#c: memory-yixing

[thelittleeri]

180625 Beijing Airport arrival from Wuxi

(c)  Memory-YiXing x do not edit

[imalwaystiredzzz]

C3: Sisyphus happy. Yan Zhongli x Reader

Warning: Yandere behavior, unhealthy relationships.

< Sisyphus happy. chapters >

“You are still the kindest thing that ever happened to me, even if that is not how our tale is told.” ― Nikita Gill, (Persephone to Hades) Great Goddesses: Life Lessons from Myths and Monsters ══════════════════════════════════

Step by step by step. Any more and you would collapse, exhausted to the very core of your soul. You’d give anything to stop, to sleep, to rest on a shade of a tree.  In this realm, there is no god. There is only the boulder upon your back and prisoner set to carry it and the nightmare of this is that you can’t.

The dreams flow like the sands of time, holding for a moment and gone the next, blown by the wind, unforgiving to anything. Not even you.

“You should rest a bit more,” Zhongli would say, picking a dress that you would be wearing from an extensive wardrobe that he got you after moving to your new house while you sit on the dresser feeling as if this has happened before.

The white silk easy and comfortable on the skin in this summer heat is welcomed with open arms and you smile at him as thanks. While it is as simple, fitting for someone in your standing, the traditional embroidery, intricate symbols of the land decorated by the long body of a dragon, made it fashionable and familiar yet never having worn it before. A perfect fit on your small frame Zhongli would admire without looking, busy brushing your (h/c) hair. “I would dare say that it would even be better if you simply relaxed indoors with this heat.”

“Isn’t that like asking you to skip the day and stay with me.” You would slyly comment after he is finished, holding his hand and giving you the shubi(comb) to be kept in the drawer. Yet another gift that he has given, your lovely husband never failed to spoil as even a simple comb is adorned by jewels and a symbol of the geo. 

“Trust me dear, I’d rather see your face than have another conversation with Barbatos.” He brushes a strand and kisses your forehead before going to the kitchen so you may prepare his tea. You chuckle, thinking back to the nights that he would complain, long and trouble about his flighty acquaintance from the city. The drunkard from Mondstandt, who shirks his duties and plays around. ‘A disgrace to the arts,’ he would even grumble. 

Even in summer when the sun is high with its sweltering long days and short nights, the mornings have never changed. You slowly and carefully put the leaves on the pot, as Zhongli talks about a child that he has recently taken in. “I do not know how to handle a child, and he seems to be suffering from chronic pain…” His voice, drawled in the background like static in your head; everything slowing and blurring like an oncoming headache as you notice something in the bottom of the pot. 

The city who was protected by the god of geo, had loved and adored him, to the point that they would engrave it on their crafts it seems, you think staring at it wondering when exactly did Zhongli get this yixing teapot. It seems as if a long time has passed, so long that even you have begun to forget. 

“Zhongli, when did we get married again?” 

He stops and as if time had known a master so did the world. Neither the creak of the wood as he stood, nor the pads of his familiar footsteps and the shift of his clothes make a sound.

The walls have ears and the earth keeps your soul, the wind whispers as you begin to suffocate in his presence, the whole house feeling familiar yet foreign, like the back of your husband as he walks away.

Your heart is filled with regret, the sound of a closing door has resumed the ticking of a clock, while you are left in the kitchen, thoroughly alone with an empty cup and unfinished tea, left to pick up pieces of your routine with a question left unanswered. You stare at the catalyst of this disaster, only to find a plain pot and a headache from trying to remember what you were looking for. 

It's always in summer, when uncomfortable heat makes your joints hurt and head light, that an unusual day occurs, it is as if you were dreaming, and any moment you would soon wake to begin the day all over again. Yet you don’t and you hate this season even more.

It ends with you retreating to the garden, welcoming and always familiar with it’s peaceful quiet where you find yourself in solace. “This is solely yours,” Zhongli once said, the first and last time that he has stepped in the garden that he had made especially for you. 

Here you are safe. Here the plants sprout from the ground and nurtured to life with your own two hands are a pillar to your reality. Here, you are (y/n)(l/n), a simple herbalist and the ache from being under this heat on your skin that turns red, the pain in your bones as it creaks from crouching to be near the ground, the soil and leaves in your hands is familiar.

It is with plants harvested and crushed to medicine, intricately and methodologically, where you find yourself. 

You are (Y/n) (l/n). You are a herbalist as was your father and mother whom  you clung and learned from their hip since you understood how to speak, and you try to remember what permeated the air as they came home in the dusk. 

Did your mother’s warm hands perhaps carry the scent of flowers from all the Qingxin petals or had your father smelled of miasma from the dying?

The mountain with its afternoon air, for the first time, never felt so lonely that you had wished for the sun to come down for any company. 

“Maybe we should visit my parents.” You say while eating Jewelry soup, an offering of sorts for whatever happened earlier. He is quiet again, sighing when you spoke before he replies, “I’m unsure if you can make the trip, you are aware how sickly you are, right? I would have loved even to show you an opera.”

“What if they visit us, instead?”

“(y/n), you know how they’ve grown old, I’m worried for their fragile bones.” 

Lies. Lies. Lies. Something whispers in the back of your head as you stare at him, gouging for any hints that it is indeed a lie, yet his impassive face and sharp amber eyes brimming with sympathy tells otherwise; then there it was again a deja vu moment as if you’d had this conversation before and you are drowning in your own head. 

“Maybe one day when you are feeling better.” He kisses your hand, tender and long, holding it tightly as if it was painful to let go, as a silent apology. It pulls you out and grounds you, immensely thankful for his presence thinking where you would be without your husband?

“I’m sorry. “ Guilt overwhelms your heart and you do not tell him that you barely remember your parent’s face, rather you opt to look at the hands that clasp yours, like a prayer as he sighs almost like a hiccup to his impassive facade, and you think that he is simply exhausted from work and the long journey it takes everyday, simply because you needed to be here lest you compromise your health. Everything, everything he does is always for you, yet here you are pestering and giving him another headache when home is supposed to be where one rests their weariness. 

Tonight, it is you who blows the candles and let the house dissolve into the pitch black, until you are blind and all you can do is feel and hold his weary body against yours. Your husband who is always unmoving, adamant and akin to a pillar rather than a person who knows how to hide his emotions in little cracks, feels like a stranger in your arms as he silently falls apart, yet still speaks no words and hides his face in the dark.

And then you sleep, closing your eyes as another season passes, like a dream blurring in and out of focus. Forgetting the tiniest details, but Zhongli. 

Your dear husband who is the only constant. Your dear, beloved husband is always there smiling and telling you stories about memories long passed and if you looked in the corner of your eyes, he looks at you like you were too. 

You are (Y/n) (l/n).You are a gardener. You don’t know nor understand why those words repeat in your thoughts like a broken prayer of a sinner who has long been abandoned by his god. It is whispered like a plea, filled with sorrow and regret. The weight of these emotions bore on your fragile shoulders as if you were carrying a boulder on an uphill road and yet you cannot stop your steps. 

[kkoongiees]

Catch up tag!✨

Tagged by @yeoldontknow and @soos-goddess thank you!💕

1. what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

On here I’m usually Ron, Nica or Vi. My full name’s Veronica but pls don’t call me that unless you want me to take you extremely seriously

2. when is your birthday?

April 12, twinning with Sehun

3. where do you live?

A tiny town in Italy, currently completely coated in white for the first time this year 🥺

4. three things you are doing right now?

Watching my cat playing with snow on the balcony, drinking tea, waiting for my thesis doc to load on my laptop

5. four fandoms that have peaked your interest?

I’ll say the ones I went through on here: Harry Potter, Supernatural, Merlin, Kpop

6. how has the pandemic been treating you?

I’ve had my ups and downs I guess. I lost my job but at the same time I was finally able to move on a bit with uni. I’m hating the online classes and exams tho both because of bad wifi and my very short attention span. I was able to grow too tho, I foud new values in friendships and personal relationships in general and new little hobbies too but ugh I miss being free to roam around and dancing most of all. Also I haven’t seen half of my family in months. I’m still very lucky to live in a place with so much nature around me, at least I can still go out and enjoy that!

7. a song you can’t stop listening to?

I’ve had first snow on repeat for two days cause we had our first snow and I was really excited about it!

8. recommend a movie?

Hmm the last one I watched was “The road home”, by Zhang Yimou for my cinema exam

9. how old are you?

24

10. school, university, occupation, other?

Finishing uni, looking for a job

11. do you prefer heat or cold?

Heat, pls I hate being cold :c Even now it’s around 0 degrees and I’m here bundled up as if I was at hanging out with penguins. I love winter tho it’s all white and pretty 🥺

12. name one fact others may not know about you?

Aside from studying foreign languages both in highschool and uni I was raised a bilingual in italian/french (pls don’t speak french to me tho)

13. are you shy?

It depends on the energy I get from the people around me. I can be the loudest chatterbox or quietest in the room, no inbetween

14. preferred pronouns?

she/her

15. biggest pet peeves?

Loud chewing

16. what is your favorite ‘dere’ type?

I.. forgot all about dere types omg

17. how would you rate your life from 1-10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be?

Around 6

18. what is your main blog?

This one

20. is there something people need to know about you before they become friends?

Hmmm I can be quiet at first and not come to you first but once I get comfortable I’ll stick around all the time! I also have a really short term memory so I might forget things all the time and not get back at you for a while but that doesn’t mean I don’t care I’m just bad :c At the same time, I will remember the most random things you tell me forever🙈

tagging: some people I want to catch up with or just learn a little more about✨ of course don’t feel obliged to do this at all!!

@bbyunz @shadoukiti @untouchabyeolman @is-that-baekhyuns-shirt @bikeryeollie @xiusoomygod @pupchanyeol @ainedreams @babybaekuwu @thedeviousdo @xiu-bee @mochipcy @intergalacticpcy @suhotly @byuns-coco @yixing-zhang @ciaozhan

[byunsboyz]

Jamais Vu - Part Three

Baekhyun x Female Reader

Warnings: none?

Genre: Fluff

W/C: 2472

Part One Part Two

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You sit on hold impatiently waiting to be connected to the inter-company help desk. 

One minute you’re uploading an important journal to your client’s software, the next minute you get the blue screen of death.

“Shit shit shit” you mutter as you try to get your laptop to turn back on. You hear Kyungsoo sigh from across the room. 

“You saved before you uploaded right?”.

He looks up from his screen when you don’t reply, a glint of concern behind his glasses. 

“Right?”

You screw your eyes shut tightly and continue to ramble, “shit Shit SHIT”.

“Oh no,” Kyungsoo breathes. 

The irritating hold music finally cuts and a familiar voice sighs down the other end.

“...again?”

“I keep you busy don’t I?” you wince, as the low voice grumbles something indistinguishable.

“What did you do this time?” 

“I don’t even know Yixing, I was trying to upload this client journal and then the whole thing just broke!”

Zhang Yixing, a member of your company’s IT support department and a colleague you knew very well much to his dismay.

You were unfortunately infamous for breaking something IT-related every other week.

“How big was the file?” he starts, the sound of his keyboard tapping faintly through the line.

“I don’t know, like 3000 lines last time I checked”. 

In the corner of your eye, Kyungsoo stands up and raises his coffee mug while gesturing to yours. 

You nod gratefully and he picks up your mug on his way out. 

“Hmm, it might be a server crash. I heard they’ve had WiFi issues on and off this week”. 

“So it wasn’t my fault?” you ask, suddenly perking up.  

“For once,” Yixing deadpans, “Did you save the last version before upload?”

“....no.” you sigh, “I was in such a rush to get it done I forgot. Ugh-I’m such an idiot!” You slump down in your chair feeling depressed.

“It’s fine, It’s fine” the IT tech soothes, his voice always somewhat reassuring. 

“I’ve had your cloud drive set to take a backup every hour since that time you accidentally deleted your hard drive.”

“Yixing I owe you my life!” 

He just chuckles down the line.

“Try restarting your laptop, I’ll hop on remotely and restore what I can”. You nod gratefully, even if he can’t see you. 

It’s late in the evening when you finally leave the office. 

Yixing restores what he can but you still have some gaps to fill, so between that and the continued server crashes you finally give up and leave two hours past quitting time.

“You didn’t have to stay Yixing, but I still really appreciate it” you thank him gratefully. 

“It was mostly for the safety of our IT systems”, he yawns, scratching the back of his head as you walk side by side out of the building together.

“I didn’t have any issues until I worked here,” you huff as you swipe your ID card and exit the building. “My computer at home works just fine!”.

“Yeah yeah yeah” mocks Yixing with a dimpled smirk. You wave goodbye in defeat and walk towards the subway station. 

Much to your surprise, you see Baekhyun when you step onto the train.

Sitting towards the middle of the carriage, his tie loosened and hair dishevelled as he sits forward scrolling through his phone. 

He sighs about three times as you make your way towards him, plopping down in the seat next to him.

“Rough day?” you ask, nudging his shoulder gently with your own. 

He looks up disinterestedly at first, but then his usual warmth returns to his eyes and he smiles softly, dark circles present under his eyes. 

“That obvious huh? And you?”

You sigh “Computer issues and stressing out the IT department”.

 Baekyhun snorts, “Computers were never your strong point.”

You scoff, sitting up in your seat to cross your arms over your chest, “What does that mean!”.

“Um, what about those times you pressed the wrong button at the radio station!?”.

Memories of Baekhyun talking in a chipmunk voice flashes through your head, or the time he thought he was talking live on the radio for twenty minutes before you realised you hadn’t paused the commercial recordings, you snort.

“Can’t say I recall…” He looks up at you with accusing eyes, “Uhhh have you eaten yet?” you ask, looking to change the subject as your own stomach aches with hunger. 

He shakes his head in response. 

“I know a great burger place?” you offer, “and they serve alcohol”. 

He hums in satisfaction. “You had me at burgers”.  

“Great let’s get off at the next stop”.

It’s been a few weeks since Baekhyun came back into your life and things are slowly becoming more comfortable.

Things really eased one morning when you discovered Baekhyun had been walking to the wrong subway station. 

“Do you get a ride to work?” you’d asked nonchalantly as you both walked out of the building one morning.

“Huh-no the subway,” he shrugged, starting to turn off in the opposite direction.

“Wait!” you’d called out. “I thought you said you worked in the same part of the city as me?”

He turned to face you, his head tilted to the side, lines forming between his brows as he looked back at you. “What, yeah. Why?”.

“You’re walking to the station after ours…” you realise he’s making the same mistake you made when you first moved to the city.

Without thinking you step forward and link your arm in his, steering him in the right direction. 

“Come on Mr Byun”.

Turn out he thought you were the one getting a ride to work

You started walking to the subway together every morning after that day. Baekhyun cut ten minutes off his journey time thanks to you, but you never usually saw him on the ride home. 

Baekhyun’s office was situated farther in the city than yours so you’d get off a couple of stops before him. 

“Come on, let’s go eat, “ you yawn, standing up from your seat as the carriage halts at your stop. 

You walk to the restaurant together quietly, the street lights flickering on above you as the night seeps into the evening. 

“Table for two?” a cute waitress chirps when you enter the restaurant.

“Please” You both follow her over to an empty table. 

You take your seats and she pulls out her order pad, “Can I start you off with anything to drink?”.

“Can I get two beers please?” Baekhyun asks politely, the waitress failing to hide the way her eyes almost bulge out of her head when she looks at Baekhyun properly. 

“I’ll be right back to take your order” she sing-songs as she steps away.

“Rude, she didn’t even ask what you wanted to drink” he grins, looking up cheekily from the menu. 

You scoff and swat him with yours. 

“Menus are for reading not hitting” he whines, jutting out his bottom lip to feign upset. 

“I already know what I'm getting, this is one of my favourite places!” you declare, looking around at the bright American diner themed decor. 

Admiring the cute neon milkshake sign and wondering if you could buy one for your apartment. 

“Should I get Onion Rings or Bacon Cheese Fries” Baekhyun ponders out loud.

 As if your body heard him, your stomach growls audibly. “He says both” you laugh, pointing to your stomach. 

The waitress takes your order and after what seems like an eternity your food finally arrives. 

You stare down at the beauty in front of you. The golden crisp of the grilled cheese bread, the way the cheddar and monterrey jack oozes teasingly out of the sides. The smell of the freshly made fries as the salt grains twinkle under the lights of the restaurant.

“I think I'm in love...” you gasp, gazing down at the piece of art on your plate.

Your mouth salivates as you bring the first half of the sandwich towards your mouth and take your first bite.

Tears spring to your eyes as you groan in happiness.

“Shall I give you and the sandwich a moment” Baekhyun teases, snapping you out of your trance.

“Don’t ruin my happy place” you sigh contentedly, as you swallow the first delicious bite. You steal one of his onion rings and shove it into your mouth whole. 

He shakes his head at you as he lifts his burger to his mouth. 

“Might want to take the cucumbers out, it’ll ruin your experience”, you say absentmindedly as you take a long swig from your beer, gesturing towards the burger.

He puts the burger down and lifts up the bun, his eyes widening in surprise, “You remembered that?”.

The realisation hits you and you feel your face heating up, “Uh-yeah, well...of course” you stumble over your words, unsure of what to say. 

Baekhyun doesn’t take notice, removing the cucumbers from his burger with disgust and taking a huge bite.

“Wow, you weren’t wrong” he groans, his mouth still full. 

You raise your hand to the waitress to order two more beers as you both sit in comfortable silence enjoying your meals.

“Wow, you weren’t wrong about this place” Baekhyun swoons, patting his stomach in satisfaction when you both finish eating.

“Stick a fork in me, I’m done”. You sigh, causing Baekhyun to chuckle. 

“Thanks for inviting me” he starts, playing with the label on the beer bottle. “This has really cheered me up.”

“No problem” you smile back at him. 

He hums thoughtfully “I’m really grateful you know, to be able to sit together like this after all this time.” 

You drain the dregs of your beer and nod, you know from experience that he gets sentimental after a couple drinks. 

“Me too, shall we pay up?”

You call out to the waitress and bring the bill, despite arguing back and forth Baekhyun is adamant he’s paying and thrusts his card at the poor waitress, who is just standing there waiting for you to finish bickering.

“You guys are so cute” she giggles as she processes the transaction on the card machine. 

You start to shake your head to deny whatever she’s insinuating but Baekhyun throws his arm around your shoulder and drags you out of the restaurant. 

“Should we get a cab, it's pretty late?” He looks down at his watch as you walk down the street towards the subway station. It’s a little after 9 pm.

The night sky black with few stars twinkling sparsely against the city fog that seems to shield them from sight. Baekhyun still has his arm around your shoulder and you feel more and more self-conscious about his touch. 

You unwrap yourself out of his hold and stuff your hands in your coat pocket. “You’re always so clingy when you’re tipsy”.

“I didn’t want you to feel cold” Baekhyun replies absentmindedly, you bite your lip instantly feeling guilty.

He really is clueless. 

He stops suddenly and looks behind him, waving a cab over just before it passes you by. 

“Come on, jump in”. 

You both hop in the cab and Baekhyun gives the driver the address, as the taxi pulls off you opt to stare out of the window for the remainder of the journey, to refrain yourself from saying anything stupid.

When the cab pulls up you lean over and hand the driver payment, ignoring Baekhyun’s protests as you step out of the vehicle.

“You bought dinner, this is the least I can do” you shrug as you walk towards your building. 

“You’re so stubborn!” he huffs, jogging up behind you so that you’re walking side by side again. 

“Speak for yourself” you retaliate. 

 You feel yourself grinning as you continue to banter back and forth in the elevator until you arrive at your front door.

“Goodnight hyunnie” you grin. Leaning back against your door as you watch Baekhyun unlocking his own. 

He pauses at the sudden nickname. The name you used to call him all the time back in college, it was strange how easily it rolled off your tongue.

“Night sunflower” 

The nickname he called you over ten years ago. 

Smiling fondly back at you as you step back into your apartment, trying to still the way your heart flips at his words.

The next evening you’re at a karaoke bar with Key and Aria, it’s Friday evening so you don’t hold back from the cocktails that Key keeps reordering.

You fill them in on your evening with Baekhyun.

“That’s practically a date!” screams Key, shaking you by the shoulders. “He paid for your meal, escorted you home AND walked you to your door!”.

“They live together you dumb dumb” Aria sighs, flipping through the song lists with the karaoke remote. “But I mean it does sound like you both got closer?”.

You laugh nervously, throwing back your cocktail to calm your sudden nerves. “I mean it was nice, it felt like the old days but I also can’t help but feel cautious”. 

You run your fingers through your hair as you feel everything suddenly bubbling over and you start ranting.

“At the end of the day he stopped talking to me, I probably didn’t try that hard but why put in energy that’s not reciprocated, am I just convenient?”

You sigh “I realise now that he’s just himself, too friendly and doesn’t realise it. I was misleading myself”. 

Key wraps his arm around you,“You...my beautiful, intelligent, way too sober friend, need more cocktails!”. 

“She needs a date!” shouts Aria excitedly. “Remember that thing we were talking about?”. 

You look between your friends suspiciously. “What thing?” 

“Speed dating, there’s an event next weekend. You should go!”.

Key is sticking his head out of the door to order more drinks but he turns back into the room and points at Aria.

“You’re also going A”. 

Aria chokes on her soda, “ME!?”.

“Yes, you!!” Key shoots back, “when was the last time you had a date?”.

You don’t see your friend speechless often but in this situation Key has her stumped. 

“I never even agreed to this!” you defend, “Why do I need to go?”.

“Well why not” Aria turns the conversation back to you. “Is it because you're secretly hoping something will happen between you and Baekhyun?”.

“No!” you shout. 

Key gasps. “You still like him!” he points his finger at you accusingly. 

“No, I don’t” you whine, taking an extra-long slurp of your mojito. 

“Prove it!” Aria and Key shout back in unison. 

“Fine! If it shuts you both up! But Aria is coming or I’m out” you huff, selecting the next karaoke song and grabbing the mic angrily.

“He got, me, go-ing crazzzyyyyyyyyyyy” you shout out the lyrics. Venting out all your evening's frustration.

Your friends grin like hyena’s in the mirror behind you. 

What have you got yourself into.

Bonus Scene (in collaboration with @xingslove​ ) :

Aria practically herds you and Key out of the karaoke bar. 

“I feel bad leaving that last cocktail there. It must be so lonely” Key whines, looking back towards the bar longingly.

Aria dragged you away before you could finish off the last of your drinks, declaring you’d both had enough. 

There’s a long walk to the cabs at the far end of the street. Key dragging his feet on Aria’s right as she pulls you along from the left. 

“For someone so short you have the strength of a bull” groans Key, trying to wrestle himself out of Aria’s vice grip. “You could have at least let me finish my cocktail!”.

“Key, I am not your date from last week” Aria mutters under her breath, “I will not let you get into the same state that results in you throwing up on us!”. 

Key winces slightly at Aria’s words. You recount that night, Key stumbling through the door of Aria’s apartment covered in vomit.

You had been there watching a movie and had to help take care of your upset and incredibly drunk friend.

“Yeah, you disgrace!” You point at him mockingly.

“He challenged me! What was I supposed to do!” he shoots back at you. 

Maybe it’s the cocktails, but you start laughing like a hyena as your friends argue back and forth.

“Don’t think I forgot about you!” Aria retorts, rounding to face you. “Miss ‘throws up in the toilet after way too many shots’”.

“Wait, which time? That happens a lot?” Key asks, finally breaking free from Aria and starts to pirouette back towards the bar. 

“Hey!” you shout, but any words of defence are lost on you as the street starts to spin with Key. 

You brace yourself against the wall for a quick rest.

“Oh you know, that time I held her hair back as she threw up...” Aria starts to recount, letting you go to herd Key back in the right direction. 

“We left her to go get some fresh clothes since she pulled a you!” She pokes Key in the chest as she grabs his shirt collar and redirects him back towards you. 

“And we came back to find her taking a nice nap against the toilet seat”.

“Was that when she slipped off as soon as we walked in? You thought she had lowkey knocked herself out”.

Key grabs the lampost nearby to brace himself as he bursts into laughter.

“Oi” you slur, pointing at your friend only to trip over nothing. 

“You can’t judge ussssss”. You hiccup, clutching back onto Aria’s arm to steady yourself. “You don’t even drink!” 

“Yeah!” joins in Key, swinging around the pole like he’s dancing in the club, “isn’t it harsh to laugh at your friends' misfortunes!”.

“Just get in the cab!” huffs Aria, finally shoving you both into a waiting taxi.

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[iyeolie]

ᴀ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴇɴᴛ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛᴏʀ, ʏᴇᴀʀ ɪɴ ʀᴇᴠɪᴇᴡ

hello hiii let’s take a trip down memory mess and see what i’ve been up to this year rip it was actually pretty nice to look back on what i’ve done :3 @x-exo @yixing-zhang @tipannies thank you for tagging me i hope you all have a happy new year! 🥂

first creation of 2020:

❝ favorite dramas : goblin ❞ i started a new series for my favorite asian dramas and goblin being my all time favorite drama, it was the first one! i rly like this set, the coloring turned out quite pretty c:

most recent creation this year:

❝ sopht ❞ nam joo hyuk as nam do san in start-up. he looked soo cuute and got to wrap up my year <3

a favorite creation from 2020:

i’m also gonna mention a few bc i can’t choose just ooone

❝ exoau ❞ ↬ another series i started to be creative. chanyeol as grim reaper and sehun as the eternal monarch has been my fave so far

❝ #8yearswithchanyeol ❞ ↬ i loved how the colors and layout turned out in this one!

❝ white noise fave performance ❞ ↬ one of my fave exo songs and performances. the different fonts and animations ended up quite nice and i still like to just... look at it lmao

❝ beagle line ❞ ↬ looking at this one just makes me happyyy

❝ suho’s live sessions ❞ ↬ his sets where so pretty so the gifs looks quite pretty too, and i like the text animation i made

❝ chanyeol bday ❞ ↬ i threw this together in like one sitting and ended up actually liking it??

a creation to be proud of

❝ suho’s exhibition ❞ ↬ i’m proud of myself for this one. tried a bunch of things i’ve never done before and i like the result

a new style that i tried this year

i tried some new fonts that i’ve fallen in love with and played around with different fonts in one gif. i’ve also been nitpicking on bigger gifs to make sure they look as good as possible, like using topaz on them and stuff. mmm i’ve tried more pastel edits for the drama sets... i’ve also been doing a lot more graphics and video edits!

a creation that took forever

❝ exo flower theory ❞ ↬ technically this one took a week to make, but i don’t even want to think about the amount of hours i’ve must have worked on it. i’ve never done something like this before so it felt like stumbling around in the dark

2020 creation with the most notes

❝ psycho but it’s okay story ❞ ↬ i have no clue but i’d guess it’s this one. i’m also really proud of this one bc it’s the first time doing something like this. i also really like the respons on it, kdrama fans liking it has been really rewarding :’)

a creation that deserves more notes

i don’t make stuff for notes

a new fandom you joined this year and a creation you made for it

all the dramas i’ve watched ↬ i’ve giffed a bunch of dramas it’s been an amazing year

❝ 하.니.뿐. for 2pm ❞ ↬ i’ve become hottest this year after being a big fan of this song and my house for years, they’re one of my most listened to artists of the year :)))

❝ red moon by kard ❞ ↬ i’ve been a fan since hola hola but now i’m head over heels

❝ when you call my name by astro ❞ ↬ i’m now aroha and love this sooong astro cb wheeen

❝ 2gether ❞ ↬ one of my fave dramas this year and i already miss themmm

❝ the stealer by the boyz ❞ ↬ i’m a baby deobi pls accept me :’)

❝ black mamba by aespa ❞ ↬ i’ve waited years for sm’s new gg i’m thrilled they’re here

a creation you made that breaks your heart

❝ universes ❞ ↬ this one makes me super emo but i love it

a simple creation you love

❝ february realeases ❞ ↬ i snapped with this coloring

a creation inspired by another one 

❝ telephone ❞ ↬ inspired by @ chaeyoungs

a favorite creation created by someone else

the person i mentioned above is so! talented! so like all their stuff <333

some of your favorite content creators from the year

@sefuns @tipannies @dazzlingkai @brightwin @asleepykid @untouchabyeolman @leaderirene @chanyeolsolo @x-exo @yixing-zhang @lavenderbyun @sonjongdae @wonstal @softxingdae @kkyuns i haven’t even been super active this year but thanks to everyone for making my year even just a tiny bit better ✨

[loeybeans1]

luvpcy |  follow forever 200308

hi everyone, it's mari! so i recently hit a milestone and decided to do a follow forever in order to show all the love and support to my lovely mutuals and followers. now, i haven't really been here long, in the sense that i've only just started posting a few months ago and have never been this active before, but i've already made so many memories and met so many amazing people, and i'm just so overwhelmed by it all aah i very rarely ever say it to most of you, but i'm so grateful for all the lovely messages you leave and all the support you show. it's so crazy to think that a few months ago, i used to literally sit there and contemplate posting for hours because i always used to get so anxious about what others would think, but here we are now and i'm literally out here posting anything and everything as soon as i finish drafting. like that's growth yall omg

thank you so much for helping me get to this point, and for constantly motivating me and giving, i really appreciate it. and to show that, here's a bit of my love back!

also quick note, these aren’t in any order at all, i’m just going based on who pops up first, and i’m just tagging moots i’ve interacted with, or those i think are really cool and would like to get to know more <3

@moonlightjongin , @betchabyun , @x-exo , @loeybaekkiestuff , @kuroijack , @likelike-love , @jopping-to-my-kpop , @heartcravings , @guardians-of-exo , @pikayeollie , @punkzs , @pupchanyeol , @ohsenhun , @intergalacticpcy , @intopcy , @yutanakamots , @yixing-zhang , @yeoldotcom , @exo-xexo0021 , @taexkai , @lovebucketjeon , @2seokwaves

also a lil shoutout to those who have been here since day one, and still haven’t dropped my stupid ass / people who make me drop uwus :(((

@baekhunz , irma bean ahh  you’re honestly one of the few who have been there with me since the very start, and have helped me in ways that words honestly can’t even describe. you’re a whole entire angel who deserves the world and all the love and happiness in it, i hope you know that! thanks for always being there irma bean, and for pushing me to step out of my comfort zone and try new things, i appreciate it more than you could ever imagine

@artsyeoll , you bubba imy omg i hope you’re doing well and looking after yourself and not working yourself too hard with requests. i haven’t had the chance to speak to you for a while, but i hope you know that you’re someone that really means a lot to me. you’re so encouraging and sweet, and literally don’t even know it. but yes, you’ve really inspired me in various ways, and i wanted to take this time say thank you ily cah bean :((

@delhyun , lia you make me drop loads of uwus ahh you’re so sweet and everything about you just screams lovely. you’re always leaving such kind messages and tags on posts and making me feel so loved! for you, it’s just hearts spams all around omg thank you so much bean c:

@hkynm , kelli you’re expensive af, and so are your fics but for real, you’re someone i’ve really been looking up to as of recently, and someone who i managed to click with really easily. like we literally started off talking to each other as if we’ve known each other for centuries, and if that ain’t real friendship then i don’t know what is sis :((

@xiuminscheeks , ine omds i’ve been looking forward to this, mostly because i’ve literally never ever said this to you and you’re someone i’ve wanted to say this to for such a long time. but thank you so  much bean, you’re literally hands down the most sweetest, most supportive, most genuine person i’ve met on this site so far. you’ve never failed to make me smile, and i just ahh thank you bub

@bikeryeollie , rachel oof i could write an essay for you because you’re literally the most softest bub ever, thank you so much for all your love bean, and for just being your lovely self, a billion purple heart spams all around for you x2 because that’s what a bean like you deserves

[thechanbaeklibrary]

Fic Search #19

1. devils666soulllll asked: Hi,umm i read this ff once but I really can't remember the name or the story, but i think is about chanyeol being a basketball player and baekhyun is his bf but baek is like a nerd or some like that and he is insecure so when he sees alot of girls around chanyeol when he wins a game baekhyun runs out and chanyeol follows him out and tells baek he loves him. Im sorry I suck at explaning i hope you can help me thanks<3

2. anonymous asked: Hello! Im looking for a specific fic but I worry it was deleted...Chanyeol owns a music store and Baek is on YouTube, they both really like one another but at the start Baek is still with Taeyeon? Somewhere in there is Yixing, and Yifan also shows up and makes Baek jealous, he takes a photo of Chanyeol and Baek has it beside his bed at the end of the story

3. anonymous asked:Hi :) do you guys know which fic is the one where Baekhyun is a girl and she is a writer - she goes to a club and is really engrossed in writing - and Chanyeol is in the band that is playing that night - and they have sex - and Baekhyun is really protective of her notebook ——sorry that was so long hahaha. I’ve been wanting to re read it for so long but I can’t remember what is called!

4. anonymous asked:I'd like to know if there's any ff about ChanBaek which is kinda like... Baekhyun or Chanyeol is kind of evil/a bad person and turns the other evil/to a bad person? I think you can find a situation like this in mafia AUs but I'm curious if there's anything outside of that (I'm fine with mafia AUs though, I haven't read any before :') ) Thanks in advance 😊 💕 || Looking for multiple stories for this ask!

x The Human Malleability Project

x downward spiral

5. mooncoco88 asked: Hello! I'm so sorryyyyyyy! I must have asked a lot from you! I tried to find this fic and it's wolfau. Chanyeol was like an orphan, baekhyun is the head alpha's son. One night baek went to a field and was nearly raped if it weren't for chanyeol who was patrolling the area. BH was was promised to sehun that time but then his father married BH to PC. B H loathed PC and was very hard on him. There was a game to where bh tried to escape the pack after that PC avoided him for weeks.Thank you so much!

6. zonia125 asked: Hello!! I'm looking for fic, where baek had puppy and he loved him very much and he spend so much time with him. Chan was very jealous bcs of that, and one day he decided to move out, but baek stopped him. Do you maybe know, what is it? P.S Love ya, and what you're doing 💘

7. anonymous asked: Hello~ It’s been years since I’ve read this so my memory is lacking but I’m looking for a fic where B is a tribute of sorts to C and he’s like supposed to give up his virginity I think but then he’s supposed to die afterwards so C holds off on taking his virginity because he doesn’t want him to die,,,,,this is all I’ve got :(( lots of drama happens lol

(Aparently..)  The Beholden by sohbet on AFF but it’s currently under draft!

8. anonymous asked: Hi! There was one fic that I read some years back in lj where Baek and yeol are bff and after graduation baek fell in love with chen and yeol get engaged with kris but kris hits yeol and baek gets angry. And in the end they get married and sehun is the one telling their story to luhan to impress him while they wait for cb to come back from their honeymoon

9. anonymous asked:Please help me I'm going crazy trying to find this chanbaek fic where ( I'm not sure if they are bestfriends ) chanyeol sleeps around and baekhyun ends up sleeping with chanyeol but wants to be the only one chanyeol sleeps with

10. anonymous asked: hi do u know of any fics where a character won’t admit how much they care about another character & then freak out when that character gets hurt? thank u :)  || Looking for multiple stories for this ask!

11. canlie61 asked: Hey!!! Can you help me find this fic where pcy kinda stalks (not really stalking but idk how to word it out) bbh, if i remember correctly it's a wolfau. And later bbh kind of gets into danger in a forest but pcy protects him and takes him to his pack(???) And they kinda mate (i think?) and they both get clingy after that and luhan teases them i think it was on aff but i can't remember the title. I am sorry if it's not clear i just can't remember it. I hope you'll be able to find it. Thank you >

12. anonymous asked: Hi! Do you have some fics where chanbaek have to share a bed? If it’s the cliché “enemies who have to share a bed” it’s better, but i don’t mind them being friends uwu Thank you 💖

13. anonymous asked: Hi! I'm looking for a cb ff where chanyeol are baekhyun are in a relarionship or they are married it think. And then what baek doesn't know is that chanyeol is in the mafia business. Thank you in advance~!

x  The Path May Twist (Alternate) by WoodlandSparrow

thanks to @mooncoco88 and  @dramionehead for the help!!

[honeyjaez]

AHHHH I’m so excited to be celebrating this and on my birthday as well ^.^ I finally hit 500 followers!!!!!! I can’t express into words how much a love and appreciate all of you who followed me crap log and continued to follow it after seeing my lame content. I made the blog over a year and a half ago and not once did it ever occur to me that I would make as many friendships as I have on here. I plan to continue as best as I can for all of you. Im currently back in school and its somewhat crazy but I plan on picking up my Text AU Complicated where I left off and have many more ideas for the future. (I really wanna try my hand at a Stray Kids one lol). Thank you for putting up with my multifandomness. I did try to make multiple blogs for seventeen and stray kids but it just never worked, I have too much attachment to this blog. I want to become a blog that works hard for you all and spread happy vibes. This blog, along with all of you have kept me so happy even of the worst days and I hope for many more in the future with you all! 

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I really wanted to tag every single on of you on here, but I have like 30 minutes to do this before homework and going out for my birthday so here is a quick shout out to my mutuals for putting up with me. I’m hope to become mutuals with the lot of you someday <3

My Inbox and messages are always open <3 <3 <3

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@artwonu // @absolutechaosx // @bde-wonho-yoongi // @baekyeol-feeels // @bluesidekth // @changlix-makes-me-soft // @changeyourwaze // @changkyunsdoll

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@daddyjooheon // @edawnoppa // @emikobean // @feathers-n-silk // @felted-heart // @fools-gold123 // @galaxyknj // @hellevatored // @hyunjin-bby // @honggjoongg // @hyunqheon // @hansaghope

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@im-a-stray-monsta // @jooheonsgurl // @jong-yixing // @jinyoung-stole-mylife // @jinslefteyebrow // @jungshookiekook // @junholler // @kinoyoudidnt // @kp00pruinedmylife // @kttendrama // @ktrashqueen // @kennymaddy // @kaisoopuppy

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@lorandyss // @lesbiankinghao // @leesohe // @luckynumber-ten @loeyenthusiast // @letmelive-baby // @markutuann // @middle-of-a-wonshua-sandwich // @m9nho // @monstablaq // @mintwonuwu // @nctkidz // @nctdispatch // @nochuu17 // @ourgalaxygirllover // @ptgplease // @pasteljihope

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@sleepyljihoon // @smut-wars // @s7g // @suho-trash // @sowonkiblr // @seventeenmoodboards703 // @skzstxy // @samkimed // @stayxdontxstray // @something-unattainable // @soffthanbin // @superiorshownu // @svt-vav // @sunnyphoenix8 // @strgay-kids // @skaberen // @softwonie // @swagwitchcarat // @sk-stan-fan // @strayboys // @srry-m0m // @socorromyidol // @sweetjooheonie // @spaceboy-yuta // @takestoolongtodo // @teaspoonemotionalrange // @tsubasapainting // @taesbeach // @that-weirdogirl // @ughh-m // @uwujihoonie

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@wonseokshin // @wonwoosvt // @wwounu // @where--is--the--food // @wildfurys // @whatthefecketyheck // @wheresmytaeblog // @xkpopobsessedx // @xxmultifandomsxx // @xu-mingha-o17 // @youmakestraykidsstay // @yoongi-yoongs // @zelosleftnipple

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I did want to be a special shout out to certain blogs/people I have come to love.

⫸@changkyunnie-is-bae my real life bestest friend in the whole world. She is the I.M to my Jooheon and I love her with every fiber of my being. She is the one that convinced me to make this blog all those months ago and she is always there for me when I need her. This blog wouldn't be here without her.

⫸@officialhoshi My inspiration.I love your blog so much. You was one of the first big blogs that followed me back and I just about had a heart attack. ahjsdgahjsdgajhsd You are so sweet and such a good person to talk to. Just so sweet and bubbly. I know you’ve been going through some stuff but just know I’ll always have my doors open ^.^ 

⫸@wonhos-monbaby You were my first official tumblr friend on here and I’m so happy that our friendship continued on. I’m such a quiet person who has trouble staying in contact with her friends but you never seemed to care about that and would always talk to me like we talked just yesterday and you don’t know how much I appreciate friendships like that. T_T I LOVE YOU <3

⫸@sundropsoo MARIE DAHDGAHSDAHS I LOVE YOU. I’m not a very talkative person in general but you were just so sweet to me and everything that I couldn’t help but just fall in love with you. T_T You are someone I could go to for anything and I know that. I hope we become better friends someday!

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Once again thank you so much to everyone who got me here. I hope for awesome memories in the future with you all!

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[yiqiie]

IDOL PRODUCER S2: E2 THOUGHTS

every week, i’ll sit down and watch the newest episode of Idol Producer Season 2 《青春有你》and write down all my thoughts. nothing get’s left out so get ready for a bunch of memes, shit posts and rants as we get through another season of our fave survival show 

feel free to send me any questions to my inbox and i’ll answer them asap!

a/n: sorry this is late! i forgot the episode was released yesterday welp but tbh saturday night is probably gonna be my upload day anyway 

start time: 10:42 am 

my internet is experiencing problems woooooo so this will be interesting 

so many goddamn ads 

wait who’s the team who were playing like instruments and shit??? they sounded AWESOME

oh damn recap of zyx being pissed off 

MILK ADS 

that chewing gum is actually pretty good ngl 

also the theme song is getting catchier so don’t be surprised if i start liking it 

i still feel so bad for the kids who are sitting out IN THE COLD 

[break while my internet decides if it wants to continue being an asshole]

MC JIN YOU’RE HILARIOUS I LOVE YOU 

‘if you’re a rapper, PLEASE LEAVE’ i’m dead 

zhang pd is sighing lmao 

chen si jian leggo 

IT’S A RAPPER I’M CRYING AHAHAHHAHAAH 

*awkward silence* 

he’s shaking omfg poor baby 

also minghao is really cute ily i never said it before 

HE WROTE THAT?? oof you got talent boy 

he got a zyx serious nod 

wtf he was so quiet??? and now he’s just rapping the shit out of this song 

HE CAN SING YES YOU GO BABE 

oh damn those lyrics 

is it an A? i saw in the description there might be an A today 

IT’S A B YOU GO SWEETHEART 

IT’S THE SMILER FROM LAST EPISODE 

i love their suits 

LI ZHENNING BABE YOUR SMILE 

black pearl i’m crying his skin is GORGEOUS 

HIS POUT 

ALL OF THEIR SMILES ARE SO BEAUTIFUL 

zyx and mc jin talking about shi mingze being similar to kris wu 

LOOK AT ZYX’S FACE MY EXO FEELS 

he looks like my uncle I SPIT MY WATER OUT LMFAO 

jia yi’s CLAPPING I AM IN LOVE 

THAT ENTRANCE 

HIP WIGGLING I LOVE IT 

the song was damn good 

mc jin lmfao HIS SOUNDS 

even the trainees know that their bets on other trainees’ grades are probably gonna be wrong lol 

YOU’VE SCARED THEM ZHANG PD 

jia yi why are you so fcking cute 

NO ONE IN C EITHER 

well their prediction wasn’t wrong they said all of them would be D together 

but :( i really liked their perf 

HE WANTS TO GO ON STAGE JUST TO SEE ZHANG PD 

what a precious bub i shall protect 

stretchy bendy boi

xu long han uwu 

WAIT 

HE WAS THE ONE WHO CALLED ZYX A DIMPLE LIAR 

AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH 

[pls excuse as my wifi loads again]

LI RONGHAO NOT UNDERSTANDING THE JOKE 

i actually love him 

oh jesus this song brings back the memories lmfao 

THIS KID IS FCKING HILARIOUS I LOVE HIM 

stretchy bendy boi again woooooo 

I’M CRYING HE’S SO FUNNY I LOVE HIM MUM 

we already knew he was F but still ;; 

YOU MADE A GOOD IMPRESSION THOUGH GORGEOUS ILY 

YAO MINGMING ILY HE’S SO CUTE 

LOOK AT HOW ADORABLE ALSKDJALSD

6 years as a trainee damn boi 

oh shit 

how is being this good at dancing fair holy goddamn 

THEY CAN SING TOO WTF THIS IS NOT FAIR 

[wifi cut off again so guess what i GET TO WATCH THE PERF AGAIN] 

zyx has his serious face on 

wait they just got up from that position WITHOUT THEIR HANDS 

HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE

uh oh they ain’t getting As or Bs 

A C AND A D NOOOO 

okay i agree with his comments but c’mon they were nervous 

don’t worry babes you have plenty of time to improve! ;;; 

zhou shi yuan oh god i need to remember names 

HE DOES BIOMEDICINE?? DAMN BOI 

deep voice holy shit damn 

VOCALS VOCALS VOCALS 

omg so many vocals today 

BROMANCING ALREADY SHARING MILK 

okay that sounds weird 

THE BOY HE CHEERS AT EVERYONE WHO IS HE 

others: :| 

this boi: :O

omfg he’s a fcking meme too 

[paused while my mother makes me watch a David Attenborough documentary on bamboo] 

MAVERICKS LET’S GO 

MR X’S SONG WHOOP WHOOO 

IDOL PROD S1 FEELS LEGGO 

IT’S ACAPELLA HOLY SHIT LET’S GO 

vocals damn holy shit 

okay the dancing may not be as on point because there was a bit where they weren’t doing anything 

BUT I STILL LIKE THEIR VOCALS 

YAO CHI WHAT THE 

WE HAVE A B BABES 

GUAN YUE FINALLY 

MY BEAUTIFUL SMILING BABY BOY I’VE MISSED YOU 

even yixing is in love with his smile i can tell 

those sharp dance moves though 

I LOVE GUAN YUE GUYS 

honestly that was my favourite performance i don’t care what other people say 

it’s probably gonna be a B 

even though i want him to get an A 

LIAN HUAI WEI MY FAVOURITE BUB 

li wenhan holy shit you are fcking adorable 

YUEHUA LET’S GOOOOO

he forgot to bow WHAT A CUTIE 

LI WENHAN BEING A LEADER I LOVE 

babe don’t say you don’t want an F because zyx can sense fear and he’s gonna give you one 

i’M PRAYING FOR YOU ALREADY 

wenhan is such a soft boy omg 

JIAYOU BABES I’M ROOTING FOR YOU 

oh goddamn these slow mo shots are killing me 

OOF WENHAN GAVE ME A LOOK 

picking up the rose petals I AM DEAD 

guys i still really love jolin she smiled at me and i just forgot about my love for all the others 

jks li wenhan is singing at me now 

i want him to get an A but my bet is on a B 

NO Fs OR Ds WE DOING GOOD 

hu chun yang is really cute just saying 

told y’all so 

even though i wanted him to get an A

YES IT’S THE BAND HOLY SHIT 

THIS WAS SUPER GOOD IN THE PREVIEW 

oof i love it i love it i love it 

probs not gonna get the results i want them to get but WHO CARES I’M STANNING 

all Cs i can deal with that 

LIKE MY DAD POOR LI RONGHAO

i really like this guy’s suit 

wait i forgot his name 

i’ll wait till zyx says it again lmfao 

ZHANG PD SAYS HE’S HANDSOME 

chen you wei THAT’S HIS NAME 

HE GOT AN F WHAT 

oh here we go gramarie

okay i gotta say gramarie is really good at picking songs 

like last year it was a really good song too 

when are we getting an A 

the accents are so cute AHAHAHAHA 

zyx is losing his shit 

i missed their names though and their company 

there aren’t any left????

are there seriously no As?

oh damn 

i just noticed that the new trainee clothes are from new balance 

I AM CRYING FROM LAUGHTER 

such a good reference to ‘balance’ 

they’re really not going to give zyx a break lmfao 

theme song practice leggo

IT’S THE SM PRACTICE ROOM 

MY SM FAMILY FEELS 

i really do love the new uniforms 

THE DORMS 

WE’VE MISSED YOU 

bruh the gifts are better than last year 

wenhan you’re adorable omg i’ve said this so many times 

SOMEONE HAS A YODA AHAHAHHA

XU MINGHAO YOU’RE A GORGEOUS BOI 

and you’re a cutie too 

he speaks so softly too ugh ily 

lmfao their hands look like jellyfish ngl 

but damn xu minghao you’re a good teacher 

wang jiayi ;;; working when everyone left already 

ngl i’m not feeling the broship like last season where people would go out of their way to help each other 

he’s literally by himself and it’s nearly 6am 

jesus this boy is hard working 

LMAO once one person comes in everyone comes in ahahhahha

okay okay previews here we come 

wait removing the centre decision 

TO WHAT

oh damn future stages what a look 

I LIKE 

sidenote: i took a ss of this beautiful boy but forgot where i was going to put it so i’m gonna leave it here anyways. enjoy :)

finish time: 9:47 pm 

that’s all folks; tune in next week for another episode of mai’s shitposting whilst we suffer through another survival show together!

[monicaexol]

EXO Reactions

~ You’re My Noona? ~

Minseok (Xiumin)

“I can’t wait for my birthday!” You cheered, hands wrapping a little more tightly around your mug of hot chocolate. Minseok looks amused, he loves the way your eyes dilate every time you take a sip of your drink, acting as if you were immersing yourself in the sweetness of it all. “Really? When is it?” He questions teasingly, so you playfully nudge him right below the ribcage and wait for the exaggerated scream to pass through his sugar coated lips.

You roll your eyes and nuzzle your head into his shoulder, “Well, I’m turning 29. My parents are worried about my future and... well I just don’t know anymore.” Minseok is taken aback, he glances over your soft features once more, the silk feel of your skin, your bouncy hair, the hallows under your cheekbones and your bright eyes. ‘Is she really older than me?’

He ponders on the thought for a moment, then he slowly reaches down to where your hands rested on your knee and threads his fingers between yours. You find your lips tugging into a smile and steal a glance at his face, only to find that his eyes have never left yours. “Your future is with me, and I promise to fill it with happiness... noona.”

Junmyeon (Suho)

Junmyeon guides you into the restaurant with his hand on the small of your back, the warmth of his palm spreads through your body and distracts you from the cold that lingered in the midst of the fog outside. Your boyfriend stood close, his soft breathing humming down your ears like soft whispers.

He pulls out a chair for you and waits till you sit yourself in the seat, he then helps you tuck your chair under the table and takes his own seat. You watch him gently hand you the menu while offering a shy smile, “I hope you like it here, the food is very nice.” You carefully watched his mouth mould the words that faintly passed through his lips and sent a smile in return.

“I came here two years ago for my twenty-seventh birthday, I still remember how good my birthday cake was.” You lose yourself in the memory of your sweet cake while Junmyeon’s eyes simply widen. “Wait.” You flicker your view back towards him, his head is cocked to the right, hair slightly feathering out. “That means you’re my noona.” His lips stretch out into a broad smile, almost teasing in a way. “That also means you have to treat me for this meal... noona.”

Yixing (Lay)

The loud vibrations of the music passed through the four walls of the room you stood in, you watched the mirror shake and the products on the table bounce every now and then. You glance at your shaky reflection and fix the bow tie of your dress, moments pass and your image in the mirror seems more steady.

Minutes later, the door of Yixing’s changing room creaks open. Yixing enters, skin drenched in sweat and eyes still adjusting to the lighting in the room. “Y/N, HAND ME A TOWEL PLEASE.” He hadn’t realised how loudly he was speaking, perhaps because his ears were still tuning themselves back to a normal level of noise. As soon as you passed him the towel, a fellow makeup artist stormed into the room. “Y/N noona, we need you to touch up Junmyeon’s makeup please.”

You nod your head and lift two fingers up indicating that you’ll be there in a couple of minutes. Yixing looked at you, his eyes danced between your features, you noticed his statue like stance so you playfully poked his forehead. “Take a picture, it’ll last longer.” You laughed before walking to the door. With your hand on the handle, you steal a quick glance over your shoulder and hear him mumble “Sorry... noona.”

Baekhyun

Balloons decorated the walls of your house, a line of drinks were organised on your coffee table and the smell of food lingered in your home. “Baekhyun, help me put the candles on the cake!” Baekhyun rushes over to your friend, who had planned a surprise birthday party for you. “She’ll be here in five minutes. Hurry! We have to hide before she gets here.” Baekhyun nodded understandingly, while glancing over the cake.

“How many candles?” He asks while twirling one between his fingers. “28.” He stops twirling the candle to stare at your friend’s face, he can’t help but imagine your gentle eyes crinkling into a youthful smile in front of him. He’s snapped out of his thoughts when he feels a nudge in his stomach. “You just gonna stand there or help me?” He looks down at the cake, your childish attitude stuck in his head.

You’re greeted into your home with candle lights flickering in the dark. Out of confusion, you switch on the lights and almost pounce in shock when everyone jumps out of their hiding spots while screaming “SURPRISE!” A smile decorates your lips, after pulling your friends into a hug, you feel someone tap your shoulder. You turn around to meet puppy like eye and a soft smile, Baekhyun hands you a gift and faintly whispers “Happy birthday, noona.”

Jongdae (Chen)

The sun hid behind an army of fluffy clouds, chirping birds seemed to have been singing rather loudly that morning. Your gaze focused itself back onto the pond, it’s mirror like reflection shattered when ducklings began swimming, creating little ripples and waves.

“Hey, Noona!” You let go of your thoughts and twist your head to see your brother run towards your bench. Beside him stood a familiar figure, one you recognised but hadn’t seen in ages. “Meet Jongdae, he’s moved back in town. Crazy right?” Your jaw falls in recognition, those crescent eyes and that quirky smile. He was different, much more mature, yet he was all the same, Jongdae.

Durin a lengthy conversation, your brother hears the chimes of the ice cream van and decided to treat you and his friend to ice cream. But when he left, silence fell. A small cough interrupted the quietness that lingered between you and Jongdae, you lift your gaze and catch his lips speaking. “Your brother is the same age as me, so if you’re his noona, then you’re mine too.” You find your lips tugging into a smile.

Chanyeol

Night fell, the sky enveloped itself in a blanket of darkness, small stars scattered themselves like dots on a blank page. You gaze out the window, watching the full moon follow you in your car journey. The music in the background fades away, you turn your head and see his hand turn volume down.

You track your vision to meet Chanyeol’s face, his tired eyes fixed on the road. His tongue peaks out to lick his bottom lip, as if in concentration. “Glad you’re not bored of my handsomeness.” He mumbles, a playful smile etched onto the corners of his lips. You laugh and teasingly pinch his arm to which he dramatically cries in pain. “Why does Jongdae call you noona? Was he flirting with you?” You look over his soft features, his eyebrows furrowed together in a mix of confusion and jealousy, like he really had no clue that you are older.

“Because I am his noona.” You smile out the words and look back out the window, the moon closer than ever. Other cars ran along side yours, but you felt the pace you were moving at speed up. The buildings ran by quicker and felt submerged in slumber. You feel a hand on your knee, fingers lightly pressing down. Chanyeol’s voice hums like a lullaby, “Well, you’re only mine, okay noona?”

Kyungsoo (D.O)

You sat on the couch, knees tucked under a warm blanket with his arm draped over the length of your shoulders. Kyungsoo rests the photo album on your lap and uses his left hand to point at the various faces within the book. “Oh, and this one is from my graduation!” You glance at the young, timid Kyungsoo. There is a familiar innocence in the smile on his heart shaped lips, the youthful glow still remained with him, even now.

“You looked so cute.” You pull his cheeks as he raises his eyebrows and laughs while shaking his head as if denying the compliment entirely. “Well am I not cute anymore?” Kyungsoo playfully pouts, and although knowing full well that he’s only joking, you feel your heart strings pull. “Sorry.” You mimic his expression and he folds himself over in laughter.

“I graduated from high school nine years ago.” You say as you look over his flushed face, his tongue dashed out to lick to bottom lip and he pauses his movements. “What’s wrong?” He shakes his head, closing the album and bringing his cold cup of coffee into his hands. A blush steadily crawls up his neck and meets at the apples of his cheeks, he clears his throat before speaking, “Nothing, I just want to see your graduation pictures... noona.”

Jongin (Kai)

Using his hand to once again neaten his already sleek hair, Jongin stops and stares at his reflection in his car mirror. He fixes his bow tie for the final time and closes his eyes in an attempt to calm down his nerves. But perhaps that wasn’t working. His fingers wrestled amongst themselves when he brought his hands together in effort to stop fidgeting so much, but now standing in front of your door, Jongin wanted nothing more than to just take you to this dance.

He knocks thrice, and is greeted with your brother who pulls a mocking face at Jongin. Your brother and boyfriend never really got along, and you just hoped that time would fix their enmity to friendship. “Noona, your date is here.” Jongin pauses after hearing your brother call you noona, were you really older than him? After your brother pulls another face, Jongin sticks his tongue out teasingly and immediately turns his head away. It’s hard to believe they’re the same age sometimes.

You hear your brother’s door shut closed and make an appearance from your own room. You catch the widening of Jongin’s eyes when he notices you. His eyes trace your small frame as you shuffle towards him, frail heels clicking on the ground. He offers you a hand which you take with a coy smile. “You look beautiful... noona.”

Sehun

You walk into the coffee shop hand in hand, this was your favourite spot to spend time in and you wanted to show Sehun. “The coffee here is amazing.” You squeal in the happiness of being surrounded with your favourite scent of crush cocoa beans. “Well I bet my bubble tea place is better.” Sehun mocks playfully, he secretly loved the glisten in your eyes while you talked about the things you loved. It was something he’d never get tired of.

“Y/N, noona! I haven’t seen you here in ages!” You immediately meet eyes with your friend who worked here, he sits behind the counter with a cap on his head. “Jongin, hi!” You wave back and drag Sehun towards the counter who sent death glares towards the tanned boy. “And this must be your boyfriend. Sehun right?” Sehun nods and remains mostly quiet, so after making small talk and ordering your drinks, you found your way to the back of the shop and seated yourself in the booth.

“Who is he? Why is he talking so friendly with you? Why is he speaking informally with me?” You stop sipping on your coffee and look back at his furrowed brows, his lips pulling into a small pout. You find yourself smiling and his cute expression and pinch his cheek, “He’s the same age as you, Sehun.” Sehun pauses, his hand crawls across the table and engulfs around yours. “But he called you noona. So does that mean....” He wavers, breath suddenly slow. “Yes, Sehun-ah. I’m your noona.”

A blush creeps onto his cheeks, he finds himself searching your eyes and sees his own reflection in them. “Noona.” He whispers with a smile.

A/N: I hope this turned out okay! Thank you for requesting 💕 I had fun writing this, and I’m sorry about the wait! My asks are open all summer, so feel free to drop one! ✍🏽 ☀️

[thelittleeri]

180625 Beijing Airport arrival from Wuxi

(c)  Memory-YiXing x do not edit

[teapical]

I was tagged by @vroomvroombaek to do the alphabet tag game (thank u for tagging me anna 😚 ily💗)

A. Age: 18

B. Birthplace: Jamaica

C. Current time: 5:49 pm

D. Drink you last had: cranberry juice

E. Easiest person to talk to: uh no one lol

F. Favorite songs: uhh i cant think of them rn sjhds

G. Grossest Memory: okay so its...really bad lol, so i was in second grade in jamaica and one of my friends in first grade had invited me to their party in class at lunch time so i went and ate a loooot of food...big mistake asjhd so when class started again like i was going to the restroom but like on the way there i threw up like...right there in class sjhkd and i just stood there cause i was in shock but my classmates were staring at me so i was embarrassed and in shock at the same time...and like i couldnt move and i kind of wanted to die but like i eventually ran to the restroom to like clean myself up asjhds rip

H. Horror yes or Horror no: oh no shkdj i dont like scary movies at all bcuz i dont enjoy feeling scared and stuff shjd also im easily frightened so umm...everything scares me sjhdk 😣

I. In love?: no 😔

J. Jealous of other people?: i dont like feeling jealous of others but i mean it does happen to everyone 

K. Kids of your own someday?: oh yes i love children 🤒

L. Love at first sight or should I walk by again?: nope nope

M. Middle name: its Margaux (which is margo but in french) i didnt really like telling people my middle name cause id get teased a lot bcuz of it and still do a bit but its fine now it doesnt bother me 

N. Number of siblings: I have 2 siblings, an older sister and a younger sister 

O. One wish: hmm...idk like rn i guess i just really wish to have like one close friend? 

P. Person you last called: my dad lol

Q. Questions you’re always asked: rn i get asked what my major is a lot and i hate telling ppl asdfdfg like leave me alone pls 

R. Random fact about you: okay so umm i do this thing where like sometimes i sing what im saying to ppl in this weird voice? like u know when ppl say their thoughts out loud...its kind of like tht sajhkds hmm like if someone says “why did u buy tht” id sing “bcuz i needed a new oneeee” shksd its weird to explain like u have to hear me do it lol

S. Song you last sang: broken clocks by sza

T. Time you woke up: like 8 something but i went back to sleep and woke up again at 10 

U. Underwear color: pink

V. Vacation Destination: hawaii

W. Worst habit: i sit too much sjhjkndj

X. X-rays: umm i dont think so? like i think i did one of my teeth at the orthodontist sjhdjsk

Y. Your favorite food: rice

Z. Zodiac sign: capricorn

im gonna tag @yixing-zhang @jaetens @violetnpurple @xiuxiuflake @floristjihyo @kjiwife 

[do-kyngsoo]

Alphabet Tag

Tagged by the amazing @xiudaengerous, love you Holly 💕

a // age: 22

b // birthplace: London

c // current time: 6:49am (waiting for my train to work)

d // drink you last had: milk with my breakfast

e // easiest person to talk to: my best friend from secondary school

f // favorite songs: Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall - Coldplay or Love Me Right - exo

g // grossest memory: hiking through a field covered in cow dung and watching my friend sink knee deep into it 🤢

h // horror yes or horror no: YESSSS

i // in love? with Do Kyungsoo

j // jealous of people: It’s natural to be so I guess yeah

k // kids of your own some day? If my pcos doesn’t stop me then I’d love to

I // love at first sight or should I walk by again? Walk by again

m // middle name: Kaur

n // number of siblings: 3 older sisters and 1 younger sister

o // one wish: to live comfortably and happily

p // person you called last: My mum

q // questions you’re always asked: How tall are you? (The answer is 5’9’’ and a bit)

r // random fact about you: I have 3 dimples, one on each cheek and one of my left thigh

s // song you last sang: All the stars - Kendrick Lamar & SZA (I watched Black Panther yesterday after work)

t // time you woke up: 5:50am 💀

u // underwear color: Black

v // vacation destination: Iceland to see the northern lights

w // worst habit: Assuming the worst thing will happen and worrying over nothing

x // x-rays: My right hand after a netball injury

y // your favourite food: Pasta 😋😋😋

z // zodiac sign: Libra

I’m tagginng: @happy-yeolidays @shimmie-shimmie-kokobop @chengf @g-exo @ddeongwuu @yixing-zhang @xiuminscheeks

@baozibunns and @stella-vanilla to do this if you want :)

[isakwon]

Coffee Bean (Extinct) Part 6

Pairing: Park Chanyeol x Reader

Genre: Romance & Angst 

Word Count: 3k

Coffee Bean Masterlist

Summary: It’s believed the red string of fate can tangle and make annoying knots. But it can never break, but can it become untied from one person on either end?

A/N: Warm thank you’s to @amberevans736  @vlessful07  and @ireallywannatryandbehappy. 

   Winters from Eastern and Central Time zones always had the perfect timing for anything hot and steamy to stay warm. Movie theaters turned their heat temperature warmer than toasters around the building and their seat people either wear fluffy coat layers and some three layers of pants and leggings anyway. The sun would shine in two hours, but people outside would still shiver because the wind blowing would make the air colder. It’s worse during the night. 

You found Yixing and Sehun sitting on the bench inside the lobby.

”Damn it’s freezing,” Baekhyun says through his chattering teeth, gulping the last of his hot drink before tossing it in the trash can.

Shortly after Yixing leaves you to excuse yourself to the restroom while previews and trailers for upcoming movies play over the screen. Once Baekhyun pulled the snacks from his coat pockets and placed them on a saved empty seat, he realized how Chanyeol receiving a reaction quite the opposite from what was expected surprised him.

The natural interaction between them shocked him even more. She didn’t try to refresh his memory, tell him about their past nor showed him the matching string around her finger. They looked like strangers that were brought together for the first time due to an accident and got along instantly. 

 “Baek, are you okay?” Sehun asked, ripping the straw wrapper open.

 He wondered about telling Sehun what happened once she left them alone. Upon your arrival, they mostly talked about your stardom in South Korea until there was nothing else spoke about leading with now. Baekhyun walked into the kitchen where Junmyeon and Sehun stood, banging glasses into the sink and giving them his glare. Baekhyun was thankful Y/N didn’t hear them talk about whether they continued speaking to each other absentmindedly. The last thing he wanted was seeing her sentimental and overcome with gloominess just at the mention of Chanyeol’s name. He had no idea that things Junmyeon suggested were right. No idea that she would still have hope on her shoulders for long.

“It’s nothing.” 

Baekhyun looks down his hands rubbing together sucking his lips. He looks at Sehun looking at Baekhyun through his eyelids with brows narrowed down on the skin where his eyes and nose met. 

“Baek, tell me what's wrong?” 

Baekhyun glances down again before nodding. 

“Y/N and Chan bumped into each other.” 

  Sehun droops his mouth open while his brows rose, forming upside down arched crescents. Yixing overhears the sentence that pulls his head toward in urgency. Just the other night when he and Yixing exchanged texts with Chanyeol, that plan backfired and came resulting that Y/N and Yeol could overcome breaking their vow. 

“What? What happened?” 

“I don’t know; I only saw Y/N facing his back turned on her.” 

The smiles flashed brighter than the bulbs dangling from the ceiling, her eyes beady, listening to endless giggles and contagious laughter while seeing her face glow. Baekhyun stood beside the restroom door watching. 

”All I heard was them laughing at each other like nothing.”

“How did you manage to leave?” 

 “We snuck out.” 

Sehun was starting to get more irritated with Chanyeol. He wanted to grab him by the collar, hold grudges against him, call him a coward and even now he wants to communicate with him. Chanyeol knows who she is, and he needs to prove himself that he was lying straight to her face, but nothing seemed worthy now. Sehun leaves his lips agape. He was right, there was no hope, and Chanyeol was moving on. But how was forgetting their past lover’s name or how they looked possible. Y/N didn’t change much. 

Did his memories get erased entirely? 

The guys always believed that their friends deserved one another. Baekhyun also blamed himself for leading you to the cafe even though stopping there was just for getting the body warm with chocolate and lattes. He brought Y/N warming Chanyeol with hot chocolate, and both had their feelings warming with the exchanged smiling and soft speaking and patting his arm becoming closer than the last. He should’ve known better than thinking it would be okay after her sitting there for an entire morning several days ago, the morning after your arrival. 

Baekhyun began to wonder whether you were actually using the restroom or using the restroom as an escape to allow tears to run freely onto your palms.

  “Do you think they’ll meet again or-”

“Would that matter now?” Sehun asks, perking an eyebrow up. 

He purses his lips into a thin line until they nearly disappear, shaking his head. 

  Sehun’s questioned expression remains over him. Chanyeol always sent cards, letters and sometimes taped small flowers or her favorite snacks that aren’t available in Seoul. He always wanted for someone to look at him or someone to look at the same way he saw looking at each other. His grin would form hills from his cheekbones rising, and the bags underneath showed fully while knitting her brows upwards watching Chanyeol from afar. 

His friends shared examples of romance and health any of them could ask for in the future. But once they heard about the engagement, the hope of forever was mostly lost. Except for Y/N and Chanyeol carried something so intense, some grew helpless for them to have their forever. How does someone completely forget about someone they loved so much. Just how? Both of them turn their vision on the screen still playing cinema rules over the screen in silence without making a peep. 

  The water from the restroom faucet felt colder on your hand than the air outside, it also tasted refreshing. Enough for cooling down the knot stuck in the middle of your throat. Nobody would stop someone from using the restroom but would complain if that person took nearly three minutes, which you usually do not unless you had spent that time crying.

You should’ve been sitting down with Baek and Sehun in the auditorium eating snacks with them, instead of drinking water from the faucet but they cannot see tears that managed to come out. Everything still felt somewhat wrong, or you just felt heartbreak again seeing Chanyeol and not even remembering your name. 

The self-made promise is respecting Chanyeol falling in love while another part wanted denial that things could indeed end. 

 “Aah,” Your mind went blank while your chest felt like a hole as you leaned against the sink and lifted your chin up toward the mirror. Just staring toward your reflection in the mirror, you felt like breaking down like the constant memories that ran over your mind.

  Chanyeol smiling from the cafe hasn’t left the mind either. As Chanyeol calmly reacted getting burned to watch you with double lighting dots floating diagonally apart his large captivating dark brown irises eyes seemed like all-stars gotten closer. His smile could instantly turn whatever sour mood he saw you have become that mood into lightheartedness, and his eyes darker as if he knew that smile cured anything. His skin tone from the lighting reminded you of the bonfires glowing dark oranges onto him and made him look golden.   

  “Aish Chanyeol,” you muffle through clasped fingers, “I missed you so so much and not being able to say so while hugging you hurts even more. What’s worse is you’re still not leaving my thoughts, I don’t know how long until they stop though.”  

  You wiped away oncoming tears with your sweater covered wrist as you curve your back into a regular posture. Another person enters through the restroom door and makes glimpses toward you before proceeding, allowing you closer toward the door.  

“Hey, are you...are you Y/F/N?” 

  The sudden question stopped you in your tracks, moving your head toward the woman who just passed. She must’ve been another international fan for Korean Entertainment Industry or a Broadway fanatic, another of the few that recognized theatre stars. Fame as Broadway stars differed from television actors and musicians, although you considered them similar. The musical theatre was your roots to your stardom where the theatre is constructed with positivity and bubbly behavior. 

You smiled, “I am.”  

“Oh, my-oh you have no idea how much I loved your debut covers!” her sudden excitement widens your flattered smile. 

  A few other fans approached you on the morning while walking to the cafe early morning asking for selfies and signatures in their journal and phone case that they later show off. If it weren’t for Broadway fans, your recognition wouldn’t have been what it is now, and that was the same story for the stardom in South Korea. Except learning Korean made the journey a bit more crucial even being tutored and applying for a visa after the engagement news and convincing immigration to accept your papers. 

“Please, please, can I have a picture?” 

You smile, “Yes.”

  “Who was the person who turned these in?” Director Kim asked. 

The Representative woman responds, sinking his chin into her neck.  ”Your son Jongdae.”

Director Kim falls silent hanging his jaw open.

“Jongdae? My son Jongdae; whose on a work vacation?” 

”Yes, sir.”

 The look on her face more worried. Director Kim is dumbfounded and repressed. Impresa never had any scandals and shares equal respect for their employees and models. Anyone who has a problematic burden off their chest, confession, complaints, anything concerns Impresa mostly. Someone against the agency could be making these complaints anonymously. 

”Take your leave, ” 

The woman nods and quietly walks to the door. Director Kim felt angered by the early dates printed on each page, and each case had filed since April in the previous year. His son kept Illegal actions involving Impresa’s name hidden from him and now since he was away for three days, he cannot confront to Jongdae about.

Like any father, director Kim wanted to make sure his children are humble and honest and responsible and are taking care despite not carrying his DNA. The first time they met, a little Jongdae gave Director Kim no chances opposed to Somil. Though his older sister always clung around him and always bragged to her friends about him and how lucky they have the things the Director purchased for them, Jongdae avoided his adoptive father for weeks.

As a toddler, Jongdae opened up for his new parent and his sister once they were riding the train to an annual carnival where he held his new teddy bear and flashing light toy on the way back home while cuddling on Kim’s lap.If only Jongdae were back from his working trip Director, Kim would've called him to his office to speak privately upon this. Jongdae would already aware of the elephant in the room seeing manila folders with the police department titles. 

Now at the moment, he would wait until Jongdae returns before bringing his daughter into the problem. 

  Neither you nor Sehun would stop talking about the movie you had just seen that bored Baekhyun to sleep. All talk about the film on the way home was beginning to drive him crazy that skipping toward the living room made him let out a relieved sigh. The boys present in the house greet you as Sehun tosses the leftover popcorn in the trash can. As the wind was getting stronger cracking the tree branches harder, Kyungsoo raises the heating temperature despite getting his ear nagged off by the others about high bill prices.

“How was the movie guys?” Minseok asks, “Who was the killer?” 

  “It was great, I can’t say who committed the crime though.” You raise your brows, and Minseok rolls his eyes while smirking. “It will tell you if you read the book too.”

You hum a quiet giggle turning away from Minseok pleading for you to give away the ending and you just told him off suggesting that he watches the film instead. He always fell asleep during the movies and admittedly that annoyed you. Snapped pictures of him sleeping on the couch during the films saved deep in your text messages.

Holiday lights flash from the tree standing in the corner next to the window beside the television playing soul music and Jongin places another present with the others. The boys finished wrapping some of their gifts with just five days left until new year’s eve. 

”Y/N, ”

Junmyeon whispers your name looking over his shoulder where the boys then turn back to you. ”Here you go.” 

He holds a rectangular box wrapped with metallic dark blue wrapping paper topped with silver ribbons forming to look like a tiny bow and a sticker tag saying ’to Y/N.’ 

”Happy New Year.” He says. 

You look at him widening your eyes slightly and turning your lips into a small ’o,’ and he gives you a look of hope that you will like his gift. He tilts the box in front of you to take it. The paper felt smooth against your skin, and you shake your head while giving a gentle smile.

”Myeon, I can't open presents until New Year's Day.” 

“But we don’t know how long you will be here.” He says. ”This is my way to say how much I missed you and how excited I was hearing you'll be spending the holidays with us.” 

Junmyeon glances at the present in your hands still unwrapped and you turn the box while rubbing the paper with your index finger. Junmyeon was the heart in your friendship with the boys that never believed holding grudges, unlike Sehun. 

You smile toward Junmyeon and tell him to follow you. There the boys are all present in the dining room, perfect for the small announcement you’re about to give away. 

 “Guys,” you say, clapping your hands together, “Since my flight over to New York I have had some big news that I wanted to share on New Year's Eve.”  

Not one of them had asked for when you were going to board a plane after the year ended. Because it would sound like your friends would be urging you to leave and make you feel unwanted, but you didn't think that way. You carried so much love and trust and cared for the boys, and they stuck with you during the years as a trainee. Even tutoring you on learning fluent Korean. Sure, you did have trust issues before with friends from the past who made you feel like you were important or wanted more for just someone to spew their rant. But the relationship you have with them became more than friendships consists. 

 “I know you’re all thinking about I’ll be staying in New York and going back to Seoul.” 

They all turn towards you. 

”The thing is that I'm not going back to Seoul nor South Korea for a while.” 

”Does that mean you're staying?” Jongin asks.

You smile while shaking your head. ”Yep. I'm back in the city, and I'm here to stay.”

Minseok, Yixing, Kyungsoo, and Jongin rise from their seats to approach open arms and widened smiles, each wrapping you in tight bear hugs. Some of them were a little speechless hearing the second sudden surprise; honestly, these boys' hearts probably can't take many surprises anymore since you arrived. Their wrath around you felt tighter than hugging you after coming out behind the tree. 

”Y/N what about your career in Seoul?” Jongin rocked you side to side. 

”I put that on vacation.” You revealed how the main reason you were staying was that you accepted an acting role in an upcoming drama. The casting director had seen your performance on a Korean West Side Story as Anita that made her think you would fit the leading role. When she mentioned New York as the setting, you tried keeping your excitement internal to look composed. 

Junmyeon was the last person to hugged placing his hands on your forearms and smiling at you. 

”Oh my gosh Y/N, I can hardly believe this. Are you gonna stay with us, getting a place because the bedroom is yours.” 

     Your eyes beam, ”Myeon, during the flight staying here, was the plan.” 

”You haven't opened my gift yet.” He says, and you respond

   ”I’ll hold onto it to open first thing New Years Eve night.” His face slants scrunching his nose. 

”Rules are rules.” You shrug lifting the box and start heading to your room.

Once you walked into the bedroom, you remember the blanket that was tossed away was still in the dryer. You didn’t feel the need of folding the comforter since it was going to be used again anyway, so you stuck your hands under the fluffy cotton boulder and began carrying your feet down the hall. Suddenly Sehun’s frame stands in front of you like a wall suddenly appearing. He was dressed in a blue-striped sweater and greyhound gray basketball shorts, his black hair curtain over his sharp eyes. 

“Y/N do you not want to talk about something?” Baekhyun wouldn’t immediately spread the news of your reunion and you refused to assume what and who Sehun was talking about. 

“Nothing.” You respond. 

Sehun crosses his arms. ”I know you saw Chanyeol today Y/N. Though I wasn't there to see what happened, Baekhyun told me only part of what he saw. Also strangers wouldn't stare at each other for a long time after getting burned.”

Your fingers clasp around the blanket,

“So do you know that Chanyeol doesn’t know who I am?”

He nods.

        Thank you for reading!♡

[daphnenott]

tagged by @peterbparkcr (thank youuu) rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs!

a - age: 19

b - birthplace: durham, north carolina

c - current time: 9:14 am

d - drink you last had: water

e - easiest person to talk to: myself lol

f - favorite song: mm i’ve been into lose control by lay zhang rn (zhang yixing)

g - grossest memory: uhh i watched a girl eat cottage cheese with chicken teriyaki at the dining commons and i was horrified 

h - horror yes or horror no: nope i’m a big baby

i - in love? with my dreams yeah

j - jealous of people: constantly

l - love at first sight or should i walk by again: i don’t believe in first love lol

m - middle name: don’t officially have one, but it would probably be my chinese name, yunxin (云忻）

n - number of siblings: just one 

o - one wish: to be happy

p - person you last called: my mom

q - question you’re always asked: how to pronounce my name

r - reading anything right now? my bio and ochem textbooks lol

s - song you last sang: sweet lies by exo

t - time you woke up: 7:15 am

u - underwear color: powder blue

v - vacation destination: italy

w - when was the last time you really laughed? mm idk awhile ago i guess

x - x-rays: lol i need to get some for my wisdom teeth (THEY’RE COMING OUT I’M SCARED) but i also hate the dentist and i haven’t gone in like four years but

y - your favorite food: fruit tarts

z - zodiac sign: sagittarius

lowkey too lazy to tag so just whoever wants to do it!

[fuckyeahexofics]

fic search #187

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180716.  Hello! I was wondering if you could help me find a fic I read a few years ago, it was multiple pairings in a college au (I remember Kaisoo and Suchen and maybe Baekyeol?) and each chapter focused on a different pair and their LGBTQ+ identity (Kai was trans and Jongdae was demigirl). I think it was on AFF but it might have been LJ. Any help you can provide is appreciated! Thank you!!

2.  El Dorado

or You, Who Owns My Heart

180716. Hi i need help looking for a fic where Kyungsoo is from peru or mexico he's like a warrior who got captured. Jongin has like hazel eyes and they kind of fell in love or maybe one of them fell in love (?) it's historical but i don't really remember where i read it.

180716. Hi do you know the name of the fic where kyungsoo is kind of a warrior from mexico or peru or something who got captured and was about to get killed. Jongin fell for him and they stayed together before Kyungsoo run away. it was a historical au. there was smut in it with mostly topsoo (I remember that because i only read smut lol). I don’t remember if it was in AFF or The journal

180724.  Hi I've left this ask two times before but didn't got any answer ToT. I'm looking for a fic, i've read long ago about a warrior Kyungsoo ho got captured and was about to get killed but met Jongin. i think it was a historical au like maya or something. all, i remember is that it was all about smut :D

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180717.  hi im looking for this fic, it’s pretty old and it’s ot12 where each one of them tried out different lingeries they took from the costumes in their dorm ??

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180719.  Hi, I'm looking for a Chenlay fic where jd is a famous artist after exo disbanded. He used to be really close with yx, until yx introduced his gf/some girl? to the band. Five years later, they meet in reunion dinner and it's awkward. I can't remember what happened in the middle, but in the end, jd went to a radio show, and he confessed his feelings there. They meet in the end and yx feel the same way. I think it was in LJ so I'm not sure if it's gone now.

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180720.  SO I feel like a horrible person that can’t remember the fic’s name :( I’ve been looking for this fic like crazy. It’s krishun kid sehun fic. With kai as a teenager I think? I don’t remember but they somehow found kai and bring him home.

6. a feeling you give me, an everglow

180720.  hello mods! do u happen to remember a baeksoo fic where baekhyun is drunk and confesses to kyungsoo, he thinks he is getting into a taxi but it’s actually kyungsoo who is giving him a ride

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180724.  I'm trying to find a Kaisoo fic where kyungsoo gives birth and afterwards they end up having sex and jongin is the one who ends up getting pregnant. I think he was a dance instructor and he didn't want to be pregnant and kyungsoo told him if he wanted he could get an abortion

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80725.  hello! im looking for this sekai fic where jongin has a crush on sehun and they met through chanbaek at a club??? and they ended up becoming fuckbuddies until sehun found out jongin had a crush on him from the beginning. i remember them being classmates at dance class too

9. Walking A Tightrope With You

180727.  Hello! I'm looking for a sulay fic and I was wondering if you could help me :c Junmyeon and Yixing are married but somehow Yixing got amnesia and he insisted to go to his parents to China and Junmyeon started drinking his thoughts away and Yixing saw him. Then Yixing got his memories back just as Junmyeon was jogging outside? Thank you so much beforehand!

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180728.  I'm looking for a fic that I found a while ago and I can't remember the name. The fic is about a daddykink relationship between Chanyeol and anothe remember (Suho maybe) where Chanyeol got in trouble with his dom for showing off his toys on instagram. Do you perhaps know the name?

thank you @chentlemen-first, @toxicblackroses, @plottwistisreal and anon for your help!