#casper song recs

[daisychainsandbowties]

its been 84 years but hi casperrrrrrr 🫡❤️

song ask: 7, 9, 25!

a song i’ll never get tired of listening to

mostly for early tboy aspiring casper days i still like listening to This is Home by cavetown. it was on a bunch of transmasc spotify playlists and i still remember going on my daily walks during that,,um,, Rough summer. wearing a mask & listening to birds. afraid of grocery stores. always tugging at my shirt and crying when i was so windy that it kept hugging my chest. that was around when i was trying to figure out how to gain weight and (therefore) muscle. sweating shirtless in my room at night doing and wincing every time someone said my name. this song was like a little breath of air in all that 🥺

a song by an artist i just found

if “just found” can extend to like… several months ago. pool hopping by illuminati hotties is 😳🥰🙏🙏 it’s yeah (also i wanna keep ur dog and frequent letdown are great)

song i want to hear in a grocery store

that’s a tough one. i always have headphones on in the grocery store so i never really hear what’s playing in there. 🫠🫠 actually usually any song that’s not instrumental is too distracting so i guess like? some star wars soundtrack. pokemon mystery dungeon lofi? those would be nice 🥰

[daisychainsandbowties]

1, 7, and 14 for the song asks! 🥰

26: A song that makes you pack your suitcase

a song that makes you happy

um🫠🫠 haus by oberhofer. no reason.

a song i will never get tired of listening to

Body Was Made by Ezra Furman. it’s just 🙏🙏 such a banger. it’s always on my running playlist for?? presumably self-sabotage reasons because i always end up trying to sing it and then gasping for breath🫠

a song i’d make everyone listen to

little bird by the weepies. this was my favourite for a while last september. makes me feel like falling in love

[daisychainsandbowties]

22 & 1 for songs ask :)

a song that reminds me of a character

oh, always always always Sunlight by Hozier for my star wars au Ava. i wrote the first chapter listening to that song on repeat, and i think i’ve been chasing the thrill of that particular 10k gunshot wound of her ever since

a song that makes you happy

When You Sleep by CAKE. few songs have come so close to capituring what intimacy means to me 🥹❤️❤️

[daisychainsandbowties]

U should probably pack (and I should probably study) but give me n°14 anyways

a song i’d make everyone listen to

Whirring by The Joy Formidable. someone put it on a playlist for me a few weeks ago and i’ve been listening to it on repeat basically since then. i love outsourcing my music taste to hot people with better taste than me 😌 because i end up with gems like this

[daisychainsandbowties]

3 6 16 😁

a song that made you cry

You Never Know by Dave Matthews Band. this was on a playlist that someone made for me when i really really needed it. i remember walking in the cold, feeling it again for the first time since my world shattered, and smiling again for the first time. and feeling so grateful, so loved, so lucky ❤️❤️🥹

a song that makea you feel like you could kill a god

this is an odd pick but I’m Still Here by John Rzeznik from that movie Treasure Planet. i remember when i first realised i was sometimes (maybe often) a boy it made me cry angry tears, singing it at the top of my lungs while i took a break from digging up rat bones & getting nettle cuts out on the plains. it still makes me feel so… i don’t know… good and right and important

a song that makes you nostalgic

oooh. this is hard because i just used my nostalgia song. probably We Didn’t Start The Fire. my history teacher made us listen to it so many times in my honours class and i had a huge crush on her so i had that thing memorized & the ability to just reel off the whole thing has never left me

[daisychainsandbowties]

12. And 18. For the song thingy 🤖🧐

a song that is a movie

is Two Hungry Blackbirds by Iron & Wine. it was on a playlist for a 500k fic that lowkey,,uh,, kept me alive for a while there, & now i vividly hallucinate the entire fic whenever i listen to it 🥹💕🙏

a song that makes you want to burn down the world

is Ghost on the Shore by Lord Huron. it was recommended to me by a very dear friend 💖🥺 and every time i listen to it i miss them so much i can’t breathe. but it is, of course, like the person who told me about it, very beautiful.

[daisychainsandbowties]

👀 forever & ever more by nothing but thieves

clearing my throat & tapping my mic this is halo!lilith au bealil.

what if your lover fell so hard for you she all but fell from heaven? what if one volatile form of devotion could corrupt a holy relic all by itself? what if your anointed-in-holy-oil girlfriend sometimes grew tentacles of holy light and ripped people limb-from-limb & what if someone cut her open and she wouldn’t stop kissing you long enough to let you stitch her shut? her tongue in your mouth while you tried to hold her guts inside her body.

i’m just saying what if beatrice lost everything & lilith was all that remained? what if the halo got marinated in a blood & gore love story & turned feral in lilith’s body? what if it rotted her veins black & erupted through her skin in holy javelins and what if at the end of the day bea still loved her? helpless rotten love & mouthfuls of blood & saving the world by any means necessary

[daisychainsandbowties]

i’ve really been wanting to share this song rec with someone for warrior nun & i see you talking about some now so uh, heavenly creatures by wolf alice. always felt like it works really well!!! hope you’re having a good day/night! :)

i think the worst part of Ava's sacrifice is how badly she just wants to have a life. any life. a crappy apartment with a nun who finds it difficult to look in her direction sometimes, like's she's too holy or too bright.

"this is not a lot to ask for/ just a prayer"

two months. she gets two months of waking up next to someone, of Beatrice sitting beside her, of their kitchen disasters and the shamefaced takeout that followed it. scraping burned pasta off the bottom of cheap pots.

and that's all she wants, which makes the sacrifice so much worse. & she doesn't die for a cause; she dies for the people she loves and she has people she loves, and no time at all to love them.

"was it never enough that we should simply want to be together?"

"i'll be your shadow, don't fear a fall"

[daisychainsandbowties]

bea is sleeping at last - eight

get rec'd gayboy 😔😔  i don't know what i expected

"i was just a kid who grew up strong enough/ to pick this armour up/ and suddenly it fit/ God"

newbea watching the one-two punch of Mary & Shannon. burning up at the sight of it, like an object slipping into a decaying orbit towards some immense object. towards love.

knowing that it would be hers, someday. this weight that Mary carries. Beatrice knows it like she knows the reach of her left hook; the anticipation of a blow. the inevitability of loss.

God. fitting. ill-fitting.

"i want to break these bones 'til they're better/ i want to break them right and feel alive/ you were wrong, you were wrong, you were wrong/ my healing needed more than time"

yeah, maybe she needed to fall off that motorbike. maybe she needed to break to come back together properly, wrapped in the love (hoodie) of those who love her.

"show me how to lay my sword down/ for long enough to let you through/ here i am, pry me open"

"here's a map, here's a shovel/ here's my achilles' heel/ i'm all in, palms out/ i'm at your mercy now and i'm ready to begin."

ava. a girl, a church. a girl, a roof overhead; a house you can't be thrown from. a house that won't collapse in on itself.

a girl like a star. a thing that burns and burns and dies, sudden, explosive. the aftermath of its death

and bea, standing as an occlusion in that bright cloud. alone again. 😔

[daisychainsandbowties]

did I send you fleurie - soldier before or

BITING BITING BITING BITING

i can't tell if this is about Ava or Shannon and i HATE

"soldier, keep on marching on/ head down 'till the work is done"

hurts infinitely more because tmtl Shannon army brat & her relationship to duty and the fact that for the halo-bearer the end has only one shape.

shrapnel

[daisychainsandbowties]

Terrible Things by Brick + Mortar - 💐

FLOWER ANON

now i am going to talk about my unhinged baby Beatrice because i have the question of what happens to Beatrice if Ava never walks out of that morgue just repeating in my mind

"sometimes i think of doing terrible things/ i know i shouldn't think it but i do anyway"

for one thing. i think love brings out the violence in Beatrice. i think duty brings out her self-sacrifice and love brings out the violence. consider the difference between the hallway fights.

1. the "faith is my business" fight she disarms a corridor of hired security forces without fatally injuring anyone. not easy, but within her abilities. she's fighting for duty here. she's not trying very hard to live through it; she's an arrow and someone else has loosed her on the world. she takes no responsibility for it. just look at her in this scene. she's so tightly-wound. her face is shuttered & she is all purpose and fluid, clinical destruction. the fire the army sets to burn the gorse away so it doesn't choke the landscape.

2. the "you stand between me & ava" fight. she cuts them to pieces. she flicks blood up on the walls & she takes no pleasure in it but she does it & she strides on to find Ava. there is an openness to her here. she's feeling. she's in love and it changes everything. it makes her wade through blood. she gives them a chance to walk away, but she knows they won't. god, most of them probably can't. probably just the bodies of boys stuffed full of devils. she fights for love & it is much, much bloodier than duty.

if Ava never gets up off that table. if the halo passes to Lilith, who is all sunburn and sore teeth and the many colours of bruises. & Beatrice finds herself spiralling hard towards this girl, like she was always headed down but now she's going.

but they are not perfect halves of a whole. they are all jagged and sharp and resentful. they are also dying to be soft. but if the world hands you knives you have to sharpen them, & the world keeps coming up to them in the shape of weapons. & i think Beatrice is acting out of duty at first, but they're dragged together, & in nature some things are not supposed to touch and when they do, explosions.

eventually Beatrice is acting out of love, and the pair of them cannot help but chart a violent path to the same destination. & Beatrice is pried open by this girl, & it is very Losing my Religion by R.E.M - "the lengths that i will go to.../ losing my religion/ trying to keep up with you."

& in the end she is acting out of love again, & they are more dangerous so the world will not let them retreat quietly to switzerland, and have an apartment. no, they're two dozen dilapidated hotel rooms. they're a murder scene, & in the end Beatrice is faced with the decision that she'll make in any version of the truth, which is that, between losing what she loves and painting a room with blood, she'll always choose love.

[daisychainsandbowties]

oh man i was gonna rec wolves of the revolution it's just SO it's Such a song but uhhh liar also by the arcadian wild and abandon ship by fin are both kinda giving vibes

oh i LOVE that song. i mean, the album art alone !!! is giving vibes to me.

(probably bc i'm in love with the avatrice pirates au. pls read it i wanna yell)

but also. screaming shouting yelling MY BABY LILITH at the top of my lungs about Liar but is is also, wretchedly, an extremely incredibly profoundly bealil song. & specifically the dark halo au i'm writing

"all have been led astray/ we've all fallen short in some way/ please understand, i'm ashamed/ and i beg of you, please find your grace/ 'cause i'm not in a right state of mind"

fr the two most emotionally repressed girl nuns in the universe are on a jason bourne-style road trip across europe. something something there will be blood.

"honestly, truth and i are never one.../ i have made you my next victim"

liar liar the world's on fire

ANON!!!! grabbing you very affectionately by the lapels Abandon Ship is SUCH A DAMN SONG. when i tell you i put in on the bealil playlist at an approximation of the speed of light

"all these lonley kids have so much left to live for/ so we'll run to the sea, and find no captain waiting/ for we're all that we need to keep this boat from sinking"

you are a legend for giving this to me. HOLY

"but when that line of blood comes down/ in some ways, it reminds you how you were before you got too old to leave."

oh also this is a very very very very transgender song. you have found one of the most casper songs to ever

[daisychainsandbowties]

Not generally good at these, but Girls Against God by Florence and the Machine. Or Cassandra.

nope you hit the bullseye this is on my Ava playlist

"and i know i may not look like much/ just another screaming speck of dust/ but, oh God, you're gonna get it/ you'll be sorry that you messed with us"

Ava (ง'̀-'́)ง Silva

"but it's good to be alive/ crying into cereal at midnight/ if they ever let me out, i'm gonna really let it out"

Ava motherfucking Silva who takes all the shit the world can possibly give her & goes running out on the beach. who will kiss herself in the reflection of a dirty glass window. who will think 'am i dead? am i in hell?' well, going to fucking enjoy it if i am.

BABE

[daisychainsandbowties]

in our bedroom after the war by stars

tears in my eyes literally 30 seconds into this song

"wake up, say good morning to/ that sleepy person lying next to you/ if there's no one there, then there's no one there/ but at least the war is over"

this song rifling through my emotional repertoire like it's a pamphlet from the doctor's office wtf wtf

"all the living are dead, and the dead are all living/ the war is over and we are beginning"

why am i thinking of beatrice who is trying to figure out how to own cutlery without finding all the little spoons strewn around the apartment

because Ava likes to 'bring a friend along' when she makes hot chocolate & also 'to fish the marshmallows out bea. they need to be rescued from the dark ocean like drowning men'

& yeah, the night before they marathoned three pirates of the caribbean movies, so Ava had nautical imagery on her mind. & Beatrice was thinking that maybe, just temporarily, she and Ava were not so different from pirates.

but what a ship is... what the Black Pearl really is, is freedom

Beatrice watching traffic jams and thinking 'how can mundane things happen?' thinking the miasma of her grief should touch everything but it doesn't. no one else can see her leaking like the tap in their old apartment. no one sees her wrap her hand around the stainless steel faucet in her new kitchen and rattle it until a steady patter starts up again.

can you mourn with sound? she wonders

and the answer is of course, you can mourn with anything

[daisychainsandbowties]

things left unsaid by disciple, absolutely obsessed with the vibes

this song is proper hench from carrying ALL my blorbos on its back at once

it's Beatrice speaking to Ava through dimensions, going to the places where she imagines the world is thinnest. the middle of traffic and the emptiness of an open field at noon, at midnight. the inside of wardrobes (she read about this once. won't the world open for her? won't it say anything?)

"i saw you, you were fine/ remembering what you said/ about the book you read/ the one i got you"

sparkly shrimp emotions about Beatrice picking out books for Ava. she def has a flash drive with a ton of books on it but she gets these ones for holding in hands. goes back to Switzerland after & finds one with the pages fading from the sunlight in the window of their bedroom, bookmark stuck sideways out through the pages, stopped at some inconsequential line.

& YET. this is also star wars lilitrice. after. in the echoing absence of the station, Lilith sitting in her room listening to waves rocking onto a beach. a time capsule containing so many scattered moments that she cannot possibly hold them all. (she tries)

"if it weren't for you/... there would be no grace"

[daisychainsandbowties]

are we just sending you music now

bow and arrow reuben and the dark

we are sending casper music but also clearly we are sending casper music with the express intent of causing acute emotional distress. we are lighting casper's brain up like the CT scan contrast dye. we are breaking casper's brain like the glowsticks. we are making sneaky sneaky references to wot au with our song recommendations PURELy to torture casper

"won't you hold my hands over my heart?/ i want you to close my eyes when it grows dark"

PURely to TORtUre casper