#cant we keep things on the downlow?

[tartytarttaker]

It sometimes feels weird to realize that a fandom has trends. I'm not just talking about the new series that got popular or the character that everyone simps for, I'm talking fan behaviors. The way people rave over their genre has changed over the years, for the better or worse. I've noticed it in the way fanfiction is written, like the voice of newer works are so noticably different from a couple years ago. They FEEL young.

Also, with TikTok and all that, I've noticed that a lot of people are comfortable with showing their simp side, but I'm not really sure if this is a good thing. I'm not saying fan-girlling/boying (whatever) is shameful, but like, wearing whatever underwear that makes you feel comfortable is one thing, and airing it out in the open is another. I'm really not getting used to how open people have become to weebing.

It feels weird to realize that my way of liking my genre is nn years older than everyone else.

[froglover7789]

luke skywalker would absolutely get eloped and tell no one.

like.... on tatooine marriage isnt a big thing bc everybody is a nobody. you exchange your vows and japor and i guess thats it. i dont think the hutts would give a shit so long as they got their taxes. and we know that marriage between slaves was something only the married knew of. maybe luke would honor that

during the rebellion everything would happen so fast and everyone would love so hard and die so young that i imagine elopement was common. "i cant have you forever so ill have you now" sort of thing. maybe there was just a form you could fill out and a ceremony wasnt needed. maybe there was no time to tell anyone and so no one was told

in the new republic luke is the last jedi. hes a war hero and a killer and the last of his kind. hes dangerous and valued and a public figure whether he wants to be or not. marriage and connections in general would have to be kept on the downlow to keep his loved ones safe. he is unkillable; his friends are not.

therefore luke would def get eloped at Some Point (depending on your ship of preference) and tell absolutely no one bc hes a moron. imagine the hijinks that could ensue...

[rascal-xo]

How They React to Gossip | 141 + Rudy + Alejandro |

Warnings: None

Tags: @whirly-birbs @fiveshelmet @madamemelancholysstuff

A/N: For those who requested something and didn’t get a response, i’ll be getting those works posted soon :)

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~ Ghost ~

- Definitely knows about it before anyone else but won’t ever bring it up. (Bro always sees and hears everything about everyone)

- Will act like he doesn’t care, but still is listening to every word

- Will suddenly go “Fucking hell.” and then realize he actually said it out loud when everyone pauses and turns to look at him.

- Will 100% be smirking under his mask when somethings funny but won’t laugh out loud. (Resting Ghost Face and all, gotta keep up the rep)

- Will give the most dangerous fucking side eye when someone says something horrendously out of pocket

- Will definitely zone out if he gets bored

~ Price ~

- Is just passing by the break room when he overhears something out of the ordinary and has to do a double take to walk back towards the group and make sure he heard it correctly

- Will either be the moral compass of the gossip session or will go full out with his own insults

- Stands there with his arms crossed and eyes squinted slightly listening to the words coming from his team.

- Will say something like “We’re soldiers, not desperate housewives.” But will later laugh to himself thinking about the wild accusations and drama.

- Definitely gossips with Laswell on the downlow

~ Gaz ~

- Enjoys every second of pure steaming gossip, especially if it’s coming from his Soap

- Will subtly pry for more information but when Soap teases him about it he’ll be like “Alright you can piss off, I don’t even wanna know now.”

- Won’t even hide the fact he wants to laugh, will be close to doubling over in hysterics if it gets to be that crazy

- *High pitched british shock*

~ SOAP ~

- Bro cant contain himself when it comes to juicy drama in the workplace

- He’s here for the tea, ALL the tea

- Is 10000% the one who started spreading the gossip in the first place.

- Will talk everyone’s ear off about who he saw with who the other day and what not

- Don’t get him started cause he won’t stop

- ends every gossip session lowkey leaving everyone stunned and wanting to hear more

~ Alejandro ~

- takes in any and all gossip in stride and fires off MANY witty remarks about it

- He enjoys poking fun at others jokingly. it’s apart of his charm (duh)

- Will be be doubling over in hysterical laughter, probably bringing Rudy or Soap down with him

- If the gossip is about Valeria, bro will NOT hold back. Shots upon shots will be fired do not get him started

~ Rudy ~

- Doesn’t add to the gossip, but enjoys every second of hearing his teammates losing their minds over juicy drama they’ve heard

- Will be laughing along with Alejandro but will say “Dios mío, It’s not funny, we shouldn’t be laughing!”

- Stands back with his eyes open wide in shock and red in the face from what he’s hearing

- The out of pocket things that come from Alejandro’s mouth about Valeria definitely keep this poor man up at night

** BONUS ** GRAVES

- is the gossip.

[castlebyersafterdark]

first off, i cant appreciate you enough for openly embracing FOAH. even byler fandom is hella conservative around accepting them as potentially a real life couple, which is odd to me. but i am also happy that their privacy is intact and shipping can be annoying for anyone who likes to keep their private life to themselves.

from S2 onwards i have been deeply into shipping byler and didnt even think of foah back then. but right after S3 promotions it felt as if there is definitely something simmering. so i looked back and did a deep dive into S2 & S1 promo and bam.....it was always there although it was subtle. but S3 was obviously a foah rollercoaster. S4 they were so oddly closed off but overall there is certainly some romantic tension.

idw i always assumed that it would probably be noah to develope a crush on Finn first

BUT BUT BUT when i saw older videos.....oh boy! What came to me as a surprise that Finn had a much much bigger crush on Noah from the start, and it was def. showing. he seemed jealous of milli (perhaps because he wasn't able to decode whether noahxmilli is friendship or otherwise), felt protective of noah, defending why his character is at the core of the show, despising when they were called brothers and ofcourse desire to be around him. and most importantly....he is always very much in control of himself when Noah was not in interview with the group but whenever he was there finn's mood was so different. he seemed more real, nicer version of himself and that was so fucking cute i wanted to die.

sure Noah too checked him out multiple times, staring finn uninterruptedly. flirting back etc. so it was always very much a mutual thing.

i think they keep it downlow. i totally respect that. Your thoughts on this.

Thank you!! I'm really glad to have created a little spot where we can have fun and be rational and not judge one another. Away from the spotlight which I think is appropriate for this topic - but it's not some huge, evil that needs to be maligned and made so taboo. I think blogging as done here is pretty private. You wouldn't want to openly discuss it everywhere over social media where the press and unkind people linger. I think observing people is interesting. Celebrities are interesting. It's romance, it's reading between the lines, it's analyzing what's in front of you, it's seeing two people you like and might admire and think have incredible chemistry and just think that they could or do have something - and hoping you've got it right.

It's really funny, because very early on in my super young days in fandom started with a celeb ship and I haven't really engaged much with this stuff in many years - and ST is now the most emotionally dramatic and immersive fandom experience I've had since and here we go again! Back to my roots.

Interesting that so many have given the impression that something flipped during the season 3 promo. Seems to be a common thread. Also interesting when people say that Finn seems to be the one crushing first - I don't really have an opinion one way or another, though I do agree that certain things in some stuff from the season 3 era and previous do give some vibes. I've observed the somewhat jealous tension with that trio though - it's pretty apparent at times, even beyond any crush. Good insights though, enjoyed your read of the situation!

This kind of stuff I think appeals to many, even beyond a romantic sap like me who's just enamored by the general concept of relationships, because it is investigative and a little like tracking clues to unveil a mystery. As long as we're just observing and interpreting what's right before our eyes and not being intrusive and invading their actual lives - what's so wrong about it? You know who's in the wrong? Paparazzi who hound celebrities and stalker "stans" who follow them to their homes and press that print disparaging shit and people who harass them online. That's wrong. Loving a celebrity and following their lives / career and analyzing interviews and shared content and finding the idea of a relationship compelling isn't wrong when you think about it.

[angelgendered]

pleeease post a picture of the michael sheen look a like, i want to see him!

Every time I psot about him I have tk say this.

I cant say what his job is but it's important enough and he makes enough money that I can't tell anyone what he does or his full name or psot pics of him, especially not WITH me looking all romantic cos he's not out to his family and wants to keep it n the downlow which I completely respect

When you engage in hookups there's kinda an unspoken thing thag you don't reveal people's identity unless they agree to that. Or even a spoken thing. As soon as I started to talk to him past my initial 'you look like sheeny and are very attractive' message, he asked me to keep this on the downlow. He knows I post about the sex and dates and stuff but because I do that, I can't reveal his personal info. And I won't outcof respect for him.

Plus his dick game is INSANE and I ain't jeopardising that (and he's a sweet guy and very touchy, which I like a lot) so sorry anon, until/if the time ever comes thatcim allowed to reveal him, I will. But since he's told me he doesn't plan to ever come out to his ailing dad, who's still going strong in his 80s because of bigotry and homophobia... you know. Could be a while. If ever.

I don't enjoy beings secretive and neither does he. Its not like he's ashamed of me or w/e. We jsut have an arrangement and thats that :)

So yeah. Sorry to go off on a tangent anonnie but. I grt asked this evwry tiem I talk about or mention him lol

[riphimopen]

beavis and butthead accidental marriage episode starts out with them sitting there on the sofa everything on tv is like “the romance of youth” “young and in love” “married at twenty three” teen dating shows etc. beavis launches into one of his goddamnit we’re never gonna score speeches “WE’RE TOO DAMN OLD! CHICKS GO FOR YOUNG GUYS WE’RE NOT YOUNG ANYMORE” “uhuhuh yeah i guess we arent the strapping studs we used to be” “THE ONLY WAY OLD PEOPLE SCORE IS LIKE. IF THEYRE MARRIED OR SOMETHING.” “uhuhuhh yeah then you can like. do it all the time whenever. lol” lightbulb moment. “dude how do we find chicks to marry us” “uh i think theres like a place you can go? like one of those dating apps that sets people up. you always see people getting married there i bet they can set us up uhuhuh”

smash cut to the courthouse. “hi how can i help you two gentlemen” “we like. wanna get married. can you help us with that.” “...its so beautiful to see you being brave and open about this” “yeah we thought we might as well, yknow. bite the bullet. better than never scoring mhehehehe. so can you like. find us somebody.” “a witness? of course- shirley, can you come here and bear witness?” (“huhuhuh she can bare a lot more than that”) “here, we can get the whole thing done in ten minutes, if you want to keep things on the downlow- i understand you coming straight to the courthouse on this, not wanting to make it a big deal” “uhuhuhuh sure. the quicker the better”

“ok so just sign right here; and you’re next; alright, is there anything you’d like to say just now, or would you rather skip straight to the “i do”s?” “mhehe you said do” “okay then it looks like thats it! congratulations, gentlemen, youre married” “YES!” “YES!” airguitar “so like. where are the chicks.”

“the who”

“like. our wives dumbass”

smash cut “WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT TAKES SIXTY DAYS TO GET A DIVORCE” “WHAT DO YOU MEAN “PAPERWORK”” “IM NOT STAYING MARRIED TO THIS ASSWIPE FOR TWO MONTHS” “IM NOT DOING PAPERWORK!!!”

smash cut again theyre sittin on the sofa hot lady comes on tv butthead goes “huhuhh hey baby” “butthead you cant say that mhehehe.” “why not dumbass” “its not right dude its like. hhheehh cheating on me or something” “what the hell are you talking about” “because yknow we’re mehehe married? like. the guy at the courthouse sa” “we’re not actually MARRIED you dipshit. the only person who thinks we’re married is that butthole at the courthouse. if we were like. really married. then we’d like live together and do everything with each other and like you’d bring me a beer when i asked you to and i’d like buy you nachos whenever you wanted” “oh.” “dumbass. besides. if we were married we’d have scored by now” “huh. um. does this mean you wanna like. get a divorce.”

“....eh. that guy said itll like. take forever. and you have to do a bunch of like legal bullshit anyway. anyway, hes the only guy who thinks we’re married. like. im not gonna tell people we’re married.” “heheh no yeah me neither. no way.” “right. so then like, i can still hit on chicks. and like i give you permission to hit on chicks too.” “mhehehe cool.              so its like an open relationship type thing?” “WE ARE NOT MARRIED”

[gale-gentlepenguin]

Rating all of the Secrets Ladybug is keeping from Chat noir by how badly it would emotionally hurt him if he were to find out and being told.

Since we have Chat noir Finding out that Rena Rouge and Carapace knew eachother's identities. Lets put that at a solid 5 /10 as the baseline. 1 being something Chat noir could shrug off. While 10 is him quitting because of emotional destruction to his heart. 5 being hurt but able to move past sooner or later.

-Chat Blanc.

Him finding out: 10/10. Him being told about it by Ladybug: 7 or 8/10

I feel like this one of those that is just going to be emotionally painful regardless. But him finding out Chat blanc was a thing. He would likely blame himself. I think if he saw the full extent of it, seeing how Chat blanc attacked ladybug, destroyed the world... he would probably give up the miraculous himself right then and there. Believing that it would be better if he didnt have it. Likely NOTHING would convince him to keep it.

Now if Ladybug told him about it, likely easing up on details and just used it as an explaination on why their identities cant be known by eachother... it would hurt but I think Chat noir would be a lot more cooperative but also emotionally distraught. But seeing Ladybug telling him this and NOT wanting him to quit would be the factor that lowers the number.

-Ladybug telling someone her identity.

Him finding out: 9/10. Him being told about it by ladybug: 4 or 5/10

Now this one I think if Ladybug explains it well enough, Chat noir would be hurt but would be much more understanding. Oh he will be bitter about it, but it wont make him want to quit. But him finding out that she told someone would be such a betrayal. Him thinking that they both were following the rules only to find out she went behind his back?! Now he could rationalize maybe she was stressed. But this was something that should have been mentioned. This alone would likely have Chat noir questioning everything about his bond with Ladybug. And you really cant blame him.

-Ladybug permanently giving Rena rouge a miraculous/Rena Furtive (both of these are basically one secret)

Him finding out: 10/10. Him having it be explained to him by ladybug. 7.5/10.

Now this one directly impacts chat noir. If he finds out about this. Forget it, any conceptions of Ladybug trusting him were violently stabbed behind a Denny's. Chat noir would likely take off the ring right there and toss it to ladybug. Boy finds out everything he believed about them being trusting partners was violently beaten to death with a bat. There is no explanation ladybug could give him after finding out that would be able to convince him he is trusted and valued.

Now if Ladybug tells Chat noir about it, Oh it will hurt. But he will remember she is the guardian. Its her job to pick new perminant holders. Now I put this at a 7.5 because Adrien knows about nino and Alya. But if not for that, I would put him being told at maybe a 5. Would Chat noir be sad and not feel as special? Probably, but he would at least be relieved Ladybug is telling him this stuff. Besides he would trust Ladybug's judgement on it. Being told this information, he would understand that they need to keep things on the downlow with shadowmoth about (as long as its explained to him.)

[dauntless-dragayn]

the dsmp c!kids are queer

a hc post for tommy, tubbo, ranboo, and purpled (all in regards to the characters)

tommy is a trans guy! naturally. he is straight and loves women So Much

for a long time he kept it on the downlow that he’s trans and didnt really like people knowing

he consistently binds (safely!) and his voice is naturally kind of low

he identified as a guy from a pretty young age, probably around when he first met tubbo

tubbo is pan and ace. he doesnt really think much about labels though. his gender is goat boy (in other words he’s cis/doesn’t think about his gender too much either)

you’d be surprised by the ace part because of all of his raunchy jokes but thats how it be sometimes

number #1 person who will kick your teeth in if you misgender tommy (but transphobia isnt a thing in the server so its fine<3)

purpled is agender and aro. he doesnt really care about pronouns but he/him is what he uses most commonly

he has an aro patch on his hoodie and he just thinks its so very cool that aro colors go so well with purple

he’s not romance repulsed, he just doesnt care to ever have a romantic relationship himself

he can Not wrap his mind around gender. he likes to joke if he had one it would be Dagger 

“too sharp to touch and extremely dangerous”

ranboo is nonbinary and uses he/they!!!!!!! he has no idea what his sexuality is but if he had to put a label on it he’d say queer

ranboo figured out he’s nb recently (around when he moved in with tubbo in snowchester) which tubbo was naturally super supportive of. he asked his husband if he could do anything to affirm his gender 

ranboo was very flustered and didnt really know how to answer that (besides updating his pronouns) but appreciated it

tommy and ranboo talk about gender and transness sometimes and finding out about ranboo is what allows tommy to gradually be more open and proud of his identity

some time later when he and tommy have gotten on good terms, ranboo offhandedly mentions how hes identified as nb for a bit now but doesnt have any pride merch to show for it

tommy instantly sets to making him a scarf with the nb colors and then decided to make a trans one too for good measure

hes too embarrassed to present them to ranboo’s face so he hands them off to tubbo to give him, with a note that says “pick your favorite genderboy. or keep them both i dont care”

ranboo nearly cries 

he decides he likes the nb one and next time he sees tommy he’s wearing it. tommy cant help but grin but he laughs and makes some joke about how ranboo has got all of these colors now and he’s practically a rainbow. gay lol

ranboo just grins and asks tommy if he can hug him. when tommy says yes and he does, ranboo then pulls out the trans scarf tommy made and wraps it on tommy’s shoulders

“now we match :D”

tommy is extremely soft but blusters his way through and says something like “well i guess i’ll need a scarf if im gonna be going to snowchester more often”

at some point when he visits and michael sees that his dad and uncle have matching scarves, he says he wants one

tommy makes him a rainbow one (with some help from michael. its a little bit patchy)

and then of course tubbo has to have one to fit in, so pan colors scarf it is

they put up a big ol gay and trans pride flag up outside snowchester so everyone knows how queer they are

[jackedspicer]

clay is underrated as FUCK hes just a fucking cowboy and he minds his business. what else do you need in a character. nothing because hes got it all

not only that but hes also biting as hell and thats something we all forget. you say the wrong thing and he’ll come back at you with a rebuttal you cant recover from. he’s witty as hell and he just keeps it on the downlow because hes secure and not looking for anybodys attention

[brinytrolls]

if you’re open to plotting something new, what are some ideas you might want to explore with someone??

i am always open to plotting!! let me see what i can find, i’ll organise it by character,,,no dancestors for now but if u wanted to plot with one of them, feel free to send another ask!! 

i dont really have any DETAILED plot ideas, these are more just starting points..sadly none of my ocs rly have future arcs planned out so these are all pretty casual...and these are not an exhaustive list! im open to any and all plot ideas so pls dont be afraid to ask!! 

for faldur,, 

he’s always open for ex matesprits or ex kismesis, as well as casual pitch flings. theres pretty much no guidelines for these ones, if it’s someone who’d be interested in him, and they’re jade or above, it’s fair game! 

an ex mate might be someone who found him too intense and broke up with him, someone who indulged his narcissism and boosted his ego til his other quads were forced to intervene, or something else entirely, as long as there was a reason they had to break up (i currently dont want him to have a red quad 4 Reasons) 

kismesis flings…hes open to anything. he hangs around bars often and will flirt with Anyone he finds attractive, so if someones open to that kinda thing its good to go. this could also lead to general friendships! he has no friends currently. boo 

on the topic of friends, book friends! a little known fact is he spends a lot of time on book forums, and someone to geek out over books with would be a nice change of pace. 

bitchy highblood friends. just like a bitchy seadweller squad would be fun, tbh. 

enemies! got a seadweller who would find him obnoxious? hell yeah! enemies is pretty open ended, i’d be willing to have faldur fucked up to teach him a lesson (within reason, he IS a seadweller and he is strong. he does fight a lot) alternatively, u got a lowblood (or highblood tbh) who needs a reason to be afraid of seadwellers? faldur attacks ppl who so much as look at him funny, so thats a valid option too

MAFIA TIES…faldur works as an assassin for when people need something really fucked up done to someone. do with that what u will

OH I JUST REMEMBERED fleet recruiters/anyone from the fleet/similar organisation who sees potential in him. faldurs constantly torn between redemption and leaving it all behind to join the fleet, so that could be interesting! 

theres definitely more but…tbh im welcome to anyone approaching me with ANY plot ideas they have! 

will do the rest under the cut bc that got LONG 

I WROTE THIS ALL OUT AND FORGOT HARREL 

BIG ONE IS just other mafia trolls!!

mafia bosses/hitmen who would hire him. who are doing jobs on the downlow, and need a cleanup guy! harrel is very good at his job so he’s highly regarded within the business 

especially mean mafia ppl. be mean to him. its part of his character hes anxious bc the mafia is mean 

no specifics, but i want harrel to just get Fucked Up. like i said, he’s highly regarded so holding him for ransom isn’t out of the question. just fuck this nerd up 

on a lighter note! he frequents record shops and jazz clubs, so maybe a musician or two with similar interests to help him get out of his shell. he needs a friend or two. 

friends from university! anyone in sciences, forensics, medical science, criminal studies…he probably studied with them! his backstory is that he disappeared from university one day when he got kidnapped by a mafia boss, and managed to wrangle his way into them keeping him alive. an old friend who noticed and is suddenly Very Confused upon seeing him again like 5 years later 

someone he went to uni with who’s now in the law industry, and the conflict that might arise from them being on two totally different ends of the spectrum…could be a fun dynamic! 

on the same wavelength: old flames from university. ex quadrants, ex hookups, ex crushes. people he was romantically involved with before suddenly disappearing 

i think thats all…

forrr sarky! 

no real quad stuff needed for him…perhaps an ex or two, but no real ideas there! 

other grubtubers to be friends with, or fans who’ve met/would want to meet him! grubtube is a HUGE part of his life and i’ve never really been able to explore it, bc he has no connections involved with it. u got a grubtuber troll who’d collab with him? a troll who enjoys letsplays? a weird youtuber superfan who’d give their right arm to meet a letsplayer? fuck yea dude all valid options 

PETTY INTERNET DRAMA. im sure theres potential

sarky IS a shifter, meaning he turns into a weird dragon monster in the dead of night on a full…moons (idk how that works on alternia,,,hello???) u got a troll who’d stop him when they catch him stumbling shirtless thru the city streets post-shift towards a local diner at 4am weirdly covered in scars and looing like he’s about to pass out?? a poor overworked diner worker wondering what the Fuck this dudes deal is when he stumbles in at 5am before cramming his face full of meat?? a troll who hangs out in the wilderness bordering the city and saw the horrific sight of this fuzzy teal bitch shifting into a giant dragon?? or just a fellow shifter perhaps?? idk theres a lot that can be done here, im sure 

apartment neighbours! disgruntled highblood a floor below him wondering why this bitch keeps scaling the building?? or someone who thinks its pretty sick, actually. 

fellow city dwellers for him to meet and befriend or annoy the shit out of…he takes the subway a lot, so they can meet there. or in some greasy food place

connected to faldur, any ex quads of faldurs that had to be intervened with and broken up, sarky was probably involved. if u want them to be bitter towards him, feel free. it makes for more interest >:3c 

florem time…………..

GET FLOREM A GIRLFRIEND 2K20…PLEASE. i just want her to have a girlfriend. its what she deserves and we all know it 

get her FRIENDS TOO....friends who will support her, and her weird hobbies. florem has a tendency to help other people and forget about her own needs, so itd be nice for her to have a friend who listens to her too... 

perhaps a troll who stumbles upon her weird troll-eating plant. a fellow enthusiast or some poor soul she has to rescue, either or 

a fellow taxidermy enthusiast....maybe a pen pal who buys stuff from whatever the troll equivalent of etsy is 

camping buddy...............she has no one to go camping with!!

im sadly low on ideas for florem but i DO want interactions with her...

veleno tiem babey

she needs a gf in every single goddamn quad.....shes 100% single 

a Bunch of highbloods who were cocky enough to gamble against her, and are incredibly mad about losing. highbloods out for vengeance 

on the same wavelength, a highblood who lost and got incredibly mad and fucked her face up, giving her all them scars....vel would avoid them for the rest of her life, but perhaps its someone who frequents the same casinos as she does so she cant avoid em 4 Extra Drama 

other down on their luck lowbloods, maybe younger ones, who need her help bc shes Experienced. she can become their Street Mom 

other down on their luck lowbloods for her to just befriend!! she frequents a shitty diner, as well as singing in a jazz club and hanging around in casinos. if youve got a lowblood who hangs around in those places they could def meet! 

i THINK thats all i got...but know i am more than open to literally Any plot suggestion ever >:3c

[prill-ocs]

splat trivia word vomit

cuz i feel like poop about drawing rn but the least i can do is ramble on in word format

HOPEFULLY will remember most of the stuff i told coco while i was driving lmao here we goooo

-sila and rio meet when rio pops outta the manhole and silas chillin in the alleyway by themself just drawin' and listening to music

-rio's very weak and first thing outta her mouth is that shes hungry lmao but im assuming this is said in octo...lish....octlish............NOT INKLISH,WHATEVER;

-sila catches on to what she wants, and despite being Shooketh, drags Rio to the food truck in the square (this is what leads to rio being hooked to foodtrucks lol)

-sila feels bad cuz like??? who the fuck is this person??? shes tired and a little roughed up and is speaking in some foreign language. sila might be Edgey, but they're not completely heartless

-so sila lets rio stay at their apartment, not anticipating that it's gonna be a little more permanent than initially thought

-rio is as...perky...as she is now. her personality has pretty much always been super friendly chatterbox, but she had to keep it on the downlow when she was still part of the octarian army

-speaking of the army, rio couldnt be trusted to do reconnaissance cuz she was just too fuckin' loud LOL so she'd end up blowing their cover. they put her on tech support and maintenance instead (this is subject to change)

-ANYWAYS back to the apartment; so rios tryin very hard to communicate with sila cuz like...she'd LOVE to explain what her deal is, but again. language barrier. thankfully enough, Rio's a pretty quick learner, so she picks up on inklish fairly easily. sila is patient enough to find different ways to get what rios trying to say thru drawings and stuff

-sooo some time passes and silas like "hm. well. you sure have been here a while. any chance ur gonna move on out anytime soon, haha asking for a friend" and rios like. shocked. cuz "what do you mean i have to leave??? i thought i could stay here???" and gives sila the biggest puppy eyes.

-a compromise is reached and sila gets rio a job at where they work at -- an arcade.

-keep in mind, rio hasnt gone outside much. or at least not without sila with her. so her sense of style hasnt set in yet. but boy oh boy, she sees the arcades aesthetic and latches onto it immediately

- rio: HOW COULD YOU BE WORKING IN A PLACE LIKE THIS AND STILL DRESS LIKE /THAT/ ????????

-so yea friendship ended with skin tight octarian clothing, now 80s/90s aesthetic is her friend

-not sure how much time passes, but i imagine them two meeting mazin is like:

mazin: *making her way thru the square*

sila & rio: *eating at one of the tables, sila catches sight of mazin*

sila: hey, uh, isnt that another octoling over there

-and then rio has a mini panic attack thinking it's her sister, but rly it's just her future girlfriend. she turns around and theres shoujo effects, complete with sparkles and bell chime sound effects.

-(sila is silently judging, but the SAME THING happens once bia finds her way to inkopolis and sila also immediately falls for her, but rio is freaking the fuck out in the bg, stuffing her food into her bag cuz she has to leave Right Now Immediately)

-sorry, all my squid and octo kids are big disaster gays. they rly cant help it

-bias lore still needs to be touched on, but I'LL GET TO IT EVENTUALLY. same with ellias. but for rio, this is p much it!

[nivks]

I mean like we all agree in an ideal world the one man we trust with our sons heart is harry right? Like all know™ and accept that in a perfect world nick would chuck all these pretentious fuckboys who don’t treat him like the king he is and marry Henry Stars. I thought dealing with men for me to date was bad but Nick deserves better 🌟

okay so on one side everytime ive thought to myself god cant nick and harry just elope already iv instantly remembered everytime nicks talked about his Feelings etc etc and how he wants “Real Love™️” or “romeo and juliet type of love” or how he wants to settle down and have kids and he just wants someone to come home to everynight!!! which aside from making me incredibly emotional it also kinda makes me think uhhh harry probably couldnt do that last part (right now) :’(

but then the other side of me is like? put harry with basically 95% of other interviewers/coworkers/anyone/friends and hes yknow Harry Styles but when you put him with nick like anytime theyve done anything together ever? they both light the fuck up!!! they both clearly give a very big damn about each other and theyve both gone out of their way to make efforts to see each other and include each other in their work and they spend CHRISTMAS together with each of eachother FAMILIES theyve travelled international (with family) to see each other they have merged friend groups? theyve made a point to keep as close as possible thru the past 6 years no matter how crazy (shitty) things got!!!

basically theyre the exception to each others rule and one day im gonna read an article about them getting married on the downlow and adopting too and im not gonna be surprised 💕

[oswednesday]

ive been having dreams but my mind hasnt been calm enough to remember them im waking up is such a Go Go Go mode like i think ive been dreaming about the same thing, the same kind of setting so its extra frustrating not to remember what it is, these dream journals are meant to grab me a little time oh i do i am starting to remember my dream!!! i was on a road trip but like a road trip in?? and anime??? a clearly pre written story and it was this girl in my dream who was like my cousin but we didnt know each other and we knew we had to get out of this like fake story thing, the people who were like our grandparents stopped the car at like in front of a grocery store and like we all had a moment to get supplies and getting out involved a lot of things we were trying to keep on the downlow and we were in this art department and this girl who i was now getting on well with also knew the person working at the art department but before that there was coffee and i just?? drank it and it was drugged, then a guy showed up all like you cant stop whats happening you two have to be where you are and then there was like an anime style fight you know what i mean??? while she was dragging my half unconscious self out and then instead of the road trip it shifted to like an apartment with uncovered bricks i remember less there was a point in my dream that jenny texted i love you and that was the only thing i remembered before i remembered all that, there was also like stock photoage of scinery like painted on animated cells and the car moved mostly in place but it felt like really traveling moving through this fake setting until a new one was set up to stop at

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Carly

Ali: alright? Carly: yea Ali: you want any water, pain killers? Carly: k to both Ali: can have my headphones too if you can deal with my music taste Carly: you could sing to me tho Ali: i've got the pipes, yeah but not sure anyone else wants me belting over the racket Carly: idc about them Ali: yeah Ali: one of us gotta get home with a spotless record, tho Carly: You can't get in trouble for being loud Carly: Leesha knows that Ali: she just leads a charmed life 🍀 Carly: or 🔮 Ali: Didn't need no crystal ball to see through your plans, soz babe Carly: who does Ali: got further than you had any right Ali: poor woodfield on bog watch 'til dubo now Carly: ha Carly: gave her something to do Carly: but nobodys trying it again like Ali: reckon you're right Ali: no one got that kinda deathwish Carly: trying to kill me w a stare tho Carly: she loves it Ali: hmm Ali: less sure on that Carly: i am Carly: try it tho bitch Carly: feel 🕱 Ali: got until we get back Ali: that's when the real shit begins Ali: what're you gonna do carls Carly: idk idc Carly: theyre gonna do what they want Carly: & not like my ma & da will throw a fit Ali: sure? Ali: shame Ali: hoping your Da would move Drew on Carly: im not 12 now babe Carly: & he isn't a beautiful romany lad Carly: my ma will like the look of him i kno Ali: you're 14 Ali: still got a few more years of compulsorary giving a shit about you left Carly: yea Carly: but its no big Ali: you could get expelled Carly: nah Carly: didnt go anything cuz leesha had to speak up about it Ali: you blame her Carly: nah but its facts Carly: nothing happened Ali: I don't think that's how they see it Carly: k but Carly: idc Carly: forget it Ali: k but HOW Carly: what? Carly: dont worry about it babe k Carly: im not trying to Ali: I know you're trying to avoid a freakout but Ali: fucking hell Ali: why Carly: why what? Carly: whats your problem? Ali: only the same as yours Ali: not enjoying the chaos around us or the chaos waiting at home Carly: nah Carly: but worry about your sister Carly: this is nothing Ali: no it isn't Carly: just chatter Carly: weve heard it all before Ali: you're a we now yeah Carly: ha Carly: everyone on this coach has heard it & said it is what i mean Carly: dont be jealous babe Ali: Why would I be jealous? Carly: im only playing Carly: i kno youre not Ali: Whatever Carly: dont be mad at me Carly: be fun Ali: not feeling it Carly: baby come on Carly: why tho Ali: you actually need to ask? Carly: yea Carly: i havent done anything wrong Ali: it ain't about right or wrong Ali: it's still a mess and i'm over it Ali: that's all Carly: k Carly: but ive been a mess since we met & you cba about that before Ali: i didn't say you Ali: the situation Carly: theres no situation Carly: only sex that didnt even happen Ali: forget about it Carly: nah Carly: say what you wanna say Ali: okay, the fact he's fucking ruined this entire trip Ali: Ro had to go home Ali: and Laoise is taking the opportunity to cyberbully her about it as if she's not already fucked up enough from it Ali: and he's not even a little bit sorry that he just wasted the last 3 months of her life with his bullshit Carly: None of that's my bad Carly: be mad at him not me Ali: I am Ali: but I'm mad at you for not giving enough of a shit to not get dragged down in his crap either Carly: hes not dragging me anywhere but the bathroom Ali: bullshit Carly: nah Carly: youre making it something else Carly: its not Ali: the whole bus is slagging on you Ali: half of them wanna fight you Ali: and that's cos of this Ali: its not debateable its facts Carly: and what Carly: when dont they Ali: there was no need Carly: yea there was Ali: no worthwhile one then whatever Carly: worthwhile to me Ali: i really hope so Carly: wouldve been like Ali: i don't need to hear Carly: k Carly: be like that Ali: yeah i will Carly: why do you wanna fight w me? Ali: i don't Ali: you got your priorities i got mine Carly: but youre a priority you kno Ali: its alright Ali: let's leave this drama behind Carly: how tho Carly: youre still gonna be mad Ali: yeah but that is what it is Ali: nothing's going to change Ali: we'll both deal Carly: but Ali: idk Ali: idk what we do, if you think of something lemme know Carly: im sorry Ali: me too Carly: tell me what to do Carly: i wanna make you feel better Ali: I dunno, Carls Ali: its all already done Ali: not just you, all of us Carly: lets do something else Carly: go somewhere else Carly: whatever you want Ali: Oh, that reminds me Ali: Tommy's back, he asked if you wanna go out Carly: is it k w you if i come? Ali: yeah Carly: nah its weird Ali: no it isn't Ali: i don't wanna not see you Ali: fuck that Ali: its just this trip and him Carly: i only did it cuz he said hed hook me up when we got back Carly: i dont want him Ali: its alright Ali: you don't have to explain to me Carly: its not Carly: alright isnt how we feel you kno Ali: as far as this trip goes Ali: i'll take it, babe Carly: i shouldnt have come on it Ali: nah, don't say that Ali: apart from this shit Ali: it was good, right? Carly: but this shit happened cuz im not good Carly: my heads wrecked Ali: no Ali: it didn't Ali: yeah, you went there too but so did Laoise and it coulda been any girl Carly: she didnt fuck him for a hit tho Carly: why i gotta do that Ali: that hit of revenge Ali: worse reason, to be honest Carly: yea Carly: she is the worst we kno Ali: you're not bad Carly: im not an angel like you babe Ali: yeah you is Ali: can't fool me Carly: you cant stop being nice to me Ali: and what bitch Carly: youre meant to be mad Ali: i'm sick of it Ali: its not getting us anywhere so Carly: where you wanna get to baby Ali: better Carly: we'll start tonight Carly: out w your brother Ali: yeah Ali: fucking ray of ☀ that he is Carly: ha Carly: maybe ill find a nice girl at the club tho Carly: then youll be happy Ali: i don't wanna be that bitch about it Ali: just drew, babe, c'mon 😝 Ali: please tell me i ain't that bitch Carly: ha Carly: hes no worse than ronan tho Carly: to your sister k but not to me Ali: yeah and thinking 'bout how hard Ronan sucks made you cry the other day so Ali: 👀 Carly: dont Carly: he took your vs its so sad Carly: i wouldnt let goldie take mine nah Ali: I dunno what the fuck I was thinking Carly: youre too good Carly: you think everyone is Carly: 👼 Ali: nah Ali: I mean, he ain't the 😈 but he was bad enough for my purposes Ali: my stupid ass 🙄 Carly: nah you're too smart Carly: you knew what you were doing like Carly: been there had that fight w my ma Ali: the flashbacks not needed Ali: still got that 📢 in my ear Ali: though, probably gonna lay off a bit now Drew's showed Caleb up for the good boy he is Ali: awks Carly: its my turn Carly: thanks for turning up ma & da turn into his drama Carly: then turn away cuz nothing to see Ali: yours back home rn? Carly: nah but im sure theyll get the summons if the teachers kick off loud enough Ali: shit Ali: they gonna kill ya? Carly: theyll only be mad if their hol gets cut short but like they can go again when the teachers have had a word Carly: dont need a babysitter Ali: yeah, soz we can't come back we got free drinks here 'til next week so Carly: you kno Carly: gotta draw straws for which one shows up & who gets to keep the party going Ali: 1000 on ur dad showing up then Carly: yea Carly: plot twist my nan rocks up like it hasnt been years Carly: carly who bitch Ali: bitch same Ali: missing nan gang Ali: conspiracy, like Carly: i kno where she is but she not trying to kno us Carly: family fights like Carly: boring Ali: gurl, so much in common Ali: let tommo regale you with the fuckery Ali: other peeps drama always be more fun Ali: WELL Carly: hes such a gossipy bitch Carly: ill tell him about all this so he can have fun w Ali: beat u to the reveal honey but Ali: always more scandal I probably saved him from Carly: you been chatting about me Carly: aw Ali: yeah Ali: keep my slagging on the downlow Ali: wise up lads Carly: its k cuz youre creative Carly: its all slut, slag and whore w them Ali: truly Ali: switch it up Carly: drew did skank and he was wasted so its not hard Ali: 🤢 Ali: anything drew is capable of is basal Carly: wtf does that mean tho Carly: he calls me a bitch a lot like boy thats mine and my girl's thing k bye Ali: he talks a lotta shit for such a lil bitch boy himself Ali: yeah, back off Ali: ur not part of the gang Carly: he wants to be on you so bad that id feel bad but cant cuz yea hes a prick Ali: i can't Ali: why bitch Ali: like, i'm nice the rest of the time but like, no nicer to him than any other acquaintance Ali: and rn its clear i lowkey hate Carly: cos youre you Carly: who wouldnt want that Ali: 😽 Ali: always out here hyping me up boo Carly: yea i love you Ali: i love you too bitch Carly: serious tho Carly: im sorry Carly: i hate it when youre mad at me Ali: i swear i was never mad at you Ali: who could be mad at that lil face Ali: right teachers? 🤞 Carly: ha Carly: well they saw me making a seduction face like Carly: my bad Ali: don't act like you didn't love that too lads Carly: you kno Carly: youve seen it its good Ali: willing to write that review Carly: aww Carly: so sweet Carly: id give you top marks too baby Ali: you better 😒 Ali: don't be lying to me or yourself baby 😏 Carly: ha Carly: nah youre the best Carly: no lie Ali: 😳 Carly: so cute Ali: just trying make me have a huge head to drag my cute down Carly: nah you earned those props from me Carly: put a lot of work in Ali: no slacker 💪 Carly: facts Carly: lot of fun Ali: funsized Ali: that's my secret Carly: aw Carly: but were the same size tho Ali: exactly Ali: team pocket rocket Ali: get out giant boys Carly: your boy gotta stay cuz hes not i see you bitch Ali: 😎 Ali: you said yourself, i'm too smart Carly: 🖕 Ali: how tall is my brother Ali: forgot Ali: kick him out of his own partay how rude Carly: shit Carly: sorry boy Ali: can walk on his knees if he wanna hang Carly: or hands Carly: wtf would that make a difference nah Ali: nah babe Ali: that perfect form Ali: twat 😒😂 Carly: im too sober to have thoughts Carly: no scholarship to a fancy school for me Ali: don't be fooled, he only there 'cos he can twerk good 💅 Ali: #bitchmetoothefuck Carly: fuck why you worried about me getting expelled from here if thats what it takes to go there Carly: i got this Ali: you just gon leave me like that Ali: 😞 ok Carly: nah Carly: come w me baby Ali: running away to london Ali: heard worse plans Carly: you kno Carly: be fun Carly: we always have a good time running off together Ali: no lie Ali: maybe we can crash when he goes back early to get settled 'cos he's dramatic like that Ali: lots of fit boys, can't all be gay Carly: are they allowed to fuck Carly: or is it like footballers and shit Ali: Ooh Ali: we'll have to ask Ali: good pickup line, babe Carly: i'll ask your brother if hes getting any Ali: he'll die of embarrassment 💀 Carly: aw Carly: is he a virgin serious Ali: I think so Ali: he won't say obvs, withholding that ☕ so shady Carly: i'll ask Carly: find him a cutie to do the honors Ali: 🙈 Ali: he was feeling sorry for you but he gon' wanna square up now too Carly: yea? Carly: i need the practice if i gotta fight leesha again Ali: 😒 she better stay tf away if she knows what's good Ali: still, he used to being target practice Ali: he quick tho Carly: teach me those ballerina girl moves Carly: never went as a kid Ali: aww baby Ali: i did for the hottest of secs but Carly: bet your ma has pics im hitting her up Ali: yeah, she loves pissing herself @ me, the cow Ali: you can join now, or yoga with me, your fave 😉 Carly: nah Carly: got enough teachers on my case Carly: & bitchy girls Ali: 😱 Ali: i ain't that bad, rude Carly: never you my baby Carly: youre the only one who isnt Ali: bus full of bitches Ali: sounds like a song marlene would write Carly: pitch it to her Carly: or find her in the club Ali: maybe Ali: idk if she's got a girl rn Ali: we shall see Carly: me & her Carly: weird Carly: i'll ask her if shes feeling it Ali: oh lord Ali: can't play with her like a boy tho Ali: wifey'd up before you know it Carly: nah she scares me Carly: im a good wife tho Ali: you is Ali: but you wanna be? Carly: what? Ali: you don't wanna be no wifey Carly: not hers Ali: as long as not his either then we good Carly: ha Ali: 👀 Carly: what you saying w those beautiful eyes boo Ali: i see u and ur lack of a response is what i'm sayin Ali: honeyyyy Carly: dont Carly: i said about him before thats it Ali: i'm just playing Carly: dont Carly: he thinks it too Carly: such a prick Ali: i'm soz baby Ali: he thinks everyone loves him as much as he does Carly: yea Carly: i need to find a new dealer Ali: honey, in this town? done is done Ali: find one tonight Carly: so smart

[gardenbiriety]

eeeekkkk christmas is the worst for dysphoria honestly

uhm so sui tw and family shit and just generally bad thoughts ahead 

yikes so i used to really like christmas but now its literally just??? how can i navigate my family without making my parents hate me and without wanting to kill myself more than usual and i forgto this part every year until we have to have dinner w ppl and i just? realise how? my family doesn’t give two shits abt me at all except for my brothers lmao like??? i’ve literally said calling me my deadname makes me feel like sshit and my ma wont fucking believe me until i fucking kill myself and even then? she would just say i was being selfish what a cunt honestly

like i acctually forget that im not ok and then i remeber when i said ‘since ur fmily i guess i can’t make u but i’d really fucking love it if u called me roman ‘ and my uuncle legit was like ‘well im still gonna call u deadname ‘ like thAnks dickhead if i didn’t love my lil counsin (and only one bc her younger brother is such a dick (he’s like 11 so  i try not t hate him) but he’s really fucking violent to his sister and whenever he hurts her she just doesn’t say anything but she accidently (or on purpose,,, but thats rareer bc shes such a sweetie ok i love her) but she tripped him on one fo thsoe big jumping pillow things and i (an almost adult at the time, this was like 6months to a year ago) had to physically get inbetween them bc he was determined to hurt her and he gets away with all sorts of shitty and cruel behaviour and she doesn’t even get away with retaliating and i lvoe her so much and it makes me so mad? but anyway she’s the only person (and maybe my aunt but less) who i like from their sect of the family and we have to have dinner with them and im gonna screm bc every time i see him i remember that and honestly????? 0/10 

but that doesn’t hurt as much as the facct that? my ma still doesn’t believe me? like i fucking started hurting myself when i was 12 but sure..... this is some sort of fucking phase and im just ‘wanting to be different too badly’ (fuck her honestly) im so???? i shouldn’t have to feel this shit and i probably wouldn’t if she just grew the fuck up and let me be???? like????? i dont give a fuck if u ‘always wanted a daughter’ ya didn’t fucking get one and ur gonna lose ur oldest kid if u keep this shit up like idk how long i can deal with her but i also ant leave and i dont know what to do and if i’m not working enough (to her satisfaction anyway) next year she’s actually going to have at me and i just????? i want to get out but there is nowhere to go because nowhere is safe im fucking???/ im stuck and i dont want to be here anymore 

is it that hard to take me seriously???? once i fucking pulled a muscle in my neck at someone elses house and they rung my ma to ask if i could have panadol and i was crying over the phone and she still accused me of faking (recently she told me she thought i had gotten addicted to drugs when i was in america for like? twenty days? because i had fucking panadol and ibprofen in my bag bc i didn’t realise ibprofen was not panadol and didn’t do the same thing and i wasn’t just gonna? chuck it out???) honestly i’ve fucking had enough 

AnD alSo she is always grumpy / easy to anger bc of work / her general suppression of emotions / ect and takes it out on us w/o consquence and i pointed it out and she legit just said ‘yeah but im an adult tho’ like???? honestly fuck u you dont get to do that iim so mad and im so sad and i fucking dont even know if theres any point? trying to maintain out relationship? like i love her but fuck she is not good for me at all and has, consistently, for years, managed to ruin almost all of my good days with a single word and i just fucking???? i’ve had enough and i cant be bothered anymore like all she does is set off bother my anxiety and dysphoria and screams at me until i get out of bed which makes it? even harder to get out next time??? she is still trying to manage my life and shit like???  fuck u??? if i need help ill ask otherwise leave me alone (ofc when i ask for help she’s fckign shiitty abt that too honestly ‘ask if u dont know’ ‘except if its ‘common sense’ or smth that i already know and u, also, somehow, telepathically do to’ like sometimes i jsut wanna ask for reassurance!!!! fuck u!!! jsut say yes / no and move the  fuck on it’s not that hard u dont have to be a cunt

i’ve been on the verge of tears for two days but its g its chill im just gonna have to make sure my ds is charged before the crhistmas family dinner and pray nobody writes my fucking deadname on any gifts bc seeing it written honestly causes me physical pain and accepting it will also do that fuck me theres nothing i can do except send judgmental looks (but on the downlow bc i dont waanna be ‘disrepecctful’ and have them dramatically try and take the gift back even tho i dont rlly care abt whatever shit they got me my ma would kill me) im so tired i can’t wait until i dont have to speak to these people ever again