#but you could say that about her entire discography tbh

[goldennika]

can’t believe there are people out there who have never lived through the jaw dropping experience that is listening to Felt This Way and Stay Away back-to-back for the first time

[algae-tm]

WE CAN’T BE FRIENDS

Oscar Piastri x Reader

Author’s Note: there’s a lot going on in this fic and I should’ve probs split it into two so I could do the storyline justice, but I’m nothing if not slightly lazy so that never would’ve worked. If you notice any mistakes please do let me know! Rn it’s 2 am and my visions blurred so I’m gunna post and hope for the best

I’m actually gunna recommend songs for this fic!!tbh just listen to Willow’s entire discography (apart from that one song with MGK) and if you want to give unholy a listen it is by Hey Violet (though I don’t know if I like the song or not, but it says what I needed the fic to say) and of course All I Wanted Was You is paramore! I hope you enjoy

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youruser: thank y’all for the love on unholy, the last slide is how I feel now that I’ve been let out the house!! Hot gal y/n is back!

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user1: OH WE ARE SO BACK!

user4: IS RHIS CONFIRMATION ?? IS THIS CONFIRMATION?? IS THIS BREAK UP CONFIRMATION

— youruser: girl, if the song wasn’t confirmation enough idk what is

sza: welcome back y/n the streets have been waiting for your return

— youruser: tell the streets I’ll get back to them, I have other plans

— oscarpiastri: 👀 👀

— youruser: gtfo

— landonorris: trouble in paradise?

user32: who’s the song about???

— landonorris: yeah y/n who’s the song about??? 🤨🤨

— youruser: I will block you norizz

— landonorris: oh shiver me timbers

oscarpiastri: amazing song y/n! So proud to call you my best friend

— user22: bro 😭 😭

— user32: either brother doesn’t like her at all or he just has no rizz

— user44: god the friendzone must hurt extra hard after she just released that song about you.

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youruser: thank you all so much for all the love over the last month! I’m so glad you not only watched Queen Charlotte but that you loved it! As you all probably know I haven’t released much art in the last three years, but I never stopped making and art is forever. I’m now just so glad I can now share it with all of you. My new album empathogen is out now on all streaming platforms. Some familiar tracks on there, some not so familiar. Hope you guys enjoy!

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lewishamilton: 👏🏿👏🏿

— youruser: 🖤🖤

user10: can’t believe unholy isn’t on the album???

— user11: I mean I kinda can… all the other songs have much deeper meanings and the sounds are so much more complex…

— user13: that’s what I was thinking, unholy is giving forever 21 changing room, whilst the album is like, masterpiece level shit

—user17: thank god I’ve been arguing with people on twtr all morning about this,

— user32: it’s never that deep…

oscarpiastri: I’m in awe of what your mind can create 🧡

— youruser: couldn’t do it without my forever muse

— user21: 🤨🤨🤨🤨

— user32: y’all are we seeing this??

— user45: WHAT IS HAPPENING IN THE HOUSE OF COMMONS????

— user67: lord help me I’m about to read too much into an interaction on the internet. But him adding a heart. Her not adding a heart. I’m drawing conclusions

— user76: please stop drawing conclusions 😭

jonbatiste: so much talent for someone so young, keep flourishing y/n

— youruser: thank you Jon for all your help 🖤

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youruser: I bagged myself an f1 driver y’all! I hear they’re in high demand good thing I got you, was scared I’d have to settle for Lando Norris.

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oscarpiastri: this is not the caption we agreed on…

— youruser: oopsie daisy… I’m just a girl?

— oscarpiastri: MY girl

— youruser: 🤤🤤 say it again

landonorris: now why am I in this??

— youruser: you saying you wouldn’t like to date me?? 🤨😔😟🙁☹️

— landonorris: What no I’m sure you’d be a joy to date

— oscarpiastri: hey watch yourself Lando that’s my girlfriend

— landonorris: I mean of course I would never date her

— youruser: ☹️☹️

— oscarpiastri: so you’re saying there’s something wrong with my girl Norris? Why wouldn’t you like to date her

— landonorris: I’m so confused

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oscarpiastri: making up for lost time, at least we have til the end of it

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user32: oh… his caption just called me single in 45 different languages

— user21: the difference between his and y/n’s captions is what had me cackling

youruser: can’t wait to spend eternity with you,

— oscarpiastri: unbelievably in love with you

— alex_albon: 🤮 gross

— youruser: @lilymhe come get your man

— lilymhe: @alex_albon why is showing affection gross albon? 🤨🤨🤨

logansargeant: I’m taking credit for this

— landonorris: hey now it was a team effort

— alex_albon: this is me erasure

— youruser: thank you all 🫶🏿 you could’ve done it like 4 years earlier but still thank you!

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[raguonmynieceandnephew]

EPIC THE MUSICAL ACT ONE SONGS RANKED BY ME

The first act is out and recency bias towards saga 5 has passed. let's go lesbians

20 - POLYPHEMUS

I would like to express that just because she is last she isn't bad, ok? The worst Epic song is better than your fave's entire discography, let's not get it twisted. That being said, Polyphemus is by far the weakest for me. It's just too slow, and like, of course it is, it's the build up for the plot defining moment of the show. It has to be slow to contrast with the explosion that will come right after. But it's soooo much and so not the vibe for me. Still love her tho

19 - LUCK RUNS OUT

Not gonna lie, this song is only this low because they changed the "We could be caught of guard" verse. It was SOOOOOOO much better than the melodic version, like, that was a giga downgrade it really upset me and my homegirls ngl

18 - WARRIOR OF THE MIND

Again, a queen, a trendsetter, a trailblazer, we love athena, but her songs in the beginning of the musical are kinda not my thing. Warrior of the mind sounds so weird to me in its saga, i struggle making it fit in my head.

17 - STORM

Wait, wait hear me out, hear me out! Don't shoot! It lacks flavor. It lacks a spice, it lacks something it. I really wasn't feeling it much in the tiktok teaser days of this one, and while the full release is good (again, there is no such thing as a bad epic song) storm left me wanting more, not in a too good of a way. It felt like there was something that needed to be there, a je ne sais quoi, idk

16 - SURVIVE

I think i might get doxxed for this list, but it is my truth. TBH we reached a point in which i have no qualms with the songs. Survive is definitely not bad but like, it gets outshone by literally everyone else in the list so it goes here.

15 - THERE ARE OTHER WAYS

Ooooooh boy. I hate that she is so low. I do, I really do. The second verse just doesn't do it for me as much as the first, and it sucks because the intro and the duet are a fucking masterclass.

14 - PUPPETEER

The numbers are treatcherous because, yes 14 is in the lower spectrum but like, we are already in No Skip territory. I didn't think I would like Puppeteer but the intro with Ody and Eurylochus is simply perfection. The feels, the almost love confession that was cut off, the wordplay is just INSANE, love her

13 - THE UNDERWORLD

What do I need to say about Underworld that wasn't already said in every corner of this website? Putting your IRL mom to play Anticlea is VILE, 10/10 fuck you jorge

12 - KEEP YOUR FRIENDS CLOSE

She was gagging me since tiktok. Perfection. Bonus points for being Penelope and Telemachus first appearances in the show (SHOW ME THE TWINK, JORGE). Also, "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODYSSEUS OF ITHACAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!"

11 - MY GOODBYE

I talked shit about athena's sons in warrior of the mind and I was about to put this in 16th place wtf, it didn't feel right so i did a re-listen and holy shit this song is phenomenal, omg THE JUST A MAN LINE? CINEMA

10 - OPEN ARMS

Steven Dookie, the man that you are. This song is so fucking good, holy shit. It's cute, and fun, It's everything. It encapsulates why the first quarter of a musical is always my favorite, because of all the setups, the motifs, the weapons it creates to shred our hearts

09 - REMEMBER THEM

She is perfection, she is serving pauleira, she is giving me everything I want. By far the best outro in the show, argue with your mothers.

08 - FULL SPEED AHEAD

The harmonies, the character intros, the simplicity, the naïveté, the HARMONIES, YES, AGAIN THE HARMONIES. Troy saga best saga, and if you disagree you can eat my ass

07 - DONE FOR

This song is what truly hooked into epic so Just a Man could reel me in. The drama, the irony, the implicit horniness, the fact that i found out they were dating IRL around the time this was announced, truly divine (ha)

06 - NO LONGER YOU

Wig? Snatched. This was my favorite song for a while, I even auditioned for it lmao. Deffo my favorite one to sing, still. Mason DEVOURED this track, and the prophecy? Odysseus's scream? Setting up Monster, AKA one of the best things in this show? Gagged me, your honor.

05 - THE HORSE AND THE INFANT

We are reaching greatness here you guys. The duet with Zeus gives me chills every time. I just know this + Just a Man as INTROS (REALLY LIKE, THIS IS THE INTRO) are gonna make pussies throb and ppl cry in the theater

04 - WOULDN'T YOU LIKE

Hermes is my favorite character in the show, and this (and Dangerous) are my most anticipated songs EVER. The tiktok snippets really did it for me.

03 - MONSTER

I mean, come on. Do I even have to say anything? When he quoted Poseidon. The venting about all he lost, THE CONFIRMATION THAT HE DID, IN FACT, KILLED THE BABY. HE BECOMING THE MAN TIRESIAS SAW IN HIS PROPHECY. I MEAN, COME ON

02 - RUTHLESSNESS

Chills. Literal chills. When this song dropped I was INSUFFERABLE. Ask anyone close to me. She was on repeat for WEEKS. Steven Rodriguez's voice is so fucking insane, so fucking SEXY (I ain't afraid to say it bitch, that man can get it). But like, Poseidon as a character, Odysseus being an idiot, "Ruthlessness is mercy upon ourselves" like HOLY SHIT. And now, all i can think about is how Get in The Water will sound in his voice. Just thinking about it gives me chills. I just know he is going to devour it.

01 - JUST A MAN

Remarkable, showstopping, absolutely the best song ever made. The lyricism, the production, the poetry, vocal performance, I really don't have much to say because it's not needed. All of my favorite moments in this soundtrack, unreleased songs included, are moments in which this song is referenced.

The "Monster" chants in The Underworld and in Monster, "after all you're just a man" in My Goodbye, the entire song of "Monster" is he becoming the Monster he is asking about in this song, like, DO YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS SONG? My life's dream is to go to broadway once to see this fucking song live, and i know it will be life changing. Just a Man is the most beautiful thing ever.

[fuck-you-upmusicbracket]

Searching For Former Clarity (Against Me!)

And in the journal you kept by the side of your bed/You wrote nightly an aspiration of developing as an author/Confessing childhood secrets of dressing up in women's clothes/Compulsions you never knew the reasons to/Will everyone you ever meet or love/Be just a relationship based on a false presumption?/Despite everyone you ever meet or ever love/In the end, will you be all alone?

"Searching for a Former Clarity is about the process of dying. It's the closing track to the album, and it shares a theme with the opening track, but while Miami uses disease and dying as a way to talk about the city metaphorically, Searching for a Former Clarity is much more personal. It's also partly autobiographical. Laura Jane Grace wouldn't come out for another seven years, although if I'm remembering right she was convinced that this song would immediately out her to everyone. (I could be thinking of a different song from the same era. It's kind of a running theme in her music.) A while back I saw an old video of her performing this song, when it was still new and she still wasn't out. It felt wrong to see that version of her, honestly (I'm old enough that I should have been a fan in the 2000s but I'd never heard of Against Me until a couple years ago), but it also amazes me just how much *better* she looks now. She looked so much older then, and unbelievably more miserable, than she does now. I hate that she had to live like that for so long, but I think about that contrast every time I hear the song now. Honestly, with that in mind, I never want to hear anyone saying shit about how they are glad someone suffered so that they could Make Art(TM) about it. Fuck that. Don't get me wrong, I love this song and most of Against Me's discography, but I'd willingly give all of it up if it could somehow retroactively mean that Laura Jane Grace didn't have to have the shitty life experiences that led to it. Yes, a lot of art comes from suffering, but people shouldn't have to fucking suffer for art. I've had some experiences lately that forced me to think about my mortality a bit more seriously than usual. If I died today, there would be an extensive record of my gender, and my complex feelings about gender, on various mostly anonymous twitter and tumblr and reddit accounts. If I died today, nobody who knows me would know the name I chose for myself. Not that I'm a historical figure (I'd probably be entirely forgotten in a decade tbh) but speculation about my gender would be *at most* someone's conspiracy theory based on poorly-sourced and badly-interpreted speculation. I'd be buried as a man, I'd be remembered as a man, I'd be forgotten as a man. That was my choice. I have my reasons for making it. I don't know if it is right or wrong or even if the concepts of "right" and "wrong" are the right ones to use when thinking about it. I'm still going to have feelings about it every chance I get. Searching for a Former Clarity is a pretty good way to get them. Emma. That is the name that I chose."

Am I Awake (They Might Be Giants)

When I get through this part/Will the next one be the same/Will I be wondering/If I'm awake?/These are not the clothes I had on when I went to bed/And something else besides my hair is growing from my head/And when I close my eyes it looks the same as when I open them again/Am I awake?

"Man I don't know what exactly about this song gets me so hard but it just makes me wanna get up and stim and think about my blorbos and their trauma. it also just speaks to me as a person with memory and identity issues, it really outlines the dissociation and confusion i feel when i don't remember something and/or can't grasp what i'm feeling. it also has a sort of inception vibe to it? or maybe groundhog day? The strange vocal samples and frantic drums and fast bpm with the really slow vocals on top is just soooo good. really really good song"

[couthbbg]

Ok bestie i HAVE to know your thoughts on the cores fav 1d songs

(you will regret how long this gets but i'm so glad you asked) okay, in my imaginary scenario (which is also my fantasy) someone (me) has sat the core down and forced them to listen to 1d's entire discography (which is a wonderful activity that everyone should partake in), and then they have to pick which songs resonate the most with them, which would be:

Sid: a tie between 18 and Drag Me Down, which include clearly relevant highlights like, All I could do is say that these arms were made for holding you / I wanna love like you made me feel when we were 18 and:

If I didn't have you, there would be nothing left The shell of a man that could never be his best If I didn't have you, I'd never see the sun You taught me how to be someone, yeah All my life, you stood by me When no one else was ever behind me All these lights, they can't blind me With your love, nobody can drag me down

You taught me how to be someone always just guts me because like, I have to imagine that's how you would feel about someone who's been your partner (in numerous ways) for 19 years and was there next to you during the best and worst moments of your life, like. An how young they were and how they figured out how to navigate leadership and spotlight together ugh. Also, the Geno sticking up for Sid remaining captain incident comes to mind (you stood by me when no one else was ever behind me).

Geno: would be Steal My Girl, and okay, listen, I know this is an unpopular song among 1d fans BUT I think Geno would be the most likely of the three to pick a song he's heard before and just go with that. But the lyrics would obviously also appeal because let's be honest, everyone is literally trying to steal his girl all the time. And like, She's been my queen / Since we were sixteen / We want the same things / We dream the same dreams (they DO dream the same dreams), and Kisses like cream / Her walk is so mean / And every jaw drop / When she's in those jeans - self explanatory tbh. Now, of course, I am also considering Rock Me after my late night Eureka moment, because, summer 09, best time of our life. Yeah.

Tanger: a little more nuanced our Tanger and a bit of a mystery, but I've learned about his music taste, and I think he would like What a Feeling for the vibes, and also, What a feeling to be a king beside you, like even though we definitely subscribe to the Tanger as the knight to Sid's king metaphor, I think he would see himself as a king. It's a tie between that or Stockholm Syndrome, because he's a little bit of a freak, and I think he does enjoy how tied down he is by Sid's neurosis and undying love and loyalty (matched by his own).

[s0litaire-y]

list five songs you’ve been enjoying recently- thank you @vroomvroom-mfs for the tag i luvvv music!!!

don’t hurt yourself- beyoncé. had this on repeat while getting ready for prom and i think that’s the only reason i didn’t give up on my makeup and just stay home. ITS SO GOOD!!! i will not lie i don’t listen to her music very much even tho i love her which yeah i know i am horrible i am sorry 😞 but this one is very good☝️i love it

she- tyler the creator. this was also on repeat while getting ready 🙏 there’s just something about it that scratches my brain just right. the drums and the instrumental stuff ughhhhh i just. yeah.

loyalty feat. rihanna- kendrick lamar. i’ve been listening to a lot of kendrick lamar’s music recently and i really like it he’s one of the few artists where i’ve listened to their entire discography on purpose (the others being mitski, lucy dacus, and fiona apple). he’s just one of the greatest ever and i love his voice he’s so talented lyrically and vocally!

maneater- daryl hall & john oates. ok this is very different from the rest of the list i think but like. it’s ok! i love how jazzy and fun it is to listen to and i will admit i only listened to it at first bcs i watched that one jennifer lawrence movie but i love it!

all mine- brent faiyaz. yeah idk what to say other than it scratches my brain and it’s sexy so like! what else could you want from a song 🤷 his voice is so good i can’t even and the instrumental thing is really cool tbh

idk who to tag but if you wanna do this you can just say i tagged you lol

[stealthily]

What kind of music do you think Vi and Cait would listen to?

Ooh, this is a fun question to think about, thank you!! 

• Okay, so, Caitlyn.  I feel like Cait is a bit of a sap and has a lot of soft pop/alternative stuff in her library.  She’ll listen to anything from top chart singers, to little indie artists she finds and supports-- but her favorite genre of music?  Is just about anything that makes her feel wistful tbh.  (listen,,, after that shower scene you cannot convince me that Caitlyn doesn’t listen to music solely to Yearn™)

But really, Caitlyn likes any music that tells a story, and she pays attention to every lyric.  If she finds a song she really likes, she looks up their entire discography and history of the band, and she always buys physical albums of her favorite artists.   All her playlists are super organized and specific to mood, genre, etc.  She has a playlist full of instrumentals for when her mind is too busy delving into her work to focus on any lyrics, a playlist for when she’s disagreeing with her parents, a playlist for when her chest grows tight with just how much she’s longing to do more, more, more in the world, and needs that extra bit of inspiration in the form of music.  (Oh, and she definitely listens to a healthy dose of Tegan and Sara, too.  I don’t make the rules.)

• Vi has like, a ton of rock and punk and not-quite metal that she listens to most frequently when she’s working out, so she loves high-energy songs that have a fire behind them.  Unlike Cait, Vi doesn’t know jack shit about most of the bands themselves and Does Not Care To.  Any newer music she finds is usually because Ekko introduced her to it, and they’ll often bond over songs they both like.  (She doesn’t quite “get” the music Powder used to listen to, but she still makes sure to keep a playlist of those songs, just for her.  Just in case.)

The exception to her “songs you could punch God to” taste in music is the “Dad Rock™ through the ages” playlist Vi has on rotation because she says it reminds her of Vander, and not because she actually enjoys blasting Bruce Springsteen when she’s driving by herself— nope, of course not.

(And maybe if you search hard enough there are also a few incredibly cliche self-indulgent pop songs buried in a secret playlist that if you found she’d have to kill you, actually.)

• Their music kind of... bleeds together once they start dating.  Playlists that are shuffled songs from vastly different music tastes played one after another, and Caitlyn thinks it should be jarring, but it just... isn’t, because it’s so uniquely them.  Vi doesn’t think much of it because that’s just what she does, she weaves little pieces of those close to her into the fabric of her own heart.  But even so, Vi doesn’t really consider there being any deeper purpose behind the lyrics of songs Caitlyn listens to, until one day she makes an offhanded comment about “I added this song because it made me think of you” and Vi’s heart immediately swoops in her chest at the idea.  (And maybe suddenly the sappier music in their combined playlist isn’t just for Cait, anymore.)

[hoforwonho]

lovelyz & monsta x (any reason to get you talking about your faves ehehe) <3

Thank u💖💖💖

Lovelyz: I STAN literally one of three lovelyz fans on here, and i'm rabid

favorite member / bias line: Mijoo, Kei, Ryu Sujeong. All for fairly different reasons. I think Mijoo & Kei are tied for 1, but Sujeong is SO close. Mijoo's a great entertainer, she's hilarious and literally so gorgeous. Love her stage presence. Kei has my fave voice in kpop, I could listen to her sing literally anything. Sujeong has my fave song - Tiger Eyes is a BOP. And her voice is so nice and distinct! She also covered a Baekhyun song, idk if you'll like her take on it but

which member I’d fight (& why):

None. I couldn't do it lmao

favorite song(s):

Obliviate, Wag-Zak, Twinkle, Dream in a Dream, For You... Genuinely love most of their discography. Fall in Lovelyz & Unforgettable are my fave albums, though.

favorite thing about the group:

THEY SING! THEY'RE SINGERS! Not every girl group needs a rapper and it shows.

something i’d like to see from them:

Literally anything, I miss them lol

Monsta X: I stan!

favorite member / bias line:

Was Wonho, now I'd say Kihyun/Shownu

which member I’d fight (& why):

... Changkyun. I just need to.

favorite song(s):

Their entire The Dreaming album, Shoot Out, Oh My, Got Me In Chains, Autobahn.... Monsta X has a lot of good music, too tbh

favorite thing about the group:

Their music slaps severely like. Shoot Out didn't have to go that hard but it did.

something i’d like to see from them:

... Better music :\ I didn't really like their last comeback tbh I kinda want to see them experiment with concepts

[whatiwillsay]

off topic - let’s talk about gaylena 👀

selena gomez is one of taylor’s oldest and bestest friends and given that she is in the 22 liner notes, a huge part of taylor’s life, and maybe fruity herself it seems like possibly we don’t talk about her here at the blog enough!

i don’t want to do a timeline of selena and taylor’s friendship - you can read more about that here, but they met back in the day when they were both dating jonas brothers and to me this idea of finding a real friendship in the midst of these contrived promances is pretty adorable.

ofc most of y’all think taylor is a fruit basket but i think there’s a good chance that selena is too!  i’m not saying she is for sure but y’all know me.  i’’m here to make a compelling case that everyone and their dog is gay so let’s gooooo! 

Part I - At least one fake rs!  

Selena “dated” Taylor Lautner in 2009 and he’s definitely gay.  Of course, that doesn’t mean she is, it could just be PR, but y’all know I gotta note everything!  We stan our fruity bffs dating the same gays 😍

Part II - Selena x cara delevingne

i feel like there’s a chance they met through taylor but everyone in that squad adjacent circle knows one another.  cara dated michelle rodriguez for the first half of 2014 and then got with annie clark in March 2015 but it feels like it’s possible something has gone on between her and Selena from summer 2014 - early 2015? ...maybe something casual on and off a bit?

August 2014 - Steamy pics surface in Saint-Tropez, France

Selena and and a freshly single Cara vacation together in part to celebrate Selena’s 22nd birthday.

They party together and look cozy!

Pictures such as this surface and spark rumors around the two:

Selena apparently loves the rumors and gushes about being shipped with Cara.

Quote:

You say Selena drag queens were the true measure of success for you. But isn’t it true that you’re not truly famous until you’ve been the subject of a gay rumor? And last year, the tabloids had a field day with photos of you and Cara Delevingne. I’ve made it!

How did you react to those rumors? Honestly, I loved it. I didn’t mind it. Especially because they weren’t talking about other people in my life for once, which was wonderful. Honestly, though, she’s incredible and very open and she just makes me open. She’s so fun and she’s just extremely adventurous, and sometimes I just want that in my life, so I didn’t mind it. I loved it.

Notice she doesn’t deny them?  Now of course she could just be being cool, if she freaked out about it that might be even weirder but hey, it’s still kind of interesting.

Then she admits to questioning her sexuality???

Have you ever questioned your sexuality? Oh, I think everybody does, no matter who they are. I do, yeah, of course. Absolutely. I think it’s healthy to gain a perspective on who you are deep down, question yourself and challenge yourself; it’s important to do that.

(Selena btw, this is cool and all, but not everybody questions their sexuality, maybe you’re just gay 👀)

November 1 - LACMA Art + Film Gala 

they even left the event together 👀

and they hung out earlier that day as well:

They were seen the next day partying for Kendall Jenner’s bday singing to her:

a few weeks later Cara tweets Selena’s lyrics!

In December 2014 they are travelling together in texas:

in january 2015 they get cozy at the golden globes together!

and they leave together again:

January 19th/20th a bunch of gay nonsense happens

They post this gay shit with matching shoes and linked fingers:

then they say this to one another:

Enty says they were hooking up!

then we don’t get any more content that i can find for about six months! perhaps they had a fling from summer 2014-jan 2015 and then it ends, Cara gets with Annie in March?  Then after half a year apart Selena and Cara resume a friendly relationship?  Perhaps!  Selena is seen with Justin a bit off and on during this time but this was in their Style/Heat Death Era imo (tbh i probably shouldn’t give a hetty pairing including Justin that designation 🤢but y’all get what I’m saying - it’s fully possible Selena was hooking up with both of them!

Now I’m not super familiar with Selena’s discography so y’all lmk if I’m missing anything major - lyric wise that point to her not being straight.

Selena’s album Revival that comes out after this relationship has a few songs with some vibes, even though I get the feeling a lot of it is probably about Justin, allow me to reach.  The title track could be translated as someone coming to terms with their sexuality (among other things):

I feel like I've awakened lately The chains around me are finally breaking I've been under self-restoration I've become my own salvation Showing up, no more hiding, hiding The light inside me is bursting, shining It's my, my, my time to butterfly

Good for you, imo, is too sexy to be about a man even if it’s not super queer lyrically it’s a vibe ok?

Me & My Girls might be a bestie anthem a la 22 (oh wait, no 22 was gay too) but I mean...could be about a girl gang of lesbians too!

And if we want it, we take it If we need money, we make it Nobody knows if we fake it You like to watch while we shake it I know we're making you thirsty You want us all in the worst way But you don't understand I don't need a man 

Quinn Fabray indeed!

Nobody feels probably like a retrospective on Justin 🙄but...there is a hint of sapphic craving in there!  Saying this particular lover loves them differently than everyone is a bit 👀 plus this stanza:

No oxygen, can barely breathe My darkest sin, you've raised release And it's all because of you, all because of you And I don't know what it is, but you've pulled me in No one compares, could ever begin To love me like you do And I wouldn't want them to

Is Perfect about some bitch Justin started dating?  Probably but bear with me here this song is actually pretty fucking gay.  Gay enough that I’m gonna add it to one of my gay playlists.  Could this song actually be about Cara moving on to Annie?

Ooh, and I bet she has it all Bet she's beautiful like you, like you And I bet she's got that touch Makes you fall in love, like you, like you

I can taste her lipstick and see her laying across your chest I can feel the distance every time you remember her fingertips Maybe I should be more like her Maybe I should be more like her I can taste her lipstick, it's like I'm kissing her, too And she's perfect And she's perfect

Part III - Selena x Julia Michaels

Julia Michaels is a singer/songwriter known for her song Issues.  I don’t know her sexuality but she at the least has gay vibes!  It seems they met around this time perhaps because Julia wrote on Revival.

They have a friendly enough friendship for a few years, liking one another’s posts on IG from time to time, posing for a photo a time or two and then they seem to get swept up into this very intense friendship in 2019.  They write some music together and Julia goes whole hog in promoting the shoe brand Selena is hawking this time 😭

2019 - The Superior Sapphic Jelena Timeline:

It starts, for some reason with a lot of shoe promotion:

chill, chill

more shoes

but more gayness?

this homo shit

ok...

Then we go into the REALLY GAY NOVEMBER OF 2019:

Then they perform together:

And...actually kiss...on the mouth on stage???

Sure it’s just a peck but still...if that were a guy people would say they were dating.  

Somehow kissing on the mouth isn’t the gayest thing these girls do over this period because these fucking dykes got matching tattoos.  I’ve read enough Larry blogs to know this actually means they’re secretly married.  All jokes aside this is fruity behavior. 

From their IG stories:

Selena gets Julia a very nice christmas gift:

Covid sets in and content drops off but god damn!  It’s possible they just had an intense friendship but if a man and a woman collabed on music together, kissed in public, and got matching tattoos everyone would say they were dating!

Selena, as far as I can find, didn’t have any public boyfriends around this time so who are some of these love songs about?

Rare comes out in January 2020 and perhaps has some gayish songs?

Don’t tell me why but boyfriend lowkey, has a gay vibe.  Don’t ask me to explain it but it’s just the musicality of it.

Crowded Room could be a love song for Julia?  (or by Julia for Selena, since they’re collaborators?)

Baby, it's just me and you Baby, it's just me and you Just us two Even in a crowded room Baby, it's just me and you, yeah

These are general gay vibes, our secret moments in a crowded room tease

It started polite, out on thin ice 'Til you came over to break it I threw you a line and you were mine

It would have started out polite between them, since they worked together for years before whatever 2019 was happened.  And throwing someone a line first of all makes Selena sound like the aggressor but also “throwing someone a line” could be a reference to writing songs together.

Yeah, I was afraid, but you made it safe I guess that is our combination Said you feel lost, well, so do I So won't you call me in the morning? I think that you should call me in the morning If you feel the same, 'cause

Lots of people are afraid at the beginning of a gay rs.  Treacherous tease 👀

In summation!

Selena does gay stuff like fantasizing ab kissing other women in her music, getting very touchy with famous dykes on vacay, hangs out with Taylor Swift, has chronic mental health issues, dated a jonas brother and a twilight gay, has admitted to questioning her sexuality, and loves being shipped with women.  Is she gay?  I don’t know!   But all she’s missing from her celesbian bingo card is a suspiciously intense friendship with a Glee Cast member! What do you guys think?  Selena fruity or just weird?

Edit to add: so apparently I missed an entire ship and Selena supposedly acted really gay all the time with her backup dancer Charity Baroni.  Exposing SMG has posted a lot about all that.

Also Selena has been cast in a gay role! edit to add: @bisluthq went and found this for me - julia is indeed a fruit queen

[sunflouwerhabit]

i've been asking ppl who pop up on my tl this:

THINGS YOU COULD TALK ABOUT FOREVER GO!

HELLO HELLO !!!!!! i was on vacation last week and am so behind on asks but i’m also so, so, so excited to answer this question !!! i have loads of hyper-fixations over the years which means i am an encyclopedia of a very wide range of incredibly niche things 😭

OKAY OKAY LETS BEGIN:

1) louis, harry, the boys (anything ranging from the band’s discography to their solo works to funny moments to fan relations and everything in between. i’ve been in this fandom since 2012. the knowledge and the love runs deep. they are a part of me. i never shut up about them).

2. i’m an historian in training with a specialization in twentieth century central european, jewish history, soooo i can absolutely talk your ear off about a wide range of subjects pertaining to it. (and really any historical topic, tbh. i’ve spent my entire life loving history <3)

3. TAYLOR SWIFT (strong suits include the evermore album- i have a “it’s time to go” tattoo!!!!- and red, as well as speak now and rep. her music literally raised me)

4) LITTLE MIX. i fucking love little mix

5) baseball, baseball, baseball <3 especially cleveland baseball

6) i will always promote the ohio agenda (i am essentially an ohio propagandist. i romanticize the fuck out of my home. i love it sm)

7) WRITING. <3 i spend an insane amount of time writing, whether fics or poems or stories, and my mind is constantly working on plot points no matter where i am. i never stop writing. i love talking story structure and the writing process and learning what peoples favorite works are and what their favorite things they’ve ever written are. i adore writing. it is my favorite art form and my favorite way to spend time

8) coffee, tea, caffeine !!!

9) places i’ve traveled (i’m very much a cringey “i studied abroad and it totally changed my life” kinda gal, but it’s okay because i OWN it)

10) my job. i work at a high school and love it. when i need a conversation starter, i talk about silly things my students did. they’re amazing. i love working there. it’s the best

thank you so so much for this question !! it’s so fun to think about and i probably have more i could say, but this is a good top 10. have a great day ❤️

PLUS HERE IS A BONUS: i have two bunnies and i literally talk about them 24/7. once you meet me, you’ll know within 5 minutes about these babies. they are my favorite subject. i adore them. LOOK HOW CUTE

[laufire]

Now that you asked me about GG sortings, I am curious what are your thoughts on the little you saw of the show? SHC and non-SHC ones.

I watched the first season, and maybe some episodes of s2? This was eons ago, and I barely remember anything; certainly not enough to have anything definite on characters sortings tbh. Other than that...

The character that pinged my radar the most was, by far, Jenny. And she was definitely a character type I'm open to looooooove, ambitious social climbers are IT. But ngl, by the point I watched the show, the actress, Taylor Momsen, had already started her band The Pretty Reckless, and I was OBSESSED with them lmao (they are, to this day, the one band whose entire discography I have on my phone lmao). My attention was on her and I liked what I saw, it's what I'm saying xD

After her, the other character I felt most affection for was Serena. I don't remember the details, I just found her and her actress immensely enjoyable to watch. Nate was another one I liked Just Because, I digged the vibes xD. And I enjoyed Blair, for what I remember. I also could've shipped any of these four characters together.

I remember having opinions on some of the adults and more secondary characters, but fuck me if I can remember them now lmfao.

I hated Chuck on sight. There's no universe where I wouldn't have hated Chuck as a person, but maybe if I had seen the show at another point in my life I would've at least been interested in how his narrative unfolded (because it seems like a fascinating case study). But this was on the early days of TVD, with Damon apologism running rampant everywhere I looked, including the friends I had IRL who watched these shows. I couldn't stomach a character like Chuck then, and he and Blair/Chuck was a big part of the reason I dropped the show.

I didn't care much for Dan, but I remember thinking he was a creep and way too judgemental lmao. He was my top choice for Gossip Girl and I had a good laugh when I heard about the reveal xDD

I remember one other thing: there was this scene in s1 where Serena, sad about the things people say about her (and Dan's reaction IIRC) throws her flip phone into the trash. I remember my ears rang with shock and outrage LMFAO. I went and watched the pilot of Shameless (a show I will continue one day, but that I can probably only stomach on small doses), because it was the first show I could think of that was the opposite of Gossip Girl and I needed to clean my palette xDD

[na-klar]

You're a K-Pop fan? What's your favorite group or who do you listen to? If you don't mind me asking🙈

oh please, always ask me about kpop, i love talking about it lmao

okay, so. my favorite group - my ult group - is exo. they are the reason i got into kpop at all. my friend showed me a video of chanyeol performing all of me and i swear i fell in love at first sight. i was obsessed with chanyeol and watched every video on youtube i could find, and eventually got into his group exo too. call me baby was an integral part of me falling in love with exo as quickly and fiercely as i did and therefore will always have a special place in my heart.

tbh i've never loved any group or musician quite as much as exo, they're one of the most talented and well-balanced groups in kpop in my opinion and they have some of the best vocalists in the entire world. like. jongdae??? baekhyun??? jongdae AND baekhyun (that's my fav cover from them btw)??

not to mention how impeccable their discography is, no matter if group or solo... literally no one is touching them imo 😭these are some of my fav songs (w/ youtube links so y'all can enjoy these masterpieces too and i URGE you to do so!!! your life will change for the better): been through, she's dreaming (THIS SONG I COULD WRITE WHOLE DISSERTATIONS ABOUT IT), gravity (this is exo's best song of all time in my very humble but very right opinion), baby you are, groove, tempo, sweet lies, unfair (sexy santa baekhyun edition)

my 2nd fav group is red velvet, i love them SO much i can't even bring it into words. yeri is like my fav idol of all time and i have an embarrassingly huge crush on her lmao. red velvet's discography is also just... chef's kiss

then i also absolutely adore shinee, they're my comfort group you could say, i love everything about them and married to the music is one of the best kpop songs of all time; 1 of 1 probably the most flawless album of all time. also i saw taemin live and i still haven't recovered

(as you can see i'm very much into sm groups lmao, i'm just a sucker for good vocals and great discographies to match)

then there are a few other groups i love and listen to frequently: aespa, bigbang (g-dragon especially), stray kids, pentagon, blackpink, twice, dreamcatcher and some solo artists: lee hi, taeyeon, dean, zion.t

[heartriki]

tagged by @beomgyung to do my top 9 albums of 2020 :D thank you!! idk who to tag that hasn't already been tagged... maybe @leesalts @yunwoo @heeseungluvs @jay-park if you guys havent already done it??

i know only like. 3 of these are actually from this year but these are my emotional support albums TT honestly theres WAY more but this post would get too long if i tried to mention all of them

victon - continuous / honestly every single track on this (mini) album is perfect. it feels like the soundtrack of a kdrama tbh, especially petal, all i know, and white night. white night unlocked emotions that i didnt think i could feel. it’s honestly my favourite album of this entire year and it has been ever since it came out in like. march. 💀

arctic monkeys - am / this album has been a favourite of mine since it came out in 2013. i really cant explain how much i love this album lmao especially do i wanna know like. this came out in 2013 and its STILL amazing. i also love r u mine and snap out of it

enhypen - border: day one / i listened to the entire album right after coming out of the exam hall on the day of my last exam 💀 so maybe its bc i have good memories attached LOL but i really love this entire album. the intro and outro are so creepy and i LOVE it, their voices go together so well and suits the concept. i love everything about it. love me a good horror concept :^)

wayv - awaken the world / tbh this is just me being an nctzen like there’s nothing profound about this album and i have nothing to say except i love nct and i love wayv and they practically never make bad music and this album doesn’t even have my all time favourite wayv song, aka the most romantic song in existence, face to face

aimer - after dark / ok first of all I LOVE AIMER SO MUCH. I LOVE HER MUSIC AND HER VOICE. EVERYTHING. i had to hold myself back from trying to include her entire discography on this. this album is amazing and polaris and rokutousei no yoru helped me through a pretty rough time. i listen to the magic blue version of rokutousei no yoru though, which is just. so magical. PLEASE listen to it

the boyz - reveal / chase was amazing too (especially checkmate) but i had to go with reveal bc all the songs on it are exactly what i like hfdbfdn my favourites are reveal, scar, ego, shake you down, and salty :^) tbh i also love tbz’s entire discography

bts - the most beautiful moment in life pt 2 / and another album that helped me through a rough few years of my life! honestly all the songs are amazing, butterfly is BEAUTIFUL, whalien 52 unlocked emotions in me that i could not previously feel, dead leaves also made me feel things i didnt know i could, and house of cards is SEXY

hozier - hozier / i just really love the lyrics lmao, its so ominous and weird and creepy. in the woods somewhere feels like a fever dream, from eden once again made repressed emotions resurface, i dont wanna talk about like real people do bc it makes me !!!!!!!!!!!, and i don’t think i have to say much about take me to church

5sos - youngblood / nothing profound. just bops. youngblood, lie to me, ghost of you, and better man are amazing, and if walls could talk and babylon are sexy. that is all

[fuck-you-upmusicbracket]

Searching for A Former Clarity (Against Me!)

And in the journal you kept by the side of your bed/You wrote nightly an aspiration of developing as an author/Confessing childhood secrets of dressing up in women's clothes/Compulsions you never knew the reasons to/Will everyone you ever meet or love/Be just a relationship based on a false presumption?/Despite everyone you ever meet or ever love/In the end, will you be all alone?

"Searching for a Former Clarity is about the process of dying. It's the closing track to the album, and it shares a theme with the opening track, but while Miami uses disease and dying as a way to talk about the city metaphorically, Searching for a Former Clarity is much more personal. It's also partly autobiographical. Laura Jane Grace wouldn't come out for another seven years, although if I'm remembering right she was convinced that this song would immediately out her to everyone. (I could be thinking of a different song from the same era. It's kind of a running theme in her music.) A while back I saw an old video of her performing this song, when it was still new and she still wasn't out. It felt wrong to see that version of her, honestly (I'm old enough that I should have been a fan in the 2000s but I'd never heard of Against Me until a couple years ago), but it also amazes me just how much *better* she looks now. She looked so much older then, and unbelievably more miserable, than she does now. I hate that she had to live like that for so long, but I think about that contrast every time I hear the song now. Honestly, with that in mind, I never want to hear anyone saying shit about how they are glad someone suffered so that they could Make Art(TM) about it. Fuck that. Don't get me wrong, I love this song and most of Against Me's discography, but I'd willingly give all of it up if it could somehow retroactively mean that Laura Jane Grace didn't have to have the shitty life experiences that led to it. Yes, a lot of art comes from suffering, but people shouldn't have to fucking suffer for art. I've had some experiences lately that forced me to think about my mortality a bit more seriously than usual. If I died today, there would be an extensive record of my gender, and my complex feelings about gender, on various mostly anonymous twitter and tumblr and reddit accounts. If I died today, nobody who knows me would know the name I chose for myself. Not that I'm a historical figure (I'd probably be entirely forgotten in a decade tbh) but speculation about my gender would be *at most* someone's conspiracy theory based on poorly-sourced and badly-interpreted speculation. I'd be buried as a man, I'd be remembered as a man, I'd be forgotten as a man. That was my choice. I have my reasons for making it. I don't know if it is right or wrong or even if the concepts of "right" and "wrong" are the right ones to use when thinking about it. I'm still going to have feelings about it every chance I get. Searching for a Former Clarity is a pretty good way to get them. Emma. That is the name that I chose."

No Rain (Blind Melon)

And I don't understand why I sleep all day/And I start to complain when there's no rain

"Okay, I know this is not the usual song genre vibe of a fuck you up song BUT THE LYRICS and the fact that the song is so soothing and a little up-beat just fucks me up. Like this is the song of my life- literally. My brother thinks of me everytime he hears this song which I think shows how much I relate to this song. It fucks me up specifically because I RELATE so hard to it. The overwhelming loneliness is the theme of this song, and the idea that days just pass with no passion or enjoyment and we do what we can just to stay awake and keep going despite the monotony of it all. And how all of this can be solved if that one person will just stay with you."

No Rain submitted by @ghostlystrangers

[kayliemusing]

30

1: Name - Kaylie

2: Age - 23

3: 3 Fears - Spiders, failure, loss

4: 3 things I love - Reading, writing, Taylor Swift

5: 4 turns on - Kindness, nice hands, humor, someone who has a really warm heart.

6: 4 turns off - Arrogance, moustaches lmao, narcissism, basket ball shorts *shudders*

7: My best friend - Her name is Megan (but also my mom lmao)

8: Sexual orientation - Heterosexual

9: My best first date - I have never been on a date.

10: How tall am I - 5'2

11: What do I miss - My childhood mostly

12: What time were I born - 2:45 pm

13: Favorite color - Red, but sometimes a nice summery, pastel yellow

14: Do I have a crush - no

15: Favorite quote - I have so many that I can't say my utmost favourite, but one that I always think about is from Richard Siken "He was pointing at the moon but I was looking at his hand." I'm not even sure how this is supposed to be interpreted, but I just love the detail of this. Of someone looking at the moon and pointing at it, but you're looking at their hand because you're that consumed by them and also they're like your moon. anyway-

16: Favorite place - My house lol

17: Favorite food - Cheesecake

18: Do I use sarcasm - Yes, but very dryly

19: What am I listening to right now - Nothing actually. I'm just sitting in the quiet.

20: First thing I notice in new person - I used to think it was physical, like eyes or their smile, but I think it's actually their demeanor. i.e., confidence, if they're laid back, talkative or quiet, etc. Or even just how they handle things. Like when I'm at work and I meet a new co-worker I'm always noticing how they are with people.

21: Shoe size - 6.5 US but I can manage a 7 US too.

22: Eye color - Grey

23: Hair color - Ashy blonde, but I usually get it highlighted to be a brighter blonde

24: Favorite style of clothing - I'm super into the French girl vibe right now (elegany, classy, ribbed sweaters tucked into high waisted jeans or dress pants, a blazer thrown over and a nice gold necklace) but I'm also really into a summery boho look (flowy maxi dresses and skirts)

25: Ever done a prank call? No

27: Meaning behind my URL - On this account, it's just my name and then 'muses' because this account is just me talking to myself tbh. My main account is called autumnsletters which is just a combo of my fav things: autumn and handwritten love letters, and finally, my embarrassing taylor swift account is called sixteenavenue which is a lyric from her song I Think He Knows where she mentions her heart skipping down sixteenth avenue.

28: Favorite movie - I feel like i don't have one answer bc I always have a different answer to this question lmao. I think it's called A Christmas Carol (the 2009 version w/ Jim Carrey). It just makes me feel cozy and warm inside. Also: Clueless.

29: Favorite song - All Too Well by Taylor Swift I think.

30: Favorite band - Of Monsters and Men

31: How I feel right now - I actually feel really happy today, which is a change lol. I had an awful week last week, but over the last couple of days I've just felt more creative and happier.

32: Someone I love - My mom

33: My current relationship status - Single

34: My relationship with my parents - Excellent.

35: Favorite holiday - Christmas

36: Tattoos and piercing i have -0 :'(

37: Tattoos and piercing i want - I want to get my ears pierced again bc the holes grew over. Low key want a nose piericing and low key want a tattoo on my collarbone (or somewhere around there)

38: The reason I joined Tumblr - Because everyone else had it and I felt left out LOL

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? - I don't have an ex

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? - No

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? - No i've never been kissed rip

42: When did I last hold hands? - never but it's ok bc i can hold my own hand

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? - Depending on what I'm doing. If I showered the night before and I'm just doing a very low-maintenance look, roughly 15-20 mins. On a normal day in which I shower in the morning and am trying to actually be presentable, roughly an hour.

44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days? - Have YOU shaved MY legs? No. Have I shaved my own? Yes

45: Where am I right now? - My room

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? - Most likely I'm not drunk, but IF I WAS, it would be my friend, my mom, or my sister (my sister would probs make fun of me and film me tho tbh)

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? - Loud if I'm jamming with nothing else to do but sing along. If I'm trying to do something, I'll turn it down bc I can't focus with loud music (especially if I'm trying to write something/talk to someone/text someone)

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? - My mom bc my dads dead

49: Am I excited for anything? - My sister and I are going to Banff in about three weeks so I'm excited for a getaway.

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? - No

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? - I work in retail so

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? - I don't know. I think I hugged my mom at some point this week lol

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? - Bye bye babyyyy

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? - my cat

55: What is something I disliked about today? - I had to go to work

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? - Taylor Alison Swift baby

57: What do I think about most? - Probably Taylor Swift.

58: What’s my strangest talent? - I can make stomach gurgling noises with my mouth closed.

59: Do I have any strange phobias? - Nah, pretty generic ones

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? - Behind the camera

61: What was the last lie I told? - Some lady asked if a product was good and I said yes so I wouldn't have to help her find another one

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? - Neither what the hell

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? - Neither

64: Do I believe in magic? - No

65: Do I believe in luck? - No

66: What's the weather like right now? - It's calm, but a little cloudy. It was really warm and sunny earlier, but it's gotten a little grey.

67: What was the last book I've read? - I just finished this series called The Winner's Curse by Marie Rutkoski and it was so good but so stressful omg. Still 5/5 stars.

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? - Yes

69: Do I have any nicknames? - Not really, but sometimes my coworkers call my Kayls

70: What was the worst injury I've ever had? - Oh my god when I was like 10 I fell during grounders and the bar hit me right on the cooch. Most painful event of my entire life.

71: Do I spend money or save it? - Spend it bitch

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? - No

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? - yes!! my blanket!!

74: Favorite animal? - I love hippos and I don't know why.

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? - Reading on my phone to avoid sleeping so I could prolong not going to work

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? - Devil. Kind of like Satan The Devil is his full name

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? - Shake It Off

78: How can you win my heart? - Learning Taylor Swift's entire discography for my sake

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? - tbh I really don't know

80: What is my favorite word? - Wonderstruck

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr - n/a

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? - stream fearless taylor's version

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? - no

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? - Healing

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? - N/A

86: What is my current desktop picture? - it's a misty forest

87: Had sex? - no

88: Bought condoms? - no

89: Gotten pregnant? - no

90: Failed a class? - yes

91: Kissed a boy? - no

92: Kissed a girl? - no

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? - no but it's a dream

94: Had a job? - I've had two so far

95: Left the house without my wallet? - Yes, sometimes I do it on purpose so I can make my mom pay for something lmao (chill i'm talking something small like candy)

96: Bullied someone on the internet? - no

97: Had sex in public? - no

98: Played on a sports team? - no

99: Smoked weed? - no

100: Did drugs? - no

101: Smoked cigarettes? - no

102: Drank alcohol? - yes

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? - no

104: Been overweight? - I feel overweight, but technically no

105: Been underweight? - No

106: Been to a wedding? - Yes

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? - Yes, but not since I was younger. I'm mostly on my phone now.

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? - Oh yeah lmao

109: Been outside my home country? - No

110: Gotten my heart broken? - Yes

111: Been to a professional sports game? - No

112: Broken a bone? - No

113: Cut myself? - Yes

114: Been to prom? - Sort of. I'm Canadian so I had grad.

115: Been in airplane? - No

116: Fly by helicopter? - No

117: What concerts have I been to? - Jonas Brothers when I was about 10 lmao and Marianas Trench when I was 15

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? - No

119: Learned another language? - Tried to

120: Wore make up? - Yes. I do work at a makeup store.

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? - no

122: Had oral sex? - no

123: Dyed my hair? - not a funky color, no

124: Voted in a presidential election? - Sort of; I voted for a prime minister

125: Rode in an ambulance? - Yes

126: Had a surgery? - No

127: Met someone famous? - No

128: Stalked someone on a social network? - No

129: Peed outside? - No

130: Been fishing? - No

131: Helped with charity? - Yes

132: Been rejected by a crush? - No bc I never fessed up to any crush lol

133: Broken a mirror? - No

134: What do I want for birthday? - A jewelry box

[stfreds-arc]

@perdefinitio​ asked :  unusual hcs: 8, 12, 20, 26, 50 !! ( i really wanna know all of them but tried to restrict myself haha. ) / unusual hcs , not accepting !

       8 —— what do they sleep in ? pj’s, normal clothes, nothing ?

it’s safe to say that, at any time of day or night, you’ll find her sleeping in some combo of t-shirts and underwear or sweatpants. it mostly depends on the climate ( read: verse ), but she doesn’t own actual pajamas or nightwear or anything like it. in her main verse ( southern california ) it’s mostly a tank top and her underwear, that’s about it. in verses where she’s relocated to colder places ( i.e. uk ) it’s t-shirts and sweatpants, but never anything fancier than that. ( she’s also always barefoot which must NOT be nice for anyone sleeping with her and her frostbitten feet ).

      12 —— do they prefer sleeping alone or with someone else ?

this… this is a tricky one. if we ignore all her issues with intimacy and relationships for a second, however, fred 100 % prefers to sleep with someone else. the reasoning is simple — she DOESN’T sleep when she’s on her own, not really. most of the time she sleeps a couple hours a night, rides a wave of exhaustion until she’s worn herself down and falls into what constitutes more a coma than sleep for a whole day ( usually her day off ). when on her own, her sleep is UNEASY — it tends to be light, awaken by the tiniest noise, and when they don’t wake her it’s because she’s being haunted by nightmares ( one of them is recurring, and she dreads going to sleep because of it, too ). she can only really SLEEP when she’s with someone else she truly cares about. it doesn’t have to be someone she has romantic feelings for, it can be a close friend or a platonic connection of any kind, as long as she TRUSTS them to keep her safe, or to at least care about her enough that she can let go a little, unwind, relax.

      20 — what do they hate being teased about ? are they teased often ?

freddie only really has two big achilles’ heels ( aside from her whole past, obviously, but that’s nothing she’d just casually mention to anyone who wasn’t an extremely close connection ) : the first involves being called ANY sort of misogynistic slur, which drives her angry to the point of INSANITY but her anger is almost always aimed at herself, and from the outside might look closer to HEARTBREAK. ( ‘lighter’ ones aren’t that much of a problem: things like bitch make her laugh, she’d happily call herself that when joking or making a point — the ‘heavier’ ones however have brought her close to tears once or twice ). the second, the most commonly exploited, is her EDUCATION —— as she never really had one ( dropped out of high school on her last year, barely made it through the first years in the first place ) freddie’s often self-conscious about voicing her thoughts, opinions and beliefs as she’s afraid of coming off as  ‘ stupid ’ or ‘ ignorant ’. that’s why anyone makes fun of her for being uneducated her mood is utterly ruined and it turns into self-hatred. she’s good at hiding it, and usually, when made fun of, she’ll smile politely and go quiet, but deep down it’ll truly destroy her self esteem ( any more than it already destroyed itself tbh ). as for the latter question, i wouldn’t say she gets teased often on these matters ( she makes a good job of protecting herself from potentially exposing herself too much ). her friends do tease her, but for quirks she has no problem admitting — her reckless driving, her inability to cook, her being a cat lady, etc.

      26 — what are they most passionate about ? what could they debate about for hours ?

books, music and movies. it’s quite predictable, true, but she loves her stories passionately: though one might never say it ( she makes a good job of hiding it with sarcasm and all the usual barriers she puts up to keep herself SAFE ), freddie’s a huge ROMANTIC, which makes her extremely passionate in regards to certain types of media. she could go HOURS discussing a character’s motives in a particularly engaging novels, as well as get into heated arguments about entire discographies of her favorite bands. you’ll seldom see her burn with this much PASSION for anything other than stories with tragic characters and impossible happy endings, really.

      50 — where do they see themselves in 2 / 5 / 10 years ?

ah, okay, this is a REALLY good one. because the thing is, in order to see herself in the future you need to have PLANS and fred just… doesn’t. or, better yet: she doesn’t think she’ll be allowed to. deep down she believes her PAST is gonna catch up with her for a reckoning, and that’ll mean either going back to work for victor in some capacity or probably die. right now she’s just happy with SURVIVING — she’d like to keep surviving a few years more, but the way she sees it right now, it’s unlikely. ( deep down she nurtures the dream of getting a family, maybe buying the bar off peter’s hands eventually, making a name for herself — these are fantasies she won’t let herself indulge in, however, as she’s firmly convinced they’ll just break her heart when they inevitably fall apart ).