#but you can't hear me scream

[djevelbl]

"this was it, there was no turning back now; when I go beyond this wall I'll get to live the life that I deserve — that everyone deserves. And I'll never have to return back to this nightmare of a place" ohhhh you sweet summer child. If only you knew. If only we could tell you. If only we could protect you, teach you, have you grow to learn what's up next in the journey.

If only your next steps were an informed choice, then maybe it wouldn't hurt to see you go.

Guess what tf I'm watching nowwww

[tardxsblues]

I'm so sick of losing. You didn't lose. You saved the town. I don't mean the war. I'll lose any war you like.

[atticollateral]

Ok good omens final 15 rant because I NEED to get it out of me before I bombard my family with my annoying ass.

That fucking kiss was the kind that stole EVERYTHING and gave NOTHING in return. I know that kind of kiss. It's disgusting and desperate and awful and selfish and that's what makes it GOOD, do you hear me?! IT'S SUPPOSED TO FEEL WRETCHED. IT'S SUPPOSED TO RIP OUT YOUR HEART. HE'S RIPPING OUT AZIRAPHALE'S. DO YOU HEAR ME. ARE YOU LISTENING--

DO YOU SEE AZIRAPHALE AFTER. HE LOOKS HEARTBROKEN. CONFUSED. DISTRESSED. HURT. DISGUSTED- maybe not with Crowley but most assuredly with himself, most likely. IT'S PERFECT. Good God can you hear me SHOUTING???

Crowley is taking what he wishes that he had from Aziraphale, what he wants to share with him, wildly grasping onto his desperate need for connection, he's fucking hungry and flailing and grasping at straws DID YOU EVEN SEE HOW HE GRABBED HIS COLLAR. HE'S GRABBING HIM LIKE HE'S THE LAST THING ON EARTH LIKE HE'S THE ONLY THING IN THE UNIVERSE AND FRANKLY TO HIM HE IS!!! HE IS

And Aziraphale is left stammering and broken and hurt after he doesn't know what to do or say so he just spits out "I forgive you" BECAUSE HE KNOWSSS

And the music just accentuates it it's AWFUL and LOUD and INTENSE and MELANCHOLY. it shatters your very soul and it's fucking horrible. I will never stop crying. Ever. It hurts so badly. I'm smacking my hands together for emphasis.

I can feel that tightening knot in my chest, the kind you feel when you're desperate and feel like you're falling and you can't catch yourself. This isn't even a euphemism it's actually real and a feeling I know all too well. It's a dark ever growing pit that's gnawing and clawing at you. You're losing your battle & everything is going wrong for you & your whole world is collapsing around you. I felt that soul crushing pain. That's how you know the writing and acting is good because you can actually FEEL how the characters are feeling in yourself. It's fucking immaculate. I love good omens.

[iambecomeyourvillain]

all for the game is a not a book series it's a mental illness

[deathblossomm]

niel posted a new instagram story

[femmebite]

When you're reading a TLOU2 review and you can instantly tell it's written by a man.. like whatever bitch more for me ig!!

[whiteshipnightjar]

this was the tensest insanity (affectionate) i've ever seen. that whole ending sequence.... OH MY ACTUAL FREAKY SLOW HORSING GOD. you could hear river's panicked breathing in the credits. YOU COULD HEAR RIVER'S PANICKED BREATHING IN THE CREDITS. what an episode. this show is incredible. extraordinary genius.

[carefulfears]

one thing that stands out to me about the IVF arc is the way that, for as much as i make fun of her for asking her coworker if she can have his babies, scully asking mulder to be involved in the biggest process of her life (and the most important thing in the rest of her life) is such a healing and reverent experience. like he says “i’m absolutely flattered,” but it’s so much more than that. it’s like…spending your whole life feeling like you should’ve died at age twelve and then being told someone just wants more of you, more and more and more, in everything.

[beanghostprincess]

ao3 turned sanji's official tag back into Sanji (One Piece) instead of Vinsmoke Sanji :DDD

Finally some fucking justice and brightness in this world of torture and misery

[willowser-but-nsfw]

they're trying to strap me down to a table and wheel me away for being insane but i get my hands free and grab you by the shoulders and shake you and say BAKUGOU GETS HORNY ABOUT THE SIMPLEST THINGS DO YOU GET IT !!!!!! DO YOU GET IT !!!!!! YOU KISS HIS CHEEKS AND LAUGH AT HIS BAD JOKES AND TELL HIM HE'S YOUR BEST FRIEND AND HE GETS SO EMBARRASSINGLY TURNED ON AND HE DOESN’T KNOW WHY DO YOU GET IT !!!!!!!!

[logansgaar]

"Hey man, I'm Unique, like Monique, but it's got a U in there for uniqueness" ??? what kind of flustered stupid ramble?

Yori's neighbor was for sure hoping to score a date with this hot white man who showed up from nowhere to stop Yori smacking him over trash can arrangements, look at his face

[distracted-obsessions]

Can't You Hear Me Scream? Part 1

Warnings: Shock collars, calling Whumpee 'Puppy', mild disassociation (I think), mild sleep deprivation, TV show hosts.

Please tell me if I need to tag anything else.

Part 2 | Masterlist

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Knock, knock.

Mal groaned at the knock at the door, far too tired to actually get out of the pile of soft blankets and plush pillows that made up his little nest on the floor. From the long day of press releases and photo ops with 'the city's greatest heroes' to a long, overcast night fighting supervillains and getting his ass kicked while he hoped for a glimpse at the moon, he had barely been awake when he crawled into the nest last night. That hadn't stopped the nightmares but then again, nothing would.

"Mal?" A far too chipper voice said through the door. Liam. "Mal, you're going to miss breakfast! Wake up!" a couple more knocks at the door.

Mal rolled over and covered his head with a pillow. He just wanted to sleep. Preferably without dreams.

There was an uncomfortable buzz from the shock collar around Mal's neck, a warning of pain that shocked him awake in a moment, making him sit up in the nest. "I'm awake!" Mal shouted, hoping to avoid a real shock. "I'll be out in a minute!"

"You better be! You know how the captain gets when our puppy doesn't eat!" Liam laughed, not unkindly, but Mal flinched at the nickname anyway. He really should have been used to it by now. After 5 years at Camp Rainer and 3 different teams after that, he should have been used to being called 'puppy'. But it made his inner wolf growl with irritation every time, self-preservation be damned.

"I'll hurry," Mal said, reaching to pull on some clothes. He didn't dally but he still expected it when a second warning buzz came 5 minutes later, this one probably from the captain. He trudged out of his room and headed to the dining room, ignoring the happy chatter as he sat at the table and laid his head on the cool wood, closing his eyes.

"You tired, Mal?" Maya asked with a gentle smile.

Mal smiled back out of habit and nodded. "Just stayed up too late last night. I'll be fine."

"Good," the captain, Simon, said, putting a plate of food down for Mal and petting him in between his wolf ears. "We have an interview with Callie so you need to eat up and be well-rested so that you don't try to bite people's heads off."

Mal fixed his hair and dutifully ate the food set in front of him. He hated interviews and Callie specifically. The fake smiles and cutting remarks made him want to bang his head against the wall. She wasn't any worse than any other TV show host but she seemed just as equally upset that the team treated Mal like a dog as she was likely to treat him like one herself. The hypocrisy itself was enough to make Mal's head hurt.

Mal ate quietly while the team ran over test questions and rehearsed answers. Mal didn't need to participate. He didn't technically have to be there at all. He was just there to show how good the rehabilitation centers like Camp Rainier were at taming wild beasts like Mal and he was already an expert at that. He hadn't even realized that he had zoned out until-

"And before we forget, we should probably change Mal into his public appearances collar."

Mal glanced at Kate, carefully keeping his face neutral as twin waves of anger and anxiety ran down his spine. His 'public appearances' collar was about four times more sensitive than his normal collar and the shocks ramped up in intensity much quicker. Even on his most careful and obedient behavior, he still got shocked at least once every time he wore it. If he didn't know this team better and didn't know the policy he might have assumed that they were just cruel for the sake of cruelty. Sadly, he did know better and no amount of begging would change policy. He had tried.

"Thank you, Kate," Simon said, pushing Mal's plate closer to him in an effort to make him eat more. He knew from experience that just being in that collar made Mal lose his appetite. Mal took a moment to indulge in some healthy annoyance at that before shoving everything back into their respective boxes in his head and forcing down a few more bites. "Liam, since you're done eating, can you go grab that?"

"Right away, Captain!" Liam left whatever he was tinkering with today on the table and left the room. Mal managed about four more bites before Liam came back. His fingers tightened around the fork, the thought of stabbing Liam with it and bolting entering his head and immediately being directed towards the appropriate box as he slowly put the fork down and pushed away his plate.

Simon stood and walked around behind Mal, turning off and unbuckling his current collar and putting the new one on. It was sleek and black, the 'corrective measure' more hidden but easily seen when pointed out. Mal's shoulders tensed when Simon switched it on, the tell-tale beep almost making Mal flinch. Simon rested one hand on Mal's shoulder and pet him with the other until Mal could force himself to relax back into his calm mask.

"Good boy," Simon said in that same deadpan he said everything in. Mal knew it was just the conditioning that made him preen at the praise but that didn't make him stop. Just sent an undercurrent of frustration through his head. Simon gave him one last pat and sat back down, leaving Mal to figure out how to breathe around the collar.

They finished breakfast quickly and piled into the armored car to head to the studio. When they got there, everyone got into their makeup and headed to their spots, having small chats with Callie and the staff. Mal mostly just sat quietly in his chair and started weaving in his head to calm himself down.

In. Out. Over. Through. Add another color. First color in. Second color out. Second color over. First color through.

The music that signaled the start of the show played and Mal made sure he hadn't forgotten to put on a smile before going back to his weaving. Add another color. Second color in. Third color out. Carry first color. Third color over. Second color through. Carry first color.

"So Mal, how has working with the city's greatest heroes been treating you?" Callie asked in her blindingly bright voice.

Mal looked at her and then glanced around at the team. The captain's serine smile and eyes that stared right through Callie, Liam's bouncing leg and hands signing the conversation to the crowd, Kate's calm, neutral expression and subtle 'get on with it' gesture, Maya's expectant look and encouraging smile. He heard his own screams playing from one of the boxes in his head as he turned back to Callie with his own calm smile.

"Better than anything else in the world."

[justablah56]

hi guys I'm still thinking about closeson bcs of the live show . hello . that was insane why is no one talking about this .

[stardustinthesky]

You're the one who never says what he means. That's not true. Then say something you actually mean.

[sukibenders]

Fans: so, when are you going to give Sunspot/Roberto DaCosta more of his storyline? Like, are you going to accurately depict his blackness and how that impacts him?

Marvel Entertainment:

[deoidesign]

hi i have a bit of an odd question and im so sorry if it comes off as rude at all!

ive seen a lot of your posts about canes, i have hEDS and chronic pain and im trying to convice my mom and my doctor to let me have a mobility aid. my mom is very adamant that i dont need a cane because i dont have balance issues, but my knees and ankles are pretty much always aching. i was just wondering if you think a cane would help with chronic pain or if i should look into other aids?

Canes can help chronic pain, they are not guaranteed to help you specifically

You can get a cane for ~$30 at most stores and try it out

A physical therapist and/or a specialist in rheum will most likely know more than your PCP about your specific pain and situation

Parents often don't want to admit their kids have health problems

I wish you luck

I won't be answering any more asks about mobility aids.

This is nothing about you specifically, you were not rude, I just get a lot of questions like this in my inbox. It becomes draining to get so many asks with people's personal vents about their medical issues or religious trauma or the homophobic situations they're living in.

While I would love if I could help people, I am not a doctor. I am not a therapist, I am not a social worker. I'm just a random artist on the internet who has EDS and is barely getting by myself.

I prefer to keep my blog about my art and about my work, not about my disability. It is relevant to my work, of course, and discussing my conditions in vague terms in how they relate to themes present in my work is more than okay, but I prefer this space to be dedicated to my work and getting to engage with my readers through my stories.

Personal information about my pain, my medications, my tests my doctors and my trauma are not things I want to make public.

Thank you for understanding.