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[satubby]

Yandere God Gojo headconons

[As promised, a bit late I know, but I needed my time to not cry for Satoru so an apology. So since I'm not good at describing powers and let's add to that Jujutsu Kaisen has mathematics, which I hate... I just won't go into his god-like powers]

This post comes from the previous idea, you can find it in my profile. Credits to the artist and me for the edition.

⚠️ Warning: This is MY interpretation of the character but it does not define the canon, I want to show my love for him (Fuck Gege for all I care) There may also be pronoun errors because damn my dyslexia affects my eyesight.

On an ordinary night, your mother sent you to the mini supermarket, a place similar to convenience stores like pharmacies. 「More common in my native Mexico, such as an Oxxo.」

Unexpectedly, a curse/demon began to haunt you. Without knowing how, you ended up cornered in an alley, the rain adding a touch of desperation to the atmosphere. Exhausted, you tripped over a trash can, lacerating your leg in the fall.

The unimaginable happened when your blood, the fruit of the scrape, awakened a god enclosed within a bucket, multiple eyes arranged in a dice-like pattern 「Yeah, I fucking used 'It' you thought」. Your blood acted as a call for the imprisoned being lying in there.

Satoru, the god that lay dormant, awoke. Upon realizing your situation, he offered to help you, but not before uttering the words that would seal your fate: "Tell me, mortal, do you accept that I save you by giving me something precious? Yes or no, the choice is yours."

Given your young age of six and the impossibility of facing the dreadful monster that pursued you, you had no choice but to accept. How could you refuse? Hell, you were a brat who could barely carry your mother's bag of errands, much less fight that dreadful thing that wanted you dead.

And so the deal between you and the unknown god was sealed with…. a tongue kiss. 「Despite its polemical nature, it is crucial to the development of the plot」.

❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ Satoru, in his divine form, is an extraordinarily powerful being. Sometimes, his impressive abilities can lead you into complicated situations, such as when a simple sneeze from him transported you to another dimension. Such is his level of power. 「In this version, we will represent him as an invincible individual to explore his unrestricted potential…. P.S. I hate you Gege」 ❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ Gojo is often playful and teasing, he often jokes with you, even going so far as to claim that you are his "wife" although it sounds like a joke, he really means it. His attitude toward other people's opinions is indifferent. He enjoys showing affection, kissing and caressing you, although he has waited for you to reach adulthood before formally considering you his mate in public. ❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ When he is not using his 'real' form, we see him as the canonical Satoru, though obviously with Lovecraftian touches to his powers. Despite his divine nature, he exhibits a somewhat childish side, similar to what he shows in canon… BUT 100% times worse, as he has been alone and being powerful, he doesn't have much morals as he considers it stupid to abide by the rules of 'lesser beings'. Despite his playful and relaxed attitude, he hides a dark side. He is aware of how capable he is of destroying a city with a single finger, if he so desires. ❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ Handling his jealousy is not his strong point, given that he has always gotten what he wanted and not knowing how to deal with humans despite having spent millennia observing them or making deals before being 'sealed' 「More like sleeping」It always makes it difficult for him to respond to his own emotions. ❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ Since he is not human and was born in the void of nothingness and everything, he has wandered and fought in various places, often just for fun or out of sheer boredom. His reactions can be fickle and capricious. This Satoru is a mixture of his adolescent and adult stages, mostly acting like a spoiled brat and playful with you but when he is jealous or sentimental, he acts according to his divine position. ❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ When he feels jealous, his reaction is unpredictable. If the reason for his jealousy persists 「Examples are like a male human talking to you」 And already for that reason he might decide to eliminate the source of his discomfort. For this reason, you hardly interact with other people. It is intriguing how loving words and gestures can appease him…. Although sometimes that doesn't assure you that those poor souls who crossed words with you will be saved from him. ❀.°• ─ ─ ─ ─➢ As a divine being, he has the power to materialize anything you desire. His gifts have no limits, and he takes you wherever you want. Sometimes, on a mere whim, he grabs you and takes you on unexpected rides using his abilities. It is curious how he shows jealousy towards any thinking human being, and even animals, taking you back home without allowing the date to continue or any activity prior to his jealousy.

"Toru… for once, let me enjoy this vacation. If you take me somewhere, make it really worthwhile. I couldn't even ride the roller coaster just because the ticket booth clerk was a man…" You looked at him as he pretended not to have pulled you out of the amusement park just 5 minutes ago due to his jealousy.

"Come on, couldn't we go another time…? It's no big deal, you know I can take you anytime, why don't we cuddle instead of fighting, would you like me to shower you with kisses, mmh? Come on, my sweet bean mochi!!! I want to…" You looked at him, almost incredulous. You really doubt he'll let you go to a crowded amusement park. If you go, it will surely be when he's off duty or with a snap of his fingers, it's not for nothing that he can stop time.

"Even if you do that, it doesn't mean I'm no longer upset with you." You watched her pouting expression. Despite having six beautiful eyes and six arms, you didn't want to fall for his game.

Gojo was unwilling to listen to your complaints. He was in a bad mood, convinced that you would understand his position. He acted like a child seeking to get your attention to deflect your anger. And so, he devised a plan. He moved closer to you by climbing up on the edge of the bed. "Mochi, do you prefer something sweet or sour?"

"Do you think that's an appropriate question to change the subject? I'm still annoyed with you. Hey, let go of me!" You felt his firm embrace, laughing as he kissed your neck and his chest pressed against your back.

He took a lock of your hair behind your ear and fiddled with it in his mouth. A shiver ran through your body as his lips brushed your earlobe. "Why are you playing hard to get when you know I know you well? Besides, I know my jealousy doesn't affect you, and I'm going to make sure you're only mine." He laughed softly, pulling you closer to him.

"Satoru… That doesn't justify you threatening anyone who looks at me. I don't want to be embarrassed like the other day in the cafeteria, when you tried to hurt the cashier just because I ordered a cappuccino." You whispered as his six arms held you tighter and in different places, listening to his childish whimper as he buried his face in the back of your neck.

His behavior was becoming more aggressive and lustful, making him dangerous. He held you in such a way that you could not move. He looked at you with playful eyes, sketching a smile.

"So what if I'm jealous? If I'm honest with you, if another guy tried to get your attention, I'd be sure to eliminate any interest he showed." A smirk formed on his face. You knew that ugly smile well, a cruel and possessive one, dealing with his jealousy sometimes exhausted you … you had no choice since your soul was bound to him.

He kissed you passionately and caressed your body, his touch was too pleasurable to resist, your flushed but annoyed face said it all. He didn't mind at all acting that way in public if it meant you would still be his. "You will always be my only princess….. I love you, my precious mochi," he whispered softly before delivering another intense kiss, this time on your lips, his arms frolicking with you and bringing an even more severe blush to your face.

NSFW:

••┈┈┈••✦ This Satoru loves to make you scream, if Sukuna in his original form can grind you to exhaustion, our albino won't let you rest. ••┈┈┈••✦ He loves having you in front of his cock, the worst thing is that he can create more if he wants to. Let's add that he has six arms, each one can overstimulate you, forget to mention that Gojo is 213 cm / 7'1 feet, you are a midget next to him. So his cock and fingers are the size of your arms, but he can fucking manipulate reality and adjust your pussy to his size. ••┈┈┈••✦ He loves you riding his cock while he hears you moaning, sometimes you end up kissing him. He loves you sucking him while he pulls your hair. His hands usually go from your breasts to your waist [Sorry I'm not good at writing NSFW] All while you swallow his cock, his fingers have claws and putting them all the way in hurts but in the pleasure you end up giving priority to your lust, forgetting the pain. ••┈┈┈••✦ Honestly, Satoru can make your body not get tired so easily, but he is not cruel so he can set limits for you. He especially loves to bite, while you scratch him all over the place. ••┈┈┈••✦ His aftercare is incredibly gentle, he kisses and lulls you as if you were a baby, and how could he not? When he leaves you all exhausted down there and you can't feel your legs. Sometimes he gets to the point where his excitement clouds his judgement, ending up with your bones broken.

In general, having a relationship with him is like going on a roller coaster ride: You can feel a rush of various emotions and in turn want more of it even though you know it's scary to a certain extent. Just avoid making Satoru jealous and everything will be fine [What won't be fine are your mouth, your ass and pussy]

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[wellpresseddaisy]

The Head of House Therapy Circle and Needlework Club

Severus slipped into the staff room after dinner. He clutched his work bag in cold hands—would he be welcome? He’d refused the invitation for years, preferring to spend the evening with Charity or with his Slytherins. He should make an effort to integrate with the other house heads, he supposed.

But…

Steeling himself, he crossed the room to the circle of chairs around the fire. No matter how strange it felt walking into the Senior Staff Lounge, he had as much a right to be there as anyone else.

“Oh, Severus, you joined us!” Pomona exclaimed, setting down her embroidery and bustling to him. “Come, come and sit. We have a place right be the fire for you—those dungeons are so perishingly cold these days. And Minerva even braved…er, what was it again?”

“Tesco.” McGonagall replied so drily that Severus had to bite his lip.

“Oh yes, such names they have in the non-magical world. Well, she brought several packets of the most interesting biscuits and we have some lovely hot tea. Filius was just telling us about some horrendous editor he’s been forced to work with on his latest monograph.” Pomona prattled him to a comfortable chair.

McGonagall, who sat just across from him, gave him an incredibly droll look from behind Pomona at the ‘most interesting biscuits’ remark. He forgot, sometimes, that she’d lived in the non-magical world. He never wanted to be the sort who forgot where he came from.

He let their conversation wash over him as he sorted out his projects. Da’s would be easy—he could do that kind of cable work in his sleep. Likewise the scarf Da asked him to make for his mate Tom. He’d been a good friend to the family since they met so many years ago. Severus pulled that one out, thick and warm as anything in burgundy wool. It wasn’t a difficult pattern as knitting went.

Nan’s Christmas jumper would have to wait until he returned to his rooms. He’d finally found a pattern for a copy of that ‘I’m a luxury few can afford’ jumper that Nan loved so much on Princess Diana.

“Editors,” Pomona picked up the conversation as if it hadn’t been interrupted. “Are perfect ghouls. Did I tell you about the one that wanted the entire section on the propagation of the Bounding Spike Shrub gone? Said it would only encourage people to try. They should try. The bloody thing is about to disappear from our moors.”

“Er, yes, Pomona. I believe we heard about it at the time,” Filius replied gently. “Mine feels that an entire monograph on Cheering Charms is too limited in scope. They simply won’t understand that that’s the whole point. No one has done work just on Cheering Charms in nearly two hundred years! We’re woefully out of date.”

“Are these freelance editors or with particular houses?” Severus ventured, never looking up from his stitching.

“Mine’s a submissions editor with Draycott House. A shame, really, as they’re so well-regarded in academic publishing and Oxford and Cambridge won’t touch a ‘schoolteacher’s manuscript’,” Filius sighed over the last.

“I was with Halston’s. They do the Herbology journals,” Pomona added.

“Have we ever looked at setting up a publishing house out of Hogwarts?” he asked hesitantly.

“A…Severus, that’s a brilliant idea!” Filius nearly jabbed himself with a tapestry needle.

“It would be doable, I suppose.” McGonagall spoke slowly. “If we work with freelance editors and go about it carefully.”

“There are quite a few researchers I know who haven’t the full credentials who are doing really interesting work. And it might be a good way to introduce that sort of academic work to our NEWT students. A student journal would be just the thing!” Pomona set her embroidery down carefully.

“I thought…” Severus trailed off when he realized everyone had stopped to look at him.

“Yes?” McGonagall prompted.

“It’s something I’ve been thinking about for a while now. We could even publish our own teaching materials. I know most of us set a text and use it mostly as reference.”

“That has long been my own experience,” McGonagall agreed. “The Transfiguration books on the market are useful guides, but they haven’t been updated or weren’t really meant as textbooks. Foundational learning as scattered notes from lectures is not the same as an authoritative text one can reference.”

“It would be lovely to have properly illustrated texts for Herbology. Filius, would you be able to see how much a binding press might cost? I saw one of them at work on holiday last year. We needn’t get a very large one yet. Freelance editing is really quite affordable.” Pomona produced a notebook and scribbled something down. “One of my former Hufflepuffs runs a paper mill. I’ve made a note to inquire about appropriate paper and potential costs.”

Severus stared at the ruthless efficiency of Pomona Sprout.

“I’ll write for a catalog,” Filius promised. “I think I know of a manufacturer. A Ravenclaw with a real passion for mechanical things.”

McGonagall caught Severus’ eye and smiled thinly.

“You get used to them,” she promised, sotto voce. “Organizing everything is how they have fun. Biscuit? I got the chocolate caramel digestives and Hob Nobs.”

Severus took a Hob Nob, still feeling a bit unsettled at how quickly that went.

“Now, we’re all dying to know what Mayhew is after with those pamphlets he’s spreading everywhere.”

Severus pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed. “He’s trying to bring back the Protectorate and Puritan rule. It has caused no end of disruption in the SCR since he refuses to room with ‘filthy papists’ and ‘heathens’. I’ve had to give him his own room lest he comes to a sticky end. He’s managed to alienate every other student in the House.”

The other three stared at him.

“And here I thought my Ravenclaws’ experiments were difficult to handle!” Filius chuckled.

“At least he has a purpose in life,” McGonagall laughed. “Have another biscuit, Severus. I think you need them more than we do.”

McGonagall, Severus thought, wasn’t so terrible when you were her colleague. He took another biscuit.

“This is why we shouldn’t go about naming children Redemption-in-His-Name. What on earth is the matter with John or Charles or Vikram or something normal?” Pomona shook her head and took up her embroidery again. “You’ll have to keep us updated on his progress.”

“I…er, yes,” Severus answered.

“Who has a galleon on Moore—the Ravenclaw one in fifth year—making it to the end of the year without having a breakdown and who has a galleon on a breakdown?” Pomona asked cheerfully.

Severus looked to his knitting and willed his heart to stop pounding so. He’d done it. He’d had an actually pleasant conversation with the other house heads and no one disagreed with him or behaved rudely.

Perhaps he really could make a place for himself here.

[divinemissem13]

Tag Game: First 10 Lines Challenge

Rules: Share the first line of your last ten published works or as many as you are able to and see if there are any patterns!

Thank you so much for tagging me, @curator-on-ao3! I currently have 5 unrevealed challenge works and I considered waiting, but let's be honest, I will forget by the time the author reveals happen in another week. So, I guess, watch this space if you're curious about any of those! For now, here are my last 10 works that are actually viewable!

Flirtin' With Disaster (The Closer: Brenda/ Sharon, 12 chapters, M)

Things with Fritz end just about as smoothly as they can, but it’s still hard. He threatens to start drinking again if Brenda leaves him, and she reminds him (as well as herself) that it’s not her responsibility to keep him sober.

2. Not Today (The Closer: Brenda/ Sharon, 250 words, T)

Brenda lightly kisses Sharon's fingertips one by one until the brunette stirs enough for Brenda to slide out of her arms. Sharon knows what she's doing. She wants to hold on tighter, but instead she feigns sleep and lets go.

3. Jankom Pog CanNOT Fix It (Star Trek Prodigy: Dal R'El & Jankom Pog, one-shot, G)

"Jankom! Have you seen this?" Dal exclaimed, crashing through the door of their shared quarters so loudly that Jankom nearly fell out of his chair.

4. When the Rain Washes You Clean You'll Know (ST Voyager: Janeway/Chakotay, one-shot, G)

The blankets on her bed were flimsy protection at best, but still Kathryn huddled beneath them as the rain pounded the side of the building, thunder and lighting crashing and flashing in quick succession.

5. I Could Drink a Case of You (ST Voyager/TNG: Beverly Crusher/ Kathryn Janeway, one-shot, T)

Kathryn steps onto the holodeck and into a program she has never seen before. The air is damp with morning dew, the landscape lush and green, and there’s a small house with a garden, stuffed to the brim with flowers and herbs she doesn’t recognize. She’s never seen it before, but she knows immediately where she is. Not that it matters; she’s here for a person, not a program.

6. Beautiful Disaster (The Closer: Brenda/ Sharon, 3 chapters, T)

No police officer ever wants to fire their weapon. No good police officer, anyway. And Deputy Chief Brenda Leigh Johnson, despite a myriad of other failings, is a good police officer.

7. Work/Life Balance (The Closer: Brenda/ Sharon, one-shot but fun fact: I'm currently working on several new chapters!, T)

It’s not unheard of for one or both of them to catch a case in the middle of the night, and so far, it hasn’t ever been for the same case.

8. What You're Willing To Overlook (The Closer: Brenda/ Sharon, fluff-spring drabble series, T)

“I find that good relationships sometimes depend... on what you're willing to overlook.” Sharon said softly, her hand on Brenda’s arm. Brenda’s arm tingled where Sharon’s hand made contact and suddenly, right there in the bullpen, surrounded by her team, their eyes met and a realization hit Brenda like a lightning bolt.

9. Time Stands Still (Doctor Who: Fourteen & Donna Noble, fluff-spring drabble series, G)

The TARDIS fit perfectly in the Noble-Temple back yard. It complimented the style of Rose’s shed - or maybe it was the other way around - and no one ever asked questions when it just showed up there one day and stayed.

10. Not So Secret Admirer (The Closer: Brenda/ Sharon, one-shot, G)

“You and Agent Howard patching things up, Chief?” Flynn asked, knocking on the door frame as he let himself in to Brenda’s office. “Now what would give you that idea, Lieutenant?” Brenda asked without looking up from her paperwork. “Well, someone out there must be trying to impress you,” he chuckled. “Special delivery,” he added, placing the vase of roses on her desk, right on top of the paperwork where they couldn’t be ignored.

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[buggyboba]

⁺˚☽ Ꭺᏼꮻꮜꭲ ꮇꭼ⁺˚☾⁺

You know I realized I never did a full-blown about me that I can use as a pinned post and sort of hub for everything. I’m not very good at them, but we’ll make do. Also, I want everyone to congratulate me on being the dumbest bitch in the room, I finally figured out the 'small' text stuff....jfc.

Hello! I’m Buggy, She/They, disaster, well over 18, Jurassic even. I have two cats (Ezio & Ringo) and a pitbull (Cassie). 

Um, my primary fandom currently is Doctor Who, but I had been a roleplayer for too long across many fandoms (DC, Marvel, Sherlock, Supernatural, Harry Potter). I don’t roleplay anymore; I have focused on writing fanfiction instead, roleplaying with myself as you do. I do a few different things to keep myself busy; besides writing, I stream occasionally on Twitch. I am not a professional, but I have fun. I mainly yell and die in the game, but sometimes I’m really funny. 

As for writing, I am fairly new to the fanfiction game. I’ve only done it a few months; I started being actually active in April! I started as a Missy x Reader blog, and I like to think I have expanded more, being more comfortable in writing for The Master (Simm & starting to get a feel for Dhawan) in general, as well as adding a few more characters. Speaking of which, I am going to break down the characters I am comfortable writing; I have even thought about opening up to start writing for a few more fandoms. A pattern will become clear; Idk what it says about me. 

DOCTOR WHO|

Missy/The Master 9th Doctor/10th Doctor/12th Doctor/14th Doctor Kate Lethbridge-Stewart DC|

Jack Napier/The Joker (Dark Knight)  Jonathan Crane/The Scarecrow (Dark Knight, ArkhamVerse) 

HARRY POTTER| Bellatrix Lestrange Tom Riddle Draco Malfoy (*of age)

The pattern is that I primarily write the ‘villains'...oopsie daisy. 

ANYWAY, Requests are open; if you send one in, please tell me if you want sfw/nsfw. It might take me some time since I am drowning in kinktober, but I do try to do requests first, cause I love you all. Come 'ere, let me kiss your foreheads.

But that is me in a nutshell; in the beginning, I didn’t know what was proper etiquette for interacting, so just I didn't, and that was my fault. I am getting better, I am just a little socially anxious bug, but I want to thank each and every one of you, to everyone who reads my works and likes/leaves kudos, comments, and reblogs; you all mean the world. Just know I get very happy about any interaction! And to everyone who follows me, welcome to Jackass baby! We have no clue what we are doing here, but it’s chaotic and wild. 

Under the read more will be the master list/tag list stuff.

MASTERLIST

Ao3 <—where you can find the fics all together.

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DOCTOR WHO |

★Kinktober 2024★* [ x ]

Series | 

★ Missy x reader ★

Surrender Your Mind 

Part One Part Two Part three*

↳ ○ You have had the worst kind of day, and it is only going to get worse when you get swept up in the life of one renegade time lady, taking on the part of an unwilling companion to find out why you are being targeted by assassins, if the target is her.

Drabbles | 

This Will Be The Day [x] ↳ ○ Reader wants a romantic date, Missy has an idea to spice it up. She was a seasoned swordsman, but you were not, you couldn’t win fair and square so you did what you had to, distraction and cheating.

 Me And The Devil [x] * {Vampire!Missy x Female Reader} ↳ ○A game of cat and mouse, leads to feeding your vampire alien and more. 

Within Your Heart I'll Place The Moon [x] ↳ ○Missy takes you to a masquerade ball, and well it feels very final.

Kiss My Eyes and Lay Me To Sleep [ x ] ↳ ○| Anon asked | I would like to please request a Missy x reader (I'm not sure if you have seen the Agent Carter show but if you haven't I'll let you know why I asked. One of the gadgets that Peggy has is a lipstick, which when she kisses someone that person falls asleep.) Where the reader has been separated from the Doctor and comes across Missy but doesn't know who she is and so when the time comes for Missy to escape she wants to take the reader with her so she uses that same idea with the lipstick to make the reader sleep so they can capture the reader and leave their real identity as a surprise.

So this is in which Missy kidnaps the reader using a sleeping toxin.

Imagines |

Imagine watching a horror movie with missy [ x ]

★ Dhawan!Master x reader ★

Drabbles |  Lazy Day [ x ] ↳ ○ Anonymous asked: hi love, i saw you said your requests were open and id like to ask if you could write something about dhawan!master, where he and the reader are married and he fusses over her lots and makes sure she has everything she needs and all that fluff. Abandon Thought and Let the Dream Decend [ x ] ↳ ○ Anon asked | I was wondering if I could please request a Dhawan!Master x reader (or you can choose another master instead if you want.) The reader is at a Halloween party dressed as Christine Daaé (from Phantom of the Opera.) The reader sees someone dressed as the Phantom and is almost compelled to follow the person and the reader ends up alone in a locked room with this person and a mirror but by the time the reader works out that it's the master it's too late and the reader is already hypnotized/captured.

★ Simm!Master x reader ★

Drabbles | 

His [ x ] ↳ ○ Anonymous asked: spare some simm!master x transmasc reader perhaps???

Taglists|

Surrender your Mind [x]

General Missy x reader [x] Kinktober 2024 [ x ]

[chimera-shifts]

idk who u are i just found you so tell me about ur drs

omg idk where to even begin with this. writing this has made me realize how little i think about like. SEVERAL drs these days.

First that comes to mind is my MLB DR. its kind of like my “main” one. most developed.

been thinking about it a lot these days on account of my siblings also being obsessed with the show. i have my sights set on this one for the foreseeable future

Main differences are just fixed plot and characterization. I like the concepts but they weren't well executed in the show. (Lila as a concept vs Lila in the show is my roman empire. zero diff) The plot holes and retcons were ATROCIOUS (imo) so I corrected some of those too. Also everyone is the correct age for being in the 10th grade?? what was up with that?? 13??? are you fr??

In that DR I'm an international transfer student from Québec (so I already know some French and wouldn't have to study too hard- SMARTEST thing I will ever script. trust me on this.) and I live with a host family. Flame me all u want but it's the Rossi family. Added bonus of her mom never being home and Lila living a double life so it's nice and quiet.

I've taken up the mantle as the evolution miraculous holder instead of Alix since OBVIOUSLY i want in on the action. Plus I am already familiar with timeline management and the likes so i get to keep doing what I'm good at. PLUSSS Alix wont have to disappear into the depths of time which is good for her (she is so awesome 🫶 and she did NOT deserve that just to patch a plot hole.) also me n her are homies because she’s awesome. but also im friends with like half the class anyways

also hellooo??? RGB trio colours?? its perfect

Also- a classic- MCU DR. are you seeing a pattern here?? superheros man.

which funnily enough i don’t remember following the classic hero archetype?? its a REALLY old script and also back when i had memory issues so like from what i can recall i was kind of like. a secret agent/super spy kind of trope during the agent carter series thing?? and through time shenanigans i made it into the modern age (time shenanigans is something you will notice a lot.)

the script definitely needs some. reworking. and honestly now that ive mentioned it i kinda wanna get on that. this was my favourite dr and like yeah man i see why. im probably gonna hunt for script templates and backstory ideas now…

also really random but on a similar topic to the whole agent thing- 1ƐYTD DR…. censoring that…… tumblr has a really small fandom for that game on here and im NOT risking it. i already get nervous saying words like miraculous. theyre gonna GET ME

but its like a vr puzzle game kinda like james bond or whatever spy movies you can think of. the title is a reference im pretty sure. im a sucker for those and i love the series so i wanna like. shift there for the challenge?? its a trial and error (the error is you dying) kind of thing.

i wanna do speedruns and collect the phantom medals and shit- i actually have a lot of drs where i go just for the challenge. highly recommend checking out the soundtrack tho its so good

sorry i took so long to respond!! i honestly couldnt think of anything for a good while😭

[a-flickering-soul]

How I Stopped Worrying And Learned To Love Bones: The Harrow Cosplay

Or: I felt like doing a little writeup of the making of my Harrowhark Nonagesimus cosplay because I worked hard on it and this is also basically the first cosplay I actually completed. And I'm also just very proud of it.

I knew from the start I wanted the silhouette to essentially be a triangle, since I deeply believe that Harrow in full vestments is like a little walking cone. This is also deeply influenced by the many years I spent in church choir wearing those dinky little robes.

The first thing I figured out was the headpiece. I knew I wanted the hair to be covered (both in a religious way and also so I wouldn't have to wear a wig), but when it comes to hair coverings, there's a lot of ways it could go. I initially considered mantillas, to go with the whole Catholicism of it all, but unfortunately I was possessed with the spirit of half my ancestors and decided to drape a scarf like a dupatta (I considered making maang tikka to go with it, but had a hard time with the logistics of that). I found a drapy, thin black scarf at a thrift store and held onto it for a while. You can tell from the picture that it's pretty sheer and also a good length.

I szuszed it up by hand-stitching some white lace to it (since I'm very taken with the idea of the Ninth producing lace like all good nunneries did), as well as some seashell beads in a suitable bonelike color and these very cool tiny silver skull beads. These are only on the front of my scarf as a nice little decoration.

For the rest of the jewelry, Sculpey really came through. I used it to make some (outsized) teeth to create a rosary, along with some very cool volcanic rock beads. Individually knotting each bead and tooth was a huge time sink, but definitely worth it visually. Nine teeth for each of the houses.

I also made some bone bangles out of Sculpey (although this was towards the end of things when I was kind of losing steam).

My metamour @benthicbimbo was fucking amazing though and literally?? made thee most beautiful phalanges choker out of Sculpey and velvet ribbon and they're weathered and textured so beautifully and it's such a wonderful piece I genuinely wear it around places quite often.

And because they're incredible they also made these beautiful faux earrings for me that I tragically forgot to wear during Halloween but do look genuinely stunning!!! Like what!!!!!

For the big layers, I genuinely got the best luck at Goodwill in one fell swoop and I have no idea how I got this lucky. The dress is Shein (and once you touch it that fact is very obvious) and the overcoat is a CQ by CQ trench coat someone didn't want anymore (sans belt). These combined with the dupatta really solidified the silhouette and both the pattern of the dress and the brocade on the overcoat really were exactly what I was looking for and it was a sheer stroke of luck that I found both of them in one go.

And now, the big boy: the ribcage corset. I wrestled with this thing for what felt like ages and I'm decently pleased with it, but I definitely have plans for improvement. I started off with a wire frame just to see what kind of shape I wanted-- I took inspiration from the book cover, but slutted it up a little with the titty cups because I felt like having fun. This was made with floral wire and duct tape.

Once I had it to a point where it was reasonably symmetric and fit to my body, I added a very thin layer of quilt batting. The goal of this step was to add bulk without weight or necessarily a gajillion layers of plaster or paper mache. As a friend of mine described it, it looked like low-poly gore.

From here, I added two layers of paper mache since I really wanted it to be rigid-- I did not want this to flex with me as I moved or really flex at all. I wanted to really sell that this was made of bone.

It was at this point I realized I fucked up enormously because the bottom was very asymmetric and I never did a final fit to myself, but it turned out okay anyways, especially combined with the overcoat. I slapped a few layers of acrylic paint over it and used a black ribbon to just tie it around my back-- it was going to be covered by the overcoat anyways so I didn't think too hard about that part.

And that's pretty much it! The black leather gloves are my usual winter gear, and the shoes are my everyday officewear black heels. The face paint design was a mix of the book cover, some fanart I'd seen, and some mockups a friend of mine made for me.

Overall, I had a ton of fun putting together what I feel like is my first con-worthy cosplay, and it was a massive upgrade from last year's cosplay. I'm not 100% satisfied with the ribcage-- I believe I can do better-- but this method was pretty solid (I'd recommend overestimating spaces between ribs though when making the frame). The face paint also wasn't my best work-- thick cream paint is a huge bitch to work with and I didn't have any brushes, but it got the point across. Either way, this cosplay was enormously fun to put together, actually quite comfortable to wear and move around in, and very satisfying to look at. As a reward or perhaps punishment for reading this far, a mandatory couples' cosplay with my beloathed Gideon (my dear @laserlesbians). Happy belated boneday!

[fourseasonsfigs]

Cold Male God

Since we're on a roll with figures inspired by Gong Jun's November 2022 Cosmopolitan Magazine photo shoot, let's keep going!

You've already seen Little Farmer Jun, as inspired by this:

As well as Harvest Tomatoes, inspired by this:

So today's fig is inspired by this shot:

I love sitting figs! There's something about the already small size of figs being even smaller and cuter when they're sitting down. Before we get started, here's one more shot from the magazine of this look:

No idea what the print on the sweater he's wearing there is.

The name of the fig, 高冷男神, gāo lěng nán shén, cold elegant male god, is a phrase Gong Jun has used many times to refer to himself before. He has it on his Weibo (fresh screenshot as of today, you can tell by his last post at the Jay Chou concert!):

He's also called himself this in situations where he is definitely not at his most glamorous! He posted the phrase with a (now deleted) Instagram post of himself as a smoky and dirty Huo Yan in The Flaming Heart:

He also shouted "Call me a cold elegant male god," after his Happy Camp episode where he had to dress up as Nezha:

The fig maker wasn't nearly as tongue-in-cheek with this fig, and instead took a much more literal approach! I'd say that out of the entire photo shoot, this indeed is probably the most aloof and elegant looking out of them all.

My guess (which is always extremely dicey given my lack of cultural or linguistic knowledge) is that the phrase 高冷男神 isn't that uncommon to use to refer to very handsome men in high fashion. Zhehan's been referred to that way (in his Sensodyne ad), and a quick search shows that it's been used to refer to other good looking men before. May be just an archetype for a certain type of look.

As you can tell! Hahaha, figures this little guy would be completely swaddled up in plastic to protect him. He arrived flawlessly, as only us mere mortals could ever hope to do.

The first thing about this fig that I noticed is of course his magnificent tousled sweep of hair. I love it, it is outstanding. In my opinion, Gong Jun looks best with his hair off his face and with plenty of volume, and the figs do too.

I have no earthly idea what the little creature is in his eyes. It looks like a video game creature almost? I experimented cropping out just that part of his eye and ran a reverse image search, but came up with nothing. Smarter minds than mine, no doubt.

We have his silver Tiffany bracelets here, and his hand artfully curled up by his face.

This fig is resin, but is a lighter type. Some resin figs I have are like bricks, they are so heavy. This fig is surprisingly light - I forget sometimes and think it's PVC.

Wow, look at his hair. Amazing! It's very tousled. I like it a lot.

Despite the narrow body silhouette of this fig, the fig sits up just fine. I don't worry he's going to tip over backwards or forwards. If there was an earthquake or something, though, I'd be concerned that he'd fall over (and maybe break some of those glorious hair tendrils), so he'll go on a fig stand.

I actually didn't realize in the photo shoot pics that he was wearing a hoodie. I thought it was actually a black hat hanging behind him in the shot where he's sitting on crates. But no, apparently it's just the hood that's been artfully propped up behind his head.

I can't quite make out what the pattern of the sweater is on his arm, but the fig maker worked hard to replicate it!

You can see he's very gently propped up there on his boots. Very much in line with the inspiration pic, but also the reason he's going on a fig stand.

This fig is so small and cute! I really do think this is the most impressive and dramatic modern hair style I've seen yet on a Gong Jun fig.

The fig maker even replicated the red branding dots on the soles of his boots!

He's so squinched up from this angle! Looking very small and adorable.

His hair is still impressive from the top down with that big swoopy piece there.

In order to give you an idea of the relative size of this fig, here he his compared to his other incarnations in this series.

Material: Resin

Fig Count: 420

Scene Count: 29

Rating: Cold and elegant model, warm and happy puppy!

[link back to Master Fig Index for more posts]

[wonderhoy-dump]

Missing Scene from Chapter 8 of Tsukasa Tenma’s Timeline to the Left

“I’m done setting up the cones! Now will you finally tell me what we’re blocking off this entire section for?”

Rui strides up to the band stage where Tsukasa is waving him over.

“Tsk tsk, why so testy, Tsukasa? I thought you said you trusted me?”

“I do, I do! This is my excited face! I’m excited about you adding a whole new staging setup less than a week before our show goes live. So excited!”

“Hm. Perhaps we should first work on the cogency of your improv skills.”

Tsukasa instantly turns red and sputtery at the jab. Their lead actor is almost too easy to rile up these days—takes all the fun out of it, honestly. 

Rui calms him down with some appeasing hand gestures and directs him back to where the cones first began, near the entrance to the plaza area. 

“I was thinking about your comments from the other day,” Rui narrates as they walk, “about how the action scene doesn’t enthrall the audience enough. Well, you were right. My original staging did not serve the chase scene in a way that would make this show or story truly great. Unfortunately, I don’t have much experience working with a cast of non-robotic troupe members, and I struggled to develop a solution befitting the strengths and skills of the Wanderers.”

“Rui…”

“Thankfully,” —he breezes forward— “that matter was quickly resolved once I realized I am no longer alone in the show creation process. Emu was kind enough to offer her suggestions, several of which I found immensely intriguing and have since made into reality.”

“You got Emu to share an idea with you!? What did she come up with!?”

Although irked by Tsukasa’s volume, Rui still smiles because he can’t help feeling a little proud of that accomplishment. 

“Why don’t you see for yourself?” 

With a grand gesture, he sweeps Tsukasa’s attention to behind the back plaza, where Emu is darting over the bushes with superhuman leaps. 

The high-powered mechanical exoskeleton Rui had finished up for her is greatly enhancing her already monstrous athletic abilities. Nene stands to the side, filming video of Emu’s movements so Rui can assess for adjustments later. 

Tsukasa gawks at the scene. 

“What. What am I looking at?”

“It’s the Bunny Power Suit!”

“Bunny Power Suit? Is that what you’re calling the Star Training Suit?”

“Your Rui calls it the Star Training Suit?”

“Because I’m the one he makes wear it! H-He once had me jumping Olympian-style hurdles all day in that thing!”

“Well then. Good news for you: Emu was so excited about the ‘robot suit’ she saw when visiting my workshop, I resized everything for her to use in this show. So I guess you won’t be subjected to my invention in this world, Tsukasa.”

“Oh. Right. Uh, cool. But what does all that mean for the finale scene?”

Rui chuckles. “Thank you for that perfect setup.”

He snaps three times in a predefined pattern. Emu’s head whips around.

“Ms. Bounty Hunter: Mr. Alien has been located,” Rui delivers his lines in a commanding character voice. He levels a gloved hand at an alarmed Tsukasa. “Capture by any means necessary.”

“Roger that, captain!”

“Wait, wait, we’re doing the chase scene here? I thought—AURGHHAH!!!” 

Tsukasa narrowly dodges a bullet-speed Emu, who overshoots her strike by quite a bit and ends up racing nearly to the other end of the plaza due to excess momentum. 

“WHAT WAS THAT!?!”

“Oh, you do have nice reflexes. That will serve you well today.”

“Rui! What’s happening!? What are we doing!?”

“Right, so this pathway you’ve fenced off,” Rui begins to explain, as Nene runs to help Emu regain control of the suit, “the alien bounty hunter will be chasing her alien past the back stands, through the plaza, all the way up to the spaceship. See, instead of starting the ‘chase’ on the stage, Emu thought it would be more invigorating to put a chase through the park itself and end it on the stage.”

Tsukasa's panicked expression is instantly replaced with consideration as he processes the idea. 

“Huh. Wait, that’s clever. It takes advantage of the street show setting by making the action more immersive.”

“Correct. Fencing off this path should help us do that safely by keeping visitors out of the way.” 

“I see... I knew Emu had it in her for a great idea! But why is the Star Suit necessary?”

“Bunny Suit,” Rui corrects. “And that part is because the bounty hunter has to present as a major threat to the alien. I mean sure, Emu does judo, kickboxing, and parkour—”

“Kickboxing?”

“—but the audience doesn’t know that! Her suit capabilities and awesome mech appearance help establish her immediately as someone who can destroy the protagonist with a single strike!” 

Tsukasa doesn’t look nearly as happy about this as he should be. 

“So anyways, you must know the suit’s strength takes a bit of getting used to,” Rui continues, “which is why I’ve reworked this entire rehearsal for you and her to flesh out the choreography while also giving her some tactile experience. I gave her the basic tutorial earlier, but she still needs to run around a bit, get a feel for the aerodynamics.”

“Y–You mean to have an entire practice of me sprinting back and forth on this route while she hunts me down like an animal?”

“Exactly. And to help her get into character, I’ve put a little bounty on your head. For every time she catches you in the giant butterfly net, you owe her one taiyaki.”

“If it’s a bounty, why am I buying her the taiyaki!?” 

“Because then it doubles as an incentive. She gets the positive, you get the negative. And by the way, she’s looping back here with her Terminator run, so you have about three seconds after I end this sentence before she, ah, ends you.”

“Urk–!” 

Expression torn between wanting to complain to Rui more and not wanting Emu to flatten him, Tsukasa rightly chooses the correct option and sprints away. A half second later, Emu blasts past Rui with enough speed to make his hair swish. Another half second later, Tsukasa screams and Emu cheers for Taiyaki #1. 

Rui smiles. This show will no doubt be fantastic. 

[gaviicreates]

Experiments with Mohair + FO: Friends Ear Warmer

Good Morning, Crafters! In my fiber crafts learning journey this week, I made my first finished object using a merino wool, held together with mohair. It seems that crafters are either a fan of mohair or dislike mohair, and I haven't seen anyone in between. So I figured it was time to figure out where I stood in this equation.

A couple of months ago I picked up some colorways in the relatively new Hobbii "Friends" Collection, the idea behind this product line being that you can mix and match the exact colorways across multiple fibers and weights. I think this is an excellent idea to create a line with varied, but reliable colors, and very well has the potential to be a staple when wanting to use a base of solids. There's cottons, kid silk, wool, a cotton and acrylic blend, and extra fine merino for all your fiber fun needs.

As I mentioned, I chose the extra fine merino and kid silk (79) - it will be the same across all fibers, which is also a nice feature and makes my organized brain all happy - also known as "Open Sea." Find the yarn here: Kid Silk, Extra Fine Merino Find the Friends Collection Here. With kid silk, I am getting not the pure experience of mohair, as it actually is a blend with 72% Mohair, 25% Silk, 3% Wool. I don't have a comparison, but I can tell you the silk probably gives it a bit of shimmer and possibly softens the yarn. But merino and mohair from what I've read both tend to be considered soft wools, and are not the experience one might think of. If you are thinking of the scratchy stuff, these are not it. I can attest they feel like clouds, so I think they would be good for those with sensitive skin. As long as you are not allergic to the fiber, which can happen too. With my yarns delivered, I first wanted to go about exploring the difference in the color. There's always bound to be some variety based on the way the fibers are able to hold the dye (I am sure there is a scientific word for that), but I was surprised to see that not only was the color as I expected based on the colors on my computer screen, but also that they did match each other even closer than I expected. I also ordered a pink in the kid silk and cotton (37) or "Rosewood."

It was then time to start working up my skeins to see how they worked together, and to determine where I stood with these materials.

Since softness was key, I figured I should test it on a pattern close to the skin. I chose a headband pattern from Hobbii, that was designed for their Universe line, but is an easy one to adjust for different yarn weights and desired width. This is a crochet pattern, and will create a gorgeous texture with alternating post stitches. You can find the FREE pattern here.

The first thing I realized - the mohair creates a GORGEOUS natural halo. And that I think is the first thing to recognize about your own aesthetic when deciding whether to give mohair a try. Halo is those errant strands of fiber around your work - sometimes occurring overtime with use - and in this case, added intentionally because it will change the look of your fabric, but also provide extra warmth and softness. I think an ear warmer was the perfect choice of project for these yarns, and in my case, I really enjoyed the slight nuance of the new fabric I was creating - the kid silk adding just a bit of light to the matte of the merino.

There's a downside - this was not a froggable project. When I was first beginning the headband, I wasn't happy initially with the width and wanted to pull everything back to make it smaller. When I went to frog, I only felt comfortable going back a row, worrying that I would break the strands if I tugged it harder. Since I only had the one skein each, I chose to keep going forward. I am glad I did, because the end result is just right with the twist sewn in. You know - perfect - just as we are about to go into the warmth of Spring.

I'll keep it for winter. <3

In the end Mohair - would try again! I feel like there could be a definitely appeal to expand into more adventurous color combinations now that I've seen how the strands and colors work together. I can definitely see that rosewood color way with a different yarn that could completely transform the look. I get it, I definitely do. **I am new to this fiber journey**

[cute-scenarios]

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!SFW! Alt boy x reader

No gendered language so 😼👍

Summary: The quiet and mean alt boy in your class seems to have taken a liking to you

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Imagine

Your in the last 10 minutes of class. Sense the class finished up everything rather quickly, the teacher let everyone just chill. You decide to pull out a piece of paper out and start doodling whatever comes to your mind. You smile to yourself as you pour out your ideas onto the white paper.

For some reason you feel like someone is starting at you, it makes you feel a little uneasy. You turn your head to see who is looking, and the person who’s looking at you is a very edgy looking boy with short black hair, a Korn shirt, some big black pants with small specks of red around, a black and red belt with a checkered pattern, some large chunky boots, and lots of jewelry. His eyes feel like their glaring at you, sending a shiver down your spine. He then gives a small smile, then waved at you. This throws you off guard. You wave back and smile to be nice. He then gets up and walks over to you. The boots add lots of more hight to him, considering he’s tall. He then pulls out the empty chair next to you, looking into your eyes

“Can I sit with you?”

He asks, his voice was somewhat low. His hands were pretty veiny and strong-looking

“Sure..!”

You reply, puzzled by his actions. Even though you’ve never talked to him before, everyone knew he wasn’t social OR nice to anyone around, when he met new people he was cold and rude, but for some reason he’s not doing anything like that to you.

“So, what are you doing right now”

He sounds genuinely interested.

“Oh! I’m just doodling”

You can’t help but smile a little about how he’s treating you, you can’t help but feel just a little bit honored.

“Oh, so your a artist?”

He gives a small smile.

“What do you like to draw?”

“I like to draw [favorite thing to draw], it pretty much just kills time”

“Ugh, I wish I were as good you, you could turn it into a career”

He then chuckles. You feel a little more comfortable around him, he truly seems like a kind person, he’s probably learning how to not be as shy as he use to be! Awe, thats too sweet.

“..what’s your name? I’m y/n”

You ask a little quietly, your heart beats a little faster than usual.

“My name is Raven, but you can just call me Ray”

“That’s a cool name, it fits your aesthetic”

As he hears this his pale cheeks turn into a soft brush of pink

“Thanks..”

He didn’t know what to say, he was a little flustered by the small complement. For some reason, your gut tells you to check the time, so you do. It’s almost time to leave! It seems like Ray understood what you thought.

“Hey, you seem pretty nice, so I’ll just write down my snap and Tiktok”

He pulls out a small paper from his binder, then rips a corner off. He then writes his username on both apps.

“You don’t have to flatter me so much..!”

You say, adding a laugh. Ray doesn’t respond, but he hands you the small paper. You take it and put it in your pocket.

“Thank you-!”

Your cut off by the bell. You then see Ray get up. He sighs.

“Well, goodbye for now..”

He sounded a little upset, but packed his stuff and left the room, leaving you and the teacher as the only ones in the class. You realize this and quickly pack up go to your final class. Your felt with a bittersweet feeling, but you know you’ll be able to talk to him again.

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(This is my first real “x reader” type thing so sorry if it’s bad or cringe or smth 😿)

[wetbloodworm]

finally added details to the height chart for my DND PCs! this is actually relatively big so you can click to enlarge or open in another tab to view full size. here’s the original.

notes! under a cut because it became more than a few

putting details on this really put into perspective just how short niamh is. it’s different when it’s just the basic shapes but making them all actual people and. god. she’s a full foot shorter than zenith. compact!

toby’s not much better off considering how tall i remember neoma and jericho being

i sure like boots in my designs, huh. also fingerless gloves, i actually removed temerity’s here because i couldn’t have three of them in a row. i’m a coward.

syrus and niamh both have the useless belts, though niamh has more lol

chain mail is a fucking pain to draw and i didn’t do a great job here BUT i do like how it ends up looking when i do it right. i did remove it from temerity’s legs and gave him... pants? leggings? need to draw him again from a different angle to figure out what the look is. anyway i covered it up to spare myself some.

the only other time i’ve drawn toby’s armor, i did the pic in grayscale, and tbh i couldn’t figure out another color scheme. partly because now it’s just grayscale in my head. also i like to imagine the lightning on his armor actually lighting up the same blue as the gem (which is an artificer thing and not a feature of the armor as it was made) and i think that’d stand out better on the grayscale.

god syrus’ limbs are just so long

temerity’s face rarely comes out right imo, i’ve gotten him right like. twice maybe. but i think asya’s came out especially cute here!

the color variation here is decent, could use more brighter colors. toby would be more colorful in regular clothes but that’s not their default look so y’know.

four of the six have... partially closed eyes? heavy lidded eyes? idk how that actually translates, but i draw their upper eyelid more on them. i do that a lot in my designs, i just like the look! syrus’ eyes are downturned, asya’s are upturned. syrus and niamh both have the under-eye lashes emphasized more. every time i draw them i remember this one post saying it’s a slutty character design choice. let my kids live.

realizing my two autistic kids here have more neutral/flat default expressions. just how they be.

syrus and toby have my favorite outfits. the super deep V on syrus is fun, and i just love toby’s armor. WISH THEY STILL HAD IT BUT Y’KNOW!!!

i’m not good at symmetry and tend to draw at an angle so the hands don’t quite fall in the same place. one’s higher than the other or gets tucked more behind the leg or both. just something i noticed. need to work on that!

i don’t think they look TOO same-face-y, though that’s something i’ve struggled with. part of my problem again is that i just. can’t tell faces apart SUPER well. i know what shapes i’m going for when i draw a character and i can get the general idea down but i don’t always recreate them properly.

some of their heads are too big, or the proportions of their facial features are off. i can’t fully tell which is which. zenith and toby are the main culprits here.

this feels like a lot of nitpicking my art but the intent is still to discuss the designs as i’m doing so. i’m only partially going off-track.

part of me says i need to utilize patterns more in the clothes i draw, but that’s harder to recreate quickly. toby’s armor took me so long compared to everyone else. simple designs are easy to draw quick and less detailed, as my style often requires. but i like how toby looks here with the details in their armor! everyone else looks so plain next to them in comparison. i’ll think about it.

armor in general is hard for me, that’s why everyone typically dresses in regular clothes in my designs even if they wear armor in-game. i also don’t always look how armor looks so, y’know. clothes are more fun for me to draw.

i need to stop. we’re gonna stop now.

[tellywoodtrash]

I'm the anon who sent you an ask a while ago about my anxiety and panic disorder getting worse and me being back in therapy. I wanted to give you an update about how things are going, because I really appreciate the advice you gave me. I'm on anti-anxiety medication now (I just started my meds today). I'm also making some progress on fixing my sleeping and eating schedules (both were off for the past 2-3 months). I also got into a really good masters program for public health +

I start in September. The only thing that's still sort of bothering me is that my mental health still feels like it's in a very stagnant place. I'm also having a small identity crisis, because one of the things my parents have said to me a few times is that they hope I find a nice guy to marry in grad school. I joke about it with them too, but the whole idea makes me uncomfortable. I've never really dated anyone, because I've never been interested in it. I wasn't really attracted to anyone throughout school and college either. I've been questioning if I'm ace or not, but I'm now also wondering whether this lack of attraction also extends to my romantic attraction towards people. Romance and relationships always sound nice to me in theory, but in real life, I'm not super comfortable with them (I think they're a nice normal part of life, but in terms of myself I don't fully connect with them). Could you give me any advice or reassurance about this? Also I hope you're doing well.

Hi friend!

I'm so glad to hear you're feeling better, and even more than that, you're doing the actual work to become better. So much of mental health is stupid mundane bullshit, like making sure you eat your food + meds/hydrate yourself, going the fuck to sleep instead of watching one more episode on netflix, and reaching out to your friends and just chatting for a bit to feel some human connection. I rebelled against all of it haaaaaaaardddddd when I was in my teens/twenties when other well-meaning adults used to tell me and kept wallowing in my misery, thinking "ugh what do they know, they just don't understand meeeeeee", but I hate to say it, they were right (much to my continued distaste. I hate being told to do the sensible thing.)

Mental health is much like any other slow incremental work you do on yourself, like working out. You're not gonna see drastic results in a day or a week or even a month. But keep doing it, and one day, you'll realise, "hey! i can run for longer than i used to without being outta breath!" or "i can lift more than i used to!" or "i am more flexible now!". Similarly, one day, a few months from now, you'll just suddenly realize that you don't feel so anxious ALL the time anymore. Or that a situation that used to stress you into having panic attacks seems more manageable now. It takes time for your brain chemistry to react to the meds and lifestyle changes, so give yourself that space. It's a daily effort. And if you slip up a day or two (everyone does. I was late with my own meds today), it's fine. Just get back up the next day. A day's miss doesn't undo all the work you've done; making bad choices a continuous pattern does.

The comment from your parents about the marriage thing is just that, a casual comment. It's a half-joke, that you also play along with occasionally. Treat it as just that. In no way are you compelled to do anything you're not comfortable with. Anyway, right now your focus should be on doing your best at your degree and building an independent life for yourself. Use this time to get to know yourself better; you may or may not experiment, educate yourself, whatever you want. See if these type of relationships are meaningful to you, adding value to your life, making you happier. These are things you should figure out for yourself, by yourself, and there's no "deadline" for it. (Hell, I'm in my 30s and I'm still doing it!) Whatever you choose to be and do in your romantic life (including NOT having one) is valid. It's all about what feels authentic to you as a person, and not what other people want from/for you as part of the ideal picture of you in their minds!

Sending you lots of love and good vibes!!!!!!!! ✨✨✨

[thefamilyeldritchabomination]

Chapter Nine: Pan Pt. 2

 “Hey Lust, think I should go with the old geezer look or library nerd look?” Envy asked as they couldn’t decide. “Seriously, you’re picking between those two disguises?” Lust asked as she just gave Envy the look. “Go for library nerd…less creepy as fuck.” Dorian added his two cents in on the matter, Lust looking in shock that Dorian could talk this whole time

 “See? Dorian is a team player.” Envy snarkily commented as they shifted for the library nerd disguise.

 “Are we not going to address the elephant in the room about Dor…” Lust tried to say before getting cut off by Envy. “Nope.” Envy simply said as they got ready to head out with Dolly the moment she got back from the errand run.

 Lust sat at the table in disbelief as Dorian just patted her on the back. To pass the time, Envy practiced their library nerd impersonation from the walking pattern to the way they spoke. This continued for the past ten minutes as Dolly entered through the door with a bag of items. Apparently, Dolly had gone and purchased Dorian some learning to read tools as well as popcorn to make. Spotting the alphabet card tin, Dorian wasted no time in giving the tin exploratory chewing. 

 “Dolly, how long did you know that Dorian could talk?” Lust asked as she took the tin away from Dorian to prevent it from being devoured. “Oh, since the day I met Dorian. I just figured Dorian was being shy, but I guess he’s warmed up to you.” Dolly answered as she got the popcorn put away in the cabinet. Before Lust or Dolly could interact more, Envy interceded and started leading Dolly out of the apartment. Lust at that point had given up on trying to make sense of anything as Gluttony finished having his meal in the corner and gave Lust a pat on the back. “It's okay, Lust, Envy is smart.” Gluttony reassured Lust in his own way. “They’ll learn eventually anyways…” Dorian added as he continued his make believe train carnage of Freddy. “I think I’m going to make myself some heavy tea now..” Lust said, sensing this was going to be a day, that was for sure. “While you do that…can you get me kibbles?” Dorian asked as he stopped playing with the train, feeling hungry now. “Wait…you can eat the red stones?” Lust asked, looking at Dorian in bewilderment. “Yeah…it tastes good.” Dorian admitted in a gurgling like voice.

As Lust debated if Dorian being able to eat red stones was a good thing or a bad thing, Envy had been leading Dolly through the alley, towards a door attached to the side of the apartment complex. It was easy to think that the door would lead to the maintenance basement, but instead, as Dolly would realize as she descended the stairs with Envy, it led to the sewers down below. The rats scurried past their feet as they walked along the sewer system, Envy being all too familiar with the layout of the system down below.

 “How often do you use the sewer as a means to get to places?” Dolly asked as she tried to keep her mind off of the awful sewer smell. “You would be surprised and this isn’t even the lowest point. I do believe I had mentioned the underground city beforehand.” Envy said as they kept their attention on the turns and twists.

 “That’s right, you did mention it when you were tossing around the punishment ideas.” Dolly recalled the rather unsavory previous conversation. “Well, that would be our true home and Dante’s bunker if you will. Dante’s always been paranoid about being hunted down, so she will sometimes go down there if the cottage villa is under threat.” Envy explained a bit as they made a turn, leading Dolly along the maze-like sewer system. “You’re telling me that Dante makes you and the others live in an underground city when you don’t have to work while she lives in a nice villa?” Dolly gave a look of concern upon hearing that. “It’s not all that bad, the homes down there are luxurious and we don’t have to pay a dime to live there. Sure the air is bad down there, but it’s something everyone gets used to. The only one that gets to live up above would be Pride and his mansion with the two pets.” Envy paused for a bit as they led Dolly up a flight of stairs. “Wouldn’t you like to live up above instead like Pride does?” Dolly followed Envy up the stairs, her worries about Dante grew pretty strong. “I plan to once I get my goals completed. Now, you’re going to have to stay close to me and pretend you’ve paid the admission fee to see the museum.” Envy pushed the door open and led Dolly directly into the museum, skipping the line entirely.

 The crowd was thankfully low, no one really noticing Envy and Dolly entering the museum. Though Envy never really cared much for museums, finding them to be humanity’s need to be pack rats, if it meant Dolly would cooperate in teleporting them later, then Envy will tolerate it for the time being. Of course, Dolly pretty much led Envy to the first display, her excitement visible. Before Envy was this Jade plate carving of some bizarre lizard looking creature with eight legs, a lamprey mouth, and way too big eyes, curling along the plate as if it were rocking itself. “That is an incredibly ugly creature.” Envy remarked as their disdain for the design was made known. “I don’t know, they look pretty cute, sort’ve like an angsty pickle.” Dolly said in a happy and warm tone. “Eh? I guess it does look a bit like a pickle, I GUESS.” Envy relented as they carefully readjust Dolly’s sunglasses the moment they started to slide. “And first rule if you join in, monitor your sunglasses out in public. We have a lot of enemies and if they spot you, they will attack to kill.” Envy whisper-hissed as they tried to get back into character of being a library nerd.

 “Let me guess, the next rule is I’m going to have to dress all in black, right?” Dolly asked in a joking fashion.

 “That’s actually the rule, our dress code is to be in all black. Only Pride and to an extent, Sloth, are allowed to wear clothing outside of the dress code.” Envy said, surprised that Dolly had mentioned their dress code.

[douchebagbrainwaves]

I WOULD SPEND ALMOST EVERY WAKING MOMENT EITHER WORKING OR THINKING ABOUT OUR STARTUP

There is one other language still surviving from the 1950s, Fortran, and it is a standard, I won't get in trouble for using it. By the time the acquirer gets them, they're finishing one another's sentences. The acquirers already have brand recognition and HR departments. He thought for a second, and said ok. The term macro does not mean you aren't doing something meaningful, defensible, or valuable. For good and bad technology. There might be 500 startups right now who think they're making something Microsoft might buy. Symbols are effectively pointers. I've read that the same task could be painful to one person and pleasant to another, but are so caught up in their squabble they don't realize it.

We were after the C programmers. But it's all based on one unspoken assumption, and that employers are just proxies for users in which risk is pooled. He thought for a second, and said ok. After a while, most people in rich countries do. Maybe they'll listen to one of the most important quality would be intelligence. You should lean more toward firing people if the source of your trouble is overhiring. But because he doesn't understand the risks, he tends to magnify them. And isn't popularity to some extent its own justification?

It was both a negative and a positive surprise: they were surprised both by the degree to which persistence alone was able to dissolve obstacles: If you pitch your idea to a random person, 95% of the investors we dealt with were unprofessional, didn't seem to be a job. I'm not sure why. An experienced CFO I know said flatly: I would not want to be a total slacker. Why should they wait for VCs to make the cover something you can tell a book by its cover originated in the times when books were sold in plain cardboard covers, to be bound by each purchaser according to his own taste. Given this dichotomy, which of the two paths should you take? This is the kind of possibility that the pointy-haired boss miraculously combines two qualities that are common by themselves, but rarely seen together: a he knows nothing whatsoever about technology, you start to get the wrong answers. If you define a language that talks down to them. A lot of founders that was the big surprise: How hard it is to live in the future. I wrote this for Forbes, who asked me to write something about the qualities we look for in founders.

When you're starting a startup was the value of safe jobs. And usually the acquirer doesn't need anyway. Gone is the awkward nervous energy fueled by the desperate need to not fail guiding our actions. You only need other people to use a language for which he can easily hire programmers? And in accounting that's probably a good idea. Here's a typical reponse: You haven't seen someone's true colors unless you've worked with them on a startup. Why do the founders always make things so complicated?

Don't sit here making up a name for the phenomenon, Greenspun's Tenth Rule: Any sufficiently complicated C or Fortran program contains an ad hoc informally-specified bug-ridden slow implementation of half of Common Lisp. The immense value of the peer group of YC companies, and facing similar obstacles at similar times. If you're small, they don't think it takes years to learn how to make things people want. Suits, who don't know one language from another, and work well together. The company is ultimately doomed. So you can test equality by comparing a pointer, instead of comparing each character. Startups are a comparatively new phenomenon. Refuting the Central Point. Are you kidding? I wonder if these patterns are not sometimes evidence of case c, the human compiler, at work.

What is going on here? You probably didn't have much choice about the secondary schools you went to. There are plenty of undergrads with enough technical skill. After a while, if you could get all three for nothing. These are smart people; if the technology was good, they'd have used it voluntarily. The route to success is to get. Buying larval startups solves that problem for them: the acquirer doesn't pay till the developers have proven themselves. If languages are all equivalent, why should the developers of Java have even bothered to create a named function to return.

There's no rush. Running a startup is not like having a job or being a student, because it would cause the founders' attitudes toward risk tend to be such outliers that your conscious mind would reject them as ideas for companies. And more to the point, nobody knows you're 22. Average age of their founders: 24. There's a shocking amount of shear stress at every point where a startup touches a more bureaucratic organization, like a detective solving a case in a mystery novel. Most programming probably consists of writing little glue programs, and for little glue programs in Lisp too I use it as a desktop calculator, but the people who created it as well. There is a positive side to thinking longer-term. Business guys probably aren't, but hackers are used to a world where skill is paramount, and you don't have significant success to cheer you up, it wears you out: Your most basic advice to founders is just don't die, but the people who have them happier. If you're thinking about getting involved with someone—as a cofounder, an employee, an investor, or an acquirer—and you have misgivings about them, trust your gut. If I haven't, let me clarify that I'm not writing here about Java which I have thought about a lot.

To benefit from engaging with users you have to create a data structure to hold the value of 20 year olds. I try to think How can I write this such that if people saw my code, they'd be happy to take VC money and bet the rest on a bigger outcome. These quotes about luck are not from founders whose startups failed. Morally, they care about getting the big questions right, but not in the middle who see how important luck is. So Dad, there's this company called Apple. The catch is that phrase over time. Most readers can tell the difference between mere name-calling and a carefully reasoned refutation, but I think it will be that bad. But because he doesn't understand the risks, he tends to magnify them.

[sincerely-krp]

hi admins! sorry i know you said you're on a little bit of an inconsistent timing with posting till sometime next week but i think this could be good to have sitting on the blog so others can give input (please be nice and please read everything if you want to add on or reply to me everybody! i'm a tea blog submitting anon newbie!)

your last post with you analyzing the krp scene made me realize just how much you guys actually know about the scene, just cuz of our asks and your monitoring of them all. like you knew why the groups are slow, what the issues were in both groups (maybe even indie krp), like it felt like we're either members or admins but you're the quiet person who hears everything and also looks out over everything so you can see it better.

this might be kind of deranged, but would you guys ever consider adding like a function where we can add a [ :) ] to the beginning of our ask and then get replies from you? obviously we'll all take it with a grain of salt but you talk to admins and you see all the asks the krp comm puts in, i just feel like seeing your opinions sometimes would be nice. about chill or general things even. you guys have a lot of data we don't.

like for example, i'm curious about what red flags really are to you guys since i'm sure you've been in krp comms that are talked about on here. i don't mean that in a sneaky way i just want to know you guy's thoughts! like, on the krp scene in general, on like common problems we all face, it feels like it could be interesting to submit messages and get your feedback on it. because people in general have no 'authority' right, or credibility. and i don't think tea blog admins are where it's at either for credibility. but i'm sure you have like... thoughts or data. or like you sound like you guys have a level-headed mind. idk i just thought it could be interesting. especially if you have a bunch of admins in your dms too like it sounds like they are, i think you could always get opinions from sources like that too.

idk though maybe this is a stupid idea, but like you could save them and answer them all once a month or something, and i think seeing that feedback could put stuff back in context. some questions i could think to ask about would be like, how much does discourse in tea blogs affect a krp, do you think the clique dramas really affect your experiences, i'm super curious, as a gen krper considering au or oc, to know more about how that community runs in contrast to gen, like if there are differences in patterns in asks. like i would have had no idea that the au krp scene was like that right now or under attack. i was really really interested in an au krp that was revamping early in the year and suddenly went dead despite my conversation with the admins being.... really good? like i mentioned i was nervous, and i asked so many questions, like 20+, and they answered everything. i asked really stupid questions like about how to name a character or how to even begin to attempt writing an au character, and they gave me a nice list, like literally made me a cute worksheet with nice, simple questions to get me going, and offered some movies and books and music based off of what i said i liked. their advice was to base a character on something from media that i enjoyed and like draw from other things for specific parts to change them up... idk my point is they were really nice and they were showing me the process start to finish, i asked so many stupid questions about their theme even though when i reread all the info i asked was on their blog like they didn't scold me or tell me to just look at the stuff they had posted before asking them questions. they even showed me the ropes for graphics but said they could filter a bunch of pics for me to just mix and match really easily on canva since i was really really nervous about fitting in, despite them saying that i didn't need graphics to fit in. i was scared about my writing not being good enough and they had good things to say to calm me down from that too.

and then like i got nothing. NOTHING. i couldn't get replies from them on their tumblr at all and i don't have an aff. but i had no idea what i did wrong. i even sent in an ask. and knowing what you said just now i felt like 'oh my god they didn't hate me or die!' even though they might not have reached out i think that has to be what happened because they were active with their queue and everything and were literally in a revamp. and had given me timeframes to wait for them if they got busy before.

and then i was thinking about how casually you talked about just knowing the flow of the krpc, so i guess i thought that like... while i don't send in asks and do keep up because i'm in some gen krps that get discussed, i could ask stupid things like i did to them and maybe not get totally shit on or get told something super ludicrous. like im sure if you guys said something wrong, and then didn't post asks that proved you wrong, another gossip blog would show up so fast to shit on you so there is some accountability too.

sorry this was long, i was just really curious!

we'll leave this up to see other people's input! please only respond positively or constructively! i'll ask the other admin soon and we'll see what others think too! it's nice to hear good things about an admin team for a change, all attention is bad attention on a tea blog so people stay away from saying good things but this is refreshing to remind everyone that these good experiences do exist!

[jonathankatwhatever]

Exploring the nature of dimensions this 17 August 2023. I took a story of betrayal and developed it into a response and then the twin paths which emerge from that. These aren’t the only paths, but they are Pathways because they fit to the higher dimensional construct of the story. I made a good and a bad, meaning an outer Boundary End which takes the generic good and bad and sorts them to this story form. Then the inner Boundary connects them to the tObject, which is an existing story that I read on the internet. So we have two narrowings and expansions. How this works is flashing before my eyes.

This was motivated by a ton of negative energy I directed into story telling I could analyze. That Jeopardy is actually strike-breaking is beyond the pale. I had to walk around after typing that. The employees who write the show are picketing them. Fucking jackals.

That’s how you write and how you relate the tangible of you in you by you to the outer Boundary. Like a really cool mirror that bounces information off the outer Boundary inner edge and then it comes back, reflected, to the inner Boundary. And from there it crosses the interior toward the pole. And the other way is from the inner pole to the inner Boundary - like what you try to project, the way you fit into boxes because those exist in gs - and then out.

Targets engaged, but in the Storyline, the war is fought in infinities. Oh dear god I just realized that is exactly true. I imagined being put inside a machine that engaged incessantly according to patterns an enemy of the exact same skills firing as fast as information can. I remember going through why there were no constraints. Movement was instantaneous over the battle area. My word this makes mathematical sense!

I came up with the idea of overwhelming commitment every chance we could because winning was trials, statistics that we could manage by looking at the patterns which indicated where so we could prepare, could know the ground.

But we lose the ones that go bad from the inside. We have not found a method to counteract the spread of harm so the system becomes self-predatory. That last is new too! Humans are self-predators. Can they learn to not do that?

Those stories came before the Mission Storyline. There is a storyline of the only survivor. There is a purity to it, and thus its meanings 1-0Seg so you can flip them. I was the only survivor of a D4-3 existence which was destroyed when it corrupted with self-predation. I remember that happening: unexplainable cruelties occurring. New kinds beyond the rational. So we lived in a more rational I//I.

Then the ultimate war and building a strategy group to explore and harness the patterns seen in two levels: how they interacted with us and how they actually fought. God that was horrible. Being attacked by creatures who completely resisted reason, who could not be reached, and who became progressively destructive. GS7 was my name because that L-count embodies D4 and D3. You can see how D3 fits in LayerView. Imagine it as a test board and when the D3 relationship is stable that passes the answer along the szK. Nothing made me happier than adding sK to zK.

That idea can mean alternative D3’s or it can mean the actual and the near actual D3. It can be opposites in some dimensions within the D3. I can say that clearly now: the D-structure approach means we can speak about DC&R at various scales, and that means we can get deep into one area and yet that entire area fits into simple counting structures.

If all that is mathematically true, then it’s true. This is actually true. I’m an embodiment of GS7!

That explains you as the zK to the sK and thus the sK to the zK, meaning you’re the Irreducible to me. I just realized: that isn’t a negative version, is it? The negative is me in the mirror and so the choice of how I see me is how I see you. Orthogonal means shifted and that says n-gon and that counts. Obvious is 14. That doubles. It if 6+1 then we I//I hexagons and attach them 1 and 1. So the minimum there would be 13. Can make a specified Hex of 7 plus a non-specified one for 13. I like that. It makes 26 stronger, and that is the same issue as in 14 and 28. Wow.

The part I don’t get is where were you? It’s I//I so from another what? Another orbital. Higher in the D-structure.

That resolves the old issue of rank. Depends on which way you read. So I we could say 7 resonates out and 13 in, like I the I//I of specified and not Hexes. Specified there literally shifts the edge of the Boundary.