#but ytf cant they just

[janijuice]

i feel like some of you guys are forgetting idols are REAL PEOPLE. ytf are yall SHIPPING AND MAKING SMUT OF THEM???? thats weird asl idc what anyone says.

and ts is not to say that ppl cant get sexualized. Ik that anyone will get sexualized for anything esp if ur famous and there are WORSE things ppl have done but that's not to say that ts cant be one of them.

also ik my blog is becoming just me ranting abt fandom n music but i have no idea what to blog abouttttttt

[pettydreamz]

i am grateful she called me out. i can admit i was slightly flustered n embarrassed that she finally perceived me, but honestly it's been about time.

i know i would voice my frustration on the blog bc well, this is a VENT BLOG. especially my insecurities, or even my spiralling mental breakdowns.. he..he..he ^^;;. but everyone should know i was going to voice them to her one way or another. everyone knows about pacing, timing, when people are ready for it. but yall forced it to happen, ig thats ok. who knows maybe i would've waited forever. but i dont think so. but whatevs ig.

this is my vent blog, like how many ppl have as well. this is i mean well TUMBLR lol. like how i respect everyone elses blog even all of hers.

i know i am insecure but who isnt. it's clearly v obvious i am. but it's never her fault, i do feel bad i cant get over it and that she can be a triggering factor to it. but it's never like i hate you type of shit. i just hate the person i can be, thats not her fault.

i am allowed to have these feelings, it's never having malice-intent (although ik it can come off as extreme hater-ade). i vent. the spur of the moment. i put all my feelings that i feel at the time. i calm down, and assess. thats why i let all my dramatics out so i can be the understanding side come out with her. bc she doesnt need that insecure side of me that im working on. she doesnt need that burdensome energy. thats why unfortunately i release that fucked up side of me on this blog. so i can try be the true friend and person i need to be for her. maybe sounds like a shit excuse but hey, thats what i think n feel. how other ppl are allowed to as well. just sorry mine can come off as fucked up n shady. but i've never tried to hide my bitchiness, ppl know i am. but to the sweet ppl they dont deserve that side of me, only if im done wrong than maybeeeee.

pls have a good day lol, it's ok if yall cant understand me. it's not your job to understand the stupid shit i say bc a lot of the time, same lol. this blog represents the nitty gritty dark thoughts of my mind, so ytf would wanna try understand it ;3 you're not my therapist, tho i should get one. but if yall read enough of shit yall should know why i havent been interested for it as of rn. i have other priorities. and im just not ready for that type of help yet, sorry.

im genuinely concerned about the ppl that follow me. you ok..? also any of you guys uncomfortable with this blog pls, from the bottom of my heart… fuck off. like no ill-intent with that but i do talk about concerning n sensitive topics. and i am again sorry to my bsf, i truly am. but yeah to some followers, you need to unfollow if my blog is not for you. and if you wanna stick it out, dont say i didn't warn you this time. but yeah hey welcome to the chaos of my mind. i didn't think i needed to say some of this shit but ig yeah i didn't need to post this at all… but this my blog n im delusional ;3;

sorry

[naturenaruto]

ppl need to draw older versions of characters more attractive. hate this concept of 'no matter what youll get uglier as you age' like maybe if ppl drew older characters more attractive then ppl wouldntbe so scared of getting older. not bc u have to be conventionally attractive or still skinny/muscular/wrinklefree etc but bc its this idea that its a slow slide into ur body and face changing against ur will and like,,,,,theres nothing u can do abt it. ull just change. idec abt wrinkles i know thats inevitable its just something?? abt how its like portrayed that you cant just stay the same just like an older~ version of urself,,,in media its always like 'ohh yes theres me when i was 25 young n hot' and the older version is like comepletly fuckinf different. like even if they were JUST SAY they were plus size with short straight hair and like omg goth style just go w me here lmao,,,the older version will be some super thin frail lookin lady with long frizzled hair and old grandma clothes. like why..,,,,is there such a vast difference why cant we have the same fucking person just......older?!!??? like she can still be plus size wearing black jeans and a tshirt with the same fucking haircut why does the hair always have to change lmfao not tht ppl dont naturally want differnt styles as they go thruout life its just insidious to me that media portrays ageing as this complete 180 process that will change everything about you and you simply CANNOT remain the same.

why cant ppl just look the same but older. omg like why cant characters just look the same but older. why do they have to change eveything abt them to make them so much (and this is crucial!) less interesting.....like they want ppl to be afraid of ageing bc ur supsoed to instead of geting MORE interesting w age which you would think??? apparently youll get less interesting and more boring. its how older ppl are portrayed and it makes it feel liek a breath of fresh air every time i see a rly attractive older person in media whos like stylish etc NOT bc ppl should have to be lmao sakhxnssnd but bc its like oh wow you caaaan still be?? who knew!11111🙄🙄🙄 they just make all the older characters so boring and like they all shop at the same store. its like you lose ur individuality as you age. its defintly a media thing i know ppl arme tlike that irl it just bothers me that its like, oh r just gonnnnnnnnna get less attractive and ur body is DEFITLY going to change like ytf does it have to lmao like size 10 at 25 size 10 at 40???? why does that have to change size 2 at 20 size 2 at 50??????? whyyyyy does that have to change long hair at 30 long! hair! at! 40! goth princess at 15 wheres the goth ladies at 40!!!!!!! its.....annoying

[chuuyas--wine-bottle]

Art13 and shit

IK literally 0 peeps cares but listen Article 13 can kill almost one half of every fandom. We peeps literally work with stuff that really isn’t ours except our skills and idea. Few days ago when I told my friend that art 13 almost got approved she just shrugged and walked away with an “Oh”. Its hilarious and I aint any activist but just a shit poster messing around with my beloved boys and producing stuff. Now I am looking at BSD fandom considering how many of us lives in the EU. Even Kafka Asagiri and Sango Harukawa has permitted us to create content on their characters, a fucking online filter won’t know that and even if it knew that, it still won’t allow us to create anything (referring to the Pixiv interview from Dec 2016 after the airing of Season 2).  A lot of terrifyingly talented artist, writer, blogger and a whole lot of other content creators will have their work filtered before uploading. If you are an artist, you gotta put layers and layers of overlay on it to try and avoid the content being detected. Writer? “Ouuyya pressed his lips against Nazai, making the bandaged one shiver softly” (LSKHFGIKSHG I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS AFTER @no-longer-tainted​ TOLD ME) Meme and shit poster? Best of luck. Shit loads of Blogs gonna be gone with in one night. No joke cuz of the GDPR update my old blog got taken down without any notice. Just the app update and boom. My blog was totally gone. Now that’s gonna happen again with art 13. Sure we can try to move to another platform but they are still gonna have the same law and filtering. 

Really, you want to create right? You want to grow as a fan creator right? You want to see your fav creator creating content for your fav series, chara or ships right? You want to support your creator friends right? Then honestly, ytf ya’ll r just chilling? This is literally gonna destroy the things that you love the most and take it away from you within a night. Just contact the local MEP or sign up the petition if you haven’t! Tell people about it! We can’t just sleep like this? Can we?

[toezi]

A special request: top 5 times when you realized mely is trash + top 5 reasons why you love mely and cant live without her

Trash

so much to choose from how can I ever :  ) 

1. THe wRONg burger king

2. ult unstanning B1A4

3. ult stanning got7 instead of svt

4. unbiasing Eunhyuk for Henry 

5. “Honey Nut” 

Love

1. it’s been 5 years and you’re still here lol how did that happen

2. converting from YTF stans to kpop stans together (and then you incorrectly teaching me Suju)

3. You love svt just as much as me and you actually bring up Jihoon convos so I dont have to and you always listen to me and wow I lvoe you

4. You recognize my comedic talents

5. We make fun of Kat together I mean what

Ask me top 5/top 10 things

[perfectionistincrisis]

Day 80

Yayyyy “Eighty”. Lol im just glad theres no ‘7′ anymore! I Hate 7, but then about the number of days increasing? um ok thats a weird thing to think about ‘-’ Erm i guess you know the idea that the number is just getting bigger every day makes me feel like erm times just passing on and on and on non-stop but then idk. Maybe you could look at it from the other end, and take it as, with the passage of time youre getting closer and closer to the other end. Other end? well yeah, i mean idk what that is, but there must be something awaiting worth to be taken as the end to this count! 

Maybe one of my talents is blabbering BS :) 

So ive been kinda eating. Like low calorie food. But. food. Like not “one apple and around 10 almonds and tea per day” sorta thing. But like, my food portion was actually enough to stretch my stomach a tiny bit or more like tough my stomach walls :) 

So theres this thing within me. Stuck. Like I want something, i need something. And i am not getting it. And i want it. I want it so badly. But ik thats not happening right now, no way. But i cant silence this inner rush within me. Its like stuck in me, fighting to come out. Its like pushing against my skin, trying to fight its way out. Trying to tear me apart, trying to make me scream. BTW - this is not pain or some huge cry of sadness. Its this adrenaline rush, this thirst for an outburst of excitement, this void sucking you into a loophole of -idk what- Oh.god.please.pull.me.out.of.this. Lol! Or i could just say all that in one sentence - Its freaking hard to stay patient- Mentally/ emotionally keeping cool is one hell of a work! It just keeps coming at you, trying to suck your inner peace away

I guess 2 days back, I got so desperate all of a sudden LIKE GOD, i need to lose weight asapppppp! and started googling all BS stuff which i guess works yeah but is not healthy and like even the ‘internet’s all - do not do this, it is not good - and shit. Well after that, i kind of accepted it that yeahh yeahh yeah owwkaaayyy i get it, like actually ‘losing wight in a healthy way’ takes time and stuff and okay okay ill stay calm and okay okay ill stay committed & blablabalba Cause like you know about that argument - food vs body????? so yeah i LOVE food. food is like so important to me, its almost as important as human beings to me, i mean i have top 4 people i love, and then i need food & then...well no, i think i need money after my favourite humans cause like! If you have money, you have food, and once you have food, you still have money so you can go shopping and buy whatever you want - and yes what else do i want? Exactly :) :) :) 

Okay so about today! Hmph so decided to go to the hospital but then tada my mom & bro had took appointments too, for today in some other hospital. And so went to theirs first and then went to mine which is like soo far awaayyy and i usually go their with dad cause like why pull everyone along with me, theyll just get bored but then today they just had to come along cause like they had to go to their hospital first and all that. so unluckily, the computer crashed or something in my hospital and they asked to wait, and it was late and my bros and mom were like so bored so thought of dropping them at some mall and then coming back and checking if their computer started working but then ended up deciding to go again tomorrow so UGH hospital again tomorrow! 

And right now my tummy is full so i cant work out so i guess Ill wait till after fajr. plus anyways it doesnt matter whether i sleep right after fajr or a bit later, i usually dont get out of bed before 2 30pm or almost 3pm and thats cause at 3pm enough is enough and i NEED to get up to not miss zuhr. behehehe but cmon riyadhs heat right now. maynnnnnn I mean seriously ytf would anyone even bother getting out of bed during the day unless like you HAVE A GOD-DAMN reason ‘-’ 

Now my head just went empty all of a sudden lol idk what to write xD theres this one thing but im not in the mood for it right now. 

OH in case all my ‘inner void’ and ‘hard being patient’ stuff seemed confusing - i just miss him a lot. Nothing new :) And guess what, i guess its just easier, WAY easier to accept it :) :) :) 

idk why i keep giving this smiley a lot out of the blue but trust me i have a poker face most of the day. i mean im all poker face or im stupid and goofy pretending like life is actually really easy and shit and im nailing it :) but then i go back to being all poker face real soon so im okay! 

Oh so I read the Quran with the english translation and commentaries after fajr today. It was mind blowing <-- i wish i had better words to use but from all the ones i have, i guess that works. I read a bit. definitely didnt read the translations duh i mean thats some old weird english i wont even get most of it. but the commentaries good. Planning on continuing, a little a day! 

oh another thing that comes with the hard staying patient and wanting something to happen but knowing it wont and all that is. ACCEPTING that life is all highs and lows and many of the times its pretty boring, i mean lifes not a ‘movie’ cause trust me i dont i ever saw people in movies having a boring day. Idk i mean i just want every day to be like eventful and all lively and stuff but then this life is not supposed to be that way. but then i mean, ugh its SO HARD to breathe when its boring :) 

ok enough. 

p.s. other than movies, i guess 5 year olds or even youger have pretty exciting lives too :) and then.. ONE DAY.. heuheuhehueheuu muahaha *stupid evil laugh* 

Ok bye :):):):):):):):):)

[themasterpupil]

It’s like 3am... and I just saw an infomercial on Comedy Central for a shotgun specifically for bugs called the bug-a-salt

[wtfdoiknow-wtf]

ytf not

1. Are looks important in a relationship? 

yes

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

yes

3. Are you a virgin?

no

4. Are you in a relationship?

yes

5. Are you in love?

yes

6. Are you single this year?

no

7. Can you commit to one person?

yes

8. Describe your crush

my crush is my boyfriend how boring

9. Describe your perfect mate

no such thing as perfect

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

yes

11. Do you ever want to get married?

yes

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

sometimes

13. Do you get jealous easily?

depends

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

no

15. Do you have any piercings?

yes 7

16. Do you have any tattoos?

yes 7

17. Do you like kissing in public?

sure

20. Do you shower every day?

sometimes

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

ye

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

ye

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

yes

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

yes

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

i am

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

yes

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

not that i know of but probably lol

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

ye

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

nope i mean like maybe a boob job if i had money but nah

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

both

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

yup

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?

yes

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

yes

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

everyday

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

yes lol

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

lol yup most of my exes

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

currently

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

ye

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

not that i remember

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

ye

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

lol this is a dumb question

43. How long was your longest relationship?

1 year and 1 month and countinggg

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

not counting before high school...so 4 gfs 2 bfs

45. How many people did you kiss in 2011? LOL idk but probably a handful i was a sloot

46. How many times did you have sex last year? 

idfk a lot

47. How old are you?

24

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

boi bye

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

i cant pick one favorite. but probably how sweet, caring, and loving he is.

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

HAHAHAHA ew no id slam the door

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

idk if id do absolutely everything for anyone lol 

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

yes. because we either grew apart or i realized having shitty people in my life wasn’t worth it

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

not to my knowledge

54. Is there someone you will never forget? 

lots

55. Share a relationship story.

no

56. State 8 facts about your body

im 5′3. im 120 pounds. i have brown hair. i have brown eyes. my fingers and toes have really bad circulation. my butt is my best feature. my tummy is cute too. i got small yitties. 

57. Things you want to say to an ex

fuck all yalls

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

no

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

no

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

2 and a half years

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

idk tbh

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

i think a lot of things are sexy if its from the right person

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

straight sex and gay sex are different but ive done both so ive always said if it feels like ur having sex then ur having sex lol

64. What is your definition of cheating?

being physical with someone else or talking about being physical to someone else

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? 

psh thats a lil pers

66. What is your favourite roleplay?

“

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

anywhere and anything with the right person

68. What is your sexual orientation?

bi/pan

69. What turns you off?

someone shorter than me cuz that would be so weird lol

70. What turns you on?

a lot lol

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

idk if this is the kinkiest but i recently had a dream i had a threesome with my boyfriend and megan fox and hfdjkurfdfhghalhg

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?

my name and baby and that feels good. lol im basic

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

i already have the sweetest

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

style

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

i cant think rn..lol

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

i used to be way sweeter than i am now lol

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

whatever floats ur boat

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

;)

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

lol this morning for a dumbass reason

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

a few minutes ago

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

my boyfriend, lip from shameless, ed westwick, megan fox, demi lovato, margot robbie. thats 6 but had to make it even lol

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

idr..i think my friend kendra tbh

83. Who was your first kiss with?

this boy gavin lol

84. Why did your last relationship fail?

because i dated someone i didnt have feelings for. lmao oopsie

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

yea i have