#cant for the life of me remember if im allergic to

[cannibal-nightmares]

me: [eating a snack with nuts in it] "Okay, so, I'm NOT allergic to pecans."

co-worker: "...DO YOU NOT HAVE SELF-PRESERVATION SKILLS???"

[ganondoodle]

i might have already talked about this but i honestly cant remember if i did or if its one of my totk thoughts that keep haunting me in my head (and god knows how id find it on tumblr)

.. did they ever say how long link was gone for? like at the start? bc to me it feels like it must have been months or something given how some things are .. although others are the opposite

like the spypost alone is so weird to me, its a goddamn stupid place to put it, a SPYpost should either be concealed or in a hard to reach place with good look of the environment around it- which it doesnt have at all (despite higher up hills being right around the corner ...), who would put a spy post directly on flat ground at the castle doors?? (AND in a place where i think would have been the ONLY good place to put nothing there/dont change it- or have it bee a secret entrance into the castle you can find on your own .. if the castle was actually like a dungeon and inaccessible for the most time ...) makes even less sense if it was built before link disappeared bc wh- .. whats its purpose anyway? the calamity is gone and instead of rebuilding castle town or soemthing nearby you put the words least sensical spypost right at the front of the castle thats a dead dirty lump of rock (yes i know zelda mentions soemthing of the miasma being active or whatever but that changes nothing abotu how little sense thing darn thing makes to me .. ) (i will stand by my idea of rebuilding the ranch ruins into a little hub and tavern instead, a spypost can be a smaller thing higher up but that as a little new town and maybe with my personal little wish of having all your horses run around a ranch, of course its got little defense, this is a ranch and the calamity was gone and its not that close to the castle, its also rather in the middle of the map and a bigger wider area would be hard to miss, plus its using an old neat reference and making something meaningful out of it, soemthing this game is allergic to im- *breathes in* fine.)

death mountain, i assumed at least, cooled down with the cataclysm (.. way too serious sounding for .. largely just some pebbles falling from the sky) and it seems like theres alot of stuff built on there and even grass growing and everything, like its been that way for a long time, yunobo being dumbified by brainwash mask and the things he does also dont feel like they happen in a day or two

the other regions on the other hand ... ignoring how mcuh of a non issue the rito problem is (the oooooh blizzard doesnt even stop them from flying ..... its not freezing them either bc none of them wear any more clothes and just do business as usual .. but then food is supposed to be a problem? .... you .. you can fly ..... ... why wasnt the boss then a monster that eats everything of the region or soemthing ... a big ol worm razing entire forest, or .. you know, make the blizzard an actual problem, winds so strong you cant fly, temperature so low you freeze immediately without special armor), are just .. dealing with it themselves? and dont seem to even seek out the help of anyone else? like it literally just happend?

but then theres entire sonau research teams and people studying it but .. all the shit started to appear with the cataclysm ... so???? though zelda at the start talks about it like its been a well known every day life fact that the acnient stupid furry first king of gods holy lands was called rauru and he was a sonau (WHICH NO ONE KNEW ANYTHIGN ABOUT THE LITERAL ONYL THING KNOWN WAS THE ARMOR SET IN BOTW THAT ALSO DOESNT MATCH ANYTHING AT ALL TOTK SONAU) and his fridge wife was sonia like its just written in every history book and still somehow accurate (might i remind you its been MORE than TEN THOUSAND YEARS sicne then and nothign was known of them in botw) while no one remembers link from a 100 years ago, nor from 6 years ago, but then remembered the champions for the 100 year botw gap and then promptly forgot about them in totk (it really feels like that) BUT THEN you got kids in school that dont fking believe the calamity happend (which was defeated just like 6 years before that)

then again .... theres not a single soul on the sky islands, despite there, NOW more than ever, multiple ways to get up there, are you telling me everyones obsessed with the stupid sonau shit and then no one even tries to go up there??? arguing that it wasnt accessible until noodle zelda broke through the clouds at the end of the tutorial doesnt work bc those ruins already fell down, people must have known and no one even tried?? also they can go up there after it go opened up?? plus clearly the ruins were able to fall through also ... what even determines whether an island falls down or not? why do some fall when tHe dEmON kInG wakes up? you see it with those green sonau magic stuff but like .... who ... did that, both rauru and mineru were dead when zelda noodlefied herself and there everything was STILL on the ground? the only magical thing the constructs do is use fuse sometimes i dont think they can lift up all that shit .. clearly is wasnt rauru either bc he acts surprised about it being up here, but why does it falter when big il ganon man wakes up? mineru after the weird static non battle with ganondorf wasnt doing so hot and we have no idea how much time passed between that and the moment she goes into the purah pad (i could be annoying about that as well) either

in taburasa (tarrey town) they do all that shit with the sonau stuff, implying theres enough time that passed to make people tinker with it too so ?(though i still hate that bc its so .. shouldnt you of all people be scared of more techy bs materializing when the whole calamity is like back almost exactly like it was before? not even suspicious? no? you dont even know how it works yet everyone trying to work with it like there isnt anythign better to do??)

like with everything in this game it keeps contradicting itself, the inconsistency makes me want to rip my hair out anytime i try to make sense of it

[redrandomposts]

hi it's me again from the luka vs ivan r7 ask, and claiming the 🌦️ emoji :>

for their song i wanna go w something like nightglow by tanya chua from the hi3 game. it's THE year ender event for the segyein and the entire city is packed into the arena.

i can see the producers dressing them up in complementary styles. luka wld have elements of ivan's signature style and vice versa.

imagine the entire time ivan and luka ARE in equal footing. luka has the fanbase power and experience ivan cant match, but ivan has a type of completely human showmanship that luka cant replicate. imagine them dancing during their round too and they keep on switching back and forth on who gets the lead !!

luka can see that ivan is singing the song for SOMEONE but he cant pinpoint who and it's throwing him off just a bit. it's one of those rare rounds where luka doesnt have any immediate upper hand on his opponent and the aliens are eating it up !! a dark knight to go up against their brilliant prince ? absolute genius.

but also consider : the producers dont want anyone else but luka to win. so they rig it :> the final score is a tie, but a gun is shot and ivan falls...

... just in time for the rebels to barge in :>

(so similar to canon!r7 ending except ivan wasnt reaching out for someone in the crowd and no one is cradling his head on their lap lmao)

why are alien stage fans allergic to happy endings? you guys arent vivinos, you can do what you can to give them happy endings...

i think unsha's coming in clutch and preventing this. that, or the show gets boycotted because they decide to off ivan. you know how rii7e's whole situation had the entire company boycotted by nations and people from other fandoms? that is happening.

the whole show would plummet in stocks, aliens pulling out their human pets from the program, protests and rallies ongoing.

im projecting my love for ivan, but also, i 100% believe this would happen.

its not like ivan can be brought back to life. till visits his grave, where fans constantly leave flowers; monuments are brought up to support ivan, flowers flooding each and every one. till remembers, quite clearly, how ivan died alone on the stage, reaching out for something. ivan looked lost, sorrowful, somehow relieved, and he hates it.

anyway, that's what's happening guys!!! ivan dies, aliens boycott alien stage and whatever else, and everyone is happy and alive.

[crowleys-hips]

2, 10, 22 and 24 for the ask game! Hope you're having a good day 💙

elloo thank youu i hope you're having a good day too 🐍

2. What was it that drew you to Good Omens, and what was it that sucked you into the fandom?

*breaks down sobbing lungs burning chest contracting heaving shuddering gasping for breath mascara running down my cheeks snot dripping from my nose* ahem sorry needed a little moment of drama it's all cool now dw about me im absolutely hella gucci never been better 😎 anyway where were we oh yea

when i was a teen i used to sort of like this one author but i can't remember the name for some reason, i just kinda remember picking up literally every single thing of his i could get my hands on, i mean, super casually, i wasn't obsessed or anything. and so i saw his name on the title, saw it had a demon and an angel and something about Armageddon and then i blinked and had somehow consumed the whole thing.

then flash forward to 2019, i see ohh they made a series of that one book i kinda sorta very casually liked a normal amount. and then i shrugged and never watched it bc they didn't look the way they had looked in my head and i had a Very Serious Issue w that apparently. then last year i got covid and i was really bored and i didn't know what to watch and i came across that one show tumblr was losing their minds about for some reason, so i went ugh fine i'll watch it. and then i relived the worst heartbreak of my whole life through a much more brutal dramatization and i was left in pieces, clutching my chest, crying on the floor, begging the universe for mercy. so naturally, like a very normal person, i went, "damn i need to watch this whole thing again 10 thousand more times until i memorize the dialogue word for word" and came on tumblr to scream into the void about it. and so here i am, continuing the lovely tradition of breaking hearts with unhinged poems and occasionally making memes friends will later find reposted on pinterest and instagram 🤡

10. What traits do you share with Crowley?

Yes well first the dumbassery and the unfortunate habit of shooting myself in the foot, le dépression, constantly in alert mode, cant for the life of me ever sit like a normal person, sunglasses out in public always bc my vampire ass is allergic to light, clothing only exists in black, antes muerto que sencillo ✨ (sooner dead than a simple hoe) flash bastard, blasting Queen, horrible plant dad, former raging alcoholic, Aziraphalesexual, drama queen, in fucking pieces 🪦

22. Bildad The Shuhite: hot or not?

look i can see the appeal, but personally i wouldn't fuck him

24. Who would you choose to run off to Centauri with?

you guys keep asking me this as if i even know other people lmao anyway. my answer is still: a copy of The Awakening by Kate Chopin. iykyk 🖤 if not and you wish to find out, get tissues

thanks for the asksss! this was fun to write lmao

[musicoftheheart]

oh my gosh okay so I wanna ask about all ur wips honestly but that kind of defeats the purpose soooooooo

4,7,8,14

4 because it sounds really ominous, 7 because the title makes me think someone (probably james) freaks out every time someone else (probably regulus) speaks french and a third person (probably sirius) thinks hes having an allergic reaction, 8 because this sounds like a sequel to hold me tight (and never let me go)??? and I have been loving that fic so far and cant wait for you to finish it (but no pressure, take ur time of course), and 14 because thats funny as shit

also, I remember you saying a while ago you might write a snooker au? is that happening? (again no pressure, I just wondered if u forgot to list it since you mentioned having brain fog recently (which is a cool name for it btw and I will be using it in future))

hi!! thanks for asking! <33

so ive covered a couple of these in another ask, so ill only sum them up here (you still get rambled at though dw <3)

4. dont walk too close

so! as i said in another ask, this is a fic following sirius (and regulus, later) starting hogwarts as walburga’s obedient heir, only to end up in gryffindor and learning that life isnt quite the way he’d been taught. his revelations and his sorting end up causing tension at home in the yule holidays, and a series of events end up with regulus in gryffindor too. im sure we can all imagine how that one goes. i posted a snippet in the other ask here

7. french epi fic

HA okay i love your guess, but— well, actually, youre closer to the truth than you might’ve thought. sort of.

regulus has just escaped his parents’ clutches and moves across from france to the one place he hoped he might be welcome: sirius’ home in england. its set in yorkshire, because thats where i grew up before i had to move away, and i miss it :( regulus’ english is poor as it is, but meeting sirius’ ridiculously attractive housemate, james potter, muddles his brain enough where the few basic greetings he knew were gone

james has epilepsy (thats where the ‘epi’ in the title comes from), remus gets them all free donuts, and sirius refuses to flirt on behalf of either james or regulus with the other. its chaos, its fun, and im enjoying it so far despite only being a few thousand words in. here’s a snippet:

Regulus slowly set his eyes back on the house. “It’s so big.”

Seeming to finally catch up on Regulus’ surprise, Sirius explained, “Effie and Monty helped us get on our feet, but with what Alphard left…”

”Mon dieu,” he breathed. But this time, it wasn’t at the house. It was at the man stepping out of it.

Stood at the front door, one hand shielding his eyes from the sun that had emerged from behind the rain clouds, was the most beautiful man Regulus had ever laid his gaze upon. His dark brown hair was tussled in a mess of curls on his head, but almost like it was purposefully messy rather than just uncontrollable. Round golden glasses sat upon his bronze skin, framing his chocolatey eyes perfectly, and a wide grin pulled at his mouth and revealed a little dimple on his left cheek.

When Regulus was eventually able to tear his eyes from the man’s face, his breath caught again at the sight of the rest of him. He clearly worked out, if the muscles making his t-shit stretch were anything to go by, but he wasn’t tall — perhaps only a couple of inches larger than Regulus himself, and he reached only a measly 5’7. Something shining in the sun caught Regulus’ eye, and he saw a thin metal bracelet on one of the man’s wrists.

���Hey, James!” Sirius called, climbing out of the car and snapping Regulus out of his trance. He’d made it to the boot to pull Regulus’ suitcase out before Regulus had even managed to open the passenger door.

”Padfoot!” James called with just as much enthusiasm — that was, far too much considering they lived together and had presumably seen each other just a few hours ago before Sirius had left to pick Regulus up. “And mini Pads!” he added, spotting Regulus finally getting out of the car.

Regulus shot him a swift glare for that nickname. He may be cute, but looks could only get him so far.

8. the warmth of your arms rivals the sun (its burning out)

this is another ive covered in another ask but i love it so im still gonna talk about it. youre exactly right, by the way — it is a hmt sequel! i guess the naming conventions were similar enough ahaha. its very james-centric with background storylines, and focuses on much heavier themes than those in hmt. i wont go into what they are, but anyone who was around during chapter… four? five? i dont remember, but it was early on. i added some tags, then took them away once i decided id split it into two parts. if anyone remembers those tags, that’s what twoya will cover :))

14. sirius is actually helpful for once wtf

this is planned to be a shorter fic, but still multi chapter. its pretty much just sirius shipping jegulus and doing everything he can to get his two favourite people together :) not written yet, but ive got a fair bit planned so far

bonus: snooker au

okay so, i would love to say i’ve worked on this some more since then but… i haven’t :( i really want to, but i want to do it well, which i know will take a lot of time. but, the details i have so far:

its the snooker world championships. regulus black’s first, but james potter’s third. sirius black — former world champion — is the estranged brother of the newbie regulus black, and the mentor and best friend of james potter, who was second place two years ago, but couldnt compete last year due to an unrelated injury, though healed up now. james, of course, is head over heels for regulus. regulus, of course, pretends hes not pining madly for the boy who stole his brother. sirius, of course, pretends hes not offended or hurt that regulus wont even try to fix their relationship. he also just happens to be stealing glances at remus lupin, who came fourth last year and seemed rather close to regulus. theyre all hopeless, and determined to win.

thanks for your ask! <33

[unfilteredflare]

So something i havent blogged about but i desperately need to vent (and im sure my friends r very tired of hearing about it)

Ive had a health issue for several years now. And its severe allergies

Not just seasonal pollen. Like, i am severally allergic to dust and possibly even animal dander

If i dont take any medicine, i would be sick 24/7. Which is what was happening to me years ago. Thought it was the flu or a cold but it went on for months and months and months

For example: i have a very high work ethic. Its a direct result of how i was raised. I never call out sick unless im in the hospital. But i was so sick that i got fired for the first time in my life. And it was because i was missing too much work. Im sure they thought i was just lazy and irresponsible. But i was legitimately that sick 24/7

Eventually i was able to figure out that taking Zyrtec helped. So for several years, if i remembered to take my daily Zyrtec then i was mostly fine. I would slip-up sometimes and forget and then my life would be hell again. But still, i was functional and mostly ok

But then it started losing its effectiveness. I was starting to get sick every single day again, a couple hours after taking my Zyrtec. So, even tho im not suppsoed to, i started upping my dose. I take a Zyrtec every 12 hours. These r 24 hour Zyrtec doses that im having to take every 12 hours or i start getting sick again

That was a year and a half ago? 2 years? That i started that. And its, once again, losing affectiveness

Zyrtec is fucking expensive and i am going to have to start taking 3 a day just to keep my allergies at bay

Do u know what its like to be sick 24/7? For months at a time? If im not careful, i could become dehydrated in a single day because my nose leaks so much snot. Literally i got so tired of wiping and blowing my nose that i would sit a the kitchen table, put my forehead on the edge of the table and just lay a towel on the floor directly under my face. And my nose would drip drip drip every couple seconds like a leaky faucet. Ive rubbed my nose until its bleeding and gone through 3 boxes of tissues in a single day. The pressure buildup behind my nose and eyes is so fucking painful that i cant sleep. Literally, one time i had to have my mom take me to the fucking ER because i was going blind. It was just snot building up so much pressure behind my eyes that my vision blacked out. My ears ache. Especially when i sneeze and it creates pressure behind .y ears. The fucking sneezing. My sneezing has gotten so bad, that now (tmi warning if u dont wanna know) every single time i sneeze, i piss myself. I have to wear pads like diapers, otherwise i would just be constantly drenched in piss.

Allergy medicines dont work on me. Even if i took the max dosage for Benadryl or Dayquil in 1 sitting, there would be no effect. Specifically because this problem has been going on so long and steadily getting worse. That my body has built up a natural immunity to all allergy meds

The worst part? It can only get worse. The more time passes, the less medicines work. The sicker i get

If i could, i would gouge my eyes out, cut off my nose, and destroy my nasal passages if i could. Im just so fucking miserable literally all the time for years and years and years

I actually dont know how much more of this i could take

[gutsfics]

1, 3, 9, 22, and 24 from the OC Interview Questions for Devi please!!!

yaaay thank you!!!! :3 ok im going Devi Mode now >:3

1. Who makes up your family?  How close are you to them?

well there's my mom and dad, and i have an older sibling, Avery, and two older sisters, Kennie and Satomi. im pretty close with all of them, especially my parents! tbh though it kinda feels like the five years i was dead made me miss a lot of my siblings' lives so theres like a sort of.... glass wall? i think? thats five years i cant get back, and they're all enough older than me that i wasnt really raised "with" them so much as i was raised after them, you know?

also Noah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Noah's been such a big part of my (un)life that it would be wrong not to call him family <3 plus also hes my boyfriend :3

3. What is your favorite childhood memory?

so Jane's favorite fruit is-- um... was [he looks kinda sad for a moment, but shakes it off] blackberries, but she was allergic to the brambles so when it was blackberry season, i'd crawl into bushes to get the juciest berries for her

anyway the september before, um.... she got a bit sick in september and i wanted to cheer her up so Noah and i went to the biggest blackberry bush we'd found in the forest and i picked as many blackberries as i could for her while Noah kept me company (cuz he's also allergic so he couldnt join me in the bush). we werent as close back then as we are now, and i dont remember really what we talked about, but i remember that it was one of the last warm days of the year as the season changed, and the forest was so pretty and i felt like nothing could ever go wrong

its, um, kind of a sad memory. bittersweet, i mean. but its important to me

9. Are you a spiritual person? If yes, what do you practice?

now that's a really interesting question. i know that there is a sort of "higher power" that exists in the world, but it's not really God, or A God or anything consious really. its more like.... a membrane woven into the world that makes it what it is. like a membrane holding back some kind of juice? God Juice. and there's that spot in the mountains where the membrane has been punctured so more of God Juice is flooding out of that hole than there should be in the world, and i was part of that god juice, and i think that god juice is now a part of me? or it made me or something? and if i focus, really focus hard, i can kinda hear the way the universe sings? not always though

but um. i dont really know if that counts as spirituality. and i dont "practice" anything it just... kinda is? i try to be nice to people and the world but that doesnt feel like "practicing spirituality"

22. What’s the easiest way to flirt with you?

ummm haha ohh..... i dont really know how to answer that..... growing up i was usually either ignored or bullied so its always so weird whenever someone flirts with me. its always like, are you talking to me?? oh, no thanks. i already got a guy for that

and Noah's not really a flirty guy. he'll walk into the underworld to carry me back home, for sure, but he doesnt really do flirting. unless you count just open and honest statments about how you feel about someone as flirting? i'll flirt with him absolutely, but usually gets too flustered to flirt back. its really cute

24. What would you consider your main love language?

spending years of your life devoted to taking care of someone who's lost everything, through thick and thin, even when things get hard, on days when they dont seem particularly... connected to their humanity. just being a constant in their life, a lighthouse in the middle of a typhoon, grounding them when theyre too lost to find solid ground on their own. walking into the unknown to grasp their soul and bring them back from the brink, even if that means everything changes, even if it means you yourself could get stuck yourself. would you still love me if i was a worm. would you still care for me i had nothing to give you but my company and my love, even if my company doesnt mean my touch or my conversation. would you still love me if i couldn't remember who you were.

um.

sorry. what was the question?

oh right! i think my love language is physical touch and acts of service and quality time. both giving and receiving them.

[jupitercl0uds]

woopsie

i dont wanna live rn honestly i hate twitter i hate tumblr i hate my government i hate how theres multiple genocides going on and how theres never been a point in my life without a war going on somewhere i hate my stupid brain for not being normal and i hate having anyone in my life at all rn and how i love them. i hate school and how ive only got a few weeks till exams. i hate how i cant quit my job without feeling guilty because its volunteering and not even that difficult. i hate money. i hate how everyone has to argue all the time and nothing i do can shut out the fact that i still know what's going on. i hate how its getting to spring. i hate how much i use this website. i hate doing anything right now and i hate how i also cant stop doing anything.

and im meant to love. youve got to remember that most people are wonderful and yk what? i hate that too. i hate how people are nice to me. i hate how i have friends. i hate how people dont hate me. i can get used to hate but its taken me a decade and a half for me to still not get used to love. the one thing i reckon i could love right now is a cat and im allergic to them anyway so whats even the point.

[transporttransportingtransport]

dumping mostly old writing

To clear to tumblr 👍

wait, this is so true. i realize: i am a set-up guy. i ❤️ to set things up for actions to be taken,, i dont necessarily live to complete things… i think i needed this~ this frees me

i can make myself invisible ive realized

its not the most honed skill

since it is unintentional slash goes against what i want sometimes 

but ill be learning 

(without judgement:)

what am i feeling (body, or emotion) right now?

what am i thinking 

what do i need rn

what am i doing rn?

whos really running my life RIGHT NOW? /whos in charge right now? 

Honestly I feel better in my day-to-day life this year, than ever, but Lately I've felt so much resentment and disappointment towards others (mostly coworkers/people in the media/on tv, etc, not so much close people ) . i thought it was just my saturn return and my growing pains of needing to see more of what i value reflected around me, 

but now I'm thinking its also grief, when considering how long it took to feel alright in myself, and to feel like i could take care of myself, to take care of others, and to be taken care of too. i ended a lot of intimate ties recently, which cleared up a lot of things, and I'm happy with the other humans im close with. which is new for me 

I wonder too if this rage means the majority of people around me really are so mediocre, or if theres something else going on. why am i so dissatisfied by humanity....? my mind floods with criticisms, wanting to burn everthing down: it feels like so many people grew up out of their child body but somehow stayed very fragmented in their unmet child needs, and im pissed off at it all. maybe its something in me wanting to be efficient about the amount of energy that is being thrown around all over the realms i watch

i want fame… i always rejected ideas of expterise, and “mastery” feels way off too since the things i do are things i love, not have,, 

but i have started to recognize a need to touch many. and to feel honourable and impactfullll. 

i think the era of celebrity worship is over, nd perhaps im going to be part of whats next for fame, something less individualist and isolating and deadly. 

studying, indefinitely what could not be said 

leaded legs

let me lie

one more time

we cant see our coworkers

they rook away our chairs

i went to a party 

with people and their careers

your friends 

i didnt like them much 

my hair still remembers you

floods my face when i walk by all the places you lived

things are changing

what shall we use these stirring sticks for

if you took away all the sugar 

i eat lunch at 4am

how to feel your head (or other body part) when you move your head 

while the waters still cold

I'll try to find the way

the entries to the relief 

it surrounds 

my ex used to put their hands in the roasting oven

you could say ive seen some shit

and they named me lazy 

i wouldn't be there in an emergency

you said you loved me

i said i loved you 

so did you hear Her crow in your dreams?

no, well, i can't be sure, but i do hear Her now

dont eat those berries at the bus stop

where is the friend who can out out the fire on thine head

panting white boys

headed to north on friday

i dont want to know where theyre up to,

seeing them hanging out that passenger window with eyes on me

oh st laurent, its friday 

we were too accepting of the individualism of that relationship

our time had not begun to hold us

we held no humility towards the inter dimensions that beckoned us

which was protective in its destruction. 

which is how we were readied

it wasnt lack

that built these roads

it was desire

it was never

lack of 

resources 

that built my roads 

my papa was a pagan

untouched and held

by the garden he flowers

a strange beekeeper allergic to the work 

[shroomsnbugs]

7/2/23, Sunday, 5:45pm

Today i hung out with nat, i thought i might have permanently lost them as a friend. I fucked up, i think they might just be a long term friend of mine. I feel bad that previously i hadnt put in more effort into our relationship. Because no matter what theyve been there for me. We went to the lake around 10:30 this morning, I brung peanut butter edibles for her just to find out theyre allergic to peanuts too, so we drank, and swam, and laughed, and talked. We ate sweet cherries that she brought and i think sweet,dark cherries will now be associated with them. The water was cool but not too cold and the weather was unusually nice for the summer season of texas. I felt nostalgic, i felt comfortable. I cant quite describe it, it was more than nice, it was like i was a kid again, like i was young and even though we didnt have sandwiches and chips and juices i felt good, good enough to cry and mourn those days of my short life here. I dont tire of nat like i mightve a year ago, i wanted to keep spending time with them. And so we went thrifting, and i got a few shirts for work and some nice stuff for the house and gave her short lectures onbuying things for her apartment before hand.

I confided to her of how i dont quite take pictures much anymore and she told me to journal my days and memories. I used to do this after everytime i went out years ago, i miss being twelve and everything i did excited me and every person i met gave me a zeal like feeling. Or at least thats the version that i montiage. I advised them to journal more, and lectured them about the importance of giving your mind a break from all the things it endures and experiences, to allow it reprieve into an external outlet. She told me that the one time they did, they wrote od their sexual traumas and rape, and it triggered an emotional response the next time they had sex. She explained how overwhelming it is for her,i remember that feeling, the feeling that anytime i journaled it would be pages long and full of my traumas that i was working through at the time, and how hard i cried almost each and everytime i journaled, but the thing is, it grew me. It matured me in a way that was healthy, it enabled me to have an understanding of emotional regulation and outlets. Im proud of myself. Maybe nat can be a close friend.

[kae-eee]

all my thoughts about apple white i can remember rn because im so unnormal about her

she’s been best friends with dexter forever after, ashlynn and briar are just her main friend group because they’re the most popular fairytale princesses

shes a little envious of dexter who’s allowed to just wear his glasses without an issue

walks into walls and trips on the stairs regularly, she plays it off well

she had the biggest crush on ashlynn when they were like 13, it never fully went away

a little part of why she was so hurt during true hearts day

shes known the charmings her entire life and always took to the twins more than daring

her mother wasn’t happy about that

her favorite color isn’t red

apples make her throat feel fuzzy, what could that mean?

i also think she’s allergic to honey or dairy idk

hella people were scared to tell her who actually woke her up, she didn’t find out till a while later

and she very much faked now being head over heels for daring after she woke up until someone told her

she also thought he was just getting cold feet now that he was avoiding her

wearing her crown so much gives her migraines

and i think it’d be worse for her than other royals because hers is probably bigger

really really easily annoyed

dislikes blondie due to her lack of respect for boundaries, she’s only told raven and dexter this

coldest take but she’s autistic

snow won’t get her tested

queen of masking

does not stfu (yapple white!!)

talks fast as fuck too (yapple white!!!!)

had the biggest fuckin fit when one reflection broke up

i think her and darling were also quite good friends when they were little, but they had different interests and grew apart

im not exactly a dappling shipper, but apple romanticized the hell out of darling once she came to terms with who woke her

also it took her a really, really long time to come to terms with it

super easily annoyed (i cant remember if i already said this)

and her lowest grade is her diplomacy class because of it

shes still acing it though

i think she likes to make jewelry but doesn’t often because it roughs up her hands

like metal jewelry not bracelets made of beads, those wouldn’t mess up her hands

deadliest puppy dog eyes you’ll ever see

noise sensitive

refuses to think about her gender identity and expression because she has a nagging feeling she may bump into something that she’s not ready to unpack

i’d like to think she could hear during her enchanted sleep but then idk how she wouldn’t know daring didn’t wake her

very judgy, trying to unlearn it post way to wonderland

learned it in the first place from her mother

doesn’t text with emojis at all

horrible at replying to messages

hemophilia

broke a bone or two on the way down the well

and those spots ache when it rains

cat person

and she really fucks with orange cats

i wanna say she texts like a grandma

it’s ominous as hell

“hello briar…i’ve seemed i’ve fallen ill…may you inform me on our assignment for princessology… good day..”

the type to remind the teacher of the homework

enjoys to dissect things, but that’s not very princess like is it?

raven snores and apple debates on smothering her every other night

girly needs her beauty sleep

awhile after she’s found out darling woke her up and her destiny may not be as straight cut as she thought, her identity crisis hit her around eleven or twelve at night on a random ass thursday, and raven has to talk down a sobbing screaming apple and get her to go to bed because neither of them are unpacking all that comphet right at that very moment

another cold take but the biggest control freak ever

type of girl to hijack every group project, and come in with her own presentation the day it’s due

a sour over sweet person

but sweet over savory

her mother would’ve dyed her hair if she wasn’t scared that it would get messed up

because blonde hair is better than fried hair

that’s all i’ve got for now, maybe I’ll add to this eventually.

[imraespace]

HIHIHIEHEIHOHIHI DAILTCHEKCIN BUT IM LATER THAN USUAL. ‼️warning i yapped so hard‼️ ..

YES I AM.. still sick …. i am sniffling and coughing as im typign this but we thug it out

i had photography club afterschool so i went but when it was done my bus legit passed by the school so iw as like “.. 😐😐 i guess im taking a different bus.” BC THE NEXT BUS WAS IN 30 MINS?? so instead i took another bus BUT THIS BUS GOES TO THE MALL SO THEN IWAS LIEK OK I DONT REALLT HAVE HOMEWORK I JUST HAVE TO APPLY TO A WHOLE BUNCH OF THINGS SO I MIGHT AS WELL JUST GO TO THE MALL

i went to the mall and spent 94 dollars…!!!! we are not financially responsible enough to go out on our own i swear my mother is never going to let me go out ever again after this but she was fine when i spent 150 in a whole day ….. SO ITHINK ITS OK.

i bought food and then a bluelock manga (THE ARYU COVER NOW IM ONLY MISSING THE KUNIGAMI ONE AND THEN WE WAIT FOR WHEN THE OTHER MANGAS ARE AVAILABLE IN MY COUNTRY..) and then i bought more food (bubble tea yummy) and iwas gonna buy a pretzel but i got distracted went into a store and saw chikawa. iwas like woah its that one thing on like every tumblr blog and thought of buying a keychain UNTIL I REMEMBER THAT THIS IS A STORE WHERE EVERYTHING IS 15+ EVEN FOR A TINY KEYCHAIN SO I RAN OUT. and then i was gonna go home but i took the longest route to the terminal so i saw a few more stores and i saw the cutest sleep wear ever so i spent a good 30 mins standing there aggressively comparing the medium and large difference (it had basicallt no difference.) and intensely typing to my mother asking WHICH ONE DO I GET and three workers came by and was like “lady are you ok” and i was like NO. i didnt actuallt say no but i just smiled and was like “yup..!” and sipped on my very empty bubble tea cup.. in the end my mother said medium and dad said medium as well so i bought the medium

after i bought it i was thinking oh i should buy a pretzel or chikawa AND THEN I REALIZED IT WAS 6 PM SO I RAN TO THE TERMINAL CUZ IT WAS GETTING DARK SOON. like i love walks in the dark esp when its winter and its like very chilly and snow gets into ur eyeball and practically makes u blind and ure fighting for your life because the wind hates you and almost trip on a rock + almost miss ur bus 😛😋🤪😜😝 (100% totally didnt happen to me last year… totally…… that random car that saw and laughed never happened either….!!) but baywyas i live in the most weirdest area to the point that its concerning if im EVEN SAFE TO WALK HOME PROPERLY WITHOUT BEING LIKE “AM I GONNA GET ISEKAID AGAIN” OR GET JUMPED BY A RANDOM BIRD like honestly somstimes i wish my parents didnt move to canada so ill live my hashtag philippines life (muehheuheueh octopus is filipino 😈😈 we learn something new everydya) but i also cannot handle extreme heat BUT I CANT EVEN HANDLE THE COLD EITHER WITHOUT GETTING AN ALLERGIC REACTION THAT TAKES 4-5 HOURS TO CALM DOWN. my cold allergy never lets me rest.

im gonna start tweaking because i have two applications to get through for LITERAL CLUUUBBBSSSS NOT JOBS CLUBS AND BOTH OF THEM ARE LIKE “treat this as a job application” almost like idk how to apply to a job….!! whatever ill live my barista life another day and meet rin itoeshee and we hashtag fall in love over a latte i make for him because im just a hashtag egoist (this will never happen but we all dream) WATCH ME NOT EVEN GET JNTO ANY OF THE THINGS IM APPLYING FOR BUT WHATEVER 💔 jts okay i think ☹️

OKAYAYAYA DAILY QUESTION

which bllk character would spend more money than they actually have in their bank account leading them to be 69 dollars in debt

- 🐙

HAII LMAO TY FOR THE WARNINF

omg egoist/boss move.. honestly I hate being sick fr but it's also fun bc I like to be dramatic when I'm coughing or sneezing🤗

HELP NOT THE BUS LEAVIJF

YIPEE MALL TRIP!! yk the funny thing is I literally live like a 5 minutes away from a mall but.. I don't really go to it.. IDK WHY it's kinda boring tbh all thr good malls are IN THE CAPITAL and that's like hours away from me plus it's scary there so.. I'll stay here!

94 DOLLARS based of what you said abt Canada I used Canadian dollars to convert it to my local currency and apparently if you were using my currency you spent 474 dollars!! SO WHAT. I already cry when I spend over 200 dollars here.. but I haven't spent anything as yet so I have 500 dollars in my savings hahahheheheh🤫🤫

OMG ARYU I LOVE HIM I wanna go out and start buying manga bc I found a store that sells them but I have no where to place them. I NEED MY OWN ROOM UAGABDBAHS😒😒😒

omg sounds so yummy I want boba now

LMAO ON EVERY TUMBLR BLOG

15+ DOLLARS FOR A KEYCHAIN? IS IT BUYING ME FOOD??

LMAO not the worker checking on you at least your momma and pops helped you!!

walking in the dark sounds nice but can't do that here unless you don't wanna see the sunlight again! I walk from school to home sometimes when my momma can't pick me up and I'm always scared bc like once a man told me he was Jesus and he ordered me to give him a dollar HELP IT SOUNDS SO FUNNY BUT IT HAPPENED I was by the church so I walked back inside it HELP

OMG A NEW TRAIT OF 🐙!!

omg I hate the heat yet I live in a tropical island LAST YEAR IR HAD A HEATWAVE IT TURNED MY COLD WATER WARM AND MY AF WASNT WORKING EVERYTHING WAS SO MOIST. I don't think I was meant to be here I thought the caribbean life was gonna be on the beach drinking out of a coconut not melting in a puddle..

DANG YPU NEED AN APPLICATION FOR A CLUB?

LMAO BARISTA LIFE I'll be a background character witnessing the love while drinking my coffee with nagi!!

ITS OKAY IF THEY DONT TAKE YOU THEYRE JUST MISSING OUT ON A LITETAL EGOIST ENTERING THEIR LIFE!!

HELP talking abt nagi he would with all those games he plays

10/10 yap session I loved it

[antonbno1]

Crazy week at Bayview High :0

Hey guys, something crazy at school happened in the last few weeks, like, you’ll never believe this and it hasn’t even been on the news yet, soo I guess im the one that’s gonna ‘break the news.’ Uh, ill start from the top, so this guy at my school right, his name is, was Simon and I didn’t really pay much attention to him honestly but he seemed, I don’t know if this counts as disrespecting the dead but.. yeah he was kinda weird, and he ran this blog right, see and in the blog he would post all of the drama that was happening around the school like embarrassing moments, pregnancies and ‘the like.’ He even got me one time, with something I would rather not talk about here but, yeah ill continue, he had this page and I guess it made A LOT of enemies because you’ll never guess what happened he got MURDERED- or atleast that is what everyones saying (you can trust me my dads a cop), and in the weirdest way to, he drank some water with peanuts in which I guess he was allergic too, and he had ‘Apalanaxis’ and DIED, yeah so there were four people in the room with him,this pretty popular girl called Addy who is my bestie, Cooper who you probably know he’s pretty good at baseball, This criminal called Nate (my dad thinks it was him) and this nerdy girl I cant remember the name of, school was called off for like a week which was pretty nice and there’s like a school funeral soon which I don’t mind going to cause I feel pretty bad for like his girlfriend Janae and stuff. So this has probably been my heaviest blog yet, so sorry for that but I had to say something, so remember to follow and have a nice life! :) signing off, Evelyn65

[just-some-random-blogger]

meow meow, its muning and PLEASE tell me you received the first part?? bc just after they said that it's sent they said tumblr is broken TT i hope it really was sent.. so yeah it must be part 2. 'i literally opened genshin for this' ohh i feel honored. firSt of all, THE CAT TT omg what a cutie you have there. you remember ekaterina? well, my besties name is liza. just find it hilarious and kinda "mom i'm on tv!" hope youll make a stable relationship with lisa ghjdjdh. good for you. its so cute how you speak about xiangling. its great she made you feel this way. your brothers can just envy you enjoying your life and playing the way you want instead of just 'optimally' being nerds) jean seams to be gaslight gatekeep girlboss! i like it. hope you'll learn how to value her like she deserves TT 'THE CAT I STOOD THER' well the kittys laying now and its even more cute TT tbh it was the first thing i noticed... 'i have to keep adjusting the camera' oh so youre the cameraman now? youre doing great, sweetie. idk if i understand 'op' right but if i do then yelan slays. she's pretty. hope she'll do well if you plan to keep leveling her up. 'you cant talk to this cat' so cruel!!! sayu is basically my mood 24/7, i could've slept forever if i had an opportunity. i'm happy you feel so much about sayu, its cute. and hope youll get klee. and youll be the mother of two children... pls dont end up like viserys... AHJAJA amber TT poor girl. weak + weak = getting stronger so... idk good luck to both of you. good for musicians, in this house we love musicians. tbh i never heard of xinyan too but yor love is everything that matters. well morning is pretty! hope it didnt tire you up too much. i appreciate the efforts, though. thanks for showing me all of them!! she's Minimum viable product?.... anyway i'm glad you teamed up so well. she made her best so let zhongli work too. 'hell theme is fresh' i know about dante girl TT i really want to read it but i dont have time. but i know TT im not stupid. i meant like?? its a fictional concept that doesnt exist (or its not proven). hell is such a big thing to fantasise about. its fresh in a away its still not overused and hasnt been told everything about? i literally study literature like.. thoroughly... now i feel so stupid TT i just wanted to see more modern images of hell TT 'theres something about the idea of sending an ask that makes me anxious' its totally ok!! theres nothing really scary! ive been anxious to send asks too but probably being anon helped me a lot fhdhj. no is still an answer, if anything. we say 'they dont beat you for asking'. go and communicate with everyone you want to. 'im allergic to dust' GOD BLESS YOU and good luck. poor babe. 'the weather is cold' 1) i understood i cant slap people. literally. i have no experience so i have no knowledge. 2) what system do you use? like centigrade or fahrenheit? and what is cold for you... 3) its pretty warm now in where i live! its -18° C so im satisfied with the weather. 4) actually, not the whole russia is cold... its just me being from siberia. its +2° rn in the city where my besties from which is in the south. hope the movie'll be interesting at least. its ok. you can write whenever you want and whenever you're comfortable. since you've closed requests, just give you some time and enjoy some time off writing. (but let me know when youre willing to hear a concept about daemon feeling guilty and having to face the surprising reality). some emotions again! ive watched some videos with hotd cast and i'm so in love with Olivia TT shes not mommy, shes mother and i love her TT i love even the actors of rhaenys and corlys (sorry babes, my memory is bad). the girl who played young alicent is also soso cool. alicent's cast is really amazing. maybe i still think theyre not as similar as young and adult rhaenyras but their acting is good. do you have a fav hotd actor (beside daemon)? ok i think ill go end up my essay and go to bed. love you!! have a nice day/evening/night/life! good luck with the assignments! take care <з

yes i very much did get your first part HAHAAH muning

i kinda feel bad for the eternal pain of this perfectly looped gif

tumblr go bonk🤠 it cant handle your love for me

'i literally opened genshin for this' ohh i feel honored. firSt of all, THE CAT TT omg what a cutie you have there. you remember ekaterina? well, my besties name is liza. just find it hilarious and kinda "mom i'm on tv!" hope youll make a stable relationship with lisa ghjdjdh.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH STABLE RELATIONSHIP HAHAHHAHA. yeah i get what you feel every time i see another hannah im like OMG NO WAY but i hope they dont make a hannah character 😔👎 idk its weird someone else has my name HAHAHAH like that song by twenty one pilots 'down in the forest' LOLOLOL

good for you. its so cute how you speak about xiangling. its great she made you feel this way. your brothers can just envy you enjoying your life and playing the way you want instead of just 'optimally' being nerds)

HD:ASHDFAFDH:AHSF SO TRUE MY BROTHERS SUCK THE FUN OUT OF THE GAME SOMETIME though i understand why they tell me this because it is frustrating to play when you have no idea what ur doing and every since i tried out some of the stuff they said, i really did see results so HAHAHH

jean seams to be gaslight gatekeep girlboss! i like it. hope you'll learn how to value her like she deserves TT

T_T #justiceforjean

'THE CAT I STOOD THER' well the kittys laying now and its even more cute TT tbh it was the first thing i noticed...

i specifically posed there to show you the kitty!!!!

'i have to keep adjusting the camera' oh so youre the cameraman now? youre doing great, sweetie.

😡❌🍅 its the camera in the GAME 👎👎👎👎👎

idk if i understand 'op' right but if i do then yelan slays. she's pretty. hope she'll do well if you plan to keep leveling her up.

im so sorry i assumed you just knew HAHAHHA OP means over powered hHAHAHHAAHHA. yes yelan slays. i do plan to level her up.......... eventuallly

'you cant talk to this cat' so cruel!!!

there are some cats you can talk to

hold on let me open the game T_T

here !! his name is prince! you can 'talk to him

noelles so tiny T_T

lol nvm i changed to the main character and i cant talk to cat because my level is not high enough to challenge him HAHHHAH anyway lol thats it

sayu is basically my mood 24/7, i could've slept forever if i had an opportunity. i'm happy you feel so much about sayu, its cute. and hope youll get klee. and youll be the mother of two children... pls dont end up like viserys...

im luv sayu for real. AND PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSS NOT YOU COMPARING ME TO VISERYS T_T NAURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR i hope i get klee too! T_T i will love her forever even if shes weak HAHAAH

AHJAJA amber TT poor girl. weak + weak = getting stronger so... idk good luck to both of you.

AHHAHHAHHAAH WEAK + WEAK = GETTING STRONGER SLAYYYYYYYY <3 LOVE THAT MENTALITY

good for musicians, in this house we love musicians. tbh i never heard of xinyan too but yor love is everything that matters. well morning is pretty! hope it didnt tire you up too much. i appreciate the efforts, though. thanks for showing me all of them!!

<3 im luv u too <3 i wasnt tired but i was a lil relucant to share em because it might be oversharing now LOL but anyway i like showing you things <3

she's Minimum viable product?.... anyway i'm glad you teamed up so well. she made her best so let zhongli work too.

T_T noelle my love T_T shes not a minimum viable product T_T IDEK WHAT THAT MEANS ok i know what it means now i guess ??? maybe she was like that for me???? T_T but thats so sad to think T_T

'hell theme is fresh' i know about dante girl TT i really want to read it but i dont have time.

i aint ever reading that its too long T_T i hope you get to reading it since you seem to want to

but i know TT im not stupid. i meant like?? its a fictional concept that doesnt exist (or its not proven). hell is such a big thing to fantasise about. its fresh in a away its still not overused and hasnt been told everything about?

I SEE good point good point

i literally study literature like.. thoroughly... now i feel so stupid TT i just wanted to see more modern images of hell TT

T_T you wanna see modern hell T_T PLS i hope you only mean in the show

'theres something about the idea of sending an ask that makes me anxious' its totally ok!! theres nothing really scary! ive been anxious to send asks too but probably being anon helped me a lot fhdhj. no is still an answer, if anything. we say 'they dont beat you for asking'. go and communicate with everyone you want to.

SOOOOOO REALLL FOR THAT LOVE THAT FOR YOU AND ME i will try to be more.... or ok less anxious about sending asks!! 😤😤😤😤😤 ill try T_T HAAAH

'im allergic to dust' GOD BLESS YOU and good luck. poor babe.

T_T every time i clean a really dusty place my body is like is this a threat CLOG THE NOSTRILS then i cant breathe T_T

'the weather is cold' 1) i understood i cant slap people. literally. i have no experience so i have no knowledge. 2) what system do you use? like centigrade or fahrenheit? and what is cold for you... 3) its pretty warm now in where i live! its -18° C so im satisfied with the weather.

let me stop you right here AHAHHAHAHHHAHAHHAHHAHHAHHAHHHAHHAHHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHH ok #1 ok i get it BUT youre going to slap me when i answer number 3 #2 i use Celsius like you!! #3 T_T HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAH its 28C here HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i would die probably if i went to you. but ok to be fair i have an electric fan open and when its night it gets colder so HAHAHAHAHHAHH

4) actually, not the whole russia is cold... its just me being from siberia. its +2° rn in the city where my besties from which is in the south.

T_T cold is relative sure but russia is all cold to ME T_T

hope the movie'll be interesting at least.

me too T_T im going to watch it after this T_T

its ok. you can write whenever you want and whenever you're comfortable. since you've closed requests, just give you some time and enjoy some time off writing. (but let me know when youre willing to hear a concept about daemon feeling guilty and having to face the surprising reality). some emotions again!

<3 <3 youre so sweet <3 so much sweeter than normal <3 im taking credit T_T JK YOUVE ALWAYS BEEN SWEET IM LUV U SO MUCH i am glad you didnt say the daemon idea cos i might wanna write it A:LSHASLFHLASFHASL:HFAS HAHHAHAAHHAAH

ive watched some videos with hotd cast and i'm so in love with Olivia TT shes not mommy, shes mother and i love her TT

i mean shes both mommy and mother T_T im luv her so much

NAH BUT THIS SCENE WAS SO INTENSE BUT THEYRE BOTH SO HOT IN IT HKASHF:LHASFAS:F

i love even the actors of rhaenys and corlys (sorry babes, my memory is bad).

I LOVE THEM TOO IVE SEEN A FEW INTERVIEWS WITH THEM and they look like theyre having so much fun <3

the girl who played young alicent is also soso cool. alicent's cast is really amazing. maybe i still think theyre not as similar as young and adult rhaenyras but their acting is good.

I LOVE HER TOO i remember stumbling on ... young alicent actress T_T EMILY emily's tiktok and she was so ?????? SO COOL ???? WOW

do you have a fav hotd actor (beside daemon)? ok i think ill go end up my essay and go to bed.

ig i like tom glynn-carney (aegon) because ???? HES SO SWEET IRL WHICH WAS SHOCKING?? i mean he's so slimy as aegon SO ITS LIKE <3 <3 ??!!!! idk hES SO PUUPPPPY AND THATS WHY I MADE AEGON A PUPPY IN THE MODERN AU and yeah i like aemond's actor ewan mitchell too!!! he's a cutie pie as well AND ??? SO GOOD AT EVERYTHING????. I MEAN I ALSO LOVE EMMA theyre so HAS:FHSA <3 BUT I MEAN I ALSO LOVE OLIVA SHES so TAL:FHASL:FSA SOOOOOO <3 yes. HAHAHAHA

love you!! have a nice day/evening/night/life! good luck with the assignments! take care <з

i love you my baby <3 i hope youre doing well with your work and life and eveything. <3

xxx

[kvetchs]

it seems all that i do here is log on & then post abt my skin issues but. i have returned. & now i will complain in the tags.

[fujoshiwarrior]

actually im going to elaborate on my tags on that last post. i think there are a menagerie of things that are seriously skewing our perception of love and sex and romance (i think most of it can be attributed to late stage capitalism making it harder to make friends and date as an adult as well as "internetification" i.e extremely insular online communities and cultures totally skewering peoples perception of real and typically normal things bleeding into real life and mainstream culture) i often see posts and such reminding people that you should be friends with your partner and i was always like...yeah? that much is obvious then i remember that there are people out there who actually jump straight into dating without ever getting to know their partner first and its just so bizarre and sad to me tbh

and i feel like a lot of this in lgbt circles have to do with how "internetified" being lgbt has become, as in how many young lgbt people can't/don't have a real life network of lgbt people to connect to so they have no choice but to go into these extremely insular online lgbt communities and get told their normal feelings are actually anything other than normal if that makes sense...like that part about that teenage lesbian asking for advice on how to deal with her physical attraction to her crush and getting told by grown women that she was being a creep for having... a normal crush? is extremely fucked and i cant imagine the damage that being told your normal feelings and attraction are sexual harassment would have

not to sound like a technophobic boomer but i feel like as the world becomes more and more online the more allergic we become to our feelings and romance. on one hand the internet is a blessing in the way of love and friendship because you can meet people you truly meld with that you would have never otherwise and several of my friends have dated online or are currently dating online and have no issues and are in love and happy with their relationship. on the other there's this like. demonization and removal of desire and human connection from our society. every feeling you have has to be sanitized and god FORBID you actually feel attraction to someone and want to be with them. in a way i feel like this is best exemplified by porn because it's just...sex with no desire or attraction or love or anything that makes sex worthwhile you know. there's no emotion. id say its almost robotic and inhuman. i saw someone talk about how there's so much sex and porn and stuff like that in society but no eroticism and i agree wholeheartedly and on the flipside there's romance but no love. any vulnerable feelings you have must be sanitized and ideally eradicated