#canceryousuck

[justanotherflicker]

News hitting our camp today. My cousin's mum has been fighting cancer, results back today. They say she has weeks left. I can't find the words, it's like being back to my mum's last few weeks.

[lifeofjess96]

10 long heartbreaking years since you left. So many things I wish I’d of told you and wish you’d of said. So many questions. So many what ifs. So many things I’d wish we’d shared together over the last 10 years, I know you’d be proud of how far I’ve come, you always knew there was something different about me and you got it in one. You never gave up and your strength is something I’ll always admire. I hope it’s as beautiful as you up there and you’re looking after Amy for me, I know you’ll of taken her under your wing as you did when we were kids. Rest easy Grandad, I’ll miss you always and I’ll love you forever😓💔💙 #grandad #10yearanniversary #oldphotos #childhoodmemories #canceryousuck #resteasy #iloveyoualways ♥️ https://www.instagram.com/p/B26GZDehgBz/?igshid=qzxagm13cke2

[octstephers424]

3rd day of IV fluids. Starting to feel the effects of these 3 days and it feels great!! The dehydration leg cramping is gone...gone...gone! I slept so good last night for the first time in probably 8 months! I am starting next week with regular IV fluid days on every Monday and Thursday. It's extremely difficult to stay hydrated with an ileostomy. No matter how many fluids I consume it is never enough. That is just one of the drawbacks to having an #ostomy #stage2colorectalcancer #nocolonstillrolling #stomalife #faplife #noonefightsalone #endallcancers #cancerfighter #cancersurvivor #cancerwarrior #barbiebuttprincess #ostomateforlife #byebyeremission #ostomylife #ostomylifenotfortheweak #keepsmiling #keepfighting #stillkickingcancersassmiling #fuckcancer #canceryousuck #kickedcanceronceicandoitagain (at Southern Oncology Specialists PLLC-Charlotte) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2FJ3kMHUiI/?igshid=17vqypncm8crz

[creativedesignsboutique-blog]

Chemo #6 God has had me all this time . Amen 🙏🏻 sometimes we NEED to give it ALL to him. We ARE all his children 🌹💕 They say I would die “doctors” I SAY NO ! You not NOT my God ! He wants me home when he needs me . For now I am ALL his forever 🌹🙏🏻🙏🏻💗💗💗💗💗❤️❤️❤️ #kickingcancers #canceryousuck #fAith (at Creative Designs Boutique)

[archangelakira]

   It’s odd that after sixteen years my heart still knows when to twist itself into countless knots.  September 14, 2000 seems like a lifetime ago.  In some ways it actually was a lifetime ago.  So much has changed since then.  Despite that I’ve found myself in a rare mood recently and could not place it.  I guess some things are a constant no matter how many lifetimes pass by.  At first I thought that I was just experiencing a case of loneliness as it’s been a while since I’ve had some time to myself.  I’ve been distracting myself a lot lately; trying to remain active and occupied, and now that I look back I can see that it was just a defense mechanism.

   There it was, painfully clear on the calendar hanging from my bulletin board.  Bold letters right under that MX photo… S-E-P-T-E-M-B-E-R.  Well shit.  Instantly, I began to berate myself.  “How could you not realize?!"  "Of course you feel awful!"  "Did you really forget?”

   Truth is… you never forget.  Your mind, body, heart and soul will not allow you to forget.  Fifteen years ago that loss was a sharp, stabbing pain.  The debilitating kind that renders you completely helpless at times.  Raw emotion just surging uncontrollably from a fresh wound.  Sometimes you can stitch it closed enough that it’s not the first thing on your mind when you wake up in the morning.  It’s still there though.  That ugly, crude, tender bit of flesh that you just know will leave a repulsive scar.  Fast forward a few years and you get to the point that it’s less hideous and fresh.  There is a chance that you may go a few days without remembering that pain.  The scar is there, but sometimes it goes unnoticed. A few years after that and you’ve almost got that broken shard of your soul under control.  It’s no longer that heart-wrenching, incapacitating, agonizing sorrow that it used to be.  Now it’s become a dull ache.  The anguish is still there but it’s a faded sort of grief that’s much easier to manage.  But you will never forget.

No, it will never go away.  But honestly, I don’t want it to.  If, every once in a while, those stitches rip open and that rawness becomes new and real again… I can deal with that.  It lets me know that I haven’t forgotten her.  That she’s always going to be with me.  And if my memory of her is threatened by the years that go by I want that wound to open back up and scream, “Hey!  Look, you can’t forget!”

Margaret Lomax

August 21, 1958  ~  September 14, 2000

[justanotherflicker]

Cancer really does suck. News of it taking or trying to take family members.

Strength to me and strength to all of you out there!

[octstephers424]

Yes it does! #canceryousuck #cancerfighter #cancersurvivor #cancerwarrior #stage2colorectalcancer #stomalife #faplife #nocolonstillrolling #noonefightsalone #nccancerfighter #staystrong #staypositive #fightthegoodfight #warriorstrong #imafighter💪 #stillkickingcancersasssmiling #nevergiveup #neversurrender #ostomatewarrior #hollisterostomybags #ostomate #ostomylife #ostomysisters (at South Historic Concord, Township 12 Concord) https://www.instagram.com/p/B10yVLRHQCK/?igshid=x92g4jeqde92

[octstephers424]

Not a good day my #cancerwarrior friends. Saturday night I started feeling bad & then the vomiting started. #canceryousuck #stage2colorectalcancer #METStoadrenalgland. #byebyeremission #stomalife #faplife #thistoshallpass #stillkickingcancersbuttsmiling #noonefightsalone #nocolonstillrolling #barbiebuttprincess #hollisterostomybags #ostomylifenotfortheweak #ostomysisters #ostomateforlife #kickingcancersassonesmileatatime (at South Historic Concord, Township 12 Concord) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1lxf8wnaEv/?igshid=4abqrbpu5r3m

[octstephers424]

Monday & Tuesday were great days for me with low pain 6/7. Wednesday afternoon pain exploded upwards of 8/9. Today I'm stuck between my bed & lazyboy chair not wanting to move fearing I will anger the pain monster. #canceryousuck #chemosucks #chronicpainsucks #chronicallyill #chronicallytired #chronicallybadasscancerfighter #cancerpickedthewrongbitchtomesswith #noonefightsalone #nocolonstillrolling #stomalife #faplife #ostomylifenotfortheweak #ostomateforlife #hollisterostomybags #stage2colorectalcancer #byebyeremission #nevergiveup #n #keepfighting #keepsmiling #endallcancers. #scanxiety #scanxietyisreal #MRI (at South Historic Concord, Township 12 Concord) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1effpOHDDk/?igshid=1ajf1ngal3vm3

[octstephers424]

Had lunch today with my beautiful sweet mom @ East Coast Wings. Today was a great day! Take that #canceryousuck Mom, you are my rock and I am beyond blessed to have you in my life. My mom has been by my side every step of my cancer journey. My #stage2colorectalcancer journey started on August 16, 2017 during my #flexsigmoidoscopy #Endoscopy by my now retired GI Dr. Dalton. Surgery was a few months later on Nov 9, 2017. During my 12 hour surgery that should have been 5 hours my artery was cut. I needed 5 transfusions during surgery & another 4 during my weeks medical induced coma. I spent 2 months in hospital. Talk about a rough road. I developed a massive infection needing a wound vac for 4 months. Each change felt as if duck tape was being ripped off my stomach & bottom. I screamed, cried & begged for them to stop. All the while mom held my hand, wiped my tears away & murmured comforting words in my ear. My pain continued as I went through 8 months of chemo & crying & being for it to stop. Mom was right there beside me saying #thistoshallpass & she was right. Now #byebyeremission as my #colorectalcancer METS to my adrenal gland. Mom my ever present angel said #yougotthis #noonefightsalone #eveninthedarknessthereislight #withGodallthingsarepossible #eachdayisablessing Whatever these next few weeks hold for me I will continue to #keepfighting & I will #neversurrender #nevergiveup I am hoping for the best & prepared for the worse case senario. A senario I thought was long since buried. God only gives us what He thinks we can handle. At times I have felt this is the straw that will break my back. That I will crack & no amount of love, kindness & support will put me back together. As I type this mom's saying echoes in my heart, #thistoshallpass #loveyoumyrockstardaughter #youareblessed Thank you mom for everything! Thank you for your love, guidance, kindness, patience, understanding & friendship.❤💙💜💚💛 #mymomisawesome #blessedwithmymom #greatestmomintheworld #yourockmom #youareamazing #youarebeautiful (at East Coast Wings + Grill) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1Xfg6RH-ad/?igshid=5ttpf8087o7

[octstephers424]

I finally received my new t-shirt today. It's been a pretty rough few days. My pain has been through the roof. This made my day! I'm no longer in remission as the cancer has spread to the only adrenal gland I have. My right kidney & adrenal were removed due to being nonfunctional & poisoning my body as a teenager.My Endoscopy is set for the 29th with Dr. Chicawalla. He knows all about #faplife. MRI is set for the 30th. I'm hoping for the best & prepared for the worst. After these 2 tests I will be seeing the Oncology Surgeon, Dr. Hill & my Oncologist Dr. Mitchell. I'm incredibly blessed to have these amazing doctors in my corner. #canceryouareabitch #canceryousuck #cancerpickedthewrongbitchtomesswith #stage2colorectalcancer #softtissuesarcoma #stomalife #faplife #ostomylifenotfortheweak #ostomateforlife #cancerfighter #cancersurvivor #cancerwarrior #fightthegoodfight #eachdayisablessing #withGodallthingsarepossible #eveninthedarknessthereislight #keepsmiling #keepfighting #nevergiveup #neversurrender #noonefightsalone #togetherwecandothis #endallcancers #pleasefindacureforcancer #wegotthis #cancerpatientsunite #💙💙💙💙💙💙 (at South Historic Concord, Township 12 Concord) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1STckDHdqQ/?igshid=cw9y22ab4f7i

[octstephers424]

I swear I did my hair this morning. At my oncologist office waiting to be called back. CT Scan reveal time. Hoping for the best & prepared for the worst. #canceryousuck #cancerfighter #cancersurvivor #cancerwarrior #stage2colorectalcancer #faplife #stomalife #ostomylifenotfortheweak #fightthegoodfight #eachdayisablessing #withGodallthingsarepossible #eveninthedarknessthereislight #nevergiveup #neversurrender #keepsmiling #keepfighting #togetherwecandothis #noonefightsalone #kickedcancersbuttsmiling #stillkickingcancersbuttsmiling #softtissuesarcoma #chronicallyill #chronicallytired #chronicallybadass #chronicpainsucks #chemosucks #cancersucks #cancersabitch !scanxiety #scanxietyisreal (at Southern Oncology Specialists PLLC-Charlotte) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1G-ZnkHFGI/?igshid=x2i55mcf2nwo

[creativedesignsboutique-blog]

Please share 🌹 This is a benefit for “Crazy Daisy Martinez “ aka married name Daisy Ybarra. Sandy Dolan Hobson will be doing a plunder benefit for Daisy December 15th at Creative Designs Boutique Lots of Goodies 💕JEWELRY 💕 💕 these funds will help Daisy Martinez for Her cancer trip next month in Atlanta Georgia. Please show your support. She NEEDS ALL the help . She already went to MD Anderson and no hope. 🙏🏻 She won’t give up ! 🙏🏻 💕2021 Knickerbocker Road 💕325-223-8000 💕 starts at 11am till 6pm. 🙏🏻God bless you all 🙏🏻 We also have another benefit going on Bargain Cave it’s not going as good 😞 this benefit is till December 17th . 💪🏻Come on RISE up and give even $1💪🏻 💕We All will need a helping hand someday . #supportcrazydaisy her right to #fight for her #life💕 #ihatecancer #canceryousuck (at Creative Designs Boutique) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrZaBrHhTCw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1h55ecd8xpfa

[creativedesignsboutique-blog]

Thank you these are so so so beautiful 🌹🌹🌹 God bless you always 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 Christa Robison Howard May you know this is so heart warming 🌹🌹🌹 love Love Love 💕💕🌸🌸🎀🎀🎀🌺🌺🌺 🌹The love 💕 shows miles away 🌹 I will #beatstafe4cancer #iwillgetthere #godismyrock #sanangelotexas #iloveyou #canceryousuck #cancersucks (at Creative Designs Boutique)