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holsthoughts · 5 years ago

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t w e n t y o n e

soooooooo, its been a while. i kinda forgot about this account but since journalism is my job now (!!!!!!! will go inti deets later) i thought i better make a come back.

im pretty sure the last time i posted on here was in february, early march at the latest and my god have things changed since then...

i got a job!! after coming home from london and leaving my best friends ( v painful, would not recommend) i had a trial shift at a trampoline park. i managed to get the job, although i’m pretty sure mine was just the first name they saw and invited me without even looking through any other applications lmao. i worked there from mid feb through until the end of august.

in this time my fave person ever brought out an entire ep which is amazing and beautiful and im so so so in love with it, pls check it out! its called 2WAYMIRROR :)

i had a breakdown and cut my hair to my shoulders, that was fun.

i also went to glasgow and saw my best friends after almost six months which felt amazing. i got on a plane alone for the first time to make that trip and i didnt freak out which was a huge thing for me!! we had the best time and i got my first tattoo there! a little elephant on my wrist that i love so incredibly much. ive wanted that tattoo for literally two years, since the first time in met gabbie in 2017 and gave her the elephant necklace, and the fact i finally got it makes me so happy, gab named her ‘ellie’ of course and its somethng that helps me feel calm even in tough situations.

speaking of tough situations..

i got through the second stage of my apprenticeship and got invited to an interview!!! that was probably one of thr craziest things ever and an experience im so grateful for. my interview / assessment day actually went so well, and for me to admit that i MUST have done something right. my interview was july 2nd and there were 15 of us in the same boat that day, not counting the other two days that interviews were held. hundreds of people applied and they cut those hundreds down to 45. the scheme has 10 places... im so proud to say that i am in fact one of those 10!!!! i made it!! and im so proud of myself!! im now a digital journalism apprentice with the most trusted news outlet across europe!! i’ve been placed in the welsh radio department which is so cool and means i finally get to put my welsh to use. i’ve just got back from an induction week in birmingham, which i’ll probably do a seperate post about but yeah, good things incoming :)

i also went to reading festival again this year!! i haaaaaated it so much for the most part in 2018 but my fomo coudlnt let everyone else go and not me lmao. but i went, i had such a sick time, apart from getting badly burnt and getting heatstroke on the second day but we dont talk about that... i saw incredible acts and spent tim e with dope people and i really coudlnt have asked for much of a better time.

ive also just recently turned 19 which is cool!

my life is good. and now im not afraid to say it because there was a time that i thought i may never be able to say it again. things got bad for me on a few occasions over the past couple years and i went to such a dark place, im still finding my way out but its not holding me back as much anymore. im making such incredible progress and im proud of myself. i did that. ive never felt as confident in my abilities as i do right now, ive never been so open to meeting new people and sharing experiences. i am who i am and i am good enough. thats a lesson that people forget sometimes. you forget that you’re unique, your experience whether they be good or bad make you special. they seperate you from the crowd which is a good thing. something will come around for you and turn your world upside down, grab it with both hands and dont let it go. fight for it.

so be yourself, because you ARE good enough

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