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hummussexual · 16 hours ago
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📷 What's set as your phone's lockscreen?
I have it set to change every hour.
🍫 Cheese or chocolate?
Why would you set two wonderful things against each other? But also, chocolate, if I must choose.
✨ Do you have any nicknames?
Tons
🎵 Last song you listened to?
Phill Collins Another Day In Paradise on repeat
✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction?
Not seriously... not more than a few sentences.
😏 Are you on discord?
No
 💛 Do you have any piercings?
I did... seven. All closed up now.
🐰 What do you think says the most about a person?
Decency, justice, and kindness.
🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?
A less sweet version of an Oreo, perhaps? I don't know.
🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?
Cat person. I really dislike dogs. (#Muslim Things)
🎧 Headphones or earbuds?
Each has its time. On a place, over-ears. All other times, earbuds.
🌼 What's the last thing you said out loud?
I was telling someone I was answering this meme to distract myself from the news. I can't work.
🙃 What's a weird fact that you know?
... I can't think right now.
🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl?
Morning.
🧸 Favorite place to nap?
Bed.
🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community?
Yes!
🦋 Describe yourself in three words.
Not in the mood to do this. Too dark of a day.
👖 Jeans or sweatpants?
Neither.
🥤 What's your go-to Starbucks order?
We boycott SB in this house.
🧡 A color you can't stand?
Like a mustard yellow or something drab and dreary. I like bright, fun, rich colors.
💎 What's your most prized possession?
I don't know.
☕ Coffee or tea?
Caffeine-free soda, tbh.
🦖 Favorite extinct animal?
How can you make me choose between all those dinosaurs?
🌙 How long have you been on tumblr?
Apparently, a whopping 13 years!
🌴 Desert island item?
Music.
🐸 Describe your aesthetic.
Comfy but clean and colorful.
🔮 What's your dream job?
To teach.
💙 Relationship status?
Taken.
🌿 Describe your favorite outfit.
I don't think I have one.
🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?
Many.
🤎 What color is your hair?
Black/dark brown.
💌 Do you talk to yourself?
All the time.
💄 Do you wear makeup?
I would like to start to, but I don't.
🌸 Best compliment you ever received?
Not the best day to think of one of these, tbh.
~ 💖 ASK GAME 💖 ~
📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen?
🍫 Cheese or chocolate?
✨ Do you have any nicknames?
🎵 Last song you listened to?
✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction?
😏 Are you on discord?
 💛 Do you have any piercings?
🐰 What do you think says the most about a person?
🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?
🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?
🎧 Headphones or earbuds?
🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud?
🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know?
🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl?
🧸 Favorite place to nap?
🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community?
🦋 Describe yourself in three words.
👖 Jeans or sweatpants?
🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order?
🧡 A color you can’t stand?
💎 What’s your most prized possession?
☕ Coffee or tea?
🦖 Favorite extinct animal?
🌙 How long have you been on tumblr?
🌴 Desert island item?
🐸 Describe your aesthetic.
🔮 What’s your dream job?
💙 Relationship status?
🌿 Describe your favorite outfit.
🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?
🤎 What color is your hair?
💌 Do you talk to yourself?
💄 Do you wear makeup?
🌸 Best compliment you ever received?
💞 @ your favorite blog.
Reblogs are appreciated!
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wosola · 3 days ago
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French kisses .2 - Lucy Bronze x French!Reader
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Summary: This is during Lucy Bronze’s time playing for Lyon, she's just gotten into a relationship with R, a 22-year-old student. For R it is the first time sleeping with someone.
Warnings: This is an 18+ fanfic with explicit content, so minors DNI.
Part 1 here.
It was only a few days ago, but Sunday felt like a lifetime away as you recalled how your parents had adored Lucy. You remembered how Lucy had picked you up that Sunday, looking stunning in an outfit you hadn't seen before. She had arrived a full ten minutes early, a small smile on her face as she told you that punctuality was key.
You re envisioned the way your mom’s eyes sparkled when Lucy walked in with a bouquet of flowers, the perfect way to win her over; your mom loved flowers. "Pour toi," Lucy had exclaimed with a warm smile, her accent adorably imperfect as she stumbled over a few words in French.
Your dad had been equally impressed when Lucy handed him a bottle of expensive whiskey, having confirmed with you just the day before if it was an appropriate gift to give him. “I heard this is your favorite,” she’d said, her voice unexpectedly confident as she raised the bottle.
You adored the way she’d won your parents over. You where glad your parents where this welcoming, that they just wanted to see you happy, because you knew it was often not as pleasant for people to bring a same-sex partner home.
It was clear Lucy had learned everything she wanted to say in French, she’d probably rehearsed every potential compliment and conversational quip, ready for the moment she needed it. It worked though and in some strange way it made you fall more in love with her.
You felt a swell of pride watching her engage with your parents, laughing and sharing stories that bridged the gap between her world and yours. It was so nice to finally been able to bring someone home. Maybe it would be the only person you would ever bring home to your parents, because she was the love of your life.
Safe to say it had been a great success and the next dinner had already been planned before the two of you had left.
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Now it was Thursday; the day you’d been waiting for. It was the day.
Your apartment was cozy, located near the university and just the right size for you and your roommate. It was great you could live there, as your parents lived outside the city, in such a rural place that buses didn't even dare to go near there.
The living room was a mix of mismatched furniture; a well-loved couch, a small coffee table cluttered with textbooks and half-finished mugs of coffee and a tiny kitchen that smelled faintly of whatever you’d cooked that week.
Earlier this morning, your roommate had teased you mercilessly about Lucy. “You’re glowing! I swear, it’s like you’ve got stars in your eyes,” she had said with a playful smirk, knowing you hated that kind of soppy stuff. But beneath the teasing, you sensed her genuine happiness for you, knowing you had found someone you really really liked and who liked you equally as much.
As you came back after classes that day, your roommate had left, spending the night at her boyfriend’s place. Leaving the space feeling oddly quiet yet filled with the thrill of anticipation.
So you had thrown yourself into preparation mode. You changed the bed sheets. You scrubbed the countertops and vacuumed the floors, wanting everything to feel just right.
Then came the shower, you put yourself through an extensive cleansing ritual, lingering for way too long under the jets, letting the hot water cascade down your back like a soothing embrace. Because besides wanting to feel clean, you where also nervous quite nervous.
Deciding what to wear was another challenge in itself. You tried on three different outfits, each time pulling everything off again and tossing it aside in frustration. Finally, you settled on a simple yet elegant outfit that hugged your figure perfectly, something that made you feel confident and beautiful.
As you stood in front of the mirror, taking one last look at yourself, you couldn’t shake the excitement mixed with a touch of anxiety. You took a deep breath, reminding yourself that it was just Lucy. The doorbell rang, pulling you from your thoughts and you knew the evening was about to begin.
Lucy showed up at your apartment with two bags in hand, insisting that you must not peek inside. “It’s a surprise amour,” she had declared, a mischievous twinkle in her eye that only made your heart race faster.
After exchanging a kiss, Lucy walked over to the kitchen and you stood there unsure of what to do. You watched as she moved things from one bag to another, a hint of excitement bubbling in your chest.
Finally, she spoke up, her voice cheerful. “Alright, love, if you want to unpack these things, it’s for dinner. I’ll just duck into your room for a bit and try to be quick, okay?”
She approached you again, planting another kiss on your lips and you smiled back at her, feeling warmth spread through you at her demeanor. “Don’t come peeking…” she joked, pulling you in for another kiss.
You broke the kiss and chuckled, “I wont,” waving her off as she disappeared down the hallway.
As you busied yourself in the kitchen, the anticipation of the night filled the air. You draped a dark red tablecloth over the coffee table, setting down all the different food Lucy had brought. You couldn’t believe your eyes as you uncovered the dishes. It was almost like a tapas table, but then all of your favorite things from different traiteurs. The logo from your favorite fromagerie was unmistakable on one of the little brown bags and your heart raced; you rarely treated yourself to these luxuries. Lucy had gone out of her way to buy all of it.
After placing down glasses and cutlery you only needed plates, so you walked back to the kitchen.
Lucy softly closed the bedroom door, as she was done setting things up and walked over to you. Coming up behind you, she placed a soft kiss on your neck.
You tensed momentarily but quickly relaxed into her touch. Your nerves were on high alert because of your nervousness. But you liked how she held you, her touch sending a delightful shiver down your spine.
“Ah, at the coffee table?” she asked, a surprised tone in her voice.
“Yeah,” you admitted sheepishly. “I thought it would feel.. less formal. We can change it if you want, but I thought… cozy?”
“It’s perfect,” Lucy assured you, her eyes gleaming with appreciation. “Perfectly us.”
You turned to face her, taking in the beauty of her features; her bright eyes, the gentle curve of her lips and the way her smile seemed to light up your kitchen. This was the face you had grown to love, the face you wanted to see first thing in the morning and the last thing before drifting off to sleep. You leaned in slowly, noticing how she tilted her head to meet you halfway, not taking the lead as she would usually do. The kiss was soft, filled with the promise you both felt lingering.
“Are you nervous?” Lucy asked quietly, pulling back slightly to gauge your expression.
“Uhm… I have nerves, but I’m mostly excited, I think,” you replied, your gaze dropping to where you absentmindedly played with her fingers, tracing their robust form.
“Well, I just wanted to say,” Lucy began, reaching up with her free hand to tilt your chin, ensuring you met her gaze. “If you want to stop at any time, you can always say so. I… uh, nothing will change between us if that happens, okay? For you, I would wait a hundred years if that’s what you need.”
You chuckled softly, your heart swelling at her words. Leaning in, you kissed her again, savoring the taste of her lips. “I love you.”
‘’I love you too,’’ with a smile on her face, Lucy gestured toward the food on the coffee table. “Okay, let’s eat then, I have searched all of your favorites, maybe I missed some I don’t know, I hope not but I-.”
You interrupted her, smiling ‘’are you nervous?’’ You asked her, hearing her rambling.
She scratched her neck, biting her lip. ‘’I want this to be perfect, for you.’’
‘’It is Lucy, don’t worry,’’ you took her hand as you took two plates in your other hand and pulled her to the couch.
After setting the plates down you settled down on the couch.
Lucy followed, settling beside you, she leaned forward to open the bottle of rosé crémant. You’d once mentioned liking it better than champagne and it made you smile that she’d remembered. You knew she hadn’t chosen it because it was less expensive but because it was what you preferred. It was something you loved about her, Lucy wasn’t just listening; she cared.
After filling your glasses, she handed one to you and raised hers to clink. You watched her, catching the slight hesitation as she searched for the right words to toast.
You chuckled and stepped in to help, saying what felt like the obvious toast “to us.” Your gaze locked with hers, and you tapped your glass to hers.
"To us," she repeated softly, her eyes meeting yours with a smile before she took a sip.
After that, the two of you eagerly started digging in to the food.
Lucy stacked her plate and sat back on the couch “Mmm, this is amazing.´´ she said with her mouth full. ´´I love all the food you’ve introduced me to in France.”
You laughed. “I could give you a dried-out baguette and you’d still enjoy it.”
Lucy rolled her eyes, nudging you with her elbow. “Not true. I have taste. Great taste, even.”
“I know, I was just teasing you.” You leaned in close, a playful glint in your eye. “Sorry,” you whispered, stopping just inches from her face.
She smiled, tilting her head even closer. “Hmm… I think you’ll have to make it up to me.”
You let your lips brush against hers, the anticipation crackling in the air. “And how exactly should I do that?” you said, taking the plate off of her and blindly put it back on the coffee table.  
“Maybe a kiss.” Her words were soft, lingering just against your lips before she captured them fully, her mouth warm and inviting. The kiss deepened, her hand slipping around your waist, drawing you in against her. You let go, sinking into the kiss, savoring the way her fingers grazed the small of your back. Shivering as her hands cupped your ass, fingers digging in, urging you even closer.
Without breaking away, you shifted onto her lap, you gasped softly as her hands found their way to your hips, holding you as she carefully flipped you both, positioning you between her and the couch. Your legs wrapped instinctively around her and you could feel her weight balanced on her forearms bracketing against you, her feet slipping on the smooth floor as she struggled to hold herself steady.
But none of that seemed to matter. The only thing that mattered was the feeling of her pressed against you, how her hips moving against yours, the barely restrained hunger in her touch. Her lips traced along your jaw, pressing against your neck in a way that sent chills across your skin. Each soft grind sent ripples of electricity through you, your breaths becoming shallow as you felt yourself getting unsteady.
Your fingers curled into her shirt as her lips moved softly along your neck, the sound of her low hum sending a rush of heat through you. Then, just as suddenly, Lucy seemed to become aware of something, pulling back to look at you, her gaze hazy and unfocused, like she’d just come back down to earth.
You smiled, biting your lip, your legs tightening around her, holding her close.
She gave you a breathless smile, leaning in to kiss you again, this time softer, a little more composed. "Uhm, we should continue eating, hm?" she murmured, her voice laced with both amusement and hesitation.
"Well.. I’m not that hungry anymore," you replied, eyes locked with hers. Your heart tutted loudly in your chest. Your cheeks felt burning hot and you ached for something. You didn´t know what for, but you where wanting.
Lucy´s cheeks tinged pink, but she managed to keep her gaze steady. "Okay," she breathed, though there was a flicker of unsteadiness there.
Noticing it, you chuckled, slowly loosening your legs from around her. "But we can eat, " you teased, ‘’if you are hungry…"
Lucy’s mouth curved into a mischievous grin. "Oh, I’m hungry,´´ she murmured in a low, playful growl, ´´but not for the food" sweeping you up into her arms.
You giggled, letting yourself melt into her hold as she carried you down the hall.
When you reached your bedroom, she set you back down just before the door, gesturing grandly. "After you."
Stepping inside, you smiled. Your bedroom was transformed; the curtains were closed, a soft glow of dozens of candles casting warm, flickering light everywhere, their soft glow enveloping you both. The bed was covered in rose petals, arranged in the shape of a heart.
"It’s beautiful, Luce," you murmured, touched. "You put so much effort into this."
She shook her head modestly, glancing away. "No, it’s really nothing, I just wanted to—"
You turned back to her with a chuckle. "The candles are fake, I hope?"
Lucy laughed, scratching the back of her neck as she joined you in the room. "Oh, yeah. I figured it was… safer… and you know, I could put them on already."
You nodded and closed the space between you, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to her lips, wordlessly letting her know just how much everything meant to you.
Lucy held your gaze for a moment, eyes soft before she took your hand, leading you gently toward the bed.
The room felt warm as you stepped inside, the soft glow of candles casting flickering shadows on the walls. You turned toward Lucy, feeling the quiet electricity in the air between you both.
There was a heartbeat of silence, a moment where the two of you just looked at each other, taking in this instant you’d both waited for.
Lucy broke the silence first, her fingers brushing over your cheek, down to your jaw and pausing there as her eyes searched yours. Her gaze was soft, maybe a little nervous but entirely steady, holding a depth of care that made you feel like you were the only thing in the world she could see. “You’re beautiful,” she whispered, her voice thick with quiet awe.
A shy smile tugged at your lips, and you stepped closer, letting your fingers find the hem of her shirt. “Can I…?” you asked softly, meeting her gaze, asking without words if this was all right.
Lucy nodded, her hands finding their way to your waist, fingers light as though she were both carefull and eager all at once. You began to lift the fabric, inching it upward, feeling a heady mixture of nerves and excitement that made your fingers tremble.
As her shirt lifted, more of her skin was revealed in the warm candlelight and you let out a soft, almost breathless laugh. “You’re… hmm,” you murmured, not able to hide the excitement in your voice.
She chuckled softly, helping you remove her shirt.
Once her shirt was off, you let your fingertips trail slowly along her arms, feeling the curve of her bicep, your touch reverent as if she were something precious, almost sacred. She stayed still, watching you with parted lips, her breathing just a bit heavier then usual.
Your hand continued down over her shoulder and chest, tracing lightly as you went, feeling the defined muscle under soft skin. Fingers sliding over the line of her collarbone, pausing briefly at her chest before continuing downward to her stomach. Your fingertips brushed over the lines of her abs, feeling the strength there. She shivered under your touch.
Her own hands found the buttons of your shirt in response, looking at you for approval and after you nodded she took a steadying breath before unbuttoning them, her eyes never leaving you as more of your skin was revealed. She was quiet, reverent almost, as though seeing you this way was something that left her breathless.
And there you stood, inches apart, taking each other in. The hunger was there, palpable, but so was the sweetness, the awe, as though you were both seeing something rare and precious—something you wanted to savor.
Her lips found yours again, the kiss deepening as she guided you backward, her hands brushing over your shoulders and sides. When you reached the edge of the bed, she swept the rose petals aside with a quick swipe. She lowered you carefully onto the bed and you tugged her down with you.
With a quiet breath, you reached back to unclip your bra, letting the straps slide down your shoulders. Lucy watched closely, her gaze warm and attentive. She gently slipped the bra off for you, tossing it aside without her eyes leaving your chest.
You whispered her name, wanting her attention, ‘’Luce’’.
She lifted her head, searching your eyes with a slight smile.
"Take yours off too?" you asked, almost shyly.
She nodded immediately. “Of course.” She sat up slightly and tugged off her own bra, letting it fall to the floor as well before leaning back over you, her bare chest now in your view. Your gaze lingered, appreciating every detail, your lips parting slightly as you took in the softness and beauty of her skin, her hardened nipples inviting your touch.
Seeing you captivated, Lucy gently took your hands in hers, smirking a little as she guided them to her chest. She laced her fingers through yours, encouraging you to cup her breasts, your palms brushing over the sensitive peaks. You gave a gentle squeeze, feeling the heat of her skin against your hands, still entranced by her body.
Lucy’s smile softened as she took in your focused expression. “Feels good?” she asked amused.
“Mhm,” you murmured, still in a bit of a daze before you blinked, meeting her eyes. “Yeah.”
..
part 3 next monday
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kiiwiola · 2 days ago
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GET A WORD OUT OF YOU
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amongst minji’s rowdy life, there was someone whom she couldn’t help but be heavily intrigued by.
Fluff, quiet x popular (?), first attempt at writing a one-shot 😛
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Amidst the bustling hallways minji could still spot a familiar pair of eyes standing just by their locker with her gaze focused on something.
There was something about the girl that had always gave minji this intrigued feelings. And no it was just about looks of course she had good looks too but it her quiet and shy demeanor. The girl wasn’t one those type of people to demand attention by being unnecessarily loud.
She captured most people’s hearts in her own way.
Minji took notice of the girls usual reserved nature. She hardly spoke in class mostly exchanging one to two words with others, in her zone her mind always seemed to drift off to something.
There was something mind found cute about the way Yn would shyly blush or smile whenever she receives a compliment or get called out by the teacher.
Her nervous smile would plaster across her face while her eyes drifted around the classroom.
Minji had always been one with the crowd since she was young. Always gaining attention and popularity wherever she was. So she found it quite refreshing to experience something new.
One fateful day, the home room teacher had paired both minji and Yn to make the classroom as spotless as possible not caring a bit on how they were going to do it.
The silence thickening in the air was awkward at first well maybe for minji and not for YN. It was something that best described her so she was probably used to it by now.
But it gave an awkward tension for minji. She thought that this might be her chance to engage herself in a conversation with her. “Uhh YN what do you mostly do during your free time?”
“Sleeping”
A frown formed on minji’s lips at the girls brief response. She was definitely expecting more. She thought of giving it another try. “Do you enjoy cleaning?” She nervously bit her lips. That would probably get a yes or no answer.
YN’s gaze flickered over to minji for a brief second “Hmmm….meh. I do it when I’m mostly bored or it’s an order given by my mom. But it’s mostly fun with your ears plugged in” YN explained her eyes staring at the ceiling while she’s day dreamed for a bit before returning to the given task.
“Ah I see” minji nodded in agreement. The unbearable silence returned back.
As the cleaning continued minji made it her mission to engage Yn in a few if not many conversations. Asking her questions about herself but nothing too personal. She didn’t want to make her uncomfortable.
The more closer they became during the period. Minji noticed a side of YN she had never seen. Her response were more longer and animated. A smile constantly popping up on her face when she was yapping her whole heart out.
“Wow I didn’t know you could talk this much. You’re so adorable when you’re free” minji confessed with a sly smile her tone carrying a hint of disbelief.
Yn looked up at minji with a face that said ‘really?’ Her cheeks turning to a light shade of pink. “I wouldn’t really say I’m adorable maybe you are….”
“Yes you are” minji chuckled at the girls response. Attempting to tuck a small strand of hair behind her ears.
The cleaning of the classroom some how came to an end quickly. Yn and minji had chatted away they didn’t even realize when they were done.
On minji’s walk home, her mind was filled with her previous encounter with YN. Recalling every single thing that had happened. A smile tugging the corner of her lips.
She couldn’t believe that she had finally succeeded to get to a side of YN nobody probably knows about. And most of all she couldn’t believe she got to make the girl blush. What she had been day dreaming of doing One day.
With a sigh, minji collapsed onto her bed. Her mind drifting to what could happen at school the next day. Each thoughts only added to her anticipation and eagerness.
She couldn’t resist wanting to explore more of YN. She knew Yn was more than this. Gosh was she so impatient for the next day to roll in.
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merakiui · 1 day ago
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gidel deserves a little sibling of his own and after multiple failed attempts to steal a kid (apparently people take that kinda thing seriously? who knew!) fellow just throws up his hands and decides making one of his own is easier and carries way less legal threats
Fellow trying and failing at crime is so funny omg….. he’s really doing his best. Maybe you’re set to be shipped off as a puppet, but he thinks he could use you to be the mother for his child. One minute you’re certain you’re never going to be able to move again and that you’ll be cursed to be a wooden doll for the rest of your days, and the next you’re waking up in an unfamiliar bedroom, able to move in a body that is no longer wooden but very obviously restricted and restrained.
Fellow who, despite being silver-tongued and smooth with schemes, is actually very awkward. He’s never made a kid before!! T_T and you’re squirming so much. Just relax. You don’t want to be turned to wood and shipped off with the rest, do you? He’s giving you a chance to pick a significantly better (in his eyes) option. Don’t you want to keep a sliver of your freedom? He can give that to you; you just need to give him a child. Please. He’s not going to beg (he might), but do it for dear Gidel’s sake!!! It’s no fun for a child to grow up without a sibling. You understand and sympathize, don’t you? After all, he knows you’re a kind-hearted person who will agree. :) and kind-hearted soon-to-be mother… he’ll flatter you so much, saying you’re just made for this, you’re so soft and motherly, so sweet, an absolute dearie peach! <3
Knocking you up just like that (actually,,, it’s just Fellow’s luck that it doesn’t happen the first try and so now he’s coming back to you with his tail between his legs like,,, “my dear, you may not find this to be particularly good news, but we’re going to have to…try again!!!”) He’s handling it tactfully, though, but even then he’s starting to feel just a little impatient. >_< can’t you get pregnant any faster… orz please,,, he’s trying so hard… unexpectedly pathetic.
And of course he didn’t really factor in the fact that he’d grow attached to you and the child through the process. But he’s dedicated to this, to you, to the baby. He hopes you’ll let him hold them… 🥺 he’ll be good… unexpectedly soft yan (via Stockholm syndrome) and now he’s a father and you’re a mother and you have a family together with your kid and Gidel. The horrors from earlier in your one-sided relationship seem so faraway now that the little one is in your arms.
In my heart Fellow salivates over you when you’re pregnant. You’re just so pretty and it’s not empty flattery. He means every praise and compliment. <3 also also,,, it’s probably just so fascinating and amazing to him that the two of you made something special together. Throughout your pregnancy and even after if there’s anything you want, you just need to push him a little bit (puppy eyes, cute pout, saying his name sweetly, etc) and he’s folding for you. OTL he is not immune to his beloved pregnant wifey. <3 he’s an awkward first-time parent, but he has so much love in his heart and it fills him with so much joy when he makes the baby laugh and smile and gurgle happily. And when their little hand curls around his finger…… yeah, maybe this was the better route instead of kidnapping a child.
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yeet-mc-yeeterson · 14 hours ago
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1. Life-size Walmart skeleton named Jeffrey
2. I like how tall I am, I'm 5'9
3. Red
4. Video game glitches kind of freak me out
5. Yes
6. Yes
7. Playground
8. Human interaction
9. Sharing my interests, good morning good night texts
10. Not terribly often, from time to time
11. To not live in the south, and change how I look
12. Either German, or Afrikaan
13. Somewhere up north, colder just anywhere that isn't Texas
14. Hyper fixations on firearms and medieval combat
15. Last night
16. Like 2 years ago but I didn't use the account, joint back like a month or two ago
17. I don't know, I don't think so
18. One that stuck to me recently was a nightmare, not describing that
19. I have no idea, maybe something to do with coding
20. Just spending the day together, go somewhere go home
21. Two things, take care of myself better, communicate better
22. Canada
23. Online friends, and one very specific person >:3
24. Uhh no not really
25. Halloween
26. Forgetting basic information, getting complimented a lot
27. I was always the grim reaper
28. I'd like to think I'm good at writing
29. Yes
30. Yep got a brother
31. How I'm doing
32. Arrogant, or has cheated
33. CODING
34. 2
35. When I take showers
36. Yes, about boys, and other stuff
37. My room ig
38. Dad
39. Don't be like my ex
40. Hiiiiis (he knows who he is >;3)
41. "We've been trying to reach you about your car's extended warranty"
42. Show people my writing, just not confident in it yet
43. Got with him
44. Not particularly no
45. Movie, just because I watch movies more than I read books
46. Fall
47. Early morning
48. I used to when I was a kid
49. Certain arguments
50. I can't really think of something (I haven't bought a lot of stuff)
51. Yes
52. Galaxy edge (more of a book series)
53. As of right now, my mom
54. People should be able to play games the way they want to
55. Titanfall 2 / rdr2
56. During a tornado around 3 years ago
57. Not really
58. Hell no, need to drink more
59. Well one, I know I'm gay now, and child me was a lot more ecstatic about stuff
60. Yes, I love it here
61. Not really
62. TF2, just can't get into it
63. Yes
64. By becoming a blushing pile of goop
65. Being themselves around me, compliments, and sharing their interests
66. Yes
67. YES
68. Yes
69. No
70. Uhhh, I don't really have one
71. "the night we met" by Lord Huron
72. Noooooo
73. No, not on purpose
74. Badly, lol
75. Yes, it's a nervous fidget for me
76. Nope
77. 4 dogs, 1 cat
78. Blue
79. how I look rn
80. Small one, to remove a rock from my ear when I was young lol
81. Angler fish
82. Explaining myself
83. Nope
84. Yes
85. Yep
86. 12th
87. Occasionally a steel ring from my brother
88. Discord Tumblr and Twitter
89. Uhh a 91.7
90. like 2 days straight
91. uh no
92. The ones that cause harm
93. HOODIE
94. Who doesn't?
95. It exists and it's natural, it's a normal thing
96. The corner of my bed that's as sharp as a spear
97. ? Uh no
98. I have it on 12-hour, but I need to relearn 24-hour from my coding class
99. Yep, hate it almost every time
100. Yes, I am very gay :3
(technically bi, but it's not an important distinction for me)
ask game
1. whats your favorite thing in your room?
2. how tall do you wish you were?
3. what color is your hair?
4. whats a rare fear that you have?
5. are you single?
6. has your heart ever been broken?
7. what was your favorite thing as a kid?
8. favorite coping mechanism?
9. whats your favorite love language?
10. how often do you get nervous?
11. if you had three wishes, would you use them?
12. if you could be fluent in any language which one would it be?
13. where do you wish to live?
14. what’s something surprising about you?
15. when did you last shower?
16. when did you first join tumblr?
17. do you want any tattoos? if so, where, what, and why?
18. whats the most prominent dream youve had?
19. whats your dream job?
20. whats your ideal date?
21. what do you wish you could do better?
22. what country would you live in if you could?
23. whos the best person you know?
24. have you ever walked into something you shouldnt have?
25. whats your favorite holiday?
26. when have you been most embarrassed?
27. whats your favorite halloween costume?
28. what are you best at?
29. do you know how to tie your shoes?
30. do you have siblings?
31. if you could know one thing about the future what do you wanna know?
32. whats a dealbreaker for you?
33. whats your favorite current class?
34. how many people have you dated?
35. how often do you wash your hair?
36. do you daydream? what about?
37. where do you go to be alone?
38. which parent do you like more?
39. whats the one standard you hold yourself to?
40. whos voice do you enjoy?
41. if you could announce one thing to the world what would it be?
42. whats one thing you wanna do but havent yet?
43. what do you wish you never did?
44. do you believe in life after death?
45. do you prefer book over movie?
46. whats your favorite season?
47. whats your favorite time of day
48. do you have a beloved stuffed animal?
49. whens a time you wish you acted differently?
50. what’s something you wish that you never bought?
51. do you have your own room?
52. whats your favorite book?
53. who’s someone you hate?
54. whats your best hottake?
55. whats your favorite game?
56. whens a time you felt real genuine fear?
57. are you a morning person?
58. do you drink enough water?
59. how different are you from the little kid you used to be?
60. do you enjoy tumblr?
61. have you ever had a tumblr experience that made you wanna delete the app?
62. whats your least favorite game?
63. were you a markiplier fan?
64. how do you respond to compliments?
65. whats something that would make you fall in love?
66. do you believe in marriage?
67. do you have a crush on someone?
68. do you like tumblr?
69. were you a voltron stan?
70. whats your favorite ship?
71. whats your favorite song?
72. do you like loud crowds?
73. have you ever created conflict on purpose?
74. how do you sleep?
75. do you bite your lips?
76. do you use chapstick?
77. do you have any pets?
78. what color are your eyes?
79. what’s something you wish you could change about yourself?
80. have you ever had surgery?
81. whats your least favorite animal?
82. whats something that youre really bad at?
83. do you have an sqishmellows?
84. do you enjoy fast food?
85. do you like soda?
86. what grade are you in?
87. do you wear any jewelry?
88. what socials do you use?
89. whats your lowest grade in school right now?
90. whats the latest youve stayed up till?
91. did you ever have bangs?
92. what trends did you hate?
93. whats your favorite item of clothing?
94. do you like dinosaurs?
95. whats your opinion on body hair?
96. whats your least favorite time?
97. do you make a wish at 11:11?
98. do you have your phone on military or regular?
99. have you ever been to church?
100. are you lgbtq?
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swrkn · 1 day ago
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Hello!!! I really love your Oliver fic 😭 could you do joker or sangho just fluff if it's fine ofc I'm not forcing ❤️
𝐒𝐅𝐖 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒
Joker (hajun) x g/n reader
Genre : fluff ; sfw
Author note : thank you so much for your request, and thank you for the compliment on my first fic :)) i have a fic for joker in my drafts, so for now im gonna do some headcanons , and I’ll publish it later ! Also those are my personal headcanons , so if you don’t think my headcanons are accurate, please don’t be mean 🙏
Author note 2 : i really enjoyed doing those headcanons so i think i’ll do more , and also some with sangho since you asked ;) My request are open !!
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⇨ Protective
Joker is low-key protective of Y/N, though he'd never openly admit it. If they're biking together, he'll instinctively put himself on the side closer to traffic or obstacles, keeping an eye out without making a big deal of it.
When you and Hajun go for a night ride through busy streets, he'll always position himself on your left side, closer to traffic. You notices he does this every time but never points it out, as it's his way of protecting you. One night, a car honks a bit too close, and without thinking, Joker reaches out, gently steering her closer to him. "You alright?" he asks, trying to sound casual, but his hand stays on your arm until he's sure you’re safe.
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⇨ Act Tough But Melts Around You
Joker has a "tough-guy" image, but you are the one person who can break through that. When you're alone, he's surprisingly affectionate and lets his guard down. Play with your hair, hold your hand, and even rest his head on your shoulder if he's tired.
After a tough day at practice, Joker shows up at your place looking frustrated and tired. You open the door, pulling him into a hug. He stiffens for a second, but then relaxes, letting himself melt into your warmth. He doesn't say much, just rests his head on your shoulder, breathing in deeply as she rubs his back.You tease him for "acting soft," and he just grumbles, "Only for you."
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⇨ Late-Night Talks
Sometimes, You and Joker will have deep, late-night conversations that can last for hours.You both stay up talking about dreams, fears, and everything in between. He trusts you in a way he never trusted anyone, and you’re the one person he feels like he can be his true self around.He's opened up to you about his insecurities and what it's like balancing being a big brother with his own goals.
One summer night, you're lying side by side on a quiet rooftop, staring up at the stars. Joker starts talking about his childhood, sharing stories he rarely tells anyone, while you listen quietly, sometimes just holding his hand when he pauses. You opens up too, and you spend hours sharing memories and dreams, both of them feeling like they're closer than ever.He tells you things he never told anyone, realizing how much he trusts you.
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⇨ Lets You Braid His Hair
One day, as a joke, you suggested to braid his hair, thinking he'd refuse. But to your surprise, he agreed, even if he tried to play it off like he didn't care.Now it's a little tradition between you and him. When you're just relaxing, you'll braid his hair, and he'll sit quietly, feeling oddly at peace. He actually finds it relaxing but would be mortified if anyone else knew.
During a lazy afternoon, you were both watching a movie a his house , with him leaning on you, letting you style his hair. As you braid, you notice he's relaxed, eyes half-closed, enjoying the quiet moment. Later, when his two littles brothers came in and burst out laughing, Joker just shrugs. "What ? She did a good job." he says nonchalantly, not caring about what his brothers are saying.
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⇨ Always Comes Back to You
No matter how long his day's been or how tired he is, Joker always finds himself wanting to see you. You are his safe space, the person who keeps him grounded, and whenever he's with you, he feels like he finally found a place to rest. He doesn't say it often, but he thinks you are his world, and every ride, every victory, every day somehow feels better just knowing you are there , beside him
One evening, after an exhausting day, he texts you, asking if you’re free. When you agree to meet him, he feels his mood lift immediately. You don't have to do anything special; just being with you is enough to make everything feel better.
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⇨ A Stubborn Romantic
Joker tries to act like he doesn't care about romance, but deep down, he's more romantic than he lets on. He'll surprise you by cooking your favorite meals, remember small things you mentioned about yourself, and even bring you your favourite treats every now and then. On special occasions, he'll even plan something for you, like a ride at dawn or a picnic by the river, even if he insists he's "not doing anything fancy."
For your birthday, Joker plans a quiet picnic next to a hidden river. He pretends it's "no big deal," but he packed your favorite snacks and even brought a small blanket to sit on. When you ask him if he went to all this trouble just for her, he simply says, "Don't get used to it." But the sparkle in your eyes , and seeing you this happy , was enough for him to know that if he can see you this happy , he would do it again and again.
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n1ght0f-nyx · 3 days ago
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mha boys with their quirkless au! jobs- Headcanons
i got bored and im procrastinating actual fics so here this is ig!! characters- izuku midoryria, katsuki bakugo, shoto todoroki, denki kamanari, ejirio Kirishima, fumikage tokoyami, koji koda, mezo shoji, tamaki amajiki, hanta sero, tenya iida
Izuku Midoriya - Detective or Analyst
Majorly detail-oriented, he over-prepares and strategizes with backup plans for his backup plans.
Known for highly detailed reports; they’re both impressive and a tad overwhelming.
Can get totally absorbed in research, like spending entire days analyzing social media for clues.
Frequently says, "The clues were there—you just had to look," as if narrating a detective show.
Runs on coffee and protein bars, completely invested in his cases.
His desk looks chaotic with notes and photos scattered everywhere, but he knows exactly where everything is.
Becomes the “did you know?” person at social gatherings, sharing obscure trivia.
His obsessive streak makes him revisit case files repeatedly.
Gets overly excited about new gadgets, especially anything with a “zoom and enhance” function.
Katsuki Bakugo - Personal Trainer or Chef
Commands with intensity, whether grilling someone in the gym or grilling steaks in the kitchen.
In the gym, he pushes clients to their limits, which they both dread and love him for.
He’s as knowledgeable about nutrition as he is about weightlifting—skip his advice at your peril.
Takes skipping leg day personally, calling it "a disgrace to all athletes."
Wins every cook-off but hates it when people compliment his food; he’s all business in the kitchen.
Runs his kitchen like boot camp—there’s no messing around under his watch.
Works out even on his days off; he’s fueled by the grind.
Secretly rolls his eyes at fitness influencers but will do a protein shake tutorial for cash.
Yells, “Do you want to stay weak?!” if he catches anyone cheating reps.
“Self-care” to him is just a mental strength exercise; you toughen up or move out.
Shoto Todoroki - Lawyer or Therapist
Reserved and perceptive, he’d be a formidable lawyer, calm and unshakable in court.
Not overly enthusiastic about his work, but he knows he’s great at it.
While people think he’s distant, he’s actually very empathetic and insightful.
Straightforward yet gentle, his clients appreciate his no-nonsense therapeutic approach.
As a lawyer, he’d specialize in taking down the unjust, handling high-stakes cases with ease.
Owns a vast collection of ties, barely noticing the variety himself but others sure do.
Prefers listening, making his quiet presence seem mysterious.
Treats himself to something small after big victories, like a quiet solo ice cream celebration.
Misses jokes occasionally, but people find his delayed reactions endearing.
Known for offering thoughtful advice, especially to those questioning life choices.
Denki Kaminari - DJ or Social Media Influencer
Natural at hyping up a crowd, making DJing feel effortless.
All about good vibes, even if it means playing crowd-pleasers more than deep cuts.
Boasts a huge social media following, constantly interacting with fans.
Always a few days behind trends but plays it off like he’s an innovator.
Gets sidetracked on live streams, responding to comments like he’s hanging out with friends.
Calls his fans “Denki-squad” and treats them like his close pals.
Buys flashy gadgets that he half-understands how to use, just for the aesthetic.
Always “goes live” if anything remotely exciting is happening around him.
Knows every meme song, dropping them like he's got an internal playlist.
Excessive with hashtags, yet somehow it works for his brand.
Eijiro Kirishima - Firefighter or Construction Worker
First in line to respond to an emergency, he’d run into a burning building without hesitation.
Embodies responsibility, always ready to go above and beyond.
Dedicates free time to community projects like building playgrounds.
Known for drinking multiple protein shakes daily to keep up his strength.
Takes pride in being reliable, volunteering for extra shifts to support the team.
Appears in firefighter calendars, where his popularity skyrockets.
Has a small following of neighborhood kids who adore him.
Constantly cracks dad jokes, his hearty laugh always filling the room.
Gets good-natured ribbing from his friends, but his solid character makes it easy to take.
Saves lives like it’s just another day, then heads to the gym for an after-work workout.
Fumikage Tokoyami - Poet or Author
Writes in dim, cozy coffee shops with dark, atmospheric vibes.
Known for abstract poetry that sometimes only he fully grasps.
When he’s not writing, he’s buried in gothic literature.
Runs a mysterious blog where he posts poems and eerie stories.
Takes his coffee black, no sugar—anything else would compromise the flavor.
Friends think he’s enigmatic, though he’s simply introverted.
Dresses like every day is a moody poetry reading, favoring dark attire and unique accessories.
Quietly garners a following for his “haunting” works but never tells a soul.
Rarely performs live, but when he does, he’s met with enthusiastic finger-snaps.
Keeps a journal that’s practically sacred—he won’t let anyone read it.
Koji Koda - Park Ranger or Vet Tech
Gentle with every creature, treating each animal encounter like a treasured interaction.
Knows endless animal facts, stopping hikes to point out specific birds and plants.
Considers the forest a second home and refers to animals by names he’s given them.
Animals instinctively trust him; he’s practically an animal whisperer.
Loves natural remedies and can talk about herbs like they’re magic.
Has a way of convincing people to adopt pets because they’re just “so cute.”
Blushes when praised for his kindness; it’s just who he is.
Popular with kids who love his animal knowledge and gentle nature.
Known for leading long, informative nature walks, always taking his time.
Prefers animals over people most days and has countless photos of rescued animals.
Mezo Shoji - Wilderness Survival Guide or Youth Counselor
The “quiet giant” on outdoor trips, guiding with a protective watch over everyone.
Preps gear meticulously, never forgetting a single item.
Has a knack for discovering secluded, scenic camping spots.
Amazing with kids, his steady nature makes him a beloved camp counselor.
Has a calm, reassuring vibe that draws people in effortlessly.
Knows endless survival skills; always has a tip or trick in his back pocket.
Enjoys nighttime hikes, talking about constellations in a thoughtful, poetic way.
Treats each trip like an important bonding experience, bringing the group together.
Carries spare marshmallows because he knows someone always forgets.
Compassionate and patient, especially with less outdoorsy folks, quietly setting them at ease.
Tamaki Amajiki - Marine Biologist or Florist
Thrives quietly in his element, tending to ocean life or delicate blooms.
Committed to preserving marine habitats, he’s passionate but too shy to boast.
His deep knowledge surprises people when he speaks up, making an impact.
Friends are amazed by his niche knowledge—he could ramble about coral reefs for hours.
His floral arrangements are carefully crafted, almost reverent in their precision.
Quietly determined to protect the environment, joining cleanups or advocacy events.
Adds hidden messages to flower arrangements, though few notice the subtle artistry.
In marine biology, he’s published numerous papers on sea creatures, always under the radar.
Works with kids effortlessly, they love his gentle explanations.
Finds joy in rare plants or marine life, though he blushes if anyone mentions it.
Hanta Sero - Event Planner or Stunt Coordinator
Organized to the last detail, he keeps his events running like clockwork.
Can handle last-minute emergencies with a calm, “I got this” approach.
In the stunt world, he’s dedicated to safety, while making things fun and exciting.
Adrenaline junkie, he loves ziplining, bungee jumping, and anything that feels risky.
He’s a great listener, always taking others’ ideas to make events inclusive.
Stays cool under pressure, adapting quickly to whatever comes his way.
Good at making tiny changes on the fly, never losing sight of the big picture.
Finds the best deals for supplies, he’s got a knack for party logistics.
Ensures killer sound systems, knowing good music elevates any event.
Somehow pulls off a laid-back vibe even while he’s juggling a million tasks.
Tenya Iida - Professor or Physical Trainer
The professor who hands out a 20-page syllabus but genuinely believes it’s necessary.
Known for his strict yet fair approach, he challenges students but offers support.
Obsessive about lesson plans, updating them constantly for “maximum efficiency.”
In the gym, he’s relentless about proper form and discipline.
Can’t handle slacking, probably shuts the door precisely five minutes after class starts.
Students tease him, but they secretly appreciate his rigor and dedication.
Motivated by improvement, he’s always seeking ways to upgrade his methods.
Hyped to offer inspirational speeches that are almost intimidating in their passion.
Puts extra time into student support; he’s the go-to for anyone serious about self-betterment.
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eepwriting · 3 days ago
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Feeling like loving on our favorite drummer. Maybe something about tattoos? Getting matching ink with reader? Or talking reader through first tattoo? :) (your fics are so wonderful btw)
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Tattoos With II Headcanons
Warnings: none
This is so cute omg AND ii is getting some more love on here!! And thank you so much anon for the sweet compliment and for sending a request in! 🤍
✧༝┉˚ MASTERLIST ˚┉���✧
✦ taglist: @ghostlygothicgay @skellyflowers @mathfairchild1 @evisnotok @jeriiicho @adenobabe @trying-not-horny-on-main @rain-down-on-me
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Matching Tattoos
✶ Is ECSTATIC when you come to him with the idea.
✶ He’s on board right away.
✶ Will spend a lot of time thinking of the perfect design, obviously taking you into consideration as well.
✶ I can see him drawing 10+ designs on paper and getting your opinions on each one.
✶ If you have a solid, well built idea, really no matter what it is, he’ll get it. No questions asked.
✶ If it means getting a matching piece with you, it doesn’t matter to him.
✶ He makes sure to book the appointment with a solid and reputable artist.
✶ Day of, he’s bouncing off the walls with excitement.
✶ Basically makes a whole day out of it.
✶ Out to eat for breakfast/lunch, appointment, maybe a sweet treat after and something fun to end the day.
✶ Takes LOTS of pictures during and after the appointment of y’all’s new ink.
✶ Gives you a day by day update on healing even if it’s not that exciting.
✶ If people ask him about the tattoo, he always mentions that it’s a matching one with you.
✶ I think his heart would grow two sizes bigger every time he looked at it.
Excuse me while I cry at this thought.
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Reader’s First Tattoo
✶ He’s the first person you ask when you’re finally ready to book an appointment.
✶ He’s very excited for you and gives you extremely detailed advice based on his past experiences.
✶ Asks to see the design you pick a thousand times.
✶ The least judgmental person, he loves the idea no matter what it is, because it’s one you picked.
✶ Is so happy when you ask him to go with you to the appointment.
✶ Makes sure you eat beforehand and drink plenty of fluids.
✶ Definitely packs sweets and juice for you just in case.
✶ We all know he’s covered so he feels very comfortable in the environment, which eases any nerves you may be feeling.
✶ Will absolutely hold your hand if you ask.
✶ Strikes up a conversation with your artist that involves the three of you so there’s no awkward lulls.
✶ Gives you encouraging smiles and hand squeezes if you need it.
✶ Takes lots of pictures of your new ink when it’s finished.
✶ Also gives you lots of compliments on how the new piece fits you perfectly.
✶ Gives his opinions on aftercare and makes sure you care for the new tattoo, while answering any questions you have.
✶ It’s not long before he’s subtly suggesting to get a matching one with you.
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Why do I genuinely want to cry thinking about this
K. Bye bye.
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gothcsz · 3 days ago
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𝑻𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒇𝒂𝒓𝒆 / Chapter XX.
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GIF by bestintheparsec
PAIRING: Javier Peña x Original Female Character
SUMMARY: The night of the ritual.
WORD COUNT: ~9.1k
RATING: 18+ Explicit topics such as sex, drugs, murder, the occult, religion, cannibalism and other triggering matters will be explored in this body of work. Minors DNI.
CHAPTER SPECIFIC TAGS: dead dove: do not eat!, kidnapping, mc is held hostage, allusions to SA (nothing explicit. will be explained later on), hallucinations, humiliation, wound care, hurt/no comfort, crime thriller vibes are vibing, demon worship, cult ritual, supernatural elements, non-consensual drug use, angst, whump, any typos/grammar mistakes are of my own doing and i apologize in advance, if i'm missing any other tags please let me know.
DISCLAIMER/WARNINGS: The Javier Peña referenced in this body of work is solely based off of the character that appears in Netflix’s Narcos and not the actual person. Very canon divergent and I will tweak things as I see fit to compliment the narrative of this story. While efforts have been made to be accurate in terms of canon timeline, a lot of details will be fictionalized.
A/N: i’m going to hold y’all’s hand when i say this... i am putting paloma through it 😓 i was initially going to just bang everything out and post it in one big chapter, but as i was writing... i just felt like it would be better if we let the suspense of it all do its thing and end with a cliffhanger. i am a sucker for ‘em, even if they’re so frustrating (in the best way possible) 😭 i hope that all the lore revolving the cult has been concise and strong enough to hold up during the ending bit of this. i wish i could say things are going to get better from here but they’re not… they’re actually going to get worse 🤠 as always, feel free to drop any type of feedback/support on this blog or on ao3. i'd really appreciate it 🖤
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When ten minutes pass, Javier brushes it off. She’s probably just caught up in something. It’s nothing to worry about.
But when twenty minutes roll by, that’s when the unease creeps in. He starts pacing the living room, fighting the urge for a cigarette, glancing at the clock.
Where is she?
By the time half an hour has come and gone, he’s dialing the library, wondering why Paloma hasn’t come home yet. The phone rings and rings, but no one picks up. His stomach tightens, and he wills himself to remain calm. She’s probably fine.
At the hour mark, Javier’s behind the wheel, speeding into town. Maybe she’s still upset from the argument they had earlier, and instead of coming home, she went to Tammy’s.
But when Tammy tells him she hasn’t heard from Paloma for a few days now, a knot twists in his chest.
Panic threatens to take hold, but he pushes it down. He can’t let it consume him—not yet. Not until he has a real reason to worry.
But she has that damn habit of disappearing to sulk in random places when she’s upset. And that habit is gnawing at him now.
He drives to every spot he can think of, the abandoned tracks, the clearing behind the cemetery, the creek—but there’s no sign of her.
That terrible feeling grows, heavy and unshakable. He marches into the sheriff’s department, jaw set, not caring who sees the frantic look in his eyes.
He storms the file room, ripping through boxes. His hands tremble as he plucks out the file he’s searching for.
“Fuck!” He curses under his breath, jaw tightening as the photo of Paloma’s mother stares back at him.
Now, he has a reason to panic.
He should have known when he first laid eyes on it. The familiarity of her features—her eyes, her hair, her smile; it was all too close to Paloma. Too close to ignore. But he had, all because his mind was completely elsewhere at the time. Now look where that got him.
It’s like a scene from a horror film, where everything snaps into place too late.
The recent victims; brunettes in their mid-twenties with similar features, similar backgrounds—they resembled her.
The staged chamber, the gore, the man who killed himself.
All of it was leading to this, tying up the gruesome mystery with a neat little bow, like a gift Javier wishes he could burn. They had been played—manipulated, distracted from seeing the bigger picture.
Whoever orchestrated this whole thing has been after his girl from the very beginning.
He fights the urge to smash his fist into the nearest wall, to tear down every shelf in the room in a fit of blind rage.
But what would that solve? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Rage won’t lead him to her. Fear won’t undo what’s already been set in motion. All he can do is cling to hope, even if it’s slipping through his fingers.
The ultimate goal of this fucked-up cult—their twisted mission—is to birth the flesh reincarnate of their so-called, bullshit deity.
His blood runs cold at the thought of Paloma being used in some horrific ritual, being touched, violated, forced into madness.
He’s shaking, on the verge of a panic attack, his heart slamming against his ribcage like it’s trying to escape. But he forces himself to breathe—slow, deep, steady breaths, locking the perturbation away. 
Javier puts out an APB, his voice tight as he details her car, her appearance. Every word feels surreal, like it’s not really him saying it, like he’s watching someone else’s nightmare play out.
Romeo’s going to hear this, and he’s going to have to explain how they missed all the signs, how Paloma has been in danger this whole time.
The weight of it presses down on him like a thousand pounds of guilt.
Gathering what he needs and delegating some of the overnight officers at the station, he frantically drives to the Leighton house.
He’s already chain-smoked half a pack. That nasty habit he’s been trying to shake is clinging to him. The file in his hands feels too light for the bomb he’s about to drop.
How the fuck is he supposed to do this? How do you tell someone their wife’s past is tangled in a nightmare, and that their daughter—a woman they both love—is at the heart of it? How do you stay composed when you’re barely holding yourself together?
“Where the fuck is my daughter?”
Javier’s barely set foot out of his truck when Romeo’s fists twist in his shirt, shoving him hard against the vehicle.
The impact rattles through him, but all he can see is the wild, desperate look in the sheriff’s eyes—a terror that matches his own but runs even deeper, cutting into every line on his face.
“Romeo, listen to me!” Javier’s voice is authoritative, that familiar guarded wall of stoicism building as his trademark defense mechanism to the absolute anxiety that’s gnawing away at his body. “This is gonna be hard to hear—I’m barely making sense of it myself—but I need you to listen if we’re going to figure this shit out.”
Romeo’s grip tightens, then slowly loosens, and Javier seizes the moment, shoving the older man back, no longer giving a fuck about keeping the peace.
He yanks the folded photo from his jacket pocket and holds it up, letting him get a clear look. “Tell me. Is this Paloma’s mother?”
Romeo’s gaze flits to the photograph, and the recognition that floods his face is immediate.
His fingers snatch the photo from Javier, and his expression cracks, aging him in just a matter of seconds. “Where did you get this?” His voice is barely a whisper, “What the fuck is going on?”
Javier’s own dread deepens. “From the old files,” he says, voice hollow. “The ones from the original group. She’s connected to all of this. They both are.”
He takes a breath, then begins to explain everything he knows. He lays it out, bit by bit—the tangled web of what Paloma had uncovered, the twisted threads that pointed to this cult, the fake leads that had kept them chasing shadows. Every word feels like glass in his throat.
Confusion, fear, anger—every emotion etched on Romeo’s face makes Javier feel like he’s the one who has failed. 
“Did you know about any of this?” he asks, though he already knows the answer from the lost look in Romeo’s eyes.
His mouth opens, then closes. He seems to gather himself, shoulders dropping under a weight he’s only just begun to grasp. “None. When I met Abby… she was just a woman startin’ over. She’d moved into a small house near the church. Said her parents had passed and she needed a fresh start. Picked a random town—that’s how she ended up here.” The sheriff’s gaze drifts to a place Javier can’t reach, caught in the bittersweet memory of his late wife. 
“Paloma said she found this out by going through her mom’s things,” he says carefully, each word a stone dropping into his gut. “But I don’t think she was telling me everything.”
Silence stretches between them, heavy and loaded as they lock eyes in an unspoken understanding.
They need answers, and every second they waste is another second Paloma could be slipping further away.
“Before we make accusations,” Javier says, forcing himself to stay grounded, “we need to dig through their belongings. There has to be something there—a lead, a hint—something that’ll tell us who’s behind this.”
“But you already know who it is, don’t you?”
Javier’s eyes darken, and his jaw locks as one name barrels into his mind, clear and hateful: August.
The red flags he had dismissed, convinced they were just a byproduct of his hate for the guy, now stand out like beacons.
He meets Romeo’s gaze, a grim certainty settling into his features. “I believe it’s Augustus Dixon and his group.”
Romeo’s face twists with anger, and he grits out, “Motherfucker—” His fists clench, his whole body radiating fury.
“Be pissed off later. We’ve got a job to do.”
They stalk up the stairs, both men moving with purpose—Romeo heads for his wife’s things while Javier makes his way into Paloma’s room.
It feels surreal, even wrong, to be rummaging through her life like this. The last time he’d been in this position, it was in Jessica’s room, and even then he could see the resemblance her space shared with Paloma’s—but he’d never thought he’d be here, seeing his girl as a victim.
His fingers skim over a leather-bound book tucked away on the top shelf in her closet, hidden behind a jewelry box. It’s as if she’d placed it there purposefully, stowed away out of reach.
When he pulls it down, he realizes it’s a scrapbook brimming with photographs and clippings.
Inside, he finds images of Calmana, surrounded by groups of men and women, all dressed in matching, traditional attire. A towering cathedral looms in the background, religious iconography scattered throughout—symbols he now recognizes from his research.
Maps, faded with time, span several pages, and in the center lies an intricate, sprawling family tree with Paloma’s name written at the bottom.
He spots envelopes tucked between the pages, each one addressed to her in cursive hand.
He calls out for Romeo, and the sheriff is by his side almost instantly, his expression a twisted mix of hope and dread.
“What’d you find?” 
Javier silently hands him the scrapbook, keeping the envelopes for himself. 
One by one, he opens them, unfolding each paper. His breaths come out ragged, and he feels his stomach drop as he reads.
They’re love poems—explicit, filthy in their adoration. Line after line, they detail all the things August wants to do to her, each word penned with obsession.
The praises he lavishes on her, how he calls her a spectacle, the power he insists she wields—it’s like poison seeping into Javier’s mind. 
His hands start trembling, and the implications tighten around him like a noose.
Romeo, sensing his agitation, reaches out, his voice rough. “What’s that—what did you find?” 
Javier jerks the papers away, swallowing hard. “Trust me. You don’t want to see these—not now.”
“Let me see them, Javier! Goddammit, my daughter is in danger!”
Before their back-and-forth can spiral any further, Javier’s walkie talkie crackles sharply, an officer’s voice coming through:
“A dark green, 1970 Buick Electra matching the APB put out an hour ago has been found in Lake Fraiser alongside an unidentified female body.”
The air thickens and shatters as Javier and Romeo lock eyes, both of them wearing the same look of wide-eyed horror. 
“Romeo—” Javier tries, reaching out, but the man is already out the door, the scrapbook falling from his hands and hitting the hardwood floor with a hollow thud that reverberates in Javier’s chest.
He mutters a quick fuck and scoops it up, rushing after him, yet the sheriff is a blur, tearing down the driveway with the kind of desperation only a father can muster when everything he loves is on the line.
Now that he’s left alone, Javier grips the railing, and the weight of it all—of losing her—comes crashing down. His heart’s splintering, his chest tight, mind skidding out of control.
This is what he’s been running from all along—failure… loss… grief. Now it is all coming back, circling like vultures, ready to take the one thing that’s ever brought him true happiness.
But he forces himself to breathe, to anchor his mind to the one cold comfort he has left. “He wouldn’t kill her. He needs her.” The words taste bitter, chilling him, but they hold him steady.
Paloma is at the center of this plan—there’d be no sense in taking her, just to end it so abruptly.
Despite everything, he finds a sliver of reassurance in that cruel logic. He clings to it with everything he has, because right now, it’s the only thing keeping him from falling apart.
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Javier pulls up to Lake Fraiser, where the scene is a flurry of first responders, flashing lights reflecting off the water’s dark surface in sharp reds and blues.
He parks haphazardly, barely cutting the engine before he’s out of the truck, heading straight toward the area cordoned off by yellow crime scene tape.
His heart slams against his ribs as he spots Romeo, kneeling by the edge of the lake beside a body draped in a white cloth, his face blank, almost empty.
Javier’s eyes dart to the surrounding officers, scanning each one, trying to get a read on the situation before he speaks.
“Is it her?” His voice breaks the stillness.
Romeo doesn’t look up, his gaze locked on the covered body. “…No.”
Relief floods through him, dizzying him for a moment before his gaze lands on a tow truck pulling Paloma’s car away from the scene. 
He clenches his jaw, forcing himself to swallow back the bitter uncertainty rising in his throat.
Romeo stands slowly, brushing the dirt off his hands, his expression hardening as he relays, “Just got a call from the hospital. Our girl from the woods finally woke up. Tonight of all nights.” He chuckles dryly. “Asked to speak with me specifically. So I’ll head that way tomorrow after she’s been stabilized properly… which means you’ll be in charge of all this.” He gestures around them vaguely.
The pulsing emergency lights cast fractured shadows over their faces.
“It’s best for you to step back momentarily. Clear your head. You’re too close to this,” Javier adds quietly, “She’s your daughter.” And while Javier is her lover and every inch of him is fraying at the edges for her, he understands that his pain won’t amount to the agony that Romeo is drowning in.
The sheriff’s silence stretches, words hesitating on his tongue, until finally, with a quiet confession, he murmurs, “I was too harsh on her. On you. I was an asshole, and if it’s any reconciliation—thank you for tryin’ to get her out of this shitty town.”
Javier’s caught off-guard but doesn’t show it, the self awareness on his behalf is appreciated. “I’d do anything for her.”
Romeo studies him for a moment, as if measuring the resolve behind his words, then he nods, his expression taut, “Gonna start combing through everythin’ back at the station. Probably call Olsen, see if he’s got any cameras ‘round the library so we can get a timeline goin’.”
These two men are similar in that regard, backing themselves into their jobs to mask the turmoil inside. They talk through some of the procedures before Romeo is pulled away by other officers, leaving Javier to handle things here.
He forces himself to switch gears, to summon every bit of authority he has left to do his job. He’s got a dead body to assess, a team to command, and then—then he’ll focus everything he’s got on finding Paloma.
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Paloma stirs awake, the pitch darkness of the early morning pressing in from all sides.
She’s disoriented—a dull ache in her head and the sting of thick, abrasive rope biting into her wrists.
Her hands are suspended and bound above her, tethered tightly to an old, rusted pipe overhead, which creaks slightly as she shifts her weight.
She can feel the grit of dried blood matting her hair against her temple, the aftershock of Sloane’s vicious hit with the bat ringing sharp behind her eyes. Her boots are missing, leaving her barefoot against the cool concrete ground.
As reality sharpens around her, she realizes this isn’t a dream and it nauseates her, instilling panic in her heart.
She barely remembers the car ride or the way they dragged her down here, everything muddled from the hit she’d taken until she’d finally succumbed to unconsciousness.
Now, the throbbing intensifies as she tugs instinctively at the ropes, her wrists burning, but no amount of pulling loosens her bonds.
Frustration and terror mix, unwieldy coiling in her chest and tears sting at her eyes despite her attempts to fight them back. She doesn’t want to imagine what they plan to do to her.
She knows Javier and her father have to be looking for her. They must be tearing themselves apart with worry. She can almost hear her father’s harsh reprimands and Javier’s quiet, determined rage—they’re relentless when it comes to protecting her. 
They’ll find her. They have to.
The cellar door creaks open and she freezes, her pulse skittering as August, Sloane, and Gabriel descend the stairs.
The dim light barely touches their faces, but she doesn’t need to see them clearly to know what they’re capable of.
She tries to hold her head high, pushing back the tears, refusing to let them see the fear that’s boiling inside. She won’t give them that satisfaction, not if she can help it.
Their footsteps echo against the walls of the basement. August stops just close enough that she can feel his presence invading her senses, suffocating, his familiar smirk tugging at his lips.
“Good morning, P,” he drawls, voice dripping with the charm that managed to slither its way into her heart.
What she once found magnetic in him is now hollow, a mask that hides something so unfathomable. 
“Pretty nasty cut ya got there.” Sloane’s voice drips with fake sympathy. Her eyes glint with that special brand of cruelty she’d always kept hidden behind a guise of friendship.
The satisfaction in her tone is unmistakable, like she’s savoring every moment of seeing Paloma in such a vulnerable state.
The urge to spit in their faces, to lash out, is almost unbearable, but she remembers her daddy’s lessons, advising her to stay calm, to never let them know how afraid she really is.
Every word of advice he’d ever given her about self-preservation hangs heavy in her mind. 
She keeps her face blank, her mouth a hard line.
“Silent treatment, huh?” August steps closer, his hand reaching out to brush a stray lock of hair from her face. His fingers are inches from her forehead when she sees the sick satisfaction in his eyes, and she can’t suppress the involuntary grimace as his fingers hover over the gash near her forehead.
The moment of weakness feels like a win for him, his smile widening as he grazes her wound, pressing just enough to send a wave of pain radiating through her skull and a fresh stream of blood to trickle out.
Sloane watches her reaction, faux innocence weaving through her sneer. “You make for a pretty damn good damsel in distress. Thought you’d put up more of a fight, if I’m bein’ honest. You really disappointed me, doll face.”
Paloma’s grip tightens around the rope until her knuckles ache. She wants to tell her off, to fight and scream—but instead she just turns away, refusing to even look at them.
August’s hand cups her chin as he forces her to meet his eyes, eyes that once held promises of affection and loyalty now filled with something so dark and consuming.
His fingers dig into her soft skin. “I need you to look perfect, little dove. All stitched up and pretty.” His thumb trails along her chapped bottom lip. “Gabriel,” he calls, not even glancing back at the other man, “Tend to that. Tonight’s a big night, after all. Lots to prepare for.”
There goes that trepidation again. Her mouth twitches, half-ready to break her silence and demand to know just what the hell he’s talking about. But she’s already committed to keeping quiet.
Gabriel lingers behind them, shifting uncomfortably, the first aid kit clutched tight in his hand.
He doesn’t say anything, just stands there as usual, eyes flicking from Paloma to his partners, some part of him clearly unsettled yet too cowardly to intervene.
He’s her best shot of getting out of here, she just knows it.
“‘S’okay, you ain’t gotta talk,” August’s coos. “I actually prefer you like this—makes things a hell of a lot easier. The others…” He snorts, shaking his head.
How many other unfortunate women had been dragged down here, suffering at his hands?
“Too squirmy, too squeamish—like fuckin’ pigs.” His laughter is mirthless and Sloane joins in with loud, exaggerated snorts that mimic a pig’s squeal. The sound claws at Paloma’s ears.
There’s this twisted admiration in his stare as he studies her. “That’s why I knew I needed to have you. No one else on this planet holds a candle to the magic you have, Paloma. You should stop bein’ so scared and embrace it.” He murmurs, dropping his voice to a whisper.
His hand snakes down from her jaw, tracing her neck, lingering in an unsettling crawl between her breasts before settling at her hip.
His fingers dig in, and she flinches, her body stiffening in revulsion. He smirks at her reaction, savoring her discomfort like a fine wine.
“I’ll be back to check on you later, alright?” His tone is falsely tender. "Gotta make sure everythin’ is perfect. Can’t afford any fuck ups now—I’ve been way too patient for this."
He steps back at last, allowing Gabriel to shuffle forward with the kit in hand.
With a jerk of his chin, August motions for Sloane to follow him. She blows Paloma a mocking kiss and winks with a saccharine sweetness that really piles on the hatred that burns a little hotter for her specifically.
The heavy cellar door slams shut, casting them back into dim silence as the first pale light of dawn begins to creep through the basement windows.
Paloma’s heart pounds as their shadows disappear, leaving her helpless in the creeping morning light.
“What are you goin’ to do to me?” Her voice is hoarse, each word scraping her dry throat like sandpaper, but she can’t keep quiet now that they’re alone.
Gabriel wordlessly drags over a stool, placing the first-aid kit on top. He opens it, sorting through supplies as though she isn’t even there.
Paloma yanks at her restraints, the old pipe groaning in protest. “Fuckin’ say somethin’,” she snaps, anger edging her desperation. “It’s the least you could do—just… tell me.” She hates the pleading tone that slips through, the last thread of her control unraveling as she imagines what fate awaits her.
His gloved hands move to clean her wound, and she clenches her jaw against the sting, glaring at him as if she could force him to talk through sheer will. He’s careful and practiced, clearly having done this before.
“The Crimson Rite,” he mutters, brows furrowing as he concentrates, his voice a barely audible murmur. “It’s where the conception will happen… on the altar of incarnation.”
Paloma’s heart stumbles, her mind racing to piece together the fragments. “What the fuck are you even sayin’?” Her voice wavers, but there’s no denying the chill in her spine.
She knows what those words mean on their own, but together, they paint a picture she’d rather not face—the harrowing reality of how August truly plans on using her.
“August’ll explain,” he replies, brushing her off with the indifference of a man following orders. “He’s better at that shit than I am. I just do what he asks and stay outta the way.”
“Like a fuckin’ coward,” she spits.
The needle pauses, its sharp tip hovering an inch from her skin, and he raises his eyes. “You get all lippy with me, but keep your mouth shut around them? What, I ain’t intimidatin’ enough for you?” 
She holds his gaze, defiance simmering behind the exhaustion in her stare. “Nothing about you’s intimidatin’ enough to keep me from tellin’ you exactly what I think.”
His lips twist downward, a muscle in his jaw ticking as he resumes stitching, each tug at her skin rougher than the last. 
“At church that day, you were warnin’ me, weren’t you?” Her voice is barely a whisper, the memory of that awkward conversation rattling in her mind. “S’not too late, Gabe. You can still help me outta this… We both can be outta here ‘fore the sun comes up.”
There’s a lapse, just for a second, in his eyes—something she wants to believe is regret, a part of him she hopes she can reach.
The sliver of optimism she’s mustered might awaken that dormant part of him buried under layers of August’s bullshit and the bitterness life has forced him to swallow.
But he shakes his head slowly, avoiding her gaze as he finishes stitching her wound, his hands deft. “You don’t get it. Don’t matter if I do the right thing. He’d find us—he always does.” He sprays her wound with a numbing mist then covers it with a small gauze.
“He wouldn’t find us,” she insists, her voice fraying. “Daddy would protect us. He’d make sure we’re safe.”
He lets out a low, humorless chuckle. “Yeah? He promise you that or somethin’? ‘Cause from where I’m standin’, you don’t look all that safe.”
A bitter, frustrated cry escapes her as he begins to pack up his kit, her pleas bouncing off him like stones against steel.
“Please, Gabe, don’t leave me down here alone,” she chokes out, and the words twist something deep inside her, pulling her further into a desperation she’s been trying to keep at bay.
“Breakfast’ll be down in a few hours,” he mutters, almost as if talking to himself, keeping his voice low and detached. “Probably get you a shower at sundown so you ain’t all sweaty and grimy. Needs you all fuckin’ pristine.” The last words slip out like a hiss, a disgusted edge in his tone. “S’gonna be a long day for you down here. Scream all you want; ain’t nobody around worth a damn to hear it. You got a better shot at rubbin’ the skin off your wrists than gettin’ out of that rope.”
Paloma snaps, her control breaking in a flood of panic and fury as she yanks at her restraint, her wrists burning as she curses him, calling him every name her mind can summon.
The words pour out in a desperate torrent, trying to cut him, to provoke something human out of him, anything.
But he stays silent, barely flinching, his face a mask as he gathers his things, turning his back on her without a word. 
When the cellar door finally slams shut, it echoes through the basement, and her last shreds of resolve crumble as she sinks into sobs.
The thoughts come in fragments, jagged and bitter, cutting her deeper than any wound.
The way things were left with her father—how they’d argued and he looked at her with that final, dismissive silence, like she’d become a stranger for daring to chase her own life beyond their town.
The love that took root so unexpectedly, so completely with Javier. He came into her life at the perfect time, pouring a rare, tender kind of intimacy into her soul; the kind that made her feel seen for the first time in her life.
He was a good man who’d endured his own share of hardships —and she let their last conversation end in anger and frustration. She’s just like her father.
Perhaps if she had told him the full truth about how she came across her mother’s past, she wouldn’t be in this mess at all.
This mess—it’s her inheritance. Not a blessing like August wants her to believe, but a curse Calmana left behind, the forced sins of her mother she didn’t choose but can’t escape.
Her suicide is starting to make more sense.
It all makes her feel like a lamb at slaughter, her life never really hers, and now her blood and body are an offering to feed whatever he believes she’s meant to bring to life. 
The promise of an explanation later on hangs over her like a guillotine. Does she even want to know? Will it make a difference?
She got herself kidnapped by trusting them all, falling for August’s romantic words and impressive knowledge. All of his lies. She’d thought she was smart enough to see through him, to keep a grip on her own heart, and instead, she’d unknowingly let him manipulate her.
Sloane was right—she is the helpless damsel she always denied being, someone who hadn’t fought hard enough to save herself. 
Paloma has to believe she’s got people searching for her, that they’re smart enough, relentless enough to find her before night falls. She has to cling to that hope, however fragile, because right now it’s all she has.
Her cries fill the empty space around her until exhaustion claims her in silence.
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The basement is her prison as the sun traces its lazy arc above.
The day drags on in a haze of stale air and the natural sounds of bugs chittering about. On occasion, she’ll hear people walk by or see their shadows through the small windows.
She's trapped here, the only visits marking the hours coming when Gabriel brings a bucket for her to relieve herself—like she’s some kind of animal—or sets down a tray of food she refuses to touch.
“You need to eat,” he says, setting the tray with her dinner on the floor. His hands working on cutting the thick rope binding her wrists, each tug and scrape freeing her a fraction at a time.
“What’s the point? M’gonna die anyway,” she mutters, exhausted but still pissed. “Won’t matter if I’ve got a full stomach or not.”
He shakes his head. “You’re not goin’ to die, Paloma. You’re too important to all this. How haven’t you realized that yet?”
“Oh, forgive me if I haven’t picked up on all your twisted bullshit,” she snaps. “You all speak in fuckin’ tongues and riddles. No one’s told me a damn thing that makes any sense.”
At last, the final fiber of rope snaps, and the weight drops from her wrists. She lets out a low, relieved sigh as her arms fall to her sides, stiff from the hours of suspension.
The ache in her shoulders is intense, and her wrists are lined with red from the coarse bondage.
“Don’t try anythin’ stupid,” he warns, his voice low. “They might not kill ya but they’ll hurt you in ways that’ll make you wish you were dead.”
She doesn’t doubt it, so she reins in her impulses and instead glances at the food, the bitterness slowly giving way to resignation.
If the chance to escape comes, she’ll need her strength. She takes the cup, drinking greedily, barely noticing the water spilling down her chin—it’s just a relief to feel the dryness ease, something grounding in a nightmare that feels endless.
The meal tastes dull, but she swallows it down anyway, each bite a fight to hold onto her sense of self, to stay sharp.
Gabriel watches her with that quiet, unreadable expression.
“I tried leavin’ years ago, when August first started buildin’ the group.” He looks down, his mouth pressing into a grim line. “But he caught me at the train station. Gave me the ass-beatin’ of my life. Locked me up in a shed in the middle of the woods for days, left me there until I learned my lesson. I swear, I lost every bit of myself in that dark place.” His voice lowers to a whisper. “After that, I never thought ‘bout leavin’ again... not until he got his sights set on you.”
Paloma’s chewing slows, her eyes flitting over to him, reading the conflict etched in his expression.
For August to treat Gabriel, his so-called “brother,” with such brutality to keep him in line... it makes all too much sense now, why he is August’s silent shadow, obeying every command.
“His obsession with you is different. Everythin’ suddenly became different. He has this way of makin’ you submit to him that gets me wonderin’ if all this Eurynomos shit is actually real.”
The twisted loyalty, the deep-seated fear that’s tangled around them like shackles, intertwined with stories of divinity.
She’s barely scratched the surface of what August is capable of.
“That’s terrible,” she whispers, sympathetic to what he’s been through. “I’m sorry... ‘n I get why you’re scared, but there’s two of us now. We could make a run for it, slip away while we have the chance.”
Her food is forgotten as Paloma edges closer, her gaze steady and imploring. For a moment, he genuinely considers their escape.
But the heavy, thunderous creak of the cellar doors breaks through the moment, both of them jerking apart.
She scrambles backward until her back presses against the cold, damp wall, her heartbeat racing as Gabriel stands abruptly from his stool, his face hardening again. 
It’s only August this time, his usual shadow—Sloane with her biting sneers—thankfully absent.
He strides down with a bag in one hand and shower supplies in the other, eyeing her like she’s some prized possession he’s been itching to inspect. 
“Unrestrained, ate her dinner, and didn’t even try to run? My, my. Little dove, you’re such a good girl.” He passes the items to Gabriel as he steps closer, and she hates the way she’s wedged in a corner, wishing she could melt into the wall or skitter away like a mouse.
He crouches, gently moving the gauze out of the way, his sharp gaze examining the stitches worked into her head wound. “S’lookin’ better already. Now, let’s get you a shower. I can smell you from here, and, sweetheart, it’s not exactly appealin’.”
“Fuck you.”
He smirks, the cruel curve of his lips almost congratulatory. “There she is. Glad to see that fire hasn’t died just yet, my love.”
With a vice-like grip, his hand latches onto her arm, dragging her up to her feet and across the basement to a sad excuse for a shower—no curtain, nothing remotely resembling privacy, just exposed plumbing and mildewed tile. He shoves her into the cramped space, gesturing at her with a command that chills her: “Strip.”
Her stomach tightens, and she squares her jaw. “Turn around.”
A laugh bursts from him, sharp and mocking. “You think you’re in any position to make demands? You may be special, darlin’, but that don’t mean you’re runnin’ shit. Now strip, or I’ll tie you up and rip that little outfit off myself.”
She grits her teeth, fists clenched. “No.”
His smile vanishes, replaced by a darker, crueler expression.
In a flash, his hand is around her throat, shoving her harshly against the slimy tile, the back of her head meeting the hard surface making her cry out in pain.
Her breath snags as his grip tightens around her neck, the cool press of a switchblade grazing the scar on her hip, making her pulse hammer in her ears. “Don’t push me,” he growls, the blade’s edge nicking her skin just enough to sting. He knows exactly where she’s sensitive, and he revels in her flinch. “I’ve told you—I don’t like hurtin’ you, but I will if I have to. Strip. Now.”
He releases her, the air rushing back into her lungs, making her cough.
Her hands tremble as she peels away her clothes, starting with the long, flowing skirt that puddles around her ankles, leaving her in just her underwear and camisole.
August’s eyes rake over her, and his silent demand pulls at her last nerve.
She swallows back her tears, fingers shaking as she slides the straps off her shoulders, letting the fabric fall to the floor and then stepping out of her underwear, kicking the pile aside.
Now entirely naked, her arms wrap protectively around herself to shield what she can. She looks away, the sting of indignity making her skin crawl, willing herself not to cry.
August steps forward, adjusting the shower’s dial, and the pipes clank and groan as water finally bursts out of the rusted shower head, icy at first. She shivers, her teeth clattering, and only once the water turns warm does the chill ease up.
A snap of his fingers brings Gabriel closer, setting the shower supplies within reach. August then places them at her feet, his mocking gaze never leaving her as he drags a worn wooden chair up, seating himself like a perverse audience settling in for a show. 
Paloma doesn’t move, clinging harder to her body, her nails digging into her own skin, praying he’ll lose interest and turn away. But he just smirks. “Don’t be shy, P. Not like I haven’t seen you naked before.” His tongue drags over his lips, blue eyes glittering darkly, drinking in her discomfort.
She would rather die where she stands than have him touch her, lingering his hands over her body like a wolf savoring his meal. Slowly, reluctantly, her arms fall to her sides, shoulders curling inward, as she begins to wash herself.
The hot tears mix with the water streaming down her cheeks, each drop hiding the sobs she’s swallowing.
August’s stare trails over her figure, his smirk deepening every time she flinches under the weight of it.
He doesn’t hide his hunger, watching her every movement—the rise and fall of her breasts, the curve of her hips, the sway of her shoulders as she soaps herself in silence.
Gabriel’s eyes stay firmly on his boots, shame evident in his posture. 
Finally, she shuts off the water, chest heaving as she swallows down the humiliation, covering herself again and feeling his satisfaction lingering in the room like a toxic cloud.
A towel lands at her feet, and she grabs it, pulling it around her trembling frame, feeling like her skin might crawl right off her bones. 
“Got this dress made just for you,” August says casually, standing then pulling out a white dress and red flats from a worn bag. He tosses them onto the chair he’d just been sitting in, not making any effort to move or look away, and she swallows back the lump in her throat.
She’s barely holding herself together, her fingers fumbling with the towel as she dries off, eyes darting between the two men.
One won’t meet her gaze, too timorous, and the other stares at her with lecherous eyes.
She slips on the dress, it’s something she would’ve picked for herself under different circumstances; calf-length, delicate ladder lace along the trim, cap sleeves, and three charmeuse red ribbons that match the shoes.
But the beauty of it feels like a cruel mockery against the ugliness of this moment. 
“You look so beautiful,” August purrs, “Get a good look at yourself.” 
She’s forced in front of an antique mirror, the glass warped and cracked, but she can still make out her reflection. 
The dark circles beneath her eyes, bruised skin, the way her hair clings to her damp skin, the faded pallor of her face against her outfit—she looks like a ghost.
His hand slides to her shoulder, pushing her hair aside as he leans in, trailing his nose against her skin and inhaling deeply. “You smell like summertime.” He presses his lips to her neck, and bile rises in her throat.
Then, he pulls back, her mother’s cross pendant in hand, fastening it around her neck with a satisfied smile.
Her heart clenches once she sees it. She’d left that at Javier’s, tucked away safely with all the other things she moved out of her childhood home in preparation for their big trip.
The thought of August being in his space, doing God knows what, gets her alarmed. “What did you do to him?”
August looks momentarily confused by her query, but then his smirk grows as he eyes the pendent and sees that look in her eyes. “Don’t worry, I didn’t touch your precious narc. He ain’t been home all day. He’s out there, sniffin’ around for you like a lost dog. Thought about killin’ him, but… I think he’d suffer more thinkin’ he failed you. Just another life he couldn’t save, huh?”
The words press against those bruising, sore spots on her heart. She scowls, throwing back as much defiance as she can muster. “You wouldn’t get close enough to try.” Her voice trembles, but she knows Javier and what he’s capable of. 
He just shrugs, the malicious glint in his eyes unwavering. “Maybe not. But Sloane?” He grins, knowing how even mentioning her gets under Paloma’s skin. “Now, I think she could.”
He doesn’t give her time to respond, moving to bind her hands again, this time in smooth silk restraints that feel uncharacteristically gentle against her wrists.
Time moves in slow motion, she becomes unresponsive, like a melancholic statue, as he brushes her hair, fussing over her appearance as if she were some doll, changing the gauze over her stitches.
Her hope of getting out of this has diminished. Gabriel won’t help her and August has run the two men competent enough to figure this out in circles, so tangled up in deceit to find her.
The evening melts into night, shadows deepening when he finally leaves, just to return moments later with a steaming cup of tea that smells rancid and earthy, like decay.
“Drink up.”
She shakes her head, refusing it, but he pries her mouth open, forcing her to swallow the scalding liquid. It’s bitter and burns her throat, her tongue singed as she swallows unwillingly. 
“See? Wasn’t so bad,” he taunts her, wiping away some of the remnants that spilled from the corner of her mouth.
The effect is immediate; her mind hazes, thoughts swirling, until her body feels sluggish, as if it is no longer tethered to her.
Just as her vision starts to fade, a red, body-length veil is draped over her, the fabric casting her world into blood-hued darkness.
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“I need to see it again.” 
Javier pinches the bridge of his nose at Romeo’s request, fingers then pressing hard against his closed eyes as the footage gets rewound. 
It’s the only evidence they have—a single security camera capturing what transpired. The grainy video shows her crossing the street, pausing, and then August and his accomplices stepping into view. She runs, disappearing off-camera for what feels like a lifetime, before being dragged back and shoved into the bed of the truck.
Each time Javier watches, another shard of him breaks away.
Romeo shifts beside him, watching the screen with unrelenting focus. He’s insistent, searching for anything, some small clue to pinpoint where they went.
Javier, though, is at his limit, fighting the urge to hurl the screen across the room.
“Romeo,” he begins, a little strained, “we’re not going to find anything new here.”
“We missed shit before. Can’t afford to miss anythin’ now.”
They’d spent the whole damn day combing through the trio’s hometown, hoping for any piece of intel, some breadcrumb that would lead them to the group’s hideout.
The search had been maddeningly fruitless. Fayette’s local authorities helped spread the word, but there was nothing, no tracks, no whispers, no real leads to follow.
Every registered address tied to the three was a dead end. Their only childhood homes, a trailer park, had burned down over a decade ago, leaving no trace, no history to sift through.
Everyone close to them—parents, guardians—were either dead, in prison, or admitted. The few family members with any sense had cut ties long ago.
“They were hellraisers,” the retired sheriff had muttered. That’s all the town could say, the simple acknowledgment that the trio had always left destruction in their wake.
The only useful piece of information they dug up was that August had left his job at a local grocery store to work for some woman, an outsider no one really knew.
She’d shown up, taken August with her, and he’d returned a few years later with a more hardened resolve, recruiting Sloane and Gabriel.
After torching some local acreage and serving time for arson, they’d vanished from Fayette until the recent spree of murders started.
“He’s been planning this for a long time, Romeo. They knew how to hide; they’ve done this before.” Javier mutters, frustration simmering in his tone.
They’d tried running a partial plate of the truck, only to come up short once again.
Javier moves near the blinds, unable to keep watching her kidnapping, glimpsing the sea of people that make up their search parties gathered in their too small department.
The faces blur together, civilians and first responders alike, all waiting for direction.
“It’s probably best if you go to the hospital and get Harper’s statement. She’s cleared to talk, right?” 
Romeo takes a beat longer to respond, clearly grappling with his own anguish. “Yeah. Got the official call ‘bout ten minutes ago.” 
“If anyone’s got something to give us that can break this open, it’s her.”
The room is quiet except for the low murmur of voices spilling in. The tape finally ends and Romeo’s gaze falls to the corner of his desk, where a lone photo of Paloma sits; she’s grinning with his cowboy hat perched high on her head, radiating joy.
He stares at it like he’s trying to draw strength from that moment, then he slowly picks it up, pressing his lips together in thought, handing it over to Javier.
“Here. This is the one I used for the flyers.”
Javier swallows hard, taking it, his thumb grazing over the image, his own heart sinking. This is the Paloma he can’t let slip through his fingers, the one who belongs right here, laughing and safe. Not wherever she was now. 
Romeo’s tone holds firm determination. “Do what you gotta do. For her. You understand me?”
Javier just nods, no words left to offer in the face of everything unsaid.
The sheriff lets out a long, heavy sigh, the kind that speaks of too many hours awake, too many close calls, too many second chances lost to bad luck or timing or whatever fate is left to them.
He grabs his jacket, slinging it over his shoulders, steeling his expression as he leaves the office, moving through the throng that instantly swells around him.
They close in with questions, worry, and hope—all of it colliding in one tense space.
Seeing them converge on Romeo, Javier takes a steadying breath and steps out right behind him, his presence commanding even in his silence.
He straightens, letting the authority in his stance speak for him, his gaze hard as he begins relaying their plan with swift, unyielding precision.
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The world tilts and sways as Paloma returns to half-consciousness, vision still muddled from the drugged tea that has her head feeling like it’s filled with lead and limbs sluggish.
She’s seated upright in an ornate, over-decorated chair with her hands still bound in front of her. She tries to blink away the fog clouding her mind, but the red veil over her face continues to shroud her vision.
Her stitched wound throbs faintly, then suddenly, she’s being lifted and carried by four indistinct figures.
The swaying motion makes her sick, but she’s too weak to cry out, her voice nothing more than a ghost lodged in her throat.
She starts to feel the dampness of the humid Texas night pressing into her skin, the scent of flowers floating in the air, sickly sweet as it mixes with the distant smell of incense.
She’s paraded down a candlelit path where kneeling figures line the walkway, bowing in silent reverence. The sound of murmuring voices hums around her like a distant, dreadful lullaby. 
Finally, the procession stops, and her chair is lowered to the ground.
Her surroundings feel unreal, like a fever dream she’s trapped inside. A dark shadow moves in front of her, reaching to pull her to her feet. She tries to make out their face, but it’s just a dark, hollow blur.
Her legs tremble as she takes a few shaky steps, guided by an iron grip that steers her from the soft earth to a hard surface. Somewhere to her right, she hears a voice—August's—so sharp that it almost makes her ears bleed.
“We have to capture this moment.”
Paloma’s body is positioned, hands adjusting her like she’s an ornament rather than a person. She can barely keep her knees from buckling, her body swaying as they try to hold her up.
Her mind is a mess, every thought tangled, every movement slow, as if she’s moving underwater.
She falls, just as she hears the flash of a camera, her legs finally giving way, but hands grip her before she hits the ground, lifting her, steadying her as her head lolls to the side.
Then, in one swift motion, the veil lifted from her face.
August stands there, close enough that she can see every cold line in his face, conforming into possessive delight. 
He’s dressed to match her, red bows on his collared shirt, the same lace design on his pants.
Her skin crawls as his fingers trace the side of her face, his voice a leering purr. “My special little dove.”
He pulls her close, spinning her so that she faces their creation in her honor. The white marble gleams in the halo of the candlelight, surrounded by a sea of blood-red spider lilies, their spindly petals stretching out like claws.
Candles of every size and shape cast their shadows over the altar, illuminating the intricate carving of their emblem, miniatures and other offerings strewn about.
“All for you,” his lips brush against her ear.
The hands surrounding her are unyielding as she’s lifted and maneuvered onto the cold slab, the hard surface unforgiving beneath her back.
Her wrists are freed only to be tied again, the silk binding each one to a small stone pillar at each side.
Her ankles follow, strapped to the pillars near the end of the altar, legs bent slightly and spread, leaving her trapped and exposed.
Her breath quickens, each ragged inhale catching in her throat as the reality of her fate crashes down with brutal clarity. The red veil is drawn back over her face.
Tears blur her sight, mixing with the snot and sweat as she starts to sob, desperate cries spilling from her lips, pleas tumbling out in a desperate stream that echo out into the vastness of the field.
“Please… please, let me go. You don’t have to do this, please.” Her words come out strangled and slurred but she’s ignored. She jerks against her restraints, each movement growing weaker as the drug saps her strength.
August stands before his followers, his voice low yet electrifying, every declaration steeped in reverence and simmering triumph. 
“For centuries, we have waited in the shadows, prayed in whispers, bound by oaths that our forebears swore. Those before us dreamed of this moment, yet they were weak, too fearful to claim what was rightfully theirs. We will not repeat their mistakes. The bloodline of the first, the birthing bloodline, flows through her veins, and she is ours. Eurynomos will have a body made of flesh and bone, a place in this realm, because of us.”
Paloma shakes her head side to side, desperate to block out August’s devious words. Just as a surge of strength flares within her, sharp fingers dig into her shoulders from behind, pressing her back down, anchoring her in place.
Through the haze of drowsiness, her blurred vision lands on Sloane, looming over her with a short, black veil shrouding her face. Beneath it, Paloma can make out an expression as evil as it is watchful.
“No more dreams. No more consuming or offering flesh that rots before dawn. Our devotion, our patience, has led us here. We are the last of our kind—the ones who bring forth the new age. Now is the time for fulfillment. Now is the time to step into the eternal night and bring our deity home.” 
His gaze sweeps over the bowed heads, the flicker of candlelight dancing in his eyes as his words coil around them like a vow.
Sloane relinquishes her hold, seemingly fading away.
He approaches her slowly, each step deliberate, his hand drifting up the length of her body. His fingers come to rest on her cheek, stroking gently, almost reverently.
August leans in, his nose brushing against hers, and without a word, he presses his lips to hers, a slow, possessive kiss over the sheer material of the veil.
She wants to pull away, to resist, but she’s trapped within herself, her will slipping as though he’s holding the reins to her very soul.
When he pulls away, his voice lowers to a rhythmic timbre, the words twisting together in an incantation she can’t understand.
Each syllable makes her sink further into delusion, the compromising position heightening her vulnerability. 
The weight of her own helplessness crushes her as she lies there.
Suddenly, the speaking stops. An unnatural silence blankets the moment, thieving sound until it’s just her shaky, pitiful cries. Even the cicadas quit their insistent chirping.
Paloma blinks, barely able to see through the veil, but she watches August step back until his figure is swallowed by the darkness beyond the altar. 
She shivers as a chill wind flows over her body, extinguishing the flames around her and plunging her into the night, save for the heavy, luminous moon hanging full and merciless above.
Two glowing eyes flicker into view at the far end of the clearing. They hover, eerie and inhuman, watching her with a predatory patience.
A twig snaps in the shadows. Her breath catches. Another snap, closer this time.
Blood rushes in her ears, but above the pounding, she hears something else—labored breaths, thick and wet, the sound too guttural to be human. 
Her body locks up and quivers as a shadow casts up to the very heavens, emerging from the backdrop of trees, its form towering and monstrous. It seems to stretch endlessly, merging with the dark sky above, as if it could reach out and seize the lunar sphere.
Paloma tries to scream, but her body is frozen, paralyzed in a state of unholy dread.
Her eyes widen, tears leaking silently, her throat closing tight as the figure moves forward.
The dark, hulking mass leans over her, and she feels something press down on her belly, then sharp claws caress her bare legs, creeping upwards, scratching at the sensitive skin of her inner thighs. 
Her chest tightens as if she’s having a heart attack, fright coursing through her like poison. She can’t breathe, feeling herself teeter on the edge of consciousness.
Black spots swallow her field of view as her eyes roll to the back of her head, and in that instant, she’s slipping away, her mind yanking her away from this horror, casting her into the darkness of her own making as she loses herself, the terror too great to bear.
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autumnal-sapphic · 1 year ago
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(to the no one who is reading this, when I say "love" i mean the weird mishmash of platonic qpr type feeling. not romantic.)
why do i have to have a fucking existential crisis every time she does something nice for someone else istg
my best friend says i'm her favorite person in the world. this is a poem about one of our other friends (it wasn't private they sent this to our friend group's discord server)
"The sweetest person I know
The one who always can make someone laugh.
And the one that puts other’s needs before their own, even when it hurts them.
The one who would do anything for the people they care about.
The one that’s absurdly talented and smart.
And most importantly, one of my favorite people in the entire world"
and i just. AGH.
they have never done anything like this for me. I hate the fact that it's so likely they're lying to me
and I also hate the fact that when they say these things to other people they say "one of my favorite people in the entire world". It's the allowance. It's like a vocabulary trick. a secret. It's only there because I have access to this. it makes everything feel less important. Its as though they're deceiving everyone, 'oh hehe you're one of but someone else is the' and it just makes the idea that i'm theoretically their favorite person seem stupid and fake
They're so so so important to me and I just feel like they don't feel the same way about me
they express the same feelings to other people but with small allowances that mean technically, in the meaning of the words, it's true, i might be "better". But the emotion it conveys is exactly the same even though the love I feel for her is so different than what I feel for my other friends.
and also just bluntly "the sweetest person I know" like okay. you know i'm here. you know i have self esteem issues yet despite the fact you treat me, honestly, worse than the other people in our friend group you expect me to honestly believe you when you say "you're my favorite person" and then go off and write fucking poems about how amazing our other friends are and do nothing of the sort for me
i just don't get it. fucking stop. please.
i don't want them to stop expressing love to other people. it just feels like i've been blatantly lied to when they do something like this. They only ever express their love for me every so often when they say bluntly "you are my favorite person" but when it comes to other people and this person specifically it's constant. it's so painfully clear that this person is "her favorite". and she's either lying to herself, or me, or both, and i can't decide which one hurts more
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electric-plants · 5 months ago
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cyno: delivery for you.
alhaitham: …this letter is from you
cyno: yes. i’d already written it by the time i realized i didn’t trust anyone else to bring it to you
alhaitham: you could just tell me what it says then since you’re already here
cyno: i can’t say it out loud in your office
alhaitham: ah. so it must be a fairly sensitive case—
alhaitham: cyno.
cyno: what?
alhaitham: this just says that you think i’m pretty
cyno: yes, because i do and - considering the nature of our current relationship - i thought i should let you know.
alhaitham: again— you could just tell me?
cyno, frowning: we’re at work, that would be unprofessional. though i suppose you’ve already breached the line by reading it out loud so please be more considerate next time :/
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tackyink · 5 months ago
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Hearing constantly this last month "you're very kind, thank you," "you're so sweet," "you're the best" after decades of being told "you're too serious," "why can't you be more personable," "why are you so pessimistic," "why do you have to be like that" and "smile!" is creating some sort of cognitive dissonance between my current experiences and my deeply ingrained self image that I don't have the money or time to unpack.
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iwritenarrativesandstuff · 7 months ago
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someone I just met told me I was cool today and I swear I wandered around shaking with my eyes huge for almost an hour afterwards
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saeshiraw · 1 year ago
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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry
#tw rant#studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not#its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels#so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday#i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me#n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone#yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my#friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep#of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle#but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today#i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts#and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics#just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people#im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier#im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk#and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know#but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac#h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe#ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch#people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and#seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want#are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to#spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was#i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next#“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes#me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good#but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im#intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout#but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone
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caffeiiine · 5 months ago
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take my kiyo redesign before my phone dies
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six-of-ravens · 3 months ago
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have come to the belated realization that when I talk to people about MCOA joining the army (the latest hot goss in the office) and they all say with forced cheer "well, he will thrive with that kind of structure!" they are not saying, as previously thought, that he's going to be happy there, they are saying in a much politer way than I have been that he's gonna absolutely fuckin hate it but it might be the one thing that finally makes him grow up and develop interpersonal skills and some sense of professionalism.
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