#caroline actively challenges that. Constantly. because she keeps reinforcing that all that behaviour is a /choice/ at the end of the day | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

thriev · 2 years ago

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i think one of caroline's big conflicts has always been about the lines she'd cross for her friends. how she'll call herself a 'good' vampire who is above slaughter and creating victims out of people for fun, but how at the end of the day there isn't much she wouldn't do if one of her friends's lives were at stake. and having it be about her friends is good and well but i decided to give her an extra layer of angst by making it about her instead. by having her kill damon i gave her an extra thing to worry about because now caroline knows she'd kill for her own survival, and she has killed for her own survival, and this was before she became a vampire. which means she was always capable of it, even when she was nothing but a harmless human girl. and idk! i just think it's tasty. it's interesting. i think it's always been a constant battle, for caroline, to be a good person. it's a constant effort, and she can't really afford to even slip up once, and i think it'd just be fun to explore all that.

#out.#sometimes care's made out to be this paragon of vampirism. like it's vampirism done right #and i argue that it's just vampirism done good. but not necessarilly vampirism done /right/#bc vampires are meant to be killers. they're meant to Eat. they're meant to outlive everything and everyone #so in a sense sometimes klaus has it right i think LFJSG just going apeshit all the time and ruining everyone's lives (including his own)#i think that's what vampires were made for.#caroline actively challenges that. Constantly. because she keeps reinforcing that all that behaviour is a /choice/ at the end of the day #and she's right!!!!!! (ripperism aside?) it Is always a choice. vampires just usually always make the easier one #caroline's had a life of making hard choices though. not hard as in morally ethically difficult but as in. personally #she has to try very hard to be kind. to be caring. she's always been passionate but she has to learn to channel it correctly #over the years it gets easier. it becomes more ingrained. but at first a bitch was really struggling #so. u know. making hard choices. doing the challenging thing instead of the easy thing? caroline's an expert <3 #all THAT to say her real battle isn't really with her humanity vs her vampirism #it's about the uglier side of her humanity that she's always tried to keep hidden vs the 'good' side of her that she's trying to preserve #i think about that line in the show a lot where tyler(?) says to caroline 'i guess they just expect better from you'#and care going 'what? like it's easy for me?'#bc it's not!!! it's hard!!! but it looks so easy everyone assumes it is like. baby girl's struggling Believe me

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