#caretaker peter 3

[spacecadet-ticklesinspace]

Second Part in the Series

Peter 1

Peter 3

Peter 2:

Peter 2 jolted awake. His heart hammered in his chest and his ears were ringing. The oldest Peter curled in on himself and placed a hand on his chest to try to calm his breathing.

"It's okay . . . It's just a nightmare . . . It's not real . . ."

Two kept repeating the phrases as he tried to take in some deep breaths. However, no matter tries he made, he couldn't take in a proper breath.

"Come on Peter. Breathe!"

A knock on the door grabbed his attention. "Pete?"

The oldest looked up at the door. Peter 3 and Peter 1 were peering in from the partially opened door.

Two tried to gather himself enough to talk. "Hey guys."

"Can we come in or do you need us to stay out?"

Peter 2 hesitated. He didn't want to be alone but he didn't want them to see him like this.

"We're not going to judge you Two. . .We just want to help."

"I---I know I---." Two's anxiety shot upward as the door moved slightly. "No! Don't---!"

Peter 1 and 3 hurried forward as Two tightened his grip on his shirt.

Peter 3 gathered his hands in his. "Pete, I need you to do something for me. Squeeze my hands as hard as you can and take in a breath for four seconds."

"I . . . I---."

In response, Three gave his shaking hands a firm squeeze. "You can do it."

After a couple more seconds, Two managed to return the squeeze with one of his own and take in a shaky breathe as his younger counterpart quietly counted to four.

"Good. Now hold it for four."

Peter 2 hesitantly held his breath as Three counted again.

"And then out for four."

The oldest Peter did so and his shoulders slightly relaxed.

"You're doing great Two. Pause for four seconds and we'll go again."

After a few more rounds of the breathing exercises, Peter 2's heart rate had calmed considerably and his breathing was evening out. However, he still felt jittery and anxious.

That's when One placed his hand over the oldest's arm. "Hey Two? Can you look around and tell me 5 things you see?"

"Um . . . Y-you and---and Three. My blanket. . . The nightstand. . . And the---the door."

"Okay, now what are 4 things you can touch?"

"Obviously you and Three," the oldest replied as his nerves calmed. "I---I guess my---my pajama pants . . . And shirt."

"You're doing great." One gently squeezed the oldest's arm. "Next, what is three things you can hear?"

Peter 2's shoulders relaxed further. "Um . . . Your voice . . . My heartbeat . . . The hallway lights."

"You're almost done Two. Next is two things you can smell."

Two focused in on his smell. "Head and Shoulders? . . . And the laundry soap."

"Lastly, one thing you can taste?"

"Ugh! My morning breath cohoming ohon."

When Peter 2 looked back up, both younger Peters were smiling at him.

Two's heart dropped into his stomach. "I'm sorry."

"For what?" Peter 3 asked.

"For letting you both see my like---like---."

"Genuinely terrified?"

"Honestly out of control?"

The oldest gave a dry smile. "Yes."

Peter 3 scooted closer. "Does it matter that we saw you like that?"

"I mean . . . yes?"

Peter 1 cocked his head. "Why?"

"I---I'm the oldest . . . I'm not supposed to---."

Three held up his hand. "Let me stop you right there. You think that because you're the oldest out of all of us, you're not supposed to break down sometimes?"

"Y-yes?"

"If you're not allowed to show emotion when you grow up, I don't want to grow up," One replied as he crossed his arms.

Peter stared at the youngest. That thought had never crossed his mind before.

He encouraged the younger two to be honest with their emotions and work through them; yet, here he was bottling up his own emotions and hiding them away. Or trying to atleast.

Two rubbed the youngest's back. "Don't grow up Pete. It's not worth it."

There was a brief silence amongst the three. Then two sets of arms wrapped around the oldest Peter.

Two sniffed. "I'm sorry guys."

"It's okay Two," Three whispered. "We still love you."

"I know." Peter 2 stroked his hair. "I love you guys too."

One rested his chin on Two's arm so he could look up at him. "Two?"

"Yes bud?"

"Do you want us to go?"

Peter 2 squeezed them both closer as he shook his head. "No."

"Do you feel comfortable staying here tonight?" Three added.

Two hesitated.

Peter 3 nudged him. "Hey, why don't we sleep in the guest room tonight."

The oldest Peter nodded. "Yes please."

The tallest Peter nodded and led the other two to the guest room. Once there, Three readjusted the tangled blanket on the bed before adding a couple extra pillows.

While Three adjusted the bed, One pulled Two over to the closet. "Let's get the extra blankets and make an extra cuddly nest."

The oldest Peter smiled as he helped the youngest pull out some spare blankets. They joined Peter 3 and they all worked together to form a comfy looking blanket nest. After making sure the final blanket was tucked in, the younger two pushed the oldest Peter in before snuggling in on either side of him.

Peter 2 settled in and wrapped his arms around his two counterparts. "Thank you."

"How are you doing bud?" Three asked.

"I'm doing better, just worn out."

One wrapped his arms around Peter 2 as he snuggled up close. "It's still early. Let's try to get more sleep."

"And if you have any more nightmares, we'll be here to help you chase them away," Three added.

"Thank you so much." The oldest's shoulders slumped. "I'm sorry you have to take care of me like this."

"Two, we're telling you. It's okay." Three squeezed Peter 2 close. "We don't mind."

Peter 1 snuggled up behind him. "We'll be here for you just like you are for us."

Peter 2 sniffed. "Thank you."

Peter 3 ruffles his hair. "We love you Pete."

"Both of us."

Two smiled at his younger variants. "Love you guys too."

Between the two of them, Peter 2 felt safe. It was the first time in a while that he felt completely secure with someone else.

Once he was secure, Two settled in before finally falling into a peaceful sleep.

[erinwantstowrite]

random questions for funsies pt4

1. if damian had to leave for a month (for a mission, or something) and his pets were to be divided among his siblings for caretaking, which sibling is getting which creature?

2. you encounter a dragon. just a whole dragon. sitting in your living room. what is your first reaction

3. peter has a chance to eat anything. literally anything. but only one thing, and only once, with no repercussions. what (probably inedible thing) is he choosing to eat? (this question was made because i've been in a nom nom mood all day and have been dismayed that all the things i'd love to consume [i.e smooth paint, a squishy cat, etc etc] are not edible)

4. this one is for all the marbles. pineapple on pizza or no? or, perhaps, secret third option: pineapple with NO pizza

Alfred and Bruce have to take care of them because they're usually the ones that do so when Damian is at school, etc. I feel like if those two were unavailable, the next person it would go to would be Jon, actually, cause he lives on a farm. At least for the barn yards and the dogs. I had no idea about Goliath and Wiggles until recently and I'm sure that Jon can handle them too,,,, perhaps,,,

wondering how tf it got in. probably call animal control. maybe die and my last words be "awww here dragon bb you're so cuuuute" (can you tell i would pet a mountain lion if i could)

he'd probably want to know what a rock tastes like but you know like those sea colored rocks?? those specifically. he's convinced they'd take like a gummy

peter, tim, and dick: yeah!! everyone else: ABSOLUTELY NOT

[salted-snailz]

Marvel Masterlist

Characters: Logan Howlett, Bucky Barnes, Loki Odinson, Stephen Strange, Peter Parker, Charles Xavier, Tony Stark

Genres: fluff, comfort, NSFW

Logan Howlett

His and His Only | gn!Reader 🔞

Summary: Drabble where Logan marks you so everyone knows you’re his. -Request? Nope

psstt, heads up! everything past this point is kinda old and not super well written IMO, do with that what you will

Bucky Barnes

His Caretaker | f!Reader

Summary: Bucky being insecure about his scars/injuries and you helping take care of them -Request? Yep!

Brown-Haired Rapunzel | f!Reader

Summary: Bucky’s been starting to grow his hair out a lot longer than usual, but never really says why. It’s not like you mind though, you love playing with his hair. -Request? Yep!

Stimming With Bucky | gn!Reader

Summary: Bucky with an autistic significant other who uses his metal arm as a stim toy. -Request? Nope

Grocery Shopping With Bucky | gn!Reader

Summary: Silly headcanons of going grocery shopping with Bucky. -Request? Nope

Dating Bucky Barnes | f!Reader

Summary: Headcanons of dating Bucky as a Hard of Hearing person. -Request? Yep!

Loki Odinson

Thunderstorms With Loki | gn!Reader

Summary: Loki comforting an autistic reader during a thunderstorm. -Request? Yep!

Having Tics Around Loki | gn!Reader

Summary: Dating Loki as an autistic person and seeing how he reacts to you having a tic attack. -Request? Yep!

Fear Of Bugs With Loki | gn!Reader

Summary: Loki comforting an autistic reader who has a huge fear of bugs. -Request? Yep!

Head Pats | f!Reader

Summary: Loki having an autistic girlfriend who likes her hair played with. -Request? Yep!

NSFW Alphabet | implied afab!Reader 🔞

Summary: Letters A, D, F, I, K, M, W, X of the NSFW alphabet. -Request? Yep!

Peter Parker

Dating Peter Parker | f!Reader

Summary: Headcanons of what I think it would be like to date Peter Parker. -Request? Nope

Stephen Strange

Meeting Stephen Strange | gn!Reader

Summary: Meeting Stephen Strange for the first time as an autistic person. -Request? Nope

Charles Xavier

Migraines And Mind Palaces | f!mutant!Reader

Summary: Charles helps reader with her migraine. -Request? Nope

Tony Stark

Tony Stark With An Autistic Kid | gn!kid!Reader

Summary: Tony Stark having an autistic kid with a special interest in marine biology. -Request? Yep!

all graphics are made by @saradika-graphics <3

[backlogbooks]

Backlogbooks Bingo Challenge - Horror Recommendations (part 1)

To the surprise of no one, I'm starting off my challenge recommendations with horror! I'm getting the publication dates off of storygraph, so if I'm wrong, I take no responsibility <3

60s

We Have Always Lived in the Castle by Shirley Jackson -- Shirley Jackson! The queen! This one is such a combination of horror and humor and then horror again, about two sisters who live alone, ostracized by their town because of their family's dark past.

70s

Harvest Home by Thomas Tryon -- A very creepy folk horror novel about a family who leaves The City to come to a Small Town in new england, getting Close to Nature. Naturally, the townspeople have some dark secrets. I loved the atmosphere in this one--the slow building of dread, and trying to piece together exactly what the Dark Secret at the center of the harvest home festival is.

Jaws by Peter Benchley -- Okay, I don't know if I can actually recommend this, because to be honest with you, the movie is so much better. But also, if you're a shark movie fiend, this is a Piece Of History. Feel free to reply and argue with me if you love this book!

Carrie by Stephen King -- This book is about Carrie, a perpetually bullied girl who has the chance to go to the prom. I'm sure you know how it goes from there--but even if you do, I recommend reading the book. It's a heartbreaking horror novel, and I really enjoyed (slash hated) the way the tension mounts as you get closer and closer to The Bad Thing

The Shining by Stephen King -- Jack Torrance has a big new job as the caretaker at the Overlook Hotel during the off-season, and there's some evil afoot! Again, I feel like you know how it goes from there, but King is really so good at building dread and tension.

80s

A Nest of Nightmares by Lisa Tuttle -- Recently rereleased in the Paperbacks from Hell line, this is a collection of horror short stories that mostly center on women, with horrors both mundane and paranormal (but an emphasis on the paranormal). These stories were so creepy to me, and I really enjoyed the way that mood built. TW for rape (I can tell you which story for sure if you want! I'll just need to double check my copy to make sure I'm not misremembering)

Misery by Stephen King - He's back again! This is actually my favorite Stephen King novel (setting aside the dark tower series to make it a fair fight). Paul Sheldon, a bestselling novelist, is taken captive by his biggest fan, Annie Wilkes. Annie is like, my favorite villain I think. I've been wanting to reread this book for years because of her <3

2000

House of Leaves by Mark Z Danielewski -- Okay recommending this book does feel a little like trying to trap someone, but I love it. So! Will Navidson's house is bigger on the inside than it is on the outside; Johnny Truant is obsessed with a book by a blind man about a film that Navidson made that doesn't exist; everyone is lost in the labyrinth, including you. Please join me in this bonkers book. Conspiracy board supplies are not included, but you're encouraged to gather them up yourself as you go.

Uzumaki by Junji Ito -- Kurouzu-cho, a small fogbound town on the coast of Japan, is haunted by spirals. This is not as metaphorical as I imagined it would be when I first picked it up! The body horror in this book is insanely good, and there are some lines/images that are going to live in my head Forever. Highly recommend if you like horror manga.

2003

Come Closer by Sara Gran -- This is a fantastic possession book--it keeps you right in her point of view as she spirals down, trying to figure out if she is in fact possessed or if there's some other break with reality. I loved the "are you possessed" quiz as a guiding structure.

2006

The Ruins by Scott Smith -- Trapped in the jungle, far from home and with no way to get help, a group of friends face an inhuman horror. This had some of the most skin crawling body horror I've seen, and I loved the development of the antagonist (don't wanna say more because spoilers!). Great survival horror. What a terrible group of people to be trapped with.

World War Z: An Oral History of the Zombie War by Max Brooks -- If you love yourself some worldbuilding and zombies, check out this book! World War Z gives you vignettes about different areas of the world, and different aspects of life during a zombie apocalypse. It was a slow read for me, but I really enjoyed the details.

2007

Heart-Shaped Box by Joe Hill -- An old rock star buys a ghost online, because he's a dumbass (aka because he "has a thing for the macabre"), and has to go through hell to get rid of it. It's been years, but I remember being deeply creeped out by this book!

2010

Feed by Mira Grant -- More zombies! This one set twenty years after the zombie apocalypse, following two bloggers who are working to uncover a conspiracy behind the Infected. This had political thriller vibes mixed in with the horror, which kept a fast pace, and I loved the main characters. Eventually I may even finish the series!

2011

The Ritual by Adam Nevill -- Four old friends try to push aside old and new tensions for a reunion hiking trip. Since that's not working, they try to take a shortcut and end up very, very lost--and very deep in woods that have more than just animals to worry about. I held my breath through a lot of the first half of this book. Good for folk horror fans or people who want to be very afraid of every forest they walk into.

2013

Dark Tales by Shirley Jackson -- Shirley Jackson again! This one is a collection of short stories, including "The Summer People" and "Louisa, Please Come Home," which are some of my favorites. Creeping dread, domestic horror, and the question of what happens when your life takes a sudden, unexplainable turn. Definitely recommend the edition with an introduction by Ottessa Moshfegh!

2014

Through the Woods by E.M. Carroll -- A collection of short horror comics, with dark fairy tale vibes. I want to eat E.M. Carroll's art style, or at least cover my house with prints from this book.

Horrorstor by Grady Hendrix -- Have you ever had a nightmare about being trapped in an ikea? Or, sorry, Definitely Not Ikea (So We Don't Get Sued)? Are you tired of your retail job? This is the book for you! Haunted ikea: much more terrifying than I expected it to be.

The Grownup by Gillian Flynn -- This is a quick, 64 page story about a young woman who pretends to be a psychic to get by, and ends up being pulled deeper and deeper into a family's dysfunction when she promises to help rid their home of ghosts or other powerful forces.

Annihilation by Jeff VanderMeer -- Horror science fiction about Area X, an unexplained phenomenon where earth is returning to "pristine nature" with a horrific twist (or many of them). Our main character, the biologist, is one of my favorite characters I've ever read. I'm actually a little insane about her. Join me!

This is really long so I'm splitting it in two! Stay tuned for 2015-2019 recommendations next week :-)

And please recommend your favorite horror books for this challenge too!

[futurecorps3]

thinking about Hobie being the best caretaker for Mayday after Peter B…

like the whole spider crew is surprised but she loves playing with his suit cause it has so many holes in it and funny textures!! he’s always talking to her like walking through miguel’s office and being like “oh look mayday, miguel added this absolutely useless piece of garbage to this transporter so it would look more complicated but it doesn’t work for shit” and straight up rips it off and she giggles sm and and and he pretends he doesn’t mind but he loves her laugh and gets a bit sad when she has to go home.

and her absolutely weeping if Peter hands her to someone else who ain’t Hobie, them knowing exactly what they need to do and my man webs a little harness thing to carry her around until her dad is back. ugh<3

yeah. dad hobie.

(i’m about to get my period i hate hormones that make me daydream of having this man’s babies,, also i might make a full drabble abt this who knows)

[my-midnight-musings-xoxo]

Major spoilers for MadK!

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As mentioned, it’s J’s turn to be picked apart! It’s not an in-depth analysis either, sorry. It is a ramble about his character design! I apologize in advance if this is obvious or boring!

Alright, we’re starting at the bottom, literally. 

Lions symbolize courage, nobility, royalty, protectiveness specifically in a familial way. What’s intriguing is that lions represent both the devil and Jesus in the bible, befitting of J. (Note this isn’t an assumption of Ryo Suzuri’s religion, purely just speculation on design. I’m not religious but this along with the angel wings made me think of it). 

In 1 Peter 5:8 the devil is likened to a roaring lion: “seeking someone to devour,” referring to his deceptive and destructive nature. On the other hand, in Revelation 5:5, Jesus Christ is referred to as “the Lion of the Tribe of Judah,” epitomizing His divine authority, majesty, and ultimate victory over evil. - The Lion In Biblical Symbolism: A Powerful Emblem of Courage, Majesty, And Justice by Digital Bible

I wouldn’t call him a father figure, but he does take on this caretaker-esque role by bringing them to the brothel to “teach them”, it feels like a twisted sense of raising. He seems to take young people such as Datenshou, who in Vol 3 Chapter 16 was shown to be a young incensate when taken in by J.  The obvious view is young and vulnerable people are easier to mold into what you want. I think this leans into J viewing himself as the mentor Wald was to him, but also finding people similar to him, re-raising himself, or at the least self projection. His younger self in Vol 3 appears in chapter 15, and at one point J refers to himself as Wald’s greatest creation. (As much as I’d love to ramble about the metaphors of owning names, this will already be long)

Both J and Makoto cannot see themselves outside of their creators, with J’s third eye that he gouges out alluded to being Wald’s as J says “It was the eye of someone who cursed me a long, long time ago. Though I guess you could say I went to them to be cursed.” Earlier in the chapter younger J wanted to choose how he died if he couldn’t choose where he started. The only physical difference between Wald and J’s fate is that J fully passed on at the end, but Wald was forever stuck in his mansion. J was trapped mentally and physically for centuries after Wald, taking on the role of nobody led to no one truly knowing him. With Makoto he could finally rest, Vol 2 at the end of Chapter 16 J says while embracing Makoto after he forced him to kill his own father, “Hate me all you like…and quickly climb up here with me.” (The art is stunning here oh my gosh I could gush about it forever!) Once again J is choosing how he wishes to die, but it succeeds. I guess in this way you could argue it’s a metaphor for J killing himself, he’s transferred so much of himself into Makoto, but maybe that’s a reach who knows.

Onto the wings! Obviously, they’re associated with angels (honestly I would’ve loved it if he said ‘be not afraid’ like those biblically accurate angels when Makoto and him first met, it would’ve been beautifully ironic but that’s just me) but they quickly made me think of Lucifer. I highly doubt this was intentional, I just find it interesting that J is called an Archduke and that Archangels (from my research!) are sent to personally oversee and assist humans with a range of issues, do with that what you will. 

Something I appreciate is art seeming touchable. A popular example for me is Vittorio Reggianini, please do yourself a favor and look up his paintings! The way he paints such vivid textures not only shows his understanding of art but also his dedication and skill. 

Not only does Ryo Suzuri draw wings beautifully, but she also draws them in a way where I feel like I could reach through and feel them. The silky feathers, the soft and curved bone. I admit it looks quite nice to be wrapped in those wings, not only do they look soft to the touch they look safe to be embraced within, their size encouraging the appearance of safety, being shielded away from the outside.

Oh and the hair!! I am a sucker for seeing how different artists draw hair, and even more so for curls. I’ll admit part of that is my inability to draw them, but the first thing I thought when I saw J for the first time was, he has great hair! It’s just so luscious! There’s a scene in Vol 1 Chapter One when J is comforting Makoto and I stared at it for at least 30 seconds. He has this devilish angel quality that I mention so frequently because it’s so wonderfully done I refuse to shut up about it. 

The way his hair frames his face almost like smoke as he gazes up at Makoto with eyes full of acceptance and promise, his assured smirk with Makoto in his grasp, ugh! 

What I wouldn’t give for an artbook of this manga, I’ll make my own deal with a demon if I have to.

T_T 

One day I’m just going to gush about my favorite panels, it’ll probably be soon because I have so many thoughts!!

I meant for this to be posted yesterday so I scheduled it, but I must've done something wrong because it never posted. I'm sorry about that!

[popcorn-plots]

hurtcember 2024 masterlist

Ao3 series here

Day 1: Collapse | the drowned don't grieve | In another universe, it was 12-year-old Stephen who drowned instead.

Day 2: Breakdown | stoic tears | Wong is the one who always comforts Stephen when he breaks down. With the roles reversed, Stephen doesn't know what to do.

Day 3: Blood | deserving | The blood always washes away, but Stephen can still see it.

Day 4: Scars | there for you | The scars were long faded, but Stephen's hands still ached.

Day 5: Faint | syncoping just fine | Wong thinks he's taking care of himself, until he faints in the middle of a class.

Day 6: Touch-Starved (alt. "Leave me alone.") | doctor kangaroo | Peter is angry about his dad dating someone else after his mommy dies. Stephen, hurt that his boyfriend's kid hates his guts, has a little chat with Peter about what Tony means to the both of them.

Day 7: Abandoned | long-lost love | Victor's been alone for most of his life.

Day 8: Cuddle | chosen guardian | Stephen breaks down when Wong's down for the count. Jio steps up.

Day 9: Exhaustion | wounds like an albatross | In all the universes that Stephen saw, the ones where he abandoned his family and ran were the worst.

Day 10: Touch Aversion (alt. "help me") | fought god and won, losing to the laundry | Stephen had survived med school, only to survive fighting a titan, resurrecting half the earth, becoming the Sorcerer Supreme, and raising 6 kids. He also happens to be married to Billionaire Tech Genius and Iron Man Tony Stark.

Stephen has a lot going for him. Until he gets sick and suddenly he's bested by a basket of laundry.

Day 11: Caretaking | Wong is Healing | Stephen Strange is rescued. Wong takes care of him.

Day 12: Cry | Koschei's Death | Alone for the first time that night, Stephen Strange's temporal remnant breaks down.

Day 13: Nightmare | dreams of death | Donna was always dreaming.

Day 14: Near Death | the cold holds my soul | Wong doesn't realize how close he was to death until he's lying on the ground, cold seeping into his limbs and panic settling on his chest.

Day 15: Trauma | forgiveness (can you imagine) | Christine learns how to heal. Then she learns how to forgive.

Day 16: Bruise | bruised hearts never lie | Stephen shows up to school on day with a massive black eye. He says his horse bucked him off, but Tony's told enough of the same lies to know that something was very wrong.

Day 17: Concussion | concutere's will | Tony was fine. Until he decided to throw up on his doctor.

Day 18: Fatigue | take a break | Without Yao, it's hard to get out of bed, let alone take care of herself and everyone else at the same time. It's a good thing she has Stephen, then.

Day 19: Desperate | necromancy is forbidden, actually | Stephen almost dies, again. Wong is not responsible for what he said in the heat of the moment.

Day 20: Panic (alt. "it's all my fault") | if i was there | In the light of Stephen's death, Wong decides that he's the one to blame.

Day 21: Afraid | "Death is what gives life meaning, to know your days are numbered, your time is short." | The Ancient One was afraid of death.

Day 22: Self-Harm | scalpels and blood | The first time Stephen Strange picked up a scalpel, he was 15 and had just come out to his conservative parents. The last time Stephen Strange picked up a scalpel, he was 68 and had just watched his husband of 26 years slowly pass away.

Day 23: Bed-Bound | still alive but i'm barely breathing | The Ancient One reflects.

Day 24: Dissociate | everything at once | Tony Stark was everything that Iron Man wasn't.

Day 25: Accident | father kangaroo | Peter calls Stephen after getting into a crash because Tony isn't answering. Suddenly, all of Stephen's fears come rushing back.

Day 26: Guilt | mirror, mirror | Stephen Strange sometimes saw himself in the mirror. Most of the time, he saw the pale face of Death staring back.

Day 27: Pain | freaky friday thursday | The universe decides that Stephen, Tony, and Wong need to get together through all of them swapping bodies.

Day 28: Captive | living nightmare | Being held hostage is just a normal Tuesday in the life of Tony Stark. Being held captive and forced to watch his husband tortured? That's Tony Stark's worst nightmare.

Day 29: Dehydration | Never Forget. | Tony Stark knew from the moment he crash-landed in the Afghanistan desert that he would never forget what had happened.

Day 30: Dizzy | corazon de oro | America always wondered if she was the only one to experience anything after going through her portals. Stephen and Wong prove her theory.

Day 31: Hyperventilation (alt. "Don't leave") | being there (is all that matters) | Wong comforts Stephen after Tony Stark-Strange's funeral.

[just-an-enby-lemon]

I unfortunally don't have The Sims 4 anymore (I had the og paired with totally legal not even a lil bit OFMD inspired DLCs but the DLCs bugged for ocean reasons and it broke the og and now I don't have it but can't redowload it because it acts as if it's still on my PC) but I was looking at my phone's note to delete some and I found a detailed traits plan for a bunch of TMA characthers. So I'm posting it here in case someone finds it usefull or a fun thing to discuss (or tells me how to fix my game so I can add new totally legal DLCs and play as my beloved blorbos).

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The traits change as seasons go because CHARACTHER DEVELO0MENT, my beloved.

P.S: no season 5 because the literal end of the world brings more than 3 traits on it's victims/survivors

Jon - S1: Snob, Perfecionist, Bookworm

S2: Paranoid, Perfecionist, Bookworm

S3: Cat Lover, Gloomy, Paranoid

S4: Gloomy, Cat Lover, Bookworm

Scotland: Socialy Akward, Cat Lover, Bookworm

Aspiration: Reinassanse Sim (nerd) (he can also be a wizard and have Spellcraft and Sorcery or play as uni Jon and have Academic, uni Jon's traits are more open to interpretation I would suggest Perfectionist, Cat Lover and Bookworm but rly up to player)

Martin - S1: Creative, Socialy Akward, Clumsy

S2/S3: Creative, Socialy Akward, Loyal

S4: Gloomy, Loner, Loyal

Scotland: Creative, Jealous, Loyal

Aspiration: Best-Selling Author (when concluded there is also Country Caretaker for the good countryside good cow life, let's pretend the Eyepocalipse never happens and no one is likely a compurter program)

Sasha - Genius, Good, Geek

Aspiration: Nerdy Brain

Not-Sasha - Evil, Mean, Kleptomaniac (stoled some tapes)

Aspiration: Chief of Mischief (I hear you Public Enemy fans but Chief of Mischief has Tormentor as a bonus trait so...)

Tim - S1/S2: Bro, Outgoing, Adventurous

S2/s3: Hot Headed, Gloomy, Adventurous

Aspiration: Extreme Sport Enthusiast (for all the kayaking; other sugestion is Serial Romantic, for all the cop seduction as unfortunally revenge isn't a sims 4 aspiration but maybe there is a mod? Would sugest looking for it)

Basira - S3: Bookworm, Dog Lover, Loyal

S4: Dog Lover, Ambitious, Genius

Aspiration: Nerdy Brain (baby just wants to read and chill)(I'm unsure of her traits cause I actually think she just has all 5 and picking the more evident per season was hard. I feel very proud of Dog Lover for her tho, she loves her werewolf wife)

Daisy - Hunt: Mean, Hot-Headed, Loyal

Post Hunt: Dog Lover, Loyal, Active

Aspiration: Lone Wolf/ Inner Peace (she changes aspiration, also sugestion werewolf, the lone one is cause Basira is all the pack she needs)

Georgie - Foddie, Outgoing, Catlover

Aspiration: Computer Whizz (unsure what do with aspirations for her, I also considered Neighboorhood Confidant for the cult and also how protective she is of her people and Master Actress for the matress add, on the other hand is fundamental you buy the brave bonus trait for her)

Melanie - Slaughter: Hot Headed, Mean, Erratic

No Slaughter: Hot Headed, Geek, Romantic

Aspiration: World Famous Celebrity (with her yt channel)/ Archeology Schoolar (is the closest to non moded paranormal specialist sorry)

Elias- Actually Jonah (that bitch): Evil, Self-Absorved, Genius

Aspiration: Public Enemy (it's the cloest to king of the broken world and it's trait is mastermind, would also recomend Seeker of Secrets for it's beholding energy, tbh he should have both)

OG Nepo Baby: Bro, Lazy, Slob

Aspiration: Fabulosly Welthy (he already is but wants to keep being without having to rly work for it)

Peter: Loner, Evil, Child of the Ocean

Aspiration: Sucefull Lineage (hear me out: that's the whole Lukas thing ok? Also isolating people is not a valid option)

Gertrude: Genius, Ambitious, Self-Assured

Aspiration: The Positivity Challenge (?) (Is the closest to stopping rituals ig, if you find smt better please please tell me)

Gerry (my son): Bookworm, Gloomy, Music Lover

Aspiration: The Positivity Challenge (?) (again burning Leitners, stopping rituals, other better ideias would be appreciated)/ Painter Extraordinary (this one was added rn while formating the list for Tumblr and is inspired by happy Gerry from TMAGP : ) )

Michael Shelley- Assistant: Loyal, Good, Clumsy

Aspiration: Friend of the World

Distortion: Eratic, Evil, Insider

Helen Richardson: Non-Comital, Ambitious, Self-Assured

Aspiration: Mansion Baron

Distortion: Eratic, Evil, Cheerfull

(Unsure what the distortion really wants, so my sugestion for aspiration is either whatever the players wants or just keep changing it at random lol)

Agnes (my gal): Romantic, Gloomy, Self-Assured

Aspiration: City Life (because she scaped the cult)/ Soulmate (be it that guy or Gertrude)

Annabelle (my problematic fave): Ambitious, Perfecionist, Genius

Aspiration: I'm unsure maybe Public Enemy for the evil plot + mastermind trait or Friend of the Wolrd but friend is in quotation marks for her.

[our-future-is-up-to-us-2]

Mirror

Yeaaahhhhh here I am once again!! Losing my mind over this spy thriller romance family assassin cat-and-mouse show!!

It's not even funny anymore, the finale releases in like- 3 or so hours for me and I CAN'T WAIT!

But, in the meantime, here's a fic!

Word Count: 1.2K

Relationships: Charles "The Jackal" Calthrop/Nuria

Warnings: SPOILERS FOR EPISODE 9! BEWARE!

~ Read the fic under the cut ~

The Jackal’s breath is soft and slow as he walks through the spaciousness of his own home. 

Everything is too quiet, almost devoid of all he knew before. The night air is strong and he’s just put Carlito to bed… 

And there she is. Nuria. 

He steps forward, looking into her eyes. 

Why are they so cold? He thinks, but deep down, he knows he shouldn’t be expecting everything different. 

He remembers her words, her persistence, something akin to rage that fell through the cracks. 

“And when you get back, I want to hear the fucking truth!” 

He wants to say ‘hello’, to embrace her, to close the distance. He’s just welcomed their son back into his life, arms open, receptive, truly loving. He fantasised, unable to help himself, about a beautiful yet unimaginable future… 

“What’s even real anymore?” Nuria starts. She gestures first and foremost to their surroundings. A beautiful house in Cadiz: Grand, luxurious, overlooking the water, the coastline. “Is this real, Charles?” 

His lip quirks upward, his mind racing. He plans to speak, to confirm, reassure her of everything… But he can’t find it within his heart to do so. 

The Jackal is a man with masks upon masks. A giver who also takes away. He takes lives, he kills, he’s been killing before he even met the adorable Spanish waitress– 

He is Herr Thirsk. He is Peter Gibson. He is Alexander Duggan. 

He is a multitude of strangers. He is a father. He is a lover. He is a friend. He is a married man. 

How he can live so many lives baffles him some days, and entices him on others. When he needs a boost of motivation, he reminds himself that he can blend in with a few hours of prosthetic work. He can slip away into an identity that is neither assassin nor caretaker. 

“And what about this?” Her words snap him out of his thoughts. She’s now pointing to herself, then him. 

Their relationship. 

Right. 

He’d loved her since the beginning, ever since he waltzed over to that cafe, that bar, that place of dim lighting and warm nights. He laughed at how she could just barely pronounce his name. The name he gave her, at least. Charles. More like Char-lez. 

But when she says it to him in the present day, full of longing, sometimes bite, and very often, conviction, it is flawless: Charles, Charles, what are you doing? Are you kidding me? What is this? Do you have a woman with you? When will you be back, Charles?  

She mostly poses her phrases in questions, especially when he hides so much of himself away. The job starts as ‘business’, then ‘getaways’, then ‘industrial espionage’. And that alone feels dangerous.

“And this?” She says, moving across the room now. Her eyes glare daggers into his. 

The gold wedding ring on her left hand. He remembers the night before the ceremony, getting cold feet. But she kissed it away, she told him that he was precious to her. That their love was beautiful. That he was an angel. 

An angel fallen from heaven, down into hell’s dark depths, so it has been revealed. 

Charles’ breath startles as he recalls it all. 

He can’t say a word. Not yet. 

Nuria stands by a tablet, promptly unlocking it. She holds it upright, facing him. 

A newspaper is on display, black and white. A male’s stern face is the image, and the headline is in Spanish. 

It’s her mother tongue, but he still understands. He understands completely.  

He stares back at the tablet, intense. 

Like it’s a mirror.

“Is this you?” She implores, tapping at the screen. “You’ve got one last chance to tell me the truth, so tell me now.”  

He starts by clearing his throat, his mouth opening, closing, waiting. 

There is no other time. He tells himself with a sigh. He clasps his hands together for comfort. It’s all he has in this time of uncertainty. 

“I’ll tell you the truth.” He murmurs, “Yeah, that’s me.” 

“Follow-up, then.” She adds without hesitation, “Do you kill people for money?” 

He scrunches his nose but remains resolute. There’s no other time, there’s no time for lies. She knows the gist now, he’s a liar, a motherfucker, twisted and vile. 

Charles nods. “Yeah.” 

“Say it.” 

“Say what?” 

Nuria steps closer, no longer scared, but now empowered. She’s been right all along, that he is dangerous and wicked. 

She didn’t know to what extent, and now she does. She’ll hold it up to his face, like a mirror, his body count on display. 

He’ll see it all, he’ll care for it all. His reflection stares at him without remorse. 

“Say the words.” She huffs, voice low and serious. “You say those words where I can hear them, where this whole house can hear them. Tainted by your reputation. Go on. ” Nuria has the gall to smirk, placing the tablet down on a nearby table, “I’m waiting.” 

The Jackal holds his breath and counts to three. 

“I kill people for money.” 

The veil has dropped. 

“Say it again.” 

He breathes, counts to two. 

“I kill people for money.” 

Her face does not lose its composure, and Charles’ eyes can’t help but widen. Since when has she built up this strength? Since when has she cared so deeply about what I put myself through?!  

“Again.” 

He counts to one. 

“I kill people for money.” 

The words are louder. It’s a mantra. 

“Keep saying it.” She hisses, “Listen to yourself as you’re saying it, and say it! Admit!” 

“I kill people for money.” 

He smirks now. It’s a game. 

“And again.” 

“I kill people for money.” 

“Once more.” 

He’s gritting his teeth, stepping forward, the words like a fireball in his throat, “I kill people for money. ” 

“I lied!” She laughs, and it’s mirthful to his utter disgust. She steps forward too, mimicking him like the mimic he is with others. “Go on, say it again! Say it! ¡Dime! ” 

They’re nose to nose, like they could kiss. But there’s too much distance, too much turmoil for any love to shine through. 

It’s just the horrors now, uncoiling themselves from Charles’ chest, his heart, and spiralling out of his mouth. 

He’s yelling.  

“I kill people for money! Is that what you wanna hear?! Is that enough?! ” 

Nuria’s walls start to crumble as she sucks in a breath, eyes bright and watery. 

His face is flushed red and he’s too close to her for comfort, but it doesn’t matter to him. 

She was the one that riled him up, that shook him out of his nonchalance, his coolness. Out of that facade and into the open once more. 

His lips shudder as he thinks of what to do next: To hug her, to say sorry, to step away and never return. 

He realises that she never answered his question. The silence is thick and tense before she does. 

“No… No it’s not. ” She fiercely bites, “But now, we are ready to have a conversation.” 

Because Nuria has built this house as her own. She had built up comfort and safety. A respite from all that is evil. 

She didn’t know she was keeping a shard of wickedness in her own home. 

But she’ll nurture it, because she loves him, as evil as he is. 

The Jackal is left there, speechless, taken aback by her audacity. 

Meanwhile, Charles can only stay rooted to the spot, shaking, and barely holding himself together. 

[spacecadet-ticklesinspace]

Final part in the series:

Peter 1

Peter 2

Peter 3:

Three hunched into his shoulders as another coughing fit wracked his body. Each fit took his breath away, leaving him him shaky and breathless.

Once he was able to catch his breath again, the younger man wiped his nose before picking back up the stack up paperwork he needed to finish. "Stupid cold. Gotta finish these for tomorrow."

Somehow, Peter had caught the worse cold of his life during the busiest season of work and it was kicking his butt. However, he couldn't take a break until these reports had been handled.

So Peter 3 balanced the papers on his lap while he settle back into the couch. However, no matter how hard he focused, the squiggles in front of him refused to form the words he needed them to be.

Three rubbed his eyes. "Come on, focus!"

The young man looked at the paper again, but the words still refused appeared.

Peter 3 yanked on his hair his frustration. "I don't have time to be sick. I need to get this---."

Any future retorts were cut off by another harsh coughing fit. This one was bigger than the last, pulling him off the couch to his knees as his hand clutched his chest.

While Peter 3 fought to breathe, he thought he heard a whooshing sound of some sort from behind him. The next sound he heard was pounding feet running toward him and two sets of hands grabbing on to him.

Three tried to pull away from the grip. "I---I---."

One hand moved to pound in between his shoulder blades.

Finally, Peter 3 coughed loose whatever was in his lungs. With his energy spent, the younger man then collapsed into the nearest person's arms.

Those same arms pulled him as close in a firm hug. "It's okay Pete, it's okay. Take a deep breath with me."

After listening to the person holding him take a few deep breaths, Three was able to mimic them. The first few tries were painful, but eventually evened out.

"Pete?" A hand wrapped around one of his. "Can you hear me?"

Peter looked up at the figure holding him. "Two?"

The oldest Peter smiled at him. "Hey Pete."

The younger man struggled to sit up. "S-sorry."

Two helped him. "It's okay. That's what I'm here for."

"You . . . You shouldn't have to."

A water glass was handed to the younger man. "But we want to though."

Peter 3 looked up at the second figure. He hesitantly took the glass of water from his younger counterpart. "Thank you, but you two shouldn't have to take care of me."

"Why not?" Two asked.

Three shrugged. "You just shouldn't have too."

Peter 1 knelt beside his older counterpart. "No offense, but that's a pretty lame excuse."

Peter 3 gave a small grin. "Still."

Three didn't want to be a bother to his counterparts. Two had a wife and job, Uno had his whole life to remake, and Three was just stuck in the past. They were off living their own lives and didn't need him interfering with them.

"Three?"

The young man looked up at the oldest.

"I know it's not the easiest thing to ask for help. It's not easy being vulnerable when you feel like you should be strong. But if you need help, we want to help."

Three shrunk into his shoulders. "But you've both got your own lives to worry about . . . Why would you need to worry about me?"

There was a brief pause before Peter 1 snuggled into Three's side.

"You're going to get sick bud."

"I don't care Three. That's what happens when you care about someone." One snuggled closer. "And I'm staying here until you realize how much I care about you."

Tears sprang into Peter 3's eyes. He set his watercup aside so he could wrap his younger counterpart in a tight hug. From the other side, Peter 2 joined the impromptu hug and Three hadn't felt so safe and secure in a long time. His muscles relaxed and his breathing actually calmed.

After a couple more minutes, the oldest counterpart pulled back so he could look Three in the face. "Hey Pete? Can I check you out?"

A smirk pulled on the corners of Three's mouth. "I mean most people don't normally ask."

Two's eyes widened. "Well that's why I want to."

"Oh no, it was . . ."

Three looked at Two's face.

" . . . Thanks for caring Two."

The older variant smiled. "So can I?"

The young man nodded. "Go ahead."

It took a little bit of a struggle, but Peter 3 was lifted back onto the couch. While Two took over examination, One gathered the papers that had scattered to the floor.

Three started. "My papers."

Two pushed him back down. "Easy Three, One's got it taken care of."

"I'll try to put them back in the order they go, I promise." The youngest carefully sorted the papers. "You just focus on getting better."

The middle brother reluctantly sunk back to the couch. He hated just sitting back while someone did things for him. It just made him feel so useless.

A tap to his forehead drew him out of his thoughts. "Tell that brain of yours to stop being mean to you."

Three looked up at his older brother. "But . . . if I can't take care of myself, I'm being lazy."

Peter 2 gently felt along the sides of the younger Peter's throat. "Says who?"

"Well, says everyone."

The oldest nodded. "I know what you mean."

"R-really?"

"Open your mouth for me please?"

Three did so.

"To answer your question, everyone says the same thing. If you can't get up and still get to work, you're lazy. If you can't finish everything while still under your under the weather, you get teased for being weak."

As Two moved to examine a new spot, Three nodded. "That sounds about right."

The oldest pressed his hand against Three's forehead. "Do you think it's true?"

Three shrugged.

Peter 2 stroked his cheek. "It sucks being in a world that doesn't value a person for taking rest when they need it."

The middle Peter broke into another coughing fit. While his lungs tried to fight their way out of his body, Two rubbed circles into his back until the fit passed. When his coughing was done and his body was exhausted, the oldest then helped him sip some water.

"Judging by the signs you've given, you need lots of rest."

"But, I've got to---."

"Rest Three," Peter 2 replied. "Don't listen to those other voices."

Peter 3's breathing picked up. "B-but I have so many people counting on me, I-I can't . . ."

"Three, breathe. Breathe." Two squeezed his arms. "It's okay."

"N-no! I can't!"

"Three listen to me. Please?"

The middle Peter turned the oldest while tears pooling in his eyes. "If I-I don't finish, I-I'm letting s-so many people down!"

"I know it feels like you have the weight of the world on you right now. But if the people who matter in your life can't be okay with you taking a sick day, then they shouldn't be a part of your life."

"I-I know, b-but---."

Two shook his head. "No one should have that kind of power over your body. You know your body better than anyone. You should be the one to say what you can and cannot do and you should be the one to say when you need rest."

Peter 3 sniffed and thought about what the oldest said. He knew what he was saying was true. If Three wanted to be able to care for people tomorrow, he had to take himself today. It was just hard to say no when everything he had to do was swirling around in his head. "Pete, I just. . . I just can't."

After a moment of silence, One stepped toward the duo. "Maybe we can compromise?"

"What did you have in mind?" Three asked the youngest.

"If Two and I help you finish your work, then you could rest without worrying about everything."

The middle Peter's eyes widened. He hadn't thought about something like that. "M-maybe?"

"What do you need to finish Three?" Two gently asked.

"J-just the paperwork. I-It's due tomorrow."

"If we help you finish it tonight, will you get the rest you need?"

"You two would---would really help me?" Three looked between the two. "You've got your own lives to w-worry about."

Peter 1 knelt beside the couch. "You'd do the same for us in a heartbeat."

Peter 2 nodded. "Now, it's our turn."

"B-but what about MJ or y-your job? Don't you two have enough to worry about?"

One shrugged. "I can take a day off of work."

"And MJ won't mind if I'm gone for a couple days."

"You would do that? F-for me?"

"Yehes." Two gently pushed Three's jaw up. "And if your eyes get any bigger thehey'll freeze thahat way."

Peter 3 chuckled. "Thahank you."

The oldest Peter tapped his nose. "I'm getting a couple things to take care of you with and then we're getting this paperwork done."

As the oldest went to step away, he was snapped back. Three looked down to see his hand holding on tightly to the oldest.

"I'll be right back Pete. I promise I'm not leaving for good."

With some hesitation, Three's hand slipped away from Two's.

However, it was quickly replaced by One's warm grip. "I'm still here too. We're both here for the long haul."

Peter 3 smiled at the younger Peter and held onto his hand. He was grateful to have these two in his life. For once, it was comforting to have someone here who cared.

So Three let himself feel safe and secure and protected as they settled in for the night.

[waywardsou2]

AI-less Whumptober 2024

I'm doing @ailesswhumptober's whumplist

Characters used: Peter "Spider-Man" Parker, Doctor Otto Octavius, James "Bucky" Barnes, Steven "Captain America" Rogers

Day 1: public torture/public use, stress position, “If you cry, we’ll go easy on you.”

Day 2: Unfortunate fall, car accident, “Don’t move. You’ll be okay.”

Day 3: Shared trauma, survivor’s guilt, “It’s not your fault.”

Day 4: Painful transformation, non-consensual body modifications, “You’re a monster.”

Day 5: Overstimulation, migraines, “I can’t take this anymore.”

Day 6: Multiple whumpees, self sacrifice, “I’m the only one who can do this.”

Day 7: Field medicine, running out of supplies, “Hold on, we’re going to have to improvise.”

Day 8: Rope burns, gagged, “You’re so much prettier this way.”

Day 9: Hypothermia, heatstroke, “You look pretty pale.”

Day 10: Self worth issues, pushing away a loved one, “You don't need to earn this.”

Day 11: Hallucinations, truth serum, “Why would you even say that?”

Day 12: Isolation, sensory deprivation, “Can you feel me? I’m right here, whumpee.”

Day 13: Whumpee using themself as bait, defiance, “Take me instead.”

Day 14: Seizures, concussion, “See if you can follow my finger with your eyes.”

Day 15: Waterboarding, removing body parts, “Don’t break down on me yet.”

Day 16: Drowning, hostile environment, “I don’t know how anybody could survive that.”

Day 17: Abandonment, misunderstanding, “Why did I even think you cared?”

Day 18: Mind control, possession, “Everybody will end up despising you.”

Day 19: Disassociation, losing a sense, “I wish I could get you back.”

Day 20: Enemy/Stranger to caretaker, accidental de-aging, “I’m absolutely not qualified for this shit.”

Day 21: Drugged, ambulance ride, “This will make you feel better, okay?”

Day 22: Forced (to kneel/watch/hurt somebody else), whipped, “Do not look away.”

Day 23: Fever, passing out, “Hey?! Stay with me, okay?!”

Day 24: Deconditioning, relapse, “It’s normal that you need more time.”

Day 25: Humiliation, betrayal, “How could you?!”

Day 26: Electrocution, burning, “This is going to sting.”

Day 27: Before vs after, Alternate universe, “Well, there’s a first for everything.”

Day 28: Internal bleeding, needles and stitches, “I didn’t think the wound was that bad…”

Day 29: Ownership, branding, “Everybody will know that you’re mine.”

Day 30: Poison, delirium, “You’re not making sense.”

Day 31: Panic attack, facing a phobia, “You need to get out of here!”

[comfortlesshurt]

October 2024 Plans!

Now feels like a great time to say wow, I really didn't plan for this burst of inspiration from back in... June? to go on this long. Anyway, I'm here to say it is still here. Still Voltron, still primarily Keith. Still really stuck on that series idea.

I thought editing was going to go well last month, but I got started and was not feeling it. So now it's more of a "when it gets done" goal. To hold myself accountable, I'm still gonna include the remaining list of fics to be edited on these monthly goal posts. At least I'll have to look the work I'm avoiding directly in the eye on a regular basis as I procrastinate by writing.

General goals:

Newly published WC: 11,928/3,000

Have VLD WC surpass Spider-Man: 63,314/100,258

2024 total published WC: 54,677/50,000

LTS(LTFH):

If you didn't see my quick lil post about it, I'm getting burned out on this! So I'm giving myself a month off. I'm allowed to add to these fics if I feel like it, but there is no daily or monthly word count goal for October.

Fic 4: work on figuring out the timeline

All fics: use the downtime this month to work on chapter titles & flesh out outlines

Change the whole damn series name this late into drafting

Oneshots:

Bingo fic (I promised this AGES AGO, so this has GOT to be the month I finally deliver istg)

Oneshots or ficlets, whatever this month's inspiration tells me to do

Editing:

Flu: title change, style update

on the run: deadass don't remember this one, so we'll see

5 Times Lance Doesn't Matter +1 Time He Finally Does

Smiling 'cause you're used to it (a house that's always haunted)

Chemicals, chemicals in my brain (where'd you go, where'd you go anyway?)

Nowhere to call home (so I'll pack and run away)

5 Times Peter Struggled with Spider Metabolism, +1 Time Tony Helped: possible style update

Whump Bingo: major edit--these were barely edited in the first place, oops

Anywhere but Here: style update

Sick Days

Take the worst situation (make a worse situation)

We are the reckless (we are the wild youth)

Cocktails and Consequences: content edit since I barely drank before I wrote this and didn't research alcohol at all

Sickdays 5.0 Day 7: Temperature: title

See me here (meet me here)

And it hits between the eyes on this side

Sickdays 2.0 Day 2 & 5: Sick at a Party & Gently Tinged with Red: title, brainstorm for a closing chapter

Sickdays Day 5: Rapid Onset: title

Impressions

Sickdays 4.0 Day 1: The Oblivious Partner: title

Sickdays 4.0 Day 7: Chain Reaction: title

Sickdays 5.0 Day 6: Public Illness: title

I've got you stuck on my mind (and it's driving me crazy)

Days locked in a haze (trying to forget you)

Sickdays Day 6: Public Illness: title

I want to know who you are (I want to know who you were)

Will you stay with me for another day? (I don't want to be alone in this state)

I'm keeping you at bay (and I'm lonely)

Sickdays 5.0 Day 3: Caretaking Focus: title

Weightless (only wait for a fall)

Hiding It

I feel strange

Bullies and Bailing: possible content edit because I just don't like this one at all

Made a Mess

Season Three

Oh god

I'm not saying I told you so...

Sickdays 5.0 Day 4: Not the Norm: title and possible content edit because I HATE this fic with a burning passion

Accident

Don't ruin this

Rapid Onset

No Right Side: content edit because I don't like how this came out

Frostbite

Happily Ever After

Wes

Touch of the skin brings trembles and shivers

Favorite Outfit

Sleepless folks watching light grow (through their early morning windows)

Origins

Ember

Peace

Road Trip

+2 anon works

Longer term:

October 2024 - light month! doing whatever I feel like, but probably some oneshots or ficlets.

November 2024 - unofficial NaNoWriMo (fuck AI).

December 2024 - finish rough draft for LTS(LTFH) fics 1 & 2.

January 2025 - LTS(LTFH) fic 1 & 2 major content/continuity edit. Technical edit for fic 1 & begin posting depending on how long edits take.

February 2025 - LTS(LTFH) fic 3 (drafting) & 4 (outline and early drafting).

March 2025 - LTS(LTFH) fic 3 & 4 drafting.

[abbatoirablaze]

Shameless, Season 3 & 4 Master List

Seasons 1 & 2

Things never stay the same in the Gallagher household. At least, not for long anyways.

After you graduated high school, you helped your sister raise your five younger siblings. And things were like that...for a while. But then you ended up marrying your best friend.

Tony Markovich.

And yeah...things were pretty great there for a while too.

Until they weren't.

And now, you're living under an alias with your son...so that your husband doesn't know where to find you. And to be honest, ever since your dad disappeared...things have been going pretty well.

And then you met him.

Charlie Peters.

Who knew all you needed was that brooding version of sex on two legs to turn your life back into one big drama fest.

Season 3

Chapter 1: Oh How Things Change

Chapter 2: El Grand Canyon

Chapter 3: The American Dream & May I Trim Your Hedges

Chapter 4: The Helpful Gallaghers & The Sins of My Caretaker

Chapter 5: Cascading Failures

Chapter 6: A Long Way From Home & When There's A Will

Chapter 7: Frank The Plumber, Civil Wrongs & Order Room Service

Chapter 8: Survival Of The Fittest

Season 4

Chapter 9: Simple Pleasures & My Oldest Daughter

Chapter 10: Like Father Like Daughter & Strangers On A Train

Chapter 11: There's A Rub & Iron City

Chapter 12: A Jailbird, Invalid, Martyr, Cutter, Retard, and Parasitic Twin

Chapter 13: Hope Springs Paternal, The Legend Of Bonnie and Carl, & Liver, I hardly Knew Her

Chapter 14: Emily & Lazarus

Seasons 5 and 6

[brooklynisher]

Just

Going off my original Spine hc (you know the drill)

I've been thinking about how The Spine explored music during his younger years. Because he never had many coping mechanisms He was banned from most of them

I think music was one he initially tried to hide.

It was a huge breath of fresh air when he realized that he was supposed to sing, but even so, he was more secretive about it.

Mostly because he wrote his own lyrics, and if you look at my SECOND Spine hc post, the robots weren't the ones who wrote the songs back in the day. I implied that it was only until VI that they started writing originals. Before that, the band was controlled by their caretaker.

So there are quite a few reasons why he could get in trouble for writing his own songs. I imagine, when it comes to building the perfect robot, Peter wasn't so much of a fan of a lack of control. If he lets The Spine write whatever he wants, The Spine has many more opportunities to do something he's not supposed to. Especially when it comes to writing songs. Who knows what they would be about? How could Peter manage that?

His suspicions were correct. The Spine would secretly write songs and a lot of them were about his feelings. Music was the most effective coping mechanism because it was essentially his only coping mechanism. And he kind of abused it.

Similar to how Peter started building a bunch of robots after Delilah died as a coping mechanism, The Spine wrote a lot of songs whenever he felt like he was being mistreated. He was very fast. He'd often find himself humming some of his songs whenever he felt something negative. But he was always very very quiet about it. He hid his lyrics very well. Some of them are still somewhere around the manor today.

But it wasn't just emotional songs. He made many songs he could use to substitute his lack of whimsical media. Because he always wanted to indulge in "children's hobbies", but he wasn't allowed to. So he tried to write his own fantasies and put them into song.

When he was reprogrammed for war, he ended up forgetting a lot of the songs he wrote, but he's managed to recover a few of them if not bits and pieces.

I'm thinking about songs like Wired Wrong, Electricity is in My Soul, and Hot on the Trail. Which 2/3 of those songs have more serious IRL reasons for being written (With Wired Wrong being about David's neurodivergence and Hot on the Trail being about a toxic partner David once had in a poly relationship [<- misunderstood. Click the link please!]), but we never got an in-lore explanation as to why The Spine is singing it.

But also other songs like the old version of Starlight Star-shine, Love World of Love, I Don't Have a Name For It, and She Said Maybe.

He really liked exploring topics of love in his more "fun" songs Perhaps it was because he felt like he was lacking it... hm...

[roseposts-stuff]

hello hello!! its time for the doctor who rankings again, today it's time for series 8!! really like this series guys not gonna lie :D again, these are my opinions and also just. mostly for my benefit but i post them here in case someone else is interested in my thoughts???

1. Listen (8x4) - oh how i love this episode guys, i love the opening already, peter capaldi was MADE for stuff like this, i think. i like the idea of a creature that has perfected hiding, i think that's interesting, and i love the ending with clara talking to the doctor as a kid, i love how we kinda still left it ambiguous whether this creature exists or not (i think it does, the creature that was on danny's bed didn't look like a human, even though we didn't see it clearly, but it's not 100% sure this creature is actually real). always love it when doctor who goes horror

2. Mummy on the Orient Express (8x8) - SO good, love this episode, i love the mystery of the mummy and i think a morally grey doctor was written well in this, i liked perkins a lot and kinda wished he had become a companion, and i liked the story. also the "are you my mummy" heritage still going strong lmao

3. Flatline (8x9) - SO GOOD!! i love the idea of creatures that are in 2D that's interesting, i like clara and there are so many hilarious things in this, personally i died permanently when clara just pulled the hammer from the bag and went "apparently they're in the walls", it was so funny to me lol, yeah, brilliant i think

4. Deep Breath (8x1) - does the beginning with clara feel a bit weird considering she has literally seen every regeneration of the doctor's and knows how it works? yeah. but i get where they're going with it and why it is there, because the audience has just lost the previous doctor, who is this new guy here why is he so different, how can he suddenly be so old?? the kids who might have started watching with matt smith might say, and i get that clara is now acting as the audience, i don't mind it. and i like the scene with vastra and clara. and the second half of the episode is brilliant, i love clara with the robot. guys. i don't remember if they had a name sorry guys lol. but she was great. i really think she's so much better in this series than in series 7. and this episode also has some really funny moments, i had so much fun following the doctor's adventures, and i love jenny, vastra and strax as people might notice from the previous posts. i LOVE them. miss them every day i want them back i hate that this is their last appearance on tv :( but yeah, a great introduction to the new doctor, dare i even say better than the eleventh hour are we ready for that conversation??

5. Dark Water/Death in Heaven (8x11/8x12) - always love meeting kate even if she's in a small role, live laugh love kate lethbridge-stewart if she got no fans i'm dead. anyway, i like finally meeting missy properly, she's great and i enjoyed the doctor and her together. i think the cliffhanger is good and i personally am a danny pink defender, i was sad that he died, he wasn't my favourite character but i didn't hate him like most people seem to do lol. i also think the cybermen are alright and the nod to the brigadier and the doctor saluting him is really nice i think

6. Time Heist (8x5) - it's a nice story, i like the concept and the teller is an interesting creature in my opinion, i like the time travel heist stuff and i like psi and saibra, i think it's great and seems a bit underappreciated in the fandom? or have i just not seen people talk about it? i don't know

7. Robot of Sherwood (8x3) - this was actually pretty good fun, i laughed so many times watching this, and even though the story isn't the best in my opinion, i think this is still very fun and enjoyable and i had a great time watching it. robin hood and the doctor's dynamic was actually pretty hilarious

8. The Caretaker (8x6) - i must say, this made me laugh a few times, i think it's fun, and i like clara and danny's relationship stuff here, i think the dynamic between the doctor and danny is interesting, but the story itself isn't the best and i don't think it's anything special

9. Into the Dalek (8x2) - now i get what this story is going for and how we start exploring the question of whether the doctor is a good man or not is great, i like that theme, and i personally like that last excange with the doctor and the dalek, how the doctor says that hatred isn't victory and the double meaning of "a good dalek". but even though steven moffat is 100% one of my favourite doctor who writers, something i must say that he doesn't get right are the daleks, i don't think he gets them. i think he sees them just plainly as evil angry tanks, which they're not, yes they're obviously evil, but they do have sort of personality, they're occasionally sassy and think themselves to be cleverer than they are, and i don't think moffat gets their characterisation right

10. In the Forest of the Night (8x10) - i don't hate it but it's not good either. it's pretty boring because our characters are just randomly running around a forest, which i do think can be done well, but this wasn't. i found clara and danny's relationship stuff to be okay and i think it was so sweet the kids shipped them lol, and i do think that the fact that this had so much of them being kinda happy makes danny's death in the next episode more sad. and i did 100% pick up on the message about protecting trees, which is indeed important, and i liked that the trees were protecting the earth and that children made the message to everyone like young people do today with the climate change, i think that's something that's good about this story.

11. Kill the Moon (8x7) - i don't completely hate it, it's got a few kinda funny lines and i think it did the morally grey doctor thing well, and i love the ending with clara. but the anti-abortion message is not it, and you know i'm giving the writer the benefit of the doubt, because i can 100% see an another way to interpret the story, that humans want to destroy things that they don't know about and we should instead give them a chance because it could be a good thing, but the way some things are worded in the story are just giving anti-abortion message. and i personally wasn't a fan of the random astronaut and the story as a whole just wasn't for me. though i think the morally grey doctor is done well, it feels kinda weird that he just. disappears mid story, i don't know, but yeah, not a fan

there we are, i liked this series, lots of great episodes i think, and peter capaldi is fantastic of course :D

[pkmn-bah]

hi!! can i please have a random gen 4 pokemon who is a caretaker and uses it/its? thank you!

Say "How's it hanging?" to Lopunny, the Rabbit Pokemon!

General stuff:

1. Name: Lopunny, Lopa, Bunny, Bun, Pun, Punny, Hop, Mimilop, Mimi, Lop, Lopy, Rabbit, Cutie, Cute, Charmy, Peter, Benjamin, Charm, Lapin, Rabito, Conry, Arley, Fiona, Bianka, Gwen

2. Pronouns: it/its, they/them, he/him, bun/buns, paw/paws, cute/cuties, hop/hops, squeak/squeaks

3. Species: Lopunny, rabbit, bunny, human

4. Source: Pokemon, Pokemon Platinum

5. Gender identity / sex: bigender, baskic, vanillabungender, adorafae

6. Sexual / romantic orientation: polyamorous, aroace, cutic (physical), cavaesexual

7. Gender expression: dressing androgynous

8. Role: caretaker, internal self helper, lorekeeper, receptionist

9. Sign-off: 🤎, 💞, 🫶, 🐰, 🐇, 🥕, 🍫

10. Face claim:

🤎_🤎_🤎

Additional stuff

11. Age: 20-25

12. Alterhuman Identity: lopunnykin, rabbitkin, bunnykin, brownish ginger bunnykin, dollhearted

13. Random fact: finds difficult to work when other people/headmates are moving around, absentmindedly talks things apart when nervous, fascinated with wrestling

14. Voice claim

Be aware that headmate could form not exactly as described!