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Every now and then someone asks me "why do you always point out that English isn't your first language?" and the answer is because it's REALLY hard, okay? :') And I kinda want that extra effort to be known.
I choose to write in English despite knowing I won't be at 100% of my abilities just to be part of the community. And it's hard, and you feel stupid and illiterate about half of the time, and sometimes people are very cruel.
Honestly, writing in a language that isn't your own is a very humbling experience, and I think everyone should try it before sending a nasty message, or making fun of someone's "broken English."
This is not the first time I get this kind of "feedback," and it probably won't be the last. I shouldn't care so much, but it's just unfair. It's unfair that I've also seen many friends and creators I appreciate deal with similar stuff.
Sometimes it feels weird to inhabit spaces that are mostly English-speaking (AND mostly USA-centric), because you're always expected to bend but rarely get any kind of gratitude for doing it (rather the opposite sometimes).
By this I don't mean that everyone should be thanking me personally for speaking English, that's not the point I'm trying to make because this isn't even about me (I'm not that important, please lmao). Just do keep in mind that every time a non-native speaker interacts with you in your language, or creates art in your language for you to enjoy, they're kinda doing you a favor. Because we could just... not do it. It's actually so much easier not to do it. Just be aware of it and show patience and kindness in return, it's the very least you can do.
#text#tweeted this as a thread yesterday but#I wanted to share here too#so yeah if you're a non-native speaker and still choose to write fanworks in English#know that I see you and appreciate your hard work#it's so difficult sometimes#and it doesn't always pay off#but you're doing great trust me#also don't be afraid of creating art in YOUR language too#it can be freeing and very personal and special#don't completely throw away your roots just because they're not *cool* in online spaces 🙏
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blink and you'll miss it moments around skyhold....
#solavellan#solas#gotta put out some tender stuff to balance the chaos target team leader solas has caused.#look i just need to go feral in the tags for a moment#okay the fucking. what's he call himself? the great adversary of her people's mythology....falls in love w a woman being forced into a role#not unlike his own#i t makes me c r a z y#like at one point he's all ooooh we're elves need to make sure the humans trust us to ensure safety. gives them a castle......#then he's all ''ooh you cant change the way your legend is getting out of hand. might as well accept it''#but he disapproves if you lean into it/call yourself the herald.#he approves of you fighting against the status quo. encourages sera to sow chaos and has a VERY interesting convo w her about power#''what lop of the top?'' ''yes.'' ''well what's that do except make room for a new top to come and fuck it all up?''#at which point he fuckin STUTTERS and is like. oh fuck. you're right. my bad. and then he shuts up in quiet contemplation#he's clearly wrestling w himself. and Ohmygod the felassanstuff.#like the Guilt. the Regret.#haunting that fucking rotunda.#and yet he's so in love w lavellan if they go that route.#like clearly some stuff was missing/fumbled in game. but like#how he fuckin screams for the inquisitor at the well?????!?! OK BOI?!#im just. the dread wolf. great adversary of the dalish pantheon.#turns out to be some somber grim guy with a fatalistic sense of humor who hates tea and greatly values free will#pina art
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listen like... in my opinion the pov character should be wrong or contradictory or unreliable sometimes. this is third person limited they're not supposed to have all the information or always be right. the narrator doesn't stop being a character
#if i am doing a good job as an author then the reader can TELL when this is happening#i just think it's so boring to write from one character's perspective if that means flattening out everything that makes them a character#if he tells the audience he's outgrown something but the entire story is about how you're never as far from the past as you think#then the implication is that this is NOT outgrown. anyway you've gotta trust your readers a bit.#got a GREAT comment on a fic where someone noticed this and it made me smile all day. like YES you saw what i was hoping for you to see
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Zero Day (2002)
#movies film cinema#zero day#ben coccio#I actually talked to the director on Facebook super nice guy and he told#me a lot about the filmmaking process and even helped me with tips on directing non-actors and new actors#I remember him telling me to always be supportive and tell your new actors they're doing a good job even if they aren't in the first take#cause you can instill confidence and still reshape and change their choices and mistakes later#Sometimes I'd message him for advice when I was running into problems on some of my early projects#he told me once ''did ya choose to collaborate with this actor cause you were lonely or you guys had passion and chemistry''#“collaborating is like a relationship” and he was so right#there's nothing worse than working with people you disdain cause there's no communication and no trust.#he told me how he wrote the first couple of drafts of Place Beyond the Pines but his take on the 3rd act wasn't clicking for the director#so he took the script and went and had another writer rewrite the 3rd act but he liked the process cause he learned a lot and still got pai#but I'd still like to see Ben Coccio's take on Place Beyond The Pines he says the 1st and 2nd act are mostly unchanged#Ryan Gosling's scenes are still mostly the same he said but he couldn't tell me too much cause of the NDA he signed#The bloopers of Zero Day are hilarious his tip he gave me about being supportive#“This is actually great but can we-” and Cal interrupts him “He says that no matter what if you're doing good or bad!” and everyone lols#I hope I can make it and ask him to collab with me on a script#He's such a nice dude compared to the harrowing film he made.#I wish there was BTS but he had only one tape to film on and this was made when digital camcorders were infants#I think he had only one 2 hour tape that's how low budget#The bloopers is just Cal or Andre secretly filming and Ben getting annoyed “Is it recording?” and Cal going “Nah..."#Cal is such a funny guy IRL I wanna see him act more cause he's so good. He was so great at playing a sadistic psychopath in this.#the final shooting is so harrowing and disturbing#I told Ben he srsly gut punched me/disturbed me and this is what made him really open up.
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I will admit that it never occurred to me that I would need to check the history book that claimed to be scholarly to see if it used references and footnotes, because how could a book be a scholarly work on history without such things, BUT NOW I KNOW BETTER.
#would not have wasted my money if I'd thought to check for footnotes#but it literally never occurred to me to think it might be otherwise#the kindest thing I can say about this book is that it reads like it should be a video series on youtube#it sets up a premise and then proceeds to ignore it#it makes claims and does not back them up#it wants to tell a different story than the common and popular view of the era#and then proceeds to tell the exact same story with a vague “but it doesn't mean that everybody's idea of what that means is right”#AND IT DOESN'T CITE ITS SOURCES#there is “recommended reading” in the back instead#but no indication that those were books used for references#just that they'd be good to read if you're interested in the topic#which is a great resource IN ADDITION TO CITING YOUR SOURCES#but also I don't trust them because the authors occasionally recommended books written or edited by them#without any kind of disclaimer or acknowledgment that yes this book was written by one of them#anyway#do not recommend The Bright Ages#0/10 rating
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what do you consider the heart of californication? like really carries through the series & makes it compelling
thank you for this question, i really love it. to me, it's a number of things, starting with that the show cares deeply about hank and takes him seriously in a way that the culture doesn't. in a way, yes, he's their dog and pony show with the funny one-liners and the salacious pull. but the arc of the series is unequivocally aligned with him and his desires and his needs and his values.
hank wants to be with his family, wants to be better for them, wants to not let them down- and the show needs him to fail at all of those things. for the dog and pony of it all, for their viewership and for their thesis and for the food in their mouths, but it simultaneously feels bad that he is failing. simultaneously knows that this isn't what he wants, and that it's sad. and it can be as simple as a dream sequence or a look or a quiet final scene, but every single episode is ultimately going to remind you that everything you're laughing at is a loss.
which, like i said at the top, speaks to a level of respect that the show had for the character that is just gone in discussions of the series. they take the time to recognize that he is missing something. he is losing something and he is without everything that means anything to him, this is the cost. equally important, duchovny respects that character and understands the same.
i was listening to an interview last night (trish you heard this) where he was speaking with some podcast dudebros and one of the hosts said that he always wanted to be just like hank moody, and then he made some "bad decisions" and got there, and he doesn't like it. and duchovny said that every time people come up to him saying "i'm just like hank moody," he says "i'm sorry."
men watch and they want to be just like hank moody and women watch and they want to fuck hank moody so bad, and all of you miss what the source comprehends: that it's an irreparable deficit.
other than that, i feel like what roots that show is that it really isn't all that cynical. not in the way that it could be. and the show believes in hank.
there is a lot of kindness and hope (often false hope) that runs underneath most every relationship and interaction and dynamic in the series and i really really appreciate that about it. it's like in the pilot when hank is being mean and he wants marcy to yell at him and she just says "go home, honey. sleep it off. tomorrow's another day."
there's always a little bit of understanding and grace amongst the crazies and i think there's something really special about that
#gave up on this <3 you're gonna pick up what i put down. i trust#people on this show love each other. that's the heart of californication#at the end of s3 when one of the women that hank had slept with (felicia) says 'it's all done with great affection' about#them dragging him to HELLLLLLL all day lol#'come here. be happy in new york.'#and she goes back in to her husband. happy and laughing#that's just one of my favorite scenes because everyone on the show wants the best for each other#and it isn't just people being lenient and softer than deserved with hank#he is extremely loving to family/friends/random women#and all of the characters are so good and thoughtful to each other#it's nice in a way that stands out in a sardonic comedy that's reduced to 'tits and ass'#there is so much compassion and care cycling through everybody#that's what carries the series for ME. and i don't think i could really explain it further#even random scenes like lew ashby coming into the bathroom to talk to becca when she's sobbing and won't let her mom in#there isn't any reason for him to do that. it isn't because he wants to fuck karen. it isn't because he's a particularly charitable person.#it's because it's his buddy's kid and he wants her to feel better#i don't think there's a character on the show who wouldn't do that for bec or for the core 4 or for mia#but anyway i know what you mean and i think those things are mainly what grounds it#that it's ultimately compassionate and that it respects its lead#californication
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Live Fast & Prosper
#VERY funny that the imposter Janeway is sort of doing her accent - did Neelix mention that to her too~??#'Also she talks like a thespian?? Which I guess is how everyone talks in Indiana.'#She also pulled the whole 'we're a workplace but I like to think of us...as a family :)' so you know she's not to be trusted#Also I fuckinglove how into it the guy playing fake Tuvok is...he's like INTO the role. Yet another criminal man obsessed with you#commander...what's your DEAL <3#I'm such a soft touch dude I felt so bad for the aliens being tricked heheheh#SNRKEHAHAHA ok...Tom & Neelix being pals is actually so funny. They're like 'how could this have happened...we're the toughest most street#smart guys in the book' OK. SURE. HEHEHEH#WHEN DID Y'ALL HAVE EDGE~?? /ESPECIALLY/ YOU TOM#Neelix was doing some shady shit (even though we all know he's a sofite) what'd you do besides get thrown in the clink Tom?#People who say there's no like...uhh character-only moments on Voyager just havent watched the show straight up#Neelix & Tom trying to swindle the EMH with a cup game <3 yeah...that's what this is all about#Janeway: (doing a great job being intimidating) / Tuvok: v_v mhm. / Janeway: Tell her all about it Tuvok.#Tuvok: O_O.....um......it's uh...whew it's bad over there....#Janeway: What about the prisons? / Tuvok: Oh yes the-the prisons....they don't give you lotion. You'll be deficient in at least THREE#vitamins before you're even brought to trial / Janeway: That's Enough of...that. <- trying not to laugh#Tuvok: (is an undercover agent) also Tuvok: I'm not good at small talk or improvisation.#Neelix how much did you talk about Tuvok bc this guy's really into it#Neelix: balablabla tuvok blablabla tuvok tuvok bla bla / Dala: ....(god this bitch is gay...good for me good for him)
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Jujitsu class got me showing up to work with somewhat suspicious bruising and a sore neck from being choked. 10/10 would recommend.
#red said#gotta say like as someone who. the majority of physical abuse I've experienced has involved being thrown around#dragged around and choked#there is something weirdly emptying about these classes#i think it's less the learning to defend against it and more the idea that I'm doing it in a safe place#like with people who don't actually want to hurt me physically or emotionally#and I'm allowed to fight back and i won't be treated like I'm trying to hurt THEM physically or emotionally#I'm not particularly good at it cause I've got the strength and flexibility but i keep forgetting what I'm trying to do#like OK GOT OUT OF YOUR LOCK GOT YOUR ARM CONTROLLED. wait what was the next bit? oh no i lose.#but i often can't even cope with people TOUCHING my neck and not only did we do several moves that involved pushing on each others throats#but when i sparred with the tutor he had me in two different chokeholds plus one i wriggled out of and i had a GREAT time#it's SO DIFFERENT to do stuff where you trust the people you're with#EMPOWERING not EMPTYING those are very different words
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Hey, your work is amazing. Thank you so much for sharing it with the world the way you have, even in this wretched climate so inhospitable to art and artists. You do a lot of good by existing and sharing and creating. Thank you!!!
ADKJGFJGJDKJGF OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! 😭😭😭 Yeah the whole AI-stuff seems very grim and depressing, but luckily I see more and more conventions, corporations and publishers putting a stop to it by not accepting any AI-generated work and I'm sure more companies will follow this motion and update their guidelines accordingly, for only "human-made" work to be accepted.
I don't say much on the topic because I just don't like to put my attention to it, so this will be my only comment on the subjet, but I absolutely applaud all those who are actively fighting against it, because it's definitely a necessary fight against art theft and to make sure there are guidelines being created to handle this new technology. We can't make it disappear, but we can set up rules and give it proper management.
This may sound naive but I am actually very optimistic that this will be handled and settled in a couple of months. Or maybe a year or two. I don't think AI can replace artists in any way. Because in the end, artists are not a hivemind you can study and simply copy and paste, because every artist is an individual. They're all unique with their own minds, their own styles, their own ideas and concepts and every single person brings something new to the table.
Sure, AI can steal and copy a person's art style. But they cannot copy what's inside your mind. They cannot predict you. They can just copy what you have already created, but its YOU who came up with it. And if you're a comic artist or a storyteller of any kid, they'll never be able to tell YOUR stories.
They'll never replace you because they cannot be you. Nobody can be you. Only you can be you. And that's why you'll never lose your worth, because nobody can create the things you create in YOUR way. Don't let the outside world tell you otherwise. You are so worthy just for being here. You bring so much joy just for being and sharing what's on your mind. Don't let anyone make you feel like you're replacable, because you're not. So thank you for being here too! :DD
#Writing this for all my fellow artists out there young and old#I know how many of you are scared and insecure and how the MAJORITY of us struggle with feeling like we're not good enough and I UNDERSTAND#But it's going to be okay!! Trust me#You ARE good enough#And AI cannot replace you#You're doing great!!#AND I WILL STOMP ON ANY JERKS WHO TELL YOU OTHERWISE#OH AND @ASHANISMUS I SAW YOUR HUNTLOW ART AND ITS REALLY GOOD I LOVE IT#Thank you for sending me this ask#it really brightened my day!!#I just realized I basically reiterated your point in this reply of being grateful for others just existing#IT'S A VERY GOOD POINT!!! AND I LOVE IT!!! WE CAN'T REPEAT IT ENOUGH FOR THE REST OF THE WORLD TO SEE#mod#reply
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i'm all worried about telling people i'm schizophrenic but I forgot my first rule is that I won't date anyone who won't wear a mask
#the adas speak#which is both very safe and a great litmus test. since most people don't mask i'm basically asking them to start#1) if you don't do it great bc you probably weren't going to like the schizophrenia either#2) if you do it i feel a bit safer mentioning my disability bc i feel like you're at least trying to be understanding#3) if you say yes but i don't trust that you're actually wearing the mask when not around me then you're a liar. hard pass#i feel like it's good to weed out assholes. assuming we're already compatible i barely need any other information. slay
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i just finished watching adventure time i am so not ok about fern im so not ok about everything actually
fern is literally so special to me i've cried over him like 3 times......, i feel your pain unknown individual..............
#it's impossible to be okay about him i think#LIKE. imagine knowing exactly who you are for your whole life. and then out of nowhere your own brother can't recognize you.#and suddenly everyone's treating you like you're dangerous and can't be trusted#and you can't do any of the things you love anymore#(either that or you suck at them now)#and you aren't the person you thought you were.#and that might not be so bad if the person you were supposed to be wasn't right next to you the entire time#all of your friends love him and he's so great at all the things you used to do and he's everything you used to be#i will never be normal about fern he's been crawling around in my brain for months#anon if you end up getting the fern disease PLEASE come talk about him with me....... it's so cold in here..........
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one thing I wish we were more open about as a society is that like... feeling better about your appearance is so rooted in the mental game
like I can't control how society casts me, but I can control what I project and what I tell myself; and I may not truly believe I'm a hot girl every day of my life (lol who does) but I do believe in bigging myself up, and I wish everyone felt comfortable doing that. tbh, I'd compare it to that idea that if you smile at yourself in the mirror daily, you will eventually kind of con your mind into at least a slightly raised sense of positivity
and neither of those things are going to work for everyone, but it bugs me that we really kind of push this idea that you saying you find yourself pretty or beautiful or hot somehow means you think worse of OTHER people, and that it's bad to think you look good, that vanity is this like... crime; and what makes me even more bugged is that we push it particularly on everyone who essentially isn't a cis man
#idk thoughts that trouble me more after speaking to my teenage sibling#and honestly i kinda think being super humble is overrated for again people who aren't cis men#i think we often mistake confidence for arrogance and that in itself can be rooted by this societally-enforced sense of comparison and envy#i won't pretend i'm not great at my job for example; does it mean i think everyone else who has that job is shitty at it? no#but i know what i'm worth and i know what i can do and i despise this idea that it's arrogant for me to say like...#i'm pretty i'm good at this i know this i'm smart#just tell yourself you're the shit even if you don't believe it trust me
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I just looked up when the date is when I am finally two years clean from SH and THAT DATE ALREADY WAS!!! IT WAS A BIT MORE THAN TWO WEEKS AGO!! I SWITCHED THE MONTHS UP!!!
I AM OFFICIALLY CLEAN FROM SH SINCE 2 WHOLE YEARS!!!!!
#I MISSED THE DAY BUT THAT DOESN'T MATTER! I CAN STILL CELEBRATE#I might have cried a little#To anyone out here struggling with Sh#No matter in which form#It will get better. Trust me. I've never believed this sentence but it's true. It just takes a whole damn lot of time#Keep swimming and hold on.#I don't know if anyone already said this to you today but you're doing so great!#recovery#mental health awareness#anniversary#not bsd related#This is one of the best feelings ever#I could cry for hours out of joy and happiness. My heart feels like it's getting squeezed. I wanna dance around and eat a whole cake#I've been telling myself; hold on your gonna be clean for two years soon whenever the urges hit again and now I'm really two years clean#It's so freeing#I am still recovering but this is so important to me#One step further#I share so much vent. Now I wanna share something nice#I'm gonna devour sweets later and have little celebration for myself
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I'm stupid fo do this in anon but it's the only way for me to ask you this or else I'll combust out of embarrassment, but would you mind being tagged in posts, like a recommendation to read, it'll be jjk posts ofcourse, qnd I'll make to check if you've not already liked or reblogged it,.
Only cuz sometimes i feel the need to share the post and reblog just doenst seem enough...and i loovee reading your stuff (obsessed with wolf!toji too😭) so i thought to ask if it'd be okay
hi nonnie !! no omg pls don't be embarrassed you can ask me anything :33
to answer your question i do not mind being tagged in posts at all !! i'm always looking for good fics to read so feel free to share any that you enjoyed !! i will say that my tbr list is already very long and i'm very slow at getting to them but if you tag me in any fics i will add them to my list and get to them asap :33
i love that you want to share the fics it's so sweet of you and fanfic authors deserve extra appreciation for their work !! so of course, feel free to share them with me <33
also tysm i'm so glad you're enjoying wolf!toji hehe !!!
#[𐐪— asks. 𐑂]#this is the kind of energy fanfic authors deserve#you're so sweet nonnie#i really need to get to my tbr list#i have not had the time to sit down and go through them#but yes pls do tag me in fics you like and i'll take a look#also nonnie pls do not be afraid to drop in my inbox and ask anything you like !!#trust me ik it's scary (i get nervous sending asks myself)#but never feel stupid or smth for dropping into my inbox <333#have a great day nonnie !!!
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If you are like me and you suffer from constant impostor syndrome when it comes to writing, I want you to know that you will never butcher the English language the way that corporate executives do. And they make millions of dollars a year! Write your silly story. It will make you and maybe some other people far happier than I am right now, trying to fit "OPERATIONALIZATION" on a slide.
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ANYWHO goodnight tumblr i'll be back on the art grind tomorrow i think 🙏
#haunted ecosystem#i'll take a burst of creativity in a different form than usual than the burnout slump i've been in for a few months#<- part of why my fandom stuff has taken a smidge of a backseat#dont get me wrong i am still very excited about my fandoms im just having fun off in oc hell (affectionate)#its nice to just be able to create and not really worry about perception. and also i feel Less bad about just throwing ocs into the wringer#((blame the fact i've been REALLY interested in whump recently and i have been. fixated. on one of my characters.))#and ALSO i've been! rekindling my flame for wtds. i've been putting off thinking about it since that fic got.#nothing bad happened? but it was still very devastating that somebody who i considered a friend from that fic just. evaporated.#but i'm gonna finish that fic for him :) even if it takes a year. even if it's the one thing i finish ever. it'll be wtds.#for where its gotten me and the fact its what got me out of my shell and is the reason i trust that my writing is good!#i used to really hate rereading my work. i catch flaws that are obvious to me. but that fic. i just think about how *good* the story is#that story means. a lot to me? as a person? like the main character is not a good person. but people care about him anyway.#and there are so many little things. so many sentiments. so much that is a love letter to people who've done bad but learnt to do better#because. god knows i wasnt a good person even just a few years ago. and maybe i see myself in him a bit.#he came from a place of paranoia and fear and pain. and maybe its a good thing that i've found it difficult to write him recently.#because god. i've been HAPPY. even with the rough moments and bad days. i've been happy. i mean fuck.#my birthday's what. ten days away? god damn man. i'm going to be 18. that's an achievement.#i want to look the kid who thought it was over at half my age and tell him we fucking made it. and there are more years to come.#there's a life ahead. even if it's going to be a bitch. even if it's going to be tough. there's love in your heart and people who care and#you're going to fucking live and you're going to feel better one day. you have people to meet properly and thank and cherish.#because for every day it feel like the world's ending there are a dozen more where the sun shines just the right way through the rain#and you can't help but smile because it's just so god damn beautiful.#and fuck it. you're sick. your hands hurt and your legs don't work right. and it's tough sometimes. but you have people who understand.#you have people who honest to god love you for who you are and appreciate your company. and 18 is the first step.#you've spent half your life unlearning things and you've spent half your life relearning how to be what YOU want to be#and if you're a mediocre artist and passionate writer then you'll be fucking great at that. taking the time to learn when it strikes you.#and maybe this is for me. but its also for anybody reading it too. please god if there's one thing you take from this let it be that#somebody out there cares. *I* care. god i care. even if we've never spoken proper i care about you.#i practically have a list of everybody i see in my inbox. i love seeing familiar names show up. i.#i dont know how to neatly wrap up this tag ramble. but. i am so damn full of love it hurts sometimes. its scary to be happy but thats ok!
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