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please stop saying that gochujang is korean chili paste and that omurice exists, i'm aware, what i am currently complaining about is that i'm trying to research the earliest recipes for teriyaki sauce/teriyaki as a method of cooking at all and then how they evolved over time into the variations that we have of it today where for most people it exists nearly entirely as a flavor of sauce rather than an actual technique. i am doing this because i am bored and can't sleep and just want to see if i can puzzle out a rough timeline of teriyaki from method-first to sauce-first. i'm also curious if i can pin down whether there's correlations to different variations of the sauce with different regions of america.
therefore, and stay with me here,
i might be really annoyed by AI-generated and plagiarized junk cooking recipe blogs coated in advertisements claiming that their dish is supposed to be an extremely traditional method of preparing teriyaki XYZ, something which would therefore need to go back centuries if it is as accurate as it's claiming,
included ketchup as a main ingredient.
every time a cooking blog tries to convince me their Authentic Traditional Japanese Chicken Dish is authentic but includes fucking ketchup bc theyre too white for gochujang or something makes me uncannily rabid.
#i will admittedly grant you that the gochujang joke probably flew over the heads bc it was a bad contextless joke.#the joke btw was that if youre gonna lie about your recipe being traditional then at least put forth a modicum of effort in seeming it#yknow? also gochujang and teriyaki both seem to have been invented in roughly the same time period#which means that it actually wouldn't be impossible for an extremely early teriyaki sauce to use gochujang in it#though i think itd be pretty unlikely. definitely not a formal ingredient bc of lack of trade during sakoku period#idk yall im the fucker that has put this stupid amount of effort into learning about the history of shoyu#lets just all pray that i don't accidentally stumble upon a miss appleton 2 for teriyaki i think i'd fucking cry#cant do it again not strong enough!!!#but yeah tldr: it is on me to be more clear about these things bc i did phrase it wrong if you aren't Literally Directly In My Brain
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ok, new apprentice pov officially confirmed!
#warrior cats spoilers#changing skies spoilers#i do suspect it will be a tom. i cant see them sticking with the all female pov cast unfortunately. women lose#if it is starlingpaw tho i hope my mean post about him isnt hit with the gift of prophecy. love his prefix. i want to like him#do noooot do 'i miss my dead dad sososo much. my grandma and/or mum and/or sister is such a bitch tho' pleaseee erins please#my overarching hope is that i dont want this protag to be a love interest for moonpaw bc that fucks up the writing structure so bad#like sure if it was a hypothetical girl moonpaw love interest id give them a pass but i am NOT losing chess to that dog LOL#i cant do the dual protag romance again im not strong enough. i dont like the way wc writes romance. it's not for me.#well like. i think it's an interesting story builder if they do it right i just dont care for the aw cute angle of it on its own
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A Blorbo You Treat Nicely, Right?
#non mdzs#ask#I've seen what people do to tumblr blorbos. I cant go back in the horse plinko again...please my bones aren't strong enough#I'm made of a gelatin like substance. Very Flammable. Terrible for plinko. Ill just bounce around and wail miserably.#You cannot fool my by putting 'horse' on the box. Yeah It made me curious and wander over here. Yeah I wanna see the horses.#Oh they're in the plinko? Oh well then-#jokes aside I am very touched to have reached silly blorbo status. I hope to keep bringing you joy!#I am simply just having fun and I'm glad people enjoy my little jester dances!#Yeah one of these asks is from June...I'm slowly eating away at the backlog....I promise....#theres so many sweet and funny asks I want to properly draw for...I promise I read them all and go -> B*)
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the bad: i have been raised without much warmth from my parents in childhood, but also pressured to conform to familial authority, doubt myself always, and value familial connections above all else (<- failed at this, and feel guilt about it.)
but also in experiencing this i have been so isolated from the entire rest of the world and others, that it will be nearly impossible to create my own "family" -> find safety and comfort in anybody else once my family is Gone. despite dis i find it really difficult to break away from the familiar, disobey and disappoint, because, well, why are my wishes more important than anybody else's. why would I cause upset and distress in anybody, and exert so much effort into my doubt filled half decisions, for my meaningless little Wishes. being away would also mean less time with these people who I'll never see again once they're gone. being raised this way is definitely paying off for those who did so.
the good: yaaaay adjacent inspiration for writing talon lore
#talkys#my dad scaring me but also giving me no advice on what to do instead only saying if i do this it will be the wrong choice leading#to more wrong choices well yep you got me i am scared. i am inept. i fear regret and punishment for wrong decisions.#i struggle to make decisions because i cant go back on them.#''ill never have savings again'' and ''you cant value friends over family they'll abandon you''#and ''living here is only a problem for you because you dont communicate. there is a way to work things out''#i wish i could work it out and stay i dont know why i cant work it out ! and what do i want#to leave so badly for... to continue to never have stable housing#never have savings again? be alone and in danger?#to be able to wear whatever i want and...buy things? really? that doesnt seem very worth it#nothing seems very worth it#im miserable here but maybe i'd be more miserable away...it is true#well at least the chances to leave are very slim. and will continue to get slimmer the more time passes.#but maybe its fine i dont want to ruin my life or be even more of a burden or reason for distress in someone else's#moving out wouldnt fix anything. wherever you go there you are.#my friend said i have to be a little selfish (positive) to push myself to leave. bt i dont want to be selfish. im ashamed of that as a trai#delete later#even now i feel immense guilt and stress when my dad does things that hurt or bother me bc i know ill miss him when he's gone.#(and ill have nobody after all of that. due to the being kept in a cage)#that sucks. why does everyone else always win. why am i always the weakest pliable one. i wish i had no emotions#my surgery is the only decision in my life ive been 100% sure on for years#and even then my parent's words had me crying and rapidly changing emotions daily until the day came#im not strong enough or sure enough about anything else to withstand More of that#<- and i know that tomorrow im gonna be like actually you know what who cares lets try to leave#and the next day ill be resigned to staying here forever#and the next day ill be like actually you know what who cares l
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such an unbelievably extreme emotional roller coaster between hearing “there will be line dancing at the event” and realizing that the person ACTUALLY said “there will be lion dancing at the event”
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what the fuck do you mean by this steel wool
#they cant be playing like this again like how they were doing with the guess the sketches#i cant do it again.... im not... strong enough..#pandas.txt#pre hw2 dlc
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girl help my old dsmp phase is coming back
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Shinjiham is cute when it’s romantic but tbh I think i vastly prefer the idea of them being best friends instead. Like, neither of them really saw it coming and weren’t really looking to get another best friend (Shinji has Akihiko, Kotone has Junpei and Yukari respectively) but it happens anyway. Kotone takes a liking to Shinji much faster than she does anyone else and I’d say a big reason is just the fact that he’s so reserved that it allows Kotone to do most of the talking while he just listens and they love this arrangement cuz Kotone doesn’t get to talk about her own interests very much. Though I think some of her needs to talk to Shinji stems from this insecurity that he isn’t happy in the group and she has this people pleasing problem and wants everyone to be happy so she makes a much bigger effort to talk to Shinji. And it’s very unfortunate because Shinji intentionally acts cold and distant because he doesn’t want to form any attachments because he wants to die soon, but aaaaaaaagh dammit this girl just keeps talking to him and being sweet and encouraging him to engage in his interests and share them with the others and he just can’t seem to say no when she’s got those damn puppy eyes. And Kotone is just able to get him out of his shell by being persistent but not in an overwhelming way, she’s very cheerful and supportive of him. And Shinji is able to offer her support by encouraging her to talk about herself and by making sure she’s taking care of herself. They just click really well and make such a positive dent in each other’s lives and it’s all about basic acts of kindness going a long way you know?
#persona#persona 3#kotone shiomi#shinjiro aragaki#i uh. probably didnt do much here to prove that their relationship is best when its platonic akjsks i mean idk how to convey it#that these two are just so good for each other but that im just not feeling it romantically#and why should i honestly like cant a guy and a girl just be platonic soulmates like me and jackie aljsks#plus i just have other ships with these characters i like better ahem akishinji and mitsuham yall already know#and i just feel really comforted by their relationship being best friends cuz it makes the pocket watch a lot more power of friendship#and it just. irks me the idea that its romantic love that saves shinji and its romantic love that gave him a will to live#cuz first off you can save him without romancing him and also like if you think kotone is the only person he wants to live for#youre just wrong like in fact its very clear in his social link that he feels this strong love for everyone#its literally like why other characters are so ingrained into his link he loves everyone and they love him back#its just kotone who organizes the time for them all to get together plus like idk when ppl say shinji only wants to live after romancing#kotone its like. well hes not gonna have a good time post coma then huh#and i suppose the point being made is he has to learn to live even if his gf isnt there but again like. shes not the only thing he has#idk i just hate this like pedestal romantic relationships are put on and i hate the implications that like#akihiko has been trying for years to protect shinji and his love doesnt matter cuz it isnt some heterosexual romance#grrrrr it just irks me is all and yeah i just think theyre besties who do everything together#kotone is like shinjis emotional support animal that guides him through the scary crowds and shinji is off putting enough to scare away the#meanies that come their way and they have a dress up montage and make cookies
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me seeing the pjo fandom talking about liper again
#i cant do it again im not strong enough#but the way my love for liper can be traced back to the very inception of this blog#pjo
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hyv: releases pink foxian male
my sleep deprives ass delulu ass: .... ERI!?!?!
#NO BECAUSE CHAT YOU SEE IT TO RIGHT.#LIKE THATS MY SON RIGHT THERE#*crumples to a ball of dust*#i cant do this anymore#please I'm not strong enough#hyv not again#I CANT GO THROUGH THIS AGAIN#I CANT DO THIS AGAIN PLEASE#hsr#hsr related#dean rambles
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Potential Thunderclan deputy candidates!
#watch it be none of these guys lmao#warrior cats#warriors#wc#thunderclan#lionblaze#ivypool#twigbranch#cinderheart#lilyheart#sparkpelt#spotfur#ivy is the obvious fandom favourite choice but im.. hesitant about it#personally my money is otherwise on twig or lily but i would like cinderheart a lot#and sparkpelt deserves something for all the bullshit writing she's put up with this arc#id like spotfur the most but she seems the least likely cause shes never had an apprentice#cant do lionblaze again... im not strong enough... (tho he could be an interesting conflict source maybe possibly idk?)#anyways! i need to redesign lion + twig again sometime bc lion just looks like pissed off brackenfur and i still dont like this twig design
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ssssoooort of tempted to start up a mineblr community discord. itd be 18+ only but no nsfw obviously
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one thing thats really fun about the current jaiden sus situation is that like... cucurucho is winning here. maybe.
jaiden is unintentionally succeeding where cellbit failed. cellbit didnt want people to trust him but most people immediately clocked he hadnt actually betrayed them. They stuck together and worked it out the whole community became stronger because of it
And jaiden is being completely honest and people arent trusting her. she’s in the perfect position to cause that fracture. They dont know her as well, she’s grieving (and grieving parents have been proven to do horrible things), and it seems like she’s just retreading the same road thats failed them so many times.
it’s all just ! people are having trouble agreeing on what to do about her. there’s something So Tasty about a narrative where the isolated causes others to isolate themselves.
i love cucurucho. its doing the same thing and expecting different results but this time its RIGHT
#qsmp#SUCH a fun story i am chewing on the narrative like a feral beagle#they have reason not to trust her#they have reason to be lenient#everyone is doing their best but maybe it wont be enough and that makes the storyteller nerd inside my heart Very happy#i hope they figure it out and canwork together again but id be lying if i said i didnt like the opportunity for some of these characters#to just start being absolutely awful#theyve gone through so much and been so strong but they cant stay strong forever#eventually they start to crack....#(and then you can fill the cracks with gold with a Delicious redemption/healing arc)
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i actually have a hard time understanding childe's character and is mostly because of other people's takes + im like so scared of mischaracterizing him
#like when ppl where saying he doesnt kill and people were calling that mischaracterisation#and then they turned around and called him a sociopath who doesnt care about others (sooo not true its painful)#its not that its a middle ground- both versions are just. not him#i think childe kills not because he's some homicidal maniac but because its his duty to the tsaritsa#and while he does not do it on text from my pov is like heavily implied? yk? her majestys weapon?? feared in battle?#but the word duty is important#i think childe wants to be good- more than anything#he wants to be a good brother and a good son and a good comrade#and being a harbinger is what has allowed him to do so#being her majesty's weapon is both a prision and liberty for him#he can take care of his family. he can find strong opponents. he can gain strength.#he cant make meaningful connections with others. he cant always do the work he wants to do. he cant (always) be the good guy#last part is the most important to me. its clear during liyue he didn't enjoy putting innocents at risk#but he does so anyway- out of duty#and here is My Interpretation: childe knows his position and knows it will force him to hurt others#which he doesnt enjoy#and to cope with that he seems to have convinced himself that if he only hurts those who are bad then it means he himself is not bad#for childe that is enough. except we know it isnt#the fatui is a deeply unethical organization- even if their goals are pure their means arent and we know that#childe thinks that separating himself from his coworkers and just trying to hurt those who he (or the fatui) deems as bad is enough#but it isnt enough ! because he still is contributing to said organization- he is by extenction enabling their unethical actions#he isnt good#and thats what i love about him#him not killing wouldnt make sense because then what is his internal struggle? why is then that the older members of his family hold +#so much contempt for him#if he were just a silly malewife who just likes to battle - why would his father have sent him to the fatui in the first place#along the same vein him enjoying killing and finding no issue with it wouldnt make sense either#because again then where is the conflict- by several voicelines is clear childe doesnt care much about himself / has a low self esteem#childe knows whats right and whats wrong and he knows that what he is and what he does isnt right#yet he still does it. out of naivety or (and i like this answer more) duty
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pleaaase may i have 28 and 29 aramour angst ✨ i crave it
28: “Move out of my way before I make you.” // 29: “You deserve better.” (prompt list here)
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#the brainrot!!! so strong. anyways. to confront the woman dating your ex when there's super high tension....#anyway!!! highschool(?) modern au where the popular girl/ queen bee is whoever resident king henry is dating.. hm..#oh the tension between someone who used to serve you. now having taken your place. and you knowing the ins and out of that position..#especially that it's not all it's cooked up to be!! lots of thoughts about this au#art-wise i drew these as storyboards before i realised i cant video format well without audio so they're just here in storyboard form#i drew these in sketchy drafts and then in sketchbook then spent 2h lining them digitally bc the scans were yikes. anyways. i lost a frame#somewhere and it was before the “you deserve better” and it was like. “take it from someone who knows#fun fact!! i showed this to multiple irl friends without dialogue as i was drawing it. neither of them know the characters but.#immediately pinpointed exes vibes. and enemies to lovers. and basically homoerotic arguing tension.#remarkably pleased at how that was conveyed (and also amused. i love my friends). anyway if i were to do this again? then i'd draw in the#frames instead of re-doing the sizing after tracing. yikes that was an experience.#anyway!! (x3) anon i hope you enjoy the aramour angst. i hope it has something. i craved it a lot as i was drawing this#six the musical#six the musical fanart#catherine of aragon#jane seymour#also the characterisation was lowkey based off how mean girl seymour is absolutely a thing in the show. some of her lines. savage.#parallels!!! in show the "oh boohoo [..] i DIED'' and attacking aragon.. the rivalry here.. aaaagh#also!! the last line is a slightly paraphrased letter from aragon to her father(?) i think. found it online while looking for how she wrot#because i wanted her to sound more queenly... you also see it in how she's unbothered and rather unimpressed throughout seymour's posturing#the confidence in herself. meanwhile jane is defensive and a bit more prone to being flustered <parallels emotion in show script>#i'm just. very proud of these drawings together. narrative can be so very nice. the last two frames are kinda like a postscript.#sometimes the brainrot really gets you!! alright have a nice day.. comms are open and the fact that no one is taking them up rn feels a bit#sobering. but it's okay! i'm not in a rush.. it's more for the experience. hm. i wonder who wrote yes in the poll though#(can you. tell my ego is a little bruised?) nvm onwards!! eventually i'll get good enough to actually sell my stuff :OOO#oh an addendum: lowkey inspired by all the bathroom girl-on-girl confrontation scenes. one off the top of my head is the one from heathers#but there's quite a lot of those tbh
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oooh blast from the past, i drew this of omalia and torelai in 2019... its wild how much my art has changed...
#old art#yew art#fantasy ocs#omalia#torelai#also sorry for no new drawings. i fainted and fell and broke my spine. so i have been laying around recovering#i cant really do Anything rn... and even if i was physically capable it turns out when you break your spine#you get prescribed very strong pain medication#so on top of physical inability to do anything. im also very Brain Weird and cant do anything haha#but god i hope i can draw again soon i have IDEAS#i want to draw my ocs SO BAD#especially omalia and torelai... i want to draw them being sweet and snuggly...#and i also have an art trade i arranged shortly before my spine decided on violence#which i want to finish SO BADDDD their ocs are so damn cool#theyre extremely patient about everything health wise tho which i appreciate so much...#theyre an amazing artist who i look up to in art style a lot so im super flattered that they like my art enough to do a trade :'}#but yeah im like completely physically incapable of doing Anything rn :( my health is in shambles#in fact right now im about to call my brother and wake him up because... my glasses and charger are on the floor#and i can not reach them.#feeling a little silly that thats a problem in my life and i cant even get my glasses by myself... but oh well#health issues will do that sort of thing. best to just try not to feel ashamed of needing help#LMAO THOUGH this is SUCH a ramble. if you read this far thank you i appreciate you#and there will be new art... Eventually... i wanna draw so damn bad...
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