#but yeah ive been doing real good :33.

[kiibichio]

PLAY DATE 2. 𐙚 ❤︎ M. STURNIOLO

OVERVIEW ;; you and matt get into a heated argument over your ‘friends with benefits’ deal, how will it end ?? (good ending i promise)

CONTAINS ;; angst, fluff, good ending !! (that’s it?)

momo speaks ;; PART TWO OF THISSS. this was so fun to writeee. I HOPE U GUYS REALLY LIKED IT BC I WORKED HARDD MAN I WAS BREAKING A SWEAT OVER HERE (but kinda rushed). enjoy !! (PART ONE HERE <33)

date published ;; 02.20.24

not proofread !!

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6:49 pm.

“are you serious? you just told me you ‘missed me so much’, but you’re letting me leave just like that? am i just some sort of play date to you?” i ask, sitting up. anger, sadness and confusion written all over my face.

maybe i shouldn’t have said that.

matt goes silent for a while, then speaks up.

“you do realize that when we started this we both mutually agreed to have no feelings right?” he says, trying to keep his cool

“well- i mean yeah, but-” i try to speak

“then what makes you think i want to be something more?” he cuts me off. he stands up and starts to get dressed.

“matt. good fucking god, i mean you just have sex with me that damn near kick me out?”

tears start filling my eyes. shit.

“yeah!” he exclaims sarcastically “i do because when we established this, i told you i didnt want a fucking relationship. we’re just friends that just so happen to fuck.” matt raises his voice at me.

then the water works break. goddammit.

i wipe my eyes before speaking up, “okay then… if that’s how you want it to be, then we can end this shit right fucking now. im not gonna allow myself to be used like some damn sex toy.”

“wait.. y/n- c’mon i didn’t mean it like that.” matt tries to explain, regretting what he had just said.

“oh no. i fully understand what you meant,” i reply, now getting dressed.

“fuck..” he mumbles under his breath, but still loud enough for me to hear.

“that’s all you have to say?” i stand up after putting my shoes on, crossing my arms in front of the bedroom door.

matt goes silent.

“oh, what? we’re mute now? real cute.” i ask sarcastically before storming out the room. he follows behind me, trying to explain himself with ‘y/n this!’ and ‘y/n that!’ but i easily tune him out.

as i reach the front door, it starts to open.

it’s just chris and nick, i give a small wave and quickly pass by them and start walking to my house.

ill be damned if i ever let somebody treat me like this shit again.

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an hour later, i get a knock on my door. dear lord, who is it now? i walk over to the front door and open it.

matt’s on the other side.

“hey.. forgot your phone…” he says sheepishly, handing it over to me.

“mhm. thanks.” i answer. i start to close the door before he pushes it open again.

“can i… come in?” he asks

“why? so you can screw me over again? no thanks.”

“y/n. im serious. please?”

i can tell he’s serious, but im still hesitant.

i sigh and open the door wider to let him enter.

he makes his way to the couch, while i lock the door and follow behind him, but sitting on the opposite side of him.

there’s a few moments of uncomfortable silence.

“just gonna sit there?”

he lets out a deep breath, “listen, i’m sorry for yelling at you earlier. i didn’t take your feelings into consideration and i clearly wasn’t thinking in that moment.” matt explains sincerely.

“i accept your apology. and i understand, but now that my secrets out, we cant keep doing this. it’s just- not.. right.” i shake my head

“that’s another thing i wanted to talk about. it’s not that i don’t like you.. i do- it’s just…” he sighs

“what, matt? you can talk to me. we’re still friends.” i speak. i move closer to him and put my hand on top of his.

“ive been extremely busy lately. flying back and forth, videos, podcasts, everything. its just a lot to handle and im not sure im ready for commitment. so its not a no.. its just a ‘not now.’” he looks at me.

after he said that, i felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders. i needed that sense of reassurance. but now i feel like the asshole. i should’ve thought about him too.

“that’s perfectly fine, matt. i can handle that.” i start to smile, “ill wait for you, matt. take as much time as you need.”

he hugs me and i can feel his face growing into a soft smile against my shoulder.

“thank you, y/n.”

4 months later ;;

“matt! baby, i missed you so much!!” i say, leaping in his arms as he walks out into the airport parking lot towards my car. i attack him with kisses all over his face and hug him just a bit too tight.

“too tight, my love.” he says almost out of breath.

“it’s not my fault, this is the first time you’ve ever left me like this! i just really, really missed you.” i exclaim, letting go of him.

“you’re so extra.” he chuckles

okay that first part was a partial lie, but it really is the first time he’s gone back to boston without his girlfriend of 2 months!

“can you two get a room? good fucking god.” nick says disgusted, chris nodding his head and agreeing with his brother.

me and matt both shoot them the middle finger and continue walking to the car.

he grabs my hand, “i missed you too, though baby. i was thinking about you the whole time. and…” he continues to tell me how much he had missed me and loves me.

best boyfriend ever.

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momo speaks (again) ;; ugh this was really rushed im sorry if it sucks 😭😭 BUT I GOT IT DONE. love you guys <3 hope you enjoyed !! TOODLES xx

tag list ;; @sturniolos-blog @mayhem-72 @hearts4chris 🍵

[the-lonelyshepherd]

"fanon lottienatters please stay away from me" oh!! shots fired!! 2,000 dead, 10,000 injured!! BUT curious about your specific definition for fanon lottienat and what you dislike about it <33

ohhhhh okay... alrrrrrr

this is like. one of my biggest issues. im not like a shipper, never rlly have been until yj but i dont like engage in discourse bc thats stupid.

But basically? Fanon lottienat just kinda strips anything thats interesting about the ship away. and makes it like. punk x preppy. loser x popular. ive even heard black cat and golden retriever which makes me want to rip my eyes out.

And its not even accurate to their characterization? at all? like youre flanderizing them but like..... not even their main traits. like ive seen people say "precrash lottie would be like charlotte from status update (curse that movie btw. the things i do for u courtney eaton) which is just. like not at all.

first off lottie is not popular. yeah, shes rich, but shes clearly somewhat of a loner (WHICH PARALLELS NAT?? WHICH MAKES IT MORE INTERESTING???) even courtney has said this in interviews. she feels ostracized, and a lot of it can be traced back to the flashback scenes we see, esp those about her relationship w her parents and her supposed mental illness. the 90s, especially the 90s in a high pressure rich family, was NOT a good place to have schizophrenia (and yeah theres the "she wasnt actually mentally ill" argument but that changes nothing because atp in the story her whole family and probably herself believed she was.

Then we have the nat characterization. The fanon "grumpy" to fanon lotties "sunshine". guys canonically nat smiles more than lottie. girlie was always grinning while lottie was experiencing the horrors all of s1. ofc they both went THROUGH it but that specific stereotype pissed me off sm i had to address it.

also, nat gets shown a lot as masc?? which is a fine headcanon but like for her style like the whole punk thing? she acc dresses relatively femininely.those are little irks abt nat but they bother me idc. too tired to write more on this rn but feel free to ask!

so basically taking this stuff into account - fanon lottienat uses a gross mischaracterization of both characters, especially lottie (also that suspiciously align w stereotypes HMMMMM) to literally make the ship more boring. You are making it a stupid and lame trope. You literally have these two insanely complex characters who mirror each other. Theyre not opposites attract, they are the same character in different skins. They're both loners, one because of her punk/rebel nature and nasty rumors, the other because of her mental illness and lack of closeness to people. Theyre both loners because of their social status and their fucked up home life. Theyre both providers - nat the hunter, bringer of physical and real food like the deer. Lottie the prophet, bringer of hope and, through the teams eyes, the birds, the bear, etc. Lottie who begs to be a martyr but is denied nat who runs from it but shoulders it anyways. They're both bleeding hearts they both give soul to the team and are some of the most genuine characters but they present it so differently.

The fact that the majority of content grossly mischaracterizes them and is the widely accepted fanon just.. sucks tbh. and the fact that people get so up in arms about them, and literally attack fans of other characters (lottielee fans... travis fans....) for no reason?? all these other characters do is contribute to what makes lottienat such a compelling and fucked up and interesting ship. i love them so much but lwk most of yall are insane and dont even appreciate them for what they really are.

thoughts questions comments concerns hmu

[sweetbillwriting]

The Key To His Heart - IV

Characters: AU Bill Skarsgård where his life changes in 2013 and later 2019.

Setting: L.A, 2024 but in an alternative universe with Bill having a completely different life.

Warnings: 18+, NSFW, heavy themes.

Bill's Guests:

Maria: Writer, 38.

Violet: Entrepreneur, 22.

Camila: Engineer, 31.

Sandra: Fashion designer, 36.

Esmeralda: Model, 27.

Rose: Personal trainer, 22.

Tiffany: Actress, 30.

Sienna: Painter, 28.

Brigitte: Chef, 29.

Julie: Model, 25. (Left in episode 2)

Odette: Pediatrician, 33. (Left in episode 3)

Victoria: Shop assistant, 34.(Left in episode 3)

×

The sun shone through the blinds at Bill, who sat on the edge of his broad bed, and it made his skin appear striped. He sat in just a pair of black boxers and held his head with his hands with his elbows on his knees. He had a bit of a headache after drinking a few too many glasses of whiskey the night before, and he looked at the empty bottle on the nightstand with a sigh. He had had some anxiety after having sent home Odette, not because he regretted his decision but just because he felt mean. It was the second woman who was upset at him, and he knew it would get worse and worse to send them home. He fooled them into believing he had felt interested, then he ditched them in front of the cameras. It was brutal. Just when he stood up with a sigh, there was a knock on his door. It could be someone from the film team, but it could also be one of the girls.

“Yeah?” He said, while he looked for a robe or something but couldn't find anything.

“Can you open? It's just me,” said Herman, a bit irritated, like he had waited for ages. Bill rolled his eyes to himself before opening the door.

“How the fuck should I know it's you?”

“Why do you lock the door? You really think someone will dare to visit you in the night? You're bigger than all of us.”

Bill shrugged his shoulders and sat down on the bed again.

“How are you? You look tired,” said Herman who sat down next to him.

“Yeah… It's harder than I thought…” said Bill, looking down at his bare feet.

“What is?” Herman looked at him confused.

“This! They get hurt for real.” Bill dragged his hands through his hair.

“Yeah? You should be happy. I worked on a similar show, and the women didn't feel a fuck for the guy, so we needed to tell them to act, and few of them knew how.”

Bill grimaced and shrugged his shoulders.

The men sat in silence a while before Herman cleared his throat.

“Today is two single dates, then you all have the weekend for yourself. I heard that one of the girls' dads had been in an accident.”

Bill looked at Herman with furrowed brows.

“Sandra’s. He's a bit older and fell down the stairs.”

“Oh shit. How, how is he? What will she do? Is she going home?”

“No, no. Just today and the weekend, so you can't pick her for a date. That was our plan, but now that can't happen.”

Bill scoffed and leaned back in bed with his hands pushed against his forehead. He had some pain over his eyebrows.

“So you decide everything?” He asked, irritated.

“It's so it will be good TV. So you will pick-”

“‘I will pick’...” Muttered Bill, and Herman gave him an annoyed look.

“Your dates will be with Brigitte and Sienna.”

Bill was quiet for a while because Brigitte he would have probably picked for himself, but…

“Sienna? Really? We have nothing to talk about.”

“That's just it. Your awkwardness with each other is quite fun to look at, and sometimes she looks straight into the camera when you don't notice and makes a face.”

Bill looked at Herman, who laughed, but Bill didn't look as amused.

“She makes fun of me?”

“A bit.”

Bill looked offended and sat up again.

“What the fuck? You get that I will send her home now?”

“Yeah, but first we just want to have that awkward date where she imitates your 'sexy stare’, she's quite good at it.”

Bill still looked offended. He might have thought it was funny if he knew about it, but it had been done behind his back. A girl who said she wanted to date him made fun of him like that; it wasn't okay.

“See it as your chance to act again. I know you can do it, and you can have a nice date with Brigitte as a contrast.”

Bill sighed and stood up, but let his brows relax.

“Yeah, yeah. Who cares? You will make me anyway.”

Herman smirked and didn't say anything. Bill had finally understood the rules.

×××

The irritation had once again awakened among the girls, this time it was Violet who spilled her feelings over Rose. They had just met Bill over breakfast, and he had shared what girls he would go on dates with. Violet didn't get picked this time either.

“Sienna was at the group date, and Brigitte got so much time with him yesterday. Why doesn't he see us all?”

Rose, who had been on a single date with him, didn't know what to say. She hadn't even thought about if Bill picked the same girls, she thought it was even. She instead thought about how close she had been to going home. She didn't understand why he didn't say her name earlier. Their date had been great.

“I don't know…” she said, distracted by her own thoughts, and opened the fridge in her search for a water bottle.

“Has he already found his favorites? He just plays with the rest of us?” Violet looked at Rose with big eyes like she had the answer, but Rose just looked at the water bottle in her hand like she didn't know what she was looking at.

“In that case, who am I? I'm the only one he has been on a real date with, but I got called last in this ceremony. I will probably leave the next ceremony, even if our date was great.”

Violet listened to her but didn't seem to be so interested in talking about her problems and instead started to talk about other things.

“Do you think he has kissed Esmeralda? They seem really comfortable with each other.”

Rose put the bottle in the fridge again and closed it. She didn't answer Violet; instead, she walked up to her room on the second floor. She looked to the right, in the corner, was the door to Bill's bedroom. It was closed as always, and she thought for a moment about what he did in there. He probably made himself ready for his date. His date with Brigitte. They hadn't gotten to know what they would do on the date, so all of them were curious in their jealousy. She walked into her room and laid down on the bed. It felt like she was in love with Bill, and the thought of him with the others made her throat dry. Their date had been so good, and still he didn't seem interested in her, it was heartbreaking.

Violet looked after Rose but realized she also probably had many feelings about the situation, and they were not friends; they were competitors for the same man.

×××

Bill stood leaned against the car of the day. It wasn't his; it was a car that the production had arranged, but Bill dragged his hand over the door and wished it was his. It was a Ford Mustang Cab; he guessed it was from the late sixties but looked like it was new.

He waited for Brigitte to come, then they would go for a ride, then to the secret destination. Bill had just gotten the address. It was a little exciting, and it maybe affected him more than he thought because when Brigitte walked towards him in a short black floral dress, he felt butterflies in his stomach. He smiled brightly at her, and she smiled just as brightly at him.

“Hey,” he said softly and pulled her in for a hug.

“Hey,” she said with a giggle and sniffed his perfume. “What's the plan for the day?”

She dragged an admiring hand over the car, and Bill smirked proudly like it was his own.

“I don't know; I just have an address.”

Brigitte looked up at him with eyes as blue as the California sky.

“That sounds mysterious.”

“Mhm,” he said with a smirk before opening the car door for her.

They speculated about the day and talked about the car until Bill drove onto the highway and could speed up. Brigitte laughed next to him and let her hair free from the tight braid she always had her long hair in and let the wind play with it. Bill smiled at her behind his sunglasses. The wind played with his hair too, even if he had slicked it back, but it just made him look more attractive behind the Mustang's steering wheel. Both their hearts beated heavily in their chests with a rush of adrenaline, but it was easy to mix it up with romantic feelings, so Bill took her hand in his and kissed the back of her hand several times. Brigitte blushed and looked at him with even bigger eyes. Bill could see how she licked her lips over and over.

After a while, they were forced to drive towards their destination, but their hearts were still beating against their ribs and made their blood rush through their bodies. They jumped between subjects like music (she was a country girl, he was a moody folk rocker), movies (who the fuck doesn't cry to Titanic?) and food (meat, Asian fusion, and Swedish cod). They talked like two puzzle pieces had clicked together, and they enjoyed looking at each other just as much.

Their destination was a house by the sea but with a full outside kitchen where they could cook together. They had the best products you could buy in L.A. to make the best lunch. They also had an expensive bottle of champagne, and Brigitte didn't say no to alcohol like Rose had done so they could cheer together.

Bill looked at her cook easily. She was better than him, but he liked it. She taught him tricks and told him anecdotes from the restaurant world. He looked at her with big eyes and tingling lips, so when they had eaten, he leaned over the table and kissed her soft lips. She looked at him with glittering eyes while his eyes had darkened. It had been a great date, and a great date needed a kiss.

“Thank you for today…” said Brigitte when they stood on the porch. Both of them knew some of the other girls were probably watching them, but Brigitte still took a hold of the hem of Bill's white t-shirt and pulled him into an intimate hug. Both of them thought about the kiss, but they couldn't do anything now; they had an audience.

“Thank you… You're a great cook,” said Bill while playing with her hands in his.

“So are you. You're good at many things,” she said cheekily and made Bill laugh and even get a bit pink in the cheeks.

“I'll see you tomorrow.”

Brigitte gave him a final smile before walking away to the guest house. Bill stayed on the porch for a while with a small smile on his lips. It had been an amazing date, and he got a bit embarrassed over himself and how he just stood there and smiled. He walked in after a minute or so; he had another date to get ready for. The date with Sienna.

One of the girls who had watched him with Brigitte was Sienna, who had seen them from her room. She had looked at Bill's big smile and how he held Brigitte's hands in his. He looked like a man in love. Sienna breathed out and made her decision then and there. She looked at her phone, the screensaver of her and her son on a carousel horse together, and then pulled out her suitcase from the wardrobe.

×××

Bill had dressed down to boxers and laid down in bed to rest. Just in two hours, he would need to be ready for another date. He didn't feel ready for it, mostly because he was still living on the high from the date with Brigitte and didn't have time to think about another woman, and especially not for a date he knew would be bad. He thought about sneaking down to the kitchen to make a cup of coffee, so he pulled on a pair of sweats; it was then there was a knock on his door. He sighed to himself.

“What is it now, Herman?” He said, unlocking the door and opening it a bit aggressively. Instead of meeting Herman's blue gaze, it was Sienna's hazel eyes that looked back at him. He looked at her confused and then right and left to see if there were any cameras, but there were none.

“Hey?”

Sienna dropped her gaze to his naked torso by reflex but caught herself and looked up at his face again.

“Can we talk?” She said it carefully. Bill looked at her with big eyes. He wondered if it was about the date, but in reality he could just come up with one reason why she would want to talk with him like that, a reason that matched her serious face. He nodded a little and moved away from the door opening so she could walk into his bedroom, even if he otherwise wouldn't let someone in like that, but he forgot that with Sienna.

She looked around in his bedroom. It wasn't meant for any of the girls to be there. She had thought about how it would look inside if there were still signs of a woman there, but the room was decorated sleek and masculine in black and emerald tones. There was just one picture on the walls, a still from a black-and-white movie she couldn't place. Opposite the wall was a big screen and shelves full of DVDs. Someone liked to watch movies in bed.

Bill looked at her a bit awkwardly while she looked at his bedroom with big eyes. He pulled on the t-shirt he had worn earlier that day and sat down on the bed, waiting for Sienna to say something, he didn't have much to say.

“Ehm…” To his surprise, she sat down on the Persian rug and put her dark hair behind her ears. She was dressed in a big gray hoodie and leggings and didn't at all look ready for a date with him.

“I've decided to leave the show… I wanted to say it to you, the production wanted me to just disappear and leave you waiting for me on the porch, and then I didn't show up… I'm not that kind of girl.”

She looked at him sincerely, and Bill swallowed hard and looked down on his hands that he flexed. Fuck, he was tired of this shit. They wanted to make a fool of him. They wanted him to stand dumped and alone in a suit on his own porch. Herman wanted that to happen.

“Okay… Thank you…” He said it distractedly but then looked at her with worried eyes. “Why do you want to leave? Has something happened? Have I done something?”

“No, no. I… I feel like I don't have reasons to be here. It's not a secret you and I don't have the chemistry you have with some of the other girls.” Sienna laughed a bit uncomfortable while dragging her finger through the rug's pattern. Bill sat quietly because, for some reason, he got a bad conscience. Did other girls feel the same? While he sat in deep thought, Sienna stood up and looked through his shelves with movies.

“To Kill a Mockingbird... I love that movie. I did a project inspired by that movie,” she said with a dreamy voice, mostly for herself. Bill looked at her from behind. He didn't really like having people in his bedroom, it was his safe place, but for some reason it felt completely normal having her there. He didn't think much about it, just let her comment on the movies, and slowly realized her movie interest was bigger than he had expected.

She turned to him with red cheeks when she realized she had stayed too long by his shelves.

“Sorry… I should go. I have my man waiting for me at home.”

Bill looked at her with furrowed brows.

“My son.” Sienna smiled a little, said goodbye with just a wave with her hand, and then she sneaked out from the door so no one in the production would see her. Bill walked slowly after her, his head full of questions, and locked the door after her.

×××

The hot water hit his broad back and made his skin burn. The plan was just to take a shower before calling Herman and saying he knew about their plan, but instead he had stayed there with his forehead pressed against the wall. He didn't want to be a part of the circus anymore. It wasn't about him founding love; this was all about making TV. He had been naive, just because Herman was his friend, but there was also something else that bothered him, but he couldn't say why. He felt anxious and like he had forgotten something. He thought about the day with Brigitte, but looking back at it, it didn't make a big impression anymore; instead, it was other small things that had gotten stuck in his brain.

“To Kill a Mockingbird… I love that movie…”

“Sometimes they feel a bit try-hard…”

He became annoyed at himself that he would now start to romanticize Sienna just because she chose to leave. It was typical of him, so instead he tried to think back on how beautiful Brigitte had been in her floral dress, but pictures of how Sienna pulled down the hoodie sleeves over her hands were the only thing his brain wanted him to obsess about. The smallest details, about Sienna.

He dried himself with a black towel when he came out of the shower but didn't do it for long before he felt it was too hot in the bathroom, and he walked out to his bedroom again with the towel around his slim hips.

His bedroom was not a place he let anyone into, especially not when he had a film team there. To his surprise, he had let Sienna in without a thought and had let her walk around, looking at his stuff. The whole thing had confused him, so now when he saw Camila in his bed, he just looked at her and scratched his neck in disbelief.

“Hey…” she said and stood up in bed so she became taller than him. She had just a lacy nightgown on, and he could see her nipples through the fabric. He looked at her up and down and felt a tingle feeling spread down from his stomach down to his sex.

“Hey,” he said with a small smile. He thought about the dirty thoughts that he had had about her and felt his heart beating hard. She was in his bed now. He moved closer to her so she could lay her arms around his neck and he could lay his hands around her waist. He looked at her with dark eyes, and she smirked, like she knew what an effect she had on him. She dragged her fingers through his wet hair and then pressed her red painted lips against his. Bill could feel his blood rush to his groin, and he moaned into the next kiss she gave him. Camila dragged her hands down his naked chest, and Bill took a harder grip around her waist, so they were even closer. It was amazing having her that close, but his head hadn't settled down from the earlier chaos, and it showed him pictures and scenes from the day. Sienna's smile, her hazel eyes, her back when she left his bedroom, him locking the door…

“Why do you lock the door? You really think someone will dare to visit you in the night? You're bigger than all of us.”

Softly, he pushed Camila away and looked at her with big, confused eyes.

“How did you get in? The door was locked?”

Camila looked at him for just a few seconds before smiling teasingly and shrugging her shoulders. She tried to kiss him again, but now the question pounded anxiously in Bill's chest. He took a step away from her.

“How did you get in?”

It wasn't like he was afraid of her, it was just a really creepy feeling knowing she had been able to get into his private room, his locked, private room.

“How did you get in?” He said, much more forcefully when she didn't answer. Camila stayed standing in bed but leaned down to be able to lightly pull in the towel around his hips.

“I felt that you grew-”

Bill pushed away her hands and took a hold of the towel. It was then he saw a key laying on one of the DVD shelves. A key to his room.

“Where did you find this?” He said it and took it in his hand.

Camila sighed, jumped down from bed, and pulled on her black kimono that was lying on an armchair in the corner of the room.

“Is that so important? I thought you would like having a guest like me?”

Bill shook his head in disbelief while playing with the key in his hand. Camila stood and looked at him, but when she didn't get an answer, she left the room, closing the door with a loud bang. The sound made Bill jump but also made the pain in his chest worsen. It had been an awful day, and all he wanted was to have his normal life back and get all the women out of his house.

×××

His stomach growled like a hungry bear. It hurt every time it moved around in there. He needed to eat something, but he really didn't feel like walking out of his room. Herman and others in the production had knocked on his door, and the girls were spread out all over his house, as was Camila. He just wanted to be alone, but his stomach pains worsened.

Bill stood up from bed and dressed again. He took a look at himself in the mirror but didn't feel a need to do anything with his messy hair. The clock was 10 PM, so he hoped most of them had gone to bed or gone home from their work. He needed to eat, and he knew they had delivered meatloaf to the girls today. 

Just as carefully as Sienna had moved out of his room, he walked out and looked around in the hallway. He looked down the banister to see if someone was near the stairs, but he couldn't see anyone. In relief, he started to walk but became distracted when he saw one of the bedroom doors standing open. He knew it was Sienna's room because he had seen her leave the room a couple of times. When he walked by it, he stopped to just look inside. It was a guest room otherwise too, and the room looked like it had been done before the girls had moved in, just that she had pulled off the covers from the bed. It looked nice and clean, but for some reason it left an empty feeling in his chest. He hadn't talked with Sienna much, but now it started to feel like a real loss to not have her there.

“Bill?” Said someone behind him, and he looked back at the person. He had moved into the room, and in the door opening stood Tiffany in a light blue lounge set. 

“Ehm… Hey,” he said awkwardly and scratched his elbow. 

“Has Sienna left?” She asked, entering the room and looked around. 

“Yeah…” 

Tiffany nodded. 

“I think she missed her son. They seemed to have a close bond.” 

Bill nodded too, even if he didn't have a clue. It felt weird she had left before he even got to know her. Or even knew anything about her. 

“I must make something to eat. Do you want anything?” He asked Tiffany, who smiled brightly. 

“Yeah, I could eat again. The meatloaf was really nice.” 

××× 

Tiffany looked at Bill making potato wedges. He thought the mashed potatoes looked sad and clumpy, so he decided to fix new potatoes for them. His black sweatpants sat low on his hips, and the t-shirt was a bit too short, so in every movement, she could see the black Armani elastic of his boxers. She smiled to herself; she felt lucky she was the one running into Bill like that. He rarely showed himself that late and was never dressed this relaxed. She could smell the scent of amber and oak from his skin. He looked like the boyfriend she always wanted. Tall, fit, beautiful, but cozy and relaxed. 

Bill put the potatoes in the oven and turned to Tiffany. His brain felt as messy as scrambled eggs, but still he tried to smile charmingly at her, but probably mostly looked tired.

“A long day?” She asked when he sat down by the kitchen island with her. 

“Too long. It has been a lot,” he said and massaged his own shoulders. He was tense after it all. 

“Should I give you a massage?” Asked Tiffany and stood up. Bill looked at her unsurely. He had kissed two women that day; it felt wrong being so close to one more, but Tiffany smiled and walked around him and started to massage his shoulders and neck skillfully, and Bill made an uncontrolled moan. The moan spread like a warm liquid in Tiffany, and she could feel it drip down between her legs. Bill moaned again and leaned forward on the island so she could reach better. Tiffany took the moment to touch his back, and when her hands crept under his t-shirt, he didn't protest; the massage was too good. 

When the alarm rang from the oven to tell them the potatoes were done, both of them sighed a little, but Bill was too hungry to not take them out. 

They ate in silence but smiled at each other a bit. Bill could feel a strong attraction to her, but when they had said goodnight, he once again heard Sienna's voice in his head. 

××× 

There was a knock on his door the next morning. Bill started to feel like there were a bit too many people visiting his bedroom, and he pulled the covers over his head. 

“Bill? Come on, open! You know you break the contract if you don't do what I say!” shouted Herman through the door. Bill kicked off the cover aggressively, threw the door open, and looked down at Herman with a menacing stare. Herman swallowed hard. 

“Hey?”

Bill laughed unamused and shook his head when he walked into the room again. 

“Herman, I thought we were friends, but fuck man, I don't even know who you fucking are.” 

“Hm?” Herman clearly expressed he was worried. It was obvious he thought he would be able to be a good drama starter and a friend to Bill at the same time. 

“Sienna told me about your plan. You know, make a fool out of me.” 

Bill pulled on the sweatpants he had the day before but left his upper body bare. Herman stood and looked at him in regret. They were friends, but maybe he had forgotten about Bill's feelings. 

“I just… It was just a good story, you know the female viewers would feel so sorry for you and hate Sienna and-” 

“But that's not fair to her either! She just wants to go home to her son!” 

"Yeah, but she also knows this is a TV show; we need to create a good storyline.” 

Bill scoffed and shook his head. 

“But now that didn't happen, Sienna has left, and we can inform the viewers and girls nicely that she has left, okay?” 

Bill was quiet; he just sat down in bed, stretching out his long legs with his fingers entwined on his head. 

“Okay?” Said Herman again with worry. He didn't want to hurt his friend, even if it maybe seemed that way. Bill didn't even think about what Herman had done anymore because he couldn't get rid of the anxious feeling—the feeling that he had lost something. 

“Okay,” he said lowly and then sighed. He wasn't amused by the thought of continuing this journey. 

“Camila broke in here yesterday,” he continued, mostly to think about something else. 

“What?” Said Herman with a little laugh. Bill smirked and shook his head in disbelief. “She wanted me badly,” he joked, but then looked at Herman more seriously. “She had a key; I don't know where she got it from, but she broke in here.” 

“That's fucking crazy!” exclaimed Herman as he sat down on the edge of the bed. “But… Did you do anything with her?” 

Bill side-eyed him. 

“Of course not! She broke into my bedroom; who knows what other crazy shit she can do?” 

Herman nodded with big eyes. 

“She has broken the rules, you know. Do you want us to send her home?” 

Bill sat and looked up at the ceiling. He hesitated; he had already lost a girl he hadn't given a fair chance to, but this was different, so he nodded. 

“Yeah, she's fucking crazy.” 

Herman nodded.

“I guess this breakfast will be really strange. Two women leaving, one missing.” He then smirked at Bill. 

“You make some great TV, man.” 

××× 

Around the big table in Bill's dining room sat just six women; they all looked confused at each other. Three women were missing, and the table wasn't even set for them. Bill walked into the room awkwardly, dressed in a cream cuban shirt and dark jeans. He smiled a little, even if the girls mostly looked confused. Some of them wondered if the three women already were at a secret location for a group date, but Bill's awkward, bothered look told them something else. 

On his plate lay a white envelope with a red heart, screaming to be opened, but he didn't feel like reading it. He sat down and took the envelope in his hands, opened it, and then read it silently to himself. He could feel all six pairs of eyes on him. There wasn't anything secret in the letter, and he really didn't want to read out loud what it said, so instead he gave it to Tiffany, who sat closest to him. She gave him a confused look. 

“Should I read it? Out loud?”

Bill just nodded a little and leaned back in his chair. 

Tiffany looked down on the letter but started to read it without doing it for herself first. 

“Good morning! As you all notice, we’re missing three women around the table. 

Sandra will be back for the next ceremony. She was forced to go home because of a crisis in her family.

Sienna chose by herself to leave the program because of private reasons. 

We sent Camila home early this morning because of rule-breaking. We want to remind you all that this production demands respect for everyone involved, especially towards Bill who is our host. Any rule breaking will lead to elimination.” 

×

[ilyconnie]

hi bae !! i was wondering if i could request some eren hcs - being his s/o

so happy to hear yur gonna start writing again !!

THANK YU AND I LOVE YU SMM

being eren's s/o <3

eren x blk!reader (but honestly anyone can read)

hii i love you more <33 ,, i hope you enjoy !!

i feel like being eren's s/o would just consist of you coming along for his endless adventures and having him constantly showing up at your place "hey mama what are you doing today? wanna come somewhere with me?" LIKEEEE yes. yes i do.

eren is a musically inclined man in my eyes, he knows how to play guitar, the piano, and even the drums. he has a bunch of instruments in his apartment that you stay over at frequently.

he's always "oh my gosh, let me show you this little piece ive been working on." "baby can you listen to this real quick, does it sound okay?" "you wanna learn this song? ill teach you if you want?" super super cute

he's always getting little moments when he see's things he think you might like. he feels super good when you use things he buys for you. one time, he got you a super pretty marble guitar pick with your favorite colors, and even painted the both of your initials on it so whenever you come over to play the guitars he makes sure you use YOUR guitar pick.

he's def a acts of service man, don't complain about ANYTHING EVER around him unless you want the problem fixed immediately. one time you complained about your air conditioning wasn't working, so he came over during one of your shifts and fixed it himself. yeah it's missing a few screws now.. BUT IT WORKS so he feels accomplished regardless.

he constantly is coming to pick you up from places and offering to feed you after work, you're his top priority besides himself and his career, so he's got to make sure you know it too. he wants to make sure you feel secure and safe with and without him, knowing that he would go to the ends of the earth for you if it came to it.

no because he's a pda loverrrr omg this man has to let everyone and their mom know that you're together. from the way he holds onto you everywhere you go, to the constant kisses on the cheek, forehead, hand, nose, arm.. anywhere appropriate for outside practically, he's just a big needy loving baby honestly.

he loves to touch at least in same way, even if its small. he likes to hold your hand while waiting in lines, links your arms while you guys walk, he hugs you from behind constantly, he even traces the features and curves of your face while you guys cuddle facing each other.

but even as cute as he is, he's just as annoying.. yk how he walks with your arms linked? he gets upset with you when you step out of step with him HAHAH he'll stop where he is jerking you back with him, "what?" "you're out of step..here let's start again". and don't let it happen too many times back to back, he'll start saying the foot you should be stepping on out loud for everyone and their mom to hear. "baby it's not that hard.. LEFT, RIGHT, LEFT, RI-" "eren shut up! people are staring!" "they wouldn't be if you could just step on the right foot."

@ilyconnie 2023 <3

[volivolition]

Hellooooo! <22 <33

SO we added a few songs by Airborne Toxic Event to the playlist recently (except for one of em which has been on there for a bit now iirc) and we'd love to hear what you think about them!! They are Sometime Around Midnight, Poor Isaac, Welcome to your Wedding Day, and Does This Mean You're Moving On!

Sorry that's. A Lot HEJSJSDKDJ take your time of course as always with answering this ask! We've just been in a Mood™ for this band lately idk why

I think our favourites of the four are Sometime Around Midnight and Poor Isaac. Sometime Around Midnight is just,, Beautiful and moving to listen to. They have an acoustic version too but while we adore acoustic covers of songs that one doesn't hit the same tbh (though it is also very good don't get me wrong HFJDJFJF) and Poor Isaac was our most listened to song in 2020 according to Spotify. I do assume that was the year of our Binding of Isaac special interest, because the song and game are both about the same thing pretty much and our TBOI fictives ADORE that song LMAO (in fact we have a lyricstuck for the song started deep in the depths of our computer... we should. Sit down and finish it someday. fhdhdjfj)

That's all! We lov you <22 <33

-Flo

!! hello Flo!! ooh yes yes, ive seen and listened to them, they're ALL SO GOOD!! hehe dont worry, its good to have all four from the same band to listen to <33 <22 thank you for your patience as usual, i appreciate it :'] <333 <222!!!

Sometime Around Midnight - BEAUTIFUL!! the sullen strings melody starting it off really sets the tone, the guitar melody is so pretty, i love how it all keeps amping up towards the repeated lyrics "You just have to see her, you just have to see her, you just have to see her!! ...you just have to see her..." so gorgeous and tragic wah, sounds like hazy reminiscing and blurry lights <33

Poor Isaac - FUN!! very fun, it sounds very spiteful, there's a ragtime kind of vibe with the piano, but there's a pointed intensity in all the lyrics and other instruments. real Hell's Comin' With Me vibes!! your 2020 top song waow!!! i can see why the TBOI fictives would like it with the title/lyrics hjlkgj (omg hell yeah lyricstucks!! we are ALL love lyricstucks :3!! i would not understand context, but i would still love to see if y'all finish it!)

Welcome to Your Wedding Day - a thing ive noticed with this band is that all their rhythms are REALLY GOOD, everytime there's a new beat for a song im just like "yeah!! HELL YEAH!!!!!!!" i really love how all the lyrics are sung here, "and you know it's begun, from the crack of the gun~!" and the crowd chant and defiant vibes, its so cool :D

Does This Mean You're Moving On - really solid guitar all throughout, love love love!!! again, such a fun melody with heartbreaking lyrics, like OOF OUGH. Sometime Around Midnight's fun, but still achingly lonely cousin :'] <33 such a bop, songs that make me wish they were longer hjglkj

from what ive heard, i really love this band's overall vibes!! thank you for introducing them to me, i lov y'all too!!!!! <33 <22

[kuroppiii]

LOVELY RO !! IVE MISSED BEING IN HERE I BROUGHT A BROOM AND DUSTPAN TO HELP CLEAN UP MY CORNER OF THE INBOX <3

how have you been I saw you just moved into ur dorm 🙂‍↕️ it looks super cute and very you I hope you have the best semester and year 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

I just watched uncut gems and made my letterboxd comeback so I’m in dire need of film recs bc I’m not a real filmbro if my watchlist isn’t unreasonably long 👊 can u believe there are only 59 films on there? SEND THEM OVER PLZ I TRUST YOU

signing off with this and this to remind you that we’re legally married even tho there’s no ring. those links are the ring

MY BELOVED REE !! excuse me for a moment as you sweep so i can hang up a small “welcome home” banner in ur corner ♡♡♡♡

and WOOOO yeah i’m in my dorm rn! i’ve been doing great these first few days!! have met a lot of really nice ppl. i’m actually not as depressed as i thought i’d be being away from home 😭 but also i’ve always been on the more independent side so lowk this university shit is kind of liberating

and i LOVE my ring thank you very much i will flaunt it and shove it in the face of every passerby on the street (I HAVE THAT PAT ONE SAVED 💀 redbone and his smile? GODDDD and the second one is literally me hugging my snorlax every night in my dorm LMAOOO)

( FILM FREAK FESTIVITIES UNDER THE CUT )

omg i was seeing mentions about uncut gems under the letterboxd reviews for this one film i recently added to my watchlist—do you recommend it??!!

as for film recs here are my offerings today 🤲 yknow recently i realized i watch a lot of sad and dramatic films so here’s my fav lighthearted ones </3 minus guava island but shhh

(loser bf cillian murphy and manic pixie dream girl lucy liu what more can i say really)

(suchhh a pretty and chill film. doesss have a semi-sad ending though. good music in it though, ofc)

(brought back the feeling of seeing spiderverse’s animation style for the first time!!)

(genuinely i think it’s so campy and funny i quote lines from it very often (“SHUT UP LOSER, I FUCKED YOUR MOM!” 😭😭😭))

(maybe it was a mix of the cool animation style and the voice actors doing a good job that it was charming enough to excuse the few times it could’ve been a cringe attempt at gen z humor)

and that’s all of them <<33 lmk what you think if you end up watching any of em!! love love love ya ree ^^ (the video is us)

[isthisclever]

Plaintext version of 39 Days thread

Post-episode Reddit threat on r/Survivor

blowmytorch23143: dude claire skaaaaaaated by that tribal. my heart was pounding omg

/ chrissydontwakeup: Well no way was Jeff gonna let her walk. C+J is  *the* drama this season. They’re not gonna wanna lose that. 

/ / blowmytorch23143: yeah ive beeen convinced for ages that the idols are prolly fixed to keep the faves around. some of these people its like, oh honey you did NOT find that on your own lol

/ / / ReadySurvivorOne [Top Fan]: If not purposefully, then accidentally for sure. Wentworth did a whole video after her second season about paying attention to the cameras to find hidden idols bc they always pan to the hiding spots for the ep. WILD.

damp_dreams69999: Glad they didn’t vote out claire. WHo cares if she’s a hoe shes hot

/ chipper_pippa: Misogynistic much? Do better. 

/ / damp_dreams69999: is it sxist if its true

/ GoldN_Ours: um hello did we even watch the same epp? it showed that she CLEARLY was telling the truth. old dude was creepy af

/ / damp_dreams69999: lmfao chill out its not that serious

/ / / GoldN_Ours: Claire’s convo with the bf was basically proof that she has been telling teh truth. He was dismissive and condescending, and he was WAYYY to excited that gillian and her sister were drooling all over him. mega douche and honestly, perv vibes all the way.

user1930188401: WOWOWOWOWOWWWWWW. Hate to see Phaedre leave but I’m super glad Claire survived tribal. She clearly needed to chat with her alliance tho. She wasted an idol when they had the votes already.

/ hrd2bsft: Yeahhhh that’s gonna cost her with the jury. Guess the important thing is she made it through to day 33. 

Silvvver_ lyon [Top Fan]: am I the only one who was super uncomfortable with that pre-vote convo? like…why did they have to drag her over the coals like that? 

/ user1012912318: for the views dawg

/ / Silvvver_lyon: kinda gross still idk. survivor has a misogyny problem anyway and this reeeeeally didn’t help 

yesimawitch: These suckers dont watch out, Jillian’s gonna win this game. 

/ Outplayaaaa: Right?!?! She is ALWAYS on the right side of the numbers. How???

/ whatsmyrageagain: Wonder if she knew Claire had found the idol. She was like *right there* when Claire snagged it at the challenge. That would make sense why she worked w Jamie and joe to protect her. 

/ / Outplayaaaa: I want her to win for the snark alone. 12/10 comedy.

/ / / yesimawitch: Gillian to Claire: “Fantasies aside, I don’t think the game would be a pleasant one with your two men at my back.” I C O N I C. 

justhereforthekarma12313: Am I the only one who hates J & C not talking?? God I know its all tv and its probably fake anyway but the way that man looks at her…

/ Heiiiidiiiii_isonreddit [Top Fan]: I want it to be real so bad. If they come back after the show and it was all an act imma riot

/ / user12334481: I’ll bring the pitchforks, you bring the torches

/ / / Tooney___lunes: I’ll bring snacks. all good riots needs snacks.

/ Levi_not_the_jeans: The way *he* looks at *her*??? If I had a woman who looked at me the way Claire does to Jamey…well…I’d still be gay af but I’d feel very good about myself ok?

angels__wear_red: *sigh* these two idiots make me believe in love. please for the loVE OF ALL THAT IS BEAUTIFUL AND JOYFUL DON’T CRUSH MY DREAMS!!!1

Read the newest update to 39 Days here.

[carmenized-onions]

NEW CHAPTER, 14, new recap (can you believe the first one i recapped was chapter 5 oh my) lets rip some coke and goooo

“I thought it was a good bit!” “Cause I’m a piece of shit?” - IVE MISSED THISS

CHARMIN SOUNDS LIKE CHARMING 🥹🥹🥹

the deer in headlights bit is v funny, you’ll see when you see the memes (which i made before the chapter, i am nostradamus)

she is fruity for sure

nodding like i understand food talk (tf is a3)

unrelated but the same therapist thing reminded me about something i keep forgetting to bring up - RICHIE IS HR. so when you mentioned the bear needs an HR, well they do. and as long as carmy treats chip right i think he’ll accept the co-worker relationship (anything to be able to work with chippy)

THE CAT. he is those cute curly kitties. the shat, iykyk

the fact carmen wants to say ‘i love you’ this early (something he struggled a lot to say to his family) IS SOOOOOOOOO

OMG CHIPPY GOING TO WORK FOR THEM FOR REAL????:333333333

This has been Carmichael Burrowski, folks! Don’t call no one— — DNEKRKRIOELEKDKFODNEKE CARMICHAEL BURROWSKI

Ugh, boyfriend? What kind of word is ‘boyfriend’? That's fucked. - THEYRE SO SIMILAR AND PERFECT TOGETHER

And you cannot say you love him because that would be weird. - OH SHUT UP THEYRE SO

“I’m going to kiss you.” “Yeah, okay.” - THAT IS SO FUNNY SJDJFJKF

He’s fine with the touch of hair pulling, on your part— Possibly more than fine. — *giggles in meme*

“You’re so pretty.” You tell him anyway, speaking into his half open mouth.  Whatever thought he had, it’s dead now.“—Jesus fucking Christ.” - i need them to know how much i love them jesus fucking christ

“I’m not a fucking virgin.” - LMFAOEKRKKEOEKEKRNRKRKRKEKEKEKE

“It was a recent development, okay?” “Darn. Sorry I was late.” - 🥺🥺🥺 imagine -

“I want you in every sentence.” - FUCKING KILL ME WHY DONT YOU CARA MIA😭

to bite you like a cannibal - this man and his hickeys🤭🤭🤭

“Fak is still outside, I’m pretty sure.” - CHIP??1?2?2?3kr3kr3kr3kr838484kr4&4&4

“Wait— Are they?” Oh, so Richie’s here, too? Good. - oh great everyone’s here, bet squid is there too

NUZZLING NOSES

her old cat, her old pu-

Nuzzling your face into Syd’s cheek - squidink as she’s holding carm’s hand?? wild

“First of all, wrong placement.” - ofc it is

When shit happens, you call me - 🥺🥺🥺 bestie!!!

“Get your weird little hands off my Chip, you perv—” - LMFAOOOW DJEJEJDJDJ I LOVE HIM SO

and syd’s reply sidjdifi

“Y’know how going to a different barber is like cheating—?” - SJDJDJ GET HIS ASS CHIP. they swapped her for fucking ted fak???

“You’re still— We’re still sharing, right?” - SYD SHENJEHEJE

I’m sexually normal - very normal thing to say, it me tho

OMFG IF CHIP RECOGNIZES DONNA AND PETE FROM OUTSIDE THE RESTAURANT

“Baby’s do traditionally experience time, yeah.” “You n’ that smart mou—” - their dynamic is unmatched

You have to respect the power in that. “Damn.” - that reminded me of marcus

“Oooh, Charmin gets his first paycheck suddenly he’s all that—” “You wanna come up to my room or not?” - i was gonna comment on the charmin thing but HELLO1??1?23)kr3:kr

THEY CAN HANG. SURE BRO

THEYRE WATCHING RATATOUILLE OMGGGGG

Sleeveless black turtleneck? Maybe black palazzo pants - HOT

Please say yes to the white apron. Please say yes to his team. He'll get your initials monogrammed and everything. - *passes out*

the wonderful rat chef

ON GOD

“Yeah. I’ll answer.” - bc 🥺😭

“You’re fucking Carmen!” - GOODBYEEEE. not carmen outing them YET AGAIN

“So fuck you, actually.” - 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

“Fuck off! I’m already coming to fucking Time Square with you, don’t be whiny.”  - this is giving when dwight was like ‘of course i’ll get that stuff for you so just shut up’

“I nominate Carmen.” “I second the nom.” - tag-team<33

Don’t fuck in a fuckin’ Holiday Inn Chip’s worth mo - he’s so sweet and yet so???

HE CALLED CHIP BABY I REPEAT

It's absolutely going in Carmen's top five favourite expressions of yours. - 🕊️🕊️🕊️

“Syd said she will be knocking violently if I’m not back at midnight on the dot, yeah.” - SQUID GIVING HER GF A CURFEW

THE BERF SHIRT

“God, it’s over—” - squidink is so over rn😔

“Baby, just say you’re happy for me.” - BABY. THEYRE SO BACK

squid can stab men, a little, as a treat

You hand her your water bottle when you spot her looking at it. - 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

her instinct is to call chip, oh OH oh

“I didn’t ask you to be great.” Syd says it before she thinks it, and it’s enough to make your eyes water - MINE ARE RUNNING TOO ACTUALLY

God you’re dehydrated - *careless whisper plays* i mean what I SAID NOTHING

squid out🦑🦑

“It’s so crazy that you think that’s gonna happen—” - I LOVEEE SHEEE

Your shoulders touch as you both stare at the ceiling. - CUTIES

She hums, pointing to the popcorn tiles - namedrop! jk…unless?

“Oh my fucking God it’s that bad—”- GET THEIR ASSES SQUID

In front of everyone, accidentally while saying goodbye, off-handedly while hanging up, over text, and so on and so forth. - all of those are cute actually

“Now it’s three.” “Fuck, it’s gaining interest?!” - WE’RE SO BACK!!!!

“Wait, what the fuck, Syd, say it back!” - REAL!!

this was so cute!! just them and their adventures

LETS. GET. ROLLLINNGGGG!!!! (papers!!!) (we both can do drug jokes in this house!!!) (there will be a wip under all this as a treat I promise)

I’m honestly shocked Charmin isn’t a canon nickname (yet!!), cause like. IT DOES SOUND LIKE CARMEN!!! AND THE TOILET PAPER BEARS!!! AND THE TOILET PAPER BEARS ARE BLUE NOW TOO!!! WHAT THE HELL!!!

You are frfr an oracle with your memes, occasionally I look at em like hmmmmm,,,, this is gonnna be a lot funnier after the next one. My comedic Nostradamus genius. (the secrets of the universe ARE in the popcorn ceiling!! U!!)

The benefit about writing about food for people who did not come for food is that I also don’t have to fully understand what I’m saying. Had to look at a wagyu chart and make a lot of assumptions. I am not going to make steak with pop rocks to find out if it’s any good.

OKAY WHAT THE FUCK I S RICHIE’S JOB I’M BEING SO FR I DO NOT !!! Carmen’s Exec, Syd’s CDC/Head, Richie is… HR/Co-Manager/Host??? No wonder he can afford fuckin eras tour tickets bro is getting THREE DIFFERENT PAYCHECKS WHAT!!! But this does make sense. Bro IS THEE Human Resource.

Had to look up photos of sheep cats. Yeah that’s him. That’s Carmen but a Cat for sure.

RAHH. The held back I love yous are very. Very rah. Theres a lot of thought behind them for me but I shant share because I feel like that may give too much away I fear?

Carmichael burrowski is brought to you by seeing Carmichael company vans a lot and Mae Burrowski from Night in the Woods. Thank u both for ur service.

I completely forgot about the ‘that’s fucked’ convo with Fak until I saw a gifset and went OH YEAH…. It IS fucked. They are so stupid. They are also both unable to say I love you because that would be WEIRD!!!!!!!

I am so happy with the incredibly funny smooch because it was very much to mimic Carmen’s —

I think funny kisses are the way to go. There is something very charming (CHARMIN!) to me about awkwardly expressed consent.

YOU DIDN’T PUT THE RATATOULLIE MEME IN THIS ONE FOR THE PUBLIC TO ENJOY AND FOR THAT!!! YOU’VE DEPRIVED OUR PEOPLE!! i knew if I was gonna make him watch ratatouille and have him relate, he’d have to relate to more than just remy.

I’ll call them and let them know you love them, promise. Whenever they get out of the bathroom.

Carmen 30-Year Old Virgin Berzatto— Or 28-29, time line is UNCLEAR!! Regardless, I couldn’t take away my man’s one W. He fumbles most people, I had to let him have the one he canonically got. And also it was too fun to consider him absolutely STEWING as Tony recounts her emotional relationship with Mikey, just thinking in the background “I need to tell her I am in fact. NOT . a virgin!” I hate this man.

I WANT YOU IN EVERY SENTENCEEE RRAAAWHWHWHEHE!!! Loved that. Loved writing that paragraph. Love love. Love wanting to have someone so intrinsically in your life that in order for someone to know you they have to know them. WOOOOOO!!!!!!!! Carmen give her a hickey before we have to confront the emotional implications, GET HER BOY!!

Well how much did you bet on syd being there because now I owe you

CHIPS GOT TWO HANDS FOR A REASON BABY!!! I’m kidding the triangle would never work. But they should try anyways.

Whole Richie scene makes me :)) it’s fun to navigate these two going through like, so many internal emotions obviously over Chip’s trauma dump, and deciding what Richie would actually take a moment to comment on. And I think it absolutely has to be the ‘imagine your friends are dead’, bro 100% HAD TO BE HELD BACK FROM RAMMING THE DOOR DOWN TRULY TRULY. Don’t imagine I’m fuckin dead cousin!!!!!! I’m not a fuckin ghost!!! Call me!!!!!!!!! I am literally your guy!!!!!

Watching season 3 and seeing half of the season unnecessarily focusing on a Handyman (Ted) really had me clutching my pearls like. Bro. where’s my baby. Who the fuck does this guy think he is. This is CHIP TURF!!

BIG SHOUT OUT TO SYDNEY ‘THE SQUID’ ‘SEXUALLY NORMAL’ ADAMU!~

Donna!! Donna!! Finally semi-time that I have to face my white whale of writing,,, da mom… I’m still mentally tackling how to write her, but we’ll get there when we get there…. (truly thought she was gonna fucking die this season I didn’t think I was gonna have to DEAL WITH IT!!)

Everyone simultaneously did a record scratch at ‘do you want to come up to my room’ and I think that’s beautiful. I think that’s everything I wanted and more. They can hang bro. and watch ratatouille. Like hang out and be normal and fantasize about easily removable aprons with monogramming done.

Carmen is a certified shoe in his mouth yapper. Sugar, hand the crown to your brother, you may step off your throne; because this fucker has gotten caught like three separate times simply by being himself.

VERY DWIGHT Very like, sibling texting ‘fuck you I hate you what do you want from mcdonalds im omw home’. That’s the Richip dynamic to me. And then they kill carm.

Chip baby!!! This is not a drill he finally called her a pet name!! men, to your stations! And she didn’t even have the brain to COMPUTE IT, alas.

The post squid scene was so tough I was like, ‘do I cut this and just end on carmen?’ but then I knew, I’d never write this scene, cause spoiler alert, we’re doing a very slight time skip. So like. I just wanted Squidink to have their actual last beat to their sad no contact era because!!! So many feelings to be had over not contacting your boy in forever!!! But god its so OVER!

‘Didn’t ask you to be great’ is SUCH a punch to the gut, esp for a people pleaser like Chip (or me, man). Like. Fuckin. GOD. It’s the same sentiment Richie had in Just Dropped with ‘I’d love you even if you weren’t useful’, but like, this side of it is pre-useful. Like. Not only would I love you if you weren’t useful, I would never ASK you to be useful. HELL.

All of those I love yous are cute you say? Well I will have to up my game in coming up with something truly mortifying, then.

Shout out to me, directing on set, and demanding that my crew says it back when I say I love you. Genuinely my ‘Heard’ is a reciprocated ‘I love you’. No one call Richie/HR.

also the memes. immaculate as always. AND THE AUTHOR/CHIP COMPARISON,,, ART IMITATES LIFE, what can i say? if carmen/chip manage to live together at a point i really can't imagine him denying anything she wants. i think he would only have opinions on the kitchen and maybe efficiency of moving through spaces. (WE NEED TO PUSH THE COFFEE TABLE BACK!!! SIDLING AGAINST IT TO GET TO THE COUCH IS CAUSING A 3.4 SECOND DELAY IN MOVIE TIME!!!!) psycho.

Anyways. As always, a pweasure to hear your thoughts. I am hoping next weekend will finally be the fucking weekend I put something out. It’s hard slugging through this next chapter because it’s basically our so much fucking dialogue chapter, and navigating action and meaning AROUND that has been a nightmare. I think I’m probably over thinking the fuck out of it, to be fair. I feel so bad making y’all wait, so here is a juicer snippet.

THANK YOU LOVE YOU APPRECIATE ALL UR PATIENCE AND ALL UR THOUGHTS I LOVE TO HEAR FROM YALL!!

[sakiyaki-sashimi]

WOAH IM HERE WHOOPS, I had to lie in wait for a moment.. no but the real reason I was gone for a bit is because since my anon messages are like.. super long, I don’t want to accidentally exhaust you so I try to give it some time between them so that DOESN’T happen! But I’ve been here!

And good guess, but no :3 I do like myself some project sekai too.. my favorite group is mmj, I’m Minori’s #1 fan actually uhmmmm!!

And we are (in fact) mutuals! :D One of my favorites ones I giggle behind my hands.. I doubt we’re IRLs? If we are, I would explode /pos

Anddd of course I like you! It’s not especially difficult, you make it easy.. :3

It’s actually a little bit insane to me we have mutual interests or likes like.. oh my god? Super cool person somehow likes the same things as me? Actually unreal uhmmm!! Like for example, the candies I named last time are ALSO some of my favorites from when I was a kid :D

Also adore the mystery genre.. (Animes, games, books etc…) I’m stupidly in love with the trope where it’s a super smart girl and just a guy who basically makes sure she doesn’t get herself killed (In/Spectre my beloved..)

And your hint! Let’s seeeee.. I’m also newer to Tumblr? I said I found you around in the October-December period but that’s also when I first made my account :3 And I’m a minorrr.. I feel like that’s obvious but I’m throwing it out there too just in case..

YEAH.. OKAY. I feel like I’m banging at my enclosure to not shower you in constant praise (I feel the need to emphasize every time I mean this all in a non-strange way..) just because that’s the only way I feel I can properly show how cool I think you are uhm! Anyways! I cover myself in a cloak and when it comes off I disappear

HIIIII U CAME BACK!!!!!! Yay!!!!!! You could never exhaust me, no matter how long you write, because it’s you writing it!!! I could listen to you for paragraphs without being bored!! Ur honestly my favorite thing on tumblr rn <33

No matter how much or little u send idm!! Ily anyway! Glad ur sticking around tho <33

Omg minori fan?!?!!! Also PJSEKAI FAN YAY! Are you by chance sleepyjiraiminori!!? HAVE I DONE IT?! IM MUTUALS WITH THEM OMG IT COULD BE U!!!! Also if we were IRLs you would 100% know it bc im usually the reason my IRLs are on tumblr to begin with XD but if we were I would be so happy!!!

Man I’m so happy u like me!! U say I make it easy but mannn idk sometimes I can be a little exhausting I know it!! One day I’m very happy genki and the next I’m negative and politically charged LOLLL well that’s what you get when you give a jirai leftist teen a tumblr account I guess XD

THOSE CANDIES ARE UR FAV TOO??!!!! Man!! We have to be closer than we think then, that’s so uniquely American XD At least I think so hahaha! Honestly it’s so crazy to have like a secret double version of me on tumblr!! So I totally get it :3

OMG I LOVE MYSTERY TOO!! My fav genre of mystery is team of detectives that are found family, especially with one genius newbie upstart and the older detective that’s been there the whole time and at first they hate each other but then they become parent-kid!! Aghhh so good so good

IN/SPECTRE!!! IVE BEEN MEANING TL WATCH THAT WAHHHHHH AHH!!!! Just one more thing we’ll have in common when I’m done X3 man I can’t wait to figure out who you are so we can RP!! (ONLY IF U WANT OFC!!)

That hint also aligns with sleepyjiraiminori too!! Man if ur not her yall need to be friends too, you’d get along great! Also the minor bit was a given bc most of my moots are minors anyway XD idk any non-minor moots and even if I have them there’s nobody who likes my blog who’s older than 18! (Unless my old online gr00m3rs still follow me?? Ugh I sure hope not..)

BRO THAT IMAGE OF U BANGING ON A LITTLE CAGE IS SO SWEET SOMEHOW??? My little ferret I wanna hug u so badddd /p

That’s just so sweet of u!! I think ur super cool too, just the coolest!!!! I’m so happy ur around here with me <3

Haha now I imagine you as a little cream white ferret with peachy front and back paws and big dark brown eyes, all wrapped up in a black cloak Despereaux style!! X3 ur prob taller than me, so ur like one of those tall lanky ferrets in my head, and im a small chubby mouse, like a comedy duo LOLLL

anyway wahhh stay safe, c u next time!!

(Here’s to hoping my guess is right this time fellow detective!)

[wrongcaitlyn]

Read the pollen one-shot. WHOA.

The whole thing is just tragedy after tragedy like ok my heart doesn't exist anymore

DID THEY BOTH AGREE TO THE NAME KAYLA AND PHOEBE

Apollo hoping that Will doesn't turn out like him ☹️ like a valid concern considering his.. habits.. but also like ☹️

Darren ILY omg

Now that we've seen pretty much how their relationship is I'm just like so 😭 it's so bittersweet HE WAS GONNA PROPOSE

I had a headcanon that Apollo was gonna propose bc I'm like that'd be so angsty THEN APOLLO ACTUALLY DID PROPOSE OMG

No but like hearing how Apollo lowkey pushed Naomi and Latrica to the side 🤕 like I get he was going through a lot so I cannot be too mad but also bruh (in my delusional hopes and dreams Naomi and Apollo stayed good friends even though I knew they didn't 😞)

BABY WILL AND AUSTIN

Apollo always responding to his mother oh he's such a mama's boy don't even

Him having to even DOUBT his mother's love oh my god Apollo needs a hug

This oneshot was lowkey (highkey) alcoholism galore like whoa Apollo go see a therapist pls

I hate Zeus that's it I hope he rots

IM A LITTLE LATE TO THIS ASK BUT THANK YOU FOR WRITING THIS AND OMG I CANNOT BELIEVE IT'S BEEN ALMOST TWO YEARS SINCE I'VE STARTED READING DEAR READER 😭😭 like talk about emotional ☹️☹️

I will never regret deciding to read this bc I was simply bored in my hotel room while on a trip to San Antonio 😭😭 searched for gold ended up finding diamonds 🫶🫶

"The whole thing is just tragedy after tragedy" LITERALLY THEM LMAOOO thats the goal when writing apollo. he must be tragic always.

unfortunately apollo did not help naming kayla </33 they were tossing back and forth names for a while and waiting to come to something that would fit but by the time apollo left for tour they hadn't decided on something. kayla phoebe was chosen by darren because kayla means laurel/crown (haha, can you guess why he chose that), and phoebe is meant to be a reference to apollo the god/greek mythology. so darren still was keeping apollo in mind but i dont think apollo knew the name of his kid till they met up in august, darren did tell him then </3

IT REALLY IS BITTERSWEETJSDFJ LIKE AHHHH they were so close and yet they were also so far </33

"No but like hearing how Apollo lowkey pushed Naomi and Latrica to the side 🤕 like I get he was going through a lot so I cannot be too mad but also bruh (in my delusional hopes and dreams Naomi and Apollo stayed good friends even though I knew they didn't 😞)" - YEAH APOLLO IS LIKE. lowkey highkey toxic and like im not really gonna try and play a justification game because he has a lot of flaws but was also put in a lot of tough positions and was also just really young but! he definitely was also not blameless in these things it's just kinda a tough situation all around :/

except for apollo's dad/zeus he's entirely to blame for everything always

APOLLO LOVES HIS MOM!!! but he is unsure of her loving him back sometimes :(( (she really does, but,,, well again it's a tough situation all around. loving somebody doesn't mean always knowing the best thing to do for them, and his mom also didn't always make the best decisions </3)

yeah,,, thankfully i can tell you that apollo DOES eventually get therapy/go to rehab/go sober so very proud of him but. it did take a whileJDSFJ

the way that i look at it is that he wasn't able to go sober when it was to benefit his own life (to keep darren in his life/fix his own problems), but he was able to when it was to protect will (from being adopted by his parents and being put into the same cycle of fame that he was).

"I hate Zeus that's it I hope he rots" REAL!!!!!

"IM A LITTLE LATE TO THIS ASK BUT THANK YOU FOR WRITING THIS AND OMG I CANNOT BELIEVE IT'S BEEN ALMOST TWO YEARS SINCE I'VE STARTED READING DEAR READER 😭😭 like talk about emotional ☹️☹️"

IM A LITTLE LATE TO RESPONDINGSJDFJ SORRY IVE BEEN SO BUSY THIS WEEK BUT AHHGHSDF NO SAME. im honestly just so excited to finally finish it even though it still prob won't be for a while - the goal is definitely to get it done in 2025 though,,, preferably before college LMAO WE'LL SEE!!! the end is near i swear

THANK YOU SO MUCH <333

[pink-ichor]

hi oomf!!! im really interested about your soul-bonding but i dont have a specific question to ask pertaining it but, i wanna hear you talk about it & im interested in learning more!!! feel free to use this ask to just dump abt it here, i guess??

hiii!! ^o^

sooo.. wow where do i even start,,,

so i've been soulbonded with sano for a while now, probably for abt 5 or 6 months out of the 8 months we've been together? it was not at all intentional nor expected on my part. i didn't even know what soulbonding was until it happened!

after a lot of weird coincidences & signs popping up irl (which is,, a very long list), i realized that something was definitely,, different. i did my research, found out what soulbonding was, & basically realized "ohh,, he's real". it feels a bit strange still,, sometimes i feel like i'm going crazy or maybe i'm just pretending. but then he'll do something that i otherwise would have no control over & im reminded that he's here with me after all.

he's not around all the time, he kinda goes back & forth. i can't see him, but ill randomly feel his presence every now & then or he'll send another "sign" to remind me he's still around. i do have conversations with him in my headspace but it's often really difficult to for whatever reason,, so we don't talk as much as we'd like. though it seems like recently it's gotten easier for him to be with me in a more physical sense. he can touch me & some surrounding objects (i can't touch him though,, ive tried ;u;). at times i hear things like his heartbeat or him purring very clearly as well!!

sano is pretty much the same as his canon self with a few minor differences. when i talk to him, he seems a lot more.. shy ig? a bit more insecure as well. he didn't really understand why i liked him so much at first & he was scared that he'd do more harm than good. but he's genuinely so so sweet to me <33

another interesting thing is that i'm pretty sure that in my past life as sylvie, he was my master/the doctor that cared for me? still looking into that,, but that's one of the reasons why i draw myself as sylvie in any artwork of us! that along with the fact im an irl of sylvie ofc. but yeah,, i guess u could say we're kinda like soulmates!

that's prettyyy much all i can think of for now,, tysm for the ask!! if u (or anyone else!) ever have anything ur curious about then please feel free to ask me!! i love sharing stuff about my darling hehe <33

[akaakeis]

HEY HEY HEEEEYYYYYYY bokuto moment

HI SAV<33

first of all shut up and pretend I didn't see ur sideblog posts THE THING IS I LOVE LOVE LOVE SENDING ASKS BUT LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW IF ITD BE FREAKY TO SEND RANDOM ASS ASKS TO YOU EVEN THO I BLEAT IN UR DMS EVERY OTHER SECOND

N E WAYS HIIII im having lunch rn !! IT RAINED SO BAD SO ITS LIKE 5PM AND IM STILL IN MY UNIFORM AND STUFF i had like.. stuff planned on my schedule and stuff :cccccc

dude the way i do NAWT feel like writing at all but also im dying to get yns pov in the first chapter like PICK A FUCKING SIDE OMFG literally had to pause writing this to think

TODAY I CORRECTED THE ENGLISH TEACHERS GRAMMAR IT WAS SO FUNNY LIKE I WAS WRITING AT THE BOTTOM OF THIS HUGE ASS WHITEBOARD SO I WAS KNEELING ON THE GROUND AND SHE GOES TO CORRECT SOMEONE'S (ALREADY CORRECT) GRAMMAR AND I LOOK UP TO HER LIKE UH NO THAT'S RIGHT ACTUALLY AND SHE DIDN'T EVEN QUESTION IT JUST TOOK IT LIKE A CHAMP??? LIKE GIRL WHEN EVEN U KNOW UR WRONG????

THE SENTENCE WAS monica went to her grandmother's house for summer vacation AND SHE MADE IT WEIRDER SOUNDING "during vacation" LIKE GIRL NO??????????? sorry for ranting god im such a hater

AND LIKE THESE FUCKASS TEACHERS WONT SEE MY TEXTS (i love them) BUT THE EXACT SECOND I PULL UP TO THEM AT SCHOOL IM GETTING MY CHEEKS TUGGED AT LIKE "oh em gee alina u did such a great job we r sooo proud of u" DIE. AND IM SO SCARED CUZ IM NOT STUDYING PROPERLY OR ENOUGH I THINK AND MY SCHEDULE IS SO FREAKY AND WEIRD AND THE !! RAIN !! EW 🤮🤢🤮🤢 not that i hate the rain, it just conveniently happens NOT when im at home ready to go to school, but rather otw to school or otw home so i'm just late everywhere. also MY WATER BOTTLE DISAPPEARED?? AND THERES A GIRL W THIEVING TENDENCIES IN CLASS LIKE IM NOT POINTING FINGERS BUT BUT BUUUUUUUT um. ANWYAYS I SAW A SUBMERGED MOTORCYCLE AND ALSO MY CHEM TEACHER TAKING PICS OF THE FLOOD LIKE WTF HE WANT THEM FOR "look wife im not cheating im actually trapped in school"

dude.. biceps r so..... like... kuroo... IM LOWK A KUROO ENTHUSIAST HE IS SO YUMMY LIKE U JUST KNOW HED LET U BITE IT (my intrusive thoughts r like. if he existed irl. nom nom time) NOT EVEN IN A SEXUAL WAY BTW I JUST NEED A CHOMP

ANYWAYS I FOUND OUT LIKE RN THAT I GOT 77/90 IN PAPER 1 AND 95/110 IN PAPER 2 OF BANGLA AND I ONLY GOT AN A* BECAUSE OF THE THRESHOLD (171) LIKE WHAAAT. (I GOT 172)

ITS 5:18PM RN AND IM GNA TAKE THE FASTEST FUCKING SHOWER OF MY ENTIRE LIKE CUZ MY HAIR GREASY ASF AND ITS SO EW AND THEN ILL DO CHEM NOTES HASHTAG STUDYING TRUST ME ! ! !

ANYWAYS last anyways of the day HRU MY BABY POOKIE PIE DARLING SWEETHEART POPEYES MUFFIN CUPCAKE HONEYPIE POPSICLE POOKIEBRO HOW WAS UR SLEEP HOW WAS UR YESTERDAY HOW IS UR LIFE WHATS GOING ON AND ALSO ALSO ALSO i forget give me a sec um erm ueueue OH I GOT IT I ABSOLUTELY ADORE U FOR READING ALL OF THE THINGS I SEND U LIKE!!!!! SHIRRJSKSKSOKSKS ILY okbye!!

HEY LINA!!

yeah im gonna act like u didnt see that sideblog post bc i SAID i wasnt trying to hint at anyone... AND NO THATS NOT FREAKY?? idk man i send in asks to ness like every day bc i think its fun to talk that way!! paragraph asks are genuinely so fun to receive!! ALSO USING THE WORD BLEAT IS CRAZY YOU R NOT BLEATING IN MY DMS

omg i hope you had a good lunch!! im answering this like an hour later so i assume u already finished? idk its weird that we're 12 hrs apart 😭 AND NOOO THATS AWFUL :(( sorry to hear that love :( hopefully the rain didn't flood any area and you and your fam are all good!!

HELP THATS SUCH A REAL FEELING i was battling with that yesterday so bad omf... i feel like sometimes we can attach somewhat negative connotations w writing bc sometimes it can feel like a chore? so sometimes it's a struggle to get up and decide to write? maybe thats js me but like yeah 😓 BUT GENUINELY SO EXCITED FOR YOUR APOCALYPSE AU!! ITS BEEN AMAZING SO FAR!! AND ANYTHING IVE READ FOR IT MAKES ME WANT TO LET OUT AUDIBLE SOBS ‼️ that sounds negative but i feel like you get why i want to LIKE GOOD GRIEF anyway write whenever you feel like it!! dont force it <3

THERES NO WAY??? PLEASE THATS SO FUNNY TO ME 😭 I LOVE THAT SHE DIDNT EVEN QUESTION IT OMG? YOU PROBABLY SPEAK MUCH MORE FLUENTLY THAN HER ANYWAY LMAOAOAO BUT PROUD OF YOU!!

okay like maybe im stupid but i feel like both of those sentences make sense? like "monica went to her grandmother's house for summer vacation" makes sense but so does "monica went to her grandmother's house during vacation" it's just that it doesn't specify whether it's during summer vacation so it can sound awkward ig?? idk man ive been stuck reading old english for the last couple of days bc of the hobbit (I DESPISE THAT BOOK IT CAN GO DIE) sigh

HELP?? I MEAN IM SO HAPPY YOURE GETTING GOOD GRADES THO!! AS LONG AS YOURE ABLE TO STUDY JUST ENOUGH SO THAT YOURE CONFIDENT IN THE TOPIC THEN I THINK YOURE GOOD HONESTLY 😨 and the rain sounds like its out to get u thats wild??? PLEASE im not pointing my finger at anyone... im just agreeing here... there's a chance 😭 having classmates with tendencies to steal is such a pain in the ass tho i hope you're able to retrieve your water bottle!! AND HELP I LOVE THE WAY YOU DUBBED THAT "im not cheating im actually stuck in school" had me giggling sm

HELLO? BITING KUROO'S BICEP IS INSANE (but lowkey i would too VERY LOWKEY because i feel like im not super attracted to big biceps and stuff idk?? but just a little chomp 😋😋)

WHATATATAT AT LEAST YOU GOT A* THOUGH ‼️ GOOD JOB!!!

AAA ENJOY YOUR SHOWER! I HOPE IT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER!! AND YES WE LOVE A RESPONSIBLE STUDIOUS GIRL 😋

AND IM ACTUALLY DOING GOOD MY POOKIE WOOKIE SUGAR PLUM COOKIE BROWNIE PUMPKIN PIE HONEY LOML (i laughed an obscene amount while writing that)!! TODAY IM GONNA BE SUPER BUSY.. I HAVE SPEECH AND DEBATE AFTER MY SCHOOL DAY IS OVER AND THEN I HAVE VOLLEYBALL PRACTICE UNTIL... 7 PM???? I THINK???? GOD. AND I SLEPT SUPER DUPER WELL I WOKE UP RLY COZY IN MY BED AND IM STILL HUDDLED UP IN HERE LMAOAOAO 😭 YESTERDAY WAS GOOD!! I DIDNT HAVE ANYTHING I NEEDED TO DO SO I GOT TO CHILL AT HOME AND LISTEN TO MUSIC AND LITTLE PODCASTS (i listen to the bit my tongue podcast by nailea devora SOOO MUCH) AND AWHAGSHHA LINA!! I ADORE EVERYTHING YOU WRITE AND ANYTHING YOU SEND TO ME!! ILL ALWAYS MAKE TIME TO READ SOMETHING YOU SEND ME!! ILY!! <3

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ari !! ari i hope u are doing so so amazing n vibing and living ur best life, i feel like i haven’t been interacting as much these days so i wanted to stop by n say hi!! :] and hmmm ive yet to read your best friend’s brother fic but it made me wanna think of an unrequited love between best friend!satoru and you where satoru is the one down horrendous instead (and perhaps you’re already spoken for.. mayb with sugu…. this is totally not ari-specific bait) i would love to hear your thoughts on our special little loverboy not being loved back in the ways he wants so bad )): 🫶🏼 side note if i think abt this pining bestie!gojo too much i get so sad i fear he’d never get over that crush on you even if you were already married to someone else… 💔💔💔💔

LOGAN !!!!! ^ this is me @ you rn……. i am kissing you and biting you gently <33333

I’M DOING PRETTY WELL… flowers r starting to bloom over here which is so nice !!! i’m just kind of waiting for summer ….. i have so many fic ideas that i wanna get to but not enough time :’3 not to mention my neglected tbr………

bUT overall i’m doing well!!! i hope it’s the same for you!!!!! it’s so sweet of u to drop by sniffle…. but pls don’t ever feel pressured to !! i saw that post you made a couple days ago n pls just know there’s never any pressure or obligation for you to interact often and stuff!!!! i’m always happy to speak to you whenever, so there’s never any rush <33 (i totally get it too… i’m pretty sure i have the online status thing turned off which takes off a lot of that pressure so!! i recommend doing that if you haven’t already <33)

BUT OKOK. onto the good stuff!!!! logan…. this probably doesn’t come as too much of a surprise considering the fic i posted but . i rlly love the unrequited love trope!!! >:3 i used to be the biggest sucker for hanahaki aus���. still am……. i need to write smth on it at some point bc i think it’s one of the best things ever created (and it’s perfect for toru let’s be real… the flower symbolism)….. SO. scenarios like this are very appealing to me!! and with bestie!satoru too…….. i have many thoughts >:33 let’s see how long i manage to stay coherent hehe

FIRST OF ALL. the ari specific bait…… you little weasel (affectionate) OK BUT . the fact that it’s Suguru in Particular changes a lot i think. i’ll circle back to that later tho trust 🙏

okay so. overall!! and i’d love to know your thoughts on this logan….. i firmly believe that satoru is the type to love one single person for the rest of his life. he never moves on from them. once someone has earned his love and nestled their way into his heart they’re there to stay. (and i’d argue that it’s kinda supported by canon yk… satoru hanging on to his memories of youth/suguru no matter how much time passes :’3)… so!! yeah!!! i definitely think he’d stay in love with his bestie forever, even if he knew fully well his feelings wouldn’t be returned. that’s just my take though!!!

i thinkkkk the tricky part is just. how satoru feels about it. a part of me wants to say that he handles it decently, that he’s happy just to be around you… but i think it’s also natural for him to feel a little empty about it all. bc he truly is!! a loverboy!!! deep down he yearns so badly for intimacy :(((( satoru is just such a pro at isolating himself and i think it gets worse in this kind of scenario. he loves you but does keep a certain distance i think…. to make it easier for himself and also so he doesn’t mess anything up for you. but he can never keep himself away for too long……

ok so we’re circling back to sugu now. i think satoru would handle the situation a lot better if suguru and you were together. my stsg-infested brain just can’t imagine an au where he isn’t at least a little bit in love with suguru…. and i think seeing two people he loves and trusts with all his heart be together doesn’t bother him nearly as much as it would have if you were with a random third party. there’s this One quote i like from . um….. a voice actor. of a character. in… ohshc 👉👈 AND I JUST THINK IT FITS IN THIS SCENARIO OK…….. :’3

I think Kyoya is very much in love with Tamaki and with Haruhi. He’s very much in love with the both of them. And I think it matures to a point where he would much prefer to see the both of them together than him with either one. Because they make more sense together than he makes with anybody else.

i think that’s sort of how he’d feel!!! there’s a kind of maturity there that satoru has imo. and since he’s so close to both of you, he doesn’t have to worry about being pushed out of your life (which might be his biggest worry in a scenario where you’re together with a random third party)…… so. yeah!!! would it be angsty? yes ofc. but i rlly do see satoru as a mature character, and also often selfless!!! he just respects you and your choices so much :(((

……….. what i will say. is that if you happened to get together with someone who didn’t treat you well. he would Shut That Shit Down instantly <3333 we love angry protective satoru !!!!!!!!

[youremyheaven]

https://www.tumblr.com/youremyheaven/769499107190587392/haha-i-was-a-little-hesitant-about-telling-my-age?source=share

Princess here. You're so sweet yaar 🥹 it legit feels like I'm talking to a big sister and that's so heartwarming cause I've never had one.

You're just unbelievably warm 🥹🥹🥹 and Definitely! Moving on is the way to go. Whatever happened was not my fault and all i can do is learn from that past experience cause life goes on and that pedo will get his karma just like everyone else.

Men are THE WORST! The most VILE and SCARY creatures to ever exist! You know that motherfucker would Refuse to use protection even with me practically begging him to use it cause obviously I didn't wanna get preggo or to get a fucking STD but he'd always go “Oh but it feels so good without a condom on” or “I'll pull out” and i used to be so fucking scared cause it always took literally 2 mins for that son of a bitch to cum and me being a biology nerd it was so fucking crazy, I used to be so anxious about not getting my period (on top of that I had PCOD at that time) so I used to practically have a break down every month. But obviously that guy didn't care cause “He pulled out in time” Sometimes he'd even scream at me and practically force me to do things which is just disgusting and at that time i used to wonder why it wasn't as physically or mentally arousing for me.

awww<33

thats really sweet of you and im so glad youve stuck around for sooo long bbg !!!

his karma will come for him. you stay safe and take care of yourself and heal from everything. being a teenager is the absolute worst. im in my mid 20s and everyday im just glad im not a teenager, not having any autonomy and being controlled SUXX like how do you even file a complaint about any of this without them making u sound like a bad guy (welcome to India where any woman/girl who has sex, consensual or not, is a slut)

the pull out nonsense PISSES ME OFF. like it has veryyyy real consequences and i cannot believe some asshat will just but his tiny dick and its pleasure above all else YUCK 🤢🤢🤮🤮like refusing to use a condom is paramount to rape

i hope all those bastards go to hell

sidenote: i heard people at work joke about my big "melons" and ive been in bad mood since. like i cant keep my tits at home and then go to work??? so like??? yeah theyre out there but literally what am i supposed to do???

[dykevanny]

TRANS GREG AND NESSA IM GONNA CRY OVER THEM. xe has totally bought every article physically possible in the mens section. AUGH.

and greg in skirts is everything…. ik it can be a lot harder to like. experiment (safely, at least) w ur gender presentation if everyone thinks ur a guy n u were raised a guy. cause ppl are still weird about guys in skirts! but ness wouldnt be weird abt it and xe knows that Look and even tho greg thinks shes being discreet (‘oh yeah i just want to grow my hair out cause i havent been able to before’ ‘oh no cassie just wanted to paint my nails, cant say no to her or else shell pull out her puppy eyes’ ‘cassie wanted to practice applying makeup to other ppl and i was her training dummy cause i didnt care’) ness knows. dudes like ive been there. but also she has no idea how to tell the twelve year old sib she adopted that its okay without freaking gregory out.

IM JUST THINKING OUT LOUD. i love them both sososo much.

I WAS ABOUT TO SEND THIS ASK BUT THEN I HAD A THOUGHT. DOES CASSIE KNOW,,,,,, shed totally let gregory borrow her skirts and accessories and shed do their makeup and nails for them and give all the tips and tricks for stuff they might not have been taught AND SHED BE SUCH A GOOD SUPPORTIVE FRIEND

(also no worries abt taking a while to respond! /gen)

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU. UESSSSS YOU GET IT YESSSS YESSSSS…..it takes greg a while to. Open up abt it but ness being there as a positive role model openly genderfucked def helped him out so very much.. also freddy’s support.<3 he may not be trans but he’s also openly queer and does his best to make sure greg feels like he can be open about everything with him. The Father okay,,

and YES CASSIE KNOWS<3 in theoretical everything okay everything niceys au where cass and rox get out and find 3stars cassie (openly nonbinary for all the time they’ve been friends) is the first one greg asks about things. She is ofc so so supportive. Plus she has a new victim for playing dressup with<33 they are having a sleepover and roxy is there (even though she holds a grudge she’s never gonna pass up dressup.plus cassie said to be nice.plus she’s also trans cause i say so(which is why the foxy mysteriously disappeared ha ha….)) and i think cassie would def show greg how to dress fashionably. They would probably still dress like a bit of a loser though<3 i care them so much did you knowww

And YES🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥GREG SKIRT IS REAL.

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Omg thanks for the song recs <333

I loooooved recently by Liana Flores I added it to my bops playlist as soon as I heard the opening oooo's it was so so pretty :)))

I do also like San Fran! But in general I think the Mowgli's do good bops :)) And I love Stella by cereus bright!!!!! You're absolutely right it is absolutely a dancey vibes song and I like a lot of their other songs too!! Happier than me esp. has such toxic familial relationship vibes to me and it's so tasty

I'm so glad you liked hundred days!!!! It's one of my absolutely fav songs in the whole wide world and I'm animating something for a dnd campaign for the song so it's on my mind. I love the part in the middle where it's like the singer is screaming "I WANT. A HUNDRED DAYS. OF BRIGHT LIGHT!!!" and I can FEEL IT IN MY SOUL AND MY HEART

Never love an anchor is a classic and is a complicated motherly relationship song for all characters forever and ever <3 I love the crane wives in general but I think the garden and the well are underrated songs too

So for songs I feel along those vibes I give you:

Beloved, Mumford and sons

Thus always to tyrants, the oh hellos

Willow tree march, the paper kites

Cleopatra, the lumineers

Ophelia, the lumineers

Let's keep the recs going!! <3333

HELLO Q SORRY THIS HAS BEEN IN THE DRAFTS SO LONG (not to mention the cute echem one you sent me a long time ago OOUGH </3) THANK YOU FOR BEING PATIENT <33

yes i LOVE recently, i relate to it heavily hkjhg <33 "recently everyone says they are seeing less of me / i could do better if i had energy" LIKE. YEAH </3 HJGKJH MOWGLI'S ABSOLUTELY DO GOOD BOPS, waugh im so glad you liked my recs thank you for listening to them!!

HAPPIER THAN ME SOUNDS SO VENGEFUL HKJHG i love the somber intensity ooh it is tasty for real >:3

OMG SONG ANIMATICS, hundred days would make for SUCH a good animatic, the way that it starts with a single clear singer and then RAMPS UP THE ENERGY, it was practically built for a narrative, you could ABSOLUTELY make a dnd campaign animatic from this, i UNDERSTAND I UNDERSTAND FOR REAL. there is a very real yearning energy in this and i ADORE IT, I KNOW THE PART YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT OUGH I LOVE HOW ITS SUNG, the passion!! the emotion OUGH!!! YOU'RE SO REAL AND TRUE FOR THIS!!!!!!!!!!!

oh SO TRUE the crane wives,, ough chefs kiss!! <33

Beloved - i do love mumford and sons <33 this song is sweet awa :'] <33 i keep thinking the verses are building up to something stronger but it seems to keep steadily level? i still like it though, it's lovely <3

Thus Always to Tyrants - OH MY GOD I LOVE THE OH HELLOS SO SOSOSO MUCH THIS WAS ONE OF THE FIRST SONGS I'D HEARD FROM THEM <33 THE STEADY STAMPING BEAT THE "OOOH"S THE GUITAR STARTING UP!!!! YELLS!!! I LOVE THIS FUCKING SONG <3333 where i goooooo, will you still folloowwwww~!!!

Willow Tree March - yesss ive been meaning to get into more of the paper kites! OH WAIT I KNOW THIS ONE HKJGH i swear ive seen an animatic to this or something? i love how folksy it is, 10/10 would give my dnd party bardic inspiration while dancing around a campfire in the forest <33

Cleopatra - oh i am fond of this one, oh you could absolutely make a disco animatic out of this hkjh the first verse being harry and dora ("And it hardened like my heart did when you left town") and the second verse being kim and eyes ("So I drive a taxi, and the traffic distracts me / From the strangers in my backseat, they remind me of you") and the bridge waugh (HARRY - "And the only gifts from my Lord were a birth and a divorce" / KIM - "But I've read this script and the costume fits, so I'll play my part") and then the bedroom after the tribunal ("leads me back to my guestroom / It's a bed and a bathroom / a place for the end'') OUGH VERY NICE HJKGH <33

Ophelia - THIS ONE I DO KNOW YES YES I LOVE OPHELIA DEARLY, this song carried me through senior year of high school actually <33 i used to play this on my ukulele but it never sounded truly right hkjhg the piano in this OUGH ITS SO GOOD. oh oPHELIAH~! heaven help a fool who falls in love <3 adoreee this <33

YES i will send you some as well!! :D <33 i am not actually very good at music recs but we have surprisingly similar tastes hehe <33 thank you thank you!!