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I wanted to try and find my headcanon of Roach's face because for some reason my brain decided that I couldn't keep writing my fanfic if I didn't know what I wanted him to look like beneath his mask... So obviously the full picture wasn't planned. (Also I went the easy way for the background because I remembered that I wasn't getting paid anyway so why make myself suffer)
I don't know if the design is definitive, but I find him cute. I made him Welsh, because why not. He can bond with Soap over why the fuck do the English exist.
Anyway they're gossiping about someone at the pub like the little shits they are. Also I don't know if it's obvious or not, but Roach has the mask sun-tan line. Ghost does too. Speaking of Ghost, he's on the other side of the table, looking like that :
#cod mw2#john soap mactavish#gary roach sanderson#simon ghost riley#soaproach#ghostsoaproach#ghostsoap#soapghost#they each have one dogtag from the other two (they lied about having lost the first pair to get another to have enough)#but they only wear the three when they're not on duty for obvious reasons#also i feel like not enough people know that british dogtags are round and not rectangular like the american ones#soap wears a kilt because kilts are hot and with his shirt it looks kinda punk i think#thistles are the flower of scotland btw (and one of my favourite flowers they're so pretty)#the piercings also don't stay on when they're on duty because of the risk of injury#ghost isn't listening to the conversation at all - there's too much noise to focus anyway and his bfs are way too pretty#my headcanon about roach is that he's not completely mute (after all he talks when he appears in the comics)#but he still goes non-verbal when he's overwhelmed or with people he doesn't like (out of spite) so he knows bsl#sorry if the text and the tags are a mess i can't remember the last time i slept#roach's hair is styled because they're on a date - it's usually a mess he has constant bed hair#look at that i remembered how to draw i'd be proud if i wasn't barely there lmaoo#it's my first time drawing burn scars but i think it's recognisable? maybe?#my phone makes it look way more yellow than my computer and i don't know which one is wrong so rip lmao too bad
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GhostGaz Week - Photograph // โquick, pretend youโre my boyfriend!โ
Working with the 141 is always interesting, but not for the obvious reasons. When heโs bragging, Gaz will talk about falling out of helicopters and tracking nukes. But when heโs not indulging his inner adrenaline freak enthusiast, the most interesting thing to Kyle is his team mates.
Price, the fearless leader, who smokes cigars and tosses them away half finished like he gets them for free. Who has strong opinions on beer but drinks whiskey in front of others because he thinks it makes him look distinguished. Who falls in love with every capable woman he meets but is too much of a chickenshit gentleman to say anything because heโs anxious about what people think of him.
Thereโs Soap, who goes by his nickname everywhere because he hates being one of four to six Johns in any given room. Who has ADHD and acts like it to make people underestimate him. Who has a degree in chemical engineering. Who takes good care of his mohawk because of an agreement he made with some punk kid in his hometown.
And finally, Simon. Simon who learns a lot about people because they talk around him and forget that the Ghost is just a man. A man with a dry sense of humor and an eclectic collection of sci-fi romance novels. A man with a Zune that he pretends to use so he can listen to old-ladies gossip at the library.
Simon who sees something as they're walking into a gallery for an opening party and says, โQuick, pretend to be my boyfriend.โ
Kyle doesnโt resist as Simon intertwines their fingers, but he does ask, โWhat?โ
Itโs not like theyโre inconspicuous right now. Simonโs in an all-black ensemble that accentuates his bulk and sharp angles. It looks elegant, but Kyle knows it has dancing skeletons on the lining. Heโs not wearing a skull mask, at least, but instead a black neck gaiter that really rounds out the outfit. Kyleโs own suit is dark gray with a purple shirt and waistcoat. Heโs gone all out with his jewelry and makeup, since heโs off duty for once. He knows what they look like, standing next to each other. Heads turn when they walk past. Three separate people stare at their clasped hands before tittering with their cluster of people.
When Simon only hums and squeezes his fingers, Kyle leans in a bit and smiles as he says under his breath. โYou know weโll have to keep this up all night, right?โ
Simon brings their hands up to kiss Kyleโs knuckles through black, silky fabric. The corners of his eyes crinkle as he smiles. โโCourse, love.โ
Kyle knows, deep down, that he didnโt need to say it. One of the most interesting things about Simon is that he commits to the bit. So if he says that theyโre pretending to be boyfriends, thatโs what heโs doing. Heโs probably already made up a back story to tell anyone who asks. There will be loving stares at the side of Kyleโs face in a "candid" photo. He might even ask for a dance. Everyone in the gallery is going to be convinced.
Kyle gives a rueful laugh and shakes his head because heโs too proud to go into bi panic mode over the same man for a fifth time.
@ghostgazweek
#GhostGazWeek#dragonnarrativewrites fanfiction#gaz appreciation nation#manic pixie dream ghost#ghostgaz#I might extend this one tbh
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Well, babes, this one is for me and purely because I wanted it. I'm honestly surprised that no one has asked this before, but anyway, here you go. My mind has been constantly occupied by the thought of marrying Nadia, so here we are, marrying Nadia. Because Nadia is wife.
I've only been to like two weddings in my entire life, and they were both traditional Hungarian weddings, which are way naughtier than most (they're full of sexual jokes and games that would make Nadia cry and run away from the event), so forgive me if my general wedding knowledge is not the way it should be.
Enjoy!
I might come back with a part 2.
Nadia wedding headcanons
Nadia wouldn't shy away from having two or even three weddings. She loves MC with all her heart and firmly believes that they deserve all good things in the entire world. And she does too, so why not?
A Vesuvian is a must for very obvious reasons. As the Countess, it is her duty to turn the wedding into a public event for all of Vesuvia. This one would be completely organized by Nadia and MC, which means that the wedding is literally just like them. Purple flowers, their favorite foods, the decoration, everything is fitted to Nadia and MC's taste. The wedding ceremony is sweet, loving, and very romantic, with cheesy vows and Namar crying in the background.
But our Countess Goddess is also a Prakran princess, and I believe that Namar would come up with the wonderful idea of holding a traditional Prakran royal wedding as well. People don't witness royal weddings every day, so it would be the most luxurious and beautiful event in the entire world. Nadia and MC would both wear gorgeous traditional clothes, and MC would almost faint on the spot when they saw Nadia in her saree. I would too. This wedding would be mainly organized by Nadia's family and would only happen if they offered it first.
If MC is from another country, then Nadia would love to embrace the traditions of MC's culture, which could potentially mean a third wedding. Especially if they had a Prakran wedding as well because if they had one, they needed the other as well. No cultures are left out in this house. I leave this one to your imagination.
If Nadi and MC choose to have only one wedding, it would happen in Vesuvia, and it would be a mixture of Vesuvia, Prakran, and MC's traditions (if they are not from Vesuvia).
In every case, all the Satrinavas are invited. And I don't just mean Nadia's parents and her siblings, no. The Satrinava aunties, uncles, and cousins missed the first wedding of their favorite baby niece/cousin, so there's no way on earth they're going to miss the second one too. And if you thought that Nadia's family is big, then wait until the whole family tree shows up at the wedding(s).
And when an army of Satrinavas arrive, Nadia stands no chance against them. They all attack MC at once and ask a bunch of questions about the person who captured the youngest princess' heart. MC probably gets a little overwhelmed, and Nadia feels embarrassed, but everyone is just so happy that she has finally found the love of her life. Grand gifts are expected.
Nadia is crazy nervous before the wedding because she wants everything to be perfect. Of course, everything would go smoothly, but Nadia can't help it. And yet, joy and excitement fill her heart whenever she thinks about marrying her love, her MC.
After they're officially married, MC calls Nadia their wife at every chance, and it makes her smile. She's also screaming inside with joy, but she tries her best to hide it.
The first dance? Elegant, breathtaking, and gorgeous, and they practiced it beforehand.
Nasrin and Namar give the most amazing marriage advice to the newlyweds.
Nadia's siblings take turns dancing with Nadia and MC. At some point, they're all dancing together. (Kinda like in that one Bridgerton scene in season 2.)
The wedding(s) take place during Spring. And why? Because, my darlings, Spring is the season of love, and our Countess and her magician are very much in love.
And yeah, I want to marry Nadia three times, but can you blame me?
#nadia arcana#nadia the arcana#the arcana nadia#nadia i love you#arcana nadia#nadia satrinava#nadia x mc#countess nadia#IT'S TIME TO GET MARRIED LET'S GOOOOOOO
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Dorms and Archons
Twisted Wonderland x Genshin Impact
Part 2 of 2
Part 1
Dendro Archon
The Recluse Scholar
๐๐ช๐ต๐ฒ๐ถ ๐๐ต-๐๐ผ๐ฒ๐ถ
Kalim was excited to have a new friend! Oh the parties they'd have! The fun! The food!
When he met you, you were... distant. Did he do something wrong? Did he upset you?
He really did try to find out what he did wrong, and often sent you invitations (Malleus eyeing the invitations) you some of the parties he makes, but you don't show up nor reply, making him sadden.
Jamil low key face palming
During a normal sunny day at school, he and Jamil headed to the library to grab some books, and during the process, he found you, tucked in a corner with mountains, upon mountains of books around you, and you? You were reading.
"Ah? S/o??"
"HEEEEK!!!!"
he startled you so badly that plants from outside grew. which of course caused a commotion.
Kalim apologised for startling you, but he asked a question about your attendance, your reply was to fiddle with your sleeves before answering with a small voice that you were afraid of people despite being a deity.
Kalim immedietly thought of Idia, but he crossed the line of no return, but Kalim smiled warmly, held your hand, making you choke, and said a more softer voice that he'd throw a smaller party, just the three of them. (Don't tell me you forgot Jamil, HE MAKES THE DANG FOOD)
You accepted.
Several parties later, you two were unsurprisingly in love with each other that the students of NRC were rolling their eyes at the moments the two shared. COULD YOU TWO DATE ALREADY!?!?
When you two started dating, Kalim made a celebration, but kept you in a more secluded section, that way you could be apart of it, but not near a large crowd of people. And you were thankful for it.
As a couple, Kalim practically adores you. And he's super affectionate too! Jalim is glad to have someone more tameable and it also makes it easier to locate Kalim if he ever goes off by himself.
๐๐ช๐ถ๐ฒ๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฒ๐น๐ฎ๐ป
He thought nothing of you at first.
Until you had full scores on everything.
He had requested you to help with Scarabia's studying, in offer of full meals, which you complied with due to living in a run down dorm and doesn't have a lot of money to support themselves with.
However, the study group went wrong due to the amount of people.
Jamil then figured that you didn't work too well with large numbers of people, and he found that you were slightly dependent on him when it comes to speaking.
He ended up planning smaller groups, working on those who had the worst grades then up.
And thanks to you, their dorm gradually got better.
Jamil spent time with you whenever he was free from following Kalim, and he was fairly fond of you.
You were soft, very soft, but highly reliable in terms of knowledge. So he'd often vent to you which is surprising.
But your presence and advice helped him grow better.
Jamil fell for you when he found you smiling at a Scarabia student showing you their improved grade, you looked like a warm hearted maternal parent, and his heart skipped at the sight.
When you two began dating, it was a bit rocky due to Jamil's family duty to serve the Al-Asim family. But Kalim was very kind to allow Jamil more free time, in exchange that he brings you over for more study parties!
You figured since Kalim wasn't fond of studying and more for partying, that you'd make a study party which improved Kalim's grade by ten folds. Jalim practically wept tears that the seven sent him this angel.
Geo Archon
The Consultant
๐๐๐พ๐ต ๐๐ผ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐ท๐ฐ๐ป๐ธ๐ฝ๐ฝ๐ธ
Azul was greedy for the power you possibly possess. and your money.
Azul underestimated you since he witnessed your lack of brains in terms of money. You forget about having your wallet on you, and whenever someone offers to pay for you, you attempt to buy everything without a single thought.
This was going to be an easy contract, Azul thought. They're an idiot, Azul thought. They can't complete this contract, Azul thought.
"I've completed my end of the contract. Now you must do yours."
"Huh? Nani?"
Azul was stupefied by this, he whipped his head towards the Leech twins, both begrudgingly nodding their heads in confirmation at the archon completing their conditions of the contract.
Azul had tried to change the details of the contract, you of course allowed it the first time.
But when you returned with the conditions once again completed, Azul tried to add more.
However, you weren't having it.
You stood up and leaned down to Azul, towering over him. A sudden pressure weighed the three mercreatures, it was heavy and foreboding. Your eyes glowed a gold with the amber ombre in your hair glowing gold as well.
"I was lenient to allow you the first time. Either fulfill your end of the deal or break the contract. But if you break the contract, you will suffer the wrath of the rock."
Azul was terrified.
When Azul fell for you, he questioned himself. How in the seven did he fall for a person like YOU!? He will never remember how, but all he knows is that he's in waaay to deep.
When you two became a couple, you were far more charasmatic and charming than before, it was like it was turned up a notch. Or two. or more...
The contract loving couple have been making more money than ever thanks to the Geo Archon, the avatar of contracts. It's either fill the conditions or suffer the wrath of the rock. Or just, don't make a contract. Simple.
But then we got the one brain cell trio doing their dumb sh**.
๐๐ช๐ญ๐ฎ ๐๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ฑ
Oya?
What an intriguing being.
Jade was the first to be interested in you. But he couldn't exactly find you that well since you practically mixed with the crowd a little too well than he'd like. [Bro, Zhongli and Venti has statues of themselves around Liyue and Mondstaft, AND NO ONE MANAGES TO THINK "hmmm.. You know, he looks like one that statue there.. Wait a minute-" LIKE, SRSLY!!! Venti is more obvious, I can understand Zhongli since he wears more funeral consultant clothing, but he still somehow blends in with the crowd. Unlike a Lil wind spirit.]
But when the moment came where you made a contract, Jade was more than happy to hinder you, only for you to complete the conditions before he could figure out your plan.
"... What?"
["OSMANTHUS WI-"]
After that fiasco with you giving a very large heavy warning, Jade was by your side whenever he wasn't with Floyd, questioning your knowledge, in which you were more than happy enough to comply.
Jade fell for you when you showed how competent you were unlike the other miserable guppies in school. Sure you had a few problems, but nothing with a little Jade there and everything is perfect. He also favored your knowledge, specially about fungi.
When you two became a couple, it was.. Strange to say, a air headed but scary consultant with a sadistically calm eelman? That's ringing bells for everyone.
๐๐ต๐ธ๐๐ญ๐ฎ ๐๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ฑ
Floyd had zero, zip, non, 100% no interest in you. Why? You looks, sound and seem boring. And he stand corrected.
it was later when you completed the conditions, which, not gonna lie, spooked Floyd.
"Hah?"
Later, he began to go after you like he did with Goldfish (Riddle), and when he tried to squeeze you, he found himself squeezing a shield instead.
He found himself utterly thrilled and had did several attempts at you, which failed.
His interest in you and your abilities heightened.
Then your relationship bloomed.
It was hard to say if it was romantic or platonic, but either way, Floyd was perfectly happy. Happy to have a partner who continues to show things or tell him things about their world.
As long as Floyd kept out of trouble and/or content, Jade and Azul didn't say question their relationship.
Pyro Archon
The Warlord
๐๐ฎ๐ธ๐ท๐ช ๐๐ฒ๐ท๐ฐ๐ผ๐ฌ๐ฑ๐ธ๐ต๐ช๐ป
Who are you? What are you? Why are you here? What are you doing? Get out.
Leona didn't care for you, not one single bit. Until you messed with his sleep schedule due to your chaoticness.
Whenever your around, you just bring trouble with you. And he doesn't like it one bit.
And when you bring trouble, you bring noise.
Which officially ruins his nap times.
However, Leona praises and respects your prowess in battle. You always gave it your all, which he liked. You weren't holding back, which allowed him to gauge how powerful you were as a deity with or without your element.
As it turns out, you're stronger than what you make yourself out to be, but what catches Leona's attention the most, was how calculating you were. It was as if you were analyzing him
To be honest, he felt violated.
At most times, you're energetic, but when your quiet or serious, it's either pack your sh** and leave or get out of their way.
Because when your either if those, you will either send someone to the nurse with severe casualties or some of the schools property will be destroyed. And of course, there is a justified reason for this.
Other than to make Crowley very upset of course.
Leona fell for you with your strength. He loves a woman who can lead and he could just relax. Unless it comes to some other type of leadership, like in the bedroom, then that will change. ( อกยฐ อส อกยฐ)
These two are dangerous as a couple when Leona's awake and active. And when Leona's on the move, expect a gremlin to be tailing after him, and be sure to clear out of their way. Mercy didn't in their vocabulary.
๐ก๐พ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฒ๐ฎ ๐๐พ๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ฑ๐ฒ
Huh? Do I know you? No? Goodbye.
Ruggie, quite literally, didn't give a rats ass about you.
To him, you were like any other beast man, rowdy and rough, other than your form that is.
But thankfully, you knew how to take care of yourself. Less work for Ruggie. I guess.
Not only that you knew how to cook. That was a god sent gift to Ruggie. Sadly though, you only know how to make mostly meat dishes. If it contains vegetables, expect the veggies to be over seasoned.
Leona was scared when he saw you in the kitchen, only to calm down seeing you being calm and not rowdy.
Ruggie fell for your cooking. He is literally the term "To get to a mans heart, you go through their stomach". although you should work on cooking vegetables better for a more healthier lifestyle.
๐๐ช๐ฌ๐ด ๐๐ธ๐๐ต
Strong? Strong.
You two are 100% besties.
You two are glued to the hip whenever you guys are free or share classes.
You both like to exercise and spar, so you two mostly go for each other.
To say the least, Jack mostly saw you as a sibling. Sorry, no romance.
Jack often scolds you for not eating more vegetables.
Which makes you pout and huff.
Cute lil tyke - Leona
Hydro Archon
The Judge
๐ก๐ฒ๐ญ๐ญ๐ต๐ฎ ๐ก๐ธ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐ช๐ป๐ฝ๐ผ
Nice, another rule setter like me. We're gonna be great friends.
"Explain why two cubes of sugar should be in a lemon tea? It's blasphemy."
I see you have chosen violence ๐
Riddle at first liked you, until you learned about the rules of the Queen of Hearts, did he start to hate you.
"BE QUIET OR IT'S OFF WITH YOUR HEAD!"
He loathed you.
He thought that since your a judge, you'd understand the rules, much like him. But no, you judged the rules as well, evaluating if they are fair or not.
Whenever you call out on the rules that appeared ridiculously stupid to have (like the two sugar cubes in lemon tea. That's bs to you.)
After the overblot, you were more nicer when he changed.
He stand corrected.
But he didn't mind it, he low key enjoyed arguing with you, without him screaming at you of course.
You two as a couple sends fear in everyone. A judge and a tyrant? That's a deadly combo.
๐ฃ๐ป๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ต๐ธ๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ป
Trey had taken a liking to you, seeing how similar you are to Riddle.
He enjoyed answering your questions about rules, but if there were rules he can't remember, he'd look at them with you to not only answer your question, but to commit them to memory in case.
What he's scared of is when you give trials regarding about incidents. Riddle would present his case then the 'innocent' or innocent would present theirs.
If the person is guilty, you ensure punishment, because like Riddle, you detest rule breakers unless in reason. You didn't mind them bending the rules as long as it doesn't break.
Trey is envious of your abilities, but you reassure him the his Doodle Suit is superior if you can use it against others magic.
You often praised him as well.
You admitted to thinking about a scenario of if Trey was born in Tevyat, he'd receive a hydro vision.
He flushed in response, secretly happy to have caught your attention.
You two as a couple puts everyone, minus Riddle because it's you, at ease.
๐๐ช๐ฝ๐ฎ๐ป ๐๐ฒ๐ช๐ถ๐ธ๐ท๐ญ
#ohmyseveniminlove #calltheambulance #loveatfirstsight #goddescendingfromheaven #pinchme #PLSNOTICEMEANDLOVEME #foryoupage
He practically fell for you.
To him, you were perfect.
"You have flaws? I only see perfection!"
He's a smooth talker, albeit feminine due to having a lot of sisters, but smooth nonetheless.
He's a simp for you, willing to use his unique magic to do anything and everything for you.
Literally fell at first sight of you.
As a couple, Cater often takes couple photos with you, at first you were content with the pictures, but at this point they kinda peeved her when he takes pictures on every occasion.
"Smiiiile~"
"Cater, I love you, but please, stop."
"If you give me a kiss I might~"
๐๐ฎ๐พ๐ฌ๐ฎ ๐ข๐น๐ช๐ญ๐ฎ
You're his role model.
Literally the Geno to your Saitama.
He carries a notebook with him to take notes on you since he strives to be like you. A model being.
Even if he looks smart, he still has a split braincell between Ace and Grim.
Don't hold it against him if he's trying to know almost EVERYTHING about you.
More platonic than romantic.
๐๐ฌ๐ฎ ๐ฃ๐ป๐ช๐น๐น๐ธ๐ต๐ช
Complete opposites.
And completely disliked each other.
You rubbed him the wrong way, maybe it was because you were more justified than him, better at things than he was.
He didn't know what, it was just you being better than him. He understands he's not smart, because he foes dumb sh** with the other two.
But whenever you have to deal with their messes on their own, he feels irritated.
He often tries to get after you as well.
"Oh wow, such a god you are. Pathetic."
*cue angry archon noises with an 8 feet tall wave behind them, ready to flood Ace's ass.*
Yeah, your relationship is very... Rocky and slightly concerning.
Here's part 2! I'm happy that you read this! I will have a link to the first part after connecting the links to certain parts. Feel free to request or refer to the main master list pinned on my blog if you wish to see other choices to make! Happy reading!
#twisted wonderland x genshin impact#twisted wonderland#genshin impact#scarabia#octavinelle#savanaclaw#heartslabyul#kalim al asim#jamil viper#azul ashengrotto#jade leech#floyd leech#leona kingscholar#ruggie bucchi#jack howl#riddle rosehearts#trey clover#cater diamond#deuce spade#ace trappola
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โ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐
๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐, & ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐. ห เผโก ยทห โ
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: language, because i can't form sentences without using "fuck" every other word JDJD.
๐๐๐๐๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐๐: i only made this modern because i desperately wanted to include marco to the fullest leave me aloneEffsg. gn! reader, and i went pretty lengthy on this one so beneath the cut is where the headcanons start :)
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐: bearbrickjia on instagram!
by far, the best friend group to have. everyone balances one another out, and it's a perfectly imperfect mesh of teenagers.
there's jean, the group's centerpiece. he's the alpha of the posse, usually working as their own personal line leader whenever they're caught doing something as a group. he'll never admit it, but he's also the dad friend. of course, he's more of a "i wish i never gave birth to you oh my god please leave me alone also i love you" type than the stereotypical dad friend.
there's marco, the glue holding the group together. unsurprisingly, he's the calm, kindhearted support system that balances out the cokeheads, keeping them all sturdy. without a doubt, the group would fall apart without him. they need him, okay!! and by "them," i mean jean and yourself. marco, never change.
following up, there's connie & sasha, the wonder twins. their roles are pretty self explanatory, given their natural rambunctiousness. they're the two that hang out outside of the group the most, for obvious reasons. they're the crackhead siblings that bring life to the group, despite the hot water they typically land the others in. through their antics and their comic relief, they're irreplaceable. still, it's easy to want to strangle them sometimes.
next, there's you! because you're the reader, i won't name any specifics, but you're greatly cherished. you mark your place in the crew through various ways, having a unique relationship with each and every member. when he's in need of a breather outside of his typical nest (AKA marco), jean hits your line. if you're needing any kind of assistance with literally anything ever, marco's there to help. craving some chaos? bitch, connie & sasha have GOT YOU.
the main hangout spot is jean's house, 100%. not only has his mom practically adopted the whole squad, but there's only two people living there, so it isn't crowded. connie banned literally all four of you from his place, lmao. there was too many people there, and his family lives to humiliate him.
the group has this one policy, set down by yourself and jean: four piece maximum. this is directed solely towards sasha, of course, considering her tendency to raid her friends' fridges entirely of any food. if she's ever caught rummaging through a fridge for longer than necessary, it's the home owner's duty to shout, "four piece minimum!"
^ it never fails to startle her ๐ญ. one time, she hit her head so hard on the fridge ceiling at jean's house she had to use a bag of frozen peas to soothe the swelling.
then, she proceeded to eat the thawed out peas. jean gagged.
the inside jokes? endless. all it takes is one word from a single event, and the five of you are losing your shit. it's cute, to be honest, how overzealous you all get from a single instance from months ago.
"ha. heh. hee."
"what is it?"
"ngGhh,, chEDDAR TIDDIES-"
"AHHHHHAGAGSHHDJF-"
if there are any inside jokes formed between two group members that isn't shared with the rest of them, there will be immediate bitterness. one time, you and sasha were giggling to yourselves over some druggie named jerry who'd tried selling baskets of rotten cherries to the two of you during a gas station haulโ the boys were not having it. what the fuck were you doing without them, "friends"?
right before starting your guys' senior year of highschool, the five of you were on a group facetime when you all sent your schedules into group chat. due to the scarceness of your soon-to-be-majors, absolutely none of you had any classes together. you had a single lunch period with connie while marco had one with jean, but that was about it. it was,, a dramatic discovery. sasha fucking screamed.
"i have nothing with nobody!"
"calm down, sash-"
"you have lunch with y/n! LUNCH! that's my place, lunch. this is despicable, this is evil, this is a braus hate crime-"
yeah, she didn't take it that well. it's okay, doe. the four of you made a special effort during your passing periods, giving sasha enough of a fix for her to make it through each and every day.
it isn't like the five of you don't hang out outside of the classroom, either!! if you hadn't already made plans during that week, the weekend is where you absolutely thrive as a group. study sessions that always shift into exclusive house parties, lunches spent at your favorite places, the occasional visit to the movie theater, and so on. with a mini crowd like that, it's hard for any of you to get bored.
jean's hopeless crush on mikasa is a big factor in your friendship. when everyone minus marco (because he's an angel) isn't mercilessly teasing him, you're all trying to actually help the fucker score the girl. from talking him up obnoxiously enough whereas she'll hear, or flat out telling her to give him a chance, it's an actual effort. though, it's unfortunately all to no avail. shawty's too smitten with eren to even consider her options.
^ with that being said, the four of you have to give jean the "there are other fish in the sea" scoop more often than you'd like to admit.
group cuddles. that's that.
because he's the tallest and therfore the longest (probably, depending on your height), everybody has a chosen body part of jean's to latch onto during naps. connie has one leg while you have the other, and sasha keeps her head rested on his shoulder. marco's at the very bottom, entangling his legs in your own. somehow, this is heaven for jean. he'll never admit to it, though. as far as any of you are concerned, he HATES IT.
ranking from #1 as the best and #5 as the worst, these are the rated group therapists: โฉ๏ธ
#1: marco. self explanatory, he's an amazing listener and provides supremely good advice. that, and he'd literally rather die than let any of his friends internalize anything they're dying to let loose.
#2: you. really, you're just a lot better than jean or connie. sasha's okay at it, but she's not the best at rationalizing, leaving you at second best. basically, when marco isn't available, you're where the freak shows go. marco goes to you about things, too.
#3: sasha. again, she's just a loT better than the final two. sasha's a sweetheart! she's empathetic, and nonjudgmental. we love her in this house.
#4: connie. also somewhat of a sweetheart, although not as much as sasha. he'll drop a shit ton of humor into serious conversations, making them just a tad bit more tolerable.
#5: jean. look, he's a great friend! however, he isn't all that empathetic, and he'll have some trouble understanding. still, he would try his hardest to make you or the other three feel better :,)).
in a modern universe, i know damn well connie's a half-assed stoner 30% of the time. he doesn't light up all that often, and he doesn't tell anybody about it, even you guys. mainly because marco will grill him for it DJFK. however, you stumbled upon his mini marijuana stash and he was like ahh, shit. you didn't really care doe, his secret is safe with you. you, however, now have DIRT on him.
matching bracelets that you all made for eachother yEars ago but never wear ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ.
many, many, many poly relationship jokes. only jokes, though. some people take it too literally, which y'all just laugh at.
there's a miniature rivalry going on between you and another nearby friend group: reiner, bertholdt, annie, ymir, and christa. of course, all of you are friends, it's all fun in gamesโ most of the time, anyway. it's a funny rivalry, and you guys go at it quite a bit.
one of your guys' most intense debates is whether or not marco has freckles on his dick.
he,, refuses to show any of you, or even anSweR you.
"you act like we can't just check whenever we use the urinals, man."
"CONNIE-"
now, marco refuses to go to the bathroom at the same time as any of the boys <\33.
the group band? black eyed peas.
#aot#attack on titan#aot x reader#attack on titan headcanons#aot scenario#aot headcanons#jean kirschtien#marco bodt#connie springer#sasha braus#snk#shingeki no kyojin#snk headcanons#snk x reader#jean kirstein#sasha blouse
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Introducing: The Wandering Witch AU
(With transgirl!Remus, questioning!Sirius and endless conversations about the metaphysics of wandless magic)
This is the latest installment of our various Wolfstar AU's with August, one we came up with while we were on a mini-holiday, celebrating our third anniversary.
In this universe, pureblood-supremacy is rampant, keeping the Wizarding World in the permanent dark ages. Muggle-born wizards are only allowed a wand upon being accepted at a magic school, and most institutions favour pureblood children over half-blood, or muggle-born students. Wands are registered and heavily regulated, including tracking-spells and random spot-checks for counterfeit, or unregistered wands by Ministry officials.
After a werewolf-attack at age 4, Remus Lupinโs father tries to teach her magic using his own wand, knowing she would never be allowed into Hogwarts. However, performing magic with someone else's wand is not only dangerous and illegal, but also extremely difficult. Remus โ a savant, who can sense magical currents in a way none of her peers can โ realises that she doesn't need a wand to focus her power, and instead develops her own way of casting โ or spell-weaving, more accurately โ, tying an intricate web of knots between intent and the ambient magical currents to shape reality to her will. While admittedly crude and volatile, her technique turns out surprisingly potent, which makes her more than capable of protecting herself against the many dangers of a transphobic, werewolf-hating world.
Because her condition places both her and her family in a vulnerable position (the "werewolf-issue is an ages-old favourite talking point of mainstream wizarding politics, including a fearmongering campaign designed to marginalise intelligent magical creatures and eradicate non-human magic users), the Lupins decide to avoid registering their child after the attack, relying on the help of muggle medicine and corrupt healers to nurse her back to health after the transformations. They move frequently, bouncing Remus from school to school, but once Remus has gotten a basic education, they settle down in an isolated cottage on the Scottish highlands, and her mum takes on the duty of homeschooling her.
Having been brought up in a mixed family and lived the majority of her life as a muggle, Remus is well-versed in the matters of 21st century life. Once they settle into their new home, she starts transitioning, takes up Luna as her middle name, but keeps Remus as her first name, refusing to abide by arbitrary societal rules about names being connected to certain genders, rather than the people wearing them. After both her parents meet a tragically early death in a car accident, Remus finds herself alone in the world, with both a house and a large sum of money to her name; she sells the cottage and spends her parents' life insurance settlement on getting bottom surgery, then sets out to travel the world, looking for someone, or something to find a meaningful connection with.
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On a glance, Cassandra Black is everything her most ancient and noble house could want for an heir. She is brilliant, powerful and a downright genious when it comes to magic; the only problem is, she's a bit too smart for her own good, and no amount of discipline can keep her from asking too many questions. The only thing her bewildered parents achieve with their constant, increasingly violent punishment is that young Cassandra stops asking them, and starts looking for answers of her own.
By the time she's 11, she's thoroughly disillusioned, worlds away from the conservative, blood-supremacist doctrines she was brought up with. Upon entering Hogwarts, she spends the first free breath of her life on convincing the Sorting Hat not to place her in Slytherin, a decision she pays for with the world as she knew it. In return, she gains a new, brighter one, full of friendship, adventure and budding romance โ although dark secrets, stomach-turning injustice and bitter heartbreak too. When it comes to her parents' attention that she is sleeping with a witch, their treatment turns from toxic hostility to open abuse, severing all emotional ties between Cassandra and the House of Black. She spends five years as a proud Gryffindor, but by the time her 16th birthday rolls around, she feels like she'd learnt everything Hogwarts had to offer โ the good and the bad alike. She decides not to return to the castle for the sixth year: instead, she uses the start of the school year to orchestrate an elaborate escape plan, that would make it impossible for her family to find her. She breaks her wand and vanishes into the night, never to be seen again.
British Wizarding society erupts in chaos, because even one as scandalous as the Black heiress, the mysterious disappearance of a 16-year-old, pureblood-aristocrat (and a witch, for that) brings the Ministry's messaging about public safety into question, and the story keeps the tabloids busy for the better part of a year. The family puts out an enticing bounty on their firstborn's head, but regardless of the spectacular reward, no one can locate Cassandra, and without a wand to track, she proves to be impossible to trace. Eventually, the tabloids move on and the story slowly fades into the background, although, en lieu of a body, they never officially assume her dead, and the family never gives up the secret search for their wayward, blood-traitor daughter.
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Three years later:
Somewhere, hidden in the mountains of Scotland, there is a halfway-house, for magical folks who need to get off the grid, for one reason or another. Remus is a regular visitor, using the shelter's reinforced cellar for the full moon, and taking her time to recover at the quaint little house for a while thereafter. Nobody bothers her there, and while people do use the retreat โ it's always clean, stocked with food, healing items and clean bedding, among other obvious signs of habitation โ, she'd never encountered any other guests during her visits. This time, however, an unpleasant surprise welcomes her, in form of a backpack and a half-drunk bottle of wine on the porch, and soon, she finds the owner of the items as well, lounging on her favorite sunning spot.
The stranger looks ragged; unkempt and malnourished, and when they speak, their voice sounds hoarse, like they haven't used it for a long time. Remus is immediately weary, even though the stranger looks very young and rather unimpressive, expect for the very posh accent and the fact that despite their extremely strong magical aura, they did look startled, almost terrified when Remus walked up behind them โ and yet, their hand never even twitched to draw a concealed wand.
"Iโm armed!" the stranger warns โ maybe they expected a muggle? โ, but still doesn't move to reveal any weapon. Remus is quite certain she could take them on in one-on-one combat regardless, should it come to that, but she finds it alarming that this runaway teen would survive alone in the wilderness for what seems like a considerable period; a feat that requires a number of skills and the kind of training that does not come with the elocution training the stranger's speech suggests. Not just the accent, the face too... Under the layers of dirt, severe sunburn and a fading black eye, there is just something eerily familiar about them.
She introduces herself as Remus โ it's one of her favourite ways to quickly size up a person, based on their reaction to her obviously masculine name. She does the whole cheeky, "whatchagonnado" act she perfected throughout the years, expecting anything from a spiteful comment to a confused eyebrow-raise in response, but the stranger just nods and gives her a polite "hello, Remus", like this was the most normal interaction between two people who just met at a shelter for magical misfits, in the middle of fucking nowhere.
The stranger, however, is less forthcoming about their identity, and Remus has to openly ask for their name after 10 minutes of tense, but idle chitchat. The stranger blushes a deep red, and once again, there is that flash of panic in their eyes, before they blurt out "Sirius... Black."
"Oh."
Of course, Remus thinks, wondering how she missed it before. She knows exactly who Sirius is, or who they used to be โ she'd seen this face a million times before; a younger, smoother version with fewer sharp angles and without the haunted look in their bloodshot eyes, but the very same face was once plastered all over Britain โ on missing flyers, in front page news, later on wanted posters... 10.000 galleons are a fine bit of money for a head like this. She gives the stranger a sideways glance, and they glare right back at her, with a defiant expression that might have betrayed their famous origins, even without the esteemed family name. The Blacks, they do all look the same...
"Well, that answers the question whether you're a muggle" Sirius remarks with a bitter chuckle. "Look, I know what you're thinking. And yes, they do have the funds, but just so we are clear on this, if you move to draw, I'll attack you, and it's gonna be over before you ever reach your wand. You will lose, most likely die, and then I'll have to spend this lovely evening digging a hole for you in the woods instead of sharing a bottle of crappy wine. So, just don't, okay?"
Remus can't help but admire the kid's bravado โ they aren't stupid, she can tell that much, if from nothing else, the fact that they somehow successfully evaded one of the most powerful magical families, and their countless footmen, for over three years without ever leaving a trace; and yet, they seem to know when they're outmatched.
"Who says I'd need to draw?" she smirks, hoping to provoke a quick duel out of the youth. She likes to get the power-struggle out of the way early on, just so nobody gets ideas while she's sleeping or in recovery. The young Black might turn out to be a reluctant ally, but they could mean real trouble after the full moon, if they were to follow family tradition in wanting to rid the world of a monster like herself. Three days left until the next transformation, which means she's at the height of her power, so taking Sirius out here and now would be the wisest, and she thinks she could do it without harming them too badly. Nothing she couldn't fix in a blink afterwards.
Sirius measures her with a curious squint, slowly raising their left hand into the air. All five fingers are adorned with a variety of silver rings, from plain, thin bands to heavy signets with rune-engraved stones. A web of glowing lines flare up on the back of their hand, spreading out from an intricate magic sigil on their wrist. They emit a faint, blueish white light, running along each finger to the tip, as Sirius charges up for a wandless spell. Flashy, but creative, Remus thinks, truly impressed for the first time. She's used to wizards relying on their wands to do the work for them, and she knows seven different ways to dismantle the connection before they ever get to fire off. The stranger's magic is different โ it's raw and unpolished, but brutally powerful, and very complex, in a geometric sort of way. This would be more difficult than she initially thought, and she's unsure if she could immediately disarm Sirius without having to literally dis-arm them.
To avoid confrontation, she raises a hand in front of her too, conjuring a harmless little will-o-whisp in her palm โ a trick she developed as a child, tied up on the bare cement floor of her parents' basement, waiting for the curse to take hold. There was no light in the basement; she was lonely, cold and terrified, so she made herself a friend, a cold flame to keep her company while she was waiting for the moon.
Sirius' eyebrows disappear somewhere under their tangled fringe, but their face lights up with a huge, mischievous grin:
"Remus, the girl raised by the wolves... You're not boring at all, are you?"
#the rest is history#remus lupin#sirius black#wolfstar#fanfiction#wandering witch meets wondering bitch#trans!remus#trans!sirius#fanart#long post#julien draws
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Would you be willing to write a non-smut fic where its Paul's birthday but they're so caught up filming Let It Be that they forget and it sours his day until John suddenly remembers and decides to throw something together real quick? Much thanks ^_^
here ya go, here ya go, here ya go,
1969,
Paul showed up early at Abbey Road Studios the morning of the eighteenth of June. Ha hadnโt needed too but he had woken up in such a great mood early that morning and just couldnโt keep it to himself so he had left the house well before anyone else had even woken up. ย It made him hope Linda hadnโt planned anything special because, well, he wouldnโt be there to experience it.
He got up the clean stone stairs leading to the entrance of the studio, full of anticipation. It wasnโt an especially exciting age he was turning. Twenty-seven. Hopefully just another of many years left for him. It made him wonder with excitement what he would be ten years from now. In twenty years. In fifty years! Imagine that! Him at seventy-seven. The thought made him all giddy and anxious at the same time.
He rushed to the studio itself and, unsurprisingly, he was the first to arrive of The Beatles. The cameramen and the miscellaneous crew was already there setting things up while looking at him with stunned faces or raised brow. While, yes, Paul showing up early wasnโt uncommon. It was to this degree. He was, in fact, very early.
He shrugged it off and continued his way to the front of the pianoforte where he placed his briefcase and jacket in a small bundle next to the small stool and sat down in front of the piano with a crack of his knuckles. Might as well warm up and look over some songs while he waited for the others.
Michael, the director of the film, came to his side and placed a steaming mug of coffee in front of him with a flow of well wishes and happy birthdays from him and the crew. It gave him a warm sense of wellbeing he knew to only be surpassed by that of his bandmates.
They hadnโt been getting along together well lately but Paul had hoped, and hoped and hoped, so intensely that it could be pushed aside for this one day. That for this day they could have a calm and easy time making music. Hanging out and hopefully, for once, eat dinner together like they used to before all this animosity came over them like a vengeful tsunami.
Paul played music for about an hour or so before the rest shoved up one after another. Only Ringo really said anything to him, much to his dismay. Only a โmorninโ, and nothing else. He hadnโt recalled doing anything recently to piss off the other two but there must have been some reason for their avoidance. Maybe they were all much too into their work mindset already that they didnโt think of anything else but getting down to it. So thatโs what they did when the hours rolled by. Singing and playing. Occasionally looking over lyrics and notes. The usual.
Paul felt his mood gradually dampen at the lack ofโฆ anything from the other men. Had they forgotten? Could they forget? They had known each other for over a decade so surely this wasnโt a date easily forgotten? He was getting right bloody sour and was quickly packing his things to go back home to his wife and kids who he knew for sure wouldnโt have forgotten like some people.
Turning towards the door; he saw that the room was already empty of any other Beatle. Which made him pause; he hadnโt noticed any of them leave. Last he had noticed (which was something that he found, in a way, peculiar now that he was giving it some thought) was that John had been whispering to the other two in hushed voices. Paul had wondered about that but had been far too depressed about the lack of any birthday greetings or attention to put any deep thoughts to it. Until now. What had that been about? Hopefully nothing too serious. Paul just couldnโt handle any more band related drama today.
He slowly made his way out of the studio and as he was nearing the front door was stopped by a heavily breathing John who suddenly appeared out of a corner down the long hallway. He wasnโt wearing the (his wifeโs) coat that he had been wearing that morning and now was showing off his skinny arms in a tight-fitting t-shirt as he stood with his hands on his knees, trying to get his breath back.
โJohn... We were taught in school not to run indoors, yโknow,โ Paul joked, despite the mood he was in. He couldnโt help himself, really. John waved a hand at him as he finally straightened himself out.
โWhen did I ever do what the teachers told me to?โ
He said with a snicker and Paul, again despite himself, joined in on it. Well, no matter how much he wanted to be mad and hold a grudge about what had happened (or not have) today; he also had found it hard to be mad at John for too long.
Johnโs slender, calloused hand came to rest on Paulโs bicep and started slightly tugging at it as he started to go in the direction from where he had emerged from not too long again. โCome along now, Paulie,โ he said with a slight grin as he dragged the younger man along with him.
Paul questioned him as to where they were going but to no avail. John had apparently decided to stay mum the entire way toโฆ wherever he was bringing him. It was all veryโฆ strange for Paul who much rather just wanted to go home after the rather exhausting andโฆ lacking day he had had. John stopped in front of the door Paul knew to be belonging to the small kitchen and breakroom of the studio and looked to his old friend with a raised brow. Why had he led him there?
It was quickly found out once John slammed open the door (the force was pretty unnecessary, Paul thought) to a sudden influx of yelling โhappy birthdayโ with small bundles of shredded paper thrown at him. It took a second or two before it really registered with Paul what was going on. He looked around the room to find a small, probably quickly done, birthday party done in his honour. Ringo and George stood behind the wide table with bags of white shredded paper (homemade confetti, apparently) and a small store bought cake that looked to be from the small grocery down the road.
He looked at the duo in gaping shock before turning to John. John, who seemed uncharacteristically nervous, glanced from Paul to the cake and back again. When their eyes connected; he smiled nervously to Paul as he awaited some kind of reaction.
Paul laughed. Laughed in relief. Laughed at the rather ridiculous sight the trio made. John smiling awkwardly by the door while Ringo and George held clear bags of shredded paper that was still flowing around the room due to the draft the open door and window made. It had gotten in their long brown hair for which they seemed oblivious.
โSo you did forget!โ
He managed to get out in the midst of his laughter and John started stammering in response. Most likely thinking of some kind of denial or excuse but it was clearly all very obvious to Paul what had happened in the proceedings of this impromptu birthday party. He dragged John into a hug, something he soon after realised hadnโt happened inโฆ years, with a fluttering of thanks to both him and the confetti wielding duo.
And as he pulled back from the hug; both John and his own cheeks slightly pink, he admitted that whatever this wasโฆ it was much better than whatever they could have done if they had remembered his birthday in advance. That this small impromptu intimate affair was much closer to what he would have wanted from the three of them.
So, they celebrated in the small cramp room. Eating the strawberry cake, which wasnโt all that good but Paul didnโt mind, while throwing clumps of confetti at each other occasionally. Soon, Ringo and George each had to leave, leaving John and Paul alone. Sadly, a rare occasion these last few weeks. There were always people from various jobs and duties. Or Yoko, who seemed to be an eternal shadow to Johnโs figure. Paul didnโt exactly mind that. She was nice enough, but there were times where she neednโt be in the studio (admittedly that was most times) but she was.
โAgainโฆ thank you,โ Paul said to John who sat across from him, scraping off the last few pieces of frosting off his plate as they sat talking. He shrugged with a shake of his head and licked his fork clean.
โItโs the least we could do for being such gits and forgetting your birthday, yea?โ he glanced to the still open door. โIn all the years weโve known each otherโฆ youโve never forgotten mine,โ he muttered and looked back at Paul, looking distraught. Paul sighed, โitโs alright. Weโve been all veryโฆ stressed, yโknow. Backed up with work and the like.โ
John shook his head again and got up to collect their plates; putting them in the sink while saying in the midst of the porcelain clanking; โdonโt excuse our actions.โ
Paul said no more, knowing it to be a losing battle and satisfied himself in the feeling of content the small gathering had brought. It had been so long (too long) since the four of them last had been in a room alone with no fighting or threats of leaving the band.
So he got up; feeling a content sense of calm he had not expected to end the day with just a little earlier said day. He turned around to face the sink and almost bumped into John, whom had not heard near him at all. They followed each other out the room in serene silence but Paul was stopped by John before they reached the corner where they had almost crashed into each other earlier that day. Paul looked at him, feeling confused at the sudden interruption.
If his silent question was answered or not remained to be seen as John whispered a last โhappy birthdayโ before placing a chaste, bearded, kiss to his own soft lips. Paul knew not how to react and when he finally snapped out of his bewildered haze, John had disappeared out of sight. He heard a door slam but didnโt yet move out of his laconic state of being as he silently felt his lips with the tips of his fingers; trying to discern if that had really happened.
He blinked before lightly shaking his head, trying to snap himself out of it. Had John really kissed him? He took one step. Two steps down the hall before stopping again to, yet again, feel his lips that still tingled from the soft touch and rough tickles Johnโs lips and beard had left. It was certainly a birthday that both ended and started in a way he hadnโt expected.
#anonymous#ask#request#the beatles#paul mccartney#john lennon#george harrison#ringo starr#mclennon#ot4#beatles fanfiction#fanfiction#fanfic
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100 Days of Writing: Day 4
for @the-wip-project
Damn this was a hard one. The blog link in the original post was a really good one, and hella informative in terms of mechanics of writing.
I'm going to attempt to do this for my ot3 in The Place Where I Belong, because I realized in this half of the story I've been treating them as sort of a unit for this concept. So here we go! Spoilers below for The Place Where I Belong if you haven't completed Arc 4 - Out On a Limb. Also it's long, so for these two reasons, I have placed it under a cut.
The physical goal for all three of them, and really for the whole team (+Velanna, Sigrun, Malcolm) is to separate Justice from Anders. This is where I've been treating them as a single unit. But individually, independent of the plot at large, they're all motivated by different things that ultimately point in similar directions.
Journey wants to find a place that feels like home. At this point in the story, the only thing that's ever felt like a home she wanted was being with Anders, and his continued survival and freedom hinge on separating him from Justice.
Anders wants to find a new purpose in life and rediscover who he is without Justice defining him. He can't really do that as long as Justice is in his head. (And yes, he also wants to survive to some extent, but as we've seen from the conclusion of arc 2, self preservation is not exactly his strong suit.)
Nathaniel wants to keep his family together, his real family, this ragtag team of Wardens he fell into when his biological family treated him like shit. As complicated as his feelings are towards Anders at this point in the story, Anders is a part of that family, and Anders' full reinstatement into the Wardens hinges on Justice's removal.
Now, at first glance I was like okay, well the conflict impeding this goal for all three of them is the fact that (trying to keep this as spoiler free as possible for unposted chapters which is why it's intentionally vague) they've hit several major roadblocks already in terms of how the fuck they're going to make this happen. They're academic, political, and personal in nature. But there's also relationship conflict between the three of them that comes into play also, and I want to explore those as well because they kind of weave into the fabric of this clusterfuck they all find themselves in as the rest of the story progresses.
Journey's home is with Anders, in her mind. Now that she knows about Anders and Nathaniel during her time away, she's having to reconcile the fact that Anders isn't just hers anymore. This is complicated, because it isn't even so much that they've outright negotiated a poly thing and she's on the fence about it. Rather, currently everything is in a vague "we'll figure it out but it's on the back burner because we're on a tense time crunch with other problems" state. But regardless of where their relationships actually stand, in her mind, the reality is that while Anders still loves her, he's obviously given a piece of his heart to Nathaniel while she's been away. She's a very observant person, and currently two things are patently obvious: 1. that Anders clearly loves Nathaniel too, and 2. that it hasn't diminished his capacity for love and devotion towards her. So whatever solution shakes itself out, in her mind, it has to be one where Anders gets to be happy. And the possibility of there not being a solution where she and Anders both get to be happy together scares the shit out of her.
Anders wants to find who he is. In the three months at Vigil's Keep, he's spent the whole time wearing an inhibitor cuff that suppresses Justiceโs active presence in his mind. (The downfall being, of course, that he can't use his magic with it on either.) Consequently he's been able to pursue this relationship with Nathaniel he's fallen into free of the force that's quietly influenced him for over a decade, and for the entirety of his relationship with Hawke. So the two arms of his love life essentially begin with very different colors, because with Hawke, Justice has been present and part of their entire history together. Hawke has had conversations with Justice and considers him a friend. He doesn't know what Justice not being around is going to do to the fabric of their relationship they've woven together. It's not that he worries she won't love him without Justice โ he just doesn't know what it's going to do to their dynamic. That combined with the uncertainty of what's going to happen with Nathaniel really fucks him up when it comes to keeping his head objective during the actual mission itself.
Nathaniel. Oh boy. He's been pining for Anders since before Anders left the Wardens the first time. He never spoke up before because Anders and Karl got together before he was able to, and he valued them both too much to stand in the way of their happiness. This entanglement with Anders, in his mind, was never supposed to happen in the first place. He prides himself on separating his duty from his desires - he's had to do it his whole life, and he resents it sometimes, but at this point it's a part of who he is. He's told himself the whole time he and Anders are together that if Hawke comes back into Anders' life, he's not going to stand in the way of their marriage either. Except, the dude is in love with Anders. Like crazy. So now that Hawke is back, he's working overtime to stamp those feelings back down under the floorboards. He cares about Anders, Anders belongs with them and is a part of their family, and being around him hurts but in his mind he's duty bound to follow through on this mission because the alternative is losing Anders again. And the thought of that hurts more than the prospect of spending the rest of his life watching the man he loves in someone else's arms.
If you've been following this fic and paid attention to the tags in the story, it is in fact tagged as a triad, and the three of them do eventually figure their shit out. That's the ultimate interpersonal goal. But it's definitely going to be a bumpy road getting there.
So yeah! I guess I didn't answer the questions quite as concisely as I probably could have, but I think I've definitely separated out their motivations and goals a little clearer than they were before I did this post. So. Goal achieved. โบ๏ธ
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