#but till then demiurge will have to do or my own OCs

[the-blind-geisha]

Questions about OCs and stuff

You can find the original file here! I reblogged it super late at night.

Gonna fill this one out myself, because it looked fun!

OC questions:

* Who was your first ever OC? Do you still “use” them? How have they evolved over time?

Oreana was my first ever OC, and yes I do! She evolved from me wanting to write myself in with my favorite fixations to becoming her own actual character.

I could tell as a character she wanted to have the princess title removed, but I refused since I wanted that to be another obstacle for her. XD

2. Who is your newest OC? Why did you make them?

Asther Thyme, my goat OC was one I bought on toyhouse, but newest one made by me is Demiurge turned into a jackal.

I bought the goat because I am trying to rethink about this old idea of mine I wrote years ago as a kid that had more furries in it than humans. Demiurge turning into a jackal was just originally for fun but he stayed after awhile.

3. Biggest self-insert OC?

Oreana. XD; While she's come a long ass way since then, I still feel the parts of me that are in her.

4.What kind of music do your OCs listen to?

There's too many to list. Oreana just likes anything with a good beat, and Ignatius and Demiurge prefer instrumental.

5. What are some of your OCs biggest fears?

Oreana: being used again Ignatius: enduring loss again Demiurge: the loss of himself

Demona: never returning home

Cheshire: Demiurge ever getting his Creator's love when he feels he doesn't deserve it.

6. Do you have any OCs without stories? Will you ever create one for them?

Yuna, Asther, Elasha, and Haruka. Their Toyhouse bios aren't even filled in yet, because I don't know what to do. XD;

And yes, they will! I just have to get my ideas all together first.

7. What are your favourite relationships between your OCs? (romantic or platonic!)

Romantic, mainly because of the lack of love in my life. XD;

8. Do you have any OC family trees?

Oreana does have parents and 2 brothers—as well as an ancestor I can't get into because that's spoilery, and Ignatius has a twin brother.

9. Favourite OC?

It bounces from Oreana, Ignatius, to Demiurge.

10. OC you most struggled to make?

Ignatius. In fact, he went through a redesign about a year—er two years—ago. He originally was just going to look very much like a guy from YYH I loved but a naga, till I decided to make him more like an amalgamation of characters and ideas I loved. Doing that was so much so for the better. As I don't have to feel fixated on the one canon character to be fixated on him.

Fanfic questions:

11. * Sum up one or more of your wips!

Werewolf professor in a fantasy styled Victorian London looks to try and quell the fear over the werewolf curse. It's a commission so I can't really plop too much of it down.

12. Which story took the most research?

Anything from Assassin's Creed. Especially the Victorian London ones regarding brothels, tuberculosis, opium dens, and factories.

Don't get me started on the sex stuff... since that was considered 'prudish', it feels nearly lost to time.

13. Which story has the most lore?

Uuuh... A Love Most Profound and or The Demon King of the Desert, depending what you mean. Both spoke of their beliefs and even had rough outlines of their worlds.

14. Current word count of all your main wips?

I don't think I have any active yet since I'm on vacation.

15. How many projects do you have going on right now? Are there any that you doubt you’ll ever finish?

I have my private journal

A private personal story

In Another Life, We Could Have Been Lovers

Amnesia: A Dreamer's Requiem

An Empty Heart Full of Memories

The Devil After Midnight

The Devil's Tome

Within the Dream Temptation

The Princess and the Dove

I am not sure. I would like to get through all of these, but it's doubtful.

16. What was you first major project? How far along is it?

I guess The Devil's Contract would be considered that. And it's done now at 50 chapters. I was quite happy to have it finished.

17. What are some tropes and character dynamics found in your wips?

Slow burn, soulmates, and just romantic stuff.

18. Describe the setting of one or more of your wips

Horror fantasy of who is doing what and what is happening under the OC's nose, Victorian werewolf fantasy, and murder fantasy with a bit of reincarnation? I guess we'll say.

19. What are some things that inspired your stories? Real events? Maybe a dream?

Dreams more than anything, and if not those, anything I play or watch. Even The Demon King had elements of LOZ in it.

20. What story are you the proudest of? Why?

The Demon King of the Desert. It helped me come to terms with a bit more online trauma, and it seemed to touch a few folks. So I'm happy with it.

About me questions:

21. * When did you start considering yourself a writer/artist?

Artist, I always felt I was one. In fact, I was quite upset when I got online and people preferred my writing over my art. XD But I came to terms with it after awhile. Heck, I realize when I blend the two, people enjoy both.

Writing started to happen the more I wrote stories on websites, and folks came to love them or use them as a means to shoulder through a tough time in their life.

22. What are all the “kinds” of writing/art you do? (short stories, poetry, screenplays, digital, painting, clay, etc.)

I do short stories, poetry, digital art, traditional art too at some points—and sing as well as (kind of) play the piano.

23. Are you in any writer/artist groups? (Ex: discord server!)

Sadly, not really. I get nervous to spread my works to places I'm not comfortable in. But I've heard joining discord servers is a good idea.

24. Do you have/want a career in your medium? If not, what do you do/want to do instead? I would love to publish a book or do a comic of some sort. How I'll go about that, I have zero clue.

25. What’s your favourite genre to write? Is it also your favourite genre to read?

Fantasy and or romance. I prefer to read fantasy over reading romance. I only write romance because of the trauma in my life.

26. What are your favourite books?

The Maze Runner and The Last Unicorn.

27. What are your favourite movies?

The Last Unicorn,Watership Down, and now The Super Mario Brothers Movie (I've watched it like 4 times since I bought it lol).

28. Favourite songs at the moment?

Moonlight Shadow (original artist Mike Oldfield but any artist will do), The Secret of Monkey Island intro melody, and Tombi from Trigun.

29. What was your first fandom you were in? Did you make any art/fanfic for it?

Ronin Warriors, and yes, I wrote and drew for it but ALL that stuff is now archived and lost to time. Lol Well, only gone from the net, really. I still have it offline.

[dragoon-of-all-trades]

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Overlord - Maruyama Kugane & Related Fandoms Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Demiurge (Overlord - Maruyama Kugane) & Original Female Character(s), Demiurge (Overlord - Maruyama Kugane) & Original Character(s) Characters: Demiurge (Overlord - Maruyama Kugane), Albedo (Overlord - Maruyama Kugane), Mare Bello Fiore, Ainz Ooal Gown | Momonga, Aura Bella Fiora, Ulbert Alain Odle Additional Tags: Horror, Body Horror, Psychological Horror, Alternate Universe, Angst, Fluff and Angst, Angst and Feels, Yandere, Smut, Fluff and Smut, Eventual Smut, Exophilia, Demons, Demon Sex, Demon Deals, BDSM, Torture, Implied/Referenced Torture, Psychological Torture, Teacher-Student Relationship, Cannibalism, Cannibalistic Thoughts, tags will be added and or changed, Human Experimentation, Sexual Experimentation, Experimentation Summary:

Lilyodin, a farm worker, is sold to the demon ruling over her land for a high price. Upon arriving at his castle, the demon Demiurge seems charming, charismatic and more than willing to assist her in growing to become far better than what she was born to be. However, something feels off about how servants seem to come and go without so much as a word, and the gaps in Lilyodin’s memory start to plague her as to what’s truly going on in the castle walls right under her nose.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

This is something I’ve been meaning to do for a while—write to my own OCs again. ♥ I wrote to original characters religiously for years, but once I was introduced to inserts 4 or so years ago, I kind of took a huge left-turn because it included so many into my world.

But I want to focus on myself again. I want to write something 100% for me. ♥ That doesn’t mean I'm stopping Devil’s Contract. That’s going to still go on till the end, but I wanted another story in case I ever needed a breather. ♥

If any of you lovely folks come to like it too, then I thank you for the kind support be it via kudos, comments, or even bookmarking or subscribing. ♥ I know I get too…descriptive, and that can drag the story or make it annoying for some folks, but please understand: I have a mild form of aphantasia. I need to see what’s going on in my mind when I write, or I’ll go insane.

This entire story is AU based. The only thing you really need to know is that the guardians serve Ainz and the other Supreme Beings but the guardians are lords and ladies of their own respected cities and or towns in a New World that is my own creation. The location(s) and a majority of the characters in this world will mostly be my doing. So by that respect, you don’t even need to know Overlord to bother reading it.

Thanks again for being supportive and understanding as I take this plunge. ♥

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

[the-blind-geisha]

If you’re sad or upset, do you still turn to your comfort character or do you do other stuff instead? If you do, is that person Demiurge or is it someone else at the moment? And What are some things you like to imagine with that character that help you get through everything? Demi is always my comfort character and I feel a lot safer when I close my eyes and think about him. I was wondering what you or others do? If this is too personal tho then you don’t to answer

To be transparent a bit, anon: I have such severe depression that I almost died from an eating disorder years ago when I was 17. I went from 120 lbs to 100 lbs and my adopted mother threatened to throw me into a mental ward as a threat to make me 'get better'. She was behind a lot of my mental decline in regards to my appearance and my depression being she is fatphobic and narcissistic. I still very much have my eating disorder—I only eat one thing a day if I can get away with it and will sleep till like 2 PM if I don't have work. But I do my best to not let it slip too far out of hand.

My escape? Honestly, it's always been my vivid dreams, video games, writing or artwork. Daydreaming helps massively too when I have to be at work or some place I don't want to be.

I've had those vivid dreams ever since I was a child and documented every single one since I was in 5th grade. They actually used to scare me whenever they would trigger, because I would be alone someplace I didn't recognize and wake up in a panic. After a time, I learned to just deal and let them ride out no matter how good or scary they were.

Funny thing is? Demiurge has showed up in them from time to time when I got into Overlord heavily in late 2019. In the beginning, those dreams were very intense in a morbid way, but eventually, he became a well rounded family man. He did cause a random resurgence in my rape night terrors, but he did also save me from them too which is what inspired the image below where he was taking my chain to be my new 'master' just to save me from sex traffickers (who he murdered and saved me and other women lol).

But, to be frank further—I do have moments where I do just want to think morbidly of how to 'hurt myself', and to prevent that? Yes, I think of my latest obsession to heal and chase that insanity away. Demiurge is that guy.

There are moments I think of him in the modern day as a loving husband who takes care of his kids and wife, moments I daydream of us in another world that's not here, and so on.

I've always done this. I even have fanfics I've written and illustrated as a child pre-internet days to take myself away from the craziness of the world that I've still kept to this day and age. They were all my fixations at the time and me leaning on those characters to feel better. The funny thing is, I read through them sometime ago, and I realized I always wrote myself with an eating disorder when I was a kid and even one scene where I was being lusted after by a woman before I even laid a hand on my sexual identity. Hell, the lesbian succubus OC I have, Irie, constantly comes after Oreana in a lot of stuff I've done just to torment her sexually or mentally. I even have an entire pencil drawn comic of Irie that I did in high school. So I guess the back of my mind just always kinda knew these things.

But there are times I will sit and just write and or draw in private, to myself. Writing these cringy fics to myself regarding Demiurge / Oreana is what makes me smile. They don't have to go anywhere. I just get to sit and enjoy them for me, myself, and I. Even Demiurge being in Oreana's canonical story where he comes across the brothel she's trapped in? That image that's my banner? I often wonder what would happen if he saved her from the brothel instead of her canonical husband.

And while I have gone out of my way to say Oreana isn't me, I've self-projected in her so much that her pain is my pain, and her pleasure is my pleasure and so on.

The problem is, my mind is a madhouse. I will play a game and try to take my mind off of him for a second, but then here comes that idea out of nowhere to pester me. lol The Demon King of the Desert? That's actually more inspired by an LOZ BOTW/ Demiurge crossover thought. I'm basically imagining him out in the Gerudo Desert but trying to lightly paint it over. lol There is another I want to do where he is actively in the LOZ world but formerly part of the Sheikah tribe with a wife. He was the royal family's torturer who goes insane when Ganon takes over in the OoT timeline.

So yeah. Demiurge is very comforting for me right now too. When I'm actively not thinking about him, I do try to watch streams or old Youtube videos I love(d) to take my mind away from the pain of whatever is going on. It does help but near as much as the other stuff. ♥

I am glad he can be there for you too, anon. Having a character that's your comfort character is so wonderful.