#but with barbie i wanted to go to the cinema with friends bc it was a perfectly fun and campy one to go and see and like

[fabcreature]

went to see the barbie movie, wearing just about as much pink as i, an all-black-wearing wanna-be-goth, am capable of. featuring glittery makeup, a self-made earring, high heels (a pain and a struggle to walk in, but god i felt sexy), and the fucking widest pants you have ever seen (i could fit both of my legs into just one pant leg, and i have thick thighs)

there was one of those barbie boxes at the theater so i got my dear friend @nuppu-nuppu to take photos of me (and i don't care what anyone says, taking a million photos is perfect because no matter how insecure you are about your looks, there's bound to be at least a few photos that look good, when there's so many to choose from)

as a bonus, here's a video i took to try and look at my makeup, and also to have fun while listening to my barbie vibes playlist

oh yea, and the movie itself! it was good, it was fun, but i was left a little underwhelmed. not because it was bad or anything, but it was exactly what i expected it to be, which left me just a tad disappointed bc i was hoping for it to surprise me somehow. but over all a fun movie :]

[caruliaa]

BARBIE MOVIE AND PIKMIN 4 BEING RELEASED ON THE SAME DAY I J REALIZED THAT I MIGHT ACTUALLY EXPLODE INTO A MILLION PEICESSS OMFGG !!!

[silent-sanctum]

hello in honor of the new barbie movie can we get a jotarox female reader where she has to beg him to take her to see it and he finally complies and takes her bc he loves her(sorry my english😅) 🙏

you know I was waiting for an ask like this 😬 and i do have something in store for this specific prompt. It's short though, but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless ^^ 💕

Barbie Girl - Jotaro x Reader

word count: 811

It’s everywhere and it’s the new big thing. The Barbie movie is out and everyone is hooked into watching it live in cinemas. Everyone included you.

Now, normally you’d have no problem doing exactly that. You could just text your friends about getting together in your rocking pink outfits and watch the hottest film this week, but you had other plans and those plans included-

“Come on~ Let’s watch it together.”

“No. Not happening.”

Wanting to watch Barbie with your boyfriend Jotaro Kujo, who in all aspects, was the most likely to be opposed in watching movies like that. No one’s surprised when you look at him in his dark fits and standoffish demeanor.

But you couldn’t help but try and persuade him anyways while you two were in the comforts of his bedroom. After all, you did manage to convince him to do a bunch of other stuff he wouldn’t do in the past.

“Aw why not?”

“Because I’m not interested,” he said. “Besides, don’t you have other friends who’d be more interested in watching that with you?”

“Well yeah but,” you sighed, dramatically lying down on his sheets. “They’ve already booked their tickets and I told them beforehand that I’d be reserving the movie date with you.”

“So it’s your fault for thinking ahead of time,” Jotaro cocked his eyebrow.

“Yah.” You landed a slap on his bicep. “You should be grateful I’m this considerate for wanting to include and prioritize you in my plans.”

He had the gall to smirk and huff, turning to you to flick your forehead. “Then that’s more of a you problem.” You narrowed your eyes at him with a pout as you grabbed the hand that flicked you. Though with a couple of puppy-eyed blinking and pouting, your boyfriend couldn’t resist but chuckle at your cutesy antics. “But I do appreciate you thinking about me.”

“Does that mean you’ll watch Barbie with me?” You beamed, hopeful.

“No.”

“You jackass.” This time, you grabbed one of his pillows to throw at his smug smile. Not like it did anything since he caught it with one hand. “Ahh what will it take to convince you to watch one movie with me?”

He leaned back onto his headboard with his arms crossed, proud of his stubborn decision. “I told you. I’m not going to watch the movie.”

“Oh yeah?” It was your turn to smirk. You got on all fours and prowled your way up his bed until you settled yourself on his lap. “Not even when I give you a bunch of these?” To demonstrate, you cupped his cheeks and planted a couple of light kisses on his forehead, nose, temples, and lips.

Especially the lips where you kept on returning to for two to three more smooches. Can you blame yourself? When Jotaro tend to reciprocate your affections when it’s just the two of you around? More so when his arms would wrap around you as a go signal to continue?

But you drew back eventually, slightly breathless. “Still?”

He tilted his head, smugness still present. “Still not watching. You know those won’t work on me.”

“Watch it if you love me.”

“You’d break up with me if I still say no?”

You pouted. “No…”

“Cute.”

This time, you groaned and dropped your head on his shoulder. “Come on~ Why are you so against watching Barbie?” You whined. “Can you not be the Ken to my Barbie for just 2 hours?”

“Hmm… on one condition.”

You widened your eyes at the suggestion and pushed yourself upright, still on him. “What? What is it?”

“We get to watch Oppenheimer too.”

“Oppen-” You let the name replay before you made the prolonged “ahhh” sound of recognition. “That’s it?! You could’ve just said that in the beginning and I’ll be more than willing to watch that movie with you!”

“You didn’t look the type to watch a biopic about a man inventing nuclear bombs.”

“Well you didn’t look the type to watch anything hot pink and glitter adjacent but I still asked anyways.”

But with you accepting his condition, that meant one thing. “So… does that mean you’ll finally watch my movie?”

Jotaro stared at you for a full minute before sighing heavily. “Fine. One time only.”

“Deal!” You thanked your boyfriend with one more kiss on his lips before getting up. Immediately, you opened his wardrobe. “Now let’s look for something pink that you can wear-”

“Oi, since when did I say I’d wear pink?”

“We have to be in theme, love! Besides, you can still wear black with it because of Mr. Oppenheimer.” You shuffled through his clothes. “Now, I did remember you having one the other time…”

You heard him scoff in the back, though his next words were that of fond annoyance. “You’re going to be the death of me, woman.”

“Drama king.”

[neo-shitty]

before the new year begins — tag game

happy new year, everyone! i've been doing a lot of journaling lately and i came across the written version of this tag from @madamescarlette on the dash and thought i'd give it a try just because i've been practicing more reflection these past few days.

tagging: @petrichor-han, @mosviqu, @straykats, and anyone who'd like to look back on 2024 🤍

share your favorite memory of this year.

off the top of my head, my favorite thing to recall was when i confronted this girl who spearheaded making rumors and talking shit about me and my friend group (mind you, we're college seniors). singlehandedly, one of my most empowering moments. other pleasant memories include campfires and hangouts by the sea across various friend groups, leaping together in joy when we passed our integrated subjects, trying our best not to laugh too loud in the office, and of course, graduating.

2. what was the highlight of your year?

finally getting my degree in accountancy. tough course :') would not recommend :') walked out with two mental illnesses, banger degree ender!

3. list the top five books you read this year.

sit down, this will be a long one. right off the bat, read last january, there is no antimemetics division by sam hughes (qntm), which put me in a crazy mental loop that just made me more immersed into the story than i already was. pet sematary by stephen king, my first step into horror and definitely not my last. there's genuinely nothing i like more than cosmic/domestic horror. this is how you lose the time war by amal el-mohtar and max gladstone, which has everything i truly want in a book—good writing, gays, pining, and time travel. hollow city and library of souls by ransom riggs, which are the 2nd and 3rd books of the miss peregrine's home for peculiar children series. truly, the only books that mattered. the whole thing could've been a banger trilogy bc of them idc idc. i wish i read more than i did this year, but i did my best given how busy i was.

4. list the top five movies you watched this year.

i watched chicago because of the trendy 'we both reached for the gun audio' but i ended up enjoying it far more than i anticipated. a uniquely formatted film musical, banger plot (with social commentary undertones) and banger songs. then i headed into wicked blindly and cried my eyes out with a friend at the cinema. beautiful story between two friends, banger cast and banger songs as well, and just the visuals of the movie were just stunning! all quiet on the western front, a devastating depiction of just how brutal war is. almost a 5/5, if it weren't for the shock factor ending. barbie because it wasn't what i expected a barbie live adaptation to be. it got across what a barbie cartoon movie would normally get across to kids to us adults in the real world. banger monologue, cried my eyes out in my room. cruella, though i watched it too early in the year to recall its impact fully. she was fabulous! i support women's rights and women's wrongs!

5. list the top five tv series you binged this year.

none. sorry, my attention span was just nowhere this year.

6. what is the one new thing you discovered this year (could be a place/hobby/song etc)?

hmm, i discovered that, though it shouldn't come as a surprise, i actually do like journaling and it really does help me in ways i thought it didn't before. i was always so pressured by the aesthetic standards around journaling that it just deterred me from utilizing it for what it was originally meant to be. now i just throw up words onto paper and pray for relief afterwards (which normally happens now!)

7. top three albums that you played this year?

preacher's daughter by ethel cain, the tortured poets department: anthology by taylor swift, and golden age by ethel cain. ethel taking 2 of the 3 spots in justified. i never did shut up about her and i just put her albums on loop in the background for hours while i was playing.

8. your spotify wrapped #1 song

it says good luck babe by chappell roan but i beg to differ. it doesn't say so on other sites like receiptify/volt.fm nor do i feel like i played it enough for it to land first this year. good song tho!

9. your spotify wrapped top artist

i think it was taylor swift? on another site, i have ethel cain which is honestly more accurate.

10. your personal song of the year.

a house in nebraska by ethel cain *sad pole dancing*

11. what is an achievement that you are proud of this year?

again, graduating. it's such a huge milestone in my life that i just can't undermine it. it means so much to me and reaching it lifted a lot of weight off my chest.

12. what are your goals for the next year?

to focus on the other aspects in my life that i neglected in the past few years such as family relationships, mental and physical health, self-improvement outside of academics, etc.

13. any three book releases you are excited for next year.

i'm not really one to look forward to releases but maybe the new hunger games book if its coming out this year. haymitch's story?

14. any three upcoming movies/tv series that you are excited for next year.

again, not one to look forward to movies. i literally had to look these up just to recall but: wicked 2, of course, and the minecraft movie for the hell of it. that's about it.

15. if you could change one thing about the past year what would it be?

i wish i took on more opportunities instead of letting them pass me by.

16. did you manage to stick to your new year's resolutions this year?

my life was too much of a whirlwind for me to even have a new year's resolution at the time. i was anxious and probably depressed and i just kept telling myself, "just one more year and it'll all be over".

17. do you have any new year's resolutions for the next year?

my new year's resolution is to just practice putting myself first and alleviating the pressure i've been unknowingly putting on myself since day one very many years ago.

18. favorite meme of the year?

i think i was too out of orbit to pick out a favorite one. i still keep on recycling all the ones i had since high school lol

19. which month was the most fun this year?

was there such a thing? my whole year was characterized by breakdowns and picking academics over the fun things in life. might've been december. i've been unwinding the whole month.

20. what color do you associate the previous year with?

maroon and/or blood red because that was a brutal year.

21. if you could tell yourself something at the beginning of this year based on what you know right now, what would it be?

apply for it. she'll understand when the time comes and she wouldn't live with the same regrets that i do.

22. favorite viral trend of the year?

i honestly have no idea. maybe the korean cheerleaders???

23. list any three new things you learned this year (could be recipes, a new skill, etc.)

memory keeping in the form of scrapbooking, relearning how to cook based on the recipes my parents have, a lot of workplace-related skills lmfao.

24. how would you describe your year in a word?

rollercoaster, every up just had to come with a down and sometimes it made me wish it just flung me off the track.

25. what color do you want to associate the upcoming year with? why?

a dull grey because this might be the year i become a corporate slave in a physically lively but emotionally dead city. tragic.

[skitskatdacat63]

hey, i'm the Oppenheimer anon (i'm usually too shy to ask stuff off anon, but i wanted to answer)!! And yeah, it was a fascinating experience for sure. I watched barbie first (and it was fun and everything), but mostly it just made me remember how much i love going to the cinema!!! I was so incredibly excited that I thought why not watch Oppenheimer, too. Fantastic decision 10/10 like it has been ages since i saw a film that good the sound design?? the cinematography?? the writing?? Also, yes, cillian murphy was sooo pretty in his little outfits!!!

Hello!!!!!!! :DDDDDD glad to meet you :)

I love to see movies in theaters, imo it's just so superior to watching it at home. Like you're just so invested and much more mentally and physically present, and it feels like much more of an experience. And especially something like Oppenheimer with the great sound design, you're just, not to be overly dramatic but, enraptured, yknow????

Like hearing/witnessing everyone's reactions and you're all just there together, having an experience together, it's very nice to me! Kinda even makes me a bit emotional to think about, the communal experience of a movie. You're all strangers, but you're sharing a moment. I'm hoping bcs of this whole meme that people will start going to the theaters more. Seriously, so many of my best memories with my friends are from going to the movies together.

But yes very obsessed with Cillian in that movie. I already liked him before this, but god he was just so good....and pretty 🤭🤭🤭 but he just really embodied the role, and was so intense and compelling and emotional

[leonskennedyismother]

If I sound familiar please do not read whats gonna follow. If you think you know me irl GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE. 🤍

If u think this situation is something that you are a part of or heard me talk about, please do not read and send me a private msg on ig w a ss of this cuz I don’t want u to read this. ESPECIALLY if ure involved. Thx!

So essentially: I went to see the Barbie movie… but ending up not seeing it 🧍🏻‍♀️ Lemme explain!

So me and my friend J ahead of time. So we went around the mall and did her makeup at Sephora (which was fun). Later S met us and we headed to a place to eat. We started eating and ordered a drink. After eating we went to a bar and in that bar, and we started drinking. So I typically drink a lot over a long period so I dont get too fucked up. But this time I drank like twice of what I usually drink. Me and S drank a lot and started joking and stuff. And then after a while me and J go to the bathroom together and she’s like “omg its like we’re dating” (she has a boyfriend but she’s bi). So I like joke with her and after peeing we like stare in the mirror andI put my head on her shoulder from the back-ish. And she says “omg stop doing that I might catch feels” and I like joke cuz wtv? Right? WRONG. Anyways we go back to the table and continue joking with S.

At this point lets fast forward, we’re 4 drinks deep (4 shots and 2 drinks which is 4 for me wtv) and her bf called. And me and S r like hang up cuz they’ve been talking for like 10 mins and I jokingly take her phone and say “Ok M, we’ll see you later bye” and close, which is like in a fun I’m drunk way. Like everyone laughs it off and it’s fine but like I felt like including it bc he’s a nice dude and I genuinely don’t hate him but I did hang up but like everyone laughed so I’m overthinking it I hope.

Anyways fast forward to us getting into the cinema, J and S kiss (S is str8 btw). And so J is like let’s kiss too, and I’m like “ok” but also “k????” but I was drunk so we peck or wtv and then I kiss S but again AS A DRUNK PECK BETWEEN FRIENDS.

We then get to our seats which fine cool and me and J start flirting. Like borderline not platonic flirting. And at some point we start peck again. And then kiss. And then kiss once more. And like continue flirting and stuff. Which is like fine bc it’s platonic ig, and her bf literally said “Nice” over text. (Also she showed me the convo but said don’t read it, and I didn’t bc my drunk brain said ‘It’s not about me’ when in reality it’s probably about me) But like after she started saying stuff like “Dont hold S’ hand. You’re cheating” and “Ok but you said I’m not your type.” Which I did say, bc she’s not and she’s in a relationship how tf am I cheating??? Also after the kisses she said “You can practice on me” cuz I said “It’s been a while since I didn’t kiss anybody” (I put the Bi in Bitchless)

Anyways we go to the bathroom together and she’s like “want me to go w you I dont want you falling” and I’m like wobbly but Im fine. And like when we return we lay on the floor or idek but I know at some point I pulled her and kinda slammed her into the wall in a hot *drunk* way. Which like idek why I did that pls it’s cringe. And then she kept giving me signals to kiss her during the movie but I was like “You do it.” Cuz I didn’t wanna kiss her but also I wanted to flirt. So Im confused and I’m pretty sure she’s in love with me but also I told her “I don’t wanna fuck you” and she said “I dont want it either” which I was like “ouch.” And she was like “Bruh!!” And I mean my ego

Anyways the next day she texted me in the early early morning *8am cuz I had a shift then* asking me if I’m okay and if I got to work safe. Which she never does. And I’m like “is she in love with me? I mean I don’t think so??”

PLEASE I DONT WANNA BREAK UP A COUPLE AND IM PRETTY SURE IM NOT BUT I FEEL GUILTY OMG. *this happened 2 days ago btw!*

Also Pretty sure I’m the only one who’s being dramatic about the whole thing and J is like not even caring! 🧍🏻‍♀️✨

[romantic-suggestions]

Um.. hi, I hope someone can give me some advice. I have had this crush on a girl for a long time but now it's stronger than ever and I want to try and do something about it but we aren't close at all, we follow each other on Instagram and she watches my stories. I really want to catch her attention and become close to her (even if just as friends) but I don't know how to do it, I'm not exactly good/smooth at conversations so I'm worried I'll scare her away. Any advice?

Hi anon! It’s a nerve-wracking situation, but you’ve got some options! I’m going to order them from least scary to most scary, and I’ve got faith in you!!! <3

Least scary - Make an Insta story asking for song recs, and if she responds, then you can start talking abt the music!!! It’s very Jay Gatsby (throwing a party just to impress your crush) but it’s low risk! She won’t know it’s specifically to trigger a convo with her, and it means you aren’t putting yourself out there too much!

A little scary - Send her a meme on Instagram and say “this reminded me of you!” I do this with my friends, and sometimes with old friends I haven’t talked to in ages, and tbh? Memes are really good for lightheartedness! If your crush has a niche interest (Barbie movies, Hades) then sending a themed meme could be a nice way of saying “your taste??? impeccable!” and it also breaks the ice if you both know abt the thing!

Decently scary - Message her to start up a convo abt something she’s posted! I know you feel a bit nervous starting convos, but over text, you have a bit of breathing room and a bit of awkwardness is harder to pick up on! <3 plus like... it’ll give you more confidence when talking in person!

Quite rather scary - Talking to her irl abt something she’s posted/an interest/showing her a meme! Frankly there’s no expectation you have to do this, bc I personally would struggle to take my own advice on this one, but if the opportunity comes up then grasping it could be good! I don’t know much abt how outgoing your crush is, but if you feel awkward they could fill in the gaps if they’re that sort of a person.

Frankly terrifying tbh - I don’t know how your country’s doing with COVID, but if it’s good (read: safe to go to a theatre) a lot of cinemas are doing reruns of old films! You could ask her and some friends if they want to go, and it’ll be fun, but also a chance to break the ice with her. I have done this before, with a decent amount of success (friendship wise!) but it’s definitely a step out of your comfort zone, I’d imagine! The good thing abt movies is that you can go in, bask in your crush’s presence, and then have something to talk about once you’re out! You can get ice cream afterwards too, which is like... top tier in my opinion, especially after being in a movie theatre.

In any case!!! I wish you the best of luck anon, and if these are all really scary, there’s always vagueposting on your story but I wouldn’t recommend that <3 ! Good luck anon!!!!

[bizabert]

Favorite Childhood Movies

Post ten GIFs of movies you loved as a child, then tag ten people. Optional: Tell us why you love(d) the films you picked.

Thanks to @friendly-jester for tagging me! I feel like every single memory I ever had was purged upon seeing this prompt but I’ll try my best. 

These are just in order of what I remember 

1) The Little Mermaid

I loved this movie so much that I basically broke our vhs tape of it. I don’t remember exactly what caught my eye but it was probably mermaids bc I thought they were so cool. Also singing because I love musicals.

2) George of the Jungle

I thought this movie was the peak of comedy. I watched it recently and wasn’t as enamored (not a fan of fake gorilla) but it holds a place in my heart. And the phrase “watch out for that tree” plays in my head to this day

3) The Lion King II: Simba’s Pride

HE IS NOT ONE OF US, HE WILL NEVER BE ONE OF US. I watched this whenever I was sick. I also have seen it more than I have seen the first one. I liked having a female main character and also loved the music. Yes, I also liked Kovu, shut up.

4) Shaolin Soccer

This scene right here where you see his butt was literally the funniest thing in the world to me as a kid. I still love the movie, its funny and crazy. This and Kung Fu Hustle hold dear places in my heart (though I didn't get to see Kung Fu Hustle till I was a bit older)

5) Monty Python and the Holy Grail

Still love this movie, Monty Python shaped so much of what my sense of humor is today. I will still quote it often.

6) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring

Without fail, the shire song makes me feel like crying, it feels like home. I watched the movies with my family a lot as a kid and still love them to this day. Who doesn't want to go on a harrowing magical adventure.

7) Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind

I’m pretty sure this was the first ghibli movie I ever saw. When I was little I loved Totoro as well (and later once I wasn't scared of it, Spirited Away) but I would watch this when my parents were having an adult get together and I was bored. I love the scene with the golden field of Oms.

8) Muppet Treasure Island

This movie is a masterpiece, and my housemates can attest to how many times I mention this movie. Family friends really love it so I saw it first (and often) through them. Its just a lot of fun, gotta love Muppets

9) Barbie as Rapunzel

A dragon and cool dresses what’s not to love? I played the dvd game extensively (she painted dresses??? I wanted to paint dresses and make them real!). Loved basically all Barbie movies at the time as well, Swan Lake and Pegasus were other favorites

10) Digimon: The Movie

Y'all this movie slaps, the ska soundtrack, the ridiculous dub its got everything. I love digimon so fucking much oh my god. All My Best Friend Are Metalheads playing as Diaboromon takes over all electronics, poetic cinema. Also Gatomon’s mega evolution is so fucking cool.

I tag @sockythedog @shiro1364 @czar-squid @ass-master-2000 @kristoph-kun @stillforests @compostingqueen @ephemeroyal @yadedaj @bobkitten​ and anyone else who wants to 

[thysurveys]

877.

What’s the ultimate cake topping? I don’t really care for cake. Do you prefer to wash in the mornings or evenings? Evening. Have you ever walked into a wall? Yes. Do you prefer vertical or horizontal stripes? Vertical if I am wearing stripes.

Can you name all 50 American states? Nope.

Have you ever ridden a motorcycle? Yeah. What makes you nervous? A lot of things. Are you ticklish? Yeah. Do you ever forward or reply to chain mails? Nope. Have you ever tried to make your own alcohol? Nope. Is it criminal to wear socks with sandals? You do you. If you were to join one of the armed forces, which would it be? No idea. If you swapped genders for a day, how would you spend it? Never really thought about it. Probably very similar to how I would now? Have you ever starred in a school play? I don’t believe I have. What historical period would you like to live in if you could go back in time? 80s, maybe? Have you ever been to see stand up comedy? Nope. Have you ever needed stitches? Yes. Do you ever laugh at things you shouldn’t? Yeah, I think so. Have you ever been in a submarine? Nope. What would you do if someone proposed to you tomorrow? I would be happy. How high can you jump? Not high? Which fictional character do you wish was real? Lucas from One Tree Hill at the mo I guess bc I’m obsessed. Do you like vanilla or chocolate? I like both. Do you think Barbie is a negative role model for young girls? They’re becoming a lot more diverse, so I would say positive-ish as of today? Do you prefer Honey or Jam? I like both. Do you read a daily newspaper? Not my thing. Do you own a lava lamp? Yes, sir. Have you ever been in a hot tub or sauna? Uh huh.  Have you ever had chicken pox? Yep. Do you believe there used to be dragons? I don’t think so, no. Who would you want to be with on a desert island? Kevin. What’s the worst show on television? South Park I think. Beavis and Butthead. I just don’t care for that kind of humour. Who’s your favorite god from ancient history? I don’t really know. What was the last present you received? Wasn’t really a present, but a card I received when I got my current job. Could you go out with someone who had a child from a previous relationship? Sure. I love kids. What was your first alcoholic drink? Beer. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? Qld.  What was your first detention for? Never really had detention. Who was your first kiss? An ex. What was the first film you remember seeing at the cinema? Rugrats. And it was the first film I ever watched. What nicknames do you have/have had? I go by Jess by pretty much everyone.  Did you have any pretend or imaginary friends? Did, sure thing. Have you ever seen a therapist/shrink? Yes. Have you ever carved a pumpkin? I think I have. I don’t really know tbh. I may have attempted it. Did you ever have a treehouse as a kid? Nope. Do you plan to vote in the next election? Yeah, have to unless I want a fine lol. Have you ever appeared on YouTube? Yeah. Have you ever been on radio? Uh nope. Do you bite your nails? Not anymore since I have SNS. Are you much of an adventurer? I would like to be more of an adventurer.  Do you like your own name? Eh. How long has your longest ever phone call been? Oh man probably like 10 hours? Lol. Have you ever stolen anything? Yeah. Could you ever have an affair with a married person? Nah. Could you ever split up a couple for one reason or another? I have when I was young and dumb. Do you get hayfever? I do unfortunately now. I never used to. Have you ever planted a tree? Yeah. Do you believe in karma? Yeah. Which celebrity do you find the most annoying? Don’t really care. If you discovered a new species of dinosaur, what would you call it? Hm. I can’t think of anything creative lol.

[megabadbunny]

For the DxR fic meme: Nine x Rose; 01 G ☯

(Nine x Rose, Jackie’s flat, midnight, Rose’s diary; from @doctorroseprompts )

***

He knows he shouldn’t, and yet, here he is.

(But it’s not exactly his fault, is it? If she didn’t wanthim to see it, maybe she shouldn’t have left it lying around all public in theopen, conspicuous and winking at him and daring him to take a little peek,wriggling its (figurative) hips like a minx in red throwing a perfumed kissover one shoulder. Never mind the fact that it wasn’t lying around in public somuch as it was in her room, that it wasn’t in the open so much as it was tuckedunder her mattress.)

The Doctor glances around furtively, even though he knows noone will catch him in the act; the flat is empty of any other living thing,save for him and the dust motes colonizing the space beneath the rug. Rose andher oddity of a mum have whisked off somewhere or other (“a proper girls’night”, Jackie might’ve said, or might not have, as the Doctor might not havebeen listening) and Jack is goodness-knows-where with goodness-knows-whom, sothe Doctor figures he’s got a good few hours to himself before anyone returns.And he’s got to find some way to occupy himself, hasn’t he?

(Besides, it isn’t as if he went snooping specifically for it.More like, he snooped, and there it conveniently was. Also, he’s bored.)

Plunking himself down on her bed—not nearly as soft or plushas her TARDIS bed, he thinks with a smirk—the Doctor opens the book to thefirst page.

Dear dairy readsthe first line.

The Doctor chuckles. There is no date scrawled anywhere onthe page, but the scribbles and misspellings amidst very careful and deliberatestrokes tell the Doctor these words were written by someone who had only recentlylearned penmanship, and was determined to do it well.

Dear dairy

Hello how are you? Myname is Rose Marion Tyler. It is my brithday today I am 6 years old.

It’s almost impossible to imagine Rose ever being so young;far easier to picture her emerging fully-grown and stubborn-willed and jeopardy-friendlystraight from inception. But the Doctor tries, and in his mind’s eye he canalmost see her sitting on the bed—no, lying on it, stomach-down, her sock-cladfeet kicking idly in the air. Her hair, unbleached and light brown, would be pulledback into a ponytail, held in place by one of those what d’you-call-it’s. A scrunchie. Her head would bend down inconcentration over the diary as she clutched her pen tightly in her small fist.The Doctor imagines the pen to be pink, glittery, one of those gel-things, hopelesslyand wonderfully childish and girly, and his grin broadens.

Mummy and me had aparty in the park and Lottie and Fred cud not come but Shireen was there andMickey to and his gran and my grandad Prentis. Grandad brung cake from thestore it has had a heart drawed on and my name and there were candels.We had ice cream to. And I had prezents there was a barby and shoes and a newbell for my bike…

The list continues and the Doctor rolls his eyes fondly.Clearly, six-year-old Rose had decided to commit only the most pertinent ofdetails to memory. He flips through perhaps the first quarter of the diary, pausingat a mention of Mickey here, a drawing of a flower there, and watches as Rose’shandwriting grows more confident, her entries more substantial. Her diary is amicrocosm of her adventures with mates, days at school, developing crushes, thelikeability of some of Jackie’s boyfriends and the caddishness of others. Atrandom, the Doctor slips a finger between the pages and opens the diarymid-entry, perhaps a year or two along its timeline.

and it felt awful butI didnt say anything bc he was right I dont have a dad but Keisha got angry andtold him to butt out and mind his own business. So then Nick laughed and madefun of Keisha bout her mum and I thot Keisha might cry so I punched Nick in thenose and it bled and the head teacher says I cant come back to school for aweek. Mum says Im in trouble but she didnt stop granddad from buying me a 99 onthe way home and she said next time do a slap its easier on the nuckles.

The Doctor can just picture Rose, eight years old, eyesflashing and stance wide as she bloodies some little twerp’s nose with herfist. Now that—that is a Rose he has no trouble imagining. Laughing, the Doctorshakes his head and flips to a later entry.

8 Nov 1996

Dear diary,

We went to go see Dad yesterday.

The Doctor pauses, hesitates. He knows what the words mean—they’refigurative, not literal, because it would be another eleven years before Rose sawany more of Pete Tyler than old photos and a grave—but the memory of the daynine years earlier still sends a shiver down his spine, clenches something inhis gut in a guilty-sick feeling he can’t quite explain.

Mum told me the storyagain. She seemed all right definitely better than the last time. I think thephotos help. Granddad came to and I don’t think he rly liked Dad very much buthe was nice about him today nicer than on other days. Afterwards Mum went todrop me off with Mickey but he said she needed me so I went on home and she seemeda little happier but she still cried a bit.

The Doctor wrinkles his nose. Something about Mickey theIdiot doing a good turn makes him grumpy. Who does that idiot think he is,anyway?

We had tea and fellasleep in front of the telly. I wanted to make her dinner but there was nothingin and I couldnt find anything in her purse so I went down to Ms Nodd’s bc she’sout seeing her grandson and I got the spare key from under her flower pot and Ilooked in her bedroom and found a few pounds and took them. I bought Mum aChinese from her favourite place and she didnt ask where I got the money so I didnttell her. I dont think Ms Nodd would know it was me that took it but I stillfeel bad I just didnt know what else to do. Ill pay her back when I get somemoney for my bday.

Nice old bird, that Ms Nodd. Much nicer than some of theother tenants on the Estate, with her blue-tinged hair and cheerful smile andwithered old hands that freely distribute home-baked biscuits to errant TimeLords who just happen to be handy with a squeaky front door. The Doctor makes amental note to liberate an ATM of a couple hundred-pound-notes at his earliestopportunity and slip them into her flat.

He reads a few more pages—comfortably silly stuff, all ofit, more crushes and rants about school and discussions of celebrities andfashion and Rose’s favorite things on telly—until his fingers land on an oddlybrittle page, warped in places, buckling. Several of the words are nearlyimpossible to discern, smudged as they are, and it takes the Doctorapproximately .003 seconds to identify the water marks as tears.

(There’s no dear diaryhere, no date. The words simply begin, as if writing anything more than theabsolutely necessary would take too much energy. Like it would hurt too much.)

Granddad’s gone.

The Doctor sighs, and his hearts each break a little foryoung Rose, curled up in her bed and crying bitter tears into her pillow. Tenyears old is far too young to experience the cruelty of such a loss. But it isn’tas if it gets any easier at any other age. The Doctor knows that to be painfullytrue.

Had a heart attack.Doctors said he went in his sleep and didn’t feel anything. I hope that’s true.Mum said he’s with the angels now but that’s stupid. The angels don’t need him wedo. I already miss him.

Mum can’t stop crying.I wish Dad was here.

And there’s that feeling again in the Doctor’s gut, thesquirmy-sicky one. Almost as if his stomach knows he shouldn’t be doing this,like his body is punishing him. It was all well and good reading about the funfrivolities of a carefree primary-schooler, but this sort of thing—this issomething else. Something deep and personal, a compound fracture of emptinessand hurt. The Doctor knows should stop reading now. He really should.

(He doesn’t.)

It takes a few weeks for the mentions of Granddad Prentice tostart fading, but eventually, they do, fading away to be gradually replaced bythe normality of everyday life. Sometimes months pass between diary-entries;other times, years. The Doctor smiles as he glances over recountings of schooldays and formals and skipping classes, of Jackie’s eccentric cluster of boyfriends,of fights with friends and happy makings-up after, of holidays and gossip andhopes for the future. The day Rose and Shireen fall out over a boy is marked byan obscene amount of swearing and words crossed-out and pencil-punctures dugdeep into the page; the day Mickey asks Rose to be his girlfriend is noted withexclamation points and a lipgloss-kiss.

The day Rose meets Jimmy Stone is noted with a single heartthat simply reads Mrs Rose Stone.

Grimacing at the words, the Doctor forces himself to presson.

OMG met this bloke Jimmyyesterday n he was soooo fit reads the next entry. Shireen and Keisha and me went down the pub and he was playing in theband and I thot he fancied Keisha at first but after he asked for my number ♡ ♡ ♡I kno it doesn’t mean nothing so I didn’ttell Mickey cos no point in him worrying and he gets so jealous anyway lol

Awww, poor jealous ickle Mickey, thinks the Doctor. He snortsderisively. Human beings—so quick to such petty reactions. He’s very glad hedoesn’t have to worry about silly things like that.

Still, it’s a little surprising when, just a few pages later,things have already progressed by leaps and bounds. Jimmy kissed me! leaps out from the page, followed by things like Mickey and me had a fight and Snuck out to hear Jimmy play downtownand Went to the cinema with Jimmy and he puthis hand up my sk

Hearts hammering, the Doctor flips past that page before hiskeen eyes have a chance to read any further. For some reason, the thought ofJimmy putting his hand up anything of Rose’s—indeed, of Jimmy or some otherfool even thinking about touching her, anywhere, with anything—makes him burn abit under the collar. Unpleasant, that. Maybe he’d better take a look at Jackie’sthermostat, make sure it’s doing its job, because it certainly doesn’t feellike it.

(Still, he skips the several pages that follow, just to besafe.)

said if Iwalked out that door I’d better not walk back in and you know what screw her.She’s wasted her whole life crying about Dad and never doing anything withherself and never doing anything for me. I hate her I would rather die then belike her

Eyes widening in surprise, the Doctor quickly scans over thenext few pages, his concern deepening by the second.

love Jimmy andno one can tell me any different and if Mum really knew what love was then she’dunderstand

Im so glad I’mwith him now he gets me like no one else ever has or ever will, ♡ him forever

didnt want totake my a-levels anyway not like it means anything out in the real world

moving into aflat together next week can’t wait ♡♡♡

and I love himbut I wish he’d get a job cos the gigs don’t make enough n I can’t covereverything on my own

came home drunkagain last night n wouldnt tell me where he’d been

told me I’dbetter cough up the rest of the rent by next weekend or else he would

And then, nothing.

The Doctor frowns. Whatever he would do is left unexplained, torn away along with a wholecluster of pages in the diary, leaving a ragged little scar behind where wordsand feelings used to sit. The Doctor runs a finger along the page-stumps leftin the spine, and wonders.

What could have happened that was so bad that even the memoryof it had to be ripped away?

The next entry picks up a few weeks later. It does notmention Jimmy. Instead, the page displays only a handful of lonely words:

He wasright. I’m so stupid.

It takes a moment for the Doctor to realize that the diaryis shaking in his hands. But that’s only because he’s gripping it so tightlyhis knuckles are glowing bright white in an attempt to jump out of his skin. Andsuddenly he’s glad, in quite a perverse way, that he has witnessed thedestruction of the Reapers firsthand, because otherwise the temptation to pilotthe TARDIS back in time to ensure that Jimmy Stone never hurt Rose—that henever so much as existed, never so much as blighted this planet with even asingle vile breath—would be so strong that he’s not entirely sure he’d be ableto stop himself.

Forcing himself to calm, the Doctor skips forward, hopefullyto an entry that won’t cause hisblood to boil angrily in his ears. Now phrases like moved back in with Mum today and applied at Henriks greet his eyes, and he feels the muscles in hisshoulders begin to relax.

and a sweet ginger boy’sstarted coming round, Mum named him Jonesy

but the new job’s notso bad

going out to the clubswith Shireen

Mickey stopped by withflowers today and it was like nothing had ever gone wrong

anyway we’re datingagain

nothing’ll come of itbut some blokes won in Bristol last week so who knows, maybe we’ll win a littlesomething n I could get Mum something nice

a little boring Iguess but prolly about the best I can expect for now

So my job blew uptoday???

Now a grin spreads across the Doctor’s face, lighting it upfrom ear-to-ear. Finally. Took longenough to get here. Now for the reallygood stuff.

Fingers tingling in anticipation, he turns the page.

Nothing.

The Doctor flips through the remaining pages, hunting forsomething, anything, but nothing buta sea of white greets his eyes, winking up at him obnoxiously without so muchas a single date or scribble or scrawl to capture his attention. The rest ofthe diary is completely, utterly blank.

Huffing in irritation, the Doctor sits back, flipping thebook closed with a scowl. It makes a certain sense, he supposes, but still.Really? She’ll write about ice cream and Barbies and school gossip and Mickeythe Idiot but no mention of the TARDIS, no asides about traveling through timeand space, no discussion of Dickens or Slitheen or bitchy trampolines or 900year-old Time Lords taking her by the hand to show her anything her littleheart could ever possibly—

CLANG.

“I just found it!” blurts out the Doctor without eventhinking, pushing off the bed and whirling round to face Rose’s open bedroomdoorway. But no one stands there; indeed, if his superior hearing is anythingto go by (and it usually is), there’s no one within several meters of him, certainlyno one in the flat. And the continuing ding-dang-dongbell’s sound, ringing at twelve lazy but significant intervals, informs himthat his nervousness was for naught—it’s just Jackie’s old grandfather clock,noisily (and unnecessarily, the Doctor thinks with a grump) proclaiming thetime.

It’s midnight. Probably Rose and Jackie will be home soon. Andprobably he shouldn’t let them know he was nosing through Rose’s diary.

(Even if it wasn’t his fault, seeing as they left him aloneand bored and unoccupied in the flat, and even if he didn’t find what he waslooking for—even if he’s not entirely certain what that was.)

As he slips the diary back into its hiding-place beneathRose’s mattress, it occurs to him that there are any number of reasons Rosemight not be writing things in a diary any more—she forgot it at home, or she’stoo tired after their adventures, or too distracted, or maybe she’s even got anew one aboard the TARDIS, hidden somewhere equally silly. But there’s anotheroption too, he realizes; that she’s simply too happy to see the need forwriting things down, that she is too busy living her memories to think of takingthe time to document them. The thought warms him, contentment blooming in hischest, and he leaves Rose’s room with a smile, closing the door behind him.

(He still checks her room on the TARDIS just in case.)

***

part ii

[astrofairies]

Angelic Pretty Questions: all of them?

I MEAN.... I GUESS!! 

Sugary Carnival: Have you ever been considered popular?

i don’t believe so! 

Milky Planet: Besides earth, what planet would you come from?

hmmm venus or neptune i think!

Rose Toilette: Your signature perfume?  

usually anything vanilla

Whimsical Vanilla-chan: What pets do you have/want to have? 

i have three dogs!! i love dogs and wouldn’t rly want another kind of pet!

Marine Kingdom: Favourite undersea creature?

hmmm i really like dolphins or sea stars!

Dreamy Dollhouse: Describe your room with just 5 words.

messy, unorganized, memories, books, homey

Melty Chocolate: Favourite type of chocolate?

milk chocolate! white chocolate is way too sweet for me, and i don’t really care for dark!

Sugar Dream Dome: What do you like most about Winter?

nothing

when it snows for the first time and everything is covered in a blanket of white

Milky Berry: What do you like most about Summer? 

that it’s always warm and i don’t have school!!

Happy Garden: What types of things would you plant in a garden?

different flowers that are a rainbow of colors!

Magical Étoile:  Favourite attraction at a carnival? 

the ferris wheel!!

Toy Parade: What toys did you play with as a child?

i loved playing with barbies and polly pockets!! I also enjoyed painting and drawing!

Holy Lantern: Describe the darker side to your personality. 

uh i mean, i guess i can be really negative from time to time? maybe manipulative??

Melody Doll: What types of music do you listen to?

broadway, disney, etc! i just love singing!

Wonder Party: Favourite type of tea?

i can’t drink tea

Glass Bottle of Tears: What, without fail, makes you cry?

thinking about my future

whenever i reflect of my past and think about all the fun i have and i miss it bc i don’t get to experience it everyday

Cinema Doll: What makes a movie really enjoyable for you?

i love when there’s comedy and when the characters get a happy ending! like not even a “romantic” happy ending, i just want the characters to be happy and succeed. 

Memorial Cake: What is your ideal romantic experience? 

just spending time with someone who makes me unconditionally happy

Star Night Theatre: If life was viewed as a theatre stage, what role would you play?

probably a supporting character of some sort. i never like to be the center of attention.

Cotton Candy Shop: If you had your own shop, what things would you sell?

books!!!!!

Decoration Dream: Favourite way to decorate a cake?

just frosting tbh!! i don’t care for sprinkles or anything hard!

Fancy Box: What gift(s) did you get for your birthday last year? 

i actually...don’t remember?? my leo friend bought me a mermaid necklace (because she thinks im a mermaid), and lonny got me a mug, but i can’t really remember anything else? i went down the shore with my aunt so that was pretty much the highlight

Misty Sky: What is your favourite type of weather?

sunny with a few clouds so i can watch them roll across the sky!

Dreamy Horoscope: What is your zodiac sign, and do you relate to it?

gemini, and i do!! 

Symphonia of Birds: Favourite type of bird?

i really like peacocks!

Day Dream Carnival: What do you daydream about the most?

 life after college and what i’ll do!

Royal Cards: Name a game you are really good at.

hmm i think clue! i’m good at hypothesizing and putting things together. detective work!

Milky Cross: Are you a religious person? 

i mean i believe in a higher life but i don’t practice a religion? i’m methodist but i don’t really go to church or anything

Cream Cookie: What kinds of snacks do you munch on?

i like chocolate! 

Drained Cherry: What emotionally exhausts you?

everything

Fancy Paper Dolls: What accessories would come with a doll version of you?

probably a book or my laptop!  

Holy Night Story: Favourite thing to do when it’s night time?

watch movies!

Candy Treat: Favourite type of candy?   

chocolate candy, specifically kit-kats!

Fantastic Dolly: What cosmetics do you use?

i use everything but eyeliner and eyeshadow!

Drink Me: Favourite drink/beverage? 

water or hot chocolate...or milkshakes

Merry Making Party: Describe the biggest party you’ve ever been to.

probably my graduation night??? my class of 140 kids got together in our community center and spent the entire night there (from 6pm-6am)

Country of Sweets: What countries would you like to visit? 

italy, greece, germany! 

Fruits Parlour: Favourite fruit? 

strawberries!

Dream Sky: Have you ever seen a shooting star?

no :(

Soap Bubbles: How do you like to bathe/shower?

i like to stand in the shower for like 30 minutes daydreaming before i get out tbh....and when i take baths i like to use bath bombs!!

Jewelry Jelly: Name 3 of your favourite jewellery pieces.

a golden moon necklace i got from claire’s for like two bucks; a golden plate that says “inspire”; a pink and red friendship bracelet i bought from the mexico pavilion in epcot (lonny and my other friend also have the same bracelet, but in different colors. i got them two years ago and we havent taken them off yet!)

Dream Fantasy: What is your wildest fantasy?

i actually dont know tbh    

Milky-chan the Fawn: Favourite forest animal?

mmm probably bears!

Honey Cake: What do you normally eat for breakfast? 

depends! sometimes when im low on time just a nutrigrain bar or poptarts, or i’ll eat a bagel or toast with avocado if i have more time!

Dreamy Baby Room: The most childish part of your personality?

always daydreaming/imagining! 

Chess Chocolate: What piece would you be on a chess board?

queen 

French Cafe: Favourite thing to eat at a patisserie?

i rly like cupcakes or small cakes

Sugar Hearts: How is your love life right now?   

non-existent  

Wonder Story: What types of things do you like to read about?

everything!!

Twinkle Mermaid: Favourite type of fantasy creature?

mermaids or fairies!

Gloria: Name a very rare item that you would love to own.

hmm not sure!