#but yeah i think things got a lil mixed cause her saying she doesnt care abt her own gender kinda goes Against other stuff she does in orv

[bidokja]

i know the translation is partially at fault but y'all cannot look at jang hayoung and think she is not a trans woman like. of course they aren't good about handling her identity. of course they aren't explicit about it. do you really expect the "men in dresses are predators that deserve to be killed" web novel to have well handled trans women in it?? she "doesn't care about gender" but basically goes by she/they, doesn't want anyone referring to her as a man, and literally learns from ngmy who only teaches the skybreaking sword art to women. like. Hello.

[orbees]

🥊💀🍎 vino

gonna chuck this under a read more just cause going into parents a bit alludes to abuse, not in mega deets but still. brief mention of drug use too

🥊 -What do they love to do? What do they hate to do?

love to do: read (he's always been a big bookworm), interacting/tending to his 234234 creatures (he's particularly fond of his ratties), Tinkering w/ his Gay Lil Gadgets, Abusing Substances... he also likes... creature sighting??? like herping but not just reptiles. insects. some mammals too. he like Creatures. he also loves opportunities to show off his knowledge. he likes to hear himself talk. LOL

hate to do: exercise is the first thing that comes to mind lmfao like he's better w/. dexy stuff but strenuous strength based activities would absolutely kill his ass lmfaooo he hates it. if you tried to make him go on a run he'd attack kill bite. he and arahana would be like oil and water. they would not get along at all.

💀 - Does your OC have any phobias?

vino's got a weird relationship w/ death cause he fears it deeply but at the same time is interested in it, both as a physical process and the philosophical implications of it. he does a lot of reading on it, but also spends a lot of time worrying about it. sure doesnt change his lifestyle tho lol.

making mistakes / fear of failure / looking stupid is a big fear of his in general. i dont think counts as a phobia but /shrug. his general social anxiety/ fear of abandonment could also go here i suppose

theres ofc. the Apes which i imagine is rly funny out of context. for newcomers: vino was almost killed by one. yeah

🍎 - What is the OC’s relationship w/their parents like?

vino's parents passed when he was still fairly young. long enough to leave an impression but he doesnt know them as well as vespera did

he had a mother & father, his biological parents. ppl who knew his mom always comment how much he's like her, in appearance And temperament. he's pretty sour towards his parents tbh tho he's more fond of his mom. she was very protective of him / looked out for him but didnt rly understand him type vibe

his relationship w/ his dad is definitely more complicated but also more starkly negative. his dad was the studious academic type and vicente craved his approval; u could even say thats part of how he got on that path to begin w/. a mix of his own interest and wanting his dad to notice him

it never rly worked tho, vicente's dad was very much the cold distant type. vicente needed a lot more care + attention than he was ever willing to give and grew to negatively regard him for Needing That if that make sense? he was quite open w/ his disdain and greatly preferred vespera, and was transparent in that. vespera hated him though

thank u for asking!

[dcntez]

     good night , fam whassup ? i’m chrissy ( she/her ), but yall can call me bob the builder which is p much who i am rn ... i'm sorry for takin a while to post this but i had to build a bookshelf i bought myself w was ... p bad but i managed to be succesful so i mean ... i guess . anyways i’m 20 n from the gmt-3 timezone n im here to introduce u to my trash child dante ! hes kinda bad yall but pls love him anyway ? also like this if u wanna plot n i will slide into ur dms for some connections ? ok this is it so heres a lil bit on dante !!

❛ welcome to new york, dante fitzwilliam. your resemblance to noah centineo is absolutely uncanny. by the looks of your maserati alfieri, we’re thinking you’ll fit right in. according to tmz, you just had your twenty - second birthday bash. your chances of making it in the city are dicey since you’re impetuous, but being venturesome gives you an advantage. ( cismale & he & him ) 

k so dante is born to like ... hollywood royalty ? his dad was like a technological mogul when technology was p much just getting started so like ?? kinda our elon musk rn or like steve jobs a few yrs ago ? n his mum was a major actress idk like prob angelina jolie or smth like that so when they got married it was a HUGE deal . so it was p much like royalty wedding n they were the like ... the it couple for a while there @ the 90s

they had 3 children , n dante was the youngest one so he was rly kinda spoiled like crazy , his mom specially had a real soft spot for him n he could do no wrong in her eyes which like kinda caused a rift between him n his older siblings ? prob bc they felt kinda like their parents played favorites ? but dante was mainly ok w that ?

so he grew up like a typically entitled rich boy ? 0 life struggles , awesome life n just rly couldnt give a shit abt anything other than himself n has been p happy w/ that ? i hate him already wow but yeah like he rly never had to work for his money n never rly appreciated his life style ? its just like a given to him , he’s rly rich , period lmao

ok so while his older sibings went to college n started working on their dads company w? him, dante rly wasnt interested in academics ? he was a p good student @ school , but nothing above that n he rly didnt care abt it , so , as usual , his parents allowed him to pursue his own path in life n didnt force him to go to college , which he appreciated v much

but like ... it turned out his path in life was p much ... doing nothing ? hes just a rich boy doing rich boy things lmao but he does have an instagram n hes like ... kinda famous ? listen ... hes like paris jackson yall . thats literally it

also like , another way he got a lot of tabloid attention was dating a Lot of famous ppl ? so , u know ... he’s That guy . hes such a serial dater like his relationships r always super short n intense n just end up in chaos n like , a lot of media attention ? n thats mostly how he got like real famous ? jakjialk he does some modelling too but hes not super passionate abt it ? he just does it whenever his pubicist gets an offer from a campain that tickles his fancy its kinda a side job tbh

honestly is he not the biggest trash bag u have ever met ??? if hes not ... who have u been meeting in ur life omg

ok so now for some personality aspects of his ? w/ all the bad things i said like ... hes a great person to be around ? he’s super outgoing n looooves having a good time n entertaining the ppl around him ? if ur like in his circle of friends ur guaranteed to always have fun ? hes always coming up w crazy wild plans n is the first to say yes for legit Anything u wanna do ? hes so fun n out there its kinda great

but like that adventurousness n his outgoingness mixed w how out of touch w actual reality he rly is can make it kinda hard to relate to him unless u live that same life style ? like i can def see ppl getting tired of his shit real fast when they have like commitments n such bc he doesnt take it srsly at all ? n he like .... kinda loves to play the victim ?? like ... does the most stupid things n just ... ‘why is this happening to me i didnt do anything at all !!!’ pls dante stop

he’s also mostly a super chill guy personaity wise ? like hes not a v aggressive person or a hothead in any ways ? its v rare that he gets heated n even then hes not rly known to blow up @ ppl ?

ok so idk if that was any good at all bc its late n my brain is kinda shutting down ? but also here r some ideas for plots that might interest u ? or not ? bc they r kinda dumb like ... anyways

exes : mostly bad terms bc hes a drama queen like ... if u date him its bound to have a dramatic ending ?

family friends : prob knows this person for a long time , maybe both their parents were friends so they kinda grew together ?

best friends : prob do a lot of fuckin up together like ... im think abt it n its givin me a headache

good influence ; somebodys gotta try right ?

fwbs

model pals : maybe they r always working @ the same shoots n become friends bc of it ?

cheating things maybe ? hes an asshole yall sooo

ANGST THINGS !!! honestly all things angst

also like ... i have some plot ideas based on songs but its late n im too lazy rn to type them all down so if ur interested we can always talk abt it when we’re plotting ?

 ok so this is definitely the end its 2 in the morning i might pass out in like 2 seconds but hey !!! hit me up so we can plot some connections !!! ok bye

[solidburnreturned]

all the odds for pepper!!

HOO okay I’ll put this under a read more lol

1. What is their gender?

she’s a cis girl

3. What is the meaning behind their name? Do they have any nicknames?

pepper just means pepper! spicy!! her full name is pepper braxton jane :0 she’s got a lot of nicknames lol,, pep, stud, pepperoni, and PB&J (her initials)

5. What’s their relationship with their parents like? What about other relatives?

she loves her parents a lot!! her relationship with marney is a little more strained because of how protective marney is and because pepper was such a big troublemaker in her teens. she gets along better with topaz and listens to her more :0 her other relatives are her uncle toni and her cousin eve, who she gets along with great! her and eve are like sisters

7. Are they in a romantic relationship? With who? How did they meet?

in the future she gets together with mack of course, who she met one night at a pop-up party. mack was one of nova’s performers and pepper just became super infatuated with her and just fell in love with her as they became better and better friends

9. What is their favorite color? Favorite animal?

she likes RED and loves animals in general!! but has a soft spot for raspurrs (a cat creature that looks like a fluffy little cloud with feet and a tail)

11. If they could make a mark on history, what would they like it to be?

she would like to bring more love into the world,, shes all about that lovey dovey shit

13. What do they do for fun?

she works out, does spoken poetry, plays string instruments (violin, bass, guitar, etc), and works on/rides her motorcycle!! and eats njdkf

15. What was something their parents taught them?

to always be kind and not be JADED 

17. Where were they born?

at the troll tree, just before the big escape! 

19. What is their occupation?

happy lil mechanic!

21. What is their favorite thing about their personality?

she thinks she’s pretty profound sometimes :^) and very romantic!

23. Do they get lonely easily?

yes 100% yes 

25. What is their biggest flaw?

she tends to not care enough about herself? and can be a lil gross/a slob sometimes

27. What is their biggest strength?

cares a lot!! big heart!!

29. How would they describe their own personality?

she’s not very good at describing herself lol but after a lot of “uhhh…ummm…” she’d probs say that shes a kind and gentle soul who’s good with romance lol

31. Does this character ever put somebody else’s needs before their own? Who do they do this for? How often do they do this?

yeah she does that a lot with mack especially, which mack rly doesnt like tbh. she tries not to do it a lot but its kinda just automatic for her cause shes a little love blind

33. What is their biggest fear? How would they react to having to face it?

she has a big fear of getting seriously hurt again, like breaking her legs or getting another TBI. if that were to happen it would probably cause a big relapse with her ptsd and depression :( maybe another little grey period

35. What is the easiest way to annoy them?

OOF being persistently loud pisses her off, mixed signals, persistent cynicism, stuff like that. interrupt her once and she’ll be pissed off the whole time u talk lol

37. How easy is it for them to say “I love you”? Do they say it without meaning it?

she says it a lottttt but she always means it! but its not always easy for her to say, especially if its like. a love confession

39. What does their happily ever after look like?

having a couple kids with mack and living together in a cozy lil pod with some cute pets and a rly big bed uvu

41. What does their laugh sound like? Do they snort when they laugh? How often do they laugh?

loud, barkish, throw-her-head-back kinda laugh or just a soft chuckle there is no in between. she DOES snort when she laughs and it makes her laugh more! and she rly likes to laugh so she laughs as much as she can, shes p easy to amuse

43. What is their least favorite thing about their physical appearance?

def her scars, especially the one on her face. shes not fond of her lil belly sometimes either tbh 

45. How would they describe their own appearance?

she would def brag about her muscles first lol then, more quietly, say shes short and a lil chubby with big hair and a big nose. maybe mention her piercings and tattoos, pointy tooth, and notch in her eyebrow. she’d get more detailed the more she thinks about it lol

47.  What’s their pain tolerance like?

pretty high tbh? she can take some pain

49. Do they have any piercings?

yep!! tips of her ears have two each, one on the right lobe, two studs on the top of each ear, left nose stud, center lip ring, and a tongue stud

51. What is their height? Weight?

she’s 5 ½ inches tall (2 ½ of that is hair) and just for the sake of it being easier to understand, ill forget using ounces and say shes like 150 pounds

53. What is their hair color? Eye color? Skin tone?

her hair is greyish tan (kinda looks like light smoke??), her eyes are a darker red, and her skin is actually a rly deep, earthy shade of orange,, but she just says shes dark red lol 

55. What is their alcohol tolerance like? What kind of drunk are they? How bad are their hangovers?

pretty good tbh! she can have two beers and still be okay. shes a happy, loosey goosey drunk who just wants to snuggle and give compliments. she doesnt get hangovers often cuz she tries to drink responsibly but,, when she does get them she’s in bed all day or puking in the tub like a mess

#57 is a forbidden question

59. What does their resting face look like? Do they have RBF?

no she doesnt lol she looks just kinda chill or like shes daydreaming cause. she probs is

61. Which season is their favorite season?

winter!! when its perfectly reasonable to stay inside and snuggle up in bed all day

63. What is always guaranteed to make them smile?

already answered! :^)

65. What’s their immune system like? Do they get sick often? How do they react to getting sick?

it’s not bad! she gets sick once in a while but when she does its usually pretty rough for her and she turns into a big needy baby

67. Is their bedroom messy? What about their bathroom? Kitchen? Living room?

YEAH she’s v messy. her bedroom is the worst, the bathroom is okay, kitchen…she needs to wash her dishes and clean out her fridge. living room has a looooot of pillows and blankets lying around and her coffee table is kinda gross tbh throw that whole thing away

69. How did the people in their environment growing up affect their personality?

she made friends with a bunch of punks so she got deep into rowdy punk culture lol >:) and marney’s overprotectiveness pushed her to be more of a troublemaker. after her bike crash tho she had a major shift in personality and chilled out a LOT

71. How are they with children? Do they have any? Do they want any?

she’s good with kids but worries,, she inherited marney’s mama bear gene for sure. she eventually has kids with mack in their 30s but def wanted kids ever since falling in love with mack ;v;

73. Do they prefer the indoors or outdoors?

hmmmm she likes being inside cuz her cozy bed nest is there but will happily sit outside on a nice day so she can cook in the sun and get more freckles lol 

75. If given a blank piece of paper, a pencil, and nothing to do, what would happen?

lots of goofy little doodles of her cat probs, which she would then fold into a paper airplane and have too much fun with

77. What is their most prized possession?

HER MOTORCYCLE

79. What is their economic situation?

i think trolls barter with goods and services for the most part, so i guess this doesnt rly apply?? she does good with her mechanic job tho other trolls tend to not be super handy

81. Are they bothered by the sight of blood?

sometimes, especially her own

83. Can they swim? How well? Do they like to swim?

yeah she likes swimming! shes not awesome at it (her hair holds a lot of water and drags her down eventually) and would rather just relax on a tube

85. Do they believe in ghosts?

yeah lol u couldnt pay her to do a ouija board or anything like that

87. What is something they regret?

she def regrets riding dangerously on her motorcycle and getting into that crash

89. What is their D&D alignment?

lawful good!

91. If they were a tweet, what tweet would they be?

93. What’s the most iconic line of dialogue they’ve ever said?

when i was first designing pepper and showing her to my friends in an old trolls discord server, someone said “yum, bitch” and that became pepper’s catch phrase for a short while lol

[motherofkittens94]

tagged by @greyjoysea and @staryjoy 

GOT PREFERENCES

Do you watch the episodes when they air? usually not being a brit who doesnt have hbo  i watch like a day or two later when it airs on sky Atlantic  or on now  tv the first three i watched on dvd from a friend who had the boxset it was when we were sharing a house walked in  the logue one  Morning and she watching it and its that bit where the mountain cuts off the horses head and im like what the hell are you watching ?? i just woke up i wasnt expecting violence this early in the morning ? and then sat down and watched it with her and im like and watched the whole rest of season   one and im like what the hell is this show  ??  ....is there more ?? btw my brother said he got half way through season one and said it  was boring im like season ones the best ?? and hes like oh i dont enjoy  historical drama im not interested in medieval history and im like face palm he thinks this is historical and he also doesnt like history wtf i mean  how am  i related to this fool but yeah thats tangent  and i told him get to ep nine so he could see ned stark beheading he said maybe but if i agreed to watch stranger things with him lol :/ 

How often do you rewatch it? Do you rewatch it from season one? ive re watched all the way  it through a few times but usually would only watch my fav episodes ive seen the red wedding so many times though because wed always watch it with some friend whos just getting into and hasnt seen that one yet so we can see their reaction 

Do you rewatch the previous episode before the next one airs? Not usually on each  occasion but my aunt and uncle always do so when i watch with them i do  

Do you eat anything while watching? if so, what do you eat? not usually a proper meal but  i might have snack like crisps or popcorn unless its a glory scene 

One character that everyone seems to like that you don’t care much for hmm cersei ?? and i didnt lime petyr baelish much but he seemed popular at least among my friends  but i do agree he shouldnt had a better death scene they took all the cleverness out of him and though i hadnt liked him it was a shame in a way like the couldnt find way him to go down in a clever interesyting way so they had to dumb him right down  book pb wouldnt get caught like that people like show euron apparently me  hmm not show much to put it nicely also ave mixed feelings about stannis book book and show wise and i like jon but hes not the ultimate  hyped favourite like he is with a lot of people and perfer theon to him tbh 

Your 3 favourite pairings Throbb theonsa jon ygritte jaime brienne thats four but theres two theons so 

Favourite scene: robb getting crowded any scene where theon smiles  theons monologue  theon and sansa hug jon and sansa arya sansa hug jon and ygritte kissing on the wall jaime jumping to save brienne theons speeches both tyrions speeches both but the one in season one was really funny tyrion dragging the chair across the room when everyone is is science idk that cracked  me up bronn duelling for tyrion the one where Catelyn announces to everyone that (she thinks)  tyrion tried to kill bran cause that was the first ep id seen thats the bit that got me hooked  theon getting back up and fighting that ironborn guy pdrick saving tyrion  and i still maintain that viserys had the best death also not to be a basic bitch but that first time dany does her fire thing in season one i was #stunned 

One character you wish got more appreciation: theon duh #nomoredickjokes2018 but also meera and jojen too i suppose  and shireen and sansa and they could've (shouldve) done more with myrcella and tommen   and brienne too was underused and gendry also idk if if i like the way the tried to iron the grey parts out of tyrion and jon  and bran i wish they done brans story better and wed have got that tree scene with theon also as a disabled gal  certain comments some people make about uselessness of bran sometimes make me uncomfy tbh 

Fanfic or nah? i usually only read theon based ones and thats usually just theon robb theon sansa or sometimes theon jeyne p cause i cant do bolton heavy stuff im a whimp  but i read the occasion jon / ygritte or jaime / brienne and once i tried theon jon  but i wasnt sold soz :/ i read theon ygritte once as well  that actualy worked surprising well and theon domeric .. aha  thats mine  and @blueagia s baby  

but i guess id be open to others maybe 

Favourite quote:  from just the show ?  meeras some people will always need help that doesnt mean theyre not worth helping  also tyrions death is so final but life is full of possibilities and   mind needs books as a sword needs a whetstone if it is to keep its edge. That's why I read so much Jon Snow also sansas not a killer .. not yet anyway sansa - or maybe hell give me yours theons sy he is is theon greyjoy again also i like that quote about theons smile but obvi thats not in the show bronns this is bronn son of .. you wouldnt know him  just because it was funny 

Do you avoid spoilers? :  i do because im a blabber if i know id tell everyone omg this happens and that - i dont do on purpose really not with the intention of spoiling it for people  i just blurt it out like  i ruined he Rains of Castamere for someone once by saying oh is this one where robb dies ? and i didnt realise she hadnt seen it  yet and shes like robb dies :( :( and im  like oh umm i meant ...  rob - ert baratheon obviously ! haha whoops and i told someone else about jofferys death because shed said she seen it all  but she said later  i wish joffrey would die and  i was lil tipsey then so im like  .. but he does die ? youve seen it right? in season 4 ? hes poisoned ?  at his wedding ? to Margaery?? and shes like ....thanks beth ..... turns outs shed only  seen season 1-3 whoops again but hey i was drunk  that time so i  now avoid spoilers to avoid spoiling people and when i read the books my then housemates told me not to tell them what was different in case they wanted to read the books later on and didnt want me to spill and i did try to keep to it but i blabbed a few things tbh 

Favourite house words: We do not sow greyjoys ftw 

One character you’d bring back from the dead: ygritte shireen  robb maybe catelyn  and hoder !!

One character you’d kill, or kill sooner than they were killed balon greyjoy also ramsay but i wouldve done  it differently and theon shouldve been there or at least known about it also randyll tarly like fuck that guy ive seen people defending him and im like no offense but you are serious me and a friend had a bet on the boltons i bet against roose dying and he bet against ramsay dying we both lost lmao 

Direwolves or dragons? Dragons 

Which was more satisfying: Ramsay dying or Joffrey dying? hmm i actually joffrey probably because it was more unexpected i didnt see it coming i didnt think hed die  -i wanted ramsay to die and i wanted to like ramsay dying  and wished i had liked it more but it wasnt  done  the way i wanted it and it seemed so obvious like it wasnt a shock like joffrey dying was  i think in a way they over did ramster and just ran out f things fro him to do that he hadnt already like i was like hmm sewating nevously what can we do now ...err  kill your dad! kill a baby! kill  a stark  kill .. jon snow ...??  aye fuck it get rid of guy ay 

 i liked season six   better than season 7 or 5 but it made me lol in a way cause it seemed like they went ok ok you didnt like it last time when we killed all the women we heard you! we did ! weve changed things yes  so how about this instead ...   the woman kill everyone ! yea ? you like that ? we good now ?  sweet as ! put more women killing eveyone into season 7 dave we on the money 

Wildlings or the dothraki? Wildlings

Favourite lannister?  Tyrion but jaimes growing on me 

Favourite stark? i think sansa tbh 

Would you rather be able to be resurrected anytime, but gain scars and all like Beric, or become a faceless man? Resurrect any time like Beric

Would you rather have the rebellion tv show or the conquest tv show?  id pefer Rebellion but id watch a conquest show i think 

tagging @saltwaterwoods @whiteladyofrohann  @unamatta  @wedonnotcare @faller1344 @starkrysis @iladylittlefinger if you want to :) 

[raeisms-blog]

hEY !! 

i’m brad & this is my lil bean rae :-) sry in advanced !! this might get long, so pls bare with me !! 

i just saw lauren jauregui boarding the plane…or maybe it was calliope rae mendoza. yeah, it was probably just rae. the twenty year-old cisfemale from brisbane, australia and is on the plane as a winner. she seems very relaxed and gregarious but also aggressive and destructive, guess that’s why they’ve been dubbed the fallen angel. 

sO here is a bit of background info..

!! TRIGGERS AHEAD: DEATH, DRUGS, ALCOHOL, MISCARRIAGE, FAMILY PROBLEMS !!

she hates being called calliope

she’d rather go by rae or cal, not even callie ( she would make exceptions though !! )

ya gurl is a fallen angel bcus the poor thing has been through so much in the last twenty years, that she’s just stuck in her destructive ways !!

cal has two brothers, one older ( javier ) and a twin ( danny ).

growin up, i wanna say that her parents were just ur avg. parents. like they didn't rly love each other, but they didn't h8 each other??

they didn't really care what rae and her brothers were doing sO they were bein regular kids, hooligans but i wanna say that her older brother javier got mixed in w/ sum bad people

and would often bring along rae and danny with them to parties and stuff just the parties cause i guess whatever her older brother did he wanted to keep it a secret ( and i guess to show whoever he was with that rae and danny were basically untouchable )

so this was all around when she was 13 ( her brother getting mixed w/ the wrong ppl, the parties, etc. )

she wasn't rly down to drink and do drugs and all that bcus she was still young and this was when she was v innocent and optimistic :-)

JUST STATING SOME IMPORTANT EVENTS & INFO. 

so then one day, her family gets a call and find out that javier is in the hospital with critical injuries ( he was shot. boop ) and he passed away which had a domino effect on her and danny

so rae started doing drugs, partyin, she dropped out of school, and ofc her parents never really cared

and then danny started following into javier's footsteps, getting mixed in w/ the wrong ppl which lead him in the exact same place - dead.

the death of her brothers had taken a huge toll on rae. she wouldn’t go home for days on end, not really telling her parents anything 

i wanna say that they were grieving too

then one of the few times that rae had gone home, she saw that her mom was pregnant and then BOOM

her lil sister angelina was born :-)

with angelina, her parents are different.  they care // worry all the time and set boundaries

they  basically think cal's a lost cause and that they can't help her bcus she’s too far gone i guess you could say?? 

like they're nice and all and try to show that they care, but cal's just so bitter and angry

with all that, i also wanna say that w/ rae partyin all the time, she ended up meetin someone who was older and they dated for probs half a year 

& had gotten pregnant !!

her parents ended up kickin her out bcus they wouldn’t support her or her decisions ( yeah this is them being different after the birth of angelina :-) )

and the two were excited despite being young !! 

rae was rly excited for this baby because she was going through rough times often going out partying, drinking and doing drugs and stuff and having the baby would probs slow her down and get her priorities straight in a weird way ya feel?

but she ended up giving birth wAY too early the lil bean was so small and so fragile and was stuck in an incubator and on a breathing tube for about a week. the lil bean only lasted a week before she passed away ;-; the lil bean’s name was gonna b emma

so after that she upped and left her bb daddy and crashed @ a friend’s house for awhile until she got a job and started payin rent ( that friend also told her about this contest !! )

she still has her bad habits and is dependent on mary jane ( she has her med card ) bcus she feels like it’s her fault for going into labor early, like she feels like she didn’t take care of herself enough to prevent it from happenin and has nightmares and stuff

now she has a drink evry night to numb herself out

she wants to be a better person but she’s stuck in her ways

there are so many sides to rae, tbh. she is laid back, one of the boys, and rly caring despite her destructive behavior towards herself.

she doesnt talk about her feelings, she just smokes and drinks them away and pretends that everythin is ok

she’s a sweetheart, but she’s just so lost 

anYWAYS, IF YOU MADE IT TO THE END OF THIS POST, SHOOT ME A MSSG sO THAT WE COULD PLOT !!! thank u for bearing w/ me :-)

[deadcactuswalking]

REVIEWING THE CHARTS - CHRISTMAS SPECIAL: 9th December 2018

Geez, today was a busy week. Before we talk about the top 10, however, let’s just get the massive elephants out of the way.

CHRISTMAS NONSENSE

It’s the festive season and one way people celebrate the holidays is by listening to its music – usually, Christmas music, of course, and since I review all returning entries that I haven’t talked about yet, sigh... There are seven of these so I’m going to go as quick as possible, but just bear with me throughout this section because I really don’t like Christmas music all that much. Let’s just get it over with.

#39 – “Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree” – Brenda Lee

This is “Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree”, a song written by Johnny Marks and released in 1958 in the US, being left on the shelf for four years until its release in the UK in 1962. In 1963, it peaked at number-six and has since re-entered due to digital downloads, with one of its highest recent peaks being number-seven last year. It’s pretty inoffensive rockabilly, with some nice very-50s guitar licks coming in throughout, and some decently-sounding production, but really it’s not anything of internet until that sax solo. That solo is freaking gorgeous, and I’m glad it’s there, because otherwise this would just kind of fall to the wayside. Not sure I like Lee’s voice on here, it comes off as a bit nasal, but it’s not a big deal. It’s alright, I guess. I expected to say RIP here since she was popular such a long time ago, but no, she’s still alive and kicking. Good for her.

#36 – “Merry Christmas Everyone” – Shakin’ Stevens

Now this is where it all breaks down into dread. This song by Shakin’ Stevens is Godawful, mostly because of how painfully manufactured the whole thing is. It’s overproduced Christmas music that is just jolly feelings and nothing else. Those horns that kick in after the first verse are pretty cool, but Stevens doesn’t sound great here – or at least I can’t tell because he’s drowned in reverb – and the choir might as well be a computer for all I care. Also, the sax solo was cool the first time in Brenda Lee’s track, but here it’s just trite, especially when you add those shooby-doo-wops over it. This track was initially the Christmas number-one for 1985, and I understand why, but does it really have to come back every year since 2007 – for over 60 weeks in total? Oh, it peaked last year at #10 too. Let’s hope this upwards trend doesn’t continue.

#35 – “Santa Tell Me” – Ariana Grande

Now for a more recent one from arguably the biggest popstar in the world right now, with her 2014 song that actually failed to chart in the Top 40 initially until last year at #29, and that’s its peak so far... whilst I’ve never been a fan of the cleaner, refined Ariana Grande records, I do have a soft spot for this one. That melody is infectious and the sleigh bells complement the synth bass in a way I didn’t think they would, and it’s not like the drums are all that overpowering here, although a trap skitter would have worked better here (yeah, I know, not something I say often). It’s surprisingly romantic and sensual for a song with Santa in the title, actually, although it’s about men who have wronged her. Anyway, Ariana kills it but what else do you expect from a song from her at this point? It’s a good track, although the final chorus with the choir is really cluttered, just saying, it’s messy.

#30 – “It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas” – Michael Bublé

This here is Michael Bublé’s cover of traditional Christmas classic written in 1951 by Meredith Wilson, and it’s not great. Obviously, I mean, it’s Michael Bublé, ever since “Haven’t Met You Yet” he’s been utterly useless seasonal radio fodder. Bublé never really sounds bad but he never sounds interesting, and this production isn’t doing him any favours. It’s sickly sweet strings and brass for the most part, with some piano added in there for good measure, after what seems to be way too long of just airy synth, string and guitar noise – that’s really out of place, guys, why is this on the single edit? Ah, what else to say? Oh, right, nothing.

#26 – “Do They Know it’s Christmas?” – Band Aid

Oh, I know it’s Christmas time, alright, this song won’t let me forget it. I could ramble on about how preachy and awful this charity single is but other people have done it better. I just have four short things to say – 1.) this was the most popular song in the UK of the entire 80s. Yikes. 2.) This is the worst thing the Boomtown Rats have had any involvement in. They’re such a great band, hell so are Culture Club. How do Boy George, the Boomtown Rats, Ultravox, Phil Collins, U2, Kool & the Gang, Sting and Duran Duran make something this awful? They’re all absolutely fantastic musicians in their own right. 3.) That synth that kicks in after a while is pretty ugly, not gonna lie, and is unfitting for the condescending Christmas charity single angle they’re going for here – mostly because that’s what it really is. 4.) We’ve remade and reissued and re-entered this song too many times. Let it go, Britain. Please. We’re begging you. It’s for a good cause, and I appreciate how much money it’s raised, but it’s also garbage.

#18 – “Fairytale of New York” – The Pogues featuring Kirsty MacColl

They use the word because it was the 80s, it’s not meant to mean homosexual and it’s not used in that context – albeit still a negative one – and the climate of Ireland, especially the Celtic punk scene, wasn’t exactly going to care about dropping that slur in their Christmas single. It should still be censored, though, I mean, black rappers saying the N-word is morally okay, but we still mute those, right? Anyway, this is one of the best songs I’ve ever heard. It starts with a beautifully elegant piano melody, with the lead singer of the Pogues, Shane MacGowan, mumbling his way through his verse, but instead of people like Future or Lil Baby, there’s still a lot of sincerity there, I feel, and a lot of soul is put into expressing the lyrics here in the raspy tone that I absolutely love. I’m not going to talk much about the story here mostly because I’m not going to go in-depth, but it’s about a typical love story going awry at some point due to a betrayal. Oh, and the moment the Celtic traditional instruments come in is one of the best moments in music – ever. Kirsty MacColl sounds so lovely here, and the harmonisations in the chorus are fantastic. That flute solo is gorgeous, and the juxtaposition between “you’re a bum, you’re a punk, you’re an old s--- on junk, lying there almost dead as a drip on that bed” and the cheerful instrumental is just hilarious to me, especially since right after “Happy Christmas your a---, I thank God it’s our last” is immediately followed by the bombastic drunk sing-a-long chorus. The third verse is also such a great back-and-forth, man, I can’t even bring to words how much I admire and adore this piece of music. This is the best song I think I’ve ever talked about on this show, by far, but it could have easily not been close if “2000 Miles” by the Pretenders returned this week. We’ll just hope for next week, I guess. Rest in peace to Kirsty MacColl, gone much too young.

#14 – “Last Christmas” – WHAM!

Finally, we have our last Christmas song for this week’s holiday REVIEWING THE CHARTS special. It’s an anti-climactic end, to be honest, because I’m pretty indifferent to this song. It’s pretty 80s, to be fair, so I’ve got to like some of the cheesy falsetto vocalisations from the late George Michael at the start, as well as those repetitive synths that keep themselves from sounding awful by having those sleigh bells and pretty damn nice keys covering them. That chorus is iconic, but the rest of the lyrics are just forgettable. Honestly, it’s a good background song and it’s a well-written, catchy pop track with Michael putting in some good vocals throughout, but, it’s nothing special. Nothing but respect to George Michael, though, rest in peace, he’s a pop legend over here.

Christmas Conclusion

The best Christmas song on the charts right now is easily “Fairytale of New York” by the Pogues and Kirsty MacColl, but an Honourable Mention goes to Mariah Carey for “All I Want for Christmas is You”. Yup, that’s still here, we’ll get to that in a second. Worst of the Week goes to Band Aid for “Do They Know it’s Christmas?” You should be ashamed, Bob. Dishonourable Mention is going to Shakin’ Stevens for “Merry Christmas Everyone”. Other Christmas songs you should check out are “Christmas in Harlem” by Kanye West, Teyana Taylor and CyHi tha Prynce featuring Musiq Soulchild (heck, check out the longer version if you wish), “2000 Miles” by the Pretenders, “Stop the Cavalry” by Jona Lewie, “Christmas Lights” by Coldplay, “You’re a Mean One, Mr. Grinch” by Tyler, the Creator and “Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer” by DMX. Yes, those last two actually exist. Now, this Christmas section has taken longer and is longer to read than about half of my normal episodes, so I think we should get straight into...

Top 10

Well, this all feels a bit more familiar. “thank u, next” by Ariana Grande is still at the top of the charts five weeks in, and it doesn’t really seem to have much competition.

Ava Max, however, is making a surprise run for the top, up four spots to number-two, with “Sweet but Psycho”. I wouldn’t exactly be complaining if this hit the top either.

“Without Me” by Halsey is up a spot to number-three.

We have a new entry from the most recent X Factor winner, Dalton Harris, with a cover of Frankie Goes to Hollywood’s Christmas classic “The Power of Love”, featuring James Arthur. I guess awful Christmas songs aren’t going away for that long, huh? Obviously this is Dalton’s first top 10, and Arthur’s fifth.

“Thursday” by Jess Glynne is down two spaces to number-three.

Up a whopping 28 spaces this week to number-six is, you guessed it, Mariah Carey’s “All I Want for Christmas is You”. This isn’t its first top 10 turn, and it’s not its peak, but still impressive to reach here nonetheless.

This means “Woman Like Me” by Little Mix featuring Nicki Minaj is down five spaces to number-seven.

“Rewrite the Stars” by James Arthur and Anne-Marie has actually gained nine spaces, surprisingly, and to my dismay, to number-eight, becoming Arthur’s sixth and Anne-Marie’s fifth.

Oh, and if you wanted even worse news, up an even larger 29 spaces is “KIKA” by 6ix9ine featuring Tory Lanez, becoming both their first (and hopefully for 6ix9ine, only) top 10 hit at number-nine. I like the song, but I don’t like Tekashi, to say the least.

We have another new entry at #10 this week with “Nothing Breaks Like a Heart” by Mark Ronson featuring Miley Cyrus. This is Ronson’s sixth top 10 hit and Cyrus’ fourth (yeah, I thought she had more too).

Now, instead of separating what happened on the charts into Dropouts, Climbers, Returning Entries, Fallers and such, let’s separate into two sections: “What Survived” and “What Suffered”.

What Survived

What survived means essentially everything that still managed to chart this week, and I’m actually surprised by how much power some of these songs have. Going in reverse order, I have no idea how “Arms Around You” by XXXTENTACION, Lil Pump, Swae Lee and Maluma managed to cling on despite a 17-space fall to #40. “Promises” by Calvin Harris and Sam Smith is down 16 to #38, “Baby Shark” by Pinkfong is down four to #37, “Empty Space” by James Arthur is down 10 to #34 (why did James Arthur of all people have the strength to stay during the avalanche?), “Hold My Girl” by George Ezra is down eight to #33, “Shallow” by Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper is down 27 to #32 (considering both streaming cuts and Christmas bloodbath), “Leave a Light On” by Tom Walker has returned to #31 for some reason, “when the party’s over” by Billie Eilish is down seven to #28 (again, surprised this one’s still here), “Taki Taki” by DJ Snake, Ozuna, Cardi B and Selena Gomez is down eight to #27, “1999” by Charli XCX and Troye Sivan is down 11 to #24, “Polaroid” by James Blue, Liam Payne and Lennon Stella is down 11 to #23, “Let You Love Me” by Rita Ora is down eight to #22, “Better” by Khalid is down five to #20, “Sunflower” by Post Malone and Swae Lee is down seven to #16, as is “ZEZE” by Kodak Black featuring Travis Scott and Offset right next to it at #15, “Funky Friday” by Dave and Fredo is down five to #12, and everything else that’s currently charting is either simply not notable (a drop or climb less than four spaces), in the top 10, a new arrival, a Christmas re-entry or in the top 10. Jesus. Now, what’s gone?

What Suffered

This is a little nicer name for what’s dropped out in the absolute onslaught of Christmas music and new arrivals (all returning and new entries this week total to 12 songs that weren’t on the chart before). This week was an absolute bloodbath, and these are the murder victims. Former #1 “Shotgun” by George Ezra is out from #30, “Advice” by Cadet and Deno Driz is out from #28, “AirForce” by Digdat is out from the #20 debut, “Mo Bamba” by Sheck Wes is out prematurely from #27, “This is Me” by Keala Settle and the Greatest Showman Ensemble is out again from #36, another former #1 “Eastside” by benny blanco, Halsey and Khalid is out from #31, “Happier” by Marshmello and Bastille is out from #32, “I Found You” by benny blanco and Calvin Harris is out from #29, “MIA” by Bad Bunny featuring Drake is out from #35, “Always Remember Us this Way” by Lady Gaga is out from #39, “Goodbye” by Jason Derulo and David Guetta featuring Nicki Minaj and Willy William is out from #40 and finally, “Back and Forth” by MK, Jonas Blue and Becky Hill is out from #37. I’d say it’s time to move onto the New Arrivals – but before, I’d like to say that the BBC redesigned their UK Top 40 page, and it looks pretty cool. Anyways:

NEW ARRIVALS

#29 – “MAMA” – 6ix9ine featuring Kanye West and Nicki Minaj

Of course, DUMMY BOY only had a stunted tracking week last week, so we have the effects of the album this week. This is 6ix9ine’s third top 40 hit in the UK, Nicki Minaj’s thirty-seventh (yeah, I know, it’s insane), and Ye’s even crazier forty-third, and to be honest, it’s inoffensive, which is something I’d never thought I’d say about a 6ix9ine song, but, hey, it is what it is. Murda Beatz’s production is pretty cool for what it is, and I do like the eerie synth loop. 6ix9ine’s delivery is lazy and boring – and I still think we shouldn’t let rappers say they kick women out of doors – but he doesn’t last long so when Kanye comes in with that “man, oh my God” refrain it gets so much better. I’m so used to Kanye West’s pop-culture rambling, social media criticism/obsession, somehow relating to women nonsense he brings to nearly every single verse he does recently that I’m used to it, it’s just something I’ve heard before delivered relatively comedically. Nicki’s refrain and verse actually has some work put into it, unlike the dudes’ bars, so yeah, I appreciate that, although her delivery and cadence is exhaustingly blunt and straightforward, to the point where it’s just kind of tiring. There’s some decent wordplay there, I guess. This is okay enough, and pretty much top-tier Tekashi to be honest. “KANGA” also featuring Ye is even better, though.

#17 – “Going Bad” – Meek Mill featuring Drake

Meek Mill and Drake working together is something I expected to happen anyway. Meek and Drake have seemingly squashed their beef and have relaxed after the “Back to Back” situation and their popular 2015/2016 beef that revealed a lot about Drake, specifically his ghostwriting from Quentin Miller, and eventually stressed Meek’s relationship with Nicki enough for them to break up as a result. Oh, and you better believe they mention “back to back” because of course they do, it’s the only funny wordplay they can conjure up, apparently. This is Meek Mill’s first ever top 40 hit in the UK (congratulations) and in stark contrast, Drake’s forty-fifth (yes, even more than Kanye), and his thirteenth just this year (probably and hopefully his last), and it’s mediocre. I didn’t know what to expect because I’ve never really cared enough about Meek to listen to him, but an out-of-tune piano absolutely demolished by some bass while Drake spouts off with stuff like “I got more slaps than the Beatles” isn’t exactly the best first impression. Is there a chorus here, or not? I can’t tell, everything’s just kind of the same until the ad-lib break that’s long enough for Genius to count it as an entirely different section of the song than in Meek’s verse. It was “Interlude” when I looked but it might be “Post-Chorus” now. Yeah, it should be clear I don’t care enough about this song. I do like Drake’s delivery in the hook, though, it’s pretty energetic, but not enough to save it.

#10 – “Nothing Breaks Like a Heart” – Mark Ronson featuring Miley Cyrus

So, yeah, I like this. It starts with some beautiful strings right before Miley Cyrus fades in with her country twang that I’m starting to really appreciate, and those guitars come in to complement her and the deeper bass that I like the addition of, it really contrasts the otherwise pretty light production, that seems to be dramatic but kind of unfitting for the lyrical content about how the world can hurt you but heartbreak is the worst possible thing, because despite the beat’s melodrama it’s too upbeat to really work here, I feel. Ah, well, the hook is pretty memorable, and the orchestral stings is just one little barely-noticeable production quirk that I can talk about, seriously, Mark Ronson puts so much effort into crafting these songs over the years, it’s pretty great. It may be a bit too repetitive and slow for my taste, but, yeah, I can dig this. Good song, just not much to say about it.

#4 – “The Power of Love” – Dalton Harris featuring James Arthur

The girl gets Leona Lewis, the Scouse dude gets Kaiser Chiefs, yet the WINNER gets James Arthur?! Really, James Arthur? Poor dude. You must know you’re an amazingly talented singer when you get James Arthur put on your song and you still make a surprisingly decent winner’s single, hell, even win in the first place. Arthur is such an awful vacuum of talent, I was scared Harris would be affected by this but no, even with my half-bothering with the show this year I can tell he’s been consistently great, and he’s definitely not bad on here either, although the production has no unique charm to it and is just plastic Syco production as you expect, with James Arthur bringing an above-average performance (this means still pretty bad) with his moaning and straining that just pains me to listen to. Seriously, James, let’s have a cactus-to-man talk and let me teach you how to not sound like my dead cat who just popped some Xanax.

Conclusion

Worst of the Week goes to Dalton Harris and James Arthur for “The Power of Love” – at least “Going Bad” has some energy and legitimate soul to it, although Meek Mill and Drake still get Dishonourable Mention. Mark Ronson and Miley Cyrus take Best of the Week home for “Nothing Breaks Like a Heart”, and hell Kanye and Nicki made “MAMA” bearable enough for them and 6ix9ine to get Honourable Mentions. See ya next week, where we’ll probably see a few more Christmas songs. Delightful.