#but yeah still thank u for being interested in my opinion? & i'm sorry for talking so much!

[expectopatronum18]

hii, ok so I read your recent posts and I wanted to talk about it but if I'm honest I'm a little scared to do it publicly and you got me thinking... so I just thought I would tell you my thoughts. I used to be a hp fan when I was a kid and throughout my early teens, but it wasn't until a few months ago that I got bored and decided to read ATYD, I knew all about the marauders before but it wasn't until then that I fell in love with these characters, I really don't know if I should be the one talking about this because I don't know much since I'm technically new here, but I do agree with you about the new take on the marauders and how it feels too one dimensional, I've been reading lots of fics lately and also I'm constantly on the marauders side of Tumblr and if I'm honest at times I don't think the characters resemble the originals at all, a lot of what makes one character so complicated or raw and lovable and just REAL has been ripped to shreds and became only about their sexuality, I think it's only natural since the fandom runs based on the little to none information about the original canon as well as a reaction to J. K awful opinions and lack of representation. However some of it can be really fun and silly so I don't hate it, I do like taking a 'one time mentioned' characters and give it a good background, but I just think that the nuance and real deep interpretation of the characters is lost and it feels so boring and too... safe idk, I believe two things can coexist, you can have a better understanding of someone if you see them whole, they can make mistakes or be horrible or complicated and still be kind or loyal or have redemption, they can be shipped with whomever but that's NOT who they are, they are not their ships they can be more than who they kiss, you know? idk if that made sense but yeah... that's all sorry for making you read all this I don't think posting this publicly will make me gain loads of friends so thank you if you are reading, loads of love <3

Heyyy!! I think it's really sad that ur scared to say this stuff publicly (tho i totally get it), lyk this space is meant to be for PPL to express themselves and it's being ruined by a bunch of idiots who'll insult and hate u for not sharing their perspective on a fictional character or ship lmao. Especially worse when it's grown ass adults who do it. But dw, the whole fandom isn't lyk tht, I was intimidated too until i found normal, chill PPL who think similarly, and now the fandom is interesting and fun! Ultimately it's abt finding ur tribe. Tbh it all becomes better when u ignore the ppl who get worked up abt things lyk this.

And i totally agree with everything u said, no notes. If u don't wish to post publicly u can still send asks lyk this one. Loads of love to u too!<3

[senilewhispers]

Pretty privilege is real

I'm not going to wreck chaos with the *Body positivity* and *be you * and *love yourself* shit. Relax.

( Note : I would just like to state my feelings without imposing any opinions.)

So yeah. It's real. Being pretty. And by pretty I'm talking about Slim, snatched waist, decent breasts( medium to large depending on individual tastes) , tall for guys ( not girls, they look weird) , Broad shoulders, jawline etc etc etc.

It's like a list of expectations that stretches more than an elastic rubber band. And it hurts and stings more when it is pulled.

Yes I know I have some physical discrepancies that I PERSONALLY would like to Modify but making it the only thing about me is not right. It encourages those raging demons in my head that laugh and snicker at my flaws. They pass comments, whispering in each other's ears as I walk down the aisle, fuelling rumours and absolutely driving me to the brink of destruction. That shit hurts. Really. Because u realise in those moments that u cannot find love. And to all those self love hypocrites with perfect body and money, don't try to come at me. Broadcasting ur PERFECT life in my face and expecting me to give up on my expectations from life just because they aren't exactly body postive and slay queen type shit . Sorry girl, not happening.

I want a person. Who is mine. Who I can hug tightly and weep in their arms. I can scream and fight and kiss and gaze at the stars with them. I want that kind of a person. Who loves me. Completely. Truly. Forever. But the harsh realities of finding love drown u and squeeze every last ounce of hope from u.

I want those eyes . That shine with the radiance of the moonlight. I want them to gaze at me . So that I can flaunt that I was loved by a celestial body. I want those eyes to comfort me. Wrap me in a warm blanket, make hot chocolate and watch sitcoms with me. I want those eyes to look for me in the crowd desperately. And in a room full of interesting, pretty people that give me a complex, still choose to look at me. Me. Just me.

But U gOtTa LoVe UrSeLf FIrst SiS. Yes thanks for letting me know.

I will. But at times those demons get the worst of me. And they inflict scars that can never heal. And ghouls that possess my soul. Making me do horrible things to myself. So yes I need to love myself first but at times my tears beg for just one person to tell me that they love me and that it is going to be okay.

[inkedmyths]

S1: E9 "Home"

Alright its been almost a month time to stop procrastinating this

Ohhh ~crunchy~ video quality

Oh a classic monster in the closet situation

Surprised the lady didn't get like dragged in right then and there

Its wild bc obviously in real life there's never anything in the closet but this is Supernatural in which case ofc there's something

Its not rats! Its something worse!

THE CHAIR. ITS MOVING. RUN KID

WAIT WINCHESTERS

H U H

0oh Sam and his ~prophetic dreams~

Me when someone's trying to talk to me as I'm drawing

Sam I feel like you should just say you're having spooky dreams

THERE we go

Dean did not sign up for his little brother being a psychic

Dean shut up its road trip back home time. Bitch.

THE CAMERA. THE MUSIC. THE DRAMA. This is so funny SPN is a soap opera actually

[ Crepe says that no one can handle Sam's bs in a calm and controlled manner. My opinion is no one can handle any of the Winchester's bullshit in a calm and controlled manner. ]

Awkward but I mean ok

Waiting for the kid to say "There's something in the closet"

YEP

Bros just yelling at each other bc they are so normal about this

Dean is so so bad with his feelings huh

[ Kayla asks if I am just realizing this. I am not. I was merely repeating a statement of observation. It seemed relevant. ]

Walks away bc he didn't want Sam to see him showing an emotion

NOT THE FUCKING CYMBALS MONKEY

NOOOOO

NO DONT STICK YOUR HAND

Oh I am not watching the screen no thank you

[ Kayla finds this reaction funny because "We've all been there". This is fair. And I know the man is just trying to do his job. However, he is, unfortunately, in an episode of Supernatural. If you are a random background character in an episode of Supernatural, you should never stick your hand in a thing that has many sharp blades. ]

I know where this is going to go

YEP EURGH arm smoothie

DUMBASSES THEY'RE PRETENDING TO BE COPS INVESTIGATING THEIR OWN DISAPPEARANCE

I feel like they would get farther is they just walked up to people and said WE'RE SAM AND DEAN

[ Melon says that we should play a drinking game, in which every time Sam and Dean do something stupid, you take a sip of a drink. Forst of all, I am still a year away from being able to consume alcohol legally. Second of all, this sounds like a surefire way to get alcohol poisoning. ]

Oh ofc. Psychic time.

"Your wife if crazy about you!" Turns around "His wife is banging the gardener" Incredible

LMAO CALLING DEAN A GOOFY LOOKIN KID

Oh shes good. Interesting

Sam as she's yelling at Dean is just :D

This poor lady its not her fault that the guy got blended

Yes something is starting. A TV show

UH OH

Is it giving the kid juice. Whats the deal

Oh its shutting him in the FRIDGE

UH OH

THE FRIDGE

MA'AM BEHIND YOU THE FRIDGE

OPEN THE FRIDGE

Thank god

NOT THE SHARPEST TOOL IN THE SHED

She's so much smarter than either of the bros

I have a sneaking suspicion the firey spirit is their mom or something

[ It is at this point that Crepe has no concept of how not to spoil an Ep and says I'm right. I figured, the plot beats seemed obvious, but come ON. The less you spoil the funnier my reactions will be. Let me enjoy my incredible powers of prediction in due time. ]

Oop there goes the lamp

Uh oh there is attenpted murder via flying objects

WOAH

Flashy light

MISSOURI MA'AM ARE YOY OKAY

Oh good

Holy cow that was something

SORRY ABOUT YOUR HOUSE THE GHOST DID NOT LIKE US

GET THE MOP AND DONT CUSS AT ME

There's like 10 minutes left what's gonna happen next

SHAKING

Is Sam outside oh yep there's the bros

go go go

FLAMING FIGURE

Oh bye bye Sam

DOOR SHUT how drama

Oh hes just getting punted

OH HI

Ur not on fire anymore whats up

Ghost fight! Ghost fight!

Oh yeah tragic sacrifice all that Sam buddy she was already dead

Alright so Sam is on some kind of bizarre spooky journey

AHA. THE BASTARD

YOU. MOTHERFUCKER

OLD MAN WINCHESTER WHATS YOUR FUCKING ANGLE

[ Episode ends. Crepe said it would be funnier if I added in the other's commentary. Kayla agreed. I hope this appeases you both. ]

[faaun]

i'm sorry i'm not trying to impose or give my opinion where it isn't needed but i have thoughts on the post you made about your gf. i've been in a relationship for 3 years and i'm the happiest i've ever been in my life (we are 21 and 22). my boyfriend is an engineer and is very academically motivated/dedicated to his studies. i'm in college now but when we met i had no idea what i was doing. i didn't even know if i was going to be able to go to college because my mental health was so bad. i was working a minimum wage job. my bf was already working at an engineering firm. i felt so bad about this and genuinely thought that i had nothing to bring to the table. even though i didn't have a college education i was able to use the skill set that i did have to get hired at a local cafe and found a job that i love and am so endlessly passionate about. i was promoted after working there for not even a year and started making $22/hr. my mental health improved a lot during this time and i decided to give college a try. i'm on track to graduate next year (and i still work at the cafe on the side and love it!) my bf has been supportive through all of this. i know that even if i decided to work as a barista for the rest of my life he would still love me and find me so endlessly interesting. he loves that i love being a barista and asks me about it every day. my dad has a phd and my mom is a secretary and he still writes her love notes saying that he feels his life could never be complete without her. maybe she doesn't push him to be better academically but i know for a fact that if he didn't marry her that man would have never met his best friend at that university party/taken a spontaneous vacation to nova scotia that he still talks about to this day/gone on all of those 3 am car rides to the 24 hr grocery store to buy rosé and chicken parm ingredients/experienced some of those little wonders that make life worth living. idk man everyone has their own path and everyone has something special that they bring to the table in their own way. some of the coolest people i've ever met don't have a post-secondary education and are bakers/baristas/tree planters/artists etc. and they're some of the happiest people too. even though these jobs don't necessarily pay well these people somehow find ways to get by doing what they love and i really admire that. if you genuinely think that you will only be happy dating an academic then that is ok and you deserve to feel fulfilled in your relationship. and you're right it doesn't make sense to be with someone if you feel like you are on 2 completely different paths in life. but like. idk. if you feel like the only thing that your partner has to bring to the table is how academically motivated they are and how much they can elevate your academic career then like. idk. i guess i just feel like you might miss out i guess

this made me tear up omg thank you so much . yeah i definitely would be missing out :) i am going to see where things go and if things go well i will grow with her. thanks for writing all of this u r wonderful and def not imposing !!! i hope things with you and your bf go well ♡

[flowerslut]

Hi so this ask is a request (desperate) for twilight content since i feel like i've read all jalice fics in the fucking universe and for some reason most part of this fandom is obsessed with edbella (idc the whole saga is about them that's a detail) so here it goes: what's your currently hyperfixation inside the jasper&alice hyperfixation? like plots for fics, au, headcanons about personality traits (since jasper's canon personality is based on loving alice and being a low profile hottie with a tragic past)

yeah being a jalice girlie in the twilight saga is a rough experience bestie, I can soooooo relate to you there 😔 we truly are a group who suffers from lack of content 💔

right now my main jalicey focus is on my fic WIPs roots that I've mentioned before! I've been a bit distracted over the last several months thanks to the locked tomb fucking up my entire brain, but despite that I've still managed to write a solid 75k of roots, which has been nice.

I'm actually not real big on fixating on or even discussing headcanons unless its something I need to dissect privately for fic purposes. I'm also a huge critical bitch about other people's interpretations of my favorite characters which is why you don't see me talking about it a lot on tumblr. so many people get it (alice and jasper) so, so wrong, and obviously I have it so, soooooo right 😌💅 but lmfao okay no I mainly keep my opinions and headcanons to myself so I don't come across as an unlikeable cunt on this stupid site. unless someone asks, and then I have no problem being an asshole and telling people their tastes are bad. but I've been so well behaved recently and people have been much nicer and less insufferable in the twilight fandom in recent years which has been nice!!!!

but another huge fandom interest I have is making playlists! so I have like a dozen or so jalice-themed playlists (most of them are fic playlists for various @goldeneyedgirl stories because she really just keeps pumping out banger after banger; sometimes I swear I think about lexie's stories than I do about my own) and I am constantly listening to and working on playlists. one day I'll finish all my twilight character playlists and my Main jalice playlist, but it's already been a few years that I've been working on some of them, so what's a few more, yknow???

besides roots, I still have a kajillion big fics I need to finish outlining—my third cotn installment, it's novella, my AH au, the neglected WIP projects I have already published (sorry to my edge of it all readers, specifically). most of my jalice fixation gets redirected into planning and writing fanfiction when I'm not constantly arranging and rearranging carefully curated playlists

but thank you so much for calling jasper a "low profile hottie with a tragic past" because thats so funny. "low profile hottie" is SO good. I love any description of jasper that brushes aside the tiny bits of canon characterization we get of him to be like "ok but forget all that. he's quiet and sexy." it's like this iconic tweet:

anyways thank u kindly for the message I am so sorry there seems to be a bit of a jalice drought currently. I know lexie has been throwing prompts into the void on here recently but I'm sure if you're in here pleading for content you've probably already read all of her stuff 10x over. I can't promise you any real content out of me this month (or next) but I can guarantee you'll get plenty of snippets!!! hold strong anon 💖

[han-jisung]

Do you think Stays are toxic? I see a lot of people saying that we are one of the worst fandoms and I have no idea what's going on and why. Am I missing something or do people just like to hate on us? So since I don't understand and I know you will be honest, I'm asking for your opinion on this

okay.. so as u said i'll be honest & that's why i also first have to say that everything i'm gonna say now is just my opinion & my observation + experience!

& also i think it's very hard to describe or to create an opinion about a fandom cause not every person is the same u know? (it's the same w talking e.g. about a nation) u cannot judge every person by some standards/characteristics that u've noticed or set.. but ofc u can still notice some overall aspects that apply to many people!

i really don't want to make anyone feel down w my opinion here & pls don't feel attacked by it cause i'm sure the person who reads this rn is amazing. (even the fact that u're following me & reading this already makes u so awesome) i hv to say this before i'll start w the negativity i'm sorry :((

.. but anyways so if anyone would ask me which fandom in which u are is the one that u dislike the most? i'd have always said armys all these years but recently i'm really doubting it cause my experiences w stays r somehow getting worser :/

i've noticed that the average age of stays is very young compared to other fandoms (even if it may be cause i've always mostly only stanned 3rd generation groups) & this is in no way always bad!! i'm one of the person who probably cares the least about something like this cause u can support/love people regardless of that. it's just that some stays do really act like the typical stereotypes that u hear about that age :/

many are still very immature & unexperienced and it results in a way that they for example do not know how to correctly act sometimes..

i can only take my concert experience as an example where many people said inappropriate things to the members, followed their tourbus around & just in general did not educate themselves enough about the korean culture. (there r just some basic things everyone should know not to say or do) + and do not camp if u're unsure of the risks!! :/ (many stays took this too lightly & were very naive)

& also i said u can love and support someone regardless of any age but it depends on how far u take it. many stays do not think of personal space of the boys and r only thinking about their own desires; like don't think that u'll ever be someone's girlfriend or boyfriend just don't.. u can love & support someone also without thinking like this!! (like don't only look at visuals, pls also see the talent in them) it's just that i see many people only sexualizing them & only looking at their visuals.. (but yea many people/fans only do that)

also i think everyone knows about the channie situation right? & i've never experienced such a harsh hate towards a member just cause of a hairstyle (+ such a reasonless hate that is still going on about him doing the smallest things) it's just also very hard to form an opinion about this cause not every person who hates on chan is a stay. many people r just antis & immature people who love drama i'd say;;

but still!! there r also many 'who' have known skz since the beginning & supported them but r also 'cancelling' chan now cause of it. (many of my mutuals too!! who i had associated as lovely ppl) it's everyone's own decision if u're trusting someone cause it's not that easy but still sending hate is something different & not tolerable

so yeah many stays like drama i believe & are taking things too fast. many do not have a lot of experience & r also maybe knew to all the kpop stuff and that's why they tend to judge things too fast. (like channie didn't even hv the chance to apologize cause of jyp's rules even if he may hv wanted to)

those were just some very few overall things i've noticed about stays & i'm gonna stop now cause i don't want to bother u w an even more longer message omg;;

but anyways yeah.. it seems like i don't like stays a lot and.. i have to say it's true :( i don't mean many stays from tumblr!! cause in general ppl r a loooot kinder & friendlier here than on other platforms (i've noticed this in other fandoms too) but still yea!

[actualbird]

Hope you're doing well! ♥️

So I have a confession to make: I haven't played ToT for a whole week now. I'm kinda scared to go back in because of the new event, (the Christmas one) because I'm afraid I won't finish it in time but at the same time I don't want to miss out on it so I have just been sitting in this limbo.

I think I maybe burned out because I finished everything? So the only thing I looked forward to were the events (some of the events were brilliant, some not so much) and in my opinion, they aren't spaced apart enough for me to enjoy them. I play this game for the story so when there isn't much of it, it's hard to just even log in daily - keeping in mind I haven't missed a single day since I got the game.

I really hope we get new main and character stories soon because I can't see myself being interested enough?

I'm genuinely lost because I absolutely love this game!

I don't know, these are just my ramblings.

I'm 👌 this close to sending you angst about Luke dumping Marius and Aaron accidentally telling the NXX team about Luke's condition 😅

P.S. The recent Artem fic - first of all, how dare you make me tear up again? Secondly, I can imagine Artem grading himself after the appointments, like: Oh, the therapists didn't like what I said, I get an F!

LIKE NO! YOU CAN'T WIN OR LOSE THERAPY, YOU DUM DUM!

I just want to hug him! ♥️

Okay, that was a lot! Please take care! 🌺

hullo, hibiscus!!! i hope ur doing well too :DDD

ooooohhh i can relate to this sentiment!! i havent stopped playing but i deffo feel a big mood at "events coming in too fast to enjoy them" like yep yep. im STILL processing luke bday and now theres xmas partyland!! before that, i was STILL processing symphony of the night and then RRG part 1 happened gbsdjkgsd

tho if it's any consolation, the current event Xmas Partyland doesnt have any event plot like Symphony of the Night or RRG. it's just a boardgame thing, like Summer Breeze!!!

also not sure if i u kno but it seems tot wants the global server to catch up to the cn server (i talk about it here and here) so that global wont stay 1 year behind cn server forever. this has pros (more stuff at a faster pace) but also cons (MORE STUFF AT A FASTER PACE, IT'S HARD TO KEEP UP, also it's fuckin up some of the relationship development espeeeeecially mc and marius hoo boy)

based on the cn server, we should be getting the Personal Story 3 AND Main Story 6 installments in February of next year, 2022 (the pvs for them for the cn server was released at that time, 2021), but again, with how tot wants global to catch up, who knows if we're gonna get it earlier.

i'd REALLY LOVE IT EARLIER. i want the main and personal stuff earlier and the events a liiiiittle bit more spaced out bc tbh, i can only write so much so fast to respond to it all HAHA (im enjoying myself, yes, but im close to collapsing at the end of every day so UH)

anyway, if ur excited for more story already, i guess one solution is to watch/read translation of cn server content!!! ofc only if u want, i used to be somebody who didnt want Any Future Spoilers At All, but then luke pearce happened and now im in shambles, i know what happens in future personal story, im in pain SO MUCH PAIN BUT ALSO it rlly bolstered my excitement a bunch, if that makes sense?

sdkjfsbkjBJKSD LMAO AT THE ANGST, HIBISCUS. as always, im very open to receiving angst hcs OwO.....just be prepared for me to find some kinda way to give it a hopeful happy ending HAHA, i have trouble accepting bad endings, when it comes to love....

thank you for reading "designed to send mixed signals, one image made up of different pixels" :DDDD!! sorry for the tears tho skjfbkjBK AND UR RIGHT. YEAH. THATS AN ARTEM THING TO DO (and also something i did back when i was having therapy, OOPSIE DOODLE)

artem: can i see the grading rubrics for this?

dr reyes: artem, this is therapy. there are no grading rubrics.

artem: oh. oh no. what do i do now, then?

dr reyes: love yourself, ideally, but we'll get there.

take care as well, hibiscus!!!!!

[thisdreamplace]

I had a nasty fight with my former bff. This was long ago. She did the whole 'boycotting me' thing at school and afterwards had a mutual friend pass her msg to me, saying "tell her [me] to get it into her skull that she's not the center of the world, who does she think she is? Stop acting like a #" Im simplifying the words, her actual words were nastier

I got thinking today abt this fight, and her comment abt me that is still way too fresh in my mind even tho I hadn't recalled it in 2-3 yrs!, and I actually decided to use the law to revise my friendship to feel better as what happened after the fight was shameful on my part. But before I knew it, I started rmmbring my relationship with her. How I became a total victim. Got so stuck on her validation, begged her to be friends with me (after I got the degrading msg. 🤕 silly me w/o a backbone lol) and stayed her 'bestie' for way too long. Only after it's all over im noticing smth messed up abt out 'feiendship'. It wasnf that normal I think. She would get so pissed if I did anything that went against her thoughts/beliefs/way (which is why she called me a selfish # that major fight). It was so subtle the way she showed her disapproval. To her, if I did anything not aligned with her, or even makih decisions on my own which didn't involve her, it was wrong. And had consequences like her beinf distant for days etc, or getting angry if I didn't mind read her bla bla, I just had to keep her at the top 24/7 and she expected everyone else to do the same... which I thought was normal... It wasnt. And what would be even more crazy is she never realized how that meant she always wanted the attention. That she always wanted it her way! It just makes me feel... Sad.... When I look back. How couldn't I have notived it before? I used to be strong headed, opinionated before I became 'besties' with her.. That all has changed. I wonder why -_-

It may be dumb on my part but with the weak mind and insecurity I had then, I took that fight/her reaction to the heart and internalisef this stupidiy (DENY MYSELF if the other alternative was denying HER. I didn't think it was wrong. For the oldme, it really wasn't wrong smh). Aaah I'm so sorry old me :(

This fight started bcoz she asked me for smth and I refused, instead of relenting like I always would, and I see now that her reaction (to me not being an obedient # to her ig?🤢) was basically her setting rules. It was wrong of me to refuse, yes, but why did she react that way? Why did this pattern continue? That everyone was selfish if they didn't think of her ;_; like how do u deal with this? And the icing is when I too started to defend her and make excuses for her all the time. And ik I'm making her out to be so strong, don't worry... I accept the strong only rule when the weak submit. And I was weak as hell, so its understandable this whole thing. I think 😅

Idk. I seen your posts abt eyipo with other anons so i hope u can tell me figure out what this was. Its clear to me she was projecting smth about me, and mb throughout our whole friendship she was projecting me. And I would think it was her hurting me, that she was right and I was wrong or maybe I did smth wrong. Mb I thought I deserved being punished that way?!

Today I suddenly had an aha moment and I realised... this is how a victim thinks. I didn't know I was a victim when I was living that stoey aka thought I was powerless. When in fact I really wasn't?! Haha still accepting I 555% created ALL that. The law can knock you out haha

Enough old story I just want to ask, what du u think the msg she sent to me was? Did I really deserve such a reaction (did I mention she included other girls in the boycot? 🤢) just for standing up for myself? What about the whole 'fight' aka showcase of power? And the entire yrs of being friends why did I never realize I was only hurting myself so much by putting her before me? And also, with the everyone pushed out thing, how did it fit in? Like why the hell did I give her too much power in validating me by giving in after the fight in the first place?, and while I did have some fun times (saying this so anyone else who reads this doesn't think it was pure torture lol. We had some common interests tyat no one else in the class shared when we first became 'friends'), deep down I was so unhappy so why didn't this reflect on her? I mean why didn't she ever sense just how much she'd hurt me, why didn't she see how much I put on the back burner coz of her?! Was it as she saw it as her right? I'm just so confused

This is still a bitter pill to swallow tbh but I have to face this in order to move on. This person and my life with her has left me wit many scars and I got to understand how I did this so I never attract such a person in my life again. Its not even abt bejnf a victim. As I said, these victimy things were subtle and I only noted them when it was too late and I was a shell, like she getting super pissed and disapproving if I had a differing opinion and me blowijg it out of proportion and tailoring my views or not expressing them so as to not feel the disapproval...thanks boycott conditioning ig? 😭 Aaaah even talking agaunst her rn is making me uncomfortable. Which makes me think I still am scared of her subconsciously even tho she's no longer in my life. Like, what in me made me choose her? I haven't healed, obviously by this ask as u can tell, but idk what is it in my self concept that had this whole thing in my past even happen

My friend, I also want to say I think you're a beautiful soul 🥺. And im sorry for the long ask lol. And I pray you'll always have all your desires. And plz, was it hard for u at first when u learned about u creating everything? The good, the bad, and the repulsive (like this story)? How did u get over old stories? Ty ty ty 😭

To begin with you're being really harsh on yourself. Like, I know it's hard, but it's never that serious. And trust me, this is something I have to remind myself of regularly. Because there have definitely been moments in life where I look back on myself in that moment, and I feel like I was pathetic and would slap myself if I could. But the truth is, there's just no need for any of that. We always did the best we could. We always did, period. We couldn't have done anything differently and this will continue to be true our entire lives. Looking back on the past with such overwhelming feelings, is really not needed. I get looking back to learn from it, but practice coming from a place of love and acceptance instead. It will help you grow, rather than get stuck back in this cycle of self-hate and confusion. Plus, you actually never need to analyze the past to grow but that's beyond the point right now.

To me, by reading your ask, the message she sent to you was clear. You feel you deserve less in life, you feel you're not good enough, you feel like a victim to life and others, you feel like you're not empowered or the operant power of your reality. It's not about her being wrong and you being right, and I get this is one of the hardest pills to swallow. Everyone is you pushed out. Therefore, there's simply no such thing as who is right and who is wrong anymore. It was only ever you.

When it comes to everyone is you pushed out, you have to understand this person isn't this way because that's who they are. They were that way because that's who you were. Inside of you, you brought their character to life. Therefore, the same way you are not stuck to such an undesirable self concept, neither is that person. It's not that you chose her and attracted her in. You were just dealing with yourself. That's what I hope you walk away from this response understanding. Because by thinking she was outside of you, you're missing the mark. And this is such an important concept to understand when it comes to the law of assumption, because it's really at the forefront of everything. People play such a huge role in our lives, whether it's relationships, jobs, opportunities, etc etc. So understanding how everyone is you pushed out actually works is extremely important.

So instead of putting all this blame on her or even putting the blame on yourself, all these memories really do is give you a glimpse into who you were at the time. It shows you the beliefs you held about yourself. It shows you what your self concept was. That's all it's doing. So in that way, there's actually no one to blame at all. I know it feels good to put blame, even when it's on yourself, but the truth is there's no room for blame when you learn about the law. You simply take responsibility and become empowered by the power you have held this entire time. And you practice making it work in your favor.

If you want to see how something was apart of your self concept, all you have to do is pay attention to what you are thinking/feeling. Shame, not being good enough, etc etc is all just stories you once held onto. Now you don't have to hold onto those stories anymore. Now that you know the power you hold, you get to make a new decision for yourself. Rather than ruminating of the painful past, allow it to be and know how that's not your story anymore.

Was it difficult for me to accept how I created everything? Yes and no. It's been a journey. While I could accept it logically, emotionally it was still very painful. Many times I wanted to cry and lash out when I felt alone and felt upset that no one was there for me. Although, I knew deep down it appeared that way because of my own concept of self. So yeah, it's been a journey. And it's honestly not always delightful. But this is the journey we have to take for the rest of our lives, so we might as well get used to practicing and applying these concepts. Instead of continuing to hold ourselves in such painful lights. I got through old stories, and I continue to get through old stories, by feeling all the pain that came up. By allowing myself to cry and feel however I felt like during those times. And in the back of my mind I knew I was getting stronger in my power. I knew how I would keep persisting once the pain subsided. And little by little, old stories fade more and more. That persistence to continue choosing better for yourself, is truly more powerful than it may seem in a difficult moment. Have trust in how it's all working out for you regardless.

Hopefully this is helpful! Thank you for your kind words. 💖

[ao3gingerswag]

HI HELLO I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS

okay so I've been like thinking these things for weeks but I've been very unmotivated so I'm saying them all now!! so prepare for multiple asks!! or something!!

okay so I've just been rereading my all time fave fics and there was this one like in one of them- 'I’m not *stupid*, I just can’t read' and it immediately made me think of your writing, like kyis, first of all (and actually more on that bc obviously I've been rereading that too as one of the Best Fics Ever™ and holy SHIT it's so good. I cannot believe no one has made a podfic for it yet, bc wow especially after listening to the extract that was read out at the beginning of the podcast episode I NEED someone to read this shit to me so I can savour every bloody word bc dammit I'm a skim reader and its TOO GOOD for me to be skimming the fucking words!!!!! anyways needed to get that of my chest back to the regularly scheduled programming) but then also with wander home, I feel like with sam being able to read its definitely gonna be cashing some form of angst for the other boys, dean I think similar to in kyis but also with all his bucket load of self worth issues it's like makes sense uno. but also with cas, I feel like cas thinks of himself as not that intelligent at all. we know he thinks quite poorly of himself due to his autism, and I feel like he would consider himself not actually smart but rather just weird, especially with him being uneducated and I think his struggles with running the inn, especially before dean and sam would rly effect his opinion of himself and lead to some self-hate. so anyways, then I feel like when sam enters the picture and interacts with cas (once everything has settled down and they start interacting NOT in a life-or-death situation) I feel like he'll add an outsider perspective and realise that actually yeah cas *is* actually rly smart. like, he'll be talking with cas about something - like uno spewing all his knowledge like the little nerd he is - and cas will be following along but as soon sam tries to engage him cas will be like 'I'm sorry Sam, I'm not smart enough to know that' and sam is like grhhh yes you are!! and then he tries to push it bc hes Sam and is like 'but u were just telling me and *insert something cas knows, like about nature or the like* yesterday! and you knew loads!' and cas dismisses it bc that's a result of him being abnormal not being smart and then there's a whole little journey of sam trying to convince cas he's actually smart with many trials and tribulations but eventually it ends up with them having their lil debates/Intellectual Conversations about whatever Sam has recently learned with his lessons and it's all :)) (bonus scene is dean observing them and when they try to involve him he's like 'yeah no not gonna happen, idc if u say I'm not dumb sam, not all of us can be Aquinas okay?')

I justify the aquinas reference bc I had to know him for a subject and now I've gotten my exams back and I somehow haven't flopped them!! which means I never have to do that subject again and I feel the need to at least somewhat reference the worthless knowledge in my brain :')

ok first of all what is the fic ur referring to drop the fic!! (even if its not destiel ill read anything lol!)

also thank u so much ;~; <3 idk no one has ever offered to make a podfic and i am terrible at reading out loud so i def cannot but if anyone ever offered i would totally be down for that!

i think ur so right, i think cas def does not think of himself as smart at all, when he actually is!! and i think he's a giant nerd as well who would def find a lot of the stuff sam rambles about to be very interesting. hes not a Certified Genius like sam and doesnt have the same Desperate Thirst For Knowledge but he also genuinely finds this stuff interesting!!! i think they bond so well over nerd stuff!! but yes!! sammy following him around once he trusts him more bc dean will indulge him but he can tell hes bored to tears by sam talking about like geometry and its just going in one ear and out the other. hes like hmm wow thats interesting sam. yeah that is so cool ur right. but hes like falling asleep. so he starts talking to cas...maybe it starts bc cas overhears him talking to dean and is like ! wow really? and asks like an actual question. and sam is like YES finally and rambles his heart out and cas is actually listening and engaged and sam is like ok i like u now actually ur my friend. and starts talking to him about all the intellectual stuff. and yes him over time convincing sam that his intelligence isnt just a Symptom of Being Weird or even if it is who cares hes still smart???

and do u mean Thomas Aquinas? i have never read anything by him!! congrats on surviving ur exams tho!!!!!

[tomhollandisabae]

So first off your stuff is everything! Legit I'm hooked! Request issssss... the reader is a regular at the coffee shop near set and he always watches her when he comes in... when he finally talks to her he's tongue tied and says something cute but vulgar and hot lol if that makes sense?

Thank u luvv!! I appreciate it!!🥰😍

warnings: ig fluff only🤔

Summary: Tom being a cockblock to ask you out.

Masterlist | Requests

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Coffee Girl- Tom Holland x Reader

You have been working at a coffee shop in L.A., at the Disney Studios amd every day you come face to face with every single actor that plays in any Disney or Marvel movie. You have to admit though, that youre favorite one is none other than Tom freaking Holland. That boy is everything to you. He's sweet, he's kind, always determined not to be rude to you or hurt you, like the other's and of course he's handsome... and hot.

He comes everyday to grab a coffee and you're always there to help him, but he's never talk to you. It hurts a little, because he makes you feel as if you don't matter to him. He's a Hollywood star after all, why would he care about you? Or why he would even like you? You're nothing but an ordinary coffee girl. Or so you thought.

Tom had another opinion about you. He didn't find you ordinary, no way he did that. He thought that you were pretty interesting and he wanted so bad to get to know you. He wanted to talk to you. You seemed like a goddess to him. If you weren't working at that coffe store, you'd absolutely be a high fashion model. You were beautiful. There weren't enough words that could describe your beauty.

All that, had made Tom to want you so bad. He wanted you to be his, to wake up everyday next to you, to make him laugh, to talk to you, to touch you. He... loved you. He couldn't believe that he actually fell in love woth a girl thay he didn't know anything about, yet you had something that intrigued him. He wanted you so bad, but he was shy to ask you out.

Until one day when he had came again at the coffe shop. He was determined to talk to you this time. He approached the counter where you were standing smiling. God, even your smile made him love you even more.

"Hello." You greeted him politely.

"Umm h-hi." He said nervous. You arched one eyebrow confused, but you shrug it off.

"How can I help you sir?" You asked him.

"Umm, I... ugh... are you? No... err... you know... I wanted to... fuck." He swore. You were standing there looking at him curious as to why wss he acting like that. Was he okay?

"Mr. Holland, are you feeling good?" You walked around the counter, so you were standing in front of him.

"You're good." He said suddenly. That made yiu even more confused.

"Umm, yeah I'm fine, but are you though?" You asked again. You wanted to touch his shoulders just so you could keep him still, but you thought that this was inappropriate.

"No." He snapped making you jump.

"Sorry, I didn't... mean t-too." He said looking at you.

"It's okay." You chuckled.

"I just wanted to... tell you... that... shit. I can't fo this." Finally you realized what was going on. You couldn't believe it though. Did he actually like you back? Why? You wanted to freak out, but you wanted to play it cool in front of him.

"Umm Tom, you can tell me whatever you want, ya know." You said placing on hand on his shoulder so you you could assure him that everything was okay.

"I like you so much Y/n." He finally spit out.

"You're so beautiful that I can't take me eyes off you. I think about you day and night. I can't get you out of my head Y/n and it hurts, because I cannot find the courage to tell you how much I like you, how much I... love you." He said looking you in the eyes.

You really couldn't believe in your ears. He actually confessed his feelings towardd you. He didn't only just like you, he actually said that he loves you.

"Tom..." You tried to speak but he cut you off.

"It's okay if you're not feeling the same. I just wanted to take it out of me. I wanted you to know about my feelings so that I would be more okay being around you, I guess... but know that I'm thinking of it, this is going to be more awkward if you're feeling the same was as a matter of fact that we see each other every day and I don't know how should I act amd I'm so bad at this and oh my God... I can't stop talking this is becoming even more frustrating and I'm so sor--" You couldn't stop smiling at how he was talking. He was so cute, so you did the only thing that you had in mind.

You cupped his cheeks and kissed him so passionately that you both couldn't breath. At forst he was shocked and stiff, but then he gave in the kiss as he wrapped his strong muscular arms around your waist, bringing you closer to him, while you wrapped yours around his neck, deepening the kiss. Once you broke the kiss, you still couldn't stop smiling.

"I love you too Tom." You said and his eyes light up with excitement while he kissed you once more.

"So, will you go out with me Y/n?" He asked you smirking.

"Of course Mr. Holland." You said winking at him while you both laughed.

[1waizumihajime]

hey~ so awhile ago i made a uquiz that asked for some unpopular a3! opinions. here is the verdict (note: responses have only been edited for spelling, and if a response mentioned members of multiple troupes they are repeated in each section) enjoy!:

tsuzuru should become a professional gay drama fanfic writer based off the mankai company

Chikage is a cool character but if he doesn't get over his mom trauma and keeps treating women bad its gonna be a problem. Like outside of kidnapping izumi as a sabotage for the company he treated her so bad bc she's a woman and he was like "oh I realize ur not like other girls" I hate it here

Sakuya is underappreciated and deserves some more heart to heart talks.

Citron and Izumi would make a fantastic couple!!

TsuzuMizu is one of the world’s greatest love stories. The Y E A R N I N G

I think that. Chikage :)

I don’t like Masumi

why does everyone like chikage and itaru i dont understand

masumi pls stop deep breathin

Tsuzuru’s deadlines were only for the first 4 plays of the company and the fact that no one says this to him or try’s to help him with his sleep and work means they’re perfectly fine with him ruining his health if they get what they want from him (a good script) in this essay I will

if they don't release the sprites of itaru and banri's older sisters i have no choice but to assume they're hot af and also sapphic

Izumi needs to place a restraining order on Masumi

Muku has bigger duality than Itaru

Masumi is creepy

Itarun is baby

citron is a walking racist stereotype and thats why i dont like a3 :)

itaru is too good looking for his own good, love that for him

sakuya deserves the world but that's not an opinion it's just a fact

I- u. H m— u h— ...... so like- Taichi Banri and Tenma hanging out being friends. Y e s—

muku nonbinary

Yuki is a cishet, and saying he isn't when it's stated he is, and gets bullied for not being cishet makes me feel wrong

a3! writers: we addressed kazu's problems me: you didn't address shit a3! writers: we've addressed them

misumi deserves the world

Yuki is Ace and no it’s a fact people refuse to acknowledge

maybe we should talk more about how kazunari never got his conclusion and still has issues being himself but im just sayin

i don't think is actually unpopular but a3 im begging you. please stop type-casting characters and let characters other than yuki play female characters hdjkhfjkhfjs khjksh ok thanks

Misumi x Tenma is NOT valid (Sorry not sorry)

idk if this is unpopular but i wish misumi’s character was more fleshed out...his whole life can’t be 1.) triangle and 2.) parental neglect ToT

Muku has bigger duality than Itaru

cmon we could have a little izumi/banri's older sister. just for fun and banri's mild suffering

Juza is overrated

I- u. H m— u h— ...... so like- Taichi Banri and Tenma hanging out being friends. Y e s—

if they don't release the sprites of itaru and banri's older sisters i have no choice but to assume they're hot af and also sapphic

i actually don't see the appeal in SakyoIzu. idk, Izumi can do better than that

banri depressed :( thats why he angy

juza and omi superior ship

banri has good fashion taste fite me

taichi is a top tier boy <3

Taiyuki supremacy

jtszbn :]

taichi and juza good ship why does no one ship GRRR i angery

juza is way more interesting than people give him credit for! him just casually offering to cross dress...i love him. also he definitely wears eyeliner

idk man but taichi is severely underappreciated

Juza and banri are both subs but banri is a brat and makes juza top. Juza's mom has beaten god behind a 711

Nachi is best boy

Azumi needs to Stop

Uhhhh the puppy characters aren't actually that cute and Taichi is very annoying on the surface before taking into account his backstory. The characters who have passions and interests outside of just being good to you, the player, are much cuter imo

it's not an unpopular opinion, i'm literally just in love with omi

Homare’s definitely gay, I can feel it

azuma... asexual.. thank u for coming 2 my ted talk

Tasuku is a himbo. He's buff, he's stupid, and contrary to popular belief he is NOT mean, yall are just sensitive. I will die mad about this

Tasuku is a himbo. No I will not budge on this. After he stops being an asshole he BECOMES a himbo and if liber would just SHOW him being the himbo he was meant to be then I'd be able to rest in peace

Hisoka is a really good flirt

U h Hisoka is so fuvkimg short i swear to fucking god he needs to drink more fucking milk-

Beyond the Wall is not that good.

guy deserves more thirsty hoes why does he have so few give guy thirsty hoe stans

homare rights

Homare world domination

hisoka unhinge

Azuma is genderfluid.

Tsumugi and his "grandma" vibe ;)))

Homare mermaid play. We need it

Azuma deserves a hug so does Homare actually all of Winter Troupe deserves a hug

Cybird pls let me date izumi I would like to give her a kiss pls

They’re all gay

Gay

I'm gay

i’m conflicted about izumi bc on the one hand i like fleshed out female leads but on the other hand because i’m so different from her i find it hard to relate to the game sometimes

the anime is still not perfect but I like it for what it is

um i dont hate this particularly, but it annoys me how everyone ships the lead and co-lead (saku&masu, tenyuki, juban) because they have a good dynamic, like ??? yeah lol and?? but its harmless and stuff so in chill w it. only exception is tasuku and tsumu because they do have chemistry!! absolutely hinted at

[franeridart]

Jack says "ignored YOUR rule". Does that mean it's something Bakugou obligates himself not to have or something non of them can have? I'm actually curious 🤔

It’s actually a rule Bakugou put down for himself for a number of reasons, half related to his own safety and the safety of the person he’s dating, the other half to the fact that Bakugou hates lying, but (again for safety reasons) he can’t just go around telling everyone what he’s doing - he doesn’t want a relationship in which he’d just contantly lie to his partner and ditch them for vigilante work without being able to explain them what’s going on, so he put down the rule as soon as he decided he wanted to do this. Well, he hadn’t been interested in relationships anyway before Kirishima, so it was an easy decision to take at the time - now though...

Ahhhh if only he figured out Kiri and Red are the same person smh that’d make everything so much easier on him

Anon said:When you draw Jiro and Bakugo having platonic hugs and cuddles my bi heart becomes incredibly soft THANK YOUUUUUUU

I’M HAPPY TO HEAR THAT cause honestly that’s as self-indulgent as I go hahaha

Anon said:The vigilante au is so far sad but I could totally see it going in a miraculous ladybug kinda direction. What if they tried putting distance between themselves and suddenly found that they're falling again, for the vigilante forms this time because "oh sh*t he's cute in every way Kirishima is" and "He's just my type too, Bakugou-- *sigh* I could use some moving on from him." Or only Kirishima moves to vigilante!Baku but he remains stuck on kiri..//Or what if like, vigilante! Kiribaku are about to get caught by a hero and Kirishima opens up about his last regret of not getting to see his crush one last time after they set distance between themselves, while Bakugou listens and...

That’s!!!! a lot of ideas you got there hahaha I’m glad you’re having fun with the concept!!!!!!

Anon said:That vigilante au is amazing. You really express emotions well in comics.

AAAAAHHHHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH that!!!! honestly means the world to me *sob*

Anon said:I just want to say you're really cool and I like you art uh- K bye

Thank!!!!!!!!!!! YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:Oh damn. I think i fall in love for your Vigilantes AU. Please don't stop. I really love it❤️

I mean, as long as you guys are okay with it being a bit all over the place and also being just pencil doodles, then I got no problems doing that right now haha thank you for liking it!!

Anon said:I love your vigilantes AU so much 😍😍😍😍

THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:LET THEM BE HAPPY !!!!

THAT’S THE PLAN!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:May I ask how you draw bakugous hair so well?? I just can’t seem to get the right amount of poof (or should I say BOOM💥 )

oHO I’m glad you like it cause actually the answer is I spent two years drawing it nearly daily and I finally sorta reached a place when I guess I’m okay with how I draw it lol some time ago I drew a step by step for it? but by now my process is mostly “do whatever and hope for the best”, which incidently is also my process in drawing Kirishima’s hair lmao

Anon said:Im a bit confused with the vigilante kiri, does he have black hair in his civilian form and red in his hero form?

YEH it’s one of the reasons why Bakugou still hasn’t figured out Red is Kiri haha thought if you’re asking for the logistics of that, I can’t say I spent too long thinking about it? We can always call it temporary hair dye spry or something like that, but to be fair it’s not like it matters all that much lmao I just needed Baku to be unable to tell it was him easily haha

Anon said:I love ur gem Au! :D are you gonna make more? Its okay if not :)

As I’ve said literally every single time I’ve answered asks since I posted it, MAYBE yes! The thing about that AU is that I love it and I have fun with it, but posting it ended up being the biggest mistake I’ve ever made, so honestly I don’t know when I’m gonna draw it if I’ll draw it, but the possibility is there

Anon said:Hello! I just wanted to say I have love reading your comics and your art is amazing-- but I especially love your vigilantes AU! Thank you so much for sharing it with us!!!

HECK thank you!!!! I’m so happy you’re enjoying it ;O;

Anon said:Why must you hurt us? I started crying at that vigilante au comic..

*passes u a blanket* I’ll try not to make it as sad in the future!

Anon said:Hi! I've purchased the take my hand book about a month ago, just wondering how long it takes for it to be delivered??? BTW I live in NZ so I understand if it takes a while~

Heck sorry anon but I’m so not good with dates, you should check the @takemyhandzine blog for that sorta stuff! Thank you so much for buying it tho!!!! ;O;

Anon said:Is Nico a cinnamon roll or a sinnamon roll?

That......... depends a lot on who you ask :0

Anon said:I love bnha more and more with every new character out. All that's left is to ask, which minor character is currently your favorite? (***That isn't from UA because that is a much bigger dilemma)

oUCH it would have been easier picking from UA actually since I’m pretty sure Amajiki is it hahaha well, if I can’t pick from UA...................... you know what, probably Shishikura

Anon said:Bakujiro friendship is something I didn’t know I NEEDED. U do good work bro

I’M SO GLAD YOU CAN GET BEHIND THAT!!!!!

Anon said:Your art gives me life!!! Every time you post is just so unique in every way :00000 ❤️ anyway i just wanted to let you know that you’re inspiring in every way and that I absolutely adore your kiribaku art to the moon and back!!!

SOB thank you so much???? You��re so sweet!!!! ;O;

Anon said:FRAN!!! YOUR LATEST KIRIBAKU ART KILLED ME (in a good way) HONESTLY YOU IMPROVED SO MUCH SINCE I FIRST STARTED FOLLOWING YOU, IT MOTIVATES ME TO KEEP DRAWING!! THANK YOU

HELL ANON THANK YOU SO MUCH I’M SO GLAD MY FUMBLING AROUND IN THE ART WORLD IS INSPIRING FOR YOU ???? LET’S BOTH KEEP DOING OUR BEST!!!!!

Anon said:fran you could convince me to ship anything with one (1) drawing

Since I got this ask I’ve been trying to find the most outrageous ship just to draw it and test this theory.......... I still haven’t found something outrageous enough but.... soon

Anon said:Hi your art is amazing also beautiful As you probably might know there is a traitor in the show, if you didn't know well then im sorry for spoiling. May I request a traitor kirishima

nnnnnnnggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sorry anon but the traitor theory arts are stuff I just can’t get behind, mostly so if it’s my fav characters - I don’t find it credible and I don’t find any joy in dwelling in the idea, so I got zero motivation to draw for it orz

Anon said:I can't believe you made me read the phrase "startle and explosion out of baku". (Yay for the vigilantes AU!)

LMAO he’s actually trying to do just that tho, maybe I’ll draw it hahaha

Anon said:Please! I need more BakuKiriKami fan art! I’m gunna die without it!

Anon I’m gonna be very real with you here my first reaction to reading this ask was thinking “then perish”

Anon said:Hello! I don't know if you've gotten this question before but have you ever considered drawing the villains?

I’ve drawn Dabi and Twice in the past! I’m not really much intereste in any other villain atm tho so I doubt I’m gonna be drawing them any time soon ^^’’

Anon said:You are by far my favorite artist. Your Kiribaku gives life to my bleak exsistence. Thank you. I bought some of your things of redbubble to make me happy!

AHHHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:Hello! I'm a big fan of your work and your kiribaku fluff especially, and I've been working on a (not so innocent) fic about Bakugou having burnt marshmallow smelling and tasting sweat, (funny how nitroglycerin is a natural lubricant, tastes and smells like burnt sugar, and is explosive) just wanted to know if you ever thought about it? also wanted to know if you'd like to read my finished fic, should be done real soon and it would mean a lot to know what you think about it!

Anon I’m so sorry but I really can’t say yes to this - especially because you said it means a lot to you, you’re putting me in a spot here where in case I didn’t like it I wouldn’t be able to tell you so anyway (and I generally don’t like talking about fancontent I don’t give a 10/10 to anyway, it’s too rude for me) and I’m sure it’s gonna be a great fic! But by the way you talked about it it’s gonna be a nsfw fic and I really rarely like those fics, so !!! orz I’m sorry, but this is a really uncomfortable request for me ;;;

Anon said:Can I use your art real quick if I hard out credit u? It's alright if I can't

Nope, sorry

Anon said:Could you draw another doodle of Setsuna?. I love how you draw her jfvdkd ;;v;; (Sorry if my English is trash.)

Not right now, but in the future yeah sure, I love her!

Anon said:Your Kirishima is so beautiful i fucking cry omg ;-; thank you for brightening my morning.

;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; thank you for liking how I draw him !!!!

Anon said:💛💛💛💛 Thank you for sharing your art, it always makes my day

Thank YOU for liking it!!!!!

Anon said:In your SU AU what if a gem offers to replace Kiri with a 'newer, better pearl'? How would Bakugo react?

Actually, Kiri was given to Bakugou specifically because he’s sorta defective, it was punishment for both of them that sorta backfired lmao 

Anon said:hi there! I'm new to your blog and I love your art style immensely! I saw somewhere with your latest seroroki post that you're still finding your main todoship; I hope I dont sound rude or pushy, but can I ask your opinions about todo*aku and/or tod*kir*baku? If not, thank you for your time! Keep up the great work!!

Still not completely sold on romantic tdbk tbh (platonic tho, that’s my jam) but I’ve been real into the ot3 lately!!! It just can’t be my main todo ship bc I still prefer krbk too much over it haha

Anon said:I loveeee your art, especially your kiribaku stuff! But consider! Size difference! What if Kirishima grows a lot but our lil' Baku doesn't? Does he get jealous or does he really like it? There'd be some epic hugs/kisses! What if he secretly loves getting picked up by Kirishima? XD

Oh that’s an hc I see around a lot! Personally I stil prefer them sorta the same size tho ???? with the only difference being Baku being lithe and Kiri being a tank, I think it has to do with the whole “complementary equals” theme they have going on, I like for it to be visually represented too ??? maybe, I had never really thought about the hows or whys of this preference tbh lmao

Anon said:Hey so I'm not up to date with BNHA but in your asks there was a thing about dragon boy having a zombie costume? I had another look at what I think is the right doodle and to me it looks like a Chinese vampire costume! (unless that's not the one you guys were talking about oops)

Nope that’s him, and you’re right!!! Either way my boy still hasn’t done anything worth of note, so I still don’t know why he’s dressed like that orz Hori plssss

[jasntodds]

um hi I'm really sorry but I love your blog and I'm just feeling lonely rn and needed someone to rant to? If u don't wanna deal with this just say so or ignore it, i 100% understand! So I'm going off to uni next month and I'm so nervous about it bc of my social anxiety and how I'm gonna make friends and stuff. and I'm 18 and never had a boyfriend or anything and I'm super insecure and just found out the only guy I sorta had a thing with for a while moved away and he's with someone now. (Part 1)

and I'm over him for the most part but it just got me thinking cuz all this while I was okay not having a boyfriend in high school cuz I thought it'd happen in uni which now I don't think it ever will. And I've just been obsessively scrolling through my instagram for the last hour looking at all my pretty and gorgeous friends and how the guys I'm even slightly interested in don't even give me a second glance or always ignore me when I attempt to talk to them (part 2)  (Part 3) and I wanted to work on myself for the 4 months I had off but clearly that didn't work bc I'm still insecure as hell and super anxious and idk what to do. I'm really sorry this was a 3 part rant and idk if u do this sorta stuff on your blog. Thanks for listening anyway and hope you have a wonderful day xx  

My dude, I promise, there’s nothing wrong with not having a boyfriend in high school. I know a LOT of people who didn’t get their first boyfriend until after high school. It seems like this huge deal now but I promise, it’s not. I WISH I wouldn’t have dated in high school, dead serious.But I do understand that like something like that guy moving and dating someone can get to you. I’ve been there and it does suck. And despite popular opinion, you can be upset. You’re allowed to feel that way for a little while. But, my dude, listen, scrolling through IG and looking at women who photoshop themselves or facetune themselves/have other people do it, have DAMN good lighting, literally just know how to take a good selfie or have someone take a good picture for them, etc. It’s not good. Like, people who are drop-dead gorgeous get self-conscious from looking on IG people.And here’s a spoiler: most boys are just UGH and they stay that way into their twenties, I can confirm. So honestly, don’t take boys not being interested to the heart. It’s their loss which I know is WAY easier said than done but really, if you can get that mindset, you’ll be alright. It’s the truth.You can still work on yourself. Sometimes it takes a long time to do that. It took me YEARS of trying. Literal years to like go “yeah I like me this is cool” and that’s after being made of for how I look, being rejected a lot, being ghosted a lot, being broken up with a lot, and someone pretending to like me as a joke. Working on insecurities and self-esteem and self-confidence, that stuff doesn’t usually come in just a few months. It comes with a lot of time and effort but even then, it’s okay to have those days where you just don’t feel GREAT or even good. And those are perfectly allowed. You can work on yourself through school and starting over at Uni might even make that easier and better for you.I’ve got social anxiety so I get the whole “AAAAAAHHHHH NEW PEOPLE” thing so I’m not gonna tell you to like...........go out of your way and talk to people (I mean hey, if you’re feeling it, DO IT but if now) make sure you try and look genuinely happy, approachable, and just open and people WILL talk to you. And I PROMISE, you’ll be okay. If you think you’re awkward because of it, you’re not nearly as awkward as you think you are and most people don’t even really notice. It’s kind of a normal thing now.I legit promise you, you’re gonna be okay. You’re gonna do amazing at uni and make some friends, even just one or two. And yeah, maybe a guy will come but if not, that’s okay. Focus on YOU. I can promise it’ll be a damn good decision.

[hyunsuks-beanie]

Hi Mel ☀️ morning :))

about this .. as I said I just wanna be friends without any back thoughts .. I don’t see him in that way and I’m kinda still hurting after my last relationship.. ah I’m sorry i was over sharing right ? And you felt bit overwhelmed right ? Just tell me the boundaries ☺️ And yesterday we were talking and suddenly got into marriage topics and kids , and he has this idea of a woman that it’s something for caring children and it’s woman’s responsibility to give birth .. which is so disgusting to me ! Honestly im so upset about this again , woman is like another to do in mens life , like wife and kids are just like going to the store and buying milk .. ught.. and Im so disgusted by this attitude.. idk why he got an idea that I’m something romantically interested:/ I was just simply friendly and nice .. anyway that’s what have been heavy on my heart 😂🤧

thank you for your advice and opinion , and the tags you put ! I love you too bestie 😘

also my ny was good , I did celebrate well 🥲😍😍

Also seems u hv lots of Hyunjin requests , your last smut with him is so another level ! You did so well, I wish there were more scenarios like this ❤️‍🔥. I saw somewhere that you posted like u are going on hiatus ?cz of the exams ? Just wanna say, i know you will do great and I’ll be rooting and waiting for u here 😍☀️🤍🤍

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No no no not at all bestie!! I'm totally cool with listening (reading) to your rants and it's all good if you're comfortable sharing it with me💖💖The boundaries are whatever makes you comfortable!

That being said, I'm so sorry to know you're still hurting after your last relationship, and I know it might be hard, but you deserve to give yourself a second chance at being happy. At the same time, I know you're elder to me, and might be in what people would consider to be the age suitable for marriage, but that doesn't mean that guy gets to talk about marriage and wedding plans with you all of a sudden! I don't want to say this, but honestly, this has changed my original perception of the guy. He's not wrong in liking you, but he should have been sensitive enough to take your feelings a reservations into consideration and given you place.

And oml what century is he from?! Honestly is disgusts me when men (or any person of any gender for that matter) reduce women to nothing but objects meant to bear children and manage the household. Like, we're not living in the 12th century anymore? Did you reply to his remarks or give him a piece of your brilliant mind tho??

Anyway, if he's not willing to change his opinion or understand your situation, then I feel you're better off away from him. But if he does change his way of thinking and agrees to take things slow, you can give him a second chance, but only if you want to and think you're ready to. If you're not, then by all means, take all the time you need, you deserve it and you do you💖

I'm so happy your NY was great baby!! And yeah, Hyunjin is one of the people I get the highest number of requests for😂😂I'm really glad you enjoyed reading it hehe, I was nervous but excited about it at the same time!! I'll try to make more stuff like this haha, for you💖💖And it's not really a hiatus, I just won't be posting a new scenario till tomorrow, but many blogs do that right? Not everyone posts every day like I do 😅Anyway, tomorrow is my last exam and I'll be back to posting after that!!

[cyclone5000]

Your conversation with 50cyg makes me want to ask you something~ What do you think Yamato likes the most about Taichi? What is your favorite scene of them?? Do you think they think about the reasons why they two can form omegamon??!! I'm very curious *^*

You know, at first I thought these questions seemed harmless, but when I got to thinking about them...they took me a while to answer lol

I already know these answers are going to be long. So I’m just going to put them under a cut. 

What do you think Yamato likes the most about Taichi?

I wound up rewriting this answer like six times. 

Yamato is a little on the ambiguous side when it comes to him being direct about his feelings. I think he only ever blatantly said how he was feeling with Gabumon...I think Takeru a little bit too...

But, if it’s personal opinion, I think that Yamato ‘likes’ Taichi for...being Taichi. Lol I know that might contradict what a lot of my fanfics have to say, but in truth I believe that Yamato has an affinity to Taichi’s natural self. (Opposites attract right :P lol jk) 

One of Taichi’s core attributes is his undying conviction in the strength of his friends. The idea that “everything will be okay because I’m with everyone.” Taichi character is built off of his natural state of belief--It’s a major factor behind Taichi’s reasoning and one of the main reasons why he can be so ‘fearless’ in most situations. Especially if you look them starting at the first season and then transgressing through time. 

And Yamato...at first didn’t think like this. Not even in the sense that he was untrustworthy toward others. But more of the idea that Yamato had to be the one doing things. He had to be strong. He had to take matters in his own hands. If it was him doing these things--there’s no god damn point. His whole character arc is Yamato learning about friendship and it’s strength.And most importantly, believing he has others that will stand by his side no matter what--is valid.  And while Yamato does most of this internally...well honestly, a good external factor of him learning this is Taichi. Taichi is both his catalyst and his deterrent--and its because of that is why I think Yamato gains such a strong bond by being with Taichi. 

Cause like, Yamato does eventually come to terms with himself. He admits that his biggest fear is loneliness, and how he’s afraid about being useless because he has no one beside him. Then he also learns how to combat that loneliness. Friendship! By believing in his friends and confiding in them, he can have the strength to not only find a purpose, but to actually believe in himself.

While Yamato finds this through himself. Taichi had little bits and pieces throughout. Starting from idk episode nine when Taichi proclaims “I won’t let go of you! Even if we both end up dying!” To ending it with idk episode 51! Where Yamato is just weeping, holding Taichi in his arms going “you’re my true friend and I won’t let our friendship be in vain!” Yamato comes to term with himself because he had someone like Taichi who always knew that he could. 

Taichi’s natural self is a huge reason why Yamato was able to grow stronger as a person. Why? Cause Taichi believed in him. Even when Yamato didn’t believe in himself. Even if Yamato acted questionable. No matter how many times they wound up fighting. During the first season all of Taichi’s actions were within Yamato’s best interests because deep down Taichi knew that Yamato would do the right thing. Eventually Yamato would get over...whatever he needed to get over--and he’d be back stronger than ever and everything would turn out fine. 

So...I had to pick a trait that Yamato ‘likes’ best about Taichi, it’d be this. The fact that Taichi can believe in others so strongly. I think Taichi’s unwavering faith in others really affected Yamato. Hell, I think that’s why Yamato is so concerned with Taichi’s lack of action in Tri. It’s not so much that ‘oh Taichi you just wanna sit around and be lazy and let bad digimon kill everyone wth is wrong with u bruh’ It’s the idea that, the Taichi that changed Yamato for the better...isn’t there. And he doesn’t know why, and he can’t sit still while his friend suffers like how he used to. So he wants to know what’s going on in Taichi’s head. But Taichi is going through so much turmoil that he can’t even bring himself to say it--thus cue the minutes of screen time with tense glares at each other xD 

Lol, Taichi’s conviction was a pillar Yamato used to build his own strength. He’s hard pressed without it. I think its why Yamato is trying so damn hard to make Taichi get it back. 

What is your favorite scene of them??

...........I can’t pick one. Lol I have several. Like. I’ve tried to shorten the list but I honestly can’t really pick *one*. These TaiYama scenes might as well be horcruxes. A part of my soul dies if I try to get rid of one. 

I mean, when I rewatched the Adv and 02 in Japanese for the first time, that’s when I really started realizing all of the TaiYama moments that made them both so interesting. In the first season there’s episode Nine. 21. 38. 45. 51. Then the whole kaiser kidnapping agumon arc in 02. 

Then there are the movies. Our war game is still my digimon movie.  I wrote a fic based off of diablomon strikes back (i’m actually in the process of rewriting that one too. god i love those movies). Then after years of letting my thoughts drift off one by one. Toei came in and gave me the best TaiYama verse/setting which is Tri. 

With Reunion I was just crossing my fingers hoping for an omage to their hand holding scene, and what I got was sosososo much more. The self reflection bits, the ferris wheel scene, omegamon breaking apart against Alphamon. Then in Determination, there’s the Gintama sauna scene rip off, Hikari confronting Taichi, Yamato’s kabedon. Then in Confession there is that random ice cream date. Then in Loss omg, like that bit where Yamato says ‘i expect too much from him’ like confirmed every hc and plot idea i’ve ever had. And then like everything else in that movie kept my heart pumping lol 

yeah for real I can’t pick *one*. Like every time I try, I just think of four more scenes I like....I’m sorry I’m not the right person to ask about this I am like the greediest fan you’ll ever meet--I just hoard all that is given to me and I refuse to let go >///> 

Do you think they think about the reasons why they two can form omegamon??!!

Oh yeah. I don’t know if there is a correct way of thinking about it though. I’ve seen people write it off as it’s the writer’s will. I’ve also seen people talk about the prophecy and how go into huge amount of details about Taichi and Yamato’s uniqueness. 

On a personal level. I think the strength in Omegamon comes from the strength the two of them in each other. Even if Yamato and Taichi often on opposite sides of the spectrum, they’re two sides of the same coin. And when they work together, things pan out great--and for someone like me, I really do enjoy seeing them work together. 

BUt...it’s also really powerful when Omegamon fails. Like in Diablomon Strikes Back. Omegamon didn’t get destroyed. His arms fell off. The figurative and near symbolic sense of Taichi and Yamato as a fighting force for the digidestined failed.  Or in Tri, when Omegamon broke apart into Wargreymon and MetalGarurumon. His strength started failing when Taichi began to doubt himself. Quite literally shattering away as Taichi’s confidence dissipated away. 

I feel like it’s obvious, but Omegamon is a symbol of Taichi and Yamato’s bond. When their bond is strong, they are invincible. If one of them falters, then they can’t succeed. Again that’s why I think it factors in to how Yamato has been acting the way he has been in Tri. If Omegamon isn’t strong--that’s like the biggest red flag ever. So he knows something is up with Taichi, he just wants to know what. 

Idk, Omegamon is the fusion of Taichi and Yamato’s spirit. Their drive, their will to fight. Their conviction. And it’s a united front. It’s when they both stand together. That’s the whole concept of fusion at least. Taichi and Yamato are the arms fighting for a cause that they believe is just. And if one of them falters...well...so does everything else. 

lol Anyway, this is just me rambling on and off. Thanks for the ask ^^ I just wish I were more articulate so I wouldn’t keep digressing....lol 

[winterchild-loves-sunshine]

1 Thanx for ur replay I'm glad ur back & hope u feel better. For that moment jm seemed interested in a woman it was in a vid of a ship id remember what vid or what ship lol I'm useless coz when I got into bts I started watching all sorts of vids. Jm was blond? During an award show I think? The person who made the vid thought he was looking at 1 of the mmber but he was actually looking at a woman dressed in red with black hair. He looked interested & with good reason that woman was beautiful

2 I’ve seen those vids of him being flirty but I can’t determine if he’s just good at fan service or if he actually wants to flirt. In a country like korea where anything could become a scandal it’s hard to tell if a guy is just being cautious or if he just doesn’t care. I haven’t found any analyses & I get why u wouldn’t write 1 it’s tricky. It’s just that some ppl seem to label him easily without taking contxt & culture in account but since ur so level headed I wanted ur pov which i agree with

Thank youuuu, that’s really nice of you. I did feel better and can start communicating again :-)

That’s really interesting, I don’t think I’ve seen it before since I rarely watch ship videos outside of Jikook/Kookmin. 

But I suddenly remember that there was this instance when BTS was at an award show too, and Jimin probably gave direction (?) to a beautiful girl (she’s from my home country) and everyone made a big deal out of it saying he liked her and stuff which I can’t really tell since I think he was just being nice (he looked back at her a few times after that). He could be interested in her for real, I don’t really know. As we both agree, Jimin is hard to read when it comes to these matters of preferences. So it all comes down to guess and intuition xD

I’ve seen a few people having the same opinion that Jimin is interested in girls too. 

And yes, thank you for saying that. It’s actually really thoughtful of you to ask about his “interest”, because I’ve seen a few people “label” his sexuality, and were so firm about it, I’m like ???. Yeah sure everyone has their own opinion, but stating your opinion is different from automatically admitting it as a fact, and forcing it on someone you don’t personally know. Good thing people I know and follow talked about it carefully in a respectful way. 

And yes, good thing our cultures are quite similar, so sometimes I can understand where he was coming from. Or I try my best to xD

Thank you for your compliment tho. I’m pretty over-protective when it comes to Jimin tho, since I’m a Jimin stan afterall. But I’m trying my best to be calm when it comes to dealing with matters of other people. I might fail once in a while tho TT_TT

I feel like it’s so tough for Jimin to always be so cautious and aware outside of Bangtan’s zone, it must’ve been hard to breathe under pressure like that. but I guess it’s celebrity’s life. Plus he still looks pretty happy so I hope he really is happy inside, since that kid tends to lie and act like nothing is wrong so that fans won’t be worried.

Oops, I’m being irrelevant again, I’m sorry >