#can you tell i'm very indecisive 💀

[albonoooo]

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1. it's so hard to pick just one 😭 in a previous ask game, i gave this list: les choristes, lord of the rings trilogy, the hobbit trilogy, napola, die wilden hühner 1 & 2, vorstadtkrokodile 1, new year's eve, the princess and the frog, tangled, balto and spirit - stallion of the cimarron and that hasn't really changed. if i had to pick one of those, i'd probably go with les choristes, but it really depends on my mood.

2. god, this changes several times a day. right now, it's a tie between the archer by greta van fleet and i'm your man by mitski.

3. just kind of answered that in the previous ask, it's lovely war by julie berry. i want to reread it this year.

thank you for the questions anon!!

anonymously message me (3) things you want to know about me.

[wilzy-woo]

Ikemen Vampire Suitors ideal type in my eyes 👀 (also sorry if it seems more aimed at girls I tried to make it GN 😭)

Starting off simple with everyone's favourite (or not) sugar daddy COMTE 😍

• Thinks confidence is really hot and he DEFINITELY likes a little bratty type

• Likes independence but LOVES it when they need help just so he gets to look all snug, he doesn't say anything (he might) but just looks at you with his smexy smirk

• Doesn't care much for looks but loves it when they get dressed up OR LIKE THE KIND OF BEFORE SHOWER MAKEUP

• I think that he NEEDS them to be honest like he would hate the "they told me not tell anyone..." Like he doesn't care he would want ALL OF IT spilt to him whether it's serious or not

Next is the love of my life (he wouldn't like me at all)

• He wants an extrovert. I don't care he NEEDS an extrovert. May think he doesn't but Ugh he just does

• Wants someone to stand up for him, he may be able to stand up for himself but he just really appreciates when someone would do that.

• Someone cleverrr I can't stress this enough he wouldn't be able to stand someone who isn't interested or knows a thing or two about science or anything for that matter. He WANTS the "erm actually" person

• Needs someone who loves snow. It's a weird thing but I can just see him loving a snowy date in his delusions

Pookie bear Vincent (am I the only one who isn't a fan of Vincents route? Like it was painfully slow 😔 I mean don't get me wrong I love him but I didn't feel very attached)

•Loves a sweet girl, needs someone to protect and love omg can you imagine someone timid meeting Vincent UGH IT WOULD BE SO CUTE

• Needs their love language to be physical touch, he just screams it

• Wouldn't mind someone bad at art so he could help them with it if they are interested but would PREFER someone who is good at it so they could do cute little dates together

• Wants a very Smiley person like someone who smiles or laughs at the stupidest thing, broken humour type of person

Now Theodore is different his route WAS SO GOOD I WAS LITERALLY SCREAMING THE WHOLE TIME even if it was a bit weird and k!nky at some points 🤨

(Why does this photo look massive)

• Chill anyways ALSO wants a bratty person, wants pretty much the opposite of Vincent he finds it such a turn on when they give him a dirty look or roll their eyes at him UGH

• I just know he likes a busty person (ass and chest for girlies) 😔 He seems like that type of person to nonchalantly slap their ass (honestly I'm not a huge fan of that but he would probably do it)

• Definitely likes the weird yappers, the ones who get distracted from one subject they were talking about and moved onto a completely different one

• Likes the observers! People who could just analyse someone easily based on the way they are sitting or talking

UGH MY HUSBAND (this might be biased towards me but I'll try 💔)

(this photo makes me do unspeakable things)

• Wants them to be independent but not TOO independent, he wants them to depend on him for things but also have that nice balance of independence

• Also loves yappers, he's the listening type so being able to listen to their voice for hours on end would be so good for him. He doesn't care what it's about just as long as he doesn't have to pitch in much he's fine with it

• LOVES when someone is indecisive and asks for HIS help with choosing something, knowing that you think he has the best decision making compared to the others is such an ego boost

• Loves someone who isn't afraid to share their opinions. Finds it such a turn on when their mouth is faster than their mind and just says stuff that doesn't even make sense

Arthur oh Arthur let down your hair...I'm not even sure if this is accurate I never finished his route I got bored halfway through 💀

•NEEDS someone humorous, CRAVES IT someone who can take a slightly rude joke and give him one back

• Needs someone with 100+ rizz...no seriously he would find it so funny if you went up to him and said some pick up line with that certain face

•Wants someone who would put him in his place when he does something wrong like overworking or doing something risky ass gambling 💀

• LOVES when their love language is acts of service, something simple like bringing him a coffee when he's writing and sitting down with him in silence, every now and then he'd ask you for ideas or something, just being helpful would make him fold.

• (EXTRA) would laugh if you failed your English GCSES

Mozzy Mosquito is that you 🤨 (I've never done his route so I have no bloody idea 💀)

•WOULD FOLD IF THEY COULD SING. Not like one of those strong voices or rapping NONONO he wants a Lana Del Rey, Alex G and the Florence type of singer , someone with a soft sleepy like voice! He would literally be in love

•CRAVES FOR CONFIDENCE he just thinks it's so attractive for someone to be confident. Like for them initiate conversation and WON'T BACK DOWN (even when he's being a bit of arsey introvert)

• Craves praise. Needs it. Needs someone who praises him and supports him all the way, someone who will get him out of music block by just being there to share ideas or sit there with him for hours telling him if it's good or bad

•Would prefer an introverted lover, he needs someone who is calm and collected and loves it if they come home from an outing and go straight to him groaning and ranting about how much they dislike people

I finished the first chapter of Jeans route I'm sorry if this is inaccurate I literally just go from what I saw of him from the other routes I've played (which isn't a lot ,😭)

•Though he's more of a listener he would also want a listener partner, to be able to sit there in comfortable silence in each others arms. However there will obviously be conversation it would be quiet and would last hours, something deep and personal to the both of them

• would love love love someone with soft slim hands. I don't know why he just seems like the type of person to be obsessed with those types of hands

• Needs someone patient and soft spoken, someone to be able to let his tough exterior break but by bit. A soft voice and reassurance looks like it would get him head over heels

I also haven't played Sebs route I'm sorry 😔

•Probably wants someone who is capable of doing what he's capable of, a helping hand and someone he can rely on without messing up

•Someone who wouldn't mind if he was busy a lot doing something for the mansion as he is the 24/7 working butler 😭 someone patient and doesn't mind sitting in silence just holding eachother after a long day

• Prefers an ambivert, definitely wants to be able to have balanced conversations where they can be bothered listener and talker

• that's all I can think of 😭

I'm going to leave it here and do the other six in another part 😭

[iamcautiouslyoptimistic]

Hi pookie!!! It’s ya girl. Two things, a statement and a question.

1) Your support means the world to me <3. You’re always liking my posts and sending in asks and I’m very grateful for your existence. If it weren’t for you, I probably would’ve stopped posting about my OCs. You indirectly helped me to stop worrying about notes, being cringe or annoying, and to post whatever I feel like! Thank you so much for being a kind person 💜

2) This is actually more like a series of questions (💀), so sorry if it’s too much!

How long did it take for Mason and Helina to ‘confess’/express their feelings for each other? Does anybody (besides Woods obviously) else in the safehouse know about their relationship? Who fessed up first? Assuming there were no obstacles between the two, what would their idea lives look together?

Answer as many as you want/feel like! No pressure 💜

Bro you're so sweet😭 I'm so happy that I've been able to do that for you and offer that sort of support! And I will continue to do so because I love seeing your OCs and how much thought you put into them🫶🏻 DON'T EVER STOP!!!!!

THOSE ARE SUCH GOOD QUESTIONS THAT I WILL GLADLY ANSWER!!! I don't have everything figured out just yet as some of their story is still in the works (mainly because I'm indecisive lol) SO I'll write out the thoughts I do have in regards to these questions, though they may be subject to change later on. Sorry this is long😵‍💫

Oh boy, I'd definitely say it took them awhile to finally tell each other how they felt. Helina's personality goes through some extreme changes as a result of the brainwashing so she becomes more reserved in certain ways, especially in regards to romance. It was never important to her until she met Mason so the genuine feelings he inspires are rather new to her. Mason also seems to be more mellow (I'm still familiarizing myself with his character, tho, so please tell me if I'm wrong), especially after the death of his wife. As a result, it would definitely be a slow-burn romance which would be hindered even more by the hunt for Perseus.

Mason was probably the first to confess. I can see him pursuing Helina more because she'd be distracted by her responsibilities to MACV-SOG. She'd find comfort in that sort of thing, especially if she was nervous about the blossoming feelings she has for Mason👀 As a result, he'd be the one making the first moves and pulling her out of her shell a bit until she was comfortable.

Besides Woods, I would say Adler and Park are also aware of Mason and Helina's affections for each other, considering they watch Bell closely throughout the game. Adler doesn't really approve since he knows who Helina was before joining MACV-SOG and knows that this new version of her is one he helped create. I like the idea that Mason and Woods would be unaware of the fact that Bell was brainwashed, explaining why they were friendlier than the others throughout the game (I could just be completely misinterpreting that tho lol). That whole revelation is something Helina and Mason have to work through together after the game.

In a perfect world, Helina and Mason would be a married couple with a nice house, a cute dog, and David as their son. The classic American dream life. However, with all the crap they've been through, that perfect life simply isn't possible for them😔

[astroismypassion]

Hey, I need to know your opinion here. It's totally fine if you don't wanna but just read maybe you'll enjoy 🤣

My moon and venus is in his 8h and my sun in his 7h; his sun is in my 8h, his moon is in my 9h and his venus in my 7h.

Sometimes I feel very overwhelmed— like why are you so obsessed with me?🤡 like what does he even sees in me??

He constantly tells me that he would leave his family if they tried to stop us being together (I'm assamese and he's a nepali— different tribes also his family knows about us but mine doesn't cuz they are strict asf)

I will not lie, at first I totally ignored him (for 2 year💀 kinda on and off contact- we were classmates) but there was something about him that kept pulling me towards him like crazy istg

He can't express very well nor can I wait he's actually better at expressing his feelings compared to me.

He's lost his v card and I have not. For me, my v card needs to go to someone who is gonna be my permanent not 'maybe/temporary'— he thinks otherwise. So different values and morals.

He constantly spends money and have to keep reminding him to be more strict with his finances (this one irks me so bad)

He gets jealous so fcking easily— like I do too but I try to rationalize my feelings and tell myself that "no they're are just friends, he can have friends okayyy!!" I try to control my possesiveness but no he doesn't.

This is actually my first serious relationship. I'm scared that I will lose my v card to him— no bad if we are the end game but if not then i don't wanna give other than my future hubby TT

I'm scared to commit with him bcs in his past he played around with different girls (NO I'M NOT A 'I CAN FIX HIM' ENERGY 😭) but he claims that I'm the first girl he wants to be with and commit too (his sister told me that he never cried for any girl in his past except for one but that was long ago and now he cries for me bcs I don't trust him) yesterday he told me that "you are making me crazy— are you having fun by having a guy run behind you like a dog??" I was speechless. He was drunk btw he called an hour ago apologizing (he doesn't remember anything he apologized cus his roommates kept scaring him that he told me shit) we haven't talked after that tho

Like always it's an on and off connection.

Okay there's so many things I wanna spill but I'll stop here. Thank you for reading, I hope you had fun my reading my tea lol 😹 anyways

Byeeee<333

Hi!

Hm, lots of complex questions these days in my mailbox. No, but it's alright. I understand the 8th house synastry desire to vent haha. Honestly, so much is to be said, when you are in an 8th house connection.

Definitely don't rush losing v card with the said person. You sound indecisive, which often leads to a "no". Remember that when you are unclear, confused or unsure about something, it's because it's probably a "no". I think that 8th house connections (especially with Sun in the 8th or Mercury in the 8th overlay) are not really worth losing your v card, if you are not beforehand in a committed, mutual partnership with this person. Otherwise, it's just regret and kind of feeling present you would wish to wait it out for someone that you truly have a mutual respect of boundaries in the connection with. If this has not been discussed and establish beforehand, I advise to not engage in any type of sexual activity. Sex might overly complicate already complex situation and when it's sex and feelings involved, the confusion is even stronger after. Don't think that by having sex this will give you more clarity. Try to simplify things for yourself and not overly complicate them, mutual respect is very important.

[leadthemtoparadise]

Emperor's Choice

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death, Rape/Non-Con

Relationships: Paul Atreides/Original Female Character(s), Feyd-Rautha Harkonnen/Original Female Character(s), Paul Atreides/Feyd-Rautha Harkonnen

Tags: Angst, Dark, Slavery, Sexual Slavery, Rape/Non-con Elements, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Implied Mind Rape, Explicit Sexual Content, Implied Sexual Content, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Blood and Gore, Gore, Body Horror, Torture, Implied/Referenced Torture, Psychological Torture, Dark Paul Atreides, Manipulative Paul Atreides, Protective Paul Atreides, Feyd-Rautha Harkonnen Is His Own Warning, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat

Description: Paul Muad'Dib Atreides was dead set on carving a path for himself in the universe, to mold everything to his taste, and she was no exception. He took what he wanted, who he wanted, when he wanted. She had no choice but to comply. To resist meant to die.

Word count: 5k

Note: Hope you took those warnings seriously. 💀

Ao3 here.

Chapter 1. Chapter 2. ⬇️

He sat her on the edge of his own bed and motioned at the tray on the small table beside her.

"Eat."

She looked indecisive again. She hesitated as she glanced at the tray. Why couldn't he understand that despite the fact that she had two masters, she had to obey both of them - and that their orders were opposite from one another now? She tried to decide who was more frightening out of the two. She bit her lower lip and chanced a look at Paul who decided to crouch in front of her.

"I am unsure how much should I eat, master."

Her curious, cautious sentence made him furrow his brows. He was, without a doubt, a very handsome man; perhaps in another universe, she would've seen only the good side of him.

"As much as you can."

As much as you can – well, that left her puzzled. In his presence, her stomach shrunk to the size of her fist. It did not help that she didn't want to screw this up, but she couldn't properly do as she was told. Her hands twitched in her lap where they rested.

Seeing her impassivity, Paul realised that this would be harder than he thought. His lips formed a thin line as he furrowed his brows further, truly resembling a hawk focusing on his prey.

"Tell me why you're not obeying me."

He ordered now, no, demanded an answer, immediately, and Paul felt a twinge of guilt when the colour left her face – but it soon faded when she started to shake her head in distress. Paul reached up to cup her cheeks, the sudden motion making her twitch and squeak. A part of him felt horrible for making her feel so scared.

"What is it, angel? Tell me. Don't be afraid." He gently kissed her forehead and he felt her hot tears rolling down against his fingers. "Hey, hey", he pulled away, looking in her eyes as he stroked her tears away. "Everything is alright. I won't hurt you, there's no wrong answer to my question. Tell me the truth."

The truth! That was so easy to command when he had made it very clear that he did not like knowing she only ate once that day! Why did those who owned her require the complete opposite from her?

"I'm- I can only eat once a day, master."

"I see." Paul's voice dropped a bit, then he slowly inhaled and exhaled as he used his learned techniques to calm himself down. He'd have a few words with Feyd-Rautha about this. "Do you understand that I am his equal?"

Her brows twitched slightly.

"Yes, master."

"Good. So, following that logic, that I am his equal, because we're both Emperors and we both own you – I can overwrite his rules, isn't that right?"

Paul watched as her terror induced mind was trying to accept what he was saying. He could see, thanks to his Mentat training, that she was trying her best to be as good for him as possible. That gave him a sliver of hope. She was not completely lost.

"I think so, yes, master", she murmured indecisively.

"Alright. Then forget his stupid rule. You're eating three times a day, and you're going to eat all of it, right now."

Paul waited, and she eyed the tray again, still hesitating. What in the sands did Feyd-Rautha promise he'd do to her if she broke this rule? He could imagine, although, he really did not wish to. After hesitating for a few more seconds, she reached out for the tray and moved it in her lap.

All of it.

Having consumed mostly bland foods in the past few days, the fruits and vegetables beside the fresh bread and cheese looked a lot for her. She wasn't sure she'd be able to eat all of that – but the 'all of it' sounded very specific. Really – all of it?

Another beauty of her training was that she was not allowed to ask questions, and Paul did not say anything about that rule. Frankly, he probably didn't even know about it. So she didn't ask. Just ate.

She did not stop, not even when the second half of the food made her feel nauseous. She did not look in his eyes as she did as she was told, but tears helplessly gathered in her eyes when she saw just how much more she was supposed to send down.

Paul observed her as she finally started to eat. He tilted his head to the right as tears gathered in her eyes. What was this, now? Didn't she feel relief that she was finally allowed to have good quality food? Her body must've been low on vitamins and necessary nutrients. He could recall that every breath she took earlier that evening allowed him see her ribs. Paul remembered the way she was forced to stand on her tiptoes, pulling every muscle in her body tight; the way she drew breath after breath to scream, even during the pauses between the lashes that landed on the most sensitive parts of her body.

That wasn't just a lesson for her.

Now, again, he wondered if he had any chances to quit this situation. He didn't want to be what he had to be, and he wanted his union with Feyd-Rautha even less. He recalled what Gurney told him once: that Harkonnens were brutal, in every sense of the word.

But the truth was... he was Harkonnen, too. Did that mean that a part of him enjoyed watching her suffer? She had served the Princess Irulan, and ultimately, the Emperor. Why should he even feel bad for not intervening when Feyd-Rautha dished out so much pain to her? She must've been loyal to the Imperium if she could wriggle herself so high, from a servant's viewpoint… being the handmaiden of the daughter of the Emperor surely brought priviliges… but they couldn't really know, as everyone else from the Emperor's court was dead.

He swallowed now as he brought himself back to the present, and he silently watched her as she was silently crying. He noticed that now every bite was a visible struggle, but she did not stop. Was it him now who tormented her? He wasn't even aware he was doing it.

"What's the matter?" He murmured, his quiet voice making her flinch slightly.

"I- I can't, master", she managed to squeak, her voice a whisper that had been pushed through all of her fear.

Raw fear. You are terrifying. It was fascinating to see for how long a human could be kept in terror. Even if he wasn't causing her any harm, she was torturing herself for him. Constantly.

"You can't what?"

She was biting her lower lip so hard that Paul was sure she'd draw her own blood. As if it wasn't enough how many times she was covered in it so often, she caused herself enough damage to do the same!

"I can't- I'm sorry, I can't eat all of it, master."

She spoke fast, her tone a tad higher than usual as her big tears rolled down her cheeks. Paul sighed in his defeat. This just won't do.

"Darling, it's alright." He reached for a handkerchief, making sure that he moved slow enough that he wouldn't frighten her. Again. He glanced back up in her eyes once he dried her tears up, his own blue within blue gaze looking way too tired by then. "Just eat as much as you need."

"Master", she murmured, puzzled, "you said I had to eat all of it."

He stared at her for a long few seconds. Those seconds stretched for eternity for her. New tears gathered in her eyes when she realised that this was not a good answer, but there were so many things she could do.

Tell the truth.

Address her owners properly.

Perform tasks to the letter.

All those rules were drilled hard into her head and she couldn't understand why didn't they reach the desired reaction from Paul when she did everything he asked – or at least, tried to. Feyd-Rautha would react accordingly. If he ordered her to eat it all and she admitted that she couldn't, he'd retaliate that. Her body would be covered in new welts and cuts for sure; and a part of her almost wished Paul would do something similar, too. Yes, it would hurt, but it'd also make her free of the guilt she felt, thus, it'd make her feel better. Why was Paul so… different? Was it… wrong?

It was wrong.

"I did… not mean it… like that", he said slowly.

He put the handkerchief down on the nightstand and pinched the bridge of his nose as he shut his eyes in pure frustration. He didn't think she'd take that as an order, much less that she'd take it literally – or else! That was the worst of it. Because he knew what she thought he'd do to her if she didn't do as she was told.

"God, I'm so tired", he sighed, mainly to himself, before he lowered his hand and looked up at her again. Obviously, she looked even more distressed, and seeing that, he gave up entirely. They will not go through all of this that night. "Alright. Let's try it again. Are you hungry?"

She struggled for a few moments between telling the truth and lying to escape impending punishment. Her lower lip wobbled. No, she couldn't lie. If she was caught, the punishment for that would be far worse.

"No, master."

"Good." He took the tray from her and placed it on the nightstand. "Lie down in the bed, cover yourself with the sheet if you're feeling cold, make yourself comfortable, and relax. Try and fall asleep, alright? It's fine if you're struggling to do so, you've had an awful day."

"Yes, master."

She did exactly as he'd told her. She lied down, covered herself with the sheet – right up to her neck –, and curled up on the bed, making herself comfortable with pillows. Paul half smiled, but it was short-lived, as her eyes still looked terrified.

"You'll stay here with me", he promised softly, "you can sleep for as long as it suits you."

He had decided earlier that Feyd-Rautha would have some time in the court, so he allowed himself one day of rest with her. It may prove challenging if he had to go through every little thing, but he did not want to be alone. He wanted to pretend, if even for a day, that he had the illusion of companionship.

Perhaps that was why Feyd-Rautha challenged him that day.

Their constant push and pull for power over the other proved to be a tiring game already, but on top of the council and war meetings, Paul found himself drained much faster than he initially thought. He felt like he was ready to lead the fremen against the universe, if there was a need, and he was powerful enough to do that, but the rest of it? Living up to the Harkonnens' – especially Feyd-Rautha's – expectations? Dealing with his cold, detached demeanor?

Paul huffed quietly as he sat on the edge of the bed, showing his back to her as he removed his shoes. He'd never be able to leave Arrakis, everyone knew that. The seat of his power was there. And now that he had to share his power with Feyd-Rautha, the Harkonnen was bound to remain on Arrakis as well.

"You look tired, master", she mumbled behind him, and he half smiled as he stared forward, seeing nothing.

"I am tired, angel", he muttered before he pulled his feet up on the bed and lied down beside her, facing her, this time.

She took her time observing his face. The dark circles under his completely blue eyes, the line of his mouth, the way his brows seemed like they couldn't not frown. She decided she liked his face. It was pleasant for her to look at him. He observed her the same way, in silence, taking in the details of her features, and for once, she felt relatively safe. And while she knew it wouldn't last for long, she wanted to commit it to memory; these moments would be rare in the future. She could feel it.

Paul's lashes fluttered a bit before he raised a hand to touch her cheek. As he expected, she flinched, but he didn't mention it, just stroked her face with his thumb. His finger felt rough against her skin, from practising with the sword every day, no doubt, but it did not feel bad at all. After a few seconds, Paul removed his hand and rested it between them.

"Try to sleep", he murmured as he closed his eyes. "Good night, angel."

"Good night, master", she whispered.

It was fascinating how he trusted her enough that he wanted to fall asleep with her in his bed. Did he trust her? After all that happened… how could that be that he thought she was completely harmless? Of course, she heard the legends… she knew that he could foresee the future, thanks to the spice and being something… they had a name for that… she couldn't remember.

There wasn't much she could pick up from the other slaves and servants. She was the one and only Feyd-Rautha did not kill after the first few nights – other pleasure slaves weren't as 'lucky' as she was. Paul had told Feyd-Rautha that he couldn't keep his cannibalistic darlings when Feyd-Rautha moved to Arrakis, so he had nothing but what this planet had to offer. It was odd he grew attached to her, out of all people; he could've had anyone, really, with the power he had at his fingertips. But perhaps it was more exciting to know that he was tormenting the handmaiden of Princess Irulan.

She felt a twinge of sorrow whenever she thought of the late Princess. She thought of all the things she had to do for her, and how kind she was towards her once she realised that she was reliable. She'd shown her her writings, the books she'd been working on, and sometimes, the Princess allowed her to spend some time with her in the library to read a book she liked… which she was allowed to keep…

Soon after, she had nothing, not even her name once more. Paul's army destroyed everything the Emperor, and his servants, had. Even the clothes she was wearing were taken from her and burned.

She opened her eyes when Paul twitched beside her. His brows furrowed in his dream, his fingers moved in an attempt to grab something. She realised he was dreaming.

"Nn… no…"

His quiet murmur made her furrow her brows, now. Did he have a nightmare? She knew she should not be curious, but she couldn't help it; what could he dream about? He was the Emperor… the most powerful being in the universe – in unison with Feyd-Rautha, true, but his power over the known universe was infinite.

She moved just slightly closer, but he did not wake up, even though he protested in a soft murmur again, and his expression scrunched up for a few seconds. She bit her lower lip. She shouldn't. She shouldn't. Mustn't. It'd violate his rest. But, at the same time… he owned her, and she must serve her, and he had been nice to her… or tried to… right?

She ever so slowly reached out, between the bed and his head, to touch his temple.

Her eyes rolled up in their sockets before they closed shut as she absorbed his nightmares.

Visions of the past and the future intertwined in her mind; most of the pictures and sounds were gibberish and made no sense to her, but some were positively terrifying. She couldn't know if they even happened at some point to Paul or were they just imagined or possible futures and pasts. Temples raised, families and entire planets burned alive in his name. Two children, abandoned. Paul, without eyes, wandering in the desert completely alone. Caladan, attacked by Harkonnens. Feyd-Rautha, dead, lying on the ground, his eyes and mouth wide open, a crysknife in Paul's hand as he stood above him. Feyd-Rautha suffocating Paul… Paul standing between Feyd-Rautha and her to protect her… her… with a child in her arms? Her, dead, lying on a table, as white as the snow, eyes wide open and vacant, mouth hung open, her hair flowing down towards the floor, her body taken apart… dissected like an animal…

She couldn't remove her hand from Paul's temple. They've spent the entire night like that; his mind finally getting a rest while hers was trying to catch up with everything it experienced.

The horrors he had to see every night he went to sleep, when he couldn't keep the visions in check. He could direct the paths he saw when he was awake, but when he was asleep, everything went their own course.

And she absorbed it all.

The morning found Paul completely rested. That was odd. He couldn't get a good night's sleep in months. Not since he was on Arrakis. He opened his eyes and saw her; pale face, closed eyes that turned beneath her closed lids. His mind remained astonishingly empty. Paul ever so gently moved to sit up, a frown on his face. She twitched and twisted, turned around on her other side as soon as the connection was broken, and she let out a soft gasp as she woke up.

"Are you awake?"

That soft, quiet question was enough to make her tremble on the bed. She couldn't turn to look at him, not now, not like this. It felt like she stole something from him, something she could never give back… something she wasn't allowed to see.

But Feyd-Rautha's training kicked in all over again. She couldn't not answer a question her betters asked of her.

"I-" A brief pause as she was trying to gather her thoughts. Everything was hazy. She knew she'd need days to get through with all that she'd seen and heard. "Yes, master."

"Did you sleep well?"

Tell the truth.

She flinched slightly. She made her decision. If he knew, she wouldn't get away with it easily. Stealing like that-

"Yes, master."

Paul reached out and ever so gently rubbed her shoulder, making her flinch again. Did he know she lied just now…?

"We will spend the day in here", he decided, "I want to learn more about you."

His slender fingers ran down her back, making her shiver.

"I can't tell you much, master." She paused when he did not answer, just kept stroking her back. "I am just a slave."

"You're more than that", he drew closer, making her breath hitch in her chest. She was afraid to move, like a little mouse who'd been found by the cat. "Aren't you?"

He knew he didn't have visions when he slept because of her. She shut her eyes tightly but all she saw was herself, lying on that table under the bright light, her insides spread out, on display. He knew. A muffled sob broke out of her. He knew. Was that her future? Her definite future? He knew. Or a possible future? If he saw all of these things, all the time – how could he not lose his mind?

He knew.

"Master, I am nothing-"

"Where are you from?"

"I can't remember, m-"

Paul did not wait for her to finish her sentence.

"Who are your parents?"

"I don't remember them, ma-"

"How did you get so close to the Emperor and his daughter?"

Paul grabbed her shoulder and pulled her to force her to lie on her back. He resembled a hawk more than ever; his sharp features enhanced by the frown on his beautiful face. She trembled under him; she had no way to escape the interrogation.

"The servants of Shaddam Corrino IV. picked me up at the Outer Rim of this galaxy, master", she answerred truthfully, "I've been serving a slaveholder with a couple of other slaves. I do not remember anything else before that, master. I can't remember who sold me, I can't remember my parents or my home planet, master. I've tried-", she added when his eyes darkened. She misunderstood it; she thought he was angry at her, when in fact, he was helplessly furious at those who sold her in the first place. "I've tried to remember, master. I really did. I'm- I'm sorry for my failure, master-"

Her voice was muffled by fear of the inevitable punishment for not being effective enough, for not being able to provide answers. But Paul seemed thoughtful instead. His blue within blue eyes searched her face; she had the features of a noble, not a lowborn. He tilted his head a little.

"It's alright", he replied then, his voice calm now. He'd search the past and the future for answers, and he'd see what he'd find. "Don't worry about it. Today, we just rest."

And that was the truth. She was allowed to stay in a safe, calm environment the entire day. Close to him. Safe with him.

It did not last long.

She was bound in a pillory, blindfolded, ring gagged the next evening, on stage for a show. All she could do was moan, scream and drool, as Feyd-Rautha was decorating her body with a lash. Again.

It seemed like this was his favourite passtime. Whipping his favourite pleasure slave was something that could get him to relax, to release all the pent up stress for sitting in damned meetings every damned day. Tormenting a helpless woman brought him pleasure.

Understanding this didn't make Paul understand him better, much to his frustration. He couldn't decide how to proceed with him. How to keep him under check. How to keep him on a leash tight enough, so he wouldn't cause harm to his legacy. He wasn't stupid enough to use the Voice on him; Feyd-Rautha was untameable, and if he tried to practise control over him like that, it could cause a disaster. If anything, Paul wanted to avoid killing the Harkonnen. It'd create too many complications. At the moment, he had no choice but to partake in his sick games to see what the other really wanted from him.

Feyd-Rautha rested the whip across her back.

"Keep it there", he ordered gruffly, and she went stock still.

From where Paul was told to sit and watch, he could see that Feyd-Rautha shot him a challenging look. He didn't say anything, but his gaze said it all anyway: you demand I keep her alive, and yet you do nothing when I torment her? Her back and bottom, right down to her thighs, were covered in vivid, red welts by now. Any more harsh strokes and Feyd-Rautha would probably draw blood. But it wasn't his intention tonight. He wanted to see how much stimulation Paul needed to join in.

Feyd-Rautha walked back to her with weights in his hands, which he attached to her nipples with clamps. The noises she made as the weights pulled on her breats made Feyd-Rautha glance back at Paul with a smirk, before he flicked the weights, drawing pathetic whines out of her.

That seemed to be the last straw. Paul silently, slowly rose from his seat, like a dark shadow of a bad omen, and approached them in silence; she was too preoccupied breathing heavily through all the pain inflicted on her body. She couldn't even see anything because of her blindfold, anyway... but she could feel fingers gently run up her inner thigh a second later. Given that Feyd-Rautha's firm hands were still tangled in her hair, it wasn't hard to piece it together that they were not alone. She shuddered at the touch that travelled up on her thigh, closer and closer to her heat between her thighs. The fingers never touched her there, but a tongue- her little button was so sensitive by then that she thought for a moment she'd cum only from that one stroke of that hot, wet tongue.

Paul kept his eyes on Feyd-Rautha's face. The Harkonnen's lips parted; how dared he ruin his game of pain he staged for their shared slave? A low growl left him at the sight of Paul devouring, worshipping her cunt. Her thighs trembled as she was trying to reach her orgasm, but a few seconds later she moaned again as Paul removed the weigths from her breasts. The noise of the weights hitting the floor had Feyd-Rautha narrow his eyes. She gasped as Paul gently massaged the pain out of her breasts, bringing her even closer to her peak.

This just won't do.

Feyd-Rautha roughly removed his underwear, grabbed her hair and pushed it all back against the wood in which she was trapped in, to shove his cock down her helpless throat. He couldn't allow his slave finish before him - but the way Paul was taunting him made him feral. Even from this distance, he could see that the dark haired man was smiling as he was pleasuring her, and Feyd-Rautha wanted to wipe that smile off of the other's face as soon as possible.

He pulled away from her mouth and let her cough and gag, before he walked slowly behind her as well. Paul didn't mind him; until Feyd-Rautha grabbed him by his arm and yanked him up on his feet. She helplessly whined at that; she was so close just a moment ago, and it felt awful to be denied.

"If you want to play games with me", Feyd-Rautha growled in Paul's ear, "prepare to lose."

Paul opened his mouth to reply, but his words never came as Feyd-Rautha yanked his pants off of him. A brief moment of panic before he was pushed forward, made to bend against her body, forced to grab the pillory just behind and above her. His hard cock was stuck under her dripping cunt, her backside radiated heat against his body, and he started to pant heavily himself as soon as he felt Feyd-Rautha force himself inside of him.

Memories of their first night together flooded back in his mind. He resisted - although weakly, it was easy for Feyd-Rautha to twist Paul's right arm behind him.

"N-no", he whimpered, making Feyd-Rautha chuckle darkly in his ear, causing goosebumps to raise all down his spine.

"You moan like a girl", he teased darkly, grabbing Paul's curly hair to pull his head back with his left hand and whisper in his ear. "Perhaps I should call you my wife from now on."

"Feyd-"

"Shut the fuck up", Feyd-Rautha thrusted in, making Paul cry out in pleasure and pain, "and take it."

She trembled beneath Paul as she felt the hard thrusts herself with which Feyd-Rautha claimed his husband. Paul's every noise changed from the last; the painful whines rapidly transformed into pleasured moans as he was stuck between her and his husband.

"You want to make sure she enjoys herself", Feyd-Rautha whispered in Paul's ear between his thrusts, his own orgasm building rapidly in his belly, "so fuck her."

"Feyd!!"

Paul cried out softly, in absolute ecstasy. He knew that one single stroke to his cock would end him.

"Do it", Feyd-Rautha growled, pausing his thrusts to pull Paul back from her, just a bit. "Can't leave her like this, can we? All that foreplay... ending it with an empty cunt would be a waste for all of us."

It was true Paul wanted to divert Feyd-Rautha's attention. He wanted him to stop hurting her, yes. But at what cost? What did he create with this? His visions never showed him this, and he was taken by surprise by the events.

When he still did not move, Feyd-Rautha did it for him, guiding him inside her warmth. She tensed up, her thighs trembled, Paul's knuckles went white as he was gripping the wood above her head as hard as he could. Helpless tears formed at the corners of his eyes as he stared up at the ceiling, but he saw nothing. If Feyd-Rautha started moving again... he'd-

"Good boy", Feyd-Rautha praised him, making heat spread in his body, "it wasn't that hard, was it?"

"Feyd-", Paul pleaded.

"Who would've thought", Feyd-Rautha chuckled deeply, gripping Paul's hair tighter as he whispered in his ear, "that the fremens' great Muad'Dib, their precious Voice from the Outer World... is just a needy little slut."

His thrusts returned with full force, and Paul quickly lost the coherence of his own thoughts. There was nothing but pleasure. He reached back with one of his hands to get a grip on Feyd-Rautha - trying to find a handle of some sort to make him realise that they were in this mess together. Two Harkonnens, two Emperors - two sides of the same coin.

"Make her cum", Feyd-Rautha growled in his ear, forcing him to bend over her body. The whip fell to the ground, forgotten by all of them. Up until now, she was almost quiet; her reactions to Paul's rutting was almost inaudible compared to Paul's lusftul moans. "Use your hands."

It was so easy to just obey. He didn't even think, he still couldn't form a coherent thought. There was absolutely no resistance, and it was fascinating. His right hand travelled down under her, and he quickly found what he was looking for. Her thighs were trembling a little more violently as he drew hard circles around her sweetest spot. Knowing and feeling that Paul was trapped between her and Feyd-Rautha kept her on the edge, and now, his fingers on her needy clit-

"Cum for me, you whores", Feyd-Rautha snapped above them, dragging his nails down Paul's back before he leaned down as well, reaching for her breasts to squeeze them hard.

She cried out first, and squeezed Paul inside of her deliciously, which brought him over the edge, which, in return, finally brought Feyd-Rautha to the peak of his pleasure as well. Minutes passed in their joint ecstasy, moans and panting filled the room as they came down from their highs together. Paul rested his right hand against her belly, his left hand still gripping the wood of the pillory, while Feyd-Rautha had them both in his arms.

"Neither of you should forget", the Harkonnen whispered, satisfied, "that you both belong to me."

[morningstar-chronicles]

Hi, Maddie! I hope you're having a lovely day! Thank you for conducting free readings. I'd like to request for one, please.

Question: What will my future husband find funny/entertaining about my personality?

Your work, time, and efforts are highly appreciated! Please be well and safe.

- Maryel 🌼

hello friend! please excuse the amount of time this took 💀. here is your spread:

while shuffling i picked up on a cooler colour palette in terms of energies (light blue, indigo, spring green, lavender) which indicates ??

also my phone would NOT stop going off during this reading to the point where i had to put it elsewhere so it would stop distracting me so do with that information what you will. also the cards spilled everywhere so someone has a lot to say here.

getting the distinct feeling that i should start with the oracle cards (which you got a million of, by the way) for this reading, so i guess i'll do that??

NOTE: i'm not gonna lie to you, i asked the cards the wrongass question, but i really don't want to reshuffle 💀. i asked what your future partner would find attractive/endearing about your personality, or what they appreciate about you. so, while not quite the question you asked, i hope you enjoy the reading nonetheless.

queen of hearts - heart-minded, benevolence, warning. i'm getting that you're a very empathetic person and that this person is really receptive and appreciative of the way you're able to look after them.

selfhood - farsightedness, transmutation, expansion. wow okay maryel slay! you're also able to prepare for any outcome, and your future work/academic life is thriving. you're a very street-smart person, and you handle situations elegantly and swiftly.

the jewel in the lotus - release, abundance, balance. you're very attentive with a good work-life balance. you're kind of slaying honestly?? you've got your shit HANDLED.

the saviour - trust, protection, self-sufficiency. they admire that you're a very independent person and that you can handle yourself. to be so completely honest with you, you don't need this person to thrive. but they seem very grateful that you let them stick around anyways.

the shapeshifter - perspective, challenge, medicine. represents a dualistic nature, or adaptability. the phrase "as above, so below" appears in the tarot book for this card, which i only mention -not because it's a bible quote- but because it reminds me of the welcome home ARG. in the most backwards way possible, i think spirit is trying to tell me that you feel like home to this person. or maybe you just enjoy ARGs, who knows. i did mention that you were an intellectual

two of swords (reversed) - indecision, avoidance, blocked emotion. i got kind of a sad vibe here aw :( okay, the way i interpreted this card in this context was that this person does think you can be a bit avoidant when it comes to love sometimes, but they're happy to have something they can help you with. to this person, you just seem so perfect and out of their league that they almost need you to have some kind of reason to need them. they seem really scared that one day you won't want them, and you'll up and leave.

MY PHONE WILL NOT STOP DINGING I CAN HEAR IT ACROSS THE ROOM. this is a sign. this person is singing you nothing but praises i swear. they have a million things to say and they will not let me get a word in edgewise.

seven of pentacles (reversed) - delayed success, slowing down, feeling unmotivated. in conjunction with the three of wands (which is down a couple paragraphs) i'm thinking that maybe this person thinks the only downside about you is how long they have to wait before they get to be with you. the seven of pentacles in reverse implies all good things, but that they come a lot later than originally anticipated, which makes me think that maybe this connection is still a while off.

two of pentacles - juggling, disorganization, feeling scattered. i'm seeing that though most people might find messiness or disorganization to be a negative quality your person thinks this aspect of you is very endearing and cute aw <3

death (reversed) - resistance, being stuck, bad habits. in conjunction with the last card i'm getting that this person wants you to know that your flaws are loved too <3. this person loves you wholly, both good and bad.

three of wands - peace, waiting period, vision. i'm hearing "you were worth the wait" so maybe you meet this person later in life, or you don't start dating them until later or life, or maybe there's even some kind of reason that you don't get married until later in life, but this person truly loves you and believes that everything leading up to these moments is worth it in the end.

NOT PICTURED: i found the emperor card on my floor several days after i first drew for this reading while i was interpreting. at first i thought it wasn't connected to this reading at all, but my cousin (also a tarot witch) pointed out that it likely had to do with my last reading so i'm taking it.

the emperor - structure, authority, discipline. you're definitely in charge in this relationship. that's where i think i'm going to leave that.

[nevis-the-skeleton]

Hi! I saw your like,,request book on ao3 and thought I'd request something :))

Anything with the ship Silas X Fowler would be great and I'm up to read it,no matter what it is about

But if you'd like a more shaped out idea then maybeee

Something like: Silas kidnappa Fowler to interrogate him but Fowler manages to annoy Silas so much he just lets him go 💀 Fowler can be like,,annoying but also flirty and in my head Silas is an easily flustered person soo

Ty for considering!

Well I'm not exactly going to make a ship-ship, because I wouldn't really know how to build it ^^; sorry about that, sincerely. But I can well imagine Fowler being a huge pain in the neck X) a bit like he was with Starscream XD, it could be funny. And just Silas who is too fed up XD. Thanks for your request ^^!

~~~

Fowler hadn't really expected things to turn out like this, he had other plans for today. But he somehow had to abort them all, after his unfortunate encounter with MECH.

He could now add "being kidnapped by a group of terrorists" to his list of the worst days of his life, right after "being kidnapped by giant robots", and "discovering the existence of the robots in question".

Fowler knew Silas would show up soon, and he clearly had no intention of telling him anything, no way. He wasn't a government agent for nothing!

He waited for a long time, alone, strapped to this chair, but he wasn't particularly scared or anything like that. The feeling he felt was mostly boredom. It was then that he heard the door to his cell open, and he saw the MECH leader enter, accompanied by two henchmen.

“Oh, the Grinch is here! Hi ! Fowler sneered. Christmas is not for now you know, will have to wait a little longer!"

Silas was dressed in green and still grumpy, William couldn't find a better comparison! Of course, the MECH leader soon scowled at this remark. Perfect!

“I see you're in a playful mood. Silas hissed.

- Oh yes, but you know, it all depends on the game. I admit that I like fast games, like… hm… Connect 4! Ah, that's a good game! smiled Fowler.

- That's enough!

- …”

The agent pretended to be sulky, and looked away with boredom, then said:

"Something tells me we're going to play something that's too close to the endless Risk..."

Silas frowned, while Fowler continued his speech, not really caring about his current situation:

“Well, I don't say, it's a very good game. But, I'm already behind on my work, so if we could hurry. »

The MECH leader roughly grabbed William's chair, and pulled it towards him, before growling:

“I said, enough is enough! Shut up!"

The agent shrugged, smiling, and said nothing more. Silas sighed, then said:

"I want you to answer my questions!

- Ah well you have to decide! Fowler replied.

- What?

- You tell me to shut up, and now I have to talk! Gosh! How indecisive you are!"

The MECH leader felt the anger welling up inside him, and he pointed his gun at William, before exclaiming:

"I demand that you tell me everything you know about Transformers!

- What is it?

- What?

- Transformers... Hm… Is that a car brand? It sounds like a a car brand. Hm… Actually no, more like a car wash company! Oh! I can already imagine the slogan! "Take your car to Transformers! It will come out… Transformed!"

- This sucks… remarked one of the MECH soldiers, consequently receiving a death glare from Silas.

- Sounded better in my head. Fowler defended himself.

- Stop kidding me! I asked you to tell me about Transformers! You spend so much time with them! You must know things well!"

The agent shrugged, looking incredulous.

“Answer!"

He leaned his gun against William's head, then exclaimed:

"Otherwise I will kill you!"

Silas couldn't hide a surprised look, when Fowler had just said this sentence at the same time as him. The agent smiled defiantly, and the MECH leader scowled, before declaring:

“Erase that smile right now!"

Again, William had said it at the same time, his smile widening every second. The soldiers behind didn't know where to stand, looking around, doing their best not to meet their leader's gaze as he turned towards them.

"Nah, but the problem is that the bad guys these days are too predictable…" Fowler sighed.

Silas looked at William, and exclaimed, in chorus with him:

"Me?! Predictable?!"

This really pissed off the MECH leader, who fired a warning shot next to Fowler! This had its small effect for a moment, then the agent looked at the bullet hole on the ground, before returning to Silas with a sigh.

"Seriously?

- What now?!

- But… Dude! That's a classic shot! We are not in a movie! How do you expect me to take you seriously?!

- You better do it!"

The echo repeated the mixed words of the MECH leader and the agent, who continued to smile triumphantly. Silas brought his face closer to Fowler, and growled. 

“Believe me, I will make you regret it!"

William approached in turn, then asked:

"Are we going to kiss?"

The MECH leader stepped back and pushed the chair where Fowler was! He couldn't suppress a surprised scream, and he crashed to the floor, while Silas stormed out of the room, shouting:

“Throw that out!"

~

Optimus noticed that Agent Fowler seemed to be having pain in his back, and questioned:

"Everything's good?

- Oh yes, no problem. answered William.

- You seem to have a back injury.

- Oh, I just got pushed away, that's all.

- Pushed away?

- Yes yes. By a person with very little humor.

- I'm sorry for you.

- Oh, don't worry."

Fowler clenched his fists, and whispered:

"One day I will have him!

- What?" Prime asked in confusion, while the agent's gaze shone with determination.

~

Silas had rested outside to breathe after this more than exhausting encounter, when one of the soldiers originally with him in Fowler's cell came to see him.

"It's okay, we released him. declared the soldier.

- Good!

- But, I have a question.

- What?! the leader of the MECH got angry

- Why release him? Wouldn't it have been better to kill him?

- …

- …”

There was a long silence, until the soldier said:

"You love him, don't you?

- Shut up!"

[sun-undone]

You definitely reminded me of some key points in season 3 that I definitely didn’t consider.

The château being burned down by topper seal the deal of him becoming an enemy. It would be EXTREMELY hard to see topper having a redemption story after that with some corny BS line like “ hey John b no hard feelings with the château, right?”💀💀💀

But just a warning 👀 if you hear Sarah’s voice starting off a epsiode with a reflective monologue of confusion and indecisiveness, then You know what’s coming 😂 let’s see if the pates intentionally screw us over with her character growth.

I agree with Jarah B being the stable couple as the other couples are still fresh and have some more exploring to do with their dynamic. I would love to see a bond created between JJ and Mike maybe closer to the end of season 4 to show Mike he can be the guy for kie and mike should give him a chance just like he was given one before he got accepted into the kooks.. we’ll seeeeee

NOWWWW

MR COUNTRY CLUB HIMSELF

Mark my words if Rafe does not become a Pogue by the end of season 4 he will die sacrificing his life for them with his final words laying in Sarah’s arms saying

“ I finally did something right”

( if I am completely wrong just forget I ever existed 🤣🤣)

LETS BE HONEST Ward created a monster with rafe. But rafe mistakes EAT HIM UP ALIVE which is why he is heavy on drugs. I still remember him crying because Barry didn’t have any coke for him one day and he freaked out. Rafe is a lunatic but not a serial killer. Which is why he went back to save Ward after putting a hit man on him. Rafe wants real acceptance! His problem is he always tries to fix his mistakes last minute.

Rafe isn’t a kook because of the luxury lifestyle. He’s a kook because of power and validation. Unlike topper who is a silver spoon fed kid with no siblings. Just a spoiled single child.

If the JJ and rafe fight happens. I think it’s early in the season. I don’t think they’ll make it a big ordeal. I feel like the Pogue gang will have bigger fish to fry by the end of the season if they’re on a new treasure hunt.

OK, please rip my response to shreds with your thoughts, I’m all ears.

Look at what this stupid little boat show has done to us 🥲

oooooh okay this is such an interesting topic, Rafe is such an interesting character to begin with, so i think his storyline in s4 is the one i'm most curious about. especially since we got nothing from him in the s3 finale for whatever dumb reason.

this is a very complex conversation to have, but to start, i don't think i want a redemption for Rafe! and i think they kind of closed the door on him sacrificing himself for the pogues or Sarah in particular by having Ward do it in season 3. i truly don't know how far they're gonna go with him seeking revenge on the pogues for Ward's death, or what they plan on doing with his character after this season, but whatever it is, i just don't see him turning a new leaf by the end of it. the ending for Rafe i'd most like to see is him going to jail and losing all of his assets and possessions, including Tannyhill, so Pope can snatch it up and make it a museum that tells the true story of Denmark Tanny. but i'm getting ahead of myself, let's talk about the really juicy stuff

do Rafe's actions eat him up anymore? i definitely agree that in the first 2 seasons, he was an absolute wreck trying to hold himself together with coke and by desperately seeking Ward's validation to keep himself occupied. but what about in season 3? he has that scene with Kie in episode 2 where he tries to paint himself as the victim for killing Peterkin, and i think that his denial truly runs that deep at this point. through spinning the story in his own mind, he's convinced himself that he did the right thing so he doesn't have to feel all the complicated emotions that we saw him feeling at the end of season 1 and even into season 2 in the aftermath of the murder. but in terms of Sarah, he does actually get emotional when he explains that he knows it was wrong, which is incredibly interesting to me. he clearly hasn't done the same mental gymnastics in trying to defend himself for that, so i could definitely see him genuinely feeling remorseful, which opens up that same incredibly complex dynamic that he and Sarah have had for a while now. there's a part of him that will always resent her for being Ward's favorite for so long, but now we can see that there is real guilt about trying to kill her. i think that scene really captures the pure instability of Rafe's mental state that still exists in some capacity, mainly in terms of Sarah, which we unfortunately don't see a ton of moving forward in the season since he barely has any scenes with the pogues. in general, he actually seems pretty confident and secure, maybe the best we've ever seen him, in terms of his mental and emotional state. so is the guilt really bothering him that much? the coke doesn't seem to be a coping mechanism for him like it had been before, like he was constantly using for the majority of season 2. but we just didn't see him struggling with his past actions in season 3, it was much more about his present and especially his future.

but for season 4, i'm definitely expecting a return to the more unstable side of Rafe as he plots revenge. who will he target in particular? who does he think is most responsible? will he choose to leave the other pogues out of the crossfire? if he gets the chance to kill Sarah again, would he take it? if he really was remorseful at the beginning of season 3, has that been overtaken by rage by the beginning of season 4? the year and a half time jump makes this much trickier cause maybe he's been trying to keep his mind off of it and do his own thing and resist the urge to get revenge but when he hears about the pogues getting recognition for their findings, it sends him off the deep end again? or has he been stewing the entire time? has the time given his rage the chance to simmer down a bit or has it only boiled over into something worse? now that he has the blessing of his father, which is the only thing he's ever really wanted, what are his motivations? how will he shift his way of thinking now that there's no more Ward to aspire to or to spite, and how will his mental state fare now that he believes that the pogues have taken away any opportunity he might've had to mend his relationship with his father?

there's truly so many things to consider and countless different avenues that his path could take, and i really do not know what is most likely at this point!! Drew hasn't even gotten to set yet so there's absolutely no bts to speculate about either. personally, i love Rafe as a character and i don't wanna see him killed off, and like i said before, although he expresses remorse in 3x02, i'm not sure if it's gonna be enough moving forward. i've always been interested in his character and have never shied away from the fact that Ward absolutely aided in fucking him up for life, BUT i just don't know if Rafe himself thinks he needs redeeming. and i especially don't know if he'll be thinking in that way in the aftermath of Ward's death.

but really, who knows???? i'm voting squarely against a redemption or any kind of sacrifice, but god, i am so so so intrigued to see where the pates take him.

this was really fun to think about and i could probably ramble on for way way way longer, but this is long enough already!!! thanks for sparking up the discussion! ☺️

[nar-nia]

You already know I'm gonna ask you too answer them all

Hehe <3

~M 🐝

and now i have time to do so 🤩 let's go! (I don't know how long ago that was and i'm so sorry, i just found that at the bottom of the editor list)

1. What are your top 2 favourite types of weather? Why?

summer rain and a light spring wind 🤩 both are just comfortable and peaceful

2. What are some youtube video you have watched multiple times and would go back and watch again?

i've already answered that but mostly music mvs!

3. Who have you see live at a concert?

most importantly of course enhypen 🤩 everyone who was at kpop flex (enhypen, ive, g-idle, mamamoo, ab6ix, nct dream and kai) and tiziano ferro, an italian singer

4. Who is ur go to Mario character?

either toad or yoshi!

5. Who is ur comfort streamer(s)?

gronkh! he's a german youtuber and from time to time i come back to watch his old let's plays.

6. How many ppl/gcs have you currently got left unread

4... i'll answer them now.

7. What languages do you listen to music in?

mostly english, german and korean, but occasionally italian, swedish /norwegian, dutch and french too

8. What is one music performance you always go back and watch?

puh... i'd say the mama performances from itzy and enhypen!

9. Whats one WIP (any kind: song, story, art, ect.) you dont know if you will ever finish? Give us a sneak peak or tell us the concept/idea?

i had an idea for a mamma mia retelling with enhypen characters, but i'm not sure if i can pull it off. and yesterday i found the beginning of a story involving jake and a reader who works in a cafe, that i might continue if i get new ideas.

10. Whats ur MBTI?

ISFJ

11. Big spoon? Little spoon? Both?

both, depending on the day and the circumstances 😊

12. Go onto Pinterest (or google or picsart or smth) rn! and put together some sort of outfit you would wear and show us

13. Have you made anything by hand recently? Show it off!

does this count?

14. What is the 107th most recent photo in your gallery?

15. What is your toxic trait? (Non-serious answers only)

gatekeeping heeseung and failing 😔

16. What are you procrastinating rn?

... my bachelors thesis 🤐 (rn it's writing applications for internships)

17. Do you have any plants? What are their names and do they have a personality/any notable traits?

i do! but i also have a history of them dying, so i don't really give them names. i had one called bob but he sadly died at the beginning of this year. i do have two plants on discord which have names! one i can't say because i'd probably have to censor it, but the other one is called wonie 💀

18. Show me another picrew (or 2) you really like!

i don't have any on my phone rn 🥲

19. Whats the most recent reaction meme/image in your camera roll?

.. yeah

20. Have you got any random concepts/plans/ideas sketched or scribbled out on paper somewhere that you want to share?

just some story ideas but those are kept secret 🤫

21. What are 3 songs that are definitely on your road trip playlist. Why them?

Ooh.. good question. I think i'm too indecisive for that

22. Can you drive?

i can but i won't ever do it again

23. Who's the most famous person you have met? How, why, when, where?

i have a picture with three very famous voice actors from germany! and my boss is a famous singer for kids songs.

24. Is there a famous someone you are only a few people away from?

does my boss count?

25. Do you have good time management or are you failing as badly as I am? 💀 Credits to the love @nar-nia for q.25

i am clearly failing

26. Have you got anything (other than this blog) that you want to plug?

not really

27. Do you enjoy giving or receiving things more?

giving!!

28. Show me something you've drawn.

see above 🤭

29. What app/website/game is underrated and you think more people should use/play? Why?

idk but please drop some game recommendations!

30. What is the next social event you have planned? Are you looking forward to it?

a holiday with my parents, and yes!! also an ice skating show.

[1111jenx]

spicier astro placements &

their culture 🤎🪴🤎

(part 2)

astro culture vol I — check my masterlist

🪴 fixed placements culture is randomly asking your friends if they would help you dispose a body and you say it in a dead serious face like-😀??? like uh ok i guess i'll drive nancy pick up the recycling bags💀 loyalty >

🪴 double earth sun and moon culture is being soft as fuck but no one shall know what. also will forever be idolized by others tbh

🪴 water venus houses culture is looking at someone dead straight in eyes and told them you love them and expect them to say it back immediately. ma'am you met them a month ago.

🪴 pisces placements culture is cleaning your room and finding your old diaries and as you read it you realize how it was a good idea for you to go to therapy loves💕

🪴 jupiter in the first culture is talking about a traumatic experience like its nothing like "LOL ya so i my mom told me to lie to my dad and i practically helped her cheated on him LMFAO why are u crying its okay it was lowkey funny though i'm okay now hahahhahaha". are u? are u really amanda😄?

🪴 mercury - lilith culture is waiting for the other person to finish going off on you and mentally drafting up a 50 pages long speech thats about how you will royally ruin their lives<3

🪴 aries placements culture is telling that one guy at the party you go to like "bro its your business i don't really care but i think your girl is fucking someone upstairs in the room next to the washroom anyways have a good night"

🪴 libra mars culture is overworking yourself every week and literally look crusty af but still somehow magically go on a reset every friday and just show up to places looking like a flawless mf sex god.

🪴 7th house stellium culture is lowkey being hella aggressive and brutal af to your closed friends watch you publicly humiliated them but highkey can't ever be mean to literally ANYONE else🥲

🪴 leo placements culture is highkey being VERY nostalgic people like you care so much about values and traditions don't lie;)

🪴 mutable culture is NEVER EVER being able to stay on one topic for more than 2 minutes your attention span is shorter than your ex d🥰jk

🪴 gemini mercury culture is crying for one hour and then realized what you just did so you just start to look at yourself in the mirror like oh my god i can actually mf cry?💀💀

🪴 aries moon culture is highkey being indecisive af💀 don't @ me i know you are

🪴 libra mercury culture is being the middle ground ALWAYS when it comes to small irrelevant things but when it comes to your own stuff you know you're a hypocrite like i don't even have to try to change your mind just watch them yelling at their s/o for an hour☺️

🪴 mercury-MC culture is not knowing what is it that u want to do 100% cause for you everything comes so naturally 🙏🏼

🪴 taurus moon culture is actually vibing so well with sagittarius moon??? like surprisingly well tbh y'all make the bestest of friends not gonna lie. one is a closet crackhead while the other is mentally in mars🥳

🪴 taurus rising culture is HATING it when people discuss your relationship like why do you care so much about who i'm fucking? mind your own business dawg🥰

🪴 libra placements culture is not sure which vibes you wanna do today. hm should i do 2000s ratchet baggy boyfriend's hoodie look or barbie dream house? 😀

🪴 gemini placements with libra risings culture is being the most lowkey people alive and you're highkey done with people thinking you're the "stereotypical" geminis💀

🪴 scorpio placements culture is lowkey psychic. like everything they say would lowkey become true its kinda scary

🪴 taurus venus culture is asking your friend "bro should i consider becoming a sugar baby you know how practically you don't have to sleep with them right"

🪴 taurus venus culture is either just fucking with you for the sake of their ego or literally simping so so hard

🪴 aries moon culture is looking at your friend dead in the eyes and says " bro idk if i can ever love anyone more than myself " and proceed to fall madly in love w a crackhead.

🪴 leo venus culture is being fiercely protective of your friends like instead of giving them a hug and a shoulder to cry on you're just going off like TELL ME JESSICA WHO TOUCHED YOU STOP CRYING TELL ME WHO WHO WHO. literally get urself a leo venus rn loves.

🪴 libra rising culture is literally exuding motherly vibessssss💀 is that why y'all are so careful w who you let in?

🪴 capricorn mars culture is telling peope ".... and thats why if i don't succeed professionally, i can never face myself in the mirror again"

🪴 air venus culture is laughing when people told you you're so emotionless like dawg what do you want me to do i drained all of em by investing them in my toxic ex😐

🪴 venus in the 3rd house culture is giving everyone relationships advice but cant get into one urself❤️

🪴 mars in 3rd house culture is rarely getting mad but when you do its bad bad omg someone calls 911 they might just burn down a building ngl

🪴 air mercury culture is literally your partner having to kiss you so you would shut up💀 stop talking for once loves

🪴 jupiter dominant culture is having an angel face and a heart darker than charcoal bro they be calculating af y'all literally push them to the end like they HAD to force themselves to stop trusting people too much. come here ily

🪴 venus in 12th house culture is having a literal imagined wedding with your idol in your dreams 24/7

🪴 aries rising culture is exuding boss bitch energy, exude hella good vibes but if you start to become all mean and weird they'll reciprocate in no time

🪴 lilith in the 5fth house culture is being SO FLIRTY but never let anyone hit fr people just gotta understand boundaries yk🤠😉 you go queens

🪴 lilith in the 3rd culture is charming your pants OFF but literally detach with the matter of seconds.

🪴 scorpio moon culture is generally having one of the worst resting bitch face on earth but the second they smile the whole world lights up:)

🪴 cancer moon culture is slamming the door at s/o face as you leave the room and scream "Go to hell" before dramatically exiting and literally an hour later texting them "hey wyd"

🪴 libra moon culture is lowkey control issues. y'all make people do things for you without them realizing they're complying i-💀

🪴 sagittarius rising culture is asking your local astrologer smth along the line like 😀cut the bs, tell me if i'm gonna be a millionaire pls can you look at my chart

🪴 pisces moon culture is saying no to drug and dying just a lil big inside. change my mind i never met one without slightly addictive tendencies or not highly experimental 🥳

🪴 libra placements culture is literally contemplating on how you dumbed it down so well people let down their guards so fast but they don't know that you saw everything 💀

🪴 10th house placements culture is asking people something along the line of "wdym you have no passion? so you're telling me you just want a normal life? why tho?💀"

🪴 virgo mars culture is being very big on gift gifting:") they know you so sooooo well

🪴 sagittarius venus culture is telling people how you can't fw partners who are too dominant like there has to be a certain level of introversion istg

🪴 sagittarius rising culture is highkey hella ambitiouss. the type of people that others tend to underestimate but you shouldn't think low of jupiter children boo everything be working out without them having to sweat their asses off

🪴 uranus in 4th house culture is literally start to get panicked when things are too easy like wheres the red flag?

🪴 cancer placements culture is having a minor panic attack everytime you get nostalgic about embrassing stuff in the past stop it💀

🪴 11th house placements culture is telling people how you respect everyones opinions but you know at the end of the day you aint changing your mind

🪴 6th house placements culture is being in LA but function in Asia Pacific Time like wtf y'all 💀

🪴 cancer rising culture is looking hella photogenic its like the camera wants to have your babies omg, also very good genes in the family smartasses😌

🪴 capricorn moon culture is overthinking and then becoming cynical af but sometimes you don't even realize you are like you're just "keeping it real." like no sarah. he texted you because he likes you not because he wants something from you 💀

🪴 virgo placements culture is feelings happy af when someone told you that they don't usually open up but with you it's different:)

🪴 capricorn moon culture is *chefs kiss* amazing self-awareness and fluctuating between extreme self hatred or immense ego never in between💀

🪴 mars in 10th house culture is telling someone "respectfully, i think you're wrong can you shut up for a second thank you" and thinks that you're just being straightforward i- HAHAHAHAHAH

🪴 aquarius moon culture is lowkey needing a lot of words of affirmation tho. like tell em if you appreciate them y'all its been hard

🪴 fire venus culture is always needing the "spark" in the relationship. the "magic element". deadass i swear to god if you don't sweep me off my feet with roses and chocolate right now boy, i'm heading out💀

🪴 7th house stellium culture is deep thinking about how you should phrase that one idea into something they can't use against you hmmmm what can it be

🪴 pisces placements culture is telling you friend when they're being rational smth like "bro i'm at a bad place rn can you just hype me up instead of making sense thank you"

🪴 libra placements culture is CRYING a waterfall when you're drunk and still look pretty as fuck like how?? how does that work what in the witchcraft

🪴 venus in the 10th house is being so rational when they shouldn't be??😀 actually are hella forgiving, more than you'd like to think tbh

🪴 leo and aries placements culture is teaching your friends how to let out emotions like "ok so my emotional outlet is just screaming and throwing shits around. first, you pick up the nearest thing around you..." 💀

🪴 venus-mars aspects culture is having the utmost potential to hoe around but you end up falling in love with all of em bye💀💀💀

🪴 mercury placements culture is being so organized deep down but also a hot mess. the type to show up to their driving test but thinks they're gonna be provided a car istg💀

🪴 mercury in the 9th house culture is being original af??? they love educated people too like omg you like to write poems? marry me rn

🪴 mercury-venus culture is falling in love with the hot nerds in their basement coding and investing in stocks instead of partying🥰

🪴 aries/capricorn placements culture is screaming at your s/o "how could you forget that? its like you don't listen how could you forget what my favourite colour is???

🪴 cancer moon culture is POSSESIVE possesive literally textbook possesive but your pride be too big to show it😌

🪴 pisces placements culture is falling for sense of humour.

🪴 leo moon culture is actually so forgiving?? lol if you know what to say they will eventually stop holding grudges and let you out tbh

🪴 libra placements culture is generally being super private abt their relationship at the start tho.. literally only starting to open up once they think its legit fr

🪴 double fire sun and moon cultire is your ride or die. will go to the moon and back for u😋

🪴 earth in the 2H culture is literally putting so much effort into securing the bag omg financial stability >

🪴 earth moons culture is lowkey wanting to settle down eventually and have a family tho🥺

Ahhh this one i wrote in 2 whole days and it was so fun writing this BAHAHAHA, i hope you guys like this babies<3 also, gimme a OWA OWA IN THE COMMENT⚠️🥳🥳

love,

saint jenx🪐

[la-hannya]

If you haven't already read this.

I suggest you do. Like now. Cause this! Cause this WHOLE thing—is such a mess that all I could do was laugh while reading it. Seriously.

In the meantime I'm gonna show you my "favorite" things from it

First off I wanna say is that we right. We right with some the theories, like Treekyo being the villain but they scrapped it and I BET MY SWEET ASS HAG RT FOUGHT HARD SO TREEKYO WASN'T THE VILLAIN. THEY WANTED AN EXCUSE FOR KIKYO TO BE DRAMA AGAIN NOT JUST FOR INUKAG BUT SAUCERIB TOO. Can you imagine how much more hate Kikyo would've gotten and that was really her? Working with pedomaru and all.

Number 2)

I remember mentioning this a couple of times in my discord. Another thing that was scrapped. Can you imagine how much a certain fandom would seethe if Towa didn't stay with her "biological family" in the feudal era?

Number 3

This shit was such a hot indecisive mess that even Rumiko was fighting people at shitrise. Still the old hag let them violate her own work in the end. Just by reading this, you can tell they didn't know what to do and I think it was highly possible that good things even including a different mother for the twins was there but it was scrapped thanks to Pedosawa pushing and pushing this shit, saying everyone would like it till they all just relented to shut him up. But ofc it blew up in their face. That original very early leak that said things like Setsuna staying with Kohaku and Rin would take her of Moroha is getting more credibility by the day. It was possible that this was the original pitch but they shitted all over it.

Also yes, by "Rumiko's feelings" they mean of RT making sure Saucerib stayed 6ft apart alright 🤡

Number 4

Imagine taking a demon lord that's very ace aromatic asexual or demi whichever you desire to call it, who's true calling mostly is the battlefield and also technically a dad to a little girl (as stated by the author herself) and suddenly turn him OOC...

They really said that a bored Sessh tried what having kids would feel like as an experiment (remember what Narita said), Rin was sadly right there... Then have him say: "0/10 would not recommend" and in the meantime he bounced hoping everyone would die in the fire.

💀

A demon lord that in og had clear issues with his parents (remember the way he speaks to his mom?), Who wanted to surpass his father... Being a deadbeat is such contradiction to his growth. What were they smoking?

And then finally

Are they really trying to say (or excuse) that Kirinmaru being a loving dad and aswell as being there for his daughter is bad parenting here? But Deadbeatmaru was 10/10 parenting done right?????

Honestly I just want to say that if you want die on the hill that you like this thing despite everything. It's cool, you do you I say and accept whatever consequences come from it, but this is literally the worst sequel in anime history. If this interview doesn't convince you I dunno what will. It's undefendable...

[bitchkay]

Since the "sIdE cHaRaCTeRs" don't have birthdays listed I'm gonna give them some mostly based on vibes zodiac signs (I swear I'm not a zodiac bitch I just like stars okay)

*disclaimer I'm not some kind of expert on astrology, I've simply dabbled with it for a long time, feel free to give your own takes*

*I get quite long winded here, so long clusters of words sorry, ik large blocks of text can be overwhelming*

I think Aquia was born mid-ish February which would put him in aquarius and pisces cusp territory

Aquia was 100% born at the very edge of aquarius with strong pisces placements on his birthchart

February 17th or 18th I say

imagine naming a character Aquia and he's not an aquarius

It fits him so well though

the symbol for aquarius is the water bearer which is a symbol of the gods bringing essential nutrients to the earth with would be comparative to Aquia watering the flowers in the garden

you can tell I been thinking way too fucking hard about this💀💀

People that fall in aquarius pisces cusp territory tend to be understanding, empathetic, creative, kind but also insecure and isolated, they're also very generous

Guy is this mans older brother so of course hes quite emotionally strong as aquarius pisces cusp people are

Super aware of his emotions and dosen't tend cry when hurt

Um they also make good romantic partners😳💞 totally not cus I love aquarius' and/or pisces and I'm completely taken by Aquia what why would it be that

I wanna go more into dept but I still can only make assumptions since we still dont know alot about Aquia💔 (it's literally criminal)

Sherry's a Libra.

I won't argue.

Sherry reminds me of my aunt in alot of ways so I'm gonna say her birthday is closer to the beginning of October

Maybe between the 3rd and the 5th of October

Sherry's pastimes includes fashion and shopping which coincides with a Libras love for fashionable mates and material things, material things aren't everything however

Libras are also very friendly people, they tend to be very social, and likable, and put their heart into their friendships and relationships

Sherry is charming, intelligent, a nice person to talk to, and terribly sharp

I get the inklings she has a healthy amount of aquarius on her birthchart aswell

If you tell me Sherry isn't a Libra your lying.

I feel like I'd place Violet as either a Scorpio or an Aries

I'm a Scorpio so yes I am biased.

Scorpios are passionate and assertive people, very dedicated and loyal

Violet=sexy , Scorpios=sexy yk it just makes sense--

Aries however are confident, determined, enthusiastic, but are also impatient and moody

I think Aries is definitely the better fit

Maybe a Aries sun with a Scorpio rising, yes?

Violets title is "the Ravishing Warrior" so it's quite fitting for two very strong signs, especially being dominated by Aries

I say her birthday is on March 30th

Aries people are also passionate and energetic lovers, loves showering loved ones in affection

Something else is an Aries' like of physicality and sports; one of Violets pastimes being physical training

Morning sex.

Listen you have to trust me on this--

For an Aries sun and Scorpio rising, this makes for a very horny person, both signs being ruled by Mars

Literally the best way to start the day, yk get your heart pumping feeling energized😩😩

Also considering Violets troubles with the male species, these kind of people (Aries sun and scorpio rising) know what they want and won't settle for less, and will find themselves in many relationships in their lifetime

Thoma gives me Taurus vibes

He is very similar to Rio in this regard

Taurus' tend to be very reliable and patient people

However...

I think Thoma falls more on the cusp of Taurus, leaning into Gemini territory

A Taurus and Gemini cusp this one

Born at the beginning of Gemini with strong Taurus placements

I say May 21st or 22nd

Geminis are very curious and adaptable but also nervous tend to be very indecisive

People that are a Taurus Gemini cusp tend to be pretty social and energetic but also pretty physically strong

Thoma is a very friendly fellow and people in this range tend to be great at making friends and maintaining relationships

Thoma is also an amazing person to talk to! you can tell this in his interactions and it's very reminiscent of a Taurus Gemini cusp person

Thomas indulgence is snack food so I thought it very fitting that they(Taurus Gemini cusps) tend to over spend on things like food and drinks

Thoma has such an attractive personality omg, from what we know of him currently, he just radiates charisma and is such a friendly guy, Thoma is a ray of sunshine

Geminis are also a sign that will find themselves in many relationships in their lifetime, they tend to be more free spirited and don't like things to stay the same, but that's not to say they're not loyal

Taurus Gemini cusps are the life of the party! and if you tell me that's not so Thoma you have to be lying

The symbol for Gemini is the celestial twins, and people born under this sign often feel they are missing their other half

I now propose this

hear me out

Thoma and Rio as platonic soulmates.

Mm mm MMPH, professor Hawk is quite the fine specimen if I do say so my self

I wanna take a bite out of him.

Yall ever just wanna taste someone like :0 NOM MMM :}

Capricorn.

January 9th.

...

He just looks like a Capricorn.

Look at him.

Capricorn are very independent creatures and Hawk quite literally has independent listed on his profile in cod

Capricorns are intelligent and reliable also loyal and Hawk used to be apart of the Ira castle royal guard which is quite sexy😋😋

Capricorns are usually depicted as more serious and ambitious however every Capricorn has a secret mischievous side that's maybe a bit more... Hawk-esque

This bitch is a drinker, this is common knowledge

Capricorns can in fact party that's all imma say

Capricorns tend to mellow with age, I'm not saying Hawk is old but going from a protector of the crown to this very chill professor that often seems bored seems to fit

Both my parents are Capricorns aswell as some childhood friends, so I'm basically witness to this kind of phenomenon, especially in my parents

We stay talking bout oh Sherry needs a route, Aquia, Violet needs a route, what about Thoma-- what about professor Hawk⁉️🤨🤨

I'd smash🤨 wbu⁉️ huh⁉️

Be honest with yourself.

I originally made this post yesterday but it didn't save so I literally spent almost all day today rewriting it and I'm so tired its literally 2am rn

[weebsinstash]

block him and don't think too hard about it. it's okay if you feel bad, but keep him blocked. just do it and push it to the back of your mind! definetly a walking red flag cut him off and you'll be good!!

Well like. I keep telling myself "oh, give this dude a chance, maybe he's just extremely socially awkward, maybe he's from another culture and he doesn't realize this is weird" but like. Here

Like uh. Am I talking to an axe murderer or something or does he genuinely not see this as bizarre. This dude dodges questions like Matrix bullets. I'm almost wondering if he's testing how gullible and weak willed i am or something. And guess what 💀 my dumb ass never blocked him bc I brought up he was coming off as really creepy and he apologized and shit but like. This kind of. Reeks of. I dunno. It's very bizarre. Said he liked my name and wanted to see if I wanted to be friends but he said that only after I had to question him so. Now I just feel like if I block him now then I'M the asshole. Which is fucked up right?

Also like even if he wasn't acting sketch as fuck he says he lives in Florida and he's 24 so 1. He's younger than me 2. Florida sucks and 3. We could never meet in person or whatever so idk what his game plan is. I lowkey feel like he's looking for girls to try and get them to send nudes or something. His English is also kind of off to me which doesn't inherently mean anything but idk it just makes me think of phishers and scammers

I would just. Also like to point out. How it just. Is really jumping out to me that my trauma manifests as risking my own safety to placate others. Because I can list so many things wrong with this entire interaction and im sitting here talking about video games with him because I feel guilty to end the conversation 💀 fucking. Stupid ass voice in the back of my head "but what if you block him and hurt his feelings 😥 you don't want to make someone SAD do you"

Like dude if you're seeing this right now this entire thing has given me so much fucking anxiety about randomly talking to people. Straight up the only reason I replied is because of THIS blog and I assumed maybe he knew me from here or ao3 but. Nope! Just homegrown lonely dude randomly hitting me up?

God. God. Fuck. This is actually really starting to piss me of, less now about him even and more about how I can't even. Choose for myself. Protect myself. I dont know. Jesus. Every time I'm about to go through with it I either get a new nice message that makes me feel bad for considering it or. I dunno. I dunno how to even verbalize this. I guess I have a psychological idk THING about being terrified of upsetting people (i guess because my brain instantly correlates someone being angry or upset with the immediate threat of physical violence onto myself, thanks dad)

this is not even like. The only weird message I've ever gotten. I feel bad even talking about it because Im the one having the conversation and letting it continue. I should just try and smoke and sleep soon. I've been working overnight shifts now and when I get off work I just feel too drained to deal with this kind of thing. Idk. Hopefully I make some sort of decision soon so I can at least stop beating myself up over the indecision

[hauntedwitch04]

hi lovely !! i'd like to request:

(from marauders era)

💑 -> send me in details about your personality, features, hobbies...and I’ll tell you with which character I ship you (please specify the fandom/s you like)

i'm quite short, i have a round-ish face and big amber eyes and my hair is long, straight and light brown, cut into layers. i love to draw, paint, make little doodles on the corners of my pages while studying or taking notes. i also love reading and dance and listening to music. sports and playing instruments just isn't for me. i'm very very talkative, quite sensitive, outgoing, and love being around and talking to (most 💀) people. people say i give off positive vibes and am warm and friendly. traits i admire in people are being thoughtful and loyal to and defending your close ones. i need my me-time once in a while and love walks. i also love small pieces of jewellery, and going shopping but coming back with practically nothing new because i'm too indecisive. and people buying me gifts or writing me little notes or sending posts saying this reminds me of you, no matter how small it is, just the fact that they thought of me is <333 i like being around people that'll stop me from overthinking and motivate me to have more fun, and they're being more extroverted than me will make me feel safer in the social situation (for some reason?). i am quite a people pleaser and cannot say no to save my life, so i like to be with people who'll be able to speak up for me in case i start blabbering and going off track because i'm trying to refuse in a nice way. hanging out w friends and ideal dates, my ideology is the same. small groups/only one on one, but something wild and fun like an amusement park or drive to a town we don't know. oh aaand my hogwarts house is ravenclaw and i'm a libra

okay that's it, thanks for reading my thesis 😭😭😭

Celebration -  My masterlist I Ask I Join the Taglist I Promts

Author's note: Hi darling! Thank you so much, you gave me a tons of information to work with. Btw, from what you sent me I ship you with REGULUS BLACK!

Premising that I LOVE Regulus, I hope you like my idea.

I think the two of you are meant for each other, because in some way you complement and improve each other.

Regulus is a great listener, and could listen to you for hours.

He loves listening to you talk about your favorite books, never getting tired of seeing that light in your eyes that you see when you talk about something you love.

I picture his books and notebooks filled with your drawings on the edges, so that he remembers you during class.

Every time he sees them he can't help but smile and think back to when he sees you again.

She loves seeing you draw, as well as loving your drawings.

He tried to draw something for you too, but according to him it is nothing compared to yours, even though it was very beautiful.

You love to spend time sitting in his room reading, drawing or doing homework while listening to your favorite songs.

He has also taught you how to dance, just a few steps, but he likes being able to teach you something that since childhood he considered something boring and now he considers beautiful only because of you.

He often plays the piano for you too, dedicating the songs he writes to you, because yes I can imagine a Regulus writing love songs for you.

In addition to the songs, he often leaves you notes scattered in your stuff like books, sweaters or under your pillow, and you can't do anything but melt.

Unlike you he is not a very outgoing person, but being with you he has opened up a lot more to people.

You like to go to Quidditch games, and you talk about them a lot in general.

I think Regulus is the kind of guy who gives you an avalanche of gifts. His favorites are jewelry, especially necklaces. He even gave you a necklace with your initials on it, and another with a crest of his family, to show you his love.

It has often happened that you defended him from the attacks of some Slytherins, from insults thrown at him because of your relationship, or from the Gryffindors, because of his family.

On the contrary, he defended you when some of your housemates attacked you because you were with a Slytherin and especially with a Black, even if they were just jealous. You never saw him so angry, and god he was hot.

Assuming he and Sirius get along, when he and his friends invited you to a Gryffindor party, he had been the one to keep you from freaking out and making you feel safe, before taking you away to a quieter place.

You love going for walks and often get lost in nature and your own conversations.

Regulus is also teaching you how to say no to people, because sometimes it's not always right to say yes to everyone, sometimes we have to think about ourselves too, believe me honey I know.

I love Regulus, I repeat, and after imagining this I can't help but love him more.

Hope you enjoyed sweet anon, have a great day!

[whaleofatjme1920]

hello! I'm quite new to these matching up things so sorry if this is too long or too vague!^^' thank you so much in advance 💕

can i please request a Tf2 romantic match up?

I'm 5'5, a libra ♎️, Bi/Pansexual female and i use every pronounce(he/she/them, she/them I mainly use but you can just use she/her here lol) I'm quite chubby but I like being quick about stuff, short black and brownish hair, I wear glasses, my main hobbies are drawing and crocheting! I mostly draw more though since I'm still new to crocheting and its hard

I absolutely love noodles of any kind and I live for sodas/sweet drinks and I also Really love horror stuff!1!1! mangas,movies whatever lol! I also love collecting stuff that I like, like litlte figures and just stupid stuff to put somewhere in my room and add stuff to my collection. I like going to new places with loved ones but I've been so sheltered my life I usually get very nervous stepping out of my comfort zone

I'm very touch starved hh please give me physical contact 😭, my love language are physical touch and quality time, I'm a very patient person if it comes to relationships and I really hope my partner will also be patient when it comes to me since I'm quite slow half the time, I'm very social stupid so half the time i might not be able to pick up on cues, so I would really want my partner to be straight up with me if anything is ever wrong or they want to express something, I'm bad at expressing my own thoughts but I'll try my best if I know my partner is there to listen to me everytime, and I deal with insecurity on a daily basis so if my partner could give me could give me reassurance a lil bit here and then that'll be really nice ✨

I'm very reserved and quiet when meeting new people i dont know well, but if you're close to me and express that you're ok with being very close to me I can be absolutely batshit chaotic but depends on what kind of person you are, I'll either tone it down or higher it up, I just wanna say dumb shit and dick around lmao

I'm clumsy, I lose shit so easily and forget stuff the moment its said to me- I have one singular braincell and I already fucking lost it somewhere lmao. my thoughts process and what comes out of my mouth sometimes is super questionable, I jump thoughts so much, go from topic A straight to topic C and to A again and to B

alot of people say I'm really nice polite and kind, I dont have the balls to betray anyone's nice to me, I guiltrip myself into being as nice as possible so no one gets uncomfortable, I'm very respectful and I wont cross any lines or boundaries if you tell me before hand, If i do accidentally make my partner upset I'll kick myself super hard about it

I have such a broken sense of humor honestly, I laugh and giggle at the smallest of things and i also get upset at the smallest of things, but I get overstuff very quickly, like in a day or 2, I also use laughter as a coping mechanism in negative times and thats a really shit problem 💀💀💀 And I dont mean like, I giggle at a funeral or something💀, but when I get into a shit problem about Myself, I laugh it off and just hope it becomes better. One major thing about me is that I'm very indecisive, always in the middle of stuff

and uhh i guess that wraps up everything I wanna say Thank you so much again if you do this and sorry if you couldnt 💕

Your matchup is... Sniper!

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In General

Gonna have to trust the process with me on this one, but I think you and Mundy would get along like a house on fire. Let's get into that.

Things He Likes About You

Physically speaking, everything about you vibes with him. Your hair is gorgeous, your body, and he loves your glasses. I think your personality meshes really well with him too - like I can already tell this stuff is going to leak into the next section I adore going off the rails in so let's just - let's just head over there now.

You Two as a Couple

The glasses thing - he's going to let you try his aviators a few times. Thinks you're ADORABLE wearing them. Drawing?? Incredible. Mundy is a bit of an artist himself; I think he likes sketching the cool animals and landscapes he sees while out and about in the world. Furthermore, I think he loves your crocheting, loves seeing you progress. Lady and the Tramp scene between the two of you lmafo. He weirdly has a pretty big sweet tooth? Like, I feel that throws a lot of people off but he has a sweet tooth. Will bring back sweet snacks for you. He doesn't mind horror movies or anything, sometimes gets spooked but he has a lot of fun seeing those things with you. He's slightly into vulture culture, so he gets the appeal of collecting things. Will look at your collections, and will add onto them very slowly. Mundy is touch starved, the two of you are always going to be holding hands, smooches, wholesome touches. He likes resting his head on top of yours bc that man i a literal tree where else would he-. Mundy has the patience of a saint, it's almost scary. He'll explain things to you without any sighs or anything, he knows. He also really likes listening to you as well, and ofc, he can reassure you. I think Mundy is a little awkward with his words? But around you, he always knows what to say. Like two pieces of a puzzle y'know?? He's pretty reserved and quiet at first as well, and yes, he can get chaotic. But I get the feeling you'd be the more chaotic one in the relationship. Mundy isn't that clumsy so he'll lend you his brain cells from time to time lmfao. Your sense of humor would have the two of you rolling at 2am. I just like the thought of that for the both of you. Likes that you're respectful because he is too. Mundy isn't indecisive at all, once he sets out to something he's going to see it through - and the best decision he's made is loving you.

Closing Thoughts/Other Things

Hi love bug, kudos to you for sending this in! You sent me a fantastic amount. hope you enjoyed <3