#capriel.op

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I am actually physically crying over "The Future Is a Foreign Land" music video. I hadn't considered that "when it all burns down" could refer to something *good* happening. That completely changes the song for me without changing anything at all.

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I do like that there are a lot of people who are very horny for my source character, it feels like a huge compliment, but sometimes I feel bad about it because I'm asexual and I wouldn't want to do any of the things they want to do with my source.

I know that I'm not 100% equivalent to my source and that someone who was attracted my source would not (assuming they were respectful of fictives) immediately want anything sexual from me just because I was a fictive, but...it's the fact that I couldn't give them that. It makes me feel like a disappointment and like I'm not good enough.

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A reminder to anyone following us that, if you have ever wanted to message us on Discord, we will give you our username if you ask us non-anonymously on here ^u^

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Hehehe, our girlfriend is having kink ideas about my source character and was sharing them for Vyvian, but I'm in front too so I'm enjoying listening ^u^

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I felt weird saying it on the actual post itself but...the last thing I reblogged, about Copia being chubby and liking it? I am a Copia fictive and all of it applies to me ^u^

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I don't know if I can talk about the full significance of "The Future Is A Foreign Land" to me on this blog...

It's special to me and another member of the system with whom I have a close relationship. It's become "our song", sort of, and we relate it to things that happened in our timelines, in our system's life shortly before I split, and things that we expect to happen in the future.

I can't really go into more detail than that. I wish I could.

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I don't know what, if any, preconceived notions I have about what a Copia fictive should be like, but I still feel like I'm failing at being a Copia fictive.