#but yknow. gotta do whatcha gotta do and all.

[yourbestdream]

Also does anyone know where I can pirate into the spiderverse and also across the spiderverse later possibly. I wanna rewatch it but I can't find it on my parents' streaming services and watching youtube reactions can only get me so far

[xnchxntmxnt]

Yuuji with a bookish and more introverted bf or crush? sounds like a fun and cute dynamic. bf gets hijm to be more serious when needed and Yuuji helps him relax/goof off and have fun.

Fandom: Haikyuu!!

Character: Terushima Yuuji

Warnings: wholesome. im also brain dead so its not great or proofread

Notes: woohoo a request!! thank you <3 i enjoyed writing this

male reader!

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If there’s one thing teru needs

It’s someone polar opposite of him

Bc if it was someone with the same energy i think the world would burn /j

There cannot be two

So, introverted boyfriend? Great

You’re the best person to go to when he’s having a bleh day because you can let him talk forever, and just spend some time with him. Just the two of you. He loves it, honestly

Quality time with him is HUGE bc he’s. He’s not really the jealous type, but he does like having you to himself

So on meh days he likes to lay his head in your lap and play with your fingers and talk about nothing

He’s very good at talking about nothing

Can and will talk about nonsense for as long as possible

On good days, though?

Expect him to be insanely hype (like usual)

He loves running up behind you and hugging you in the hallway before running off w a grin

He somehow talks more but this time its about practice or this test he had or a book he has to read for class or—

He just gets this grin when he talks about something he’s passionate about

He catches you staring a lot

And to this he has one of two reactions

His smile just grows and he winks at you and continues on

OR he’ll pause whatever story he’s telling and start teasing you

“Oh? Whatcha lookin at?” “just you” “like what ya see?”

Tries SO HARD to fluster you but honestly cannot take what he dishes out

So if you flirt back he dies internally

Like soul has left his body

Its cute

He’s very chatty and VERY touchy

Expect him to be walking to lunch with you with his hand in yours, or his arm around your shoulder/waist

Loves linking pinkies

Can and will randomly lean over and kiss you at any given time

He just likes seeing your shocked face when you pull away and just mumble “what was that for”

And likes when you smile when he says “just because i love you”

And he also likes your laugh when his teammates start shoving him around or make fake gagging noises or tell you to get a room

Theyre very supportive by the way <3

Team loves you 100%

They might like you than yuuji tbh (not really tho but they do like you)

Especially the 1st years they all look up to you

Let’s just say homophobic comments are not tolerated bc there’s a whole team of 15-17 year old feral teenagers ready to defend you at any given moment

Pspsps i also think you guys are the reason some of the first years were comfortable to come out to the team <333

There are some times you’ve gotta reel the guy in

Honestly he’s a jokester, yknow

He’s always pranking someone and has a very hard time being serious about anything

Which drives misaki nuts

And there are many times you hang out at practice and she loves having you there bc one glare from you that screams “no kisses for the rest of the day” has yuuji calming the hell down

However he knows how to get you to loosen up a little

Loves bringing you to parties w the team

Theyre not big parties so its not too loud or too many people

But its a lot of board games and everyone hanging out and vibing

And he likes beginning you because it’s the team and his family and he likes that you’re party of this family they made somehow

But also because he likes it when you step outside your comfort zone a little for him

Not too much to make you insanely uncomfortable

But just enough that you’re doing something new for him

Makes him feel special <3

guys find yourself a yuuji. Love this guy

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[slashershenanigans]

Can I request Chop top with a trans masc s/o coming out? I understand if not!

-cracks knuckles in preparation- oh you're just fine! been waiting to write for a fellow trans person :> i hope you enjoy!

Chop top x trans masc! S/O ; coming out

warnings: none

you and chop are both together in his room, taking in the scent of the new incense stuff he had ‘borrowed’ while out in town together. As relaxing as it was with the numerous pillows and blankets thrown about and the soft toned record that was playing about, it was far from quiet. Chop always seems to unintentionally drown the room with his voice; always talking and giving out stories both real and fake about his life and what has happened to him and his family though sometimes he might confuse a fake story for a real one..his memory isn't what it used to be yknow. While he was being his usual self, you figured a calm setting like this would be just the appropriate time to tell him what you had kept from him for the longest while. each time before you both had been interrupted somehow; whether it be an escapee, Drayton spouting bullshit or even Bubba just needing help with something the time never seemed to be quite right...but maybe this time is different.  “..a-and that’s how m-my arm got stuck back on!” you were phasing out alot more than you thought, coming back to reality with Chop finishing another one of his stories, looking at you very enthused. “but enough about that,,come to think of it i-i think i told ya t-that story before...wait..” he furrows a brow before waving his hand away from him “eh a-all well! How’s your night g-goin sugar?” he says, plonking his head onto your shoulder, his legs fidgeting in place as he grabs onto one of your hands “oh it’s eh....fine!” “just f-fine?” he shuffles around a bit to be laying on his side, facing you. “well...I think I have something to tell you..” his hands start shaking a bit, he looks visibly confused “just..please dont hate me okay?” chop raises a brow and sits up “H-hate’cha? w-why’d i do a thing like that for? besides whatcha do anyways?” he looks around the room for a second and leans toward you “Did uh...d-did y-you scratch my Cher collection?” you burst out laughing “No! nothing like that silly”  “O-oh, then w-well what could it be? I-it’s not like y-your hidin anythin’ from me!”he says, chuckling to himself. There’s a pause. His smile lowers and his brows furrow “O-oh..that is what it is..” you feel your face flush a bit and your eyes water..you sink into your corner and hold onto your knees “Wha-H-HEY! no need to start cryin! y-youre gonna make me cry! aw shit,,” he wobbles over and wraps his arms around you “i-im not mad at’cha! at least n-not yet? i dunno-” his gaze goes to yours and he splays a kiss onto your forehead, clumsily petting your head “Why dont’cha just tell me w-whats goin on..a-alright?”  you nod, wiping tears from your eyes as he shuffles over to sit in front of you, holding your hands in his. you gulp and take a deep breath..here it goes. “Well, I've been meaning to tell you this even before we started dating actually. I might have not been fully truthful about who i am.” “Y-you're a spy?” you smile uncontrollably at his funny reply before shaking your head “No! no,,i might as well just say it.Chop I...I’m a guy.” “Oh! w-well why didnt’cha tell me before? A-all this time i’ve b-been callin’ ya this other name n’ callin ya my ‘girlfriend’ when youre m-my boyfriend! W-why did you say your name was [REDACTED] anyway?” you’re almost at the final stretch. all you have to do is tell him this and it’ll be done and hopefully, you thought, itll be fine. “because...i was born a girl. But im not one anymore...” He blinks, bewildered but he soon understands.  “y-Y/N,,” he wraps his arms around you firmly and nuzzles into the crook of your neck, his fingers tightening into the shirt you're wearing“..B-babe ya dont gotta worry about that stuff with me!” “wait, you’re not mad??” he backs up a bit to face you “’course not! I-i’ve been at parades n such i’ve seen plenty of people just like ya! b-besides i aint got no right to judge ya for how ya live.” he laughs softly but you can tell he’s being sincere. “So..you still want to be with me?” “are you kiddin’ me? at first i thought ‘man i have the BEST and most gorgeous girlfriend ever’ and now i can say ‘MAN, i-i’ve got the most Handsome and a-amazin’ boyfriend ever’! s-see it still works! woAH-” he’s cut off by you tackling him with a tight hug, crying into his shirt from joy and relief. he pets your head and firmly holds onto you, positioning you both against the wall. “s-so...ya got a new n-name? I know my memory aint what it used’ta be but ill try my darndest to get it right!! s-same for pronouns n’ such!” He’s being super enthusiastic about it, thinking of more things to say to make you feel even more at ease “I-i could cut y-your hair for ya too! a-and i’ll try ‘borrowing’ some new clothes for ya if ya want me to O-oh!! or we could make em’!” he rambles on about all the new things you both can do and what he’ll bend over backwards to do so you’re happy. “O-oh im sorry i did’nt even hear for w-what your new name is! what w-would’cha like me to call ya?” “it’s.. Y/N now.” you smother your face into his chest with a huge grin ,your arms swing over his shoulders as holds you close “a-alrighty,,,Y/N it is.” 

you spend the rest of the late night as you normally do, listening to your boyfriend ramble about all sorts of stuff, mainly how excited and happy he is for you and how happy he is knowing he has quote ‘the best boyfriend he could ask for’.

[briankang]

hi tay! so i want to get more into k-pop but i’m not sure where/who to start with! also are biases the same as stanning? do you have any input on all this? haha thanks so much!

ljklkjldkfjslk HI!!!! ok this is. probably going to be a longer answer than u anticipated so i apologize in advance

ok the easier question to start with is sort of!!!!! your bias tends to be your fav in a group, but it can also be applied to solo artists as well! usually you'll hear the term ult bias, which is your ult(imate) favorite!!! mine is bang chan from stray kids!! but u can also have multiple. you'll also come across the term bias wrecker which is like. the member that's your second fav. i always think of it like having a side piece LMAO. however i am a libra and can never choose so i always have bias lines (multiple favs).

as for groups ok so i'm. gonna plug my boys stray kids here first and foremost mostly bc i have a deep dive playlist for beginners on yt that i made for some friends full of their mvs, some funny clips, and dance practices that you can watch here!!! i also have a beginner spotify playlist (that i need to update now that skz2021 is out oops) here! stray kids self produces and write all of their own songs within their production/rap unit called 3racha and have some really beautiful songs!! their style tends to fall under rap/hip-hop/edm/pop, but they've done mostly everything lmao. 3 of.....many favs are for you, my pace, and get cool!

if you like self-written/produced/choreographed groups, seventeen is right up your alley as well. they're INSANELY multi-talented. def lean more pop imo more than anything. my favs from them are pretty u, left & right, and very nice!!!

bts is obviously insaaaaaanely accessible! they also (usually) self write/produce their own content as well (you. can see the theme w/ me lmao). they've done pretty much every genre of music, so there's something for everyone. personally i love their more hip-hop leaning albums but it's all fun!!! miss right, i like it, dope, idol, and airplane pt 2 are just a few off the top of my head that i really really love.

if you like r&b, got7 follows more of that style. they were under the same company as stray kids until about a year ago when they left! not by the moon, just right, and teenager are my faaaaavs.

if you want all-rounders and VOCALISTS? a.c.e is here for you. most of their members are enlisted right now but my god do they have some bangers for while they're gone. take me higher, down, and undercover are unstoppable and make me feel insaaaaaane.

ok but for some female groups!!!!!!

mamamoo first and foremost. those bitches. god. i love mamamoo. insane vocalists and fun raps and some just goofy women having a fucking ball. dingga, decalcomanie (2021 version), and piano man are just some of my favs!!!

twice. god. fucking TWICE. my friends just saw them at their last US show and i love them so much. twice make some of the most fun music and even help write on it!!!!!! twice makes music for the girls and the gays and that's IT!!!!!! if i had to narrow down my favs: what is love, baby blue love, and cheer up, at least currently. they're also under the same company as stray kids!

another jyp group (i'm not a company stan i swear LMAO), itzy!!!! i love these girls sm......v cute and fun and make some music that really just. it scratches the itch in my brain yknow. in the morning, icy, and wannabe really just. they HIT.

i GOTTA throw a classic in there and go girls generation on this one. snsd are THE bitches. we would not have k-pop as we know it without them. the first kpop group i EVER heard. gee, i got a boy, and into the new world are MUST hears!!!

and last but not least, the first gg i really truly loved: 4minute!!! 4minute is disbanded now but i will truly never forget the impact they had on me. crazy, hate, and whatcha doin' today are some of my favs!!!!

there's also tons i haven't listed here (shinee, txt, enhypen) and some soloists (hyuna, sunmi, jessi), so if u ever need more recs......i am here BUT HOPEFULLY THIS WAS ENOUGH LMAO please lmk if u have any more questions or whatever hehehe

[the-real-truth-of-our-world]

SHIT SO OKAY IM JUST READING HOMESTUCK AND THEY GET ONTO APPLES AND ALL THIS SYMBOLISM SHIT AND NEUTON AND ADAM AND EVE AND ALL THAT AND HOW ITS ALL ABOUT APPLES AND THEN IM TALKING ABOUT HUGNER GAMES SINCE ITS ON AND HOW THEY TOOK OUT THE ROOF AND APPLE SCENE AND THEN THE APPLE SCENE IN SNK CROSSES THROUGH MY HEAD THEN DEATH NOTE AND THEN ALL THESE OTHER APPLE REFERENCES JUST KEPT GOING THROUGH MY HEAD AND I HAD A SUDDEN LIFE REALIZATION!!!!! THE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND APPLES!!!! LIKE THINK THE MOST POPULAR AND LEADING COMPANY IS CALLED APPLE!!!!!!!!! FROM THE START OF TIME LIFE HAS BEEN ABOUT DAMN APPLES!!!! AND COME ON ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO HATE APPLE JUICEE!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE IM NOT EVEN KIDDING HERE I KNOW WHAT LIFE IS NOW! AN APPLE! APPLELIFE LIFELIFE LIFE APPLES!!!!!!! SCHOOL - APPLES!!!!!!!!! WORK - APPLES!!!!!!!! AND LIKE IF YOU GO TO A MUSEUM THERES AN APPLE IN ALMOST EVERY PAINTING! LIKE IF IT AINT JUST A PERSON I GURARANTEE YOU THERES A 99.9% CHANCE THERES AN APPLE SOMEWHERE IN THERE! FORGET THE FUCKING ILLUMANATI ITS APPLES COMTR OMFG VICK!!!!!!!!!!!!! APPLES ARE THE ILLUMINATI ARENT HTEY!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE THE ILLUMANATI IS JUST A DECOY TO THE REAL THRUTH WHICH IS APPLES!!!!!! APPLES ARE REALLY BEHIND ILLUMANATI AND ALL THAT SHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE SHIT HAVE YOU EVER GONA A FULL DAY WITHOUT EVEN SEEING AN APPLE ONCE!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT MAY NOT HAVE CROSSED YOUR MIND BUT YOU CAN BET YOUR ASS THERE WAS OBVIOUSLY AN APPLE!!!!!!!!!! OMG EVEN DOCTOR WHO IS PART OF THE APPLEATI!!!!!!!! (ILLUMINATI + APPLE = APPLEATI!!! EVEN THO APPLES ARE THE ILLUMINATI!!) LIKE HOELY SHIT WHAT M,ORE POPULAR THAN FUCKIEN APPLE SHIT NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING ITD BE BULL TO EVEN THINK SO!!!!!!!! LIKE YOUD KNOW YOUF BE LYIN TO URSLELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUST THINK ABOUT IT MAN IM TOTALLY FUCKING RIGHT AND IF THE APLE MENT OR GOVERNAMENT RLLY AS THEY LIKEK TO HAVE US BELIEVE EVER FINDS OUT I KNOW IM SO FUCKING DEAD SO IF I GO MISSING U KNOW THE APPLEMENT OR RLLY APLLEATI IS BEHIND IT AND I AM TOTALLY FREKIN RIGHT. BUT YEAH IM TOTALLY RIGHT BOUT THIS SHIT APPLES ARE THE FUCKING UNIVERSEW I BET IF THEY EVER FIGURE OUT WHAT THE UNIVERSE IS SHAPED LIKFE THEY GONNA SEE A GODDAMN APPLE SHAPE!!!!!!!! AND EVEN IF THERE AINT A APPLE THERES A FREAKING REFERNCE OR SOMETHIN THAT MAKES U THINK APPLE SUBCONCIOUSLY IN DA BACK OF UR HEAD LIKE HMMMM RED APPLEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! YKNOW WHAT IM GETTIN AT???????? LIKE YO APPLES ARE LIFE!!!!! I MEAN WHAT DO STORES ALWAYS HAVE AN UNLIMITED SUPPLY OF?????????? APPLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND ANOTHER THING I JSUT NOTICED WATHCING HUNGER GAMES THE THING OIUNTMENT THING THAST KATNISS GETS FOR HER LEG IT KINFDA LOOKS LIKE APPLE SAUCE!!!!!! BUT A LIL LESS CHUNKY ALTHO I HAVE HAS APPLE SAUCE THAT LOKS EXACTLY LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!! AND WHY IS APPLESAUCE SO POPLAR?????? BC ITS A FIICKING APPLES@@@@@@ LIKE EVEN THE NAME THEY GIVE APPLES IS ALL LIKE FOND MEMORIESSSSS AND MMMMMMMMM APPLES!!!!!!! LIKE GRANNY SMITH???? OH GRANDMAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!! GOLDEN DELICIOUS ?????? GOLDEN DELICIOUS BOTH ARE LIKE MMMMMMM YEAH I WANT ME SOME OF THAT!!! MM YEAH!! GEMME SOME A DAT SHIT1!!!!! RED DELICIOUS????? WHO DOESNT WANT A NICE RED(LIKE HOW MUCH MORE FUCKING REFD IN LIFE DO WE NEED HOLY CERAP THAT GOTTA BE PART OF APPLEATI !!!!!!!!!) DELICIOUS APPLE!!!!!!!! AND LIKE HAVE YOU SEEN SOME OF DOSE APPLES OUT THERE THEY FREAKING GORGEOUS LOOKING!!!!!!!!!! LIKE HOT DAMN THATS A NICE LOOKING APPLE!!!! OH OH OH THEN THERES NEW YORK!!!!!! D SINGLE MOST FAMOUS CITY EVER!!!!!!!! ITS MOST FAMOUS NICKNAME "THE BIG APPLE"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COINKY DINKS!!!!!!! I THINKS NOT!!!!!!!!!! NU UHHHHHHHH NOPE!!!!!!!!!!! IT IS ON PURPOISE FROM THE APPLEATI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ThIs Is A fUcKiNg ThINg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A CLIP FROM GOOGLING APPLE "The apple tree is a deciduous tree in the rose family best known for its sweet, pomaceous fruit, the apple" SWEET . PROMACEOUS. HMMMMMMMMMM AND OH LOOKSY A THAT ITS IN THE ROSE FAMILY!!!!!!!! THE MOST FAMOUS FLOWER CAUSE SHIT ITS THE MOST ROMANTIC FLOWER AND HUMANITY LIVES OFF ROMANCE AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS APPLES ARE PART OF THAT FAMILY SO DEFINITELY NOT ANOTHER COINKY DINK!!!!!!!! THIS IS ALL PROVING MY SHIITING POINT!!!!!!!!!!!!OH AND AN APPLE A DAY KEEPS THE DOCTOR AWAY?!?!?!?!? YEAH EAT AN APPLE A DAY AND YOU WONT GET ILL!!!!!!!!!! BULLSHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT APPLESSSSSSSSSSSSSS AREEEEEEEEEEEEEE COMTROLLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG PEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BACK TA HUNGA GAMES!!!!!!!!! HUNGER - APPLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OK NO MY REAL POINT! HOW DOES KATNISS BLOW UP ALL THE SHIT IN THE FIRST BOOK/MOVIE?!?!??!?!?!?! BY USING A FUCKEN BAG OF ______________!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU GUESSED IT!!!!!!!! MOTHERFUCKING APPLES. AN SHIT HOW MANY APPLE PROVERBS AND WHATCHA MA CALL ITS UH METAPHORS IS THERE???????? IN THE APPLE OF YOUR EYE???? WTF!!!!!!!!!! ADAMS APPLE!!!!!!!!!!! AND WHY DO YOU BOB FOR APPLES???????? SHIT EVEN TWILIGHT IT HAD A FUCKING APPLE ON THE COVER AND ADVENTURE TIME MARCELINE EVERYONES FAV LEZ VAMPIRE SHOW FINN AND JAKE HER VAMPY SUCKY POWERS BY SUCKING THE COLOUR FROM AN APPLE!!!!! AND WHY DO YOU PUT AN APPLE ON SOMEONES HEAD THAN SHOOT IT WITH AN ARROW OMF IN VAMPIRE SHIFT THE VAMPYRUS WAS EATIN A FUCKEN APPLE WHEN YA FIRST MEET THAT HOT PIECE OF ASS AND WHY ARE APPLES IN SO MUCH DEEP AND ARTSY SHIT LIKE DEPRESSED ART ---- LOOK A FUCKING APPKLE!!!! AND WHATS WITH THE GIRLS ARE LIKE APPLES THING??? LIKE WTF IS THAT ALL ABOUT?@?@?@?@ OMFG IM GOIN BACK TO VAMPIRES WHAT VAMPIRE SHIT DOESNT HAVW SOEMTHING TO DO WITH AN APPPLE TBH IDK WHAT KIND OF VAMPIRE SHIT IVE SEEN OVER THE YEARS BUT HALF OF IT THEY HAVE AN APPLE LIKE 'MMMMMMM YEAH LOOK AT DIS SWEET FUCKEN APPLE IM FONDLING MMMMMM YEAHHHHH' AND IN THE BIBLE WHY THE APPLE THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT LIKE WTF WHY IT SO FORBIDDEN????????? AND OMF WHY IF FOOD IS BEING INVOLD=VED IN A RIGHT BEOFRE THE SEX OR VERY SEXY SCENCE OR SHIT LIKE THAT IS IT ALWAYS AN APPLE BEING INVOLVED LIEK 'YASSSSSSSSSSS WATCH ME ''SENSUALLY'' BITE IN TO APPLE SUPER SEXAY LIKE MMMMMMMMM YA U LIKE DAT DONTCHU MMMMMM YAAAAA' LIKE WTF???????? AND AGAIN TO TWILIGHT THE APPLE SCENCE AND OMF SNK THAT APPLE SCENE UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SO FUCEN SEXUAL OMFG EVEN I COULD SENSE THE SEXUAL TENSION IN THAT SHIT!!!!!!!!!! AND OH SWITCHED AT BIRTH DID SHIT LIKE THAT THE SENSUALLY EATING A MITHER DUCKENING APPLE LIKE OHHHHH YEAHHHHHH UR TOTALLY GETTING OFF ON THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE ARENT YA ????@?@?@?@?@ MMMMM YA U ARE WAHCT ME BITE THSI FUCKEN APPLE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!1 BACK TO HUNGER GAMES ACTUAKKY THE ROOF SCENE! U KNOW WHAT THEY GOT WIT THEM??? A FUCKEN APPLE!!!!!!!!!! THEY BE FUCKEN AROUND WIT AN APPLE UP THERE AND THAT SCENE IS VERY IMPORTANT TO THEIR RELATIONSHIP AND SHIT CAUSE ITS LIKE WHRE THEY FUCKING FINALISE THERE LOVE FOR EAVHOTHER AND LIKE FUCK WE RLLY DO LOBE EAVHOTERH HUH????? ON THAT ROOF WUTH THAT APLPLE!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT WHNE THEY REALIXE THAT SHIT!!!!!!! YOU HEARIN ME?!!??@?@ SHIT LET NOT FFORGT THAT CELEBRITY THAT CALLED THE KID-I THINK THEIR DAUGHTER??APPLE!!!!!! AND MUFFA FUCKING DISNEY MAN! OH MY FUCK DISNEY!!!!!! LIKE ALL THE MOST POPULAR AND MOST LOVED DISNEY GOT APPLES IN THE,!!!!! LOOK AT SNOW WHITE OMGDFG AMD WHY ARE VENDING MACHINES ALWAYS STALKED FULL PF APPLE JUICE YET EVERYONE ALWAYS HAS APPLE JUICE LIKE WTF APPLEEEEEEEEEEEE

[tylerwritez]

Saturday, June 19 2021

I dont know how I feel about the day yet cos right now its only 10:13. I dont post these exactly on the days I write them, but I write them on these exact days nonetheless.

My throat still hurts, my ass hurts, oUch,.... I'm sure you know why. Like, when you suck dick, it takes throat strength to make sure you don't fucking vomit everywhere and like. I OBVIOUSLY dont have that strength since I had to wash vomit outta my hair this morning

Hes so hot tho oh. My god.

Whatever. New day. So we talk about new things.

Star seems kinda sad but I dont really know why? She said on her story that people dont really go outta their way to talk to her... idk. I shot a good morning dm and now I'm here. I made my bed. Packed up my shit. Every time we pack things up my parents rage cos they always find shit they dont want to see: monster cans, evidence of my self harm, etc.

We have 1 more week then school is OVER and I move outta this house cos of the divorce. Jay will be gone too... I still have his insta, but I might ask for his number... just in case. I always get weirdly attached to people I fuck even if there was never any romantic part of the relationship. We are just friends.

Apparently we are going to the pick n pack today with my friend let's call her Zara. It's notfar off from her real name but whatever. Basically pick n pack is where you go to a vegetable garden and pick vegetables

I have a test soon but idk if I'll study for it. I NEVER really put work into studying or pay attention in class and I'm holding an 82 average. I got a 39 once, so once I retake that quiz I might be in the 90s. Sorry Mr. Renal, I simply can't bring myself to care about your class 😢

I LOVE my art class tho. It's just doing ART!!!! ART TIME!!!! Art is the best and I would post some of mine but my irls would proabably find me then. Like my name isnt ACTUALLY Jude Shepard. I'm just using it as a penname and also cos that's what they called me in my dream. But other than that everything I tell y'all is real. I'm making buttered toast rn.

3:38 p.m.  sat june 19th

I've decided to include a song recommendation with every entry. Today's recommendation: A Match Into Water by Pierce The Veil

Okay so it turns out we didnt go to pick n pack with Zara. Instead we went to downtown... White Ave. It was sunny n we walked a bit, got lemonades and a bit of candy, went into stores, idk. BUT. The notable part of this is that next to the farmers market there were all the usual activist groups: falun gong, vegan, whatever... but one of them looked like it was a LEFTIST GROUP, possible marxist.

I wanted to talk to them so badly and wanted to see how I could help the cause. See, I'm a communist. AND IM NOT HERE TO DEBATE THAT. I'm here to talk about my days. Anwyays I wanted to talk to them sO BADLY. but my parents wouldn't leave me alone. And like. I hate political discussion with them. They just upset me and they get mad and I CANT AFFORD TO MAKE THEM MAD. I play everything that goes on with me on the Down Low, I dont talk about anything about myself because if I do, I get less freedom in my life. They have control in my life, so I have to appease them. Because of this, I unfortunately did not get to talk to the communists :(

Hopefully they're still there next time... I'm kinda mad >:(

Also Star replied to my good morning text... I told her to have fun shopping since that's what she told me she was gonna do... she just said "thanks" and I was concerned because THATS NOT HOW SHE TYPES? I feel like shes sad over something but i dont know what.

The day me and Jacob did stuff, I was supposed to walk her to her bus stop like I always do. But I didnt (duh) I took Jacob home.

But IT WAS ONE! DAY. And I told her my dad called me over so.... I apologized too and she seemed mad at herself, but in the way that's intended to make you feel bad.

I dont understand her sometimes. I LOVE HER. DON'T GET ME WRONG. I love her so so much shes such a great supportive funny attractive girl! But soemtimes she gets upset and I can never tell why: is it the depression? Is it me? Is it soemthing else entirely? And she'll never tell me.

Whatever, I'll ask her how she is tonight and maybe we can Talk :/

I might never tell her about Jay... :P I might never tell ANYONE about Jay. It's our little secret I guess >:))))))

Man see? I'm no saint. I guess that's what'll make this blog worth reading. I'm a bit conflicted about the whole thing cos I KNOW this is morally not right but. I'm doing it anyways. What can I say? I'm used to lying and hiding things for my benefit. I had to do it to survive and now? Now I do it for funsies.

I'm gonna pack some more stuff, TTYL ♡

UPDATE: we had to go look at houses for the move (since my parents r divorcing) and I didnt get to pack much of anything yet

I'm definently over my cal limit today...

        Cold sweet or carbonated drinks help with my throat pain so I'm downing them like they're NOTHING and since we have no zero  cal cold drinks I'm DEAD... and no, water does NOTHING.

Jeez, its raining out.

And FUCK JAY cos hes still on my mind.

Its 4:11 p.m. now.

Its now 7:56 p.m.

I kinda feel like an edgy main character in an edgy movie rolling up to the park and sitting #alone in the Treez like the emo band music video protagonist I am.

Sometimes its exhausting to talk to people I care about in a serious way or that I talk to in a more sincere manner like Star and Jay and others. Even if they're just friends. If our interactions are serious and not really casual and usually play out like long deep conversation, I feel like to respond to or even read their messages, I need to have like an hour allotted to conversation. Soemtimes I see the messages early and have to pretend I didnt see em cos I dont have internet to respond or time to respond its. Funny. Idk.

Anwyays I'm binging chocolate in a park alone and like. Rotting my fucking teeth OH WELL 🤷🏻‍♂️ whatcha gonna do.

Its 8 now so I should head home. I just biked to the s4ve 0ns to get my dad white choclate but. If I'm going to s4ve 0ns... YOU BET YOUR ASS IM GONNA STE4L SHIT. THAT PLACE IS EASY AS FUCKKK.

Also I'm kinda addicted to sh0pl1fting. The THRILL I get from it is so insane. It's fun! And you get free stuff! I know If i get caught I'm risking a lot. I'm aware. But I dont really care. Every step I take nowadays is risk taking. So why not take more?

I dont care about nonsense therapy. Fuck that.... actually I'll explain why i dont go to therapy for my shit:

1. I cant

2. I don't trust it

Anwyays yeah.

My throat still hurts. Idk, I just like to be in the sun and shit ALONE.

ALONE! It's so funny to me how now I like my time alone but as a kid I'd proabably kill for some positive attention. Well... it's more complex than that, but I wont go into it tonight.

Pls watch me die of diabetes soon from eating all this fucking chocolate.

My parents said to stop drinking monster and I wANT THEM TO TRUST ME so i can go out with my friends... but also I shoulda got monster outta spite. Heart palpitations my ASS.

Tonight I'll be talking to Jay AND Star. At the same time. Which is awkward... Which is MY OWN MESS TO CLEAN UP. I actually accept full responsibility. But also its awkward.

Whatever. I'll sort it out.

My parents arent being as complicated as usual. I guess they're tryna reverse all those years of... emotional neglect i guess? Something.

Something. Which isnt nothing.

But also I think they're guilty over the divorce. Like. Today my dad was like "do u ever feel sad? Blah blah blah... how do u feel rn" and I was like smiling tryna play off his question like it was absurd and I said "uhm idk... *fake laugh* normal?"

THE TRUTH WAS THAT I WAS A BIT CONFUDDLED ABOUT WHAT I WAS GONNA DO REGARDING. LITERALLY CHEATING. ON MY GF. WITH SOME DUDE IN MY ART CLASS. JUST FOR SEX.

But then he was like "this isnt normal." And he looked all sad.  But on my way to the park here, I thought about it a bit more. And actually... it IS normal. The divorce rate is smthn like 60 percent in the states and 40 percent in canada... which is where I live.

Yknow... if my irls find this,,, all I have to say is sorry. Be as mean as you want.

I've already accepted my fate as a degenerate scumbag anyways lol.

Actually... how DO I feel? Hmm... laying in this field.

Urgency.

I have a lot of stuff to do.

Physical pain, but that's not. A FEELING.

I guess anticipation to TALK TO PEOPLE.

Regret from my binge... I better get home.

You know what's so funny to me? I cant purge on my own... but dick makes me vomit. Like the one time I DONT want to throw up, I do. Damn okay.

Well its 8:18 so I'm going home maybe. Soon. For now, I think I'll stay a little longer.

Yknow one thing I didn't expect to be sore was my arms... which I used to prop myself up to... yknow, suck Jay...

I still remember he said: "you're trembling." And I was like FUCK because I thought the trembling was HIM... •_�� it's okay though I'll learn to do better.

Idk tho... I feel comfortable with him. Even as nervous as I am and embarrassed to be. Naked. In front of soemone else. And such. He makes me feel comfortable. Look, I did my best, DUH of cOURSE I did my best, I'm the type who will work hard at stuff even if they're getting hurt. I didnt mind honeslty. My goal in that part was just to make him feel good. Equal exchange, yknow? He did the same thing to me.

But like, he can tell when I gag and he tells me not to hurt myself and of course I keep going, I'm not about to SToP. But. I dont kNOW. Him talking to me like that makes me feel a lot safer doing stuff like that you know?

I like when he starts kissing me and touching me like he cant contain himself its almost animalistic and VERY FUCKING HOT

I feel like I talk about him too much but you gotta realize that was my FIRST time

1. Sucking dick

2. having MY junk sucked

3. Having anything put. Inside me. (It was just his finger but stILL)

So yeaH. Of course I'm gonna talk about it. A lot.

He said I was adorable. He said he likes how, when he leans over me, I take in a breath... how he could make me flinch.

THATS HOT ISNT IT.

I feel like I'm getting lost in his charm when I shoULD be tryna fix shit with my girlfriend. She seems sad and I'm worried.

But there isnt much more to say until I DM her tonight...

I really fucked up, didn't I? I totally fucked up and now my brain is all confused. But I have to remember that Jay is only about sex. He would be nice to cuddle, since hes fucking HUGE and I'm kinda on the short side, but he doesnt talk to me out of love. He does it out of lust. And yeah... I really only want sex from him too. But like. Star and I are COMMITTED. We got our feelings wrapped up together. Emotionally and romantically.

So. I should proabably like... stop fucking with Jay. Tell Star what I did. And hope she forgives me. That's the morally correct thing to do.

But like... do I EVER make the morally correct decision? No. Not really. I'm a piece of shit. Whatever. Its highschool anwyays we arent mating for life. IM NOT SAYING WHAT I DID WASNT BAD. IT WAS. VERY BAD.

but I'm gonna keep making bad decisions.

I DO FEEL BAD.... but look. If we're being logical about this and tryna maximize my benefit here,, I should keep Star as my girlfriend and TREAT HER WELL... but with Jay as a fuckbuddy on the side. Hes leaving the school soon anwyays so then we'll hang out less...

That's my plan, anyways.

I KNOW I'm a bad person. I'm aware. But it's just a fact of life.

I'm cheating with my cards here in so many places: stealing, lying, cheating, disobeying my parents, not paying attention in class.. IM KIND OF AN ASSHOLE KID. Idk. It's kinda whatever to me. I'm fucking harry Houdini, okay? I can get out of anyhting. This isnt me being cocky... I have historically gotten out of MANY tight situations, even some that risked my life, and I'm still here. I think I'm a walking lucky charm or SOEMTHING

Welp, we know if gods real I'm going to hell.

I dont really care. Idk. I guess I'm just at that risk taking phase in.my life. That doesnt  justify anything... but it explains it. And it's possible to explain without justifying.

Man,,, I guarantee whoever reads this blog is gonna hate my guts.

Whatever. It's my fucking journal/diary lol.

I can sorta say whatever I'd like.

It's funny because I always thought I was trustworthy and had no commitment issues BUT HEY I GUESS NOT.

I keep telling myself, cut him off, YOU AVE A GIRLFRIEND, FESS UP AND APOLOGIZE... but then I picture his STUPID smirking face and I CANT.

Maybe I am in love double.

Doesnt matter if I am... i still did a bad thing.

DAMN.

Well... I'm headed back home now. 8:41. I'm gonna pack my shit, change, watch youtube,,,, I guess I should check my google classroom and like. do my fucking homework... cos I haven't done it yet.

Then I'll update yall.

11:51 p.m.

Hey guys I'm back with an update.

I talked with both of then... star doesnt seem interested in having an actual conversation,,, shes just talking  about  random bs. Which is fine but I dont rly get what shes saying half the time COS SHES NOT BLUNT ENOUGH. and then the other half shes going on about how much she hates life. Like.

I do love her. We've bonded. I AM concerned about her. But sometimes I feel like she doesn't really try. Like I can talk her down from suicide all I want but everything I say is wrong and cliched and based off my own experience with suicidal thoughts and like... my mentality has always been sorta toxicly masculine. Push through, and push through alone. I CANT ALWAYS HELP! And it makes me feel shitty. Idk. She'll be okay, I know so cos of her story posts and drawings.

I feel bad but I know I can't help much. We talked a little. Idk, we didnt get anywhere. I love her but shes acting in a way that tells me soemthing is wrong but I CANT FIX THAT THING. SO. yeah, theres not much to say. I wish I could take away all her pain but I can't.

I talked to Jay as well... I DONT KNOW WHATS HAPPENING BECAUSE I LIKE HIM SO SO MUCH. SO MUCH. HES LITERALLY PERFECT. sexy, kind and super considerate, he always makes sure I'm comfortable... I dont KNOW,,, hes sweet.

Hes not romantically interested in me. Which is a bit sad. Sometimes I want to tell him "I love you!!!" But then I remember that we are, in his words, friends with benefits. Fuck buddies. Two horny teenage boys who just wanna fuck... and be friends. That's all. That's us. We aren't romantically involved nor will we ever be. I hate how my brain gets so attached to anyone I fuck... especially since I kinda see Jay as an "older brother" figure, which makes no sense until you actually meet him and vibe with him... and like,,, I've always wanted that?

Tommorow I'm gonna ask for him to come over to watch a movie... but idk if I should actually ask because my parents kinda hate me now for fucking up so much. I'll do my homework and clean my room first... which will take up all my time proabably :( it's okay. Maybe some other time :(

I dont want him to lose interest in me though.

.... its 1:56 a.m.

Okay. Okay. I'll say it. I love him.

Goodnight, tumblr.

-Jude

[ask-the-richmond-newsies]

Huh. Well thatssa pretty good idea! I know that stealin's bad but sometimes ya do whatcha gotta, yknow? *she scratches her arm* I should prolly practice more, but Ive been a lot more tired and a helluva lot more busy than I usually am- *she yawns* 's good to know I aint the only swimmer round here though! -Pike [#TeamFishFriends all the way xD ]

[Gills] *nods* Yeah, I totally get dat. Oh, so you's a swimmer, too! Dat's great! *grins* There's actually gonna be this big race down here in a coupla weeks! You should come! It'll be real fun!

((#TeamFishFriends4Lyfe 🐠🐟))

[a-panda-reads-act-omega]

ACT OMEGA PART 8

THE 24/10/16 UPDATE

Woow, another liveblog from your favorite act omega liveblogger. Are there any other livebloggers out there i need to know.  So yeah, here we are with part 8! Big Vriska number for the win. Also only two updates away from double digits! Yeah, I’m not sure I thought this through with the whole update-update format, this might take a L OT of posts to get caught up. Luckily, I have no problem with making a fuckton of posts. Anyways, I think we left off with the kids, so lets hurry up and get back to them!

(Cant post the image. Here’s the link. http://mspfanventures.com/?s=16414&p=47)

GASP, IS thIS SOME MULTIPLE CHOICE SHIT? Well considering I’m forever going to be staying chronological, I suppose I should start with the one on the next page! 

A CHARACTER SELECTION MENU appears through the power of NON-LINEAR STORYTELLING. You know the drill by now, have some free will! Or just go in this order, if you think agency is overrated

ONE | TWO | THREE | FOUR | FIVE

Oh, that’s helpful. Great, I’ll start with ONE then.

The fact that you are a dedicated and loyal reader is obvious and indisputable, so of course you won’t be moving on ahead without having taken a gander at all of the options presented to you.

Obviously! what kinda brainless CHUMP would move on without you explicitly stating to? NOT ME.

Anyways, starting with ONE.

PFt, woah their eyes. 

KANAYA: (Hey) ROXY: oh heeeeey! KANAYA: (Hey To You Again Except Slightly More Quietly) ROXY: (oh sorry)

It seems they gotta be quiet for reasons. H  m m M..

ROXY: (why r we whispering) KANAYA: (I Am Not Entirely Sure)

So they just need to be miss zuipPer lips for no reason then?

KANAYA: (That Just Seems To Be What Everyone Has Lapsed Into Doing) KANAYA: (And Now Speaking In A Normal Volume Will Draw More Attention Than Desired Especially When Attempting To Have A Private Conversation) ROXY: (im lovin this private convo already but you might need to make it snappy)

so everybodys just whispering? do they all got SECRETS? Also, what’s the hurry Roxy?

ROXY: (john looks about ready to get down n dirty with some srs leadership biz)

Oh yeah.

KANAYA: (Alright Then I Will Attempt To Be Brief) KANAYA: (I Wanted To Thank You Again) KANAYA: (For The Matriorb Certainly)

Alright cool! It seems that this Kanaya does remember Roxy giving her the good ol’ matriorb. 

KANAYA: (But Additionally For Everything Else You Have Accomplished Today) KANAYA: (I Know Being The One To Strike The Final Blow Against Our Shared Enemy In The Midst Of Battle Does Not Necessarily Warrant Gratitude But I Thought It Might Be Nice For You To Hear That What You Did Was Appreciated)

What she DID, was prove herself to be a goddamn BADASS. But honestly everybody here’s a badass one way or another. 

KANAYA: (At Least By Me) KANAYA: (On Behalf Of My Species As Well As All Those Who Suffered At The Behest Of The Condesce) KANAYA: (And All Those That May Now Be Born And Live Free Of Tyranny) KANAYA: (You Did Good)

Pft, nice. “Ya did good, kid.” 

ROXY: (omg i am cri)

goddammit these lines always manage to be fucking perfect.

ROXY: (that wasnt brief @ all but twas so so bootiful) ROXY: (gdi cmere moms big loveable space gf)

OK this doesn’t need to be stated, but I fucking love roxy.

KANAYA: (Um I Would Prefer It If We Saved The Hug For Later Maybe) ROXY: (aww ok thats cool)

nO FUCKING HUG NOW

KANAYA: (Anyway I Have Only Just Met You But You Have Already Proven Yourself To Be Just As Extraordinary An Individual As Your...) KANAYA: (Uh) KANAYA: (Rose)

Nice Kanaya.

ROXY: (as my rose?) KANAYA: (Yes Your Rose) ROXY: (;D)

ITS CONFIRMED, Rose is Roxy’s Rose. this conversation is so cute.

See you’re still over there TZ. Whatcha lookin at? The uh... oh youre blind. what are you doing terezi?? come on girl, celebrate!

ROXY: (okay looks like john got distracted by somethin) ROXY: (so since we got a little more time to chat it up) ROXY: (and so long as were exchangin bomb as FUCK felicitations) ROXY: (youre not so shabby yourself yknow) ROXY: (like damn i was absolutely right youre one deadly customer)

Yeah no fuckin kidding, this girl knows how to kick ass.

ROXY: (seeing u whip out that BEASTLY CHAINSAW) ROXY: (was a sight to behold)

PFt, that was nothing. You should have seen when she single handedly put three of the most dangerous characters on the meteor out of commision. 

KANAYA: (I Really Did Not Do All That Much Surprisingly) KANAYA: (Or Perhaps Unsurprisingly) KANAYA: (I Am Not Sure If I Was Erring On The Side Of Caution After All) KANAYA: (Out Of Consideration For The Gift You Gave Me) KANAYA: (Or If Perhaps I Was Simply Unpracticed)

Well yeah, she didnt do as much in this battle as the others.  But like she said, she had the matriorb to keep safe. PLUS, she wasnt godtier. So yeah Kanaya, you’re excused from doing your makeup during the final epic battle.

ROXY: (who cares??) ROXY: (we WON) ROXY: (gave that witch what was COMING TO HER) ROXY: (and thats the end of that no point gettin our knickers all in a twist over it no more)

Roxy’s got the right idea. There doesn’t gotta be any more “proving yourself.�� You did the battle, and you came out on top!  JUst be done with it.

KANAYA: (Yes I Suppose Youre Right) KANAYA: (Though I Do Wonder How Things Might Have Gone If I Had Attempted To Dust Off One Of The Old Fraymotifs)

Oh shit, Kanaya’s got fraymotifs? And also, you can use fraymotifs without being godtier?

oh. wait. terezi isnt godtier is she? Yeah, you totally can use fraymotifs without godtier.

ROXY: (no kidding!) ROXY: (yeah that woulda been pretty badass) ROXY: (we could have had a sick combo) ROXY: (void and...) ROXY: (uh) KANAYA: (Space) ROXY: (right yeah space)

Well too bad you’ll never have the opportunity to USE that sick deadly combo!

I am ONE HUNDRED percent sure that will be the case

i am SO SURE

nobody has to die anymore

so

completely sure.

KANAYA: (It May Have Indeed Been Sick But Upon Further Reflection Perhaps Not)

No kanaya, it would be SUPER fuckin badass dont even give me that shit.

ROXY: (wait rly) ROXY: (how come?) KANAYA: (I Dont Feel Like I Ever Got The Opportunity To Truly Get In Touch With My Aspect Like You) KANAYA: (It Has Never Seemed Pertinent That I Be Able To Cast Some Sort Of Spacey Enchantment) KANAYA: (In Fact I Have Yet To Stumble Across A Scenario I Could Not Handle Through More Traditional Methods) ROXY: (u mean a deadly body slam full a sharp metal teeth twice the length of your head) KANAYA: (Yes Precisely) KANAYA: (That Tends To Cover The Bases Pretty Well)

WELL, Chainsaws do seem to cover many different issues. Mainly the ones which involve somebody needing to be cut the fuck in half. But I dont know if being “In touch” with your aspect was ever really a thing. I mean, when did John become “in touch” with his aspect? He just sorta got the powers and did shit with them. i dont really know what that has to do with it- wait a goddamn second. People always associate the wind aspect with like independence and shit, right? And.. the last thing that happened before John went godtier, was a choice. Given to him by Vriska, who for the first time decided to step back and let him decide what to do on his own. Whether or not she would have owned up to what she said about letting him decide how to fall asleep, he still made the choice and went with it on is own. So maybe that’s got something to do with it.

Or maybe I’m just an idiot.

ROXY: (well you know what thats cool) ROXY: (u do u) ROXY: (besides) ROXY: (hopefully there wont be any more reason for you to wreck shit)

GOddammit stop saying shit like that

KANAYA: (That Would Be Ideal I Suppose) KANAYA: (However It Is Always Wise To Be Prepared) KANAYA: (Just In Case) ROXY: (ofc!) ROXY: (and hey) ROXY: (just cuz we won the game doesnt mean there wont be any more opportunities to like) ROXY: (explore yourself and your aspect) ROXY: (our cool powers are too friggin handy for them to just stop bein relevant once we walk thru a magic door)

SPeaking of which, can THEY HURRY UP AND WALK THROUGH THE MAGIC FUCKING DOOR YET IM GETTING ANXIOUS.

ROXY: (maybe someday youll get the chance to blitz ur chakras and get spacey w it) ROXY: (and itll be at your own pace instead of having to rush it for the sake of fixing some giant spacetastrophe) KANAYA: (That Does Sound Nice)

YES IT DOES NOW HURRY UP THROUGH THE DOOR SO THAT BECOMES A REALITY COME THE FUCK ON JOHN

KANAYA: (Considering Right Now I Am Very Unsure Of How To Even Begin Blitzing Those Particular Chakras) ROXY: (i bet u can ask john) ROXY: (hes rly good at givin advice for stuff like that)

YES HE IS BUT HE ISNT GOOD AT OPENING DOORS AAAAA

ROXY: (tho he probably doesnt even know it pffff) KANAYA: (You Are Also Very Good At Giving Advice) KANAYA: (That Was Not Necessarily A Request I Simply Thought I Should Point That Out) ROXY: (TOO BAD youre gettin some anyway ;P) ROXY: (rly tho ive hardly even begun to wrestle my voidy powers into submission) ROXY: (still got a loooooong way to go on that front) ROXY: (but thus far most of my blitzing has just been like) ROXY: (being around the thing) ROXY: (and letting myself embrace this like) ROXY: (natural synergy i got going w it) KANAYA: (When You Say) KANAYA: (The Thing) KANAYA: (Do You Mean Nothing) KANAYA: (Considering Your Aspect Presides Over Literal Nothingness)

Yes Kanaya, this is exactly what she means.

ROXY: (pffft) ROXY: (yes thats what i mean :p) KANAYA: (Okay I Was Just Attempting To Clarify) KANAYA: (How Does One Surround Themselves With The Concept Of Nonexistence) ROXY: (i dunno!) ROXY: (when u put it that way it does sound pretty mind bending) ROXY: (i guess ive just been lucky?) ROXY: (or maybe the nothing is naturally attracted to me and lucks got nothin to do w it)

WELL YEAh, what isnt naturally attracted to you? Guys i just really love roxy help

ROXY: (but yeah i got that voidy ring @ one point) ROXY: (and when john started getting to fixing the timeline he took me to a place that felt like) ROXY: (the nothingest nothing to ever unexist) KANAYA: (That Sounds Interesting) KANAYA: (What Was It Like)

Probably nothing.

THATS a cool panel right there.

ROXY: (well it was) ROXY: (white) ROXY: (but not pure white) ROXY: (just slightly off) ROXY: (and) ROXY: (it was super vast) ROXY: (but not like regular outer space where you can actually see stuff like stars stretch on and on til you cant see it anymore) ROXY: (which at least gives u a sense of distance) ROXY: (but instead it was almost claustrophobic) ROXY: (cuz there was nothing there) ROXY: (you and all the other somethings just completely enveloped by a shrink wrap o absence)

HUmm.. thats pretty interesting to say the least. Not really sure what to think of it though! Just pretty nifty.

KANAYA: (Hmmmm) ROXY: (never really tried putting this into words) ROXY: (i think the thing about it was that the void sort of) ROXY: (changed) ROXY: (depending on how i chose to perceive it) ROXY: (cause the whole point is that its kinda like) ROXY: (idk) ROXY: (maybe a little like binary) KANAYA: (Binary?)

too bad sollux is dead he’d get a kick outta this.

did anybody make this connection. computer hacker guy who likes two’s. Binary. man. i feel like everybody did.

ROXY: (yknow binary) ROXY: (computer language) ROXY: (0011101100101001)

TRANSLATOr HELP

“;)“

omfg she just winked in binary.

KANAYA: (Oh That) ROXY: (the way that works is basically) ROXY: (you have a bit) ROXY: (like a computery bit) ROXY: (and it can say either 0 or 1) ROXY: (and dependin on which it is the computer displays the info differently) ROXY: (but the void is like a completely blank bit) ROXY: (there isnt a 0 or a 1 written on the bit yet but thats all were programmed to understand yknow) ROXY: (like 0 is technically nothing but whats important is that theres something there for you to see) ROXY: (but what im gettin at is that really void is just blank space waiting to be written on) ROXY: (by somebody like yours truly) ROXY: (im the computer and youre the person reading the display)

Oh. That’s pretty cool and shit. 

OH shes gettin all magicky here

ROXY: (and my whole voidy thing) ROXY: (is that i gotta figure out the code for whatever i wanna make exist) ROXY: (and write it on the blank bits) ROXY: (then) ROXY: (i snatch em outta the void!)

Oh AGAIN. YEAh, roxys power seems a lot cooler now.

ROXY: (yoink!!!)

*gasp*

nice lipstick yo

Kanaya is so fucking cute oml. She looks kinda dumbfounded by this lipstick.

KANAYA: (Wow) KANAYA: (That Was Really Quite Insightful Roxy) KANAYA: (I Think I Am Already Beginning To Understand Things Better) KANAYA: (But What Is This) ROXY: (p sure its lipstick!) ROXY: (and its 4 u) ROXY: (i dont rly know if pinks ur color but) ROXY: (here it is anyway!)

Oh god help me im already starting to ship it.

KANAYA: (Another Gift) KANAYA: (Why) ROXY: (daaaaw i dunno) ROXY: (i mean its actually kinda cool i was able to make this at all) ROXY: (i bet it must be bc of you somehow) ROXY: (you like lipstick right?) KANAYA: (Yes) ROXY: (i dont know if this is just me but i bet this is totes a thing w space players) ROXY: (like i get the vibe that u guys r more in touch with the objects around you) ROXY: (specially the ones thatre important to you) KANAYA: (I Suppose...)

HMm.. Interesting bit of aspect analysis. That could possibly be a thing.

ROXY: (well?) ROXY: (ru gonna take it or what) KANAYA: (I Really Cant Accept This) KANAYA: (I Was Attempting To Alleviate The Debt Of Gratitude I Have Already Been Accumulating Towards You) KANAYA: (A Measly Thank You Is Hardly Enough) KANAYA: (And Yet You Present Me With Even More To Be Thankful For)

COme on Kanaya dont be like that. Just take the thing and be hAPPY! you dont gotta prove yourself for a gift.

ROXY: (man thats not how this works) ROXY: (you dont owe me nothin) ROXY: (but heck if it makes u feel better) ROXY: (the space egg wasnt rly 4 u it was 4 all the little trollings that need to be born) ROXY: (skewering the batterwitch was definitely 4 me and earth and stuff) ROXY: (and the lipstick is to thank u for takin such good care of my mom :D)

Dont you mean your Rose?

KANAYA: (... That Does Make Me Feel Slightly Better) ROXY: (so youll take it??) KANAYA: (Okay) ROXY: (hella) KANAYA: (Thank You) KANAYA: (Again) ROXY: (dont mention it!)

She will likely mention this many times.

WEll that was the end for their interaction I suppose, so it seems like we get one page of another interaction then? I guess Dirk and Jake.

Ohp, yep. Jeez they look awkward.

DIRK: (... So.) JAKE: (...) DIRK: (...) DIRK: (That was some fight, huh.)

Goddammit this is awkward. 

JAKE: (Oh yes that sure was a doozy of a brawl we all just participated in.) JAKE: (Or rather multiple brawls.) DIRK: (I think you’re probably up to speed on exactly how well mine went.) JAKE: (Um.) JAKE: (Should i be?) DIRK: (Nevermind.)

Just another beheading of good ol’ Dirk. Seems like that’s a common thing for him. 

((OhOFOHSANSIJFN  HOLY SHIT I PRESSED A BUTTON AND FOR A SECOND I THOUGHT I ALMOST DELETED EVERYTHING I WROTE DAMMIT TUMBLR GIVE ME WARNINGS))

JAKE: (Sorry... its just difficult to, uh...) DIRK: (Don’t be sorry. It doesn’t actually matter.) JAKE: (The important part is you won right?) DIRK: (Yeah...) DIRK: (How did yours go?) DIRK: (If you feel like sharing, that is.) JAKE: (Oh i won too!) DIRK: (Well. Obviously.) DIRK: (I meant... like.) DIRK: (Specifically, HOW you won.) DIRK: (I’d be down to hear some details of all the kickassery you've been dishing out.) DIRK: (That must've been pretty crazy solo.)

Come ONNNN guys, quit dancing around the topic here. Somethings bothering you and its making everything shitty.

JAKE: (Oh.) JAKE: (Well i wasnt alone for long actually.) JAKE: (In fact it was quite the clusterfuck of skeletons sprites and green goblin brutes!) JAKE: (That crabby troll fellow even showed up at one point.) JAKE: (He seemed to be having a difficult time with one of the tinier rascals but i was up to my ears in fracas and fisticuffs myself and couldnt really lend him a hand.)

Dammit Karkat. I love him, but god he’s adorably pathetic in fights.

DIRK: (It looks like he’s alright, so no harm done.) DIRK: (How many of those green dudes were there again?) JAKE: (Im fairly certain there were 14.) DIRK: (And you trounced all of them?) JAKE: (Actually k...carat dealt with one of them i think.) JAKE: (They were small but a decidedly tricky foe. It was scurrying around so fast i dont think a single one of my bullets even grazed it!)

He has ALLLL the luck Jake, ALL of it!  Honestly, can we get a Vriska/Clover battle?

DIRK: (Well, shit. Sounds tough.) DIRK: (Still, my score reads "Jake: 13, Goblins: 0".) DIRK: (Oh, and I’m pretty sure the name you’re looking for is Karkat.) JAKE: (Is that so?) DIRK: (Yup.) JAKE: (My mistake then...) DIRK: (Don’t worry about it.)

Dammit Jake, don’t be so fucking hard on yourself. I feel bad for him now. Like, he’s beating himself up over not knowing a complete strangers name.

JAKE: (Have you spoken to him at all yet?) DIRK: (Nah.) JAKE: (Would you like to?) DIRK: (I guess? Sure.) DIRK: (He and Dave seem to be in the middle of something, though. No point in interrupting.) DIRK: (Besides, I’m talking to you right now.) JAKE: (...) DIRK: (...)

(...)

Alright dammit, I guess we’ll see if they get over whatever’s bugging them in the next update, because that’s the last page. Seeya next time and whatnot folks.

[roseverdict]

EP 26 AW YE

last time on THESE KIDS HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THEY'RE DOING-

i've heard of being stuck between a rock and a hard place but this is ridiculous

chloe. pls. just stop. you and adrien are close yes but you are seriously so rude to everyone else around you. take a break.

O-O WUH-OH!

diddlydangnabbitall the rock monsters are all waking up and wreaking havoc

also marinette one does not simply make another become ladybug

WELP YOUR FRIEND AND YOUR PARTNER ARE BOTH IN DEEP TROUBLE WHATCHA GONNA DO NOW

good choice :D

adrien. oh my gosh you're cheesier than you smell. why this xD

uhhhhh ivan you don't look too goOH MY GOSH

yknow when he woke up that day i doubt he expected to vomit a guy's face

oh diggidy dang marinette is through with your crap hawkmoth

BING BANG BOOM POW HI-YAH YEAAAH!!!

yis heroic speech i love it

ADRI E N -

oh yeah remember the original one with a hOSTAGE?! ME TOO!!!

gotta go fast™

parachutes. love em.

OH BOY GRAVITY

hey marinette maybe do that after he's back on the ground-never mind

there she go

there it go

there he go

crap crud poop

*mario voice* LET'S-A GOOOOOＯＯＯＯＯＯＯ

:D and nothing of value was lost. :D

Okay so that's season 1, not including the holiday special, and it's dinnertime. WOO!

binging miraculous ladybug because i wanna be up to date dangit

so far i’ve watched the first ep and maybe…half of #2

adrien and marinette’s friends are legit ride or die and i love them

yes hi these superchildren need hugs even i, queen oblivious, can see that and we’re only in episode 2

actually while we’re on it someone lace everything miss queen bee eats and drinks with chill pills for the next week

the redhead she’s got as a lackey deserves better

a resounding “SCREW U” to mr adrien’s dad, be a good dad dangit your son deserves better. and hugs. lots of hugs

take a leaf out of miss marinette’s mom’s book actually, she’s present in every way and actually she’s easily the winner of “best parent in france 201X”

bro don’t do it

oH MY GAH-

[isaacathom]

oooooooh what if the ‘King of Vost’ (would be an Emperor for 90% of that time but at the start it was a king or queen) claims to be a duality? like Whaddup, I’m the god of War. and so forth.

it would definitely be interesting position to take, since there is not duality of war or conflict in such an overt sense. there are dualities who could ENCOMPASS conflict, such as Vengeance or Change, or even Structure. but there is not Duality of Conflict, or Duality of Power.

which means that humans actually have an extra god. or rather, had. after the Separation killed off the immediate royal family, its widely considered that their unique duality died with them. ‘died’. its complicated.

ooh, ooh. so the Regent claims theyre one of the dualities, and their partner is the other! thats a nice idea. so that together, they are the singularity. does pose minor problems for deceased partners or someone w/o a partner. the former is easier to explain away. the latter..... you gotta have a partner as a medieval monarch. or someone who can definitely take over when you die. you gotta.

idk what sort of duality they’d claim to be. they could claim a legitimate duality, such as..... uhhhhh...... Vengeance and Mercy, esp since a saval is a bird of Vengeance in particular (which implies that the Regent is the duality of Vengeance incarnate, or some such). or they can make up their own. life/death, war/peace, whatcha.

i kinda like them claiming vengeance and mercy, though.

and those two dualities naturally still exist (no shit), but the physical incarnation of them does not. because that incarnation was lost during the Separation. like, the last two incarnations of Vengeance and Mercy are in an entire other plane of reality. its impossible to know when the spirit would come back. so even when later monarch (after enough time had passed that you could be pretty sure the pre-sep monarchs were dead) claimed the title of Duality, everyone went ‘haha sure buddy’. especially since many of the prior monarchs children were in the other plane as well. and theres 0 way to confirm whether theyre dead. at all. theres no way. well there is necromancy but yknow, its illegal and shit. and noones thought of that idea yet. mostly cause noone knows how long itd take a spirit to travel between planes. its rough.

so its popularly held that the previous duality line continues on in the elven plane, and that there is no duality line in abravost. which woooouuuld explain why human cultists are trying to reach the elven plane. especially vosti loyalists. WHICH FINALLY EXPLAINS THE KOSHI THING. OHHHHHH my god. we’ve done it. we’ve come full circle.

so. the cult in the woods south of Sinofis are predominantly Vosti. mostly. a couple of telziado, a handful of skarhans, and a few elves of many places. and they go ‘we want to contact the god of Change, who is widely believed to have caused the Collision and the Separation, to grant us access to the elven plane’. They do this because they want, largely, to find the missing duality line. because, yknow, Vosti loyalists. true Vosti Loyalists. the other people are there for assorted reasons. it helps that the goal of ‘get to elf plane’ is broadly appealing.

but as vosti loyalists, they arent going to kill other vosti loyalists. even if they arent technically aligned with the current monarchy of Vost (yknow, the Military one?), they definitely arent aligned with Telziad’s. So, you cross the border, set up an underground bunker in a forest, and you start tryna sacrifice locals. its great! they woulda gone to Waal Zaimyatl for this purpose, buuut they didn’t wanna piss off any elves, since elves are generally understood to be the Necromancy Masters. So maybe dont sacrifice elves to open an inter-dimensional portal? its a good idea.

then, yknow, one thing leads to another, they finally find a random girl wandering the woods, knock her out, bring her to their lair, sacrifice her, and then Whoops everyones dead now.

its great.