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estavionpira · 5 months ago
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fellas, im starting to think that the world is screaming "kiss me, son of god" but im not sure can anyone back me up on this?
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regretevator-headcanonss · 2 months ago
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fleshcousin has an atrocious sense of rhythm, but a near-perfect pitch. they love human music and incorporate lyrics from songs they like into their speech all the time
FLESHCOUSIN LISTENS TO THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS!!!!
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I rlly like making patches 4 bands that r not traditionally punk. I made this TMBG patch 4 a friend a few months ago
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kingofdandelions · 9 days ago
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Did i listen to that song for literal hours i strekk? Did i write the lyrics in multiple alphabets such as two ive made up, minecraft enchanting table and ender? Did I hum or whistle or sing it a lot at home?
Perchance.
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sorrelpaws · 4 months ago
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i built a little empire out of some crazy garbage called the blood of the exploited working class
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wisecura · 1 month ago
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'Hate' Is A Strong Word
Izuku Midoriya x f!reader 5k
summary: for some reason, you've never liked Izuku Midoriya. call it bad vibes, a deep seated irritation, or just plain off-putting, you two just never connected. and even now as pro heroes you haven't uttered a single word to each other since high school. yet, you find yourself badly injured at his doorstep.
warnings: might be repetitive, gaslighting, manipulation, non-canon, dark fic, some blood, belittling, confinement, please don't read if you are sensitive to bad things happening to reader,
an: I haven't kept up with this fandom much but I still enjoy it. i've been busy with work and school. sadly, not fully proofread, but thank you for reading
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You never quite took to Izuku Midoriya, even from the start. 
There was something about him. A nagging feeling that buzzed in the back of your mind whenever he was near.
He was the kind of guy everyone liked—or at least, no one dared to openly dislike. Shy, awkward, but undeniably kind, Izuku was the sort who'd go out of his way to help a stranger. Always pushing for justice, always the hero in waiting, the kind of well-rounded individual you'd expect to be universally admired. 
And yet, something about him set off alarms in your gut from the very first day you met. It was your first year in high school, you'd arrived at UA high, thrilled to be accepted into the hero course.
This is when you saw him.
He'd been introducing himself to other classmates, nothing different from the norm. Maybe it was the look in his eyes when they caught yours. The way he shyly moved over to greet you. Maybe it was the way he seemed to interrogate question you on your quirk, and from your understanding he kept tabs on everyone. It could've been the way his eyes seemed to trail you when you evaded his conversation, feeling odd at the line of questioning. You had no idea why every instinct tell you to keep your distance.
You did attempt friendship in those early years, especially when you noticed how easily he drew people in. Once all was settled in, he seemed to be a magnet, attracting the class in with his friendliness. Maybe that initial encounter had been a fluke? You thought that just maybe you were being overly dramatic—after all, Izuku was the epitome of harmlessness, always eager to lend a hand. No one else seemed to have an issue with him, even with his more...odd habits.
But despite your efforts, you just couldn't shake it off. Those creepy vibes you got. So you chalked it up to not meshing well. But you always watched from a distance, and continued your years making friends and overall enjoying the coursework.
Years passed, and both of you rose through the ranks to become pro heroes. 
Izuku, now known universally as Deku, consistently ranked in the top five—a celebrity in the world of pro heroes. Meanwhile, you held a respectable nineteenth place, not one for popularity races, and never quite as concerned with fame as you were with making tangible changes in the world. Not that he wasn't doing his part-
Deku was a household name, his exploits and acts of heroism the stuff of daily newsfeeds. The latest articles highlighted not just his achievements but his physical transformation too—he was now a striking 6’1", his features having matured into what many would consider handsome, listing out other measurements you hadn’t bothered to read about.
Yet, reading about him, seeing his photos splashed across the media, always stirred an inexplicable twist in your stomach. You had no logical reason to feel this way, yet the discomfort was undeniable. You still didn't like the dude.
Your interactions had been minimal since high school, limited to brief exchanges during professional gatherings. You weren’t friends, not really. But he was always friends of a friend with you. It was always weird to hear about him, and you tried to never ask-to never listen in when your friends talked about him.
And, now, as you scrolled through your phone, one hand pressed against your bleeding side, the irony of the situation didn't escape you.
This part of town was supposed to be safe, but here you were. Far from home and in trouble, late at night.
You needed to find somewhere to go—someone to plug this shit up. Your manager had recently updated your contacts with a list of “reliable partners” for emergencies—pretty handy timing, considering the mess you were in now. All listed with safe houses should you need it—your managers words echoing in the back of your mind: 'you'd better not be seen by anyone from the public'.
You had been on a secret mission, something big, something not everyone could handle. But your quirk was a perfect fit—or so you thought until things went south.
The leader of the crime ring turned out to be a lot tougher than the brief said, and instead of nabbing him quietly, you got roughed up pretty bad.
Glancing at your phone, the recommended safe locations popped up. And just your luck—it had to be him.
You frowned at the screen—thumb brushing down the refresh button desperately, but no other options seemed to be loading. There had to be someone else, but why wasn’t the stupid app showing anything?
Of course. Of-fucking-course. Whatever, beggars can’t be choosers, right?
Better not to bleed out on the pavement. You were sure your manager would kill you if this wound up in the newspapers.
Gritting your teeth, you pushed through the pain, straightening up as best you could. You tried to walk confidently into the lobby of a ridiculously upscale apartment building. It was way fancier than necessary, making you feel all the more out of place.
You barely reached the counter when the man behind it did a double-take. “Miss—““—I’m here to see Izuku Midoriya, please,” you cut him off before he could delve into questions you had no energy to answer.
He looked surprised for a moment, then turned his back to you to make the call. You could hear his hushed tones, and an even softer voice through the other end of the intercom. You couldn't make out what they were saying—maybe it was the blood loss affecting your concentration.
“Top floor, Miss—““—Thanks.” You turn away quickly, unable to keep a slight wobble from your steps. You hadn’t meant to be rude. You just really needed to sit down. 
You were a vision of resilience and grace as you press the elevator button, smearing the elevator door button in your own blood. The ride up feels like a century, each ding reminding you of the ticking clock against your injuries. You had time to turn back. To not face whatever was beyond the elevator doors. Did he open his home as a safe location often? What were you thinking—this was Deku—of course he did—
As the doors finally open, you're met with the minimalist, yet luxurious hallway leading to the penthouse suite—his suite.
It's been years since you've last even spoke to Izuku Midoriya, and now, under these circumstances, you're about to see him again.
Funny how fate plays its cruel games, huh?
Stepping out, you hesitate for just a moment before your survival instincts push you forward. Your fist meets the door, the knock more feeble than you intended. It's only a matter of seconds before the door swings open, revealing Izuku Midoriya in person.
He's taller, broader, and his eyes—those damn eyes—haven't changed a bit. He's definitely lost that baby face, his features much more defined, almost handsome. The sight of him makes your heart race for reasons you can't even begin to pin down before that deep voice reaches your ears.
"Shit, you look like hell," wide eyed, he blurts out. "What happened?"
You try to muster a smile, but all you manage is a grimace. "Got into a bit of trouble. Mind if I come in? Kinda bleeding out here," you quip, half-joking, but entirely serious.
He doesn't hesitate, grabbing your arm, gently but firmly, as he helps you inside. "Of course, come in. What are friends for?" he says, though you both know the term 'friends' might be a stretch, you sure as hell weren't gonna comment on it now.
Oddly enough, he doesn't press you for more details, instead guiding you to the sofa. "Let me look at that wound," he says, already moving to fetch a first aid kit and a towel. You feel somewhat guilty at your thoughts as you watch him, his movements efficient and practiced. What if you bled out onto his couch? And now that'll be the first thing on his mind when he sees it? what're you even thinking?
How often has he done this? You mind briefly flashes back to a news report you'd seen recently, of him saving a group of people from a hostage situation turned deadly. And despite your reservations about him, you can't help but feel a reluctant admiration stirring within you. That and this. He really wasn't a bad dude. Maybe a bit awkward, but who wasn't?
You raise your shirt slightly, exposing the expanse of your stomach, an audible sigh from him before his hands find their way to clean the area, surprisingly gentle.
It's a strange intimacy, one you make damn sure to ignore. In other situations you may have blushed, leading with a 'buy me drinks first' joke but you really didn't want to add to the moment.
"Do I want to ask how the other guy looks?" Izuku teases lightly, a break from his jaw tensing, a small smile playing on his lips. Despite yourself, a laugh escapes—bitter but genuine.
"Yeah, I may have gotten the short end here," you reply, meeting his gaze. There’s a warmth there that wasn’t present in your school days, a maturity that seems to fit him well. It annoys you, seeing how much he's grown into himself, into the hero everyone expected him to be. Was it jealousy? No, that couldn’t be it.
Sitting there, letting Izuku tend to your wounds, you can’t help but feel a twist in your stomach that’s not from the injury. It’s from the sheer absurdity of the situation—seeking help from someone you’ve always distrusted, yet here he is, proving to be the hero he always aimed to be. Not asking for anything in return, always helpful, always willing.
And, yes, that bugged the shit out of you. You were wrong.
"Aren't you going to ask what happened?" His eyes flick back over to you, stilling your breath. He lets out another sigh, unwrapping the bandage from his kit.
"The Gokudo Group, right?" You look away, refusing to meet his heavy gaze. He didn't seem entirely happy with the direction of the conversation—
"How do you know about that?" The question sounded silly the second it left your mouth. A top pro hero knowing about a mission so close to his residence? It'd be stranger if he hadn't heard about it. He lets out another soft chuckle, and you feel yourself blush at the way it seemed to lick up your spine.
"Let's call it a guess." As he finishes bandaging your wound, his touch lingers a moment on your side, reminding you of his closeness.
"You should rest," he suggests, his voice soft, almost nonchalant. He seems to see no issue with the idea. A man. A woman. Alone in a pent house sweet. "Stay here tonight. It's late, and you're not in any condition to go anywhere."
You want to protest, to assert your independence, but the room tilts slightly as you try to sit up straighter, his grip tightening on your waist as you let out a small painful whimper. He doesn’t seem too put off by the idea of you staying, and realistically, blood loss was indeed a bitch.
"I guess...I don't have much choice," the words tasting sour on your tongue. For a fleeting moment, Izuku's seems like he wants to say something, fighting with his inner voice, before settling on something else.
"...Of course, you're always welcome here," he assures you, his tone dripping with a sincerity that feels too thick, too heavy. He stands, pressing a button on the wall to adjust the blinds, casting the room into a dim glow. He stands illuminated in a warm glow by the lamp in the corner. Your heart continues its gymnastics, flipping in ways you can't fucking believe.
"Let me get you some water, maybe something for the pain." As he disappears into the kitchen, you try to relax against the plush cushions of his sofa, feeling much more guilty at the thoughts you'd had not even thirty minute prior. This wasn't how you imagined your evening would end, and his kindness seemed to eat away at you by the second.
Your gaze drifts around the neatly kept space, landing on small, personal touches that seem innocuously domestic. Photographs of smiling faces, trophies from his hero work, books on strategy and quirk development. It's all so…Midoriya.
When he returns, he hands you a glass of water and a pill, his smile reassuring. "This will help with the pain," he says, and you take the small tablet from him, your fingers brushing against his, the contact somewhat nerve-wracking.
"Thanks," you whisper, downing the medicine without a second thought. He watched you closely for a second, another thought on the tip of his tongue before he decides to just sit down next to you. Not close enough to warrant a side glance, but close enough that you can smell his smooth cologne, a soothing fragrance that lingers in the back of your throat. A smell that was distinct, unforgettable.
"You know," hesitating, "...I always...hoped we'd get a chance to catch up," his voice a soft murmur blending into the backdrop of the city's faint sounds filtering through the window. You would've sworn he hadn't said anything if it wasn't for your good hearing. "...I've followed your career, you know. You're doing amazing things."
His words sound like a compliment, but you can't help but think: just how closely has he been watching me? The tension in the room was so fucking awkward....
And the comment was innocent enough, so you push the feeling aside, chalking it up to paranoia. He's being nice. He's being nice.
You literally have no reason to doubt him.
Whatever. You can't shake that nag, you're fighting with yourself just to lean into the small comfort he provided, but that itch keeps coming back the more he talks. Just keep your distance, like always, and make your exit in the morning before he wakes up. Maybe send a fruit basket when you get back home as a parting 'thank you' gift.
"Yeah, well, we've both been busy, I guess," He watches you a moment, his expression unreadable before offering a gentle smile. You let out a small yawn, scooting further into the couch. Further away from his spreading legs, hoping to convey your sleepiness.
"Very busy," he agrees, as he stands to grab a blanket from a nearby closet. Thankful for the space, you breath a sigh of relief. You jump when he comes back, yet his voice is gentle, and his movements are tender, almost loving, as he drapes the blanket over you.
You notice his hands tremble slightly—a nervous energy you remember all too well from your high school days. He's nervous. And it sets you on edge even more, despite the fact that he couldn't be more welcoming to you in this moment—a pillar of comfort and support. The blanket he brought was so fuzzy and warm. Your favorite color too.
"Looks like we finally get that catch-up session, huh?" he chuckles easily. You half-expected him to retreat to his room once you were settled, but here he was, still the same Midoriya, despite looking so incredibly different. Never fully catching that hint. You manage a weary smile, feeling the weight of your eyelids, barely still able to converse.
"Yeah, it's been a while. Life as a pro hero doesn't exactly leave much free time for reunions," Izuku nods enthusiastically, sliding a bit closer to you on the sofa until you can feel the warmth radiating from his leg just inches away. You subtly scoot away, maintaining a polite distance, his eyes wide, as he enthusiastically regals your most recent mission.
"That rescue mission form last week was just spectacular, the way you dove right in, you were just perfect, and those people you saved--" He stops himself, realizing he was about to go into a whirlwind. He lets out a nervous laugh, "Sorry,"
But you give him the best smile you can muster up with the gaping wound in your side. And subtly, almost unconsciously, his leg inches even closer to yours, again. You try to dismiss it, reminding yourself of how he always a little closer with his friends—maybe this is just another subconscious thing he did?
"Thanks, Midoriya. You’ve not done too badly yourself," you reply, trying to lighten the mood with a bit of humor. "Top five, right? I always knew you’d shoot up."
He absorbs your compliment, his face lighting up from the small bit of praise you've given him. His gaze narrows in, almost studying you, as if he’s trying to memorize your every expression.
When he speaks again, there's a hint of shyness in his voice, a subtle clinginess that feels slightly misplaced. "You know, I always thought maybe we’d end up working together, you know? Side by side." His voice dips a bit at the end, his eyes are earnest, almost pleading, as they search yours for a reaction.
"That’s...a....nice thought," deliberately avoiding his gaze, though the idea of being this close to him in any capacity would be too much, too soon.
Izuku’s expression momentarily falters, resembling a dejected puppy, and he quickly tries to mask his disappointment, shifting his demeanor to regain some of his earlier lightness. “But hey, we’re here now, right? Maybe it’s fate or something,” he jokes weakly, forcing another lighthearted laugh.
The word 'fate' hangs between you, heavy and foreboding. “Maybe,” you echo, not quite sharing in his forced cheer. The conversation pauses, leaving you acutely aware of the rapid beating of your own heart in the silence that follows.
"Yeah–heh–it’s been quite the journey," he admits, his fingers fidgeting with the hem of his shirt. "But....enough about me. Tell me about you. How have things been...really?"
You shift under the blanket, feeling a bit unnerved by his continued presence. Why didn't he just go to bed? You hadn't even talked much about him in the first place. Was he fishing for something?
"Busy, eventful, and endlessly tiring," you answer truthfully, hoping your frankness might send a subtle hint, topping it off with another yawn.
He nods, mouth quirking up in a smile that doesn’t quite reach his eyes. "I can imagine. It must be hard, always being on the move—never able to find time for yourself, never able to catch up. Always the playing the 'hero'."
The way he says 'hero'—with a trace of something like displeasure—makes you pause, almost surprised. "...Well, someone's gotta do it, right?"
"Right, right," Izuku agrees, though his voice trails off, leaving a lingering question in the air. He seems to gather his thoughts, his eyes meeting yours.
"You know, I've always wondered..." his tone shifts slightly, becoming more contemplative, "why we never got along better. I mean, we were always in the same circles, kind of."
You feel a slight tightening in your chest as the topic veers dangerously close to the unease you've always felt around him. "Yeah, I guess we just had different…interests," you hedge, trying to keep the conversation light and steer away from deeper waters that you’d prefer not to navigate.
How exactly could you explain to him that you found him incredibly fucking creepy until now? And even now.....
Izuku's response is slow, thoughtful. "Maybe,"
He concedes, his tone reflecting a tinge of dissatisfaction, voice more probing and less subtle than you've ever heard it before. "But I've always respected you, you know? Always thought highly of your abilities."
"Thanks, Midoriya. That means a lot," you reply, not sure how to respond, not used to the praises from someone like him.
"I guess what I'm trying to say is... I've always wanted to be...closer. To understand you better. I felt like we never really got the chance."
His words hang in the air, and you're hit by the raw honesty in his voice—an honesty that's bordering on confrontation or confession—you aren't sure. You scramble for a diplomatic response, your mind racing. You didn't want to upset him here, but you sure as hell weren't looking to become best buds.
"Midoriya, it’s not that we didn't get a chance. We just...didn’t.....vibe that way. It happens."
"But why?" His frustration is more evident this time, his voice tense, losing that more playful tone. "I’ve seen how you are with others—laughing, sharing. I just don't get why I never got that side of you."
"It’s nothing personal, Midoriya. I’ve always been more introverted....Maybe our timing was just....off or something."
But he just can't seem to let this go. He's always liked you, but you've always seemed to avoid him. He's never been able to figure it out.
"...I mean, it's not like I haven't tried, right?" he starts again, his tone becoming harsher, a drastic shift from his usual soft charisma. His fingers tap rhythmically against his knee, a clear sign of his restlessness. "I always asked about you, you know. Whenever I ran into someone who knew you, I made sure to find out how you were doing." The revelation sends a chill down your spine.
This could have been sweet—checking in on a friend—but his words sound creepier, like he was stalking you or something, and his intense gaze makes you recoil slightly.
"I just...I've always liked you. A lot, actually," he continues, his tone bordering on accusatory. "And I don't think you ever noticed. Or maybe you did and just didn't care."
"That’s…that's a lot to take in," you respond cautiously, trying to keep your voice steady.
"Yeah, well, it's been a lot for me too, watching from the sidelines. Always the hero everyone loves, except for the one person I actually wanted to impress," his voice rising slightly with frustration.
He continues rambling, each sentence more unsettling than the last. "I've kept tabs on you. I know it might sound weird, but I had to know. I thought if I knew more about what you liked, what you did, maybe I could find a way to be part of that." His confession sends a cold shiver down your spine.
"Isn't that just ridiculous?" he laughs, the sound hollow—bitter, filling the increasingly claustrophobic room. His eyes become distant and slightly frantic. He couldn’t stop himself.
"Midoriya, I think you’re reading too much into this—” you start, trying to defuse the tension, but he cuts you off. "No, I don't think so. I think you've always known how I felt. And you used it against me. Kept me at arm's length on purpose," he accuses, his voice turning harsh.
Witnessing Izuku transform from the awkward, 'lovable' hero you once knew into this intense, confirmed everything that nagged in the back of your head before. An anger issue? Ego problems?
"Everyone else always sees the best in me. Why couldn’t you? What made you so different?" he demands, his voice laden with a toxic mix of longing and bitterness. Finding yourself speechless, the situation spirals beyond your control. "Midoriya, please, this isn’t healthy. We should—”
"Healthy?" scoffing. "What do you know about healthy? You've barely even looked at me all these years. And now, you show up only when you need something? That's a bit contradictory, don't you think?"
The realization that you are alone with him, caught in this escalating situation, keeps you mind spiraling into a semi state of panic. Your sense heighted—fight or flight.
"You know, it's always been more than just platonic for me," his gaze cutting through the dimly lit room, locking onto you with an unsettling earnestness. He too close, too close, "I've cared about you in ways I probably shouldn't have. And I've waited...waited for you to see that."
"Midoriya, maybe we can talk about this tomorrow? It's been a long day, and I really think I should head home and rest," you suggest, reaching for your phone to call an Uber.
"You said you'd stay the night," he reminds you, snatching the phone quickly from your hands. "Are you really going to go back on your word now? After I've opened my home to you, treated your wounds?"
Caught off guard by his overt pushiness and blatant aggression, you stammer, "Hey—Midoriya, I didn't mean—"
"No, you never mean to, do you?" he cuts in, his tone increasingly harsh. "You come here, into my home, ask for my help, reject my friendship—once again, and now you want to leave just like that? It’s always the same with you. You take what you need and then you're gone."
"That's not fair, Midoriya. I appreciate everything you've done tonight, but I'm really not feeling well, and this conversation is a lot to process," you explain, trying to maintain your composure under his scrutinizing gaze.
Izuku's tone shifts, blending accusation with a hint of hurt, his face morphing into that lovable sad expression he wore on occasion. Much like a kicked puppy. "That isn't right. I thought you were a good person. I'm just trying to understand your problem with me. What's wrong with that?"
You take a deep breath, trying to center yourself amidst the emotional whirlwind he's creating. "Midoriya, trying to understand each other isn't the problem," you begin cautiously, "but the way you're going about it—it's overwhelming. It feels like you're not just asking for understanding—you're demanding a specific response from me, one that I'm not prepared to give."
His brow furrows, and his stance becomes defensive. "So, you're saying I'm overwhelming you? I'm some evil guy? Me? A top pro hero? After all these years of keeping my distance, the moment I try to be honest about my feelings, I'm suddenly too much?"
"No, that's not what I mean, Midoriya—please—"
Izuku’s question slices through the tense air, unexpected and jarring. “Do you have a boyfriend?” His tone holds an edge of possessiveness that makes you uneasy. The query, seemingly out of nowhere, is clearly aimed at gauging your 'availability'—challenging it.
“No, but that’s not the point,” but Izuku scoots in closer, his larger frame hovering over your laid back one. Yes, he was much bigger than he was in high school. And yes his broad shoulders stood out 3 inches past your own. You couldn't stop your panicked breathing, the situation too unbelievable.
As Izuku inches closer, his large frame overshadows you, physically cornering you against the back of the sofa. The space feels oppressively small, his presence suffocating. His voice carries a chilling mix of sweetness and venom that you've never heard before, unsettlingly different from the hero you thought you knew.
“So, let’s get this straight....again.,” you avoid his gaze, near impossible from how close he is, “You’ve never had time for me, always brushed off my attempts to be close, and now here you are, in my home, accepting my help after all these years. And you think you can just leave after that, like nothing happened?”
You feel a bit embarrassed when he puts it like that.
“Izuku, I just came here because I needed help, I never meant to—”
“But that’s just it, isn’t it? You needed help, and I was convenient for you,” he cuts you off, his voice soft but laced with a sharp edge. “Isn’t it funny how after all these years of avoiding me, suddenly I’m the one you run to when you’re vulnerable? Does that seem fair to you?”
“I’ve always cared about you, more than you know,” his voice lowering to a whisper. “I’ve watched you from afar, always hoping you’d look back. But you didn’t. And now here you are, finally seeing me, but only because you need something. Don’t you owe it to me to stay? After everything?”
His question hangs heavily in the air, charged with expectations you never consented to. Flustered and trying to maintain some sense of normalcy, you start to respond. “I-I’m sorry, Midoriya—”“—Izuku. Please, after all this time, don't you think you could call me by my first name? It’s like you’re still trying to keep me at arm’s length, even now,” The hurt very clear in his voice.
As you struggle to find the right words, trying to navigate the complex emotional minefield he specifically laid out, his next action catches you completely off guard. Without waiting for your consent, he suddenly shoots up, his arms scooping you up in a princess-style carry, far too easily, but expected from a bulky pro hero. The suddenness leaves you flabbergasted and flushing bright red.
"I-Izuku," you stammer, your voice tinged with shock and a hint of protest. "Ah, much better," he responds with a pleased smile. The smile he gives you is something else—wide and triumphant, as he carries you to another room.
The large room he brings you into is softly lit, the bed neatly made. You noticed a vanity on the side wall, feminine products lining the small shelf—eerily similar to the products you have in your cabinet at home. The room was set to your exact style, items you had at home—in your online wish list—were all here.
He sets you down gently on the bed, and the reality of the situation sinks in deeper. He observes you for a moment, a mocking smile playing at the corners of his mouth, as if amused by your discomfort. As if he's observing a cute puppy, learning to walk on its own.
"Time for bed. I'll be back tomorrow." He turns to leave, and you reach out for him. "Izuku, wait—" voice laden with a plea for some semblance of normalcy—some answer to the questions you refused to voice, the room you were actively refusing to acknowledge.
"What's wrong?" he interjects with a grin, his tone cooing, demeaning, belittling. "You’re not going to ask me to tuck you in or stay the night, are you?" You could hear the underlying challenge. The jest sent to provoke something from you. "No, that’s not—I just think we need to talk about tonight," You're voice stead, yet you're on the brink of tears, the fear creeping up the back of your neck. A pro hero, a pro hero, he's a pro hero—
Izuku's face hardens at your words, his posture stiffening as he sits on the edge of the bed. "Talk? We’ve been talking all night. You said you wanted rest right?" he retorts defensively. "You’re safe here, aren’t you? I’m taking care of you, after all. What’s there to complain about?"
You know something isn’t right, but his aggressive pushback and the veiled mockery in his tone make you second-guess your instincts to speak up.
"Yeah, I...Thank you...Izuku," you find yourself saying, the words heavy on your tongue. The unease churns in your stomach, but the mean look in his eyes silences the protests forming in your mind. You lie back on the bed, covering yourself quickly, still in your street attire.
Izuku nods, seemingly satisfied with your subdued response. "See? That’s better. Just relax, I’ve got everything under control," he says, his tone soothing yet laced with a possessiveness that doesn’t escape you.
As he turns off the light and exits the room, leaving you in the dim glow of the nightlight, you're left to grapple with the unsettling blend of guilt and apprehension, too nervous now to challenge the dynamic he’s forcefully set.
Would you be allowed to leave tomorrow?
come home
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mostlysignssomeportents · 1 year ago
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Housing is a labor issue
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There's a reason Reagan declared war on unions before he declared war on everything else – environmental protection, health care, consumer rights, financial regulation. Unions are how working people fight for a better world for all of us. They're how everyday people come together to resist oligarchy, extraction and exploitation.
Take the 2019 LA teachers' strike. As Jane McAlevey writes in A Collective Bargain, the LA teachers didn't just win higher pay for their members! They also demanded (and got) an end to immigration sweeps of parents waiting for their kids at the school gate; a guarantee of green space near every public school in the city; and on-site immigration counselors in LA schools:
https://pluralistic.net/2023/04/23/a-collective-bargain/
Unionization is enjoying an historic renaissance. The Hot Labor Summer transitioned to an Eternal Labor September, and it's still going strong, with UAW president Shawn Fain celebrating his members victory over the Big Three automakers by calling for a 2028 general strike:
https://www.teenvogue.com/story/uaw-general-strike-no-class
The rising labor movement has powerful allies in the Biden Administration. NLRB general counsel Jennifer Abruzzo is systematically gutting the "union avoidance" playbook. She's banned the use of temp-work app blacklists that force workers to cross picket lines:
https://pluralistic.net/2023/07/30/computer-says-scab/#instawork
She's changed the penalty for bosses who violate labor law during union drives. It used to be the boss would pay a fine, which was an easy price to pay in exchange for killing your workers' union. Now, the penalty is automatic recognition of the union:
https://pluralistic.net/2023/09/06/goons-ginks-and-company-finks/#if-blood-be-the-price-of-your-cursed-wealth
And while the law doesn't allow Abruzzo to impose a contract on companies that refuse to bargain their unions, she's set to force those companies to honor other employers' union contracts until they agree to a contract with their own workers:
https://onlabor.org/gc-abruzzo-just-asked-the-nlrb-to-overturn-ex-cell-o-heres-why-that-matters/
She's also nuking TRAPs, the deals that force workers to repay their employers for their "training expenses" if they have the audacity to quit and get a better job somewhere else:
https://pluralistic.net/2023/09/14/prop-22-never-again/#norms-code-laws-markets
(As with every aspect of the Biden White House, its labor policy is contradictory and self-defeating, with other Biden appointees working to smash worker power, including when Biden broke the railworkers' strike:)
https://pluralistic.net/2023/09/18/co-determination/#now-make-me-do-it
A surging labor movement opens up all kinds of possibilities for a better world. Writing for the Law and Political Economy Project, UNITE Here attorney Zoe Tucker makes the case for unions as a way out of America's brutal housing crisis:
https://lpeproject.org/blog/why-unions-should-join-the-housing-fight/
She describes how low-waged LA hotel workers have been pushed out of neighborhoods close to their jobs, with UNITE Here members commuting three hours in each direction, starting their work-days at 3AM in order to clock in on time:
https://twitter.com/MorePerfectUS/status/1669088899769987079
UNITE Here members are striking against 50 hotels in LA and Orange County, and their demands include significant cost-of-living raises. But more money won't give them back the time they give up to those bruising daily commutes. For that, unions need to make housing itself a demand.
As Tucker writes, most workers are tenants and vice-versa. What's more, bad landlords are apt to be bad bosses, too. Stepan Kazaryan, the same guy who owns the strip club whose conditions were so bad that it prompted the creation of Equity Strippers NoHo, the first strippers' union in a generation, is also a shitty landlord whose tenants went on a rent-strike:
https://pluralistic.net/2023/05/20/the-missing-links/#plunderphonics
So it was only natural that Kazaryan's tenants walked the picket line with the Equity Stripper Noho workers:
https://twitter.com/glendaletenants/status/1733290276599570736?s=46
While scumbag bosses/evil landlords like Kazaryan deal out misery retail, one apartment building at a time, the wholesale destruction of workers' lives comes from private equity giants who are the most prolific source of TRAPs, robo-scabbing apps, illegal union busting, and indefinite contract delays – and these are the very same PE firms that are buying up millions of single-family homes and turning them into slums:
https://pluralistic.net/2022/02/08/wall-street-landlords/#the-new-slumlords
Tucker's point is that when a worker clocks out of their bad job, commutes home for three hours, and gets back to their black-mold-saturated, overpriced apartment to find a notice of a new junk fee (like a surcharge for paying your rent in cash, by check, or by direct payment), they're fighting the very same corporations.
Unions who defend their workers' right to shelter do every tenant a service. A coalition of LA unions succeeded in passing Measure ULA, which uses a surcharge on real estate transactions over $5m to fund "the largest municipal housing program in the country":
https://unitedtohousela.com/app/uploads/2022/05/LA_City_Affordable_Housing_Petition_H.pdf
LA unions are fighting for rules to limit Airbnbs and other platforms that transform the city's rental stock into illegal, unlicensed hotels:
https://upgo.lab.mcgill.ca/publication/strs-in-los-angeles-2022/Wachsmuth_LA_2022.pdf
And the hotel workers organized under UNITE Here are fighting their own employers: the hoteliers who are aggressively buying up residences, evicting their long-term tenants, tearing down the building and putting up a luxury hotel. They got LA council to pass a law requiring hotels to build new housing to replace any residences they displace:
https://www.latimes.com/california/story/2023-11-28/airbnb-operators-would-need-police-permit-in-l-a-under-proposed-law
UNITE Here is bargaining for a per-room hotel surcharge to fund housing specifically for hotel workers, so the people who change the sheets and clean the toilets don't have to waste six hours a day commuting to do so.
Labor unions and tenant unions have a long history of collaboration in the USA. NYC's first housing coop was midwifed by the Amalgamated Clothing Workers of America in 1927. The Penn South coop was created by the International Ladies Garment Workers’ Union. The 1949 Federal Housing Act passed after American unions pushed hard for it:
http://www.peterdreier.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/07/Labors-Love-Lost.pdf
It goes both ways. Strong unions can create sound housing – and precarious housing makes unions weaker. Remember during the Hollywood writers' strike, when an anonymous studio ghoul told the press the plans was to "allow things to drag on until union members start losing their apartments and losing their houses?"
Vienna has the most successful housing in any major city in the world. It's the city where people of every income and background live in comfort without being rent-burdened and without worry about eviction, mold, or leaks. That's the legacy of Red Vienna, the Austrian period of Social Democratic Workers' Party rule and built vast tracts of high-quality public housing. The system was so robust that it rebounded after World War II and continues to this day:
https://www.politico.eu/article/vienna-social-housing-architecture-austria-stigma/
Today, the rest of the world is mired in a terrible housing crisis. It's not merely that the rent's too damned high (though it is) – housing precarity is driving dangerous political instability:
https://pluralistic.net/2021/06/06/the-rents-too-damned-high/
Turning the human necessity of shelter into a market commodity is a failure. The economic orthodoxy that insists that public housing, rent control, and high-density zoning will lead to less housing has failed. rent control works:
https://pluralistic.net/2023/05/16/mortgages-are-rent-control/#housing-is-a-human-right-not-an-asset
Leaving housing to the market only produces losers. If you have the bad luck to invest everything you have into a home in a city that contracts, you're wiped out. If you have the bad luck into invest everything into a home in a "superstar city" where prices go up, you also lose, because your city becomes uninhabitable and your children can't afford to live there:
https://pluralistic.net/2021/09/27/lethal-dysfunction/#yimby
A strong labor movement is the best chance we have for breaking the housing deadlock. And housing is just for starters. Labor is the key to opening every frozen-in-place dysfunction. Take care work: the aging, increasingly chronically ill American population is being tortured and murdered by private equity hospices, long-term care facilities and health services that have been rolled up by the same private equity firms that destroyed work and housing:
https://pluralistic.net/2023/04/26/death-panels/#what-the-heck-is-going-on-with-CMS
In her interview with Capital & Main's Jessica Goodheart, National Domestic Workers Alliance president Ai-jen Poo describes how making things better for care workers will make things better for everyone:
https://prospect.org/labor/2023-12-13-labor-leader-ai-jen-poo-interview/
Care work is a "triple dignity investment": first, it makes life better for the worker (most often a woman of color), then, it allows family members of people who need care to move into higher paid work; and of course, it makes life better for people who need care: "It delivers human potential and agency. It delivers a future workforce. It delivers quality of life."
The failure to fund care work is a massive driver of inequality. America's sole federal public provision for care is Medicaid, which only kicks in after a family it totally impoverished. Funding care with tax increases polls high with both Democrats and Republicans, making it good politics:
https://www.dataforprogress.org/blog/2021/4/7/voters-support-investing-in-the-care-economy
Congress stripped many of the care provisions from Build Back Better, missing a chance for an "unprecedented, transformational investment in care." But the administrative agencies picked up where Congress failed, following a detailed executive order that identifies existing, previously unused powers to improve care in America. The EO "expands access to care, supports family caregivers and improves wages and conditions for the workforce":
https://www.whitehouse.gov/briefing-room/presidential-actions/2023/04/18/executive-order-on-increasing-access-to-high-quality-care-and-supporting-caregivers/
States are also filling the void. Washington just created a long-term care benefit:
https://apnews.com/article/washington-long-term-care-tax-disability-cb54b04b025223dbdba7199db1d254e4
New Mexicans passed a ballot initiative that establishes permanent funding for child care:
https://www.cwla.org/new-mexico-votes-for-child-care/
New York care workers won a $3/hour across the board raise:
https://inequality.org/great-divide/new-york-budget-fair-pay-home-care/
The fight is being led by women of color, and they're kicking ass – and they're doing it through their unions. Worker power is the foundation that we build a better world upon, and it's surging.
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https://pluralistic.net/2023/12/13/i-want-a-roof-over-my-head/#and-bread-on-the-table
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crossfalconx5 · 6 months ago
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—————————————— ”I built a little empire out of some crazy garbage, called the blood of the exploited working class-.”
Yeah sorry, your boyfriend destroyed the bond of friendship and respect between the only people left who’d even look him in the eye. Yeah, now he’s laughing and making a fortune off the same ones that he tortured. Sorry.
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HELLO! I HAVE AN ESTABLISHED TEEN STANCEST IDEA!
Idk what I would call this but basically, it's "Ford is part of a DD&MD group with a bunch of other asshole losers who basically use Ford for his basement and Stan is the stupid but hot twin brother that the guys all talk made shit about both sexually and bullying wise. Ford is pissed about it."
Basically, Ford is invited into a group at high school with a bunch of other outcast losers who decide to let Ford join because he has a basement they can use to play. They used the play at another guys house but their mom kicked them out after they broke one of her coffee tables wrestling over a dice roll. Ford, for the first time, finally has a group of guys that he could call his friends. These "friends" are assholes. They're comic book snobs and misogynistic white knights and anti-deodorant wearing teenager boys. Think incel but less "I want to kill women" and more "I am smarter than everyone here due to my impressive and ultra rare card binder and everyone else is a poser if you don't know this trivia fact!" But none the less, Ford is accepted into the fold. He's able to actually play the game, or at least, be DM, which he doesn't mind! In fact, he likes being in charge. He's still a little shy but he's slowly cracking out of his shell, being less cagey and more open with jabbing back at the others taunts and even being able to continue the flow of conversation effortlessly. He's able to be nerdly aggressive where his threats, his taunts, his nerdy accomplishments that aren't academic are recognized and envied over. It kind of works for the group and Ford is happy.
Except for one thing.
They all have a thing for Stanley.
And Ford hates that they have a thing for Stanley.
Stanley is perfectly happy with Ford having a friend group, especially one that lets him nerd out to the max. He usually doesn't bother them when they're over, either because he doesn't want to be around that much nerdiness or because the smell shuns him away. But this doesn't mean he hasn't gone down there before.
The first time he went down there, it was to tell Ford that Ma wanted him to take a look at the telephone before he went to bed. She thinks one of the wires is loose again and he might need to fix it. Ford says he will and Stan leaves. That's when the comments start up.
They start jaunting about his wit, asking Ford what it's like to have a dumb jock for a brother. Ford defends Stan, saying he's more than just a dumb jock. In fact, he's not really a jock at all, he just likes boxing. But it doesn't stop the conversation. They start sharing stories about Stans exploits around school, whether it be one of his infamous fights with the Cramplter gang or him being so atrociously stupid in class that the teacher walked out. It finally breaks off once someone rolls a Nat 20 and the campaign continues.
But it doesn't stop completely.
Every time Stanly comes down for something, either to tell Ford something, bring the group snacks that their Ma made for them (swiping one for himself), grabbing something for his Pa to sell, or really anything, the group always starts talking about Stanley. And it makes Ford blood boil. He'll defend him alright, and he'll make their campaign a fucking nightmare for everything they've said, but he's scared to really do something. This is the first friend group he's ever had and he doesn't wanna lose it, even though something in him tells him that he'd be better off without them talking shit about Stanley every time he comes down.
Then the faithful day happens when Stan comes down after a shower, no shirt on, hair wet, wearing a part of dolphin shorts as it's the middle of summer. He's down there grabbing a drink from Ford's DD&MD group snack tray. They took the last of the Pit Cola and he'd be damned if he didn't get one. So he does and leaves without really saying anything, unaware of the eyes staring at him all the way.
Ford braces himself for the onslaught of his brother but nothing. The group continues the game like nothing happened. And Ford is excited because maybe they've finally gotten it together, seen that Stan really isn't just those things, he is so much more. He's kind hearted and compassionate, he's artistic and business smart, he's hands on and crafty, he's strong and hunky and good looking and so so sexy and - Ford has to shake his head. Now is not the time to get a boner.
Ford's Ma calls him in the middle of the game for something and he has to leave them for a second. When he comes back and over hears the group talking about Stan but it's not about how stupid he looks - it's about how slutty he is. He stops on the stairs and listens in.
He hears them make incredibly inappropriate remarks about his brother, about what he must look like on his knees, wishing that they put the drinks on the ground so he would have to bend all the way over in those shorts to get it, that if it weren't for his body, he'd be a waste of air. They joke about having sex with them, calling him slurs, doing things to him that Ford knows first hand Stan does not like to do. They talk about his chub, how they mock him for being fat, but hey, at least he has nice tits. They go on and on about it, unaware of the simmering Ford up the stairs. After hearing enough, Ford finally comes down, making them all unaware that he had been listening in on them for 10 minutes.
That session becomes the hardest, most brutal session, where Ford successfully kills all of their characters off. The guys get pissed at Ford, saying he did that shit on purpose, and Ford answers back that they're lucky it was only their characters he killed off and not the real people behind them, especially after those comments. They get into a fight, the guys saying that Ford shouldn't be wasting his time defending a stupid whore like Stanley, he'd only leave and hold back Ford. Ford finally snaps when one the guys mentions how easy it would be to get with Stanley, no matter what.
Ford ends up fist fighting the guys, beating the shit out of each other, breaking and ruining their game, destroying their papers and character sheets and models. His Pa ends up coming down stairs after hearing the commotion and kicks the guys out, telling them they aren't welcome back until they can pay for the broken table. They scramble and Ford is given a talking to about picking better people to hangout with and to clean up the mess.
Ford goes down stairs to find Stan already down there, going over the mess, still in his shorts and no shirt. Ford, still high on adrenaline, runs smack dab into Stanley, pushing him up against the wall and making out with him. Stan has no idea what spurred him on though he does have an inkling. He pushes Ford back just enough to ask him about the fight, seeing how Ford does have bruises on his knuckles.
Ford tells him it wasn't important, that they weren't all that much fun anyway, he'd rather spend his time with Stanley anyway. Stanley doesn't protest too much, and they end up having sex in the basement before cleaning up the mess.
Later that night, Ford does properly take Stan to bed, making love to him and showering him in praise and acceptance. Stan lets him.
He knew going down their in those shorts would cause a stir, he just didn't know it would go so far into his favor.
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tumbleinthenet · 8 months ago
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i built a little empire out of some crazy garbage called the blood of the exploited working class, but they've overcome their shyness, now they're calling me your highness, and the world screams, "kiss me, son of god!"
i am not a gristol malik stan. however, who am i to deny the pull of they might be giants. i guess you could call this a sequel to the ana ng one i just posted! a spiritual successor, at least. and i might keep making more for as long as i can think of they might be giants songs to fit with psychonauts characters.
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hiddensneker · 9 months ago
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I built and empire out of some crazy garbage
Called the blood of the exploited working class.
But they’ve overcome their shyness, now they’re calling me your highness.
And the world screams
“Kiss me son of god”
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hrizantemy · 1 month ago
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Day 10 of ACOTAR Games: This or That
Who should have been more unforgiving?
Tarquin: Feyre violating his mind and making a mockery of his dreams by deceiving him, desecrating Summer’s temple, and stealing their relic
Tamlin: Feyre manipulating and abusing him, exploiting his fears and trauma, undermining him with his people (everything upto dismantling of Spring)
Your contenders: @achaotichuman @litnerdwrites @fenrysmoonbeamswife @gwandas @positivelyruined @yaralulu @umthisistheonlyusernamenottaken
Honestly, Tarquin had every reason to be far more unforgiving than he was. While Tamlin endured serious harm from Feyre, much of it stemmed from personal dynamics and her revenge-driven manipulations after the events in A Court of Mist and Fury. Tamlin made mistakes in how he treated Feyre—overprotective to the point of emotional harm—and those actions had consequences. However, Feyre’s punishment of Tamlin extended to his people and undermined his court, which, as you mentioned, was a bizarre choice considering not everyone in the Spring Court shared his faults.
Tarquin’s situation, though, feels far more unjust. He opened his court to Feyre and her allies in good faith, envisioning a future where High Lords worked together to create a fairer system for all. His dream of dismantling the class system and fostering alliances was crushed when Feyre violated his trust. She desecrated the Summer Court’s sacred temple, stole the Book of Breathings, and manipulated him while knowing how much he valued honor and loyalty. Tarquin’s betrayal wasn’t just personal—it jeopardized the stability of his court and his efforts to create a better world for his people. The fact that Feyre was never held accountable for this by anyone, not even herself, is infuriating when Tarquin was trying to be an ally.
In essence, while Tamlin’s grievances are valid to a degree, they are more tied to personal failings in his relationship with Feyre. Tarquin’s grievances extend to a systemic betrayal that undermined his leadership, his vision for progress, and his court’s integrity. For a ruler with such noble goals, Tarquin deserved better treatment and recognition for what he was striving to achieve.
The insult didn’t end there. Rhysand, ever the master manipulator, had the audacity to threaten Cresseida, a princess of the Summer Court, with violence if she dared question his intentions. Imagine the gall of walking into someone else’s court, violating their laws and traditions, and then threatening their family as if they were the victims. Rhysand’s hubris knew no bounds, and Feyre stood beside him, complicit in every action.
And the blood rubies? Tarquin should have kept them as a promise rather than a warning. He should have declared outright war against Rhysand and Feyre, taking their heads for what they did. Rhysand acted as though he was untouchable, a self-righteous High Lord who could do no wrong. But Tarquin? Tarquin had the power and the moral standing to fight back, to make them pay for their disrespect and for how they trampled on his dreams. The fact that he didn’t is a testament to his honor, but one wonders how much stronger and more respected the Summer Court could have been if Tarquin had taken a stand.
Tarquin’s forgiveness was unwarranted, and it only allowed Rhysand and Feyre to walk away unscathed, as they always do. The Summer Court deserved justice. Tarquin deserved respect. And yet, like so many others in Prythian, his kindness and integrity were met with betrayal. It’s time we acknowledge that Tarquin deserved far better than the scraps of so-called alliances Rhysand and Feyre offered. If he had risen to fight for his court and his people, few could have blamed him for doing so.
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roseamongroses · 15 days ago
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with strange tenderness ch: 7/7
Melvika - Timebomb [side] Alternate Universe - Modern Setting /Alternate Universe - Small Town /Artist Mel Medarda/ Muse! Sevika /Court Mandated Found Family/ Sevika Does Not Get Paid Enough (Arcane: League of Legends)/ Retired! Sevika/ Parental Death/ Past Traumatic Events/ Past Violence & Stalking/ Mild Sexual Content/ Dog/Cat Dynamic/ Canon-Typical Exploitation of the Working Class/Mentions of Police Brutality/ Suicidal Ideation/Surviors Guilt/ no beta we die like Silco/ Vitiligo! Mel/ repeated silco slander/ Hurt/Comfort/ Past Child Abuse/ Past Neglect/ Domestic Fluff
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Fists aching, blood pooling thick, warm. A trickle of red escaped the cracked corners of her mouth. A rotten taste she caught on her tongue before she spat it out into the snow.
Her head throbbed hearing those distant sirens, dizzying for her ringing ears.
Sevika stared up and up, falling flurries twinkling in that dark night. Kissing her skin, each embrace colder than the last. Dark eyes, dull, listless. She counted each one, soon forgetting what number she said last, seconds and minutes blending together.
And in spite of it all, she smiled. A throaty laugh threatening to escape at the absurdity of what she had realized. That it was this--the blood, the aches, that throbbing rush that came with uncertainty-- that finally got her dead heart beating faster and faster.
She got up--boots heavy against the asphalt.
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An endless sky—distant clouds swooping in and out with each swing. Heart beating faster and faster—until she let go. The swing rattled, her wild curls flying back, eyes sparkling as she flew up.
Then—Isha tumbled back to earth.
Snow and sludge coated the sides of her body as she hit the ground with a thud. Her head lolled a bit, breaths sharp as her world went a little dizzy.
Sevika’s head snapped up at the sound, feet moving in an instant, “Isha—” she cursed under her breath.
Isha giggled--short hiccups that climbed her throat all at once. She beamed up at that shadow blocking the looming, afternoon sun.
Dark eyes squinted--looking her over, weary, like they always did. Sevika leaned down, grasping her arms and lifting them out of the snow. She brushed the gunk off of them, picking up the beanie that had fallen off and pulling it over her hair and ears, snug.
Steady on her feet again—Isha rushed back to the swings.
She liked that flightless, floating feeling.
Air crisp—clean—no cars to be seen or smelled. She liked the dirt—the rich earth smell, the biting frost clinging to her skin. How she could run around until her legs ached--not worried about stumbling into a busy street or sidewalk that had no patience for little feet. She liked the quiet of the early mornings at the park—how the city sleeps and wakes slow, gentle. No constant sirens—no screaming—no grasping hands and snarled faces on each corner. How she could always look up and see nothing but sky for miles it seemed. Like she could stay in this dream forever, safe, warm. How she could let go--be flightless. She knew there was always someone there to pick her up and dust her off--again--and again-- when flies too high and falls even harder.
Isha liked Zaun.
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Little feet tap-tap-tapping--down the hall before she skidded around the corner.
“Isha--give it back,” Jinx lunged, nearly hitting the wall as she followed, fuzzy socks slipping.
Isha waved her little finger back, clutching the scrapbook to her chest. She ducked under the kitchen-table, crawling between the chairs and legs until she was comfortably squeezed behind the wall and Sevika’s chair.
Startled at the intrusion, Vi craned her head, squinting under the table confused.
Sevika adjusted her glasses, evenly sipping from her mug as she sorted through the papers scattered across the kitchen table. She did not look up.
Jinx huffed, circling the kitchen table for an opening. Seeing no--non-desctructive path before her, she looked between the so-called-fucking-adults, hands twitching, “Tell her to give my shit back--” she snapped.
Vi raised her hands, defensive, “Ain't my kid, ain’t my place.”
Nostrils flaring, Jinx’s eyes narrowed at Sevika,
Sevika reached for the pen, twirling it idly between her fingers, “When’d you put a dent in my truck?” she asked, pen clicking as she started striking through some lines of text.
Jinx blanched, taking in a breath, “I…never took your truck, how would I know?” she craned her head, squinting under the table, ire rising, “I didn’t do shit--she took my--”
Sevika raised an eyebrow.
“I didn’t--I--” Jinx blew her bangs out of her face, rolling her eyes, “This is fuckin bullshit,” their eyebrows arched higher, “...Three days ago,” she admits with a huff, “It's not even all that big--”
Another line of text was struck through, dark eyes narrowing, “You’re paying for the repair,” Sevika said, scowling. She then reached back, pulling a twenty from her pocket and passing it under her chair.
Isha slid the scrapbook out.
Jinx's eyes darted around wild, realization setting in as she snatched it up,“Did you plan this--?” she hissed out, hugging her scrapbook, “What the hell--”
“Don’t take my shit--I won’t take yours.”
“Fantastic parenting,” Vi drawled, sarcastic. She picked up the cereal box, shaking it out into her open mouth.
“--Not a parent.”
Vi let out a throaty laugh in disbelief, “Su-” she nearly choked, swallowing before shaking more cereal into her mouth.
Jinx’s brain halted its rapid spiral, body stilling. Her head swiveled, attention narrowing in on her sister, watching as she shook the cereal-box until only crumbs fell into her mouth, “Is that…the last of the Lucky Charms?”
Vi froze, swallowing thick “...No-” she said, mouth full. Stray, delicious crumbs falling everywhere.
Underneath the table, Isha froze, nose twitching. She tucked her twenty between her teeth, eyes narrowed as she began army-crawling forward.
Sevika got up from the table, chair scuffing. She laughed, sending Vi a look that could’ve been mistaken for pity if it wasn’t for that bitch of a smile.
Isha launched forward, grabbing Vi’s legs with a deathly grip right as Jinx flung onto her back. Barking laughter and shouts filled the room as they all squabbled.
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On Isha’s bed, there was a mountain.
A mountain of soft. A teetering lump filled with socks, blankets, pillows, stuff-animals. Anything she could swipe. At the end of each day, she crawled into the mountain, burying herself deep in its warmth.
At the beginning of each day, she surveyed her spoils and decided which one she’d take to school. Something she could fit in her book bag that she could squeeze when she was in timeout or waiting for end-of-day pick up.
Lately it had been the same scarf—wide, white like snow, and fluffy. She wrapped it around her face, taking it everywhere and petting it like a puppy.
Mel had never asked for it back. Isha would never ask if she wanted it back.
It was the perfect exchange.
Until little Billy-bitch fest snatched it during recess and refused to give it back.
So Isha did what most children of Zaun do when faced with displeasing, unforeseen circumstances.
“Ma’am we do not tolerate this type of behavior--” Isha’s teacher explained, deeply exasperated. She was young, a decent educator who was holding onto her first job for dear life, “She cannot keep doing this every time she doesn’t get her way.”
It was only because of that begrudging respect that Sevika chose her words carefully, “He stole from her, what else do you expect?”
The Other Mother, sat across from them, gasped, “She bit him,” she said, smoothing her son’s hair. The boy was completely checked out of the conversation, rubbing his face into the scarf.
‘Snotty nosed--thieving ass --bitch--’
“Barely,” Sevika said with a snort, “And she did ask for it back, multiple times,” she reminded them, before leveling a glare at the woman,“He still has it,” she said, a snarl on her lips.
“W-well-- she can’t speak so clearly there must’ve been a misunderstanding,” The Other Mother stammered, scooting away a smidge, “He likes the scarf--that isn’t a crime. And the other kids always share with him.”
Isha seethed.
She could talk--her hands could speak plenty loud. And when people couldn’t understand the simple shake of a head--she had other ways. She might not speak, but she could use her fucking teeth just fine.
Sevika’s hand squeezed Isha’s shoulders as she spoke, “Some kids want to share, others don’t. Neither you or your son should take advantage of the fact that she’s non-verbal to do whatever you want,” she gritted out, nostrils flaring, “He didn’t listen--she almost bit him. You’re lucky it didn’t escalate further.”
The teacher looked between the two, increasingly panicked, “That doesn’t excuse the fact that a student was almost harmed, “The teacher chides, “This has happened far too many times. What if it did escalate? Charges could’ve been pressed. ”
Sevika sighed, deeply exhausted, “Stealing is also a crime,” she said, her patience running thin, “Do we really want to involve the law over bullshit like this? They’re eight fucking years old. ”
“You’re right--” The Other Mother chimed in, “Let’s settle this like adults. How much is the scarf? We’ll buy you another so Billy can keep this one,” Both Isha and Sevika sent her incredulous looks as she continued, “It really helps with his self-soothing. You must understand I can't bear to make him part with it. ” she explained, rummaging through her purse for her wallet.
Sevika looked up for a moment, muttering to herself, before taking out her phone and texting for a moment. Her eyebrow arched at the response. Without another word, she raised her phone towards them.
The Other Mother squinted at the phone, before her face fell, looking a bit pale,“...Billy give back the scarf,” she muttered, shoving her wallet back in her purse and grabbing her keys.
“But Mommy I like this scarf--”
The Other Mother sent him a strained smile,“Give back the scarf,” she gritted out.
Isha got back her scarf.
Sevika zipped up her coat, pushing her beanie down around her ears, muttering about the cold. Isha petted her scarf, bumbling after them towards the truck, serene again.
-
Gentle tugs of the comb through her hair, light snips of the scissors, deft hands rubbing oils into her scalp. Mel worked the remaining gunk out of Isha’s hair patiently, the girl squirming on the stool.
Sevika stepped into the bathroom door right as she finished up. She leaned against the door, watching Mel fuss over the girl, “Dinner’s ready,” she said, remembering why she came in here, then she added, “It looks good.”
Clean curls, shortly trimmed. Bangs framing her face gently and brushing the tops of her ears. The uneven, jagged lines were smoothed out-- all traces of the gum removed.
Isha studied her appearance carefully, pinching at a strand, before nodding.
Mel hummed, pleased at the approval. She tousled Isha’s hair one last time, soft perfume wafting as she leaned down, “So pretty,” she cooed.
Isha’s nose scrunched, shaking her head.
Mel thoughtfully paused, “Beautiful?”
Another shake.
Isha didn’t like that one either--it felt strange. Made her skin crawl.
When she thought of pretty--beautiful--she thought of soft manicured hands, flowery perfume, a white scarf wrapped snugly around her, and an accented voice that never yelled no matter how much the girl fidgeted or fussed.
She wasn’t ugly--she knew that. But it didn’t feel right and she wasn’t entirely sure why.
Bright eyes met hers in the mirror, before Mel asked, “Hm…what about handsome?”
And at that--Isha’s heart hitched for a moment.
She liked that one.
Isha hesitated before nodding. Her cheeks flushing red as she sent the woman a small smile.
Mel smiled sweetly at her, starting to slowly gather the hair products cluttering the counter and putting them away.
Sevika stared at the girl, raising an eyebrow.
Isha narrowed her eyes at them, scowling as she hopped off the stool and disappeared out of the bathroom in a huff.
The old lady was so nosy.
Mel chuckled, closing the cabinets.
“What’s with her?” Sevika asked, thoroughly confused.
Mel sideled next to her, looking up through her eyelashes, “She gets it from you, y’know,” she teased, hand trailing from their shoulders before settling on her bicep, hand curling around the firm muscle. Her heels lifted, mouth ghosting the shell of their ear, “I could look at you all day. Strong jaw…pretty eyes…that cute gap in your teeth when you smile--when you bite. You’re so…” those slender fingers squeezed again before slipping down her side, stopping above her waistline where her boxers peeked out from her pants, “Handsome. It’s a little infuriating. I have to watch you work so hard, looking this good, knowing I can’t…” her voice lowered as she spoke, fingers stroking her waistline, every-so-often dipping underneath.
This woman…
A warmth flushed Sevika’s cheeks as she listened, fingers twitching as Mel not-so-subtly talked her through--well--everything. Briefly she wondered if this was for later--or if she was getting dragged to the bedroom.
But before Sevika made the decision for them, Mel stepped away. She slipped past her, a sway in her hips as she looked over her shoulder with a coy smile.
Sevika followed with an unhurried gait, a glint in her eye. -
Sharp breaths—cold sheets, that metallic smell fresh in her nose.
Isha woke up—heart beating fast—fast—faster. She crawled out of her mountain of soft, feet patting softly against the floor as she creeped out of the room and down the hall.
Isha pushed into Jinx’s room, head peeking around the corner.
Thumping music, a neon purple light filling the room. Jinx sprawled across her bed, feet kicking along to the beat as she painted her nails. On her pillow, her phone was propped up--Ekko snoring away on face-time.
At the sound of the door, Jinx looked up, flashing her a grin. Isha wiped her eyes, picking her way through the junk in the room and climbing into the bed. She sank into the giant stuffed rabbit by the wall, holding onto its chewed up arm and petting it gently.
Isha zoned out, letting the music wash over her and wash away the bad memories. Jinx glanced back, thoughtful, before she rolled over, ruffling the young girl’s hair, “You good now?”
Isha frowned, shaking her head, hands still--words lost.
“You wanna a snack?” Jinx asked instead, “It might make you feel better.”
Isha nodded and Jinx hopped to her feet, braids swinging as she shuffled to the kitchen, nodding along to her headphones. Then--she abruptly stopped.
The stove light was still on, casting a muted, orange glow in the kitchen.
Sevika stood with her back to them, cropped hair falling forward as she looked down. Slender arms slipped over her shoulder, manicured hands painted gold, reflecting the dim light softly. Mel let out a sigh, eyes closed, face tucked into the crook of their neck. Sevika held her by her waist, the pair swaying--faint murmurs kept close between as they danced to that unheard music.
It didn’t seem like they noticed her yet, lost in their own little world.
Jinx watched them for a moment, head tilting a bit before she averted her eyes. She snatched the bag of oranges on the table quick, her footsteps light as she retreated back to her room.
-
Silco wasn’t always home.
Most of the time he let Jinx tag along when he was working. She was always hanging off his desk or clinging to his chair, watching those strange people and stranger deals. Rattling mind--avidly soaking up every detail.
But on the odd chance that he left her behind, she’d get a babysitter.
That woman--three times her size, boots twice as heavy.
Sevika always had a nasty snarl on her lips. Those dark eyes, scrutinizing the young girl, before looking away. She always looked away.
Everytime Jinx was left in that penthouse, the halls sprawling, empty, and cold. Sevika would have to drag her ass up there too--bloodied, bruised, eyes glazed over, hand gnarled. She’d push through the doors, sit on the couch, turning on the T.V as she threw back a shot and stitched up her wounds. She’d watch anything--the news, medical dramas, women’s basketball, cartoons--no discernable preference for most of the noise. She’d always make food--she said it was a waste of a nice kitchen to always eat out. She’d always leave Jinx an extra plate of whatever she made in the microwave.
Jinx doubts Silco ordered her to go that far, after-all the girl was more than capable of taking care of herself. She was a genius, a bright mind, better than the rest, his student, his heir.
So she didn’t need any of it. She could work a phone and swipe a card just fine.
And she knew Sevika didn’t like her much. The poking, the constant prodding, the daily fits of clawing hands and nightly terrors that made the walls shake. She set the woman on edge--she could tell.
And yet.
There she was--without fail.
Over those years, Jinx has seen a lot of people come and go and go--and go. Her tongue heavy with copper, her eyes bloodied over red.
She doesn’t remember a time where Sevika wasn’t there.
A world without Silco--she’s had to confront everyday, every night, every dream, every memory. It was a cold, unrelenting truth that washed over her body, pulling her out to sea and not letting her break the surface for air. Only salt and grime pooled into her lungs, the taste of guilt heavy.
It was all her fault--she doesn’t feel bad at all--or did she? She wasn’t sure. How she felt about him came and went with the seasons. That man--that monster--her father--her mentor--her family. He was there when everything in her life fell apart, holding her head above water. Letting her bite the wind and lose herself in its charm.
And yet--when she needed him the most, he was gone. It was her fault, of course--but she wasn’t sure how to feel about that--about him.
But when she thought of Sevika facing the same fate, she knew with certainty--
Jinx would miss her.
She’d miss her like she missed Vi--waiting, calling, desperate for an answer and being forced to watch those bright eyes fade year after year.
Like how she missed her parents--her friend’s parents, her neighbors. One day they were there--then they weren’t.
She’d miss her like she’d miss Isha--separated after a few scant months of knowing each other. Not knowing if she had the right to call her sister--knowing the system didn’t care what they called each other.
She’d miss them like air, like a heart beating--she doesn’t know when she started to feel that way. She doesn’t know what changed.
But, she remembers one night.
The terrors came most nights, but that night she woke up shaking, drenched in sweat, and scrambling for the bathroom. Dazed, she walked the halls--pale walls, pale floors, an unending blank--white. She stopped by Silco’s door, trembling hand grasping the doorknob, knowing that tonight, no one would answer.
Jinx drifted into the living room, following the faint noise of the T.V playing. She climbed into the couch, balling up tight.
Sevika didn’t comment, moving her legs out the way to make space, eyes fixed on the screen.
Inhale--exhale--inhale--Jinx’s breaths quieted, legs no longer shaking. That heart-beating slow and slower. Only then could she process what they had been watching.
A black and white movie--one she didn’t recognize. A piano plinking in the background, an old couple swaying together in the kitchen, lost in each other’s arms. The end credits played, then the screen went dark.
Sevika stared at the dark screen for a long time, fingers drumming against the couch. Then she reached for the remote and replayed the movie. Again and again--and again. The couple met, they fought, they fell in love--and stayed. Each time they decided to stay, tears and all.
Dark eyes--unreadable. That slow, plinking piano, those tapping fingers, the mumbled dialogue on screen--a lullaby that quieted the noise.
Jinx woke up the next day--mouth dry--a blanket thrown over head.
She could smell eggs cooking.
-
A severe-faced woman, missing one-too-many teeth, was wearing a fluffy pink-striped robe and bunny slippers. She sat at the kitchen table, bouncing her baby sister in her arms--eyes bouncing between the couple. Opal was promised a nice breakfast after one--too--many impromptu date nights left her with baby-sitting Isha. She didn’t expect a show as well.
“You think we should hold off ‘till after the break?” Sevika questioned, readjusting her glasses and pushing a stray strand of hair out of her face, deep-set lines in her face, eyebags darker than usual. In front of her there were various stacks of papers and sticky notes littering the table, plates of steaming bacon, eggs, and pancakes sitting on top of the work.“We could lose momentum.”
Mel sat on the other side of the table, a sleek laptop in front of her, “We will lose momentum,” she muttered, fingers flying as she typed, her eyes scanning the screen. She only stopped on occasion to pick at her bowl of fruit, “Its the holidays, people will pull away for family, vacations--just to rest. Everything will go on hold regardless.”
“That’s why we should escalate now--” Sevika countered, reaching across the table to snag a piece of pineapple before her partner could get it, “They’re comfortable--they’re not expecting it. Now would be the perfect time keep the pressure building.”
Mel bit her thumb, brows furrowing a bit, reaching for a grape instead--batting Sevika’s hand away before they could snatch that too, “I suppose, but if we want to escalate--we need better measures to mitigate harm. I’ve reached out to a few people interested in helping with the legal side of things, but most won’t be available until after the holidays.”
Sevika frowned, rubbing her chin, troubled, “The turn around rate for the school is high--we might be working with completely new staff by then. And waiting might give them the chance to hide their trail--”
The pair went back and forth on the subject for a while--proposing different variables, cost, risks--neither quite budging on their positions.
Mel sighed, standing up with a stretch before heading into the kitchen. The faint whirring of the coffee machine was heard, the smell thick in the air as she made another cup.
Opal watched her go, snagging another piece of bacon,“Y’all always argue during breakfast?” she asked, swallowing it one bite and grabbing another piece.
Sevika frowned, a bit confused, “I agree with her, but the decision isn’t ours to make. We need to discuss it with the group at the next meeting.” she explained.
“...So why were you disagreeing with every point then? ” Opal asked, equally confused, but her attention shifted as her baby-sister farted, startling themselves awake. Her lips curled, groaning internally.
At her words--Sevika’s lips twitched, “She helps me think,” she said, like that made any fucking sense.
Opal eyed them strangely, standing and grabbing her diaper bag, “Uh-huh…” she said, then--she realized, “Ugh--gross.”
“What?”
“This is some fucked-up, foreplay, ain’t it?” Opal accused, squinting at them.
Sevika neither confirmed nor denied that.
Mel returned from the kitchen, three mugs balanced in her hands. She set each one down, before stopping in front of Sevika. A slender hand grasping their chin--dark eyes fixed up, waiting. She studied them for a moment, eyes narrowed. Then she turned their head firmly, leaning down to kiss their cheek. Only then did she go sit down, resuming her typing without another word.
Sevika picked up her coffee, sipping it, looking smug.
“...Thanks hun,” Opal said, taking a sip of her own coffee, deciding it’d be best to mind her business. Then she set the mug down, leaving to find the nearest flat surface.
-
Mel bit her lip, eyes narrowing with concentration as she moved about the kitchen. She recited the instructions under her breath, then asked, “Like this?
Sevika was close behind, hands—metal and skin—settling on her hips as she watched over her shoulders. Mel adjusted the heat for each pot, lifting one top to show them.
“Mhm,” Sevika said, eyeing it with approval. Her head dipped down, hands digging into Mel’s hips as she pressed against the woman--that loose night-gown thin, “Just like that--” she said, voice rough in her ear.
-
Inch by Inch--they guided her down—
“Mhm, just like that—”
-
“—Sevika!” Mel’s head snapped back, those hands--kneading--keeping their bodies flushed together as they wandered lower and lower, “I’m trying to focus,” she complained, eyes darting across the stovetop at all the little pots.
“I’m helping.”
“No you’re not--” Mel hissed, not buying it at all, “You’re trying to drag me back to bed.”
-
“If you want it—you gotta work for it, princess,”
Reclined back, arm thrown behind her head, Sevika flashed a crooked smile. Dark eyes fixed--watching those thighs tremble. Jerking hips--stuttering to keep pace. Bright eyes panting--pleading. Her hands clenched their shoulders tighter and tighter, desperate for release, nails breaking skin--red.
Sevika inhaled sharp, heart beating-- faster and faster.
That sweet mouth--those lips--those noises.
She couldn't get enough of her.
-
“Am I?”
“Yes, you are—“ Mel grumbled, nose in the air, “Everything has to be perfect. There isn’t time to mess around. ”
“I’m enjoying my gift.”
Mel rolled her eyes, “You’ve enjoyed it plenty,” she said, dry.
Sevika played with the edge of her night-gown, “But--”
-
“—you take it so well.”
-
Mel closed her eyes with a huff. She was more than a little hot and bothered--but. Opening her eyes, she reached for the towel, wiping her hands, “Move—I’m done,” she said, feeling them step away at once. She glanced back, smiling a little bit seeing those big, dark eyes watching--waiting. “You… can finish up here if you want to please me so badly,” she added, teasing.
Sevika’s fingers itched, watching those hips swing as she passed.
-
Neat, brown paper wrapped around a bouquet of soft white and gold. Elora fidgeted with it in her lap, that perpetual line between her brow, stark, “Is it too much?” she wonders outloud, “What if she doesn’t like it?”
A lithe hand reached towards her, fingers intertwining, “She loves flowers, she loves you—she’ll love the gift,” Lest reassures, voice low and comforting. She crossed her long legs, leaning closer to her fiance—the layers of fur draped around her shoulders easily filling the space between, “What are you really worried about, darlin’?”
Elora looked pensive, thumb tracing her fiance’s ring--a habit she soon acquired after their engagement, “It's been… so long since I’ve seen her,” she admits with a sigh, “We talk all the time, but…you can hide so much over the phone.”
Lest could understand her concern. Even when she was dating Mel, it was hard to get a good read on how she felt—and it was the main reason they’d broken up.
Trying to decipher every word—every touch. She was always so far—bright, a twinkling lovely light, untouchable. It made her own insecurities at the time that much worse—knowing that nasty woman was always in Mel’s ear. Deep down--fearing that she might be right—that she was making that bright woman so much worse.
Now she knew it wasn’t like that at all. Sometimes she wondered what they could’ve become without that interference, but that love had long-since changed. It morphed into something different, but better for their relationship long-term.
Elora raised Lest’s hand to her mouth, kissing her lightly, “Now you’re the one worrying,” she chides fondly, watching how her fiance's nose twitched, those rich eyes lost—distant.
Lest closed her eyes, long, dark lashes dusting her cheeks—caught, “We worry because we care,” she murmurs, heart fluttering like it was the first time. Again and again--Elora saw her so clearly. That soft sweeping love took her off guard each time, like the last rays of a waning light. That sun sitting low on the horizon, flooding the world with its final cry, promising to rise again. Light, gentle, warm against her skin, no matter how rough life gets.
“What a heavy burden we bear, indeed,” Elora mused, thoughtfully watching those hills roll past, then hesitating she asked, “…What do you know about her partner?”
“Oh, so you do want to know?” Lest laughed, seeing her pout. She tilted her head, mischief playing on her tongue, “What happened to giving Mel privacy? Not wanting to pry?”
That particular reveal came out of nowhere. Mel had brought it up towards the end of one of their private meetings apparently. A casual, fleeting explanation for why she was behind schedule. But, she didn’t offer any other details--other then that look she sometimes got, lost in thought. A look they hadn’t seen in a long time.
“It's different now,“ Elora insisted firmly, “We’re about to meet them. I should know what to expect.”
And she should know whether or not she’s needed to extend their trip to shake sense into her friend. It was a practical train of thought considering Mel’s upcoming schedule. It was almost a new year of new beginnings—she refused to let any ill will follow them into it.
“Sevika is…older.”
Eloras head snapped up, eyes narrowed, “How old?”
“Not that much older,“ Lest teased, painted lips curled.
“You’re having too much fun with this,” Elora sighed, shaking her head.
“Baby, I hardly ever see you get so worked up,” Lest purred, thoroughly amused, “What do you want to know? I’ll answer you, promise.”
Elora only had one question, “Are they a good person?” she asked, those dark eyes as soft as the horizon she watched.
Lest thought it over for a moment. Her youth was filled with painful, but fond memories —smelling of bitter smoke and cold winters. Hiding under the bleachers until the tardy bell rang, trading homework answers for lipgloss, climbing that old tree--stars in her eyes and a wish on her lips. Looking back, she would’ve never guessed how soon it’d come true.
Then she answered.
-
Red.
Velvet dark enough to be mistaken for black. Black and white plumes trimming the deep curve of that sweet-heart neckline, softly curling underneath her collarbone and exposed shoulders. The dress clung to her every curve, swooping low in the back and revealing her toned, slender waist. Sheer, long gloves glinted with gold, matching her dangling earrings and the delicate necklace Sevika had surprised her with that morning. Her hair was piled high on her head into a bun. Her locs shaped like little petals unfurling from a blossom, stray strands framing her face.
Mel glanced at her through the mirror as she finished applying that dark lip, “Did you need something?” she asked. On closer inspection there were the gold freckles applied to her skin. They reflected with every slight movement, that smattering of light making her glow all that brighter.
Sevika…forgot why she came into the bedroom. “You’re….wearing red,” she managed, a little dazed. She had fully expected Mel to keep her little snowflake schtick going--so it wasn’t entirely irrelevant.
“Oh am I?” Mel squinted at her, amused, “I suppose it would be a bit strange for you to see, but they are the family colors and all. My brother’s a stickler for tradition, ” she explained, tucking away her lipstick, patting away at the corners of her lips with a small cloth, "Anything else you’d like to share?”
“Can you keep this on--after the guests leave?” Sevika asked, rather distracted as she counted the gold clips scattered in her hair. Everytime she looked, there was always something new.
Mel’s head turned--she changed her usual blush--keen eyes, lips softly pursed as she thought. All signs of that flustered, frustrated woman from earlier were smoothly wiped away.
Sevika was fond of her in every way.
But there was something about Mel in her element that felt different. The composure, the attention-to-detail, the confidence--the control she had over a room, knowing they’d all be looking at her.
It scratched an itch Sevika didn’t get a chance to indulge in often.
That need to get down on her knees and--
“Sure,” Mel said, agreeing far too easily. She reached for her perfume, spritzing her cloth and dabbing lightly at her collar bone and behind her ears. An elegant finger tugging down slowly the neckline of her chest, adding perfume between the valley of her chest, “As long as you behave.”
-
Jinx leaned on the door frame, arms crossed, “Are you sure you don’t want to stay?” she grumbled, looking off.
She was not pouting. She wasn’t.
Ekko smiled faintly, eyes soft, “Parties aren’t really…my thing,” he said, adjusting his grip on the plate wrapped in tinfoil.
It wasn’t a lie… but it wasn’t entirely the truth.
They had been visiting Dr. Medarda’s studio that day when she’d initially invited him to the dinner-party. However, once Jinx stepped out of the room, Dr. Medarda quietly disclosed that due to her brother’s visit there would be armed security present.
Initially, he took it as a fucked up, rich person threat to act right. But he realized--she was genuinely trying to see if he’d be comfortable with it.
He wasn’t.
It didn’t seem like Dr. Medarda was either, but she seemed…resigned.
Most people in Zaun were pretty comfortable with guns. The hunting, the shooting ranges, and the works, but--
Dark uniforms--smashed windows--the smell of copper--a steady hand going limp.
Red--staining everything. It never washed out--no matter how many wishes he made.
He couldn't stand them.
Jinx watched him, a strange expression appearing then disappearing in the blink of an eye, “Text me when you get home?” she asked, head bobbing to the side, those curled pieces of hair framing her face like flowering vines.
Ekko nodded, glancing at his watch to check the time.
“Oh--Ekko?”
“Hm?”
Jinx pointed up, crooked finger wagging a bit.
Ekko followed her direction, spotting green and red tapped hastily to the top of the doorframe--mistletoe.
That wasn’t there--
Before he could process it, Jinx leaned over, quick. Nubby fingers squeezed his shoulder, heels lifting as she kissed him on the cheek, “Merry Christmas, rabbit,” she whispered with a giggle--pulling away and disappearing behind the shut door.
Ekko blinked, a bit dazed.
Then--a slow creeping flush heated his body all at once.
-
Sevika adjusted the dupatta draped around her shoulders to the left, fabric falling in waves over her prosthetic arm. She watched the shiny cars pull into the driveway one after the other, dark tinted windows a nostalgic sight, “What’s your brother like?” she asked.
Dark suits climbed out of the cars in waves. She watched how their mouths moved--imagined the barking orders, the stations positioned around the home, the eyes trained on their every move.
Mel mulled it over, finger curled over her mouth, “He was always my Mother’s favorite, but he isn’t…spoiled,” she decides, eyes distant, “He’s matured a lot over the years, but he’s a bit like…”
Her eyes trailed off to the dining room table, gaze landing on the mouthy teenager already sneaking bites of the desserts.
Sevika blinked, hard, “Jinx?” she asked, disbelieving.
-
“Kino--” Mel wheezed, holiday cheer long gone. She scowled as her brother squeezed her tighter, trapping her in his arms. She pushed at his face, complaining, “Let go-- you’ll ruin my makeup--”
“I can’t hug my baby-sister now?” Kino asked, aghast. He was unfazed by her efforts, strong arms lifting her up.The man was tall, spindly even, but he carried her with ease. He wore an immaculately tailored, burgundy suit. This was paired with a fresh fade, cornrows, and gold rings glinting-- the center of his bottom lip painted to match.
“I’m not a baby--put me down,” Mel bit out, yelping as her heels left the ground.
“Okay, okay,” Kino relented, setting her down.
Mel huffed, readjusting her dress before she broke out into a wide smile, rushing past him. She greeted her sister-in-law excitedly, helping her sit down on the couch as she cradled her stomach. Shug followed the women with big, curious eyes.
Nearby, her nephews did what kids normally did. A lanky, preteen's eyes fixed on his phone as he texted. A mouthy eight year old argued with Isha over the shiny switches he pulled out of his bag.
Kino redirected his attention to Mel’s partner, giving them a once over. That sparkling demeanor shifting--ever so slightly, “Nice to meet you,” he said, evenly. He extended a hand, gold canines flashing.
Sevika nodded in return, shaking it firm.
Her arm itched.
-
A calloused hand reached towards that blinking, distant light.
Sevika gasped for breath, that anesthesia didn’t do shit for the pain. Grasping hands reached for her--then the shimmer. Shouting voices filled her ears as they struggled to hold her back and tie her back down for the operation.
That all consuming pain, a throttling heat--arm practically dead weight at this point. She drooled around the gag, bracing herself for the bite of the surgeon’s knife.
-
Mel handed off the bouquet to Sevika, gathering her friends into a hug, “How was the plane ride?”
“It was fine—it was fine,” Elora assured, with a breathy laugh, “Boring as usually, though the snacks were quite interesting—“
Never one for small talk, Lest’s eyes darted around the home's interior, “Didn’t I say you could throw out all this junk?” she questioned.
The exterior was nearly unrecognizable from her childhood. The crumbling walls and faded colors painted fresh, warm, and bright, but the interior…It was—dizzying how much was the same.
“This junk— has charm,” Mel insisted, loftily, arching her eyebrow as she pulled away, “If you want to get rid of it, you’ll have to come and do it yourself I’m afraid.”
“Horrifying concept,” Lest drawled—it was an old aversion from childhood. She feared if she threw her grandmother's stuff away—that old bat would come back to life to scold her for ‘not having taste’.
And yet, she couldn’t help but smile.
Nana always favored Mel during visits. The woman couldn’t wrap her head around anything in regards to their relationship or Lest’s gender, but she adored Mel regardless. Always asking for her even after they had broken up and parted ways. Mel always did the same—calling her often, dotting after the old woman, and spoiling her rotten.
Some things never change.
“—Now let me see your ring,” Mel said with a determined glint in her eye.
Elora blushed, shy all at once as her friend fawned over that glimmering, silver band, “You’ve already seen pictures—”
Mel scoffed at that, turning her hand over, “Pictures hardly compare to the real thing,” she said, squinting at it, “Have you all decided when you want your portrait painted ? What about the fittings—did you get a chance to meet with my tailor?“
As those two fussed over each other —Lest followed Sevika down the hall, heels notably silent on the floors.
“You were staring at her hand,” Lest airly notes with a sidelong glance, “I could… tell you her size if you want?”
“It’s too early for that,” Sevika said, eyes pointedly staring ahead, bouquet gently nestled in the crux of her arm as they entered the kitchen, “And you’re far too nosy--like usual.”
It's funny…Their paths often crossed, yet you could count the amount of conversation’s they’ve had on one hand.
Lest tilted her head, amused, “It comes with the job, I’m afraid,” she admits, letting their irritation roll off of her without batting an eye, “But if you want to know…she’s kept the same mood board for wedding rings since college. And she most likely has a jeweler on call already--it's best to ask since she’s so particular about it,” she listed off the details, endlessly fascinated at the fact that the other woman hadn’t left the room yet. Silent, but listening all the same. “Jayce went and got her some fancy rock from a lab with a silver band. Kino nearly fell out, but Mel never complained. Though…I doubt she’d let it happen again.”
That silence—then, “Who the hell is Jayce?” Sevika asked with a frown, idly arranging the flowers in a vase.
“...Her ex-fiancé, “ Lest explained, eyeing her strangely, “Didn’t she tell you?”
Sevika snorted, “She did, but why would I remember his name?”
Lest laughed, hand covering her mouth, “You never change, do you?”
-
A gold mask—a snarling wolf.
A sliver of a mouth could be seen, the center of the bottom lip painted gold. Dark eyes surveyed the trembling figures kneeling before them, disgusted. They took the gun from their holster, clicking the safety off before raising it. The barrel of the gun pressing into skin, kissing the sweat and tears as they let out a strangled cry.
“An example will have to be made—“
1–shot rang out—red.
They watched the body hit the ground, before redirecting their gaze to those watching the execution, “Mistakes will not be tolerated.”
Bright—violet eyes watched it all. Jinx’s head was tucked against Silco’s shoulder. She dozed off, counting each shot.
—2
—3
—4
-
And after they had all left, one final shot had rang out.
—5
-
Water poured from the faucet. Jinx ran her hands under it, moving to splash her face, but she stopped remembering her make-up.
“Shit,” she glared at the mirror, chewing on her lip. Feet tapping--moving, she started pacing the bathroom instead, spiraling.
It could be another hallucination—a strange memory that was out of place. Her imagination working overtime because life had been far too quiet for too long.
But—what if it wasn’t?
Sometimes her memory had holes. Other times—it could be startlingly clear. Some people, some places, always stuck with her no matter what and—
Jinx heard Mel’s brother laugh from the living room, feeling unsteady again.
She remembers that laugh.
She remembers them. The heavy boots of the woman in red. That snarling wolf never looked at her, but the one behind her—him—he always smiled her way.
-
Steaming plates piled high with food, the clinking of glasses, laughter, and the warm crackling of the fireplace.
Jinx peered into the dining room, uncertain.
Sevika stopped beside her, raising an eyebrow, “What's wrong?” she asked, under her breath.
Jinx frowned, fingers twiddling, “Nothings wrong…”
And nothing was wrong.
Everything was fine. It was in the past right?
Maybe Mel already knew. Even if she didn’t, Jinx didn’t have any right to bring up any of that ugliness now. This home--bright and lovely, she couldn’t stand the thought of making it filthy. So why couldn’t she let it go? Why was her chest tight--why was it harder to breathe--
He didn’t do anything to her--so why was she so--why was she--shaking. Scared. Like she was eight years old again.
A bandaged hand settled on her shoulder, squeezing gently.
Jinx looked up startled. Looking around she realized she was in a room, sitting on a too-soft bed. Vi sat next to her, brows furrowed before she passed her a cold bottle of water.
Jinx lost time again.
Across the dimly lit room, Sevika stood by the door studying her carefully. That silent question filling the space between them.
Jinx fumbled with the cap of the water-bottle, taking a gulp, before she finally blurted out that mess of thoughts.
-
Sevika inhaled then exhaled, rubbing her eyes. Slowly but surely some pieces were settling into place.
She’d be lying if she said she never thought Mel’s family was odd, but she thought it was the wealth.
And the Medarda’s weren’t just wealthy--they were wealth personified.
Their name plastered on every building--hands dipped into every possible venture. From international shipping, to pharmaceuticals, to education, to manufacturing. A hand that extends and takes hands--and hands--and hands in turn.
Sevika never would’ve guessed one of those ventures was Silco. She was his right hand in every aspect, but certain investors were kept private by request. And the investor that helped them go international was different then the rest.
When they called--he had no choice but to answer.
Sevika kept most of her unkind thoughts about Mel’s Mother to herself most days. She knew better than most how it felt to grieve a person and the relationship you never got to have. But, perhaps she was so focused on those two, she never gave any thought to how the family worked as a whole.
Why send one child away and not the other?
Over the years, Sevika worked with many different types of people who indulged in many questionable activities. Not everyone broke the law in the same way. And the wealthy had more cards to choose from them most. They could afford to pick and choose who to shield from the violence and who to fold.
Ambessa Medarda seemed like the type.
A wolf both in name and in ruthless efficiency. Clawing her family name from the depths of obscurity, rocketing them into a league of their own. And apparently, she enjoyed success in both her legal and illegal ventures.
One child to carry on the legacy for each world.
And Sevika was certain Mel knew nothing about it.
Every conversation they did have about Sevika’s past was uncomfortable. Like poking a raw nerve, never quite knowing if it’d be too much. Her eyes wide, blinking with hurt with every detail--as if she’d never would’ve had to consider those choices at all.
-
“Was that too much for you?” Sevika asked, thumb brushing over her cheek, watching those hurt eyes blinking back tears.
Tears for them.
Mel leaned into their hand,“You lived through it,” she murmured, lips pressing into their palm, “I should be asking you that. You don’t need to hold back. I want know you--all of you.”
-
Sevika and Mel were learning each other gently and slowly. But Sevika knew enough about her to understand what she needed to do now.
Plenty of people have had a hand in pushing--guiding --coveting -- and controlling Mel. People who decided what her life should look like, what she could know, see, and become.
Sevika couldn’t stand the thought of becoming a part of that long line of choices being made on her behalf.
So she waited. Until the plates were put away, tinfoil wrapped tight around the platters. Until the kids dozed off on the odd chair or couch. A christmas cartoon playing while the adults pulled out more wine. Until her friends had left out for their hotel, leaving only family behind. Until Mel had finally stepped away, disappearing into the kitchen to begin cleaning up.
Back facing them, Mel peeled off her long gloves, searching through the drawer, “Dinner was lovely like always,” she said, noticing their approach. A smile on her lips as she pulled out rubber gloves, turning on the hot water, “Thank you--”
Sevika stepped behind her, close, “You don’t have to thank me,” she said. She wrapped an arm around her waist, pulling her closer.
Mel hummed, content. Her head tipped back against their shoulder, “But you’re what I’m most thankful for?” she teased, bright eyes beaming as she looked back at them. Then she faltered, brows scrunching, “What's wrong?”
Sevika’s heart clenched.
She leaned down, speaking low into her ear.
Mel listened to her intently. With each second her eyes wavering--pained-- as realization slowly setting in at her words.
It was a hard truth to swallow, but she’d drink it all the same.
-
Lost in the garden and covered in filth, the siblings were quite a sight.
Mel sniffled, shivering in the cold night air. She muttered to herself--that same wish--as she curled up tight in her brother’s arms.
Kino rocked her gently, “Do you know what I wished for?” he asked, staring up at that endless sky.
“...No,” Mel said, looking up.
“I…” Kino swallowed, closing his eyes as he let out a shaky breath. Words stuck between his heart and his throat.
Mel blinked, head tilting, confused, “Kino?” Little hands reached up, patting his face and smearing dirt everywhere as she shooed away the tears, “What’s wrong?”
Kino squeezed his sister tighter.
-
Mel Medarda has walked this path not quite knowing where she was going.
She tugged that long, unending string, hoping that in the end, there had to be something else past the confusion, hurt, and pain.
And now she stood before her brother, not knowing what she wanted at all. Not knowing if the conversation would stop the hurt or make it worse.
Mel closed the door to the studio behind her with a sigh, “Kino we need to talk,” she said, hands folded behind her back.
“But we are talking?” Kino joked, sitting down on the lone stool, leg settling across his lap and bouncing.
“--About the family business,” Mel specified, deeply exhausted already, “Or rather, the parts of it that haven’t been disclosed to me.”
Kino Medarda
Bright--shining--strong--precious.
The heir to the Medarda fortune and all that entitled.
Good and Bad.
Kino rubbed his beard, looking off to the side. He could’ve easily played dumb, pretended like he didn’t know, but he didn’t, “...You know?” he asked with a frown, “When did you find out?”
“Well, after what--? Only thirty or so years of living I just found out, ” Mel answered, bitterness edging into her tone as her eyes narrowed, “I’ve never made the assumption that our family’s wealth or any wealth was acquired through moral means,” she paced the room, that surge of unknown emotions becoming clearer with each word.
She stopped in front of him, eyes searching, frustration peaking as he avoided her gaze. She swallowed thickly, then continued, “It was one of the main reasons I chose to distance myself from our legacy, but this…this is different,” she let out a shaky exhale.
That sickness, that uncertainty, peeled back only to reveal an ugly shame, “I have people in my life I care for immensely. People who have lived with that type of violence since birth. Who carry those wounds everyday and are in desperate need of safety--of peace. How am I supposed to properly protect them from encountering that violence further if I'm not even aware of my own family’s affiliation? How… can I make any informed decisions if I am constantly treated like a child who cannot know any better.”
Kino’s face fell and he stood. He walked towards her, uncertain, “Mel, I would…never put you or anyone you love in harm's way,” he reassured, inhaling sharp, “You know that. You know me. This…” he waved his hand, shaking his head, “It doesn’t have to affect you. You don’t have to think of it at all. ”
Mel tensed at that, a slow moving realization building in her at those words. “But it does affect me,” she countered, frowning, “It has shaped our entire lives, whether I have known about it or not,”
Every decision-- every meeting--every so called family friend--every investment was stained red. Her hands smeared across the canvas of her life--unthinking--unknowing, like a child playing in paints not knowing it was made of lead.
“Even if I was shielded from the worst, I did not escape hardship.I thought she--” Mel choked up, blinking rapidly, “I thought Mom hated me for years and she never told me otherwise.”
She understood why she shielded her from the worst of it as a child. She understood the impacts that could’ve had--bright violet eyes--seething. But even as an adult?
She was old enough to swipe the card, but not know how the money was made? Old enough to shoulder the legacy, but not know the full cost?
It was so stupid.
Mel stilled, a tense silence settling between them, “She didn’t tell me anything…” she muttered under her breath, before those bright eyes flew up, striking, “And you’re doing the same now. If you can’t tell me details fine--but nothing? No warnings? Only pushing and pushing me away--to protect me I presume, but--”
Mel wiped her face, emotions bubbling over. Those memories, those words. It was as if her mother’s hands--striking, gentle, all-too-distant were falling over her all at once.
One thought was clear in the mess.
After all that effort to shield her from the worse--was she protected?
Was she better for it?
She had walked this path--surrounded by love, yet terribly lonely.
She was never alone, yet when she fell--she never asked for help. All those bright faces in her life, yet her heart became closed off with each passing year. Cloudy thoughts--a venomous tongue--marring every friend, lover, passing acquaintance, and kind stranger with an unrelenting suspicion.
A cycle of wondering why she hurt, why no one knew she was hurting, not wanting anyone to know she was hurting at all. Not even fully grasping how much blood she was truely leaking.
She doesn’t know when it began or if it even ended. It felt like a seamless, indisputable part of the fabric of her life. Clumping threads that could never be unraveled that stopped her lungs from breathing and her heart from beating even during the happiest of times.
Knowing this--changed everything, yet nothing at all.
She wasn’t quite yet at the end of that string-- still uncertain, unsteady on her feet. But she finally knew what she had wanted from this conversation. What she wanted to know--desperately.
“Kino…” Mel whispered, tears falling freely down her face, “How long have you been involved in this…Did you even get a choice in the matter?”
How long have you been hurting?
Kino stiffened, face closing off as he quietly spoke, “Our family, our legacy, it's my burden to bear now.” he said, dark eyes unwavering, “If it wasn’t me, it would’ve been you.”
Mel Medarda.
Bright, shining, soft, precious.
She’d always be his baby sister.
He’d shoulder it all--again and again for her.
Mel casted a weary glance upwards--a curse, a prayer, a plea silent on her lips. She looked at him--truly looked at him.
He was older, wearier, but was he happy?
“I don’t care for our family’s legacy nor our Mother’s sacrifices. Not if this is what it leaves us with, “ Mel admitted, crossing her arms and holding herself tight, “Sacrifices…secrets. That legacy left behind adults who are scared to cry. Who struggle to even look at each other for a simple discussion,” she sighed, hand raising and squeezing his shoulder, gentle, “Our mother is dead--we are not. The way she chose to carry on with her life…Her decisions, her sacrifices for ‘greatness’--they lie with her. There is nothing more we could possibly acquire, so why must we bury ourselves in that same grave?”
Kino was silent for a long time.
“...It’s not that easy,” he finally said with a dowcasted gaze, “Maybe I could’ve walked away if I was younger--a better man, but this is my life,” There was a finality in his tone, a resignation, that dragged on each word heavy as he continued, “This has been my life, my decisions, my legacy for a long time and I will bear it until the end. I’ve made far too many enemies and allies for it to change now. I’d give you the world if you asked for it, but this--this-- ”
Some things don’t change.
“It’s your legacy now, but you’re a husband--a father,” Mel’s chin raised, a stubborn glint in her eye, “Our family is growing and one day we will be gone and they will have to bear what remains. It won’t be easy, but if something doesn’t change now, when will it?”
-
It was a long, painful while before that conversation ended.
Kino stepped onto the porch, an ornate, black and gold box in hand. He let out a sigh, trying to shake the deja vu. It was like his Mom raised from her grave to chew his ass out. Honestly, the fact that Mel never never finished Law-School floored him to this day.
They were at an impasse of some sorts. Which meant that Mel had let him off the hook for now so she could let Shug run around outside.
He sighed again, hand rubbing down his face. His eyes fell on Sevika sitting on the front steps, methodically sipping a beer while she stared at that sinking sunset.
Kino sat down next to them, sending her a sidelong glance, “You told her.” he said.
Sevika inclined her head, “I did.”
Kino barked out a bitter laugh, eyes holding no humor, before he begrudgingly handed over the box.
Sevika accepted it with a raised eyebrow. She then opened it, appraising the row of cigars packed into the container. The dangerously expensive shit.
The last time she smoked one of these, it was moments before Silco’s lawyer told her she was going to take custody of the girls, “Is this a bribe?” she asked, suspicious.
“It's your gift,” Kino said, dry.
“It’d be a nice bribe,” Sevika suggests, pulling out her lighter in one swift motion. She lit two cigars, handing one over without another word.
Kino eyed it for a moment then he accepted it. Inhaling deep, he let the smoke burn. A silence pooled between them, “...Would you have ever retired willingly if Silco wasn’t offed?” he eventually asked.
Dark eyes regarded him for a moment, “...I had no reason to at the time,” she admits, eyes returning to the horizon.
No family or friends.
Most of them scattered ash or far, far from home. That business--bloody, careless, sometimes cruel-- was all she had. So she’d given it her all. Life, limb-- all dangling in the teeth of perpetual uncertainty.
“And if you did have a reason?”
Sevika inhaled that bitter smoke, air far too cold.
-
Dishes put away. Trash cleared. Children and pets soundly asleep.
Sevika clocked out for the night.
Returning to the bedroom, she wondered.
Mel Medarda was a woman of many moods and faces. On occasion, she’d let Sevika peer beyond the surface. And today was a lot of good, bad, and uncertain, so she wasn’t sure what she’d get.
Stepping into the dimly lit room, she was greeted by a woman in red.
“You’re still dressed,” Sevika said, closing and locking the door behind. She unwrapped the dupatta from around her shoulders, laying it down on a nearby chair.
“You asked,” Mel explains, like that’s all she had to do.
Sevika pulled off her blouse, leaving herself in slacks and a tank-top, “I didn’t think you’d still be in the mood after…” she trailed off as she unbuttoned her slacks, but made no move to take them off, a bit lost in thought.
Mel squinted, an intense look that made their stomach tight with anticipation as a slender finger beckoned them closer.
Sevika followed her instructions, approaching the bed. However, instead of sitting down beside them, she kneeled on the ground with a hefty sigh. They wrapped their arms around her hips as they settled between her legs, head burying in her lap-- drinking in soft velvet and perfume.
Mel's eyes widened--struck--before she smiled, helpless at the sight. She ran her hand through their hair, “...You’ve worked so hard to make today go well,” she murmured, feeling them relax, weight settling on her slowly, “Everyday I see how much you do to keep us safe--to keep us happy. I wouldn’t let anything or anyone jeopardize that,” she promised.
“It's nothing I can’t handle,” Sevika said, a haze of exhaustion settling over her all at once.
If it goes to shit--if whatever mess Kino was involved in blew up in his face, she’s sure she’d be able to at least keep them out the fire. She’s done it before, she could do it again and again--and again.
“You won’t be handling it,” Mel said, tone leaving no room for arguing,“If we cannot ensure your family’s physical, emotional, and legal safety, I won’t be tolerating any more of his visits here,” she explained, nails easing against their scalp, working that remaining tension out with each stroke.
“He’s your family, you don’t--”
“This town has experienced more than enough violence—” Mel gently cut her off, resolute as she spoke, “We can call, we can go elsewhere, but if none of my conditions are met, he cannot come here, ” she said.
As if ‘going elsewhere’ was as easy as breathing air. For anyone else it would’ve been, but for Mel it wasn’t. And yet, she promised it--every word painstakingly heartfelt.
Mel leaned down, curling around them. Their vision was filled with black, white, and red. That sweet perfume cradling her gently as she spoke, “My family has done a lot of wrong, yet I cannot stop myself from loving them. I doubt I ever will. But,” she swept away those stray hairs from their face, kissing her forehead, “I’d never sacrifice one love for another,” she shared, bright eyes lost in dark--heart beating faster and faster, “I’d never put you--your peace of mind, your family, or your home-- at risk. Not after all the kindness you’ve extended to me. You deserve that much.”
And at that--Sevika couldn’t help but question if she truly did.
-
Soft sighs, parting lips, pearly teeth that flashed as her head fell back with a laugh. Red velvet pushed up past her thighs, matching lace tucked between that she pulled aside. She leaned in for a taste.
Hands coaxing her squirming body closer to the edge--closer to edge of the bed--
Hands--two of them.
Calloused, scarred, flesh, and covered in red.
Staining her lovely skin and making those bright, billowing marks bleed.
Sevika woke with a start, bed shaking. Her heart was caught in her throat as she breathed sharply, trying to calm down.
Next to her, Mel stirred easily at the noise, “...’vika?” she rasped, eyes blearily trying to open.
Sevika settled back down, leaning over, speaking low, coaxing.
Mel looked unconvinced, brow furrowing as she tried to orient herself.
Hesitating, Sevika wrapped an arm around her waist, burying their nose in her shoulder. She breathed her in deep--entirely indulgent even as her heart ached.
Only then did Mel relax, slipping back asleep, content in her lover’s embrace.
-
Metal clanking--Isha tapped Sevika’s prosthetic arm repeatedly, urgently trying to get her attention.
“Yeah, yeah I hear you,” Sevika said, waving her off, “I’m watching.”
Isha nodded excitedly.
Bundled up, she hobbled back into the snow. She raised her hands high to her imaginary audience of millions, before she flung herself backwards. She did that little flip thing Jinx had shown her, although Isha always lost balance on her way down. So it was more so a controlled fall that always left her covered in snow.
Sevika clapped slowly, biting back a laugh as Isha bowed to her audience. Then she ran off over the hills towards where Jinx and Ekko were piling up giant heaps of snow--building a fortress it seems.
Mel had been watching them from the doorway, she stepped outside, giggling a bit.
“What—?” Sevika asked, suspicious as she scratched Shug behind the ears, the sleeping dog cozied up in her lap, a blanket pulled over them. She rocked in the chair slowly, careful not to disturb them.
“Nothing, nothing,” Mel hummed, eyes impossibly fond as she leaned down, arms wrapping around the back of their shoulders as she kissed their cheek.
Sevika turned her head when she stopped, looking back expectantly, “We should head out before all the motels fill up. ”
An unending sky crested those rolling hills, leaving behind a shine as the snow only piled higher.
“Motel?” Mel questioned, kissing her cheek again, then the tip of her nose.
“Everytime it snows this bad, the heat cuts in our building,” Sevika explained, catching her off guard and finally stealing a kiss on the mouth. That winter frost biting her still warm lips. Mel tried to deepen it, despite the awkward angle, but Sevika cheekily turned away, quick, “It’s either a motel, or I kill our landlord,” she offhandedly, adds.
“Let’s not do that,” Mel muttered, pouting a bit from the betrayal, “Why not stay here another night?” she suggested, face rubbing into the nape of their neck.
“I don’t hate you enough to put you through that,” Sevika said, eyes following those brats trampling through the snow, “They’re not as cute when they’re cranky, hungry, and restless.”
“But you think it's cute when I’m like that?”
“I do,” Sevika admitted with a creeping smile, “That’s different,”
“Uh-huh,” Mel rolled her eyes, “I’ll go get the guest rooms ready,” she said, slipping away and back into the house.
-
Isha set down her hand of cards with a toothy grin.
Jinx cackled, arms shooting up--victorious.
Mel sighed, setting down her cards in defeat. She eyed the two hands--mulling over the game in question.
“A deals a deal—” Jinx said, ruffling Isha’s hair as she beamed.
“Were you cheating—?” Mel asked out loud. Although it was more of a deduction--all those innocuous moments throughout the game piecing together in her mind to create one, damning picture.
Isha arched an eyebrow right back—as if to say, “Does it matter?”
“Alright,” Mel acquiesced, ultimately impressed by the swindle, “I’ll send the funds over later today.”
“And—? Jinx said, with a taunting look.
“Yes, that too,“ Mel agreed, shaking her head with a slow chuckle.
Right on time—Sevika rounded the corner from the kitchen.
“‘Sevika?” Mel sweetly called out, “ ‘vika-baby, can you help me light the fire? I’m cold.”
At those words, Sevika immediately ran into the doorframe with a thud. She cursed, clutching her forehead.
“Oooh…” Both Jinx and Isha hissed, wincing. Looking at each other for a moment, they decided to scatter—cards fluttering uselessly behind, feet stomping up the stairs as they ran towards the guest rooms.
Mel’s eyes widened and she shot up, rushing over.
Sevika rapidly blinked, dazed, “What… did you call me?”
“Do you hate pet names that much?” Mel asked, fingers skimming the knot on the side of their head, looking her over.
“I…” Sevika frowned, averting her gaze, “ I don’t care.”
Mel looked at her strangely, smoothing her forehead, “Love—“ she whispered, words slow, deliberate as she cradled their face, “Let’s lie down for a moment. I’ll light the fire for us.”
- Fire--flickering red and warm.
Mel winced a bit, climbing onto the couch, hips still sore.
“Was I too rough yesterday?” Sevika asked with a frown, hand steadying her waist as they eased her down on top of them.
“You were perfect,” Mel said, face snuggling into her chest--looking quite pleased to have her favorite pillows back. Her arms slipped around their waist, legs tangled together, “You’ve been fretting all morning, I’m fine.”
Seika sighed, thumb rubbing the top of her head, the silk scarf smooth, “I saw the bruises…” she said, eyebrows furrowed.
Those dark, purpling bruises sprawled across her body--made her fingers itch for more the first time she caught sight of them. But, it also made her…sick. Thoughts murky and disgusted--even though logically she knew they both wanted it.
“Mhm…” Mel smiled a bit at the reminder, “Have you seen your back?”
Broad, steady shoulders streaked with red.
“That’s--” Sevika’s mind stalled a bit, “That’s different.”
“Is it now?”
“It is,” Sevika insisted, “I’ve actually--” hands--two of them, calloused, scarred, flesh, and covered in red, “I should’ve controlled myself. You could’ve gotten hurt.”
Mel’s head raised, chin settling between the valley of her chest. Her big, thoughtful eyes studied her for a moment, “You did control yourself,” she said, evenly, “I wasn’t scared of getting hurt at all. I trust you.”
“...You shouldn’t,” Sevika said, smoothing the line between her brow, “I’m not a good person.”
Mel’s eye’s softened, lips thin, “And what type of person do you think you are?”
Draped across the older woman, she listened. Fire crackling—the distant sounds of Jinx and Isha thumping around upstairs. Shug and Majesty curled up in the arm chair, sleeping.
Mel listened as Sevika quietly spoke, dark eyes weary.
-
“I was angry—all the time.”
-
Low simmering--the feeling never went away.
Sevika understood hate at an early age.
Standing over her dad, past out in the hall, stinking of alcohol and food--knowing the pantry was empty. She didn’t bother to cry about it anymore, finding the old man’s wallet--swiping a few dollars before she stumbled outside into the cold.
-
“I didn’t dream of finding a nice, ok-paying job. I didn’t care if I was good--or useful to my community. All of that felt pointless.” -
Easy money--?
Nothing about this shit was easy.
Broken bones--constant late drop offs, no breaks--pigs hunting them for sport even when they weren’t dealing. She’s had to attend far too many funerals over the years--each one quieter then the next.
Sevika handled it all as it came--again and again. Only the neat roll of cash, she counted at the end of every day keeping her going. It was far more than any other job in this shit hole.
Enough for the bills--enough for the vices.
So when that scrawny, asshat at the bar offered her another job-- a better job, she took it.
Consequences be damned.
-
“I saw good people eat shit every-fucking day. No one listened to goodness--no one cared, so why should I? I was just chasing that rush--that feeling--"
That fire--she let it burn her life to a crisp for a chance to feel its warmth. Her heart beating faster and faster--like she could finally fucking breathe.
But now that she was on the other side of the fire and didn’t know what to do with her charred remains.
“I didn’t stop because I wanted to--I stopped because I didn’t have a choice,” Sevika said, harshly, “That doesn’t make me a good person. It only means I’m good at following orders. If I was good, I would’ve did something productive with that time--that money,” she exhaled, eyes shutting, “Now I have to watch Jinx and Isha grow up in this shit-hole, knowing I could’ve done something, anything to make it better, but I didn’t.”
Sevika didn’t have time for regrets--to seek forgiveness, but she does wonder why out of everyone who had passed through this town--why did she survive?
She never did anyone any good. Yet she was still standing. Stuck. That unchanging, unending pile of anger. Watching everything around her fall apart for years while she did fuck all.
Sevika swallowed thickly, “I don’t understand what you see in me,” she admits.
Mel reached out, contemplative,“...I can show you.” she said, her finger brushing away the wetness from their cheek.
-
Mel switched on the lights to her studio. She had a determined glint in her eye as she moved throughout the space, pulling out covered canvases one by one. She propped each one up, yanking the plastic covers off with a methodical quickness.
Sevika had only seen her sketches before. The other woman was rather private about her process, so they didn’t know what to expect.
So this…
Sevika stepped forward without thinking--eyes skating across the room, not knowing where to land, where to linger.
“What do you think?” Mel asked, pony-tail flicking as she turned her head.
Color—lines deep, swirling, and bright—those fluttering shapes filling the canvas, leaving no empty space. Idyllic faces, hands, shapes pressing against the canvas, teeming to burst.
Sevika easily recognized the figures —the people—the places.
“You painted…Zaun?”
Jinx. Blue braids fluttered behind her like wings as she smiled at the viewer. Isha perched on her shoulders, a toothy grin stained a vibrant gold.
Staggering, crumbling pre-war buildings --all glitz, grime, and gold. A flickering street-lamp and little foot-prints left behind in the snow. Rolling hills of negative space colliding with color. The sun -- a pearl placed in the teeth of the sky. Plunging earth and distant lights. Those stars, peeking silver pins stuck the fabric of the sky. A wave of broken bottles shuddering upwards, one-thousand wishes breaking the unending horizon apart with their cries.
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‘WELCOME TO THE HISTORIC CITY OF ZAUN’
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One canvas painstakingly recreated that wooden sign. Soft, detailed, brushwork that was splattered with all too familiar spray paint. Spiraling colors--signatures--so many signatures sprawled across the canvas, until you couldn’t help but get lost in all the voices--the names.
That bridge—clean charcoal lines, white space-- flowers smearing across the architecture, bright pastels bleeding down.
And—her.
Sevika stared up at the largest painting—breath caught.
She almost didn’t recognize herself.
Flurries drifted down, kissing the slope of her face. The biting cold sending spritz of colors down, blending seamlessly with the veins stark in her skin.
Dark hair, peppered with grey, a little too long. Dark eyes lost, dark circles digging into her skin deep. Blackened, split lips, soft scars ghosting the arch of her nose.
Her expression--some would say she was resigned. Resigned to the cold--uncaring of the color that flooded her life.
Others would say she looked--relieved.
As if she lifted the world and still managed to stand under its weight.
And it wasn’t the only one.
Mel pulled out more canvases--all of them were of her.
Sevika eating, fingers dripping with fruit, stained pink. Sevika smiling--gapped teeth snarling over a hand of cards. Sevika stretched out on the couch, fast asleep, a cat pawing at her chest. Sevika carrying two girls over her shoulders, covered head to toe in snow. Sevika tipping back a beer bottle--drinking every nasty drop.
Sevika bloodied. Sevika bruised. Sevika beaming.
Sevika…never knew she could look like that. She fell silent, unable to ignore that sound rattling in her chest.
“I don’t believe you were only ever made of only anger, ” Mel quietly said, watching them carefully like she always did, “You’ve experienced so much, it’d be impossible to reduce it all to that,” she continued, approaching that largest painting, fingers dancing across the canvas, “A lot has changed, a lot hasn’t. But, I don’t think change is something that definitively happens, once or twice. I think it's constant. Whether you intend to or not, it still happens.”
Mel sighed, hands pausing to trace the line of dark hair, “I didn’t start my treatment because I wanted to get better,” she admits with a low, bitter laugh, “I was pretty much strong armed into it all--the therapy, the dog, the medical leave. I didn’t want to get better. I didn’t want anything at all at that point. I was following the advice until I could convince everyone to finally leave me alone. Even this exhibition…” she struggled for a moment, words slowing, “I wanted it to be my last before I retired early and found somewhere else to hide. Somewhere too far for visits, too inconvenient for calls. So I could finally stop being such a burden on everyone in my life. So they could move on while I--”
Quietly disappeared.
Not quite death—but courting it in a way. Aching for everything to just stop.
Sevika let the weight of her words settle over the conversation, heart shuddering,“…What changed?”
Or rather--she was hopeful that something changed.
Mel sent her a side-long glance, “If I had met you any sooner in my life, I would’ve thrown you out of my house,” she said, plainly, “But I didn’t and I wasn’t quite sure why. Our meetings were…different. Always different then the monotony I was accustomed to, ” her hand drew back from the canvas, “It was as if I had to relearn myself--my emotions, my body, my memories, my dreams. It was like meeting a stranger everytime and--”
Soft footsteps approached Mel, an arm sliding around her waist, a head settling against her shoulder.
“I couldn’t help but want to learn more about her--more about you,” Mel said, choking up a bit, “I was so stuck on those terrible months--years, I didn’t realize I wasn’t there anymore. Everything was different, but I was so close to the mess I couldn’t see the full picture. My body, my life, my friends were all breathing--moving--changing. And I could finally see it all. I wanted to see everything.”
Mel reached for the hand around her waist, slender fingers squeezing tight, “I was already putting in the work. My life is …better than before. I just needed help learning how to live it. ”
Better.
Not good, not bad, but better.
“Your life is different now—” Mel said, words certain as their bodies swayed together, “--whether it was by choice or not. If you’re not satisfied with it… if you want something different, if you want to learn about the woman that I love--I’ll be there to help. You don’t have to figure it out alone anymore.”
Sevika let out a breath she didn’t know she was holding.
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Heels clicked-- a door slamming behind.
Mel left her Mother’s office, a bitter storm that scorched the halls, employees jerking out of her way. She rummaged through her purse, blinking back tears as her heart ached.
Exiting the building, she stumbled, heels slipping on the ice, but she didn’t fall.
Not yet.
A hand caught her by her waist, body yanked into a firm side, “Watch it--” the stranger said, voice gruff.
Mel pulled away, shame heating her face, “Apologies--” she muttered, ducking her head as she rushed away. She finally found her phone, raising it to her ear as she made a call.
A softly accented voice. Her swinging pony-tail soon disappeared into a shiny car.
Sevika rolled her eyes, paying her no mind. She pushed open the door for Silco--who seemed largely unphased despite nearly being ran over by that woman.
Silco passed by, calling back, “Wait for the next car,” he ordered, curt.
Sevika scowled, “The kid again?” she complained. It made no fucking sense to have the brat there for these meetings while Sevika was stuck watching paint dry outside the room.
“She needs to learn,” Silco explained as he always did, his tapping cane growing distant as he left her behind.
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It was the first cold morning of an early winter.
Mel only managed to make it out of bed because of Shug’s pawing at the door. That adorable, little beast squirming into her room and her heart--she’d do anything to keep her happy. She jogged, Shug keeping pace beside her, tongue wagging. So cute, so—
The barest amount of guilt curled around her thoughts.
She needed to ask Elora to--maybe not Elora. She’s already asked her friend for so much. But she should look into finding another home for Shug. Her life was fine now, but…Mel supposed she’d be better off elsewhere. Or maybe not.
She had promised to try, afterall.
It was enough to stop her friends and family from constantly worrying. However she was still a bit miffed that she had to keep up with her therapy homework. Her therapist had brought up hobbies again. Something to break up the monotony--something to do with her hands.
Mel could only think of one thing.
Painting.
She hasn’t done it awhile.
It was something she had fought so hard for, yet slipped away so easily within these past few years. It wasn’t the act itself she avoided--but what it entailed. She only ever painted from life. People. Looking at people, interacting with people. The thought only made her sick now.
Perhaps, all she needed was a muse. Someone new, different--
Mel stopped abruptly, eyes caught--drawn all at once.
Soft snow falling--kissing skin.
Mel bit her lip, thoughts stirring, hands itching for a brush.
It was like seeing for the first time.
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Mel saw her a lot— some early mornings and late nights at that park. She was working up the courage to approach and ask her to be her model. It was so easy to do so before--now it was different.
She wasn’t scared of the woman per say, but…she was a bit worried that she might let another question slip. Her heart always beating faster and faster--and faster at the sight of her, like she was a child again.
And it only grew-- that itch. That desire to learn more about the stranger that had begun to invade every-other sketch she had attempted lately.
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“Is she a good person?”
“--‘vika baby, you never change.”
“You’re so…”
She’d miss them like air, like a heart beating.
“A bully and a brute—”
And yet.
“You never change, do you?”
--always-- there to pick her up and dust her off--
“...You’ve worked so hard…to keep us happy…to keep us safe.”
--again--and again.
There she was--without fail.
A calloused hand—pulling a coat tighter, muttering about the cold—rubbing out a cigarette, making a wish—holding a leaking cold pack to a swollen face—pressing into her hands, but not letting go— bloodied and bruised, but there—again and again—a steady hand, catching her by her waist before she fell. Hands, metal and skin--so strong, so soft—that held her precious—again and again.
Always there without fail—without faltering.
A lighter flicking —open then closed. Flame snuffed out, lit anew— a little different each time and yet.
She was—
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Delicate kisses fell along the slope of Sevika’s face—lips fluttering against each curve, fingers trailing each line. The world was sluggish, slow, still sleeping that New Year's morning.
With a deep, shining reverence in her eyes--Mel watched them stir, “Everything, ” she murmured against their lips, smiling fondly.
Every dream, every wish, every future--she saw them at her side.
Sevika shuddered awake, arm lifting to press Mel more firmly against her body. Their mouth softly finding hers as they kissed her again and again—and again.
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rauberrauber · 1 year ago
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i built a little empire out of some crazy garbage
called the blood of the exploited working class
but theyve overcome their shyness
now theyre calling me your highness
and a world screams kiss me son of god
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Chapter 8.1 - Flesh of My Flesh
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VLAD
Vlad feels rather than hears the knock at the door. Not that it matters much; his mind is elsewhere.
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His fingers tap against his thighs as he considers his murder board. Five sightings is not a lot, but when it came to possible hallucinations—one was too many. 
No one else in his family was seeing things save for Bloodvein, who was always seeing things and—
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RAP! RAP! RAP! RAP! RAP! 
The knocking distracts him again. 
“Either open the fucking door or go find something else to do!” he shouts.
His mother walks into the room, laundry basket in hand. “Well, you’re agitated.”
“Your powers of observation are unmatched. Are you here to torture me with your percussive habits, or is this about something?”
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“Rude since the day you was born," she sighs. "Discomfort binds us to these bodies, darlin’ boy; it’s the way of the world.”
“How fitting since I am discomforted.”
“No, you’re agitated by your own thoughts.” She sets the laundry basket down on his bed. “There’s a difference. Try to look alive, son of mine. William is here.”
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Vlad doesn’t acknowledge her statement, refocusing on his board. The part where the man disappears into a spark of light is really what’s giving him problems. Three physics books all posited such a thing was possible but not probable.
Possible.
But Not. Fucking. Probable.
The fantasy books he read were honestly more helpful. The fae and their exploits were legendary in fiction, though no one seemed to agree about their mythology. Frankly, it was a genius strategy. If Vlad wanted to hide in plain sight, he’d absolutely confound every printed word about him.
And yet, an elf was following him around. 
Why was an elf following him around? 
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“Okay, your mother was right; you are agitated," William calls out.
Agitation doesn’t matter. Vlad could feel the man even when he couldn’t see him. Even when his mind was actively telling him nothing was there—he knew.
And he liked it. 
Long black hair, delicately pointed ears, a possibly misguided choice to dress like an extra in an alt-rock music video—the whole package was appealing. It made Vlad hungry for flesh and blood and bones in a way that was different from his usual desire to devour things just to destroy them. 
Not that he was ever allowed. Not that anyone ever let him—
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“You’re not listening.” 
“I am listening.”
Technically. Technically, Vlad was listening. Part of him hears the words William is saying, but the rest of him is concerned with the fact that it doesn’t make any sense for iron to be a method of killing the fae. The world is full of naturally occurring deposits, and according to everything he’s read, elves love nature. No, it makes more sense that—
“What did I say then?” 
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The words are clanging around in Vlad’s brain, but he can’t catch hold of them. “Probably some selfish complaint or obscure reference to the pop culture of a world I could give two shits about.”
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Beheading. 
The idea pops into his brain like it was just whispered in his ear. True, he’d never done it before, at least not on purpose, but Vlad felt confident in his ability to master it. What he really needed was practice, not that anyone in his family would let him near the weapons. They all thought he was—
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“You are impossible like this!” William sweeps his arm through the air. “What are you doing? Elves? Magic? Are you plotting a fuckin’ book?” He slams his fist against the shelf. It doesn’t make a dent because William is reasonable, and he cares whether or not he breaks his fingers. He isn’t like Vlad. Or like the fae. He’s a regular sim who understands how everything is supposed to work and—
Was that the problem? 
Was the fae like Vlad? Did he feel adrift in this world, too?
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“You haven’t been to class in a week. You don’t answer your phone. Your mother said you haven’t showered and standing this close to you, I can confirm. You need to get your shit together; you are scaring the hell out of me!”
That catches Vlad’s attention, and suddenly, it’s like his strings have been cut. He flops onto the couch. “I know. I know I’m impossible. But I saw something. I saw—” his voice cracks. He tries to breathe around the tightness in his chest, “It didn’t make any sense, William. A man was there and then he wasn’t. He disappeared in a spark of light and a puff of smoke, and I feel…I feel insane.”
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He doesn’t know how to respond to the look on William’s face, not when he was spending half his energy trying to manage this urge he had to simply disperse. 
“You need to take a shower,” William says softly. “You need to go to class. The thing you saw is not real. I know you know this, mate; I know you do.”
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Vlad has no idea what he knows anymore.
None at all.
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(Part 1 of 4)
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aita-blorbos · 1 year ago
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AITA for capitalism?
I built a little empire out of some crazy garbage called the blood of the exploited working class. But they've overcome their shyness now; they're calling me "your highness", and the world screams, "Kiss me, son of God!" I destroyed the bonds of friendship and respect between the only people left who'd even look me in the eye. Now I laugh and make a fortune off the same ones that I tortured, and the world screams, "Kiss me, son of God!" I look like Jesus, so they say, but Mr. Jesus is very far away. Now you're the only one here who can tell me if it's true that you love me and I love me. AITA?
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