oh yeah btw my ethical crisis II hasn't gone away, and in fact has gotten worse- it's reached my opinions on shipping and censoring fiction ;w;
like what if i AM wrong? and it's not normal questioning ethics either which is generally a good thing, it's my brain going "AAAAAA I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S RIGHT OR WRONG ANYMORE" *cries*
so uhh ima become the first radqueer pro para antishipper i guess /j
combined with that my desensitization to certain topics doesn't help. and more ethical apathy lately. :3
oh yeah this happened bc i saw a youtube video thumbnail that mentioned being "a victim of proshipping" and what started as me thinking that that's absurd ended up spiralling down to here "X3
UHHH DON'T OVERTHINK ETHICS GUYS IT'S A BAD IDEA-
actually it didn't get too bad, apparently *gasp* talking about my feelings here helps :0
also I'm half convinced this is just my brain trying to figure out a way to procrastinate on school work- (it's nearly 3 am, I'm in THAT sort of mood)
(btw not saying that being antiship is bad or pathologizing it or whatever, just saying that losing my conviction of what's right or wrong and generally feeling shit about it sucks)
I think I need a “Kid Tim Drake gets kidnapped and held for ransom but his parents don’t even pick up the phone so now these criminals are like whelp, this kid is ours now. Sucks to suck.” Fic.
[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]
Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?
[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*
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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.
Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!
Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.
* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.
Gosh I love small fandoms where everyone is equally insane and everyone's just making references to the source material.
Like, I can go "y'all I just saw a badger, I sure hope he doesn't become King of England" and everyone will get what I'm talking about while people who aren't in the fandom are confused as shit.