#cas posts

[cruel-as-sin]

making a pt. 2 to older since you guys loved it so much!! lmk if there's anything you wanna see :)

[sliceofberry]

I came this island to do one thing and one thing only. SELL MY GODDAMN TURNIPS.

[consultingmadhatter]

I hate that my perfectionism makes me so sensitive to negative feedback. I honestly thought I was getting a handle on it because I've been able to ease some of the pressure off myself when doing some assignments and preparing for exams. Telling myself its ok if I do badly (although admittedly I still consider a as doing badly). But then I keep doing well anyways. So I haven't really had to face that blow to myself worth of getting a lower grade than expected. (In fact, so far this semester I have been doing incredibly well in my classes, getting top scores on exams, etc).

Then I find out I've done really badly an assignment (that is one of many and won't really affect my grade in the long run) and I felt like crying.

I'll throw the rest of this under the cut because its just me going over the specific details but I still need to get it off my chest.

So how badly did I do? 37.5% (6 out of 16 pts). It was a German assignment to get us to practice our pronunciation, particularly rolling our R's, so we had to record ourselves saying some phrases. Recording myself makes me anxious to begin with but my house can sometimes be chaotic and loud which then makes me even more anxious that something will happen while I'm trying to record. Specifically, I have cats that will meow and walk all over my desk if they are allowed in my room and will scratch at the door and meow if I close them out of my room. On top of that (and even more annoyingly if I'm being honest), my mom talks SO loudly and will yell across the house to communicate. She'll also play music/audiobooks loudly. I can tell her (and the rest of my family) that I'm going to record and she'll make sure to be quiet but I feel extra self-conscious if I know that people know I'm recording/speaking aloud. I also get self-conscious about audio quality especially because I was using a pair of headphones that are dying.

So with all that I was feeling pretty anxious and had already been feeling a little anxious before seeing that assignment. I just wanted to get it done so that it wasn't looming over me the rest of the weekend and I felt like I had to get it done as quickly as possible to limit the risk of a disruption occurring (I could see that there was a cat outside my door and she was one who would start scratching if I didn't let her in promptly). So admittedly I was rushing and hadn't practiced as much as I should have before recording. I also was suffering from allergies so that made it difficult to speak clearly.

And if I'm being honest, I thought the assignment would mainly be graded for completion and I didn't realize it was going to be highly scrutinized.

So I recorded the assignment in an anxious rush while also not putting in as much effort as I should have. But I didn't even realize I hadn't put in enough effort until the following class period when people were talking about how stressful it was. I'm used to putting in too much effort by comparison to my peers so I assumed that others wouldn't have really taken it that seriously.

Anyways, I finally get the grade back on the assignment today, a few weeks after the submitting the assignment, and I was devastated. What made it even worse was that the grader left feedback in the form of an audio recording (it didn't sound like my normal professor but I'm not 100% it was someone else). Really low grade on top of getting grader feedback on top of having to actually listen to that feedback being spoken (and not just reading a comment) just made me feel terrible.

(If a different instructor did grade it and leave the feedback as I suspect it also makes it worse because my professor considers me as one of the best students in the class. Therefore my professor would have the context that I am a really good student even if I struggled on this one assignment.)

So I feel awful but at that point it was time for family dinner. I know my mom noticed that I was in a bad mood, but I'm too embarrassed about WHY I feel terrible to talk about. Especially since it would most likely lead to a well meaning conversation about how she feels bad that I go through this type of stress and both my parents saying this is why it's so important for me to address my perfectionism and get it under control. So I tried my best to hide the cause of my distress.

And I know it really won't matter in the long run because its a handful of points out of many in the homework category.

[staff]

Tumblr Tuesday: Ace Art

Happy Asexual Awareness Week to all aces and your allies. Here is a collection of exuberant ace art for your exuberant ace hearts. Keep on breaking those allo assumptions, one artwork at a time 🖤🩶🤍💜

@sandrune-art:

@evocaitart:

@unwashedace:

@tinyflowerclub:

@vuelode-irbis:

@szczurherbacany:

@wafflenati0n:

@dinxie:

@pokimoko:

@werew0lfprincess:

@plutonicbees:

@cowheist:

@lokithefoolishegg:

@yujateaandpi:

@transcendragon:

@starryaves:

@kyri45:

@squishlamb:

@peppermintbits:

@kateammann:

@soni-dragon:

@kynni-purri:

@theartofmadeline:

@icannotgetoverbirds:

@meoskyan:

[damnikindadontcare]

Peak unintentional comedy in Supernatural was the angels forcing Cas to pick between them and Dean with full confidence that he’d pick them and Cas picking Dean not even 2 seconds later.

[strawlessandbraless]

Misha admitting he played Cas in love with Dean since season 14 but this is how the Angel looked at his charge in season 8:

You just know this is one of the Still beautiful, still Dean Winchester moments

[morganaconda]

[paintedcrows]

Holiday Classics

Been thinking about Ford watching the 70s Animated Lord of the Rings Movies... (companion comic to this post!)

[moldwood]

in the urinal making all the other boys jealous that their urethras are like a cheaply crafted ancient teapot that splashes piss everywhere whereas mine is like a finely crafted ancient teapot that will cause no splatter regardless of the height of the stream.

[cruel-as-sin]

logan overstimulation fic in the drafts 🥰

would love to finish it now but i gotta get up early tmr 😭

[billiewena]

thinking about how the only time bobby and cas interact in season four is when he knocks him out cold to talk to dean alone. and the next time bobby sees him, cas is powerless and just comes to steal dean's necklace in a weird interaction that had to be filmed close-up because dean and cas are just inches from each other's face. the next time is an offscreen interaction where he just gets dean's address from bobby and probably left immediately after. combine this with the fact that bobby knew dean had a male siren the season before (and tried to be supportive) and let cas be in the family photo a few episodes later, there is a nonzero chance bobby singer was the first destiel shipper.

[bragginball-z]

[shadowhunter-by-heart]

Destiel Text Post

[strawlessandbraless]

Kinda hilarious that this was all Chuck’s fault

Like, he never intended to keep bringing back the angel with a crack in his chassis, but any time Cas died, Dean would become inconsolable and go entirely off script

So Chuck had no choice but to resurrect the angel in order to get Dean to play his role

Their love is what foiled God’s plan, in every way that matters

[targaryenchester]

Destiel Texposts: Part 1/?

"An angel is no lover." "Oh yes, he is."

[fr3sh-c0rn]

Spn season 16. It opens with a close up shot of gabriels face, who has been alive the whole time. The entire finale was a practical joke on everyone and they save cas and Dean and cas make out sloppy style and everyone lives a happy ever after. The end.