc like. yall have. no idea.

i get u anon........... it was way too exhausting being in that fandom. every fandom sucks esp if theyre big but boy oh boy. that shit was SOMETHING ELSE. im praying mlb lasts for me bc im really liking it here even tho parts of the fandom r getting like upset and leaving etc etc but well thats part and parcel of life im here and new people join every day and im looking forward to posting my fic even tho i know it will never be as popular as sadf and its a new fandom im writing for so theres this Fear

[twig-gy]

my tumblr was actually just being fucky wucky and it’s past 12 in my timezone anyway

so basically the loop is like. whole divides. and then he reforms. but for whatever reason, he keeps doing this, splitting himself over and over again. the most canon reason would probably be just like social issues but idk

i usually interpret it as like

he can’t live life no matter how hard he tries. the basic stressors are just too much for him, and he much prefers not being himself. he knows he’s torturing hms over and over and over, but he just can’t stop himself no matter how much pain it causes

so like. causing nothing but pain with the only reason being that you can’t stop yourself, it’s too late? addiction !!!!

a cycle over and over of trying to get better but always failing and giving in? addiction !!!!!!!

knowing you should stop but you just can’t help yourself? addiction !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

placing the cycle over even those you love (*)? addiction !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and like the way he suffers so much for this thing. it would all be fine if he could just stop himself but for whatever reason he can’t, for whatever reason he’s compelled to do it over and over and over and over and over, ignoring any bad signs for the sake of it, minor stressors causing him to do it because he has no coping mechanism for the ways of daily life. relying on it. treating it as your salvation. desperate for it.

and also like the idea that whole can’t stop himself from hurting hms by splitting over and over reminds me a lot of an addict who hurts others for the sake of whatever the thing is. they’re hurt. they’re struggling. and so they hurt others for it. this isn’t a good thing. this is obviously wrong. but it feels bad to just write whole off as like an asshole.

- personal thing

the mindset (not a reference) gets very weird sometimes. maybe this is just me. but like sometimes i recognize how wrong it is. i see that it’s objectively wrong and i try to stop doing it. however, other times i know logically that it’s wrong but i can’t bring myself to care. i feel like i need it, like without it i would break apart into a million pieces, like it’s my salvation. i want to be addicted. i think it’s beautiful. i want to let myself be ground up in the gears of the cycle because i think that would be beautiful. i can’t possibly understand how i would stop when the thing is just so good.

like. you lie awake at night, thinking about it, thinking about how good it’d be if you just gave in, how beautiful the sensation would be, especially compared to the ITCHING of withdrawl like. you can’t stop thinking about it. the withdrawl is so bad you want to physically claw open your veins

i fantasize about it and romanticize it and . it’s a lot and i see myself in him. which is why i get kinda mad when ppl just write this guy off as uncomplicated

even when i’m not thinking about it it becomes a habit. a part of daily life. i feel irreparably broken by all this. i feel like there’s no way to live without it

- personal thing

does it MAKE SENSE

i think i hit post limit or something idk but to answer your question i am always going insane abt cccc and esp soul and esp soul and whole’s relationship (stop me from seeing cccc as a parallel to addiction challenge IMPOSSIBLE)

thank you for saying thing i appreciate kind words

try not to hit post limit challenge (impossible) /silly

and very fair same soul makes me so ill i hate him (biggest lie ever)

tell me more i love the concept as cccc as a parallel to addiction plsplspls i need to know

[punkrangerdraws]

Ok before I post anything else i should post these! Nic's is the only new armour design but i touched up on the others to make them match better. Anyway got an ask a while back about the steps' villain armour and i had too many thoughts and not enough time then but i will put some of it down now

Ruin (Antoine): imposive style - he wants to be noticed and build a reputation as someone powerful, this is as much a shield he's building as the armour, but hopefully a more permanent one. His reasoning being that once he has enough of a reputation he'll become pretty much untouchable, much like HG. 

His armour has extra strength and armour modifications. He went with those because he doesn't want to rely on telepathy since the most important places tend to be well protected against that and he prefers to use his physical fighting skills since that's more reliable and also something he enjoys since it's something he's chosen for himself to work on. 

As for the specific design of the armour it's very much based on his villain name, Ruin, and seemingly made of rusted metal that's falling apart. It's a bit of a hint to the nanovores, as well as simply meant to look intimidating - a vision of the destruction he'll cause to those that are in his way. He also wants to give the impression of someone who's not actually fresh at the scene, even if he only recently had his "debut" as a villain. 

Lethe (Rene): mysterious style - she's playing a long game against very dangerous opponents so she thought it was best to curate a villain persona that is careful and not very straightforward, hinting at things to make ppl draw the connections themselves. She's also just not capable of standing out and taking up space, even as a villain. 

Her armour has extra speed and telepathy modifications, she's not out to hurt people but she'll take what advantages she can to reach goal, she's already good at telepathically manipulating people so she might as well make it easier, then have some speed for a quick escape.

Devotion (Densil): functional style - not really interested in what people think of him, just getting the job done efficiently. All the same Devotion stands out with the light armour, but the sharp metallic details makes it look sterile and hostile rather than invoking anything heroic. Still, it's insidious, from a distance Devotion may seem to be an ally. 

Devotion has extra strength and telepathy modifications. Just a full-on dps glass cannon basically, they don't care if they die as long as they manage to hurt as many other people as possible. 

Heartbreak (Nicholas): Terrifying style - he wants others to be frightened now, it might be a bit detrimental to his cause but it's also a part of his revenge on the world basically. Also, if people are frightened it's less likely they get in his way, and there is a select few he's hoping to both hurt and terrify. 

His armour has extra armour and telepathy modifications. Nicholas isn't too confident in their fighting skills so they rely more on strategy and telepathy so having extra armour gives them the opportunity to take their time (and lets them do stupid things like monologuing…)

May add more about the others' armour designs later